#i love Sonja

[m0thisonfire]

I love Sonja and Silvina's interactions. There's a level of respect there, and you can see it. And I adore that so so much.

I also want to share this because god-

Silvina and Sonja my darlings, I love you both. The dry humor is wonderful.

They're both sisters, they both have little sisters so they know

[snail-sir]

More of these lmao

Bro they're so silly

I love them

[trafficjamupthere]

+ Capt. Duke Wagner's Daughter

[feli026]

hot take i like the lore they made for waves for intrigues it's at least way much better than what we got for last season

[bunnybird-afk]

MA'AM DO YOU NEED A DOG BECAUSE I CAN BARK?!

[echoes-of-mia]

okay this is a long ramble and kinda personal, so bear with me, but i want to talk about being aspec in the joker out fandom bc I'm full of emotions and i need to share them somewhere

(just a short warning for internalised aphobia before i go on)

for context, i identify as aspec, more specifically asexual and some flavour of aromantic. I've known about the ace part for about 3-4 years now, the aro part is more recent and I'd say that before, lets say, a couple of months ago, I'd always seen that as something negative, something that makes me miserable, a deficit that will always be there and that others will never understand

and then i joined the (tumblr) joker out fandom around... june of last year, probably? and at first i thought "theres no way there are many queer people in this fandom, its essentially a boyband, and other aspec people? no way"

well, oh boy was i wrong

because not only is this fandom, like what, 90% queer? (i know someone made a poll at some point but i dont remember the percentages) but it's also around 50% aspec. and there's just this general positivity and support surrounding the a-spectrum in the fandom. like, some days ago there was an aphobic comment somewhere and before i even saw it my dash was FLOODED with people defending aspec people and i was just sitting in the kitchen reading through the posts and crying.

and yes, this is tumblr, i could have seen this coming and it's probably different on other platforms, but so many aspec people in one place, in one fandom, is still something that I've never experienced before.

so why are so many aspec people drawn to a slovenian indie/shagadelic rock band that, at first glance, is just 5 very good-looking probably-straight guys making music? that doesnt really make sense, right?

and then you see how much more they are. how they interact with each other. how comfortable they are in their sexualities, in their masculinity, in being themselves. you see a group of friends that love each other so unashamedly it's a bit unbearable to watch sometimes. you don't see them holding back because "thats not their partner!" or "that's reserved for romantic relationships!", you just see love. you see them supporting each other, being physically affectionate, looking out for each other, laughing together, even living together. vse kar vem could easily be a romantic song, but it's about their friendship!!

and what is all of that, if not THE dream of many aspec people? to be okay with not feeling sexual or romantic attraction because you have your group of friends that you love the same amount as allosexual/-romantic people love their partner(s) and to show it, and to know that they love you the same (and won't replace you with romantic partners) because they also show it, without thinking twice about it, without thinking about how others might interpret your relationship because it just doesn't matter as long as you love each other.

so of course aspec people see themselves in joker out. we see hope for ourselves in them, we are probably a little (or in my case very) jealous of their friendship, we want what they have or we just love to finally see real people live with the sort of affection we would like to have. (just to clarify, this is based mostly on what i feel, so other aspecs might feel completely different about this, idk why I'm trying to generalise this)

and this is about all five of them, but to take jan and nace as an obvious example: they love each other so much that the fans start to speculate, and they know about it. but instead of hiding their affection, they just keep on doing what they're doing. because they know how they feel for each other, and it's no one else's business, and they won't be stopping their love just because of "conspiracy theories". and to me it doesn't matter how they love each other (platonic, romantic, whatever), it matters that they do and that you can't help but notice it, because they show it in every interaction we see of them. the damon baker photoshoot just confirmed that, they look at each other and the amount of love makes me cry, it's so incredibly beautiful.

(just some other things i want to mention: them probably cooking mostly potatoes because nace is glutenfree. nace calming down bojan after his panic attack in summer. jan and bojan casually kissing on the lips during a concert. the jure and bojan getting married photoshoot. bojan touching kris's hair during concerts. kris being carried around during a photoshooting. jure and jan drawing a heart together. them gathering around jure's drumset during concerts. i could go on but for my sanity and yours i won't, there are so many moments that just make me soft)

I'd love to be more physically affectionate with my friends, but every time there's this voice in the back of my head saying what society has conditioned it to say, which is that that kind of affection is reserved for romantic relationships, and this voice stops me every time. i feel like bojan, jan, jure, kris and nace either don't have that voice (anymore?) or they've just managed to ignore it, they don't hold back and i admire that as much as i wish i could be like that.

and while i still have a long way to go until i can be affectionate with my friends without worrying about it or holding myself back, joker out have shown me that it's possible, because of them i finally have days on which i think that i can be aspec and actually happy about it. being aspec finally feels as freeing as it should feel and I'm just grateful

joker out has allowed so much queer joy into my life without intending to and although i don't think anyone i know irl will ever understand this, i hope that some of you can relate to this in some way.

I've said this a lot during the past two weeks but i can never say it enough: all the love to my fellow aspecs, and also to all the non-aspec people who support us <3

feel free to add to this if you want to; my dms are always open if you want to talk about it without posting about it, i love hearing other people's thoughts about stuff like this ^^

[yolyoola]

DOGGYSTYLE, SIDEWAYS, FRONTWARDS, BACKWARDS, UPSIDE DOWN, 360 DEGREES, NO CONDOMS, SKIN ON SKIN, ON THE LIVING ROOM,ON THE BED ROOM, ON THE FRIDGE, ON THE CLOSET, ON THE CEILING, ON THE WALLS ON THE BATHROOM ON THE COUCH ON THE CAR AND ON THE STREET

[i-am-totally-not-a-lizard]

so I'm learning Toki Pona and.......

I know this is just gonna further the lizard allegations but WHAT DO YOU MEAN NON-CUTE ANIMAL?? WHAT DID THE REPTILES AND AMPHIBIANS DO TO YOU!?!?!😭

[kiwibirdlafayette]

making character playlists is fun but yknow whats even more fun is on ship playlists listenin through them and figuring out which songs are from which character’s pov, which are just the mysterious narrator in the sky singin about them and which ones are their broadway style duets :]c

[mukuharakazui]

fast forward to mianitian isles where this is literally all he does

[starkwoes]

someone posted that Aemond and Rhaena would bond over their lack of dragons and being the neglected second in line and I haven’t been able to get over it I believe they are soulmates now. The way they could get under eachother’s skin …

[cosmosrebellion]

"Hey, J. Why the sudden interest in Barbarians?"

Me: I'm bisexual:

[limeskye]

Will Trent - 1x12

[lives-in-a-harpsichord]

Hilda & Gordon

[kaitlinj16]

Underworld | Soulmates

🖤💙🖤

[bunnybird-afk]

Sonja's Affinity Tales