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dinsbeskar · 18 days ago

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LILY

LILY I AM YELLING ONCE AGAIN

I NEARLY THREW MY PHONE SEVERAL TIMES

“Do you truly realise who I am?” Your husband titled his head at your words. “All the stories they have told you about me when you were a child – I am worse than any of them.”

“I am fully aware,” you approached him and held Almárea’s free hand. “And that is why I must go to make sure you do not turn her into a monster like you.”

OOOOOOOHH OK OK OK "'IM A MONSTER Y'KNOW" "I DO KNOW, DON'T MAKE MY CHILD ONE" AHHHHHHH I LOVE THIS

“It was the only moment when I felt that I should, perhaps, abandon my old life and remain in Eregion as Annatar by your side forever,” he confessed.

NOOOOOOO MY HEART IS BROKEN, NOOOOOOO

Ugh I love the idea of him leaving all his evil scheming behind for his love, like in canon I could never see it but I absolutely love it regardless, we love an evil man who even thinks about giving it up for love!!! Goddddd my heart actually hurt after reading this bit

You were barely exchanging any words with your husband and you seemed to avoid each other. However, he was making sure you were not short on anything. Once in a while there was a package waiting for you on your bed. Inside it you would find gifts – books to read or new dresses. And yesterday you had found an embroidery set, which filled your heart with joy.

Shhhhhhhh the gift giving??? Our Lord of Gifts making a cameo appearance?? Absolutely love this!!!

“Is she not with you? Are you not teaching her your craft of treachery and deception like every day?” You asked with a sigh, defeated.

Sauron rolled his eyes but decided not to comment on your remark.

Pffffft nooo the snarking of two divorcees forced to co-parent 😂😂😂

You watched his eyes widen even further in terror and concern. You snorted at that. “What are you? Scared of losing your precious tool?” You asked him with contempt.

That only angered him further as he grabbed your arm and squeezed it so tightly that you were sure there was a bruise forming already.

“Do not ever say that again,” he drawled out through gritted teeth right into your face. “Do not speak of matters you have no idea of.”

Oooooooooh this whole section had me yelling!! What do you mean, Sauron has feelings about anyone but himself?? Actually cares about his offspring?? The one he referred to as "your daughter" when she was born!!! This man!!!

You followed him but in many places the ground was slippery and you needed his support. His hand would grab you each time you stumbled and pull you up.

Oh god no not the support, not the grasping for him as you nearly fall, noooo my heart, you stumble, he reaches for you, I hate it here!!! The unresolved feelings!!!!

“A forge,” she answered. “I miss uncle Celebrimbor’s one and this place makes me feel as if I was back there. Oh, daddy, can you imagine all the beautiful things we could craft here?” She asked with a smile.

Sauron froze for a moment as you watched the scene with a raised eyebrow. He looked around as if he had just realised something brilliant.

“Yes, I can, my darling. And we will,” he assured her. “But please, come to me and mummy now, will you?” He extended his hand even further and she nodded, eagerly.

NOOOOOOOOO SHE GAVE HIM THE IDEA, BABE NOOOOOO, I FUCKING DIED, I ACTUALLY SQUEAKED AND EVERYONE WANTED TO KNOW WHAT I WAS READING, I AM DEAD (absolute perfection!!!)

Your hands acted before you allowed them to and they placed themselves on his arm softly. Your body ached for him and his presence; it was too used to his touch.

He flinched a little and turned his head around to look down at you with a puzzled expression.

“Have a family with me,” Sauron finished the sentence softly and you looked up at him, gently. It was the very first time in a long time when your eyes filled with affection for him again. “I was never keen on the idea of having offspring,” he admitted. “But then you made me realise what a blessing children might be,” he cracked a smile and raised his hand to caress your cheek. “I was terrified of my potential child stealing my powers and overthrowing me but Almárea… Her powers and her mind terrify me in the most exquisite way. Do you know why she is so perfect?” He asked and you shook your head. “Because she is half you. She is half light and half darkness. The perfect balance and what else could possibly heal Middle-earth?”

NOT US WANTING HIM AFTER EVERYTHING, NOT HIM ADMITTING THAT HAVING A CHILD WAS A BLESSING, THE BALANCE??? THE TWO OF YOU CREATED BALANCE!!!

“Come here, my love,” Sauron pulled you closer and wrapped his arms around you. “Oh, how I have missed you, too, my darling. And even though it brought me great pain, I knew I had to wait for you to come to me out of your own free will.”

[...] “But you have become the most dear to me, the most precious,” he confessed and turned you around, making you look at Mount Doom as his hands lowered themselves to your abdomen.

You looked down at his hands resting on your womb. He was still wearing a golden ring on his finger that you had put there on the day of your wedding. And you were still wearing yours because you still loved him despite hating yourself for it. You still wanted to be around him as if he was something addictive that you could not live without. And your womb was still open for more of his offspring.

THE CONFESSIONS OF LOVE, YESSSSSS WE WIN

NOT "PRECIOUS" NOOOOOO 😂 OH MY GOD

For real that first paragraph actually broke me a bit, I love it so much

“Another tool for you to use,” you pointed out.

“Another child for you to love and spoil,” Sauron brushed your hair strand and leaned in to kiss your cheek. “Another thread of love binding us together.”

:)))))) ooof why do I love soft!sauron so much??? a thread of love?? Oh godddd

“You are going to have many,” Sauron spoke as he reached his hand out to caress her hair. “And each of you will get their own kingdom to rule over in my name and their own Ring,” he shared his new plan as a shiver went down your spine. “And all Middle-earth will be healed at once for your mother’s light and my darkness combine like two precious metals; balancing and amplifying everything I could ever be on my own.”

THE BALANCING, THE AMPLIFYING, WE LOVE THE ALLOY METAPHOR, THEY ARE THE RINGS!!!! IM DEAD!!!!

Okay, that was very long but I had a lot of feelings, this was superb, it was such a satisfying conclusion, so beautifully written, I am dead thank you

— BLESSED (III)

PART ONE || PART TWO

PAIRING — Sauron x fem!half-Elf!Reader

SUMMARY — You have no choice but to follow Sauron and your daughter to Mordor because you do not want to abandon her. As time passes, you find yourself being lured by your husband's charm once more as the memories of his cruelty in Eregion begin to fade away.

AUTHOR’S NOTE — And here we are go with the last part! I know I probably write Sauron's relationship with his daughter in a very idealistic way – that in canon he would be most likely way worse. But writing it like that would bring me no joy. ��🏻‍♀️ It's a fic for dad!Sauron and I want him to be at least a bit decent while we're at it! 😤

WARNINGS — Reader's father is dead (he was human, so she outlived him), manipulating, gaslighting, toxic and abusive marriage between the Reader and Sauron, Sauron being a very mid dad who manipulates his daughter and teaches her how to be evil like him, child in danger (nothing happens in the end), murder (of the Orcs), Celebrimbor has gone mad-mad, immaculate conception (yes, again!)

WORD COUNT — 4,450

ENGLISH IS MY SECOND LANGUAGE.

BLESSED (III)

Celebrimbor was out of his mind again. Your heart ached for him as you were sitting next to him and caressing his hair softly as if he was a child. He had spent centuries taking care of you and now it was your turn to return the favour. You kept sobbing, feeling angry at yourself that you could not protect him.

Sauron was gone. After finding out where The Rings were, he had left in a hurry, leaving you with a few Orcs that had come to the forge in the meantime. They wanted to plead their allegiance to your husband and the very first task they had been given was to watch over you, your daughter and your uncle. To make sure none of you would escape.

Almárea was not scared of them, which surprised you. In fact, she approached them and kept asking them a million questions as the Orcs were growing a little frustrated with her curiosity. They were, however, answering all her questions patiently. You cracked a smile at that. She was still a child – curious and so full of life.

So full of light, too. You could not let the darkness win within her.

“I shall not allow him to hurt you, uncle. I shall not, I promise,” you kissed Celebrimbor’s forehead and your uncle looked up at you with hazy eyes and a loving smile. “You have endured and suffered so much because of him already. But no more, no more, uncle… Now you must rest.”

“Your daughter…” He mumbled out and you looked down at his face with a sad smile. “Is she not the most precious? She is the exact copy of you, sweet (Y/N). You were a girl like her once, running around this very forge.”

“I remember, uncle,” you sobbed. “I remember it vividly. My father and you working together, my mother still happy and full of life, before she began a lifetime of mourning. I remember…”

You pulled him closer and tried to come up with an idea how to save him. Even if Sauron would not kill him – he had made this promise to Almárea when she had revealed to him Lady Galadriel had been the one to have The Rings now and you wanted to believe he would keep that promise – you still had a feeling your husband would use Celebrimbor somehow or hurt him.

“Almárea?” You called out for her and she turned around to lay her eyes upon you. You beckoned her over and she nodded at the Orcs before running up to you. “Almárea, do you want uncle Celebrimbor to be safe?”

“Of course, mummy,” your daughter’s eyes widened.

“Can you distract them as I walk him out of here? I will be right back,” you whispered as you pointed at the Orcs with your chin.

“I do not know, mummy… Last time I listened to you, daddy was very angry…” She looked down, nervously.

“Almárea, please. Do you love uncle Celebrimbor?” You asked.

“Yes, of course,” she nodded.

“Then, please…”

“But will you come back to me? Truly?” She lifted up her eyes and looked into yours with a hint of anxiety.

“My darling, always. I shall never abandon you,” you promised, truthfully. Your heart ached at the thought she was not as sure of it as you were.

Eventually, she nodded as she turned around towards the Orcs once more. She ran up to them joyfully and kept asking them questions. When you moved up, dragging Celebrimbor with you, they did not even flinch, which meant that your daughter’s deception was working.

You felt bad for leaving her with them even for a short moment but at this moment it was your uncle who was the most vulnerable and who needed you more. You owed him that, at least.

You walked him out of the forge and hurried to the secret tunnel below the city. The Orcs who had taken over Eregion were feasting now in havoc in the courtyard, which distracted them enough to make it possible for you to lead your uncle safely to the passage.

You walked inside with him and he was following you like a trusting child. In the middle of the passage, you bumped into Herald Elrond. Your heart was in joy to see him and to know that he was safe. He had been some sort of a cousin to you – his father had also been a friend of Celebrimbor and he also was a half-Elf. You had many things in common and you had been close friends in your youth.

“(Y/N), thank the Valar,” he sighed. “Where is your daughter? I was sent here by the High King to make an attempt to rescue you and–” He began.

“I must go back,” you shook your head with your eyes full of tears. “Take uncle Celebrimbor to safety. Heal his mind. Forget about me,” you pleaded and he furrowed his brows.

“What are you talking about?” He asked. “Where is Almárea?”

“Please, Elrond. You must not know,” you insisted before kissing your uncle’s forehead once more and caressing his cheeks to tell him goodbye.

“(Y/N)!” Elrond called out for you when you turned around to go back to Eregion and to your daughter.

“If you love me and respect me,” you began. “If you love Celebrimbor… Just take him away from here. That is all I ask for,” you insisted and hurried back to Eregion. “Do not follow me!” You exclaimed after hearing him trying to rush after you.

He eventually listened to you because he had a huge love for Celebrimbor and he could see the state of him was not the best. You heard the sound of their steps subduing as you went back to Eregion.

You went back to the forge, feeling a bit more peaceful on the inside, knowing that you managed to save your uncle from Sauron. You nodded at Almárea and she nodded back at you, visibly relieved to see you coming back to her.

Her father came back not long after, too. He was wearing a breastplate and holding Morgoth’s crown in his hand, which was dripping blood – you could feel from afar its purity and light. It was Elven.

“Have you killed her?” You whispered with widened eyes.

“Sadly, no,” Sauron answered with a smirk. “But I got The Nine,” he added and you looked away, feeling defeated. “Speaking of, where is Celebrimbor?”

“Far away,” you mumbled out, expecting him to lash out.

Surprisingly, he did not. He shrugged his arms.

“Whatever. He is no use to me anymore. Almárea, we are leaving,” he extended his free hand and nodded at her.

“You cannot take her away from me!” You turned your head around again to watch what she would do. She hesitated but then she ran up to him and squeezed his hand, which felt like a punch straight into your heart.

“Where are we going, daddy?” She asked.

“To our new home,” Sauron answered and turned around, dragging her behind him but she remained still. “What is it?” He asked with an irritated sigh.

“We are taking mummy with us, right?” She asked.

Long silence occurred. Sauron laid his cold and empty eyes upon you, sitting on the floor with your back pressed to the wall and crying silent tears.

“It is her choice,” he answered, softly, “but I doubt she wants to go with us.”

“On the contrary. I have no choice,” you gritted your teeth, clumsily standing up. “I must go where she goes. Even if it is a path I hate to follow.”

“Do you truly realise who I am?” Your husband titled his head at your words. “All the stories they have told you about me when you were a child – I am worse than any of them.”

“I am fully aware,” you approached him and held Almárea’s free hand. “And that is why I must go to make sure you do not turn her into a monster like you.”

It took you a few days of travel with the filthy army of Orcs to get to Mordor. You and Sauron did not exchange a single word during this trip. Almárea was riding with you on your horse for half of the day and then she would go to ride with her father. You made no stops on your way, so after arriving in Mordor, you and your daughter were exhausted.

The land was dark and barren, full of fire and ashes. It looked like hell but you decided not to complain because you realised you were on thin ice already – Sauron did not treat you like his consort in any way. Apparently, you would be nothing but a mother to his child from now on. Any sign of disobedience could be punished with exile and that was the last thing you wanted. You needed to be close to your daughter.

He ordered the Orcs to build him a grand fortress but until then, you resided in a big mansion that had once belonged to a rich human family of The Southlands. You had an awful view of Mount Doom from there and the rooms were all beautifully decorated but also dusty and worn out.

Once again – you did not complain. You did not dare.

You followed Sauron to the chambers he had decided would be yours and Almárea’s. He was carrying her in his arms as she was half-asleep already. You watched him put her to bed and caress her head as you sat down on the chair next to the bed. You held her little hand and squeezed it lovingly, watching her drift off to the land of dreams. Those past few days had been difficult and exhausting for her.

Sauron straightened his back and looked down at you with a bit of contempt but also affection – mixed together, they made you feel deeply uncomfortable.

“Do you remember?” He asked, speaking his very first sentence to you in days.

You furrowed your brows and looked up at him, questioningly. Your husband extended his hand and touched your cheek with it.

At that moment, your vision got blurry and you felt yourself go back in time a few years to one, specific memory. One of the most beautiful days you had ever lived.

You were sitting by the river, in a field full of flowers. Almárea was about a year old and clumsily taking her first steps. You watched Annatar helping her and chuckling at her harmless but funny falls as she kept giggling and blabbering, excitedly. The sun was slowly setting and you felt at peace. You truly believed your whole life would be just like that.

When Sauron took his hand away from your face, you found yourself back in Mordor, stripped of any faith and any dignity.

“Why did you show me that?” You asked him, angrily, as your eyes filled with fresh tears.

“It was the only moment when I felt that I should, perhaps, abandon my old life and remain in Eregion as Annatar by your side forever,” he confessed.

“Perhaps you should have,” was all you answered, in a whisper nearly inaudible as you watched him walk away with tears streaming down your cheeks.

You had cried out so many of them recently that you were starting to feel hollow and empty.

Weeks passed, maybe months. You had lost track of time since all your days were the same. You were given quite a lot of freedom because Sauron was sure you would never leave his side as long as Almárea was there. You were allowed to walk around the mansion and even take walks although you did not crave them at all since Mordor was not the perfect place to spend time outside.

You missed embroidery and you even considered it quite thoughtful that he had remembered about it. So, you were sitting by the window and focusing on your craft, trying to recreate Mount Doom, which your daughter loved for some reason. You wanted to make her happy.

You were focused on your work when the doors opened loudly, making you misplace the needle and hurt yourself as you hissed and looked up at your husband.

“Where is Almárea?” He asked, looking around the room.

“Is she not with you? Are you not teaching her your craft of treachery and deception like every day?” You asked with a sigh, defeated.

Sauron rolled his eyes but decided not to comment on your remark.

“I told her to go back to her mother about two hours ago,” he informed you and your heart skipped a beat at that revelation.

“Why didn’t you walk her here yourself?” You asked.

“I had an important matter to attend to and it is not like she is a toddler, is it?” Sauron clenched his jaw but you spotted a glimpse of panic in his eyes. “Where is she?”

“How can I know?! I thought she was with you!” You stood up instantly and put your embroidery set down before rushing out of your chambers. “Almárea!” You called out. “Almárea!”

“Have you seen Lady Almárea?” Sauron asked one of the Orcs walking down the hall.

“N-no, my Lord Sauron,” the Orc shook his head and you watched your husband sit his throat just like that. Usually, you found this behaviour of his dreadful. But now you were too scared and worried for your daughter to care

You kept searching for her all over the mansion, calling out her name, leaving a pile of dead Orcs behind because none of them could answer Sauron about Almárea’s location.

“I think she must have gone outside,” you said after bumping into your husband in the corridor. You watched his eyes widen even further in terror and concern. You snorted at that. “What are you? Scared of losing your precious tool?” You asked him with contempt.

That only angered him further as he grabbed your arm and squeezed it so tightly that you were sure there was a bruise forming already.

“Do not ever say that again,” he drawled out through gritted teeth right into your face. “Do not speak of matters you have no idea of.”

You swallowed thickly and nodded. Despite everything between you two – it seemed like you shared a thread together and that was love for your daughter. And because you were a worried mother, you regretted inflicting any pain upon a worried father.

“Forgive me,” you whispered and he let go of your arm.

“Do you have any idea where she could go?” Sauron asked you and you shook your head before freezing as you realised.

“Mount Doom,” you whispered. “For some reason, she adores it,” you explained.

“We must not waste any moment then,” Sauron grabbed your wrist and dragged you behind him as you two ran out of the mansion.

The forsaken volcano was not very far away from your home but it still took you quite a while to get there. The air was poisonous around it, making you choke and tear up. You were no mortal, therefore you were in no danger, but it was still an inconvenience.

“If anything happened to her, I shall be the one to kill you, whatever it takes!” You threatened your husband and he did not even say anything to this. He let go of your wrist and proceeded to climb up.

You followed him but in many places the ground was slippery and you needed his support. His hand would grab you each time you stumbled and pull you up.

Breathing heavily, both covered in dirt from the ashes, you stood there, petrified, seeing Almárea sitting by the edge of the volcano and staring at it spitting out fire. She seemed to be content with her position. You looked up at Sauron with terror in your eyes and he left you behind to approach your daughter with extended hands.

“Almárea, what are you doing here? Have you not been told to never go outside without me or your mother?” Sauron asked, carefully.

“Ugh, daddy, I know, I am sorry. I was just so curious about this mountain and guess what? It is even better than I have imagined,” she confessed with a smile. “Do you know what it reminds me of?”

“What, Almárea?” He asked, taking a few more small steps closer to her.

Sauron froze for a moment as you watched the scene with a raised eyebrow. He looked around as if he had just realised something brilliant.

“Yes, I can, my darling. And we will,” he assured her. “But please, come to me and mummy now, will you?” He extended his hand even further and she nodded, eagerly.

You both gasped watching her stand up because one little wrong move could cause her to fall down the volcano. She, however, seemed to be oblivious. She skipped along towards her father and Sauron picked her up in an instant, squeezing her tight and caressing the back of her head.

Your heart swelled inside your chest at the realisation that he truly cared for her and truly loved her – even if it was not enough to save her from making her play a part in his schemes.

“Can we go back home, please?” You pleaded and it was the very first time you called that awful place your home.

Sauron nodded at you and you began your walk down the mountain. You were still shaking slightly and holding onto his sleeve to make sure you would not fall. Just like in the old days, he was bringing you comfort and safety – he was making you feel protected even if it was only being protected from a fall.

When you reached your mansion, Sauron took Almárea to the chambers she shared with you. Her skin and robes were dirty with mud and ashes, therefore you prepared her a bath and helped her to undress and get inside the bathtub.

“Call for me if you need anything,” you told her as you placed a new dress on the chair for her to dress herself into after the bath. “Be careful, my darling,” you smiled at her and left her alone in the bathroom, although you left the door ajar just in case.

Sauron was still inside your chambers and staring out of the window at Mount Doom. You sighed at the sight of his back turned on you and you decided to approach him softly.

Your hands acted before you allowed them to and they placed themselves on his arm softly. Your body ached for him and his presence; it was too used to his touch.

He flinched a little and turned his head around to look down at you with a puzzled expression.

“I miss you,” you confessed. “I miss being close to you,” you added.

“You miss Annatar, not me,” he shrugged his arms and looked out of the window again.

“Was Annatar not you? From the very beginning, my husband was Sauron. I only chose to be blind to see it,” you whispered and he looked back at you again, surprised to hear your words.

“Do I not repulse you?” He snorted.

“It does not change the fact I love you still,” you sighed and pressed your cheek to his arm. You both remained dirty from the ashes but you did not mind that all because today’s shared experience of fear and concern for your daughter had brought you two close together once more.

“Your love differs from mine,” he pointed out, a little harshly.

“It has not escaped me,” you let out a chuckle and nuzzled your face deeper into his sleeve. “But it is alright that we love differently. I do not want to be your Queen, I do not want you to share your power with me. All I want is to–”

You hated yourself but you found yourself falling for his beautiful words once again. You could never be sure after everything that had happened if his sweet nothings, promises and love declarations were ever genuine. Perhaps, you would forever wonder about it. But despite all of that, the dreadful memories of Eregion’s downfall and his behaviour then were becoming blurry with time and you were ready to move on; to start another chapter with him.

And, as usual, you had an excuse for your husband, too. He had been nervous then. Of course he had been the worst version of himself. But it did not mean he would always be like this. Right now he was not.

“Here I stand,” you whispered and a single tear streamed down your cheek.

“Almárea asked me about us,” Sauron put his hands on your arms and moved away slightly to be able to look at your face. “She wonders if we still love each other. I told her it was complicated.”

“I told her the very same thing,” you smiled sadly.

“But it is not, is it?” He raised an eyebrow and you shook your head, laughing nervously through your tears.

“No,” you admitted. “It is not.”

“It is true that I had my reasons to choose you out of all Elven maidens. And it is true that I was scared of having a son with you because I thought that the chances of a son overthrowing me would be higher,” he admitted and you furrowed your brows. “But you have become the most dear to me, the most precious,” he confessed and turned you around, making you look at Mount Doom as his hands lowered themselves to your abdomen.

You knew what he was about to do. You flinched at first, torn on the inside if it was truly what you wanted. Last time you had been deceived but now you would willingly allow it, despite knowing the true nature of the man who was your husband.

You relaxed and when he sensed your consent, you could feel the warmth radiating off of his hands and filling you up, forming a new life inside of you.

You put your hands on top of his and squeezed them for courage.

“A son,” he whispered into your ear with lots of satisfaction and excitement.

“Another tool for you to use,” you pointed out.

“Another child for you to love and spoil,” Sauron brushed your hair strand and leaned in to kiss your cheek. “Another thread of love binding us together.”

“Mummy? Daddy?” Almárea’s voice made you both turn around. She walked out of the bathroom in her new dress and kept looking at you two with a big grin. “Does it mean you are in love again?” She asked, full of hope.

“Oh, my darling, we have never stopped being in love,” you assured her and opened your arms to allow her to give you a hug. You did not want her to know all the details about the nature of your relationship with her father. She had already seen and witnessed way too much.

She wrapped her arms around you and hugged you tight, which only made her smile grow even wider as she looked up.

“I am going to have a sibling!” She exclaimed, happily, after sensing the new life inside of you.

“But… But you will still rule over us all, right, daddy?” Almárea asked hopefully, as if she was already scared of the responsibility that one day would be put upon her shoulders.

“Oh, of course, little one,” Sauron smiled lovingly at her. “I shall always bear the biggest burden of power for that is a father’s one to carry.”

He loved her – of that you were sure now. But no amount of his love could protect her from his schemes and his manipulations. Therefore, he had to love you as well and no amount of cruelty he had put you through contradicted it.

That was the way Sauron loved. It was a cursed devotion but also a blessed one.

MASTERLIST

#amazing!!!!#fic rec #sauron x reader

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turrondeluxe · 3 years ago

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Warm up for kiss day 💖

#kobd #tfp knock out #tfp knockout #tfp breakdown #tfp #transformers prime #knock out #breakdown #my art #doodle #shhhh i know it was actually yesterday but it was my birthday and i was busy so shhhhhhhh #maccadam

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feathered-serpents · 3 years ago

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It’s going to awhile until I finish this guy so I’m posting my favorite dragon head I’ve ever painted

#dnd miniatures #dnd minis #my minis #I know I posted a model yesterday but shhhhhhhh

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nako-doodles · 3 years ago

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make yourself into a planet 🪐

i was tagged by my darlings @tae-bebe @taejinnies & @t0d-oder-freiheit 🥺🥺 thank you loves 💖

tagging @cafejoon @taemaknae @jiminslight @jihopes @mintagust @gimbapchefs @jaehyukkies @thatredwine & anyone really. lets make a lil galaxy 🥰🥰

#tate this ones for the pretty golden moon you showed me yesterday 🥰🥰✨✨✨#i wanted to make a ganymede but ganymede doesnt have rings i know shhhhhhhh no fax just vibes #i am now craving some taro bubble tea hmmmm.......#hash tag games

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dinklebat · 3 years ago

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Lithromantic Playlist!!!

I‘m not procrastinating on calc shhhhhhhh

So gamers here’s my lithromantic playlist as well as a quote from each song to show why I picked it.

https://open.spotify.com/playlist/71id3pMvnZFES3DbD8MAbr?si=OpYOxnp1TAmQ33vF8zQfiw&dl_branch=1

Rät - Penelope Scott

“And the worst part is

I loved you

I loved you it's true

And sometimes I feel like

I still fucking do”

Ghost - Confetti

“You got to know that I meant it

When I said that I liked you

Or maybe just the idea”

Crush Culture - Conan Gray

“I don't care if I'm forever alone

I'm not falling for you

'Cause this baby is loveproof”

Ghost - Halsey

“Saying that I love him but

I know I'm gonna leave him”

Drugs - UPSAHL

“I'm too busy, don't have time for

Things you say that aren't important

Where's the bathroom at?

Leave me alone”

People I Don’t Like - UPSAHL

“What's my name, do you remember?

I'm pretty sure you have my number

So let's pretend we like each other”

Angela - Flower Face

“And oh, I'm not in love anymore

But I will keep you close to me forever”

the broken hearts club - gnash

“And at first I wasn't sure if there's even a cure

For what I'm feelin', 'cause what I'm feeling's been feelin' more and more absurd”

King - Conan Gray

“Babes always flirting away, getting every number

And you can have your fun 'cause I know that it's fake”

Never Been In Love - Will Jay

“You can have your romance, go on a perfect date

But for me, there just ain't enough hours in the day”

Sweet Tooth - Cavetown

“A sweet tooth for you

I'm wide awake

The sugar went straight to my brain

Feel like a kid, I double tap

My chest with my fist

I like you

Say it back”

despair - leo.

“‘Cause it's not romantic, I swear

I'm not gasping for air

I want you to be here

But please don't come near”

Please Don’t Say You Love Me - Gabrielle Aplin

“Just please don't say you love me,

Cause I might not say it back,

Doesn't mean my heart stops skipping

When you look at me like that”

I Don’t Love You - My Chemical Romance

“I don't love you

Like I did

Yesterday”

Born on A Windy Day (thanks trickytox for the recommend!!) - Anne Vaus

“But if you try to hold me too tight I don’t stay, I’ll tumbleweed and blow away, blow away

It ain’t your fault, it ain’t mine”

Too Close - Alex Clare

“You gave me more that I can return

Yet there's so much that you deserve

Nothing to say, nothing to do,

I've nothing to give

I must leave without you”

You Belong With Me - Taylor Swift

“Dreaming about the day when you wake up and find

That what you're looking for has been here the whole time”

#Lithromantic #Lithsexual #akoiromantic #akoisexual #aroace spctrum #Ace spectrum #aro spectrum #spotify #playlist #shout out to my fellow lithro aces #I will do my homework eventually I swear

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bangchanswolfpelt · 3 years ago

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Vetting potential sugar daddies? You need to tell me more about that 👀 And you're going glutenfree !! That's actually much more difficult than, really, it should be--i'm speaking from experience </3

Tbz and sf9 are amazing, i'm wholeheartedly supporting you getting sucked into the bottomless abyss that is their charms :)) and i don't think me praying for you will be able to change that. Any (potential) biases yet?? 👀

And i'm doing good! Although it still feels as if 2022 has just started yesterday, so i don't really have any feelings about it yet lmao. Let's see how this year will turn out, i'm in good spirits, however ✨

-🍒

hahaha, it's honestly just kinda like chatting people up on tinder, except i'm slightly more motivated to entertain actually talking to complete strangers 😂 i made a profile on one of the more ""reputable"" sites, ignored a lot of the messages i've gotten, but i've had a couple guys i'm talking to on-and-off. it's entertaining in the way that tinder or any other kind of online dating is—skimming through what people decide to put in their profiles is always entertaining, and maybe

going gluten free actually isn't as rough as i would've imagined it would be a couple years ago?? but i've also realized that i could just. live on rice and eggs, so that helps a lot 😅 plus, i've heard the lettuce wraps at In-n-Out are actually decent, so that'll be nice when the drive-thru line isn't two miles long. i do miss the hell out of bread, tho 😔

re: The Boyz, i'm still getting to know all of them, but Sunwoo caught the hell out of my attention during Kingdom and is definitely in the lead (see: car wash porn parody promo, Rich Brian cover, getting jealous on vlive, his taste in fucking anime ohmygod i wanna sit this boy down and make him mainline so much anime with me and the fact that i can't actuallly makes me a lil mad forreals) ((he might be my lockscreen rn, but shhhhhhhh, don't tell Eunkwang))

Sangyeon was the other one who caught my eye during kingdom and i'm still pretty 😵‍💫 over him; the vocal parts that make me perk up when they're on always seem to be his, and seeing him complain about his dumbfuck children during mafia was sooooooo good for me—i have a soft spot for tired leaders and it's serving him very well. i'm also growing distinctly fond of Kevin and Jacob, as well, and Q seems like a delightfully evil little genius.

as for SF9: i've been dipping into their music more than anything that shows off their personality, so we're still hovering around the main four that caught my eye during Kingdom.

Taeyang — this shouldn't be a surprise, if he's not the one that regularly drags people into this fandom the way Kim 'i just wanted to know who the one with blue hair was!!' Taehyung and Lee 'when did this kid hit puberty??' Felix do, i will put ketchup on my slipper and eat it. seeing his outfit for that one Teardrop stage was what dragged me back into this hell, actually, so 🥲

Hwiyoung — i thought he was pretty generically handsome and stiff at the start of the rap unit collab, but seeing him try to loosen up and have fun was really endearing. and then their kcon performance came and kicked me in the fucking chest—i'm sorry, shirt with more buttons undone than done, hair in a messy bun, that totally relaxed, loose-limbed vibe??? stick a fork in me, i'm fuckin done

Inseong — i noticed him from the very start of Kingdom, he had such a playful, impish vibe the whole time; it was the vocal unit collab that fucking got me, tho, you can't make a boy cry on this show and expect me to not want to take him 😔

Jaeyoon — i don't even know what it is about him, because looks-wise, he's not the type i'm usually into? and i usually have to have some prior investment before things like a firm b-cup get to me honestly. i think it was the vocal unit collab, actually, he and Inseong both were so tall and so handsomely awkward when the iKon boys showed up, it was truly delightful. plus, despite the tragic ending, i did really enjoy that particular stage.

aside from them, the only ones i can even match a name to a face with are Zuho (will i ever stop being unhornily mad about the line "I'm the male version of Venus"? probably not) and Chani (babbyyyyyyy 🥺).

i'm so glad you're doing well!! honestly, 2022 still feels like an extension of 2021, in the same way last year just felt like an extension of 2020, but we'll see how long that lasts. regardless of how it turns out, we have each other<3

#🍒 anon #mail corner 📬

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jinv · 4 years ago

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♧ we’ve literally only talked like before you deactivated and i can’t even remember what it was about but hello 🤧 (@v-hope)

asdfasdfhjakl we're floating on the same boat because i have no idea what we talked about before but hiiiiiiiii there

you’re my: very talented writer vhope enthusiast mutual how i met you: like previous statement mentioned above, thou have no recollection of memory on our firstesth meeteth but it feels like eternity why i follow you: because you're very cool and chill and nice and i love your content a lot your blog is: my vhope safe space your url is: so iconic how did u manage to snag 2 iconic urls your icon is: so cute i want to kith a random fact i know about you: you're a law student which means ur big brained (i stalked ur about me shhhhhhhh its telepathy) general opinion: i love the pink on your blog so much its so cute a random thought i have: was just saying yesterday how vhope stans stay winning all the time so how does it feel to be so blessed

#no more pls :(#hugseoks #answered #askgames

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trikxx · 4 years ago

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Lookk so to mention this is not just any friends to lovers story my toxic side is screaming friends with benefits type beat so😉 there will be some heartbreaking and Shinsou talking to other girls and you talking to other boys❤️❗️this is also a poc reader sooo read if you want i dont own you🤷🏽‍♀️

Songs for this chapter ⬇️

• B***h dont kill my vibe by kendrick Lamar

• in control nba youngboy

⚠️❗️marijuana use in this chapter❗️⚠️

"Alright we have 569 orders to pack Toshi." You say to Shinsou "ok hold on." Shinsou said licking and blunt to finish rolling it. You grabbed a box of packages and put it in the living room the grabbing your computer to print out labels and receipts.

You light a candle and turn on some music (the song at the top) Shinsou puts the blunt to the side and starts labeling the packages and putting the orders together in this order costumers order, business card, thank you card, and receipt. You do final packaging and stamp for the mail marking each order off the list and putting it in the box of finished orders.

"Hey n/n wanna go get a tattoo tomorrow?"

"Sure but where?"

"You remember Sero and Denki from Highschool?"

"Yea."

"Well they opened a tattoo spot on 58th." Shinsou said "Bet we can go." You respond putting another order in the box.

*DING*

"Who is it?" You ask Shinsou cause he pick up you phone. "Armoni." "What did he say?" "He said can he come over?" Shinsou responded "Are you ok with him coming over?" You say "Yea." "Ok then tell him Its ok."

Armoni⛓💵: Is it ok if i come over?

Y/n🤍🌸| Yea. You spending the night and do you need a ride?

Y/n🤍🌸| Also do ma know?

Armoni⛓💵: yea she know and no dad dropping me off.

Armoni⛓💵: ouu i can spend the night bet. Yea if thats the case.

Y/n🤍🌸: i didn't-

Y/n🤍🌸: Aight.

You and Shinsou start back in the orders soon finishing them. "I'm tired as fuck." You say flopping down on the couch "Get untired sweetheart cause your brother is coming over and we have a blunt to smoke and food to order." Shinsou said while laying across your legs.

Y/n's pov

Shinsou lit the blunt and hit it a few times. I looked at him as he let the smoke move out his mouth softly blowing with his head back. "Like what you see?" Shinsou said looking at me with a cocky smirk thats when I noticed I was staring "shut up and pass the blunt." I say. Shinsou chuckled and gave me the blunt. I did the same thing as Shinsou but blew o's "stop trying to show out n/n." Shinsou said taking the blunt "boy ain't nobody 'showing out'." I say putting up quotation marks with your hands.

We pass the blunt back a forth a few more times until I got a notification from life 360 saying Armoni go to the apartment. Shinsou put out the blunt and put it with the spongebob rolling tray we had. I cracked the window and opened the balcony door a little bit and went in my room to put the orders away.

When I came out the room someone started knocking on the door kinda like the police (strong ass knock✋🏽��) "Armoni Keith l/n how manys time do I have to tell you stop knocking on my fucking door like that." I say opening the door. " Dang Im sorry you aint gotta cuss at me n/n" Armoni said "Aye Shinsou where the hoes?"

I smack Armoni on the back if the head while walking past him to the living room "Ain't no hoes." I say coldly. "Yea Armoni ain't no hoes.... right now." Shinsou said smirking. "Nigga." I say with a straight face. "Im not finna do this with ya'll tonight." Shinsou and Armoni start laughing "ANYWHOO. Did you eat yet Armoni cause was finna order some food."

"Nah not yet." Armoni said. "What do ya'll want to eat?" I say walking into the kitchen with my phone to grab an water and then lean on the island.

"What about taco bell?"

"Armoni who the fuck."(sorry to the people who like taco bell) I say "ima have to agree with y/n Armoni. Who eats Taco bell?" "Uhh..obviously me." Armoni says.

"Awe naw you gotta go." I say "how about in and out? We can go out and get that." K said "im cool with that" Armoni says. "Ok." I say walking to my room. I got in to my room and pull out a pair of jogging pants and a oversized (fav anime) shirt and took off my bonnet and styled my faux locs

I grabbed my purse and house and car keys. "Yall ready?" I ask putting on my air force ones. "Been ready. We was waiting for you." Shinsou said.

Time skip

I start up my car using my remote start while we were walking to the car in the parking garage.

Everyone gets in the car. "LET ME PLAY THE MUSIC!" Armoni yells "STOP FUCKING YELLING." And it depends on what you finna play." I say turning around to look at Armoni. "Come on n/n let him play the music." Shinsou said looking at me tilting his head with puppy dog eyes. "I guess." I say rolling my eyes. "Just dont play no trash shit." I said looking at him through the rear view mirror. "Ok ok and i was going to say yall had to cause yall smoked with out me." He said making this face '😌' "boy.."

Play in control by nba youngboy

"shhhhhhhh" Shinsou said putting his finger up to your mouth and pointing to the steering wheel. "Food." I side eyed him and started backing out the parking spot and driving out the garage. Armoni start playing Nba youngboy. As much as I wanted to turn it off Shinsou wouldn't let me so we had to flow with it.

"Sk machine guns its two of us wit four nines!" Armoni rapped with the song (in control-nba young boy only song i can get down to🙌🏽 edit- i put the wrong song🙂 if you listen to yb just ignore that🧍🏽‍♀️) I turned down the radio. "What do yall want from here?" I asked they both said what they wanted and i went inside and ordered the food. As im waiting a guy comes up to me "Damn, what a fine girl like you doing out by yourself." He says "ahaha" I said sarcastically "getting food." I say still looking down at my phone. "You should me get your number." He says "you should let me get your name." I respond dodging the request. " My name is Shindo and you?" "Y/n" i say

"Order number (blah blah blah)!" The cashier says "welp thats me." I said not wanting to talk to him anymore. "Here you go ma'am." R/n says handing my bag "Thank you, have a good night" i say walking towards the door. "Hey! Uhh.. y/n you said it was!" I heard the guy from before right when I walked out the door "Hey" I said putting on a fake smile. "Can I get your number?" He asked "yea sure" I say pulling out my phone to put his number in.

Shinsou's pov

As me and Armoni are just chilling the car I see y/n coming out on in and out but she getting stopped by someone "who the fuck.." I say "what wron... oh shit" Armoni says. "You know who that is?" Armoni asks me. "Not at all." I tell him. Im not gonna lie i was jealous. But like fr who is that. I see y/n put her phone back the guy tried to hug her but she away "she dont want em" me and Armoni said at the same time and busted out laughing

"What are yall laughing at?" Y/n said opening the back door putting the food in the car. "You petty for doing that to that dude." Armoni said trying to stop laughing. "Awe well he was the on that didn't realize." Y/n said " But you still gave him your number though ." I said. "Yea Im finna block his number rn." Y/n said pulling her phone back out.

Y/n's pov

"Aye. Disconnect from my car now." I said to Armoni "whyyyy?" Armoni whined. " Disconnect or get out. Either way your still disconnecting just the second one your walking." I said smiling at him "ok ok"

I started playing my playlist.

~Time skip~

Shinsou's pov

We got back to the apartment and everybody got comfortable and we ate and watched movies Armoni went into his room and got in the bed around 3 am. Me and y/n were still in the living room. Y/n was laying on me and I was laying on the couch.

~30 minutes later~

"Hey y/n..." she fell asleep on me. 'How cute' I chuckled and just stayed there not wanting to wake her up to put her in her bed. I kept watching f/a that Y/n had put on after Armoni went to bed.

*DING*

Kami💀⚡️: Yoooo are yall coming through to the shop tmrw

Hitoshi☄️: yea why wouldn't we😃.

Kami💀⚡️: just asking cause you guys change up plans really quick if ya know what i mean😉

Hitoshi☄️: stfu. It was only once.

Kami💀⚡️: if you say soo Hitoshi😌

Hitoshi☄️: stop fucking texting me.

It was only once we only did it once. Me and Y/n were supposed to go to their shop the other day but thing between me and y/n go heated and we ended up in bed together but thats besides the point. "Yo Hitoshi your still woke?" Armoni said walking into the living room. "Just up to get som..."Armoni stopped and look at me then down. "Uhmmm..." Armoni went back to his room and got his phone.

"Moms is gonna love this." Armoni said taking a picture. "Why you take a.... fuck Armoni delete it now." I whisper yelled still trying not wake up y/n

"Why should I delete it? Why ya'll ain't tell nobody you guys were a 'thing'?" Armoni shot back. "Cause we're not. Bruh delete the pic and we stay safe. You know your sister is crazy and if she finds out thats the end of our lives." I say slightly sitting up causing y/n to move around a little bit. "Valid point I'll delete it on one case." I was over joyed til the last part.

"Let me drive the car tomorrow." Armoni said. I sighed knowing either way this might be my last week on earth. "Ok." "Anddd deleted thank you for your service." Armoni said taking his water and going back to his room.

I layed back down trying to comprehend what just happened.

*DING*

"What the fuckkkk." I say reaching over to y/n's phone.

*New message from (***)-***-****

(***)-***-****: Hey y/n this Shindo😉.

*read*

I looked at the phone for a little bit 'who is Shindo'

(***)-***-****: from In&out we met there just yesterday.

(***)-***-****: shit. My bad for blowing up your phone just realized how late it is. Text me back when you see this👋🏽.

'Wow' I think to myself bro really is blind. Would this be considered harassment. Maybe I'm tripping... im still high as fuck. Maybe I should go to sleep. I cut on another show to try and fall asleep on but I couldn't. I kept thinking what if she falls for him?

"Y/n." I say shaking her a little bit "come on" Motioning her to wrap her legs and arms around me so I can put her in her bed. "Can I sleep in here?" I ask "Bruh your room is down the hall go there." She said in a sleepy voice. "I dont feel like ittttt" i say.

Y/n slow turned over to face me. "I dont have the energy to argue with you." She said "I take that as a yes." I say getting into her bed.

I felt y/n snuggle under me trying to find warmth so I grabbed and held her close to me. "Goodnight." I say. No response so I start to let go "ok ok night." I heard y/n say. "Mhm thats what I thought." After a while I was able to fall asleep.

2062

This chapter took 5 ever to write but it was worth it I really hope you guys liked this chapter.

🌸L O V E Y A B E B E S🌸

#mha x reader #bnha shinsou #shinsou x y/n #shinsou x you #x reader

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hugyoongs · 5 years ago

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𝐏𝐄𝐀𝐂𝐇𝐄𝐒 𝐀𝐍𝐃 𝐂𝐑𝐄𝐀𝐌

↠ summary: join the ride of seven best friends as they navigate their way through the stress, love, joy, and adventure that college brings.

↠ pairings: taejoon, 2seok, yoonkookmin

↠ genre: crack (honestly 95% of the book), angst, fluff

↠ word count: 1110

↠ warnings: hoseok plotting murder (and actually attempting), a lot of gay panic, alotttt of crack, mentions of sacrifice, a lot of minecraft references, language (as always)

↠ a/n: i totally forgot about adding author’s notes into my work lol. but anyways dahlia ( @blssmin ) and i are like super happy to be writing this series! and we hope that everybody reading this is enjoying it as well :) also if you watch the office..hopefully you get the reference at the end!

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𝘾𝙃𝘼𝙋𝙏𝙀𝙍 𝙁𝙊𝙐𝙍: 𝙀𝙑𝙀𝙍𝙔 𝙂𝘼𝙔 𝙁𝙊𝙍 𝙏𝙃𝙀𝙈𝙎𝙀𝙇𝙑𝙀𝙎 [ 🐥 + 🦀 + 🦙]

jimoaning

guys this is NOT a drill

namjukebox

what happened to you?

suckjin

didn't this chat die a LONG time ago

suckjin

why are you bothering us on a fucking sunday morning

jimoaning

THE MOVIE

jimoaning

MY EYES WENT TO HEAVEN

jimoaning

I NEED TO CHANGE MY USERNAME

jimoaning

QUICK THIS IS NOT A DRILL

namjukebox

are you going to tell us what happened..

yoongisbitch95

SORRY I AM BACK

suckjin

JIMIN WTF

suckjin

I THOUGHT YOU HATED YOONGI

yoongisbitch95

I DO HATE HIM

yoongisbitch95

BUT DAMN I WANT TO CHOKE ON HIS COCK

namjukebox

oh lord

yoongisbitch95

AND THEN I WANT TO EAT MY WASHED NOODLES WITH HIM IN THE MIDDLE OF A DAMN PARK

yoongisbitch95

AND FUCKING C U D D L E

yoongisbitch95

I WANT TO GO OUT FOR ICE CREAM

yoongisbitch95

ALTHOUGH IT IS WINTER

suckjin

jimin...that all sounds nice but

suckjin

CHANGE YOUR USERNAME BACK RIGHT NOW

namjukebox

right when i thought jimin couldn't get any stupider

yoongisbitch95

S H U T U P

yoongisbitch95

I THINK I LIKE HIM

suckjin

you see his dick once and then you start drooling

suckjin

that is NOT a crush

yoongisbitch95

you see...about that

jimoaning

i...have kind of liked him since december

namjukebox

WHAT

suckjin

WHAT

namjukebox

WHAT

suckjin

WHAT

jimoaning

WHAT ???

suckjin

I KNEW YOU WANTED TO SUCK HIS DICK

jimoaning

I DON'T WANT TO SUCK HIS DICK

namjukebox

BITCH DON'T LIE

jimoaning

IS THIS ABOUT HIS GIGANTIC COCK?

jimoaning

OR ME??

suckjin

sorry yoongisbitch95

jimoaning

:cc

jimoaning

i think that jungkook hates yoongi tho

namjukebox

WHAT

suckjin

WHAT

namjukebox

WHAT

suckjin

WHAT

jimoaning

we are all supposed to be #besties but i think that jungkook hates yoongi

namjukebox

you'd be surprised

jimoaning

okay shut up egghead

jimoaning

THIS IS NOT A DRILL

jimoaning

is it possible to be this gay

namjukebox

probably...but it's all good

jimoaning

idk what to do why are we so mean to each other but nice to each other at the same time it makes my heart go BOOM and that's not good because actually it is good but i love this feeling kind of ?? i want yoongi to make fun of me still but i also want to give him a lot of hugs and it is making me SAD

suckjin

i lost many braincells from reading that

namjukebox

you never had any to begin with

suckjin

gladly suck my dick

namjukebox

i have to make reservations for that sweetheart

suckjin

get away from me ugly

jimoaning

can you guys like HELP ME

jimoaning

what

jimoaning

gucking do

namjukebox

gucking

suckjin

gucking

jimoaning

i hate you guys

[ hoesuck had added temptaetion to the conversation ]

hoesuck

so since you’ve been trying to hop on namjoon’s dick

hoesuck

and may i add

hoesuck

you’ve been doing a terrible job

hoesuck

i need your help

temptaetion

now wait a damn minute

temptaetion

FIRST OF ALL

temptaetion

you have the AUDACITY to insult my dick hopping skills

temptaetion

and then you ask me for help?

temptaetion

rude.

hoesuck

are you done

temptaetion

yeah sure what’s up

hoesuck

i would very much like to suck jin’s dick.

temptaetion

is THE jung hoseok being an unholy child

temptaetion

hold up i need to screenshot

hoesuck

i will chop your dick off

[ temptaetion has taken a screenshot (x2) ]

hoesuck

open your door

temptaetion

okay...one second

[ suckjin had added temptaetion to the conversation ]

suckjin

it is fucking sunday morning

suckjin

what the FUCK are you doing to have you make so much noise

[ the seven deadly sins ]

namjukebox

i have heard a very loud scream

namjukebox

jimin and/or jungkook what have u two done

jimoaning

WAIT WHY AM I A FUCKING SUSPECT

jimoaning

AGAIN

temptaetion

WHO THE FUCK GAVE HOSEOK THAT BIG ASS BUTCHERS KNIFE

namjukebox

ah, so thats where the screaming is coming from

suckjin

i gave him the knife

temptaetion

WHY WOULD YOU DO THAT

suckjin

HE SAID THAT HE WANTED TO CUT SOME MEAT

temptaetion

WELL HE’S ABOUT TO CUT MINE

jeoncena

make sure to add seasoning hobi

minsugay

dinner looks great for tonight

minsugay

who’s dorm?

suckjin

might as well be ours

suckjin

he stopped screaming, i think hobi killed him

hoesuck

guys help where do u hide a body

temptaetion

first of all

jimoaning

OH MY GOD A FUCKING ZOMBIE

suckjin

GET THE DIAMOND SWORD

namjukebox

IS IT ENCHANTED

jimoaning

I HAVE LEATHER ARMOR

jimoaning

WAIT-

minsugay

FUCK A SWORD

minsugay

I GOT A BOW MFS

jeoncena

FUCK THE DIAMOND SWORD

jeoncena

I HAVE MY ENCHANTED IRON AXE

jimoaning

THE RELOAD IS FUCKING TERRIBLE THOUGH

jeoncena

okay but it’ll kill you in an instant.

minsugay

WE ARE KILLING A ZOMBIE

jeoncena

RIGHT

temptaetion

GUYS SHUT THE FUCK UP

temptaetion

i am ALIVE, i am WELL

temptaetion

and i am most certainly a HUMAN

jeoncena

THATS WHAT A ZOMBIE WOULD SAY

temptaetion

JUNGKOOK WTF I THOUGHT I COULD TRUST YOU TO BELIEVE ME ON THIS ONE

jeoncena

WHEN MY DIAMONDS ARE AT STAKE

jeoncena

ITS EVERY GAY FOR THEMSELVES

minsugay

WHAT JUNGKOOK SAID

namjukebox

but like taehyung

namjukebox

what did you even dO?

temptaetion

ASK YOUR FRIEND WITH THE BUTCHERS KNIFE

temptaetion

I WAS BEING A GENTLEMAN AND OPENED THE FUCKING DOOR

temptaetion

AND WHEN I OPEN THE DOOR, MANS IS STANDING THERE WITH A KNIFE

hoesuck

i’m thinking twice about not sacrificing you to our gay jesus

temptaetion

HOSEOK WTF

jimoaning

SACRIFICE HIM

jimoaning

DO IT

namjukebox

no take mE instead

temptaetion

really🥺

namjukebox

lol no, kill that bitch

jeoncena

EVERY GAY FOR THEMSELVES

jeoncena

NAMJOON WOULD NEVER SAVE YOUR SORRY ASS

temptaetion

namjoon, it’s on sight

hoesuck

you won’t win a fight against joon

jeoncena

have u seen the mans tiddies

suckjin

i’m not gay or anything

suckjin

but mans is buff

jimoaning

first of all, jin we all know that you’re capping

jimoaning

you’re like the gayest one here

jimoaning

and second of all

jimoaning

literally anyone could beat up tae

temptaetion

HEY! i could win a fight against yoongi 😤

minsugay

c a p

namjukebox

i’d actually pay money to see that

jeoncena

yoongi would probably win

jeoncena

i bet all of my money

suckjin

didn’t you bet on something yesterday and LOSE

jeoncena

shhhhhhhh

temptaetion

namjoon, you’d think your future bf would win right🥺

hoesuck

namjoon’s in gay panic rn, he’ll be back

jimoaning

AM I LATE OR SOMETHING

jimoaning

FUTURE BEST FRIEND??

minsugay

no you absolute IDIOT

minsugay

as i said before

minsugay

one panicked gay + another panicked gay = joon and tae

jeoncena

ahahahahaha that rhymed

jimoaning

oh wait but i thought that joon and tae have BEEN dating

temptaetion

and all of us thought that we were straight

suckjin

oh how the tables turn

jimoaning

the turns have tabled

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girlfriendismboyfriendism · 2 years ago

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SOOOOO idk if u remember on tuesday i mentioned a SURPRISE !!!! well that was LITREALLY RIGHT NOW FOR ME <3 so anyways if u havent figured it out yet. THIS was the surprise which like. i kinda mentioned earlier but SHHHHHHHH you are SURPRISED!!! anyways i didnt rly have a plan of things to talk about but . did u know that jade harley . thats it thats the post . hes literally the ever <3 <3 <3 <3 grammar bows down in fear of me btw. i get to be grammatically wrong when its funny bc im hilarious hope this helps. ANYWAYS i did not know what i was gonna talk about but that was . definitely not it KGHDFKSFLAJ; anyways!! i dont remember if i mentioned time zones or not already but i am going to be . okay so iran is eleven and a half hours ahead of pst which means its nine and a half hours ahead of you. so when youre reading this it'll be 8:44 PM for me? that sounds about right i think !!!!

SORRY FOR BENYAMIN AGAIN I HAVE BEEN ON A BENYAMIN KICK RECENTLY... i discovered this song yesterday and it slaps sooo hard. also i had an entire team w my basketball about slaps vs "bussin" last night and slaps won love and LIGHT!!!!! take that natalie <3 /lh natalie is great and also probably my favorite person on my basketball team ANWYAYS idk if u have softball today? but probably bc u Always have softball

FORGOT TO TAG U ALMOST. @breezykiwi14

#Spotify

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thesestrangeimagines · 7 years ago

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Not Your True Love (Steve Harrington)

Steve Harrington x Reader

request

Could you do a steve imagine where he hits you and and he cries and cries for you to take him back and you say no cause like bitch what the fuck,,,, anyways,,.,,, and it ends all sad and shit and you end up happy and he is like what and yeah... I suck at talking sorry:) ilyyyy!!:))

I like this idea, but I’ve always have a hard time writing sad things, but I’ll give it my best shot!!!

NOTE: if you are looking for Steve fluff THIS IS NOT THAT!!

Warning(s): abuse

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“What happens when you can’t love the love of your life anymore?” You said through loud painful sobs that hadn’t stopped since it happened.

Your mother who was standing in the door way, ran over and started rubbing circles on your back said this, “than he really isn’t the love of your life.”

That is the moment when things started to get better.

~the incident~

You we’re standing outside your front door, but there was no one home, and you and Steve were both a little drunk. You fumbled with your keys and Steve said, “Why don’t you just come back to my place?”

“My mom will be suspicious, I gotta stay here-“ you started.

“Why don’t you stay with me?” He said, more forceful this time.

Seeing Steve like this confused you, he was always so sweet and kind. “My mom would freak-“ you tried to explain.

“Do you not want me?” Steve said, in the most forceful tone you’ve ever heard come from his mouth. He started to slowly approach you, and you started to move back until there was no where else to go. Suddenly his hand wrapped around your wrist, tight. You couldn’t use your right arm anymore. Tears were already starting to pool in your eyes, threatening to fall any second. “Why don’t you want me?” He threatened, pausing between every word.

“I ummm-“ you were at a loss for words and every part of your body was shaking. Your brain was screaming get out of here. Tears began to fall. You scrambled to come up with the words you needed when you felt it. There was a hot sting coming from your left cheek. All emotion left your body as Steve’s eyes widened and he began to back up. He started crying, shaking.

“Please baby I didn’t mean it!” He cried. You stood their emotionless.

“Goodbye Steve,” You said in as clear of a tone you could muster while being to find the correct key, put it into the lock, turn it, and open in the door as fast as possible. As you ran in the door Steve started to yell again.

“Please, please I don’t know what came over me please!”

Now it was your turn to cry. You locked the door and check all the other doors. Closed the blinds in your room and climbed into your bed and sobbed. Horrible heartbroken sobs. Eventually Steve’s yells coming from outside stopped and you knew he was gone. You cried and cried until your mother came home. You were crying so loud you didn’t even hear the front door open or her footsteps approaching you. You only noticed that she was there when you felt a depression form in your bed and a hand begin to move circles in your back.”shhhhhhhh” she said making an attempted to stop your the loud contractions in my throat.”What happened sweetie, I can’t help if you don’t tell me,” she asked in the kindest voice.

At that you through your arms around her, and stopping the sobs for just enough time to whisper, “he hit me, I broke it off” and the sobs continued.

You could feel your mother’s heart quicken. She left your father because he has beaten her. It took her many years to come to that decision, but you one incident. Yes she was mad that anyone would lay a finger on her baby, but also proud that you stood up for yourself and left him. She continued to rip circles in your back, “the hardest part is over my love, you are stronger than I.”

A couple of months later things seemed to be back to normal. You could see Steve around town without nearly vomiting. Seeing him still put you on edge, but he didn’t try and talk to you anymore. Whenever he saw you smiling and laughing it hurts him, reminding him of what he fucked up. You were living your best life. In the fallout of your relationship, you confided with your best friends and together started a feminist club at school. Some people made fun of it, but all those girls in that club were your support system. You could tell them anything and they wouldn’t tell a soul and would try and help you find a solution. The club even helped another girl leave her abusive boyfriend. It was the best thing you ever started.

Years later and the impact of what Steve did still haunts. You were away at college but that just made it worse. You were always weary when you were walking home alone or going out on a date. You tried not to be irrational, but it was hard, you were still recovering every day.

Many many years later and the impact of what Steve did no longer haunts you. You’re married and have one beautiful child with another on the way. The fears no longer linger and you are truly happy. You never really hear about Steve anymore. You had very few contacts back in Hawkins. You were far away and happy, away from all the pain of yesterday.

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Hey hey I hope you enjoyed and if you wanna request something like this lovely human did you can find the link to do so in my description or if you wanna read something else I’ve written you can do that from my masterlist whos link is also in my description, or you can do both, whatever floats your boat!!!

#stranger things #stranger things fic #stranger things imagine #stranger things reader insert #steve harrington #steve harrington fic #steve harrington x reader #steve harrington reader insert #steve harrington x you #i love steve #i love steve harrington #i love stranger things #request

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thehappiestandunluckiest · 5 years ago

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Being Radioactive

If the first thing that comes to your mind when you think of radioactive is the imagine dragons song, same.

So, January 10th, I traveled up to Lisbon. A scared, young gazelle, about to absorb a radioactive substance that would hopefully kill the powerful assassin that had taken over her 20 year old body. Something that I never had felt before but felt as soon as I was told that I had cancer was.... There are multiple cells in my body right now just eating away at my temple, and I have no power over it, and at any moment one could just go on a little trip through my body and stop at a vital organ and make itself at home and have little babies and over run my body and kill me. Now, I know that sounds so dramatic, but that’s how it feels, or at least that’s how I felt. I felt helpless, like a ticking time bomb, cancer is a bitch but feeling so helpless and even worse, feeling like a foreigner in your own body was so odd. I felt displaced like I was in my body but also being kicked out of it. I know I didn't have it anywhere near as bad as others have, I was lucky, I am lucky, that’s what I kept telling myself. But I couldn’t ignore feeling like I had an army of little Hitlers in my body, over throwing my own cells, altering my hormones, chewing through me.

I traveled up to Lisbon, smile on my face and jokes always on the tip of my tongue, but that’s how I react to stress, that why my bosses always love me, I thrive in chaos, or at least I trick everyone else into thinking I do. I was anxious but relieved to be getting this out of the way. If all worked out, I would be free of these pests that contaminate relentlessly. But i would also be having scans to see if it had spread, and that freaked me out, I wanted to be oblivious and stay in denial but I know that’s not the way to go.

So we travel up to Lisbon, and have two days as an out-patient where I spent a couple of hours each day having tests run and injections given in the oncology dept. It was fun having THE nurse from hell. I’m joking, but she sure was a character (and we all know what that means). Now I am not mean, but you will soon understand why I didn’t gel to this woman. So she grabs me and drags me to a room, “oh the nurse has vanished, we will just have to start ourselves” this set off alarms in my head - she seemed super hostile and her stabbing me with needles was not what I wanted.

She flings a plastic cup at me, “you have to pee in this”, she throws me into a bathroom, with another girl trying to pee into a cup. She goes “HA! oops” and closes the door. NOW LISTEN HERE! Have you ever had to pee into one of those cups? It’s a very very vulnerable position to be in. Hunched over, begging your bladder to open the flood gates, hand in the toilet bowl covered in your own piss. I felt so sorry for her. So I pee into this cup, clean up and go back to the nurses office. The older nurse is back and I let out the breath I had been holding in out of anxiety. Now, I just want to mention that all these stories are super real and I for real can’t make this sh#t up!“ God! Those shoes need to go into the bin! They’re so dirty.” She says as she’s leaning on the door frame.

This woman! I’m sat in the chair anxious awaiting the medicine that will help stop me from dying and she’s talking about my slightly dirty sneakers....So, the older nurse asks me where I’m from, she worked in London for a few years so we get into some small talk whilst she takes my blood, she’s distracting me from my ridiculous phobia. She asks me what I’m studying. “Oh - no. I actually work in a hotel, I’m a waitress.” “WHAT?! You don’t have a degree? How far is that going to get you, you can’t go far in life without one?” Now at this point I wanted to puke on the floor, not because I felt sick but so she would have to clean up my bile from the ground - that’s her job, how amazing is your f#cking degree now love? But I am a good christian girl so I simply say “well, I didn’t want to go to university. I got a good job straight out of school in a company that I can evolve in and have been evolving in”. The older nurse says she agrees that I am doing a good job going after what I want and not what is expected of me and that its the fact that you love what you do that counts. “Ok Emma that’s everything for today, see you tomorrow, same time!”

Now lets get to the real radioactive part.

Let’s set the mood. I haven’t eaten anything, not that I’d want to. Yesterdays injections have a side effect of headaches, not too bad. I am pale, make upless and wearing xxl sweat pants and an xl sweater - I’m more sweatpants than human but it made me feel all cozy. I have a suitcase filled with art supplies, my laptop, books and toiletries - the essentials you might say. Feeling sorry for me yet? I actually wasn’t too worried only one side effect - the slow death of suffocation if your esophagus swells up from the radiation burning your salivary glands. No biggie. (I would like to inform you all that even though this is all true - its sarcasm just for anyone who’s worried about me).

The hospital is huge, and very luxurious. Everyone is walking around with gucci bags and beautiful tans and I’m looking like hell but that’s ok I’m beyond caring.

I’m escorted to my room, it’s beautiful. Huge windows, lots of space, overlooking some of the city and the pediatrics block. I’m given the big speech explaining everything, let me give it to you in precis form as my Dad would say. I have to flush the toilet 4 times when i poop, and twice when i pee. The toilet has chambers so you have to aim said poop and pee into these chambers (it was like yoga trying to get into positions to aim but I don’t want to describe my bowel movements too much we aren’t that close yet - at least buy me coffee first!)

So the room is lovely only noticable difference is the space odessy esque toilet, and the huge lead panel that is placed infront of the door. They repeat that all of this is not for my own safety but for everyone elses, I harness all the power - is this the part where I become a super villan?

The fancy director of nuclear science came to my room in her anti radiation suit (yes - just like in HBO Chernobyl) and I injected the little pill through the rather odd tube. It was in a big lead box and had all the hazard signs on it and and made a *shhhhhhhh* sound when the box opened, what a fancy-dancy little pill.

Surprisingly I did not glow in the dark or have magnetic abilities - disappointing to say the least.

My two day stay was pretty uneventful, the food was actually quite good. I drank 10l of water and 2l of pure lemon juice - I was on the toilet ever 30 minutes and spent a good 7 minutes each time for the flushing routine. This lemon juice was to keep my salivary glands working which would stop my throat from swelling and thus stop me from maybe chocking myself to a long, endless sleep. I ended up with ulcers in my mouth from the lemon juice, BUT my skin got really clear and I had never felt so hydrated in all my life. I was left alone and my only comunication with my nurses was through the telecom. When my food was left for me I had to stand in the corner next by the window and wait until they had left my food behind the big lead panel before I could move again. It was kinda crazy because they looked at me like I was a monster in a cage. You know when you were a kid and turned the lights off in the hall and ran to your bed out of fear of the dark? That’s how they looked at me - it was oddly humourous and simultaneously eery and isolating (but I am writing this entry during the COVID19 pandemic and have been isolated in my house for 2 months now so that was nothing looking back on it).

All fluids that came out of me were very radioactive so I had to shower often. I was scared of choking in my sleep so I set alarms every two hours (I’m just very cautious ok!). On my last day I needed to have an MRI and blood tests done and so myself and another young girl, same age as me and same situation as me, were escorted to the tests area. We wadled through the whole hospital, the nurse would ask everyone to stay away from us and people would scatter away from us like we were radioactive - wait a minute.....

I had my scan, and had the geirger meter see how radioactuve I still was. Honestky this was what I was scared of. Not the actual treatment itself but what the results would be. I think this is a normal fear. It would change everything. Had it spread? Had it evolved into an even more malicious beast? So many thoughts running through my head. We went back to our rooms and awaited these dreaded results.

My dad had driven up to Lisbon to pick me up, he loves the drive. He calls and says that he is going to wait for me to be ‘set free’ until he goes into the hospital (all of us have spent too much time in hospital to the point that its a normal place to spend our time so we try and avoid it like the plague).

The doctor comes into my room and stands right next to me. Crazy human contact wow it’s so crazy how powerful having someone even just stood close to you has an effect on you.

My results are very positive - thank God. I smile and thank the doctor, I really am so happy. This enourmously heavy weight has been taken off of my shoulders, my eyebrows unforrowed and my shoulders eased up, my jaw declenched, my stomach stopped its sumersaults and I could breathe again.

The nurse calls me to say I need someone to come and get me for me to be discharged. I try and call my dad, straight to voicemail. I message no answer. I call my mum no answer. I call my brother, finally an answer after 4 attempts but he’s useless to me 2 hours away. shit. I am finally free and I can’t get out of the damn place! After an hour of me trying to call him and me freaking out because I don’t want to be stuck here any longer. I hear a voice through the door. “I am looking for my daughter”, ok lets get out of here.

I cant hug anyone or stay too close, I am tired but dying for some icecream. I finally am free, free of this monster. I wont be 100% out of the woods for a while yet but for now I am good. I stay in isolation at home for a week before I am allowed back out in public. The day I finally go out in public is to the shopping centre. I set off the alarms. The security alarms were going off as I walked past them. I walked through the shopping mall lauging like a lunatic, I really was radiocative after all. This was it- my super power.

I still worry from time to time, I get little scares and I obsessivly check for lumps and bumps, but I can rest a little easier now. I hope noone has to go through what I went through, or anything of the sort. But I would like to say that it wasnt all that bad, the treatment ran so smoothly that I thought that they had given me a dud pill. The operations before the treatment were also very smooth sailing. The whole thing went by easily (as easily as cutting your throat open can go), Why am I saying this? Because before I went for treatment I wanted to see how others reacted just so that I knew what to expect and so that i could prepare. Online everything was negative, blogs said that it was the worst experience. Not that it’s a great experience either but I think it’s important to not scare people about these things. Being sick sucks. It truly does, but being cured, or trying to get better is a true blessing, and us lucky lucky individuals who have access to health care (and even luckier if its free health care) and those of us who can go through these operations and come out on the other side should be so so grateful. I’m grateful for my operations, my access to clean hospitals, the best medical professionals, the kind auxilary staff that smiled at me when I was scared, the recepcionists that winked at me and wished me well. My parents that drove me accross the country to be treated by the best. My job for giving me health insurance that helped pay for some of the costs.

What I’m trying to say is that we sometimes over think the bad, and honestly I could easily sit here and write about a WHOLE LOAD of bad that has happened to me, but it wont changed anything or make it better, but what does is looking back and saying wow- I am so lucky. I had people send me best wishes, my collegues at work looked after me when I was ill, my family cared for me when I wasn’t able to do so on my own. Be grateful, add sunshine to a rainy day and see the rainbows appear.

love,

Em x

#cancer #thyroid #operation #hospital #thyroidcancer

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