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Oh, wow. Lucky break.
Yeah, I'm not much for code either. I mean I can wire a shaped-charge baton into primary fire control, but that's about it. Not much use for system warfare when you're creeping through tunnels lined with RA-knows-what.
Wouldn't want to run into much fire down there, though. That'd be a time and a half.
asking for a friend but do you guys think it'd be a good idea to install like, one of those little rotisserie grill things for hotdogs in my genghis? cause like, sometimes a girl gets hungry and all that heat might as well be USEFUL yaknow?
#i like mechanical solutions to things#i feel like that's obvious when you see a gilgamesh with reinforced grapple cabling tho huh#lancer rp#oc rp#lancerposting
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not to be adhd posting again but you really don't realize how genuinely disabling it is until you have meds that decrease the disabling effect and find yourself being delighted by having the executive functioning abilities necessary to do like. more than one task a day. or spontaneously clean something. or your emotions not being quite so wildly dysregulated (which also makes it easier to function turns out). my Functional Human Level has dramatically increased over the last few months. love not playing life on challenge mode every day.
#this has been a useless text post your may now resume your normal programming#was just doing stuff around my house suddenly aware that i didn't used to be able to do this at all/so often#shout out to adhd meds i love you adhd meds sdkjfhdgsf#getting the autism diagnosis was one of those yeah that tracks moments#but didn't like. open me up to any solutions or things to make life more bearable#since the treatment for an autistic adult is basically 'good luck!'#followed by trying to just trial and error your way through things that might help RE accessibility aids and compensatory mechanisms#but getting diagnosed with something where there's a medication for it??? game changer lol
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either gonna remake again in the future and hand out the url privately or gonna clean out the followers list again me'thinks. so if you wanna stay mutuals and plan on writing w/ me in the future when I can actually dedicate time to doing so w/out any stressors or anxiety spikes then please, slap that heart real quick for me.
if not, it was a pleasure to write and talk for a bit and wish y'all good luck on your future endeavors 'n stuff.
#010 //: out of character.#am I trying to make it easier and less anxious on myself to write here? yes. why? too much trauma w/ discord rp servers to warrant trying#and tbh I shouldn't feel pressured or afraid to even post stuff here thinking that I'm gonna get harsh words or nasty side-eyes despite#the content not even being that bad or triggering at all compared to other things I've seen on my dash.#long story short i wanna be here but something is making me feel unwell/not be here but can't pin-point the cause so the solution is to wip#didn't I do something like this last month? yes. everyone has their coping mechanisms. mine is mhw and seeking the once a month validation#'cos it either feels like i'm just a number to most people or just the one partner they decide to write w/ 'cos their bored or something#I wanna be someone's fav. who they scream to @ 3am about muses and hcs not just another number to their follow count :(#all in all? I will reblog this the next few days just to ensure that everyone just a fair chance as this makes it's rounds before commencin#the purge/remake just as a /FAIR WARNING/.
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so CBT never worked for us in therapy. basically every instance of it was therapists trying to get us to stop being anxious about very real problems that were very likely to happen. like, situations that were not only likely, but would be very dangerous if they did happen. sometimes even things that had already happened and were likely to happen again.
meanwhile we have an app on our phone that guides you through various CBT exercises and it turns out when we use that for the kind of shit where we already know our brain is being irrational and we just want to get our thoughts together and work through the issue by writing it out, it works really fucking well and oh look suddenly we've been doing CBT for an hour and processed the root cause of several key emotional issues we've been having for years.
funny how that works. it's almost like we can actually figure out for ourselves when something is irrational and when it's an actual real problem that could put us in danger and shouldn't be dismissed. who'd have fucking thought it
#personal#thoughts#Lucy post#therapy#this is fine to reblog if it resonates with you. if anyone starts being a shithead in the notes I'm blocking on sight though#do not pull a ''see! CBT can be helpful if it's done right! if it harmed you then your therapist was just doing it wrong'' in my comments#the therapists that harmed us were using the exact same techniques but just as a blanket solution for every single problem#and yeah you can argue that's ''doing it wrong'' and I couldn't really say you're wrong about that#but when someone's saying ''hey the way this technique is usually used has done a lot of harm to me''#it's kind of shitty to be like ''well that's not real CBT though. real CBT isn't harmful''#when it's the same techniques being used in the way they're very often used because the therapists are taught to use them that way#anyway this has been a random rant about CBT because I'm pissed that a tool that does help us when used for a very specific set of issues#has been used so badly in the past that we still end up being reluctant to use it for the things it actually helps with#because we still associate the fucking thinking traps and shit with being gaslit and told we were being irrational#for thinking very real very dangerous situations were in fact real and dangerous to us#having to admit that CBT helped with something feels like when you finally take the advice about going outside and hydrating more#and eating better and gratitude journaling and realise you do actually feel better and have to admit the advice does help#after years of feeling like you're being dismissed because people keep telling you to do those things when you talk about being depressed#like okay yeah it did actually work. when I chose to do it. when I felt ready to#when I wasn't being forced into it by people expecting it to fix every single issue I have despite it only helping in very specific ways#anyway I wonder how much quicker we'd have learn healthy coping mechanisms if people hadn't treated various shit like cure-alls#and had said ''hey this will help with this specific thing in this way which will make these other things more manageable'' instead
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its so fucking annoyinggggggg i want stuff to feel good and exciting again but instead its Nothing. and i have things to do
#i have the executive function to force myself to do things like shower and eat but i also have horrendous coping mechanisms#ie Lets Buy Things maybe that will make me feel something#bipolars so fucked i always think buying things is the solution. bipolar and childhood poverty.#i have to make a zine this week but i need access to the feelings part of me
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It actually was pretty tough to get diagnosed with and medicated for adhd, everyone kept telling me it was probably anxiety and nobody believed me until like five years ago I went through one of those intensive two-day testing whatevers and the psychologist looked at the data and went like Huh, That’s ADHD. then two years ago when I was On The Brink because of work I tried to see a therapist and in the first session I was hit with ‘actually instead of adhd it’s probably something else’ and then I quit my job
#my ramblings#people have been telling me to get a therapist and I’m like#haha. yeah. [still sore over last time and still not ready to try again]#like I’ve had good experiences with therapy#but I know it’s also hard to mesh with me as a client#because 1) don’t fall for the mask man obviously I use humor and irony as a defense mechanism duh#and 2) I actually already know how I feel most of the time I just refuse to say it so if someone is trying to help me process#or work towards solutions (which tends to happen a lot in therapy)#I get very. no no I know how I feel and what I need to do but it’s not time yet.#I have to talk around it and then talk about it and then acthally talk about my feelings and THEN I can do the functional thing#also I’m still on medicaid. limits options a lot. I really need to deal with health insurance.
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Just realized something about the dbd update that didn’t really hit me when I read the patch notes.
Grim embraces buff makes it a super important perk. Because now we’re really gonna have to consider if this gen has enough progress to warrant using a regression event on it and all that jazz. Gen blocking perks are gonna be essential slowdown now because they won’t use a regression event. We’re gonna see a surge in use of gen blocking perks rather than gen damaging perks. Which might be kind of annoying… It’s also gonna make people not really want to use weaker regression perks that are more valuable being used repetively and instead want to focus on stronger regression perks. Pop combined with overcharge or call of brine I think will make a return then. Cause would you rather bring jolt with it’s what 8% progress and basic regression speed or Pop (30% progress) and call of brine (125% regression speed plus tracking)? Maybe even a return of Ruin in the meta if it doesn’t trigger a ‘regression event’.
Unless I have misunderstood entirely what they are trying to do here. I don’t think I like this update much.
#they’re always like ‘let’s shake up the meta!’#then introduce the most unfun mechanic you’ve ever heard#heaven forbid we wanna do anything#they love to make killers miserable and then we become the bad guy for playin in an ‘unfun’ way#which survivors are gonna say ‘everyone takes gen blocking perks it’s so unfun!’#and then behaviour will nerf the gen blocking perks so we have nothing except tunneling and camping to secure a win#wah wah three gening is boring#but it really wasn’t a big deal!!! for an occasional problem their solution was to shackle everyone AGAIN#LIKE the only thing Freddy could do to win was three gen and tbf that’s why I didn’t like or play him much#dbd#dead by daylight
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#so on the one hand im having A Lot of existential thought spiraling issues lately. like. idk if its ever been so bad in my life#in this particular manner or about these particular things. so for the first time in literally years therapy is on my mind.#but on the other hand i have a psychiatrist to help w the actual mechanics of my intrusive thoughts-- IS THIS NOT WHAT THE MEDS ARE FOR?--#&i have so incredibly little interest in general therapy. what the fuck is a psychologist supposed to DO for me.#my existential crises are not unique but the circumstances surrounding them are specific&as per there are only a million reasons why#general therapy isnt only probably useless for me it can be potentially literally unsafe if im totally honest-- you know.#how therapy is supposed to be used to actually see results.#so my solution to this has been to read a bunch of fucking books on dialetical behavioral therapy&cognitive behavioral therapy lmao.#next up: acceptance&commitment therapy.#if i could hack my literal physical health hell will be freezing over before i give up on hacking my mental health too lmao.#**therapist. what the fuck is a therapist gonna do for me.
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“it’s so cool that an electrician can install wires but a construction worker can only build a frame”
#ik it’s a joke and the true loves kiss thing is funny. BUT lemme be pedantic for a sec and say#that this dichotomy of ‘person that can give pills' as a neutral/positive thing vs#person than can 'ONLY' give what is assumed to be useless/frivolous 'advice' is such a microcosm of why online discourse on this subject is#ridiculous and reductive at best but harmful at worst#and this is not me defending psychology btw like it is an incredibly problematic field that has hurt many people and continues to do so#which is why i stopped studying it bc i couldn't reconcile all that#but the idea of psychiatry as a like... more pure/effective alternative to that is so????#like first of all they're fully different specialties which is what first annoyed me like they're literally just not the same field so ofc#they do different things... that's how specialization works...#but it's a joke so sure#but going further than that i think that reducing psychiatry to 'giving pills' as if that's a better solution than 'true loves kiss'#(aka cognitive behavior therapy i'm assuming aka coping mechanisms and plans to change your life/cope with what you can't change)#is like i said very reductive bc psychiatry is (similarly to psych) a field with deeply problematic origins and uses to this day#and medical determinism and the idea of all 'hard science' fields being neutral and without fault bc they're 'science' where psych and othe#'soft sciences' are flawed is a very harmful idea bc it lets hard science off the hook for all of the ways it is flawed and just as#subjective and vulnerable to cultural influences as psych#BUT this is silly . bc it's a tweet#it's just such a common idea and thing seen within most discussions about psych where this dichotomy is created and people speak about#'pills' and 'chemical imbalances' and 'serotonin' or WHATEVER as if they're inherent truths#the same way people speak about mental illness as an inherent truth#bc of this 'hard science' 'soft science' dichotomy that has been adopted into popular culture#even though it's a fallacy!#and a harmful one but again this is just a silly tweet so it's not that serious but the larger discourse is and i cannot STANDDDD it
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why does the tower of hanoi puzzle canonically exist in teyvat 😭
#playing faruzan hangout for the primos and#THIS IS TOO REAL MY GOD.#faruzan is such a stem girl i cannot#crying sobbing why is cs major knowledge relevant in genshin. why. next she's gonna b like 'ok here's the recursive solution-' and i'll pass#away LMAO#all these npcs saying it's too simple NO ITS NOT TRUST ME. YOU CAN DEFINITELY GET KIDS TO THINK LIKE FUTURE RESEARCHERS FROM THIS#genshin impact#the rest of her hangout is really cute though i can't believe they made yet another character w pretty thought out backstory into a mostly g#gag character why does this keep happening oh my god#the thing w mechanical creatures got me bro#something about robotic creations living longer than humans and passing on our thoughts and humanity? yeah yeah do you feel me#like fuck ??? hello what the hell. all my wishes for you stored in this ruin mechanism just waiting for the right time and place to meet aga#again. cue crying and sobbing#also big fan of other playable character cameos i like faruzan more now and by extension tighnari and collei#genshin spoilers#? for people who haven't played her hangout#ramblings!#liveblog insanity
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im not totally getting off all social media im just trying not to be on my phone, like even doing most of these things on my ipad doesnt seem to be as bad of a distraction. what im trying right now to internalize is the fact that the pervasive sadness and feeling insecure wont go away, but hopefully the compulsion to deal with it thru posting and the all consuming nature of it will be easier and easier to deal with until theyre background radiation i can just ignore
#like i think it is just as simple as the thing being at an arms length making it feel less consuming#as simplistic as that sounds#being online on my ipad or laptop feels like just#interacting with a notebook or a piece of paper#idk if its the closeness or the brain development#but ive tried to deal with how i feel guilty and unloved when i dont get enough attention#and i dont think theres any solution but ignoring it#because trying to feel loved thru those mechanisms just#feeds into it#and the cycle repeats#getting more likes isnt the solution its trying to go away from the place where theres likes#of course i know its gonna be hard to totally try to stop#even now ofc im hoping this post is interacted with#but i do enjoy communicting#so i just need to keep it at an arms length so i care less about the result
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You're more amazing than a full minute
Werewolves need help but everyone else trying to help them is STUPID and WRONG so I did it better. You're welcome
Also an artifact that I just had the idea for and kinda sorta supports werewolves if you squint so I gave it Innistrad flavor and threw it in the batch. So there, unique support cards that aid werewolves in their transforming endevors without defaulting to the laziest possible-
"Why not just give werewolves flash?"
FUCKING FINE
You want flash so bad you can spend 3 mana on it
#asks#custom cards#Pack Loyalty was inspired by the Thunder Junction WU no spells archetype which i realized was really similar to werewolves#but unfortunately no overlapping colors so it'd feel awkward but i figured out a solution#a bunch of these are just figuring out ways to transform while still spending your mana so lots of big flash spells and activated abilities#the whole “stupid and wrong” thing was partly a joke but i do genuinely dislike the attempts i've seen to help werewolves#i've heard a few times “they should give some werewolves flash” or even “they should give MOST werewolves flash”#no. that would make flipping your wolves basically automatic. which would defeat the whole point of the day/night condition#the tension between casting your werewolves and flipping your werewolves is the whole point of the archetype#giving a large portion of them flash would change the archetype to just “flash creatures” with transforming being pointless complexity#and then the other solution was Tovolar which. what the fuck. he's encouraging you to cast MULTIPLE werewolves on your turn?#just completely throws out the entire day/night mechanic to just say “if you're playing werewolves then it's always night”#hey notice how all the “no spells cast from hand” cards in OTJ don't have plot? and only ONE of them has flash#it's because you're supposed to combine them with other cards to make a complete synergetic deck#you don't just throw all the payoffs into a pile and watch them all trigger each other for free#thus why only one werewolf has flash (Oakshade Stalker) and it forces you to spend extra mana to flash it in#thus why i made more non-werewolf cards with flash or activated abilities#the other problem werewolves struggle with is that in high-level play it's easy for the opponent to flip your wolves back#so i also made Twilight Prowler and Heckling Heretic to punish the opponent for doing that#and then Kessig's Shade // Kessig's Bark which doesn't solve any problems i just liked the idea#wait i just realized i made a “no spells cast from hand” card and gave it plot. which is the whole thing i was against. fuck#at least you have to spend an extra mana to plot it and you still need to find something to spend your mana on on the turn you cast it#and it's a cool idea that combines two related archetypes so that's justification enough. maybe#had another idea for a plot card just now and added it to the post#giving werewolves flash is fine because you need to play a support card for it so it's not free. it costs mana#and it's just one card so you still need other support cards to consistently flip your wolves
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#rant or vent#tw self harm#tw self destructive behavior#i hate it here cuz i still get urges but i cant even fall back on pain as a coping mechanism#because im in too much fucking pain and physical discomfort every fucking day and i just don't feel like dealing with#the discomfort if healing anymore it's just not worth it anymore#it might help in the moment for a while but i cant do anything self destructive anymore because my whole body fucking hurts constantly#for years now and im so fucking tired goddammit what am i supposed to do i never learned any normal coping skills#im tired im exhausted im confused im dissociated and numb and uncomfortable and empty and tired and sick and drinking makes me sick and smok#ing makes me sick and hurting myself would just end up being itchy and annoying and i need to eat and sleep and take care of myself because#my body is already fucking falling apart for some reason and i just can't do these things anymore but i dont know its all i ever used to do#and my brain keeps falling back on these as a solution but that's no solution anymore i dont want to be physically miserable anymore sigh
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Not to jump the gun but I think I’ve unlocked the secret to my executive function ohmygod
I realized the roots of my procrastination/executive function issues & after processing it, it’s like that wall that’s stopped me from doing anything has come down (or at least shrunk down to an easily jump-over-able height)
#it’s only been 2 days of Being Able To Do Tasks so we’ll see if I can keep it up#but I was thinking about shit & was like “yeah I use avoidance as a coping mechanism’’#and like we been knew but I started thinking about back in school when I was highly avoidant of things I needed to do#and it was because there was more shit to do than I physically had the energy for and ability to actually do#when I had VERY poor mental health and no one helping me & my parents didn’t follow through when I said I needed help#so I was in all this shit alone & literally couldn’t do a lot of the things I was meant to#so instead of doing what I could (because it was never enough & I’d always be a million miles behind)#I just shut down & did nothing#and it was also a lot about lack of control#being forced into a structure that wasn’t working for me & where I always felt l was failing & had no control#so avoidance became what felt like the only way I could get through#so then once I realized all that I could flag it as an unhealthy coping mechanism that I’m no longer in the position to need#and in the last couple of years I’ve been making lots of progress on prioritizing my mental health#so nowadays once I see something as unhealthy behavior I’m able to recognize it when it happens & move to healthier behavior instead#so now it would seem: avoidance flagged as unhealthy & detrimental to my mental health. solution: checklists & confronting tasks on my list!#AND I think it’s getting way easier to tell the difference between my avoidance & my need for a rest or my lack of spoons!#ok I’m gonna go watch an adventure time episode cause I did several of my tasks so imma take a solid 15 or 20 break then keep at it! :)
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I think the black box model of talking about complex things like more intricate systems is useful at a high introductory level but I think it cannot be the extent to which someone is explained that topic.
#channel 3#i don't really have a 'solution' or further thoughts on this though.#i also recognize that this is from someone who has. a near obsessive need to understand how things works and the minutia of things#anyway i think this is especially unfortunate because i think this happens a lot with mathematics and computer science and I feel like it#sometimes makes them more inacessible than they need to?#i think a good example of this is that in my diff eq class my prof introduced ideas by 'pulling them out of the magic bag'#and while i understand to do differential equations you often don't have to understand the underlying mechanisms for why a solution works#i feel like it does a disservice to students by obfuscating a solution process#it becomes less of 'here is a hammer to put in your tool box in case you ever have to drive in a nail'#and more 'put this nail and this wooden board in this box and that's it'#which hurts students when they come across things that on the surface don't look like nails but are upon closer inspection#i may have lost the metaphor there but i hope everyone understands#but this makes higher complexity issues a lot less accessible to those who didn't go off and learn why something worked ahead of time#it's why i think rote memorization is the worst way to learn mathematics#you don't always have to start from first principles#but you should at least justify a statement from multiple perspectives
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reverse dating tropes w hsr men!
in which — what the title suggests / those classic fanfic tropes but with a twist
featuring — boothill, jing yuan, blade (separately) x gn!reader
✧.* — wc: total 1.5k, used up half my brain for this (the other half is for pt2 w aven sunday geppie!!), lovesick boothill + clingy jy + jealous blade fr, anyway pls enjoy! reblogs r appreciated <3
gepard aven sunday vers here!
boothill ꩜ .ᐟ
love at many sights with boothill whose memory card was tinkered with, and every time you meet, he thinks he's seeing you for the first time, so he falls for you over and over again.
when boothill returned from a dangerous mission, it was evident that he had endured significant damage. his once sleek and polished exterior was now marred by dents and scratches, and his mechanical limbs were either partially missing or severely damaged. the exposed wiring, usually neatly tucked away beneath scraps of metals, now hung in tangled strands, sparking occasionally with residual energy.
he looked barely salvageable. it's safe to say that the mechanics had a hell of a time fixing him.
though they were skilled enough to piece him back together, his memory card wasn’t as lucky. a tinkering in his system left him incapable of recalling or retaining information in his synthetic brain, temporarily —leaving the mechanics scrambling to find a solution.
weeks later, you find yourself walking down the familiar corridors of the laboratory where your favourite cyborg is being held for reparation.
boothill’s eyes immediately land on yours when you enter the lab. “well ain’t this a surprise! haven’t seen ya in a good long while.” boothill drawls, tipping his hat your way, his voice carrying a metallic twang.
"i heard you took a bit of a tumble, figured someone should come make sure you didn’t lose all your screws." you shrug nonchalantly, a smirk playing on your lips.
boothill's eyes flicker for a moment, taking in the curve forming on your lips. he thinks you’re adorable with that infectious smile of yours.
“heh, nothin’ bad, just had a r-r-run in with some cuties" he says, failing to hide the glitch that caused his voice to stutter. (and that damn synesthesia beacon! he swears he’ll get it fixed this time around…)
“guess you took more than a tumble huh...” you lean casually against the workbench, the sterile scent of machinery and the hum of various devices filled the air; your gaze sweeps over the freshly repaired parts of boothill's metallic frame, “anyway, glad to see that you’re mostly fine now."
“aww! do ya care ‘bout me?” he teases, his grin widening, revealing his pointy teeth peeking out mischievously. you don’t reply, your eyes glinting with the faintest hint of amusement dancing in them.
"boothill, we go through this every time, your memory card's still damaged. you forget things sometimes, so for the 5th time this week, yes i do care about you.”
boothill's expression shifts, a mixture of realization and sheepishness crossing his features. "right, right," he murmurs, scratching the back of his head with his metallic hand. "sorry 'bout that, sugar. guess i just keep forgettin'."
you chuckle and shake your head, finding the situation amusing. he feels like he might overheat from the sheer warmth radiating from your smile.
“you’re beautiful, date me.” (he didn’t mean to blurt that outloud)
you raise your eyebrows at the sudden compliment, “why thank you,” a surprised laugh escapes your lips.
“—and we’re already dating, silly.”
a shower of sparks erupts from his circuits, you can particularly hear the fans inside him sputter and whir. you rush to his side, concern etched on your face.
“wh- are you okay?! you’re short circuiting again!”
and this happens every time his memory lapses. you offer an apology to the mechanic on the next shift for the extra work required to fix yet another damaged wire after your visits. perhaps they should ban you from getting too close to boothill, lest he completely breaks down again like that one time where you told him, yes you actually kissed before.
jing yuan ୭ ˚.
"secret relationship" with jing yuan but he is completely unaware of how his public displays of affection towards you keep revealing the supposed secrecy of your relationship.
on the rare case that the general is found in his office, you are there too, beside him.
“pleeeease? just one kiss, really really miss you, darling”
“no jing yuan, not now…”
he wraps his arms around you as he leans in, caging you from the back. he rests his chin on your shoulder, “then how about a kiss on the cheeks?” he murmurs in your ear. you try to push him away, but he just chuckles softly against your neck, his arms still secure around you.
“no, and get off me before someone sees!” you protest, feeling your face flush from the close proximity, and the tightening of his arms suggests that he has no intention of releasing you just yet.
this stubborn man… you swear you’re gonna burst a blood vessel someday.
as if to echo your exasperation; he nuzzles his head into the crook of your neck, peppering it with nibbles and gentle kisses. jing yuan certainly knows how to test your limits, yet his affectionate gestures never fail to chip away at your resolve.
suddenly, a series of loud knocks come from the door, you freeze, and immediately attempt to wiggle your way out of his grasp. but he remains unfazed, his hold on you firm, and seemingly unbothered by the interruption.
the door bursts open, “general! there’s a situation at starskiff ha—ven...” yanqing trails off as his eyes widen at your position. the room falls into a momentary silence as yanqing's gaze shifts between you and his general, his expression reflecting a blend of shock and embarrassment.
clearing his throat awkwardly, yanqing stammers, "i-im sorry for interrupting... i’ll t-take my leave now!” with a hurried nod, he practically sprints out of the room.
oh bless that kid’s poor eyes…
you shoot a glare at jing yuan from the corner of your eyes, you just know that he has a shit eating grin on his face right now. nowadays, it’s probably common knowledge that the general’s most treasured person is you, evidently shown by how he latches himself onto you every time you’re within his vicinity. you wouldn’t be surprised if the entirety of xianzhou knows about your supposed “secret” relationship.
“so… can i have my kiss now?”
aeons, he’s insufferable. (you love him tho!!!!!)
blade ؛ ଓ
"fake dating" with blade but you are actually dating —somehow everyone is convinced you aren't.
“blink twice if you need help.” march whispers-shout; dan heng leans against the doorway, blocking the way into your room, nods in agreement.
“this is absurd… i’m alright guys, really!” you try to reassure your friends, frustration edging into your voice. though no matter how many times you insist that no blade isn't holding you hostage and that you are indeed in a relationship with him, they seem convinced otherwise, somehow deducing that you're not able to speak freely.
you sigh in resignation, knowing that they aren’t going to relent anytime soon, and with blade idling in your room, you can't afford to keep him waiting any longer. “dan heng please, let me through, he’s been waiting for me for the past 10 minutes now…”
“good, let him wait.” dan heng responds curtly. (what a guy)
march takes hold of your hands, “do you owe the stellaron hunters something, and him out of everyone?! he looks scary…and totally not your type!”
“not their type?” a low voice rings out from behind dan heng, the three of you turn immediately and see blade looming at your doorway, his arms crossed over his chest.
“stellaron hunter. stay back.” dan heng furrows his eyebrows, his stance defensive as he pulls out his weapon, positioning himself to block you and march. sensing the growing tension, you step forward, reaching out to gently grasp at dan heng’s shoulder.
(blade’s expression darkens at your hand resting on him)
“it’s okay dan heng, he means no harm.” dan heng hesitates, his grip on his weapon remains tight, but he doesn't move to strike. so you slowly move between him and blade, “see? i’m fine… he’s not gonna hurt me.” you smile reassuringly at your friends.
just then, as if to further aggravate dan heng, blade settles his hand on your waist. dan heng’s hand is visibly twitching now. “what? can’t i touch what’s mine?”
dan heng’s eyes narrow, “...we still don’t believe you, leave now. before it’s too late.”
before you can interject, blade grabs your chin, silencing any words of protest with a sudden kiss. caught off guard, your eyes widen as the unexpected gesture leaves you momentarily stunned. but you soon reciprocate his kiss, his intensity drawing you in.
(march quickly covers her eyes with her hands)
“there. now leave us alone.” and with that, he pulls you into your room, slamming the door shut behind, pinning you against it.
it’s just the both of you now, finally.
“did you really have to touch him.” his voice tinged with possessiveness. “blade, he would’ve hurt you, i didn’t mean—” he shuts you up with another kiss, more desperate this time, welp guess you’re stuck with him for the night.
though your friends might not believe that a person like you would “be in cahoots” with someone as dangerous as him; convincing them otherwise is a task for another time. tonight, he wants your attention focused solely on him, and him only.
✧.*
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