#i know you were definitely not expecting an essay anon lol

[pardonmydelays]

so it's been a few days since you saw waitress, what are your initial thoughts?

thank you so much for reminding me and sorry for being quiet about it for so long, i've been meaning to write this mini essay but i really needed to take a deep breath & collect my thoughts first. so...

sugar, butter, flour... (it's been ringing in my head for days)

i honestly didn't really know what to expect when i started watching it. i knew a little bit about the plot, not that much tho, & i knew who wrote the music for it, the rest was a mystery to me.

i always say the best musicals are the ones that make you cry & this was definitely one of those. it made me feel... so many things at once. so first of all, i think the proshot was absolutely beautiful & i wish we could see more musicals this way. second of all: the characters! all of them so incredibly written & so real!

ok, i am really trying not to be chaotic here, but it's not easy (i've cried multiple times while watching it, ok???). jenna's story completely broke my heart. also, as a person who ended a very toxic relationship not that long ago, i must say i could feel her pain & struggle even more (earl reminded me of my ex so much it hurts, but we are not going there). but she wasn't the only relatable character here, this may be surprising for you, but i literally had a mental breakdown on "when he sees me" cause i found a little bit of myself there (wow, i've got issues)... another song worth mentioning is definitely "she used to be mine" (that was the moment i had to stop watching for a second cause my eyes were so full of tears i couldn't see anything lol). and don't even get me started on "you matter to me"... especially when you think about the ending...

the ending was really surprising for me, but not in a bad way i guess? as much as i wanted a happy ending for jenna, i didn't want it to be all perfect cause that's the thing about life, right? it's never perfect. but she did found herself & her happiness eventually & to be completely honest with you anon, i love a good story that shows us we can be happy without men (even tho it broke my heart a little bit). also, she wasn't left alone. she had amazing friends (another thing that always makes me cry because friendships are so important to me & they are always my favourite part of the plot) & her little daughter! & her own place! & omg i think i'm gonna start crying again...

so, like, you know. i will probably rewatch it pretty soon, i'm also gonna listen to the soundtrack more cause my thoughts are really chaotic at the moment, but overall i think this is such a great musical, definitely one of the best i've seen so far and i am dying to see it live! the choreography was absolutely incredible, the whole cast was amazing, the music was really, really good and the plot made me cry like a baby. this is all you need to know. i loved it so much!!!

[coulson-is-an-avenger]

saw your doc on ahab’s wife and… i cannot believe that is an actual book 😭😭 there was also this moby dick inspired book i read by a white woman which made some weird changes from the og as well but it was absolutely NOT that bad 😭😭 it’s called “ahab” by eb dawson and it’s a scifi md au that focuses on ahab and starbuck who are besties, and i checked it out bc wow a book about those two specifically?? but i was NOT expecting some changes until i actually read it, like queequeg was cut COMPLETELY, ishmael character is there but he is NOT like og ish, he’s some old chatty veteran instead of an observant greenhorn and he also is not the sole survivor, the sole survivor is the pip counterpart (who got named david pippin?). mary character was named ellen instead which i didn’t see the point in changing name?? ahab was also aged down immensely lmao (so was starbs but it affects less), he and starbs are only a few years apart?? also ahab lost his leg while saving starbuck, and the whales are like space machines that may or may not be sentient. there’s also a lot of stuff on land (on a planet) and the government and war between humans and the machine whales. ahab’s searching for md was not just revenge for taking his leg but also bc he believed the machines were sentient and were getting ready to go to war with the humans again? also starbuck had daddy issues (his dad is alive here but is a typical authoritarian overbearing rich parent who tries to influence his kid’s career) which killed me bc it was the first time i saw the idea outside of my own head and now it’s Somewhat a Thing?? lmao. honestly Most of it was Okay if you were to take it as its own book and not as an md retelling lol cause that’s when it gets funky but it does still have it’s issues. the ahab and starbuck in the book were so sweet tho like their scenes were so soft, i rly just read it for them (even tho at this point they are Not the ahab/starbs of the og lmao). i also appreciated their ahab, he was def a lot more than just “crazy vengeful captain”, tho very diff motivations from og ahab. there’s probably some other stuff i forgot it’s been a while but yeah. sorry for the unprompted dump but you’re an ahab/starbuck fan so i thought you’d wanna know 😭

GBSHAGSHSHDHS YEAH AHAB'S WIFE IS A SPECIAL KIND OF TRULY INSANE, I have officially begun a video essay script on it because it's just... so much

that being said holy shit my genuine favorite thing now is people unprompted telling me about moby dick adaptations, that's so interesting??? QUEEQUEG CUT COMPLETELY 😭😭😭???? man, that sounds kind of interesting, I'm also right there with you in the starhab court (ahab having lost his leg to save starbuck is 👀) and PIP AS THE SOLE SURVIVOR IS VERY FUN ouughhgh @pocketsizedquasar (still waiting for their acct to come back 😭 but their ao3 is the same) actually has a fic on that premise that Haunts me so im 👁

tldr oooooh that definitely sounds like it has potential and missed opportunities!!!! i may poke around at it and see what's up out of curiosity hehe

also STARBUCK DADDY ISSUES IS SO REAL HELLOO 👁👁 yesyes. put that protestant in Situations. would love to hear more of your thoughts on that headcanon, anon (if you want to share)

but yaya thank you for sharing your adventure!!!! im glad you had a good time with it!!! mechanical whales sounds so fuckin slay fr gndkfnfk

[misc-obeyme]

Oya CC! Thank you for the Satan drabble! I knew you will write it at some point so I didn't mind the delay, and it came out perfectly, I love it! I also love the answer about writing through multiple characters. It has been what I have been doing in the fic, however I always find myself wanting it to be as realistic as possible regarding dialogue and interactions with MC. I'll look for a way for it to be more easy... Thank you for that little piece with Barb and my favorite tea, I didn't expect it at all and found it delightful ♥

Reading some old pop quizzes I find that the really first ones are... Strange. Like in the angel ones, where Michael gave them all bracelets that purify the heart or whatnot, Lucifer pushed MC at the bed? I never read that kind of interaction on the og or nb storyline. Was a real turnoff to be honest. Assuming that the interaction happened after season 1... Is there a pop quiz you really enjoyed? Personally, from everything I read so far, pearl was the best, I enjoyed it so much purely from all the different things that went on and the little dates with each of the characters. You had so many things sent to you, how about a slice of local goods from here? If you really want I can send holy oil _🐆

Hi there, 🐆 anon!

Ah, I'm glad you liked the drabble! I felt bad about how long it took me to get to it, but I appreciate your patience!!

Yeah, sorry, I know you weren't asking for writing advice, but I tend to just jump right into that lol. Personally I have thoughts about how realistic things really need to be in a fictional story, but let's not get into that or I'll be writing another essay about it. And oh, yeah I just wrote that little snippet 'cause I thought it'd be an easier way to show what I was talking about! I'm glad you liked it~ I tend to default to Barb and since you had just told me your favorite tea flavor, I was like perfect!

I honestly haven't read most of the old OG pop quizzes. I will grind Lonely Devil events for specific cards, but for the most part, I haven't bothered reading them??? It's usually enough for me to try to keep up with the events we got going on!

However, I definitely think they were trying to make Lucifer more aggressive in his pursuit of a sexual relationship with MC in the beginning. I think that's part of why I hated him at first. But then they realized people didn't like it and toned him down in subsequent seasons. So I'm not too surprised an older pop quiz story had him still like that.

I really liked the vampire event in NB. I also really liked the one called A Star for You in the OG. It was the first one they did with spotlights and it was Satan focused. I just thought it was really cute. I also really liked The Great Yokai Parade. I'll have to play the pearl one I think I did, but I don't remember it very well... I was also fond of the TTWF event, I thought it was cute even with some of those outfits lol.

Most of the time, I like the premise of the events. They'll start with interesting ideas, but then they always get resolved in kind of boring ways. They're good at the set up, but not as good at the ending.

And oh I am happy to receive all such things! Holy oil does sound interesting... not sure what I'd do with it though lol.

[vintagelacerosette]

Artist/ Fic Writer Interview

I was tagged by the magnificent darling Chrissy @you-are-so-much-better-than-that who came up with the artist questions, the sensational sweetheart Harvey @mikhailoisbaby & honeypie Willow @ian-galagher thank youuu 🥰

1. Do you post on Ao3? If so, how many works do you have on AO3? If not, where do you post?

I don't post my art on ao3 but on tumblr 😊

2. What is your total art count?

17 🎨

3. What are your top 5 pieces by likes/kudos?

4. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

I do respond by liking them bc most comments are in the tags & idk should i respond in the comments? lol

5. What is your current fandom, and what was the first fandom you drew for?

Current fandom: Gallavich & First fandom i drew for & shared my art is Gallavich but probably first fandom was maybe soul eater

6. Have you ever received hate on any art?

Not hate but a complaint on my gallacrafts for theme 11 I'm fucking gay. I got an anon asking why I made the lesbian flag & put the phrase I'm fucking gay & i that should have just done lesbian although I had actually made both but it was on the part 2 bc i had a limit of 10 pictures.

7. What’s a fandom/ship you haven’t drawn for yet but want to?

Maybe Spirk or Soul x Maka from Soul Eater

8. What’s your all-time favorite ship?

Gallavich most definitely, they hit all my likes in a ship plus they're canon & married to boot! #spoiled 😆

9. Do you draw outside of fandom?

Yeah I started getting back into drawing with makinng flowers for mutual's birthday 🥰 I've also made little mascots of baby animals for my niece's baby shower

10. What’s the an art piece you’ve drawn that came out completely differently than you expected?

Probably the GGE2022 for Macy. I had some other ideas. Also their poses were gonna be different like it was either the back of them looking at snow or tumbled into the snow on top of an ny roof top but still not the best at figure drawing so i just did the best of my abilities 😄

11. Do you draw smut?

Not yet but one day 😏

12. Have you ever had any of your art stolen or copied?

Not that I know of

13. Have you ever collaborated on a piece?

No but I think it could be fun to do 🖼

14. What’s an idea you have that you have yet to draw?

Snow king Mickey & Snowflake fae Ian that was gonna be my 2nd choice for the GGE2022 but i loved making fanart for Macy 🥰

Crop top Ian & Mickey in Ian's ROTC hat

Smoo fae Mickey in Ian's arms from a reference pic i saw here

15. What are your drawing strengths?

Faces, hair, blushing & colouring maybe?

16. What are your drawing weaknesses?

Poses, hands & backgrounds

17. What’s your favourite art piece you’ve drawn?

I would say my good omens au I simply adorethe little details I put into the drawing. I referenced Mickey's outfit in Ian's delete scene dream. Ian's outfit is 7x10 just in darker colours. I loved being able to create Ian's ombre eyes by colour picking Cameron's hazel ones. Ian's hair shading. The heart wings & being able to creat the wing texture on the angel wing. AND their signature shows with the timberland & bright read air forces!!! I had such a fun time drawing this 🥰 Also it was my 100,000 post lol

18. What is one thing you’d like to tell people about your art that they might not know?

My gallavich art is the first time I've been colouring my drawings. When I drew a lot in high school I would just do the line art & was too hesitant to colour them.

19. What inspires or motivates you to create for fandom?

Definitely you guys! Being able to make you guys smile. As well as your creations & the creating events 💕🖌

20. And finally, can you describe your process a little? Do you have a favourite place to draw? Do you play something in the background? Do you do research or just go for it? Give us a little insight.

I do like to crawl up into a hunched ball on the lounge couch or my bed (which should stop bad for posture lol) Then I do enjoy playing YouTube video essays about internet history/horror games I'd never play or movie reactions.

Also, I am more of an artist who researches & and works with many references. I got a whole lotta unclosed tabs of Ian & Mickey, body poses & clothes that i forgot to close lol.

So I’m not a fic writer yet! 😉 But here are the interviews questions if you guys wanna ❤️

Fic Writer Interview

1. How many works do you have on AO3?

2. What’s your total AO3 word count?

3. What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

4. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

5. What’s the fic you’ve written with the angstiest ending?

6. What’s the fic you’ve written with the happiest ending?

7. Do you write crossovers?

8. Have you ever received hate on a fic?

9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

10. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

11. Have you ever had a fic translated?

12. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

13. What’s your all-time favorite ship?

14. What’s a WIP that you want to finish but don’t think you ever will?

15. What are your writing strengths?

16. What are your writing weaknesses?

17. What are your thoughts on writing dialogue in other languages in a fic?

18. What was the first fandom you wrote for?

19. What’s a fandom/ship you haven’t written for yet but want to?

20. What’s your favorite fic you’ve written?

I’m tagging these twinkling hearts if they wanna play 🥰 @mrsinistertype @crossmydna @friend-bear @darthvaders-wife @psychicskulldamage @divine-gallavich @very-sleepy-head @deathclassic @celestialmickey @depressedstressedlemonzest @suchagallabitch @bekkachaos @ianandmickeygallavich @milkoviched @grumpymickmilk @gallavichgeek @annatrow @sisitrip @lalazeewrites @imikhailotakeyouian @look-i-love-u @suzy-queued @y0itsbri @mishervellous @filorux @jomilky @auds-and-evens @xninetiestrendx @beebabycastiel @bravemikhailo @arrowflier @shameless-notashamed @adakechi @skies-below @takeyourpillsbitchh @mikcrymilkovich @tsuga-of-mars @ardent-fox @you-show-me-love @wehangout

[blush-and-books]

Top 5 all-time favorite ships?

TEA!!!

Warning - this list is literally just the same m/f couple in different fonts. A lot of these were more formative and influential in my childhood or were from series that are from a couple years ago. I am naming these as my top five because of how insane I went over them/how hard I hyperfixated on them.

When I made this list I was disappointed to realize that there hasn't been a wlw couple from a series or movie that has influenced me this powerfully, but I hope to find it soon and if you have any recs lmk! :) Will also include honorable mentions!

1. Kirsten Clark and Cameron Goodkin, Stitchers (2015-2017)

This is tied with Julie and the Phantoms for one of my biggest hyperfixations ever. Kirsten and Cameron were a slowburn that was done really beautifully and nobody was doing it like them. I watched this show at a very pivotal developmental point in my life, and I think these two taught me a lot about the work that a relationship takes and the fact you have to be willing to put it in - they were a healthy relationship example for me at a time that it was necessary for me to see it. They have a lot of character development over 3 seasons but grow together in healthy ways, and the writers kind of bake it into the plot that they're meant to be lmao. They also are just a great example of loving someone for everything that they are. They definitely made me a little mentally ill but also inspired me to be a writer, so...

2. Julie Molina and Luke Patterson, Julie and the Phantoms (2020)

I don't know how long you have been following me anon, but if I've been on your dash at all in the past couple years, it was most definitely related to Julie and the Phantoms, and probably related to Julie and Luke. In one season, they had insane development and beautiful chemistry. The way their characters were written made them naturally fit together, and made me cry "soulmates!" quite often. I will forever mourn what they could have been, and be grateful for some of the most stellar works of fanfiction I've ever read that were produced in their name.

3. Anne Shirley Cuthbert and Gilbert Blythe, Anne With An E (2018-2020)

Technically they're from the whole Anne of Green Gables Universe but AWAE is one of my Shows Of All Time ™ lol so I'm crediting them to the show!!! Just everything about them..amazing. Definitely gave me unrealistic expectations for love tho bc who tf assaults a man and still bags him in the end!??? Anne. She's that bitch and I haven't reached that yet but I'm working towards it.

4. Elizabeth Bennett and Mr. Darcy, Pride & Prejudice (2005, dir. Joe Wright)

This is another one of those ships where I'm like if you've followed me long enough you could have seen this coming lol. These two are from the general Pride & Prejudice Universe, first created by the lovely Jane Austen, but P&P 2005 is by far my favorite movie of all time, and it is still breathtaking every time I watch it. Keira Knightley and Emmy Award Winner Matthew Macfadyen are really a perfect pair and their adaptations of the characters are so genuine and whole. Everything I do, I do for them.

5. Nina Martin and Fabian Rutter, House of Anubis (2011-2013)

My original Ship of All Time. Was very mentally ill over them. I rewatched this show last year and I expected to be like "oh god this is cringe how did young me like this so much" but instead I was like "oh god this is so well written how could anybody hate this show." Yes it has its silly moments but I could write essays on how well it was written. The foundation of trust between Nina and Fabian was more powerful than any "do you trust me?" YA teen fantasy movie moment of the 2000s. Fabian was the blueprint for every fictional crush I have had since.

HONORABLE MENTIONS:

Kaz Brekker and Inej Ghafa, Six of Crows Duology and Shadow & Bone TV series

Aziraphale and Crowley, Good Omens

Su-hyeok and Nam-Ra, All Of Us Are Dead

Joyce Byers and Jim Hopper, Stranger Things

Zoya Nazyalensky and Alina Starkov, Shadow & Bone Trilogy and TV series (yes I am a Zoyalina truther sorry)

Dan Humphrey and Blair Waldorf, Gossip Girl (will I receive hate for this one? to be determined)

Steve Harrington and Eddie Munson, Stranger Things

John B and Sarah Cameron, Outer Banks

Ethan and Sarah, My Babysitter's a Vampire

[destinyc1020]

My Reactions & Comments in Response to Your Survey Answers/Results.... 😏😏

Alright, so it seems that most of you have taken the "Getting to Know You" Survey Poll, and let me just say....the demographics and responses of my Anons and Followers were pretty interesting indeed!

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Let's just say.... Some things were quite surprising! 😅

I'll just share my reaction/comments to your responses for each question below...

Just a recap:

Q1

It seems like most of you are from North America (no surprise there lol), with a little bit of Europe and South America sprinkled in. But I was MOST surprised to see that some of my followers are from Asia and Africa (the motherland! Whoo hoo!🙌)! I certainly wasn't expecting that at all. 😁

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Q2

I honestly was shocked that there were so many fairly NEW (2 years or less) Tomdaya shippers in my followers! Now I regret not asking the follow-up question, "What made you become a Tomdaya shipper?" "What do you like most about the Tomdaya relationship?" LOL 😅🤣 I just assumed that most were shippers of Tomdaya during the 1.0 era.

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Q3

Wow! I am SHOCKED by how many "primarily Zendaya" fans there are in my followers! Maybe because it's clearly obvious that I'm a black woman lol. 😂 I just assumed that most were Tom fans since most hard-core shippers are a certain demographic lol. But wow.... That's cool that so many of my anons and followers seem to be Z fans! Or, were Z fans first, and then became fans of both Tom and Z later on. 😊

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Q4

Now THIS is where I had the biggest SHOCK of all!! 😱😱 Let me tell y'all, I was SHOCKED when I saw that so MANY of my followers are in the 19-24, 25-30, and even 31-42 age brackets!!

I was even so surprised that I have some 43-49 AND 50+ year old followers of my blog! WOW! That's amaaaazing!!!

Yay! Come one come all! 😁

I'm SO glad that my blog is so diverse with followers and Anons. 🥰

This is also great news because now I won't feel so guilty about posting certain things lol.... 👀 NONE of you all said that you were UNDER 15 y/o lol. 😅🤣 Idk why I just assumed that a lot of you all were still teenagers lol. Some of the asks I get sometimes would make me wonder lol.... 👀

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Q5

MOST of you are most looking forward to seeing Tom's movie "The Crowded Room".... No surprise there....

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Q6

Awww...I was so happy to see that nearly 60% of you all said that you would still continue to visit my blog even if were to Tomdaya split up again.... 🥺

Thanks for the love ❤️🥰

Q7

Thanks for sharing the actors and actresses that you all are also fans of! 😊 That's actually very helpful lol. It will also give me some ideas of others to post about.

I see quite a lot of you all are fans of: Viola Davis, Keke Palmer, Timothee Chalamet, Florence Pugh, Chris Evans hehehe, RDJ, Lupita Nyong'o, Taron Egerton, Ryan Reynolds, and Saorise Ronan. I kept seeing their names pop up multiple times. I'll make a mental note of that and will try to see if I can post some more stuff about these folks. 😊

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Q8

Haha...this was NO surprise.... Most of us are checking Tumblr off/on ALLLL day lol. 😅🤣

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Q9

It was great getting to know what other blogs you all follow and what some of your other interests are here in the Tumblr community. 😊

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Q10

Thank you all for rating my blog!!! 😁

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Q11

WHEW!

I was so HAPPY that most of you all said that "YES", you feel comfortable sending in asks to me lol. 😄 I was about to say! If people don't feel comfortable sending in asks to me, then I'm definitely doing something wrong! 😅🤣 I want you all to feel comfortable asking me questions/asks/Anons, or dm'ing me! 😊

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Q12

Awwww!!!

Omg you guys!!! Thanks so much for the wonderful messages of love for my blog. I loved reading your responses about what you love "Most" about my blog. 🥺

I was actually really SHOCKED that a so MANY of you all said that you love my "dissertations" and "essays"! LOL! I always feel like I'm talking (or typing) too much lol. 🤣 But it's nice to know that a lot of you all actually appreciate my "discourse" sometimes. I love reading long asks as well, just so you know.

Some of you all really had some really nice things to say, and your comments really made my day. 🥰😘

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Q13

Okay...Now HERE is where I feel like I really need to address some things and explain myself lol.... 👀

RE: Antis... Honestly? I don't think I really entertain Antis that much these days tbh. NOT like how I was back in 2020 lol. 😅 I've always tried to create my blog as being one that is open to a variety of opinions though, and sometimes even if someone's opinion is different, it doesn't always necessary mean that person is an "Anti".

Second, I'll just be honest... (You all know that I am always 100% HONEST on here and don't mince words 😅) Sometimes it's just fun/funny to make fun of them or clapback lol. 🤣 It also makes the blog a bit more interesting to me tbh lol. Juuuuust being honest! The nonsense that they send in (which, I don't even post the HALF of it tbh) is just so ridiculous sometimes, that I have to laugh out loud at some of the nonsense lol. They seriously make me laugh. You kind of have to feel sorry for ppl like that who are in such denial and such hate in their lives smh. 🤣

WITH THAT SAID.... Since it seems that a LOT of you don't seem to like when I "entertain" the Antis, in the future I will try to refrain from posting anything that even remotely sounds like an "Anti". 🥴😔 .

RE: The "Ex" Talk.... Some of you also expressed displeasure with me talking about Tom and Zendaya's exes on my blog. Okay... Can I just say??? I always feel like this area is a very very FINE line. 👀 Because, on one hand, there might be some newbies to my blog, or to shipping Tomdaya just in general, and they might have a few questions re: the exes. (Understandable)

There are also others who might just be curious about the rlshps that TZ had in the past, etc. (Understandable)

But then there are the very OBVIOUS ones who are either "Antis in Disguise" 🙄, or those who just want to cast doubt on Tomdaya or resurrect old ex talk for no good reason other than to start trouble.

Overall though, I feel like I typically don't talk TOO much about the exes (unless I'm dragging JE Lol 😅), but overall, I don't think I really talk about them much? 🤷I don't think ex talk is the sole focus of my blog in other words. I might link someone to some of my previous posts in order to "catch them up" to speed on some things, but usually I don't think I'm talking much about Olivia, Elle, etc. I also usually try to cut out the Nadia talk... One, because she's long-since been a non-factor, and TWO, because she seems like she was somewhat traumatized by that Tadia breakup 👀, and so honestly I think she should just be left alone. 🤷

With that said however....No offense, but I feel like SOME shippers feel so sensitive about the ex talk sometimes... But these people are still alive, they do exist, and it's just a fact that they used to be in Tom and Zendaya's lives no matter how much ppl don't want it to be true, and I don't think it's a sin to mention them from time to time if ppl have valid questions/asks about them?🤷

A perfect example was when one Anon mentioned last week that Elle (Tom's ex) had worked on Stormzy's music video. It was just a simple comment by an Anon. I didn't even know that Elle had directed (I guess?) his music video. But some got all upset in my inbox for Elle's name being mentioned. That's a bit harsh, don't you think? 🥴🥴

ANYWAY.... With that said, if the "ex talk" bothers most Anons, then I will try not to mention exes much anymore on my blog. 🙏

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RE: Austin Butler.... OH.MY.GOODNESS.... What did this man do to you all?? LOL 😅🤣 The amount of comments that I got about Austin Butler omg lol.

"Too much Austin Butler"

"Not a fan of him at all..."

"Sorry, I just don't like the dude"

I'm like, WOW....Geeez..... 🙈🙊

Some of you all act like the man done killed your first-born child or something lol. 🤣

I honestly don't get all the Austin hate tbh... Is there something about this man I don't know about lol? 😅 I've known about Austin for years, and even though I've never followed him as closely as I do TZ, he's always seemed like a pretty chill and nice guy to me?? 🥴🤷

Plus, his movie "Elvis" just came out this summer, and he did amazing in it. So, I just genuinely liked the movie too! I shoulda never seen that movie "Elvis" cuz I'll be honest, that movie ruined me lol... 😭😅🤣 Idk.... Maybe I'm in the minority I guess, but I just find Austin so sexy lol. 🙈 So sue me!!!😅 He seems very down to earth and like a nice guy too, which is good too.

BUT....since it seems like MOST of you all hate the dude (for whatever reason 🤔) I will refrain from posting much about him as well then. 😔🤷

I'll just remind everyone though that my blog isn't a "Tomdaya Blog". I just post about whatever it is that I'm interested in! Plain and simple. 🤷 So I will talk about a variety of topics, or whatever tickles my fancy! I like a BUNCH of actors and actresses in Hollywood (always have!), so Tom and Zendaya aren't the ONLY celebrities (or even young celebrities) that I like/enjoy or keep up with. Is that such a crime?? 👀 🙈

Anyway, since you all hate that man Austin so much, maybe I'll just post about some of my other crushes lol.... I'll just go back to ONLY posting about Chris Evans or Rege, or Michael B. Jordan or something lol... 🤣

I certainly don't want to "offend" my followers.... 😔 .

RE: Not Responding Back to Asks/Not Being On Tumblr As Often... Okay... again I feel like I have to explain myself here lol.... 😅 First of all, I apologize to anyone who has ever felt "ignored" by me not responding to their asks.

Honestly? Sometimes I'm just so BUSY these days that I don't have as much time to be on here as often. Schooling (esp THIS semester) has been a lot of WORK. I also just started a new job and I'm learning so many new things (which is great!), but it's a LOT to take in. Also, I can't be on Tumblr throughout the day AS much as I could in my old job unfortunately lol. My old job was really gravy lol (I'll be honest), but now I have way more responsibilities and more things to handle, so I am just way more BUSY now!

Also, sometimes I might respond to an ask because either: Your ask is basically saying the same exact thing that someone else said, your ask might be too negative, your ask might be going into a topic/territory that I don't want to go into atm because it will either bring a bunch of haters/antis or argumentative debates back and forth in my inbox/blog and I don't like too much drama, we've long-since moved on from the topic or discussed it ad nauseam, also sometimes I don't even SEE asks because I get so many!

I think some people don't realize just how much WORK goes into running a blog lol. I didn't realize it either until I started doing it myself. It's way more work too when you're actually answering asks. I'm just saying. 👀

I like to be interactive with my Anons and Followers (to me, blogging is just more fun that way?) but it does take a LOT of work.

With that said.... I can't promise that I will answer more asks lol (I honestly probably shouldn't be on here as much as I am tbh lol. 😅), but if you DO have something you just need me to see, either DM me about it, or send in the ask again and say: "Hey, I asked you about x, y, z, but you probably didn't see it, so I'm sending it again..." ... That will alert me that you've already sent in a msg that I missed and I will try to get back to you.

I'm sorry if I'm not as "active" as some of you would like me to be (I thought I was being OVERLY active tbh lol), but I do have a life! 😅 I'm sorry! I wish I could be more "active" on the blog, but my life has become way more busy. It's part of "adulting" I guess lol. So I can't change how active I am, or post everyone's asks, but I'll try to do better in the future. 😔 .

RE: Using Too Many Emojis..... Some of you all mentioned that you feel that I use a little too many emojis, or that it makes it a bit difficult to read the posts.

Fair enough... I personally think emojis are fun/funny and add to the "spice" of the post and show my reaction... But, if it is making it hard for you all to read my posts, then I will try to tone them down.

Q14

I think I got most suggestions down:

LESS anti entertaining

DON'T talk about "the exes"

Never post Austin Butler ever again

Use LESS Emojis

Less speculation on TZ's sex life

Again...DON'T bring up the exes

Don't post so many looong dissertations

Okay, I will work on those things folks. Thank you for the feedback.

[nordic-language-love]

how did you come to decide to move to Japan? from me it seemed so sudden lol. don't get me wrong it's fucking awesome and inspiring you did that, but I experienced it in a way where one week you were just stressed and exited to go to Norway to Bergens test (or what was it called) then started learning Japanese and the next day you were just announcing you moved to Japan :D

In any case I love following this journey of yours. definitely makes me want to take my language learnings more serious because compared to you I can't even say its a hobby lol :D

lots of love to you 💜💚💜💚

Hi there!

Basically when I first started doing my TEFL course I looked into opportunities to teach abroad, and one website mentioned that Japan had a pretty good salary for TEFL teachers (it lied lmao). I'd just got curious about Japanese at that time (this was late 2020). Long story short, I sort of accidentally ended up applying for a job, got accepted, felt like it was meant to be… and turned it down. For reasons that I don't particularly care to discuss on this blog. It sucked, honestly, to the point I ended up going to the therapy for it.

Fast forward to July 2022 and the recruiter got back in touch with me to say Japan was opening its borders and was I still interested in the job. Discussed it with my boyfriend and we came to an agreement, and so this time I accepted it. There was a lot of paperwork and it was a very sensitive subject at home, and I couldn't quite believe it was actually going to happen, so I didn't really want to talk about it much here in case it fell through (although I'm pretty sure I was talking about it as early as September?)

Why Japan? Well… I wanted to experience a new culture, and Japanese culture is pretty damn far from British culture. And one of the things I figured out in therapy is that I'd got to a point in my life where I didn't know who I was or who I was trying to be and I was desperate to just. get some fucking space, frankly. I felt like everyone had expectations of who I was supposed to be and they were all just too much and I felt so lost and hopeless. I couldn't trust anyone - not even myself - because everyone told me everyone else was gaslighting me, manipulating me, trying to make me what they wanted me to be, and that any thoughts I had were some deep-ingrained trauma or an idea someone else had put into my head. Coming to the other side of the world on my own… none of the chains that held me down are long enough to reach me here. I finally feel like I can breathe and grow again. To learn about who I am without other people's expectations or needs weighing upon me. Sure, it didn't have to be Japan, but it was the opportunity I had.

And hey, there's no minimum requirement to say you study language as a hobby! Obviously I have to be serious about learning Japanese given I live here, and I'll never experience the culture properly if I can't speak the language. As for learning Norwegian, it became like, a part of my identity haha. And like I say, I was hugely struggling to figure out who I was, so I clung to it like driftwood in a stormy sea. It was the one thing I could firmly say was me, a part of myself that I discovered and I fostered and nurtured, something that no one had manipulated me into doing, a path I'd chosen to walk because it was what I wanted. So you're comparing your hobby to my lifeline. You study languages as much as and in a way that makes you happy and fulfills your needs!

Thanks for the question! Sorry the answer became an essay 😅

Curious anons get in my ask box!

[ave-atque-vale-herondale]

also (same anon as before) tell me how you felt about qoaad!! any predictions for twp?

if you haven’t, i recommend reading the novella books:

- the bane chronicles is fun especially if you like magnus.

- tftsa was so cute i loved her (read nothing but shadows before you read tlh)!!

- ghosts of the shadow market is definitely super important for world building for tlh and twp, so i strongly recommend reading it before them (it could be a little boring at times, i admit. but jessa is adorable). read cast long shadows and every exquisite thing before you read tlh. the rest is a lot of world building for kit’s background and jessa.

- OH OH also read the tec series if you haven’t (it follows malec) and i think it’ll eventually connect to twp.

- i believe cassie has these short stories about the tlh cast set before chain of gold. i remember reading them every month on her newsletter before the book came out. i think you can find them on her website? they’re not super important but they do get referenced once in a while in tlh

you probably know all of this and i probably mansplained (can you do that if you’re a girl?) everything 😭 but it’s better to be safe than sorry!! i hope you had fun reading everything and def let me know if you have any questions!

I'm gonna do my best to answer this in a comprehensive manner (let's see how long that lasts lol). You're my fave! (feel free to pop into my messages if you ever wanna chat or anything)

Okay I'm gonna start by saying that I had a strange relationship w TDA. I mentioned some of this in my initial post but I'm just gonna go through everything for continuity sake, if you will. Last summer I intended to finish the 3 series before my semester started. I got through all of TMI and TID but finished only LM and 150-ish pages of LoS. I waited till this summer to pick back up. I remember feeling bitter when I started LM because it was strange to have a modern-set book that didn't focus on my fave TMI gang (I watched the CoB movie religiously when I was younger and, before I knew better, watched the show weekly). It took me a while for Emma to grow on me and I initially had a hard time keeping track of all of the Blackthorns because there were so many of them. What kept me going were all of the connections to Mr. Poe (yes, I just called him that. deal with it.) I've started rambling so let me summarize this portion by saying that TDA didn't snatch me up until mid-LoS. okay, onward.

QoAaD was so reminiscent of CoHF and I loved it very much. WARNING SPOILERS FOR ANYONE WHO MAY READ THIS FOR SOME UNGODLY REASON. I appreciate the importance of the Thule portion and know the book would be shit without it, but, despite it still being fantastical, the apocalyptic vibe was not my fave. It was nice to get Livvy back for a bit (can I just say how shocking it was to have her death right after Robert? cause I feel like cc v rarely kills important characters so I thought Robert was fulfilling the death requirement yk?) and I LOVE to hate Sebastian. I'm gonna say something crazy here. I love Kit and Kieran more than I love a majority of the Blackthorns. Kit has been my fave character from this trilogy and I am not ashamed to admit it. The entire Ty Livvy spell shit was crazy because I completely felt Kit and wasn't angry at him for not outright saying that it was a bad idea, especially given the situation. I just can't believe cc had me expecting them to be fully in love with each other by then end, ONLY FOR THEM TO NOT EVEN BE ON SPEAKING TERMS (yes I know I need to be up to date w SoBH, I just need business day or two to marinate in my TDA emotions). The battle was epic, Julien's meeting was genius, Kieran is a great king, and the Malec wedding nearly had me sobbing. I'm gonna stop here w my thoughts on QoAaD cause it's getting out of hand. I am so sorry I am typing you up a full essay.

Predictions:

watch cc give us a 3rd plot that gets crazy because of some questionable heavenly fire incident (I mean, technically all three series plots that I've read have involved it if you count Jace's affect on Jem).

I'm super worried about a main character death because I think it would shatter me but it's also probably necessary? idk I dont wanna think about it

I also feel like something crazy is gonna happen to Aline and Helen because although they were literally exiled, nothing too traumatic happened to them in the main line of the story that the reader got to directly experience

not a prediction but truly me BEGGING ON MY KNEES for Jace and Kit content. I need them to be drama Herondales together. Also, Jace literally told him to come to him for personal advice so Jace helping Kit deal w his relationship w/feelings for Ty would be ideal (I really don't know how that would happen but let a person dream)

Final Segment:

Don't worry about mansplaining, youre good bae. I'm in the loop but I'm also not at the same time, if that makes any sense at all (there goes my promise of writing in a comprehensive manner). The only reason I haven't purchased the novellas is solely because it's more efficient for me to purchase a box set of a trilogy. (I do have the Codex and The Denizens of the Downworld books though). CC has done her best to make her world make sense but that woman writes up a storm and no matter what I'm always behind lol.

[bannedfromtheaters]

Hi. I'm sorry, I know you worked really hard on that video essay. It was wrong for me to suggest that you should've done something different. I have no experience making them, so i shouldn't have been critical. I promise I won't go on either of your blogs again.

Alright, you send me a similar ask I think about a month ago where you'd say you would never come on my blog again and to me that seems like an incredibly unhealthy reflex to just mea culpa your way out of a conversation and disappear. That's why I invited you to my DMs so we could talk about it on equal footing without an audience (my 1k+ followers).

I already had invited you to come talk to me in private after your initial two asks, but since you haven't contacted me outside of anon, I assume it's still too high a barrier to approach me that way.

And either you're trying to troll/provoke me into a public response (which is rather menacing) so I'd prefer to think our exchange is still in the back of your mind 6 weeks after it happened. So, I have to change tactics to wrap up this exchange somehow. Sooo... here goes. I will discuss a few points you send me in the second ask and this one. I will not publicize the very first ask you have sent since you've shown regret of sending that. Hopefully you will read this response, feel like you understand my point of view better and we can both have some sort of satisfaction with our conversation. This way you don't have to come off anon since that still seems like too big a step. This goes under a cut to have some sort of privacy in this public space...

First thing I want to address is the way you're last three asks have this very "please forgive me" kind of tone.

It was wrong for me to suggest that you should've done something different.

Apologizing is one thing, and that's fine! So let me first thank you for your apology. But then you go on and say: I have no experience making them, so i shouldn't have been critical.

Please, please, please, please never stop being critical and just accept things as truth. It's good that you reflect on media (even videos with less than 1k views lol) even if you never produced a movie or film, you can still engage with it meaningfully. And yeah, it definitely is good to keep in mind like "hey. I never made a video / movie / tv show myself. Maybe there's a lot more going on than I assume", but don't silence yourself because you're not an expert on a subject.

Ask questions! Be curious! Learn something new! But ask those questions without presumptions. Instead of casting judgement on me for having talked about a subject in the third act you think could've gone differently. You could've just asked: "Hey! I really liked your video. I was wondering why you talked about Mulan vs. Toph in the third act. I honestly was expecting you'd talk about ATLA and its treatment of male and female characters in general, since it's so unique and complex, especially for children's television in that age. So what was you reason for discussing Mulan instead?"

You're basically still asking the same question. You're still saying you kinda hoped I'd talk about the thing you'd wanted me to talk about, but you leave the question open! Now we can have a dialogue. Instead of me needing to "defend" myself for the choices I made.

That's the main thing I was a bit flabbergasted by with your first ask. You had a judgement ready based on your presumptions. I honestly didn't care that you assumed my race (which was correct, by the way, lol). What I cared about is that you put me in a position where I had prove I wasn't being "a bit problematic". I'd rather not start a dialogue where I have to instantly go in defense mode. It doesn't make the conversation neutral. It makes it taxing and I'd rather not waste my time on an internet kerfuffle. It's draining on both parties.

I'm really sorry for assuming your race and thinking you were talking about culture that wasn't yours, it was wrong.

I honestly think it's incredibly unhealthy if we stopped talking about cultures that "aren't ours". What I read here (and what I see a lot online) is this flex to be overly cautious of not stepping on someone's toes. Thing is... you won't go through life being able to avoid stepping on people's toes. How you respond to stepping on someone's toes (or being stepped on your toe) to me is a thousand times more important. That's where conversations start. That's where understanding of the other person is born.

I also didn't talk about a culture that wasn't mine, because I didn't really talk about the culture at all? First of all, neither ATLA nor Mulan is an Asian production. So if you find it problematic that a Dutch person talks about a tv character and show they're passionate about—online, produced entirely in their free time, for free on the internet to watch forever—boy should you dislike Mulan and ATLA for being produced by big American studios, released for big networks and the international movie industry and having a very US centric team with a few experts as consultants.

I find it valuable to hear from Asian people. How they see all kinds of Asian symbols and customs and traditions just thrown together in a pot and stirred together. But that's not something I can talk about! I'm not Asian. Nor did I study Asian cultures. Nor did I spend a significant time in one of the many Asian countries to even notice what these video essayists have noticed and pointed out.

That is indeed not my experience, and I'd feel forced if I had talked about or mentioned it without the proper knowledge. But those other creators probably never thought or experienced what I saw and experienced with Toph!! Our experiences are different, but both are valuable.

It's why I believe "write what you know" is terrible advice. Then we only get dull slice-of-life stories about mediocre men in their thirties. It is a sentiment that reeks of disinterest for the world around you. No thank.

I love learning about different cultures! I love talking to my friends who live all across the world. I love talking about my own culture to them and learning something new about my culture! Like, I remember how I was talking to my friend about the Dutch "wandelvierdaagse". Four days in one week where you walk a significant distance. The biggest version of that is each year in Nijmegen where people walk 30km a day (so 120km a week....)

We did a 5 to 10km variant of that when I was in elementary school. We sang songs together while walking through cities and nature. And while I was just talking about my childhood experience my friend went: Sam... what the fuck are you talking about??? It was the first time I even realized that this fond childhood tradition I had, wasn't universal. To me it seemed like it could be! That's when I started googling and I learnt that it—apparently—has a military background. How walking together (marching back in the day) together was ensuring comradry. Makes sense! Never would have figured out the history of my own country's tradition if it wasn't for my friend who was confused about something that is very ingrained in the Netherlands.

It makes you appreciate other cultures while simultaneously reflecting on your own culture and the environment you grew up in. And yes, there's obviously a line you cross when "claiming" a culture. But we should never stop being curious about other cultures and wanting to learn!!

And claiming a culture I did not do in the video. I didn't criticize the cultures. I analyzed the different takes Mulan and Toph had on gender and in particular, their tomboy leads. I analyzed how different they got treated by their own narratives and why Mulan didn't "click" with me and why Toph did.

I thought since you talked about Toph and your own gender identity, that you could've talked about the idea of gender in the show.

That could've been a really good option, yeah! I think one of the reasons ATLA is so beloved (and still holds up so well) is because their female characters are so well fleshed out. The reason I didn't do this is because this video was based on one chapter of my thesis. If you know anything about theses, you'll know they have to be very narrow in their subject.

I definitely thought about analyzing the amazing female leads in ATLA, but that would've blown my analysis wide open and would've gone way off subject for my thesis.

For the video I followed the base line of the chapter in my thesis, but tried to make it more digestible and fun for a YouTube audience. I again didn't talk about the amazing female leads in ATLA, because I wanted this video to be focused on Toph. Also, I do believe there are plenty of (great) videos on ATLAs amazing female leads already. Adding my take to the pile would've just been "what they said" and added nothing valuable.

That's why I discussed Mulan instead, because I've never really seen my take be discussed online. I know Mulan is incredibly beloved franchise, especially amongst queer people! I know I'm in the minority here on my opinion of Mulan. That's fine! I still tried to make my case and tried to explain why I never felt that way. But like I said in the video, you're not ""bad"" for liking Mulan.

I did change my opinion on Mulan, however! My thesis analysis of Mulan had based itself primarily on a different academic essay which was very skeptical of Mulan. Thanks to the video I mention in the segment, I actually looked deeper into the source material and adjusted my analysis. My points became stronger because of it. I'm thankful for it.

This became incredibly long, but that's why I wanted to discuss this in private. It's a very nuanced conversation and this format, Tumblr, the internet as a whole, is kinda bad at that.

Hopefully you understand my decisions and reasoning better without needing to come off anon. Truly, you don't have to feel ashamed for it and you do not have to vanish off the face of the earth for having made an oopsie. ;) You apologized. I'm fine. And I hope with this response, you'll be fine too! 😊

[honeyby]

you’re ace?

Oh boy.

The short answer is I’m still figuring things out.

What I do know for sure is that I’m not attracted to men. I’ve identified as aro ace in the past and asexual issues are still very close to my heart, but identifying as aro ace...just doesn’t feel right anymore? I’m somewhere between aro ace and just really gay, which I might be able to figure out if I could figure out how I feel about women.

I mean it’s definitely not just platonic (I have way too many instances of actions/thoughts that were simply put, really fucking gay), but for some reason I have a really hard time saying yes, I’m a lesbian. Like, almost any time my brain is like “hey you might be a lesbian” my brain immediately cuts me off with a “NOPE” (as in like “hey you might be a-” “NOPE”).

I think part of it is the fact that I have vocally identified as aro ace in the past (and that is part of where my main blog gets its name, which I’m guessing is what prompted this question in the first place), and it’s hard for me to be like “whoops my bad I’m actually ______”. Another part is me being like “oh I’ve never gone on a date with a girl/never kissed a girl so I can’t really know” (while at the same time being like “oh wouldn’t it be fun to make out with a girl when I go out with my friends BUT THAT DOESN’T MEAN ANYTHING”).

There’s also the whole growing up/living in the south thing that doesn’t help (and the knowledge of what actually identifying as a lesbian could mean...I wouldn’t be worried about my immediate family but grandmothers are a different matter).

Really though it’s like half of my brain is like “Bree, hun, you’re kinda gay” and the other is like “LALALALALA I’M NOT LISTENING”

[dodo-begone]

ALRIGHTY! LOYAL HERE COMING IN WITH THE CIRCUS HAHAHA

Btw, I’m like 90% sure that I fell asleep while writing so it just stops. Like, there’s no ending/summary/whatever word I’m looking for but can’t think of at the moment and my bird is currently chewing on my phone case oh my god can she please stop—

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I believe the concept of yanderes ft. a isekai-d reader has been mentioned by Shepard and her anons, tho it’s been mainly for Origins SMP. So, I come to you with ideas for the Dream SMP because that’s all I’m familiar with HAHAH—

Also, I apologize in advance because this thing is borderline an essay with how long it is. I’m so sorry—

For example *cue dramatic lighting and a cheesy flashback monologue thingie* oh my god I think I’m losing it, I’m so tired

Y/n and their younger sibling, Frisk, had just finished up another press conference regarding Monsters being back on the surface. All seems to be going well until the ground beneath their feet vanishes and they fall unconscious a few moments later. When they awaken, they notice they’re surrounded by humans—wait they aren’t all humans, what the fuck, since when are there hybrids? They knew everyone from the underground—by name, no less—and had never heard of any currently living hybrids. Only of ones from before the war. Besides, Monsters have been on the surface for a month at most, so there is no way for... oh boy, their head is spinning.

After some very...tense...introductions (“Hi, I never saw you guys Underground, nor have I heard of you, no offense. So, uh, which monsters are you guys related to?” “OI, I’LL HAVE YOU KNOW THAT TUBBO IS NOT A MONSTER!”) they come to the realization that y/n is most definitely not from this world, or even this universe. Y/n’s adamant refusal to fight the “real monsters” that roam this land (“I did not spend countless timelines weeks putting my life on the line to befriend every monster, break the barrier that trapped them Underground, and defend them against my own god forsaken race just to turn my back on them.”) was a pretty big sign, after all. That, along with species of monsters that the SMP members have never heard of and how y/n talked about Souls as if they were a tangible thing.

It’s a rocky start before any sort of friendship is formed: y/n, wanting to be cautious, (and also not having Sans there to CHECK for them) decides to ask everyone what their LV is. It’s risky, and they had no way to prove if anyone is (or isn’t) telling the truth, but it was worth a shot. “Our levels?” A small goat hybrid asked, his head slightly tilting to the side. Everyone assumes that y/n is talking about enchantment levels. “I’m at 26! Ranboo, you’re at 30, right?” “I’m at 37 now, actually.” “Well, I’M at 58. Clearly I’m the superior one here. A real big man, a very manly man, aren’t I?” And a few others pipe in. Color drains from y/n’s face and they take a few steps back, hands shaking as their eyes dart between each person in the room and the exit. ‘How many lives have they each taken to make their LOVE so high? Why do they seem so proud of it?’ Yeah... that was an interesting experience.

- even though they have been reassured multiple times that the monsters of this world are nothing like the ones from their home, y/n still refuses to kill a single one, as I had mentioned earlier. They also refuse to kill animals. It takes a couple tries at explaining LV or LOVE—Level Of ViolencE—along with EXP—EXecution Points—but eventually everyone is on the same page

- Y/n is hesitant to bring out their SOUL when asked. First off, though they’re now friends with those from the Underground, they can’t help but be reminded of every spear, knife, bone, petal, gaster blaster, and fireball that has been aimed at them with the intent to kill whenever their SOUL was drawn into an encounter back then. Second of all, showing your SOUL is something you do with those you trust with your life—after all, you’re literally putting your lifeline out on display when you do so. There are so many different ways that the SMP members can see it

- Perhaps a monster appears

- Eggpire or Dream attack

- Someone forces y/n into an encounter because everyone is too curious to just let this opportunity slip by

- When y/n discovers that the people of this land have more than one life, they’re confused. There is no way that all of these people have SOULS of Determination, and there’d definitely be some issues if people kept rewinding time to their last save point. Besides, only one Determination SOUL—the strongest one—should be able to respawn. Then again, they only know what Frisk had explained to them. They were never able to see the save stars that Frisk would interact with in the different sections of the Underground. So they only have so much to go off of.

- Battle for them is completely different. Despite being in a different world, the mechanics from their world still apply. They can FIGHT, ACT, use an ITEM or show MERCY.

- They use Frisk’s tactic and flirt their way out of a fight or two. They never understood why Frisk did it until now... ‘I mean, I...wow. That was actually effective.’ They’re impressed.

- Oh no, maybe that wasn’t the best idea...they might have some yanderes after them bc of it...

- They probably have accidentally called Philza ‘Asgore’ and Tubbo ‘Asriel’ because both hybrids remind her of the two males from her world. Similar personalities AND Tubbo is a goat hybrid. The poor child is going to be so confused

- If Tubbo’s a yandere oh boy it’s going to be so easy for him. Y/n will probably be constantly at his side and telling him stories about the first fallen child and how they were adopted by the royal family, who are goat monsters! And just explaining the history of the underground and how important the goat family is. Talks about Asriel a lot as well. Probably makes him butterscotch cinnamon pie and tries to recreate golden flower tea to share with him as well. Or, they do that and he’s not yandere and it’s just wholesome.

- If we follow the headcanons that some fans have made, perhaps Frisk (and/or y/n) gave up half of their SOUL to give to either (or both) Chara or Asriel so they’d have another chance at life

- Not only does y/n refuse to kill, which leaves them vulnerable, they also only have half a SOUL, which means they’re incredibly weak. Someone needs to protect them, someone needs to keep them safe, someone needs to—

- Y/n is incredibly agile thanks to all the battles they’ve faced Underground. With their SOUL always out in the open during an encounter and the fact that they refuse to harm anyone, it’s required. I’m imagining them moving like a dancer, using jumps and spins to help them avoid any weapons swung at them.

- This is gonna be annoying for any yandere that wishes to lock y/n up. Even if they won’t physically hurt someone, they WILL put up a fight and make it as hard as they possibly can to be dragged into isolation or imprisonment

- When it comes to who goes yandere, I believe what color of SOUL y/n has (their personality, in summary) would play a big role. Here’s a few of my ideas, feel free to move people around or add to it, I’m really tired and can’t think of many characters LOL

- Red (determination): Wilbur, Technoblade

- Orange (bravery): Technoblade, Dream, Tommy

- Yellow (justice): Sam, Technoblade

- Green (kindness): the kids of the server, Fundy, and Ghostbur

- Cyan (patience): Ranboo, Ghostbur, Karl

- Dark blue (integrity): Tubbo, Philza, Sam

- Purple (perseverance): Dream—this man would love to see how long it would take for your perseverance to run out. I wouldn’t be surprised if your perseverance is the only reason he’s interested.

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From what I saw of the end of what I wrote, it is DEFINITELY cut short. At least I mentioned every SOUL type lolol.

Also, I found a whole other note that’s a continuation of this concept but for y/n being from another game what the hell was I doing—

Expect that to come in another ask once I eat dinner

Sorry i took so long to answer!! I kept getting distracted!

That stuff is so pog man!!!! Puffy might be called “Toriel” once in a while because mom energy and she sheep,,, close to goat!

Gosh all the flirting will bring in so many yanderes or make ppl like “yo wtf??” And there’s a very small amount that are inbetween.

OKAY BUT WITH THE MONSTER STUFF ON THE DSMP- they’d keep the monsters in their house. They’d give them food and everything. Some def become very friendly and will defend. Haha giant spider go prrrrrr

I’d write more but there is so much amazing stuff I don’t think I could add to some of them anyways!!! Plus my mind is just racing other places rn haha

[jerepars]

Back again lol. Even though the writing just hasn’t been the best this season, I’m not really that mad about the way they’ve portrayed Jeresa. Just looking at this logically, I feel that they gave us 5x02 as our Jeresa episode early on and there really was a lot of sweet moments. Now, inevitably we had to have angst in between. But it’s been constantly cemented that James is in love with Teresa, and strongly implied that she loves him too. They can’t just build that up and leave it unresolved. Plus, with TV shows in general, a couple being together early on in the series just leaves it open for unnecessary conflict and the ship just loses its intrigue. If they give us the Jeresa ending we’re hoping for then it makes sense to have not got them together any episode earlier than the final 2. And despite everything, I think the writers have been a hell of a lot better than others in keeping their ship alive and not causing a irredeemable issue between them. I probably shouldn’t defend them before seeing the next two episodes, but I am hopeful. All that being said, there most definitely should have been more scenes and dialogue between them. We should’ve had a Tony moment between them (I’m so mad about this, especially since the writers acted like it was such a pivotal part of the season and then only showed Pote’s ‘grief’). I’m very sorry for rambling, just wanted to hear your take.

Oh, yes hello, back again, I see. Your ask made me sigh because I think it opens me up to be honest and critical of this season’s writing, and that kind of opinion may not always be favored around here, and also because it requires a response of essay length. But I’ll do it for you, anon, I will. Okay. So you want my take on the portrayal of Jeresa in season 5. Here we go. After the jump:

Let me preempt this by saying the show isn’t too serious (try and tell me this is still a serious show after the kerfuffle that season 5 has been), so you shouldn’t take this too seriously either. I have an opinion but I’m just…me. I encourage everyone to stick to their guns about what they feel about QOTS; what you like about it, what you love about it, what gets you excited, what you think has been done well, what is worthy of praise, etc. etc. etc. I go in pretty hard on the show in the next several (LOL, yes, really) paragraphs. But I am in no way the ultimate authority on all things QOTS.

I don’t think Jeresa would have unnecessary conflict and I don’t think the good ship Jeresa would lose its intrigue. In lieu of conflict, we’ve gotten…*crickets* nothing. No conversations of real value, no meaningful exchange of ideas, no arguments, nothing. If anything, the conflict between Teresa and James that is necessary had been absent. In seasons 1-3, there were always disagreements between Teresa and James. There was never a point reached where it created too much conflict, or unnecessary conflict. It created tension, which is like the very essence of Jeresa, and it showed the dynamic they have that made so many of us fall hard for Jeresa as our ship, as our OTP. I don’t think making them a couple or having them together early on in the season would create unnecessary conflict. I think it could’ve created different conflict than what we’ve seen before, and wouldn’t that be a beautiful thing, to have seen them evolve and deal with each other in ways we haven’t seen before?

So, related to what I said about different conflict, as far as intrigue goes…I don’t think presenting Jeresa as a couple or in a relationship would ever make them flat or boring. When I think back to season 3, when we got Jeresa in 3x05 and 3x09, I wish we’d been offered the chance to see them succeed and see what happened with them if they tried. Like I said, it’d be a different kind of conflict, a different kind of challenge for them to face and have to face together. That sounds so opposite of lacking intrigue to me, anon. That’s a side of Jeresa I would have loved to see.

You’ve pointed out that, in general, on TV shows, getting a couple together too early usually means doom and gloom and failure for them. One of my favorite shows ever was Veronica Mars, the first two seasons especially. When the showrunner, Rob Thomas, has talked about the first kiss Logan and Veronica have, he refers to it as being earned. For QOTS, and for Jeresa, I really felt that when they shared their first kiss in 3x05. It took so much and they went through so much to get to that moment. It was earned. So, with that idea—of the earned kiss, of the earned get together, of the earned relationship—in mind, to me, there is no point in season 5 that would have been too early for Jeresa.

Talking about TV shows and how they usually go in general leads me to my next point: as a viewer, is that what I want and is that what I should expect, to be given more of what’s typical? Maybe the writers and critics and people much smarter than me will tell me it’s my fault, I’m the fool, for wanting to critically engage in media that’s not meant to be consumed that way. Maybe I’m just supposed to accept and enjoy and be happy with what I’m given. No one claimed this wasn’t going to be typical. So okay. It’s on me. It’s my bad. But here’s the thing. If I’m supposed to accept and enjoy and love this as it is…well, give me something to love. I’m not asking for a revolution or anything life-changing here, just something I can appreciate (and this season, in my opinion, has really lacked things that I can hold on to and appreciate). So as for typical TV…I’m not down with merely accepting that because things usually go a certain way, that’s how they always have to go.

Why do Jeresa have to fail if they got together earlier in the season? Why is it so out of the realm of possibility that they might succeed together? Are they so emotionally stunted, do they lack so much compassion and understanding of each other that it would be impossible for them to listen and move forward together? What if they could discuss their issues, tell each other how they feel, stop hiding, and try? Who says there wouldn’t be angst and tension between them as they try to work through their issues? What if they’re actually supposed to be together and it would make them stronger—individually and as a couple?

Now, forget everything I just said. LOL. Let’s say we have to go by TV in general and typical TV rules. Let’s assume if Jeresa got together early on, then we’d see them struggle and fall apart and break up. Fine. Okay.

Here’s how Jeresa could have played out after the first two episodes:

5x03 banging honeymoon phase, probably

5x04 arguments and frustration with each other as T embraces being the white queen

5x05 J finds out about T’s coke usage and has to walk away from the relationship because he can’t stand to be complicit and stand idly by while she destroys herself

5x06 classic Jeresa angst and tension

5x07 KG’s death leads to T’s breaking point and J is there to support her

5x08 honesty hour, where it’s made clear that these two mean so much to one another and they’re running out of time to let each other know that, so they tell each other

5x09 one last united mission + they hatch the plan to get out and be free + a farewell with the promise and intent to see each other in another life

5x10 reunion in another life

Are these all headcanons? Of course they’re headcanons. Of course I would never expect the show to go exactly how I thought it would or with my own ideas. My point is that if they would’ve gotten together early on and we’d been given a glimpse of what that would be like, even if they failed, it doesn’t mean it would’ve been impossible for them to ever find themselves together again before season’s end.

“There’s not enough time,” the writers said. “It’s an action packed season,” the writers said. Okay. Why? There was enough time to spend on backstory of minor insignificant characters. There was enough time to introduce characters, tell us a bit about them, only to see them dead by the end of the episode. There was enough time to focus on Kote’s story, over multiple episodes, with not just a baby plot but a kidnapping one as well. So why? Why was there no time for Jeresa? Forget about them getting together and kissing and sex. If that was what it was (and it was) they wanted us to not have, then fine. Some of my favorite Jeresa moments were in the first two seasons, when Jeresa getting together was very much not a thing, when tension was high. So if it was just the portrayal of them not being together, if we still got the scenes of tension and them having no choice but to communicate, that would be completely fine. Like I said, I know I’m never going to get exactly what I want, my headcanons are mine, so that’s okay. Oh. But…no. Oh no. There was not even enough time for Jeresa to have more than short, throwaway, blink-and-you’ll-miss it conversations? Well. It’s the writers’ decision. They wanted it that way.

“It’s a Teresa-centric season,” Dailyn claimed. Like I’ve said before, James is a big part of Teresa’s journey and story. If you’re going to have a Teresa-centric season, it’s hard to accomplish that without shedding more light on James and Jeresa. This isn’t a Teresa-centric season. This has become the Kote show. Teresa is the main character but her journey has been pushed aside, diminished, and downplayed in order to make way for Kote ultrasounds and Pote grunting and Kelly Anne thinking “positive” and hopeful that Marcel will come to a party at the safe house. Instead of getting conversations that would offer insight into Teresa’s relationships with those in her family, we got an extended deep dive into the most chemistry-lacking relationship we’ve ever seen on the show. Well. It’s the writers’ decision. They wanted it that way.

“It’s Queen of the South, not Jeresa of the South,” the writers will insist. If by that they mean it’s Kote of the South. Imagine for a second that it actually was a Teresa-centric season but they were adamant about keeping James in this minor capacity. Okay. It would still be different than it is now because we’d be in tune with Teresa. We would’ve gotten a glimpse into her thought process. Was this not, at some point, meant to be a story about a strong woman? I can even extend that question to Kelly Anne. Was this not, at some point, meant to be a story about strong women? Then why do we keep seeing them make asinine decisions? Why are their most extreme actions in reaction to what the men have done?

Moreover, if this show is about the people in the cartel, in Teresa’s inner circle, rather than just the Kote side plot becoming the main plot, there’s no way this is the James we would be getting. James, our beloved reluctant assassin…who we know nothing about. He can’t even get a backstory on a show on which he is supposedly one of the main characters. Five minutes—five seconds—couldn’t even be spared on James and how he came to be who he is, how he got where he is. But Isidro Navarro? By all means, I need to hear his life story. Who’s Isidro Navarro, you ask? Right. Exactly. Apparently we don’t deserve backstory and explanation and conversation and introspection from our protagonists. But a character who is there for ten minutes or less on a single episode and will never be heard from again in any significant manner? Of course he needs his screen time. Well. It’s the writers’ decision. They wanted it that way.

“This is not a romance show,” the makers of season 5 said. Honestly? Fuck that noise. Fuck that sentiment. Fuck that ignorance. When has Jeresa ever been about romance? Where do the people who make this show get off saying something like that as if we are so stupid we don’t know that? A romance story and a love story are not the same thing. Jeresa is love. God forbid Jeresa ever experience love within a successful relationship. God forbid Teresa and James ever become mature enough to use love as strength rather than weakness. But pile on all the Kote. Focus on them and emphasize how Teresa and James can barely even look at each other. Well. It’s the writers’ decision. They wanted it that way.

So now here we are, on the cusp of 5x09. We got a spoiler in the last promo trailer. We know, after 7 episodes since their last conversation that actually meant something, after the writers missed the mark and didn’t have Jeresa interact in a way that was significant and necessary over the course of the season, that there is at least one kiss. They might even have a conversation. They might even share more than one kiss that leads to more (but also, don’t be surprised if we get a mere few seconds of a kiss and nothing more before fade to black). This is going to make us so happy because finally, finally, they’re giving us what we wanted. And then what? What does it mean if those things are true? Is everything forgiven? Is the instant gratification of seeing our ship sail for a scene or two enough? Does it make up for the character assassination of the characters we love? If we somehow get the ending we want, or at least one close to it, is it even believable anymore? Is what has been broken all season so easily fixed?

Listen, I already know the counter argument. I’m going to be told I’m crazy, that Teresa has to be on her own, that it wouldn’t be interesting, that it would diminish the payoff for Teresa and Jeresa in the end. I get it. Typical TV rules, right? We have to go with what people know, what they’re used to. But what have we gotten, really, to preserve these ‘rules’ for TV in general? Teresa has been dumbed down and is now lacking a lot of the intuition and street smarts she had before. She makes bad decision after bad decision and she doesn’t see what’s coming. The actions she takes are in reaction to those bad decisions. James hates so much of what he’s been made to do but for some reason he keeps going along and carrying out Teresa’s orders; he’ll just stew over it quietly in a corner without saying anything. Teresa and James don’t talk to each other, at least not about anything important, and when they do talk, they give each other heart eyes but never scratch the surface—how could they when they talk for like 10 seconds at a time? So. Has this been a good portrayal of Jeresa? You tell me. If it’s fine with everyone else, then I guess it’s fine. I’m probably the wrong person to ask.

[sneales]

Big brother inumaki and big brother yuta with a little sister, huge age gap live in my head rent free ! Can I get some headcanon for that if that's okay

👶INUMAKI AND YUTA AS BIG BROTHERS + HEADCANONS👶

Characters: Yuta, Inumaki, female reader Genre: fluff Warnings: grammar mistakes Notes: Hi anon, me and my brother have a huge age gap, so I kinda know what that means. I don't know why this became an essay on infancy, but I dunno, I think it's kinda weird getting a sibling so late in the game right? My bro was 15 when I was born and I always wondered what it would feel like to suddenly have a baby in his life, probably it's not as easy as it would seem. That's why I focused on the birth and their first reactions to the newborn. I took my bro as inspiration for Inumaki's part, Yuta is Yuta but what the baby does are things I did to my brother too lol

Yuta

He’s so happy to have a little sister.

Since he was grown up, he could experience and treasure every step of his mother’s pregnancy.

He helped her a lot, he wanted the best for his mom and of course for his sister.

On the day of your birth his heart was exploding with excitement and happiness.

You were in your mothers arms when he first saw you and he thought you were the most beautiful being in the whole universe.

“Here’s your big brother”, your mother said while Yuta leaned to take a look at you.

He caressed your cheek with the tip of his finger, he was so surprised to feel how soft you were.

You frowned and straightened your arms to take his finger into your hand.

“S-she grabbed my finger!”, he said like it was the most amazing thing ever.

Even after your birth he helped his mother a lot, he learned how to change diapers and how to prepare your food.

He was so excited to see you growing up, learning how to walk and pronouncing your first words.

He wanted so much you could say his name, but it still looked like it was too hard for you.

“Yu-ta, say it after me, “Yu-ta”

“Da!”

“It’s Yu first and then Ta.”

“Da!”

You called him Da for a couple of months, then he became “Uda” which almost made him cry because you were so close to pronouncing it correctly.

“Uda” was his name until you were around 4 years old, so it took you much longer than he expected before you could say “Yuta” properly.

Actually he grew fond of your nickname, so he was a bit sad when you finally learned how to say it.

He was the one who took care of bring you to the nursery, of course this happened also when you enrolled in elementary school.

He helped you with your homework and he was always there to support you.

Inumaki

He was surprised to become a big brother, honestly he was used to the idea of being an only child.

He wasn’t really that excited, Maki had a sister and they hated each other so he knew that siblings didn’t always have a good relationship.

He was also not a fan of the idea you would get all the attention of your parents. He was already grown up, but it was still weird for him to realise he’s not “the only one” for his mom and dad.

When you were born, your father insisted he had to hold you and take a good look at your face.

He was a bit anxious because he has never held any baby before and he was nervous because that was your first meeting.

You were so small and he was terrified he could hurt you.

He took a good look at your face and you looked exactly like any other baby he’s seen, he’s definitely not impressed lmao

He can’t pinpoint why, but all sorts of emotions are showing up in his heart.

It was weird, you were breathing softly, your eyes were closed and you probably didn’t have any awareness of what was going on around you, while Inumaki felt like he was on the verge of tears.

I should protect her was the first coherent thought that appeared in his mind.

The second thought was that he wanted to know what color your eyes were, but he had no idea how he was supposed to ask you to show him.

It was like you read his mind because as soon as he was giving you back to your father, your eyes cracked open and you took a good stare at him, your eyes were purple, like his.

His heart tightened. Now that you looked at him, it finally felt as if you two properly met.

He is the more typical kind of brother, he liked to make fun of you, to make pranks and make you mad in general lmao

But he still showed his affection because he was always ready to help you whenever you needed.

[realcube]

characters with a fem! s/o who’s voice is on the deeper side 🎶

characters:  akaashi, tendou, kenma (hq), mikoshiba (mgn-k), and hikaru (ohshc)

tw// swearing

thanks for this cute request, anon! 💕

keiji akaashi 

♡ adorable! he can’t get enough of hearing you talk

♡ and if you sing, he’ll definitely ask you to sing some of his favourite songs (❤´艸｀❤)

♡ or if you walk into a room while he is reading - and you don’t look preoccupied - he’ll ask you to read the book to his bc of his terrible ‘eye strain’ 

♡ but you both know that he just wants to hear your voice lol ^^

♡ and don’t you dare try be insecure about it (or about anything) bc he will write you a 10 page essay on why you are the most perfect person ever <33

♡ he is 100% the sorta guy to give you the ✨eyes✨

♡ like yk the look were you just gaze at someone, eyes filled with nothing but pure love and adoration for you 

♡ for a change i don’t have an emoticon to describe it but it’s kind like a mix of this one😌 and this one ◉_◉

satori tendō

♡ SDFRTYUI HE LOVES YOU VOICE 😍 ESPECIALLY YOUR LAUGH!!

♡ don’t even get him started on your laugh 

♡ like akaashi, if tendō knew how to read he’d write a whole 10 page essay on why your laugh is heavenly 

♡ he probably has a cult dedicated to you- actually maybe not- 

♡ anyway, he goes the extra mile to make you laugh just so he can see your smile and hear your divine voice 

♡ and even if y’all don’t have the same sense of humour, he’ll always insist in watching your favourite comedy shows - despite the fact he doesn’t find them funny - bc he loves seeing you happy that much 🥺

♡ oh and he tickles you (if you’re alright w/ it ofc)

♡ and he’s really good with his finger so expect to get a stitch from laughing within the first ten seconds

♡ he also thinks your morning voice is dead cute (❤ ω ❤)

♡ usually he wakes up after you but he forces himself to wake up when your alarms goes off so he can talk to you before you go to work/uni/college etc

kenma kuzome

♡ your voice relaxes him tbh 🥰

♡ so please ramble about anything to him while y’all are in bed - it helps him sleep :)

♡ ALSO SOMETIMES WHEN HE IS PLAYING A VIDEO GAMES WITH WRITTEN DIALOG (like an rpg) AND GETS YOU TO READ OUT THE LINES OF CERTAINS CHARACTERS

♡ it’s like using a script for a play but...better 

♡ also, the more effort you put into your role as the assigned character, the more endeared he will be

♡ just anything to hear you speak lol

♡ oh and if you’re the sort of person to talk to yourself/sing/hum while doing a task, kenma will act as if he isn’t listening and he is very involved in his game but in reality he is just vibin, listening to you talking or lightly bobbing his head to the melody you produced 

♡ sometimes he turns the volume of his game on full to see if you’ll hum along with the music

♡ ERTYUIO KK BUBBLEGUM HUM KK BUBBLEGUM IN FRONT OF HIM AND HE’LL LITERALLY GET DOWN ON ONE KNEE AND MARRY YOU ON THE STOP NO JOKE 

(i tried to do something with the little character banner thing but smh it’s really not it :/)

mikoto mikoshiba 

♡ he adores your voice and he is so defensive of it (along with every other aspect of you)

♡ like if kashima ever tries to compliment you on it , mikoshiba will LITERALLY TACKLE HER

♡ ‘STOP TALKING TO MY GIRLFRIEND LIKE THAT! DO YOU HAVE NO SHAME?!’

♡ ‘chill, man! i just called her pretty--’

♡  ‘so you basically hit on her in front of my very eyes’

♡ on dates, sometimes he just zones out while he is admiring your beauty and you kinda just shuffle in your seat like ‘uh, are you okay, mikoshiba?’

♡ and as soon as he snaps out of his simping thoughts, he feels the need to explain what he was doing in a romantic fashion so he didn’t seem like a love-sick fool

♡ ‘i am so sorry, my love~ i simply lose myself in your grace and divine presence every so often. though, i could blame it on you for being so darn adorable all the time’

♡ he thinks it’s cool and suave in the moment but that same night when he is laying in bad, recalling on the date, he cringes so hard...

♡ but anyway, he also shows you off a lot to the girls that are falling for him left and right

♡ it doesn’t really anger them though- if anything it just makes them fall ahrder bc they see how well he treats you and they’re like ‘omg he’s such a gentleman eeee 😍😫’

(smh maybe i should just stick to my usual ones)

hikaru hitachiin

♡ gets shy ><

♡ sometimes he gest kaoru to compliment you on his behalf

♡ but that was before y’all were dating bc now he knows that you are able to tell them apart

♡ i mean, you were always able to tell them apart but now he knows that you know

♡ he also peppers you with all the love and affection in public like he really has no shame

♡ ok- anyway- back to the voice

♡ he loves your voice so much ofc <33

♡ he hides his addiction to hearing you talk behind tutoring 

♡ but it really frustrates you bc you’ll spend hours going over his foreign language vocabulary with him and he’ll just be like ‘sorry- i zoned out thinking about you, baby - could you go over that again?’

♡ you blinked rapidly, ‘go over what part?’

♡ ‘all of it.’

♡ ‘for fucks sake, hikaru.’

♡ oh and off-topic again but he uses you as a model for his mother’s clothing

[songofclarity]

Hi cat anon back again I absolutely loved your response to my ask though I doubt WRH sleeps 16 hours a day lol. On the contrary I think he's more likely a workaholic who rarely if ever gets a full night of sleep. even if he delegates a part of his workload, leading a sect as large as qishan wen is still a very hard and demanding job and there are things that just can't be delegated and there's also his cultivation that he must put a lot of work in to be that powerful I would be surprised if he ever gets time to rest. If I were to compare WRH as a leader to anyone it would be Miranda Priestley from "the devil wears Prada", all those working under him are terrified of him not because he's needlessly cruel but because he's extremely strict, demanding, and has very high expectations of everyone starting with himself and the higher you go in the hierarchy of the sect the higher his expectations of you will be and if you can't meet his expectations you will be kicked to the curb without mercy (srsly if you haven't watched that movie you absolutely should especially if you're looking for inspiration for WRH because Meryl Streep slays the role of the demanding and tyrannical leader in it).

Also I'm curious what kind of parent you think WRH is. We never get to meet WX in the novel so there's no way to know what he's really like but WC strikes me as a sort of spoiled kid who was used to getting all his demands met without question and was never disciplined for anything ever in his life but also there are WQ and WN whose upbringing WRH had more or less involvement in depending on the adaptation and who seem to be far better adjusted people than WC even if WN seems to suffer from near crippling social anxiety and stage fright. I personally think he has no idea how to parent because he was mostly raised by nannies and tutors and barely had any relation with his own parents if he had any so his idea of being a father is buying his children anything they ask for no matter how extravagant and having dinner with them once in a while.

Sorry for the rant but you're my favorite writer who writes WRH I just love the way you write him ❤️

Ahaha, 16 hours is indeed much too much, he needs to have time to work on his cultivation! I'm so happy you love the way I write him and I love hearing you talk about him, so thank you for sharing your thoughts with me!

I will confess I, too, have a soft spot for workaholic/insomniac Wen RuoHan. It’s a big sect and there is a lot to do! At the same time, I also have a soft spot for well-rested and idling Wen RuoHan who is purposefully kept oblivious to most things happening in his sect, either because other people are doing a good job taking care of it all, because they just don't want to look bad in front of the boss and so don't tell him, or both lol

To be honest, I don't see Wen RuoHan as someone who is that critical of people! I just don't see him dropping people simply because they make a mistake. The way he lightly jokes with Meng Yao after Meng Yao nearly gets himself killed is kind of something I can see Miranda Priestly doing though lol But she knows she's top brass and has the attitude for it. There is an arrogance about her that when she says something disparaging, it's really not a joke even if she might smile and laugh. By comparison, I don't think Wen RuoHan is nearly that arrogant or, if I may, that rude. I think politeness and proper manners are actually very important to him (and there is a whole essay in me about that lol). Wen RuoHan says "you good-for-nothing" only after Meng Yao was being self-deprecating, and then they laughed and carried on with Wen RuoHan going along with Meng Yao's ideas. Meng Yao's status doesn't falter in the slightest.

(So yes, The Devil Wears Prada is a great movie and I have definitely seen it!)

Instead of Wen RuoHan creating a toxic environment where he plays an active hand in making people fight for privileges and status, I can better see people around Wen RuoHan vying for his attention that it becomes a dog-eat-dog situation. It's like with the guest cultivator who threw Nie Dad under the bus. Wen RuoHan did not pose a question that needed to cause a sect-sect incident, but the guest cultivator made it into one. No one is quite sure why he would say such a thing, although one of the assumptions is that he said it simply to stand out and gain attention.

Although I may just have some rose-colored glasses on lol Wen RuoHan just kind of has that personality, to me, that draws people in. They see Wen RuoHan, recognize his power, and are like, "If I can have 5 minutes of his time, my whole life will change for the better." I do think Wen RuoHan thought he was making things better with his policies. The problem is that some bad people are taking advantage of this offer, and it in turn reflects badly on Wen RuoHan. I will say this though: I think there is some room to argue that Wen RuoHan does follow the teachings of Wen Mao.

For the record, I like to completely ignore what CQL did to the Wens, tbh LOL Wen RuoHan is Yikes, Wen Chao is more just evil asshole rather than pompous asshole, and Wen Qing and Wen Ning are like desolate orphans for some reason. I love the younger actors, acting, and the aesthetics (although white and red will always be Wen colors to me!) but the changes to their story line and their relationships with each other made a complete mess and I don't like to see it ;;

But man, I wish we knew, like, anything about Wen Xu! Wen Chao is absolutely spoiled though. Although one thing I like is how he's being given opportunities to practice leadership, management, and organization skills. He's the one arranging the Wen Sect team for the archery competition and he's put in charge of indoctrinating all the juniors when he himself is the same age as them. We see evidence that he's getting the right education and opportunities to maybe even become Sect Leader one day (Wen Xu, who are you!?), but we also know he's a rather rotten, arrogant person who seems to enjoy his power and privilege more than anything. Wen Chao is also the second son and we get a nice comparison with Nie HuaiSang, who also enjoys all the wealth and the pretty things of his station but doesn't want the responsibilities that come with it.

My headcanon is that Wen RuoHan adores children and is very good with them. I want to believe he was very good to Wen Xu, Wen Chao, Wen Qing, and Wen Ning. This is in part because every other parent in MDZS is awful so statistics says at least one of them needs to be good, so let's give it to Wen RuoHan LMAO

But for the actual teaching of said children, I can definitely see them being given tutors and Shifu and all that good stuff. Then when they have learned something, they show it off to Wen RuoHan, who I think is someone who likes seeing others learn and improve. I don't think utilizing nannies and tutors would make him a bad parent though! It might make him somewhat distant, however, which might explain why Wen Chao lies about killing the Tortoise of Slaughter. That would be a great way to get his father's attention! But it might not be because his father is distant. That lack of attention could also be because he's competing, as I mentioned before, with all the other people vying for Wen RuoHan's attention.

Considering Wen RuoHan gave Wen Chao his strongest bodyguard, a whole ton of disciples to lead, and opportunities to prove himself, I think Wen RuoHan is arguably a decent father. That Wen Chao was desperate to get back to him when it all went south shows that his father is someone he knows will protect him, which no other kid in the series (except Lan SiZhui who has the benefit of being from the next generation lol) ever displays. Considering how Wen RuoHan protected Meng Yao in the Sun Palace with Extreme Force, I like to think Wen RuoHan really doesn't mess around with the safety of his kids (with Meng Yao as honorary kid). Even Wen Qing and Wen Ning had ZERO fear running around as they did right after the massacre of Lotus Pier. No one and nothing is going to harm them--not with Wen RuoHan around.

(As a side note, Wen Qing said she wouldn’t be able to protect Wen Ning from Wen Chao if Wen Chao really wanted to kill him, but there is no mention of harm coming from Wen RuoHan. It really does sound like a sibling spat of “He’s going to fucking kill you when he finds out you ate his pudding and there is NOTHING I can do to stop him.”)

With all that said!! I really like your headcanon that Wen RuoHan wasn't close with his own parents and thus having no idea how to parent. It makes me sad, but in a good way lol So I'm definitely willing to run with you on it! Although I love the idea that Wen RuoHan is trying to be different than the generation before him. His parents weren't close to him, so he is close to his own children. He cultivated to a high level because no one was around to protect him, so he makes sure he's around to protect them. Wen ZhuLiu is an extension of Wen RuoHan and it shows when he protects Wen Chao, despite not liking the kid in the slightest.

So Wen Chao grows up spoiled and Wen Ning grows up fearless and Wen Qing grows up prideful because Wen RuoHan is just one letter away and no one wants to mess with Wen RuoHan.

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if ur ok with it can u break down the tarlos huggggg in the lst ep after tk tells evy1 abt his addiction? bc that gd huggggggg i wanna no every thing u think abt it i live for ur love for tarlos theyre just so so cuteeeee

IF I’M OKAY WITH IT?! Anon, I feel like I have been waiting my entire life for this ask. I could literally talk about this hug for the rest of my existence. I would talk about this hug every second of every day if I could and never get tired or bored. This hug has owned my entire heart from the moment that it happened and I can never get enough of it. Brace yourself for this essay, and remember that you asked for it...

Okay, so before I get to the actual hug, I want to talk for a minute about why I love it so much and also how fantastic the scene is that comes before it. I’ll try to keep both of those brief (LOL). If you want to skip to the hug breakdown, I’ll give the sections titles. 

Why I Love This Hug

So, why do I love this hug so much? Honestly, because I never in a million years thought we’d get something like it, and it was a big turning point for me.

I have not been quiet about how disappointing I think season 1 was. Too much Owen being Owen, too much Iris plot (which never interested me for even a single moment, unfortunately), not enough of the other characters - specifically the characters of color - and definitely not enough Tarlos.

Following episode 3, the show established a really frustrating pattern with Tarlos: they either never interacted with one another, or there was a moment of them at the end of an episode where they were in the same place physically but never spoke directly to one another. Frustration doesn’t even begin to describe the Tarlos talking drought between episodes 3 and 10 - and honestly? It’s bad writing. To focus on a ship for 3 episodes, giving them a lot of different nuances and conflict, and then do absolutely nothing with it? Stupid. So, going into the finale, my expectations were low. At that point, I was literally tuning in just to catch a glimpse of Carlos, with the expectation that that was all I would get. I really didn’t think I was going to watch the show after season 1. 

When the finale started with a Tarlos scene, I was honestly very surprised. But, then, of course, it was a “break up” scene, and I was like... well. So much for that. See, I fully expected, based on the trend throughout the later half of the season, that that would be the only Tarlos scene we would get, and that that is how they would end season 1. 

But when that camera cut to Carlos Reyes walking through the station door looking like a modern-day motherf*cking Prince Charming? I cried. I’m not ashamed to admit that. And then WHEN WE GOT THE HUG?! I can honestly still feel my heart pounding in my chest.

The finale didn’t fix everything for me; they still barely talk in their final two scenes. It’s not all perfect. But this hug, this small moment? THAT. IS. PERFECTION. (And I’m gonna go on and on about why in just a minute!)

Framing the Hug

I just want to take another moment here to chat about the entire fire station scene with TK and the team/Carlos because there’s a lot that informs why this hug is so freaking incredible. It has everything to do with the directing choices that were made - and boy were they good ones!

We all probably remember how the scene starts: extreme close-ups on TK as he sits waiting for the crew to come back. He’s anxious and possibly having a mild panic attack, and the camera is used to create that moment. Certain shots are out of focus, the shots that are focused are zoomed in to his mouth/hands/eyes, the sound is distorted, his breathing is isolated. It’s all super effective. 

So the observations that I make about this brief moment are: TK is stationary, the camera is basically attacking him. And TK is alone. Pretend for a moment that the camera is a character. The camera won’t leave him alone. No one is there to help him. His anxiety grows. 

(Even when the team joins him, the camera stays pretty close to him, except for one moment where it backs off but then approaches again. It continues to invade his personal space and his personal moments with his friends and his dad.)

Now, compare that to how the scene ends: TK walks away from the camera, the camera doesn’t follow him. It gives him space. His interaction with Carlos happens in the distance. If the camera is a character, TK defeated that character. He leaves it there, it no longer threatens him. I just really like that visual storytelling; that through the 4 minute scene, TK not only faces his demons, speaks his truth, and conquers his anxiety but he beats the camera and goes off to hug Carlos untethered. (He even bounces towards him, but we’ll get to that in a minute.) That doesn’t really have anything to do with the hug specifically, but I thought it was interesting anyway.

The other comparison that I want to make is a simple one, but it’s another reason why I love the hug: TK initiates it. He doesn’t initiate the group hug with his team (he actually almost says “we don’t have to do that” when Mateo moves towards him), though he obviously enjoys it. Owen initiates their hug, flinging himself at his son, and TK obviously appreciates it.

But the Carlos hug? TK approaches him, TK raises his arm to wrap around Carlos’s neck.

Okay, now to finally answer the original ask...

LET’S HUG IT OUT: THE BREAKDOWN THAT WAS ASKED FOR

First, can I just say from his first appearance to the end of this scene, Carlos is there for 20 seconds total and I am about to write a whole-ass essay about those 20 seconds?! I’m literal trash.

Okay, so Carlos appears looking like a fucking snack. He’s changed since the bus accident, looking like someone’s hot date, and I think we know whose... Owen is basically like “well this is unexpected” and honestly, same sir. TK is adorable and noncommittal, but clearly not surprised to see Carlos there. We’ve missed a moment between them since TK was sent to the hospital and Carlos called him impressive, that’s for sure. 

So when TK starts to walk towards him, the camera refocuses on Carlos and we see this adorable freaking look on his face that clearly says “how did it go?” or “all went well?” or something to that effect. I think Carlos knew what TK was doing at the station and he knew that it was a big deal for him, and I love that even before they are next to each other, he’s checking in to see how it went. He’s invested in TK’s well-being - as always - and he’s there to support him, both physically and emotionally. I COULD SCREAM.

In response to Carlos’s silent questioning, TK throws his head back and sighs. Like I said before, he seems to bounce towards Carlos, his body is pretty loose - his arms are swinging back and forth. This is a guy who just took a load off, and he’s relieved about having done so. The smile that Carlos gives him in answer says that he’s relieved too - that it went so well, that TK seems lighter. He might even be relieved that TK is being so much more open with him, clearly showing him his emotions. Their body language for this entire moment is very open, neither of them seem closed off. It truly does feel like, for the first time, they are meeting each other on equal footing, with all of their cards on the table before them. It’s such a different moment for them, certainly different than their body language during the boba date earlier in the episode.

I would be an absolute idiot if I did not pause and remark here how INCREDIBLY IMPORTANT IT IS that TK is the one that approaches Carlos. I’m not the first person to notice and say this, but Carlos “I hate being the one doing the chasing” Reyes stops just inside the door. He lets TK walk towards him. It’s such an interesting, nonverbal conversation between them. In this action, Carlos is saying “I’m here, but I’m still not going to force anything. You said you wanted space, so I’m giving it to you.” Sure, he comes to the station - but I would pay good money to bet that TK invited him there following some kind of conversation about what he was doing there - but he stays at the door. He’s cautious, but open. He wants something more with TK, but he’s not going to throw himself into it just to get hurt again. So, he waits. AND TK COMES TO HIM. TK leaves his own space and enters his. TK takes the final step. TK closes the gap. TK makes the big move, and they’re finally both right in front of each other, on the same wavelength. The find that solid ground from which they’ll build their relationship together. ISN’T IT JUST BEAUTIFUL?!

Seriously, kudos to Bradley Buecker for directing this episode with multiple levels of storytelling at play. It’s really great stuff.

OKAY, there’s a little Owen and Michelle moment, but then the camera finds Tarlos again. 

TK is standing in front of Carlos, they’re completely fixated on one another, their body language is just so fucking casual and comfortable I cannot stand it. See, the other hugs were all pretty intense: the team piles on top of TK, burying him, and Owen practically throws himself at TK, it’s a fairly hard hug for a man with an injured shoulder. But this hug? NOPE.

It’s so soft. It’s so gentle. TK raises his arm like he just can’t not wrap it around Carlos’s neck, like it’s the only way to be as close as possible to him and being as close as possible to him is all he wants in that moment.

What I really love about this hug is that it feels like two people who hug not because the moment is demanding it, not because they’re reuniting after a long time apart, not because they’re in a heightened state of emotion. 

These two hug like it’s just what they do, what they always want to be doing, like they don’t know how not to do it. The whole thing reads like “Hi, I’m TK and my arms belong around Carlos” and “Hi, I’m Carlos, and my arms belong around TK, what else would I be doing with them?” (It’s also the vibe I get from the club scene where they wrap their arms around each other.)

IT’S INTIMACY, Y’ALL.

Look, to be a Tarlos fan, I think you have to be willing to look at the relationship on two different levels, right? One is what they verbalize to each other, which is admittedly very little (season 2, come through). The other is the story that they tell through their body language. These two have seemingly always been on the same page physically. It just comes naturally to them, from the minute they first dance to their obviously very pleasing sex scene to the way they flirt in the bar to the club to Carlos at TK’s bedside. 

Their chemistry is made clear through how they physically relate to each other, and never is that more clear than in this hug that LITERALLY LASTS 2 SECONDS BUT CONTAINS MULTITUDES.

Okay, back to it... so TK strolls towards Carlos, Carlos waits for him - they symbolism is making me scream - TK raises his arm, it’s all super casual...

And then he just kind of literally falls into Carlos’s body, and Carlos basically just catches him. HOW BEAUTIFUL IS THAT.

They don’t even speak but because they’ve had a nonverbal conversation with just those looks that I talked about, there’s just this understanding that TK needs to just collapse a little bit and he never for one second doubts that Carlos will hold him up. THAT’S JUST WHAT THEY DO.

OKAY OKAY OKAY now we’re going to break this down from head to toe.

Like, the way that their heads just rest against each other, TK pressing close - I can almost imagine that he breathes in the scent of Carlos’s shampoo, his nose is pressed right there in his curls. AND JUST IMAGINE HIS SMILE, I BET IT’S BLINDING.

I love that their heads kind of curve around each other kind of, perfectly Yin and Yang - like, from above they would totally look like that symbol.

MY FAVORITE PART OF THE ENTIRE THING: CARLOS FREAKING REYES NUZZLING INTO TYLER KENNEDY STRAND’S NECK, LIKE HE JUST SHOVES HIS FACE RIGHT IN THERE

THE NECK KISS MADE ME SCREAM SO FUCKING LOUD THE FIRST TIME I SAW IT I COULD NOT HANDLE IT

First, it’s our first kiss since episode 2. 

Second, THE INTIMACY OF PRESSING A KISS TO SOMEONE’S NECK - LIKE THAT IS SUCH A SOFT PART OF YOUR BODY, THERE ARE TENDONS THERE, YOU CAN FEEL SOMEONE’S PULSE THERE - LIKE OH MY GOD

Nothing screams “I want to know every part of this man on a deep, committed level” than a fucking neck kiss, and Carlos Reyes just... he fucking does it. 

Okay but he really does bury his whole face in there like he wants to keep it there forever, I have truly never seen something so soft in my entire life. 

I’m so in love with them I could puke.

But like, that’s why this moment means so much to me, because I really do think that it’s a solidifying moment for both of them. 

For TK, it’s a “It’s okay if I stumble or fall because this man will catch me or help me up” thing

For Carlos, it’s “he wants me, he wants this, he’s taking literal steps towards this thing between us, and he encourages me to sink into him, he wants me to do that, he really wants this”

Like, fuck. 

Moving down... we gotta appreciate Carlos being mindful of TK’s shoulder, unlike literally everyone else who has hugged him. Like, he doesn’t even go anywhere near those stitches because there’s no fucking way he’s going to watch TK bleed out for the third time, nope.

And the way that Carlos just slides his arms around TK’s waist, pressing his palms into his lower back?! 

I think there’s a whole like, thing, where when a person’s hands are flat and open they’re like, open and vulnerable. So there’s just something about the way that Carlos presses both of his open palms against TK’s back that feels so open and vulnerable and honest to me.

Also, the way that he literally covers as much of TK’s back with his hands as possible? He doesn’t place his hands on top of one another, he stacks them along TK’s spine - he completely covers the entirety of his lower back. That’s a really vulnerable part of the human body, and Carlos instinctively protects it. AND TK LET’S HIM.

Okay, finally, down to their feet: TK really does collapse against Carlos, throwing himself on top of him and trusting that Carlos will keep him upright. All of his weight shifts to that forward momentum, he even goes up on the toes of his right foot. Carlos plants his feet, and as TK sways into him, he wraps him in his arms and gently centers them so that they don’t tip over to the ground.

He literally re-balances them. The two of them together find a balance with one another during this TWO-SECOND HUG. They shift, they steady themselves, they sink into one another.

It’s literally symbolic of them both being completely, 100%, without question, ready for the next phase of their relationship together.

They keep each other standing, and that’s fucking true love, y’all.

I honestly cannot wait for season 2. This hug and the final scene on the hood of Carlos’s car - with TK again making the move to embrace their relationship by physically reaching into Carlos’s space for his hand and dragging it into his own space, firmly opening the door to his heart to let him inside, while also settling Carlos’s hand between his own to let him know that he’s willing to protect him and his heart too - makes me believe that we are in for some truly wonderful romance with these boys. 

My heart will not stop screaming about it.