#i just watched the ep where he's like do you think im lonely? because everyone else has their romantic partners and families

[muleumpyo]

anyone lose track of their golden retriever boyfriend? i think i found 'em 🤭

[unimpressivegayarrow]

I can't sleep or do anything else so I'm gonna post thoughts on lone star. (mainly about ep6)

[i'm still excited for it and I'm still really into it, but I've had mental dip and I'm not really fucked atm.]

I think the bomb ep was good enough, I liked how they finished that plot line. I dont mind Owen but I don't love him but he's funny so I don't care. and I'm kinda confused at the antis- bc it's literally the Owen show anyway, so if u don't like him and you actively hate every second he's on screen why are you watching the show? noones making u.

another point is the disappointment people feel with tarlos, i feel it too, and im not gonna lie but clowning is not the profession i wanted. but then I think, this isn't the tarlos show. It just isn't. even the tarlos heavy episodes aren't. It's all a promo thing, and it's all hyped up because it's a gay couple on tv.

maybe I'm bitter because representation is for sure "everywhere" but it's still fucking scarce even when they brand their whole fucking show around the representation.

they get alot of money from this show so they won't jeopardise that by overly gaying it and at the same time they won't risk losing their gay audience so they find a shitty balance and feed us bread crumbs.

I'm also really angry that I'm at the point where I have to say that representation is disappointment.

side note: if u watch the show and love to hate it, that's chill, but don't go hating on other people's views because it's just pointless. everyone has their own opinion. just be respectful. and there's enough catfights between us as a fandom and the writers already we don't need infighting too.

there's a difference between being frustrated about a lack of representation and getting annoyed at others in this community for watching regardless.

so yeah bomb episode was good, I liked the action parts, and the team up of O'brien and Carlos. I like O'brien so I hope he sticks around for a few more eps. I like his chemistry with Owen and I think they'd be a cool duo together. didn't like the whole 'is he a nazi?' thing.

I like the banter, episode five felt more like lone star again. to drive this point home, in true lone star fashion, no follow up on Carlos being kidnapped he's just fine now 0:). I'm not even suprised.

saw the synopsis for next episode and I can't wait till tomorrow for marjan to join us again!

[secreteviltwin]

masterposting lost reactions even though exactly 1 of my mutuals has seen it because ive spent today binging season 5

every scene with richard in it is the funniest scene

the ep where locke goes around failing and then everyone and their mom points out that he's just lonely/delusional and then he tries to kill himself is 😶. literally so mean of them to give the believer a cruel death and the skeptic an unshakeable destiny

im glad they redeemed ben in the end, if they hadn't i don't think it would be lost. but i do enjoy it when he gets the shit beat out of him. watching him get played like a fiddle by MiB not so much

young!danielle is gorgeous

this is my first rewatch and it's so crazy how different the experience is when you Know things. especially all the shit with the temple and fake!locke. everything has a hidden meaning etc. but especially MiB impersonating alex to threaten ben was so funny. like watch 1 i was 😮 what's going on here??? and watch 2 is smokey throwing all subtlety out the window

kate is much less annoying in the late series to the point where im actually enjoying her arc quite a bit? the coming back for claire thing is such a solid motivation now that she's moved on from the love triangle bullshit

the throwaway "it's not a monster it's a security system for the temple" line had me 👀 especially after having seen the directors commentary for across the sea

penny and desmond having their first reunion in "the constant" and their second reunion in "the variable"... it's like poetry it rhymes etc.

the way they go out of their way to include everyone's individual reaction to richard not aging really does it for me

one thing this show does right is Masterful use of episode titles. top of the list this season is "he's our you" but top of all time remains "all the best cowboys have daddy issues"

ill be real i didn't catch the bit where jacob made the others learn latin until now. also does his name mean his mother was jewish or is it just anglicized?

richard should have clocked locke immediately. I-M-M-E-D-I-A-T-E-L-Y. huge L for him

the MiB and the dwarf in the flask from fma are the same character

the god-wont-intervene-but-the-devil-will thing they've got going on is actually so weighted and interesting especially combined with the very pointed compilation of jacob going around touching all the candidates. it really is all about the lighthouse scene

jacob spending his time weaving is something that can be so personal

the scene where the backgammon-bros sit on the beach looking at the black rock is a tv recreation of the beginning of the book of job

i don't think women can be blorbos so i guess richard is the closest thing i've got

I TOTALLY FORGOT ABOUT "what about you?" OH MY GOD

s5 is definitely the best one. perfect mix of nonsense + interesting flashbacks + lore + no charlie (hate that guy)

[sour-n-salty-citrus]

Do you have any hopes for the season finale? I saw in another ask, you described the dynamic between rick and morty this season as "very weak, distant, and downright frankly boring" and I completely agree with you! I hope that, because this is most we'll see rick and morty interacting this season, it'll have at least a few moments of what makes their dynamic so interesting to watch.

(Ok i started airing my grievances with this season, which ended up being... long, so skip this paragraph (starting at / / /) to get to my thoughts on the finale)

Oh gosh I remember that ask (I think-). And yeah, maybe I'm being a bit overly critical. I'll probably look back on this season with retrospect, and a kinder, fonder view. Ik androgynousblackbox (think thats right) made a great point about it being the season FOR rickorty shippers. And sure, I agree on some bits, like Rick acting all pissy and partying the way you would if your ex got with someone new in the planetina ep. Overall though, i think my problem lies in that I was enjoying more individual moments than episodes themselves, especially the middle three. For example- Amortycan Grickfitti. Like, I really liked the idea of the Ship getting on a crazy adventure with Summer and Morty (and Chutback). I like the idea of a Beth-Jerry-Rick adventure. But put together, it's just kinda... meh? You know? I liked the first half of the Thanksgiving special... but it kinda dragged on after that. I get that they want to give other characters (particularly female ones) more attention, which is completely understandable and i encourage it(!) but I can't help but find it underwhelming. Like, Summer in the voltron ep was like- girl how are you STILL vying for Rick's attention! He's the worst! Haven't we done this already? (I will say though I ADORE how far Beth has come, props to her for continuing to seeing through her dad's BS. I was worried the character would relapse into a more typical s1/s2 Beth, and I'm glad she didn't). Some of these plots, funnily enough, seem more fitting of the comics (they actually had a voltron parody already). Fun and entertaining for two or three-something issues, not so much a 22 minute episode. i think most of my complaints come from the dynamic between our titular characters- ok, I know I'm very biased (I mean you can see it), but I came to the show primarily for their relationship. It doesn't even feel drama-fueled, just that they kinda... can't be arsed. I'm torn because on the one hand, they're unhealthily codependent and this separation is probably a good thing, but on the other... it doesn't feel natural? I'm not sure if that's the right word- it's like, season 4 had them practically joint at the hip, but all that's suddenly flung out the window. It just kinda feels like this "i got better things to do" vibe from both of them and its strange. The only time they both got a solo adventure (I'm classifying "solo" as an adventure where they spent a significantly large portion of time together, without the other family members) was in the sperm ep and Thanksgiving ep. And, well, in the Thanksgiving ep Morty felt like a side character in his own show, and the sperm ep... um. Yeah. I don't think it's AS bad as people were saying, but I was cringing the whole time (the second hand embarrassment for Morty was so strong I had to turn off the episode multiple times and return to it. It's just like- godammit MORTY). And I think there's good reason those two seemed to be the most disliked episodes overall. They're the ones RaM spend the most time together and it's... meh. Meh? Meh. I don't mean to say the season overall is bad (it has loads of good points, and its amazing for Smith family as a whole) just that if we're talking specifically about the dynamic between these two? Yeah, I wouldn't recommend a single episode from this season so far to use as an example of their relationship.

/ / /

There's one thing this season has been pretty good at, though. And it's showing us what happens when Rick is alone.

And that brings me to the finale.

"Who is Rick without Morty?"

Well... we already know the answer to that. Pathetic. Sad. Lonely.

This season has been phenomenal in humbling Rick. (And trust me I'm happy for it- every time someone beats the crap outta this shitty old man I'm like YES!!! IT'S WHAT HE DESERVES!). Ep 1 had his "nemesis" clearly besting him, ep 2 had Beth making constant digs (love her) and overall pointing out his extreme callousness and cruelty towards even himself(ves). Ep 3- when Morty shows interest in a girl and ditches him (like seriously it's not like he's moving out, chill) he immediately goes on a bender and develops a deep attachment to the first person he can (wearing yellow, funnily enough). Ep 4, he devotes himself to becoming an "honest man" for his new child, only for it to instantly be taken away from him. Ep 5 highlights how RICK is the asshole for making fun of and taking advantage of someone well-meaning and honest, if "simple", and how literally not cool that is. Ep 6 has his crazy rivalry with the president, and they both get smacked down a couple pegs for that. Ep 7 shows what happens when he allows himself to get carried away, and that he can end up driving everyone else away in the process (lucky they still wanted to save his ass when he needed them). And episode 8? Hooooo boy. Episode. 8. We see a direct parallel in Birdperson with Morty, and the whole "Rick and [insert] 100 years!" Rick has few people he cares about, arguably only one or two that he truly devotes himself to, but when he does, boy does he go HARD. We see younger Rick, optimistic, energetic, friendly and hopeful. And we see all of that crushed in minutes. Rick is desperate for a companion, someone to see the stars with. He needs someone there, someone he can trust and rely on to stay. Someone like Morty. So without Morty, who is Rick?

No one.

And the thing is, Morty doesn't need Rick anymore. Not like Rick needs him. In season 1, Morty was this bright-eyed kid who was new to the cosmos and the multiverse, who needed his grandpa there with him as they explored all these places together. But that's not him anymore. That's not them.

The promo has Morty using the portal gun to go somewhere w/o Rick's permission (i like to think it's boob world lol). It doesn't matter to me as much where he's going, as much as he's doing it alone. He doesn't just not need Rick there, he doesn't want him.

(Also correct me if im wrong but I've missed that sweet portal gun so much. I think the last ep was like- the first time this season we saw it).

Morty's response to Rick? "Replace me!". And wow. Wow. WOW. Morty doesn't give a FUCK! I think Rick thinks that because he's so smart, that he can offer so much, that Morty will come crawling back, and I don't think he will.

Hopes for the finale! Hmm. I mean, I definitely hope "evil" Morty makes a reappearance, haha. I think we all do tbh ;). I want to see some Morty development too, this season has been very Rick-centric (not that there's anything wrong with that!) so I wanna see what's in store for Our Boy. I really hope we get to see the Citadel again, and see the state it's in, but I doubt it. We know something super big is in store, it's just a question of what? Other hopes I have is some Summer + Beth action (please let them team up Im BEGGING) and Jerry too ahaha. I'd love if some other side characters made an appearance as well. Oh- I'm definitely expecting a dramatic cliffhanger at the end of the first half leading to the second half, with the kind of angsty music that leads into the credits (pls that shit is so good (OH WAIT imagine if it was like, for the damaged coda, but like- the chopin version or smth so it could be more subtle maybe bruhhhh)). Ok haha, maybe that's asking too much, the writers made it clear in the story train ep that they weren't gonna do that big dramatic showdown (... unless 👀). Oh, I'd also love some Premium Angst too, like someone getting kidnapped/nearly dying (like ACTUALLY nearly dying). These stakes better be so damn high I could spear a man on them! OH, also I remember androgynousblackbox (is that right? I hope it is) mentioned something along the lines that they could be driving Rick and Morty apart this season in order to have them come back together stronger than ever in an explosive finale, which, I'm strongly hoping for myself.

Thanks if you made it this far! If you have any thoughts on or hopes of your own for the finale please feel free to share! :D

[kexing]

So since you’re the one who got me into the bad buddy mess (thank you for that btw it’s such a great show I love it so much and unironically ep11 is my favorite no im not kidding I love it so so much) I had TO SCREAM AT SOMEONE NOW THAT IVE SEEN IT???? CAUSE HOLY COW THAT SURE WAS SOMETHING RIGHT?????? I was sure everyone loved that bittersweet angsty lovefest just as much as me but then I checked tumblr and oh boy. I actually did not watch the teaser (was a mistake I feel) cause I wanted to avoid spoilers for the last ep and now im like. Sitting here going. Huh?

So since im still boarded and not getting off the “best boyfriends never breaking up” train. May I just – cause no one else is gonna listen to me talk about it – dumb my idea for whats happening into your unassuming, innocent ask box and bail. Cause otherwise ill explode with conflicting emotions.

SO WHAT IF ep 12 starts with patpran entering their respective homes and their parents want to talk with them about being reasonable and breaking up with the other and patpran go through a “What if” like we had in the end of ep 11. A what if where they did indeed break up, a clean cut, where they erase e/o from their lives and how sad and lonely they’ll be and how fucking miserable and how in turn that will be their families miserable too and they tell their families. And THAT’S what we’ve been shown in the teaser. OR even better a what if where they indeed ended up hating each other???

Yes I’m firmly seated on the delulu train destination: clown town.

Also the scenes with the friends and the “we broke up” has major SIKE vibes. Like of course prans friends would like to know what the hell went down and why he ran away just out of nowhere and I think pran would deflect at first with a joke and go into “yeah me and pat broke up” just to watch his friends who were at first so against pat go “WHAT THE FUCK NO” and then have a quiet laugh at their expense cause of course they did not.

There. I fixed it.

(also isn’t that scene from the teaser where pat dad says “you did the right thing” the same as the scene where they hug from the what if scene from ep11? Also it reminds me a lot of the “when did I teach you to lie” teaser and im guessing he means “you did the right thing” by coming home, by being a decent human being, by calling my shit out etc. yes did I mention im headed to clown town.)

Also did I mention thank you so much for plastering my dash with bad buddy. Best thing that has happened to me since December urgh yes! i hope youre having a very good weekend and are not too concerned about whats gonna happen. love you byyyye

hi! akdjskkdks you’re welcome!! 🤣🤣🤣

yes, feel free to scream!!! ep 11 was truly something else. dare i say, the most emotional pipe dream i’ve ever experienced in my life.

OMG imagine you blissfully unaware coming to tumblr to find the fandom on fire 🤣🤣🤣🤣 honestly, i kind of wish there was no preview cuz that was such a low blow, even though i’m very aware that it’ll be fine in the end.

it’s perfectly alright to share your thoughts and opinions with me. it’s the least i can do for getting you into this aldkskkdks

a what if where they indeed ended up hating each other 😭😭😭😭 yes, i can actually see that happening! i don’t think it’s impossible + it’d help add perspective to the boys.

i’m still 30% at the beach of denial so i get it!

alkdkskdkskd the whole preview still feels weird to me. maybe it’s because i wasn’t expecting it? i don’t know what i was expecting but still. so i accept your fix-it!!!

you are also correct. both scenes from the teaser with patpran and their families are practically the same scenes from the what if. they’re all dressed the same.

of course that very logically speaking, maybe that’s just for shooting reasons but the possibility still exists that it’s another what if. and while i unfortunately don’t see the father taking the blame and saying pat’s right, that would be a wonderful thing!!! at this point any character development would make me happy lmao clown town is my favorite lmao

i mean. maybe they indeed broke up and the time apart helps them become more independent from their families and confirm that their feelings are permanent. i can accept it as long as they end up together but i’d love if it was just a what if akdjskkdks

aww i’m glad you’re enjoying bad buddy!! and that i could help you with that!!! it’s my absolute pleasure!!!

i wish you a great weekend as well!! and no worries!!! waiting is torture and i’m still a bit sad but i know it’s gonna be fine in the end so i’m not stressing out.

stay strong until next friday!! love you too bby!! thank you for stopping by! ❤️💙

[smallestclowninthecircus]

Season 4 notes

Ep 121: mmmm tape recorder turning on without them knowing goes brrr. AAAhjhdsjfhjdf "do you mind if i call you jon" its like "can i call you elias?" is this the dream guy with the tendrils? who wants to bet the boat is captained by peter lukas? big man if it killed yall how are you still here. oh boy the tape is doin that thing. who do we think it is? did he wake up? hmm. ep 122: lol jon. 6 months!?!? bruh quit movin big man. he just Knows things sometimes you know how it is. nah b/c i can relate to feeling like other ppl/ things arent real, thats the biggest mood BUT i think it is kinda pretentious to entertain the idea that youre the only Real person. If you dont see a body dont believe it. i'll hold out hope for a bit. theres not a new archivist is there? surely i wouldve heard about that. oh god peter what changes did you make. ep 123: web development. hope its about spiders. she blames him. bruh why. if they hadnt done anything the world would've ended piss off melanie. why are ppl acting like he chose to be in a coma for 6 months. we know this they just appear. no longer "head archivist of the magnus institute, london" now he's just "the archivist" covered in spiders? cuz ik the spider has to do with controlling what youre doing and all this stuff but i cant think of how this connects to that. ep 124: ugh vertigo. is michael crew an old man? oooh. fairchild. how did he know it was martin? hmm. GRR I LOST MY NOTES AGAIN. FROM EPISODE 125 - part of 131. ep 131: bruh he's so hard to understand big man ur voice is so low. Jared Hotworth. the boneturner. "the ones i helped find their proper bodies" name a better top surgeon? our favorite trans ally? ep 132: woo field trip into the coffin! static lol. he says "chill out im just poppin in for a quick recall mission" is the rib thing actually gonna work? bruh it feels so odd and contrived but he's an odd man with some odd powers so idk. rip that archivist ayyy statement time. voices? recordings? are those tape recorders? was it the tape recorders? did they pull him back? i hope so b/c if the rib thing actually worked im gonna be so disappointed. ep 133: predicting the lonely? tundra. like the lukases. hmm. sanikova! like sanikov land. so its the hunt? i suppose? yeah. so daisy's clearly rejecting the hunt, which makes sense cuz she doesnt seem to like the entities that much. wait so are we just not gonna talk abt all the tapes playing on the ground?? no? ep 134: not an archival assistant anymore? Adelard Decker (or however you spell it) i recognize that name. 15th power. i was right there are 15. the extinction? im trying to remember what ive heard. oooh spooky. no i gotta be real i dont understand this fear but i'll believe you that its a thing. ew lukas is so squealy. lukas can turn invisible? oh boy. oooh martin put the tape recorders there. lol lukas is worried he's gonna be an avatar of the eye. ep 135: yoo its the third Daedalus statement! maxwell rayner (reiner? reigner?) i dont know who that is but ik its somebody. is he the cult leader guy? church of the divine host? 4 people?? what? did they kidnap somebody and keep them up there?? oh dear jon are you dying? did he try to See or Know or whatever? why does everyone call basira detective lol. ep 136: he was the one from the spider movie that ate ppl right? the special effects artist? is it annabelle cane? "its a joke jon" lol. hmm they wanted to record the therapy session with melanie? i wonder who that is. i almost wanna guess annabelle cane but im not sure. ep 137: this is the one! he went to the other place and read the war statement but it wasnt the one she took. not the music again. sounds like the slaughter. who the heck is eric lol. "the watcher's crown" like the crown of eyes we saw in the piccrew ep 138: oh boy Robert Smirk time. is that elias? as unhelpful as usual. if new powers can be "born" can others die out? did jonah magnus wear the watchers crown? maybe they were born from our fear or maybe our fears were born from them. ceaseless watcher does ceaselessly watch so. idk what you want

big man. yeah jonah for sure did something. ep 139: agnes!! lol that one dude threw off all their plans thats so funny. BUT this does tell us something. the tree in the backyard of the hilltop house? not made by her. it going down didnt kill agnes. im guessing gertrude tied agnes to the house using the tree? u good jon? cuz every time you try to Know smth intentionally it seems like it causes you great pain. how come he can do it accidentally with no problem but the second he wants to know smth of plot relevance he gets a headache or whatever ep 140: lol pagan exultation. classic. "oh thats my rib" lmaoo. ppl are always so mad at jon and his Eye powers except when it benefits them. they're like "oh you shouldnt do that its not right" and then all of a sudden they want to know something and its all "oh cmon jon its the only way" ep 142: oh god jon what did you do. its interesting she's giving her statement in the way that they do when jon Asks. did he see her in the Coffin? and so he's following her? ok cmon jon you're supposed to let them come to you. lmao ikr martin. "start to hear the blood" "suure." lmao ep 143: lol that awkward moment when gertrude is already dead. big J if you die im gonna kill you. bruh. ayo helen? i guess it worked? ep 144: lol this reminds me of that one edgar allan poe story where he kills the old dude with the weird eye. spooky music stuff. lol thats my favorite symptom of a heart attack its hilarious. so its smth abt the location probably? bro i feel like you should write down the numbers idk. 162830165049 564846474827. seems like the distortion? like the kinda thing that causes you to go crazy because of the numbers. oh boy is it the extinction again. bro what?? im?? his dad just died and he's like eh. martin dont be mean. he's being all lonely again. big man ur pushing ppl away. oh god its fucking squealy boy. ep 145: that almost sounds like breekon/hope... Arthur? agnes. aah was he from the lightless flame cult. a tree. lol he's just ranting rn. hehehe fuck landlords amirite. yay someone tells jon outright to go to therapy. now do it big man. ep 146: oh great! the distortion! i'm making a spiral themed building in mc right now! jon maybe accept you did a bad? nah this goes back to what i said before. they're fine with him compelling ppl when its convenient for them but otherwise its "no jon you cant, youre a monster jon" the tapes didnt turn on. i spose that means its not important? i agree with daisy, this seems unecessarily dangerous. ep 147: is that a tape? the first tape? well that went better than i expected tbh. BAHAKJASHDJKF she did the "can i call you jon" like nikola says "elias, can i call you elias?" damn annabelle is such a girlboss. oh! the one thing from the picrew. its been a while since ive connected smth to that. lol all the other avatars always talk abt their patron so lovingly and the jon just. absolutely hates the eye. ep 148: lol thats the most elias thing. "i just like the way it sounds" ep 149: did he disappear? bruhh. ur lonely powers are popping off i guess. oops i accidentally deleted my notes for 150 - 152 ep 153: thats the cult right? yeah. it doesnt sound like the church of the divine host? idk. if it is the church of the divine host then they worship the dark right? so is the eleventh the dark star or wtvr? it almost sounds like the corruption b/c of the oil or grease or whatever. oh dear what happened. oh its the hunters. theyre so annyoing. not an "it" he has a name. he's a person. is this a page from the skin book? ep 154: oh shit this is gerry's dad! oh shit he quit! oh dear god. jon don't you do it. haha martin. yeahhhh... is he gonna tell the others? cuz you know theyre gonna get mad if he doesnt. oh also picrew connection! the bandages over the eyes? yeah thats this im guessing. ep 155: oh good he told them. oh my god what did you do. lol i have no mouth and i must scream. nah you get none of my sympathy you're straight up murdering ppl. its like the desolation, destroying lives to sustain your own. ok but taking their statements doesnt

kill them. oh... bye melanie. ep 156: lmao imagine if the tape recorder spoke back. oh boy decker! i swear we got a statement from him already. oh god mirrors scary. They're gonna eat the body arent they. Yup... sounds like the flesh or the slaughter, but I'm not sure. Could be the extinction for sure. Smth at the center! Like Helen mentioned. God Peter you dick. Ep 157: peter's just so :/ another decker statement i see. a statement about the corruption? hmm. maybe its not abt the corruption. the extinction. lol pandemics. topical. John Amherst. helen? lol i can hear admiral purring in the background. oh cmon helen dont be like that. im trying real hard to like you but you make it so difficult. ep 158: did they fucking free the stranger? im gonna lose it. you absolute dumbass. im sorry who is that? jonah magnus? my guy. peter. you absolute dickhead. that's elias. (im p sure i had this spoiled for me that elias is jonah) oh dear this is her death. god peter you prick. i hope this is a pop off martin moment and not a "martin you idiot" moment. i hope the hunters kill the stranger entity. or she kills them. furry daisy pop off! yeah fuck you peter martin can make his own decisions. you know that clip from Twisted where jafar says "ok what the fuck was that" martin D: ok like i know its gonna work but still D: D: ep 159: peter you bitchboy. because if im alone i cant hurt anyone else. imnotgonnacryimnotgonnacryimnotgonnacry do it do it do it do it. pop off jon. ok its a pretty good idea for a ritual i gotta be honest. she didnt even have to blow it up lol. oh dear that was certainly a noise. "he gets you" did he not have jon already? he's back! our boy is back! awwww thats so cute. ep 160: oh right this is the thing in the safe house. i love him. "obviously im going to tell you if i see any good cows" martin my beloved <3 :)) oh boy who is this. fuckin. people. jonah you dick. gahh. you can tell he's trying to resist so hard lol. ohh. hehe keep an *eye* on him. altho if the extinction is a real thing he needs to be marked by that right? lol he sounds so intense im sorry- i want martin to just burst in and be like "look at this cow i saw!" its so dramatic and for why.

[astro-break]

Quick first thoughts on the first ep of the Hypmic Anime. Spoilers beware (and im writing this as I watch so :p)

Otome’s speech is.... questionable from a persuasive point of view. Manga did a great job of introducing her (which you can read here) but they really cut out the more terrifying parts of her speech and how she uses force to show people that she's not to be messed with

Its cool seeing everyone in their respective environments though. thats cool. Though they could have added Sasara and Kuuko (shhh i know why they didn’t let me dream)

I love how poppy the typography is. Its amazing how the visuals just leap out at you. The OP does a great job of this. The first few seconds before the title really gives me Persona 4 OG OP vibes with the influx of information given. The rest is a clear concise and streamlined way that still gives character. Animation is sparse but still carries across a general idea of each character and shows off each character object. Rendering is really nice and pays a bit of homage to the posing artwork thats done for the MVs. They also do their division hand signals and thats cute

Love how the OP has blatant HifuDoppo and DRB matchup foreshadowing

so far I really like what theyre going for. BB is about brotherly familial bonds and they show the goods and the bads. Jiro and Saburo bickering right out the gate really cements the fact that they get along like cats and dogs but you can still see that they love each other, working together when the situation calls for it

Now the 3d models. Theyre... not great but usable if you don’t look too hard. They serve their purpose and don’t actively detract from the viewing experience.

Visual typography in the rap itself are fun and poppy but they dont.... speak to me? like theyre there yes and I appreciate them but the only ones that got me excited were from Ichiro’s rap

I take my words back the group portion was kickass and I apologize

I love how they interpret the Hypnosis Speakers though. Esp. Saburo’s organs. That was super creative and I love it! If there was one thing that I felt was missing from the franchise was a deeper exploration of the speakers but the anime puts a new and fresh spin on it! Love it, especially with their attack patterns!

If the production team ever feels inclined to, Id love to see those info sheets on Otome’s desk released. There seems to be very interesting info and stats written out about each member (like capabilities, personal status etc.) They all seem unique too so I really really really hope they release images of those sheets

OOOOOOOOKAY MTC. I have such a big biased for them so Im very torn to see what unfolds

Rio striking out on his own is interesting. Out of everyone in MTC hes the biggest team player yet here he trusts his teammates to go ahead. This either displays Rio’s willingness to trust his teammates or it becomes very OOC if the anime wants to set him up as a lone wolf like character

I love how they specify its a drug deal. It means that Jyuto surely will show up and it also shows that Samatoki knows Jyuto’s motives and willingly gives black market info that he knows aligns with Jyuto’s goal. Thats A+ detail writing there and a great establishing characteristic for both of them

OOohhhhhhhhhhhhh man Asunama-san’s voice acting is god tier his work as Samatoki is phenomenal. He pulls of Samatoki’s threatening voice so well with those almost calm words before his voice becomes loud and confrontational. Those rolling syllables in contrast to Komada-san’s almost lyrical and airy speech and Kamio-san’s strict and enunciated words is such a delight to hear. It just speaks to how amazing and great these Seiyuu’s are in order to pull of such amazing work

Im so biased but MTC has such a better rap than BB im so sorry. Just by watching Samatoki’s part, the imagery is amazing. Even the arrival of his Hypnosis Speaker was awesome and sent a shiver down my spine. using the lyrics to form blades and blood was such a great thing to do. Theres so much more variety that just him standing there and shots of his hypnosis speaker. The old fashioned vignette shots, the four panel spread, the nods to old Kurosawa era films are great and I love these small details. Even the typography looks better.

Again, the interpretations with the speakers is fresh and new. Its great and I love the different imagery and attack patterns. Each one is so unique but carries across each different style of rap.

The 3d modles aren’t any better tho lol

(Hi this is Astro who is reading over their assessment again and making a note. Yeah I’m a bit harsh on BB’s rap. I’m not going to change it since I still stand by it and this post is supposed to be a documentation of my first impressions. I think one of the reasons why I’m so harsh on BB is because of their dynamic as a trio of brothers. They Have to have a more uniform approach than the other divisions. Which in of itself isn’t a terrible thing, it just doesn’t catch my eye as much as MTC did. Thats all! I definitely don’t hate BB, they’re maybe my 3rd favorite division out of the current lineup [not including TDD era teams like Kujaku Posse, MCD, and Naughty Busters] its just that their rap was pretty meh)

Samatoki crouching like a real gangstar and the cigarette kiss killed me

sadjkhfjkasdghsadjkcsdjhsdfsjhf im dying i love these trio of dumbasses so uch oh y fod someone save me aaaaaaaa (Astro note here! yeah i died when the jyuto and samatoki’s stomach growled im weak please. Samatoki’s face is just so precious and funny I might set it as a profile pic somewhere)

But also my initial assessment of Rio possibly being characterized as a lone wolf is very much jossed and im very thankful for that. It seems that Rio was simply trusting his teammates to carry out their part of the plan while he carried out his own. I like that, it really shows how much of a team these three are and that they genuinely trust each other. He’s also comfortable enough around them to invite them to dinners after work casually and not just for special occasions.

I really love MTC guys

Oooh! we get Ramuda on his design process which is really cute. the inside of his studio is super cute and retro and i love it. the poppy old music you would hear in a cafe or 90′s resturaunt is also really cute (astro note: yeah i know that in ARB you see the interior of Ramuda’s office but its kinda different seeing it animated)

the translation i have has gentaro speaking in early modern english (Shakespearian english for those who aren’t english nerds like me) but from what I can hear, he doesn’t speak in a particularly old fashioned way? Its more formal than old? and hes speaking without any of his character persona lying thing that he likes to do (as he refers to himself as “Shousei” throughout the segment where hes in Ramuda’s office which is kind of his default pronoun of choice). so its kinda odd for the translation to go in that direction but im not complaining

Gendice banter is gold but it feels... flat? a little? it doesn’t have the same impact as in the drama cds or in the manga? i feel? Also Ramuda using gratuitous english is??? idk how to feel about that

kjshf thats against the rules Ramuda omgggg,,,,,,,, (astro note again: while watching i was under the assumption that using your hypmic for monetary gain such a as buskering [which is what FP is doing] is against the rules. May not be the case but whatever)

FP’s rap might be my favorite in terms of tune and lyrics though. It’s a nice laid back bop and really gives of chill vibes. the integration of 3d and 2d is really nice and i love how they play off each other in the rap. The wordplay is so fun with little nods here and there and the beat is poppy too so it really energizes me.

Ramuda’s rap concerns me slightly since he makes very subtle and small nods towards his past (being created in a laboratory, warfare, and his overall very unpleasant life experiences) but spins it into something cutesy. It could be a coping mechanism, it could be me overthinking it. But it does make me worry a bit. Gentaro and Dice’s rap really play off each other with Gentaro sticking to stories and Dice taking up the baton by carrying on that same imagery but putting his own spin on it.

the self awareness of how scattered they are as a team is interesting though. It doesn’t seem like something you’d speak about in a rap? but i guess since its not really a do or die situation they can afford to be looser on things like this.

Right off the bat, i don’t like how they handled Hifumi and Doppo in relation to Hifumi’s fear of women. Slug made a post once talking about this and I echo many of his sentiments. Hypmic has never been very tactful about tackling this particular issue and while I didn’t have high hopes that the anime would be any better it hurts to see Doppo take away the one thing that allows Hifumi to function within society.

Doppo’s breakdown mirrors a lot of my own mental state when I spiral though its shown a lot quicker than what happens to me oof. that hits close to home. though Jakurai’s advice is. Questionable. Its not the best advice to give to someone but we have no idea what kind of doctor Jakurai is so ill let it slide

Jakurai’s pose looks like hes going to do a mahou shoujou transformation lmao

I don’t have many thoughts about the rap though again. How they visualize the rap is interesting. the different imagery is quite interesting for each of them and the typography is nice a distinct but im still on the fence about the visuals here

The sound is in the same boat. The sound effects either drown out the rap or are too quet but some parts are nice at least. When they talk about Tokyo’s beating heart, the heartbeat sound is a but distracting especially since its only played once. But the imagery is at least nice

I wonder if for the eds they’re going to take a similar approach to what Enstars did and have a four different endings, one for each division. I love the blend of styles here and it really accentuates that although they’re different they mesh well together.

Ramuda’s silhouette though is hilarious. Love it.

:p and thats it. Uh not bad for a first episode. Established all 12 characters really nicely and their dynamics. I had some problems with it but then again nothing is perfect. I look forward to what they show us next week

[jensen-rockles]

I finally could watch the season finale last night and damn, i was convinced that i wasn't going to suffer with whatever ending they choose but of course that didn't happened.

I had two ideas, both have to be dead or both live with an open ending, like ep 19, but personally that ending didn't get a reaction or emotion from me, It was like "ok, well... they will continue doing what they do until they get old, ok".

When I got to ep 20 I was like.. what now? They didn't kill God and seems like everything is alright and then they when to hunt and in the battle one vamp leave Sam down i though "this is it, are both going to die here?, they gotta make a complete ending" but of course that wasnt what it happened, i didn't expect a Vampire Diaries finale of one dying and meeting later in the after life, cuz I couldn't get my head around the idea that after everything one will live without the other, that they were going to separate them, maybe in S5 at the time was still capable (in Swan Song one go and the other stays) but after all the other seasons that for me seemed not possible, and that exactly happened and didn't know and still don't know what to think about it.

I cried my eyes out while Dean was dying knowing this was his actual finale and me trying to accepting it for the hunter life he had, but still he was going out young and with not so much freedom to do other things! But still I had hope like "Sam, please make the call right there!, at least try, wth?!"

The goodbye as beautiful as it was, emotional and nostalgic, i kept thinking in the meantime "he is talking so much and maybe he can get out of it if they call 911". I know this must happen, i already knew it in my mind but thinking and actually seeing it were two different things, hahaha. I felt like Dean reunited with more people while waiting for Sam, that Covid was the reason why it felt so lonely and it was basically just the two of them, I didn't took so literally the "just one drive" and baam! Sam was there like a lot of people is getting it, yes, they showed that but while watching it, a few things came to my mind, like that in the meantime a lot of thing happened they just didn't showed us and that was sad but understandable for a F-up year that was 2020.

I have a lot on my mind, I had like 2 years without being fully involve in the series so everything came rushing to me and the sentiment of attachment and love was still there and strong. Seeing Sam with a kid was so happy and sad at the same time cuz he never let go of Dean, in the scene where he gets inside the impala i just got the feeling of "he is just waiting to die, has been "living" because he promised but ..."

Idk, its a good ending and a bad ending too, it's a bittersweet one and honestly at this point, after 15 season a good ending everyone will have loved was difficult, too much have happened like I get everyone is mad at how Dean died but it was going to happen eventually with this life, they have died during the work before or been close to.. with Cas too, him not been shown in the finale was harsh but at least you know he is free and out there so TFW will be reunited.

Sam got the life he always fought for but at this point im not sure thats what he still wanted for real, with Eileen they could be hunters every now and then and still have a life but being completely oblivious of the family business was not an option anymore (in my personal opinion).

There's too many things to sink in, too many details to look out for, I was expecting a worse ending to be honest, so, as I'm still in between with what happened since i understand where they come from, there is a debate inside me , cuz it felt rushed, I was sure about the idea already that they both needed to die, and we did watch it happen, things is.. it was at different times and I can't. (Of course my baby Dean deserved a chance in life, totally)

Before this ending my fav and the one that counted was Swan Song that was THE finale the only thing that can make me accept this one is that they got to say goodbye to eachother and we get to see them happy at the very end.

Hearts are broken, peace was found, our mind are going crazy but we just reached the finale of 15 years in the making, nobody was ready for it but its here and guys... I love what the show at the end leave as a legacy, the SPN Family and many many season to come back to, like HP "hogwarts will always be there to welcome you home" so is Spn and the fandom.

[smoliboops]

the egos as different (new who) incarnations of the Doctor: revisted

(havent written an analysis type of thing in a while, miss sharing ideas with people in general aha :’D)

originally 2am thoughts/concepts that i might draw aka revisiting the concept of the egos as different regenerations of the doctor (debate and additions are welcome):

schneeplestein- nine

(first regeneration after the time war and as such major guilt and lonliness from being the sole survivor who also had to be the one to end it. this paralleling to schneep’s 9 month disappearance and his possible guilt resulting from the events of say goodbye and moreso kill jse (as well as schneep probably doing risky things in the name of stopping anti). other things including, sass, calling humans “stupid apes”, rational, angry sometimes, but can appreciate the ancient human music that is tainted love, saving their friend/companion and telling them to live a good life as they head off to face their longtime enemy,the pain you see on his face when he gets compared to said enemy (”you would make a good puppet dalek), bananas being good source of potassium)

chase- ten

(is kind of a mess but a cool mess, generally the most emotional/human of the incarnations, starts off as a cool, charismatic type of guy but slowly goes downward into a spiral of sadness and lonliness as everyone he loved leaves (ya see the connection im getting at?), loses the girl he loved and missing the chance to tell her he loved her, ”im fine” he says as he just lost his best friend and is now alone standing in the pouring rain, accidentally quoting the lion king and harry potter but also “no second chances im that kind of man,” loves little shops and making things that go ding and silly made up words like “wibbly wobbly timey wimey”, literally Human Nature/Family of Blood shows how much he wanted a human life with a wife and kids and the episode "the doctor's daughter" where he finally gets a kid and loses her, the hero who goes from saving the universe with all his friends around him to him dying alone not wanting to go, literally called “the man that regrets” in dotd, listen to love don't roam on YouTube)

jj- eleven

(the doctor with the most confusing timeline, child-like wonder and the look of a young lad hiding the tired eyes of an old man who has seen and gone through so much, very protective of his fond family/people he loves, he literally snuck into a charlie chaplin film in s6′s immpossible astronaut, also stayed in Victorian london for a time which would be jj's aesthetic tbh, can be silly and clumsy and starry-eyed while also being capable of becoming the oncoming storm, “ Good men don't need rules, today is not the day to find out why i have so many.”, great with kids, like weird/unique hatwear, b o w t i e s, g o g g l e s, just wants to go home even if it’s the long way round, “every lonely monster needs a companion” (you can’t tell me jj probably would still feel like a monster cos of how closely related he is to anti), and also theres puppets in two episodes of his, despite the darkness and loneliness it just made him kind, the optimist, the hoper of far flung hopes and the dreamer of improbable dreams )

marvin- twelve

(recognizing gender as a concept far beyond them obvs, he’s literally called a magician half the time lol, avoiding death by rocking out in the 1500s with an electric guitar on top of an army tank, “can you hurry up before i hit you with my shoe”, as a morally gray character that many theorize whether he’s good/bad, marvin relates well to twelve’s whole journey of questioning if he was a good man and willing to learn the extents of what that means, tried his best to not only do right but to try to help those who weren’t good people who he knew needed help, would fight robin hood irl with a spoon and have a sign saying “go away humans”, not totally great with social cues but he tries and that’s what counts, seemingly cold and harsh and grump but take time to know him and he’s actually warm deep down, "do you think i care for you so little that betraying me would make a difference?", wiliing to "go to hell" for their friend, not only protective of the people he loves but is also willing to to things like repeatedly die over 8 billion years and almost cause the destruction of the universe for the sake of saving his friend, would sacrifice himself recklessly in the name of standing up for what he believed in)

jackieboy man-thirteen

(total ray of sunshine who also recognizes the dangers of being close to them (i.e. dying, forgetting, getting trapped in another time or parallel world, getting converted and dying, etc) and as such keeps those they love at a distance, literally not talking about who they truly were for a whole series cos they didn't want to wrap their family up into their own troubles they faced, adorably socially awkward/anxious but still perseveres in the face of danger and certain doom, "darkness never sustains, even though sometimes it feels like it might," would build their own gadgets, g o g g l e s, would eat dirt and bone dust for analysis, would save the day by becoming best friends with a sentient universe in the form of a frog, always tries to have a flat team structure but in reality "this team structure...it isn't flat. It's mountainous, with me, in the stratosphere, alone, left to choose. Save jack the poet, save the universe. Sometimes, even i can't win.", P U N S)

Bonus content: anti as sacha Dawhan's master

like *chefs kiss* (LITERALLY pretended to be the doctor's friend for years until revealing he actually killed him before she met him and took his place (that gif is him just throwing away that dude's minituraized dead body btw), the kneel scene, his s m i l e, maniacal g l e e as he destroys everything and kills people all to cover up the pain and sadness and anger he feels inside because of her *cough a piece of SPOILER being inside him and him not being able to stand it is definitely anti/jack vibes cough*, also imagine this small exchange but between jackieboy man and anti:

The doctor: "proud of yourself?"

The master: "Definitely."

The doctor: "all this death...Finally made you happy?"

The Master, smiling: "Ecstatic."

The doctor, closer to his face: "And has it calmed all the rage?"

The master, pausing and looking away: "...I don't think anything will ever do that."

Also pls watch that spyfall pt1 reveal scene (basically the whole ending tbh), again it's just *chef's kiss*

Ok that's enough blabbering from me. Still debating on drawing the egos as the doctor (ooh maybe a screen cap redraw would be fun if some people have suggestions for an ep to ref for each one (granted who knows if I'd have time to draw them all but I'm curious anyway lol)) ok time to head out *yeets*.

[keruworld]

KR Zero One Ep34: Finally Horobi is doing... something... and Fuwa keeps being the protagonist! Now just when i see that Izu is having a personality... they make her quite rude and i can’t blame her because her only human reference is Aruto... and Aruto is not so human empatic. The good point of the episode was... Horobi, finally they are trying to develop him a little and 34 eps in this was the minimum they should do. Now i wonder what direction this will take? So... for not annoy anyone with my critic about this show:

You know... an A.I that have been programmed for farming... its logical that their dream will be... farming! Couldnt be more interesting to have a case of an humangear that dont want to do his job? Like that i could feel more real that singularity that this show talk about. If they are telling us that they are equal to humans... why not make them more human like? Like this they still feels like... “tools”.

The butt in the background takes away all the seriousness of this conversation! X,D

Instead of writting proper convesations between characters... Zero One give us... nothing. I mean instead of Yua talking about what she think about this “justice” that Jin talk about... they switch to papa Horobi going happily to work...

And so easily... Yua accepts to help. The show does not delve into the thoughts and feelings of the characters and that's why I find it hard to love this 01 characters. Still i love Jin and Horobi... but it’s mainly for looks?! (excuse me for being so superficial TTATT but Sunagawa and Dai chan being so handsome is a fact, they are a good eyecandy for me TT///TT).

This is from the OP sequence... couldn't they add Fuwa there? Or the others humangears... like a family or something? Here i feel like Aruto and Izu are a lone married couple.

Couldnt the show use more these two?! They hardly get a scene from chapter to chapter. Or at least show that they are still in contact with Aruto or something or that they miss Shesta or need her.

Hiden was... like that too... in fact i was expecting watching in Hiden how humangears and humans worked there like a family together... but... i didnt see any of that. (yeah i was expecting that Hiden had actually humans working in the company... silly of me).

So... Horobi stole some humangears in his way to the farm. X,D

Every time the villain say something... Aruto remain in silence... instead of counter him with words and talking about his ideals. Counter him Aruto, tell him why humanity dont deserv instintion. Tell him why humanity is good. Oh... yes i forgot... Aruto just talk about humangear being good.

Ikazuchi was a really wasted character... now that he will return i hope they will at least use him.

(fangirl screaming in the distance)

Well for once Aruto tried to save a human... yey?!

Where was Fuwa?! In the bathroom right?! X,D

I think this was quite rude... Izu was like reclaiming to Fuwa about the kidnapped humangear than being really worried about him. I really cant like her if she is only nice to Aruto.

Fuwa baby... that cruel Izu and Aruto dont care about you!! TTATT (yes im being dramatic) XD

You know... Fuwa trying to be nice and talk with Yua... and she...

... changed topic... you call this interaction?! Really?! It dont feel natural!!

Could Fuwa past be relevant?! Because Yua is interested!

Ok finally a funny scene. Could have been more fun if we watched how Yua drag Fuwa.

He will sell the Raid Raisers to the USA for war?! That’s your objective Gai?! That’s your dream?! XD

This was more funny than the first one! X,D And... you know why...

Because Jin was there! XD Having a tertiary react to the action enhance the funny element of it!

Finally someone that worries about Fuwa!! Thanks Jin... you are precious... not like some MC.

So... Aruto is not worried about Metsubou to fully revive?! XD Why dont surprise me?! XD

This can be a parallelism about the question “why i was born?”. It’s easy for a humangear to know why it was born. But for us?! No, it’s not easy... i wish the show could talk about this topic and kids could relate. Could be awesome.... but... no. ¬¬

We can see the great plan in Aruto eyes! He will try to get Horobi remember he is a father. XD It could be great but the problem is that there is no plan right Aruto? Oh yes... Yelling him “REMEMBER” is the plan.

Could have been great if Midori question Horobi about the ark like... AND BEFORE THE ARK? where were you?.... Horobi.exe stopped working. XD

Horobi smiling face (fangirl screaming in the distance) X//D

Almost Aruto... you got him... almost!! X,D Daddy memories are somewhere there. X//D

(can we talk about the sexy lips of Horobi?!)

THis was a parallelism... one humangear “die” and another get to live. But the fact that the humangear dont die... because the data is saved... degrade impact.

So not everyone are equal to the ark... seriously why they dont try to reprogram that thing?! I mean... should be easy with Yua... right? (but ok i will not request common sense in this show)

Horobi smiled again (fangirl screaming in the distance) X///D

suits... beauty.

Naki... Naki!!

Ohhh no... Yua is in danger... XD Ark: She?... no, because she is cool and beautiful and can reprogram me. XD

Horobi smiled again... (fangirl screaming in the distance)

Aruto... he hardly have speak to you... how can he trust you?! X,D

Yes... to his way.... not yours! X,D

You know at least Horobi smiled like three times and that... that was good!

[beesmygod]

this is what riverdale is about (part 5)

part 1

part 2

part 3

part 4

hey guys. im back to upset you with more information about the first season of riverdale. the next post will wrap up season one. this post will cover eps 7-9. iirc the previous episodes, even when watching it, felt like filler. i was worried i was never going to get the fire of the first three episodes back. we do. don’t worry.

images are from the riverdale wiki

SEASON 1 (PART 3):

in a lonely place: jughead is now living in the high school, living every weirdo teenager’s worst nightmare. even better, literally everyone finds out about his relationship with betty “harriet the spy” cooper, making things a little awkward in the group. while discussing polly’s bold escape, cheryl’s goon squad of mean teen girls let her know the hot goss, which she takes to her mother and the sheriff to implicate polly in the murder of jason blossom. she then, and i mean this 100% literally and honestly, goes on twitter and tries to get the following hashtags trending: #PollyCooperKilledMyBrother, #NowhereToHide, and #SharpenYourPitchforks.

jughead then tries to convince his alcoholic, gang leader dad to shape up and get his job back at andrews construction but his dad is a stupid dick. later the gang goes on a hunt for polly in the woods. when this is unsuccessful, betty’s mom reveals ALL about polly’s pregnancy on camera during her plea for her to come home. it turns out polly is just hiding in the attic of the house, where betty finds her. polly begs betty not to tell anyone where she is and that she wants to have the baby and continue with her plan to go to the farm upstate where she will raise it herself. keep that in mind.

with the knowledge about the baby out in the open, cheryl offers an olive branch to betty by offering to let polly secretly stay at their house. cheryl is truly a capricious trickster spirit who pivots from one extreme to another at the drop of a hat.

then literally the most crazy and inexplicable thing int his episode happens: veronica, kevin and josie go to a fucking club on a school night. these teenage kids go to a club in a town that primarily runs on maple syrup and they are let in for some unexplained reason and this is just portrayed as a normal thing you can do in riverdale. they are minors and end up drinking for free when hermoines mom cancels her card and they threaten the owner by exposing him for serving minors. this scene is BONKERS

jugheads dad goes back to work with fred andrews but there’s tension between him and archies dad. literally none of it ends up mattering. don’t worry about it. jughead tells his dad that his mom is getting her GED, working in a call center to support jellybean (his little sister, not like a dog or something). this is a huge spoiler from the future but i dont know if the riverdale writers forgot about this scene or don’t care but none of this turns out to be true to their situation at all. not even close.

jughead is arrested and unarrested for jason’s murder when archie’s dad inexplicably forges a time card to cut him loose. the only proof was fingerprints on the torched car, which are still there for some reason. cheryl intercepts betty yet again to warn her and polly that the blossoms also are insane weirdos who just want her for the baby so polly is shipped off to the stay with the lodge family in the 5 star hotel.

the final shot reveals jason’s varsity jacket is in jughead’s dad’s trailer...for some reason.....

the outsiders: this ep starts with polly explaining literally everything we already know except with the added information that jason was selling drugs FOR the southside serpents for money for the baby. betty worries about how escalating situation between the coopers and the blossoms and who gets control of what when it comes to polly and the baby, and veronica bizarrely suggests they hold a baby shower to unite the feuding families. if you just want to have a party just say so.

clifford blossom, professional bastard man, has purchased archie’s dad’s construction crew out from under him which leaves the project in limbo. he confesses to archie about how fucked the company is now and how everything is fucked. clifford is also making a play for the land veronica’s dad secretly bought from prison using his wife as a proxy, which makes the whole “let’s host a baby shower thing at our apartment and invite the blossoms” thing seem like a hugely bad idea now. BUT DONT WORRY TEAM!!! 4 high school boys are here to do construction for no pay to save the company. no one verbalizes what an insane plan this is. they carry on until moose, the big closeted gay lad, get his ass flipped like a pancake by two anonymous goons who bust up some equipment and moose’s face. archie the brain genius decides he’s going to solve this mystery himself, taking moose and jughead to a bar called “the whyte wyrm” (literally the worst name for anything ever in human history) to find out who did the slapping. as archie is about to get his head caved in by a gangster, jugheads dad shows up in his cool leather jacket, revealing himself to be the head of the gang.

the baby shower is a miserable affair. alice cooper shows up, penelope blossom shows up, for some reason they bring the senile grandmother. the tension is so thick you can cut it with a knife. then archie BUSTS in flipping his ass about jughead’s dad being a gangster. the just immediately throw him out which kind of rules because no one has time for him right now. the baby shower ends horrible when the blossoms make the lightest suggestion that polly might visit them and betty’s mom loses her fucking mind. everyone shuffles out except for polly, betty and alice. POLLY NOW DECIDES TO REVEAL THAT HER DAD HAD SCHEDULED AN APPOINTMENT FOR AN ABORTION APROPOS OF NOTHING. COME ONNN. anyway alice focuses her insane rage on hal who she boots out of the fucking house for his insane choice.

jughead and betty ask jugheads dad if he killed jason, he denies it and then they share a smooch outside the trailer. “they” being jughead and betty, not his dad. that would be a little too weird. well, not as weird as the reveal that jugheads dad has been instructing kevin’s serpent boyfriend to date him and pretend to like him for information.that’s pretty fucking weird. jughead’s dad refers to jason’s jacket as “insurance”.

jughead’s dad then shows up with his gang to take over the construction from the 4 high school boys, but hermoine reveals that the goons that were sent were sent by her husband, who might have caught wind of her affair with fred.

polly wisely decides to take her change with a different insane family instead of the one that tried to force an abortion on her and heads to thornhill manor with cheryl and the rest of the blossoms.

la grande illusion: i really need to thank whoever transcribed this entire narrative buttnugget from jughead because it truly is a spectacular example of the level of writing quality you get from the fine people at the cw. please enjoy this screencap of the opening monologue from the riverdale wiki:

today in riverdale is the annual meeting of the board of trustees, where the blossom family meets to discuss the state of the business and slurp syrup in redheaded harmony. the wigs on this show are outstanding and never more noticeable than when they’re all lined up in a row for you to appraise. cheryl invites archie to the tree-tapping ceremony and he, for reasons i cannot understand given everything we know and love about cheryl, accepts, albeit after some prodding on her mom’s behalf. she knows people at a very prestigious music academy you know, nudge nudge. betty thinks its also a good idea for him to go so he can check up on polly, who is ignoring betty’s calls now.

ethel, who you probably remember from the “sticky maple” episode, reads a fucked up poem to the class and veronica reaches out to ask her what the FUCK that was all about. things at home aren’t good for ethel: her family is fighting over money and they’re going to have to sell the house. so veronica invites her over for a play date with kevin so they can do whatever rich people do.

archie attends the tree tapping with cheryl where he holds a bucket and cheryl taps the tree. everyone claps. great job cheryl. archie comes to her defense when her family shit talks her ability to hit a tree or lead a company, but i guess they somehow don’t know that she is the most wild bitch on the planet and can not be dissuaded from doing anything. in fact, she insists that archie join her for a banquet later and he CANNOT say no.

betty is told polly is fine, and passes on this and the news from the blossom shareholder meeting to her mother who plans to use this information to destroy the blossoms using her newspaper. betty’s mother is truly a needlessly perpetually horrible woman for literally no reason almost 100% of the time. if its not to betty its to her sister and if not to her then to any random stranger she can sink her fangs into. however, her husband is still fucking pissed about the whole “getting thrown out” thing and is enacting a one man coupe on the newspaper. alice trashes her own office in retaliation. these people are the worst.

meanwhile veronica realizes that ethel’s dad used to work for her father, until hiram lodge’s incredibly illegal deeds financially ruined them all. ethel’s father tries to commit suicide and veronica shows up with flowers explaining how her family is the one responsible for all this. as you can expect ethel is not really pumped about this turn of events and tells her to tell the truth at her dad’s trial.

at the banquet, archie is HIGHLY encouraged by the blossoms to keep seeing cheryl. perhaps...in a romantic way? i wonder what reason this family of redheads could have for trying to indoctrinate yet another ginger into their fold. they share a weird kiss and archie flees, but not before securing two bits of information: polly warns him that the blossoms are involved in jason’s death and the blossoms themselves are close to securing the drive-in plot and part of their plan was to send veronica’s father to jail to eliminate the competition.

betty FOR SOME REASON invites her mother to write her expose at the school newspaper. why? i don’t know. her mom accepts. why? i don’t know. archie’s girlfriend, valerie, dumps him because he’s been spending so much time for cheryl, which i don’t know what he was expecting. in the final scene, cheryl, spurned by archie, scratches out his and polly’s face from a photo of the tree tapping. like a normal person would

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[evohealed]

◀ REX’S CARING COMPLEX ▶

Watching through Generator Rex with @evodeal​ last night and I’ve noticed that Rex seems to have a sort of complex with Caring but never caring about himself, and I have a LOT of thoughts on it... so thank you @heartcheeks​ & @briilliance​ for enabling me to post this. I’ll refine it more later bc it’s adhd rambles right now, so it’s a bit messy, buuut... basically his complex with caring is like this;

Rex knows that nobody cares at providence for him. Of course, minus six, holiday, and bobo. rex also knows that nobody in providence ever likes him or cares about him without a motive. in fact, people have been doing that ever since he became the nanite king tbh. and from what he's learned about his past, i think it like. fucks him up in some ways with trusting people. because sure, he really craves people caring about him -- he craves having family, he just wants friends and he'd do anything for their approval and trying to befriend them ( thanks party episode for proving my hc b4 i even knew about u) but when it boils down to it, rex has to trick himself into believing that others care. even if he knows it's not true and the only reason he's even still alive is because white knight sd he was the cure, people are alwasy still trying to murder him for just existing all the time. ESPECIALLY white knight.

He's in huge DENIAL that Providence doesn’t care, and that most people hate him for just being an EVO -- something he can’t really help -- to the point of attempting murder on him. Constantly.  which is why i think he's so.. forgiving with wk. but wk has traumatized rex a LOT. they made his life so as little people cared about him as possible on PURPOSE, so he's really, really bad with making friends. because providence over controls EVERY aspect of his life, and are super shitty to him. and i've ranted off about how they treat him like a weapon and make him think it's ok to hurt himself the way he does, but that's for another time.. which is also why i do think that, despite being friends, until rex and noah talk about it there's always going something telling him in the back of his head that noah doesn't really care.

As much as he WANTS to believe others care about him, it's absolutely INCREDIBLY HARD for him to comprehend sb wanting to know him or care for him without an ulterior motive.for pete's sake, even if holiday and six and bobo care for him, they still had a motive to care originally. they probably wouldn't have even cared for him if he didn't have the healing ability they could exploit. he's still a teen, he still wants people to care, but he can never really tell when someone DOES care.  i think that the deeprooted belief that nobody is caring about him without a selfish reason also plays a big role into brushing off worry and throwing himself into VERY reckless and life threatening situations and seeing how his friendship with noah started out... well he tries to bury that feeling, but it's never going to go away UNLESS he talks. i think he probably feels really guilty about it but it's kinda hard to just get over someone only knowing you because they wanted to use you, be it for their own purpose or working for sb else. he does genuinely care about noah and loves being his friend, but it's going to be.. very very hard to get through how much you actually care about him, simply because of how he's been treated to think and what he's had to go through.

so yes, guilt eats away at rex over it but he tries to bottle aaalllllllll this up and never let it bubble to the surface ever, right along with the rest of his emotions. gotta never show weaknesses! :^) what hurts my heart is how hard he tries to make friends, but everyone thinks he's just a freak. dear god i wanted to cry when they kept calling him that,but what's worse is realizing that a majority of the world and people out there think of him like this too I Wanted To Cry For My Baby Boy while watching that ep and sure maybe i'm being dramatic but .. he was TRYING SO HARD!!! he was so genuinely excited to try and make friends even if they're a bunch of jerks and didn't care for them and all he got was treated the same as providence soldiers treated him

nobody gave a fuck about him unless they were using him to get their way and to manipulate him, and he's so desperate for people to care about him that he caves and lets them do what they want or he straight up just. gets manipulated he's pretty easy to manipulate despite being a master of manipulation himself but it's not like he had a choice in being manipulative when he had THAT talent ingrained in him by quarry. he's just ... so lonely man, it makes me big sad and he's always in denial that people don't like him, and sure he said "well i know i'm awesome!" but did he even really mean it? yes, he's cocky, but that quote came from the very episode where he had to deal with an entire town's worth of people trying to kill him and he said that to the dude who kept reiterating how useless he was and that he was just providence's stupid tool does he really know that or is he telling himself that to try and keep himself from drowning in the fact that he doesn't know what the fuck he's doing half the time, distracting him from the fact that nobody cares about him and everyone thinks he's some freak that providence just uses like a trophy dude whatever???

because he sure was hellbent on trying to prove he did mean something and that he was worth liking and caring about in that episode and it left him getting PRETTY fucked up because it threw him so off his game and when nobody ended up caring he just went "haha i know im cool!" but im just ... if you knew you were cool and you're okay with people not caring about you... why care and why bother to try and sway public opinion? or more like. one dude's opinion mostly.why go through all this trouble? if you DON'T have that complex, then why get so bent out of shape when you're forced to face the facts that sb you DON'T EVEN KNOW doesn't care about you?? the ep where the dude was doing propaganda against him -- whether it was willful or not, he was absolutely ignorant to the fact that everyone hated him ( though something tells me it might be willfully ignoring that ) til everyone kept telling him to scram which is when he started getting SERIOUSLY super upset. boy's tricking himself into thinking other ppl care even if they explicitly don’t.

It might ALSO play into how he can never pick up when people genuinely like him or care about him in canon. I.E. The complex explaining shit like... the double date episodes -- the haunted house one in particular. It was PAINFULLY clear the girls preferred Rex over Noah in everything they did, which upset Noah -- and yet, Rex never noticed for a single second. Even when Noah called him out on it, he didn’t fully realize it til Noah explained the situation to him and he deadass just goes. "NNO WAY THEY DON'T ACTUALLY LIKE ME THAT MUCH DO THEY???" lookin like the YOU WHAT meme ( from spongebob ). N NOAH HAD TO BE LIKE "UH DUDE ARE YOU BLIND ????" Someone? Caring about / Liking Rex?????? It's more likely than you think

Like, yeah.. sure he can be a total sleazy flirt at times, and he can be pretty manipulative if the situation calls for it, but there's also the matter of how Rex responds to any genuine care or interest in him. He tries to come off as this big macho cool hero, but he’s really just a dork maladjusted to any kind of affection or genuine care. It’s why he can barely function or why he’s always surprised if you hug him back, why he’s so hands on -- he is also touch starved so he’s always super hands on, but that’s another rant for another day. It’s why he can barely function if you give him a kiss or any kind of affection -- like for example,  almost every single kiss ( few as they may be ) that he gets or instances of ppl saying they care about him, he makes THIS face and kind of just stares into the distance.

tl;dr?  

rex: haha please care about me rex: rex, internally: but you can never really care about me without a motive. don't pretend like you don't have one.

[letstalksymphogear]

Symphogear, EP. 4 (Cont)

The gremlin challenges Tsubasa, a Symphogear, whose entire shtick is to sing to channel power, to sing.

It dawns on her, however, that Tsubasa is part Greninja. Tsubasa used Shadow-Weaving! It’s super effective.

“tell me, you jellyfish looking weirdo...”

“hey- hey, time out. are you gonna do what i think you’re gonna do. this is gonna like, kill you. you know that, right? that you will literally die? you do understand you can just retreat now or- or just take hibiki away, right? i even told you that was the whole point of this... uh... oh shit.”

“ARE YOU READY TO JAM”

“tsubasa please i will literally lend you my remaining brain cell to stop you from this really stupid mistake”

Dad has entered the server.

“oh my god. oh my god. oh my god. oh my god. o- ryoko. stop breathing on me. this isnt helping my anxiety over my adopted daughter figure literally preparing to kill herself over my commands.”

“sorry babe its just the asthma, forgot my inhaler”

“i cannot FUCKING believe of ALL the opponents i had to fight i had to fight the DUMBEST one on the goddamn block, you idiot, you absolute dunce, RETHINK THIS”

“OH GOD SHE’S DOING IT! SHE’S DOING IT! THE ABSOLUTE MADWOMAN- FUCK- FUCK! GET ME OUT OF HERE! FUCK! FUCK!”

“just used up my last brain cell for this attack, pal. you’re through.”

“NAH, EAT ASS YOU- YOU GODDAMN MANIAC”

“HAHA YEAH, GOT YOU NOW, SLOW WALKING, DRAMA INDUCIN’, PURPLE RAIN CHANN-”

“OH GOD! YOU TELEPORTED! YOU’VE GOT SV_CHEATS SET TO 1, DON’T YOU! NOCLIPPING LIKE NOBODY’S BUSINESS GET OUT OF MY FACE”

“WHOA WHOA WHOA WHAT THE FUCK WHOA I KNOW I CRACKED SOME JOKES BUT WE LITERALLY JUST MET AND I- I GOTTA KNOW PEOPLE FIRST BEFORE THIS SHIT AND- OH GOD PLEASE STOP”

“OH GOD! THIS... RAW, GAY, REPRESSED ENERGY... IT’S... TOO STRONG...”

The gremlin could not begin to comprehend Tsubasa’s intense love for incredibly well-built redheaded women.

Hibiki can, though.

“SO......... MUCH........... SAUCE...................”

“.................................................”

The gremlin retreats after getting her licks. This scene subtly implied something; the Nehushtan armor she wears regenerates over time, which means no matter how much damage it sustains, it will always return in one piece. The same can’t be said for the user, though.

Hibiki runs to Tsubasa, checking if she’s okay, totally oblivious to the gravity of what just happened.

“i came just as i could and ive brought happy meals for everyone”

Genjuro asks if Tsubasa is okay.

I dunno man, this is a pretty tough judgement call here. I mean, is she okay? Pain is a pretty subjective experience, after all.

“oh my god i get it. i get the joke she implied. she wanted to jam. she’s jammed! cause it- it looks like jam! no, wait, its more like sauce...”

It dawns on Hibiki that people actually do die during this job.

Tsubasa, as it turns out, survived her Swan Song. It makes sense that she would because she was naturally receptive to her relic, Ame-No-Habakiri. Still, the injury comes with great gravity. She’s benched for the next season, and it’s likely she’s gonna miss the playoffs.

Stuck on a respirator on the edge of life, Tsubasa will probably look back at this and go, “Gosh, I was such a wild child. Haha. Almost dying and all.”

Hibiki wraps her single braincell around the idea of death. Most main characters aren’t familiar with the concept of death, you see, because most don’t die. But this is Season One Symphogear. Flirting with death is common.

Ogawa comes in to comfort her.

“dumbass had her opponent bound and the gremlin still escaped anyway”

Ogawa then explains shit we already know. Thanks, Ogawa.

“in summation: i get where you’re coming from, but stop fucking saying ‘im gonna replace kanade’, please, im begging you”

Hibiki FINALLY gets it, and naturally upon realizing, feels really bad for it. A real right and true asshole.

“oh thank god i was worried not even that was going to get to you”

Meanwhile, in Tsubasa’s mind...

“ah fuck me. im trapped in metaphor limbo. see, im falling because i clipped my wing, cause i nearly died, you know, like icarus and shit”

“hold up my gay senses are tingling”

Her senses confirmed. Kanade is in her mind, in probably the most romantic metaphor possible. There is absolutely no way to interpret all of this platonically.

Tsubasa is literally submerged in a sea of her own emotions...

Involving Kanade, and how she strives to be like her and honor her memory.

SHE LITERALLY DROWNS IN THOSE EMOTIONS, SUBMERGING DEEPER INTO THE WATER.

Tsubasa, in her Symphogear Brand Medical Cocoon for the Dumb and Beaten Down, quietly slumbers in her semi-comatose state as she wrestles the water metaphors of her own sexual identity.

The poor thing just misses her girlfriend.

Meanwhile, Hibiki sits and thinks more than usual. In a flashback, Genjuro muses about how The Gremlin wanted to kidnap Hibiki.

“i dunno maybe The Gremlin’s super lonely or shit”

“i mean if thats the case ill just adopt her too”

Since Tsubasa is away, Hibiki has to pick up the quota for teenage angst in the 2nd Division. Unfortunately, she has very big shoes to fill, but Hibiki isn’t one for slacking in the misery department. She blames herself for everything.

“im really going to fire the therapist we have around here for being pretty damn useless”

“can i be the therapist?”

“ryoko i am absolutely begging you to filter your bad ideas given the several teenage crises we’re dealing with right now”

Hibiki then yells out, for what is possibly the third time, out of the blue:

“I HAVE PEOPLE I WANT TO PROTECT”

The flashback ends.

And speaking of girlfriends.

“there is no force on this planet stopping me from having some quality fucking time with my girlfriend damnit”

Miku points out Hibiki has been pretty lonely. Says she heard it from a friend who, heard it from a friend who, heard it from another she was messin’ ‘round.

Unfortunately, Miku is a goddamned chad.

Immediate handholding. Make no mistake. Behind those soft-spoken eyes lies an absolute master.

“o-oh, my hand, you’re holding it, so smoothly”

“hibiki, you’re my sunshine. i want to soak up your rays so hard that every piece of flesh of my body is horribly mutilated from skin cancer.”

“jesus christ miku at least use sunscreen in your metaphors”

“ill use them just for you, hibiki. just for you.”

Their relationship is interesting. When one of them is sad, the other sorta acts as an angst vacuum. You’ll see them flip flop with their points of misery with each other, but when together, those problems always melt away.

Of course, emphasis on being together. Season 1 is the worst with keep them away from each other.

“Just Be Yourself!” Miku Kohinata, Symphogear, 2012.

“fuck me, you’re right. im the protagonist. i cant just eat shit here the whole time. i gotta do protagonist things!”

“was that an invitation?”

“another time. but now... let’s just catch up.”

And so, they laugh together about how the recorded footage of the meteor shower was all black. Truly the greatest couple of all time.

It is this realization of being her own self, coupled with her renewed gay energy, and new perspective on what she must do, that causes everything to go uphill for her from here. Take note.

Here is where a God is truly born.

Tachibana Hibiki.

The end of this episode cuts to a specific dojo.

Genjuro’s dojo.

“i dont fuck around with training, even though i probably should have trained you sooner. you sure about this?”

“dadman either you do this or i will most definitely die next time”

Part of their training involves watching action movies, because Genjuro is so unreal that he should frankly be a fictional character in the very universe he exists in.

Fucking adorable.

“im so conflicted its so clear she’s part of /fit/ now but i cant help but imagine her washboard abs”

Hibiki balls even harder at karaoke now, due to her Symphogear training, and not because she’s secretly Aoi Yuki playing a recolored version of Madoka.

Her significant other is mildly terrified at the superhuman that is slowly unfolding her powers before her eyes.

In the end, things all reach their logical conclusion.

Hibiki becomes a Tekken character, just like Genjuro.

Of course... Miku pushes the fact very subtly that she would never hide anything from Hibiki...

Turmoil brews in the worst way... soon...

[sesquipedalian-aficionado]

Thoughts about the NEW SANDERS SIDES

WARNING FOR SPOILERS

All mine will be tagged “tsspoilers” so watch for that! And watch the vid so we can talk about it!!

THANK YOU THOMAS THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU

"It sounds like he's against nazis, so...lets hear him out."

"That canNOT be where the bar is!"

YESSS VIRGIL SUBTLE META-BURN

Four-part harmony on "what about us" YESSSS

ALSO Virgil is panicking and it's SUCH STRONG CHARACTER DEVELOPMENT DONE SO WELL AHHHHHHHHHH

"Director of Psycho Godfather Wars" I'm SCREAMING

"I'm too emotionally unstable for jury duty"

‘MY BUTTERFINGERS’ THE DAD JOKES ARE OUT TONIGHT

"Did unlawfully, and with malice aforethought, falsely impersonate a better person" can we say IMPOSTOR SYNDROME

but really SAAAME

"The jury decides if he's guilty!!

-what am I doing. I don't...care." VIRGIL. BABE.

"What does the judge even do?!"

"His best!" Patton I love you so much

"Said with the confidence of a man with his hand stuck in the cookie jar. In a cookie factory. His pants are down, and on fire" IM USING THAT NOW

OMG I FORGOT LOGAN IS MISSING now I feel bad oops in fairness there's a lot happening

srsly though where's my boy

THERE HE IS "aaaaafidavit" is sooooo good too I love you my little nerd love

"Well maybe you shouldn't have been impersonated. Ever think about that?"

"Why is he still here?"

"He doesn't like nazis"

PATTON SWEARS ON A YOUTH BIBLE AND ROMAN SWEARS ON A VCR AHHHHH

Also deceit did NOT swear on anything (technically neither did Virgil)

"Ok...so, we kiss now? Or...?"

"I'm gonna allow it."

"WHY?!"

"I mean...did you SEE Logan's face?"

AHHHH YOU GUYS

*immediately* "I don't feel anything"

Deceit, sweetly: "aw, of course you don't!" LOGAN LOGAN BABE PLEASE

THE ARM THING I GENUINELY STARTED OUT LOUD LAUGHING LIKE A PSYCHO

"How's that working out for you?"

"It isn't." Same boo. Same.

"I didn't think that would work, and it didn't." MOOD

"I didn't say liar, I said...lawyer. Totally different" Yikes Deceit is bringing the SNARK

GUYSSSSSS ROMANS THE ONLY ONE NOT WEARING A NECKTIE BECAUSE HES NOT TAKING IT SERIOUSLY!!!! AND DECEIT IS IN A BOWTIE BECAUSE HES BEING SERIOUS BUT LYING

DECEIT IS IMPLYING THAT VIRGILS NAME ISNT ACTUALLY VIRGIL

WHAT

WHAAAAAAAAT

HOLD UP JUST A COTTON-PICKING MINUTE

WHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAT

"The one and lonely! What? Freudian slip" Roman you poor darling it's okay

THEY MADE THOSE NAMES UP JUST FOR THE ROW YOUR BOAT JOKE THOMAS I LOVE YOU

"Say you had a stereotypical relationship between a man and a woman"

"You lost me" Roman you're such a useless gay it's lucky you're pretty

"Did he just say ‘smirk’" this from the man who said "nods in agreement" in an earlier vid Thomas honey don't be a hypocrite

"Oops she cancelled"

"THAT BITCH"

"That's a laugh and a half"

"No, that's a statement! ...Logan, that's a statement, right?"

Thomas' faces are the BEST in this vid

VIRGIL I LOVE YOUUUUUU...no context for that. I just saw his face again and was Compelled

HE SMILED AT PATTONS JOKE! VIRGIL BAAAAABE

Deceit it's a tad relevant that mr "the individual is most important" philosopher screwed over everyone in his life but go off I guess

'Friendship is a societal lie' no deceit you just don't have friends that's not the same thing

YES VIRGIL POINT OUT THE RACISM I LOVE YOU BOO

YES PATTON LOVE YOURSELF

Oooooh biblical metaphor, we went there

YOU ACCEPTED DECEIT YESSS where's that "you know what that is? Growth" gif

ROMANS SAD “Do I” HONEY BABE I’LL FIND YOU A BOYFRIEND WE’RE DOING THIS RIGHT NOW LETS GO OH WAIT HE’S HERE IT’S VIRGIL VIRGIL’S THE ONE FIND LOVE MY DARLINGS

Is it...important that he's got the snakes? I mean I know it is but like...Deceit was already a part of you? Oh well growth I guess

VIRGILS SMILES THIS EP I AM DYING OF LOVEEEEEEEE

"For the love of Archimedes" IM USING THAT TOO

YESSSSSS MORE DARK SIDES PLEEEEEEEEASE

Also I sort of just realized the implication that what anxiety is most scared of is like...other parts of Thomas? Which is...yep. Cool.

"Saying something as a fact, when you don't have the facts straight, is dishonest" SAY IT LOUDER FOR THE PEOPLE IN THE BACK

"Nothing like a day that starts with me getting good news and ultimately leads to me questioning if I'm a bad person" well now I feel attacked but ok

[carterashofficial]

Thanks, Aearyn

@aearyn was so unbelievably kind to tag me for this 

rules: answer these 85 questions and tag 20 people (ahaha no i wouldn’t wish this on my worst enemy this took forever)

— what was your last…

1. drink: water. from the fridge. there might’ve been a dog hair in it because Scout and Abbey show their love through shedding. I didn’t care.  2. phone call: my old internship asking why I never got my w-2 form 3. text message: a coupon from World Market, if that counts. If not, i texted myself a spoiler for the kotfe fic so i don’t forget 4. song you listened to: Champion by Carrie Underwood b/c i love it and I NEED THE POSITIVITY   5. time you cried: UH... writing the kotfe fic. But i wasn’t actually crying. it was more like “im tearing up at this one scene b/c its breaking my heart”. Actual crying? been... so long i can’t remember.

— have you ever…

6. dated someone twice: ahahahhahahahahahaha.... ahahahhaha..... ahahahhahahahaha despite my best intentions, i’ve never dated anyone. I’ve been trying to change that. I want romance in my life. 7. kissed someone and regretted it: That would imply i’ve had my first kiss, and im 22 years old and still haven’t had it. APHRODITE WHY AM I SINGLE. I’M READY TO MINGLE 8. been cheated on: see above. Can’t be cheated on if you’ve never HAD A DATE 9. lost someone special: i would rather not consider this question, but Domino, Jewel, and my Grandma (all were very, very sudden and hit me like a bag of bricks).  10. been depressed: ha ha ha apparently i’ve had depression since i was 15. I was officially diagnoses in January of 2017 and have been on medication since. ahahaha  11. gotten drunk and thrown up: no I can barely get drunk even when i try, let alone enough for a damn hangover. Seriously. I can drink like Carmadda and not get drunk.

— fave colours

12. soft eggshell green 13. the blue at the edge of the horizon 14. metallic  anything

— in the last year have you…

15. made new friends: ........yes? i think? 16. fallen out of love: ahahahahaha no b/c i’ve never been in love (in the romantic sense and that’s how im taking this) 17. laughed until you cried: always 18. found out someone was talking about you: in the worst of ways 19. met someone who changed you: yes 20. found out who your friends are: oooooh yes 21. kissed someone on your facebook friends list: never been kisses

— general

22. how many of your facebook friends do you know irl: all? how else do people find you on there? 23. do you have any pets: many. Scout, Abbey, the neon tetras (named the Heralds of Zildrog), my various shrimp, and Corypheus and Valkorian the golden inca snails  24. do you want to change your name: no, but i used to 25. what did you do for your last birthday: went bowling 26. what time did you wake up today: i woke up 3 times, once to Bug getting ready for school, then my mom asking if i opened the vitamins, then... i think 9 was when i finally crawled out 27. what were you doing at midnight last night: playing swtor or looking up some fresh and funky memes 28. what is something you can’t wait for: finished the next kotfe fic chapter and breaking everyone’s hearts. Or the next major expansion of SWTOR. I NEED ANOTHER CINEMATIC TRAILER LIKE GODDAMN 30. what are you listening to right now: nothing my house is silent and in the far, far distance, sometimes i can hear cars on the toll road 31. have you ever talked to a person named tom: i have an uncle named Tom. I have spoken with him. So Yes. 32. something that’s getting on your nerves: socialization. I can only take so much around others. If I was a Sim i’d have the lonely trait. 33. most visited website: Tumblr or my school’s student login page 34. hair colour: blonde/brown im really smack in-between and i just dye it lighter to make it blonde enough for me to be blonde 35. long or short hair: long. so long. down to my butt long                                   36. do you have a crush on someone: not sure. i like him, he’s funny and thinks im funny, and teases me back, but im shit at reading signs and far too much a coward to ask him out. I’m not sure. I had a major crush in high school that resulted in me falling in love with a guy but we never offically dated and then he crushed my heart. Long story. So i try to avoid crushes lest i break my heart again. 37. what do you like about yourself: bitch im fabulous 38. want any piercings: i got 3 in the lobes of each ear and cartilage in the left. If i get any more I think my mom would have a heart attack 39. blood type: ??????? no idea. I know my sister is O 40. nicknames: Milky (only drank milk as a kid, but this nickname has sorta phased away). Other nicknames give away my real name. But I do respond to my sister’s name. 41. relationship status: single and ready to flamingle 42. sign: Aquarius 43. pronouns: she/her 44. fave tv show: i literally can’t pick one b/c ive watched nearly every cop show on Netflix, including some that aren’t in english. All the cooking competitions i can find on Netflix and youtube, and im running out of TV to watch when i do art. Halp. 45. tattoos: Zero because my fatal fear is needles. 46. right or left handed: Left. left left left seriously i can.... maybe dip a french fry in ketchup with my right but that’s it 47: ever had surgery: wisdom teeth removed count? 48. piercings: 7 total in the ears and nothing else. 49. sport: I watch baseball and hockey (SPEAKING OF WHICH, GO DUCKS!). Used to play softball and some soccer. 50. vacation: if i can graduate a quarter early I want to go visit my family in florida and michigan 51. trainers: is... this british for shoes? i wear berkenstocks. only berkenstocks. because crocs are so comfortable but people judge. I also have hella wide feet where ever ‘wide’ shoes are too narrow. I can get by in Vans or my old old Nikes that i hardly ever wear

— more general

52. eating: whether or not if ketchup should go on it, ketchup is going on it. Unless if it’s breakfast food or desert. Breakfast food is my favorite and i could happily live off it it. 53. drinking: water, tea, juice, milk, Mike’s black cherry hard lemonade, monster energy drinks, RC Cola.... i drink a variety of things. Mostly water and tea. 54. i’m about to watch: i dont know I’VE RAN OUT OF THINGS TO WATCH ON NETFLIX 55. waiting for: myself to go out on a date and/or meet The Guy 56. want: many things. 57. get married: One day. 58. career: ssssssssttttttttttuuuuuuuuuudddddddeeeeeeennnnnnntttttttt

— which is better

59. hugs or kisses: i want both but maybe not from the same people. 60. lips or eyes: depends what each are doing tbh 61. shorter or taller: taller b/c im short and can’t reach the top shelf 62. older or younger: older but at this point im 22 and a lot of my classmates are 21 so like.... my generation. 63. nice arms or stomach: arms 64. hookup or relationships: relationships 65. troublemaker or hesitant: depends. like really depends. I’ll probalby go with troublemaker b/c they tend to be funny and on-the-spot and im a planner.

— have you ever

66. kissed a stranger: never kissed anyone..... ha ha ha 67. drank hard liquor: so yes. 68. turned someone down: ahahahhahahahaahaha haha ha. Actually yes I got asked to homecoming my senior year by this one dude who still gives me the creeps jsut tihnking about him. I politely said no. 69. sex on first date: never been on a date, never kissed anyone. Never ‘done the deed’. Would not do on the first date. 70: broken someone’s heart: uh my mom’s when I told her I had Depression and wanted to kill myself all throughout sophomore year highschool 71. had your heart broken: oh. Yes. 72. been arrested: no 73. cried when someone died: more like wailed loud enough that half the dorm floor heard 74. fallen for a friend: *side-eyes my sister* yeeees

— do you believe in

75. yourself: it varies over what. 76. miracles: I mean.... to an extent.  77. love at first sight: no 78. santa claus: I AM 22 YEARS OLD of course 79. angels: its complicated. my mom found a dead rat in our old house’s garage when i was 4-ish and all i remember crying for the dead rat when my dad tossed it in the garbage. My mom explained that an angel had already taken the rat’s soul to heaven. What did I picture the angel as? A carrot, wearing a tie, with mickey mouse-esque white gloves carrying a rat dramatically. This still haunts me.

— misc

80. eye colour: blue enough that you might drown in the ocean 81. best friend’s name: @athenascrown 82. favourite movie: if you think I can pick only one you’ve got another thing coming. but.... any star wars movie. If i had to pick one, Empire Strikes Back or Phantom Menace or The Last Jedi.... or Rogue One.... or Revenge of the Sith... 83. favourite actor: The guy who played the stormtrooper who hits his head on the door in Ep 4 84. favourite cartoon: the old Ducktales was a childhood favorite 85. favourite teacher’s name: I don’t want to put her name out here but she was my art teacher all through high school and she is one of the kindest souls ive ever met and if it wasn’t for her, i wouldn’t have gotten back into art

because this post took 5ever im not tagging anyone but if you want to do it, just say I tagged you and I’ll say i did

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yO i was abt to write to you abt the new modc ep (what's going on with the weird cuts at the beginning jcbjfbjb im crying) but i saw your post so!!!! tell me abt your dream bro i wanna hear abt it!!!!!! -✨

OH I HAVENT SEEN IT YET RIGHT I FORGOT IT CAME OUT TODAY!!! Let me watch it then we can talk abt it !!

And well my dream is pp long so bear w me 😔 i don't have the 'read more' function on mobile so i apologise in advance for everyone who comes across this !! I'll edit the 'read more' into it when I can 😊 ( i hav edited it hehehehe )

SO . actually there are several parts to this dream and I woke up between the first two parts but ... YEA.

At first I was home but a cat had gotten inside my house, I already had two cats ( my current cat and the one that will have died one year ago exactly tomorrow... yes five days after my birthday december is a cursed month for me. but if u wanna know abt him just search 'tchoupi' on my blog ) and I don't think my girl was okay w that new cat ? also new cat looked wonky sjhsjsh ? I wasn't sure abt its behaviour bc it seemed like it cld get irritated fast. In the end my mother told me to throw it out so I did against my will but when I saw it walk away... it had a missing leg.... I was like oh shit dude no come back... so I went and opened the front door and it came back running !!! I couldn't leave it like that w/o food if it already was incapacitated in a way. so that was my new cat. everything ends well ( I'm pp sure I forgot a part of that part but it's not the one I'm interested in )

SECOND PART... THE CÅSTLË. i was in a castle that was more medieval than renaissance styled or whatever the fuck i didnt study architecture but yes this. it had a courtyard with a fountain and that courtyard had a beautiful view on The Unknown ( aka fields and forests and stuff yknow just. The view ) but there were also bridges ( not the rock kind the "we use it in movies to make a character dramatically fall after the villain cut the rope" kind ) and little paths to go to The Unknown. there was a built-in church ( not a christian but i guess that was a smart choice given most attendees were fire emblem characters and they were definitely christians ) and also stables i guess ? but the front stables were empty and i didn't get to see the actual stables. the front stables had a pathway going around them ( there was a front stable on the left and on the right, with the courtyard being a little pushed back ? like if you left the end of the stable pathway you were already past the courtyard )

so now picture all ot this but suddenly the sky is super dark and everything is grim and gloomy. like a typical halloween movie. everything that was neat feels now worn out and the pathways are definitely scary, nobody wants to go there !

i was looking for my friends ( aka mercedes from fire emblem three houses ) but somehow couldn't find them, a fight broke out between ingrid and annette ( also fire emblem three houses ) and i don't like rich horse girls nor do i like racists so i was about to beat ingrid's ass. this big dude comes in and threatens me so i scold him and he and ingrid both go away. i win. i talk to more people but they're all acting weird except annette i guess. whatever weirdos i'm out

next i keep looking, but now i'm not alone - i'm not sure of whether it's a real presence or just a spirit until the end of this sequence where this boy tells me where to go and what to do to fix things a little, so i go into both stable pathways and end up being possessed twice ( demonic possession isn't as bad as they tell you i turned out fine ) so when the boy tells me where to go next i'm like "are we getting possessed a third time ?" he chuckles. ( i am gay so that was cute )

but we don't get any time to do that third thing ! we get out of the pathways and everyone is planning to go fight whatever is beyond The Unknown ! i look at the boy and awake me now pictures him as kraam from the stranded. cool i have a nice partner in crime i'm okay with that. the others leave, there's a lot of them but a second group is getting ready ! so kraam-but-not-quite grabs my arm firmly but like he doesn't hurt me or anything and we start going into The Unknown as well. im like hey wtf do we do now. and he tells me oh these two groups are going mad that couldn't be us let's go find the stray kids ( awake me now realises this is ~cringe~ but dream me was like whoa a solitary group of ppl who fight bigger evils ! BC YES THAT WAS WHAT SKZ WERE DOING IN THIS DREAM but i never met them ) so we can join forces w them and defeat these ppl. i look back. i see the second group from afar bc they have torches. im like wow this is like beauty and the beast.

something happens, idk what, but kraam starts running ! i'm a slow runner so i thought oh fuck not again but i ran after him anyway, the next bit is us running through a sort of jungle ( the sky is clear again ) and like its CRAZY i fucking loved that bit bc WOO ADVENTURE !! ( im a sagittarius )

then we slip between two trees' leaves and end up in a facility. we keep running bc if we stay there We Will Die. suddenly i am slowed down ( which leads me to believe before that he was holding my wrist but released my wrist when he slipped between the trees ) but he checks on me which i appreciate because that means he would rather die with me than survive without me, romance luv

his father ! the bastard. tries to kiss me in front of his mother. im like lmao dude thats disgusting die n go to catholic hell. i push him away and tell him off, he gets pissed but i cant go look for kraam bc his brothers r telling me abt how we're gonna go on a road trip. im like ? the world is abt to end tho ? but apparently my dream rly wanted a drama plot so fine.

his brothers have, allegedly, caught on to an alleged potential relationship between us. no im not gonna complain abt it im lonely and sad and gay so my dream fills in for me. theyre talking abt how theres not enough room for all of us in the van unless i sit on kraam for the trip but they ( specifically the one brother who oddly reminds me of dbk rain ) somehow make it into a sexual joke ? being me tho i didnt get it KSBSKDH... they were like talking abt legs ?? i remember it was abt how it wouldnt work with smth with four legs 'unless i could go with three' and like i dont even know what the hell that was supposed to mean we're talking abt a van not a horse ygwim ?

idk if i woke up after that but my brain did picture both me complaining to kraam abt his dad doing that and him getting quietly angry and just telling me to not come close to him again just in case hed try it again AND the beginning of the 'road trip' where i was indeed using kraam as a seat. and i was sleeping bc idk maybe i was tired from the running ! i hope my next dream is the continuation bc boy that was a whole drama episode

also i gave up and started calling him just kraam but it wasnt kraam ofc he just had kraams face from what i remember ! but he wasnt kraam at all