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gcldfanged · 6 months

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Meet the Writer

ᴡʜᴀᴛ ᴍᴀᴅᴇ ʏᴏᴜ ᴘɪᴄᴋ ᴜᴘ ᴛʜᴇ ᴄᴜʀʀᴇɴᴛ ᴍᴜꜱᴇ(ꜱ) ʏᴏᴜ ʜᴀᴠᴇ?

(CANON MUSES) -

Genesis: I actually HATED Genesis initially in the og CC game. I thought he was a lame addition and just like… idk, they wanted Gackt in the game so they made his presence plot relevant? OOOUGH, I was so mad… But then I saw how the rpc and fandom treats him, which is honestly even WORSE SOMEHOW??? So I decided to try writing him seriously and what do you know, I actually kinda like it.

Verdot: I literally have to make the content I wanna see in this rpc, such is my burden. my curse...

(OCs) - I wanted to write about the themes I have on my pinned and honestly, there were so many Tseng rpers who I am friends and mutuals with that knock it out of the fucking ballpark- I just didn't feel like I'd have ANYTHING new or good to contribute to the exploration of his character? So I made an OC :P And he's really changed so much! I remember when I was still making my own art for him and he wasn't QUITE like there the way I wanted him to be, but I didn't have anything better to employ as a faceclaim or reference to draw from. And then Cas was like "btw here's a manga about your HYPERFIXATION" and Kokonoi's general appearance and vibe was a great starting point to go off of instead.

Anyway, There's always things I had planned for Jae in the works or on the backburner, but he has really evolved over the span of years I've been writing him, so I really appreciate every person who took the time to check him out and build something with him.

ɪꜱ ᴛʜᴇʀᴇ ᴀɴʏᴛʜɪɴɢ ʏᴏᴜ ᴅᴏɴ'ᴛ ʟɪᴋᴇ ᴛᴏ ᴡʀɪᴛᴇ?

You know, I have been becoming more lenient with allowing myself to write certain things. I always end up being afraid of how people will react to certain themes I explore because... let's be real, a lot of people are pretty intolerant to opinions that are different than theirs. So long as whatever I and/or my partner explore is handled with the care and respect it deserves, I don't really see an issue with much anymore. Hell, I was terrified to post that one drabble fleshing out Jae meeting Veld for the first time because I was afraid people would see Jae's reaction to killing someone as somehow 'excusing abuse' because he wasn't dancing on the guy's corpse and actually showed remorse for what he did. It's fears of what I write about being misconstrued like that that really makes me hesitant to even talk about certain ideas with partners. But I'm getting over that, little by little and step by step.

��ꜱ ᴛʜᴇʀᴇ ᴀɴʏᴛʜɪɴɢ ʏᴏᴜ ʀᴇᴀʟʟʏ ᴇɴᴊᴏʏ ᴡʀɪᴛɪɴɢ?

I actually love writing (as you can tell) introspective pieces. Something where you're really getting inside the character's head for a moment to see past all of their walls and facades, or sometimes you're still seeing what they tell THEMSELVES is the real undiluted truth, but isn't. I just love that kinda stream of consciousness really dig deep into the VOICE of a character exploration. Makes me feel lots of emotions.

ʜᴏᴡ ᴅᴏ ʏᴏᴜ ᴄᴏᴍᴇ ᴜᴘ ᴡɪᴛʜ ʜᴇᴀᴅᴄᴀɴᴏɴꜱ?

Usually I'll be doing something else like watching a piece of media or listening to a podcast and start to think "Ooh, my muse would love this" or "this makes me think of xyz muse wow", and it just kind of expands organically from there.

ᴅᴏ ʏᴏᴜ ᴡʀɪᴛᴇ ɪɴ ꜱɪʟᴇɴᴄᴇ ᴏʀ ᴅᴏ ʏᴏᴜ ᴘʟᴀʏ ᴍᴜꜱɪᴄ?

Music helps get me inspired initially, especially since I make spotify playlists for all my muses (and ships :P), so generally I'm cool with music, but usually I zone in too much on my own writing to pay attention. It's like my sense of hearing turns off.

ᴅᴏ ʏᴏᴜ ᴘʟᴀɴ ʏᴏᴜʀ ʀᴇᴘʟɪᴇꜱ ᴏʀ ᴡɪɴɢ ᴛʜᴇᴍ?

Both- There's always a general sort of... idea or outcome that me and my partner would LIKE to shoot for? And sometimes we just don't get there, because it really depends on what the characters do/say and how it's taken by the other muse.

For example, I was roleplaying a thread with @steeleidolon's Kunsel where he and Jae are trying to broker a deal and Kunsel ends up saying something to the effect of "your people" and he means the Turks. Jae, on the other hand, hears 'your people' and assumes Kunsel was bringing up his race and the perception of fellow people from Wutai or Hanuel being unfairly insular. So, it kinda went to shit, LOL.

It's little things like that that can color your muse's reaction to sometimes very different degrees than what you plan for!

ᴅᴏ ʏᴏᴜ ᴇɴᴊᴏʏ ꜱʜɪᴘᴘɪɴɢ?

I like complicated dynamics and no, I will never shut up about them. Ships for me don't even have to strictly be romantic or sexual in nature, so like- I have some interactions I'm still feeling out with @saishuu-heiki that are platonic but leaning in a distinctly enemy/frenemy/challenges other person kind of vibe? And I think it's great! They don't HAVE to be like "we're friends, we're lovers, or we hate each other'- Like, limiting all your interactions to one of those three options gets really boring for me...

ᴡʜᴀᴛ'ꜱ ʏᴏᴜʀ ᴀʟɪᴀꜱ/ɴᴀᴍᴇ?

King_Kkeungi is my mangaka pseudonym for the Silent Manga Audition that I tried submitting to last year. People have called me just "King" (if they didn't know how to pronounce Korean) or "Kkeungi" before, so I tend to go by these handles now.

ᴀɢᴇ?

30s, I'm like Dagon: ancient and evil, spoken about in hushed whispers that the zealots who follow my dark lore worship-

ʙɪʀᴛʜᴅᴀʏ?

May 10th

ꜰᴀᴠᴏʀɪᴛᴇ ᴄᴏʟᴏʀ(ꜱ)?

Blue-greens like teal and turquoise, soft pastel mint, and pinky-purples

ꜰᴀᴠᴏʀɪᴛᴇ ꜱᴏɴɢ(ꜱ)?

Currently? PRIMADONNA by Kedarui! It's a sequel to their other song, Femme Fatale and has amazing lore and characters. It's just got fascinating kinda themes and imagery when you watch them back to back.

ʟᴀꜱᴛ ᴍᴏᴠɪᴇ ʏᴏᴜ ᴡᴀᴛᴄʜᴇᴅ?

The 2nd DUNE movie, holy crap, I was blown away!

ʟᴀꜱᴛ ꜱʜᴏᴡ ʏᴏᴜ ᴡᴀᴛᴄʜᴇᴅ?

Hell's Paradise, which I am still TRYING to finish.

ʟᴀꜱᴛ ꜱᴏɴɢ ʏᴏᴜ ʟɪꜱᴛᴇɴᴇᴅ ᴛᴏ?

Philip by millenium parade, my new go-to Jae song

ꜰᴀᴠᴏʀɪᴛᴇ ꜰᴏᴏᴅ?

Thai or Vietnamese food *drools*

ꜰᴀᴠᴏʀɪᴛᴇ ꜱᴇᴀꜱᴏɴ?

Summer... I just love the heat and the sun and the iconic imagery/sounds/themes like eating watermelon and wearing floppy plastic sandals, melting ice cream, hearing the chime of our furin while sitting outside on the porch of the house.

ᴅᴏ ʏᴏᴜ ʜᴀᴠᴇ ᴀ ᴛᴜᴍʙʟʀ ʙᴇꜱᴛ ꜰʀɪᴇɴᴅ?

I talk to regularly (like near every day): @ceaselxss, @annjiru, @phoenixshards, @sadistpet, @nightiingaled. Like talking with a lot: @speedchasing, @ofdeference, @hisnewera, @cwarscars, @contemptim, @steeleidolon, @altrxisme, @hxbiris & @hxvemxnd

The people who have known me the LONGEST are mostly discord only rpers now, but Tricky, HD, Kit, and Vixen I consider to be extremely close to me since we've been friends for... like over or around 6+ years and are still ongoing buddies who have met face to face before.

Then there's my ex-fiancee, but he doesn't do tumblr rp anymore.

This list also doesn't even cover ppl I write with/ooc interacted with over a long period of time like @ivory-paragon, @poeticphoenix, @reapersxfolly, @endweapon, @chthonicsurge, or @dcviltriggcr, so- I like reaching out to people and developing bonds! We don't even have to be on discord capslocking at each other, it's really cool when you can come back to an RPC and still have that connection without any awkward small talk?

#◈ ooc #◈ dash games #◈ MUNDAY

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quartzwriting · 3 years

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Gentle Hands

Pairing: Doctor Strange X Fem!Reader (no y/n)

Description: Stephen knows you have been stressed lately. So when you come home from a long day he has plans to take care of you, and those pretty hands of his get to work.

Warnings: Contains SMUT 18+, fluffy smut, sexual massage, fingering, p in v sex, work/academic stress from reader

Word Count: 2.8K

A/N: Minors shoo! Thank you so much for 500 followers! I am so thankful for all the love we have been getting. Here’s more fluffy Stephen, with a little spice hehehehehe. Not proofread so ignore any mistakes right now. Also this is kinda lame I’m sorry. This won’t be my last Strange smut btw.

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It had started when you had been coming home later than intended the last few days. Stephen would be in the library or sorting things out around the Sanctum, and you would just pop through a portal and act like you had not come home an hour later than you said you would. He would ask why bluntly, you would say you got caught up in your reading or you had to deal with something for Wong. Then you would go on like nothing was wrong.

But Stephen knew everything. And noticed every little detail. It was a symptom of how smart and observant he was, alongside the supposed photographic memory. Nothing slips under the rug with him.

Then he began to notice the bags under your eyes every morning, evidence of restless sleep. There was tension in your shoulders and you walked sluggishly when no one was looking. Rising early, going to bed late (later than him sometimes, which never happens). There was also this fogged focus in your eyes that replaced any natural joy you had for your magic studies. He knew what it all meant, that you had been working way too much.

And he thought he was a workaholic.

He hated seeing you so stressed and he wanted to do something about it.

That night when you came home from Kamar Taj, when the sun had already gone down hours ago, Stephen caught you by the hand. You had went to turn to the library, somewhere you often disappeared to when going to study more. He was not going to let you do that.

“Hey,” he said gently, “everything alright?”

His voice was so comforting, it always was. Instantly recognizable in every situation, feeling like home to you. You looked at him with a smile. He could tell it was fake.

“Yeah! I’m good.”

He put his hands on your shoulders, forcing you to face him directly and preventing you from escaping. His hands slid up your shoulders and he held your face. His fingers were warm on your cold skin. And you could feel every little detail in his palms, the pads of his fingers. There was the ghost of his shake in them, which were never fully steady anymore without magic.

“You’re stressed.”

“Yeah...” You admitted, avoiding the burning eye contact that he tried to keep, “Just been working hard.”

“Maybe a little too hard. You come home late every day. You look so tired.”

“I’m fine, Stephen.”

You found his eyes again, those beautiful blue eyes that you loved so much. They said everything without him even needing to open his mouth. Understanding, that was it. He understood, like he always somehow knows everything.

You let out a sigh, letting go of the façade. Exhaustion, you finally allowed yourself to feel it. You fell into his chest and he wrapped his arms around you in an embrace. Feeling lucky to have him, you almost shed a tear. You melted into the hug. And the addiction of a kiss on the top of your head tied it all together.

“Come on, it’s late.” Stephen took your hand again and you both made your way upstairs. You tried to keep up with his long strides, but you had been so tired from studying and training that your body lingered behind a little. Slower reactions, an aching feeling of burnout deep in your bones. He matched your pace.

When you made it to your shared bedroom, it was like you were washed over with relief. The soft light that spilled from behind the curtains from the outside city made the room look irresistible, soothing, and also romantic in a way. The pillows and blankets never looked so fluffy. Finally you were able to let yourself relax. You could have collapsed onto the bed right there. But he stopped you.

Stephen helped you undress from your robes, letting them fall to the floor to be forgotten. When you were bare, you felt him look at you with such adoration and love. The crystal blue in his eyes were bright despite the dimness in the room. He reached for you, pulling you in for a gentle yet passionate kiss. One of his hands on the small of your back and the other at the back of your neck, they felt slightly rough to the touch from their trauma on your smooth skin.

A heat pulled at your insides. A desire for him.

But before anything else could be initiated, he pulled back from your eager lips and brought his own to your ear.

“You go have a shower and I’ll meet you in bed.”

He let you go, then watched you quickly shuffle off into the bathroom. He chuckled at the little excitement in your step that he caught. He would have joined you, but he had other plans. While you were in there, the image of you under the running water appeared in his thoughts. It was such a relief for you, he was sure, to have the hot and steaming water washing away some of the stress. And it running all over your pretty body. He smiled to himself.

He changed out of his own robes, both for comfort and as a way to separate work and down time. Just a t-shirt and his boxer shorts, a sight he knew you loved to see. And he also sent the cloak out of the room, where it flew out the door and shut it behind itself. He also lit the candles on the nightstands. Cheesy sure, but caring all the same. Their scent would add to the ambience too, calming and would help with any pain you might have.

Little details he knew you like. A gesture that he did not need to think about too deeply. He just did it because he loves you.

And he did indeed wait in bed for you. And when you came out of the bathroom after a little, bathed in steam from the shower and towel wrapped around you all cozy-like, Stephen was all heart eyes.

With a tiny gesture of his hand, motioning you forward, he said, “Come, you deserve a massage.”

You went to sit on the bed, close enough to reach over to kiss him again. He discarded your towel and pulled you closer, having you hover over his body. He only broke the kiss so he could fully pull you onto him and the bed. And he pushed your damp hair away from your face and moved his hands to the space between your neck and shoulders. And when he applied pressure there, it felt too good. You closed your eyes and let your head lull lose, sighing in content.

He tried to put more pressure, to knead deeper into your tense muscles, but his hands shook in the slightest. He didn’t like having a lack in control for most things, so his hands were an insecurity of his when they were not laced with at least some magic. But thankfully he had solutions that were beneficial to you both.

“Lay on your stomach.”

You did as he said, relaxing into the plushness of the blanket on your side of the mattress and resting your head on your pillow.

Stephen moved his hands together in a particular motion, causing sparks to fly between them briefly. And when he put his hands on your back, no shake and all control now, they felt warm and magical as they worked any knots of tension out.

You sighed heavily and laid there to enjoy it. And you were enjoying it a lot.

He worked slowly. Almost teasingly. Across the softness of your skin and the tightness of your muscles. Making sure no trace of stress or pain was left. It was sensual and loving.

“What’s with the overtime lately?”

He had said it so casually, like he was not currently running his hands all over your bare back. You let out a breath of a laugh.

“I just feel like I could be doing better. I want to be a better sorceress.”

“You don’t need to worry about that. You’re already amazing. One of the best.”

He hit a specific spot up by your neck that made you let out a groan. It was dangerously on the borderline of a moan. Stephen smirked to himself, working at that spot again. You made the same sound, with a little more pitch. It was now definitely a moan.

“Well, there’s always room for improvement,” you said with a sigh, all content and no shame to be sounding like you were enjoying yourself.

“That does not mean you have to be hurting yourself over it.” He said it firmly in contrast to any other words he spoke tonight. His serious side coming out, but only because he cared.

His hands slid down to the small of your back, threatening to go lower.

“It’s alright,” he said softly again, and his voice made you shiver, “Let it melt away.”

Then they did move lower, ghosting over the flesh of your ass.

“Let me take care of you.”

That comforting voice, it made you feel safe and weak and turned on all at the same time. Every little thing he did, whether he intended to or not, made him so damn sexy that I made your mind spin. You wanted him, let him help you relieve more stress.

And it was like he knew, and his hands got ever lower. He massaged your cheeks, watching the way they moved shamelessly. You hummed happily again, not opposed to this kind of treatment. And soon a finger brushed over your lips down there, spreading the beginnings of your arousal that was dripping from your pussy. You wiggled in his grasp, feeling your breathing and your heartbeat quicken. His finger was now circling around your pussy. Gentle and teasing. You whined in anticipation.

“You want something?” he asked, in that baritone that went straight down between your legs.

“Yes please~” Your voice was breathy now, needy.

Stephen helped you flip over on your back before positioning himself so he could be over your body and your spreading legs. And he let you have what you wanted, a single finger gently pushing itself into your wet hole. And when you moaned in satisfaction, he began to move it in the way he knew you liked.

He watched you. Observing every way you reacted. The huffing movement of your bare chest. The pink colour that flushed your cheeks. The scatter of your hair and the exposure of your neck when you threw your head back. The grip of your hands on the blankets for stability. The squirming of your entire body underneath him when he put a second finger to join the first. And the yelp that jerked through you when he adding his thumb into mix, playing with your clit while he rubbed his fingers against your insides.

You have always loved his hands. Every scar and curve and edge of his palms and his knuckles and his fingers. They were lovey to hold, have on your skin, watch as they channeled magic. They were skilled from years of medical training and spell making alike, the work and history physically there to see and touch.

But having them play and work at your pussy was the best feeling in the world. It felt like heaven. Pure euphoria. He was a master of using his hands.

You whined out his name softly, it barely ripping out of your throat in your pleasure, “Stephen~”

“I know, baby,” he cooed, “I know. That’s it, relax.”

When he was so gentle with you like this, so loving and caring, it made you weak. You were all his. You under the spell of his sweetness. It was a beautiful thing.

He kept stroking you perfectly, bringing you closer to the edge that you wanted to fall over. He took his time with you, not rushing it. He really wanted you to enjoy yourself, feel the build up of pleasure. And looking up at him, a concentrated look on his gorgeous face, was getting you closer and closer. Along with the rough feeling of his scars and callouses rubbing at your velvety sensitive area.

“I love you,” he trailed butterfly kisses down your neck and collar bones, never stuttering in the movements of his hands, “I hate seeing you so stressed.”

“I-I” you tried to reply but it was all so much, “I love you to- shit I’m gonna cum~”

His gentle hands worked a little harder, moving perfectly and stimulating the correct spots over and over, more pressure too.

“Go on, let go.”

The tightness released and you moaned out his name. You clawed at the blanket, arched your back, and your head spun as the hot feeling spread from your core to everywhere else on you body. His chuckling was adding to it all, and when he kissed you he swallowed your cries as you rocked through your orgasm.

“That’s my girl.”

His words sent one last shock of pleasure before your body went limp and fully rested underneath him. Your chest heaved as you caught your breath. He pulled his fingers out of you and you felt empty. But you let yourself rest, feeling Stephen’s kisses return to you. He decorated your heated cheeks and forehead with them.

“Thank you, Doctor,” you said playfully and with the hint of a smile.

He laughed softly, the title making his cock twitch. He had gotten painfully hard in his boxers. But he let you recollect yourself briefly before moving on.

“Always here to help.” And he bent down to kiss you again. You could feel how eager and aroused he was by the way he moved his lips. “Now,” he rose up to sit back on his knees and pulled his shirt over his head. Looking down at you, he tilted his head and quirked an eyebrow, “you’re treatment isn’t done.”

You laughed, “Oh really?” Your eyes dragged up his form, catching every part of him. His beautiful muscles, you could literally die right then and there. Him in this lighting, the most wonderful sight.

Watching him take of his boxers and crawl back on top of you was killing you. And he did not hesitate to line himself up to your very wet pussy. He pushed into you and you felt full once again. Only his cock left you feeling fuller than just his fingers, him being a generous size.

His hands ran down your thighs, gripping them tenderly, and helped you position them comfortably around his torso. And when he began thrusting into you, gently and softly, taking is sweet time, you were overcome with so much pleasure and so much love for him.

The noises he made, damn it was intoxicating. Quiet grunts that bubbled up from his throat. Louder and more prominent when he buried his head in the crook of your neck and fucked you a little harder. That mixed with his hot breath on your skin, stunning. He rested himself on his elbows, the magic now starting to fade away in his hands. But that did not stop him from fucking you the way you liked it. You lost track of time, feeling like he was treating you like this forever.

You were whimpering his name, lost in the feeling of pleasure overlapping the remaining sensitivity from your orgasm. You had forgotten all your stress, anything that was bothering you. All that mattered was you both in this moment. It was all him, all Stephen.

“Fuck, I don’t know if I’m gonna last longer,” he said with a little shame, “you feel too good right now.”

You giggled, “That’s alright. Let go if you want.”

“But it’s about you tonight.” He whispered in your ear, stopping his thrusts briefly.

“The night isn’t over yet.”

Your encouragement made him resume his pace, but sitting up this time and pushing one of your legs up for a different angle that sent your head spinning. And he chased his own release. His grunts and breaths turned into soft moans. And soon you felt him twitch inside you, before pulling out and cumming on your stomach. The look of pleasure on his face and the final sounds fallowed by heavy breathing made you smirk.

He collapsed beside you, his arms wrapping around you and pulling you into his side. You both caught your breaths, kissing each other passionately yet lazily.

“Thank you, for all this,” you whispered.

“You’re welcome.” He laid back with a satisfied huff, “I’ll go grab you a cloth, just give me a minute.”

“Alright, I get it. I need a second too.”

“Stop, I know I’m good.”

You playfully smacked him, he laughed. Damn he was gorgeous.

“Not just good,” you kissed his jaw, “the best.”

He shrugged cockily before his tone changed, pointing a finger in your face. “Okay, you are not allowed to over work yourself anymore. Doctor’s orders. We’re taking the morning off tomorrow.”

“I’m not opposed,” you smiled.

He tapped your nose, “Good.” And he winked at you before getting up to get a warm cloth to clean you up.

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kitty-meowskers · 2 years

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genshin men's taste in music~ characters: Albedo, Ayato, Dainsleif, Childe, Diluc, Gorou, Itto, Kaeya, Kazuha, Thoma, Venti, Xiao, Xingqiu, Zhongli

Research man He'd probably be into songs with meaningful lyrics, the music itself wouldn't matter too much to him as long as the words sung were meaningful Whenever he found such a song he'd probably try to decipher the lyrics and research it or somethin

Boba fanboy Probably into pop but I don't see him really being into music. Maybe while he works to keep him motivated?

Extreme god hater Pls introduce him to music. He's been missing out on so much. But when he does find out what it is he'd probably like music rich songs (like Eleanor Rigby by Cody Fry or Throne by Rival) . Violins would be his fav instrument.

Child(e) Most definitely into energizing music that gets you pumped up- Unlike Albedo, he cares more about the music than the lyrics, he couldn't care less. Also he probably listens to Cupid's Chokehold :) If you hung out with him he'd probably blast his music and wouldn't care whether you liked it or not. Deal with it

Batman Jazz or any oldies. I see him liking Queen n stuff. He'd also like songs with strong (rich??) singing, idk how to explain it. And even though he'd hate to admit it he probably listens to music he enjoyed with Kaeya when they were younger (and maybe cry to it idk) Probably listens to music when he's alone to relax in the evenings.

Doggy Claims he doesn't have time for it and he doesn't care. But if you were friends (or more~) he wouldn't mind listening to it with you.

Arataki numero uno itto Rock. Rock all the way. All star his his fav song 100%. In his opinion, anyone who doesn't like rock is w e a k (i dont make the rules). Also if you put on your songs and it isn't to his liking after a while he'd probably tell you that its too lame or something (not in a mean way tho) and change it-

Elsa Cpr or Never gonna give you up. No in-betweens. I see him listening to music whenever he has time to and especially while he's drunk and alone. If you ever asked for music he'd probably show you the 'cpr' side of his playlist. Unless you're really close and he trusts you fully. Then you'd probably have a playlist together :D

Kazoo boi Like Albedo he enjoys music with a deep meaning, but he values the music as well. Prefers slow and soft music and most definitely listens to cigarettes after sex. Also like Kaeya he holds his music close to him. Probably listens to music while watching the waves aboard the Alcor while writing poems n haikus

Malewife I see him liking pop. The kind that's happy and warm if you know what I mean (pop is a really broad genre help). He probably doesn't pay attention to the artist but has a lot of JAWNY in there (ooh girl dont ya stop). I see him dancing with a broom Cinderela style while listening to music. Why don't you go over and take that brooms place :)

24/7 Drunk god His own music. Everyone else's is pathetic. Unless you guys are close, then he would probably teach you to play any instrument of your choice and praise you for how well you're doing (even if its complete trash :P) ALSO also he most definitely write songs for you :))

emo 'I do not waste my time on mortal entertainment such as music' (listens to emo music btw)

Guhua Geek Vocaloid or nightcore. I dont know why ok but i just see it. Maybe he does it while reading?? Maybe writing??? I honestly have no clue but one things for sure. He'd make sure you never found out because it embarrasses him as much as his handwriting does.

Broke mora god Classical music. The piano is probably his favorite instrument. Also he would probably give an entire speech about the beauty of all those pieces (enjoy) he wouldn't stop until uhhhh you told him to (ask politely or suffer the wrath of the rock). Probably goes to orchestra concerts and if you agreed you would take you along.

#genshin impact #genshin #headcanons #my hcs #kaeya #venti #dainsleif #arataki itto #itto #thoma #albedo #diluc #zhongli #childe #tartaglia #xinqiu #ayato #xiao #gorou #kazuha #genshin hcs

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headgehug · 2 years

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dear headgehug the gang hits the slopes is very divisive and i would like to know what your opinions are

of course i have opinions. thank you for asking. and so polite too.

below the cut cause i got carried away. jesus fucking christ. sunny meta posters watch your backs. i can do paragraphs too. <3

slopes is a fantastic episode. sunny doesn't take the gang out of the bar often and so when they do it usually creates a very fun, upbeat one off episode, such as water park, the big game episode, jersey shore, etc. it's a big deal! this episode does not fall flat in terms of a little gang outting. are you kidding me?? an 80s sports movie parody? incredible. they pulled it off super well. all of the ways they make fun of it with the "i don't care. we're only here two days." and the announcer stuff and the ski dude being pathetic and disappointing. hilarious. if you disagree with me on this point consider that fast times at ridgemont high was my favorite movie for several months. spicolli charlie with a bagel in your pants come back to me.

okay. this episode has some of the funniest lines that never fail to crack me up. "his ankles are broken for sure" "oh they're surely broken!". classic. pathetic dennis. creepy dennis? tryhard dennis? where the hell did he get a whole ski crew dennis. dennis agreeing with charlie (iirc) about the candy mountain miniature.

"i fracked the mountain" as a frankgirl i absolutely love this episode. this is peak frank. causing mischief for a profit. destroying the environment. love it. always gets me.

here's something. i like how disgusted the gang is with the lame guy at the end. i'm sorry i forgot his name. and i'm lazy. you know the guy. it shows how they are all horrible people but they Do have limits. albeit limits that.. should have showed up a little earlier. perhaps that is out of character for them. i disagree. eh. it's interesting to have the dude off the rails not be in the gang for once. maybe that's what people dislike about the episode?

love the way they make fun of the announcer stuff. and charlie being the straight man about it. and then going uh nvm bro! when it starts to work for him. feels pretty classic sunny a la we're a gay bar now! but while also feeling like not another teen movie. or whatever that parody was. (great movie. btw).

alright. let's talk about the elephant in the room. charlie sex scene. listen. i'm tired of pretending this ruins the episode for me (i'm jk i don't think i've ever pretended that). i'm not only a charlie woobifier but also a charlie sexualizer and it's hot. i do think he would do the :D face the whole time. that does not ruin it for me at all. the scene is gratuitous and gauche and excessive and so so stupid and excessive and it makes me blush and cringe and yet... damn baby...

remember early in the podcast when they were talking about like, if you break your leg filming you better fucking continue filming because you broke your goddamn leg for that. well. i'm deeply disappointed of course if that scene was filmed outside of the actors' comfort zones. and i don't think they should necessarily do something like that again. but, they did it, and it's in an episode, so... you know. let's leave it in. anyways all things considered? the saxophone part is very hot. i think it could have been very tasteful to skip all the fucking and just cut to the sax part. it's the best part of the whole thing by far ///>w<\\\

not to mention i think a charlie romance/fling plot is fun. idk. i mean there's the argument that he Wouldn't Do That and that's absolutely fair, but also, this is kind of an au, i don't think any of them can actually ski in the show, it's just for funsies. charlie getting the hot model while dennis gets his ankles broken is hilarious. the hot tub scene is amazing. charlie climbing into the tub fully dressed is very hot. i think charlie is enough of a jerk that if a hot lady flung herself at him and he was frustrated anyways he would be pretty down. sorry for being a horndog charlie truther. i genuinely love all other opinions and takes though. none of my headcanons are really serious. i'm playing both sides etc.

anyways listen. i think slopes is a good episode. if it wasn't for the sexy part this would be the sort of episode i'd show ppl new to sunny cause it's hilarious and it looks pretty good and its lighthearted. ohh boo hoo it's not plot relevant fuck off. if every episode was dennis' double life or mfhp this show would have been cancelled a decade ago. i do not watch this show for plot. i watch it cause it's funny. any cool plot is just a bonus. slopes was good.

#asks #iasip #the gang hits the slopes #anyone else have a bit of a pavlovian response to saxophones now. i like to listen to pinkfl*yd wish u were here part 5 and think about #charlie playing it for me. after. ykw. :) heehee

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neriumdelusion · 3 years

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TMA for the ask game!

HOOOLY SHIT OKAY!!! Mwah kisses you on the forehead/p

Blorbo - my blorbo is probably Michael! I was absolutely obsessed with that guy and the system decided to fuck around and get a fictive of him so that was a time! He’s got such an interesting character I love all the discussion around identity and if you have a self. Ot hit very close to home and he is very dissociation actually so that was relatable! Michael Shelley is great , on of the most anger inducing things is people infantilising Michael Shelley. He’s not a kid you absolute dipshit. The distortion itself is such a cool concept and I’m obsessed. Michael distortion is both but also not really either and waaa I love them<3<3<3 ALSO Melanie king! I cannot talk as much about her I have strong incoherent thoughts about her she is wonderful and probs the smartest archive assistant in the show. (Sasha was not ‘the brain cell’ actually she followed some blond weirdo to an abandoned pub) and her and Georgie are so much to me! BUT LIKE…Michael , Melanie and Sasha James too if I had to pick. Sasha means a lot to me and I disagree with the fanon of ‘oh she’s the brain cell’ no the fuck she is not, let a girl be a lil silly omg you guys hate to see a girlboss winning.

Scrunkly - hmm. You see all of them are just SO. I think if I was forced to choose I would go Jane Prentiss! I’m a strong believer she did nothing wrong, her arc hit very close as someone with bfrbs and dependency issues! She is wonderful I’m corruption aligned. I think a lot about her pre corruption and what she said in her statement about going to the park in the sun and drinking wine. It’s healing to imagine her doing the same while with the hive, or post-hive (I read a fic and it was good so now it’s canon) I think she is wonderful! And gorgeous with the worms btw, only lame people don’t think she’s cute with the worms.

Scrimblo bimblo - OLIVER BANKS. Get fucked he’s like sexiest best most epic guy ever he committed identify theft to take a nap and I felt him! Epic guy wonderful I don’t know too much about him but Oliver banks is one of my favourite characters! Not to mention I love end avatars, not aligned with it much myself but it slaps!

Glup shitto - RYAN (mentioned in episode 101, Michael’s statement) AND GABRIEL THE WORKER OF CLAY (I think he’s mentioned more than once but mainly ep 101 again) my lord I have so any thoughts about how Michael and Ryan’s childhood friendship literally lead to Michael becoming the distortion! What if Ryan’s not dead hmm? What I’d they reunited hmm? What if they were besties again hmm? Also the worker of clay is such a cool character, he basically worshiped the distortion and “dissolved his veins in crimson mud” when the great twisting failed. I’m obsessed. Since people like religious themes in relationships so much JUST LOOK AT GABRIEL WORKER OF CLAY!!!! So many opportunities here you’re all sleeping on them.

Poor little meow meow - Jon sad guy Sims my favourite pathetic archivist <3<3<3<3 he’s just sopping wet!! Love him!! Quite relatable but like specifically in seasons 2 and up. Don’t relate much to academic nerd my test week starts tomorrow and I haven’t done any revision. I can however relate to paranoia and suspicion of those who care about you <3 ! Idk if I have a problematic fave? I genuinely dislike Gertrude Robinson but I’m not like weird about it. System Michael feels quite strongly about it and I always disliked the fact she is reminiscent of adults I tried to gain the approval of and failed and got upset. Soooo I don’t like gertie but if you do good for you ! So Jon is my most pathetic guy I like methinks.

Horse plinko - my hc and fic track record would suggest Michael and Jon! And Tim! I love me some good Tim after realising not-Sasha isn’t Sasha! I love Tim but oh my lord that is the good shit. I would torment Elias bc fuck him (mad at what he did to Melanie and Martin specifically I don’t care if he kills people or is evil I’m mad at two very specific events).

Eeby deeby - we’ve already talked about my feelings on Gertrude. I hate her but that’s entirely for bias and personal reasons and she’s a well written and compelling character. I’m not like overly big on hating Elias he’s whatever, I DO hate Peter Lukas, I think people really minimise how awful he really was. He did what Gertrude did but he never had any good intentions! At least gertie was trying to save the world. Peter was just a dick. Of course he’s still funny and I like that he got PLAYED by Martin WOOO go Martin (didn’t fit any of the categories but Martin is very important to me and he’s a badass and cool stop being like ‘soft boy’ bc my lad he is a full grown man you’re just fatphobic.) anyways! Answer? MARY KEAY. I cannot believe I haven’t mentioned my hatred for her before. (She’s again well written the podcast is good so like obvs) BUT MY LORD. she is quite like our mother in some aspects and Gerry’s statement hit quite hard. She’s a bitch with do redeeming features no good intentions I would happily see her rot <3<3

And on that note!!! Thank you sm for the ask bestie I love an excuse to go back to my roots and talk about my lovely archives guys

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f-ngrl · 3 years

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some recent music discoveries

i talked about most of them already but i just want to stress and say again how good they are and talk a little more :D

(links will be yt because i think it’s most accessible for everyone, but if anyone who reads this ever uses my music links, feel free to let me know what you prefer or use) (if you care: all of them have some hiphop style unless stated otherwise)

- kim nongmill - 소년챔프. 8 songs, 21:31 min, 2020. i found this because he released HBGS feat with skinny brown which was SO GOOD and checked out more and discovered this album is also SO GOOD. a fan commented how he has a good sense for music and it’s true. i don’t know how to explain it. all the songs are good, and producer doplamingo (on all songs) does an amazing job. kim nongmill (who also goes by his real name oh damryul) is known for being a funny guy bc he always forgets his lyrics on shows, but his music is seriously good. songrec: For what - Intro. (start there and listen to the rest too :P)

- ashnikko - panic attacks in paradise / maggots. 2 songs, 5:23 min, 2021. an acoustic guitar and a rock song. this is off topic haha but i listen to her a lot and her songs are just great. what teenage me wished avril lavigne had become instead of what happened around the time she started wearing pink xD (now i don’t care of course, just this is good). note: explicit lyrics.

- i could list all LBNC albums i’ve been discovering but will limit it on the latest one: kitsyojii - HDISMYPRODUCER. 11 songs, 33:05 min, 2022. this may get long, ok, so first off, i decided i wasn’t going to be a fan of kitsyojii and kaogaii because i don’t exactly remember haha but they pick fights with younger, more successful rappers bc they’re jealous and i thought that was childish/lame. however, HD BL4CK has become one of my favorite producers recently, his music is always perfectly on point my taste, and he has so much music (i haven’t even listened to everything yet), often collaborating with an artist on a full album (like this one (even though he’s not a main artist he produced all songs), previously also with other LBNC members wonjjang and leebido), and his solo albums (where he also raps! rapped?) always have top notch featurings even though i think nobody knows him. a true hidden gem in khh. anyway, bc of him i listened, and as expected, this album is just great, perfect, totally my taste, and i have to give credit to kitsyojii too, obviously. will have to see if they’ve done sth together before and listen to everything every day. songrecs: 삼땡 (33) (feat. since), it’s about being in your 30s and childish(?) and still not having accomplished much? yeah it’s my anthem xD; fuckboy recognize hoe (feat. rakon) i love the effect they put on kitsyojii’s voice it sounds so good but am scared to look at the lyrics so i just listen :P ; 걸교 (cut off) (feat. errday), errday (/errday jinju) is really underrated btw, nice rap nice beat nice hook nice everything. weaknesses: don mills’ and koonta’s parts. idk what they’re doing but imo it doesn’t fit well xD

- lil sunder11 - 11. 11 songs, 27:30 min, 2020. chill little emo rap/singing rap songs, almost pop. i don’t know why i didn’t check it out sooner, i’ve listened to lamborghini door so many times, it’s a top khh soundcloud song. songrecs: lamborghini door (feat. cid cyan), tears #dontworry. he has an excellent sense for (making) melodies, which in the end, i think i admire most among all music elements/skills generally because i think to me it would be the hardest to come up with.

- lil sunder11 - love was pain. 8 songs, 19:45 min, 2022. this is even more singer-songwriter than the last album and the soft little background beats (rhythm elements? drums?) are even less hiphop than on the album before. you could call it acoustic singer-songwriter pop. i’m usually not soo much into that but. his melodiiies. songrec: city light. the “lalalalalalalaaaala” aaah <3

- heo daniel - hideournight. 13 songs, 40:39 min, 2022. if i say pop-rock with church elements you will think “eh what, sounds boring” so.. just listen to it. he lists older rock bands as his influences but i hear cjamm and yanghongwon. he also had panda gomm produce one of his songs and yescoba featuring so i think i heard correctly :P i talked about the album here. heo daniel’s q&a here. a wonderful piece of art and the songs go together so well. favorites: dusk, gallery, solo.

- i said i was going to do only one LBNC album but just quickly leebido - made in abyss. 5 songs, 15:20 min, 2022. almost all feats and prods LBNC (except chamane) they are so close i willlll make a label post soon.

- lobonabeat! - lobonatune2¡. 7 songs, 15:01 min, 2022. i almost didn’t listen more closely but luckily skinny brown (i think) posted 5 secs of the best melody in his story (songrec: trip!. sbnim bestest taste always <33). lobonabeat! has a unique voice and the soft little bass hugs my soul <3 this.. kind of trap?? is always the same but i love it every time, i don’t care :D there’s also a song with zene the zilla and coogie features ah i wish coogie did this style more <3

- 1300 - oldboy. 1 song, 2:24 min, 2022. 1300 is a korean-australian crew and the song is about the movie oldboy? i don’t get it really oops but the song is really good. can’t wait to hear more from them.

that’s pretty much it :D tmi, among my top 50 songs in the past 4 weeks, there are only 4 that aren’t in here (victon - mayday, way ched - spin the block (feat. paul blanco, 365lit, lil gimchi), minit - all day war (feat. brown tigger, jo gwangil), homies - we need more) :D

i hope you can discover something you like from here!:)

#khh #khiphop #songrecs #album recs #kim nongmill #ashnikko #kitsyojii #hd bl4ck #lil sunder11 #heo daniel #leebido #lobonabeat!#lbnc

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aclosetfan · 3 years

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To be written ideas: Number 16

Thanks for playing along!! @kayyee also asked for 16!

haha omg I haven't touched #16 in like four years. Okay, don't judge me, but i've got it titled in my outlines folder as "PowerPossible"

The outline's pretty long. i've actually shortened it for you all lol. Please let me know if you want to hear more about this one!! I can talk about it for a while :) Read below the cut for all of it!

this story's the obligatory Human/tmnt/Kim Possible-ish AU. The girls are NOT related and have no powers (in the beginning).

Family dynamics:

BC: Professor and Ms. Keane are her parents, she has a little brother named Ken (ppgz reference ;p). According to BC, Ken is their favorite child. She's just jealous because Ken has more in common with the Professor, who BC truly adores. She and the Professor have trouble relating because she's into sports, he's not. However, the Professor and her are more alike than she knows. Ms. Keane is still a kindergarten teacher and is the reason their family moves to Townsville.

Bubbles: Her parents died when she was young and now, she lives with her grandparents, the Mayors! The Mayor is still the Mayor of Townsville. (btw Im 85% sure that canonically his last name is also Mayor) The Mayor is under HIM's thumb, and when he finally messes up one too many times, HIM has him "taken care of." However, that's like towards the middle (?) of the story. So, in the end, Bubbles only has her grandmother.

Blossom: Two moms! Ms. Bellum and an unidentifiable second mother, who isn’t important (lol). 2nd mother isn't dead or anything, and she's happily married to Ms. Bellum--she's literally just one of those "mentioned in passing characters who are constantly out of town." Ms. Bellum is the Mayor's secretary, which Blossom uses to her advantage.

PLOT

The story starts out with the girls in kindergarten. Bubbles and Blossom are friends because Bubbles is the only person who doesn't think nerdy lil Blossom is annoying/socially awkward/too smart for her own good. Blossom in turn doesn't make fun of Bubbles being a crybaby. Buttercup's kind of a bully, but she's really just mad that her family had to move to Townsville. Ms. Keane (BC's mother) finally has enough of Buttercup's rebellious attitude and makes her sit with Bubbles and Blossom. Together the three girls find themselves in a confusing and troublesome situation: what happened to their class pet Twiggy??? (that hamster in that one episode). They solve the mystery (i.e. Mitch), and Ms. Keane frees Buttercup from the "loser lame-o sissy table." Except Buttercup ends up staying because *spoilers* they become best friends. (and she likes solving mysteries with them)

FASTFORWARD TO HIGHSCHOOL-ISH AGE

The girls are as thick as thieves and have a bad habit of sticking their noses where they don't belong. Blossom's the brains of the operation, Buttercup the muscle, and Bubbles is the obligatory "guyssss you promised we were going to the mall today not solving crime!" (Like Arnold from the Magic School bus who's like "oh please let this be a normal field trip!" And everyone is like "With Bloss and BC?! No Way!")

They've hit a "mystery" dry spell. At this point, none of their "mysteries" have been high stakes. Just petty stuff, but BC wants more. After another bust, she goes home and overhears her father (who's still a high-profile scientist) on the phone talking about the "odd mutant/monster-like" sightings that happened a few days ago in Townsville Central Park. Buttercup takes it as an opportunity to 1) help her dad and win his favor (that she already has smh) and 2) to break the dry spell she and the girls were going through, so they set off to investigate. To protect their identities, the girls essentially "mask up" and by the end of the story are described by the Townsville News as vigilantes.

Eventually, the girls stumble headfirst into Townsville's underbelly and the adults in their lives are all connected. They find that there is in fact a mutant uprising that has an overwhelming connection to the Professor, his ex-lab partner, the Mayor, and a mysterious man only referred to as HIM. And, of course, Chemical-X. X was the once abandoned project of the Professor and his once lab partner Mojo Jojo. It was supposed to be a miracle medicine! Now, in Townsville's underbelly, it's a popular/very dangerous drug/commodity.

At one point in the past, during a fit of rage, Mojo had mutated himself with an unstable vial of the chemical—accidentally--and fleed with the only "perfect" vial. He runs into a sickly man (who becomes HIM) and is conned out of the chemical. HIM takes the chemical and it "cures" him from his disease. It also gives him "superpowers." (NOTE: chemical-x superpowers varies person to person) However, the chemical is also unstable, and now HIM wants (NEEDS) a better formula, one that isn’t tainted (as Mojo still cannot figure out how to make it correctly) and will do anything for it. This is something that HIM believes the Professor can do. So, the Professor is essentially blackmailed into working for HIM (like most everyone who is in a position of power in Townsville). It's an expensive endeavor, so HIM sells the "almost perfect" batches (which in small doses can make a person feel invincible, but is highly addictive) to the crime syndicates. If you take an "almost perfect" version of Chemical-X, you generally need to keep micro-dosing to stay alive or your body starts to fail. (This is why HIM needs that PERFECT version)

Unbeknownst to everyone, The Professor was only ever able to perfect the formula once and it was by complete accident. (the version HIM had gotten was very close to perfect, but not all the way). Even the Professor doesn't know how he did it. (But that's because it wasn't the Professor who had perfected it--the Girls had done it accidentally during a sleepover in middle school (which the ever studious Blossom had recorded in her notebook). The Girls had been playing "scientist."

However, the Professor HAS figured out an Antidote-X. Again results vary. His version works best on the lab rats the original research group had experimented on. Blossom ends up perfecting Antidote-X for humans and the Girls are able to reserve mutations they come across on their "patrols", which pisses HIM off to no end, resulting in a bounty on their head. (He doesn't like the lose in profits)

As more mutants begin to appear and HIM becomes more frustrated at the lack of progress, Townsville becomes a darker place. At the height of this frustration, he kills the Mayor (who was wanting to break ties with HIM b/c of Bubbles' pleading). At that point, the Girls know who HIM is and what he is capable of. Since they have no one of authority to turn to that can stop HIM, they work together to create the perfected chemical-x like they had all those years ago in hopes that they can appease HIM and free the Professor.

The Girls figure out the formula, and in a race to save the City and, most importantly, the Professor, they confront HIM. Because they're kids, they naively think that they can trade the formula for BC's dad. It doesn't end up working out as they planned. In the end, HIM injects BC w/chemical-x (PERFECTED version), and she gains superhuman powers. To keep the ending vague, the Girls end up saving the day ;)

Important Characters the Girls Encounter:

Amoeba Brothers: the brothers are the first failed chemical-x test created by the Professor's research team that did not result in death. They haunt the sewers after they escaped the lab. They are the Girls first encounter with the mutations/mutants running rampant in the City

Gang Green Gang: Delinquents chosen by the City to be injected. Again, the tests failed. Had temporary "powers" but they teetered off quickly and the boys permanently stayed green (weird side-effect)

Bunny: Sad. She is also a failed test, but she is mutated while the Girls are actively investigating the case. She has super strength and was able to break out of the lab. The Girls hunt her down and they end up trying to help her. However, she passes away. This has a lasting effect on the girls.

Sedusa: she's definitely in the story idk how yet. lol. I just really like her as a character.

Princess: For financial support, HIM promised Mr. Morebucks that'd he'd give Princess superpowers like she wanted when the formula is perfected. But she’s mad, impatient, and power-hungry. In the end, sick of HIM's games and the Professors inability to give her what she wants, she injects herself with the chemical. It works for a bit, and HIM's like "holy shit did we do it??" but after a few days, she becomes unstable. (Her death is captured during live television b/c she makes her superhero debut a Whole Thing). Knows Blossom and Bubbles b/c of their parents. Doesn't like them. Doesn't bother to learn BC's name. Just canonically a brat.

The RRB: Adopted by HIM (and Mojo) "out of the goodness of their hearts." (PR stunt). They were really adopted to be test subjects, but HIM ended up liking them more than anticipated, so HIM decided that they'd be injected AFTER chemical-x is perfected. Absolute shit-heads. They can do whatever they want and no one can tell them "no." They cause havoc for the Girls to keep them off HIM's tail. Drive futuristic motorcycles that leave "light trials." Mad that they can't pin down who the Girls are.

#long post #plz read under the cut too #my outlines #outline ask game #where you pick a number between 1-21 and let me talk about fics I want to write #let me know if you want to know more!#like i said I could go on forever about it #i tried giving the short version of my outline lol #I’ll do better next time 😔#it just doesn’t make sense if I don’t give a lot #didn't edit so let me know if I need to explain/correct something #ppg fic outline

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witchysleepingbeauty · 3 years

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Hi, Reversed✖️ here. I really would like to hear your opinion on how to sort out this difficult and sad situation

I can't deal with it alone anymore, especially to analyze it objectively

So um my parent, in front of a guest, took out their anger on me ie screaming, totally losing it, cursing me out coz I took a half min to fetch smth (I was already doing smth else for them) aka huge, nasty reaction. This was def not coz of the delay in the errand btw

Started ranting real ugly, getting louder and angrier (in front of the guest yay me right?😄) Ik my parent (P) has underlying issues (pain in their body which they always refuse to get treated for at a hospital whenever I suggest so (and if I offer to massage or bring an Ice pack I get passive aggressive snide remarks for 'pretending to care and be helpful'))

Any way screw that. My point is Law-related. so in this ugly rant (in which ofc parent brings up shite about me, personal effing shite), they shouted how I have 'no goal' in life bla bla among other things

Per EIYPO, is this a reflection of their own limiting beliefs/issues (eg lately all they do is complain with venom abt how things never turn out okay and how 'everything's messed up' etc. So it definitely could be how they feel)... OR is the, somewhat humiliating rant, an indicator of my inner reality and deep buried assumptions?

Tbh l want to cry, especially coz ik they're being like this coz of bodily pain, and ik they're not feeling great being like this either

Sadly, I'm getting triggered. Up until last year, I used to be in a very dark place. I'm working on my self now, and for the most, I'm better equipped to deal with my personal issues (the Law helped me realise how assumptions, thoughts could help me see a point in living; aka it gave me hope). Now even limiting time with P isn't enough. I tell myself idc what they keep saying about me, but I can't stop them (I mean if I talk back, it gets worse yk? If I try to explain, I hear this classic one "Oh so YOU'RE perfect right? You're the only perfect person in the world"... Yeah, it gets old real fast)

It's lame, upsetting. I don't wanna fall in the deep end again. Btw I've always been the one who's listened to P when they want to vent or wanna discuss their interests (even if I'm not that interested, coz ik what it's like to not have anyone interested in ur likes lol). Point is, is their behavior (the screaming outbursts and insane cussing + sometimes I do shudder at their scaring-the-yk-what outta-me expressive hatred of my existence - which they themselves have acknowledged btw aka I've heard them tell others how I've made them negative and unhappy... 😐), So is their behavior reflective of their own assumptions about me OR is it MY deep-buried assumptions reflecting in them?

I don't get it. On many damn occasions they've told me I'm the one who's at fault for 'everything' and, you'll like this one, "how I deserve being treated like this"... I've even asked them what I've done to them, but my P has communication issues (which I've taken as smth to learn for myself so I'm happy I could be mature enough to realise what's healthy and unhealthy communication, work on this and be better), which means, unfortunately, it's tough to get a straight answer back other than defensiveness, accusing me of criticising them bla bla nvm that's the old story (and by old I mean literally old), so idk

Like... Eff it all huh? I try to focus on myself and different aspects of my life, minimize confiding stuff about me, learned to not rely on them too much but idk. It's starting to affect me a lot, you understand right?

As I type this, I realise I'm REALLY hurt by P's shouts and their tone of NOT love. I forgive them for their rants, but how can I feel it in my heart that they don't hate me?

Working on your self concept and learning to love yourself after years then being treated like this insanely messed up my mind. What's the point? I'm getting all those old feelings back. It was so hard to yk, stop living in the dark. Eff me ig. Anyway, EIYPO, mb I gotta persist more on setting boundaries? Allow myself my feelings then move on?

Thanks so much, love

Reversed✖️

Please, nothing abt moving out. I already have distanced myself, unconsciously I now realise, from them. I'd really appreciate it if I could understand how to feel better regarding this situation by changing my concepts, or assumptions or at least understand why I'm so affected

First of all I am so sorry you have to go through this every day, I know you’re a beautiful person and it’s not your fault and you do not deserve it.

Now let’s talk about the law. Everything you see in your reality is a reflection of your own inner world. You create everyone and everybody, nobody can have a belief that you haven’t created them to have.

Also I see a lot of limiting beliefs in you “my parent is in pain and they take it out on me”, “my parent has communication issues.”

I know it’s not the easiest thing to deal with but if you want to change the situation you need to stop attaching these labels to your parent and instead changing them to something positive.

I am not going to tell you it will be easy because we are talking about years of trauma and abuse, however I do want to encourage you to not allow them to treat you like that, physically speak up and also to really consider moving away from that person.

I hope this clarifies some things and I wish you the best. If there’s anything else I can help you with feel free to message!

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ink-beneath-her-fingernails · 4 years

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BNHA/MHA First Watch-Through Notes

1x01

these are... stupid... and... a mess. bc I am stupid and a mess. you have had your warning. I didn’t even go back and skim through this when I was done I’m just releasing these little bastard thoughts into the void they’re not my problem now

I’m watching dubbed btw

I know, I know... it’s the only one I have access to rn tho

I... do not know how to feel about funimation’s new intro?

well I guess it’s not really new but

listen I haven’t watched anything of funimation’s since the og fruits basket ok I’m used to the DUN-DUN *funimation* ((....you should be watching))

he is. babie. green babie.

but also why do these small children have such wild hair colors

I mean I’m here for it

I just wasn’t expecting it

oH SHIT THEY GOT POWERS POWERS

so this is the famous deku

I’m guessing this is like a flashback or memory or something?

I missed the bully’s name

speaking of the bullies, they changed order? It was wings, fire, stretchy hands, but now it’s fire, stretchy hands, wings. I know that they probably wanted to show the “leader” closest and that’s why but,,

also wtf?? these are kids. like bullies should not be a thing, I think we can all agree on that, but yeah, it’s gonna happen. but these kids are, what? eight? nine? maybe their powers (’quirks,’ whatever) aren’t super powerful yet, but this blonde kid has fire powers. has nobody talked to them about just how dangerous this is? forget roughing the other two up or intimidating them or giving them a hard time, this could genuinely escalate and get way out of hand super fast, and someone could get seriously injured.

oof. boy is dead.

this eight year old (purple hair) sounds like he’s a thirty yo new teacher trying to sound hip and cool but also wise and knowing to his class who Does Not Care

that wasn’t purple kid?? that was current deku???

wack

then this fourteen year old sounds like he’s a thirty yo new teacher trying to sound hip and cool but also wise and knowing to his class who Does Not Care

also they were four?

jeepers heckin criminey who starts beating people up at four years old

have to say though, I loved that sky-to-puddle transition

jiminey fucking crickets I’m not even a minute into the episode these notes are going to be stupidly long I’m sorry

!! I love his little skipping-dance thing when he’s impatient at the crosswalk!

alright... I’ll admit it... his character design is pretty adorable

also tf is that thing

it looks half shark half poorly drawn dog

I mean I get it’s probably a person and that’s their quirk or whatever but

did this kid just run all the way across the city just to watch this guy start shit at the station so he could see the heroes take him down??

I mean respect tbh but also priorities kid

also I really appreciate that the cops are just kind of calmly directing everyone and everyone else is just kind of chillin like “oh. another villain. that’s too bad.” like tbh that’s one of the things that always kind of annoys me about movies and shows like this where there’s like repeatedly villain attacks because yes they are scary, especially when you’re caught up in them, but if you’re just kind of there and not directly in the action or being directly threatened, then why are you freaking out? you’ve lived in this city for how long? there’s an attack every, what, two days? this isn’t routine for you by now?

I started this like 15 min ago and am only like a minute and a half into the ep smh

ngl this intro kinda pops off

that hero guy seemed... kind of evil lookin tho

love the animation oml

also the lyrics to this are great???

OH IS THAT A NARRATIVE FOIL I SEE IMPLIED THERE

I THINK IT IS

“and they were narrative foils” “oh my god they were narrative foils”

k ngl rewinding real quick bc I missed some of the intro and there’s always so much fun stuff to see and unpack in those

also I wanna read all the lyrics

k so I was wondering this before but I’m just gonna say it... why does the hero guy have rabbit ears

alright character designs lookin p fire so far

last guy I keep missing but he kind of looks like steven universe?? idk I still have to watch that show too tbh so,,,

does the big hero guy turn into a giant bird?

oh that intro got me excited for this

these characters look so lit!!

“the first incident?” so this isn’t just like a natural factor of their world? it hasn’t always been going on? there was, like, a definitive start to it all? was that kid really the first incident or the first one they noticed? was that actually the first incident or is it just like the commonly told first incident, like an old myth/legend/folktale/old wive’s tale?

interesting that it started with a baby and then moved to people of all ages?

oh they don’t know the cause of the quirks? interesting

((why do I feel like finding out the answer to that is gonna be like A Big Thing™ at some point in the series))

I really like the visuals they put with this exposition?? idk why it’s just,,, very appealing

also his voice is very nice to listen to tbh, so that’s a definite plus

I hate it when the main character’s voice is super annoying

but like how long ago was it that this started? he just said “before long”

I like that in this universe they actually acknowledge that hey comic books are a thing and this whole superheroes/villains/powers thing is kind of ridiculous bc it’s legit like playing out scenes straight from those comic books but also this is real life and it’s actually happening and really does pose a lot of danger and complications to a lot of people, so we’re going to treat it as something real and serious and affecting us

I might’ve spoken too soon but I really hope they don’t blow that mindset

I feel like too often superhero shows/movies just either completely gloss over the effects this stuff has on society as a whole, or it’s like a completely new thing for them, like there’s never been the concept of a fictional superhero or a comic book there before.

“was an age of heroes”??? oh no what happens

k but why is this guy dressed like the ‘do not cross’ lines

kind of a lame hero costume tbh :/

why. does he have. sleeves. but no shirt.

edna mode would never do you like that honey go see her

“Death Arms”?? what kind of alias is that?? also wouldn’t it make more sense for arms to be uncovered than his chest, then??

“The Punching Hero”

I’m sorry I Cannot take this guy seriously

waterbending??

asdkfdls idk why but this firehose guy really reminds me of that one alchemist from fmab with the top hat and the monocle and the peg leg that spun like a top and Scar murked

“rescue specialist” see?? that makes sense!! it makes me so happy that they’re actually thinking more about the worldbuilding and how dangerous scenarios would work if 80% of the population had powers of different kinds, beyond “big bad guy meet big good guy. punch punch good guy wins”

also dear god thank you for putting someone on crowd control I know I was just saying it was great these people weren’t really treating this like the end of the world and it is good that they were mostly staying back by themselves but. they were still standing very close to an ongoing fight. priorities, people. self preservation. they are things. that I do not believe most people in superhero universes have in the slightest.

aww he’s too short

(but is he shorter than edward elric)

((do we know))

(((somebody please tell me if this information is available)))

alsdfkj l;a that guy calling in late bc the train got held up by the villain... do you think that’s another equivalent of “oh...I’m...sick... yeah, totally, I’m sick” and “my dog ate my homework” to them? “there was a villain attack” or “some idiot on my block decided to show off their quirk and it got out of hand”

ope Big Hero™ is here

...why am I surprised that they have fans?? I mean I guess that makes sense they’re basically celebrities and public figures right?

okay Big Hero™ is Kamui got it

wait no that is not the Big Hero™

but they are another hero and their name is Kamui got it

“Kamui Woods” ok that’s actually helpful I was gonna ask what his skin was supposed to be bc I didn’t think it was scales and it does look kind of like bark... Now going to take that as permission to assume it’s the latter

kamui kind of reminds me of some pokemon but I’m not sure which one?? I’m sorry idk pokemon v well but thy def remind me of one of them

“...a fAnBOY” he looks and sounds like he just tricked someone into confessing to murder why is he so smug about that smh

you know what. speaking of. I don’t get why everyone views being a fan of something/someone as something to be embarrassed or ashamed about?? why do people make fun of other people for it? why do we treat it like some big dark secret we try to hide? when did liking something become a bad thing? like?? sorry I have hobbies and interests and you don’t? sorry I think this person is talented? sorry I thought this book was life-changing? sorry I listen to this album so much because it’s good? sorry this show made me laugh during a really rough time? like goddamn it’s nobody’s business what you like unless you’re trying to force it on you when you’ve asked them to stop or it’s hurting someone? if they’re being safe and respectful about it for everyone involved then there shouldn’t be a problem? stop making people feel like freaks or be scared to enjoy something just a little too much? just let people have good things in life and consume the media that makes them happy? it has little to no effect on you? I don’t get why it’s you’re problem?? sorry to get all soapboxy this is something that’s always really annoyed me

does kamui have flowers on their belt

icon

k but isn’t wood like... really easy to break tho

I mean... comparatively speaking?

“illegal use of powers during rush hour traffic” alsfjsadlkf

wait so he’s listing charges for the guy, does that mean heroes are officially licensed here and can actually arrest people? and... actually work with law enforcement?? gasp no wait but I thought that was impossible except for The One Officer On The Inside That The Hero Has Convinced Of Their Cause™

hold up... “assault, robbery, and illegal use of powers during rush hour traffic... you are the incarnation of evil” ...bro chill lmao

I mean those aren’t good things but,,,, buddy “evil” can get so much worse holy shit sunflower child has no idea what’s in store for them

the show can do a hell of a lot even if they decide not to go that dark

well deku did say he was new

also off topic but I just looked it up and DEKU IS HALF A FOOT TALLER THAN ED

I’M SORRY BUT THAT’S HILARIOUS

CAN YOU IMAGINE THIS EXCITED GREEN CHILD MEETING ED THE GREMLIN ELRIC AND JUST TOWERING OVER HIM

he’d probably get along well w al though so ed would have to like him anyways

ok but back to bnha

ope kamui just got upstaged

but honestly?? he was actin a lil cocky and she seems like a queen so I ain’t mad about it

oh great creeps are everywhere apparently

YES THANK YOU THEY NEED TO INCLUDE SUPERPOWERS IN LEGISLATION SOMEHOW OTHERWISE PEOPLE CAN GET AWAY WITH ANYTHING GEEZ

just. more worldbuilding that I appreciate.

jfc they muzzled him?

ok i wasn’t that mad about kamui being upstaged (idk why I kinda like the guy) but now she’s acting a little too cocky for me and I feel kind of bad for Death Arms and Backdraft (?) because they definitely do deserve at least a little credit

yes. official. overseen by the government. I’m not saying it’s necessarily a good idea bc I’m not getting into the whole mess the MCU basically did regarding that, but it really does add to the worldbuilding and making it seem more realistic/draw you in a little more because you can bet that would be a thing that would actually happen in some capacity if such a large percentage of the population had superpowers, and crime was at an all-time high at the same time, with normal methods without powers likely not doing much to combat that, and it being even harder because everyone’s is different

wow so they really do have roles similar to celebrities huh?

I actually love how he’s analyzing the new hero

that’s!! the good!!! nerdery!!!!

ngl thought that guy was gonna be like “well that’s never gonna happen” lmao glad he didn’t turn out to be an asshole

this guy’s hair and his sweater need an upgrade

I’m sorry honey it’s just not a Look™

I mean ngl I’d probably wear it but also I am the absolute last person to look to for a good idea of fashion so

wow we hate asshole teachers

this kid’s hair grows wtf

they seriously just break out their quirks when they get annoyed?? I mean me too probably but

oh wait he’s not totally an asshole

but that still is kind of a dick move because even if it seems really really likely that most of them do, a lot of them probably feel like that’s just what’s expected of them or that that’s their best bet at an ok life, or they don’t think they’ll actually be able to get a career as a hero, and he has to know that there are kids (or at least one) in his class who don’t have powers and who will probably be shut down at every turn on that career track??

also what is it with the absurd number of people whose hair grows/flys/whatever and whose hands change chape and/or elongate

the girl who just throws up the rock n roll sign is my favorite

also why does this teacher remind me of gilderoy lockhart

I get that his eye thing is part of his quirk... but does he face no consequences health-wise from putting his grubby fingers all over his eyeballs?? you don’t know where your hands have been

the famed bakugo

we finally meet

you seem like a cocky asshole and if I remember correctly you have firepowers

you know who else seemed like cocky assholes and one point or another and had firepowers??

roy mustang and zuko

and one of those guys is an awkward, angry turtleduck, and the other one is a rightly smug bastard who succeeded in pulling a coup on the government who was surveilling him and holding half his team hostage

so yeah I have a feeling I’m gonna like this guy

probably

at some point

eventually

it might take a while

“the only place worthy of me” oh dear

All Might!! Big Hero™ has a name!!

oh being a hero solely bc you want to be rich and popular? lame

aklsdfsjaslkfd teach just callin deku out in front of everyone

r.i.p.

it was nice having you as a main character for eight whole minutes I’m sorry you have to face death-by-embarrassment you deserved better

ope

bakugo doesn’t want anyone stealin his thunder

lemme guess deku is also his Main Rival™ or at least will be

awwwww poor guy

how much you wanna bet he gets the highest scores in all the exams bc he studies the heroes so much and that’s how he gets in

that lady got forcefields for her quirk? damn she lucked out

“this cash is mine” *drops cash*

are all the heroes like fine mt. lady can deal w the guy she keeps stealing all our credit anyway so there’s no point??

....is that all might?

k but... y’all should be taking notes on the heroes too if you want a better chance at that career and better schools for it? I know they’re probably making fun of it bc he doesn’t have a quirk but still

also I find it really interesting that the kids all act like the quirks are absolutely everything but at that scene on the street earlier people were complaining about missing the days they didn’t have to worry about “every rando w a quirk” or something... like maybe it’s because the kids grew up w it? Idk just the difference in mindset between (presumably) generations seems cool to look into

wow we love bullies so much

no we don’t pls stop you’re not as cool as you think you are

DESTROYING SOMEONE’S NOTEBOOK/JOURNAL/SKETCHBOOK IS ONE OF THE MOST DICK MOVES SOMEONE CAN MAKE CHANGE MY MIND

alright bakugo you’ve definitely moved onto my shitlist for the moment

don’t stay there

well you know what they say about greatness... some people are destined for it, yeah, but some become it, and some have it thrust upon them

cliches are there for a reason buddy

and either way... I could be wrong but... there doesn’t seem like anything great or heroic about bullying people... I mean idk that’s just my opinion but

god I hope they eat bakugo alive at ua

deku I know you’re a sunshine child but you have to get in now. you have to. out of pure spite. please.

yeah, friend 1b is right buddy...

destroy him deku

DESTROY THEM DEKU

oh suicide jokes huh

bakugo you’re on thin fucking ice you’ve just moved way up in my shit list

wow I hate him <3

EXACTLY

THANK YOU DEKU

I hate it when shows have someone make a suicide joke like that and just? no one addresses it?? or the characters don’t seem to realize that it needs addressing, at least to themselves??? so this is refreshing

voiced my thoughts exactly

he really is an idiot

NO BUDDY YOUR DREAMS ARE STILL POSSIBLE AND VALID

YOUR NOTES ARE SALVAGEABLE

he really is a jerk deku you’re right

awww little deku is so cute

alright I’m gonna make a prediction

this is his mom right

is this gonna be

another

dead anime mom?

and lemme guess she always told him she was sure he’d be a hero/she knew he’d become one, and then she died, and that’s why he’s so set on it

probably not

but just... placing my bets now

w h a t is this child doing

he’s a hair’s breadth away from head-desking

are we... just gonna... ignore that robbery that was happening on the street a few minutes ago

OKAY WE GET IT YOU’RE HERE CAN YOU GO BACK TO SAVING PEOPLE THEY’RE STILL IN DANGER

HIS CACKLES I CAN’T

alsdkjf;lsjk I feel bad for him but also,,, that transition was gold

but also the face his mom made before he started laughing... she knew he probably wouldn’t get one didn’t she

but why do they assume it won’t happen if they don’t get it by a certain age? they said after that baby people all around the world were getting powers, and showed people of all different ages when they said so. that implies that they got those powers at those ages, after the baby was born but not when they were children themselves? like yeah there’s probably some point where you’d consider them “aged out” and therefore less likely to get a quirk but... she just said he’s in kindergarten.

fourth generation? so the appearance of quirks isn’t a super recent thing then

they can tell if someone is going to manifest a quirk or is starting to by looking at x-rays?

also I know I’m seriously overusing the word “interesting” but

maybe I’m reading too far into this but it’s also kind of interesting that his father and his (current) main antagonist have such similar powers?

OH!!!! lore drop!! kind of!!! that’s a really interesting (wow there it is again) thing they chose to be an indicator for that kind of thing in this universe

*cue izuku contemplating chopping off his pinky toes*

I feel like... all might’s... not gonna be that great....

DEAR LORD HOW MANY TEARS CAN THIS CHILD HOLD IN HIS EYES

also ngl when little deku’s eyes are wide and he doesn’t move he looks really creepy and kind of like a child-sized doll

like pinocchio

how sure are we that deku isn’t made of wood

hmmmmmmmmm I do love this animation

ah Internal Angst™

the fuck is that laughter??

skin suit? no thanks

but guess we aren’t ignoring that earlier scene

yeah all might’s in the city alright

he’s gonna break this up isn’t he

yepppppp that’s him

idk I think alex louise armstrong did it better sorry bud :/

“texas smash”??

he just... punched liquid apart

this kid’s still gonna go flying and hit the ground hard buddy thanks for your help

oh he stuck around

and he’s not hurt too bad

“justicing”

he’s using the city’s sewer system being difficult to navigate as his excuse for why he wasn’t paying attention to keeping bystanders safe like he “usually” does?

the armstrongs do the sparkle better

a;ldkfsdlfls this is really funny to watch ngl

“that’s... a pretty good point.” yeah no shit lmao

I love how he’s just. awkwardly patting deku.

yeah he’s gonna end up accidentally adopting this kid isn’t he

is he hurt?? or did the other guy actually take him over while deku was unconscious??

nah I think he’s just hurt I’m p sure he really did get the guy

but still

that was... a big boom.... that’s not good

he’s just.... abandoning this kid on the rooftop??

but also he probably really does have to go if blood is coming out of his mouth

do heroes in this universe have secret identities?

I feel like yes but also no??

watch as this guy’s like “I don’t have a quirk either” and he’s just. like. an armstrong or something

that or he’s gonna crush this kid’s dreams and be like “no, it’s not possible” and I will be forced to ensure deku becomes the most successful hero ever out of Even More Pure Spite™ even if he idolizes the guy

oh yeah he’s gonna get his dreams crushed

IS ALL MIGHT GONNA VOUCH FOR HIM AND GET HIM AN OPPORTUNITY AT UA BC HE FEELS BAD FOR HIM

hmm this outro kinda slaps too

overall feelin good, like it so far, definitely think I won’t have trouble continuing watching at least for now

#this took me... almost 2 AND A HALF HOURS #IT'S A 24 MINUTE EPISODE #THESE AREN'T EVEN GOOD NOTES #but whatever #notes #bnha notes #mha notes #bnha #mha #yap yap #1x01

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Shouting In Cafes: Chapter Eleven

Allies And Betrayals

Neptune’s roommate has been appraised of the situation, for better or for worse. Currently, Neptune is going with worse.

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“I thought Jaune was turning into your psychiatrist, why am I the one doing this?” Scarlet complained as he dipped his brush in the nail polish and painted on another layer. Bright sky blue. Like Sun’s eyes. Nope, don’t think about that. “Shouldn't you get an actual psychiatrist?”

“Yeah, well,” Neptune sighed. He propped up his head on one fist, spreading the other out before him as his roommate painted on the color across Neptune’s nails. “You know I’m broke as hell. And Jaune is at his sister’s this weekend.

“Nice to know I’m the fallback plan.”

“And you like drama.”

“That’s fair.”

It had been three days since the Sun Incident and two days since Neptune last went to work. Also two days since Neptune had left his dorm. Two days since he had cleaned said dorm, and the place was an utter wreck. Food containers everywhere, papers scattered across his bed, clothes all over the floor.

“Scarlet, tell me to clean my room.”

He paused mid brush stroke. “Why?”

“Look around you! It’s disgusting. And you’re my roommate, isn’t it your job to yell at me about this stuff?”

“It is, thank you for acknowledging that, but it’s not my room, so your room is fine.”

“No, it’s not!”

“You have one empty water bottle on your desk, and one pair of pants on your floor. Believe me, this is nothing. You should see Sage’s room.”

“I need to get outside.”

“Wasn’t this how we started this talk?” Scarlet asked knowingly, his accent catching on the words and lilting them slightly.

Oh right. That’s why Neptune was holed up inside.

He lived every waking moment in fear of seeing Sun. After the disaster that was the re-meeting and planning the possible hang out session, Neptune hadn’t heard anything from him, and somehow that was worse.

He could be tackled the second he left this room. Sun could flood his phone with texts in the middle of class. He could pop out of nowhere, take his hand, claim they were going to get matching tattoos, and shove him into a car.

Sun Wukong was easily the most chaotic maybe-friend that Neptune had ever had. And he was nowhere near prepared.

“Oh, yeah,” Caesar continued. “I actually just remembered that I never need to leave this place again.”

“Neptune, this isn’t how you make friends.”

“Oh not you, too. Please don’t tell me Jaune has gotten you involved in his little crusade,” Neptune groaned rolling his eyes.

“Maybe he has, maybe he hasn’t. Who’s to say. This still isn’t the right way to go about being friends with this guy.”

“Yeah, well, not fulfilling texting promises isn’t a way to make friends either!” Nptune pouted. Not that he wanted to be friends with Sun. It was just the principal of the thing. Yeah that was it. Scarlet didn’t look convinced.

“He’s probably just loving the idea of catching me at just the wrong moment. Like, when I’m on a date with someone he’ll blow up my phone with kissy emojis. Or if I’m in the library, he’ll find me and just tackle me into a bookshelf.”

“You’ve been thinking a lot about this.” Scarlet smirked, his tattoo wrinkling around his eye.

Oh god not him, too. “It’s not like that, man. I keep telling Jaune it’s not like that, and I swear to God it’s not like that.”

“Okay, okay, okay. Sure. Other hand.”

Neptune sat up straight, taking back his freshly painted hand and offering up the other one for Scarlet. His roommate shook the bottle with a little too much aggression. “Neptune. You promised Jaune you would make some friends. Do it for Jaune.”

Neptune winced. Now Scarlet and Jaune were communicating. His life would never know peace after this moment. “Jaune isn’t even here. You don’t get to use him as a tool to guilt me.”

“I had to.”

“Yeah I’m sure you did. He’s just… A lot.”

“He’s nice.”

“You’ve never met him! And he’s loud.”

“Passionate.”

“He wears really bad T-shirts.”

“Now that is unforgivable.”

“And why hasn’t he texted me? I don’t even think he likes me.”

Scarlet froze in the act of brushing paint onto one of Neptune’s nails. “You’re worried about him? And you’re worried that he doesn’t like you?!” Scarlet’s smile was an evil smile. Curse him. “You’re blushing.”

Neptune flushed. “No I’m not! And I don’t care if he likes me! Because I don’t like him!”

“Yes, you do! You definitely do!”

“Scarlet!”

“A beautiful relationship is beginning, I can tell.”

“You’re worse than Jaune.”

“Hey!” Scarlet swatted his shoulder without much force, then tossed his head to get his hair out of his eyes. “Fine, fine. I’ll lay off. Why don’t you just text him first?”

“We’re not having this conversation. This isn’t fucking highschool, dude.”

“You’re the one being a little bitch about it, Neptune! Just be a man and text your potential boyfriend!”

“He’s not my boyfriend!”

Scarlet swatted at his shoulder a couple more times. “You’re so immature! Fine. If you won’t text him, I will.” With that, Scarlet leaned across Neptune and started grabbing for his phone.

It took Neptune a few seconds to realize what was happening as Scarlet searched the bed behind him without any hint of grace or subtlety. As soon as he let out a small “Ah ha!” Neptune’s eyes went impossibly wide and he yelped and shot towards Scarlet’s hand.

Just as his fingers were about to touch the sheets and his phone, Scarlet said, “Your nails are still wet!” A diversion tactic.

But it worked. Because Neptune immediately drew back as if he had just touched an open flame.

His roommate held his prize over his head, smirking slyly and staring straight into Neptune’s eyes. Neptune was busy holding his hands awkwardly in the air in front of him to prevent his nails from touching anything.

“I know you don’t believe me, but I will kill you.” Scarlet raised one eyebrow, clearly doubtful. “I swear to God, I will take one of your shitty pirate swords, and I will kill you. I’ll do it. I know where you sleep.”

“First off, no you won’t. Second, my cutlasses are incredible and how dare you insult them.”

“I will kill you. And no, they’re lame.”

“They are not, but whatever,” Scarlet brushed off, settling against the pillows to type. ‘Sun,’” Scarlet started, his nails clicking on the screen. “No. Too impersonal. Needs a nickname for your man. Sunny. No wait.” A wicked smile spread across his face. “Sunshine.”

At this point, Neptune leapt forward again, arms swinging wildly, but Scarlet darted off the bed and out of the way. “Hi!’” Scarlet continued, reading stiltedly as he typed. “I just wanted to text you about when we were hanging out because I was getting super worried L-M-A-O.”

“Scarlet! I’m going to murder you!”

“Don’t jerk around so much. You’re going to make the polish fall over.”

Neptune risked a glance down and saw the open blue nail polish tilting dangerously from side to side. He snatched it up, screwed the top on securely, and set it on the floor. This, of course, only gave Scarlet more time to type.

“We can do whatever you want, exclamation point winky face. Whatever you want.” He paused. “I added like five A’s to that ‘whatever,’ by the way.”

“Scarlet!” Neptune went to tackle him again, but he stuck out a hand and planted it on his forehead like an older sibling.

“Get back A-S-A-P. Your bestie, Neptune. Okay, I sent it.” Scarlet released his head and Neptune’s momentum carried him down onto the bed sheets. Scarlet’s laugh sounded borderline demonic when muffled by all the blankets. Full Bond supervillain.

“What the fuck, dude?!” Neptune exclaimed, pushing himself up out of the blankets.

“Nothing was getting done,” Scarlet shrugged, looking thoroughly unbothered. “You can thank me later. Here’s your phone.”

Just as Scarlet tossed Neptune his phone, it vibrated. Neptune tried to shake off his irritation, furiously tamped down his excitement at Sun responding, and pressed his phone up to his face. His stupid glasses had fallen off in the struggle, and the stupid tiny words were too tiny.

Monkey King: yeah sure dude im down!!! i have a great idea for what we can do

Monkey King: meet me outside your dorm in an hour bring ur phone its imporant

Monkey King: *important

Monkey King: nicknames are a go btw?? hell yea boi!!!!!

“He doesn’t have autocorrect turned on,” Neptune said numbly. He was in shock.

“Who the hell does?” Scarlet asked from over his shoulder.

“I do.” Neptune glanced at him before elbowing him away. “Don’t read my texts, man!”

Scarlet crossed his arms. “Hey, I sent the messages. I should at least get to read the response.”

“I didn’t ask you to text him in the first place!”

“Well, at least I got things moving. If I’d left it up to you, nothing would have ever happened. You would have just languished in here until I’d have to call the RA’s to drag your body away.”

“Holy shit,” Neptune nearly dropped his phone, a look of horror spreading across his face.

“What?” Scarlet stopped negging him for once. “What’s wrong?”

“I only have an hour to get dressed!”

“Oh shit.”

#rwby #neptune vasilias #sun wukong #seamonkeys #scarlet david #jaune arc #mine #my writine #shouting in cafes #chapter 11 #coffee shop rwby

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whydidntyoushoot · 4 years

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shadowhunters s1 is terrble, how to make it better, one thing that deserves more attention, MY opinion & perspective

This is a LOOOOOONG post.

I only watched shadowhunters months ago and now I’m rewatching it (don’t ask me why). I shall say s1 story is just terrible. The writers ruined Clary’s character and got Jace’s motives so wrong (and that’s what made him “an ass”). The build-up of Clace is not convincing. Parabatais fought each other for superficial reasons. People’s different views towards the Clave should have served the plot better. I blame show writers 100% for these. They missed the point, and made what they cared about the most—romantic relationships, go in the wrong direction.

Upon finishing this post I find it to be Jace centric, so no tags for other characters. In case you’re reading, hope you can understand my English :p

Notice that all potential criticism here is meant to be directed at writers. You may consider quitting reading if this post makes you feel uncomfortable. But don’t get me wrong, I don’t hate any of the characters.

Hate is such a strong word for me to use. I do hate the Clave tho

I don’t want to spend too much time on Clary. I’ll just put it like this: after losing her mom, she has the right to feel shocked, scared, lost and helpless. She can sit down and cry, she can ask for others’ help. She was supposed to be traumatized, but I don’t see that. The script made her someone selfish, impulsive and thinks she knew better than anyone around her although she had become a shadowhunter only for days. Others were offering free help but she didn’t show gratitude and was always like “I have to find my mom I don’t care this I don’t care that I only care about my mom you must help me with this you have to listen to me blah blah blah.” To me it looks like an everyday style, so I can’t take her misfortune seriously. And, for so many times, I see no consistency in her emotions. One example is her kiss with Jace before she set out for Simon in ep09. She was worried about Simon, but all of a sudden she became all flirtatious and was kissing and talking about “us” with Jace. Maybe “a kiss from your lover makes you strong”, but no, I can’t see that in that scene. I just can’t.

And writers forced this Clace thing on me. No hate, I’m not interested in romantic relationships, I accept them as canons, although I don’t see why. Sometimes I can appreciate ones that are well-depicted, but unfortunately Clace isn’t a good one to me. not in s1. When I got to s03e22 for the first time however, I remember I was genuinely pissed when seeing that Clary had to lose her memory of the shadow world. I mean they love each other so much why can’t writers just let them be happy

Next it’s Jace, the Clave, Alec, etc. It’s mainly Jace, to be honest.

a common remark on Jace:

“JACE IS AN ASS. HE CHOSE CLARY OVER THE OTHERS TREAT ALEC LIKE AN LAPDOG PUT IZZY’S LIFE IN DANGER AND RUINED THE NAME OF THE LIGHTWOODS OH HE ISN’T A LIGHTWOOD AFTERALL“

The script is such a mess, but I really can’t deny that he chose Clary over anyone else and mistreated Alec. I love you buddy, but you could have done better. If only the writers had put less emphasis on his feelings for Clary, he shouldn’t have been that annoying. But all this “he put Izzy’s life in danger and ruined the name of the Lightwoods” thing is just the script being way too misleading. Will talk about these ones by one.

For s1 it’s basically the Clave, who represent the interests of the majority of shadowhunters, fought the Circle/Valentine. But on the Clave’s side, people hold different views. Alec was the type of person who played by the book and paid his unconditional loyalty to the Clave (they don’t deserve it btw) to the point that he lost his judgment. I can’t blame him since he’s the eldest son of the Lightwoods the royal family, he had to sacrifice himself for his family and the authority. Jace, on the other hand, didn’t have such a burden. He would fight the Circle, but he NEVER trusted the Clave. However, the reason why he fought the Circle seemed to be and only be his feelings for Clary. Well, he could have had better reasons.

I thought you knew it, writers

But you didn’t.

In the books I remember Jace was convinced that Michael Wayland was murdered by two circle members, this made a desire for revenge reasonable. But in the show, they put things vaguely at the beginning. Watching ep02 alone, I don’t know if /Michael died in a revolt as a circle member and Jace accepted it as some sort of sacrifice/ or /Michael died in a revolt of the Circle as an innocent shadowhunter/. It was not until ep10 did Jace say “Valentine killed you” and Michael was confirmed a circle member. So it’s neither the case, Michael was a circle member and Jace believed Valentine killed him, that’s still a good reason for revenge. But wouldn’t it be better if they made it clear from the start and let it be Jace’s primary motive, instead of telling us how he was willing to do everything for a girl he had just met? He felt for Clary, wanted to protect her, help her, fight the Circle/Valentine for her AND himself (Don’t tell me losing a dear parent is something trivial). If the writers did this, Jace’s failure to kill Valentine in ep11 would also be more understandable (I’m not going to elaborate on it). Revenge > empathy/love at first sight is a more appropriate way to address Jace’s motive. He could have been a protagonist who fights the villain + avenges the death of his father + protects the one he loves. But the writers made him an arrogant ass who was blinded by his feelings for Clary.

Also I have to mention the famous line in the books “to love is to destroy” here. In s1 it’s nowhere to be found, writers used “emotions cloud judgment” as a substitution. They brought it back in s2, which I think would have been better if they introduced it in s1. The falcon story is supposed to be a painful lesson Valentine taught Jace that shaped his worldview, Jace is supposed to be confused about love, there should have been an inner struggle. He couldn’t have fallen in love so easily, not to say being all noisy about it. s1 botched that concept.

How the writers vaguely dealt with Michael Wayland’s cause of death:

Is he even talking about Michael here? I thought the revolt is the Uprising? It should be. But Michael died ten years ago, the Uprising was like, 20 years ago? or maybe he just didn’t want to talk about details? I have no idea.

How they made Clary the only reason Jace stole the Cup:

I have no words.

Alec was with the Clave, Jace was not and had never been. This is mentioned, but not stressed enough. They weren’t on the same side from the start. I can’t deny that “Clary risked everything to find it”, but using it as an excuse to betray your brother is just lame. Letting Clary hand over the Cup to the Clave is still a valid request tho, since Meliorn said Clary had the Cup. But Jace didn’t really need to distract Alec with her here, he could have used “we” instead of “she”.

Despite that he did’t trust the Clave, strangely, he was somewhat loyal to the Accords. He wouldn’t let the Clave imprison Meliorn for no reason and rescued him from Alec’s hands. He never wanted to hurt downworlders, not until Imogen made him head of the institute in s2 where he blindly followed his only relative Grandmother for a short period. Notice that this had nothing to do with him stealing the Cup. I don't think these two things happening at the same time are related. He could rescue Meliorn without stealing the Cup. Talk more about Jace’s view about the Clave, will you, writers? He’d rather die than hand over the Soul Sword to them in s2, how much do you think he despises them?

The Clave themselves had the intention of break the Accords lol what kind of regime is this. They were just so useless and hypocritical. In ep08 they didn’t even care about what Valentine was doing but only believed that the institute was at risk, so they blame the Lightwoods... I just can’t bear with the fact that such a regime was still in power.

This is when the Clave decided to imprison Meliorn and shadowhunters were taking different sides:

Then the Clave arrested Izzy because she had THE relationship with Meliorn, which made her the suspect. But do you remember what the Clave’s real motive was? They wanted the Cup. Arresting Izzy was extortion. Jace had no choice but hand over the Cup to the Clave. He did so.

I mean, before Jace stole the Cup, who knew the Clave would do that to Izzy? And what did Izzy thought of the situation? SHE WANTED TO PRESERVE THE ACCORDS AND SAVE MELIORN. Not relevant, but Izzy and Jace were both on scene trying to persuade Alec and Lydia. Alec was on the Clave’s side, he had no choice. But he blamed Jace for risking Izzy’s life was totally uncalled for. Just because a character is annoying doesn’t mean that whatever he does is wrong or the character who opposes him is always right. In fact, you trust or distrust someone is not something right or wrong. The writers made Alec think that Jace risked Izzy’s life to stole the Cup is the most ridiculous thing I can think of in s1. Why was everyone so blinded?

Just, fuck the Clave first, then fight the Circle.

And Mr. and Mrs. Lightwood used to be members of the Circle. They betrayed the Circle prior to the Uprising so the Clave absolved them. When the Circle made a comeback, however, they were again a pain in the Clave’s ass. If anyone ever ruined the name of the Lightwoods, it starts with Robert and Maryse. The Clave was just finding excuses to trap them.

I would say different positions people take in s1 worths more attention. But writers just keep distracting viewers with the unbearable love of Clace.

Also the parabatai fight. They fought because of a girl, which doesn’t make any sense to me. I thought it was clear that they were’t on the same side and that should be the main reason, but writers kept inserting “Clary” here and there. Clary was important to Jace, but Alec didn’t seem to be in s1, that’s the problem. How can viewers like a character who treated his brother terribly while putting his heart into a girl he knew only for days? I mean who doesn’t have “selfish” moments at some point, but if you go too far it’s a problem.

Actually, I think writers had 1 moment of excellence:

Yet in the fighting scene, parabatais were talking about Clary. Alec blamed Clary, and Jace wasn’t happy about it, so he pointed out that Alec used political marriage to cover his “true feelings”... really Jace? really Alec? is that what you think? You don’t have better reasons?

Their reconciliation is also rushed. AND THEY WERE STILL TALKING ABOUT CLARY FFS. For one brief moment, writers made Jace aware that he and Alec fight because they took different positions, but they never do the same to Alec. Alec always believed that Jace was simply risking everyone everything for Clary, from ep01 to ep11. All I could see is that he didn’t even know why they were fighting. They didn’t really talk things out. I don’t know how Alec just accepted Jace’s apology and everything went back to normal. What is “what I thought is right”? Writers never bother explaining it.

By far that’s all I can think of. In conclusion,

Jace could fall in love, but love shouldn’t have been his only reason for everything. Because first impression is too important, no matter how much you reveal his dark past and make him suffer in s2s3, it will be hard for viewers to acknowledge his struggles, making it even harder for him to be a generally liked character.

some irrelevant opinions

Personally I think s1 is absolutely the worst of all 3 seasons. it focused toooo much on romance, and the main couple wasn’t that likable. I heard a LOT of viewers here on Chinese online communities said they didn’t even finish s1 because they thought shadowhunters was a badly-written Mary Sue love story lol and they only watch Malec cuts. lolololol

#shadowhunters #this is 100% personal opinion #jace herondale #no tag for others

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lassies · 5 years

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klonopin rambles

(insert the amazing deancas scene from 15x02)

cas knows that what he did was all him and his choices. him being resurrected again and again was gods meddling. but rebelling for dean,taking on sams insanity, choosing to raise and care for jack, ALL THE THINGS HE DID he did it for the people he loves. motherfucker wasnt even supposed to feel love.

that is ALL castiel babey.

castiel has always been one to disobey heavens orders, of course he was chucks favorite castiel. bc even after a bunch of factory resets, castiel still finds himself rebelling, or atleast questioning heavens orders.

and the apocalypse world cas was not like that, he may have been rebellious in the distant past, but without dean in that world, there is no one to help him down the path of free will. so the castiel we see is a factory reset version...that stuck...(i guess? idk hes different...) and is still taking heavens/michaels orders....not our cas at all. no wonder he abandoned that dimension.

like i bet god was losing his goddamn mind when dean broke through castiels mind control by saying HE FUCKING NEEDS HIM (should be love but ok jensen) which btw was all after naomi literally trained castiel to not hesitate when it came time to kill dean. she made him kill THOUSANDS AND THOUSANDS copies of dean to even be considered ready. i bet that shit was also funny to chuck.

like, dean is praying and praying for cas to come back-literally right after he stayed in purgatory for a year, EVEN THOUGH HE HAD A WAY OUT, in order to find castiel and bring him back to earth with him. (and even tho he failed chuck made sure that cas came back to him :))))) )

and while the man who started out thinking prayer was bullshit, is now praying daily for castiel to come back, and castiel is in heaven being forced to kill dean over and over again. damn god probably lost his shit at that one LMFAO. bro. he LOVES that deancas drama. same.

but like dean said in fucking 8x17, he needs castiel. early season 13 is the prime example (dean emo abt cas dying) dean even prayed to god to bring cas back ???? and p sure god was like “nah, not yet.”

but then jack came in and started ruining his story. im sure god would’ve eventually gotten bored without cas (like he did in season 7 👀) and brought him back eventually, but chuck barely got to enjoy all the nephilim and emo dean lashing out drama bullshit before jack fuckin awoke cas in the empty not even that long after castiels death!!! lame!!

i bet that was the first straw for god. and shit! jack killed michael! i bet that made chuck absolutely pissed! (and honestly, scared of this powerful being.)u kno he wanted an apocalypse! and atleast see how the winchesters would deal with it/try to stop it all. but jack stepped in, AGAIN. marys death was perfect though. he could get jack off the board, and even make on of his fathers pull the trigger. good entertainment right there (to chuck atleast lmao).

but the jig is up and chuck has said FUCK this dimension, and undid everything sam and dean ever did. he is leaving them to get massacred, and without gods help, team free will stay dead this time.

except i guess he forgot why he liked those winchesters. they are best out of all the incarnations of them, always able to deal with what god throws at them.

and the hope that they get through this and finally live a life without strings being pulled is whats going to get them through this. but dean needs to recognize that the obstacles were placed by god yes BUT how they ran the course was all them. cas even said this to him. dean is angry that he never had any control of the life ending events in his life, but i hope cas helped him start to realize that he had control on how he handled these obstacles!

the crazy ways he has saved the world, the family he built, the LOVE in his life, was all him!!

castiel tonight said “no dean, what we have is REAL.” and im fucked up rn. castiel knows he loves dean, just like he knows that rebelling for dean fucked up probably like, a million years of the strings being pulled perfectly for the (first, lol) apocalypse. chuck is even surprised by it, the fact castiel has given up everything to help dean and to fight for whats right.

theyre making it up as they go

and guys

THEY FELL IN LOVE

not even on purpose, deancas wasnt in the script (which i can only assume is gods script too). destiel is accidental by the writers, and i think thats a perfect fucking parallel to whats going on here.

like its funny how god is like the writers throwing all these weird ass big bads and high stakes cuz it sounds interesting

and yet the fans care more about the characters and their choices and outcomes and relationships and so on. all of which is what their free will allowed them to do, and that is the huge focus this season.

and while maybe their free will was limited, but they still had it.

and thanks to that free will, or what may they had of it, cas fell in love with dean.

even the writers, and spns god, they did not intend for dean and castiels relationship to evolve into...this...

anyways dean is scared that theyre relationship (no matter platonic or familial or romantic etcetc) is all chucks doing and everything he felt has been fake. but castiel knows god damn well it isnt.

what they have is REAL

and now i can confidently say that castiel loves dean 100%. romantically. obviously i believed it but i mean, i couldnt really explain it well, until this scene of course. this scene hits the nail in the fucking coffin.

im aware that this can be read as that team free will and their actions are all real but while thats true....i truly do not believe that this is what this scene is talking about...

castiel has laid it all out on the table finally, it is now deans turn.

#and even if the line was for tfw on the surface #it was def also just meant for dean #intense looks guys #deancas #does this count as meta #this is prob i coherent im fucking high #ves talks #LMAO

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koganphrancis · 6 years

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Camless Episode 4

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It’s a landmark episode and not a lot happens, as always. If they didn’t have the fact it was the 100th episode to talk about, they’d pretty much have nothing at all. Another episode without bringing up Terror (yay!), another episode without sex or a titty shot (shock!), another episode where we learn nothing about wtf is going on with Ian (yawn). I HAD thought the show had managed to wrap up 3 storylines, but then I saw spoilers online last night that would indicate at least 2 of them will go on :( Spoilers and not much else under the cut.

Ian got the “here’s what you missed” again this week, which I’m taking as another sign Cam is nearing the swan song ;) But, ugh,the opening wasn’t funny-or understandable-at all. Cam’s standing in front of a busload of extras they must’ve bussed in from a local Chicago school of modeling to portray Gay Jesus supporters, he’s wearing his “God Loves Fags” T shirt and says, “What the fuck were you doing last week that was more important than watching Shameless? Protesting homophobia and bigotry? Damn right you were.” WTF? If people weren’t watching Shameless last week they were exercising good taste, not “protesting” somewhere at 9 PM on a Sunday-or does he mean not watching this shit show is a protest against homophobia and bigotry? That actually does make sense. I apologize ;P

Liam Whatever the point was of aging him and doing a time jump after Monica died went out the window last night when Liam is approached by some public school teachers about his placement for the next school year. Liam is afraid he’s going to be kept back, but they assure him it’s the opposite, they want to move him up. He asks if he’ll be put in 3rd grade, but they say they want to try him in 6th. But if Liam thought skipping a grade would put him in 3rd, that means currently he’s in 1st and the oldest that would make him right now is 7. The fuck? The only reason I’m talking about any of this is because that’s how lame the show is now.

Carl Lip FINALLY says something to him about the dogs smelling up the whole house. And then shockingly Ian and Carl have a conversation about the dogs too-and West Point. But of course this is the year of the Gallagher house seeming weird and creepy, so the conversation takes place with a very catatonic-like Ian sitting on the basement steps in weird shadows whilst Carl feeds the dogs. The brotherly convo goes like this: Ian: Sure they wouldn’t have been better off if you just gassed them like you were supposed to? Carl: I couldn’t bring myself to do it. I: How are you going to order men (note to JW-women can serve in the armed forces now too, even in combat) to kill the enemy if you can’t put down a couple of old dogs? That’s what officers do-order men (!!!) to kill. What did you think they were gonna teach you at West Point? Marching cadences? C: Is that what Gay Jesus would do? I: What, kill old dogs? Hell no, Gay Jesus is all about inclusion and grace, but you’re not looking to get into heaven. You want to lead lean mean murdering machines. (DID ANYONE EVER THINK THAT WAS IAN’S GOAL IN GOING TO WEST POINT? LEADING KILLING MACHINES TO THEIR DEATHS? I HATE YOU, JOHN WELLS!) If you can’t kill a couple of old dogs might be the time to start considering teaching kindergarten? Nursing school?

On that note, he gets up and walks away. Let me interject another rant here-since WHEN is Ian this insensitive sexist jerk who would think of jobs/careers in terms of things real men do vs. traditionally (in the dark ages) “feminine” jobs? John Wells is a fucking dinosaur that needs to be educated-fucking teaching and nursing jobs are as difficult as soldiering, plus these days they’re expecting teachers to start protecting classrooms with weapons. He’s such a dumb fuck!

And also-I bet this is the only time Ian will speak to Carl about West Point and we’ll never know how he truly felt about watching Carl grasp at the dream he once had. Way to blow the opportunity.

There’s a whole stupid side story about Carl and the kid who originally was getting the West Point letter of recommendation. In another add it to the list of “read the room, school kids arranging to shoot each other isn’t funny, you fucking out of touch white males” plots, Carl needs to get his “killing mojo” back so he goes to visit a local veteran. I can’t even begin to guess if Wells was trying to make some commentary about PTSD or if he was just using the poor guy for laughs (this is Shameless, as they love to remind us, so I’m guessing Wells was just going for yuks). The show makes its at least THIRD joke using tattoos as a punchline, and-just like with Mickey and Ian-it fails to be funny. Get new material, you untalented hack! Sorry I keep yelling at John Wells-what a waste if he’s not actually reading this ;)

In Carl’s showdown with the other kid, Wells turns that kid into a poetry-spouting “pansy” at the last second. The kid can’t bring himself to shoot Carl, so he shoots himself in the thigh saying his warmonger dad can’t make him enlist in the Marines now even if he’s not going to West Point. I’m sitting at home wondering if the idiot nicked his femoral artery and is about to bleed out. Carl says the self inflicted wound is just a flesh wound and they’ll be able to tell, so the kid starts blabbering poetry and Carl shoots him in the other thigh to shut him up. The kid thanks him and Carl walks away. Now I’m convinced that second shot had to hit the femoral artery and no one’s calling 911 and I bet the kid dies and Carl’s path to West Point is now strewn with his body and Kassidi’s.

Debbie I can’t...I’ll try, I’ll try to be brief, because it’s all meaningless. After spending one night together, Alex says they should live together (because that’s what ALL wacky lesbians do, they move right in), and Debs says yes. They get to have a cute domestic breakfast scene that by rights should’ve gone to Mickey and Ian, but I digress. Debbie goes out and buys “lesbian” outfits, which to me just seemed like they were making fun of HER-of course she’s going to hit the mall, she’s just a teenager! She doesn’t have to be the spokeswomen of lesbians everywhere. This show has a knack of mocking the wrong things at the wrong times. It’s their shitty writing, not teen spending habits, that’s ridiculous here.

The next time we see them, they’re in bed again, and Alex is filling Debbie in on her past serious relationships, and then Wells gives Debbie a speech about all the dudes she slept with and it’s so much more cringe-worthy thinking about the fact he wrote it. Plus it’s another “relationship retcon” speech since Debbie doesn’t mention that every other time she’s had sex it was a form of rape. Matty (who Wells has Debbie say had a “big dick”) wasn’t conscious (and, btw, John, a 12 year old virgin-which is the oldest Debbie could’ve been at the time with all your screwing around with her still being 16 last year-wouldn’t be all that enthusiastic about “big dicks” for her very 1st time), Derrick (who she lied to about birth control-if he had slipped off a condom right before entering her that would be rape and this case is also-Wells says he had a great body and really knew what he was doing), and the guy she crossed state lines with who was obviously over 21 if he could rent a hotel room in Missouri, PLUS she was drugged and unable to give consent-that dude’s a two for! Debbie doesn’t mention him, since she can’t remember him, I guess. She brings up Neil, but says being with him was just financial (she doesn’t bother to say he just watched while she did things to herself. But hey, if they had had sex, that would’ve been another case of statutory!) Anyway, then Wells has Debbie spout off about what having sex with another “girl” is like and Alex gets more and more dejected. She’s just now seeing that Debbie’s not gay? We’re supposed to feel sorry for her? When in the previous episode which SEEMS to have taken place the day before (or a couple of weeks, tops, if you’re going by Liam’s time line) Alex said right out loud that she knew Debbie was straight? WHY IS THIS SHOW SO DUMB? We haven’t gotten to know Alex well enough to have sympathy for her regardless, but they made the point of letting us know she KNEW going in Debbie is straight. And of course in John Wells’ world, there’s no such thing as bisexuals, so...

Deb and Alex “break up” (who cares?) and I thought that would be the end of Alex and Debbie’s gay storyline, but no-sounds like they’re going to be the new Ian and Terror-next week “Debbie tries to repair things with Alex” according to Spoiler TV. NOOOOO! I wanted that to be one of my three wrapped up storylines!

Debbie comes back into the Gallagher kitchen, dragging her baby carriage and pillow with her and crying her heart out. None of the siblings appear very concerned-this is the new Shameless, a bunch of strangers occasionally bumping into each other. The biggest “shocker” of the scene is the family is eating Popeye’s instead of KFC. Another jolt that we don’t even know these people anymore, LOL.

Lip I can’t...I just don’t understand the motivation to try to make Xan part of his life when he doesn’t seem to be bonding with her in the least. He asks her if she’d want to stay with him if her mom never comes back-but doesn’t tell the kid why HE wants her to stay or ask Xan why she would want to stay when she says okay. The story is hollow and no one seems to try to be filling it with any substance.

There’s a couple of scenes at the motorcycle shop and it’s so obvious Lip and Brad have no idea what they’re doing-they always just grab wrenches and poke at bike parts with them. Last night Lip kept using the ratchet wrench-I think JAW must like the noise it makes.

Lip sells the bike he restored to get money to buy parental rights from Xan’s mom, and it’s just creepy? Why would the mom know to trust him? I’m still not even convinced WE should trust him-sharing a room with her is creepy af. Anyway, Xan comes running up when Lip’s trying to get the mom to make the deal (and why is Xan out unsupervised in the middle of the night on a dark South Side street? Even if she did “just” sneak out to look for her mom, this is a clear example that Lip isn’t father of the year, that he’s not meeting the bare minimum requirements as a guardian), and the mom drops to hug Xan because it’s the 100th episode and these two characters we barely know should get the big emotional scene? Anyway, Lip drops the check and runs, overwhelmed by an actual show of emotion, no doubt. THIS was the 2nd storyline I was hoping would be over, but then TMZ reported that the actress who plays Xan has been signed for Season 10. Which, BTW, still hasn’t been officially announced and that just seems weird that they haven’t. What is Showtime waiting for?

Fiona Ugh, she was worse than ever this week. Can’t believe these are her waning days-it truly seems like Wells is out to punish her. Fi is on the toilet as Bored brushes his teeth. Fiona goes right from flushing to brushing her teeth WITHOUT WASHING HER HANDS. It was so gross-I hope next episode she and Bored have pink eye and mouth thrush. (Fi also touches her lip after putting on lipstick-still without the benefit of soap.) They still have no fucking chemistry, and they start talking about the election which of course they don’t see eye to eye on. Then Fi goes to Patsy’s for the first time in forever and Wells gets to recycle the Fi vs Ian fight over gentrification from last season by having Fi on the opposite side of Frank’s candidate, although they don’t bother to give us any face-to-face interaction. Which is just fine, since the election storyline was boring and weak anyway.

Fi is a total...I don’t even know the word-what do you call a boss who doesn’t allow their workers their freedom as voters? She tells the waitresses to take off their buttons supporting their candidate and that there can be “no electioneering” at the workplace, but puts up a poster for her guy and offers free pie to anyone who puts on one of his buttons. Would she ever really be that clueless and such a bully? Does anyone care anymore?

Later, Fiona goes to the Alibi and has a conversation with Vee where she basically says, “This is what Ford is telling me to think this week...” Fiona says she wants to vote for the guy against rent control, the businessman And Vee points out that “the businessman” in Washington isn’t working out too great. Ooh, Shameless, rushing in with the timely political commentary! (There will be more too, ugh.)

When Fi shows up at her (or a?) polling place, there’s a rumble going on and Wells has her throw one punch to show us she’s still “South Side”, I guess. It was gratuitous. It did not remind us of the show’s glory days, it was a thrown in pointless moment that was so outrageously just tacked on.

In Fiona’s final scene this week, Bored walks into the apartment building with his massive wooden toolbox reminding us he’s a massive tool, and Fiona tells him how she changed her vote, they kiss, and women’s rights are set back another 100 years. Oh, and Bored still squints A LOT delivering his lines. Emmy seems to open hers even wider, probably unconsciously trying to get the other actor to at least try to keep his open once in a while...

Veronica and Kevin There was some more truly awful “rape jokes” this week. Rape is never going to be funny, and with the week this country suffered through last week-plus the fact that it’s still ongoing-I really wish they had just deleted all the Alibi scenes. Kev makes up a scoreboard or bingo sheet (it isn’t clear) of all the “types” of rapey behavior that can now be shorthanded into a celebrity’s name. I won’t even justify the “joke” with some examples. And then KEVIN becomes a sought-after consultant to make other South Side bars less rapey because he’s the white man running the Alibi and Vee is...not.

Frank is in the episode more than I’m going to talk about, but suffice it to say I do truly believe his election storyline is over (one out of three is not good enough, Shameless! Wrap up the boring shit that’s going nowhere and do something with the other shit that’s also going nowhere!) Mo wins the election, and Wells has a reporter say it’s because voters were afraid to say they were bigots in polls. Which again, this show is too narrow to try to address larger issues-if that’s Wells’ theory why Trump won, it doesn’t explain how “bigoted voters” elected Obama twice. Try making the world a better place, Wells. Yes, there is racism and idiot bigotry here, but there was just something smug about how he justified his fictional political outcome. There was a scene where Frank’s asking some of the Gallaghers if they’re voting-Carl says he’s too young, Lip says he’s not registered, and Ian says, “What’s the point?” And that pissed me off too, because we’re having Gay Jesus shoved down our throats, but then Wells seems to be saying Ian won’t bother to vote and would rather blow shit up. Again, the kid that ORIGINALLY had the dream to serve his country by going to West Point. And fucking Lip-what, he’s too “smart” to think voting matters?

(Also in that scene, Ian was eating peanut butter toast, but still no sign of his pill bottles. Cam actually took a bite of the toast, if that type of dedication to his craft matters to anyone.)

The post credits “joke” was a pedo joke about Mo. Fuck you, John Wells.

The only thing Frank was good for this week was to lead us back to Mickey’s house. As so often with this show, I have to forget context (good thing I’ve had plenty of practice, I guess?) and I will fully admit that when I saw Mickey’s little castle of a house I teared up a little. It was like seeing an old friend.

But then of course they had to ruin it by Frank knocking on the door, we hear Terry yelling and hitting a dog named Adolf (they put a yelp in and everything) and Terry opens the door wielding a baseball bat that brought Negan and Jeffery Dean Morgan to mind-I hope that was a shout out to him. The bat had nails in embedded in it instead of barbed wire, but close enough. Best not to imagine how much cooler the show might have been with JDM instead of Sean, sigh.

A much funnier joke than anything they did give us about Mo White would’ve been to have Frank ask Terry, “Still have a connection with Russians? I have an election to rig.”

Finally we get to Ian but just because he had more screen time this week doesn’t mean we’re any closer to knowing anything. And I was going to bust Cameron for acting very sleepy and out of it in all of his scenes, but then I realized that’s pretty much how all the Gallagher kids actors have been acting, except for Fiona (and I’d say she’s trying too hard sometimes. There’s also been lots of scenes so far where it seems like she’s phoning it in-but of course they’re giving her shit to do).

Anyway, things this episode start in the Gallagher kitchen, Ian groans when he sees the coffee’s all gone, and says he’s not sleeping-he got too used to all the noise in jail, it’s too quiet here. Well, bitch, the house was always lively when the Milkovich siblings were there too, work on getting them back...

Lip asks him if he met his public defender yet and Ian says Geneva and the Gay Jesus donors got him a lawyer, “rich, queer, too much time on his hands since same sex marriage got fixed.” Um, why is Ian sounding so put out with the guy without even meeting him? What’s this superiority complex?

Later Ian walks into GJ church HQ and he’s limping, but I don’t think it’s a continuity error, I think they probably just had him film scenes out of order that day and I think he went a little too hard, LOL. Anyway, the GJ kids applaud and Geneva hugs him-she’s into it, he’s not. At the HQ they’re making silk screen shirts with Ian’s face and Gay Jesus signs. Geneva is once again spouting out statistics, saying how wildly popular the movement is, 77,000 followers in the past five days-One Direction at their height was gaining popularity around the globe like that, not this Gay Jesus shit. Ian doesn’t seem to be listening too closely to what she’s spewing, and when two body-builder women walk by he asks Geneva who they are. She says they’re part of the lesbian legion from an MMA gym and adds, “Your gays turned out to be too sweet to handle security.” Whatever-they keep trying to act like there’s all this dynamic action happening off screen-NO ONE CARES since all we ever see is Ian moping around, looking like Cameron has a headache.

Next time we see Ian he’s walking around outside in his red kicks (really wish we knew the significance of those-are they supposed to be like Jesus’ sandals? What happened in the cut scene where he left them in the aisle last season? I only want to know because the show seems to think they mean SOMETHING)-anyway, where’s Ian going? Why? We’re never told-great storytelling this ain’t, kids. A van slows up next to him and a guy leans out and says, “You’re Ian, right? Gay Jesus?” How did the guys in the van know where Ian would be walking? Do they just circle the Gay Jesus church hoping he’ll come out? Again, we’ll never know. The guy continues, “I’ve been watching your videos with my friends. The burning vans, the sermons-it’s inspiring.” Ian says thanks. The guy says, “You really think that’s what Jesus was teaching?” Ian says, “Inclusion, love, acceptance for all? Yeah, absolutely.” Then the van guy says, “You don’t think God sees homosexual bestiality as a sinful perversion of His divine creations?” Ian’s confused, says, “What?”, sees the sliding panel door of the van open, and takes off running, jumping over fences and at some point in his getaway, pulling some muscle in his tight jeans.

Next time we see Ian he’s sitting alone in the Gallagher kitchen nursing a beer and his thigh. (No Bible this time-no sign of his pills either.) Lip comes in and asks him if he’s okay and Ian says he maybe pulled a hamstring running from homophobes. Lip says, “I guess there’s nothing new about that, right?” and you wonder just when he stopped caring so completely about his brother.

Ian doesn’t bother to answer, sips his beer instead. After a minute he quietly asks Lip, “Think you could do hard time?” Lip: In prison? Uh...rather not. I: Gay Jesus kids don’t want me to cop a plea. Want me to take it to trial. Get as much publicity for the cause as I can. L: What’s your lawyer say? I: Could be looking at 10-15 if I don’t take a deal. (Me at home, screaming at the TV: WHAT ARE THE CHARGES? WHY CAN’T THEY EVER TELL US ANYTHING? WHAT ARE THEY SAYING YOU DID THAT’S ON PAR WITH MICKEY’S BULLSHIT ATTEMPTED 2ND DEGREE MURDER SENTENCE????)

Lip, rather than saying ANYTHING to the brother he’s closest to about maybe not giving up his entire young adulthood to a cause, not saying something like, “You’d be older than the real Jesus got to live till by the time you get out”, not saying if he thinks Ian’s an idiot if he’s even questioning doing hard time in a bad place, no, rather than that, he takes his coffee out of the microwave and comes around the counter to the same side as Ian and says, “You ah, hearing from Shim again?” I: Sometimes. (Me at home: WHAT? WHEN? What does that look like when it happens?) L: Well, what does Shim think? I: Unclear. (Oh, Ian, are you kidding me? All this time you thought you were talking to god but you’ve just been playing with a Magic 8 Ball?) L: Xan’s mom showed up today. (Guess we’re done talking about Ian then!) She’s a junkie. Hookin’... I: What are you going to do? L: I don’t know. I: Maybe you should try asking Shim. L: Maybe.

End scene. So again, we get tantalizingly close to a discussion about what might be going on inside Ian’s head-is he getting it? That the Gay Jesus movement is just using him at this point? Or does he really think going to prison as the highly recognizable face of said movement is going to work out somehow-other than him not dying a painful and brutal death? And why can’t Lip give enough of a shit to at least ask him not to go? Fuuuuuuck.

Next Ian’s back at GJ HQ. Geneva comes in and says she didn’t see him come in. He says he came in the back-all the hugging and applause when he comes in the front is kinda weird. Since Geneva is the only one who ever hugs him, I hope she’s getting the hint. He’s looking over the “Free Gay Jesus” posters.

Ian: What is this? Geneva: Couple of the arty kids are working out a few ideas for if you do end up in prison. I: Couple assholes in a van chased me last night. Apparently they’re not very big fans of my interpretation of Bible verse. G: Fuckers. I’ll get you a couple of lesbian legion body guards. They’d love nothing more than to a chance to stomp homophobes. (Because, yeah, THAT was Jesus’ message.) Ian holds up a Che Jesus shirt with an unintentionally hilarious graphic of him wearing a beret-Showtime probably thinks fans want to buy them (I wrote these notes before Steve Howey tweeted he wants one last night. It got less than a thousand likes, and I bet that number would be less than half if Cam hadn’t replied).

I: Think any of this is gonna end up making a difference? G: Ian, you’ve given thousands of gay and lesbian teenagers a voice. (Insert Mickey gif of “Not really tho” here.) You’ve inspired us to stand up and fight for ourselves.

So much wrong with so much of that. First of all, is Geneva LGBT? She was a runaway who ran away from having to give blowjobs, right, not because her parents kicked her out for being LGBT? And she’s been crushing on Ian since Day 1, so, probably not “L”, and Wells clearly doesn’t believe in “B”, so who is Geneva to say “us”? And next, IF Ian/Gay Jesus has given kids “a voice”, what is he saying for them-are the teens really into his whole “Jesus was a junkie”, “my god is non-binary” shouting that they haven’s shown since last year? Don’t teens get bored and move on to the next thing when their idols aren’t doing anything new? Lastly, she says they are standing up and fighting for themselves-where, when, how?

I: Know what I was thinking when I was running away from those bastards? (Me at home: NO! We never know what you’re thinking! That’s the whole damn problem with your storylines!) It’s been 2000 years since Jesus died on the cross and I’m still running for my life down an alley because I fall in love with men instead of women. (No, Ian, you’ve only ever loved one (1) man-fucking admit that for once and then get on with your life. That line should’ve been “have sex with”, no one deserves to be chased down for that either, and it wouldn’t have made me exasperated with Ian over the whole “love” thing, which is a separate issue this show fucking needs to handle before it’s all said and done with Ian.)

Then one of the GJ kids comes in to report there’s a bunch of Nazi’s keeping people from getting to one of the polls and we don’t see Ian again this episode. But again, I hope that they’re finally having him wake up to the fact that NO ONE cares about him. The family has washed its hands of him, the Gay Jesus followers WANT him to go to prison (and probably die) and be a martyr for the cause. Time to ask yourself who is the only person who ever looked at you and actually saw you there, Ian. The only person to look you in the eye and say, “I love you.”

#Recap #Camless Episode 4 #Season Nein #Nobody wants it

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An honest letter

Hi P, It's P. I saw that your last name changed again on Facebook, and am assuming that means your marriage is over. As complicated as my feelings are and have been for you over the years, and frankly as much as I didn't particularly love your husband (at least according to his online presence, which is probably a bit unfair), I am sorry to hear that you're losing the family you'd started to build. I imagine that it's all the harder raising a child through this turmoil - and because I'm being honest, I both feel bad for you and feel a singular anger that you brought your child into such an unstable household to begin with. Will he/she see their father? Will you be able to hold off bitterness for your child's sake? Will he? You may wonder where this is all coming from, and why, when I stopped talking and disappeared, I still know this quickly when your Facebook name changes. Well, for better or for worse (probably worse), you have remained at the forefront of my mind. I check on you, sometimes missing you, sometimes wishing you ill, sometimes wanting to reach out, and simultaneously hoping that you have indeed forgotten me, that you won't suddenly show up and destroy my world as I know you could. In many ways my weird obsession with you is self-destructive. So the truth. When we first met, I wasn't yet 21 and you were part of the gaggle of older people, adults, who generally welcomed me in. I thought of you as a distant acquaintance-friend mostly. Over the summer working together we got closer, and I developed feelings. I'm sure you knew; in any event, you fanned the flames. When our jobs ended, you and I talked every. single. day. We went to movies together when I came home; M even asked me once if it was a date. I said no - I'm a terrible liar. Hence the cutting off contact, btw - but more on that later. When I came home from college on Winter Break, after our jobs ended, I was so excited to see you. Our constant chatting, and the things you sometimes said, made me believe I might actually have found something with you. You did make comments about others hitting on you and how you could never date them because they were too young - I'm guessing that was intentional. I decided not to hear you. When you invited me to your apartment for a movie and drinking, I shaved - just in case. Even as you told me the story of how you'd just had a male friend stay with you who wanted more, and how you'd just ruined your laptop because a glass of water tipped over onto it while you were hooking up with a trans guy on your bed - these all chipped away, they did, and I don't know why that wasn't enough to tell me that you'd hurt me. Even if you kissed me, even if you fucked me, you would hurt me. I was too young and without confidence, inexperienced and reveling in the thrill of my body when we spoke, touched; I didn't think beyond, I barely believed the now. So when I arrived at your apartment that night, I wondered what would happen. You told me to have a second glass of wine, I should stay the night. We talked, sang, laughed, were so loud; I loved you. I loved you. And as we talked drunkenly into the night, you about your ex-girlfriend, me nodding sympathetically (and even now it pains me to think about how much I was willing to give up) - she called. Your ex. You took the call. You were gone a very long time. I was too drunk to leave; I didn't know what to do. I watched The Nanny on TV. I wondered if I should call my friends in town. But what would you think? Then, hours later, or at least that's how I remember it, you returned, sat next to me on the couch, and said, "I think we're engaged." You had this proud look on your face, like you felt so much better than everyone else. Like you wanted to laugh because you were so desirable. You began to relay the details of the whole conversation you'd just had. And I'm not lying when I say that a switch flipped right then, right there. Whatever spell or trance I'd been under broke immediately. I had two thoughts which instantly broke free from wherever I'd been chaining them inside myself: 1) I was in love with someone, a person you'd created, but that person wasn't you; and 2) I really wanted to leave. I remember thinking about how you'd told me you'd been an amazing fencer in high school, and almost made it to the Olympics. You told me, over and over, how much people wanted you and couldn't have you. You told me, in so many words, that you were cool, that you were smart. That I should feel so special that you talked to me, joked with me, sent me songs. But as you gloated that, yet again, you were desired, I saw that you were not the person you'd told me you were. So I finally fell asleep on the couch; the next day was New Years Eve. I had to drive to my aunt's, two hours away, to get my jacket which I'd left at her house the week before. My ID was in the pocket, and I was newly 21. I had plans to go out. I got halfway out of state before pulling over and throwing up. Purple wine. Purple puke. Purple hangover. There's a reason this feels like the end of the story, because really, it is. We continued to talk a bit, see each other, be friends. But I never felt that way about you again. In fact, I barely felt that we remained close friends as time went by; many months passed in between contact. That was ok; I had new friends, a new life. Time went on. If I'd been smarter, more mature, I think eventually even our friendship would have just petered out. But I met a girl. I didn't obsess over her immediately; she was open, communicative, nice. We went out. She was safe. And then I learned that she hadn't even been quite so open to begin with - it turned out that she was weird! And funny! And cozy and warm and her silhouette against the bedroom wall at night was almost perfect. And suddenly I cared quite a bit about keeping her. I knew I wasn't her first - she told me all of her history, probably too much in retrospect. I didn't want her to flee, or I guess not "flee", but think I was too young, inexperienced, lame. So I told her the story - of my "ex", and how she'd gotten engaged to someone else right in front of me. She said she hated you. We bonded. When she learned that we still talked, were friends, she didn't really say it made her uncomfortable. But I knew two things: 1) it would be an issue at some point if I didn't stop talking to you, and 2) that you would keep being you, sucking me into the feeding of your ego, lightly flirting. And I honestly didn't think you'd really care. So I unfriended you on Facebook. And BAM! I got a message from you so quickly, asking why we weren't Facebook friends anymore. Requesting to be friends again. Lightning fast. Confusing. When I told my girl, she reiterated that we could still be friends; but I was growing more and more uncomfortable with a "friendship" of hers at the same time. Granted, she talked to this friend a lot, he manipulated her quite well, and he had slept with her multiple times, while she was drunk and quite depressed and unhealthy, even though he knew she was gay. I maintain that my reasons were legitimate there. But it impacted the equation concerning remaining friends with you. You've continued to reach out over the years, not sure what happened. I've never really known what to say. You've fallen off my radar and gone back on, time and again. I will probably always think of you. But the girl I talked about? She's now my wife, and she and our child are everything. So I'll never be able to risk it. This is a long way of saying hello, and I hope you and your kid are ok. That you'll be ok. I'd likely be there for you if I could. But I never want you to contact me again. I'll be checking for messages every day, regardless. Your friend, P

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