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scarletwinterxx · 5 months ago

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this is how you fall in love - jeon wonwoo imagine

idk what to say except wonwoo is such a precious precious precious human🥺 i hope you're happy everyday, wonu🤍

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When you say your life turned technicolor when you started dating Wonwoo, you meant it both literally and metaphorically. Before him, life for you was black and white. A 24 hour rotation of the clock.

To put it simply, you just lived life as it is.

It's still a mystery to you how you manage to land yourself a wonderful boyfriend like him, there are moments it doesn't feel real. How could it be when your man looks and acts like he stepped right out of a fairytale book specially written for you.

"Hey pretty, I got something for you"

He swears gift giving isn't his love language and he knows you don't like getting such grand gifts, but time to time he brings home little trinkets that reminds him of you or something cute that he thinks you'll like.

Just the other week he got you shoes that matches the one he has, but yours was in pink. Very cute, you told him. He remembered you telling him you needed new shoes but couldn't decide what to get, you saw the pink version of his' and thought about getting those but you never got to doing so.

So a few days after that, he surprised you. The smile you had on was worth every dollar he spent. You even went on a walk with your matching shoes on.

Today it's something else. This time it's a cute yellow hair pin, perfect match to the scrunchie he got you before.

"You know my favorite color is purple, right?"

He chuckles at your question. Of course he knows. At this point there's little he doesn't know about you, from your little quirks, to your pet peeves to all your favorite, he have those all listed in his mind like his own commandments.

It also happens to be his favorite color too, so that helps

"I know, I just pick that one so I can easily spot you" he takes the seat beside you on the couch, throwing his arm on the back of the couch making you rest your head against him.

"Huh?" you ask, looking at him

"Just when I don't wear my glasses, everything else is blurry but atleast I can see the color. That way I know it's you" he smiles, playing with the yellow scrunchie on your wrist

"So you're telling me, you keep getting me yellow stuff so you could see me?"

He nods

You look at him before a smile breaks out of your face, taking Wonwoo's cheeks between your hands to squish them. Cuteness aggression taking over.

To some, Wonwoo might seem like a cold person, very nonchalant but that's the exact opposite. If you get to know him more, he's a big softie and likes to play practical jokes every now and then. One of the many things that made you fall in love with him was how easy it was to smile when you're with him.

Falling for him didn't feel scary. From your past relationships it always felt like a part of you was lost, like you're not you're own person anymore. But with him, it's different.

Wonwoo let's you be you. You feel loved just by being you.

"What got you thinking, pretty? Lost you for a second there" he whispers

"Just.. things"

"Want to share?"

It's cute he still asks, even after dating for some time he still asks if you want to share whatever thoughts you have in your mind instead of just making you say it. From day 1 he let you set the pace, no matter how slow or how fast you want to go he'll be right beside you happily holding your hand.

He tucks your hair behind your ear, cradling your face in his hands and you think this is where you feel the safest, the most secure.

"Just you, still wondering what I did in my past life to deserve you"

He shakes his head, leaning down to give you a kiss on the forehead. "I should be the one asking you that. I'm just happy I get to love you like this"

He watches you watch him, he knows you're still having an internal debate. Thoughts bouncing around in your head, sometimes that happens and he's always there to shut any doubts.

"You love me, correct?" he asks, you quickly utter a confirmation making Wonwoo smile

"You said, anything I love you'll learn to love too. Correct?" he asks again, you nod at his question

"I love you, more than anything in this universe. I love even the tiny flaws you think you have. To me, all those things are just... you. These cheeks? I love seeing them the moment i open my eyes in morning, pressed against the pillow making you look like a sleeping angel. These hands? I love how they hold me, keep me grounded when it gets too loud. Your laugh, especially the one that don't sound like anything because you're laughing too hard and you're so happy I cant help but smile too and make me want to make you laugh like that everyday."

He holds your hand in his, eyes looking straight into yours as he says the words. Each and every one of them is the truth and nothing but the truth.

"You, all of you I love. This mind, the one that keeps you up at night, makes you worry about the future that have yet to come and everything that could go wrong, I love that too. That's you, you and your nagging, your ups and downs, your mood swings and bad days. I'd have it all" He frees your hand so he can reach up to flatten the crease between your brows. You feel his fingertip ever so gently land on your forehead.

"Just once, even for a second I wish you see yourself through my eyes and know just why I look at you the way I do. If only you can feel what I feel because there isn't any word in any language to express it. Not yet anyways" he breathes out.

Before you, Wonwoo's life was monochromatic. Like a black and white silent film. And when he met you, that's when it all changed. He started to laugh a little louder, smile a little wider. You're the color of his life, not the overwhelming kind of color but instead the exact hues he loved.

"Do you ever feel overwhelmed with how you feel about me?" you ask him. He can hear the genuine wonder in your voice, instead of sugarcoating it for you he tells the truth because he would never know how to lie to you.

"Sometimes, I overthink too" he lets out a chuckle before continuing "Like what if one day I become too much, but I can't help it. I just want to do everything for you. Sometimes, I feel down. I don't want to make you feel that too so I just..." he trails off

He didn't need to say anything else for you to understand.

"Then will you tell me if you're having bad days too? I can take it." you tell him

"Love, I-" he pauses "I'm sorry. I know I'm not the most vocal person, I just don't want to burden you with my problems" he breathes out. His hold on you tightening.

"I'm your partner, I'm your girlfriend. Am I not?"

"You are"

"Didn't you tell me once you'd marry me"

"I did, and I will" he smiles, recalling that conversation in his head.

"Then talk to me, I don't care about the baggage, I don't care if they're too heavy. I'm here. You share your joys with me, then that's double the happiness. That goes the same with your sorrows, you tell me all about it so it's half the pain"

He smiles, heart filling up with more love for you he didn't was possible.

"You can tell me, you don't have to give it all to me. I just want to know if you're okay, or angry or worried or sad. I just want to know how to be there for you like you are for me" you tell him, tracing his features with your fingertips.

He hugs you even tighter, afraid of letting any space get between the two of you. "You being here is more than enough for me. Knowing I'm coming home to you is enough for me. You are more than enough for me, my love"

You didn't expect your afternoon to turn into love confessions but you wouldn't trade it for anything in the world.

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judasiskariot · 1 month ago

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@judasiskariot and @bhaal-battle-beer-bard personal "Being grateful"

I just wanted to sit down and take a moment to look at all the things I can be grateful for.

A lot has happened this year, bad things, really bad things. On top the last few days and weeks in particular have been unnecessary...complicated again. But I can't help but see that, unlike others, I can't laugh bitterly when it comes to expressing gratitude and seeing the good things.

And there are many, very many of them good things. Every small thing matters.

You just have to want to see them. (It is not always easy, that is ok)

But if you decide to find just one thing every day that you're grateful for and that made you smile, you'll find it. Try it. It becomes more and more easier.

And yes, I may sound like a fortune cookie and that may sound absolutely annoying and superficial and you can ignore me if you like.

But maybe it will help someone. Maybe someone needed to hear that today.

There were accidents, there were losses, but when I think about the year, the last months, weeks and days, I see the moments that made me smile. Celebrate the small moments and not the big tragedies to burden your heart. I am sure you had many victories that you just haven't seen yet.

For example after 10 years of silence I am reconnected with an old friend of mine, like no time was lost.

There is wonderful @aristenfromwarsaw with whom every conversation is a dream 😊

@alpydk without them tumblr already seems not like the same anymore 😄

I can't get enough of rambling with @yennefer-of-vengerbergs about anything! Most fun! 😁🤗

Lovely @pinkberrytea being my mutual is still incredible and unbelievable��😍🤩 You lovely human being 😘

@heytheresunflower always has a hug for me 🫂 so as @anacdoce blushing words on works that make me faint 🥹

And @goromimii without her I would never been able to write with all those wonderful persons. It all started with you and I know you always got my back when I need to 😘

@blazingsaza you are just part of my tumblr brain chemistry and also outer space 😄 Writing with you is a joy 💙

And so many other moots.

I just wanted to let you know that you are amazing and taking the chance to tell you I appreciate you.

Small things, small moments.

But for me they are worth being thankful for.

And great interactions and people are just a message away and when I think about what you could miss if you hadn't sent that message 😭😰😱😢 So if you don't know whether to write to someone: Do it! A wonderful conversation is just a Hello! away. Don't let fear and insecurities take that away from you.

Let people know when they had an impact on you, that you love them. They don't know it out of the blue, you have to tell them.

I know it takes courage to go straight up to people and compliment them, to say you did a great job, I'm proud of you. (It's so sad that it is like that, but it is)

But please do that.

Do that more often. Take a heart.

Just one kind word can save someone's whole day, their whole week.

It gives so much energy.

Just a kind word, a smile, can make a difference for someone.

And joy and love always increase when you give them to someone.

(Yeah, there are better options than the end of the year and it shouldn't take this to be grateful and to reflect, but unfortunately I didn't get around to it before. And I may sound like a dumb inspirational sayings calendar, but if it helps just one person not to end the year sad or frustrated, or it makes someone smile, then it has served its purpose. All I wanted to say is, that it is normal that we can't see the beauty of the world when darkness is deep within us. And at the end of the year, many people feel that way. It makes me sad to see this. And I just wanted to let you know that the wonders of the world are not disappearing, but are waiting for you when you are ready to see them again. But maybe one or the other needs a little reminder. Maybe I could help them with that. I would be happy. Maybe delete later because I don't know if my blather should be in the void out there.)

#personal #judasiskariot #judasiskariot speaking #bhaal battle beer bard #bhaal battle beer bard speaking #moots #mutuals #tumblr mutuals #You matter #2024 #thanking

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zepskies · 4 months ago

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Hello! Just wanted to ask something. I have seen that you reblog a lot of storys from other writers. Are those all mutuals? Love your writing, btw. 💌

Hi there, thank you very much! 😊

Yep, I reblog pretty much every story I read, and no they’re not always mutuals (though many of them are).

It’s very simple: if I liked it, I reblog it, and I always try to leave something of my honest thoughts on what I liked about it and/or how the story made me feel. It doesn’t matter to me if the writer is brand new or well established. If you made me feel something and the story feels true to the canon characters, you got me hooked. 👌🏽

I’ve talked a lot in the past about why reblogging matters and why it’s important to show appreciation for fanfic writers for sharing their stories for free, so I’m not asking people to do anything I don’t do myself. A little kindness can go a long way. 😉💜

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peaches2217 · 6 months ago

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Hey. I believe that you also reblogged the post encouraging people to send you asks? Well, I've decided to try to get to know my mutuals better this way so I hope you don't mind being asked a question.

I know you like Kung Fu Panda and presume you also like the Super Mario Bros. Movie, so tell me, what other animated movie or movies do you like the most?

Also I'm sure I've already praised you a bit in the Ultimate Ask Game but I'm not sure if you saw my ask, so I'll just say again I really like your stories, at least the ones I've read (seeing as I'm not into NSFW stuff - but I'm sure they're good in their own right). And well, you're a cool and very interesting person. I'm sorry if sometimes I don't know how to interact with you very well, to be honest my social skills probably aren't the best LOL But I'm glad I follow you and grateful for your support of my content 😊

First off! I’m so sorry; I DID get your response to the Ultimate Ask Game, but I got so many at the same time that keeping up with them was too overwhelming. So to you and anyone else who sent asks for that one game that I never responded to: your responses WERE seen, and they ARE appreciated more deeply than you can know!! I’m just. Bad at handling things when they come flooding in at once. 😅 Thank you so much!!

As far as other movies… I love animation, but when it comes to films, the bulk of my interest lies in extreme cinema! Other favorites include Martyrs (2008, the 2015 American remake is a special kind of bad), A Clockwork Orange (which I know isn’t extreme by today’s standards, but you can’t overlook its historical importance to the genre — and its soundtrack was composed by Wendy Carlos, a groundbreaking trans composer!), and the Saw films (which some will argue are too mainstream to count as extreme cinema, but I regard them as an excellent entry point to the genre, and just a fun guilty pleasure series all around).

Beyond those, I don’t really have any solid favorites. I love extreme cinema and horror (especially of the psychological and supernatural varieties), but while I enjoy watching, there’s not many that outright stick with me.

#the ones I mentioned + the first 3 KFP films and the SMB movie are the only movies I own on dvd #buying a movie’s physical copy is how I honor it as a favorite!#midsommar is a contender for favorite because it’s visually stunning AND unnerving as hell and I love that juxtaposition #but it’s not quiiiiiiiiiite a favorite yet. need to watch it again #peaches screams into the void

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megalony · 10 months ago

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When I saw that you are writing a reader x Buck x Tommy fic, where the reader is epileptic, this emoji pretty much sums up my reaction! 😱 I am so excited, mainly because it’s going to be the first Reader x Buck x Tommy, the fact that you are including an epileptic!reader just, somehow, makes it even better so I’ll be eagerly awaiting it! 🥹 I also just want to pop a little message to say how much I appreciate having you on here as my favourite 9-1-1 imagine writer, as well as the many other fandoms you do! ❤️ The fact that you are a writer as well that feels comfortable and confident enough to write about more sensitive subjects, conditions like epilepsy and narcolepsy as well as others, learning difficulties, and delicate situations like miscarriages and DA, and the amazing job you do when writing about these things! 🥰 I continue to look forward to seeing all of your future works, I’m always looking forward to seeing what you post every day! 😊❤️

Awww my god thank you!!!

I don’t know why but I’m just drawn to the angsty stuff it’s so easy for me to write. And I am very curious and interested in the medical side of things so I love writing and including different conditions.

When my family ask what kind of books I write I’m always reluctant to say because the first novel I’ve managed to finish is a very dark look at mental health 😭

But I can write about dark or sensitive topics on here in fanfic and feel proud and it’s so good that so many people especially mutuals like you 🥰 will request ideas like that

🥹❤️❤️

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has-gilgamesh-doneanythingwrong · 2 years ago

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Gilgamesh for ask meme!

Hi!!! Thank you for messaging me ☺ I really appreciate it! It's been a long time since I did askmeme on gilgablog so thank you for requesting him (i keep most fate thoughts private)! Sorry I will probably write a whole massive paragraph about him XD

My Gilgamesh opinions are very subjective here so they may not all be accurate, which is why I enjoy this ask a lot ^^

Sexuality Headcanon: I headcanon him as bi/pan, like yeah there's no denying he is also attracted to women, but his devotional relationship with Enkidu and kinky pleasure yuetsu time with Kirei is every bit as canon in my opinion!!!

Even his creepy obsession with Saber really hints to me personally that Gilgamesh may not discern his initial sense of attraction primarily by gender- I believe he may be attracted to people based off intangible traits that link to his personal sense of values as well; which cannot be as simply measured as gender.

So in my opinion GILGAMESH IS RATED E FOR EVERYONE!

Gender Headcanon: Though he is masc, man he/him I also feel as if Gilgamesh's gender is also just 'GILGAMESH'. Sometimes I wonder if Gilgamesh would see himself as beyond the convention of gender.

Also I heard from someone that gender can be very diverse in Ancient Mesopotamia so it would be really cool to see where Gilgamesh would slot his gender identity there... also can his pronouns be king of heroes/ king as well! I feel like he really defines himself by his role more than gender per se, and in one fate hanafuda game he says gender doesn't matter ☺👍

An OTP: ohh I love Gilgamesh ships so much 😊😊 Gilkidu is just so amazing in many ways I cannot even describe, Kotogil is incredible in their twisted dynamic .. and GilHaku is just so beautiful! And I love Gilgamesh x Merlin for the shenanigans... to be honest most Gilgamesh ships are my otp. I even really like Gilgamesh x reader/ oc fics and Ritsuka/ Guda ones depending on what the ocs are like! Oh I also like Gilgamesh x Cu as they can clash head on and go wild, as well as Gilgamesh x Ozymandias!

And a mutual introduced me to Achilles x Gilgamesh. I think it is a beautiful pairing as they have so much grief, love, power and arrogance in common.

A NOTP: I'm sorry Gilgamesh x Saber fans. I respect those who ship it but Gilgamesh is such a creep to Saber in my opinion, I like it when she doms him to smithereens and stomps on his pride though ☺🥳🥳🥳

BROTP: This is a hard one as I feel like his otps can be good otps, but seeing him hang out with Iskandar is always hilarious. Love how he actually listens to Taiga in the spin off games as well, so they could maybe enjoy a few drinks together. And Gilgamesh/Solomon/Merlin makes for great chaos.

Gilgamesh/Siduri/Enkidu is a powerful alliance and err what else... I feel like as long as they can entertain one another then Gilgamesh has the potential for many BROTPS.

Random Headcanon: He has golden nipple tassels that he unleashes whenever he has an urge to go full sexy, also I feel like though yes he does love pleasure and decadent desires the way he so tightly constrains and punishes himself sometimes makes me wonder if some of his hedonism is also used as a way to appear as an overwhelming figure to others.

I feel like Gilgamesh is definitely tyrannical and extremely powerful and charismatic... yet also has a side to him that is insecure as hell, his larger than life and genuine powerful and wise sides overcompensating for a side of him that is plagued with all sorts of self loathing and grief.

General opinion: I love this asshole!!!!!!!! Endless joy can be created from researching his character and reading, watching his materials, he is entertaining in such a wide variety of ways, and every side of him is a marvel to witness (though i wanna punch him sometimes too cuz holy crap is he horrendous at times).

He's a very complex and nuanced character that can be interpreted in a wide variety of ways so I am really irritated by how some people try to gatekeep Gilgamesh's character and throw him into a box, when Gilgamesh is such a versatile character! I hope that there will continue to be a space where people can enjoy Gilgamesh in as many different ways as possible, without there having to be some sort of 'fandom consensus' on which Gilgamesh opinions are most valid.

#thank you!#asks #gilgablog #op speaks #gilgapinions

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a-d-nox · 1 year ago

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Feedback: thank you so much for letting me play. I’m so appreciative, because I’ve been trying to learn about the different orbs. But the information is so limited or the websites charge. Everything you said is spot on. I definitely feel like my romantic situation is moving at all. I haven’t had any actual adult romantic relationships. But hearing that the universe is just using this time to teach me lessons that I’ll need for my lifetime partner puts me at ease. Everything you said about my ideal partner is so accurate. It’s like you’re in my brain. I like people who are very open and believe in constant communication to get to know each other better and to make sure that everyone’s feelings are being displayed/heard. I like that he be someone that’s always changing. I think that’s important for growth and can help me grow as well. I also like them being intuitive. It’s good that the person will not fear much, because I constantly fear so much. Which makes it hard for me to make decisions because I fear change and making the wrong choice. I think it’s sweet that this person would possibly help with my dreams. But since I’m so indecisive I don’t even know if I have dreams or goals. I’ll remember to take your advice and chose Devine love and not rush for instant gratification. Also learning how to be masculine and feminine. I feel like people always say the wives have to be serving and submissive because mean aren’t attracted to the opposite. So I worry about not being feminine enough especially because I come from a family dynamic where my mom was the masculine leader of the house. So, I don’t know if I’d naturally mimic that. But at the same time I fear being solely masculine because I seen how my mom having to be the only leader in her relationship has stressed her out and put her in survival mode. She’s hyper independent, and constantly complains about wising that someone could save her instead of her having to save others. But she doesn’t even allow help. So, I definitely need to learn have to have balance, and we both in the relationship are both in equal measure. I’ll remember to show mutual respect and to communicate my feelings and worries. So I won’t grow resentful. Thank you so much !!! You’re so good at this, and are extremely knowledgeable. You’ve taught me so much today. I’m so grateful❤️. Thank you for you time. I look forward to experiencing all of your gifts/talents that your bring to this tumblr community. Congratulations again on your milestone. I know so many more followers are to come. I’m happy to be apart of your asteroid family😊.

of course! we are here learning together; i am glad that i could help you with your specific case during this game!! i do hear you; a lot of the matrix information is in russian - so accessibility is tricky for sure! lmao would you believe this isn't the first time someone has said i am in their head while reading their matrix?? i understand what you mean regarding the fem/masc scenario - my core number is 6, so i have to deal with healthy balance too. i was raised by a single mom so i understand what the model of an independent / strong-will woman does to societal expectations that women should be submissive and meek. i have come to understand that woman can do anything and don't need to rely on men, but no woman is an island - humans were meant to interact with one another. it's okay to need help or want someone to hold your hand as you walk through life together. i have faith you will come to figure out what works best for your 6 too! you're welcome! thank you for helping me celebrate 2k and for being here!

a.d. <3

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chilipowder9 · 5 months ago

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Oh no I do understand fitting the "technical" definition, though as someone who has seen one too many people who I've seen as rational and "neutral" shippers start interacting with more open proshippers suddenly do things like: Defending lolicon in servers to young teens were venting about feeling sexualized by such media, claiming that there's nothing wrong with real life incest, sending NSFW audios, fics, etc. of minors' F/Os to them and generally acting overly suggestive when giving them imagines, validation, etc... Believe me, I've seen it all firsthand, and even almost went down the road myself, and I firmly believe no matter how anti-harrassment you are the open proship side of Tumblr is no good of a place to stay in. I've been silently keeping up with ship discourse for a while now and what I've been seeing has only been getting worse, and progressively more toxic; Even if proshipping was originally built on anti-harrassment, I guess that doesn't mean anything to the ones who have been occasionally sending me anon hate for not associating with them anymore. Not to mention, to people who do know these things associating with proshipping or using any dogwhistles is a major red flag, so unfortunately that leaves a lot of people with nowhere else to turn, and that's how they're dragged down a rabbit hole. That's honestly why I simply call myself an anti even if I prefer to let sleeping dogs lie.

To get to the point, no matter the original definitions of pro and antiship, we're at the point where it's more akin to "likes immoral pairings or maybe worse" and "is against immoral pairings and actions." It's a very slippery slope and I don't want to see a mutual who brightens my day go down it the same way many of my old ones did. I know it may not mean much from someone who is too introverted to come off anon, but I do care for the safety and wellbeing of the silly little people I interact with online and I did not want to hesitate on bringing to your attention something that I fear could be a threat to that.

With all that said, I do hope you can get something useful from this message. Have a great day/night/week/anything! 😊💜

I apologize sincerely for your past experiences, though my own are that antiproshippers sent me actual real child porn and compared an adult in anime who was canonically mature on top of "oh yeah she's 30" (not literally I don't think) and a character who was about the same age to actual real child porn

this was not the first nor last experience I had with an antiproshipper during my childhood, showing me such things to try to scare me away from proshipper spaces, and when I went to proshippers as a scared 12 year old kid who had no idea what was going on? they were like "oh fuck you're a kid uh Block Them" and never did I even hear a dick joke using the actual word dick in it.

I appreciate your concern, dearly, but it is very clear to me that liking a very gross ship doesn't make you evil or deserving of literally existing, and for the dozens of proshippers who protected me against actual predators online I will die on this hill

none of this is to disrespect your experience, if that is the hill you will die on I will not be the one to kill you, you are my moot and I love you (platonically, probably) and I promise you, if I knew the proshippers who sent you hate for just Not Liking That I would kill them personally

and never feel bad for being afraid, my friend, I promise you I would never attack unless you were truly harming others, even then I would try to reason with you first.

(also if a proshipper says anything about IRL incest/pedophilia/zoophilia being okay they're not a proshipper they're a predator and likely hiding behind the proship banner, ESP if talking to a minor)

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oraclekleo · 2 years ago

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Hey! I just sent you a normal ask, I'm so sorry. I read the instructions properly, please ignore the previous ask and consider this one instead.

I'm RA, a taurus sun, Scorpio moon and libra rising in tropical astrology. I'm 22, and my pronouns are she/her. I'm into he/him.

To my best belief, I have followed all the pre-requisites to request for grant of a free reading, however, if I have missed out on anything, please bring it to my notice.

I want to request for a personal kinky reading about myself. Some things about myself are that I love the color blue, I am terrified of physical intimacy, I love fantasizing about love, my venus is in the 8th house and my idea of love has transformed over the past few years. I'm a foodie, I love desserts, especially waffles and pancakes with a huge scoop of ice cream. I love blueberry cheesecake too.

If there's anymore information you require, please let me know. And Thank you so much for offering free readings, I'm grateful to claim one ✨

Also, I don't desire a private reading, you can post my ask on your feed and I'll drop a feedback :)

Thanks once again! Good day/night 💕💖

Hello!

Dear! You have followed the rules perfectly and you gave me so much information! I'm so grateful because I think it truly helped me so much with this reading. I must say that the words just flow in this one, there was no struggle for me to pick what the cards were trying to tell me. Whether it's accurate, that's a different question 😂 You'll be the judge of that. But I want to let you know that I truly enjoyed doing this reading as my intuition really felt easy flowing this time. I mean... with some people (regular and celebrities, too) I struggle to properly word the meanings I see in the cards but with you... It was so smooth. And while most readings take energy away from me, yours actually kinda cheered me up and energized me. There must be something special about your vibe so thank you for allowing me to bask in it through this reading. 😁💝

Anyway! Enough of pre-talk! See the cards bellow and your full reading when you expand the post.

I hope you enjoy it as much as I enjoyed writing it. Feel free to cool my excitement down with critical feedback. 😊 It's very appreciated no matter how negative it is. I'm the person who likes to receive critics because I can learn from them and grow in future. So don't worry if the reading sounds nothing like you. Just tell me. 😂 And if by any chance it does resonate, I'm happy to receive praises as well. Surprising, I know. 😂

Thank you for your request and I hope to hear from you in future!

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Spread / Question: Kinky Reading

Deck(s): Everyday Witch Tarot + Everyday Witch Oracle

Position - 9 of Pentacles

Lol! This card just screams a contented loner. You’re not very likely to play some games when it comes to relationships. You’re not really into sub/dom dynamics as you are not willing to boss others around or to be bossed by somebody else. You are happy the way you are. You are you, you are your own boss. You don’t even actually need to be in a romantic relationship to be happy. You are able to truly appreciate and cherish your own company. That doesn’t mean, you will never date anyone. But if you do, you are likely to maintain your healthy boundaries with the person and just make sure that the relationship is in no way toxic or abusive on either side. You know how to get along with people in a healthy and respectful way and you also know how to be alone and just cozy in your own company. Some people are terribly dull when they are not in a relationship, like they don’t know what to do if they don’t have a partner to do things with… You’re not one of those people. You have your interests and your hobbies. If you can find your mutual, great! You will happily share your days with them. If there’s no one to follow your requirements at the moment, you’re perfectly happy on your own and you can wait. You’re not very likely to just start dating someone for the mere sake of dating. You have your standards.

Libido - 2 of Cups

You mentioned it yourself that you’re not into physical intimacy and the cards confirm it. You’re likely a romantic person deep down, you said it yourself you like to imagine romance but the cards suggest you might prefer the emotional and spiritual connection to come first, before any physical contact. Honestly, I’m even getting the vibe of like a spiritual marriage in a sense you might meet someone you feel mentally, emotionally and spiritually close with, deep bond, but you might never actually get physical. I know it sounds a bit weird but I assume it can happen. If this is ringing no bell for you, just ignore it, I simply had to tell you what I’m sensing from the cards. On the other hand, if you meet your super special person, you might start to feel physical attraction to them and if you do, you’re likely to be more soft and vanilla about it. This card doesn’t really give a dominatrix vibe, lol. You’re likely to enjoy long sessions with your lover when you cook, eat, walk and talk together, holding hands and some soft kissing. You’re likely to take it slow in the relationship, really getting to know each other through and through emotionally and spiritually before you get physically intimate with each other.

Turn On - 7 of Cups

Lol! So many options and you just can’t pick one! It looks like you don’t really have your specific type yet. Either there’s no one who would come as physically attractive to you in a sense you would actually risk it and get physical with them, or… There are like many potentially attractive people but you only find some aspects attractive in them and none of those people tick all the boxes for you so you’re not really interested in dating any of them for real. Each of them has characteristics you dislike to the level you can’t imagine sharing your life with them. This card can also mean you are in love with someone (or many) who is not real or accessible. Typically those can be fictional characters or celebrities. You might be in love with Mr. Darcy (sorry, I’m old, Mr. Darcy is the ultimate perfect man for my generation, you can have a different idol) but you know he’s not real. And you can have a crush on a celebrity knowing you will never be able to date them but it’s still nice to imagine.

Kink - 2 of Pentacles + Follow your Dreams

With all that was said, it’s not a big surprise that you don’t really have settled for a kink of yours yet. You probably juggle with several ideas that appeal to you, you probably have looked into the options but… I can’t really see you being enthusiastic about trying one of the kinks in real life. Maybe with the right person you will one day. The cards really hold that potential. Just like the young wizard getting ready to jump out of the window and fly on the broom, you’re currently looking into options and getting ready, still safely in your own headspace. And just like the two of pentacles card, you’re balancing and judging the options. It’s only up to you if you will shift to one option or not. It’s up to you whether you will actually ride the broom or stay in the room and sweep instead. Lol… That’s both a metaphor and an actual suggestion. I mean… the floor can never be too clean, right? Anyway! I wanted to mention at least some of the kinks coming into consideration but I seriously can’t pick here. I mean, both cards depict a solitary person, in one card it’s a day time, in the other it’s a night time, so you probably don’t have a preference on when to make love. The Two of Pentacles is outdoors, the oracle card is indoors… Seriously, I can’t pick a kink up from these. I’m sorry.

Dirty Secret - Ace of Swords + Prayers and Wishes

Your cards are so incredibly clear with their messages, it’s insane! Do you often catch yourself daydreaming and imagining romantic scenarios? Do you play dialogues with your imaginary sweethearts in your head? Do you sometimes know you’re going to stay home but still dress up pretty and make yourself look nice just in case a rain drenched hunk in see through wet white shirt knocks on the door and asks you for help? Okay… this one is maybe my fantasy but you get where I’m going. Your dirty secret is that you’re probably a very pure and decent person in real life, all the dirt and spice are happening in your imagination and fantasy. You’re likely to imagine, dream and wish for someone really special to come into your life so you can fall in love with them because you’re a romantic soul. While you really crave this to happen one day (or maybe it already did happen recently), you’re still sensible enough to keep your standards. The Ace of Swords suggests not only a superior imagination (do you perhaps write stories or fanfics?) but also a clear mind. Once again, the people are alone on the cards which suggests you are an individualist. You have a strong persona. You don’t need to lower your expectations and you will know when your prince in shining armour arrives.

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tower-girl-anon · 2 years ago

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Heyyy hope you doing good 😊 what do you think about sun conjunct moon in 12 th cancer house and venus conjunct mercury in 1st leo house with mars and north node but venus square saturn in 9-10th house cusp in a composite chart Thank you😥

Thank you so much for your message!! This are my observations in relation to the composite aspects and signs you gave me:

Sun conjunct Moon in Cancer composite.

-After a time of being together, a strong combination of the masculine and femenine energy will form. You both feel, or will feel, deeply connected with each other; a feeling that increases due to both planets falling in the nurturing and emotional sign of Cancer, that's why many astrologers believe that this aspect is a soulmate combination. The feelings of being at home with each other will encrease along with some jealousy and possesive attitudes if it's not well developed.

Sun conjunct Moon in 12th house composite

-The identity and the emotions of the relationship are hidden from the world. Maybe even from both of you. Even though this is a spiritual house, one the deepest house of all, which could indicate a past life connection where there is still deep feelings of care and love between the two, this house can also give confussion to both of you. That is because, one, these feelings comes from within, it's not something you can explain with words or logic. It comes from your soul because, most probably than not, you met each other before. The second confussion that may exist with this aspect is that you have this feelings but you are afraid of showing each other how much the other mean to them due to many things: insecurity, fears, traumas, karmic relationships, etc.

Venus conjunct Mercury in Leo composite

-This is an aspect of sweet talking in many cases. You both talk with each other in a way that helps both of you to encrease their inner confidence, the trust in each other, and the mutual appreciation. You both care about each others well being, and will try everything to cheer the other up. Most probably through words. Now, the downside of this aspect is that, due to the mutual need of keeping things at peace, sometimes you avoid talking of serious issues and that could create mayor problems on the long term.

Venus conjunct Mercury in the 1st house composite

-I don't know if your composite ascendant is in Leo or Cancer but, despite this, the mutual affection, friendship, flirting energy, and sibling energy will be noticeable by others. You look great together. You are a power couple in many ways that I will describe with the others aspects below. You both don't shy away when it comes to show the other how much it means to them. Just be carefull of don't acting too superficial. That means acting that way just so you look great to others.

Mars and North Node in the 1st house composite

-Wow!! Just...wow! Another femenine and masculine combination in the composite chart (Venus-Mars in the same house in the masculine sign of Leo, and Sun-Moon combination in Cancer which is a femenine sign). Seriously though', with these aspects not only screams for soulmate aspects, it tells that there is a lot of sexual energy, attraction, towards each other and a mutual feeling of having met before. And, with your North Node in the 1st house, it is very clear that this is not your first lifetime together. You both were partners, friends, brothers/sisters, or lovers. Maybe all of them. You've been together before and, with the stellium in the first house, there is a focus in this incarnation of focusing on yourselves. On prioritizing your connection and the caring feelings between the two.

Saturn in 9th/10th house square Venus composite

-Now, Saturn in composite could mean the possible karma both of you share along with obstacles and restrictions that may come, too, from past lives. With Saturn between the religious/belief house and the career one, maybe you will notice that there is some restrictions when it comes about meeting each other. Both could have some religious or belief system that prevents you from being with each other. Work could be an issue too. There is some complications when it comes about balancing work, study or travell, with the affection that both of you need. Since some astrologers believe this is a star-crossed signal in general, this may talk about a past life where, due to the circumstances I mentioned above, you couldn't be together or enjoy being with each other as much as you both wanted.

This is all I have for you. I hope it resonated and I send you lot's of love and light.

Tower Girl Anon

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lookismaddict · 2 years ago

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Favorite mutuals you love seeing on your dash? :DDDD

Dawwww sheeeeeesh. I thought of a lot of people, actually. (And sorry to everyone else who I might have forgotten to mention on here. You’re all very wonderful but there’s too many bruv. I’m sorry. 😭🙏🏽)

First of all, I love seeing my wife, Lhester (lhester), on my dash because she always reblogs so many things that make me laugh, and I have to reblog them. ❤️(And some unhinged things, but I won’t go into specifics LMAO). Li-Li (iwasneverth3re), because she always posting some HOT ASS GUN FANART. 🔥 Like thank you for the eyegasm, my fellow Gun simp/wife. 🖤 Sunny (x-xsunlightx-x) and Day (lalaland123456), because every time they post they always be arguing with each other over the most weirdest things through their Ask box (like Sunny bringing in a new lab rat and Day being hit on by many people 💀) and it makes me LMAOOOO every time. 💕 Hyusolk (hyusolk) and Jann (bigdealno5), because they’re both very cute whenever they interact with each other. 😭💜 (I enjoy seeing Hyusolk creating beautiful artwork as if they came from a movie and seeing Jann’s creative and aesthetic posts of different Lookism characters 🙌🏽). Adrien (spaceyflowers) because their tags on their reblogs are SO FUNNY LMAOOO. I crack up whenever I see Adrien’s reblogs. Also, their WONDERFUL WRITING. 💙 I follow their writing blog (spaceyflowerswriting) and let me tell you… I love how they’re very detailed and accurate when it comes to writing as Lookism characters. They never miss when it comes to their POVs, and I respect that. 🤝🏽 Sam (slimesam), because I love seeing her artwork. Ever since that beautiful fanart for Rendezvous, I always look forward to what drawing she had completed every week. 💚 Now she’s my manager, so she keeps me in check with her reblogs. 😅 (sorry Sam for my behavior recently LOL) I also appreciate her for being a huge fan of my story as well. A true avid fan 🙏🏽✨ Ria (qawcamiz), because I enjoy reading her writing too! 💗 Very descriptive and I became a fan of her writing ever since she sent that little story thing of Gun x (Y/N)… 😳 And I always look forward to her updates. June (gintokilindo), because I love their headcannons so much. They’re such a creative writer as well, and I love the fun topics that they write about for each character. Very accurate as well! 💝 Rina (lokislytherin), because oh my god. Her writing is SO ARTICULATE AND DETAILED!! Like, she’s so smart. I love reading her mini analyses on characters, headcannons, and reblogs of various writing-related posts. 💓 Gin (fan-of-chaos) because she’s always so supportive and positive when it comes to re-blogging from different posts. She shares a lot of funny and pretty Lookism posts/artwork 🧡 ALSO I LOVED HER “Trip to the Mountains” HEADCANNONS, ESP THE GUN AND GOO ONE. That one got me 💀💀💀 Micha (leekeira/Misaki), because she’s my fav dongsaeng 😊🤍 I am a fond of her new sketches and her cute fanfics, and she has grown a lot in her blog. It’s like watching a little sister grow up in front of you. 🥲💞 Mrs. Kang (dgragoon) because I admire how open she is with talking to people and her reblog threads are always funny to read, including her updates. Cracks me up every time 😭💛 And recently, skullsmashr and Ruth (moonok3). Like… holy shit. I’ve never talked to ANYONE SO UNHINGED IN MY LIFE. Ever since I saw her own chapter reviews, I’m like “This bitch really got the same sense of humor as me.” ✨ BUT ALSO SHE’S A DEMON LMFAAAOOOO (jk love ya sister even tho you a bad influence on me 💖) And Ruth! Recently, she posted for the first time of a sketch of Gun x (Y/N) and her drawing was so pretty!! It gave me butterflies. 🦋 And the reblogs she posts got me feeling dead inside because it’s mostly me, her, and Skullsmashr being IDIOTS. 💀💀💀💀But she’s too kind, and I appreciate her being a fan of my story since Day 1 and I’m glad that I get to finally talk to her more on here! 🤎 (if you see this Ruth, remember the hotline, ok? 👀)

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scarletwinterxx · 4 months ago

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as long as stars are above you and longer if I can - chwe hansol imagine

hellooo ~ so this was requested and tbh I was also in my vernon brain rot week so here we are😅😅🥺🥺 hope you like it!

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Hansol, as many already know, is a man of very few words. He hates useless facts, always talks straight to the point and will only speak when asked. He's the perfect person to spill your secrets to because he'll never talk to anyone else about it.

As a lover, he has his own way to show his feelings for. He loves you in his own ways, he's a savant when it comes to you. You always say he spends that much time being quiet because he's too busy reading your mind

"Admit it, you're a mind reader" you jokingly accuse him

When it comes to you, he'll laugh at the silly little facts. You're his exception.

"Just with you, darling"

You don't even have to say anything, he already knows what you need. He would always know what to say, when to say it, how to say it. He just always knows.

"Sol?" Even in a room full of people and loud noises all around, he heard you. In a flash you have his undivided attention. His conversation with his bestfriends forgotten but they're already used to it. His eyes speaks for him whenever you're around.

"Mhm? You cold, darling?" he asks, already shrugging his jacket off to put it on you. Once you're all bundled up, he takes your hands and blows warm air on it. All you had to do was say his name and he does the rest.

You're hungry? he'll order food for you, doesn't matter if he's with you or not. Your address is registered on his phone, ready to send food deliveries whenever you need or want it.

You coming home late? He'll pick you up or on the rare times he can't, he'll book the taxi himself so he'll know all the details and monitors the trip until he's sure you safely made it home.

You mention your favorite snacks to him? he stocked up on it at home, always making sure to never run out of your favorites.

You need cuddles? he'll be there no matter what time of the day, ready to dot on you and smother you with his love.

He got you all memorized, down to the little details you might not even know about yourself. Like how you always put sanitizer on your hands after touching anything because you hate it smelling like anything else, so he now carries one with him wherever he goes. Or how you pick on your thumb when you're nervous, so when notices this he holds your hand and draw random patterns on your skin to distract you. He even got you a bracelet you can fidget on when he's not around to hold your hand.

Or the fact that you always put your hand inside his pockets, his jackets or jeans or whatever it is. You don't even notice it, you just always do it. So he lets you be.

He loves you so loud, you don't even need words to know. But still, he tells you.

In those vulnerable moments you see all of him, all the emotions he keeps away from everyone else but bares all of it to you.

"Hey, I love you"

You were caught off guard by his sudden declaration of love but it makes you smile nonetheless.

"Suddenly?" you chuckle, you were just cooking ramen as midnight snack and he's here to spend the night with you after having a Harry Potter marathon.

"Where's my I love you too?" he's standing beside you, bumping his shoulder against yours and his head against your own. Like a cat.

"You're cute you know that?" you chuckle, standing on your tiptoe to bump your nose against his "I love you, too"

Then the of you continue on what you're doing.

That's how it's like loving Hansol, he shows he loves, tells you he loves, makes you feel he loves you every second you're with him. Even in silence, his love screams so loud you'll never forget it.

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caloroso-cosmos · 3 years ago

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Hi Autumn🥺💕💕

I hope it's okay that I'm sending this to you. I just wanted to let you know that I got your ask and read it. In fact, I read it so many times since you sent it to me and your words moved me to tears😭🥺💜 Yes, it means that much to me and that's how tense I am right now. And I will answer your incredible ask with all my gushings and thoughts and also your DMs as soon as possible, I hope I can do that this weekend once I turned in my term paper. Thank you so much, my friend😖❤ You are really too good to me. I promise I will think of something for you as a thank you. Autumn, I hope you are well and get to spend lots of time with your Jonathan. You deserve all the love in the world! Please remember, he is always by your side watching over you. He loves you so much💘

Well, I will get back to you as soon as possible. I'm sending you so much love. I am thinking of you and always hope you are taking care and doing well.

Best wishes, Sue💜💜

Hello Sue!!

Thank you for your message. I appreciate you taking the time to write to me and let me know that you received the ask I sent you (especially since it looked like tumblr had been eating the asks I've been sending to my mutuals, I was concerned the ask wasn't delivered to you). I'm so happy to hear that my ask means so much to you!! I look forward to hearing your thoughts on it 😊 Having said that, I would like you to know that it's okay to take your time with replying to that ask as well as my DMs, I'm happy to wait 😊 I understand that you have a hectic schedule and you have very little for yourself as it is. So please, write me at your leisure, no matter when that may be - days or weeks or months from now - it's all fine 🤗💕 I appreciate what you said about something for me as a thank you but please don't worry about it - you've given a fabulous piece of writing to me and my ask was a sort of thank you gesture to that 😊❤️❤️ Thank you for your kind words, Sue. I hope your term paper goes well - I'm rooting for you!! And I hope that once you submitted your term paper, you get to have a break and spend time with J, sharing and delighting in loving moments with each other. He's missed you just as much as you missed him, if not more. J loves you, Sue. 💜💜

Wishing you all the best for your term paper!! And remember to have a lovely break once you submitted your paper if you can!! Sending lots of love and positive vibes your way 💕💕💖💖

Warmest wishes,

Autumn 💙💙

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scarletwinterxx · 11 months ago

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sit down with jeong jaehyun

hello! so this is a new format of story I wanted to do, hope you like it🥺 i do have a few works on the way but I've been so busy with work again and this coming months i feel like so I apologize in advance for the slow uploads.

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The scene starts with two vacant chairs in front of the camera. Then two people walk in, sitting right next to each other.

"Okay, welcome. Can you introduce yourselves please" someone from behind the camera says

Your partner gestures for you to go first, "Hi I'm Jeong Y/N, 25"

"Hello, I'm Jeong Jaehyun, 26"

:Your last names are both Jeong?

The two of you chuckle, not the first time hearing this question "Mhm, but we're not related in any way. Don't worry" Jaehyun says

: So what are you to each other?

"I'm his girlfriend" you smile, so does Jaehyun.

"I'm her boyfriend"

: How long have the two of you been together?

"5 years"

"7 years"

The two of you answer differently, making you turn to look at each other. "That doesn't count" you tell him but Jaehyun shakes his head

"It does, it's been 7 years baby" he says

"We were on a break" you remind him, he gives you the stare so you turn to look at the camera again to change your answer

"We've been together for 7 years"

The person behind the camera chuckles

: You said you were on a break, what happened then?

"We kind of broke up for over a year, life happened and things got hectic. We decided mutually to end it" you explained

: How did the two of you got back together?

This time Jaehyun answers, recalling the memory

"We have the same circle of friends so we still saw each other sometimes, but this one time we went to dinner and we started talking again. It felt right. I realized how much I missed her and I wanted to give us another chance so I pursued her again" he looks over at you

"He saw flowers outside the restaurant and bought it, he gave it to me and now we're here. We haven't been apart since then" you finish

: How did the two of you meet?

"We met way back in middle school, he was one of the popular guys. All the girls in our grade had a crush on his and would give him their valentine favors. I really didn't think I had a chance" you chuckled, feeling your boyfriend's gaze on the side of your face

"I always get so many chocolates and valentines letter in my locker, but one year I got a whole cake with a small note greeting me a happy birthday" Jaehyun says

"That was me" you say with a big smile. You feel Jaehyun's hand take yours, then he kisses the back of your hand.

: Who liked who first?"

"I guess I did. I wasn't immune to his charms back then. I didn't expect he would notice me too"

"What do you mean? I knew who you were. I was the one who confessed first"

"Yeah because your ears would always turn red when we talked, you got busted" you tease him, giving his ear a playful tug

: What's one thing you love about your significant other?

Jaehyun answers first with no hesitation, "I love how she lets me be me. I feel the most complete with her. We broke up before so we can both learn and grow more, and we did. But me with her is the best version of me I can be"

You listen to his words, feeling all the emotions. Smiling at your boy before turning back to the camera

"I love his jokes" you hear him laugh from beside you

"Not everyone will get it. You can tell the exact moment he makes a joke in his head before he says it out loud, half of the time it's not even that funny but to me it always is. I just love his humor, I guess"

"I think you just love me a lot" he tells you, you roll your eyes at him

: Who said I love you first?

"He did, but technically I did. He said I said it in my sleep but he never told me about it until after a few years. But he's the one who said with both of us conscious" you chuckle

"She was so tired that day, we went back to my place and was just cuddling on my bed. I asked her if she was tired and wanted to sleep, she tucked herself on my side telling me to wake her up in an hour then she suddenly mumbled I love you. I thought I was hallucinating but I couldn't stop smiling after that. I said I love you to her not long after that, on the same bed while we were cuddling"

"Just cuddling" you clarified, earning a laugh from the staff

: Where do you see yourself in 5 or 10 years?

"Honestly, settled down with a family of my own"

"Of our own, baby" Jaehyun interrupts you, fighting the smile off of your face

"Settled down with a family of our own. I want to have kids, I love babies so it's definitely something I look forward to in the future"

Jaehyun listens to you, in his head he's already naming your two kids. He can't stop the smile on his face

"How about you, love?" you ask him, breaking him out if his thoughts

"Married to you, with two kids. I'm actually thinking of their names right now"

"Shut up" you laugh out loud, hitting him playfully on the arm

: What would you say is the secret to a long lasting relationship like yours?

"The truth is, it's not always smooth sailing. You will have fights, disagreements and arguments somewhere along the way and that's okay. That means the two of you are learning, growing up together. What's important is learning how to resolve it together, listen to each other and understand each other's side" you answer

Jaehyun nods in agreement.

"Be your partner's friend. It's important to tell them when something's not right, when something upsets you, when something bothers you. You don't always have to coddle them, appease them. Be each other's voice of reason. Of course always love and respect each othe" he says

: Okay, that's all. Thank you so much for sharing your time and your story with us, Mr. and Ms. Jeong. Anything else you want to say?

You shake your head, "Thank you everyone for your hardwork, thanks for having us" you say, then you look over at your boyfriend.

It was quick but you caught the cheeky smile on his face, and it meant one thing.

"Oh gosh he's about say something either really cheesy or really corny, just wait" you tell the staff and the camera

"Thanks everyone for having us, next time when we come back we'll be Mr. and Mrs. Jeong" he says with a big smile

"Okay see, I knew he was going to say something. That's it, valentine boy we're done here. Thank you!"

AND CUT

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scarletwinterxx · 3 years ago

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Still Into You - Haechan AU

Hi! this took longer to write than I expected, but it’s here! I hope you like it 😊 as always thank you all for the support and love you’ve given this blog. I appreciate it so so much. 💛💛

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“You want me to what now?”

“Don’t make me say it again, it’s just for the weekend please”

Never in a million years you would expect to hear the word please from your ex-boyfriend.

He’s a man of great pride and pettiness so it’s a bit new to hear Donghyuck ask a favor from you. Especially now since the two of you have called it quits. But here he was asking you to pretend that you never broke up and come with him to his family home for the weekend for his mother’s birthday.

“Can’t you just tell your mom the truth?”

“Do you think I would be here in front of you, saying please practically begging on my knees if I could have done just that?” He sarcastically asked back.

The two of you ended the relationship on okay terms, you didn’t loath each other which is a good thing. You think but sometimes you wish you did. Donghyuck, or Haechan to most people and Hyuck to you, is a hard person to say no to. For one, he won’t take no for an answer. Two, he knows exactly just how to make you say yes. Even now, you’re already considering saying yes to his proposal.

You wished you ended on bad terms so maybe then he won’t have this hold on you anymore.

Not that he knows it, but you are very much still in love with him.

“You’re not begging because if you were you’d be on your knees” you mocked him some more just because it was endearing to watch him getting a bit annoyed. Poking his tongue on the side of his cheek, a habit he does whenever things don’t go his way.

“I swear I’ll owe you big time, just this once”

“Why not just tell your mom we broke up?”

It’s been 6 months since the breakup, surprisingly you don’t feel as bad as you thought you would. Mainly because nothing really changed, apart from the fact that Haechan isn’t your boyfriend anymore your friendship with him still stayed the same.

“I haven’t gotten the chance to”

“You were home for summer break and you’re telling me you didn’t tell your family we broke up”

“How many times are you going to bring up the phrase ‘we broke up’?” he asks, making air quotes as he speaks

“In just about every conversation where your name is mentioned, since you know you’re my ex”

“Rub it in, will you?”

“May I remind you who broke up with who?” raising a brow at him as you ask that question, knowing full well you got him stuck in a corner there.

Because the answer: it’s him. He’s the one who broke up with you.

If you’re being technical, it was mutual. It’s not like he left you high and dry. He was just the braver one to finally pull the plug. The two of you were too busy, you think you still have a lot of growing up to do and so did he. Your friends thought it was stupid because no matter how different you two are, no one worked better together than you and him. It just felt right.

Looking at the boy quietly sulking beside you, you can’t help but roll your eyes and once again give in to the one and only Lee Donghyuck.

“Just this weekend, but after that you tell your family the truth. Lying will only get you in trouble” the way he immediately lit up upon hearing your words made your heart thump a little harder and beat a bit faster.

“Before you smile like the devil, I have one condition”

“Name it”

“You tell my brother”

“NO” Looking back and forth between Haechan and your twin brother

You all but dragged Haechan to your brother after your conversation, the one stipulation you had was enough to make him back out. Haechan’s one weakness (apart from you but he will never say that out loud) is Na Jaemin. The other half of you, the boy version, the older sibling, your twin brother who can be overprotective and scary at times.

“Why does she need to help you, you got yourself in this mess” Jaemin tells his best friend with a straight look, clearly unimpressed with Haechan’s proposition.

“And I’m trying to fix it, little by little. Plus, I don’t want my mom to be heartbroken on her birthday when I tell her me and Y/N are done”

“Oh, just how she was heartbroken when you left her?”

“Okay ouch. No need to rub salt to my healing wounds, Jaem” hitting your brother on the arm, “It’s only for the weekend” you added

“What’s in it for you?” he asks you. Not being able to come up with a quick answer since he is right, what’s in it for you.

“She’s doing it out of the warmth of her heart and the little love she has left for me” Haechan answers jokingly for you, this time earning a smack from Jaemin

“I don’t like the two of you together”

“Didn’t stop us before, plus she’s a grown woman who can make her own decision. We’re only telling you now because I don’t want you to assume I kidnapped your sister”

You look at Jaemin while Haechan speaks, waiting for his next words. He looked over at you, silently asking if you were okay with this. Jaemin was there when you cried your eyes out the first night after the break-up. He witnessed it all. He’s just being the best brother and making sure you’re protecting your heart and not end up with the shorter end of the stick.

“Are you two doing the twin telepathy again?”

“Have her back by Sunday, if I hear you made her cry even the tiniest drop of tear, I will shave your eyebrows off and just about every strand of hair on your body in your sleep. You hear me?”

“I feel the love, really I do. Sometimes I wonder if we’re really bestfriend’s” Haechan replies ask he pats Jaemin on the shoulder.

“We’re not”

“Are you sure?”

“For the last time, Jaem. We are not dating again. I’m doing him a favor, as a friend. That’s it. His mom knows me, his family knows me. He just hasn’t found the time to tell them” For the nth time, you explained to Jaemin just why you were going with Haechan on this trip. As a brother, Jaemin feels like it’s his responsibility and duty to ask you questions and be annoying about it.

“Exactly, you’re not his girlfriend anymore. Why are you still stuck in this never-ending rollercoaster he puts you through?”

“He doesn’t, it’s not like that”

“So what? You just totally ignore the fact that you’re still not over him after all these months and don’t you dare say no because there’s no use in lying with me. I know you. Why put yourself through this over and over again?” you don’t have an exact answer for that because if you’re being honest, you’re still trying to figure out how to walk away from your ex-boyfriend. But it feels like for every step forward you take, he does something unintentional that makes your heart flutter even just for a bit then bam you’re back where you were.

Haechan is a hard guy to get over.

Not that you’re trying hard to.

“It’s just for the weekend. I’ll be fine” was your answer to Jaemin and him replying with a tightlipped smile. Getting your bag for you before walking out the door. By the time you got downstairs and out the parking lot where Haechan was waiting for you, Jaemin was already there conversing with him.

You said a quick goodbye to Jaemin before sliding in the passenger seat.

“So let’s talk ground rules” Haechan says as he drive away from campus, your apartment complex slowly fading from the view.

“Rules?”

“Yes like am I allowed to hug you or like kiss you infront of my family” he teases, you’re not sure if he’s being serious or not. Since this is Haechan you’re talking about, there’s a big chance he’s just teasing you.

“Whatever will help you sleep at night, babe” easily matching his teasing mood, the nickname rolling naturally off of your tongue like you’re so used to calling him that.“It’s no fun teasing you, you just always let me be” chuckling at how Haechan genuinely sounded disappointed at you for not being affected by his usual antics, unlike Renjun who would have tackled him by now.

“Guess I got used to it”

“You like me too much”

“Mhm, whatever floats your boat”

“See! You don’t even deny it! You’re a weird ex-girlfriend, you’re not supposed to like me”

You can’t help but laugh at him, it was a pointless conversation but still enjoyable, nonetheless. In contrast to Haechan’s never faltering energy, you’re more on the mellow side. A perfect balance, they used to say to the two of you.

“What will we do when we get there?” you ask him, currently on your way to his family home. It was less hectic than you expected. Of course, Jaemin made sure to see you off this morning when Haechan came to pick you up, sending a very intimidating look and a few empty threats to his best friend before bidding goodbye to the two of you.

“Let’s stop by the nearest market to get her some flowers maybe, and a cake? But I think we already got one at home”

“Why not those pastries she likes?” you suggested, Haechan glancing at you for a fraction of a second before focusing back on the road. Impressed that you still remember that little fact about his mom, but then again, you’re probably the most thoughtful person he knows. You put effort even in the tiniest things you do.

“Hyuck?”

“Huh?”

“The pastries? You think your mom will like it?” you ask him, he looked like was in deep thought, so you repeated your question. Wondering what he was thinking about but chose not to ask any further questions.

“Yea sure, good call. She’ll love it”

For a while neither of you said anything, just enjoying the music playing in the background and watching the scenery pass by. It felt good to be outside campus premises for a change, like a breath of fresh air. When the two of you used to date, it was your favorite pass time together.

Sometimes, you would just drive around with no destination in mind. Just going around driving around town, a bunch of snacks on hand, two cups of coffee on the cup holder and a good playlist. Even better when Haechan sings along to the songs.

“Aren’t you going to sleep?” Hyuck asks you, he was so used to you falling asleep midway during your drives and he doesn’t mind. He enjoys the quiet atmosphere. Your presence has always been enough for him.

“Not really sleepy”

“Liar, I saw you yawn like three times since we got to the freeway. Go take a nap, I think there’s a blanket at the back or a spare hoodie” he purposely left those for you, you knew that. It’s a habit he developed when the two of you were dating. Always scolding/teasing you for getting cold so easily then passing you his hoodie afterwards. He even bought a fluffy blanket just for you.

Muttering a quiet thank you to him while reaching out behind to retrieve the familiar blanket, it looked clean. It smelled like the fabric softener he usually uses, it’s like you’re back in his room laying on his bed surrounded by his pillows and blanket.

A distant memory that used to feel like home to you.

As expected, not even five minutes later you were fast asleep on the passenger seat. Haechan was right to bring the blanket along. It’s been abandoned for months, sitting at the back corner of his drawer. No one really used it besides you, he did technically buy it for you.

The familiarity of the situation both warms and pains him.

This feels just like those spontaneous dates the two of you would have, with him in the driver’s seat and you beside him. Either laughing along as he purposefully sings off-key to a sing or sleeping on the passenger seat wrapped up with the fluffy blanket while one hand clutches his.

It was selfish of him to ask you to come with him this weekend, he could’ve just faced his family by himself and admit the truth of your breakup but instead he chose to gamble and asked you. It was a long shot, he thought you might say no but a big part of him hoped you’d say yes. When you did, he couldn’t help but smile so big.

He missed you.

He couldn’t say it straight on, how could he admit that when he was the one who let you go. It was his fault so now he gets to suffer the consequences of it.

Does he regret breaking up with you? No.

Seeing you find happiness on your own, discover more about yourself like you’ve always wanted and grow more as a person were enough reasons for him to know it was the right decision. He loves you enough that your happiness comes first before anything else.

And to him, it didn’t feel like he lost you completely. After the break-up, you two didn’t see each other that much. Giving yourself the time to heal and get over it. Haechan waited for you to approach him first, not because of pride but he wanted to let you do it at your pace. He didn’t want to make it seem like he was playing with your feelings. He was your friend before he became your boyfriend, he promised that he would still pickup the phone and come to you whenever you need his help like he would for all his bestfriend’s.

“Just act cool, you know like…”

“Hyuck, you’re the only one freaking out right now. Reminder, you brought this upon yourself” you tell him as you fix yourself. You finally made it to his childhood home, currently sitting in his car on the driveway as Haechan have his mini breakdown.

“You’re not helping” he glares at you, laughing back at him. Without any warning you take his right hand, pushing the sleeves of his hoodie up to expose his wrist. Haechan was left quiet, carefully watching you as you take something out of your pocket.

When he spots the sliver bracelet in your hand, he can’t decipher what he feels. Was it sadness? Happiness? Guilt? Longing?

It was the gift you got him for his birthday a few years ago, the first one you celebrated together as a couple. He insisted you don’t get him anything, but you still did. The simple band with his initials and birthdate engraved on the outside band while your anniversary date engraved on the inside.

“You used to wear this all the time, don’t know if your mom remembers but you know just to be safe” you tell him as you clasp it around his wrist, unaware how his eyes stayed on you this whole time

“You kept it?”

You look up at him, a bit surprised to see him looking intently at you. You didn’t notice just how close he was, “Well yes, it’s yours. You didn’t have to give it back to me” you mumble

“Don’t look at me like that” you told him, wiggling a finger in front of his face jokingly but the boy in front of you still had this serious look on his face

“Like what?”

“Yah, Lee Donghyuck. Don’t be causing trouble this weekend, I swear to god I will not stop Jaemin from beating you up” you pinch his ears making him flinch away from you, struggling to pry your hands away from him.

This weekend only started and it’s already getting difficult for you.

How you’re going to come out of this unscathed and with an intact heart, you’re not sure.

Superheroes have their kryptonite, gods have their Achilles heels, and you have your weakness too coming in the form of one Lee Donghyuck.

“Let’s do this” holding his hand out for you to take, you look at him for second before lacing your fingers through his.

When you entered the house, you immediately hear someone calling out for Haechan.

“Donghyuck-ah, is that you?” you smile upon hearing his birthname, you’ve always told him how much you like it even though he rarely use it around people who aren’t his family. But to you, he’s not Haechan, he’s Hyuck. You do like his nickname Haechan, it’s a perfect representation of him. But you’ve always loved Hyuck more.

“I was expecting a grander welcoming party, but I don’t even get a banner, or you know my dad or my mom welcoming me by the door” he sarcastically answers, just then his mother appears from the kitchen

“Just say you came home for the food”

“Can’t say it wasn’t the biggest motivator for me to drive down here, ouch eomma that hurts! I was kidding! You’re embarrassing me in front of my girlfriend�� he got one last playful slap from his mom before she turns to you with open arms,

“Y/N, I was wondering when you’d visit again!” she says as she gives you a warm hug, the kind only moms could give. You can’t help but smile and feel welcomed in their home, Haechan is such a caring and bright person, so full of love towards other people. When you met his family, you understood why. He was raised in such a loving home.

“I was so busy with studies” you sheepishly replied, already feeling guilty about not keeping contact with them. Now you understood why Haechan couldn’t break the news to his mom yet.

“Is that Y/N noona?” you hear someone ask then a few loud footsteps running down the hallway, revealing Haechan’s three younger siblings

“Unnie! You made it! I was so sad you didn’t visit last summer, we went on a beach trip I was waiting for you”

“Uh hello, I’m right here” Haechan says as he watches his siblings fawn over you, not even paying attention to him. He acts like he’s hurt by this but really watching you bond with his family makes him happy.

“I promise, I’ll make it up to you some other time okay? I bought your favorite cookies” you tell them, earning a few cheers. Just like that you were whisked away somewhere else in the house leaving Haechan and his mom by the doorway

“Did I just lose my girlfriend just like that?”

“You probably won’t get her back until the end of the weekend” his mom jokes, pulling her son for a hug which he gladly returns

“Happy birthday, eomma” he says making his mom squeeze him even more, “Eomma eomma eommaaa I can’t breathe”

‘’It’s my birthday, let me smother my first baby”

The day went smoother than you expected, no one even suspected you and Haechan. It was much easier with his family around because you don’t have that much time to overthink it unlike when it was just the two of you in the car.

But you do feel guilty for lying. His family welcomed you like their own, it’s like you’re breaking their trust twice. Haechan notices this, how you seem to be lost in thought at times when his siblings aren’t around to bother you. He makes a mental note to talk to you later.

“About the sleeping arrangement” his mom starts off, the three of you are in the kitchen preparing a few things for dinner later tonight

“What about it?” Haechan asks, you watch the mother and son conversation on the side

“Well, your brother wanted a new room so we converted the guestroom to be his new room, I’m sorry Y/N if you don’t want to share a room with Donghyuck I’m sure he won’t mind sleeping in the living room”

“What?!” he says, his mom looking at you with a smile totally ignoring her son’s dramatics

“Uhm I don’t want to kick him out of his own room” you answer, “It’s okay honey”

“Eomma, this is the only time I come home and you kick me out? Of my own room”

“Yah Lee Donghyuck, did I or did I not raise you to be a gentleman?” his mom scolds him, “Why can’t we just share the room? It’s mine anyways” he casually suggests, immediately you look at him with wide eyes. Silently asking him what he was talking about.

“On second thought, I’m fine with kicking him out his room”

Dinner was lovely, full of laughter’s and shared stories between the three four siblings’ while you and Haechan’s parents watch. You offered to help clean up, but his mom won’t let you, saying you are a visitor in their home before sending you upstairs to your bedroom for the night. Although you were relieved of cleaning duties Haechan wasn’t, so you had the room to yourself for a while, choosing this time to freshen up before sleeping. It’s been a long day; you woke up early to drive down here and only took short nap on the way. You can only imagine how tired Haechan must be, momentarily feeling guilty for kicking him out of his own bed.

Scrolling through your phone, texting a few updates to Jaemin to pass time then suddenly you hear a faint knock on the door, “Dressed or not, I’m coming in”

“Shut up, your family is downstairs”

He chuckles at your answer, gently closing the door behind him before throwing himself on the bed making you bounce a bit and topple on the other side. “I can’t believe I’m not sleeping on this bed tonight. I miss my bed”

“Want to switch? I’ll take the couch”

“And have my mother scold me for the rest of the weekend, yea no thanks” he says, rolling to his side to look at you

“Hi”

“Hello” you giggle at his antics, “Are you okay?”

Thinking about why he would ask such thing and the only explanation you get is because he’s Haechan. He cares for people around him, and he cares for you. You know that much. He doesn’t need words to tell him when you need someone to talk to, he’s already there ready to lend an ear or a shoulder to lean on.

“Me? Yes. Just a bit tired”

“Okay but like, are you okay with you know? This” he motions between the two of you, chuckling at how awkward he sounded just then

“I keep thinking about how to tell them we broke up but I always come up blank. I feel guilty for lying but I don’t have the heart to tell them the truth” you whisper, the words staying between the two of you

“I’m sorry”

“For?”

“Dragging you into this, now you’re upset” he replies, tucking a strand of hair that fell on your face.

It’s times like these when you’re not sure just how to hold your guard up around him, not when he’s looking at you like that, talking to you with the softest voice, giving you the comfort you’re yearning for that you’re pretty sure he’s the only one who could give.

“No, really. It’s nice to come back here, I wish I visited sooner”

“Can I ask you something, since we’re already stuck here together anyways” Haechan says, his hand is now resting on the space between the two of you “Sure, you won’t get this chance again” you joked

“Do you think we still have another shot at this? At us?” your breathing paused for a moment, eyes glued on his shirt since you can’t look at him straight in the eyes.

“Honestly?”

“Yes please, lay it on me”

“Probably. But I don’t want you to think I only said that because we’re here and I have no other choice but to say it. That’s just how I really feel, I won’t lie and say I haven’t thought about it because I do. I always wondered how we would be now if we didn’t break up”

“Do you regret it? Or hate me for it?”

“No, I want to thank you actually. You loved me enough to let me go, you didn’t push us to the brink. You let me be me, didn’t stop me from growing even if it meant I leave you. If anything, you encouraged me to go take that leap. How can I hate you for that when all you did was prove just how much you loved me?”

You smile gently at him, your words registering in his mind one by one.

“Would it be weird if I hug you right now?” you laugh at his question, making the first move to scoot closer to him until you were resting in the middle of his bed. Haechan gladly welcomes you back in his arms, the familiar warmth surrounds you.

His heart just beats harder when you tuck yourself under his chin, an action he always found adorable. Savoring every moment because he’s not sure just when he’ll get this chance again.

“I missed you” he whispers against your hair, kissing the top of your head before resting his cheek on it.

“Wait until Jaemin hears about this” you joke

“You just had to ruin the mood, don’t you” he says as he tickles your sides, making you scoot away from him but he won’t let you. Instead, he pulls you back in his embrace determined to keep you there for as long as you let him.

The two of you didn’t even notice the time, you just spent the rest of the night talking about anything and everything. Some time during the night you fell asleep right in his arms.

Haechan was the first one to wake up, seeing you tucked beside him. Still knocked out cold, oblivious to the outside world. He takes this time to just stare at you, committing every detail of your face in his memory. Smiling to himself, he gently pries the hand you had on his shirt. Tucking the blanket around you to keep you warm.

He made his way to the connecting bathroom quietly to start his day. When he got downstairs, he was half surprised to see his mom already in the kitchen.

“Oh gosh, you scared me” he jokes at his mom, taking a mug from the cabinet before pouring himself a cup

“You should’ve seen my confused face when I saw the couch empty. I thought you were sleeping there last night?” she asks skeptically, she knows his son would never try anything but she likes teasing him from time to time

“I was, but Y/N and I were talking. We lost track of time, and I fell asleep”

“All part of your elaborate plan to not sleep on the couch”

“Or maybe I just love talking to my girlfriend” he smiles at the mention of you thus making his mom smile too. It was quite endearing watching his son be so smitten over you.

“Mhm, as long as you’re being safe”

“EOMMA! It’s too early for this”

“For a grandkid or for this talk?”

“I’m going now, I need to pack my stuff” he hears his mom laugh from behind him as he walks back to his room, only to find you awake already dressed up.

“That was fast”

“Yea, I’m just fixing my stuff. What time are we going?” you ask.

Haechan could tell there was a sudden change in you, he can’t put a finger on it yet and it was too early to ask you. He didn’t want to ruin your mood this early in the day that much he knows.

“After lunch, my mom is making breakfast downstairs”

“Okay” you send him a tightlipped smile before exiting the room.

Something happened, just last night you were fine and now it seems like you can’t wait to get away from him. Trying to recall if he said something wrong or did something. Whatever it was, he needs to figure it out before the two of you get home and Jaemin finds out you’re upset after this trip.

The two of you said your goodbyes to his family, even leaving with a promise of visiting soon.

“You know you’re always welcome here” his mom tells you as she hugs you goodbye.

Then the two of you were off. You were quiet on the way back, only speaking when asked a question but for most of the trip you were sleeping or on your phone. When Haechan dropped you off to your apartment building, you all but dashed inside before he could ask you what’s wrong. You were sure he’s itching to ask you but you can’t say it yet.

You needed time to yourself to figure it out. Time to sort out your feelings.

“You’re back, you look like you’re in a bad mood. Should I hunt him down now or are you just tired?” Jaemin asks the moment he spots you entering the door.

“Just tired, it was a long drive back. I’ll tell you all about my weekend later” you assured him, trudging towards your room after.

A few days later, everything seemed like it’s back to normal. The three of you were lounging in the dorm when Renjun exits his room “Yea sure, we’ll be there in ten minutes” he says on the phone

“Who was that?”

“Jeno, want to go out tonight?”

“Why?”

“Just cause, are you coming or not” Renjun asks, already putting on his shoes. “Do I have a choice when you’re already looking at me like I should be out the door the second you’re done putting on your shoes” Jaemin replies, hurriedly putting on his own shoes and making a mental note to just text you later.

A few hours later, in your dazed sleep you hear your phone ringing.

“Yes?”

“Is this Na Y/N?”

The unfamiliar voice was enough to shake you out of your slumber. Quickly looking at the screen to see an unregistered number, “Uh yes this is she”

After that unexepected phone call, you hurried down the scene of crime. Well not literally, you were called to the police station to pick-up your brother and the rest of his friends.

When you got there, you spot the three of them sitting side by side sleeping. Noticing one head was missing.

“I’m here”

Turning to see Renjun holding an ice pack to his head, “Do I want to know?”

“Ask your brother tomorrow, and I’m fine by the way thank you for asking”

“I was going to ask that next, uh hello I’m the one you called on the phone” you told the officer who was sitting on the desk where Renjun was sitting “These four are yours?”

“Just that one” you say pointing at your brother “Bunny boy?”

“Huh?” you asked as bit confused “Oh, I meant he’s the one who’s been crying for the past hour asking to see the bunnies or something like that”

“Oh uhm yea that one’s mine”

“And the other three?”

“This one’s my roommate” you say as you point at Renjun, “and those two?” the officer asks again, pointing at Jeno and Haechan. Well you suppose you can’t just leave them there for the night. Although it was very tempting.

“I’ll take these four, thank you” there were no actual charges filled against them. They were just being to rowdy at a public park, Renjun probably couldn’t handle the three on his own. Usually Jaemin wouldn’t drink this much but maybe for the night he choose to. You fear for the three boys though, they would probably never hear the end of it from Renjun.

Since you can’t physically take all four boys to their own dorms, you decided to let everyone crash at your dorm. Throwing Jeno and Haechan on the couch along with a few pillows and a blanket for the night while your roommates find their way to their own rooms.

It’s already past midnight and you were starting to get grumpy like Renjun, ready to give the boys a piece of your mind tomorrow morning along with a cup of coffee to cure their hangover.

“Can I come in?” you hear a voice ask from your doorway, you didn’t need to turn around to know who it was.

“Can I say no?” you ask back, turning to look at Haechan standing by your door rocking back and forth on his heels.

“Are you mad at me?”

“Will you even remember this conversation tomorrow?”

You didn’t want to have this talk with him right now, not when you’re not sure if he’ll remember this tomorrow or not. Haechan ponders for a moment before taking another step inside your room, still keeping a fair distance from you though.

“You looked upset when we got back, ever since then I can’t help but feel you’re avoiding me”

“I am avoiding you”

“Ouch, right straight for my heart. You sure know how to hurt a man’s pride” he retorts, stumbling a bit as he tries to take steps backwards. “Okay just stop before you break something” you step towards him, helping him to sit on your bed before he collapses on floor and hurt himself.

You were about to step away from him a bottle of water in hopes to sober him up even for a little bit but then he stops you, holding you by the wrist

“I’m sorry”

“Why are you saying sorry?” you ask him, “I don’t know either, but I don’t want you to be mad at me anymore. Can you not be mad at me anymore?” he cutely asks you, definitely still too drunk to remember this

“I’m not mad at you, Hyuck. Quite the opposite, after the weekend trip it made me realize just how much I missed having you around. How much I missed our pointless talks til midnight, how much I miss sleeping next to you”

You send him a small smile, pulling your hand from his grip. Taking a few steps until you were standing in between his legs, making Haechan look up at you. Pushing his bangs back and giving his cheeks a pinch, finding him so adorable at the moment.

“Let’s have this talk in the morning, okay?” you ask him, the tipsy boy nodding at you

“Okay then, off you go. We don’t want Jaemin waking up tomorrow morning with a killer headache only to find you in here” you tell him, already helping him back on his feet to guide him back to the living room.

“I made some hangover soup if you want, also coffee?”

“You are heaven sent, I could kiss you right now” Jeno thanks you with a grateful smile

“YAH!” Jaemin and Haechan both said at the same time, Jeno not feeling a bit intimidated by his friends instead he just shoots them an eye smile too. Meanwhile Renjun glares at the two for being so loud

“I don’t care who kisses who right now, you three listen. If you ever pull shit like that again, I will abandon the three of you. I don’t care if you go to jail for real this time” Renjun tells the other three while you pour coffee for the three of them, Renjun likes drinking tea so you pass him the kettle make his own cup.

“We weren’t that bad” Haechan countered

“You insisted doing a backflip while standing on the swing”

“How do you even remember last night? I don’t recall how we got here” Jeno admits to the table, you notice Jaemin wasn’t saying anything assuming he was still curing his hangover.

After breakfast, the two non-inhabitants of your apartment finally left. Renjun retreated to his room while Jaemin rests on the couch after helping you clean up. “Hey you” you call out to your twin brother, sitting at the end of the couch by his feet.

“Mhm”

“What’s up? You’re awfully quiet”

“What do you mean?” he asked you back

“You didn’t talk too much during breakfast, I was expecting some blaming on your side. Why’d you drink last night anyways? You hate the taste alcohol”

“I’m still nursing a headache” he answers, getting up from your seat to get him some medicine and a bottle of water. “Here, go rest in your room or something” you tell him as you pass the medicine over to him

“Did something between you and Haechan?”

“Huh? What do you mean?” now you’re confused.

You were just thinking about the guy, too. Haechan didn’t mention anything over breakfast, he said a quick goodbye before he left and that was it. Thinking he might really have forgotten the conversation you had last night.

“Last night, he was already drunk and all he talked about was you. He was literally on his knees, begging for me to let you date him again. Haechan. What have you done to the guy?”

You just laugh lightly at his story, already picturing last nights scenarios. “I don’t think he remembers any of it”

“Oh he does, you were still asleep but he literally was in my room at the butt crack of dawn asking me if you were mad at him and if it was okay to ask you out for coffee”

“He didn’t ask me anything” you mumble, looking down at your sock clad feet. Jaemin stares at you for a second, pinching the bridge of his nose before speaking again “You know you can do anything, you don’t have to ask permission from me. I’m your brother, I would be on your side no matter what. If he’s really what you want then go ahead. All I want is for you to be happy. Haechan makes you happy”

“He does”

Jaemin smiles at the way you were smiling absentmindedly. It was so easy for you admit it, he’s still wondering what’s taking his bestfriend so long to finally admit his feelings for you. No other guy came close to Haechan, he knew you were smitten with his bestfriend just as much as Haechan was to you. Even when he jokes about you being off limits, he does trust Haechan with you.

“Do me a favor and just make the first move cause if you’re waiting for him, believe me it’ll take much longer. That guy is currently having a war with his mind”

“Jaem?”

“Mhm?”

“Thank you”

“For letting you date my bestfriend?” you laugh at his question, “No, well that but also for being the best brother ever”

After having that moment with your twin brother, you quickly changed your clothes and went over Haechan and Jeno’s apartment complex. Luckily it was only a five minute walk from yours, you took this time to think about what you were going to say to him.

When you got to their floor, you were just about to knock on the door when it opened revealing Jeno in is work out clothes

“Oh Y/N, what are you doing here?”

“Is Hyuck home?” you ask, “In his room probably still sleeping. Come in, I’m actually going out for a while” you bid goodbye to him, closing the door behind you before walking towards Haechan’s room. The door was left ajar, looking in between the gap to see Haechan on his sleeping stomach. The sound of his steady breathing was the only thing you can hear in his room.

You quietly entered his room, walking towards his bed until you were standing beside him. Pulling the blanket around him carefully but Haechan’s eyes shot open

“Sorry” you whispered, holding both hands up like you were just caught

“I thought Jeno was tucking me in, either that or I’m dreaming right now”

“You’re not dreaming, we’re actually having this conversation right now”

“See that sounds like something you would say in my dreams” he countered, how he could still argue with you while being half asleep you’re not sure.

“I’m two seconds away from smacking you in the face with a pillow, get up we have something to talk about”

That got Haechan sitting up quickly on his bed, eyes staying on you. So you really are here, this isn’t one of those cruel dreams Haechan have had before where he thinks you’re here with but then he wakes up alone on his bed.

“So I wasn’t dreaming last night either”

“Which part are you referring to? The part where you asked me if I was mad at you or the part where I had to pick you up from the police station or the part where you were on your knees kneeling infront of my brother begging for him to let you date me again” it was fun to tease Haechan, you don’t get that many chances but when you do you make the most of it.

“I-“ he was rendered speechless for a second, still processing what you just told him.

“Can I ask something?” Haechan says, you nodded along waiting for his question

“Did Jaemin say yes? Because if I’m being honest I cannot remember that part of that conversation. I do recall the part where you said you’re not mad at me. And I also recall you saying you missed me. Was that real or was that the alcohol?”

You wanted to coo at how adorable he was being but instead you laugh a bit. You thought it was going to be complicated to have this conversation with him. You weren’t sure just how to approach the subject of your relationship with him. But this is Haechan, he knows you. Even without words he already knows.

It was so easy falling for him the first time. The second time is just as easy. If you’re being honest, there was really no time in between your break-up with him when you felt any different. He’s still the only one who can give you the butterflies, who can make you smile with his silly jokes, who can tease you with his goofy antics. The only one who has your heart. Even after all this time, you realize, you’re still into him.

“And here I was about to pour out my feelings to you, looks like we won’t be doing that anymore” you were just about to get up from his bed when he pulls you back by the hand making you fall on his lap. Now you’re sitting sideways on his lap, your head turned to face him

“I’ll go and ask Jaemin what his answer was, but for now can you just… are we… let me get this straight, we’re getting back together right?” this time you didn’t hold back the laugh, swinging your arms around his shoulder to hug him a bit closer to you.

“If that’s what you want”

“You’re what I want”

You smile at his answer, heat creeping up your cheeks but you don’t shy away from his stare because this right here is what you’ve been wishing for. There’s no one in this world you’d look at with this much love but Haechan.

“Me too”

“Is this the part where you let me kiss you?”

“We can ask my brother-“ “Oh my god, your brother’s not even here and he’s still cockblocking me” Haechan jokes, earning a giggle from you “Come here”

He didn’t have to be told twice. The next second his lips were on yours. It felt like coming home, like a dream he used to have and is now a reality. The two of you let yourselves get lost in each other’s lips and embrace. If this was a dream and Haechan wakes up, he’d be really pissed and Jeno would have to deal with his moody ass for the rest of the weekend.

But it’s not a dream, you’re here in his arms. Back in his embrace. And this time, he’s not going to let you go.

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