#i know it sounds privileged and insane to say 'i want someone to point out Every weird thing i learned living in [redacted area]' but yeah.

[ink-asunder]

I literally can't get over the fact that I grew up somewhere where you COULDN'T look at other people/make eye contact/smile at other people without them seeing it as a ~challenge~ and now I'm expected, (with psychosis, possible autism, and chronic self isolation due to severe disability), to know what the fuck to do about other people constantly.

[spinji]

I NEED TO YAP ABOUT THIS MOVIE MY GOD-

YOU'RE NEXT SPOILERS UNDER CUT

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAaaaaokayokay-

Can I just say I DO NOT recommend seeing this the same day as watching the new episode because I have had a DAY-

Unfortunately, the theater I went to didn't have the booklets or promotional cups but not a huge loss. It's the price I pay to have my boyfriend by my side; worth it. ♡

As with all my other MHA theater outings the screening was packed with delightful weirdos (dubbed, if you happen to care). One guy had an extensive set of custom MHA lego guys (very cool) and two very enthusiastic Toga cosplayers were so kind and kept me from feeling like a dork going out in public in a Deku wig. All the love to them, fr.

The movie itself though ohhhhh MY~

If I'm being honest this one didn't surpass World Heroes Mission or Heroes Rising for me, but also I don't know what you could do to beat out the movies that gave me such extreme brainrot it got me to be a part of this fandom in the first place. Personal rankings for the movies, best to "worst" is 3, 2, 4, 1.

Maybe it's because I had higher expectations instead of being given the best character in the franchise suddenly with no warning but I did still really REALLY love it. The highest point I can give it is easily the animation. Absolutely zero scenes in this movie feel like they fell to the standard of the anime. Everything was fluid and detailed and so fun to look at. And yes, of course it made every attack flashy as fuck. I was giddy every time Bakugou let out an explosion.

The premise did sound insane going in, and it is, but it's an anime side movie. Caring about the plot is a bonus, not a requirement. I guess my only real gripe is that it felt a little too fast? Very few scenes had time to breathe and unlike the other movies there wasn't really any slow establishing opening. If you come to MHA exclusively for the action, I think this one will be your new favorite.

Okay- I'm gonna just bullet point my highlights because I'm barely restrained enough to sit down and type.

First of all GIULIO!!!

Listen- I knew I would love this guy but oh my god babygirl~

He responds to literally everyone approaching him by pointing a gun at them. No comment this is just great

When Deku tells him to stop shooting at someone, he just pulls out a SECOND GUN and points it at him too

His motorcycle also has guns. Ngl I have expected his eye implant to also have a gun for a moment there.

He is SUCH an asshole to Deku in the first half and I love it. Their dialogue exchanges were so funny.

And in the second half he just,,,,cracks under the pressure so hard,, Man is having the WORST day of his life fr. It's really nice to know he and Anna are safe at UA rn. Poor things deserve it.

Anna and Giulio are really cute romantically, Giulio is definitely adult but he's going in the Deku harem anyway. You can't stop me, I am capable of worse.

Anna herself unfortunately doesn't get much time since she spends most of the movie mind controlled but she's harmlessly sweet and adorable. Anna they could never make me hate you.

I want to smear Dark Might across the side of a wall and given how much they overanimated his expressions, I believe this is the intended effect.

Am I the only one that hopes he sees the Mech Might livestream just to rub salt in the wound? Don't you dare let All Might's name fall from your mouth again, you bag of scum.

I really REALLY wanted Izuku to get pissed off and start naming off inconsistencies between how All Might and Dark Might look: "His eyes are SKY blue, not ocean blue, and while his broad features don't make it obvious, his chin was actually much slimmer, also you got the silver age colors wrong-!" alas... you know he was thinking it though-

Big tiddy mind control gf Deborah my beloved- she has pretty privileges for everything

Actually a lot of the lesser goons of the family were kind of dorky and odd. I loved the energy! Why was one of them literally a D&D nerd that put on a wizard robe OVER HIS SUIT. Most entertaining movie villian group for sure.

The personal dreams everyone had under the mind control? Kill me. Kill me right the fuck now!

Shoto literally just wants a happy childhood with his family??? Where Touya wants to play with him????? And Rei was still happy????? UUGAHWAAAAAAAA

Tenya and Tensei being heroes together STOP-

Shoji with the little girl he saaaaaaved,,,and he didn't have his face scars anymoooooore,,,

So glad they didn't show Ochako's because you know they would have just animated that what if pixel animation of her and Toga being childhood friends and I would have vomited in sorrow.

Absolutely infuriating they broke continuity to have Katsuki call Izuku "Deku" and not "De-Izuku". Never forget what they took from us.

"Beat it, cool side character!" is the best line in the movie. Katsuki does not forget what happened with Rody and he does NOT forgive.

Followed closely by "I'm falling down crotch-first!" And you wonder why I write the fics I do about you, Deku-

Deku being a legend as a jailbreaker hunter is so amazing?? Yes baby, they're so scared of you! You're doing amazing sweetie!

I might think of more but tldr: YOU'RE NEXT IS A REALLY FUN TIME AND YOU SHOULD WATCH IT!

[rei-ismyname]

X-MEN #7 From The Ashes

Possibly the biggest downside to the circular, repetitive nature of X-Men comics is that real life is awful enough. Jettisoning the hope of the Krakoan age for the misery porn of From The Ashes feels kinda callous and depressing in a world where there are multiple ongoing genocides and the USA just said yes to fascism again. Nevertheless, join me in some light escapism - a little Magneto goes a long way. Spoilers for X-Men #7.

I've also been spelling Jed Mackay's name wrong. Sorry

Running throughout this issue is Magneto's flashback to The Iron Night. The 'this is Logan behaviour' exchange from the previews has been all over my dash and it's great to get more of this dynamic. It's fantastic to see someone in universe say it out loud - Logan is a whiny little bitch, often a hypocrite, and can be blind to his immortality privilege. Scott knows that better than anyone - his wife's boyfriend throws a tanty like no other. They love him, but it's another reason why he's not the best Wolverine. I hope 'Logan behaviour' sticks around in the fandom.

This is Logan behaviour, Idie

I appreciate the informal nature of the Piper discussion. For one, you don't want to scare the kid or make her feel unwelcome. Idie said that she 'couldn't wait for you (Cyclops) and Magneto' re: Idie - having Psylocke be the one to spell it out for her is effective. The X-Men IS a team and the stakes are incredibly high. Besides, as Beast said in my first screenshot they have a Cerebro. This test could have been done from afar without the risk, and it's implied that it was.

I'm enjoying seeing Idie behaving compassionately, but it looks like she's got some serious anger and mistrust of authority (both justified) from Krakoa. It's great she's getting this kind of character focus and I hope it's followed up on. So many threads and beats have been setup that are likely to be disrupted by the Raid on Graymalkin event kicking off next week, but I'll reserve my judgement on that for when this first arc is concluded.

This is Logan behaviour, wild sentinel.

Gotta love Max and Scott's friendship being shown as they drink crappy beers and bask in Magneto rhetoric. I don't want to question the expert, but is this sentinel Wild or wild? It's clearly not an ORCHIS Iron Man model, but Wild Sentinel has a very specific meaning.

Okay, clearly Wild. It's not attacking either of them, though. Kind of Cyclops to spell out the Star Trek Borg adaptive schtick they've got going on. This is the action scene of the issue, the mandated violence.

I don't mean that entirely pejoratively either. I'm just as susceptible to the Magneto and Cyclops power fantasy as the next person, though it's a bit of a dirty trick to wait until issue 7 to show it.

This is NOT Logan behaviour, Magneto.

Sigh. I love your sense of drama Magneto. Play to the crowd, old man. I hope your monologue doesn't become ironic. Oh wait, we already know it has. This could have been a clever moment.

Uh oh, looks like his knees are weak and arms are heavy. Vomit on his sweater already...

So we see the moment Mags' powers start to shit the bed, right after a Wild Sentinel attack. I'd be suspecting Cassandra Nova's involvement just off these two data points tbh. Which idiot resurrected her anyway?

Oh, fuck off. Logan behaviour, Mackay.

R-LDS sounds like horse shit to me. Scott says 'we don't know that for sure' so how does this speculative condition have an acronym already? Mags is speaking as if it's a fact, but he doesn't even have the same body The Five resurrected. Maybe he has Umari-Key-Waiting Room-Brashear Portal Syndrome. Obviously he's scared but this feels like an idiot ball moment, and a cynical jab at Krakoa. The Five was something they got right, even with Sinister in the mix. The implications would be insane. 16 million Genoshans were resurrected, 250k Krakoans (give or take), a whole bunch of vulnerable human children via The Phoenix Foundation, Captain America, and 1000 fucking years of Sinisterized clones etc that had nothing of the sort.

No, there's way too many data points that apply to Magneto alone to make seriously considering The Five's resurrections as the source of patient zero's malady. It would be scientifically irresponsible to get to the point of naming it and then an acronym for that. Mags is good enough at science to know this, and Beast is too. I'm no scientist, but it manifested during a fight with a Wild Sentinel. I assume they have better resources than the Marvel wiki I'm using, but that robot/Cassandra Nova is my prime suspect - the lady they know for certain to be involved in ongoing genetic fuckery - activating X-Genes. Though not Piper Cobb...

Or yes Piper Cobb? Smash cut cliffhangers aside, this would be a great time to retcon Homo Sapiens Superior right the fuck out of existence. It's never made sense, and not just the 'Superior' part. Again, I'm not a scientist but I'm certain that's not how phylogeny works. They're mutated humans, but I don't live in 616 which canonically operates on impossible physics, so idk. My fingers are crossed but my expectations are nil.

That is Logan behaviour, masked kidnapper

Okay, we'd known from solicits that Beast would be getting beat down in captivity at Graymalkin. I had speculated he'd give himself up to get inside, but the ol' bag over the head works too. I dig his outfit.

X-Men #7 is worth reading IMO, and it's one of the better ones based off Magneto content alone. Last issue I wrote that the formula was becoming easier to spot, and I stand by that. A handful of character moments, some new information about one of the ongoing mysteries but it piles more questions on top of half answers and speculation. For example, we get to see Scott and Max fight a sentinel and be friends. There's new information there but a LOT more questions. The characters are at the point of absurd speculation which raises tension but doesn't make them look very competent. To kick off the event 'Raid on Graymalkin' they went with a final page bag over the head instead of any choice and comic book events notoriously derail everything so friends can argue and punch each other.

All that said, it's only *just* acceptable in my opinion - and that's the best I can say for the rest of the line too. We know that there's been ongoing issues with writers simply not knowing major Krakoan plot points, though they probably have the excuse that they were writing before FOTHOX/ROTPOX ended. Surely there's someone in charge of overseeing all this, like Hickman was as Head of X. *Looks at the credits* Tom Brevoort - Conductor of X... That's a fancy way to say 'line editor/hatchet man.' I'll stop there and save it for the From The Ashes piece I'm doing, but spoilers: I'm not impressed with how this guy keeps failing upwards.

What did you think? Thanks for reading.

[yanderefarm]

Basically, nephite with a reader that's a high ranking member of their cult.

Since cults as a whole focus around manipulation, brainwashing ect ect a high ranking member of the cult would know how to manipulate the members below them as well as possibly some ranking members above them.

So, the reader sees Nephite, a cute little omega who fits with him, can easily take advantage of his position, convincing the people even higher then him that Nephite needs a wise older, member of the cult to guide him, be his darling husband and keep him in line so he becomes a good wife.

But once they marry the reader decides to constantly degrade, humiliate Nephite, saying how bad of a wife he is and the only thing he really is good for is being a hole.

Of course outside of the house he's nicer, small comments about what Nephite could do better when at a gathering, making it seem like the reader really is just trying to make him the best wife he could be, so much so that even Nephite himself starts to believe it.

Not sure how much sense that makes really and feel free to ignore this if it doesn't, English do be kinda hard (add on anything you want, this is really just brainrot from my head) (I basically stole the Emil darling special but am pretty sure if you lied that Nephite was cheating with proof he'd get murdered by the cult or get a lobotomy)

-🥺

i love this so much.

cw;; nsft, dark content, abuse, religion, omegaverse, brainwashing, dead dove, mind breaking, domestic abuse

and like you wouldn't even really have to convince the elders because "oh you're a dominant alpha and you want to make the dominant omega your wife? well of course!!!"

i always really love like how helpless nephite is despite being the yandere and the one who kidnaps you in the original story.

he has no power! if you really wanted to demean him and make him feel bad in public no one would even bat an eye. but keeping up the appearance of a really good loving husband is better because it would really help in making him feel crazy. his friends tell him that they're jealous he got such a good husband who's so loyal to the church and so good to him!! and nephite feels bad he really feels like he's a failure and a bad person and everytime he wants to talk to someone about these feelings they talk about how great you are.

you're not even as mean as you could be. you don't hit him, you don't even really yell at him. you're always doing your part as a loving husband, you take care of him and kiss him and treat him so good when he's being good. but then you come home and see he hasn't finished doing the laundry because he got distracted trying to finish dinner. you let out a disappointed sigh and just that sound makes his brain start to panic.

as far as actual punishment goes its so good to watch his own brain work against him. refusing to give him kisses or even touching him because only good wives deserve affection. making him stand next to you while you eat and relax because a good wife deserves to relax after a long day not a lazy one. he'll stand there, the humiliation a reminder that he's not good enough.

"its such a shame, you really had so much promise when you were younger."

and you don't elaborate so he drives himself insane. he's disappointed you, he's not as good as he could of been, he's worthless. he'll have to earn the privilege to sleep next to you in bed and god he'll do anything for you at that point. if he fails to (which you get to decide arbitrarily) then he either sleeps on the floor or on the couch. regardless of where he's sleeping he'll cry himself to sleep afterwards because he's so mad at himself for being a bad wife and he feels so bad about himself. if he's next to you though he can get kisses and more gentle mind breaking as you assure him you're going to make him a good wife no matter how long it takes, you're the only one who tolerates this horrible behavior of his but he doesn't need to worry because you love him no matter how bad he is.

also i think about omegaverse inspections with nephy so much dude. inspecting his privates before marriage to make sure he's still a virgin and absolutely humiliating him in front of the elders because they all have to be there to validate. once you're married insisting he wear shorter dresses at home that come above his knees and meticulously inspecting his outfits to make sure he fits your dress code. preforming random inspections of his privates to make sure if you wanted to you could sleep with him right then, fingering him and getting him slick just to pull away and say he passed inspection. making a rule that he's not allowed underwear so three times a day you make him go through an inspection, in the morning when he first gets dressed he has to come to you and pull up his skirt, when you get home from work if he's done all his chores he gets to greet you with a kiss and then pull up his skirt to show you again, and then finally before bed after he's changed into his nightgown he has to pull it up and show he's not wearing anything. the constant humiliation of it would absolutely make him embarrassed and fussy at first until his head starts to get fuzzy from all the different brainwashing and mistreatment.

once his little head is successfully mind broken he's just a ditzy smiling wife. he doesn't like to leave the house or go out with friends because that means he doesn't have enough time to do everything that is expected of him. when you get home he'll come up to you and stand very still like a doll until you decide whether or not he deserves a kiss. he's an absolute blushing silly mess for kisses! all he needs is a soft peck on the cheek and he'll start giggling and blushing like a school girl. he's such a good wife that all the younger alphas in the community ask you to teach them how to make their wives into the perfect wife. this includes some of nephite's friends so while you're teaching the alphas he does get to spend time with them again and somewhere past all the brainwashing he actually gets a sick glee out of seeing his friends who helped him be broken like this start going through the same torment and pain he went through.

[nilboxes]

Light cone art so powerfully homoerotic someone (me) furiously pumped out a 6k word fic in 2 days. They're going to kill me. 🔗 : AO3

Extensive notes/ramblings below!

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I have not recovered from the mental power I had to pool to write this lmao I couldn't do anything at work except figure these two out and why Aventurine looked so BESOTTED but the absence of the little white dots in his eyes in the light cone and in the leaked models made him look like there's such an edge to him (someone on twitter pointed out that he has no light in his eyes!) and it really fanned the flames like what the fuck is this GUY ON and why is it directed at Dr. Ratio LMAO (I mean why not Ratio is so pretty)

So then I thought, there is NO WAY Ratio is going to react surprised or scared for Aventurine he's going to be ANNOYED lmao. There are possibly 2 more chances in that cylinder before it's 100% in there and I was looking at the probabilities on Wikipedia and I was laughing at myself at how a gay ship was going to make me STUDY probability when I hated this type of stuff in university and I was like yeah Ratio will probably be like hey, you can't stop there, and pulls twice lmao

And I was thinking they would make eyes at each other homoerotically while doing so because wow sexual tension so potent you can taste it through the screen in the LC art and everything just went from there I really cannot get over how Aventurine seems so... sooooooo in love with Ratio and in my head Ratio is like this man is insane what is he on but he gets a taste of that and it's like wow it's actually a little good but Ratio is also cautious so he won't ride that wave too hard but Aventurine looks really down bad for a man who seems like he doesn't care

So initially I really wanted to wait until Aventurine came out before I start my hyperfixation train because we know so little about him other than key facts I have formed in my head-- -he's perpetual smiler (confirmed by a leak of the loading screen blurbs) and like, idk from his design it just suits him and even in his voice cameo with Topaz his VA sounds like they are smiling while they are talking ALLL the time idk at least I got this one right -mr gambling gambler who is very self-assured about his luck, mr smug man. when I wrote he'd win 99.9-0.1 he believes this and if he dies I think to him it would just mean his time's up for realsies anyway and whatever idk man is not very sane -there's some really weird leaks and I'm not sure if it's confirmed but he was invited to be a Masked Fool which made him ALLL the more interesting for me because as a Sampo Mr Scammer fan it doesn't mean if he joins the Masked Fools he wouldn't be able to amass money but this guy seems to really like the thrill being an IPC senior manager provides then which is like this guy is a lives fast dies young kinda guy -I HC from that neck tattoo he could have been an indentured servant (cough slave cough) or a prisoner of some kind, but eitherway it says he wasn't privileged in any sense of the word but the way his character design is so decked out in rings gold watches and even a bracelet it means he's climbed very far, so he is an ambitious man, lots of "material pleasures" as Dr Ratio puts it in my fic and he still wants more. That kinda guy makes for a very intense lover imo very "I get what I want" type, and I really wanted to balance that with his attraction to Dr Ratio and how he doesn't want to drive Dr Ratio away with his crazy but he's also very horny... Anyway I also totally underestimated his height difference with Dr Ratio I really should have pulled up that leak of them side by side but ahh being a short king dom top is so cute on him

As for Dr Ratio I really cannot see him top unless Aventurine power bottoms why but he's so "diligent" in all aspects but I see him being a pillow princess in bed

I also feel a little bad that I wasn't able to write more bickering between the two of them but I also feel like the normally talkative Dr Ratio keeps HIGH HIGH walls around Aventurine because it's hard to tell what this guy is thinking so he's thinking so hard trying to make sense of it all and he says little as not to give away anything that might be wrong

I feel like adding "all is fair in love and war" in Latin omina iusta sunt amore belloque was a little gratuitous but I also want to subtly sprinkle in that Aventurine is so obsessed with Ratio, so down bad for him, that he reads stuff about Dr Ratio a lot enough to come across a translation of the quote and I'm like no yeah way Ratio can deal with crazy-eyed Aventurine saying/declaring love while he's still computing the electric exchange they had so he's definitely like picking up on Aventurine's obsession/infatuation with him and he's like NOPE DON'T SAY IT and would rather kiss him to shut him up than hear it lmao

I honestly despaired at how I was going to start closing the scenes because it was like nighttime and I wanted to finish it already because they're killing me, so like, making Ratio fall asleep while Aventurine pours his heart out (I asked a friend who read it what he thought Aventurine said and they got it spot on so I figure it was conveyed properly on my end and I was really proud of this bit) seemed like a cute way to do it. The narration lied, Dr Ratio heard it but he got selective hearing and totally did NOT want to reply/acknowledge it. Poor Aventurine, but it's not as if he won't try again

I have waaay more ideas about them and I wonder if I can hold off until Aventurine releases or we get more crumbs idk but I want to write some kuudere Ratio (with a bit of tsun hehe)

Special mentions other than the lightcone art that fueled me: this art from Twitter that and this post that kinda made me think long and hard...

[finniestoncrane]

HIII im now a big big fan of Eugenia, she’s got the most beautiful face!! And look at those curves omg🫀🫀 what’s the lore behind her story? C:

jkhakjhasd EEEEE thank you!! ;-; i had her lore all written out and ready and then realised i had kinda accidentally written the plot of shrek so... yeah BUT i'm keeping it because i like it!!

adding it under a read more because it's kinda long and ramble-y!! 💚

SO post-war, eugenia is a single woman in her early 30s. her family are wealthy and she's an only-child, so she's a little bit spoiled and a little bit sheltered. she doesn't want to be though (and this is a big source of her conflict with the world around her, where she's so desperate to not be coddled by her parents that she sounds quite ungrateful and often doesn't realise the privilege she has).

her family are obsessed with her being single and her mum especially is pushing her to find a husband. like desperate enough that she's bought her a space in vault 111 because they reasoned that if she was one of the few people left alive then maybe she'd stand a better chance of someone settling for her (her family are... not best pleased with her nature, she's kind of rebellious in the most middle-class white way imaginable... also she's not slim which is a real disappointment to her mother)

vault 111 is close to where her apartment in concord was and her uncle, who lived in sanctuary hills, while her family were living in nahant (she grew up in quincy but her parents retired to nahant)

so yeah, gene (which her mother hates as a nickname, though her father did call her little genie) is frozen in vault 111. bit of canon divergence, but not everyone in vault 111 died.

upon hearing rumours of the vault dweller (nate or nora i havent decided yet) who was unfrozen, jack cabot decides that he would LOVE to have someone to talk to who remembers the world as he did. he sends his trusted sentry edward deegan out to the vault to see if there's anyone worth rescuing. most of the people have died, but there's one single person left: gene.

edward is kinda taken back by her, and as he's explaining to her what happened they kind of bond, especially on their journey back to cabot house. there's a bit of flirting, but both deegan and gene are happy to settle on friendship since they both assume the other wouldn't be interested in them

when gene gets back to cabot house, jack is going to offer to let her live there with them all (his mother and sister are less than amused, but his mum will grow to like her) and gene is a bit hesitant until she learns deegan lives there too. it slowly becomes more obvious however that jack is kind of falling in love with her, and she's not returning his advances. he gets kinda pissed off and says she cant stay there if she wont at least play along and try to get to know him, and she doesnt want to lose the security (plus jack has threatened to get rid of deegan too for... reasons... and gene doesnt want him to lose his job) so she agrees BUT jack has to let her live her life and go out with deegan sometimes to explore AND he has to let her cut hre hair and dye it a crazy colour which she's always wanted to do

anyway her and deegan are going to have an insane affair but i'm teasing myself up to that point and i havent decided on most of the details of that yet lol

[chronicowboy]

180 years of searching, and I'm three feet away (from you) | 32k

AKA The National Treasure AU in which buck is a huge history nerd, chimney is a tired tech guy and eddie is just trying to do his job

Dr Diaz's eyes flick from Chimney to Buck and his cheeks flush a pretty pink that Buck wants desperately to taste. He doesn't miss the sweep of his body Dr Diaz does, or the way he averts his eyes when he realises he's been caught.

Chimney nudges him, barely concealing his amusement at the situation, and jerks his head at the two seats in front of the desk.

"Good afternoon, gentlemen." Dr Diaz says as he stands up to greet them.

"Hi." Chim shakes his hand good-naturedly. "Howard Han."

Eddie turns to Buck, and something charged and heavy passes between them before Buck can remember to, you know, be human and shake the pretty man's hand.

"Uh, Evan Buckley. Its n-nice to meet you, Dr Diaz."

"Please," he clears his throat, "call me Eddie."

"Eddie." Buck nods, savouring the weight of the name on his lips.

"Take a seat."

They all sit down and Buck is alarmingly aware all of a sudden just how insane they're about to sound.

"Is, um, Eddie short for Eduardo?" Buck asks, a poor attempt to prolong the time when Eddie doesn't think he's talking to someone who belongs in an asylum.

"Edmundo." Eddie smiles at him, and Buck's eyes catch on a picture of a curly-haired boy with crutches on the shelves behind him. He's quite possibly the cutest kid Buck has ever seen.

Another frame catches his attention then, this one displaying an almost complete set of George Washington's campaign buttons.

"Wow." Buck traces a gentle finger down the side of the frame. "This is a beautiful collection."

"It would be." Eddie huffs. "If I could find the seventeen-eighty-nine inaugural."

"I found one once." Buck murmurs, a plan already forming in his head. He's been told a few times that his love language may be gift giving. Or acts of service. Or words of affirmation. So he's a love polyglot, so what?

Out of the corner of his eye, he catches the bewildered look Chimney is shooting him and clears his throat, blushing deeply.

"You, um," Eddie fiddles with a biro, "told my assistant that this was an urgent matter?"

"Uh, yes, sir." Buck barely resists the urge to face palm. Sir? Maybe he does belong in a fucking asylum. Chimney's never going to let him live this down. "Okay, so, I'll get straight to the point." Buck sucks in a deep breath and summons all the tact he has. "Someone's going to steal the Declaration of Independence."

Eddie blinks, slumping back into his seat. He stares at them blankly but, to his credit he manages not to laugh. He turns to Chimney who only shrugs.

"Its true." He grimaces. "Sounds crazy, but the woman is relentless. She wouldn't let a few hundred security measures stop her."

"Okay." Eddie drops the pen and folds his hands together, resting them on the tabletop and leaning forward in a way that makes his biceps bulge. "I think maybe you should talk to the FBI."

"Been there, done that." Chim mutters.

"And?"

"And they assured us that the Declaration cannot possibly be stolen." Buck answers. "But—"

"Well, the FBI would be right." Eddie's eyes dart to the phone and Buck pleads with the universe for even the slightest chance.

"We're not so sure." Buck leans forward. "However, if we were given the chance, the privilege, to examine the document—" Eddie cocks his head with a frown. "We'd be able to tell you if it were in any danger."

"And what would you be looking for?" He asks, exasperated and a little intrigued.

"We believe," Buck winces slightly, "that there's an encryption on the back."

"Like a code?" Eddie frowns, eyes dancing with mirth.

"Yes, sir." Buck closes his eyes and rolls them at himself. Welp, may as well lean into the crazy.

"Could you clarify?"

"A cartograph," Buck says at the same time Chimney mumbles,

"Treasure map."

Eddie's eyebrows jump halfway up his forehead.

"What my colleague means to say," Buck butts in, "is a map of..." Fuck, there's really no good way to put this. "Hidden items," he clears his throat, "of historic and intrinsic value."

Eddie stares blankly again.

"If it makes you feel any better," Chim whispers, "this is where we lost the FBI."

"You're treasure hunters." Eddie sighs and drops his head into his hands. God, even his exasperation is sexy.

"Treasure protectors might be more accurate." Buck corrects gently.

"Mr Buckley, I have personally seen the back of the Declaration," that really shouldn't make Buck hot under the collar, but he's a history buff, sue him, "and I promise you the only thing there is a notation that reads—"

"Original Declaration of Independence, dated four of July. Yes, sir."

Eddie flounders for a moment and, yeah, its a little disconcerting just how hot someone reciting historical facts can be, Buck can attest to that.

"But no map." Eddie recovers.

Buck bites back a groan and shoots a pained look at Chimney who only shrugs helpfully.

"Its... Invisible."

"Right." Eddie nods slowly.

"And that's where we lost the Department of Homeland Security."

"May I ask what led to your theory on this invisible map?"

"We found an engraving on the stem of a two-hundred year old pipe." Buck answers.

"A Mason's pipe." Chim clarifies.

"Can I see the pipe?" Eddie brightens.

Fuck.

"We don't, um, have it?" Chim offers.

"Did," Eddie leans forward, looks left and right, lowers his voice," did Mothman take it?"

(read on ao3)

[aeoki]

Atlantis - Underwater: Chapter 5

Location: Okinawa Restaurant Characters: Touri, Yuzuru & Wataru Season: Winter

Wataru: I am suddenly interested in that topic! An election – how wonderful! Very much like a human drama that’s full of trickery!

Touri: You can only say that because it’s got nothing to do with you… It’s nothing as fun as it sounds, you know.

Wataru: Well, I’ve already graduated from Yumenosaki, so in reality, it really has nothing to do with me. But if I’m allowed to meddle, then oh, I shall very much do so indeed.

Yuzuru: Right. It may be somewhat difficult without the help of an external party such as yourself, Hibiki-sama. Therefore, I hope you can seriously consider lending a hand in this matter.

I was also thinking of asking Eichi-sama for his help. Well, the main agenda of the meeting was too important so I didn’t have the chance to, however.

Touri: D–Don’t be too much of a busybody. You’re always like this, Yuzuru.

Everyone treats me as if I’m useless…

But that’s also why it made me happy.

Eichi-sama wanted to entrust a big matter to me.

He wanted to entrust one of the branch offices that would be a part of “Project-ATLANTIS” to me.

I was very close to being involved in one of Eichi-sama’s great plans, serving as a subordinate he can rely on.

Wataru: I’ll say this several times over, but isn’t it too early to give up? It should definitely be possible for you to be involved at this point in time.

I can help convince Eichi as well.

Yuzuru: That would be great. You’re one of the ultimate weapons when it comes to dealing with Eichi-sama, after all.

Wataru: My effectiveness depends on how you use me, though. Eichi is someone who can abandon the things he loves for his own goals.

Yuzuru: Hehe. That would be the biggest difference between the Young Master and Eichi-sama, I’m sure.

And that is most certainly a rift that should not be filled.

Touri: Uuu~ But I wanna be like Eichi-sama.

I want everything that he has. I want to like the things he likes and hate the things he hates.

Wataru: I don’t think I can recommend becoming exactly like Eichi.

If you wish to be loved by him, that is.

I think he must hate himself most in this world. If you become exactly like him, it’s highly likely he’ll come to crush you first and foremost – deeming you an eyesore.

Touri: Uuu~ Then what should I do?

I wanna be like Eichi-sama because I love him but if I do that, he’ll hate me!

Wataru: If being liked by Eichi is your final goal, then you should aim to be me.

Eichi loves me, after all. You should learn from your butler and imitate me.

Yuzuru: When and where did I ever imitate you?

Touri: Sometimes, you naturally do magic tricks, Yuzuru.

…Hmm~ That got me thinking but I have a feeling my final goal isn’t to be loved by Eichi-sama.

That’s why I’ve never thought about being like you, Hibiki-senpai, nor have I ever wanted your position.

You said those things half-jokingly but it feels like my true feelings are different.

But if that’s the case, then what is it that I truly want? What is my final goal…?

Wataru: Well, you should take some time to slowly think about it. Only those living out their youth have the privilege to go through the suffering of their troubles.

Touri: Okay, Uncle Wataru.

Wataru: Hehehe. Uncle Wataru is happy to see you’ve obediently listened to what I’ve said, Touri-tan.

Yuzuru: What’s the matter all of a sudden? Have you finally gone insane?

Wataru: I’m currently studying the grammatical structure of how uncles typically speak. It’s surprisingly difficult. The more quirks a role has, the easier it is to play them – usually, anyway.

Yuzuru: Hibiki-sama, I do respect that part of you that always aspires to improve yourself.

Touri: Yeah… I’ve gotta do the same – I’ve gotta work harder and grow even bigger.

To achieve that, I need to properly do the things I gotta do one by one.

First, I need to focus on the student council election that’s right in front of me. I’ll think about “Project-ATLANTIS” after that.

I was actually pretty interested in it.

It seems the branch office that will be built on that cursed land is gonna be called “ATLANTIS”, too.

But unlike the other fake ES branches, it’s gonna be more like an amusement park apparently.

Wataru: The branch office will be an amusement park? Why do such an odd thing?

Yuzuru: It seems there are quite a number of complicated reasons for it.

Touri: Yeah. That land has connections to “Godfather” and the higher-ups won’t let a new building be built on it unless it’s an amusement park.

Apparently, idol agencies and other similar buildings would be a no too.

It’s a weird way to phrase it, but the surrounding area is like a closed-off region when it comes to idol culture – the people there know nothing about it.

Wataru: It sounds almost religious… That’s why I’m sure they’re against building it on that land. The ES branch office would be like the pyramid of idol culture.

Yuzuru: Indeed. It seems this “Godfather” individual is still influencing the industry’s higher-ups even after death.

If that dream were to come true, then their impression of the land should also be an auspicious one.

To begin with, the location is a great choice, geography-wise – it’s located in an area where it has great influence over the entire region.

Wataru: Hmm. That would be a necessary strategic point for ES to proceed in its nation-conquering. Given the character of the place, it would also be quite hard for anyone to lay a finger on it.

Yuzuru: Right. That’s why I’m sure they decided to strike their weak point.

Wataru: I see – a land where idol things are banned…

And to avoid complaints, they had to turn the branch office into something akin to an amusement park.

And they would just say, “This has nothing to do with idols, you know~”

Touri: Yeah. Apparently, it’s gonna be a second version of “SANCTUARY” on the surface.

But, unlike “SANCTUARY”, they’ll insist that it’s a normal amusement park that has nothing to do with idols…

And Eichi-sama tried to entrust this important project to me.

…When I saw Eichi-sama build “SANCTUARY”, I thought I wanted to do that once in my life too.

It looked like it’d be so much fun, building an amusement park – a utopia – that’s full of dreams and the things you like.

But I don’t think I have any dreams or ideals, much less things I like, that are needed to build an amusement park right now.

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[bisolationist]

piqued-curiosity/718080230266470400

I'm so sorry. This is so funny. I agree with the post itself but it's hilarious that she can't see she's doing literally the EXACT same thing about bisexuals. When lesbians call us dick worshipers, compare bi women to TIMs, or talk shit about our rape statistics to make us sound like liars and harpies, her response is the exact thing she's criticizing! She mentions it in passing, in some completely non-confrontational "well I don't 100% agree with everything but let's agree to disagree" way and rushes to praise the author for being soooo insightful and to say we all need to listen to her lol. When people get mad she's sidelining the rape apologia, she triples down on that bisexuals are zeroing in on the wrong thing and anyway she didn't fully agree with it or anything and something something Andrea Dworkin! Why can't anyone get it through their skulls that it's ALSO demeaning and triggering to lecture people they shouldn't "zero in" on people belittling their rape and instead they should use "criticial thinking" to care about "(what is implied to be) more important conversation" about lesbophobia. Clearly she gets it if she sees why a useless disclaimer that then gives all the textual sympathy to the perp is bad!

Not to mention how she reacted to the blackpills harassing bi rape victims, saying they're just angry at bisexual homophobia and they need compassion and anyway what does it harm. Is that not the same shit she's criticizing here?

💀💀💀

omg you're right anon.

The easiest explanation I can see is that these people DO think that biphobia of any severity SHOULD be dismissed for more important things (literally anything is more important), and they DO think in some way that bi rape victims deserve to be demeaned and degraded as punishment for other bi people being homophobic (or at least they have no right to complain if they are).

If it's not that... then, what? I guess maybe they're just so secure in their assumption that bisexuals are always in the wrong and whining about nothing that they become incapable of seeing how spreading rape apologia with only passing criticisms about general misogyny (and absolutely not addressing the homophobia of it; more on this later) and then immediately dismissing it to focus on "the real problem" is actually kind of insane? Like just a complete lack of empathy there? I guess this just loops around to being the first thing to me.

But yeah, it just seems IMPOSSIBLE to get anyone to just stand up to say "no you're just being homophobic and/or misogynistic" and accept that as enough of an answer when someone starts belittling the homophobic abuse of bi people. There's always a million conditionals that get spit out - "oh they're angry because they've been hurt by homophobic bisexuals" - "oh these people are wrong but they need compassion uwu" - "oh well bisexuals are sooo privileged this doesn't affect them who cares". And ultimately the conversation shifts about how much of this shit bisexuals deserve it and to what degree lol. And yeah you know, it never gets called homophobic, despite the fact there's really not many things more severely homophobic than belittling, silencing, and ridiculing SSA ppl attempting to speak out about homophobic abuse they've suffered. Just a fun quirky thing to do if it's some bihet ig?

I guess part of the problem is that so many people are so much worse and so much more outwardly hateful and wretched, that these cowards dropping "Well I don't agree with aaaall of it but gross language aside she's RIGHT and you bihets need to to get over yourselves and listen to her <3" bullshit honestly think they're nuanced heroes giving neutral and enlightened views - and they get mad if we see through it! They actually get mad if we don't want to be sold rape apologia in a polite package, just because their friends are worse and outwardly wishing hate crimes on us!

There's no point in calling out the hypocrisy though because as we already saw they just spin it to say bisexuals are weaponizing our rape or whatever and we should stop trying to censor their andrea dworkin or whateverrrr.

[wench-and-jezebel]

The Musketeers Reaction: A Rebellious Woman

Jezebel (@typicalopposite) reacts [with occasional asides by Wench (@scripted-downfall)]

[Starting out with both Athos and Flirt; a good start for both of us]  Whooop whoooop!!

Le gasp

Oooooof, poor girl

Well shit, she ded

Oooop!

Men.  😤😤

[Bruh, this woman going for the Musketeers for why]

“As sane as you and me. Or me anyway” 🙂

Oooop plot twist

Ooooop!

Tantrum?  “That allowed?”  [*simultaneously* "Is that allowed?"  Louis sounded so confused ;aldskfj]  😂😂😂

Ew men!  Well, man! But still

[For an episode that started with Athos and Aramis, they haven't been in it much :(  (just wait tho)]  Ooop… You said that and they appeared 🙂

Ooooooop… Tantrum!  [tbf, wouldn't you throw a tantrum if some dude wrote a pamphlet saying some other dude can have you killed?]  Fair!

["That's very, very shocking"  Sir, your Twelfth Doctor is showing]

Bruh.  Your wife.  [*simultaneously* Also.  SIR.  YOUR WIFE.  IS RIGHT THERE]  !!!  LIKE HAVE YOU EVEN EVER LOOKED AT HER!?!  (Flirt has)

Oooop ["Probably only mental vacancy"  Biatch]

Poor Athos is getting heart eyes and his wife is just standing in the background

[Forget beauty; trauma's apparently the flirting style to choose]  Ma’am’s gonna get ded

😖😖😖 [Ah, yes, have a *bone*]

Oooop!  Now Athos has heart eyes!  Er, heart lips?  Heart everything

Ma’am that’s gonna get you DED  [not saying that he's concerned about this, but]  ☠️☠️☠️☠️

Ooop!  Ooooooop!!

[Do you see what I mean, btw, by the Cardinal's scheming and misguided but not completely, totally evil?  Like, he's definitely better than this dude]  I do!  [He's actively like.  Okay, whoa, I said she was insane, I didn't say "deal with her firmly", is she reallyyyyyy a heretic?]  ☠️☠️☠️☠️

["I'm sure his face was a picture when you kissed him"  Yeah, but Milady don't care at alllllll] 😂😂😂😂

😦 OOF [ngl, he's got a point… She kinda needs to consider the consequences of what she's doing.  I have so much analysis about this ep, oml]  LOL  But also ☹️☹️☹️☹️ oooof

😂 Mentally he’s like say no say no say no

Ack, would not want to be alive back then

"It ended badly?" "You could say that" He says with a smile

[She just ran smack into him ☠️]

Well damn BY HER HAIR ☹️☹️

[The bookssssss]  😭😭😭😭

[His face tho]

Oooop the fingers!  He goes "four girls" and holds up his fingers and they literally are all pointing in different ways

[Someone's pissedddddd]

“Take this… but like… I want it back”  [*simultaneously* Sir just gave away his gift from the freaking Queen]

“We all gotta accept our fate in life.”  Everyday I wake up poor with a bunch of attitude filled hellions I think the same thing, chick 😮‍💨😮‍💨😮‍💨

– – –

Jezebel: I can’t think of much to say… but Athos was giving the star lady the smoulder. Putting Flirt to shameeee!  Then of course it all went to shit

Wench: Ma'am, I honestly don't get how you watch this and are like.  *shrug*  Not much to say.  (All affection possible, to be clear.)  But like.  I'm watching it and I'm like.  HOLY FUCKING SHIT OH MY GOD THE PARALLELSSSSS

Jezebel: Cause Athos is your beloved not mine 😂 

Wench: Yeah, but you didn’t see the Aramis one either

Jezebel: Ok yeah no I didn’t 😂

Wench: Anyway, go on, say the parallels you’ve come to see

Jezebel: I’m not good at picking up parallels 👀 until they are pointed out. Or I know to look for them. And I mean… damn you!  Just say them then, wench

Wench: Well, you’ve got: privileged noblewoman who has an idealistic view of the world and acts in the way she thinks is right accidentally getting people hurt in the process contrasted with Athos, who we know was a nobleman, and who was a bit naive/idealistic when he fell in love with Milady, and who got Thomas killed as a result.  Which, to my mind, is why he takes her to the morgue. Is it harsh?  Yes.  But it's the same wake-up call he got when his brother was killed, and he knows where Ninon is heading if she keeps on her path.

Jezebel: And ahhh. Yes so that’s again a lot deeper than the parallels I assumed you meant, which were: strong independent woman?  Enter Athos heart eyes.  Woman may be deceitful?  Aaaaand now she’s ded.  Enter Athos broken heart eyes

Wench: Well, with the exception of the ded bit (because I’d not spoil something like that during midpoint, for shame!), that basically is the second parallel.  (I had this already typed up before you sent that, so pardon the repetition, BUT.)  You’ve got: Athos fell in love with Milady (a fierce, independent woman) and trusted her, and she ended up being very much not who he thought she was and killing his brother as a result.  Fast-forward a great many years of self-loathing, guilt complex, and abstinence, and you’ve got Ninon (a fierce, independent woman) with whom he’s at least entertaining the idea of something happening, and he trusts her word that the girls aren’t there, and he finds out that no, actually, she lied to him.  Which is (part of) why he’s so angry right now.  And I'd wager another part of that is internally motivated because it's a second time that he lets himself put trust in a potential romantic interest and gets burned for it.  (*snort* literally.  Wait.  WAIT.  LAKSDJFL;KADSJFLKADSFJLKADSJF  That's funny!!!  Tell you during endpoint)

Jezebel: Ok lol

Wench: Anyway.  Those are the parallels.  Respond at will

Jezebel: Except Milady killed the brother herself and Ninon just taught the girl to think for herself and she acted out on it foolishly.  Which, yes, the blame still can lead back to Ninon but I don’t think it makes her a bad person. Sooooo team Athos and Ninon for me 😂  Unless she is only in this episode and then never mentioned again… Then team fuck you writers 😂😂

Wench: You'll see what happens.  Though, I will say... It did kinda seem like she encouraged the note thing?  "Oh, lemme write this for you and then tell you that the Queen is a sympathetic ear *wink wink*" is kinda.  Active.  And, also, like I said... a lot of it is a matter of trust.  She gave her word, he kindaaaaa vouched for her (but, more importantly, bought the lie), and then it turned out to be false

Jezebel: Fair!

Wench: I interpret it as: He thinks her goal admirable, but also thinks she's going about it the wrong way.  She asked for his trust and abused it.  Etc.  Also, I'm sorry... I like Aramis; you know I do... but he annoys me sometimes.  He acts like he knows all the details of a situation a lot of the time when he just... doesn't?  And I feel like someone with eyes could see that?

Jezebel: No you’re right 😂😂😂😂

Wench: So, like, in the episode where they go back to Athos' estate, he keeps picking fights and worming for more information and even bringing up the vaguely bitchy "how many servants did this place have?" and stuff without reading the fact that This Is a Serious Development.  He's actively opening up to them a bit, in an extremely painful way, precisely because he does care about Porthos, but Aramis is just being. Annoying. Or in this episode with the "she was protecting the girls, not deceiving you."  Yeah, that's true.  And intellectually, I'm sure Athos gets that.  It changes nothing about the emotional side.  And Aramis doesn't know about Athos' past, so you'd think he'd have a bit more care/curiosity and a bit less judgement

Jezebel: Yeah that’s fair!

Wench: I mean.  They've known each other for like.  Five years.  Minimum

Jezebel: Trueeee! *Sigh* Dammit Flirt! You’re making me look bad for liking you

Wench: I will say... Anne (Milady), Ninon, Sylvie (not that you know her yet, but still).  Buddy's got a freaking type ☠️ 

Jezebel: 😂😂😂😂😂 executed

Wench: Ma’am.  Shut up (aff).  Anything else for midpoint?

Jezebel: I’m good if you are 🙂

– – – 

Ooooop you sure ma’am?

“This is family business” *Hand raised aggressively* Oh no

Ooooop

Cause women do have brains and thoughts of their own 👀

Ackkkk I couldn’t have livedddd back thennnnn  [*You* couldn't have?  Ma'am, you don't like conflict; you might have hated it, but you'd be physically fine.  I'd be burned at the stake as a heretic in a fucking millisecond]  ☠️☠️☠️☠️

Oooooop she poisoned ittttt  [Where’d you get that from? alskdjf]  The way she held the cup ☠️

[Once again: the truly wonderful state of trials at the time]

Now I know she poisoned it

Oooop!

[His expression 😭]

Seeeee I hold grudges ☠️☠️☠️ so I will struggle liking Milady if she ever isn’t the bad guy anymore.  Maybe she’ll leave without a reformation arc but like.  Nah

[HER SMIRK!  What a bitch alksdjf]

How has it been proven  [As I said… courts are great]

Respect for the queen!  Proof she has a good heart, too, ‘cause her husband has been goofily eying Ninon all episode

“What will I do if he dies?!”  DIE!  You will die!

Ooooop… Poor queen

Ma’am, what does it matter if she was Aramis' girl?  YOU ARE MARRIED  [Ma’am.  You act like the sanctity of marriage means anything.  Literally two seconds.  After you were just talking about how you couldn't survive.  The lack of autonomy.]  It was a joke Wench shush

[Portamis' side-eyes alskdjf]  😂😂😂😂  ["How do you know about Madame de la Chapelle?"  "Her whole life is a lie"  Bravo, Athos, that's very clear.  Very informative.]  Right 😂😂☠️☠️☠️☠️

Sweet lord this man

“You think I poisoned him?”  Yep

40!?!?  Sweet lord  [Good news…  She can follow the path of all wives these days and just.  Affair]  😂😂😂😂☠️☠️☠️☠️

Why would he willingly drink out of another glass of water after that

Ooooof ☹️☹️☹️  [Ah, yes.  I'm sick.  Let me fondle this bone]  A KNEE BONE  [*Ah, yes. I'm sick. Let me fondle this *knee* bone]

And I’m a jealous bitchhhhh 👀

😮‍💨😮‍💨😮‍💨

[To be fair, she didn't only betray her own sex.  She betrays dudes more regularly, in fact]  Fair… She’s just a betrayer of all things  [Yup!  Also… I'm sorry, but I do kinda love Milady.  In a love-to-hate kinda way.  She's just so delectably... morally fucked]  😂😂😂😂 You would ma’am!  [I always loved Irene Adler too]  Evil loves evil 😤😮‍💨  [Rude :(  I feel attacked]  Because you are ma’am 🙂 (aff)

And sir you will be going to hell for a lot more than just your relationship not being intact

[Athos is.  Very Determined]  He is!

Buddy… He said open his mouth, not lean in for a kiss  [Portamis banter]  You too Port

[ATHOS, STOP TOUCHING IT IF IT’S POISONED]  ☠️☠️☠️☠️☠️  [I KNOW YOU'RE NOT BIG ON SURVIVAL BUT STILL]

Oh the priest guy poisoned it

☠️☠️☠️☠️ Mood, Port  [Because the Cardinal is the only one who can call off her death and he wants to save her alsdkfj Duh]  … true 😂  God, to be alive during these trials

My dude why did you look?!!?  You.  Idiot.

[Damn, Athos, you speed-running the rescue]

Ack the intensity

Athossss  [Also, more parallels here I'ma talk about in endpoint]

["I'm not a cruel man.  Just a practical one."  Like I said: true neutral]  Very practical

Well damn  😦  [I mean.  She do be alive tho]  That’s true… But also, that’s so unfair  [Indeed]

[Buddy, that be called blasphemy]

☠️☠️☠️ They go… we can hear you

[I love Peter Capaldi.  And his accent is awesome]  Yessss

[Oh shit more parallels]

And sad Athos again… Well, damn.  Buddy can’t catch a break.  [Ma'am, this is one of my favorite characters; happiness is exceedingly fleeting for them]  ☠️☠️☠️

💔💔💔💔  [Poor Constance]  Damn ☹️☹️☹️

[OH SHIT IS IT THIS SCENE?  OH SHIT IT'S THIS SCENE.  d'Artagnan.exe has stopped working… "I love you.”  *blue screens*  “I mean... respect and admire"  "Say it again?"  "I respect and admire you?"]

👀👀👀👀👀👀

OMG!!!!  Awwwwwwww  [This can't possibly go wrong] She is marr- fuck it, I ship ‘em  [Ma'am has a het ship?!?!?!?!?!  WHOA!!!  (Yes, I recognize that I'm one to talk... shut up)]  😂😂😂😂 I love it tho! That was adorable!

– – – 

Jezebel: Omg! 😮‍💨😮‍💨😮‍💨 this was just an emotional roller coaster! Poor Athos! 💔💔💔💔  Like 🥺🥺🥺 buddy deserves to be happpyyyy! And it just gets ripped away from him! Like for once (and you know I like Aramis more 😂 but still) the heart eyes was aimed at him! And then it’s just like… nope. Nuh Uh! Not happening. She’s exiled now! And by the cardinal… the one his wife is working with! ☹️☹️

Wench: Not that he knows that, I don't think.  Or does he?  I can't actually recall

Jezebel: True, but WEEEE know 😭  I don’t think he does

Wench: Poor buddy

Jezebel: I don’t think he would have tried the little he did to save the Cardinal if he had 😂😂

Wench: Nah, he would.  You underestimate his sense of duty/honor.  It's like when he had to apologize to the Duke of Savoy… That was exceedingly humiliating, especially given the Duke's responsibility in the Savoy betrayal, and the fact that he felt his duty outweighed his sense of honor/pride is telling.  Also, there would have been no other way to save Ninon; the Cardinal issued her order of execution, and he had to rescind it.

Jezebel: True!! I keep forgetting they needed him for that ☠️☠️☠️

Wench: And, finally, I do think there's a degree to which having the Cardinal helps.  Because he's the King's right hand, essentially.  His advisor.  And a) it'd make France appear weak to have the advisor to the King be killed, especially by an emissary from Rome.  And b) he does help the King on a lot of things.  We tend to see his scheming side, but, again, at least this incarnation actively helps when it suits him.

Jezebel: Yeah his flip flopping gives me whiplash 😂😂

Wench: :)

Jezebel: And nooo, but Athos!  Buddy straight up gone on his knees and begged 🥺🥺😭😭😭😭

Wench: And, just gonna remind... Athos was a nobleman.  Pride and honor are bound to be pretty damn important.  It's why the whole duty vs. love thing with Milady shook out the way it did; he had to do his duty, not just because of the King's ruling, but also because of his own sense of right and wrong... but it's tearing him apart because he did actually love her.  (Kinda does, in some ways.)  And he might hate himself as a result, but his honor still means a lot to him.  Like in "Commodities" where the guy asks, "How do I know you won't betray me?" and Athos' response is a vaguely insulted, "I'm going to pretend I didn't hear that."  All of which makes clear how significant this was by putting that supplication into context.

Jezebel: ☹️☹️☹️☹️☹️

Wench: Thank you, thank you... I'm here all week!  Follow me for more painful analysis.  (And it's not JUST Athos analysis, to be clear.  I pay attention to the others too.  Like the Savoy thing.  But like.  Athos be interesting!  I have put him under a microscope like a bug)

Jezebel: Also ack! I just feel so bad for himmmm ☹️☹️☹️

Wench: alskdjflaksdjflksadf  Now you understand why he is my beloved

Jezebel: Athos be just your type of angst… The tragic hero that can never be happy!

Wench: a;lskdjf;lakdsjf TO BE FAIR!!!  (And this isn't too spoilery)  That isn't FULLY true for Athos

Jezebel: Which part, first or second?

Wench: *whistles*  Or… Well.  I guess I can say.  The second.

Jezebel: Aight so the first implies enough 😂😂😂

Wench: Hmph

Jezebel: Anyway! I’m sorry I don’t think I will ever like Aramis and the Queen, unless they start having more scenes together to build a relationship. It’s just feels like purely lust rn. And this isn’t me just shipping Flort talking lol  Which is also why I was like Hmph about her being jealous

Wench: They do have more later

Jezebel: Fair ☠️ But idk I just don’t like it ☠️☠️ But I do like her, so let that be said… She is so sweet and I feel bad for her 💕☹️ just not enough to ship her and Aramis  ☠️☠️☠️☠️☠️

Wench: Okay, but you haven't actually said why you dislike it… I, personally, think Aramis is an idiot for it, but I'm fond enough of them both that I'm on-board.  As a passing ship that I don't obsess over but don't dislike

Jezebel: (Can you tell I’ve been writing I am not using my nickname 😤😤😤😮‍💨😮‍💨😮‍💨😮‍💨)

Wench: asdlkfj

Jezebel: Well mainly just because I don’t see it. Other than he saved her and she gave him a necklace ☠️☠️  But also the thing about Aramis being an idiot! Which it sucks because you should get to be with the one you love and she was forced into a loveless marriage

Wench: You do realize he's been protecting her for years, right?  Just because they only recently started interacting, doesn't mean there's not history of some kind.  (Which is actually what's so insulting about the pilot episode.  The King doesn't even know who Athos is despite them being there for years as some of the best in his regiment.  So the Queen has likely interacted with them to a decent degree)

Jezebel: That true and fair! But I’m reacting to what I see ma’am! So Hmph 😂😂😂😂😂

Wench: Anyway, moving on. Milady thoughts?

Jezebel: I don’t likeeee herrrr 😤😤😤 lol!  But also I think I missed why she was even in the place with Ninon in the first place 🤔  Or did the Cardinal send her after the death?

Wench:  She was gathering dirt on Ninon to get her to stop.  He wanted someone in there getting information, basically

Jezebel: That’s what I thought!

Wench: Also, going back to the Athos/Ninon parallel from earlier: Both end up giving up their money/lands/etc in response to tragedy, basically rewriting their lives/identities, and moving somewhere where they continue preserving their ideals but to a less obvious degree.  And I was laughing about the "got burned for it" earlier because both relationships literally end in fire and flame.  Milady burns down the la Fere house and Ninon is almost burned to death.  

Jezebel: 😖😖😖😖😖😖😖 trueeeee

Wench: And then there's one final parallel (that occurs to me right now)... From Milady's POV, Athos intervened (extremely spiritedly) on behalf of Ninon and called of the execution, but had not been willing to do so for her.  Obviously this isn’t full fair, since a) Ninon’s actions were only considered criminal because they were inconvenient, not because they were actually harmful, thus he would have done the same for anyone and b) he’d been living with the guilt of killing Milady for long enough that the situations aren’t comparable (e.g. he might have been able to think that he could take comfort in Milady’s execution being his duty the first go-round, but he knows that he can’t by the second go-round).  But there ya go

Jezebel: True so you see why she’s upset… not that she deserves to be upset but you see it 😂😂

Wench: I understand why you don't like Milady, but I do think it's important to note that she does have a rather sympathetic story.  I know things that make her even more sympathetic from later in the series, but you know some of it already... If you look at it from her perspective, she's spent her whole life shoved into the role of criminal to survive, and she keeps asking for someone to understand.  And every time, she gets rejected, and she's back to being a criminal, but she just wants someone to understand.  To recognize that she's not as bad as what she's been forced to do.  But she also tells herself she doesn't care about that --- she tries to force herself to not care about that --- and years of having to survive some way or another have worn down her morals.  So she's in this loop.  

Still Wench: She's a street criminal but she finallyyyy finds a way to be happy, a way to love and be loved in return... and then Thomas finds out about her path and snaps, threatens to tear her life down, and she can't bring herself to trust that Athos would be able to (in terms of emotion or in terms of the law, it's a mix of both) see past that, so she kills him.  And this betrayal/murder is what truly drives Athos away (except not even that, because he clearly still loves her in canon), but she sees it as just more proof that she is a criminal, will be a criminal, and can't be loved because she's a criminal.  And then she goes and gets a job from the cardinal where, guess what, she's once again committing crimes for the sake of survival.  But she's still so desperate (much as she doesn't want to admit) that she even goes to a confessional to try and get absolution, and the priest rejects her --- condemns her for her actions despite the fact that God is supposed to be forgiving, tells her she's unforgivable --- so she gets pissed.  

Jezebel: Oh gosh that’s a lot ☠️☠️😮‍💨 I was like what happened 🤣🤣🤣🤣 

Wench: Her entire life is a cycle of trying to survive, and then every time she tries to live --- to be recognized as not having much of a choice, to be seen as more than what she's done --- it gets snatched away.  So she steels herself, goes on with what she has to do, and the cycle repeats.

Jezebel: Yeah, I can see that once you say it. Like with Sam!  My biggest flaw in being a reactor is I don’t look deeper than what I’m seeing (and I’ll miss parts 😂😂☠️☠️) but once it’s pointed out I can really see it!

Wench: Anyway… anything else?

Jezebel: I think that’s all I have!

[elderemorune]

When did I stop believing?

Dear Diary, Today's Mood:

I loved FLCL as a kid. I felt disenfranchised then, though somehow way less than I do now. Once upon a time, I believed I'd make it to Julliard, that I could be a master chef, that I'd be a famous musician, just something big, you know? But at some point, I stopped believing I could be anything other than me.

I don't even really know what I mean by that, it's so confusing. My younger self asks me all the time if I'm some big name, if I'm famous yet, if I ever wrote anything amazing. Every time he asks, I tell him not yet, but I'm not even sure I believe I can do any of that now.

For a long time, I've dreamed of such big things, and I'm not even on the path to any of them. I don't know where to start, and I'm so caught up in these expectations that have been laid at my feet. I'm being groomed to take over my dad's company, a software engineering company. I am not an engineer. I'm just not educated to a place where I could dream of doing half of what this man does, and he still wants me to take over.

I love my job, because the parts I'm good at I'm actually pretty good, but I get so frustrated learning these incredibly complicated concepts and then he gets frustrated because I don't understand them, and he forgets that I don't have the baseline understanding he does.

I just want to play bass. I just want to cook. I just want to write.

Instead I'm learning how to do SEO, which in theory I don't mind. It's research, learning, but it's a surface level understanding of the topic, and all for the purpose of manipulating the system to put you above others. I don't have a passion for it, but it pays the bills.

But I have things to say, the kinds of things that can't be said via a search engine. I don't even care who hears me anymore. But then indecision hits, and this huge amount of fear that I'll get nowhere and do nothing. I'm so scared of failing at my dreams that I can't even get myself to start.

So why did I stop believing in myself? Why did I stop believing that I could be a musician? Why did I stop believing that I could do anything I want? God fucking dammit.

I sound like such a privileged twat. And I hate that. Waaah, poor white boy from dad with money doesn't want to be a software engineer and just wants to play guitar and feed his friends.

What the fuck is stopping me from doing this? From spending my downtime working on finding a fucking band? I could be spending my two-three hours of free time I get a night doing that, sure. But then I go to even less time I get to spend with my wife, whom I love so incredibly much holy shit. (Which is not to say that she is holding me back, I do not believe that for even a moment, I just prefer her company more often than that of others)

But I still don't get it.

I cannot figure out when I stopped thinking I was hot shit, when I stopped thinking I'd move to Seattle and start a gutter punk band, when I stopped thinking that I'd just get better at doing whatever I wanted to do if I just kept doing it? When did I let the world convince me it was okay to be mediocre? When did I become so fucking jaded?

My younger self had this impossible sense of hope for the future and he's so fucking disappointed that it's gone. I still believe that humans are fundamentally good, and that bad actors only trick us into thinking they really have the power they wield. I believe this insane thing about everyone else around me, that they are world changing, earth shattering personalities, so why can't I bring myself to believe that about myself?

Younger me had the right idea, I think, but how does someone even get themselves to thinking that? I believe it fervently for my loved ones, but none of them believe it themselves.

Gods dammit, I want to be more, and I don't even know what that means! Does anyone else feel this way?

[neverdying-d-e-a-d]

ohgod wjat was that.

hey why do i actively try to burn away and forget my past?

why dont i make an appointment with a therapist already?

i mean

i cant now

what if someone hears me?

...

i n s t i

tu t i o n

a l i z e d

what's that mean?

oh rock music, we're really in it now

okay, its not cool to make portraits of sadness and to self victimize

i dont feel like a victim

i feel like i deserve it all

what

do i mean anything that i write?

i really hope that i don't

or do

eugh

so confusing i'm about to cry

at what point does depression start to become going insane?

is it the same?

eugh..

i mean isnt it insane to want to kill someone? suicidal thoughts?

....

whaaatever.

i have enough love for myself and more

i just wanna talk about the war

._.

it's fucked up

feels redundant to say

but i think im allowed to say obvious things

im allowed to say whatever i want, as long as i think im a good person. right?

sometimes i wish i had parents that taught me to really use my brain

get the thoughts straight

okay

your name is [____ __________]

you feel

uhhh awe shit.

you feel

you feel confused

how are you feeling?

im feeling great.

okay.

your name is [_ _]

you feel

something is wrong

in your head

in the world

in the world

or

no, in your head

or

no, nothings wrong, there is no good or bad or

no, yes there is, you know good from bad.

or, no thats not true wisdom

or, no, thats common knowledge

true wisdom is foolish

or

i always end up knowing nothing

or

um

no, yeah.

your name is ()

you know nothing

you feel light and slightly confused and you feel like if you articulate it well enough you can understand it, you feel convinced

you feel shame remembering that guy feel up your thighs

you feel turned on

noooo you dont. dont kid yourself.

you feel turned on at the idea of you feeling turned on.

you feel basically only real attraction towards yourself

and some men

and

dont tell me youre afraid of women now, too? just because it was a girl what made you so weird as a kid?

point is.

that guy. you liked using him. you wanna hurt him. i honestly dont feel bad about that but i feel like i should

okay, i do

hes a person

so cute too.

but what a rotten little boy

god, its always the lonely emo boys

three times now

ive gotta get scarier, scare them off

no, that. eugh. only attracts them

other boys like boobed people who are non threatening

but those boys...

um

when was the last time you gave one of those boys a real chance? haha.

.

.

.

am i the problem?

sure, why not

....

i dont wanna talk to boys. women. i like women. boys

men and women are basically the same to me i just fear violence and well

....

im not crazy for feeling unsafe around men, am i?

....

i really wish i could ask someone who knows about this

like say, a therapist

eughhh.

im dying

writing is making me feel worse i should go to bed

i dont wanna have a bad dream

but

its okay to do things that scare you

but

it feels different to be in the middle of it all but

but

but

but i live in america

because

because

because my grandfather's editing team are dead

guns bought that ticket

and now im a privileged white british scumbag

living with black mold

maybe thats whats making me feel like this honestly

god i just wanna move somewhere clean

somewhere clean

will this poetry will make me sound insane because it's not beautiful

not worth it to care honestly

i still dont feel better

nono, lets try

im feeling better slowly

yes slowly

quicker now im finally feeling good

no.

im gonna take allergy medication and drop out of college and die on the street

im not really afraid

i dont deserve anything more or less

... right?

[waitingforeddyneddy]

Hollywood is literally blacklisting people who speak out about Israel being a genocidal state which is why many actors/musicians etc are staying silent.

Boycotting paramount won’t do shit. The only thing that will help Palestinians is pressuring the people who have political power to help save them. Y’all’s slacktivism is really insane and annoying.

As for JB traveling to Israel - people in the west, particularly the US and UK are not taught about Palestinians, Nakba, etc. From an early age they’re all taught that Israel is the one being oppressed. You’ll see many people who have traveled to Israel prior change their stance once they educate themselves.

I will take an actors silence over the over Zionism of other Hollywood stars. Bella Hadid is getting literal death threats for speaking out. And as someone who works in Hollywood, I know for a fact, as I said earlier, people are being blacklisted for even being pro “ceasefire” which is the bare minimum.

People are bringing up simone because you’re a stan of hers, which is fine, but she also hasn’t said shit about Palestine or Israel, as is her right, because people are being fired left and right for standing on the right side of history.

Hate JB all you want, I literally don’t care, I’m not even a huge fan of him at this point but people are calling out your hypocrisy and jumping to conclusions about who is a Zionist and who is not. JB went to Israel years ago, yes (I didn’t even see the pictures tbh that’s how far removed I am from celebrity socials), from all accounts was called out for it. Deleted the pictures and who is to say that he DIDN’T educate himself? He hasn’t posted any pro Israel shit since then and has smartly kept his mouth shut for now because he knows his project was produced by Zionists. I guarantee most of these people are terrified to say anything.

Major kudos to Nicola since she is the ONLY one in the bridgerton cast who has been unabashedly vocal about #freepalestine. Which is funny since most of you freaky kathony Stans HATE her. (And before you start I literally hate Penelope and Colin so don’t even try to paint me with a stan brush)

Your comments are irresponsible trying to paint JB as a Zionist when we have no fucking clue where his position lies. Much like we don’t know where simone’s, charithra’s, Rege’s, Luke’s, Luke’s, etc lies. Instead check out that list of actors who signed no hostage left behind - those are the real people you should take issue with.

Start protesting and calling your politicians. Boycotting paramount won’t do shit to help Palestinians. The US’s President is co-signing genocide right now and he is only gonna give a shit if he thinks he’s in danger of losing the next election. (Not saying you’re from the US - just giving this as an example).

I was about to respond to each of your points but then I saw you wrote “you freaky kanthony stans” and I honestly can’t take you seriously.

I also don’t believe you when you say you’re not a huge JB fan cause you sound pretty angry and out of breath. Your constant saying “boycotting Paramount won’t do shit” is ridiculous cause nobody here is saying it will end the conflict. It’s just a way to get back at them by not providing money for their subscription and going for 🏴‍☠️ if you really are interested in the story and if you just wanna watch your fave’s new project

Also LMAO at you for saying JB wasn’t educated about Israel, fucking stop saying a privileged white man who comes from money doesn’t know. Every fucking western country supports Israel in the media that doesn’t mean we are mindless robots. I live in southern Italy, I’ve been against Israel since the moment I started to develop critical thinking skills despite my humble upbringing and social status 🤡

It’s pathetic, stop with this bullshit

[savedbythefall]

Look, I haven’t been able to properly write in months.

Perhaps it’s just the thing that’s like, well, I’d rather read than write anyway, and I really have been reading more fanfic than writing it lately. Everything I’ve written was related to my introspective personal thoughts. A modern Pete Wentz, one might say. I think this was mostly because of the fact that I’m usually surrounded by people, and i feel strange writing fic with people who are so ABLE to just look over my shoulder and see what I’m doing. It’s a little scary, I’ll be honest. They’ll be like what are you doing? And I’ll be like torturing my favorite characters uwu, and then they’ll probably be like wow, you’re a freak and a nerd or something demoralizing like that. 

And we’ve got the writers on tumblr. I mean, I follow inkskinned, I’ve seen their free form poetry, and it’s really good. So I was like well, maybe I could get away with just writing freeform and posting it here, because the thing is, I just can’t write about others anymore. But the other thing is, I don’t want to directly be copying the ideas of someone, and I know sometimes I do that subconsciously. Really, truly, I can’t do anything in life without following a roadmap. I think that I have been SO consumed with media my entire life that I feel as though I have to have my life look like a story or I might just go insane. This might be because I need the guarantee of a happy ending, or at least a hopeful one; the girl gets the girl, the girl goes to the college she wants to, the girl lives a good happy life and against all odds, beats the chances. But I’m not on the same paths as those characters, and I’m not on the same paths as my idols, either. So that leaves me in this weird space where I don’t really know what to do with my life because the circumstances just don’t match up, and I have no guidance.

Yeah, yeah, I’ve got therapy. My therapist, Ms A, told me to stop thinking of my life as a movie. You can’t keep pretending your life is a story, Toby, is more along the lines of what she said. If you know me in real life, you know how much I listen to music. It’s almost a lifestyle at this point. You can take the girl out of the music but you can’t take the music out of the girl. I want to be a singer, like Hayley Williams or Alex Gaskarth. The thing is, though, they got their starts so early, and can play instruments, and overall they lived in an era where I just DON’T. The circumstances will NEVER LINE UP. So I try to follow roadmaps. I try to find a person with experiences close enough to mine that I can follow the traits of.  

In the music industry, there are two flips of the same coin. It basically goes like this: you either sing about love and sex, or you sing about depression. And I can’t really sing about either.

I’m not going to deny it. I’m privileged. My parents are together and supportive of most things and their relationship is fine. We have a good house. My grades are on the decent side. I’m definitely not at my peak (I would hope my peak isn’t in high school) but I’m definitely not at my lowest low, either. We have enough money for food and necessities, plus occasional trips. You could categorize us as middle class. 

And I guess I haven’t really suffered enough emotionally or physically to call myself depressed. You know? Because when you think about it, there’s really nothing wrong with me. I’m not ADHD or autistic (my brother is both), although I’ve been told I’m just in denial by several sources. My home life is… fine, most of the time. Like, what do I have to complain about? I’m so ungrateful because I’m fortunate and yet I’m discontent. It would almost make the average person feel like there is something wrong with them. Why don’t I feel content? Why do I always want more? There is no forging my own path. There is only following these previously carved roads somewhere I think is home. 

When I have panic attacks (which sounds concerning, but I only get them like, twice a year, it’s fine) I put in the absolute loudest, noisiest music I can stand. Like, ‘I Am My Own Muse’ or ‘Famous Last Words’ or ‘Death Of An Executioner’. And then I close my eyes and get up on that mental stage. Just picture it. There are phone flashlights waving back and forth. Stadium packed up to the gate. They’re all there to see me. They cheer when I walk on, because they care. A million people care who I am and I don’t even know who they are. I’m playing that song that’s not mine but singing it like it is, and I am universally loved. 

And, yeah. That’s the dream. I’m famous and the media’s darling and I get to do my thing up there in front of a crowd begging on their knees to hear my words. 

But it’s not going to happen. I mean, how would it? I can’t live out this dream because I haven’t followed the right path, haven’t traced the road through the line between fanfiction and real life. I hate the idea of creating a new road. I hate the idea of drawing a new way, even though that is exactly what the people I admire have done. I’m this pathetic mess of conscious thought and feeling. 

Look, I could type my insecurities on a doc for ages. It could end up a memoir. Toby’s Lament, it would read. Tales from the girl who didn’t know what to do with herself, so she just did nothing. If Joe Trohman can write a memoir, I sure as hell can. This all reads as petty, self pitying bitching, I’m sure. Honestly, looking back on this, I seem like a privileged asshole. But hey. I just wrote two pages worth of words in google docs. So I think, if it gets me writing again, it might just be worth it for that. 

[hshouse]

Lu i'm so angry. I was talking with one of my friends, who grew up rich and with a catalog family, and she doesn't understand how traumas in childhood can affect the development of someone's brain, like for example i grew up poor, without a father, in a really dysfunctional family, i was SA'ed as a kid by different family members and now as an adult i have multiple psychiatric diagnosis, and my friend it's like "it's impossible to have so many things and be diagnosed with different things every couple of sessions, i think you're probably lying".

Sorry for this, i'm so mad and i needed to get this out of my chest and i know it's safe to talk to you. I'm so sorry.

Hi bby,

Ugh being invalidated is so awful and cruel. Well, obviously they are wrong. We are absolutely a byproduct of what happened to us since conception. Part of what makes privilege a hard concept to process is that when we have it, we don’t think of that thing as even a thing. Like growing up white you grow up not really ever thinking about race as it relates to you. You assume everyone else also spends no time on that topic. So yeah, for someone like her, understanding the impact of those things to you is not automatic.

THAT BEING SAID, it requires like 1 milligram of compassion to listen to your friend and accept their truth. I will never understand what racism feels like, so I listen and believe in full value what those that do tell me it feels like. How could I even challenge that? What basis does she have to say that the things you experienced don’t cause the impacts you are describing? I want you to really process how stupid she sounds. Not like “oh this is morally mean.” No. This is irrational and illogical. It’s literally the same as going to a new restaurant, ordering the salmon and then telling everyone how good the chicken is. You haven’t had the mf chicken so lets not issue yielp reviews on it.

Don’t ask me why but some people take pleasure in spilling most insane sequences of words at you about the most hurtful sensitive issues. At that point you have to cut off the interaction completely. If I still want to be their friend I’d say “we clearly have very different approaches to this issue and this conversation will only hurt our friendship. Moving forward, I think we can both benefit from the awareness that this is a hard topic for us and we can both make an effort to avoid it coming up.”

Hang in there.

[r-2-peepoo]

Okay, if this is a joke and I’m just misunderstanding your sense of humour, ignore everything that follows. I’m bad with tone, especially through text, so it’s hard to tell sometimes. It’s very funny if you’re kidding.

If you’re not, I don’t know if I’ve ever read a more misguided, delusional and just plain incorrect interpretation of what is a pretty damn easily understood piece of media before. I’m not sure this isn’t trolling. I don’t know if I should even entertain this with a response.

You barely see any of them eat because it’s an action-based series, not a cooking show. You see Omega and Wrecker eat together because it serves as levity/comedic relief (also Wrecker’s muscle mass is bigger than everyone else’s so he logically needs more food). They don’t show everything because it’s not CCTV footage, it’s a 25 minute show. We saw them eat on Pabu to symbolise the paradise of the island, that they could finally maybe make a home there. Do you need to watch Crosshair shower or pee too just to make sure Hunter hasn’t revoked his bathroom privileges? Why would Crosshair need permission to do these things? (Rhetorical question, I don’t care what the answer you’ve invented is.) If he really hadn’t had anything to eat in three years, he would’ve died three years ago.

By your own logic of “I didn’t see it so it didn’t happen” Crosshair doesn’t give two shits about Tech because we didn’t see him burst into tears over him. Or Echo doesn’t care about Fives. We don’t see him find out about his death. Obviously neither thing is true, but according to your way of thinking, they are. You see how ridiculous that sounds?

This is how screenwriting works. The batch, Hunter particularly, will never be the villains you want them to be because that MAKES NO FUCKING SENSE. What the hell is a point of a show in a franchise about defeating evil that focuses on family if what it’s actually about is a bunch of psychopaths psychologically torturing their brother? No one would make that show, Disney wouldn’t greenlight it, and it certainly wouldn’t be marketed towards children.

This constant victimising of Crosshair is fucking insane. It completely infantilises him and removes any sort of agency he has as a character. His growth is why this show has been so fantastic. We watch in real time as he realises the Empire doesn’t deserve his loyalties, but his family does.

In the first season, he is actively trying to murder them. Sure, he had the chip but it didn’t make him any safer to be around and he told them he got it removed. He tried cook his former squad inside the exhaust of a ship, ordered his team to open fire on civilians and told them to aim specifically for Omega. That is not someone who will come off as trustworthy to the rest of the batch so excuse them if they take a couple of episodes to warm back up to him. Even he gets that. He’s a complex, multifaceted person, not an innocent little baby.

You are so determined for him to be a victim that you are doing to him the very thing you accuse the characters of. You take away his choices, a central part of his arc, and ignore his trauma. Have you considered maybe he finds it hard to eat because of his trauma? Being starved, like he was by the empire, makes it hard to consume food normally. You have to build up your tolerance for regular food again and it can be like torture. He needs time to heal. It’s not an overnight process, as documented in the actual show.

And speaking of his trauma, Hunter and Omega have both expressed concern and a desire to help him and Wrecker welcomed him back to the group with open arms. In fact I’d say Crosshair’s trauma is one of the key themes of the season. Omega particularly has only ever wanted to help him. She helped him meditate and focus to try and cope with the psychological issues he has and she’s used physical contact to reassure him multiple times. She’s also a fucking kid so trying to make it seem like she could control him even if she wanted to is beyond bizarre.

Let’s be super clear: Crosshair is a mass murderer. I adore him and how far he’s come, but it doesn’t bring back anyone he’s killed. If the batch assumed he wanted to hurt Omega when she was drowning, it’s probably because of all the previous times he tried to hurt her.

And the last paragraph really tells me everything I need to know. “Stop speaking for me” WHO ARE YOU??? You say this fandom isn’t a monolith, which is not something anyone has ever even implied, yet you assume this is about you and speaks for everyone when I specifically used language that avoided that. You projected that.

I don’t even know who you are. Try to comprehend the idea that people exist outside of yourself and that your experience isn’t the universal one. Did you want me to consult you before I posted on my own account, complete and total stranger? People online get so caught up in their own experiences that they can’t even consider that idea that someone might not be talking about them. Take a break and try and gain some perspective.

If you want to have these theories, go right ahead. I hope you’re wrong because I’d like Crosshair to survive. But keep these takes on your own account with people who want to hear it and try not to take things that have nothing to do with you so personally. The block button is right there. It’ll cause you so much less stress in the future, I promise.

You also clearly don’t like this show so stick to ao3 and find something else to watch. There’s no point in tormenting yourself like this. I’m sorry you’ve missed out on all the beautiful moments this show has provided. Just stop taking your inability to understand the media you consume out on people who literally want nothing to do with your wild discourse.

Anyway the silly Crosshair and Hunter are rivals narrative can finally be put to rest for good now that they are close again and Hunter as clearly demonstrated multiple times that he cares about and trusts Crosshair so let’s never ever ever pit them against each other again because they are literally family. Thank you. 🫶