#i knoww people have said this but i just really wanted to say this myself hahahaha

[nikoisme]

I absolutely adore all the relationships in malevolent, in their nature. They are all canonically platonic, but they are rooted in love and affection. I think that some people still believe that the word love is reserved only for romantic love, especially in media. So seeing the two main characters say that they love the other, that that love saved them, that they were willing to die for each other; who are so close (quite literally, as they share a body) that it's impossible to tell where one begins and where the other ends. Whose circumstances and experiences are so wildly specific and unique that it would be impossible to strictly define the nature of their relationship. Is their relationship perfect? Hell no, they have deeply hurt each other many times. Often they can't stand one another, but also can't stand being without one another. It's messy, it's complicated, but it's real. They try. And it doesn't really matter what their specific definition of love is - they simply love each other. And it just means so much to me, as an aroace person and as someone who has always valued all the friendships i have or have had in general. To see love between two people who have been through hell and back together not treated as just romantic love or as platonic love or whatever - but as simply love. It's their own. With all the beatiful and joyous and messy and painful aspects of it. To say it's just romantic or platonic takes away all the complexities and charm of it, just as is trying to strictly label a lot of the things in the show.

[tomssexdoll]

HI

okay so y/n asks 2009-2010 tom to go to a party with her friend but tom doesnt allow, so she goes there secretly. at the end of the party tom waits y/n with his black lambo looking real mad and then he fucks her real hard because she basically escaped (do this like real rough and mean) (ONLY IF U WANT TO BTWW!!)😭

yess!

Brat taming

PAIRINGS: Tom 2010 x Female reader CONTENT: ANGST + SMUT + FLUFF SYPNOSIS: Y/N wants to go to a friends birthday party but Tom knows that there will be a bunch of guys there and ones that he really didn't like. Y/N is really upset but decides to play it cool so she can sneak out later, she wasn't going to miss her friends birthday cause of Tom. A/N: AHHH WARNINGS: dom!tom, sub!reader, p in v (missionary), rough fingering, overstimulation, degrading

"Hey Tom, I'm going to my friends party tonight" I approached him as he cooked us lunch, he furrowed his eyebrow "which friend?" turning his head to face me, "casandra" I smiled and hugged his waist from behind.

He grunted, "the one who knows every single guy I hate" I rolled my eyes "Tom it's fine, they probably won't be there" he turned around and towered over me "no, you aren't going, I know what she's like and I know what those guys are like" he growled lowly.

"Tom! That's not fair it's her birthday!" I whined, he grabbed my arm softly "I said no, nothing you say will convince me, sit down and eat" he sighed.

I hesitated for a second but obliged, he was right, nothing would convince him, but that doesn't mean I don't have other ways. I kept my cool so he wouldn't suspect me of doing anything later in the night.

After dinner we cleaned up and watched a movie, I tried to make everything as smooth as possible and texted casandra my plan, we had decided that 12am would be the best time for me to arrive and that I'd call an uber.

As the movie finished I acted sleepy, slouching on him. I felt his arms wrap around me and lift me up, "time for bed baby.." he chuckled and carried me to the bed, plopping me on there and coming up behind me, spooning me tightly. "Goodnight..." I mumbled, my facade working perfectly.

"Goodnight baby girl, sleep well" he kissed the top of my head, nuzzling his face into my neck.

As Tom layed asleep, I slowly peeled his arms off me, getting up from the bed and slipping on the dress I had hid beside the bed. He slowly woke up, tossing and turning "mm, baby where are you going.." he mumbled.

I cursed under my breath and turned to face him, luckily it was dark so he couldn't see the outfit I was in right now. "Just going to the bathroom baby go back to sleep.." I whispered and walked into the bathroom, quickly doing my makeup and hair.

As I opened the door I heard Tom softly snoring, I sighed, feeling a bit guilty but knew I had to go to this party, after all it was my friends birthday.

I slowly walked to the window, opening it quietly and jumping out. There was grass on the bottom so it didn't make a lot of noise, then I quickly slipped my heels on and ran off, jumping into my uber.

I arrived at her house, music blasting from the inside, vibrating the ground. I stepped inside and greeted casandra, handing her a bottle of vodka I had stopped to get on the way as a present. She smiled brightly and kissed my cheek, running to her bedroom and stashing it there. As she came back she hugged me, "oh thank you so much that is my favourite brand of vodka" I chuckled "yeah I knoww, but why did you lock it away, aren't you gonna drink it tonight?" she scoffed "no way! That is special and it's expensive so I'm keeping it for myself" she tapped my chin teasingly, I smiled and apprecited what she'd done.

As the night strung along, I had 3 cocktails and 4 shots, I was pretty drunk but not too drunk and decided to leave it at that, I wanted to talk with people and have fun, not be blackout drunk and possibly get kidnapped.

I talked to multiple people, some of the guys Tom hated weren't that bad, they were respectful and really nice. The conversation never turned sexual and always focused on goals and achievements.

TOMS POV:

I woke up to a cold breeze hitting me, confused, thinking I had left the window open. I went to get up but realized Y/N wasn't in bed with me, I remember her getting up for the toilet but that was ages ago..wasn't it?

I checked the time and it was 4am, I got up and checked the bathroom, nothing, the kitchen, nothing, the living room, nothing.

Then it sparked and I realized what she had done, I shouldn't of fell for it, she acted too calm about the situation. Usually she'd get really upset and argue with me about it for hours but she was pretty accepting of it.

I rubbed my temples in frustration, anger coursing through my body. "For fuck sakes..she's in so much fucking trouble" I grunted and grabbed my keys, slamming the front door and getting into my car, speeding off to this shitty party.

Y/NS POV:

At this point the party was pretty much finished, everyone was either passed out in various spots around the house or had gone home. I decided to go outside and have a cigarette with the guy I was talking to. We talked about high school and all the stupid things we did.

As I was taking a drag of my cigarette I suddenly heard crackling sounds, screeching of tires filling the air, I rolled my eyes and assumed it was some stupid teenagers doing burnout, but I listened more closely, a small squeeking noise, the noise that hit too close to home.

A sound that would only come from Tom's car, my eyes widened as I realised I had been caught, there was no way I was going to be able to walk tomorrow. I thought I successfully got away with it.

I watched as Tom's car came to a halt, his dark figure emerging from the car and storming over towards me. When the light illuminated his face I saw the pure rage and disgust in his eyes, his fists clenched at his sides and his chest heaving up and down.

"Why the fuck did you sneak out" he yelled "and why the fuck are you with him?" he scoffed, mocking the guy. He just rolled his eyes and walked off, giving me a 'goodluck' look.

"I knew you weren't going to be convinced with anything I said so I took matters into my own hands" I said non chalantly, shrugging my shoulders. I saw anger flash in his eyes, he grabbed my arm roughly "I'm not fucking dealing with your attitude, wait till we get home" he growled lowly, dragging me to the car.

No matter how angry he was, Tom never ever hit me, not a single finger or anything. He wasn't so rough with me to the point where I was bruised or hurt. Yes, he can be rough at times but the thought of hurting me has never crossed his mind.

He shoved me in and got into the drivers seat, starting the car and speeding off back home. I slouched in my seat, "I wasn't going to miss my friends birthday party because you don't approve of a group of guys, they weren't even bad, they were so nice to me" crossing my arms, his grip tightened on the wheel, his jaw clenching roughly.

"Shut up, you dont know what they're capable of" he pulled into the driveway, I got out of the car and slammed the door, walking inside the house. I set down my things on the couch and sat down, sighing deeply. My head was throbbing from all the alcohol, Tom emerged into the room and looked down at me "go to the bedroom and strip, now" he demanded, his tone cruel and dark.

I scoffed "no, I'm going to sit here and watch a movie and then go to bed" he chuckled angrily and grabbed me, pulling me closer to him. He towered over me, looking at me threateningly "do as your told or you won't be able to walk at all tomorrow" I sighed in defeat and walked upstairs, stepping into our shared bedroom, taking my dress off.

I threw it to the side and clipped my bra off, sliding my panties off, disposing of those too. I sat on the bed and waited for him, nervous and excited for what awaited me.

I heard Toms heavy footsteps coming closer, he stormed into the room, slamming the door shut behind him. "Always acting like a fucking brat" he walked towards me, pulling me up and smashing his lips into mine, I moaned into the kiss, giving him access to shove his tongue into my mouth.

Our tongues fought for dominance, his hand sliding down to my ass and giving it a harsh smack, I yelped and pulled away. His head buried into the crook of my neck, kissing and sucking harshly, leaving marks everywhere, "you're mine.." he growled, pushing me onto the bed harshly, climbing on top of me and loosening his belt, taking his pants off in a hurry, rage still filled in his eyes.

"Can't even listen to me, you have to act out" he reached out and grabbed my thighs pulling them closer towards him, I felt his clothed erection press against my aching pussy, "mm..please.." I mumbled, begging for his cock.

He grabbed my hair roughly, tugging on it, "don't be impatient, or you'll get nothing" he spat, I whined as I watched him pull his cock out. It stood tall, throbbing and super veiny.

"You're going to take it like the fucking slut you are, ok?" he demanded, grabbing my chin roughly to face him, I nodded and bit my lip, feeling his tip tease my entrance.

I knew I couldn't complain, all I had to do was sit there and painfully wait for his massive cock to punish me. "Oh fuck!" I cried out as he shoved half of his length in, my pussy resisting his cock. He grunted and grabbed my hips, digging his nails into them and leaving deep marks on the skin, trying to push himself in more.

"Fucking hell" he groaned, spitting on his hands and rubbing it onto the rest of his cock, slowly pushing in and fitting all of himself in me. I felt super full, unable to even think.

"Fuck.." I whispered my head lolling back, he chuckled evily, retracting his cock and slamming it back in, creating a brutal pace, his tip instatly hitting my g spot, abusing it.

"Ah! Too much Tom!" I whimpered, he growled and went faster, "you shouldn't of acted up so much..could've avoided this" his cock rammed in and out of me, my pussy able to handle everything that was happening.

Tom was pretty big, 8 inches. Even when he was gentle it hurt. But he always made sure I was ok, I guess this time was different, his cock balls deep in me, pounding into me mercilessly.

The pain slowly turned into pleasure, my clit was aching, desperate for attention. I cried out, grabbing one of his hands and moving it to his clit, he chuckled "so needy huh? my cock can't satisfy you enough?" his fingers latching onto my clit and rubbing rough circles.

"Such a slut.." he mumbled, growing more and more impatient. "You're so lucky, I give you everything and yet you still fucking act out", I whimpered "sorry..", he rolled his eyes "sorry won't cut it" his grip loosening on my hips and removing a hand off my clit, moving to my breasts, squeezing them tightly.

I moaned as his fingers grazed over my sensitive nipples, wrapping my legs around his waist and bringing him in closer, the pleasure hitting me in intense waves, making me arch my back.

Tom grinned as I arched my back, his head diving into my tits, sucking them cruely, his teeth biting my nipples softly.

I felt a knot building in my stomach, slowly coiling down to my core, his hips slapping against mine in a rhythmic pattern, he took me hard and fast, his breath came in ragged gasps as his release built up.

"Cum with me baby.." he growled, catching my lips in a rough kiss. I kissed him back, his tongue slipping into my mouth. With every powerful thrust, he relished the feeling of my body wrapping around him like a second skin. "Holy fuck...gonna cum" he groaned, my tight walls clenching around his cock sent waves on pleasure coursing throughout his body.

With one last brutal thrust he emptied himself in me, painting my walls white. Shortly after his orgasm I came too, my body shuddering as i did.

He slowly pulled out, crawling behind me on the bed and grabbing me, pulling me closer. I felt his cock pressed up against my back and his fingers slithering around to my pussy, sliding 2 figits in my pussy and pushing our cum back in.

I whimpered, the overstimulation setting in, "tommy no! too much!" I complained, tears falling down my cheeks, "shut up.." he said coldly, thrusting his fingers in roughly, curling his fingers at my g spot.

"Cum for me again.." he growled, slamming his fingers in and out. I was so wet that the wrong move would send his fingers flying out of me. He held me tightly and reached his thumb up to rub my clit.

I was becoming super overstimulated, the pleasure way too much for me. "Tom!" I cried out, nearing another orgasm.

"Cmon!" he shouted, pounding my pussy with his fingers, my pussy clenched again, engulfing his fingers. "Fuck yeah.." he muttered, teasing my g spot.

"Mmm! Gonna cum!" I cried out, cumming all over his fingers, whimpering as the orgasm hurt a little. He pulled his fingers out, licking the juices off clean.

He looked down at me, my body shaking and my eyes droopy, "oh baby..you're so sleepy" he chuckles, grabbing my small frame and laying us properly on the bed, holding me tight.

"This is what happens when you disobey me baby..you know that" he sighed, "when will you learn" he stroked my hair softly as I fell asleep in his arms.

tags: @tomscumdump @tomscumdoll @tomkaulitzloverr @syylss @charliesgoodboy @ge-billsgf @20doozers @miyukafujii @bkaulitzlover @ballhair

[g0-t0-s1e3p]

INTRO OR WHATEVAR

Sup yall, Im J3ff - as in ya knoww the Killer lol. heres some information 'bout me ig XP

Like I said - names jeff. I have a "real" name but I'm not giving in to ya weirdos without knowin ya first.

I'm a minor technically so keep that in mind. don't really care what ya do round here - if you're here your strange anyway so just don't kill the vibez lmao. or be weird ig, idk

I'm technically a fictionkin of Jeff but honestly I just consider myself jeff. its just who I am i dont really fck round with labels and stuff. This blog is mostly stuff relating to me being -yk- jeff, but there's other stuff two ;p

If ya think you might know a "canon mate" of mine or are one look below the cut for more info. im still lookin' for all ya crazies (/aff)

This is where I start to get mushy as fuck - ik right ew lmfao -

I'm mainly looking for Toby, Liu, Nina, and maybe Ej and Jane - no offense yall I just don't remember the rest a ya that well. if ya remember me tho hmu. ;3

'dont remember much, what happened to me is basically juyt what happened in canon. me and Liu were super close. we were separated for a while after the ahem- *incident* shall we say - and somehow he found me in an abandoned building.

lmao ik weird af. but it happened. i think. somehow.

oh also most people lived in the mansion, tho there might have been a side hut attached for the medical stuff.

I was either dating Toby or Ej- or both- or both happened but at separate times- idk man lmao.

me and jane were pretty chill after awhile of how shall we say - forceful compliance by everyone else. same with me and Nina. I used to call her Neens' and Toby Tobe's a lot.

look guys- imma be real honest with yall I just want my brother back- i miss my family. found or otherwise. if you know anything about them or know where they are could ya hmu? or tell them to hmu? I understand what Ive done - I know how horrible I've made your lives but please, give me one more chance? if I didn't earn it then maybe I can now. If you'll let me.

~ Jeffery Alan Woods

[georgeinamerc]

Libra Sun

Scorpio Moon

Capricorn Rising

Hi my love!! I want to preface this by saying that this is based on stuff that i have read and have noticed! If these don't apply to you im sorry😭 thank you so so much for sending this in, it's so fun for me <3

okayyy... I might have said i will judge, but come on you're a libraa! i love air signs<33 First of all, i have say you guys have such an alluring aura and give off such good vibes! Like libras are famous for their charm (and for being very effortlessly and casually flirty!). I would say u also love compliments when u receive them, it's sth that definitely stays w you! and (from personal experience as well) you are a sign that gives so much in relationships, whether that's romantic, platonic, it doesn't matter. Also it's so impressive to me how well u manage to understand others when they share problems, concerns etc- you really put yourself in the other person's shoes and that's why you're also someone people usually gravitate towards when they want someone to listen! As i mentioned, one of my bsfs is a libra and she's studying psychology! Even in arguments they'll be the person who will see and understand both sides but still firmly stand their ground when it comes to their opinions! I believe that a lot of times libras tend to need a bit of extra work regarding self confidence bc i feel like you downplay your achievements, which is so unfair btw!! I would say give yourself more credit for all your hard work<33 people around you appreciate you sm for who you are -and maybe let them give back to you more for all you give as well!

Now rising has to do a lot w how you appear to others! omggg i met this girl last week who's a cap rising, and i have to say y'all are so cool to the point where i don't even know how to come up and talk to you! Maybe a bit quiet at first, but then you feel comfortable around someone and it's like you've known each other for yearss! Capricorns, being an earth sign, tend to be very goal oriented, hard working and smarttt but also dare i say overthinkers as well? I just know you guys know lots of things (maybe about random topics but the moment they come up you sound the smartest in the room) and i could listen to u talk for hours! The most beautiful eyes and smile too i have to say<3 i will have to repeat tho! give yourself more credit love💗💗

FELLOW SCORPIO MOONNNN i love sharing this placement w people bc we bond over trauma basically! i want to give u a hug through the screen hahah this is so random and completely based on my opinion but i feel like you look amazing in black! scorpio moons pull it off the best i swear… also- (im sorry) you tend to bottle your emotions or invalidate them/ feel like you're being too much in situations, so u may decide u shouldn't voice how u feel! like even when you're going through very hard times you will do your best to hide it (cap rising works harddd) and then let it all out once you're alone! i see that a lot in myself too tbh, but it's important to express yourself always! for example, you don't have to have an "objectively good reason to be mad" to just be mad if that makes sense! if someone tells you u "shouldn't be feeling like this" they're just shit people honestly!! also you may be struggling w vulnerability in relationships (platonic/romantic). my advice (which i need to hear myself haha) is to let yourself be a bit more vulnerable one step at a time! and obv do it only when you're w someone that makes you feel heard! also maybee try and make your standards around things more realistic? it's hard af i knoww but you'll save yourself the disappointment of some things! also rejection scares us… like a lot….

[ekkurea]

(im the anon who sent the rendering ask and tips) AS SOMEOEN W STEM BACKGROUND WE’re always yk making things easier for us with ai.. im gonnaa divert a bit..i asked a professor (this was a neuroscience conference) why dont we perfect ai and develop a new artificial brain instead of studying the human brain… he had the most simple basic reply … why wouldnt you want to usee ai to understand yourbrain first… its a tool that can help us understand an actual brain why not use it there… i didnt really have an answer back then… but with your insight i resonate his answer w yours.. any other field ai is a helping hand and as much as i am against ai art … i see the potential it offers …. and obviously one needs to knoww their basics to use ai ot any tool !! and i just wanna say KUDOS FOR DOING IT :))) !! LITERALLY ALL SO MYCH LOVE FOR YOY!! GO YOU !!! 🫶

Hello! ⸜(｡˃ ᵕ ˂ )⸝♡ I want to thank you from the bottom of my heart( ᴗ͈ˬᴗ͈)ഒ These are really important words for me. I needed to read them to make my heart feel better. I love your every word! ଘ(੭◌ˊᵕˋ)੭* ੈ♡‧₊˚

And I was very interested when you said about the neuroscience lectures! Apart from the fact that I love to hear people talk about their fields of study, I am also interested in their perspective on my field (*^ω^)八(⌒▽⌒)八(-‿‿- )ヽ

Next, I want to share my thoughts on what drawing means to me and what I think is the value of drawings (and not only). Sorry, I'll share some new art soon. m(_ _)m

I'm not a fan of AI art either, but I don't devalue the work of AI artists either.

I really like the process of creating drawings(ღ˘⌣˘ღ) For me, it is not only therapy but also a way of preserving a piece of my soul in a drawing (or anything else "created by hand"). I keep drawings that may seem unsuccessful now. Because they reflect my view of the world at the time when I created them. Looking at them, I travel through the memories of my life. I think it's like a photograph. It stops time, conveys the focus, where the author's gaze was directed and shows what and how he sees. We can talk about this endlessly. 彡ﾟ◉ω◉ )つー☆* I'm one of those people who understand the popularity and value of Malevich's black square. (By the way, he is a Ukrainian artist. I say this because you might have heard a lie somewhere, if you know what I mean)

I also want to expand a bit on the topic of values that I emphasize in things. It's cool if they go hand in hand.

(੭ˊ͈ ꒵ˋ͈)੭̸*✧⁺˚ The first is the author. We can be supporters of a person, their life, their worldview... I'm ready to pay more if it's created by a person I'm interested in and like. This way I get a piece of him and support him. I think people who are fans of someone will understand me.

(੭ˊ͈ ꒵ˋ͈)੭̸*✧⁺˚ The second is the finished product. Recently, there were campaigns in my country and around the world about how artificial intelligence sees the exploitation of animals. It really doesn't matter to me that the machine created these images in a minute. The main thing is the benefit that came from it.

For example, another area is medicine. Doctors used to practice all their lives to move more and more perfectly during operations. And yet there is a level of precision that we will never be able to match. But a machine can do it. So why not let technology do it?

(((＞＜))) We are afraid of change. Artists, actors, construction workers, everyone is afraid of losing their jobs. I am too! But if it's not something that is aimed at destroying all life, then maybe it can help us on the contrary. We'll see where it takes us. And if it happens that no one wants my drawings at all, I know what I want to do with myself. This is about the fact that when people trusted progress, they found time and opportunities to improve other areas of life.

(*˘︶˘*).｡.:*♡ I would hold drawing lessons, creative evenings... Experience has shown that the Internet can provide a lot of knowledge, but live classes, the creative process, conversations, support, discussions are something that no machine can replace. And the way students and their parents call and write to me and say that they miss our classes warms my heart every time. I also miss this atmosphere.

(人´∀｀)．☆．。．:*･° And if you didn't know what to do in the evening, take it as a sign. Take pencils, paints, paper or anything else, turn on your favorite movie or music and create. Do what you want and what your heart tells you to do. Alone or with someone. Don't worry about being perfect and professional! No, that's not the point. Just have fun!

I will end. Haha!

I don't know how it happened, but sorry for the sea of text! m(_ _;m)三(m;_ _)m

I love you and thank you for supporting me! (*꒦ິ꒳꒦ີ) ☆

P.s. I also want to say that English is not my native language and I am very bad at it. So if I made a mistake somewhere and someone wants to correct me, no problem! I am happy to learn!

Also, let me know if it's boring, obvious, and not interesting to anyone. I will not be offended in any way! I'm just not going to talk about things that I wasn't even asked about and will leave these conversations for my friends. Haha.

[xxforsaken-angelxx]

> Message your moirail back.

xxforsaken-angelxx im so sorry i knoww i shouldvve told you somethin first but fuckin i dont knoww, i didnt, i was rushin an i didnt knoww wwhat to say im here noww though hi

hortiicultured Hii.

xxforsaken-angelxx hi

hortiicultured are you okay?

xxforsaken-angelxx i havve a headache an im on so much adrenaline otherwwise im good

hortiicultured Okay. good. That'2 Good. are you goiing to tell me what that wa2 all about? What Wa2 2o Urgent That You Couldn't Even 2ay Anythiing To Me? and what we're 2uppo2ed to do now that we've got your fuckiing ance2tor tru22ed up liike twelfth periigee2 meal?

xxforsaken-angelxx he wwas keepin someone as secret prisoner on his ship an like that guy talks on here an hes miserable an i wwanted to see if i could get some info out of my ancestor wwithout it bein a big deal   but then i kinda like lost my shit an noww its a vvery big deal

hortiicultured IIt'2 Defiiniitely A Biig Deal! ii. ii could have *helped,* eriidan. II Would Have.

xxforsaken-angelxx i knoww :o( i should havve told you an you wwouldvve stopped me an i dont havve an excuse

hortiicultured you don't *know* what ii would have done, becau2e you diidn't giive me the chance.

xxforsaken-angelxx ok yeah still though im really sorry sollux

hortiicultured ...II Know. 2o what now...?

xxforsaken-angelxx so noww uh noww ivve got a guy here an my ancestors presumably still in the other room an i think said guy wwill be helpful but i dunno knoww wwhat to do about my ancestor

hortiicultured He II2 IIn Fact 2tiill IIn The Other Room. ...you found the guy? And... Brought Hiim Back.

xxforsaken-angelxx i found the guy an i brought him back an hes wwith me

hortiicultured all riight... ...II2 *He* Okay? from the 2ound of thiing2...

xxforsaken-angelxx emotionally he is havvin a real bad time right now but physically he seems okay

hortiicultured At Lea2t There'2 That. we really need to fiigure out what to do about your ance2tor.

xxforsaken-angelxx boy wwe really fuckin do

hortiicultured II Want To Be Able To Talk About Thii2 IIn Per2on And II Can't Really. Do That. iif ii'm 2tuck grub2iittiing hii2 2tupiid grea2y a22. Whiich II'm Doiing, Becau2e Fuck Know2 We Don't Need One Of Hii2 People Fiindiing Hiim. but they're goiing to fiigure out he'2 mii22iing 2ooner or later.

xxforsaken-angelxx i appreciate you so much for doin that you dont evven knoww howw about i just fuckin spitball some ideas though cause wwe need to get somewwhere wwith this

hortiicultured II Can't Thiink Of Anythiing Better At The Moment, 2o. 2piitball away. Al2o You'd Better. <>

xxforsaken-angelxx i lovve you so much anywways i got to the grease lightnin on this fuckin secret transport pad bullshit wwe havve so wwe could just send him back on that an see wwhere that goes other options include airlock makeshift jail puttin him back in the med wward an bribin the nurses

hortiicultured ...okay. Pro2 And Con2.

2end hiim back, he'2 probably goiing to kiick up a fu22 *immediiately*. Probably More Of One When He Fiigure2 Out That You 2tole Hii2...Prii2oner? What The Fuck II2 Even Goiing *On* There. make2hiift jaiil and briibiing the nur2e2, both could buy u2 2ome tiime but would defiiniitely only delay actually. dealiing. wiith thii2. And Hii2 People Are Almo2t Certaiinly Goiing To Come Lookiing 2ooner Or Later ...aiirlock. Not That II Feel Liike II 2hould *Really* Be Con2iideriing The Meriit2 Of 2omethiing Liike That, But II Can't 2ay IIt Ha2n't Been On My Miind. he'd be out of the piicture, but you'd have to deal wiith everythiing that would come of that, whiich. ii don't actually know iif iit would be better or wor2e than contiinuiing to deal wiith *hiim*.

...Al2o What IIf 2omeone 2aw Hiim Ju2t. Driiftiing. Out There.

xxforsaken-angelxx if wwe throww him out the airlock then itd immediately trigger my succession attempt so theres that

hortiicultured ...doe2 that feel liike 2omethiing you can hone2tly deal wiith riight now? Would IIt Be Worth IIt?

xxforsaken-angelxx i mean ivve been fuckin thinkin an ...thats wwhat im tryin to do anywways? evverythins fucked right noww an i wwant things to go my wway an not his so im essentially tryin to start takin the church an also, i brought the guy back cause i thought him existin might help wwith that too

hortiicultured eriidan, iif you're goiing to do thii2. You Can't... Do. *Thii2*. Agaiin. ii can't deal wiith beiing left iin the dark agaiin. Whatever Happen2.

xxforsaken-angelxx i wwould nevver i i cant tell you howw much i wwould fuckin nevver do this again im fuckin *terrified* an ivve been terrified all day i need you im lost wwithout you an i lovve you im not i wwasnt bein myself im not ok i snapped im not ok an i wwould still nevver do it again cause i feel awwful about hurtin you like that

hortiicultured ...okay. okay. We'll. Deal Wiith That, Too. Later. ...ii'm not. II *Wa2* Angry, And II Am Hurt, But. you 2cared me, ii wa2 worriied, ii diidn't know what you were doiing or what wa2 goiing to happen.

xxforsaken-angelxx i dont wwant to evver scare you like that again :o(

hortiicultured II Know. ii'd. rather be 2cared *wiith* you. You Know...?

xxforsaken-angelxx alwways

hortiicultured ii love you...

xxforsaken-angelxx i lovve you too i think wwe should send my ancestor back or somethin an find a place for my guy an then i wwanna just cry on you i think

hortiicultured ...yeah. Yeah. Okay... let'2 do that.

xxforsaken-angelxx i lovve you sollux

hortiicultured II Love You Too. more than anythiing...

[blarhiv]

hi, i was the recent anon who asked abt ur opinion abt ppl calling jimin out with his stage presence, and i was very sad just by reading these set of comments who called him out like that when the comment they replied under was standing up for jimin and then the replies started to kinda think low of him when he wasn't even part of anything, and the fact that this person actually said jimin was the least. and then another comment replied, he's a good dancer, but he's very boxed, and focuses +

focuses more on his dance-- when it was the complete opposite. everything she said abt jimin was the complete opposite, i wish i could copy paste everything she said right now, but i dont wanna be at the worst mood bc of it. it really pissed me off, bc the replies were only defending the others, whereas jimin was the only one who was disregarded. they say jk and v, have the best stage presence, but there is also jhope, and i think they only have that idea pretty much because they're also the two most popular members in the whole group, and you knoww the visuals. i dont really disagree with them having oke of the best stage presence bc it's true, but the fact that they would degrade jimin or rank him at the least when it comes to dominating the stage, makes no sense whatsoever for me. that is completely ironic, if u were to tell me. out of everyone, they name him like that. seeing as to how im a person who's attached to him for a very long time now, it's sad to say that they sad to say that they have missed so much about him. like they're forcing themselves to deny him like that. I'm just super sad when everyone talks about him like this, especially that he's the most insecure and perfectionist out of all the members, working himself off to the brim of torture. and yet here they are. she said, (i literally had to copy paste this) "jimin has stage presence but i feel like it's very boxed into what he's used to, sometimes he focuses on his dance you don't see the feeling on his face or vice versa, the way he interacts with the crowd is also limited idk its very limited to me.... he's definitely talented but stage presence and HOW you command a crowd is a whole other thing. Its like a painter being a master at all the fundamentals but it's different when someone is a master AND goes beyond the fundamentals, wrecks havoc on a canvas, creating something that evokes wild emotions into whoever sees their art..." (- banconx on YouTube) was what she said, but isn't that what he has been doing his entire career? the fact that he enraptures me just by the growl of his voice he is actually very loud and he knows how to use his volume. the fact that just by a look from him, he has dominated the whole performance, for example with that one performance they had in a concert during Dope, and the Perfect Man stage are good few examples especially thE fAN dance that he did. he recieved the most attention during the dance line's intro in Idol MMA 2018. he literally sassed everyone at that time the responses said he was boring and only focused on his dance-- how when at the same time he still gave off strong vibes and with his facial expressions, and the fact that his moves were still very sharp without looking away from his dance. and obviously the rest of the members were also trying to focus with the accuracy of their dances, just by doing the same with whatever jimin was executing. instead of having me convinced that these people were giving out their opinions, they have convinced me that they more of clowning him. so, that actually means they're shaming the whole music industry. and i know i am overreacting but it just pisses me off, because they were making no sense. and i wanted to rant to someone. i know i said so much, but that's how park jimin made me so dedicated to him and how much he has inspired and motivated me to become a performer myself. (idk if im adding)

Anonie,sorry for late answer.

I understand your feelings.. Sometimes it seems really hard,but please try not to be affected so much about what other people have to say (haters and antis include). People most likely want reaction,or they just have nothing to do etc etc etc. So instead of giving them what they want, focus on your own opinion, focus on why you love Jimin, not on why they hate him(haters gonna hate anyway,while boys will live their best life).

[ggukiefrappe]

Limerence · 2

Member: Jimin x Reader

Genre: Mystic Messenger!au; fluff; slight angst; swearing; slight drug use

Summary:

Lim·er·ence

/ˈlimərəns/

The state of being infatuated or obsessed with another person typically experienced involuntarily and characterized by a strong desire for reciprocation of one’s feelings but not primarily for a sexual relationship.

I didn’t know what I was getting myself into. I thought it was just a game, guess not.

*Y/N has entered the chatroom*

Kim Seokjin [9:15]: I can’t believe you have to go to school on your break

Jeon Jungkook [9:15]: I KNOW RIGHT! IT’S SO DAMN OUTRAGEOUS DON’T YOU THINK???

Jeon Jungkook [9:15]: like its called TERM BREAK for a reason… so we dont go to school

Jeon Jungkook [9:15]: yet, we still have to for that stupid seminar

Jung Hoseok [9:15]: Don’t forget you need to get your report card, kook

Jeon Jungkook [9:15]: i knoww, its just that I have to get it with my parents but they aren’t even here.

Jeon Jungkook [9:16]: They told me I still needed to go ;’((

Jeon Jungkook [9:16]: They told me to bring like a representative or something

V [9:16]: Suga or Namjoon can be your representative

Jeon Jungkook [9:16]: THAT’S NOT THE POINT!!!

Jeon Jungkook [9:16]: the point is, i’m not supposed to be in school :(( it’s term break they should at least give us the WHOLE week to rest from all those exams...

Suga [9:16]: heh, thank God I don’t go to school anymore

Jeon Jungkook [9:16]: Just 2 more years, just 2 more years….

Kim Namjoon [9:16]: Keep telling yourself that kid

What… these People, I mean AI are really weird. It’s kinda funny actually. I read the chats being written before me. Contemplating whether or not I should speak up first but,

Suga [9:16]: oh….

V [9:16]: what is it??

Suga [9:16]: OH…

Jung Hoseok [9:16]: Suga what is it? Just say it

Suga [9:16]: INTRUDER!!!!!

Suga [9:16]: THERE’S AN INTRUDER!!

Looks like he beat me to it… I started typing out an introduction. Should it be like a short Hi… or like a long ass paragraph introducing myself??? Honestly, I myself didn’t know why I was so flustered… they were just AIs… right?

Suga [9:16]: reveal yourself, intruder

Suga [9:16]: Who are you and how did you get in here?

Jung Hoseok [9:16]: wait, r u srs??

Suga [9:16]: well yeah, why’d I lie about this??

Jung Hoseok [9:16]: I don’t know I just thought you were joking

V [9:17]: I don't think this is a laughing matter… you, whoever you are, who are you?

Jeon Jungkook [9:17]: Yeah, who are you? Just come out, we don't bite :)

Kim Namjoon [9:17]: maybe it can’t talk? Maybe it’s just a bug

Kim Seokjin [9:17]: Yeah, maybe it’s a bug

Suga [9:17]: I don’t think so

This is honestly, the most awkward thing I've ever done. Fuck I should’ve stayed home. I quickly wrote a reply to the accusations.

Me [9:17]: Hello, My name’s Y/N, and I am NOT a bug, thank you very much.

Kim Seokjin [9:17]: IT TALKS

Me [9:17]: umm excuse you? I’m a ‘her’??

Kim Seokjin [9:17]: are you?

Me [9:17]: ==” i’m done.

V [9:17]: anyway, How did you get here?

Me [9:18]: I don't know??

Lying is that bad right… I did promise Christian I won’t tell them.

Suga [9:18]: where did u find this app?

Me [9:18]: well that’s a dumb question… the place where I download apps. The app store .-.

Suga [9:18]: What… it’s not supposed to be there

I know it’s not from the app store, what else was there for me to say?? Frustrated, I typed the first thing I had in mind, with a little sarcastic smile at the end of course.

Me [9:18]: then how did you all got this app then? The app store :))

Kim Namjoon [9:18]: Suga?

Suga [9:18]: I’m checking it right now

Jung Hoseok [9:18]: where are you from Y/N?

Me [9:19]: home??

Jung Hoseok [9:19]: HAHAHA very funny

Jung Hoseok [9:19]: no srsly though

Me [9:19]: umm

Me [9:19]: anyway, I came with good news :))

Me [9:19]: that's good, right?

Suga [9:20]: GUYS

Jeon Jungkook [9:20]: what’s wrong?

Jeon Jungkook [9:20]: did something happen??

Suga [9:20]: I can’t track her location at all

Why the fuck is he tracking my location? That’s kinda stalkerish… Trying to maintain the secrecy, I tried my hardest to avoid as many questions thrown at me as possible but, but... it’s not working out too well.

Kim Namjoon [9:21]: let’s change the question… what’s your purpose here?

Me [9:21]: I was told to host parties.

V [9:21]: parties? Like the A.F.A?

Me [9:21]: I guess

Me [9:21]: anywayy, when can i meet Aria? I’m here cause of her

Jeon Jungkook [9:21]: what.

Kim Seokjin [9:22]: did I read it wrong?

Suga [9:22]: Aria?

Jung Hoseok [9:22]: looks like someone’s not to date…

Kim Namjoon [9:22]: V’s here. Y/N, please refrain from subjects regarding Aria

V [9:22]: It’s fine Namjoon, Y/N I don’t know how you know Aria but

V [9:23]: She’s not with us anymore

V [9:23]: She left us 6 months ago

Me [9:23]: oh…

Suga [9:23]: should I cut her off?

Jeon Jungkook [9:23]: NO

Jeon Jungkook [9:23]: she knows something about Aria

Jeon Jungkook [9:23]: aren’t you guys curious??

Well, this is interesting. I didn’t know this Aria person was THAT important.

Kim Seokjin [9:24]: I'm curious

Kim Seokjin [9:24]: but more suspicious

Kim Namjoon [9:24]: same, she might be a dangerous person for all we know

V [9:24]: Suga, is it possible for you to connect me through?

V [9:24]: I want to call Y/N

Me [9:25]: you can just say it here

Jeon Jungkook [9:25]: yeah, you can just say it here

V [9:25]: Its a slightly delicate subject that I can’t really say here

Jeon Jungkook [9:25]: is it about Aria?

Jeon Jungkook [9:25]: there you go again, keeping your secrets.

Damn, this is real. Are they gonna fight? Shit. I don’t want to be in the middle of it…

Me [9:25]: umm guys, I don’t think it’s the time to fight right now

Kim Seokjin [9:25]: she’s right.

Kim Seokjin [9:26]: I know it’s upsetting for you Jungkook but let’s just see what happens first

Kim Namjoon [9:26]: Are you sure V?

V [9:26]: yes, it's fine

V [9:26]: There’s something that I have to ask her, even if there are risks, I must endure them.

V [9:26]: I’d like to think that Aria wanted the AFA parties to continue, even when she’s gone

V [9:26]: which is why she sent Y/N to come and do it for her

That’s right. I don’t know what you’re talking about but okay.

Kim Namjoon [9:27]: but we still don’t know whether or not you are to be trusted

Me [9:27]: I know that… but let’s try to get along yeah?

Jung Hoseok [9:27]: but still though

Jung Hoseok [9:27]: don’t you think a background check is necessary?

Kim Namjoon [9:27]: yes.

Suga [9:27]: well, i’ll try

Suga [9:28]: that’s okay with you right?

Me [9:28]: i guess?

Me [9:28]: anyway, all I have to do is help arrange the party yes?

Jeon Jungkook [9:28]: yep ^^ i think you’ll get emails from guests? You’ll just have to arrange those

Kim Seokjin [9:28]: yess but the date of the party is yet to be set

V [9:29]: I will inform the date later on but for now, starting is good

Me [9:29]: okay! I’ll try to get started

Add one more task that I'll procrastinate on I guess. Sighing, I added ‘guest emails’ onto the list of ‘things that are due’.

V [9:30]: I guess I should go now Kim Namjoon [9:30]: Okay, see you around Me [9:30]: bye V~ V [9:30]: guess I'll talk with everyone later

*V has left the chatroom*

Kim Namjoon [9:30]: we should go back to work Hoseok

Jung Hoseok [9:30]: I guess we should huh, Joonie?

Jung Hoseok [9:30]: we’ll talk again later!

*Kim Namjoon has left the chatroom*

*Jung Hoseok has left the chatroom*

Well, I mean since everyone’s leaving, might as well leave too right? I’m kinda hungry too anyway.

Me [9:31]: Guys, I think I have to go now too, I need to finish my report for my psychology class ㅠㅠ

I used my ‘need to finish my report’ excuse again even though everyone knows, I'm gonna do it the night before.

Me [9:31]: it was nice meeting you guys! I’ll come back soon

Jeon Jungkook [9:31]: YOU’RE STILL IN UNIVERSITY TOO??

Me [9:31]: YES! YOU TOO??

Oh, a fellow university student. Nice, we shall suffer together.

Jeon Jungkook [9:31]: what year are u in?

Me [9:31]: 2nd, you?

Jeon Jungkook [9:31]: OMG SAME

Me [9:31]: OMG I HAVE A NEW FRIEND HI

Jeon Jungkook [9:31]: HI FRIEND

Me [9:31]: anyway, I gotta go. Byeee

Jeon Jungkook [9:31]: okay! Have fun with that report

Kim Seokjin [9:31]: See Kookie, follow a fellow university student. Actually, do your projects instead of playing Overwatch all the time

Jeon Jungkook [9:31]: WELL I’M SORRY.

Heh, cute. I smiled as I read the text. As AIs, they have good chemistry together, then again they were programmed to do so. Damn Christian’s hot and smart.

*Y/N has left the chatroom*

Well, that’s that. I met the characters of the game. I got out up from the bed and started walking around the room. This is one big ass room. I wish it was mine. Damn. I checked the closet and to my surprise, it was full of clothing. And by the looks of it, it all looked brand new. As I examined the new surrounding of the beautiful room, my phone rang.

“Hello?” I spoke through the phone.

“Yeah, It’s V. I said I was gonna call?” He confirmed

“Ah, yes, what is it?” I hesitantly asked.

“Let me start off by introducing myself, My name is V and I'm the leader or head of the AFA.” He introduced. “I wanted to ask you something but I was afraid if I asked in the chatroom the other members would be surprised.”

“What is it that you want to ask?” I questioned

“It’s just… you said you knew Aria so, I just wanted to know how you knew her” his voice dropping as he spoke.

“Ahh, she was a friend of my friend’s friend. Basically speaking, she was an acquaintance of a friend I knew.” I lied.

“Ahh, is that so… then I guess you wouldn’t really know anything about her since you guys are distant.” disappointment was written all over his voice. “Anyway, I hope we get along well with each other and get to know each other more”

“Yeah, sure.” I smiled.

“Well, for now, goodbye.”

“Bye,” I hung up.

As I walked towards the big window overviewing a beautiful garden, a knock was audible from the gigantic door.

“Come in,” granting access to whoever was entering the room.

“Y/N? I saw the chat you had with the AIs, you did well.” you looked over to see a smiling Christian by your door. “It was a good chat I assume?” he came closer

“It was okay,” I smiled. “But don’t you think you made them super realistic? Not saying it’s a bad thing.” he smiled at your question

“That’s what I was going for, that’s good I guess.” his soft hands were holding mine, beautiful brown eyes looking straight into mine, smiling as he spoke, “you haven’t had lunch yet right?”

“Not yet, I had to get here remember?” mesmerized by his beautiful brown eyes, I just can’t look away.

“I’ll get you something to eat.” he brought me closer to him. I felt something soft touch my forehead as he started to envelop me with his arms, bringing me into his warm embrace. “If anything happens, please promise me you won’t leave my side, please”

I returned his embrace, nuzzling my face into his chest, “I won’t leave, I promise.”

“Good.” He let me go, eyes locking with mine. “I’ll go get your lunch.” He started to leave.

“Christian, umm… I have this report due in like 3 days and I don’t really have anything to write it on… do you think I can borrow a laptop or a computer or something so I can get it finished?” I played with the hem of my shirt, looking down at the floor, unable to look at him.

“Yeah, sure. I’ll get it with your food.” you can hear him smiling as he left your room.

He’s hot, smart, cute and romantic. He’s practically perfect. A walking Prince Charming, is he not?

[courtinggrievances]

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woah what the fuck??

> Karkat; Send the log to your omniquad. You need to jam with him about this bullshit.

> Not just about the state of the log, but about.. some of the things you said in it.

Today at 1:03 PM

courtinggrievances HEY, HOW IS THE SHIT SHOOTING GOING?

eridacnis the wwhat god i evven forgot you existed

courtinggrievances THAT WAS A CONVENIANT WAY FOR ME TO ASK YOU HOW YOU'RE DOING WITHOUT SEEMING OVERLY CONCERNED OR WHATEVER, BECAUSE I'M A PIECE OF SHIT WHO DOESN'T CURRENTLY FEEL LIKE TRYING TO GIVE OFF THE IMPRESSION OF A STOIC INDIVIDUAL. ALSO THAT'S. WOW. ALRIGHT, I'M NOT GOING TO FUCKING LIE, THAT KIND OF HURTS.

eridacnis hurts less wwhen i remind you that i havve the wworst possible memory and from time to time forget im married to cas

eridacnis but also i dont think theres evver a situation wwhere im not feeling like utter shit

courtinggrievances I MEAN, I GUESS. HOLY FUCKING SHIT THOUGH, I FEEL IT. IS THERE ANY PARTICULAR REASON YOU FEEL LIKE SHIT TODAY?

eridacnis wwell this time its just nightmares hauntin me constantly and me just not bein able to sleep normally at all for the past twwo wweeks and im slowwly at the end of my nervves

courtinggrievances HOLY SHIT, YOU AND ME BOTH. WHAT ARE YOUR NIGHTMARES OF, I'M CURIOUS HONESTLY. LET'S SEE IF THEY'RE SIMILIAR TOO.

courtinggrievances MINE ARE JUST, YOU KNOW, THE CASUAL BLOODSHED AND OBLITERATION OF TROLLMANITY THAT PLAGUES NEARLY EVERY TROLLS DREAMS, BUT AS RECENT AS LAST NIGHT THEY KIND OF GOT... WORSE.

eridacnis shrug trauma dreamin of exes wwho treated me awwful failin to take care of people and things and some other i just forgot

courtinggrievances ):B

eridacnis yeah Today at 2:59 PM

eridacnis so is that all you got to say

courtinggrievances SORT OF? I JUST WANTED TO CHECK IN AND SEE HOW YOU WERE, I KNOW THINGS SUCKED EARLIER. FAR BE IT FROM ME TO ACTUALLY SHOW SOME GENUINE FUCKING CONCERN BUT, IT IS WHAT IT IS I FUCKING GUESS.

eridacnis wwell thanks for nothin then

courtinggrievances I THINK YOU MAY HAVE MISREAD THE TONE OF MY TEXT. WHAT I'M SAYING HERE IS THAT I'M SHOWING CONCERN FOR YOUR WELL-BEING EVEN THOUGH IT'S NOT IN MY NATURE TO REALLY DO SO. IT'S A TESTAMENT TO US BEING FRIENDS THAT I EVEN SAID SO, YOU KNOW?

eridacnis you showwin me your concern by sendin me a stupid sad emoticon and then fuckin off isnt gonna make me feel any better so no i dont think theres somethin i understood wwrong there

courtinggrievances ALRIGHT, SO WHAT THE FUCK WOULD YOU LIKE ME TO DO, THEN. GO INTO YOUR PAN AND STOP THE NIGHTMARES FROM OCCURRING? MY DUDE, IF I COULD DO THAT, I WOULDN'T BE HAVING SO MUCH SHIT IN MY OWN DREAMS.

courtinggrievances I'M SORRY YOUR EXES WERE SHIT, I DON'T REALLY UNDERSTAND BECAUSE I DON'T HAVE ANY, BUT THAT SHIT SOUNDS LIKE IT SUCKS GLOBESPHERES AND I HEAR IT HAPPENING SO MUCH ALL THE GODAMN TIME, BUT I'D LIKE TO JUST NOD MY HEAD AND LET YOU KNOW I HOLD SOME GENUINE FUCKING CONCERN FOR YOU WITHOUT IT SEEMING FAKE AS FUCK. I CAN'T EMPATHIZE BUT I SYMPATHIZE.

eridacnis yeah wwell you done evverythin you could to seem fake as all fuckin hell so good job wwith that you really suck at this

courtinggrievances THANKS FOR THE NOTE OF ENCOURAGEMENT.

I DON'T KNOW WHAT YOU'RE WANTING TO ACCOMPLISH BY INVALIDATING MY CONCERN, BUT IF IT WAS YOU STOPPING ME FROM REACHING OUT TO ANYONE EVER AGAIN, CONGRATU-FUCKING-LATIONS, YOU SURE FUCKING SUCCEEDED! SURE STOPPED ME FROM WANTING TO REACH OUT TO PEOPLE I CONSIDER TO BE FRIENDS!! YOU REALLY SHOWED ME!! WOW!! I'M *FUCKING* IMPRESSED!! YOU REALLY BOOSTED MY FAITH IN MYSELF OF MY CURRENT 'BE A GOOD FRIEND' CAPABILITIES!!!

I'M GLAD I COULD LEARN THAT I'M A SUCKY FRIEND TO YOU AND PROBABLY TO EVERYONE I TALK TO ABOUT HAVING **GENUINE FUCKING CONCERNED FEELINGS**, BECAUSE HEY, FOR YOUR FUCKING INFORMATION, THAT'S HOW I ASK PEOPLE HOW THEY'RE DOING WITHOUT SEEING FUCKING CLINGY, BUT YOU KNOW, WHATEVER.

I'M GLAD YOU SHOWED ME THE ERROR OF MY GODAMN WAYS!! I'LL CERTAINLY NEVER TROLL YOU AGAIN TO ASK ***HOW YOU'RE FUCKING DOING*** BECAUSE OBVIOUSLY I SUCK TENS OF THOUSANDS OF AMOUNTS AT BEING A ****GOOD FRIEND****.

THANKS!!! I'LL REMEMBER THIS. FOREVER. YOU'VE CHANGED MY LIFE.

courtinggrievances BREAKING NEWS FLASH; KARKAT "COURT" VANTAS SUCKS AT BEING A FRIEND. HIS EFFORTS AT REACHING OUT RESULT IN HIM GETTING HIS *~**~FEELINGS~~**~* HURT. MORE AT ELEVEN!!

eridacnis thanks for the slice of guilt trippin after me not bein happy wwith somethin you did to me

courtinggrievances HEY, I'M NOT GUILT TRIPPING YOU AFTER YOU INVALIDATED MY EMOTIONS AND FEELINGS AND GENERAL STATE OF BEING FRIENDS WITH YOU.

I'M TELLING YOU, STRAIGHT UP (WHILE BEING SARCASTIC AS FUCK BECAUSE THAT'S WHO I AM) THAT YOU HURT MY FEELINGS BY TELLING ME, IN NOT SO MANY WORDS, THAT YOU THINK MY CONCERN IS STUPID, THAT I DIDN'T HELP, AND THAT I SUCK AT HELPING FRIENDS SO I SHOULDN'T EVEN TRY.

eridacnis i mean you didnt evven try wwith me is all im gettin at and if a friends not wworth the effort then yeah you suck at keepin friends

eridacnis god i cant believve im the one havvin to givve you a lesson there

courtinggrievances HOW THE FUCK YOU EXPECT ME TO DO ANYTHING ABOUT DREAMS ABOUT YOUR EXES IS BEYOND ME. LIKE I SAID, I DON'T HAVE ANY, AND I SAID THAT TO AVOID THE AGE OLD ARGUMENT OF PEOPLE GOING 'YOU DON'T KNOW HOW I FEEL!!' BECAUSE I FUCKING DON'T, BUT I'M STILL HERE TO TALK ABOUT IT WITH YOU.

eridacnis if someones upset you dont just send them an emoticon and leavve it at that its not that fuckin easy you talk to em try to figure out wwhat you can do for em like talkin about the shit that happened or just simply distractin em

courtinggrievances IF SOMEONE'S UPSET, I SEND THEM AN EMOTICON TO JUDGE HOW MUCH THEY WANT TO TALK. SOME FUCKS JUST WANT TO BE LEFT ALONE.

eridacnis its sad enough that me eridan ampora has to teach you that more like you wwanted to be left alone cause you didnt care enough as soon as i said is that all you wwere like yeah thats all like if my question wwasnt enough to tell you that i awwaited more then i dont knoww wwhat to tell you buddy

courtinggrievances HOW THE FUCK DO I WANT TO BE LEFT ALONE, I'M THE ONE THAT TROLLED YOU. ALSO, I DIDN'T JUST SAY 'YEAH'. I SAID, SORT OF, AND A HUGE PARAGRAPH OF WHAT I WANTED.

eridacnis yeah you started the convversation but you cut it off too in the middle of me talkin about my problems wwhich is the most awwful fuckin thing to do

courtinggrievances I'M SORRY. I GUESS I DIDN'T REALIZE I WAS DOING THAT. TOO BLINDED BY OWN OWN FUCKERY AND HURT FEELINGS BULLSHIT TO REALIZE I STEERED THIS CONVERSATION IN A DIRECTION THAT WAS ABOUT ME. IT'S NOT FINE AND I GUESS I'LL FUCK OFF. MAYBE I'LL TRY TO SLEEP.

eridacnis yeah wwell maybe next time actually think about other people wwhen you wwanna help em oh yeah and noww you wwanna run from it great just great

courtinggrievances YOU EVER TRY TO SLEEP WITH SYMPTOMS OF A CONCUSSION? FUCKING SUCKS.

eridacnis oh no poor you all about you again

courtinggrievances HEY, NEWS FLASH, I'M NOT YOUR FUCKING MOIRAIL.

eridacnis yeah and not my friend either

courtinggrievances I WANT TO LISTEN TO YOUR PROBLEMS BECAUSE I CARE ABOUT YOU, BUT WHEN YOU GET ALL CAGEY ABOUT THEM AND TELL ME I SUCK AT LISTENING, I WANT TO LEAVE. I JUST WANTED YOU TO TELL ME ABOUT THEM!! I WAS TRYING TO STEER THE CONVERSATION INTO THE DIRECTION OF "BEING UNABLE TO SLEEP" AGAIN BUT, YOU KNOW, WHATEVER. I DIDN'T EXPECT YOU TO GO "BOO HOO YOU WHINY BRAT, YOU'RE JUST LEAVING" YOU KNOW WHAT? LET ME GO THE FULL FUCKING MILE HERE, IF I'M GOING TO MAKE THE CONVERSATION ABOUT ME.

eridacnis oh boy

courtinggrievances FIRST OFF, I'M FUCKING SORRY YOU CAN'T SEE THAT I ACTUALLY WAS TRYING TO SHOW SOME CONCERN.

I'M SORRY THAT'S A BIT HARD FOR ME, BECAUSE HONESTLY OUT OF THE (2) TWO!! PEOPLE I COME TO SEE HERE ON TUMBLR, YOU'RE PROBABLY THE ONLY!! ONE!! I ACTUALLY MAKE IT A POINT TO ASK HOW THEY'RE DOING. I'M SORRY I COULDN'T SEEM MORE ENERGETIC ABOUT SHOWING "KINDNESS" AND "COMPASSION" AND BULLSHIT LIKE THAT, I'VE GOT A WHOLE LOT OF OTHER MALARKEY ON MY PLATE RIGHT NOW!!

SPEAKING OF WHICH, LETS TALK ABOUT THAT, AND ENERGY LEVELS, WHICH IS SOMETHING I DON'T REALLY SEEM TO HAVE, WHICH IS AS I SAID, A FUCKING PROBLEM FOR ME. I MEAN, IT'S NOT LIKE I FUCKING CHOSE TO NOT HAVE ANY ENERGY. IT'S NOT LIKE I WANT TO HAVE ZERO ENERGY TO TALK TO MY SUPPOSED 'FRIENDS', I JUST REALLY DON'T HAVE A FUCKING CHOICE RIGHT NOW.

DO YOU KNOW WHAT I'VE DONE FOR THE PAST TWO PERIGEES? I'VE  WALKED. I'VE WALKED THROUGH SCRUBLAND AND BRAMBLES AND ALL SORTS OF THE MOST HORRENDOUS TERRAIN YOU COULD THINK OF. AND I SAY 'WALKED' LIGHTLY, BECAUSE YOU KNOW, WE COULD BE BEING FOLLOWED, AND WE EITHER HAVE TO MAKE TRACKS QUICK OR JUST FUCKING LAY DOWN AND DIE.

THOUGH, YOU KNOW, I THINK THE DRONES HAVE THEIR SIGHTS ON OTHER THINGS, SINCE I'M FAIRLY SURE THEY THINK US DEAD SINCE THEY RAIDED OUR LAST SAFE PLACE AND BURNT IT TO THE FUCKING GROUND! BUT YOU KNOW, I WOULDN'T KNOW! I DON'T PAY ATTENTION TO THAT SHIT MUCH RIGHT NOW, MOSTLY BECAUSE I'M TOO BUSY TRYING TO KEEP TEMP FROM FREAKING OUT AND NAYA FROM BECOMING EMOTIONALLY DISTANT, KEEP THEM FROM JUST FUCKING LEAVING THE EMOTIONAL AND PHYSICAL DEADWEIGHT BEHIND FOR THE DRONES!!

AND YOU KNOW, I'M REAL FUCKING SORRY I CAN'T REALLY HELP YOU ABOUT THE TRAUMATIC NIGHTMARE BULLSHIT, BECAUSE, PERSONALLY, I HAVEN'T SLEPT MORE THAN SIX HOURS IN SIX DAYS, BECAUSE, HAHA!! WELL, EVERY TIME **I** CLOSE MY EYES I SEE INDIGO CLOWNS RIPPING TROLLS HEADS IN HALF BY THEIR HORNS, AND HEAR THE SOUND OF MY PANMATTER HITTING MY SKULL FROM WHEN I GOT TOSSED INTO A WALL BY AN IMPERIAL DRONE TWICE AS TALL AS I AM!! I WISH I COULD HELP YOU ABOUT YOUR EXES TOO, AND I FEEL LIKE THAT'S SOMETHING I SHOULD BE ABLE OT FUCKING DO, BUT I DON'T HAVE THE ENERGY TO PULL SOME RELATIONSHIP ADVICE OUT OF MY ASS CURRENTLY, BECAUSE YOU KNOW, I'M TOO BUSY ***RUNNING FOR MY LIFE FROM THE GODAMN EMPIRE*** OR DID YOU FUCKING FORGET THAT WAS A THING THAT WAS HAPPENING?

YOU'RE RIGHT ABOUT ONE THING THOUGH, I DIDN'T SEEM LIKE I CARED, AND I KNOW IT'S ONLY AT FACE VALUE, BUT I DO, YOU KNOW? I'M SORRY, REALLY AND TRULY ACTUALLY, AND I FUCKING HATE IT, BUT I JUST DON'T APPARENTLY HAVE ENOUGH ENERGY TO CARE *~~PROPERLY**~* ABOUT MY FRIENDS, BUT HEY, AT LEAST I FUCKING TRIED, YOU KNOW? TO SEE HOW YOU WERE DOING. NOT THAT IT MATTERS MUCH BECAUSE IF I FORM ANY FRIENDSHIPS WITH ANYONE, THEY'LL PROBABLY ALL GET CULLED, HAHAH, BECAUSE I'M BURNT OUT AND FUCKING WORTHLESS AT CARING FOR MY FRIENDS, SO YOU KNOW, FUCKING WHATEVER!!

IT'S NOT LIKE YOU CARE ABOUT ME ANYWAY, YOU JUST WANT ME TO LISTEN TO YOU AND WHILE HEY, I'M ALL READY TO LISTEN, I'M REALLY JUST THINKING ABOUT HOW NICE IT WOULD BE TO CLOSE MY EYES AND NOT HAVE TO WORRY ABOUT GETTING AMBUSHED AND CULLED, BUT THE LAST 'SAFE' PLACE WE WERE IN WAS LIKE FIVE FUCKING PERIGEES AGO AND IT'S REALLY!! REALLY!!! GETTING TO ME THAT I'M THE ONLY ONE WHO SEEMS TO GIVE A SHIT IF WE'RE CAUGHT, BECAUSE EVERYONE ELSE SEEMS TOO FUCKING NIHILISTIC TO CARE IF I BECOME PAINT FOR THE FLAGSHIP MY OMNIQUAD WILL HELM IF THEY CATCH US.

YOURS **~*FUCKING*~* TRULY, KARKAT "RUNS HIMSELF INTO THE GROUND FROM WANTING AND FAILING TO BE ABLE TO HELP THE PEOPLE HE CONSIDERS HIS FRIENDS, ONLY THAT NUMBER IS MINUS ONE NOW SO I GUESS HE DOESN'T HAVE TO WORRY ABOUT THAT FRIEND ANYMORE, BUT HE'S GOING TO BECAUSE HE'S (KARKAT, ME) AN ABSOLUTE CHUMP" VANTAS.

[amourete-blog1]

(( famous last words feat. bodencus ampora

tagging: @wwickedspirits @sugaryexcess @hereticalsym69ls @9hosis

blanket warnings for: torture, mutilation, self-destructive tendencies/mindset, suicidal ideation? maybe?, idk if keeping “pet” trolls counts as slavery but it’s definitely sketchy and that’s a big focus in this log too.

wwickedspirits c3< hi

amourete Hi! Good evening! X33

wwickedspirits wwhats up howw are you doin

amourete Sitting with Lil, meowstly. I'm trying to keep him calm, since things are still tense here. What's up with you? :00

wwickedspirits im just sad and alone i might go vvisit sugary soon has anything neww happened

amourete No, no news yet. Why are you going to visit Sugary? :??

wwickedspirits because i just am i havvent seen her in a wwhile an noww that shes like this she might wwant me again

amourete She didn't want you before? :??

wwickedspirits i mean she doesnt really care about me anymore the regular her because she doesnt wwant people to wworship her anymore

amourete You worshipped her?

wwickedspirits i servved her i just wworked for her and i wwas vvery revverent of her

amourete And you want to go back to her now, even though you know this is tempurrary?

wwickedspirits yes it may be the only chance ill get and she especially wwants me noww cause a my blood

amourete ??? What about your blood is attractive to her?

wwickedspirits its special rare she said its pretty an she said shed let me vvisit once i told her about it an showwed her a picture a myself

amourete I... That. Doesn't really sound safe. The fact that she's fixating on your blood sounds extremely sketchy. If you're going to see her, do you have a way to get back if things go wrong?

wwickedspirits uh i could probably fight her or her guards if she has them i knoww her battleship really wwell i used to basically live there

amourete "Probably?"

wwickedspirits wwell i dunno im really powwerful but ivve nevver fought her before

amourete Please be on your guard. If you need help, you know where I am. I don't trust this...

wwickedspirits itll be ok if she takes me in again itll be wworth anything

amourete :(( Why do you want that so badly?

wwickedspirits my wwhole life ivve just been tryin to be good enough to servve an empress its the most important thing i can do an evven though THE empress is gone its still gratifying to be able to carry out that purpose

amourete She's talking like she has the intention of making you her pet.

wwickedspirits she didnt say that though wwhen i asked staff or pet she said yeah wwhich means theres at least some staff in there

amourete sent a post: T)(ree now,...

amourete She's been reporting on her "pet total" since this started. She's counting you as a pet.

wwickedspirits if i wwas just gonna be a pet she wwoulda just said pet ok but she didnt say pet to the other question staff/pet is better than unwwanted useless failure

amourete ?? Who told you you were an unwanted useless failure?

wwickedspirits evveryone i kneww in my childhood

amourete Holy *shit* Bodencus.

wwickedspirits haha

amourete Okay, *well.* If it's serving an empress you want, why don't we find one that will actually respect you for what you can do? You're extremely skilled and very smart, Bo. You deserve *much* better than being a pet.

wwickedspirits no its ok i really like her

amourete No it's not okay? It's not okay at all?? Bo she *tortures* people??

wwickedspirits she let me do lots a things wwhen i actually wworked for her and if im a pet shell lovve me she wwouldnt torture a pet

amourete Are you sure about that?

wwickedspirits it makes sense doesnt it wwho wwould torture a pet

amourete Xanthe's been through her system before. He told me that if she took him, and if I asked to go with him in the event that she did, she might ask us for "ingredients." Actual pieces of our bodies. Our blood. And saying "no" isn't an option. If you disobey her? It will be worse. If you don't like what she does, it doesn't matter, because you are entirely under her command. *I* love you. *Cho* loves you. If you want to be somewhere where someone loves you, come here, stay with me. If you still feel like you want to see her after a night here, I won't argue, I'm just... I'm worried about you. At least with me you have your free will.

wwickedspirits thats fine ivve givven blood before in large amounts evven i used to sell it for paint wwhen i wwas broke im used to it and i can noww because nicco is givving me another chance an nicco likes her so itll be fine wwith him

amourete What if you don't come back?

wwickedspirits like wwhat she couldnt kill me i could destroy her wwhole ship im a god

amourete Like what if I don't get to see you again? What if she doesn't let you leave? What if you don't get to return to your ship or see me and Chosis or anyone else? What if she hurts you, physically OR mentally, and you don't come back the same?

wwickedspirits the anon wwont last forevver so i think its safe to day ill be back at some point and im already so fucked up i doubt she could make me any wworse ivve had much much wworse dont wworry about me ill be fine chosis is talkin to their old boyfriend they got wwith as revvenge to me after breakin up wwith me that one time or at least thats my interpretation

amourete What the fuck? Hold on, did they TELL you that?

wwickedspirits no no no its just they got wwith them after ending their one day relationship wwith me so id alwways assumed but they did tell me theyre talkin to him again

amourete Okay, this is conversational whiplash, so please excuse the suddenness of this, but I... I don't think you can make that assumption? You should talk to them. Please talk to them. Ask them if that's what they're doing, if only to confirm, so then you *know* you have a reason to be upset. What if you're upsetting yourself for no reason?

wwickedspirits ok im not upset im just judgemental i havve to go noww anywway

amourete Bo... Bo please don't go.

wwickedspirits wwhy itll be fine

amourete :((

amourete Okay. I just... Okay. Be careful. Don't pull anything. I love you.

wwickedspirits i wwont do anything dangerous

amourete You already are.

wwickedspirits i knoww her really wwell i knoww howw she is i promise ill be safe i lovve you too

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[[I want this here for reasons... i love this so much, and it needs to go on this blog]]

vvicissitudo hey meen hey did u see im on for nearly fivve days noww

brackishbarracuda im proud tbh

vvicissitudo yeah? i feel accomplished

brackishbarracuda how long have I wanted u to interact w ppl istf

vvicissitudo i mean i wwouldn't call this accomplished but i feel that wway

brackishbarracuda I do shut up

brackishbarracuda don't actually shut up

vvicissitudo ahaha i lovve you i aint really TALKIN to people offerin idle comments maybe

brackishbarracuda it's a start

vvicissitudo yeah yeah it is am i uh doin good

brackishbarracuda you could stand to loosen up a bit

vvicissitudo yeah true but u kno me prickly af they gotta get thru the hard shell first

brackishbarracuda it helps when you give em half a chance

brackishbarracuda they aint gotta b best buds right off the bat u can b a casual friend

vvicissitudo u really think im bein TOO prickly

brackishbarracuda i just want u to have a chance to get out more clams

vvicissitudo i like wwhere im at

vvicissitudo besides most a these guys they aint gonna be here in six perigees

brackishbarracuda casual friendship enjoy em while it lasts get a decent conversation an if they dont come back oh well

vvicissitudo i guess so hmm but half a them aint replied to me or commented on my followw

brackishbarracuda so let it go and start another one later ppl got lives

brackishbarracuda whats up w u tho

vvicissitudo listenin to music up top lookin at the wavves s gonna rain not storm i think just rain

brackishbarracuda u wanna go for a swim when it starts

vvicissitudo shore its alwwavves nice

brackishbarracuda what uh

brackishbarracuda I mean we ain't talked reely much

vvicissitudo do wwe gotta?

brackishbarracuda and I got quads commin outta my ears

vvicissitudo ahaha that u do wwhat wwould wwe talk aboat me still feelin shitty ovver the other night? cause thats a thing

brackishbarracuda we aint gotta

vvicissitudo there aint much i feel that needs t be talked aboat

besides the wwhole thing ww... that.

i feel guilty

is it my fault?? wwhat can i do for that

but uh

other than that, nah. storms an rain an wwavves are good

talkin about that spill earlier tho got me itchy ZZ3B\

brackishbarracuda ive been takin deep breaths and movin em

vvicissitudo yeah

does that help

brackishbarracuda no

vvicissitudo tried pourin spring wwater dowwn my neck

felt nice but ddn't wwork

brackishbarracuda I just been tryin naut to think aboat it sometimes they ain't wanna open and I half panic for a second also it ain't ur fault also what do you think about the bouys 38/

vvicissitudo thats terrifyin to think aboat

noww i gotta open mine up an check em

ugh

wwhat you really think so?

an uh, wwhich bouys

brackishbarracuda yeah u didnt force her hand she fucked up an she shoulda been straight w him and i tried to fuckin tell her that but no an the clowns

vvicissitudo They're good. I aint too much talkin to em yet Tho uh.

Wwhich clowwns

brackishbarracuda clams the two im datin zee and arlequin

vvicissitudo I kno that... Just wwondered

Theres a lotta clowwns U kno i nevver paid much attention to em

brackishbarracuda would u

vvicissitudo Pay attention? Noww, yeah, I'm startin to

brackishbarracuda theyre good people

brackishbarracuda an i want u to be a part a all a my life vvicissitudo

i wwant to be part of it all a it i didn't followw any clowwns before an noww that i do

its hard

vvicissitudo i keep seein the text, the wways they talk an i see you happy an i feel bitter aboat me because you're my happiness u got a full house im glad for u

brackishbarracuda nearly anyway

vvicissitudo i just hate myshellf rn its nothin that

vvicissitudo its nothin to wworry aboat itll pass

brackishbarracuda i alwaves worry aboat you

vvicissitudo i hate wwhat loz did meen i hate it i think i'd rather havve just had one heartbreak to deal wwith i didn't evven get any closure i got to kiss him once i got to hold him as he fuckin died along wwith you an wwhere does that leavve me

vvicissitudo in limbo wwaitin wwonderin wwheres my makara wwheres my red wwheres the one wwhose gonna fill that hole an then i see ur makaras an i feel terrible cause i don't

vvicissitudo want to get to knoww them because i knoww ill just get hurt an i knoww they aint mine evven if i wwant them to be part of this family an its part a wwhat i posted aint no one talked to me last night i mentioned arlequin once in his owwn post

vvicissitudo that other captor  nevver replied to me evven after i said somethin that other ampora, the wwhiny one he liked posts datin back a wwhole swweep an pike a hundred posts besides im trying, i swwear for you but i dont my heart aint in it i dont i don't knoww wwhat to do here anymoray

brackishbarracuda you keep tryin

vvicissitudo been almost a wweek a godamn record that ivve been on doin social things

brackishbarracuda an im proud a u for it

vvicissitudo i got you thats al i got its all i wwant

brackishbarracuda an im tryin my damdest to help u change it

vvicissitudo i aint wwant to be hurt no more meen

vvicissitudo prince or princess charmin is comin to me this tide i wwanna knoww ur makaras but not ovver social media i wwanna knoww em wwhen they're ovver for tea or  sleepovvers or meetin the kids or meetin me

vvicissitudo it feels useless. *i* feel useless

brackishbarracuda you dont want to know where id b without you

vvicissitudo youd be sadder

vvicissitudo probubbly givven up by now

brackishbarracuda id be dead

vvicissitudo wwhat about ur cro

brackishbarracuda what the fuck about him

vvicissitudo wwould he havve found you or wwould you havve been dead beshore then

brackishbarracuda long fuckin before then

vvicissitudo wwhat wwould havve happened i can see u runnin urself into the ground

brackishbarracuda runnin myself into the ground bitin off more than i can chew gettin pissed and sad and naut havin a good enough reason to naut do stupid shit

brackishbarracuda every single tide you patched me up every single tide youve found me when i was low every tide you talked me outta somefin or made sure i was safe i mean fuck clams you saw what i looked like w/o u for a fuckin perigee

brackishbarracuda efin if id never met you you know how closed off i was how angry id have gotten into a fight i couldnt handle burned myself from the inside out

brackishbarracuda itd a been the oil clams

brackishbarracuda efin if naut literally cept thered b nobody to clean me up to carry me home to show me what the fuck home /was/

brackishbarracuda i wouldnt a had the kids oar you oar vis

brackishbarracuda you are fuckin necessary

vvicissitudo u wwouldn't havve evven had loz wwould u i i just realized that it wwas cause a me you met

vvicissitudo wwasn't it the first big thing wwas wwhen tavv tried to "help" me

brackishbarracuda i woulda had rez and fangs and they woulda left me and thats it

vvicissitudo yeah. wwhat about noww

brackishbarracuda i aint efin shore i woulda had sally

vvicissitudo pike are you happy noww

brackishbarracuda all i know is i aint happy w/o u

vvicissitudo awwww

brackishbarracuda youve literally saved my life so many dam tides mine and sallys and the wrigs does that sound useless to you

vvicissitudo you an the wwrigs are the only ones wwho seem to appreciate me yes, you're the only ones wwho count really an truly u remember wwhen u took me to that play

brackishbarracuda yeah

vvicissitudo an they stood in a roww an thanked us personally for comin i wwant that i wwant it all the tide i wwant people appreciatin me i tell people im wworkin on somethin to make helmsmens livves after the helm better i get "its impossible"

brackishbarracuda that aint a good example clams u kno how hard it is to accept good shit when it aint in your hand

vvicissitudo i tell people im a docterror an a chemical engineer an i get "so wwhat else do you do" i tell people im a reader a wwriter

vvicissitudo a pacifist an i get blank stares an topic changes i get fivve note threads on this hellsite an then nothin thats howw it alwavves goes

brackishbarracuda did u think for a minute that maybe ur just ten levels above everybody else an they aint kno how to talk aboat that shit

vvicissitudo i mention my name an people are pike "who" an i gotta say "eridan" before they realize an then they assume wwrongly a me i aint wwanna be smart if it means no one wwants to talk to me

brackishbarracuda ur doin good shit clams bc ur smart

brackishbarracuda bc a whats happened to u and who you are

vvicissitudo am i a good person

brackishbarracuda betta than me by a long shot

vvicissitudo wwhy i dont wwant to be better than u i wwant to be ur equal

brackishbarracuda then get me to where u are and dont u dare lower urself for anybody

vvicissitudo > You're stunned into silence for a bit.

brackishbarracuda i aint the best person in the world i aint that smart

brackishbarracuda im shit at p much anyfin that aint kissin somebody oar fightin em you aint

vvicissitudo or makin someone feel good aboat themselvves u do a damn good job of that

brackishbarracuda shut up for a second that aint the point

vvicissitudo im cryin AND laughin ill havve u knoww

brackishbarracuda good 3B* point is you deserve a crown more than i ever have

vvicissitudo wwhhat

brackishbarracuda you can patch ppl up and help people w real cod dam problems w real applications you kno history and all that shit you read you write you study ur in ur lab u work hard too hard but u aint a useless bump a log

vvicissitudo but you aint wwanna rule

brackishbarracuda do i look like i could manage anyfin close to rullin rn by myself

vvicissitudo that aint the point u don't WWANNA rule

vvicissitudo period do you??

brackishbarracuda why do you think i asked dirk to let me do political shit

vvicissitudo but wwas that because u foresaww this convversation or because you wwant to

brackishbarracuda its pike i told him im tired a runnin

vvicissitudo yeah?

brackishbarracuda yeah

brackishbarracuda idk wtf good is gonna come outta it but

vvicissitudo i can name good

vvicissitudo u bein by my side me being by ur side are you sure u wwanna do this last chance to back out u knoww

brackishbarracuda i aint got nofin to rule clams its kinda far from a last chance but yeah

vvicissitudo alright then

vvicissitudo so uh wwhat rule wwhat the wwhole planet?? this uh provvince, this continent, this bit of planet wwe call home i mean theres things wwe gotta think of

brackishbarracuda hb we just start w the bit were on yeah

vvicissitudo so wwe need to get scoutin parties together to see HOWW big it is an if anyone else livves on it an if anyone else livves on it then we gotta dispute

vvicissitudo buy their land rom em in exchange for goods or services a emperor aint bein servved hes servvin others pike wwe provvide food or electricity an they trade us

brackishbarracuda clams calm down

vvicissitudo ideally rn wwe feed their family/take care a their land in exchange for their servvices in helpin us scout out- wwhat oh

brackishbarracuda do u kno how many tides i had to retype clams calm bc lemme tell u

vvicissitudo uh oops

brackishbarracuda too much at once aight lets just

brackishbarracuda keep our shit to ourselves baby steps yeah

vvicissitudo babysteps yeah ideally this thing wwe livve on is only an island otherwwise wwe got barriers to wworry about pike cae said

brackishbarracuda either plan on defendin what u got or be ready to run right i aint runnin

vvicissitudo i lovve u <>

vvicissitudo u an ur beautiful soul

brackishbarracuda i love you too

brackishbarracuda <> <><><><><><><><><><><> aight im done im good thats outta my system

vvicissitudo thank you for listenin

brackishbarracuda you aint quaded to me for my looks 3B*

vvicissitudo damn right im quadded to u because of u

[harryisntstraight]

oh bethan, i haven't been a larrie for a long time but occasionally dip back on some of my fave blogs, it makes me happy to see how well you're doing but so sad to see some others who haven't been able to let go of larry, either strongly in denial or .. just sort of going along acting like everything is fine but i know how deep they were in and how intertwined their friendships were with larries and i know they need to gtfo like we did... i feel so bad for them like honestly i don't regret +

+ being a larrie, your post about what it was like to feel like you were part of a little lgbt subset community was so relatable to me - being a larrie was so goddamn healing for me, but after the baby was born (i legit forget his name for a sec there, ive come so far lmao) it started getting the opposite of healing.. and then i changed my mind and then somewhat left. and it worries me so much that people are still so invested, like their friendships on, theyve gotten tattoos, they’ve organised their world view around it.. i just want to say to them it’s ok to change your mind.. we were probably wrong about most things but its ok… if your friends drop you because of it theyre really not that great… youre allowed to remember all the good things that came from being a larrie, we believed in something we thought was beautiful and important. and we had some fun times!! but .. it’s okay to change. also like ps you can still ship them and admit to yourself theyre not actually together

first of all, thank you!! but yeah. i relate to everything you’re saying so so so much and you basically described my exact process of leaving larrie behind and moving on to healthier and better things. and i knoww…. i feel this so hard. i feel the exact same way where there a lot of people who i was friends with or at least knew through being a larrie that i have genuinely been rooting for bc i know its not fun or pleasant or good for them anymore and i wish i could like…. put them in my shoes for a minute and show them that like. its okay. things change u know? but i feel like at this point a lot of these people are so far gone theres really no turning back for them and that does make me sad honestly. like u said its so intertwined and integral in their lives now that its like…how are they ever gonna come back from it? i guess for me i was always a little bit detached anyway, i always did keep it in the back of mind that i could be wrong and tried to always remind myself that nothing was 100% and i think its easy to see the people that havent done that and how theyre still sort of trapped in it now. it is sad tbh, especially looking back at people u used to be close with