#i know the frustration

[allastoredeer]

Saw a lot of big monstrous Al fucking tiny Lucifer art lately (is that some new trend all of a sudden?) and I want to gouge my eyes out. Never saw it with Full Demon Lucifer fucking Alastor. Like... never. Why am I even still like this ship if it has no food?

Actually! I have seen art of monstrous Lucifer fucking Alastor and it was glorious. I've seen a few of the monstrous Al fucking tiny Lucifer pics, I think it might've been inspired from a fic? I'm not sure if it's a trend? IDK I don't venture into top!Alastor/bottom!Lucifer, I usually stumble across it by accident.

But I'm more than happy to share monstrous Lucifer fucking Alastor!!

This one is of big monstrous eldritch Lucifer with human Alastor

Lucifer is just in his demon form in this one but its still so good AND it's from the HellvaverseKinkWeek

Another one with Lucifer in demon form

I know I have more monstrous Lucifer and Lucifer in his demon form fucking Alastor in my Twitter bookmarks SOMEWHERE, but I was scrolling for so long and I accidentally clicked out of them, which brought me back to the top, and I just...I couldn't scroll that far again. My brain shut down at the mere thought.

The food is there, it's just a little harder to find. I've been stocking up on a LOT of bottom!Alastor content. If ya'll want some bottom!Alastor art, I have so many bookmarks saved. If you want some bottom!Alastor fanfics look through my #fanfiction recommendation or #fanfic recs tags. People send me bottom!Al fics all the time, if that's something you're looking for, you might find something you like.

[butchfalin]

the funniest meltdown ive ever had was in college when i got so overstimulated that i could Not speak, including over text. one of my friends was trying to talk me through it but i was solely using emojis because they were easier than trying to come up with words so he started using primarily emojis as well just to make things feel balanced. this was not the Most effective strategy... until. he tried to ask me "you okay?" but the way he chose to do that was by sending "👉🏼👌🏼❓" and i was so shocked by suddenly being asked if i was dtf that i was like WHAT???? WHAT DID YOU JUST SAY TO ME?????????? and thus was verbal again

[aropride]

it's so fucking frustrating to be in college and know everyone uses chatgpt and to be tempted by it constantly while also knowing intellectually that it doesn't work and it's a bad idea. like, i hang out in the library a lot, and i see people using chatgpt on assignments almost every day. and i know it isn't a good way to learn, because it's not really "artificial intelligence" so much as it is an auto text generator. and it gives you wrong information or badly worded sentences all the time. but every week i stare down assignments i don't want to do and i think man. if only i could type this prompt into a text generator and have it done in 10 minutes flat. and i know it wouldn't work. it wouldn't synthesize information from the text the way professors want, it wouldn't know how to answer questions, it just spits out vaguely related words for a couple paragraphs. but knowing my classmates get their work done in 10 minutes flat with it while i fight every ounce of attention deficit hyperactivity disorder in my body is infuriating.

[utilitycaster]

"why should I get invested in shows if they'll just get canceled" I was deeply invested in Heroes (2006) and it was not canceled, it just got really terrible. I also got really invested in the sandwich I had a few weeks ago despite it only lasting like 15 minutes. You must embrace the ephemeral. You must be willing to love things that may not love you back, that might betray you, or that may die an untimely death. As the great philosopher Mr. Mitchell Lee Hedberg said "I'm not gonna stop doing something because of what happens at the end."

[inkskinned]

at some point it's just like. do they even fucking like the thing they're asking AI to make? "oh we'll just use AI for all the scripts" "we'll just use AI for art" "no worries AI can write this book" "oh, AI could easily design this"

like... it's so clear they've never stood in the middle of an art museum and felt like crying, looking at a piece that somehow cuts into your marrow even though the artist and you are separated by space and time. they've never looked at a poem - once, twice, three times - just because the words feel like a fired gun, something too-close, clanging behind your eyes. they've never gotten to the end of the movie and had to arrive, blinking, back into their body, laughing a little because they were holding their breath without realizing.

"oh AI can mimic style" "AI can mimic emotion" "AI can mimic you and your job is almost gone, kid."

... how do i explain to you - you can make AI that does a perfect job of imitating me. you could disseminate it through the entire world and make so much money, using my works and my ideas and my everything.

and i'd still keep writing.

i don't know there's a word for it. in high school, we become aware that the way we feel about our artform is a cliche - it's like breathing. over and over, artists all feel the same thing. "i write because i need to" and "my music is how i speak" and "i make art because it's either that or i stop existing." it is such a common experience, the violence and immediacy we mean behind it is like breathing to me - comes out like a useless understatement. it's a cliche because we all feel it, not because the experience isn't actually persistent. so many of us have this ... fluttering urgency behind our ribs.

i'm not doing it for the money. for a star on the ground in some city i've never visited. i am doing it because when i was seven i started taking notebooks with me on walks. i am doing it because in second grade i wrote a poem and stood up in front of my whole class to read it out while i shook with nerves. i am doing it because i spent high school scribbling all my feelings down. i am doing it for the 16 year old me and the 18 year old me and the today-me, how we can never put the pen down. you can take me down to a subatomic layer, eviscerate me - and never find the source of it; it is of me. when i was 19 i named this blog inkskinned because i was dramatic and lonely and it felt like the only thing that was actually permanently-true about me was that this is what is inside of me, that the words come up over everything, coat everything, bloom their little twilight arias into every nook and corner and alley

"we're gonna replace you". that is okay. you think that i am writing to fill a space. that someone said JOB OPENING: Writer Needed, and i wrote to answer. you think one raindrop replaces another, and i think they're both just falling. you think art has a place, that is simply arrives on walls when it is needed, that is only ever on demand, perfect, easily requested. you see "audience spending" and "marketability" and "multi-line merch opportunity"

and i see a kid drowning. i am writing to make her a boat. i am writing because what used to be a river raft has long become a fully-rigged ship. i am writing because you can fucking rip this out of my cold dead clammy hands and i will still come back as a ghost and i will still be penning poems about it.

it isn't even love. the word we use the most i think is "passion". devotion, obsession, necessity. my favorite little fact about the magic of artists - "abracadabra" means i create as i speak. we make because it sluices out of us. because we look down and our hands are somehow already busy. because it was the first thing we knew and it is our backbone and heartbreak and everything. because we have given up well-paying jobs and a "real life" and the approval of our parents. we create because - the cliche again. it's like breathing. we create because we must.

you create because you're greedy.

[paradox-n-bedrock]

me in big fandoms: oh cool, it's so active and there's so many people to vibe with, this is amaz-

*finds my niche angle that appeals to approximately six people*

me: okay, folks, it's you and me now

[juicedaloe]

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[cuntylouis]

I feel like many people have a fundamental misconception of what unreliable narrator means. It's simply a narrative vehicle not a character flaw or a sign that the character is a bad person. There are also many different types of unreliable narrators in fiction. Being an unreliable narrator doesn't necessarily mean that the character is 'wrong', it definitely doesn't mean that they're wrong about everything even if some aspects in their story are inaccurate, and only some unreliable narrators actively and consciously lie. Stories that have unreliable narrators also tend to deal with perception and memory and they often don't even have one objective truth, just different versions. It reflects real life where we know human memory is highly unreliable and vague and people can interpret same events very differently

[stupidwittlebaby]

Shoutout to folks with dysphoria that can't be fixed.

To folks with gender dysphoria that is so specific, no combination of HRT and surgery could give you the correct body (at least with where medical science is now).

To folks with species dysphoria, who were straight up born as the wrong thing.

To folks who can't figure out why they're dysphoric. Something doesn't fit right, but why? What would be better?

To folks who struggle with depersonalization, who know that no matter what their body looks like, or how much they like how it looks, it'll never be exactly right.

I hear you.

[andsewingishalfthebattle]

Novice sewing pattern: Cut out shapes. Line up the little triangles on the edges. Stitch edges together. We've also included step-by-step assembly instructions with illustrations.

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[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Heh...Literally nothing personal, kid.

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[cam-the-orange-cat]

I have so many thoughts on this fam, and since I graduated within a year of you, I feel like my thoughts might actually be worth something lmao

So I started college in 2016 (while still in high school) and I immediately noted how much easier it was? Maybe my particular high school just Went Hard, but a lot of the supports/resources/instruction offered at my CC were helping me pass my high school classes.

Flash forward to 2021, I concluded my AS and was starting my BA in a completely new field (from medical to education). I was in a new state, even, and in a much more rural area. The freshies (fresh out of high school students, like 17-19) are struggling in college. And my professors have had to adapt so they don't end up failing half their students. There is a lot of hand holding because they weren't taught this stuff. And it's sad. Not all fields are created equal though. I've heard some old mutuals in medical make similar complaints about courses getting easier, but not nearly to the same degree. And other technical/STEM fields are likewise maintaining the rigour. But if you're in anything related to the arts/humanities, you (like me) are feeling the effects of this Dumbing It Down phenomenon.

And it's not a good thing. At all.

There are a lot of articles discussing the "Dumbing Down" of American Education and how it's effecting the market at large. The conversation, though, feels like too little too late.

And in my current field, teaching, the effects of dumbing down the content level for future teachers is having incredibly adverse effects on grade-level classrooms-which have already been suffering for decades. These teachers don't understand literacy or mathematics, let alone history or science, but are being thrown into the workforce. I have a lot of frustrations with the United State's mishandling of teacher training and education, but I'll leave that there for now.

If you're concerned about your courses, talk to your academic advisor; there may be alternatives that offer more challenge for you to take and that fulfill your program requirements. You can also report classes if they're just,,, too easy (I have made a couple of those reports). And finally, you may want to consider the school you're attending. I'm currently attending a university that is so much easier than the CC's I have previously attended. And it pisses me off. I pay thousands of dollars a term just to be coddled instead of being trained and taught. Not all schools are created equal. There is vast variation between colleges. If you can, consider transferring to a more rigorous institution.

I hate my classes. I can hardly stand the thought of another semester of this bullshit

[thefloatingstone]

Appleseed PDA montage to save you from reading endless pages of unimportant politics that don't amount to anything

also because I have nothing better to do, I'm bored, I'm moody, my gaming laptop is still broken so no BG3, and it's too late at night to start drawing after doing animation clean-up all day.

[merlatealeaf72]

[elphabasthropp]

2.08 | 3.04

[juney-blues]

when you're part of a group with structural power over another goup, you really do gotta just learn to say "i am not exempt from 'fuck 'em' when relevant" whenever someone expresses frustration with you or people like you.