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she's singing in another room and my dog is asleep at my feet. my grandma asked me why i haven't found a man yet and i laughed. oh, you know. i like my house clean.
my girlfriend is also my man is also "my partner" if i'm in a professional setting. yesterday we went to a ren faire and a man mimed at me - you're together? and at my delighted nod, his baffled, you're gay? made me laugh. a woman with rainbow hair said i love the two of you together. you're both so beautiful it's absurd.
my dad introduced my partner as my "..... friend. or whatever" the other day. he knows we're dating. in the same way, i was never able to get my sister's husband to stop saying that's gay like it's 2008. he still uses the word fa***t, and my sister's defense of him has always been well, he's just kidding.
my lover and i dance to old music in a tiny kitchen. we judge new music together and take food critique very seriously. we watch love is blind before we fall asleep and agree that if they had a queer season, it would be bloody but also make for excellent tv. of fucking course queer people would know someone for only 2 weeks and agree to get married. what are you saying.
at a bar with friends, a man puts his hand on my wrist. got a boyfriend? and yes, i do have a boyfriend, she's amazing. i am texting her while i wander around a gas station named after geese. i am visiting a swing state for a wedding. in the candy aisle i overhear: she's actually like a lesbian it's disgusting. two teenage girls with packaged sandwiches in their hands, giggling. no literally, like. i'm not, like. okay with her being there while we're all, like, naked and changing.
my girlfriend and i tailgate, drink gin and cider out of cups. from the frat group beside us, a man corrects himself with one of his friends: bro, i mean, nonbinary entity, and it makes everyone around him laugh, myself included. he razzes his friend the same way i would have killed for at 19 years old - like nothing happened, he continues: you apply sunscreen like an alien. he does a little sassy (and fairly accurate) dance interpretation of the motion. his friend is laughing so hard they're crying.
i am lucky, i live in a safe neighborhood in a safe state. my masc passenger princess comes up from DC. i drive her for an hour to where all the leaves are a violent arrangement of color. we walk along the trails, letting autumn into our blood. in this part of the state, there's a lot of pickup trucks and trump signs. when we chastely kiss before getting into the car, i accidentally make eye contact with a woman holding her child's wrist. she looks disgusted. she looks fucking pissed.
two hours later my girl and i are eating dinner on a patio, soaking in the last warmth of new england sun before the chill of winter sets in. we are giggling and trying to talk through plastic vampire teeth. at another table, i see a young woman sit up straighter. i watch her watch us. she blushes and takes her partner's hand from across the table. shy, like the taste of evening has just become something deeper.
it's worth it for this moment, i think. my lover is still humming the same song she's been singing for four days straight and i don't want to kill her for it. her guitar is beside my bed. her toothbrush is in my bathroom. in a few moments i will make us lunch. we are lucky enough to have found each other. it is lucky enough to be in love.
#writeblr#wlw#i often think about like.....#being happy in a gay relationship is sometimes so odd#bc u can forget how stupid ppl are.#bc ur so USED to being gay. and u forget other people GENUINELY ARE homophobic#so it's like. girl pardon?????#but also there are moments where it's like. ohhh the kids are alright#like watching someone razz someone else.... so fucking wholesome#ālemme get this bitche's pronouns before i make gentle fun of themā .... i would have KILLED for that.#THAT is how u know ur accepted#not just tolerated#..... when ppl are like. sure ur nonbinary congrats but WHAT is this fucking sunscreen application#ps idk if "razz'' is a real word but someone asked what it means -#i've always heard it as being a term for 'gentle & friendly teasing'' which like#i personally notice more from my guy friends but is like - when a person isn't#LIKE ACTUALLY teasing u (it's nothing personal/mean) they're just laughing w/you about something#my friends often put on a little voice and call me an anemic little bitch#like 'ooooo the anemic little bitch is cold??? does she need a mouse blanket#bc she's SOOOO SMALL AND ANEMIC???''#and it doesn't hurt my feelings (it makes me laugh very hard) bc 1. i actually called MYSELF that first#and 2. i'm not sensitive about it!!!#a proper razz is when you are ALSO in on the joke - i ALSO think it's funny#for some people i personally find that when they razz u it's when they love u -#they've noticed something genuine about u and love u enough that u know they're not being mean#this is cultural and personality based of course but i'm hispanic#if someone isn't making fun of me it means they hate me . obviously.
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Bleh
#I hope everyone out there rockin 300+ pounds knows I love them#idk#idk really#i see a lot of positivity for fat folks#and stuff for fat trans women in particular makes me feel good#but idk#I just feel like I'm bitter or jaded#the fact that I never see people shaped like me depicted#or have never met another heavy trans woman who didnt for some sort of conventional ideal#and maybe that's selfish to say#like I said maybe im just a bitter bitch about it sometimes#I can admit that#but Im like 350pounds and disabled in such a way that makes exercise very difficult#I dont have wide hips#and am kind of just fridge shaped with few 'curves' to speak of#or at least the ideal idea of 'curves'#I just hope that anyone out there like me knows I see you#i know how hard it is sometimes#but I feel good too#I like my body most days#and I hope you do too#Its just#hard sometimes#bluh
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a little siffrin comic about touch, violence, and oranges
#please isat pplā¦ i worked so hard on thisā¦ (<- learned how to draw oranges)#anyways i was thinking about how siffrin says crushes feel like a disease sometimes. i was thinking abt his intrusive thoughts. and about#-bad touch. and about that orange poem. and about how he doesnāt know touch. how violence is easier. even if it feels bad.#siffrin#isat siffrin#isafrin#<- its more abt siff than isa but he is also there!! look those are his hands!! heās important okā¦#in stars and time#my art#also words r by me i forgort to mention#isat#100+#500+#1k+#my writing
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(From the body swap AU)
Hii! I'm very happy to see that my body swap comic was so well received, so here's a little something as a thanks for all the support <3
I'm excited to keep sharing my drawings, I hope you like what I make!
#Aand that's how Rulie ended up insisting on keeping Lege's bag lol#They're besties your honor. He wouldn't trust his entire inventory to anyone else xD#This time I had less pages to worry about so I hope this feels a bit less rushed. I'm still figuring this out tho#I also need to learn how to properly draw them bc this has been a struggle lmao#Hyrule's also stressed about the situation he's just been doing a bit of a better job at hiding it lul#Oh they don't know what's coming <3.#Anyways it feels so wrong to draw āHyruleā with a scowl š#I like drawing his hair mirrored specially since it helps make it more different from Legends but it's so hard to draw it from the long side#This is a mess I have no idea what to call them#I confuse myself sometimes while making these lmao#lu legend#lu hyrule#linked universe#lu fanart#body swap au#Ig I'll tag it like that#offmozzart#I thought about kinda spreading all my ideas over time so as to no overdo it so quick ig (+not going crazy over drawing the same characters)#but rn I'm excited to draw them out so I need to take advantage of that
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Good morning, Sleepyhead.
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#poorly drawn mdzs#mdzs#wei wuxian#lan wangji#'WWX was asleep for 4 days' is an incorrect factoid.#The average WWX sleeps for 8 hours. The PD-MDZS WWX who was asleep for 40 comics and 4 months is an outlier.#We are back to present day! I have missed drawing them!#Ah...the contrast between how the flashback ended (cold and distrustful) to how wwx wakes up (warm and watched over)...#The gap between the past and present is very important. Not just in this story but in our lives too.#The past can still hurt and it doesn't just go away with time as some say. It is the power of realizing that things have changed.#We can't get the good back. The bad memories have concluded. Those live somewhere else now.#It is hard to realize that you have to live for today and tomorrow. The past is so loud.#For WWX it is realizing that despite the mistrust in the past - He really does have faith that LWJ will be there for him.#It is the reflection of knowing that you changed and will keep changing and that change is good and kind sometimes.#But more importantly...and this I really do mean with all my heart:#It will all end up okay in the end. Even after the worst day. The most painful losses. You will get through it.#What feels like a breaking point is truthfully just another step you have to take. You'll get through it even though it feels like the end.#There are wonderful things you have yet to see. Friends you have yet to meet.#Even if it hurts so badly...one day it just aches. Someday you'll go a few weeks not remembering that it ever hurt.#Oh and because my izutsumi comic revealed many people were in need of hearing this:#You are loved. Right now. You are so loved right now. We just forget to tell each other that.#Go tell the people you love that they matter to you. I'm assigning you homework!!! You are graded on completion.
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Sending the Kids Off to Fight Crime With Even More Crime
Leverage (2008-2012)
The Juror #6 Job
#hehehe finally finishing my ot3 gifset for this episode#but couldnāt quite figure out how to crop this just to get the ot3#so Iām putting it here rn until I figure it out#but someone please I beg of you#why if my gifs get to a certain amount of frames?#size?#it starts to get blurry#I know itās because Iām condensing it to fit tumblrs size limit#but ughhhhh I hate it when my gifs look inconsistent because they start to get fuzzy depending on size#if anyone has any advice please lmk because I cannot figure it out#I mean this show is mid 2000s so I know itās gonna be a bit hard to clear up grain and color grade#but like I hate how they come out sometimes#maybe Iām just picky#anywayssssss#leverage#the juror 6 job#inde gifs#inde gifs: the juror 6 job#inde gifs: leverage ot3#ot3: hitter hacker thief#leverage ot3#the leverage ot3 in every episode#inde gifs: the leverage ot3 in every episode
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the leverage team would have had a games nightā¦ once. everyone cheated so much and in such increasingly extreme ways that all mentions of monopoly are banned in their headquarters (this makes talking about marks who monopolize the market very confusing)
#leverage#nate wouldnāt cheat but heād be by far the most annoying still. like heād conduct a whole Scheme to win and give a little monologue wheneve#he made a good move and everyone would want to kill him#parker woukd obvs be stealing money & cards and sheād move their pieces and swap their stuff#but also sheād try to use her turn to rob the bank#sophie would use neurolinguistic programming and dominate the board w properties#which somehow parker would literally never land on and thatās incredibly suspicious but none of them really know how she could possibly be#manipulating that fact? itās logically impossible bc theyāre watching her roll the die and move the piece and sophie knows which properties#she owns so it makes no sense. but parker is parker and she simply will not be caught (even by sophieās properties)#hardison has studied monopoly theory (yes there are math theories on how to play monopoly) and /tries/ to abide by them but again. sophie i#manipulating him and parker is stealing from him (and sometimes oddly enough *for* him. new money ends up in his bank somehow) so itās hard#so eventually he resorts to cheating like Everyone Fucking Else and does pretty well bc he rlly does know what sets he wants etc.#eliot is genuinely playing normally. no cheating no math stuff no schemes.#but heās just sitting there fuming the entire time bc theyāre all very obviously messing with the game and he Knew this was gonna happen bu#goddamn hardison & parker especially know how to get on his nerves (often purposely)#he calms down by making some snacks and. resorting to also cheating lol.#leverageposting
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I feel like people don't often fully appreciate how hard dating can be for demisexuals.
It just hit me the other day when I found out that most people are kissing by the first date and having sex by the third and to me that is just wild. And apparently, some people wait up to three months before having sex and that's seen as like a really long time and I'm sorry but is everyone okay???
After three dates a person is still a stranger and after three months they're at most an acquaintance - and people are not willing to wait longer and you'll be seen as unreasonable if you want to wait for a year or more??
#I'm asexual and am not in the business of wanting sex with anyone#but sometimes I find myself wondering if I could and in what situation#and I'm like hm maybe if I knew someone for like 5 years and loved them a lot as a friend and trusted them maybe I could compromise#and then I found out about expectations in dating culture and my mind was blown#it makes me realise how asexual I am lol#but I feel like most people are using dating apps now and it's pretty hard to have a really slow getting to know someone#so my heart goes out to demisexual people because I think a lot of people see them as not having many obstacles#demisexual#asexual spectrum#asexual community#ace spectrum#acespec#asexuality#asexual
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Nick and Pearls
#still trying to figure out how I wanna draw Phoenix.. specifically his eyes itās hard for me to get em right#I couldnāt stop imagining Phoenix carrying Pearl on his shoulders during the investigation.. she was too worried abt maya that she#couldnt sleep!! I think its sweet she wanted to help with the investigation and tagged along#i think I do better with the investigation parts since its more like putting clues together.. but I suck at the trials cuz its hard to#keep up with their train of thought like. sometimes Iāll KNOW how to answer but idk what the right piece of evidence is#and the penalties make it nerve wracking but I wanna see it get put together#like āhow can I prove the suicide note is forgedā oh maybe I can use Celesteās photo since she signed it.. that way u can#compare the handwriting on the note right#WRONG u present the suicide note. I got fucking dinged for that sigh#ace attorney#aa#Phoenix wright#pearl fey#art#doodles
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TAEHYUNG + š colors (cr. namuspromised, jung-kook)
happy birthday, kelli! @heybaetae š
#taehyung#kim taehyung#v#taehyungedit#bts#btsedit#btsgif#gif#maknaelinegifs#userkelli#usersky#annietrack#userdimple#raplineuser#rjshope#tuserandi#useremmeline#usermaggie#underbetelgeuse#dailybts#kelli my sweetest!!! happiest of the birthdays my love. wish you nothing but the best because YOU deserves it!#i know life can be really hard sometimes but i hope it treats you with easy on this new cicle of your life#since day 1 you made me think welcomed like i've always been here. always treat me like a friend and with the kindest heart.#I LOVE YOU SO MUCH#i'm grateful to have you... only you knows how hard for me some thing were here... and you more then anyone gave me strength to keep going#you're my baby! and i love you deeply. forever and always!
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if you want people to get into the canon comics and lead everyone away from fanon misinterpretation (which is a losing battle because there will ALWAYS be this) then why not be helpful instead of being a dick about it š¤Ø
the comics are hard to get into because it's hard to know where to start, and there's so much content that people are able to fill themselves in by reading fanfic or watching something on tiktok or seeing posts about it on here. perhaps instead of telling people they're stupid for not realizing your favorite character is being mishandled by others, you could write up a list of your favorite comics and/or how, if you could read them for the first time again, you would order your favorite comics to get the best reading experience. and also write your own fanfiction and draw your own fanart or make a passionate post, answer questions politely
#this is based on that one tiktok user who is actually doing some good#where they are fighting misinterpretation of batfam characters by making informational slideshows#i forgot their username so if someone knows who i'm talking about would be really cool and awesome if you could remind me :3#i saw their posts and was like āwow someone who can talk about canon and their opinions without just complainingā#proactive and i like it#on the other hand sometimes there is a healthy medium and it won't kill canon lovers to let people have some fun#it's not hard to be nice guys you just don't call people stupid and you ask questions#and i don't mean passive aggressive questions#i mean a genuine conversation without getting butthurt#i'm looking at BOTH sides when i say that#anyways if you want to#use this post to list your favorite comics and/or how you would advise someone to read your favorite character#etc etc#ik there are lists online#but this could also be a place to find it#dc#dc comics#batman#batfam#batman comics#batman and robin#ao3#ao3 fanfic#fandom#dc fandom#comic book#comics order#dc reading list#batman reading list#canon vs fanon
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And I said, āHello, Satan
I believe itās time to go.ā
#my art#southern gothic#been too depressed to create anything but Iāve made this today#the little rhyme has been in my head for a few weeks#spilled ink#I guess do people still use that tag for poetry or am I old lol#Iāve been writing in my journal pretty much daily and sometimes spitting out little poems like this#not much energy for art#so Iām not gonna pressure myself to keep it up#Iām just gonna enjoy the fact that I made this#I hope ur all well <33#the devil#by the way this isnāt meant to be fan art of Robert Johnson#but itās inspired by him and the stories of musicians who sell their souls to the devil#I am still thinking very hard and have mostly drafted a cornstalk fiddle comic#god knows how long itāll stay in a notebook haha#my comic#comics
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Happy New Years! May I offer some LU fic doodles to kick off the coming year?
The fics as they appear from left to right, starting at the top:
Mr. Hero by Ariandre
Peaceful Magic by Asocial_Lobster
One, Two, Three, Four, I Declare a Thumb War by Cullhach
A Walk In His Boots (What Is WRONG With Your Choice In Footwear???) by Can_Opener
Shadows and Spikes by Zarvasace
A Tale of a Darker Time by LuckyLectio
#was doing so good at keeping it greyscale right up until i hit that last one#it's fun to draw with the most pixelated brush you can get#i have a tendency to try so hard to get smooth lines and sometimes it's nice to just make it crunchy on purpose#my art#oh no the tags#uh#loz ravio#lu time#(what on earth is the tag for mask?)#lu wild#lu hyrule#lu legend#lu warriors#lu four#dark link#i don't know how many of these authors are on tumblr so i'm just gonna make it fair and not tag anyone#lu fic recs
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i feel like some people r missing the tragedy of timebomb somewhat bc i've seen a few ppl say that ekko was only in love with powder in the alt universe and not jinx, and it's like.. first of all they are the same person. they are the same person in different circumstances. but secondly ekko seeing that good universe, i think, instilled in him the belief that fixing the problems in his universe was still possible, that peace between piltover and zaun was still possible, that jinx wasn't doomed or irredeemable. ppl highlight his selflessness in being able to leave the good universe behind, but i think a big part of WHY he left was bc of the hope he had for his world. that's why timebomb is so tragic to me! ekko returned with the drive to make everything right, strengthened by knowing it wasn't some unattainable out-of-reach goal. and he came so so so close but was still a little too late
#ekko#jinx#arcane#timebomb#arcane spoilers#just look at the lyrics to ma meilleure ennemie - they're about his feelings for /jinx/. his universe's jinx particularly#how she's his 'enemy' but he still loves her and would rather be together w her than apart#he gave up on her before and he wasn't going to let himself give up again#being transparent: my feelings behind this are def connected to my own philosophical/political beliefs lol#if i was in ekko's place i would also choose to go back to my universe. esp knowing there's even a sliver of a chance to make it better#it sometimes feels so hard to imagine a better world is possible but you still gotta kill the nihilistic side of you#because it's so much easier to give up and you can't let yourself do that
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I wonder how many times Clark and the batkids + Alfred revived Bruce with the Lazarus Pit and just never told him abt it
#he pieces it together later but i mean. its so hard for him to miss now that hes looking back at it#like why is he always always always cold with a turtleneck on and heating blasting#why is his appetite so scarce? how come his sleep deprived body withstands hours - sometimes DAYS - of patrol#and functions perfectly? how come time passes by but he stays the same? why wont clark and dick stop giving gim#*him looks of loving grief?#why does harley slam her fists on her head when she sees him? ' no no no you're gone. you're GONE. I KNOW you are!'#why does selina smile at him with such heavy pity ' sorry bruce. i don't do ghosts'#bruce wayne#dc#dc comics#batman#batfamily#clark kent#dick grayson#jason todd#bc they def exclude the cloning. they dont want another bruce. they want THEIR bruce. tim#like can you imagine jason getting up in tim's face and just ' if you're not gonna stand by us then stay out of our way'#dark bruce? tired. dark BATKIDS? sign me the FUCK up#batdad#text
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Assisting Acquaintance Acquired.
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#poorly drawn mdzs#mdzs#wen ning#wei wuxian#Ignore how Wen Ning's hair looks here because I messed it up. Let's pretend he just sported a different hair style for a brief moment.#I am not exactly great at consistency but I am trying very hard to work on that (immediately messes up again).#Absolutely *love* how Wen Ning clearly remembers and admires WWX...who does *not* recognize him.#This is the best day for Wen Ning and it means *nothing* to WWX. A painful one-sided crush made worse.#It is bittersweet to realize that we care about someone more than they care about us. Sometime we pour love into a relationship-#-with someone who just can't reciprocate. It isn't always a conscious things either. Some people just aren't aware we care.#And painfully - so painfully - You can't make them aware. No act of kindness or gift or self sacrifice will make someone care about you.#You can martyr yourself for someone and they will continue on unchanged.#I think a lot about the parallels between WN and LWJ. Not foils - just reflections. A theme repeated.#People who give so much of themselves to someone who doesn't have the capacity to give any part of themself away.#I will die on the hill of 'Wen Ning would be the love triangle romance if that trope wasn't being avoided'.#And to be honest - thank the stars above that is the case. I do not know any good love triangles in media.#We are skipping some of the sad Jiang Cheng content because I really want to finish season 2 before May.#Sorry JC emo moment lovers...I'll deliver another time.
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