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I love ggy so much how did they accidentally make the most intriguing hypothetical gay romance ever
#also the book is just so fucking good#and tony becker is literally the best fnaf book protaganist ever once you understand his character#and how crazy the book writes him#like oh my god hes so tunnel visioned doomed by the narritave#any scenario where tony survives the attack is the best idea ever like fr#its just so fun and awesome to make stuff up with that very loose premise#like u can do anything#and the characters are likeable too because they have FLAWS#tony isnt a bad person hes just in a bad place and is an asshole without realizing#and also twelve#like how am i not supposed to become obsessed with beckory when tony spent the whole book#accidentally obsessing over gregorys evil side and then being so tunnel visioned by his own emotional baggage that it kills him#exactly how his father warned him#and his father is the reason hes even so deep into solving mysteries like#and u can put that onto gregory if tony ever survived the attack#like he wouldnt want to believe it the same way he didndt want to believe his dad did it and repeat history#by delving deep into ggy#like damn every relationship ever with gregory is so fucking interesting#ggy never stop being awesome#pandas.txt#obviously beckory isnt the only reason i like ggy but damn its a big reason#tony and Gregory are both so flawed and have so much going on in their head theyd be fucking crazy together#also expanding on the tony stuff i said earlier gregorys side has so much potential too like#even if tony died if gregory ever remembered hed mourn tony and have to deal with that#even if they werent even that close at the time and Gregory doesnt even like. actually have any memories of being friends with him#and if tony survived its like gregorys remembering this faceless nameless boy as the only connection to his past#like what if they both searched for eachother after surviving what then
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hm have i ever considered that people thinking my fic is abandoned is actually part of the metanarrative about the theme of the fic that includes "not forgetting about or valuing less something that is unpolished or 'half-finished' because it still can communicate full moments of genuine human existence and understanding between reader and writer" so actually I should stop being irked by 'is it unfinished' comments and just appreciate the way they nicely add onto this fully constructed and definitely deliberate quality of of metanarrative? no i have not but i am thinking that now and it is funny.
#I'm reliving some feelings I had when I first wrote wall fic rn and it's making it easier to reread the first parts and remember all the#vibes going on. because one of the big things about wall fic is i want to feel like we're sucked in when we write/read it#and that requires a certain state of mind from me hat sometimes im hesitant to slip into#ok but i just remembered the part where kdj is like talking about how important hsy's first unfinished novel was so important to him is at#the top of chapter four which literally is a chapter that has remained unfinished for 2+ years? hilarious actually#like this mf (me) managed to invent 'unfinished chapters' in addition to his unfinished fic and the top of said chapter has a big important#thing about how the finishedness of something doesn't have to limit the way you connect to it that is sooo fucking funny of me#sorry okay i am only now pushing past the burnout/embarrassment of i cant believe my fic is unfinished when literally i was getting my#degree in neuroscience? like ok king stay in school fr. it was all okay and orv is like literally still here and im just fucking#funny for doing all this tbh hahaha am feeling some euphoria about it#personal
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i cant believe theres actual people out there that complain that people dont die enough in kh?? like yeah i will concede its kind of annoying when someone you thought was dead is actually alive the whole time but like i also have the ability to acknowledge that kh is just not that kind of story??
#im not articulated enough to explain why people are wrong for wanting that#but its like#either youve never realled watched or read a piece of media that kills literally everyone and its sad as fucking hell#or youve never watched or read a media that REFUSES to kill anyone not bc thats not the themes the story is trying to express but bc litera#or youve never watched or read enough things that absolutely refuses to kill off characters and its not even thematically important#you people wouldnt survive reading fairy tail#i just remember seeing people be actually upset that roxas and xion came back bc it detracts from the tragedy of their story#and like? do you not like seeing your fave characters thrive?#kh has never been about that kind of tragedy you know?#its core message has literally been everyone deserves to live and have a life simply bc theyre hear they exist and they interact with other#or something dont quote me on that#like thats its core theme!! existence and your right to it!!#and roxas and xion coming back doesnt do shit abt the tragedy they endured bc they still lived it?? it still happened??#i can play kh2 right fucking now and id still cry over roxas??#if anything in so happy hes his own person now??#and thats the thing bc even narratively speaking it wouldnt make sense for them to not come back BC THEY HAD HEARTS!!! they were their own#people!!! that they had to go back to sora was less bc sora needed his nobody back in his body to become whole again and more bc they had h#his memories. the moment they were separated from each other roxas and sora were fundamentally different. and as they grew and roxas gained#new memories and connections HIS OWN HEART grew and he became his own person#like it was established he had a heart thats just fucked up as hell to not give him his own body??#and again not the kind of themes the story is telling!#michi tag#(drafts) also still correct!!!! i am soeaking only the truth
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There's a certain something something to Bojack Horseman that makes it not really furry media despite ostensibly having all the elements it needs. I think I need to rewatch that Patricia Taxxon video bc for the life of me I cannot figure out what it is
#is it the art style? the content?#i feel like furry stuff today and furry stuff of the 90s i occasionally see and like disney robin hood is all on a continuum#like theres a timeline there#but bojack horseman is like. outside of that#but how???#it literally cant be#i just dont see it and think furry#i do remember the video mentioning sensory elements of furry content which#in all honesty#bojack horsman does Not do im my memory#like dog characters act like dogs but theyre not fluffy even if they technically are#funny how they confirmed horse characters have horse dicks tho. thats histerical love it 10/10 no notes#the art style is probably part of it a bit tho because every animal is just animal head + fur or feathers or whatever + normal human torso#regardless of anything#with no tail#except one scorpion#so its stylized but its not flexible like most furry stuff is#i dont wanna say it doesnt allude towards the autistic though because i really have no idea#might send her an ask#theres also the fact that the characters arent fursonas unless they reference someone specific and then they rarely are mesnt ro mean shiblt#beyond puns#like mr. pb isnt someone as a dog. hes a dog#but maybe all furry stuff is like that#i think the animal stuff in BH is meant to be entertaining and connect the audience to a certain reality where accidently winning a ski race#to become governor of california is possible in the same universe as serious decades long history of alcoholism#having the MC be a horse opens the door for him to drink comical levels of alcohol and be a former sitcom character in-universe#which is a) funny as fuck and b) makes it easier to stay invested as the show slowly but steadily tells you in season 1 early on that ->#things do matter in this show and the things you find funny are also frequently very real and we will tell tou what the difference is if#you listen. so theres that#hit tag limit gdnt
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well that nintendo direct sucked
#why would anyone pay for this console dude they added discord to the damn thing. charge 100$ xtra and everyones creaming their pants over it#oh sorry no they didnt add discord because at least discord is FUCKING FREE#“u need the membership to use gamechat” fuck so off#omg guys remember how in the 90s u could play multiplayer w people? like all of u could connect ur games with cables and play multiplayer?#and then yk we figured out how to do that online in the 2000s? and then u could play via internet connection?#well we repackaged it and u can do that again! (u have to pay a monthly subscription ofc) but THATS NOT IMPORTANT please just give us money#also the console looks fucking ugly with its minimal colors#literally one of the main reasons i got the og switch is cuz the joycons are fun colors#eliyaps#the current market for game consoles is so fucking bleak dude
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My madoka magica hot take is I like sayaka/kyoko as a ship more than madoka/homura
#madoka magica#both ships are very very good and make me feral but god kyoko/sayaka really caters to me#i am biased cuz sayaka is my favorite character lol and i just want good things for her#but i mean we get them as enemies fighting to the death obsessively like sayaka gets so focused on proving herself to kyoko she cant think#of anything else and she wastes her energy fighting her instead of witches and just the foil like#both used their wish to grant something for someone else and kyoko lost everything as a result and decided that nothing good will ever come#of helping others so she should only look after number one and of course shed think that cuz shes all she has left#meanwhile sayaka refuses to take care of herself because she never wants others to suffer so she only exists for others#and both of them change their perspectives in pursuit of each other theyre literally red and blue#and i love seeing the development of their relationship and kyokos feelings i love her offering to kill ryosuke for sayaka#and how terrified she is in that moment when she sees sayakas lifeless body separated from the soul gem#or how she shares her story and remembers why she started fighting because of sayaka and fucking#THE WAY SHE ACTS SELFLESSLY AND STUPIDLY OPTIMISTIC TO SAVE SAYAKA FROM HER WITCH FOR#THE WAY SHE SACRIFICES HERSELF TO CONNECT WITH HER THE LOVE SONG#THEM HOLDING HANDS WHILE SAYAKA CRIES AND KYOKO IS THERE FOR HER AND THEY UNDERSTAND EACH OTHER SO WELL#god fucking dammit these fucking gay people are ruining my sleep#yeah idk if its obvious but i have a specific type when it comes to ships i love when characters beat each other up and are the center of#each others motivations and go through the horrors together and come out the other side and love each other deeply#love each others flaws and theres understanding and tenderness#i haaaave to draw them but i also have to draw a lot of blorbos rn alkksk
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Still haven't messaged my mom back. And I don't think I'm going to.
#you know how they say time makes you look on the past with nostalgia and that's why elderly people think so fondly of past decades? not me#there are moments I look back on with nostalgia sure but the overwhelming feeling of looking back on my childhood is just whatever I do#wherever I go whatever happens that will not be my life again. my memory is long I made a promise to myself I intend to keep I don't forget#support you having your grandkids if their mother is deemed unfit yes. take the older two myself if it comes to it yes. move provinces to#live with you to look after the five of them together where you would be my only adult connection and there's a language barrier and I have#no work history and I'd be between five hours and nine hours away from any other connection I have answer's an absolute fucking no. I've#seen how you are with my sister how you were with my brother. who do you think they call when they've had enough of you? do you not#remember most of the beatings I took was because I was standing between you and my brother? of course not because according to you you#never did beat me but if you think I'm not aware that would turn on me again the second I'm no longer distant and just visiting if you#think you'd find nothing to complain about because you've built up this golden child ideal of me in your head and want to forget how it was#when I was actually in your care you are very very wrong. I remember. I know that inconveniences a lot of people who want to forget#unpleasant things about themselves. me too to be honest I have memories I wish I could erase but I can't especially with regard to my#sister. I defended my brother but not her. not enough. and it's probably why I give so much to her now more than I should because it's#enabling but it is what it is I guess. I won't use my memories against anyone just for the sake of it but I absolutely fucking will#to protect myself or others. you want a redemption arc without admitting to anything? keep being patient and kind towards#your grandchildren even if you end up having to take them and if you can't do it for all five of them then accept that it's better for the#older two to be with me. that's it. those are your options: the older two are with me so you only have to look after the younger three or#you need to buckle down and learn from your past mistakes to look after the five of them and all that is *if it even comes to that* which#as things are it's not in danger of that! it was a regular fucking visit to monitor the situation that's all; they're not getting taken#literally every time she freaks out about something it's a 50/50 chance it's actually something or she's invented a completely#twisted version of events
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Y'all, I think I've figured it out. Operating on the assumption that the finale is indeed an alternate timeline from the manga, then someone could have written on a page of the Book to rewrite reality to lead to the events of the finale sometime during season 5's events. In other words, this would explain the INCONSISTENCIES with things that were established or at least heavily implied/assumed prior and in the manga: Chuuya being a real vampire and not in control, nothing being planned, Dazai giving sincere speeches, Dazai really being shot and saying his "last words", Fyodor's hand not being injured, soukoku not killing Fyodor while in Meursault because they literally couldn't and Dazai needing Sigma to discover Fyodor's secrets because of that, Fukuchi's goal not being one that relied on Fukuzawa being alive since he clearly intended to kill him, etc etc too many more to count
Events and explanations in the finale feeling so contradictory and out of place, and characters feeling so ooc and not acknowledging any discrepancies, makes perfect sense if you consider that, up until a certain point, this was our canon timeline — until someone rewrote the ending of the arc with the Book, starting with Fyodor injuring his hand...! We only have one example of the Book being used to majorly rewrite reality in the manga, and when that happened, the main players — the ADA members — were aware that reality was changed, even though they did have memories of the new rewritten reality. BUT, Nikolai was unaware of this during that scene, and so also were all law enforcement because of the clause written on the page accounting for that, so what if the same thing could happen in this instance, to prevent all our characters in the finale from being aware that things had changed? We literally saw someone writing Nikolai's dialogue for him; imagine someone doing that during Dazai's final speech in the episode, and during all the rest of it! I don't know who this would be, but possibly a mysterious third party who got a hold of a different page from the Book somewhere and wrote things to turn out this way, because they wanted the ADA to win against Fukuchi and Fyodor? Maybe even because... this is the only way they can win?
Remember Atsushi asserting this plan, and how silly and too simple it sounded? What if someone else ended up doing just that, writing their own simple outcome for the ADA to win (as a narrative of course, which is probably why it had to start with the major catalyst of, again, Fyodor injuring his hand)? Additionally, if that's what happened, maybe the ending of the finale is a sort of side effect to the Book being used improperly in this way, leading to a destabilization of the timeline or a mishmash of other timelines into the anime one, leading to the alternate Fukuchi and Akutagawa we see there?
#bungou stray dogs#meta#THIS MAKES SO MUCH FUCKING SENSE AND EXPLAINS SO MUCH I'M GOING TO SCREAM#i guess this is sort of a foregone conclusion that the Book is the result of this timeline#since we ALREADY KNOW the different timelines are a result of the Book s;dlkfkgfkdlsl#but it only just occurred to me of the Book being used like. MID-PLOT#THE FINALE REALLY IS JUST BAD FANFICTION LITERALLY LMAOOOOOOOO#A BONES EMPLOYEE GOT ISEKAI'D INTO THE BSD UNIVERSE AND REALLY FUCKING WANTED THAT HAPPY ENDING FOR S5 IN 24 MINUTES COME HELL OR HIGH WATE#AND GOT ONE OF THE PAGES AND JUST WROTE IT THEMSELVES!!!!!! 😂😂😂😭😭😭🤣🤣🤣#they'd had enough of the people slandering their anime adaptation. they said oh we'll REALLY give you something to cry about#BUT THAT WOULD EXPLAIN WHY CHARACTERS FEEL OOC!! IF THEIR DIALOGUE WAS WRITTEN FOR THEM VIA THE BOOK!!! AAAAAAAAHHHHH#....what if it's Dazai. What if Dazai wrote this ending just like he wrote the Beast timeline. What then—#I guess Beast in and of itself is one massive example of things being rewritten and no one but the writer (Dazai) remembering/being aware#that they were ever different#so.......... it's not impossible despite what we saw with Sunday Tragedy#i'm telling you though i've connected the dots#if things go differently in the upcoming chapters#and we see that other Fukuchi and we find out about someone using the Book i'm going to LOSE MY MINDDDDDD
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toying with the idea of making yancey's friends not real. would that be too evil
#personal#hear me out. the diner is a mimic and it's toying with the entire town and making people oblivious and just. stuck in time metaphorically#it's known to make people hallucinate it's known to show things that aren't there. it can fuck with technology#yancey has. problems. he's sick with grief and pain and regret and sorrow from his past moving into a strange new town#and there's all these people there in the diner and they all remind him of some part of his life#stevie quite literally reminds him of his ex but stuck in the state before anything happened. stevie is a constant reminder of like#what could have been had they not crossed the line of getting together#his relationship with daphne (friendship mostly but he has a little crush on her at some point) is like#the romanticized version of the life he had in mind for him and his ex. yeah he gets a little bit insane with it but he loves very deeply#freddy is what he wished for his older brother to be like. their friendship is what he wishes he and his brother would be like#rafiq is basically yancey's ideal partner. yukiko reminds him of his younger sister#hell even teddy is connected to him because he and teddy are basically the same person. dealing with a situation very poorly#but teddy WOULD be real since he is part of CALAMITY so his connection to yancey if anything is like. on purpose#he is SUPPOSED to mirror yancey because that will make yancey realize things about himself#that only leaves morrigan as the only other real person in all of this. because she is the only one not connected to the diner#(freddy isn't either but since he's first introduced on the radio as radio host he is sort of connected to the town)#(in like a way the diner could influence that too. you know what i'm saying)#and morrigan's whole deal is that she's so so stuck in the past. trying to get back what is no more. and daphne is her sister#so daphne could even be a manifestation of yancey's and morrigan's shared grief#for yancey the romanticized relationship with his ex. for morrigan her sister who died in the wildfires#are you seeing my vision. the diner is defeated and it's just yancey morrigan and teddy. it's always been#no one else has been real the whole time. they've only interacted with one another or yancey. never with teddy or morrigan#(with exception of daphne who would have interacted with morrigan bc of shared manifestation)#and yancey acts like the others have never existed. because they haven't. and now that he's no longer#under the influence of the diner. he doesn't remember. haha#idk if i wanna go with this because some of them aren't as solidified as concepts as others but man. MANNNNN
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#i wish i could just have one normal conversation where i say the right correct things that are normal#in the right tone of voice and everything#this isnt about anyone or any friend stuff it's about me getting a phone call for a job interview & fumbling it#like idk what it is but the way i talk and interact with people is always incorrect#im saying this on the verge of tears. i try so. fucking. hard. to interact and be social#and make connections with people and it feels like im a fucking space alien making a fool of myself#i dont belong in any group ive ever been in and i never will#and i can't even answer a phone call about my availability without my brain melting out of my ears so i forget#everything ive been trying so hard to remember and say and do better#..... i wanna feel like an important person in a group#i wanna be part of something and feel important and like im needed#and i would be missed if i was gone#i think i could just quietly delete all my social media apps and disappear from every place ive ever been in#and nobody would even notice. i literally dont add anything#im just gonna be some awkward random freak in whatever job i get too#im not ever gonna be liked or depended upon or needed for anything#every other job ive had ive always just felt in the way and awkward and clueless#nobody ever makes small talk with me or comes up to me or invites me to stuff#am i doing something wrong? was friendship supposed to come out of it? what did i miss?#im so sick of being a fucking failure i just dont wanna talk to anyone ever again i just wanna be alone forever#its impossible everythign is impossible
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say what you will about the hannibal lecter diet of
WINEWINEWINE
PEOPLEPEOPLEPEOPLE
DESSERTDESSERTDESSERT
but girlie got shit done😳😳
#like. maybe he was onto somethin........... /j#im just sayin i feel a billion times better when i eat dessert each night#sooooOoooooOooooo#OMG WAIT. meta moment#mythological hannibal lecter moment:#cannibalism and its belief of giving people superhuman powers. holy shit. how could i ever forget this#have i had this moment before? have i made this connection before??#i always talk abt the supernatural/magical behavior of the characters on nbc hannibal#will's ability to recreate crime scenes. hannibal's time management skills (psychiatrist. consultant. chef. murderer. tableau maker. opera#goer. dinner parties he hosts. brainwashing and kidnapping people.) how the FUCK does he do it all??#the answer is literally this almost ominpotent nature that hannibal is Meant to give off#he is the devil. he manipulates time. he has all the power#AND my man is a cannibal?? oh man oh man. i need to read more on this but how could i JUST remember that cannibalism has long-standing#myths surrounding it about how it'd supposedly give mortals/humans superhuman powers#um. wowoowow. a Moment for sure#hannibal meta#maria is literally just rambling. hi#accidentally losing my mind in the tags of a silly lil joke post i was writing#hannibal.txt#hannibal.tags#.txt#nbc hannibal#hannibal lecter#will graham
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it is not slacking off to write or create it is not slacking off to do things that are fun i am not slacking off or procrastinating right now i'm allowed to do things i enjoy doing for fun including playing games and writing and such
#if i say it enough i will remember it's true#can you guess which aspect of capitalism i'm struggling with today?#it does not help my bones are somehow WORSE than yesterday even after all of the rest i took so that's Super Fun:tm:#so i've got that on in the back of my head#ugh#i... am putting off calling my grandma - i meant to do it last week but i got too in my head about it#and uno reversed myself into forgetting to do it at all until the Worst Times Possible#(generally around Normal Fuckin Meal Times)#i want to call to wish her a belated mother's day and check in re: grandpa but also...#also i don't want to have to do a phone call i don't want to talk to them about anything at all#they stress me out to talk to and it makes me super uncomfortable to be on the phone in general let alone with a Heavy Topic over our heads#like.... i'm comfortable with where i'm at acceptance-wise with Grandpa's whole situation#and i know i am late for a better relationship with the pair of them in general#like i'm not going to repair a relationship that wasn't built to collapse down to this point this is as far as it got built up to#i'm not building more relationship between me and someone who i know is passing soon when they didn't take the opportunity either#like they had just as much chance as me to improve our relationship after i became an adult and they chose to use my mother as#an intermediary which has stunted their connection to me and that's not my fault#i admittedly did not reach out but i was not taught i could safely do that to anyone#because my parents badmouth literally any person they know for one reason or another#i regularly fuck up in conversations with my grandparents because i'll say somethign that is a holdover from my understanding of them#through my parents and it's like. kind of really insulting! and i've been doing it my whole life and i know as soon as i get their reaction#and i can't recover because i don't actually know them at all#so i can't be like ''oh my god i know that's inaccurate i have no idea why i said that'' because i *don't* know until after i've done it#every goddamn time it happened the last time i got a call from them too#like... my bio fam/family of origin is just not good at keeping in touch and i know i'm a product of that#and i know theoretically how to adjust for it but it does require work on the other end of the line too#and unfortunately i know my bio family too well and know they won't do their part#i grew up in the group project everyone hates#and i'm on my way to deciding they can show up to the presentation day without me#i've started a new family project over here with blackjack and hookers
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so true bestie all the things i like are connected to each other even if they aren't. they are now
#i've connected the dots. corpus christi carol maze dance#did he just make this up based on halliwell classifying this is the key as a game? or another text?#or is this like his own observation... unclear.#i have always been curious about the origin of this is the key and halliwell says literally nothing about it#i want to believe....#🧃#okay i did find a description of the gestures for a different version of this is the key...#why don't they describe them in actual published collections of nursery rhymes though#they're important!!!#they just assume you're british and grew up with this 😔#i do remember the first time i heard of it was in a story where someone was singing it while they were working#so there were no gestures to go with it in the story it was just a children's song#and i looked it up and looked into it because of that and couldn't find anything about it other than the words#but i did think it sounded like there Should be a physical component because it reminded me of here is the church here is the steeple#i do like the impression it gives on its own that it's missing something...#and i don't think here is the church here is the steeple would sound as enigmatic if you recited it without doing the gestures#anyway the gestures that were described were just hand gestures but he says 'maze dances of this kind' in the footnote as if#the dance for this is the key were literally physically a maze dance. rather than the lyrics being labyrinthine + there also being a 'dance#like girl could you please fucking elaborate. could anyone. ever. describe anything
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↖ plagued by visions (vividly experiencing, on a constant loop, my Durge seducing and then eviscerating Alfira in a paroxysm of ecstasy) (they'd put a bubble of silence around them both so no one else in camp can hear her -- moaning or screaming) (Wyll is awake. he sees it all. his attraction to Durge is a nauseating gnashing in his core)
#i may be... how you say... overidentifying with this character#after about a half hour of this i just gave up on going back to sleep and got up and grabbed my laptop. i can't live like this#hey remember when we used to say ''i have the weirdest boner'' on tumblr all the time. yeah#except it's not weird it's literally just another day ending in Y here at echthr0s industries#but jfc i can't fucking. think about anything else. except maybe durge using gale's severed hand as a... toy#jfc.#general oc tag#(i do have to say... this definitely puts my inability to connect with tav in sharp perspective 🤦🏿♂️)#.nuadha#baldur's gate
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me internally when i’m trying to respect and recognise that my dad has unaddressed autism that impacts the way he handles social interractions while also trying to not just excuse the shitty insensitive behaviour that has absolutely contributed to my mental health issues
#it’s like. haha yeah he handled that situation terribly but remember it wasn’t intentional and he doesn’t understand how that came across!!#i can’t be mad at him i can’t take it personally and get upset haha. hahaha.#and also it’s like. being autistic isn’t an excuse to be a dick. being autistic doesn’t mean you have to like. emotionally damage ur kid ✌🏻#which i AM. growing up with him has fucked me up!!! and i’m allowed to be mad at that i’m allowed to be upset!!!!!!!!#but also oh god is that shitty of ME??? is that insensitive???? do i need to just be more empathetic and understanding#but ALSO also. when ur a kid that shit doesn’t matter. when ur a kid and ur dad is making you cry that doesn’t matter.#and those years of damage stick with you even when ur older and trying to be mature and understanding#literally this evening started with me trying to do something nice for him. trying to give him a gift. actually literally giving him a gift.#and it has ended with me feeling fucking….. shit.#and disrespected. and useless.#i try so fucking hard with this man and with our relationship and every fucking time i try to connect with him he throws it back in my face#like. hey! you’ve been saying how much you want to play gran turismo 7!!! i will loan you my PS5 for a while bcus i’m not playing anything#and i will BUY YOU the fucking car game for you to play it while me and my mum are away on our girlie beach holiday#like i will happily and enthusiastically do those things for you because you have been so vocal about wanting to play this game!!!#so it will make you happy right? it will be something positive for you to enjoy!!! right?!!!????#i will bring my console down to the family tv room for you and i will send you the money so you can buy the game!!!!#oh. oh you’ve clicked around the main playstation menu for 2mins and then turned it off to watch the news. and then just open ur laptop.#not even gonna buy the game huh. just gonna open ur laptop and zone out and act line i’m not even in the room. oh ok. ok ok.#not even a fucking thank you. not even a HINT of recognition. ok ok. ok. ok. now you’re literally ignoring me when i talk to you. ok. ok.#and like!!!! i know this seems so dumb and minor and insignificant but you have to understand. it has been 25 years of this shit.#25 years of me trying to make this man happy and 25 years of him rejecting all of those attempts.#and 25 years of……. a lot of other shit also.
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i think watching goodbye stranger changed me as a person
#literally WHAT the fuck#great meg. great megstiel too obviously. great sam & meg interaction too actually#great dean & meg also !!!!!! i love them interacting so bad#But. wgat the fuck#it's so crazy. it's so crazy. oohhh goodbye stranger it's been nice but by the morning i must go feel no sorrow feel no shame (i dont#remember the lyrics help)#It's just. ppl always talk abt it obvs but what do you mean cas was brainwashed and forced to kill his friend God only knows how many times#and hearing dean say he NEEDED HIM (no matter what miscommunication happened) BROKE THE DAMN CONTROL CONNECTION#And them he leaves.#IT'S MAKING ME CRAZY (and emotional actually..) CAS ALL BY HIMSELF ON THAT DAMN TRAIN BUS WHATEVER#i can reason with him. hes a good man .............#also dean can never fucking win can he. sees his bestie flirting with his demon friend and then bares his soul to said bestie only to have#him fucking LEAVE HIM#(i prayed to you cas! every night!) i dont know dean if hes so sketchy why were you praying to him? (i dont pray because it's like begging)#spn really DOES unlock some kind of secret emotion what the hell#really makes me give some sort of vague soulful stare towards the horizon without actually showing any discernible emotion on my face#fuck. give robbie thompson a million dollars or whatever#sandy speaks
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