#i just.... am struggling
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// i was gonna write something today like i was gonna write literally anything just Something.... but my meds are changing and im not feeling too hot actually so i just. Didn't write anything at all i guess... getting brain zaps from coming off sertraline and also just not coping well with life atm i guess. sorry for the lack of content i'm just in a very weird place right now and i really don't know how to cope with it tbh
#ooc.#personal //#turns out the sertraline was doing Something#cus my mood swings are literally all over the place now i'm off it#man was i this bad before i got on that stuff??#jees#i'm so tired and low energy at the moment and iu know that's only gonna get worse with what i'm going onto as of tomorrow#im literally sat here willing myself to do something just something just do Something but instead i just#start to fall asleep at my desk#and i keep having crying fits for like. some reason i guess#idk im not doing too hot#the Bad Thoughts are coming back and i just want to lay down and sleep all the time#im like. paralysed??? all the time at the moment#there's so many things i want to do but instead i just end up having weird brain zaps and head rushes in between episodes of falling asleep#idk!!!#but yeah#sorry for the lack of content#im trying#i want to be here#i just.... am struggling
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Really quick doodles of a few scenes from the stream yesterday. Including combat flirting taunting, galeās magnificently distracting shoes and.. whatever you wanna call gale agreeing to give 15 gold to astarion ššššš (thatās me blinking)
#bloodweave#astarion x gale#gale x astarion#bg3#baldur's gate 3#gale dekarios#astarion ancunin#they are so funny god help. thank you to whoever sat Neil next to Tim#my roommate turning to look directly at me whenever they were interacting lik bestie please stop I am trying to be normal. donāt look at me#my roommate also said Neil acting low-key obsessed with gale and I could only say wow heās just like me fr fr.#if I didnāt still struggle with getting shadowhearts likeness you would get a drawing of her hugging bing bong too but alas ā¦#anyway the stream was so fun#canāt wait til tomorrow hehe
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destiel forehead healing kiss. what more could u want.
#art#digital art#my art š¦·#digital painting#supernatural#destiel#castiel#dean winchester#spn fanart#spn#destiel fanart#i am. so tired.#i tried my hardest to not half ass this and give up#i sorta accomplished that but not really#ill have some grace for myself tho cause i really struggled to make art this month :/#spn fanart is so theraputic tho#i missed making my visions for this show#it also just felt like the most low stakes thing to make#this looks way better *not* on mobile.. too lazy to edit this shit now
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the wandering painter, part one
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#artists on tumblr#illustration#animated illustration#animation#backgrounds#animated gifs#background illustration#myillust#landscape#plants#scenery#summer#hiii! just wanted to share an artwork i made that's super fresh from the oven ksfknsf#'the wandering painter' will be a series that consists of artworks that has elements that i struggle to draw and am trying to improve on!#ive always really struggled with the process of painting (for example) clouds fields grass grasslands flowers etc#despite the end result coming out satisfactory imo but i cant deny that it most of the time feels like a fluke#so this series would consist of my journey of improving how to draw said elements/areas more confidently :D#this artwork in particular - i studied and practiced how to paint/draw silver grass better along with grasses and clouds#i feel like im sorta getting the hang of it but theres definitely room to study and experiment how i can paint it better#so yeah! nonetheless i really hope you'll like this! and i hope you'll have a lovely day/night ahead <3333
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Im sorry but being aromantic and/or asexual is such a beautiful, complex identity that opens up almost endless possibilities and interpretations about sex and romance and relationships and struggles within those,
and i will always absolutely LOATHE how both the outside and the aro/ace community itself have boiled these identities down to just "doesnt have sex" and "doesnt date"
#Like as a sex pos romance positive individual i feel so alienated from what is supposed to be my community too#Just for once id like to see a relatable post where an aro/ace describes how they are having sex/dating and how it feels different#from the way allos do it#cause it is different and it is amazing and i never see that pointed out#demy speaks#asexual#aromantic#aroace#aromantism#ace#aro#and just to be clear im not saying one is struggling more than the other or that one is better or more aro/ace#Nor am i saying that the ādoesnt date/have sexā posts are bad#Its just...some variety would be great yknow? This is way more complex of an identity than the community is making it out to be
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through starless sky to blackest ground
#wof#wings of fire#wof moonwatcher#moonwatcher#wof moon#music#music art#art#artists on tumblr#wof nightwing#nightwing#model/actriz#dogsbody#maria#starlingfawn's art#THROWS WOF ART ATBYOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#i am rereading wof ^^!!! i had already read arc 1 a couple of times so i figured i'd start at arc 2 and it's so fun oh my lord#i love moonwatcher so much.... i liked her when i first read these books but now giving it a reread her pov is so interesting#i love the silly overwhelmed dragon with questionable inner voices....#anyways i am so surpriswd reading these books coming from wc that-- the characters have friends?? unique traits and personalities?? they#have individual struggles?? the side characters are all loveable characters on their own and aren't just a way to advance the plot#forward??? the characters have their own unique dynamics with eachother????#sure i might have my problems with the books sometimes but they're pretty neat tbh ^^"#anyways this wouldn't be a certified starlingpaw post without a lyric that has no resemblance to the art itself so i added a model/actriz#lyric. i cannot believe i've never talked about those guys but they're an amazing band!! def recommend checking them out!!
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I promise you guys Iām not usually a steven universe fan artist Iām just really into drawing the characters rn
#pearlās diamond dress always reminded me of Victorian ballet costumes#Pearl just has some of my favorite designs I love her colors#and I AM feeling inspired by my ocs again but Iām ALSO inspired by steven universe itās a struggle!!#my art#digital art#procreate#artists on tumblr#digital illustration#illustration#original art#doodle#art#drawing#fan art#steven universe#su#pearl steven universe#pearl#su Pearl#digital doodle#digital aritst
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stupid sunny!!!! you canāt smokeā¦
#dial tone demon#rotary sun#dtd au#fnaf sun#sun fnaf#sundrop#dca#daycare attendant#dca au#my art#AAAA AA#i AM WRITING CHAPTER 5 i amā¦ iāve been struggling#i will also reply to asks soon im just busy. wth work#š
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Hazbin Hotel is a mess, pacing-wise, but I missed a good animated musical with just the Worst People so here are some of my Worsties :D
#hazbin hotel#sir pentious#rosie#velvette#valentino#carmilla carmine#sketches#i need to draw them together but the vees are a polycule who make each other's lives worse#alastor being aroace instantly makes him so much funnier#he's great#and charlie is a sweetie#i am struggling with the earless/noseless style#i just cave and add them
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Hi so I mightāve made a painting of my Inquisitor while trying to mimic Solasās style so I can pretend he made it
#Iāve titled it Decade of Pining#Iām handling the wait for veilguard well as you can see#I didnāt sleep last night and just worked on this woops#at least I have the day off today so itās no biggie#but I am perhaps a bit delirious#i think this is good for my first try#but i need to work on making things more simplified if i wanna do this again#especially in the face he doesnāt do faces tbh#I struggle a lot with not over complicating things#always have#i just wanna add more#i know no restraint#solas#dragon age#shivana lavellan#my art#dragon age fanart#solavellan#da4#dragon age veilguard#da:tv
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something something height difference something?
#jerejean#aftg#aftg art#jeremy knox#jean moreau#the trojans#idk man i JUST IMAGINE WHEN JEAN GETS MORE COMFORTABLE WITH BEING TOUCHED AND LIKE JEREMY IS SHORTER BUT HE HAS strong core idk#idk#i am having sp much anxiety posting this#ghhhhehfbfbh#do yall know how much i struggled with deciding whether or not to give jeremy thE surfer hair#tsc#my art
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Jodybeth sketch to hold me over
#art#the locked tomb#tlt#coronabeth tridentarius#judith deuteros#jodybeth#honestly really struggling artwise atm#nothing is coming out good at all so just sketching anything to try and break out of it#i have band au ideas for them i am aching to do
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1.02 // 1.06 // 1.08 The Stranger vs. Sol on recognizing and differentiating Osha and Mae
#the acolyte#theacolyteedit#starwarsedit#osha x qimir#oshamir#osha aniseya#qimir the acolyte#sol the acolyte#star wars#mae aniseya#sometimes i make things#the acolyte dragging me back to fandom and gifmaking#i am not back on tumblr except i am just for this#i have a couple other gif ideas we'll see if i end up making them#there's something about sol's paternalistic attachment to osha leading him to tunnel vision when it comes to her#mae as an extension of osha#mae as the version that went wrong; corrupted;#whereas the stranger recognises and treats them as different people almost right away#and there is something so compelling to that#that even the person who claims to love you (and does love you in his own way) struggles to even recognise you#and will always see you as that little girl on brendok who needs saving#the stranger sees the parts of her that were unwanted; acknowledges her grief and anger and trauma#whereas the jedi and by extension sol saw that as a threat#ANYWAY im done i dont know anything about star wars except that i need this to be renewed asap
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i am at the point where if i dont finish now i'll newer finish so yeah the rest of the gaaaaaang
#critical role#the mighty nein#fanart#caleb widogast#mollymauk tealeaf#fjord stone#caduceus clay#the male passing fellas#this was harder then i fuckin thought#i hope someone will make taliesin personally apologize to every animator who will work on molly#caleb my love i adore your palette you look like dirt and smell of cat pissš#i FINALLY FUUUCKIN FIGURED OUT FJORD O YEA#i was struggling with him for ages#mr duce zero complains absolute ideal of a character#tho i am still not entirely pleased with colors#but fuck it#if i keep going like this i'll just never post anything ever
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What a guy
#im somehow art blocked but am still pumping out drawings#ig im not technically art blocked then#im just struggling to get anything out#i tried to color this like 5 times#couldnt do it#when i dont want to draw but still have the urge to draw#is prime inside comfort zone fan art time#wilimia art#linked universe#linkeduniverse#lu twilight
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Here comes the Sun himself āļø
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#here comes the sun boogie woogie#hetalia#hws spain#aph spain#antonio fernandez carriedo#gangstalia#I stayed until 2 am drawing him bc. Iāve been struggling w art for the last two days and I was going crazy#Iām like I NEED A DUBā#and Iām happy w this one I think I finally did Antonio justice š#i hate his fucking tie#I think this guy hates ties and purposefully chose that one#IT DOESNT MATCH THE OUTFIT GGRRR#or I guess itās like an accent to his gold belt. idfk#I just know Romano was spinning in his fucking bed after meeting this man bc the idea of that. leaf print tie haunted him#that and the gay thoughts#fix him Romano ā¦. fix him#I keep saving the draft then coming back bc ACTUALLY ROMANO CANT SAY SHIT w the Italy flag tie#both of them straight to prison
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