#i kjow * literally JUST told me 20 minutes ago not to beat myself up but i am the worst ambassafor EVER. im such a goddamn liar but i xant
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hey so u know how today was supposed to be like an amazing day and i was supposed to make a ton of friends? yeah me too
#it didnt happen lol i was suddenly consumed bynhomesickness and it got so bad that i wejt home from the city early and like dragged myself t#to the studejt supoort office and asked 2 talk 2 someone ππππππππ literally im supposed. 2 b a fucki ng ambassador for this shit snd#i kjow * literally JUST told me 20 minutes ago not to beat myself up but i am the worst ambassafor EVER. im such a goddamn liar but i xant#talk abt how much p*in im in i just have to pretend its all good on social media which is fucked up and i had such a good morning but then t#the sadness rammed into me like a ton of bricks and WELL! to make a long story short im gonna start meeting week LY w. someone from the stdy#sbtoad office because im insane. im so sad tis is overshadowing how like profoundly brave i was today and how much i did and saw tho like i#was by myself in the city all day! I DID THAT! i went to the beach finally and saw the sun over it and it was beautiful! and i walked to cam#campus all hy myself and. my class was rly good and i bought dhit at the art shop which is when the sadness hit me and i went to the activit#activities fair and i rode the bus and nearly got h*t by it cuz i missed it lol but omg my god. and. i went to the grcery store by myself an#and it was so expensive but i made it home in one piece and like none of that matters bc im so miserable and homesick and i JUST want to fee#sfeel comfortabke and safe and connected and its so fucking hard and i am in paijnnnnnnn and pretending im not. and its fine and it will get#better and it as to but this is just. excruciating and thet is so disapponting#i dont wanna let anyone down or bother anyone but MAN. man. i just keep needing huh!!!!!!!#purrs#brighton
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