#i know it's like a second time this week i've used this meme but i'm way too attached to it now

[ramenwithbroccoli]

still thinking about Patricia eating everything she gets her hooves on... no more being horse girl for janka. how sad!

[ruewrote]

𝑤ℎ𝑖𝑠𝑝𝑒𝑟𝑠 𝑓𝑟𝑜𝑚 𝑡ℎ𝑒 ℎ𝑒𝑎𝑟𝑡.

PAIRING: stiles stilinski x fem!reader WARNINGS: none GENRE: fluff SONG INSPIRATION: teenage dream by katy perry WORD COUNT: 1.2k

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it wasn't out of the blue for you and stiles to have a sleepover on fridays, actually it was a sort of unspoken rule between the two of you.

it first started when you said that you had never watched star wars before, which led to the both of you sitting on your couch with a big bowl of popcorn in between.

him explaining the little parts you'd get confused about or him just ranting about his favourite scenes. after that it was a back and forth of showing each other your favourite unseen movies.

when finishing said movie the following days you'd receive multiple memes from him about the specific films, it had become a recurring pattern that you'd come to love. it almost felt weird if he didn't.

tonight it was your turn to introduce him to the to all the boys i loved before trilogy since you'd been obsessed with the movies since they first came out.

he was on the fence about watching them since he wasn't a huge fan of romcoms, you somehow convinced him by saying "it's practice for watching them with your future girlfriend!" internally wincing at that.

every friday you felt more anxious before stiles showed, trying to fluff up your pillows and straighten out your blankets. wanting to make everything perfect.

you had a huge crush on stiles, how could you not after spending so much time together, learning all of his little quirks, his likes and his dislikes, the only thing you weren't sure about was the way he felt about you.

it was the one thing you wanted to know the most about him. did he think about you the same ways you thought about him? did he like the way cuddled when you'd watch these movies and shows with him?

you couldn't tell him though, what if he didn't feel the same way you did and it completely ruins the good friendship you have right now?

what would it take for you to finally tell him?

ding dong!

the doorbell ringing a couple times had you jogging down the stairs, opening the door with a warm smile to see hyper stiles.

"i'm so ready to get my movie night on! i had a math test today and let me tell you it sucked," he whines as he dramatically wraps his arms around your waist as he fake cries into your shoulder.

"well if it helps i have enough microwaveable popcorn to keep us going through the apocalypse soo you coming upstairs or what?"

with that said he zips past you up your stairs, falling up them in the process, making you giggle at his eagerness as you follow close behind him.

watching stiles practically swan dive onto your bed and aggressively sniff your pillow has you side eyeing him, "why is your bed so much comfier and smells so much nicer than mine? it's so not fair."

"it's a little thing called fabric softener and if you continuously jump into your bed the way you do mine, then i guess you've got your answer you dufus," you laugh at him burrowing himself deep under your duvet.

"plus i've slept in your bed it's plenty comfy, the key is lots of pillows and fluffy blankets." he hums as you settle yourself beside him before pressing play on the movie.

it was like ten minutes into the film when you could feel him slightly shuffle closer to you, keeping your eyes on the screen pretending it didn't happen. just patiently waiting until he felt comfortable enough to say something.

"can...can we cuddle?" you wordlessly lifted your arm, letting him slip himself under, his head on your chest, the rest of his body lightly pressed to your side.

it was like second nature to you two, whether either one of you had a bad week you'd take turns holding each other. you helped install healthy mannerisms that proved that it was okay for a man to be held because they deserve it too and that it was okay for guys to cry no matter who they're with.

so yes , when he had a rough day he'd often walk up to you and bury his face into your neck, his arms firmly wrapped around you as you cupped the back of his head and rubbed soft circles on his back just letting him know that you were there for him.

with everything he had gone through he deserved all the comfort he could get and if the source was you then so be it.

you would be lying if you said that your heart didn't speed up at the closeness and how his touch on your skin left goosebumps.

trying to be as casual as possible, you raise the hand that was currently wrapped around his shoulders to gently stroke his hair, feeling him physically melt into you calmed your nerves.

feeling your eyelids slowly droop, your hand movements become slower so your palm now laid on the back of his neck, fighting sleep felt so difficult when he was beside you. his presence was so peaceful, comforting even without him saying anything.

the early start of your day hitting even harder now. He won't mind if you rested your eyes for a little bit, right?

stiles noticed the similarities between the two characters to the both of you, but there's no way that you deliberately put this on as a sign? was he reading too deep into it?

when he went to question you about it, lifting his head he was met with you sleeping peacefully. his gaze softened at the sight, gently tucking the piece of hair that fell in front of your face.

"you are so goddamn beautiful and don't even know it, even when you sleep? like can you save some beauty for the rest of us?" he chuckles at his own joke.

"i don't know how long i can keep pretending that i'm not totally in love with you...there really isn't anything that i wouldn't do for you." he whispers and he studies your features.

"it's honestly crazy how i feel your absence in everything that i do when i'm alone, in every place i go without you." he sighs, going to go back to watching the tv.

"you really mean all of that?" you whisper, making him jump back.

"uh- i-i do, but i thought you were asleep?"

"no i was just resting my eyes, but i'm sorta glad that you thought i was for you to finally confess your feelings for me." you smirk at him.

his mouth opens and closes, utterly bewildered at what you just said, "what do you mean finally?"

"You realise that i like you too, right? that i have for the longest time?" stiles eyes now wide, looking even more lost than before.

"you like me? like like me like me?"

sitting up, grasping the back of his neck, "what are you..." pulling him closer, your lips brushing against his. it takes him a second to register the kiss before melting into it. leaning closer to deepen the kiss. his hands brushing over your hips as he laid you down, now hovering over you. your hand running through his hair, tugging at the roots.

you're both now smiling as you share a few more pecks before pulling away. "so you do like me!" he grins, "oh my god. dude yes!"

"ya know if you're gonna be my girlfriend, you're gonna have to calling me dude."

"would you prefer shnookums?"

"that's it!" he pulled away just enough to tickle you.

from that night forth you and stiles had become inseparable, practically connected at the hip. but you wouldn't want it any other way.

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[xxxnightcorequeenxxxv2]

Humans are Space Fae 2

Safe to say, when humans joined the spacenet, new things were bound to crop up. Memes were quickly understood to be a language of its own, and most humans could tell you if you were looking at one. Most other beings got it or tried to engage with it as it was too confusing and convoluted for them to understand. That leads us to where this story starts; At a universal campus, where roommates had only been assigned a week prior. A student pair that happened to include a human. Was chilling in their room doing homework. The human, as usual, was wearing an earbud while working. "I'm sorry, but I've been really curious, human friend, about what you have been listening to while you have been working." "Oh, I've just been listening to music while I work, nothing unusual. " "So you have been doing the ritual of Lo-fi study music. Would you mind if I joined you in the practice." "eh... not exalty. Lo-fi is fine and all, but I never really got out of the so-called "Nightcore" phase. Not everyone is a fan of it. It can be a bit jarring if you are not used to it." "Is this Nightcore a music genre?" "yes and no, it's debatable. You'll know a Nightcore when you hear it, but Nightcore could be multiple genes. " "Curious, would you consider any other species songs to be Nightcore?" "Not originally, but, I've heard them made into Nightcore." "Fascinating, how do you make a song Nightcore?" "Well, the short and sweet of it is that you speed the song up so you can dance to it." "That's it? I find myself confused. Most songs are perfectly adequate songs to dance to already. Why would you speed them up?" "Well, it's a preference thing, but it still has value. Nightcore has introduced me to many more songs I would not have been introduced to if I hadn't listened to Nightcore." "Why won't you listen to the song normally?" "Sigh, I know, that's what most non-Nightcore fans say. But let me tell you the value a Nightcore could bring to you. You know those sad songs that tell you about the state of the universe?" "Yes, we do have some songs like that I enjoy; they are not as popular as other songs." "Well, they can be played for a bigger audience if you Nightcore them." "Won't that devalue the nature of the song if you make it a dance track?"

"No, it won't. See it like this: you hear the song in the club. Love it there. Add it to your playlist; you play it a couple times. And once have a quiet moment, you listen to the lyrics for once. And then the true meaning of the songs comes to you. " "So you are saying that songs an individual would have lost out on the message, don't get lost because the individual is not a fan of slower songs." "Yeah, that's it. You can also do it the other way with Anti-Nightcore/ Daycore If you are a fan of slow songs. It makes a dance song's lyrics stand out differently to you depending on your mood." "I would like a demonstration." "Alright then, listen to this song, " The human says as they deactivate their earbud.

After the song finishes they both look at each other for a second. they both grin at each other. "I understand your point friend. May we perhaps make some of my favorite slower songs Nightcore?" "Sure but let's see if they been Nightcored first. "

[luci-in-trenchcoats]

Hey lovely I haven’t seen anything new from the blog pop up in awhile.

Have you hit a road block or just enjoying life? I’m asking from a genuine perspective (I don’t want to rush you into anything).

I’m going to be honest I’ve been enjoying life and everything that it has given me since January 1st good or bad. It comes in waves. I hope life has been treating you okay. I cannot wait to see what you’ve been working on.

Hi! Thanks for checking in hun! 😘 I appreciate it and nope, I know you're not rushing at all!

I've been doing my usual 1 fic a week lately. Although you are right, I haven't posted anything new in over 10 days which is the longest gap I've had since starting here. We'll get back to our usual Sunday fics again this weekend!

Part of why I don't post as much as I once did is life (work, having more of a balance with my other interests, etc.). I used to spend A LOT of my free time working on fic writing. Nowadays I still do that but I don't prioritize it over other things for the second reason...

The other part of it, and this is the brutally honest, not Michelle saying, "Everything's great over here!", answer is I really don't get excited to post anymore. When I say I'm excited to share something new, I'm talking to the small handful of people I know will actually read. I'm not even asking for feedback or interaction at this point. I'll take a like and be happy. Something that lets me know what people like to see.

I've had to separate writing from posting and that's hard to do because what happens is I'll have a really great idea, something I'm excited to work on, write maybe a few sentences and then think, why am I going to spend 7 hours of my free time writing this when no one will even want this story?

I am under the belief that you 100% do not have to read things you don't like and I don't expecting my followers to like everything I write. But I can't even get feedback on Dean x reader stuff anymore. A stupid meme post I spent 12 seconds writing about The Boys and SPN got more notes in a day than anything I've posted in months which was a tad disheartening.

When that happens, I lose all motivation and stop writing the better story in favor for something short because if people don't like it, hey at least that's only an hour I wasted versus that 7. That's the cycle I'm in right now and it sucks. I'm working on something right now that I know can be so good but I have to tell myself to write it as if I'll never post it because otherwise I'll start thinking about how shitty a reception it'll have and I'll never finish it.

Part of this is entirely on me. I know I put out stuff that's not up to par for the last six months. I know it shows in my work. I know I've tried some different ideas and pairings people don't like as much. I know I can do better but it's hard to put that effort into what I share when I know it's not welcomed.

This isn't a brag but I have a decent number of followers. Nearly 25K. I'm lucky to get 300 notes on something these days. That's 0.01% of followers. That tells me I'm doing something incredibly wrong and I don't know what that is. So I stick with the only things I can seem to find people want. Drabbles or imagines.

It's a cycle I've been trying to break out of because y'all have no idea how much I miss doing a proper series but it's why I don't post as much as I used to. Who knows, maybe someday I'll just start a new blog and not tell anybody to see if it'll be fun to post again.

This is not meant to make people feel bad (and I know ten of you at most will actually read this). It's just how tumblr is I guess and is my issue to deal with to make posting enjoyable again.

[ukranianacearo]

GAHHHH I read your last work on Kid, and to say you once again out did my expectations was an understatement. You write him so well!!! I've once again returned to you with another request regarding the silly little reaper boy, Kid with a reader who's overly protective of him! They know he can handle himself, but if he were to get hurt (even just a small scratch), they'd dote on him and get very upset at what/whoever caused it. Think of the "Oh my god, my Shayla" meme, they're kinda like that. Perhaps they stick up for him too and chew out anyone who makes fun of his symmetry obsession, purposefully triggers his OCD, or just in general isn't patient with him and treats him like he's insane. He's their baby!! Even if they themselves might not being the type to seek out conflict (depends on how you interpret my previous use of the word "upset" and therefore choose to portray it), they can't just let someone kick their poor grim reaper around!!!

Thank you for always tolerating my goofy shenanigans, and always delivering such well crafted posts. Make sure you drink water, and treat yourself to a wonderful meal! You deserve it!

- 𓆣

You're my last bit of sanity

TW: the normal amount (in the anime) of violence, mentions of bullying, mocking, swearing, harassing

Genre: fluff?

Pairing: Kid The Death x gn!Reader (platonic or romantic, up to you)

Synopsis: Kid with a reader that is overprotective of Kid

Author's note: There's literally no excuse for me for taking up almost a months to write this post, sinc either was requested on the second week of vacations and I'm just sitting down to write this today (31/01/2025). I have another request still in my asks which has been there for over half a year. I'm sorry to that person, I'll write it when I have ideas for that request. Also, I genuinely don't know how I get him right, I didn't even finish watching the anime bc of the lack of motivation to do so. But hey, if it makes the people happy, I don't complain. Hope you enjoy this and there might be grammatical mistakes, I'm so sorry for those

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Kid was going down the hallways, making his way to the classroom where he'll have his next class. As he was about to take a turn, he overhears two unfamiliar voices and one that is so familiar to his ears, that it almost hurts.

- You have to admit it, doll face. He's just a weirdo, no reason for anyone to be around him. You must understand this, since you spend so much time with him. And for what? Unless you're trying to get a good word to his father, I don't see what you would spend time with him. Don't you think there's—? - The first bully, who had a rough and low voice, almost continued talking nonsense but, a loud noise interrupted him. By the noise, Kid concluded that they slapped the guy with the low voice. Before the first bully could say anything, they interrupted him.

- I don't know what he did to you for you to act like a dick but, with me he's the best person that I ever knew. In my opinion, there's plenty of reasons to be friends with him and none of them are for the beneficial that you were talking about. Yes, sometimes he does worry too much about things that don't matter in the moment but, that just him being him. He's a real friend, though I'm not sure you'll ever understand that concept. - their voice was calm, but Kid heard venom slip through their words. Trully, Kid didn't care for what people said about him, he was used to it and didn't think much of it. But, he would be lying if he said he was worried about the way his friends and them viewed him. He knows that he gets obsessed about symmetry and that it causes inconveniences for others, and that makes him worry. Worry if his friends still want to be around him even after all that.

- Tsk, whatever. You're the one in the losing position anyway. - The second bully said and the two dudes started to leave. They were going straight and one of them noticed Kid. The first bully mumbled something under his breath while making an annoyed face and left with his friend. In a few moments, Kid heard them leaving too, so he restored his walking to get to his class. He'll have to talk with them later.

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Kid was with them right now, in the living room of his house. They were doing the homework from their classes, while Kid was painting something, deep in thoughts about the scenes he overheard on accident.

- There's no need to get so worked up with people like that. Their words don't affect me. - He said in calm tone while drawing the eyes of the figure. His words took them by surprise but, soon they relaxed again, though not completely.

- I know. But I worry. I always worry about you, even though I'm aware that you can handle yourself better than I can. - they answered, feeling a bit more tense than before. Kid is the son of Lord death, they were more than aware that Kid can handle himself. But, that didn't stop their mind from worrying. - I don't want to lose you. Be it because we're not talking anymore or because you're dead. And I know that sounds pathetic and that there's more probability that you'll outlive me by centuries but, there's still that small chance of losing you. I don't want that to happen. - the silence made its home the room after those words, while Kid processed the vulnerability that they shared with him. He couldn't understand why but, it made him feel warm, knowing for sure that there's someone to who he matters so much and they're not afraid to show it.

- Don't worry, there's no reason for me to leave and many reasons to stay. - After all, this bond was, too, important to him.

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This is short af but, at so are a lot of stories on this acc. For anyone living in the USA, this space is safe for all, except conservatives, Trump supporters, and russians. I hope all of you stay safe and I will try to post more often, to try and helf you through this tough times. Also, this shit not only affects the USA, it also affects a lot of other countries and wars/invasions. This affects both the Russians occupation and destruction in/of Ukraine, and Israels destruction of Palestine. I really hope that the people in Ukraine and Palestine stay safe. I'm pretty sure this also affects (even more) the situation (is it a civil war?) in Congo, Sudan and many other countries, but I might be wrong, so correct me, please. I hope you enjoyed this and stay safe!

[unfixablebabyyy]

so i just read You and was obsessed w the perspective and also i just love getting a lil peak into dennis's brain so this is a something i wrote idk (also slightly inspired by that one meme of that anime girl lol)

(nsfw, minors DNI)

Dee's taste in... well, everything is absolutely abhorrent, but her taste in people is especially repugnant, which is why I can't fathom why such a striking creature would ever consider her a friend. What do you see in her? She's annoying and rude and abrasive, but you, you're none of those things. And I knew that the second I met you, but I had to be sure. So for the last week or so I've been doing a bit of research and it turns out, you really are just perfect- kind, smart, fun, absolutely stunning. Your only flaw lies in the fact that you're so incredibly naive. You leave your doors unlocked, your windows open, you always walk around the city with headphones on and your face in your phone. You're such an easy target. Don't you know how sick the world can be? But it's ok, it's not your fault- you're prey. Good thing I've got my eye on you. I'll protect you, even if it means you never go outside off leash again.

And now, as you sit across the bar from me, I can smell your perfume and I just want to drown in it, in you. You're half turned away, joking with Charlie as he throws darts, and from your side profile I can make out the tiny bumps of your nipples under your shirt. The past three nights you've come with Dee to the bar, you haven't worn a bra. You're clever, but not subtle. It's beyond cute. When you turn to me, I make sure my gaze lingers on your chest a second too long. I want you to know that I noticed.

"Hey!" I could never get tired of your voice. I need to know what it sounds like after a long night of crying.

"I.D., please."

You giggle. I've been carding you since the first night you came in, it's become a joke between us. Really, I just love reminding myself how young you are. When you hand it over, I brush my fingers against yours. I pretend to examine it and nod approvingly before handing it back. You grin, and this time, you brush your fingers against mine.

"Alright, what can I get you?"

You bite your lip, "Surprise me." Of course you want me to decide for you. I smile. I could surprise you. I could slip you something and we could have a night full of surprises. But not yet.

"You got it." And I know exactly what I'll make you- I saw the cranberry juice in your fridge and the vodka on your counter while doing my research. You were at work.

"Just don't make it too strong." Don't worry, I won't start making them strong until you're at least three in. Your eyes go wide as the song playing over the jukebox changes from some Dire Straits Mac had put on to Depeche Mode. "Personal Jesus". Kind of on the nose, but you won't notice.

"Oh my god I fucking love this song," you're so bubbly, and I know, I saw the album sitting on your record player. That's why I queued it up when Dee mentioned you'd be stopping by.

"I saw them when I was in middle school," don't forget, I'm old enough to be your daddy. I was in my twenties when you were born. You like that- I can tell by the way your cheeks get a little more pink.

"Ugh you're so lucky, I would love it if they toured again," I slide you your drink and smile.

"Well, if they do, I'll take you." Did your dad ever buy you concert tickets? I bet he did.

"Then it's a date," now you're really blushing, "or whatever." You're so sweet it's making me lightheaded. 'Or whatever'? So submissive. I imagine if I were to take a bite out of you I might get a toothache.

"It can be a date," of course it's a date. You bring your drink to your lips and sip and god I wish I could just reach over and taste you. You smile as you set it down.

"If I didn't know any better, I'd think maybe you like me," Like you? Last night I was looking at custom dog bowls for the cage I'm going to put you in. I can't sleep at night without touching myself to the thought of cumming inside of you, marking you, making you mine. I don't like you, I want to cut you open and crawl inside of your ribs and hold your heart in my hands.

"You're adorable," I could rip you apart with my teeth. You cross your legs and readjust in your seat. Again, not subtle. I wonder just how wet you are. I mean Jesus Christ, all I have to do is look at you and I can practically hear that little lamb heart beating in your chest, and I can only wear this wool for so long. Sooner or later you're going to see the teeth and the claws. Maybe they'll scare you, maybe not. Either way, it won't matter when they're making you bleed, and judging by how red your face gets when I speak to you, I think you'll bleed easy. Bruise easy, too.

"Do you flirt with all of your sister's friends?" you're starting to get a little bolder. I lean in so that my face is inches from yours, like I have a secret. Your eyelashes flutter.

"No. Only you," I won't play your games, I want my intensity to bring you to your knees. The last couple of days have been fun- toying with you, making you wonder whether my charming smiles and compliments and gentle touches were platonic or not. But it's time to show you who's in charge. You bite your lip. I swear to god I can smell the pheromones on you.

It doesn't take me long to get you drunk enough to slip out the back door with me while everyone else argues over a game of pool. You really are such a lightweight. As the door swings shut behind us, I cup your little face in my hands and press my lips to yours. I don't want to. What I want to do is rip your clothes off and pull you to the ground and watch as the panic begins to rise when I slap my hand over your pretty mouth to muffle you. But that could be dangerous and I have to control myself. You kiss me back and slip your hands under my t-shirt where they roam across my chest, up my shoulders, down my back. It's giving me goosebumps and making it harder not to hurt you. I decide to test my limits. When I push you up against the rough brick exterior, I shove a little too hard and you yelp. But it only seems to make you want me more. So when I lean in to kiss you again, I bite down on your bottom lip, and you moan. Of course you're one of those girls. You love the abuse.

My hand finds your neck and you gasp even though I don't tighten my grip- I just want you to know I could- I want to. Someday I will- I'll choke you so hard and for so long you'll pass out, and then I'll smack your face until you wake up, just to do it again. I'll make you beg for the privilege of breathing. But not tonight. If I ever want to get to that point, I have to stay focused. Besides, just the feeling of my fingertips on your throat is turning you on- I can feel a wet patch forming on my knee where I shoved my leg between yours.

The heat of your body is making your perfume stronger and I feel like I'm going insane, like I'm on the verge of doing something depraved. You push your hand into the waistband of my jeans, then my boxers, and I can't help but growl when your fingers wrap around my cock. As you start pumping your hand up and down, I lose myself for a moment and dig my fingers into your neck. You whine, and when I release, I notice the dark red crescents my nails left on your soft skin.

It's best if I make my hands busy, so I work on the button of your pants as you continue to play with me. I groan into your neck as you squeeze me hard. Pretty soon I'm going to have to pin your wrists to the wall. When you do it again I bite your neck hard enough to serve as a warning and you quickly soften your grip as your jeans inch down just enough. Good girl.

You shiver as the night air breathes down the alley. I can feel your pulse in your cunt as I touch you over your panties. You're so pathetic, you easy little whore. I haven't even bought you dinner and you're already about to let me fuck you stupid next to a dumpster behind my bar. But I won't. I'm gonna make you beg for it. I want you to be so achy and needy for my cock you'll let me do anything to you. I can't fuck you tonight, you haven't earned it.

I sigh and retract my hand. "You're drunk," I press my lips into the crook of your neck and practically feel you deflate against the wall. "Why don't I take you home?"

"Oh," your voice is so sweet and soft, "ok."

I pull away and brush a loose strand of hair from your face before planting a kiss on your lips. Relax, angel. I'm not done with you. You pull your hand out of my pants and the absence almost hurts.

"My car's just down the street, I'll tell Dee you got sick," I brush my thumb across your cheek and peck your forehead before snaking my arm around your waist and leading you down the alleyway. At the end, before we step onto the sidewalk, you stop.

"Did I do something?" Your eyes are so big.

"Consent is really important," I lie, "I just want you to feel safe with me," it'll be all the more enjoyable for me when you realize you're not. My answer seems to satisfy you.

When we get to my Range Rover, you raise an eyebrow, "Nice car."

"Thanks, Frank bought it for me when I got into Penn," it doesn't matter if it's true, now you think I know how to take care of something for a long time. I've established my ability to commit.

"Jesus, isn't that Ivy League?" And just like that, you see that I belong to an elite community of scholars.

"Yeah."

In the Range, you begin looking through my CD collection, pulling out albums you recognize, asking about ones you don't. You like old music, old cars, old men. You mention that your dad introduced you to Christopher Cross, so of course I slip it into the radio and skip to Sailing and tell you it's my favorite, which is true, but I happen to know it's yours, too.

I pretend to be lost and ask you where to go even though I've made the drive at least 20 times in the last week. When we get to your place, I park the car right outside of the familiar front doors and look up at your dark window.

"Are you sure you don't want to come in?" you spread your legs ever so slightly. So obvious.

"How about I cook you dinner tomorrow night," you'll act like a whore when I say, first I've got to teach you some manners.

"When?" you don't want to leave.

"I'll call you." Get out.

You step out onto the curb and wave.

"Goodnight," I say and you turn and head in. I don't leave until I know you're inside, safe. In fact, I don't really leave at all. I park the Range a block away and walk back. Your light is still off, but even in the darkness, I can see you up there. You really should close your curtains, especially when you're inside, naked and panting, humping your pillow like a bitch in heat.

[the-fab-fox]

RETURN OF THE TWITCH STREAM!

Alright, so most of my moots and followers may not know this but I'm an affiliate streamer on Twitch. I stopped for awhile because I just wasn't feeling it and the big reason why is that I didn't have my vtubing model and things like that. (I feel ugly so I don't want to show my face and I feel like vtubing would be so much more fun.)

So my bestie got me a 3d model for Christmas and I was hoping I could share him with you!

Let me know!

Oh, and here's my twitch if y'all wanna follow before the reboot goes underway. I'll be doing chatting and playing a variety of games. Probably most recently will be a new fresh run of FE3H where I will finally romance Dimitri. Only one I haven't done yet specifically so I could play it on twitch. 🤣

Secondly, I really want to do two segments for Twst. Originally I thought that I would just play the game on twitch. But unfortunately it's not really a streamable game. Not in a fun way. So that brought me to my secondary options.

To help support the test fandom, I'm considering the following segments:

A fanart sharing series where I find the fanarts that really spoke to me. I will also send out, a day prior, the reminder to send in the arts y'all really love (of all time, not just within the week). I plan to make a form so that you can send the link as well as your information. You can be anonymous, just tell me in the submission. There will also be a section for you to write out your thoughts on the fanart that you would like to be read out on the stream.

And a fanfic series that follows along the same line. There would just be two forms to answer (optional). The first, the same comment section. The second, a section to put the parts that you really loved (without spoilers) and then I can read those snippets of the fic.

As a note, you will need to reach out to the author/artist and ask them for permission to have their creation featured in my streams. I will need screenshot proof of their permission, and there will be a place for it to be included in the form.

And once all the recs for those segments will finalize with a poll on all the stuff we looked at. For writing, the winner of the poll will get their fic read (as long as pg13 or lower) at the end of the stream. (I will sometimes push one to another week so that I can also feature some of my own fics from time to time).

Lastly, I was also considering doing a writing advice segment where I give advice on writing from my own experience along with examples within my own writing or, perhaps, others when they have perfect examples of what I'm talking about. I will also set up a form so that you guys can send in questions. I won't answer them from the chat as that can get too confusing and this is much better. (And if I run out of questions, I'll then open it to the chat and answer as I get them in. (Obviously some will be missed and that can't be helped. Just give it like ten fifteen minutes and send it again. If it's really imperative, just send the form and you're guaranteed an answer, it just might take longer.)

I would also like to have a vlog that documents my journey in writing my novel. I think it could help me keep on track. I'll periodically share little segments I'm really proud of and things like that. As well as talk about the struggles and how I'm working to overcome them. And ofc answer questions. But that one would be a casual in-the-moment q&a.

I feel like there was more I was chewing on. I do know that I want to do ASMR. It's always been a important tool in my life and I've always wanted to be an ASMR artist. I'm excited because I don't think many of those artists use a vibe model and so I think that will definitely give me a leg up as far as uniqueness. Just hope it goes well lol. I'm trying all kinds of experimental things and am so excited.

Oooh we could do a smash or pass or tier ranking. Or a meme hour where we share our favorite nerd memes no matter the fandom. (Though mine will mostly be Twst and FE3H LMAO)

But yeah so lots to think on. I will probably have a re-intro vlog. Maybe 2 Get to Know me types where I talk about where I wanna take my stream and also answer y'all's questions. And we can discuss other stuff y'all wanna see.

Oh and forgot. I will also be doing a FFXIV (i think that's the right one.) Whatever the MMORPG that's currently running for final fantasy. And we'll start with character creation and y'all will create our character we'll follow through the game. Y'all can make fanfic or fanart about them if ya like and memes and stuff and I'll share on the stream at some point.

Alright. This is mostly for my moots as they are in these fandoms. But I'm tagging stream tags too, in order to get the word out.

And if y'all have any more suggestions of things y'all would want me to do, please let me know! I'm excited to get started again. Just wish I had a little better equipment LMAO. One day!

This got long. If y'all would like to see what my cute mascot looks like, lemme know on the post or shoot me a message. Thanks again for your time.

[sharb]

Sharb's SAGE 2023 recommendation list

SAGE is over and I've taken a look through some really good games this week. Wanted to shout out some of the ones I thought were really cute in no particular order.

With over 200 games I can't play through and recomend all of them so please if you're interested in any of these I recomend going to https://sagexpo.org/games.html andlooking at some of the other games available.

These are just the games I've played, if you don't see your game here that's not a comment on the game's quality, just what I had time to check out.

Remember to click the thumbnails to get access to the game's pages

I was immediately interested in B.U.D.D. for it's art and references to games like wonder boy, what really surprised me about it was the humor as it's actually funny in a cute way.

If you like wonder boy or classic sega adventure games I can't recommenced B.U.D.D. enough.

@cyanroxanne pitched this to me as a SHMUP for people that have trouble getting into SHMUP games, after playing the demo and taking a minute to figure out how the game works I actually had a lot of fun with it. I could definitely recommend this to people who wanna get started with the genre, really amazing art too feels like it's a treat just seeing what the next area looks like.

RPG games can be really hard to push on SAGE because of how many games there are to go through and how long they can take to complete, a lot of streamers tend to pass over them for the sake of time so they can cover more games.

So here's my RPG recomendation, Cubenen Gardens is a game being made by @thegamedawg who actually got me to play test his game months ago, the game's still in development but what I've got to mess with so far the game's strongest aspect is it's characters and world building as you help Micheal (the saddest sopping wet creature on the planet) navigate a mall trying to find a rare monster but gets wrapped in more and more conflict.

David gets keen is really short but it has a really strong gameflow to it, my only gripes with it is that the ability HUD could be given more clear graphics as your moves are represented by circles which can make it hard to figure out what they belong to without pressing their corresponding buttons.

Beyond that the grass stage is amazing, playing the level normally gives you a pretty average platformign game but when you start building up speed using your spin move on slopes you can get to insane speeds and just fly through the level skipping puzzles and enemies and clearing the level in seconds, it's really fun when you get the hang of it.

@wootinaboot

Meander land is a really small game by @whiskerfjords game's really fun to play casually, I thought the story and characters were really cute and I'm actually really excited to see what Whisker makes next.

Out-class Hunter from @7hrone returns again with a brand new level to check out, it's a return to Doom style third persons games, specifically SRB2, it's been fun following the development of this game and watching it improve each demo.

Lemme know if you can find the cool cactus, you'll know which one I'm talking about if you follow my games ;)

Prototype N is just a really really solid action platformer game from @arriettylunaris each level has a lot of thought put into it's design and the weapon combinations can be a lot of fun to mess with, I really can't recomend Prototype N enough.

I can't get over how much character personality this game oozes, feels like around every door I'm going to run into something new I like either being a character or a game mechanic that's just fun to mess with, each character brings their own moves and their levels take advantage of a lot of their movements.

I'd compare this to those old 90's Disney game adaptations but this game easily out does them in terms of design as the designs look like they were ripped right out of an old 1940's cartoon shorts.

Peak meme aside, I actually had a lot of fun playing this, Super Freaks is a fun lil platformer game with references to a tonne of other works, you probably saw this game referenced countless times this Sage but it is just really goofy fun, tho I would really recommend playing this with friends if you can, game feels like it was designed around the kind of multiplayer chaos, if you saw the stream I was part of you can see why.

Sorry to all my friends who have heard me talking about this game all week non stop and seeing me reverse engineer SMBX 2 to [redacted] but this was easily my favorite game this SAGE if not the most replay-able, I keep booting this up just to try and make it thought the level as quick as I can.

So if you're like me you've probably been seeing @punkitt-is-here s pony comics or more specifically, the Susan Tax payer comic and the charm, humor and personalities of all of them absolutely coats this game.

It requires a bit of set up, you have to download SMBX2.0 separately in order to play this and SMBX has it's own set of issues that kinda bleed over into some of the issues in the game that need to be ironed out but beyond that this is a really fun demo to play and I absolutely can't wait to see where this goes.

Techpack currently is one Namco inspired arcade game, Tech has put a tonne of time and research into how to nail the old arcade style. The only thing holding it back right now is that the only game available is really simple and short, but man I'd be kicking myself if I didn't mention the presentation on it alone is enough for me to recommend checking this out, really reminds me of the old Namco collection games on playstation.

Now put my rabbit in as one of the cameos :gun_emoji:

Ok that's all the indies I could cover, some honerable mentions that I've been wanting to check out include

kid bubblegame JLFJ 2 Veggocalypse Mekanikko

As for the fangames I've played

Here's a game I wasn't expecting I'd be recommending, Mushroom Kingdom Fusion has been in development for over 15 years and always felt to me about quantity over quality but this new demo really impressed me.

The game is starting to take shape and there's actual structure to everything where as before it was just an open sand pit for them to figure out what to do with.

There's still a lot to be done but what's here is just a blast to mess around with. something really satisfying about struggling with a level, switching over to Samus and just blasting all the enemies and bosses away, tho I assume these characters will be unlocked in the final game as most of them are completely over powered.

This does bring me to one complaint though, Mario needs a buff. Mario is by far the hardest as he has few defense options and a lack of a health bar that almost everyone else have a huge advantage over him, and Mario having a health bar isn't too far removed from games like SMB2 and the modern 3D games.

But regardless I never thought I'd play this game and actually try to beat levels so I could see more, secret hunting is finally rewarding and expanding and finding more of the world is really fun. The game's length is absolutely HUGE, one world is about the size of an average Mario game which is insane.

And I'm really happy to see that loading has been optimized tho I don't know if that's because I'm running a machine that's not made 15 years ago.

@velacosmos has been working hard on creating a new Demo for SAGE and this one actually surprised me.

Taking influence from mario maker 2, Shang Mu Architect is a Freedom planet challenge level maker. which is quite impressive on it's own but has a tonne of extras.

Namely now there's actually a story mode to go along with the game, truth be told I'm not too big into freedom planet's cast to really know how well this game captures their personality but I still think it's really cool to actually have something that doubles as a proper freedom planet fangame since as far as I'm aware we're yet to see an actual game that actually follows the original games style.

Your mileage is definitely going to depend on how much you enjoyed the original freedom planet but I definitely think this is worth checking out.

Of the top of my head way back when stealth was pitching a mobile port of sonic 3, I swear I remember one of the ideas was expanding the match stages into full fledged level.

Sonic 3 Chronicles is an interesting "what if" scenerio where after angel island instead of falling into Hydrocity Sonic and co continue past the cutscene area and into the endless mine from match making.

I never really thought of those match stages as being connected to the main stages but this does a rpetty decent job of introducing new gimmicks and mechanics to go along with those stages.

The game is definitely rough around the edges and needs a lot of tightening up but what's here is a cute game that does it's best to follow sonic 3.

Also Mighty is here... I don't know why but thank you.

Gatoslip is a hack of Sonic the hedgehog created by @vadapega a very small demo with a tonne of personality put into it.

Yes, this is a hack, you're going to need an emulator in order to play it. Now which emulator do I recommend?

Probably the steam workshop if you still have your copy of sonic 1 before SEGA took it off the store page.

Vada's always been an inspiration for my art and it's great to see him finally go for something that really expresses his personality. The writing's great, the battles are really cute and I love the strategies for defeating enemies. Game's filled to the brim with visual gags with one gag in particular giving a lot of "replay value" (you'll know what I mean when you beat it)

can't wait to see where this ends up.

Again check out

https://sagexpo.org/games.html if you haven't yet, this just scratches the surface of what's available and there's a tonne of great games I looked over in this list.

[zombeebunnie]

Trembling Essence:💙Choice exploration + finished scenes💙

Hello and welcome new followers, here's an update on how things are going with the game! Firstly a big thank you to the sudden influx of support I got this week, I'm happy knowing people liked the little meme video I did! :,]

This post might be a little long since I had to rewrite a few things, I was trying to upload a picture of one of the new areas you can go in but I got an error and couldn't save what I wrote. :,S

Anywho, I mainly focused on quality of life changes and continued working with the one of the endings you can get at the start of the game.

I don't really know where to start but this ending took a lot longer than expected to really hit what I've been trying to go for. At first, it was going to have two different endings. I took out one of them because I didn't have much of a connection with it and I liked the idea of it being straightforward instead. When I went back over it, everything happened too quickly for my liking. To fix this I went back and added a few choices to at least give you an idea of what the area is like and how it effects the player(Y/N) while making sure the dialog transitioned correctly with what you see on the screen. It's nothing too wordy but I do like it a lot more than I did before. Even though this is still considered one ending there is a alternate version you can get depending on a certain choice. Towards the end I fixed up all the spelling errors I could find and happily enough, there wasn't many. For right now I'd say this ending is finished! Yay! x]

Here's one of my favorite CG's I drew for it:

I love how it turned out because I really want to do different angles and perspective through the terrain, I think this one is my favorite so far! :,,]

Here's a evening time version of it:

It's suppose to be raining in this image but I still need to practice getting the angle correct. :,,]

I'm also fixing/brainstorming up the second/third ending. This one will have two different areas you can navigate through to get an idea of where you are and a few hints of lore that will be referenced later on in the game. Those that have played the [Extended Demo] you probably know which ones I'm talking about. >;]

I already like the idea of them but for one of the paths, I didn't have enough time to branch it out and make backgrounds for it in the [Extended Demo] so here's a peek of a placeholder since I'm still sketching stuff out, nothing is finalized yet. :[]

Super close to the cabin section, yay! I actually miss writing/drawing out the segments in the cabin a whole bunch so I really can't wait to fix up that part once I'm done with the swamplands. :,,]

I said last week I'd post some of the new backgrounds/areas so here you go:

Kofi update:

I also had a small talk with my play testers and one of the things they brought up is that I should be promoting my ko-fi better so from now on I'll have little mini doodles doing so at the end of every game development post as a way to promote it! :] All donations and tips help tremendously while I work on the game. If you like what I create, please consider supporting what I do here! I was able to use previous tips to get a new wrist support brace when I'm drawing so a very big thank you to everyone who gave a tip! :,,]

Q&A / Ask box is open:

If you have any questions about Trembling Essence/Noah feel free to ask here or on itch.io please. This makes it easier for me to see and answer accordingly! I would really like to hear from you guys!

I enjoyed answering the asks I got recently this week! I'm trying to finish the rest when I can including the ones I remember that got deleted. There were some I genuinely couldn't answer because it would require me to mention major spoilers/the questions have spoilers in them. :,]

This post is getting really long now so that's all I have to discuss, thank you guys very much for all of the encouraging support this past week, I appreciate it a whole bunch! :,,]

[toraawa]

ive been a fan of yours for a while and i gotta say, i think you have the best grasp of yurisere/predatorshipping in the fandom. you actually take their characters into consideration and acknowledge their complexity as two stunted individuals who are very different but similar instead of diminishing them to memey single-trait characters. its amazing how many other other fans reduce serena to only "edgey mean girlboss" and yuri to only "nasty psycho" and then call any other version of the ship than constant hate fucking, backhanded affection and beating each other to a pulp "wrong". very tiring how only a handful of us dont like that to be the only thing they ever do

btw, your fics on ao3 are a godsend. judging by your stats im definitely not alone in loving how you write yurisere. thank you for doing the lords work. cant wait to see more updates

First of all, thank you for the high praise! It's the second time this week I've been told something similar, lol!

Though I will say anon, the rest sounds pretty charged towards something or someone particular in the fandom, so at the risk of aggravating some current stuff I don't know about...

Yeah. I agree. A lot. You pretty much summed up my thoughts perfectly.

"Edgy mean girlboss" and "nasty psycho" for Serena and Yuri respectively is... extremely accurate, lol, to the point where I kinda have to laugh bitterly for how pervasive it is. Like, I know they both got shafted hard by canon, but it's a bit annoying when so many people override Serena's multifacetedness to fit the girlboss mold and accuse Yuri of being one-dimensional. I'vs seen some even get strangely angry at the prospect of him not just being the sadistic plant guy. I just don't think him only being that is true. Then again, I'm a staunch defender of the assessment that most of Yuri's character is shown, not told.

Unfortunately, the fanon interpretation of characters overriding canon is something that happens in pretty much any fandom, so there's not much we can do but ignore it and find like-minded people. It's super annoying, but it can't be helped. There's also a broader phenomenon of prioritizing tropes and meme-y dynamics over actually appealing characters, so there's that too.

Since we're all waiting for more canon interaction, I'm definitely in the minority in that I don't think Yuri and Serena's interactions in Duel Links will be a pure hostility fest the entire time. I've also gotten accusations over the years that my Yurisere writing is objectively "wrong" for a plethora of reasons, many of which you stated above, so... there's THAT, too.

At the same time though, that isn't to say Yuri and Serena would never fight or bicker or even be mean to each other — I never expect them to be completely nice and friendly to each other right off the bat. And people are free to write and draw whatever they want — I want to express my disagreement and only that here — so if I don't like it, I ignore it. The people who don't fall into fanon have a much more appealing, deep, and romance-forgiving interpretation of yurisere to me, so I just focus on that!

Anyway, thank you once again for being a fan of my writing! I'm honestly surprised at the following for my current fics on ao3. The Arc-V tag doesn't get much engagement despite being updated every day. It's always great to know there are others who enjoy and share my idea of Yurisere, so to anyone lurking: don't be afraid to reach out!

[fangirlstorycreator]

Angel Dust X Reader

Context: Desperate for a job, you go and speak to one of the V's, Valentino. However, issues occur and Angel Dust offers you a place to stay instead. But it's when you get closer is when more problems start, how could this end for you and Angel?...🤔💚

Slight Hazbin Hotel + Helluva Boss crossover

Part 2/4

The minute Angel leaves, you sit up to try to take some deep breaths. The thought of telling him your past, especially with Kane was a lot to handle...including the end result...

"I'm back baby. A'right, hears yah wat'ah (hands it to you carefully) Remember, you don't have to if yah don't want to ok?"

"I know Angel...but I feel like I have to get this off my chest"

"A'right babe, just take yah time"

Taking a few more steady breaths, your able to feel stable enough to tell him your history.

".....I was.....I was 23 when I met Kane.....I was out with friends one night, and he was with a group of his own. Our eyes met...he looked so confident...handsome...I never thought a guy like that would be interested in me....but he was. He was so smooth when he walked up to me and asked for my number, he said I was the sexiest woman there...but at the time I think he meant easiest. We started dating, and he was a lovely guy. Giving me flowers, taking me to meet his friends, restaurants...it was lovely. Until one night, we were sat in his car, and I was reading a text from a work colleague to him. It was just one of those funny memes you send to eachother. He laughed, but the second I said it was from my friend Ryan...it was like this whole other personality emerged. He looked so angry. He snatched my phone from my hand and demanded to know why I was friends with a guy, when he was supposed to be the only man in my life. I just told him he was a friend at work, but he didn't care. He said I should quit my job, stay away from him, only be with Kane all the time. But I said that's ridiculous. I needed a job to afford to live, and I can have friends if I wanted........then he hit me in the face so hard I heard ringing in my ears......then one to the chest.....and he grabbed and pulled my wrist so tight to bring me closer to him. He...he told me I was to never speak like that to him again....and if I didn't want this to happen...I'd keep my mouth shut and do as I was told. I've never been more frightened...so I did. I kept quite...for days, weeks. I did everything I could to stay on his good side....but sometimes even that wasn't enough. I'd quit my job, stayed home, cleaned and cooked....but sometimes the food wasn't hot enough...or was too spicy....or I should have known he wanted a certain meal instead of cooking whatever was in the house. Even with cleaning the house every day, from top to bottom, he'd still find a problem....and hit me again....I had no friends...no family....I was trapped by him.....and I wanted so desperately to escape"

Angel could see you were tearing up, and it was very hard for you to tell him all this, but him reaching over and giving your hand a warm and reassuring squeeze helped you feel a little better.

"I couldn't leave the house. Not just because he told me not to, but because most days I was black and blue....I was used like a punching bag...I couldn't take it anymore....I wanted so badly to be free of him, but there was no escaping him. I tried on separate occasions to run away, but no matter what, he would always find me, and the abuse would get worst. A guy like that doesn't change, and never will. So I............oh god......I did the only thing I felt I could do......one of those days his abuse could easily kill me, and if that happens, he'd just move onto another woman like me, and she'd end up in the same position. I couldn't have that.........I had to do something...."

"Did yah call the police?"

"........No..........Angel there's.....there's a reason I'm down in hell........"

"...Baby.....did you kill him?"

"(Sobbing).......I couldn't live my life in fear anymore! I couldn't escape, I couldn't tell the police, he had our local police officers wrapped around his finger. So.....I took matters into my own hands. He was far too strong to fight, I had to do something that would mean I didn't actually touch him. So I......I made him one of his favourite milkshakes...and a home made pastry.....and used cinnamon"

"Cinnamon? I don't get i-oh! Wait I know why! My old man was somewhat of a-well that ain't important right now. But I did learn from him that cinnamon covers up the taste of rat poison, right? Is that what yah did?"

".....Yes.....I crushed it up and put it in his drink....and his pastry....he was just sat there, tearing through it like an animal who hadn't eaten in days. And he gussled down the milkshake too. He had no idea I'd done it....and I'd used so much on him....I thought I'd see a reaction straight away. But he seemed fine after eating it all...he was in a good mood.....but when he's in a good mood....he...he always wants...me..."

"Oh shit baby, please tell me he didn't!"

"Not on that day...he had before but....I can't talk about that right now....it's too painful......he said we should go upstairs....but I told him I wasn't feeling well, and that I didn't want to.....that instantly brought our that dark side of him. He didn't care, not one bit. He told me to get up the stairs now, but I told him no. That was the first time since we got together I'd said no to him. He charged at me! I backed up against the wall, but the second he tried to reach out and grab me he....his face scrunched up, like he was in pain. He staggered back, clutching his chest and stomach, and his nose started to bleed. He went as white as a ghost....I knew, in that moment....I was nearly free. He started vomiting, there was blood in it too, and he looked like he was in a lot of pain. He fell to the floor and he looked like his whole body was shaking, like he was having a seizure. And I.....I just watched....I stood over him, looking him in the eyes, seeing him struggle while imagining every time he hit me, abused me, nearly killed me...and now...he was the one whose life was in danger. He couldn't breath, and he looked up at me like he was trying to say something. But I just knelt down, and whispered into his ear. "Your my little bitch now..." I walked back and sat on his chair, the one he'd never let me sit on, and I just watched him. Just watched as he laid dying, in agony and with noone to help him..........he'd....he'd destroyed my life....I hated him more than anything......and I enjoyed watching him choke on his own blood. I..............I know that's why I'm hear in hell, and I understand if you think less of me for what I've done. But I just wanted to get away from him-I just wanted to be free-make him feel vulnerable-"

"Hey hey baby, it's a'right........I understand"

"Really? Don't you think I'm some kind of psycho? Think less of me?"

"Absolutely not. Do you have any idea, how many times a day I imagine doin' somethin' like that to Val? More than I can count! But you, you actually had the strength to do it! I don't think your a psycho, I don't think less of yah, I'm fuckin' proud!"

".......Really?"

"Hell yeh! That asshole tortured yah and made your life a livin' hell! He deserved to die like that! And your right, if he'd've killed yah, there ain't nothin' stoppin' him from doin' that to anoth'a woman, nothin'!"

You breath a large sigh of relief, it felt like a boulder had been lifted off your chest and now you were finaly able to breath.

"Oh god......Angel you have no idea how relieved I am that your not judging me (tears still fall down your cheeks)"

"I ain't never gunna judge yah baby, never (sits closer and holds you in a tender way) What you did was the bravest thing in the world, and yah did it without runnin' too. Some might get too frightened to watch that kinda thing happen, but yah stayed, made sure the dude was really dead, and that took guts. It's no wonder your still shakin' from tellin' me that, I'd be too if that was me"

"I didn't feel very brave at the time, I just wanted him gone. And when I checked his pulse when he stopped moving....I got my things and ran. I took his money, got on a plane and fled to Spain. I was only there for 2 months before I died"

"Oh shit, yeh, I forgot that. Can I ask how?"

"There was a guy robbing a museum, and I was visiting the same day. He was chased by the police, but he was shooting his gun all over the place.....I was just one of the accidental targets....it didn't hurt, much. It felt more like a punch to the chest. I got dizzy, collapsed, everything went dark....then I found myself falling into hell and landing straight on my back not far from Cannibal Town. And I've been on the streets and avoiding any major dangers ever since. So that's pretty much my story....not a nice one, but it's mine"

"Damn baby, I'm sorry you've been through that...if you'd said somethin' earlier I could've helped yah"

"You've only just told me about what Val does to you tonight. It seems we both tried to bury our issues"

"Yeh....your right. But what's important now, is that we got eachoth'a. I've got your back toots"

"I've got yours too........thank you...for letting me get that all off my chest"

"No need to thank me, you did the same for me. Hey I know! I've got an idea on how I can make yah feel bett'a!"

"Angel, I've told you before. I know your dildo selection is large but I still don't want to see it"

"No no! Not that, but yah know, the offers always there (cheeky wink). Nah, what I was thinkin' off was these!"

"These what-uhh? Your chest?"

"Not just my chest, my tits!"

"Huh?"

"Well, they ain't actual tits, they're made of fluff. They're super soft and they make me feel bett'a when I feel 'um. Go ahead! Put your hand there"

"Honestly?"

"Yeh! Go on, I don't bite. Unless yah ask me too"

Sighing and giving him a little smile, you reach your hand out to his buttoned open shirt, and run your fingers through his fluff.

"Oh my god!"

"I know right! It's super soft!"

"Angel, that's better than soft! Back when was alive, I'd have to hunt down blankets in every shop to find any that felt like this. How come your chest is like this?"

"Eh, just one of my amazin' qualities, baby. Makes yah feel bett'a though, right?"

"Yeh.........kind of..."

"Ah, I no that look. Come hear baby"

He could see that in that moment, all you wanted was a hug, sometimes that's what everyone needs. He held you close, he felt warm, and one of his many arms stroked your hair too.

"Thank you Angel"

"Anytime baby.........say, are yah tired?"

"Honestly, a little. But I don't know if I can fall asleep"

"Why don't you stay hear with me tonight eh? No funny business, I swear. I'm just guessin' yah don't wanna be alone right now?"

All you could do was nod, afraid that the sobbing will start again.

"A'right toots, come lay down with me"

He let you go to plump up his pillows and pull the quilt away, allowing you to lie down with him. He was flat on his back before he gave you a reauring nod, then you leant down and snuggled in against him. Again, all his arms were holding your against him, his embrace never made you feel unsafe. In fact, your sleepiness washed over you like a wave once you were hearing his heartbeat through his chest fluff.

"I no Charlie ain't got nothin' for us to do tomorow mornin', so we can stay in as long as we like. Yah like the sound'a that toots?.....Toots?"

He looked down to see you've fallen fast asleep, but he didn't mind, infact, he loved it. Seeing how upset you were from your night out, spilling the beans on your past, and now seeing you sleep so soundly, it felt wondeful that he could make you feel so relaxed. Angel smiled, reached over to the lamp and turned it off, that's when Fat Nuggets decided to jump up and wriggle inbetween you both. He was simply too cute for Angel to turn away, and in the end, all 3 of you fell asleep together, all bundled up, safe and warm. The next morning, you were the first to wake up, and when you leant up in bed, you could see how sound Angel was sleeping. Fat Nuggets started to stir, and when he saw you, he crawls into your lap where you gave him a cuddle.

"Morning little guy. Looks like Angel's still sleeping, shall we go get some breakfast?"

His little tail started wiggling so quickly, and his eyes grew with excitement. Picking him up, you were careful and quiet as not to wake up Angel, you wanted him to have a nice lie in. So you took Fat Nuggets downstairs, fed him and played with him for a good hour before Angel came down the stairs.

"Mornin' babe. Aww! There's my little guy! Thanks for keepin' an eye on him"

"It's no trouble. I gave him breakfast too"

"Oh really? What'd yah make him?"

"Porridge"

"Porridge? But he hates that shit! How'd yah get him to eat it?"

"I stirred in a spoonful of chocolate hazelnut spread in there. It tastes like a kinder bueno"

"No shit? Can I try some?"

"Yeh, hear you go. Try some of mine"

You gave him the bowel and he ate a spoonful, his pupils grew when the flavours hit him.

"Holy shit! Your right baby! That shit DOES taste like a kinder bueno!"

You, Angel and Fat Nuggets enjoyed your morning, just as everyone else was waking up and going about their day. Charlie came over to you and Angel and suggested some ideas for activities for the day. But before either of you could get a word in, Angel's phone started to ring. And the moment he saw who it was, he walked away with a saddened expression.

"What's wrong with Angel?"

"I've seen that caller ID before, it's Valentino"

"Oh, that's explains Angel's sudden change. Oh god, I hate that he has to take orders from that creep"

"So do I Y/N, but he signed a contract. My dad told me never to make a deal with an overlord. Once they've got you, your done for"

"But isn't there anything we can do to help him?"

"I really hope so, but I honestly don't know"

Angel comes back over, and he pretends to act cool, but you know he isn't happy.

"Listen ladies, I gotta head to work. I'll see yah's late'a"

"Wait Angel. Do you have to go? What if you called in sick?"

"Eh no can do toots. Val don't care if I'm sick, hospitalized, or even missin' a limb! If I gotta' work, I gotta' work. I'll see yah late'a"

And just like that, he's out of the door. You felt so guilty that you couldn't help him, he was the nicest man you've ever known, and there was nothing you could do to make him feel free like he does with you. Or was there?......Overlords make deals with sinners to control them, make them do whatever they want, and for Angel, that was being Val's personal fuck toy, and he abused him whenever he felt like it, that literally hurt your heart. Even watching Angel walk out of the door with a fake smile was painfull, especially after what he told you last night. You didn't want him to go through that anymore, you cared for Angel, truly cared, and and you wanted to help him, maybe even save him. You stood and walked away from Charlie and the others who were just sat around chatting, you tried to hide that look of sadness and worry, but it didn't work. And the reason it didn't, was because 1 person saw you leave the lobby...and decided to follow you. Walking through the hallway, you enter a spare room, it was dark, and it looked like there was a dusty, spider web covered pool table in the middle. The curtains were ripped and slightly blowing in the wind of the smashed window, it felt like you had walked into an abandoned house. But you just wanted to be alone right now, the thoughts of Angel both warming and hurting you, that meant you didn't even realise the door had closed behind you until the slam startled you out of your thoughts.

"Huh?....Alastor?"

"Hello my dear"

"What are you doing in hear?"

"Oh......you seemed a little, what's the word? Upset, in the lobby"

"You....you followed me?"

"Merely to check on your....wellbeing...."

Despite his smile, you senced another reason why he was hear, and his slow and sinister walk around the dark spots of the room, wiping dust from the shelves while keeping intense eye contact with you, made your stomach turn.

"Your not hear to check on my wellbeing Alastor"

"(Chuckle)......Smart girl......"

"What do you want from me?"

"Oh Y/N, do you truly believe I want something from you? Maybe I want to help you...."

"You only help people in exchange for something"

"While that is....correct....what I'm offering may help not just you, but also...Angel..."

"Angel?"

"Yes....I see how much he means to you my dear...and I can help him with his little...problem..."

"If you can help him, why talk to me? Isn't Angel the one you should talk to?"

"Oh ho...but I know you would do anything to help Angel....wouldn't you?....."

Your silent, worry etched on your face, and Alastor can sence that. He started walking a little closer, you remained still, non moving, even as he circled you, it must be to intimidate you. Even when he walked behind you the first time and brushed a strand of hair from your shoulder, leaning in closer to you.

"You know I am a very powerful overlord Y/N....capable of may things.....and with my help....I can offer anything you need to free Angel...."

Now stood infront of you, you don't break eye contact, worried he might do something.

"Angel signed a contract with Valentino. How could you possibly help Angel be free of that?"

"Oh, I have many abilities my dear. All you need to know, is that I can save Angel...for you......"

"But?...."

"All I ask in return....is something from you"

"You......you want my soul?....."

Your voice shaky with fear, and that grew when Alastor leaned in closer, holding his hand out to you. His eyes and the atmosphere for a brief moment was a yellowish green, it felt menacing and chilled you to the core.

"Your soul?........why my dear, not all of it no! No no...just half....I would help you free Angel in exchange for your.....service...."

"My service? Doing what?"

"Why, simply helping me just like Husk does"

"I'm not falling for that. I've seen the way you treat Husk. You mentally tortured him"

"Ah, well that's his own fault my dear. Besides, I have never been very fond of the male gender, I have always preferred the company of women, they are much nicer and easier to get a long with"

"Is that something you really think will convince me?"

"If you were to make this deal with me, I would treat you like my equal. Husk is but a drunken sinner, but you...I see potential. I could teach you how to harness a deeper power, make anyone do your bidding, and we'd be powerful together"

"I can't listen to this anymore, I don't believe you"

You walk away from him and reach out to the door handle, but Alastor's next words stop you in your tracks.

"Just think about poor Angel now.....scared....in pain....being tortured by that overlord with noone to help him..."

A single tear falls down your cheek, your frozen, unable to move when he says that, still facing the door, picturing Angel being hurt.

"Val is a cruel and heartless creature, even for an overlord.....just imagine how much Angel is suffering right now....being mentally scarred.....physically abused....all while his pain and misery is being filmed and shown for any of hell's sinners to witness....you could stop all of that my dear Y/N......imagine you stopping all his torture...."

Slowly you turn to face Alastor, feeling heartbroken, utterly defeated at the thought of Angel in that way. Tears still falling from your cheek as you looked at Alastor, who's smile almost seemed to grow. He took a step closer, keeping your tearful eyes locked on his, he knows he's made you vulnerable.

"My dear...with one simple choice...you can gain power, work for me, and save the man you care so much for. And all you have to do...is give yourself to me...think about how happy Angel will be to be free. To not feel all that pain anymore, to enjoy his afterlife....and it will be all...thanks...to you.............So.........Y/N...my dear......for Angel......do we have a deal?"

Link to part 3

[grapecaseschoices]

OC in 15: Kendis Crawford-Louel

rules: share 15 or fewer lines of dialogue from an OC, ideally lines that capture the character/personality/vibe of the OC. Bonus points for just using dialogue without other details about the scene, but you're free to include those as well!

I was tagged by @deepinifhell and am woefully delayed in getting on this.

Tagging: @thedeadthree @thee-morrigan @nat-seal-well @nightingalesighs @laufire @lusavors @cypresswrites @thelittlestspider @mt07131 @roxaro @quaxorascal @tuomniia @andthatisnotfake @sunshineandviolets @sapphic-story [tagged fifteen peeps! i think! and as always no pressure!]

Most of the dialogue from old rp stuff repurposed for this meme, some from unposted stuff, and a few I made up for this. (As warning: some cussing)

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1] However, strangeness of the situation proves that the metal gates aren’t fully down around the castle, because she bites out, bluntly, “No! No. I’m not okay.” Her breath hitches. “Don’t. D-don’t follow that up with another question. I thought we talked about this.”

By ‘we’ and ‘talked’, she meant the time she summarily shut down his last attempt to dig deeper. It should’ve been obvious by now that Kendis didn’t like accepting what they insisted on dishing out.

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2] "Yook, Kenny, yook!"

"What'm I lookin' at, teeny tyke? --- Well, now. Look at that! Is that me? In fact, I know that's me. That's the second prettiest person in this entire art of prettiness. And is the one right next to me you? It's got to be 'cause that's definitely the prettiest person in this."

"You siwwy, Kenny. Boys not be pretty!"

"Am I? Well, if you're sayin' that's right then I'll consider it. But being silly doesn't mean I'm wrooooong~. Boys can be very pretty, kiddo. People can be whatever they wanna be so long as they're --- kind, yeah? And you're the kindest, prettiest, most talented teeny tyke, I've ever known. Oh, now you're laughin' at me, huh? Well, Ima show you 'bout that teeny brat."

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3] "Who invented white allosexuals, like for real? Someone return this woman to sender."

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4] "We're not even four days into a fucking New Year and this shit stain is stinkin' up the place."

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5] "And I get that it's different things for different people. But I rather lose a place, than lose the people that matter with it."

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6] "I know you've probs been lied to lately. But you're really not cute."

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7] "He obvi picked bad pics on purpose, you Italian booger."

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8] "I'm like Siri. Except better looking, smarter, much louder, and not an AI slave to a hegemonic hell-hole that stole the name of one of the best fruits. Like ever."

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9] "Um, excuse you. I'm not reckless. What 'bout me screams the self sacrifice type?"

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10] "Hey. Hey! Look at me! That's it ... slow breaths. I've got you. Do you -- you're okay, slowly ... Do you remember what I told you last week? Just nod. I've got you. I've got ya. You remember this? That's my pinky. We pinky promised -- the biggest and most bindable way to lock in a promise, yeah? And you may not know this about me, but I don't make promises that I can't see through. I said you're gonna be okay. And I mean that. I'm gonna make it happen, okay? I'll -- I'm here now and I'll be there at the end. Prommy, prommy, prommy, prommy, pro -- oh, a laugh, huh? Ha. That's what I like hearing. Leave the worryin' to me, dude."

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11] "If this human version of a mutated ingrown armpit hair follicle don't get up off my face in the next 10, 9, 8, 7, …."

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12] “Ow! Fudging snowcaps! That bitch hur –” They stopped mid-yelling but simply began complaining underneath their breath.

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13] "I'm --," Kendis gestured sharply with their right hand as if orchestrating their feelings or encouraging Morgan to jump in. Not that they gave her much of a chance when they quickly added, "You know."

"You're?" Morgan smirked, "You know? I don't think I do."

"Yes. You do."

"Nah, nothing's ringing a bell."

"Well, that's probably all the brain damage you got from the last fight."

"Right. I remember that. The fight where I got stabbed instead of you."

Kendis' nostrils flare and their jaw clenches so tightly Morgan almost feels a sympathy twinge in her own teeth.

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“Then why won’t you tell me you love me? Maybe a little reward so I can be brave?”

“‘Cause a face full of kisses wasn’t enough? Wow.”

“Sure,  it was nice but this is a big deal. I think I deserve a bigger reward.”

“Aren’t rewards for after you actually do the stuff?”

“You’re right. How about you say ‘I love you’ just because you do!”

“You look cute when you pout an’ you’re gonna be late.”

“Please, Kendis? We’ve been dating for a while now and … That is – Unless – You don’t.”

“I don’t what?”

“You know you are always avoiding it, saying how you feel about me, and you’ve never come close to saying the words .. and sometimes I’ve wondered … I’ve been very patient the last several months –”

“Then keep on with that.”

“Okay. Okay. Kendis. Do you love me?”

“Can we talk about this later? This ain’t as black an’ white as you’re making it look like.”

“But it is.  It is a very black and white question with a very black and white answer. Do you love me?”

“Austyn. Austyn? Stop that! What’re you doin’?  Don’t. You’re – fuckin’ –”

“These are the notes I wrote you. Look at them. Look how far they reach on your floor. Look!”

“No”

“You never even wrote it back. I kept saying it and writing it and you never gave anything back �� B-because … because you don’t.”

“I never gave – We’re not doin’ this right now. Again. Why’re you doin’ this right now? We don’t even have the time to really get into -”

“What is there to get into?  It’s yes or no,  Kendis! If you say that, then it will be all settled.”

“Maybe stop cuttin’ me off an’ let me speak.”

“You cut me off first! And don’t you start raising your voice at me!”

“You started that shit first, yourself! What is with you?”

“Why are you acting like I am overreacting? I’m not! It isn’t wrong to want to know whether or not my best friend is in love with me. It isn’t wrong to know if you really see a future with us together or if you’ve been just tagging along because I’m one of the very few other out girls in school.”

“You called me your best friend.”

“What?” 

“You should know how I feel. You say I don’t give you nothin’ back but that’s a damn lie an’ you know it.”

“Then why don’t you say it? I say it all the time!”

“But are you really meanin’ it?”

“Uh - Wha – EXCUSE ME!?!!” 

“Are you? How can I say those words to someone that's not a sure thing? You talk a lot about a future that ain’t here but what you really got to say for the now.”

“Wow. Asshole.” 

“Takes one.”

“Fine. Don’t love me. I think it’s best if we take some space right now and reconsider our priorities.”

“Austyn. I didn’t mean – Austyn this is silly.”’

“Is it?”

“Why're we even doin’ this right now? What about the formal?” 

“Don’t call me unless I call you.”

“Austyn!”

“Don’t.”

“You know what? Fuck you.”

“Apparently not even in the next few months, asshole.”

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Kendis narrowed her eyes but forced herself to take a deep breath, “You. Bumped into. Me!” Honestly, that was a generous and kind assessment. If Kendis had been human, she doubted she would’ve been able to stand with only a headache and a bad mood to show for it.

“Yeah, because you slowed down when you weren’t supposed to! I was keeping pace with you, speeding by the way, and then allva sudden –”

“I know you’re not blaming me for any of this, let alone your speeding, you Stranger Things reject.”

“Excuse me?”

Kendis felt that anger again – no, they could almost taste it. It was just wafting off the air from the shifter in front of them. It was churning up their stomach like sick, this anger that wasn’t their rage.

It was restless, like her’s was, but was also too hard, too cold.

Not right, not right. The warning blared in Kendis’ gut. Something was off and they needed to leave.

“Don’t!” They warned when the person reached out to grab at them, clearly making Kendis ready to skedaddle. The sharp yell struck out like a roll of thunder, loud and final enough to make this person hesitate, before Kendis’ voice dropped into a growl, “Don’t. Touch. Me.” [x]

[bluestrawberrybunny]

Garth from @ask-marios-apprentice ask

Okay I can work with that. I'm sure I've gotten better fighting. I can brush up on courtship rituals until then.

I actually have a few questions that I hope you can answer

Tari. Which one of you made the first move? I want to know so I can prepare. Maybe there's some similarities

That's mainly the question I have towards romantic intentions.

I actually have some other questions I was hoping could be answered.

If smg4 was born earlier in the timeline. Would he have become a different SUPERS meme guardian. Or Another Person's meme guardian entirely. Or would he become like an audio or video guardian.

What is your apprenticeship routine like.

Are there any other game universes that exist. I know AGES uses a machine to travel to alternate timelines and universes for their Sonic games.

But outside of Splatoon and F-zero. Most of the video game industry make stuff based on fictional stuff.

What is Santa Claus like in your universe. The one in mine is Bom-omb who is a former Air Force pilot in the 60s.

SMG5 and SMG6 how similar are you to your Avatar, Luigi.

Like can you do things like high jump and death stare and use the poultergust.

I mean technically anyone can use the poltergust.

But like how much of you is adapted from the original Avatar.

Did you see the trailer for the new Mage movie. You know the one that SMG0 and Niles came from. I think Elvira is in it.

Tari: Oh… um… Meggy made the first move. I wasn’t exactly sure how to go about it. It was… really simple. Just us playing video games together and Meggy and I started cuddling, and she let it slip during conversation. It’s nothing big, really…

SMG4: Depends on your universe for the second question. We aren’t really born. We crash-land in a USB. We don’t really have childhoods, so… yeah. I know our avatar is based on who is the one most important to the universe, which is why Mario is our avatar. Luigi being an avatar was kind of… added to the world’s code. But he still has some avatar abilities, so I think it’s permanent.

SMG6: Our routine is pretty standard, I think. We train sometimes.

SMG5: We try to train our meme guardian powers at least once or twice a week, since SMG4 can get a little busy with videos and the cafe tends to get busy every now and again.

Tari: I can answer the question about video games! So, there are still many video games here!

SMG6: Yeah! And there are apparently a bunch of other video games with their own meme guardians! SMG2 told me.

SMG3: There’s what…?

Mario: SMG3 once kidnapped Santa Claus for his Christmas party, but then Santa escaped and dropped a bomb on the cafe and the castle so we had to spend Christmas in the dump with Bob

Mario: Mario hasn’t heard from him since…

SMG3: Yeah… there’s a reason for that, dude… he’s kind of avoiding us after that whole thing?

Mario: True!

SMG5: As for how similar we are to Luigi, well… we do have the ability to jump higher than Mario, SMG3, and SMG4. We also have a sort of… I guess affinity for the poltergust?

SMG6: Yeah! We actually went ghost hunting together too!

Luigi: They both do really like ghost hunting… SMG5 also tends to be more… timid like myself at times? To be honest, SMG6’s personality reminds me more of our Mario.

Luigi: As for the death stare… *leans in close* They both got that too. Neither of them really know it, though.

Mr. Puzzles: I can take the last question! None of us have seen the trailer, but now I simply must! It sounds interesting!

SMG3: Don’t know if that would be a thing, man-

Mr. Puzzles: We have a device that can communicate to other dimensions. So, obviously, we can try and view the trailer.

[fainthedcherry]

IT'S TIME TO FINALLY ABBACCHIO POST. I was spending several weeks just gathering all the times I've drawn Abbi!!! :>

A LIST OF WHAT DRAWING IS MEANT TO BE WHAT:

1TL - First time drawing Abbi, just exploring his design basically in my artstyle

2TR - SECOND time drawing Abbi (doodled a bust outta boredom at work again and realised how fun he is to draw from then on)

3MDPPR - Doodle of Abbi and Moody Blues in combat, bc his ASBR hand poses RLLY intrigue me, SLAY ABBI SLAYYY SO I referenced that pose when he URRYA's but FRONT perspective

4MDPPR - I then last second wanted to fill my empty page w/ another doodle of Abbi getting harrassed by the Sex Pistols to wake Mista up midst his makeup routine bc I felt like making a cute doodle ;v

4MDGTL - Drawing a dream I had almost a week ago, I only finished that drawing yesterday bc I was so sleepy the past 2 weeks I didn't pick up the pencil much in result T-T

4MDDGTL - JUST REDRAWN MY FAVOURITE MEME. In case unaware, this is referencing the Samuel Johnson painting. Idk why, but that painting is just so perfect and I've doodled Abbi in response to a message to my friend Hart LMFAO (you got my permission to repost this one btw memes are made for sharing imo so go ahead for that piece in particular)

BTM L & R - 2 more boredom doodles! One at work, one at school when the teacher didn't give us clear instructions on what to do so the entire class including me just sat there and procrastinated bc he's that bad of a teacher 💀

RAMBLING ABT THE FULL ART PROCESS ON EVERY PIECE BELOW;

TOP DRAWINGS. I WAS DRAWING ABBI AT WORK BC I WAS BORED AND IT WERE SLOW DAYS W/ NOTHING TO DO IN MY DEPARTMENT THAN SIT AND CHECK INK TANKS. I then realised, how much fkn FUN IT IS TO DRAW HIM. I always loved Abbacchio's design, even 3 years ago, when I was still in high school and freshly watched Golden Wind in its peak popularity smwhr, with an over-active fandom that fed me SO many funny Dio parenting Giorno memes. NOW that like 4 of my friends and apparently EVEN MY BOYFRIEND like Jojo, I'VE BECOME MEGA OBSSESSED AGAIN JUST LIKE 3 YEARS AGO. AND DAMN AM I GLAD I AM BC ABBI IS THE FIRST CHARACTER I PROPERLY AM FINALLY EMBRACING MY CRINGE ERA OVER. Side note but the rhyme actually I came up from the top of my head randomly when I thought abt him (and sobbed over his backstory once more my poor donut victim) I used to be afraid to draw ANY fanart at all, bc I was afraid, people would HATE my takes on characters I love - but now that I'm older and I basically dgaf abt what people have to say abt me and my tastes, I finally dared take a step into fanart territory and braved myself into drawing my fav depressed blorbo.

MIDDLE DRAWING - PAPER DOODLE. AH YES. THE DOODLES THAT TOOK 3 SCHOOL WEEKS NOW BASICALLY, 8HRS OF DRAWING BETWEEN LESSONS EACH. I was shaking SO HARD on a certain week, and the classmate sitting next to me POUNDED THE TABLE A LOT OUT OF BAD HABIT. I SEVERAL times ACCIDENTALLY in panic always yelled "BE CAREFUL!" until I was done re-tracing Moody Blues's sketch to clean it up properly 😭😭😭, ABBI LOOKS OK. NOT PROUD OF ABBI. BUT DAMN MOODY BLUES KINDA SLAYS. (Disregarding its funky gummy hair not connecting back to the shoulders which is somth I only now know after staring at Abbi and MB for HOURS to study how to draw them properly)

LOOONG PARAGRAPH AHEAD ABT TO EXPLAIN THAT DRAWING IN METICULOUS DETAIL;

MIDDLE DRAWING - THE ONE WHERE ABBACCHIO APPEARED IN MY LORE-HEAVY DREAM. IRL me was in the dream going home from work (late-shift), with a fictional coworker who looked real, but doesn't exist IRL, I forgot her appearance, so she's a grey blob in my doodle of what happened in the dream. BUT as I was walking through a park that VAGUELY, SLIIIGHTLY resemblences my IRL park in my town, suddenly a YU-GI-OH LOOKING FKN PURPLE PORTAL APPEARS. PINK LIGHTNING COMES OUT OF IT. SUDDENLY ANCIENT, BRITISH FKN VICTORIAN GHOSTS EMERGE AND START BALLROOM-DANCING??? <-This was the SECOND TIME. LATELY. I DREAMED OF GHOSTS TRYING TO HURT ME IN MY DREAMS. AND SOMEONE PROTECTING ME FROM THEM IN RESULT TOO THO. BUT. These ghosts were a pretty pastel-pink, tbh they looked rlly cool I might make em world-lore relevant ghosts or something LOL

^I freeze like I do IRL if something scares me and I just stand there and watch?? Suddenly this like British Monopoly-man mfer comes OUT. WITH A MODERN KITCHEN-KNIFE. YOU CAN'T GET MORE BRITISH THAN THAT. THE DAMN GHOST NEARLY SHANKED ME IN THE HEAD. I JUST BRACED AND ACCEPTED MY DEATH THEN AND THERE. THEN FKNNN MOODY BLUES OUT OF NOWHERE ALSO URYA'S THE BRITISH VICTORIAN GHOST SO I'M SAFE.

^ABBACCHIO PROTECTED ME. HE COMES OUT FROM THE TREE AND STARES DOWN THE GHOST. MFER STARES AT HIM ANGRILY BACK, SO THEY SEEMINGLY HAD BEEF IN THE DREAM, BEFORE I EXISTED. AND THE BRITISH GUY MUMBLES SOMETHING, PICKS UP HIS HAT, FADES AWAY INTO DUST LIKE IN MY WORLD-LORE ABOUT GHOST-DEATH. I JUST STARE IN AWE THAT FKN. LEONE ABBACCHIO FROM JOJO'S BIZARRE ADVENTURE IN THE 3D-ASBR MODEL LOOKING FLESH STOOD IN FRONT OF MY IRL HUMAN SELF. OF NOTE: I WAS LUCID-DREAMING. I WAS AWARE, HE WAS NOT SUPPOSED TO EXIST. SO I IMMEDIATELY GET UP, GET WOOZY BC BLOOD CIRCULATION IN MY LEGS SUCK, AND WANT TO ASK HIM IF WE CAN BE FRIENDS. BEFORE I CAN DO THAT. HE GETS ALL PISSY WITH ME AND IS REALLY ANGRY AND SNEERS.

--"You shouldn't be out at this time. Go home already. It's too dangerous."

"WAIT- BUT CAN I TALK TO YOU-"

--"NO. I SAID GO HOME!"

HE WAS ACTING LIKE CANON ABBI AND I APPRECIATE THAT THANKS DREAM, BUT MINUS POINTS FOR NOT ALLOWING ME TO SIMP. SO YEAH I DID RUN HOME AND I LISTENED. MY FRIEND FOLLOWED SUIT CONFUSED ASF.

--"Why were you surprised that he's real?? Did you NOT see him lurking behind the tree?!"

"NO??? YOU DID????" "

--"[GROAN] LOOK."

>SHOWS ME DRONE-FOOTAGE SOMEHOW OF ABBI DANCING W/ A GHOST. THEN I NOTICE IT'S JUST A MOODY BLUES REPLAY AS HIM. THEN. PUNCH THE VICTORIAN GUY. HE WAS SNEAKING UP ON THE GHOST THE WHOLE ARSE TIME AND MY BLIND ARSE DIDN'T SEE IT. SO YKNOW I WON'T MENTION THE REST OF THE DREAM BUT TURNS OUT THE BRITISH POSH GHOST WAS PART OF SOME MAFIA. HENCE THE BEEF W/ ABBACCHIO HAPPENED AND HIM STILL BEING IN PASSIONE IN THAT DREAM IN B4 TRAITORING DIA.

OK ART PROCESS OF THIS DRAWING; INBETWEEN IMAGE AHEAD I HAVEN'T DRAWN;

^THIS DRAWNIG IS JUST AN OFFICIAL ILLUSTRATION OF ABBACCHIO I HAVE EDITED. I DID *NOT* DRAW THAT. That is an official drawing from David Productions / Hirohiko Araki. SO YEAH I DO NOT CLAIM OWNERSHIP OF THIS, NOR HAVE I DRAWN IT. DISCLAIMER OUT THE WAY B4 SOMEONE THINKS I'VE PUT EFFORT INTO THAT DRAWING DONE? GOOD!

I denoted, what might've caused Dreambacchio as I call him, to look like THAT. I was playing ASBR the same night I dreamt of this Abbi, but his model had colouration C. That explained, why his 3D ASBR model yelled at me and ONE SPECIFIC FRAME from the anime. Like I kid you not, IT'S THIS FRAME.

*ONCE AGAIN NOT MY DRAWING. DAVID PRODUCTIONS, JOJO PART 5 SCREENSHOT TAKEN FROM THE ANIME. NOT MY DRAWING. GOOD, MORE CLARIFICATION!!

HE YELLED EXACTLY LIKE THIS AT ME. IN THE DREAM. HIS FACE IS ONE-TO-ONE TRANSLATED ONTO A 3D MODEL OF HIM INSTEAD. IN THAT FKN DREAM. I REMEMBER HIS FACE CLEAR AS DAY IN THE DREAM. Like I kid you not, I am so obssessed w/ him lately, that I remembered PARTS OF MY DREAM CRYSTAL-CLEAR. That is something usually I DO NOT remember 100%, to my friends who know me, they know. SO YEAH TESTAMENT OF HOW MUCH I LIKE ABBI IG.

ALSO of note; I accidentally indoctrinated my friend Kobra to ALSO simp him, and now we're BOTH obssessed w/ Abbi. 😭 The catalyst to her liking him so much tho, is bc I apparently draw him hot??? LIKE IDK IF I DO. IF SOME JOJO FAN FINDS MY DRAWINGS OF HIM HOT. I'M GLAD. I TOO, LOVE DRAWING ABBACCHIO'S MAN BIDDIE-WINDOW. /hj

Unironically, the way he dresses I DREAM of dressing tho IRL....Imagine if I owned that 90's gucci coat Abbi's is based on, and fixed it to suit an Abbi cosplay. SOME DAY. I WILL COSPLAY AS HIM. THAT'S A THREAT. IDC IF BIOLOGICALLY I'M A WOMAN. I CAN DREAM TO BE LIKE THIS MAN. HE IS JUST VERY STYLISH AND I LOVE GOTHS.

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MIDDLE DRAWING DIGITAL; JUST A MEME I LIKE I'VE REDRAWN TO REPLY TO MY FRIEND. I didn't watermark the panel above bc I traced a few things from the OG portrait here and there. THE PANEL BELOW THO. IS DRAWING WO/ TRACING. That one I watermarked at least bc I HAVE drawn it by myself. Above I was just lazy, sleepy and came freshly home from work, I SLAVE AWAY AFTER WORK, TO DRAW ABBI LATELY OBSSESSIVELY. I JUST CAN'T GET ENOUGH OF HIM BLAME MY AUTISM DFKLLSDG

Doodles below - also self-explanatory, done in the span of 15 mins. Since our school-PCs have Adobe programs and APPARENTLY Paint.Net I got DEVIOUS and just..The first file that exists on my school-server drive is THIS doodle of Abbacchio now. Using my German tax euro for the right things, y'all /lh

THAT CONCLUDES MY RAMBLES ABT THE PROCESSES OF THESE DRAWINGS I THINK. HELLA JOJO TAGS AHEAD BC HONESTLY I KINDA WANT PEOPLE TO SEE MY DRAWING OF DREAM-ABBI THE MOST TBH. BC HE'S JUST SO PRETTTYYYYY-

I PLAN TO DRAW MORE ABBACCHIO....SO STAY TUNED IG IF YOU ALSO LOVE ABBACCHIO!!!! My art request ears are VERY open, if you want me to draw a jojo character next 👀👀👀 (THOUGH keep in mind, they will be minimal doodles, BC I am spending most of my effort on owed art I have to pay off still!!!!!!!)

HELLA TAG-AVALANCHE AHEAD. FAIR WARNING. I'M SO GLAD THE TUMBLR LAYOUT I USE PUTS THEM TO THE SIDE SO IT DOESN'T DISTRACT FROM THE DRAWINGSSS. SORRY IF YOU FIND TAGS ANNOYING BC AGAIN I JUST WANT PEOPLE TO STARE AT MY DREAM-ABBACCHIO TBH...I MIGHT TURN HIM INTO MY OWN CHARACTER OR HELL IF PEOPLE WANT IT...CAN BE SOME FORM OF JOJO AU. BUT IDK IF PEOPLE WANT AN AU WHERE THE PASSIONE GANGSTAR GANG FIGHT A BUNCH OF BRITISH MOBSTERS THAT ABDUCT TEENAGE GIRLS WITH SPECIAL EYES AND HAIR TO A CRUELLA DEVILLE TYPE OF WOMAN.

^YES ONCE AGAIN, WILD DREAM WITH WILD DREAM LORE.

[taggedmemes]

SENTENCE MEME JACK'S MANNEQUIN / EVERYTHING IN TRANSIT

what's a girl to do with friends like this?

she let me drive her car so i can score an eighth.

my hair is growing long.

we can live like this.

if you left it up to me, every day would be a holiday from real.

we'd waste our weeks beneath the sun.

we'd fry our brains.

it's so much fun out here.

i'll come back for another year.

the rents are high and [city]'s easy.

it's a picture of perfection.

you sure look fine.

you wore my favorite sweater.

being poor was never better.

let's screw this one up right.

that's when i spend the most time thinking about what i've given up.

this is a warning.

i'm writing you a symphony of sound.

this mix could burn a hole in anyone.

it was you i was thinking of.

i read your letter.

you said you meant it.

there's a piece of me in every single second of every single day.

tell me how it got this way.

i can't get to you.

this is my mixed tape for her.

it's like i wrote every note with my own fingers.

i had to give you away.

sometimes perfection can be perfect hell.

i swear i didn't mean for it to feel like this.

every inch of me is bruised.

can you make this last?

i am finally waking up.

you haven't shown your face here since the bad news.

i'm unraveling with every word you say.

just think of all the thoughts wasted on you.

all i taste is blood between my teeth.

i'm ready, so don't stop.

i am aware i've been misled.

i disconnect my heart, my head.

when did society decide that we had to change and wash a t-shirt after every individual use?

i need caffeine in my blood stream.

my life has become a boring pop song.

i'm done.

the ending got twisted around.

i've got friends who will help me pull through.

i'm dulling the day with a drink.

i'm far too unstable to settle.

i don't know what you could possibly expect under this condition.

this night's a perfect shade of dark blue.

have you ever been alone in a crowded room?

the world could be burning down.

this flood is slowly rising up and swallowing the ground beneath my feet.

tell me how anybody thinks under this condition.

as the water rises up, the sun is sinking down.

now all i can see are the planets in a row.

we were boxing the stars.

finally i'm letting go of all my downer thoughts.

in no time there'll be one less sad robot looking for a chance to be something more than just metal.

she's so good.

she's no good for me.

why treat him like he's dead?

i've found someone to dull this lonely scene.

it's biblical how fucked my sleep can be.

i would never lie to you.

whatcha sad for?

this hurts like hell.

i had that dream again where i was lost for good in outer space.

tell me how to shake a waking nightmare that is only worse when i am sleeping.

i am losing feeling.

i'd prefer not to be rescued.

i'm following myself just this once.

i'm finally numb.

say you'll miss me.

i'm sweating out excuses that would make your stomach turn.

we filled our cups and lit one up.

maybe we were made for each other.

is it possible for the world to look this way forever?

i didn't realize i'd gona crazy.

i didn't catch my bloody nose or that my heart tried to explode.

some people never change at all.

we're still the same impulsive drunks we were when we were small.

someone get this man to a hospital.

you can breathe.

the rain's the rain.

i deconstruct my thoughts.

this fishbowl life is all they need.

i'm slipping into the airwaves.

the static's where you'll find me.

the gold-soaked afternoon comes slow.

something's not so right inside.

don't panic, there simply is no need.

[wyrd-syster]

FANFIC ROUNDUP: 2023

LIST OF FANWORKS

POSTED

lend me some sugar (I am your neighbor) | Haladriel neighbors AU | E | 2/2

tell me something true (or tell me nothing at all) | Haladriel "This is How You Lose the Time War" AU | E | one-shot

it's a dangerous game | Haladriel Venetian-style "Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde" AU | E | one-shot | dead dove

dig up the bones (but leave the soul alone) | Haladriel canon divergence | E | 9/? (wip)

living la dolce vita (I’ve been saving all my summers for you) | Haladriel "Stepford Wives" cult AU | E | one-shot

take a chance and roll the dice (say it once, say it twice) | Haladriel Halloween-themed drabble collection | M | 8/8

there is a light (and it never goes out) | Haladriel Hanukkah-themed canon divergence | T | 1/2 (wip)

sugar and spice (and everything...) | Haladriel neighbors AU | E | sequel to lend me some sugar | one-shot

Total words: 127,458, almost triple my output from last year. I am flabbergasted.

UNPOSTED WIPS

oh boy. Not including wips noted above:

we were angels, once (don't you remember?) | Haladriel immortal soulmates au | M (probably?) | one-shot

break the lock if it don't fit (love sticks, sweat drips) | Haladriel "Ocean's Eleven" AU | E | one-shot (title subject to change)

and on the creature scratches (it doesn't know how to get out) | Haladriel mob AU | E| multi-chapter sequel to oh, can’t you hear that scratching? (there’s something at the door) 

Untitled third installment of the Haladriel like a good neighbor series

Untitled Haladriel Rumpelstiltskin AU

TOTAL # OF COMPLETED WORKS/FANDOMS WRITTEN IN

Six completed works written for the Sauron (Halbrand)/Galadriel (Haladriel) fandom, The Rings of Power

OVERALL THOUGHTS

it's like I can't consume media anymore without being like "*leonardo dicaprio meme* this could be a Haladriel AU!"

PERSONAL FAVORITE?

I'm going to say living la dolce vita (I’ve been saving all my summers for you), mostly because of the amount of work I put into it. Honestly, I never thought I'd finish it! I restarted this story six or seven times — I just could not find the voice. But I am so pleased with the outcome. I think of everything I've written this year, this story really underscored to me that, beyond "flashes of inspiration," writing is a lot of hard work that needs consistent attention and practice!

MOST UNDERAPPRECIATED?

I definitely think this one is it's a dangerous game, my Dr. Jekyll and Hyde AU. I initially started writing this for a Gothic-themed challenge, abandoned for a bit, then finished in a flurry for Haladriel Week. This fic is also a close second for my favorite of the year. I love a Gothic aesthetic and I made sure this story was chock full of it. I was also so purposeful with my writing voice for this story and, to me, it doesn't sound like anything else I've written.

MOST POPULAR?

Oh without a doubt, lend me some sugar (I am your neighbor)! 

STORY WITH THE SEXIEST MOMENT?

I mean, this is so subjective, but I think the somnophilia scene from it's a dangerous game takes the cake for me! I wrote it in one sitting during my lunch break and my god was it hard to go back to work after this...

An excerpt from the end of the scene: Instead, he adjusts her skirts and melts into the darkness, leaving her as he found her; boneless and wet, flushed with heat and ripe for the taking. 

MOST FUN STORY TO WRITE?

Fun is a strong word, but I was the story I felt was most fulfilling to write was tell me something true (or tell me nothing at all). I already had some of the template letter concepts in my notes from a twitter conversation much earlier in the year, and expanding on them, while building the scenes around them, was a really fun exercise.

HARDEST?

I'm not going to lie, most of them! I used to be the type of writer who would have one flash of inspiration, write it up at a mad sprint, then quit writing until I was struck with another mad idea. I wrote for so many prompt and themed challenges this year that I was required to be more intentional about story building and more consistent with my writing — even when it was hard, even when I hated everything I wrote down. Felt a lot like muscle training at the gym!

BIGGEST SURPRISE?

My output really surprised me!! I complain to my therapist all the time that I'm shit at finishing things, but it's hard to deny the truth when it's staring me in the face: six complete stories, two wips that I will complete! And not just the quantity of my output, but the quality too. I am proud of, and really like, everything I published!

I mean, don't ask me how my social life is going lol, but at least my writing life is going well!

DID YOU TAKE ANY RISKS IN WRITING THIS YEAR?

Dipping my toe into Dark Fics for sure, which is new for me. But beyond that, just engaging with the fandom as a whole! I firmly believe that writing/story-telling is a communal activity and I am beyond grateful to have found that community. It's the first real fan-space I've been a real part of, and it's definitely improved my writing.

MOST UNINTENTIONALLY TELLING STORY?

My life is too boring to translate to fic lol. But I did not have to dig very deep to write the depression beats in living la dolce vita (I’ve been saving all my summers for you). A lot of what Galadriel goes through — the listlessness, the anger, the selfishness — is stuff I also struggle with during depressive episodes.

FAVORITE LINES/SCENES?

I like them all lol but these are a few that I know others, including my fiancé, have really liked:

dig up the bones (but leave the soul alone): “My lady, if I had a dragon’s tooth for every time you told me not to worry while you went careening off into peril, I’d have a smiling crown for my troubles.”

lend me some sugar (I am your neighbor): And she shatters, then, like glass; a thousand glittering pieces sailing off into the light. Irreparably damaged, ground to dust — edges sharpening as they fall into a mosaic of destruction. There is no end and no beginning. A lifetime of little deaths folding in on themselves, one on top of the other.

tell me something true (or tell me nothing at all): I am drowning in this ocean of blood. And you — you are not here to pull me to the surface as you once did. How could you, when you are wave and anchor both?

there is a light (and it never goes out): She can offer him no words of comfort, no platitudes to ease his sorrows. But she can offer this. The soft touch of her lips to his, the gentle stroke of her fingers across his cheek. She cannot mend a broken heart, but she can hold it for a while, cup it in her palms and keep it safe. She can pour her light into his darkened soul, weave together a dream where they are bound and they are whole. If only just this once.

MY FAVE PART OF FANDOM IN 2023

Literally just having this fandom. Having this community of wonderful, kind, incredibly talented people I can talk to, get advice from, brainstorm with!! I have made so many wonderful friends and I will be forever grateful.

2024 WRITING AMBITIONS

I want to continue developing a consistent writing habit, preferably once a day. Ideally, I'll become to type of girlie who wakes up at 5am and writes for two hours before work, but let's be real, I'm way to sleepy for that!

I also want to focus on two specific things: writing faster and writing less. First, I am, in my eyes, a slow writer — without that "flash of inspiration," it can take me a few days to write a single scene. Mostly because I do not follow my own advice and have to get everything perfect in the first draft. Second — as you can see from this post!!! — I have always been the type of writer who goes "why use one word when you can use ten?" I want to be able to write shorter stories without feeling like I'm compromising on my vision.

2024 FICS ON THE IMMEDIATE HORIZON

chapter two of there is a light (and it never goes out) 

the immortal soulmates AU

dig up the bones (but leave the soul alone)*  (which I think will be on hiatus until I can get a few chapters ahead before posting).

Thanks to @liminal-zone for the format, @conundrumoftime and @thecoziestbean inspiration!