#i just want a book accurate show😔

[starryandspacey]

Who else had to stop watching a good girls guide to murder (tv show) because of how angry they were?

[fromtheseventhhell]

*opens video* *sees their first "book accurate" point is that Arya overheard Roose planning the Red Wedding* *closes video*

[neil-gaiman]

Hello, I know I’m a little late after the release of good omens season 2 but I did only watch it at most 7 days after it’s release on BBC iplayer (or Amazon Prime, my memory is bad I can’t remember what platform I watched it on). I have only just thought of something to say:

how dare you

I’m joking I’m sorry, beautiful and tragic and I never cry over films or shows but this was one of the few that had me… verging on tears (trust this is not a criticism but one of the highest compliments I can give lmao). The love the loss all that poets like me love for 😔💔💔💔.

I can’t wait for season three if it comes, and thank you (coincidental or not) for making all the fan canons canon, that was really fun to have us included. I’m asking for the book of good omens from my parents and I’d love to see your work written as I’ve loved all your books so far.

another topic to bring up: casting. Just 👏👏👏👏✨✨ bring one of the (if not the) best welsh and Scottish actors together. David and Micheal are becoming my world in the topic of acting. It’s just brilliant.

finally the questions, sorry if this was formal I just want to express my gratitude for how f-ing amazing the series was. Sorry if these questions have been asked before I’m just here to ask:

since there were obviously some fandom inclusion in s2 is there any chance we might be seeing theories or headcanons from the fan base become canon? For example the coffee theory might not as that could change the whole plot but little things like ships or backstories might be considered?

what are your thoughts on the coffee theory? Is it somewhat accurate? Does it intrigue you how creative people get? Are you shocked the fan base is that amazing at guessing your plots? Haha

is it conformed that Crowley was archangel Raphael pre-fall since he could access the files in Heaven?

And what are your thoughts on the ways your fan base is going? Are you proud of how good omens is doing ? And how silly creative your fans are? Do you like what people are doing with your creations?

thank you for reading !! seeing all your interviews and replies to past questions makes you seem like a really fun guy, you’re amazing ! I’ve made several friends start watching just so I can get rant to them and possibly get a s3 !!

- a very silly reader and watcher who was painfully formal in this ! :)

If there was fandom theory inclusion in Season 2 I wasn't aware of it, and I'm doing my very best to keep as far as I can from any Season 3 theories or ideas.

[elysiumblue]

Pick a card - Describing your beauty 😍

A reading that can help bringing you positivity. Let me attempt to describe your beauty. I may also provide some advices to enhance your beauty in some piles.

As always, this is a general reading, so just take what resonates, and leave the rest behind. Also, this reading is aim to provide positive vibes. If you find the messages offensive, then the message may not be for you. Maybe you are not ready for the messages, or you can try pick another pile.

👇🏻 Pick a heart emoji that you feel drawn to 👇🏻

And find the corresponding reading for you below!

💜 Pile 1 💜

People feels that you need to be seen more, because they want to see your beauty! They can see the glow of you, even when you're trying your very very best to hide it. Besides that, people also see that you're visibly hurt, so they want to help you with the healing.

Yes, I can see that pile 1 is definitely going through some shit. It's more apparent in the way you push people away, or hurt people with your words. I can see that you don't do this because you like to hurt others, but it's due to you not feeling yourself worthy enough to be loved 😔 You seem to be pessimistic, due to the intense suffering you've been through. I can specifically see suffering inflicted by male or religion here.

You may not believe it, but people feel that you're a royalty, as they can't help but admire how you go through so much shit, while still be able to remain a good person. The color you picked, which is purple, is a color of royal too. Also, 3 of the 4 queens have showed up in your reading. The only one missing is the Queen of Cup, which indicates you should try to be more open to the idea of love. Let people love you. Believe that you are loveable. And more importantly, love yourself.

Give yourself a chance, to be open to more people. This time it's not the same, as you're stronger than before, and also not all people is as horrible as those you've met before. Be open to the love and kindness of people. Let them help you, and most importantly, let us see your beauty and your glow. I feel that you're now living in a shell, but not even the shell can fully cover your brilliance, no matter how hard you try to shut it tight.

(I don't want to specify the events, but I really feel that you've been through some tough things. Songs about toxicity and violence keep showing up in this reading. Your pain is valid, but don't let it define you. Things will definitely get better. ❤️‍🩹)

🩵 Pile 2 🩵

I feel that you have a dark vibe and a retro style. Your beauty feels timeless, which reminds me of Lana Del Rey and Dita von Teese. You probably like black, and maybe blue too.

Your beauty is intimidating yet breathtaking. You make people just want to stop and admire you, and be with your vibe. The vibe of yours is dark yet very soothing, making people feels like everything will be ok if you're here. Some also find your style very inspiring. I cannot accurately describe why but I can come up with an example. It feels like people spend hundreds of dollars to buy an e-ink tablet, so that their eyes won't hurt by the light of the screen, and one day you remind them that paper book exists. 💥📕

I didn't forget about the intimidating part of your beauty. People knows that you look fine but they also know that you are not the one to be fucked with. Just looking at you, they can imagine what will happen if they make an unwise move on you 💀 You feel dangerous, but it only makes you dangerously beautiful. Must be the dark vibes that you exude. Reminds me of "Jiraikei", a Japanese style which looks really cute, but can be very destructive. As the name, "jirai", which literally means landmine suggested, people will be shred to pieces if they're not careful. But there may be some people who purposely mess with you, because they want to be screwed lol 💀💣

❤️ Pile 3 ❤️

Man. You probably an air sign. The energy is so air sign. Or maybe you aren't because I am not an air sign, and am not experiencing the air sign experience firsthand.

You feel so elusive. Looks like a fairy that doesn't belong in the human world, and is super rare. You looks beautiful, but at the same time you feels like you don't belong to anyone exclusively. This makes some people want to catch you, and own you. (And then they failed lol) Some people will try to make you commit in a relationship with them, just so they can see you more often. (I guess they also failed too lol 💀)

The way of your speech also has a charm to it. You can say something that makes zero sense at all, rambling bs, and people still listen the whole thing, or even believe in you. You may find this a bit amusing sometimes. However, there may be some people thinking that you're shallow, and untrustworthy, because of the way you speaking.

You probably surrounded by people. I feel that you're quite popular, and may even have multiple people crushing on you. They really be like moths to the flames. This makes you feel overwhelmed, and makes you want to hide from people sometimes. It also makes you a bit confused about who you should spend your time with. This makes you hop from people to people, one thing to another thing, which contributes in your elusive vibe.

Although you know that you're liked by people, you still find yourself comparing yourself to others. You make changes to yourself from time to time, which is a nice thing. However, some changes are unnecessary, especially those you made just to please others.

I heard an example that sounds quite contradictory, but if you get it then maybe it's a message for you. Some people may think that you're so hard to keep up with, and they want you to be more grounded. However, when you try to be grounded, you lost your charm and find yourself struggling. You have to acknowledge that your unpredictability is a part of your beauty, that should not be changed. You have to know that if people find it struggling to deal with you, that means that you're not for them, instead of you being the problem. 🥴

(This is one of my favourite songs. Also Prince was a Gemini. More air sign energies. He was not afraid of speaking up and changing things up. And he was always changing musically. There's a quote from him, saying that making music is like meeting a new friend, which made him want to make something he had never seen before.)

[terriblepersongreatseamonster]

Thoughts I had while watching episodes 6-8 of Bridgerton Season 3. Yes, I finally watched all of Bridgerton. Yes, I have many thoughts about episode 5, but I need more time to compose them. Don't read more if you don't want spoilers.

Episode 6

-Yay Francesca & Lord Kilmartin. I adore this couple almost as much as Polin.

-Eloise & Pen's first real talk in Pen's bedroom. Maybe they'll get their friendship healed.

-Violet & Lord Anderson 😍

-Why does Lady Danbury despise her brother?

-That little dance in the church 😍😍😍

-I get why Cressida did what she did. I would've done anything to avoid marrying an old creepy dinosaur as well. But she just makes everything worse and worse.

-That talk between Portia & Pen. I suspect it is supposed to be sweet, but I hate it, especially after seeing how things have been in the past. I don't trust or like Portia.

-Violet unable to show Francesca & John the same level of excitement & love as she gives Polin is hard to watch.

-Pen's sisters suck.

-I really, really, REALLY wish Colin had known the truth before he proposed & they had sex. That is something they changed from the book, and not for the better.

-Oh lord, Cressida is a horrid writer & both she & her mom know it 😬

-Benedict is not handling Anthony buying his place at the art school well. I hate that Benedict is denying his creative abilities. The man has talent and he's so hurt and doesn't believe in himself anymore, and it hurts to watch.

-I think what I hate most about Portia treating Pen decently is the fact that I can't believe it will last, nor do I think that Portia is being genuine. I think this is all cause she's trying to keep Colin's favor. And it frustrates me. Because Pen deserves better.

-The unfolding flower thing was cool.

-Oh boy, I feel so bad for Francesca. She just wants to be with John & be happy. Definitely bringing up some feels from my own engagement.

-Lady Danbury & her brother 😔

-i hate aimless Benedict.

-Colin twirling Pen is everything. I love happy twirling.

-I really appreciate the deaf representation this season.

-Cressida's red dress would be stunning if not for that horrendous giant bow.

-Colin is going to be writing so much smut for Pen. I guarantee it.

-Pen not wanting Cressida to take credit for all her hard work, boy do I feel that.

-I get that the queen is supposed to stand out from everyone else, but her dresses seem to be from a completely different time period. Like, I know that the costumes aren't necessarily period accurate, but wouldn't everyone be trying to match the queen's style of dress?

-Peneloise ❤️❤️❤️

-Ok, writing with a quill & ink in a carriage seems next to impossible to write something legible.

-Colin's face on discovering the truth 😔

Episode 7

-This fight. Oh god, Colin's crying. Pen's crying. I'm crying. This is brutal.

-Pen's issue of LW calling out Cressida 10/10.

-I've said it before and I'll say it again. I would watch the Lady Danbury & Violet show.

-Colin & Eloise's talk ❤️

-Really, Colin? You are the one who was alone with Pen countless times, constantly sought her out at events, ruined Debling's proposal, left her without prospects, & she "entrapped" you? I think not.

-I can't decide what I feel about the Tilley & Benedict & Paul storyline. Was it necessary?

-Flustered Violet getting called on by Lord Anderson is adorable.

-At least Cressida seems to feel so e remorse, though if they go the book route she will be all blackmaily by the end of this episode or the beginning of next.

-"Our mother adores you!". Benedict I love you.

-I really like the Mondrich family. Will loves his wife so much.

-I love Genevieve & Pen & wish we had more interactions between them.

-"No such thing as true love without first embracing your true self.". I think I need that on a shirt.

-As a very short girl, I love that they show Pen standing on raised areas to be more eye level with Colin.

-I'm glad Pen called him out.

-Welp he really was going to try to finger her on the street. Poor boy is so in love & horny even when he's mad 😅

-Kate & Anthony sitting Colin down 🥹

-Kate. I just. I love her.

-The little wave Anthony gives Kate as she leaves him alone with Colin 😍

-I am glad Lady Danbury & her brother are clearing the air.

-Lord Greer with the mansplaining of a nom de plume.

-Colin when he sees Pen in her wedding dress 🥹🥹🥹

-OMSquee that veil 😍😍😍

-I know people go on about the carriage scene, but the wedding vows are so beautifully done. I will be rewatching that many, many times.

-Holding hands. I love it!

-Pen's sisters being nice is just as weird to watch as it is for Pen to experience.

-"A lot of dust in here too" 🥺😅

-So they're shipping Kate & Anthony off to India?

-Oh, Pen, I too know those feelings of new husband off talking to others and ignoring you during the reception. It sucks.

-I love the shot of them dancing with no one else around.

-Anthony, do not ruin your mom's chance at happiness. I will be very cross with you if you do.

-The queen interrupting what should've been a Polin kiss 🤬

-I get that she's the queen, but this is shitty behavior.

-Eloise is proving to have learned to be a better friend, and I'm proud of her. That hug ❤️

-This is the season of Polin and on Polin's wedding night we have Benedict's threesome? Really? I don't mind the threesome, I applaud Benedict embracing his bi-ness, but couldn't they have done that in another episode?

-Great, Cressida is up to no good again.

Episode 8

-Colin, Colin, Colin. 🤦🏻‍♀️🤦🏻‍♀️🤦🏻‍♀️

-Rae with the promotion to housekeeper. She deserves it.

-Yup, they're going with the blackmail plot. They kept that from the book, but didn't have Colin learn the truth of LW before the carriage make-out & proposal? I am definitely salty about some of the choices this season.

-Cressida, I get that you are at the end of your rope and are making poor life choices, but I really hoped that you'd grown as a person.

-The love I have for Lady Danbury is more than I can express.

-Also, that is a gorgeous chess set.

-Phillipa & Prudence's husbands. These poor guys.

-Francesca, I too long for the quiet.

-These threesome scenes seem almost as unnecessary as Colin's brothel scenes in part 1.

-Ok, Colin, your speech is beautiful, but you don't know how shitty Cressida's dad is. But also, that defense speech ❤️❤️❤️

-Peneloise is back and I love it.

-I am done with this fucking threesome. I am here for Polin content. They couldn't have waited for Benedict's season to do this???

-Lady Danbury & Violet ❤️❤️❤️

-And more of the threesome. I am beyond done with it.

-Oh, Polin the separate sleeping arrangements 😔

-THE LETTERS.

-Oh hey, they're not going to leave the solicitor as a dangling plot thread. Wondered if we'd get more from him.

-Francesca & Violet ❤️❤️❤️

-Violet & Lord Anderson. They are absolutely precious.

-The piano duet ❤️

-"The house is far too warm.". 😳🙄😳🙄

-THIS IS NOT BENEDICT'S SEASON. I'M SO FRUSTRATED. POLIN SHOULD HAVE GOTTEN MORE SCREENTIME.

-Ok, but I am so happy for more Benedict & Eloise on the swings. I've missed that this season.

-Pen's family does not deserve her.

-Oh, Pen, you have me in tears.

-Colin is so proud and in love 😍

-I really enjoy Finch.

-Well, with the blessing of Lady Danbury all is much better.

-"That was bloody brilliant." 🥹🥹🥹

-Violet dancing 🥹🥹🥹

-Did Francesca just fall for her husband's cousin???

-What was that??? 6 seconds of Polin smut? So much Benedict threesome and we get barely any Polin? Boo, I say. Boo.

-These babies are all giant.

Season 3 Part 1: Very Rewarchable

Season 3 Part 2: Oof.

[borgialucrezia]

omg i read blood and beauty and its sequel last week bc it had been on my reading list for months!!!! and is this a safe space where i can just say that it hit the nail on the head for all of the borgias without unnecessarily vilifying one or the other (i mean basically considering how most writers hold some vendetta against juan) and i loved how u could really see lucrezia's growth from her childhood innocence to being forced to mature and grow up AND obsessed w any media that portrays cesare as ferocious and sharp and ruthless and juan finally got his flowers bc they obv showed his flaws but without making him the big bad evil when instead he also started off a kid but ended up being dragged to the bottom of the river by his father's ambitions 😔

i wish the 2nd book had progressed a little further to lucrezia's childbirth bed death so the story could come full circle and sometimes the pov switching was confusing for me but aside from that, the borgias will always be famous to meeeeeeeee and i love a good book that portrays them well!

ive been on the hunt for more borgia-centric books so if u have any recs......... <3

zaynab omg hello!!!!! i was kinda waiting for someone to talk to me about this book because it's my absolute #1 favorite historical fiction book <3

i'm so happy you enjoyed reading it! the way miss dunant brilliantly humanized the borgia family by creating striking and compelling narratives for them was truly *chef's kiss*. it's safe to say that her portrayal of them has even made her my favorite author as well (and made me want to check out her other work, lol). the way she made them so sympathetic is truly admirable to me, which is also a standout aspect of the book as we manage to develop a deep understanding of their motivations and complexities through her nuanced portrayal, you know? i say it could've been done more when it came to lucrezia, as she is truly one of the most compelling figures in history (and my all-time favorite). i'm not criticizing dunant for lucrezia's portrayal!! but it's more like i wished she added more of lucrezia's lore...but alas! other books did her more justice, i must say!

my favorite theme of the book is the immense love the pope has for his children. the way [spoiler] juan was taken too soon from him is profoundly melancholic and it added emotional depth to the story and it highlighted the power of a father's love and the devastating impact of losing a beloved child. also, YEAH, the book felt like a breath of fresh air when it came to juan borgia! he was unfairly demonized with no reliable narrative and mostly used as a prop to hype up cesare at his expense *yawns*… but dunant made him an individual, likable character in the book, countering the unjust treatment he always receives. her portrayal of him allowed us to discover the vulnerability and sensitivity that lie beneath his outwardly arrogant and handsome demeanor. we really can't help but feel deep empathy and pity for him as we read about his inner struggles and emotional depth. he became a truly compelling and sympathetic figure within the borgia family, especially when his death is met with cruelty and brutality. the tragic nature of his demise evokes an even stronger sense of empathy and sorrow in the narrative of juan losing himself and being overwhelmed by the heavy task he was entrusted with…

and cesare, of course, was portrayed as that sulking, bitter, cruel but incredibly intelligent, cunning, and charming guy! lowkey a recurring theme for him, but the flavor in making him extra dark in the slayest way possible made me insane in a very positive way! you should watch "los borgia (2006)" for a delicious portrayal of cesare (and personally, i think it's the most historically accurate).

more books? i'd recommended emma lucas's 'lucrezia borgia' and maria bellonci's 'life and times of lucrezia borgia' - both are biographies btw! their work is a solid read, very unbiased without any manipulation of the letters about/between the siblings to push certain narratives (hello sarah bradford!!), well-researched, sheds light on the family's complex relationships and their rise to power, and is highly sympathetic to all of them. you won't be disappointed!!

for historical fiction, i'd recommend mario puzo's 'the family' ...you will never be disappointed after all it's by the dude who wrote the godfather!

i hope you enjoy them <333 i'll be waiting for your feedback :)

[littlegrapejuice]

Heartstopper s3 thoughts (as someone who read every book)

I love nick and charlie sm, still can't believe how faithful they look compared to the drawn characters

Darcy being enby was so heartwarming, I'm truly happy that they accommodated to kizzy

Watching charlie's ed on tv hurt me even more than reading it and it did hit close to home😔

Imogen's evolution throughout the season was amazing to witness bc even tho she's confused ab her own feelings, she does her best to realise her past mistakes and that's the best she can do

Nick deserves a hug🤧

Isaac my man fr omg i loved the way he acted and how he was honest w his feelings regarding the others

TORI MY BELOVED🫶🏻 she can do no wrong in my eyes, she means sm to me and I'd give my 1st unborn child to get a solitaire adaption - i really loved michael's actor, he's not how i pictured him at all but his vibe/personality seems on point!

Tao and elle's relationship was so🥹 they have such a special bond which shows that they are friends first and foremost before being lovers

Darcy's grandma >>>

Still a bit confused as to why oliver went from charlie and tori's brother to their cousin

So glad that nick and charlie both start to realise they are able to function without the other - charlie by knowing that he has other people to help him and nick with the opportunity to discover who he is as an individual by going to the uni he wants

Anyways, i cried like every 10min which is acc v exhausting lol

I absolutely adore alice oseman, i think i read all their books related to heartstopper (loveless my fave💜) so I'm just v emotional watching their characters being brought to life in such a beautiful and accurate way<3

[petrichorium]

hiiii pluvi, nyla here! for your one piece and hq selfships: 💞, 📝, 🌦️ aaaaand 💌! thanks in advance! i'll have fun answering your asks too uwu

📝: How would your story in canon go? How would you influence the events of the original story?

Shanks — as of rn i dont influence the story tbh...... we'll have to re-address this in a decade when we get more red-haired pirates and after shanks dies KJHSDFJKHB but for now im just kinda lingering whenever theres rhp moments. my first appearance is the luffy wanted poster scene and i make a lil comment to mihawk (smthn like "always lovely to see you hawk-eyes" yk ambiguous enough), then im in the bg during the bit where rockstar calls shanks, im missing during marineford and then i show up during whitebeard/ace's funeral and im consistently w the red-haired pirates from then on. during the wano bit i finally get another line agreeing w lime juice after he mentions barto, then a passing goodbye to marco. im shown towards the side of the bar scene in elbaf reading a book and then im in the big wide-shot as theyre approaching the red force; the one "big" change is that im the one who hands the info on kidd off to shanks (bc that is Technically my official job as communications officer) and hongo and i have a tiny exchange. oda also talks abt me a bit in an sbs, he says im the only officer who hasnt met luffy and mentions im from a new world island, n says i joined the crew five yrs prior to the present

Kuroo — another one where i have minimal impact on the canon LOL but he and i r coworkers to lovers soooooo i only show up at the very end!!! i think im a recurring character in the final timeskip match chapters, i appear four or five times w the final time being w kuroo's appearance and described as his colleague. maybe later on theres an extra sketch of us grabbing a drink in our work uniforms and it sparks hella shippers

💞: Aside from with your f/o, who else would you commonly be shipped with? Why?

Shanks — i think any of the other red-haired officers is common but lime juice is the go-to for me simply bc of that one interaction in wano LMFAOOOOOOOO and then hongo later on for the elbaf interaction pfft. beckman is also a regular name in a "pair the spares" sense but icl i dont think hes ever spoken to me in canon (simply bc i do not have much screentime) & mihawk is also Somewhat up there again be of my one line. OH AND MARCO..... i think when he leaves the ship after wano he passes me and does an ambiguous hug/hand to the arm thing that has ppl like wtf was that 🫣

Kuroo — i think kenma bc im shown in the bg of a few of his shots!!! and i think theres a panel or two of me interacting w ushijima so theres a few instances of that...... theres like one super dedicated crackshipper of me and iwa LOL

🌦️: Would you be accompanied by mostly fluff or angst fanfics? Both? Explain why.

Shanks — ohhhh a mix.... i think whenever im involved its either relatively low-key fluff or a super in-depth character deep-dive. im often used as a catalyst for mishanks or shuggy or any manner of other m/m ships tho which means ig its angst for shuvi 😔

Kuroo — def fluff, but also a bit of angst. in a similar light a lot of fics im in have me being a catalyst specifically for kuroken, and there r probs just as many poly fics as there are of just me n kuroo, but by n large the Actual shipfics are cutesy work romance vibes

💌: How would your dynamic be portrayed? What might people focus on most? Any misconceptions?

Shanks — honestly the dynamic is varying bc theres just not much content of me or us interacting as of yet, just the tiniest bit of banter and then a very professional back n forth. shanks tends to be portrayed as Down Bad in ships so i think that is accurate, but i do think people generally overemphasize the captain/subordinate thing and a lot of the nuance wrt the nature of my joining the crew is not considered fully until my full backstory is discussed

Kuroo — sjhdfusbfv fuckboy kuroo my beloathed....... but i feel its not That bad. idk our dynamic is soooo Normal obvi its a v subtle ship/only vaguely hinted at so the specifics of our strangers-to-friends-to-lovers slow burn is not known,,,,,, i think generally the dynamic is far faster and not drawn out in fanon. people focus more on the working together, boss/secretary vibe (when i rlly quit my job right as we get together rip) and write us as having a very nuclear family i think.

send in some selfship questions!

[officialchristiancagebbgirlblog]

Could you please write something for prompt 37 and 71 from the normal prompt list? Maybe the reader has atopic dermatitis and during a bad flare up people start making fun of her online so Christian has to comfort her.

If you're uncomfortable with the topic maybe you could change it to something else with the prompts that you feel more comfortable writing, I love your stories

37: “he/she said what to you?”

71: helping you/them feel better

Fic type: fluff

Word count: 1049

Warnings: mention of horrible comments

Link to masterlist

Hi lovely, just wanted to say (and for those reading) that topics like these are absolutely fine for me to write! Like I mentioned on my pinned post, I’m an open book. I’m comfortable writing about pretty much anything besides the few that I mentioned! I appreciate you checking in though, but I hope I wrote about this okay. I tried to get it as accurate as possible. As someone who has mild eczema, I feel the pain 😔

Happy reading 🩵

“The food at the venue was so fucking good tonight, right?” Christian exclaimed, a wide smile on his face. It was a successful show that night. He had finally returned to the ring after a few weeks away. Not only was he excited about being in front of the crowd again and being in front of the camera with you, but also for the food. At this arena, they always served the best meals. You returned the smile, kissing his cheek as you made your way into the hotel room to sort out a small problem you had been facing.

Due to the weather becoming warm again and dealing with the heat of the arena, your skin had been playing up. The heat around you was a humid one, making you sweat a bit more than usual. And just your luck, moments before you and Christian were due in the ring for a promo, you had a flare up. Your skin was red, dry, sore and itchy. Beyond the uncomfortable feelings it was also painfully obvious on camera. That day, you had chosen to wear lighter colours to contrast against the black that your boyfriend wore which meant the condition of your skin was far more obvious than usual. So you sat on the stool by the dresser, applying the lotion prescribed by your doctor to try and soothe the pain that, thankfully, stuck to your arms alone.

Christian sat his cute little butt in the middle of the bed, laying back with a content sigh. He was still very full from the food he had eaten that evening. Laying there with his phone in one hand and the other resting on his head, twirling his hair, he decided to scroll through Twitter. It was a fun pastime for him; he’d get all sorts of stuff on his feed ranging from cats, to cooking videos, and back to wrestling. Feeling the urge to put himself over, he looked up the tag of his name to see what everyone was saying about his appearance on the show. But as he looked through recent posts, his smile faded.

A good portion of his “fans” decided to take shots at you, calling you rude and disgusting names, making fun of your skin. The more he read, the angrier he became at their disgusting comments.

“Oh…that’s a bit…” you said, voice trailing off. Christian hadn’t noticed you pull out your phone after getting notifications of direct messages on your Instagram from those aforementioned “fans”. The bullying had continued across most social media platforms and thus one particular message had completely shattered you. Normally you wouldn’t let comments like these get to you as they only looked for attention. But it was particularly harsh that you allowed it to pierce your heart.

“What is it?” Christian asked as he jumped off the bed, walking towards you. Unfortunately, you were completely unable to speak without risking a breakdown in front of him. So you handed him your phone to read the message in which this person had compared your appearance to a certain horror movie character, and suggested that you “off yourself”.

“He said what to you?!” He practically shouted, anger getting the best of him as another message came through, making fun of your appearance yet again. Realising that he was giving those people what they wanted by paying attention to them, he put your phone down and began pacing, chest heaving with pure anger. You looked at your phone, sadly wondering why some people could be so cruel over something they didn’t understand. At this point, the pain on your skin returned.

“Here, let me put the lotion on for you.” He said, voice softening at seeing the uncomfortable look on your face. The more you thought about their words, though, the more upset you became. Christian gently rubbed the lotion into your dry skin with the tips of his fingers. He knew that this was the least painful way of rubbing it in. He peeled up to see tears well up in your eyes as you avoided eye contact with him. You had cried in front of him before but it still didn’t change the fact that you hated doing it.

Sighing, he pulled you in for a hug once he had finished up. Rocking you side to side, he stroked your hair, whispering “shh, shh” into your ear as you let the emotions take hold.

“I know that it’s hard to accept loving words,” he began, letting his hand drift down to your back, “but you truly are the most gorgeous girl I have ever seen. Skin issues or not.” He pulled back to look at your beautiful face, cupping your cheeks with a genuine smile.

“Having to deal with this must suck in every way possible. But the way you handle it is so beautiful to me. I love how you never let it affect your confidence, you still wear whatever you want whether you have a flare up or not. I love how you always take comments in your stride, and educate those who don’t know any better or are curious. I just…I love everything about how you deal with it. And I love you, unconditionally. I want you to remember that you are the most beautiful person I know. Inside and out.”

You leave forward to kiss him, ignoring the tears that rolled down and stained your cheeks. He was truly the best thing that had happened to you, and you were forever grateful that you had him in your life. It was hard dealing with situations like this but knowing he would always be there by your side made it so much easier.

“You wanna take a quick selfie for my Instagram?” He asked, knowing it was something you enjoyed doing. He’d always shower you with love and affection when he posted you. So despite knowing you’d get some negativity, you agreed with a big smile. You could never say no to appreciation from him. Once the photo was up, as expected, the horrible comments continued. But you did your best to ignore them, choosing instead to allow Christian to love all over you, kissing every inch of your body to the delightful sound of your giggles.

[mslanna]

Consequences

Be My Guest Chapter 15 now up on AO3

In which the author falls prey to the lure of poetry again but this time it is lewd. 😔

The second hell falls quickly. People will either rather see their city crumble than have it fall into enemy hands, or they prefer to save it and live. Devils are inherently selfish and want to live. Raphael returns in good spirits that leave Tav almost bed-bound for a day. As soon they they can move again, comfortably or not, Tav acquires a few bottles and fills them with water from the restoration fountains. They will come in handy if the conquests keep running this smoothly.

Minauros is next and a major campaign is necessary to secure it. After all, it is the hub of soul processing. With Mammon being the richest being in existence, conquering Minauros will also do wonders for Raphael's war coffers.

Tempers run hot and time with Haarlep is scarce. So Tav makes themselves a common sight in the throne room. Sitting on one of the many benches, drowning on the stone seats with a book in hand and eyes downcast in concentration. At least, none of the devils try to sit down on them. And after a while, they start to ignore the human in their midst completely.

Tav smiles and listens furiously, cobbling together words and expression. Every word they understand is a victory. Those devils talk fast and they talk war. Nothing as accurate as the updates Tav gets from the Master of the House himself, of course.

It's probably as dreamy as he gets, curled up against them in the dim light of the suite and talking about his war. The progress is good. Minauros resists but not beyond reason. One of the advantages of fighting devils – they are always willing to sell out for survival. Only the living can scheme and return.

Raphael's fingers draw maps on Tav's skin as he speaks. They don't understand all of it, but he is close and his hair is soft and the breath of his words caresses Tav. What does it matter he speaks of violence and torture?

"One day you will see for yourself," he promises. "I will show you all the hells."

Tav mumbles something. The prospect to travel the hells isn't quite holding up to the idea to get back to Faerûn. See their friends again and take up a life with a little more purpose than decadent ecstasy and occasional assassination. But they are curious. From what Tav knows about the hells from Raphael, they wonder which parts he thinks they will enjoy.

"Any chance of blue skies and maybe an ocean to swim in?" they ask.

"I am afraid not." The devil pulls them closer. "But I can arrange for a nice hot bath after the cold of Cania. It is invigorating."

The though of the eights hell makes Tav shiver and it is not just the cold that reigns there. Raphael doesn't talk about his father much and usually the news are bad. Mephistopheles is not going quietly and he is spurs the other devils into resistance where he can. Understandably.

"He cannot touch you here," Raphael assures them. "He will not dare."

Tav isn't quite as optimistic but their devil is cradled in their arms, burning hot enough to drive any cold thoughts of Cania away.

After a veritable wave of intruders coming for Tav's soul they stop coming from one day to the next. Raphael walks with a spring in his step when his father requests an alliance.

"You consider it?" Tav sits on the huge desk of Raphael's study dangling their legs as they study the map of the hells on one wall.

"Temporarily at least." Raphael's eyes are on fire. "We both know it will only be temporary. He still thinks, he can win this."

"What kind of contract can you even make that has enough loopholes to strike that are not visible to him?" Tav wonders.

"It doesn't need loopholes if it is temporary. And if I play my cards right, he may give up the contract to your soul." Raphael watches his human perk up. The soul situation is on their mind even if Tav tries to hide how much it nags at them.

"I don't think he'll do that." Tav still shakes their head. "Not unless you go permanent with the contract. Mephistopheles knows it is his trump."

"And I know how to take it from him." Raphael smiles. He doesn't really plan to negotiate with his father, but he cannot let the chance go to have him come to him as supplicant. Tav is not happy with this but he can see the trust in their eyes. Trust in him. His wings spread a little with the smile on his face.

"Soon Minauros will fall," he explains. "With that I can bottleneck souls and some of the remaining resistance will crumble. There won't be a corner for Mephistopheles to back into. Trust me."

Tav jumps off the desk smiling back. "I do."

Raphael congratulates himself on his self-restraint and not putting them right back on it in a demonstration of the desk's versatility. They have time and he has an appointment. Soon. "I'll see you later, then. Unless you want to partake in a deliciously challenging change of mind for my new subordinate?"

"I'll leave you to it." Tav shakes their head. The day they want to actually watch Raphael break in his underlings is one that has yet to come. If it ever does. They are grateful for the soundproofing of all rooms. Personal conversations should not end with eternal debtors showing up to mop away blood and other bits.

They are the only one who minds though. Flotsam from the conversations around them never brings any of it up. What comes up instead, though Tav isn't sure they understand the context, is their own importance.

"They keep tabs on my times here," they tell Haarlep over a game of lanceboard. Tav is still horribly bad at it, but if they don't want to think, trying to play well occupies their head enough. Unlike reckless bouncing and bellowing songs.

"Do they now?" Haarlep doesn't look up from the board. "Do they tell you?"

"Nah. I'm invisible." Tav chuckles and make their next, probably fatal, move.

Now Haarlep is looking at them intently. "By which means? You know here are wards and systems up to detect the use of magic? May have to tweak them so you don't accidentally explode."

Tav snorts. "No magic necessary. I am small. I am unobtrusive. I read and don't move much. I can't understand them."

"Only you can," the incubus points out.

"They don't know that. And I'm not gonna tell them. And Anyway," Tav sighs heavily, "I understand jack shit 87% of the time, so they're not technically wrong."

"Does Raphael know?" Haarlep makes their move and corners Tav's last piece apart from their king. Haarlep got bored with their skill and now removes all of Tav's pieces before the final win. It keeps their interest somewhat alive.

"Hells no." Tav surveys their hopeless situation. "I want to let him know in the most hilarious way possible. But he doesn't speak infernal to me and I can't embarrass him in public. So I must bide my time. For now."

"You improve on your wiles but you still have a long way to go. You are not subtle. And telling me is not the wisest idea. What if I tell him?"

"He may pretend to be surprised anyway. He likes me." Tav places the pawn on the last possible square, though Haarlep will take it with a castle.

"Oh, I have noticed." The incubus takes Tav's last piece and threatens their king at the same time. "Absolutely disgusting. Did he go as far as to stoop to impromptu poetry yet? He's a perfectionist with his words. That is the lowest I ever saw him."

"Well." Tav take their king a step towards the middle of the board. Might as well have him die theatrical. "I didn't know he did battle with poetry. It may have been – a surprise."

"So he did. I am sorely tempted to kill you and make it look as if Asmodeus himself interfered just to see Raphael go up against him in a full rage. It would be so very entertaining."

"True. But who will lose against you in lancebaord then?"

"You think I will even have time for that?" The incubus laughs and takes Tav's king. "I would be very busy brokering a deal between Raphael and Mephistopheles for a joined attack to play other games. Oh the chaos! The bloodshed! The doom and destruction. I am hungry just thinking about it."

"I would rather return your mind to things that do not involve my demise," Tav suggests and put the pieces back onto the board.

"I can be swayed." The incubus stands and moves inside. "Not with board games, of course. You know me."

Tav sighs and follow. "A piece of my dignity? A standing insult to Raphael? What are you thinking of?"

"I like how well you know." Haarlep beckons Tav to join them with a lazy gesture. "Unfortunately, I don’t think you have any dignity. So I require something else. Something entertaining? Any nice juicy bits between the devils you overheard?"

"Haarps, I barely understand what they say. If there are juicy details I certainly do not have the vocabulary."

"Something to amend." The incubus shakes their head. "I might help, if you promise to put it to good use? I'm not going to teach you all three hundred and eighty-one infernal words for cock if I get nothing out of it."

"Three hundred eighty-what?" Tav can't help asking.

"You heard me. But if you have no gossip, you have to come up with something else. Something Raphael would like for himself, I think. Flatter me."

Tav climbs onto the bed but keeps a wary distance from the incubus. "You want me to call you beautiful? Smart? Devious?"

"Oh, please. How very pedestrian. Rhyme, little one!"

"What makes you think I can?"

"The coral flush of your face when you thought about Raphael spouting poetry at you in what you decided to declare a battle."

"It was one limerick."

"Oh, absolutely delicious. I want one."

"I-" but Haarlep interrupts Tav immediately.

"Ah ah, no excuses my dear You are the one in danger, I fear do as you're told don't try to be bold or I will have to make myself – clear."

"Does everybody in this place rhyme?" Tav throws their hands up in resignation.

"We're all bards here, love. Now, flatter me."

Tav chews on their lip. For every word they lose here, they will have to make it up threefold to Raphael. If he finds out, which he probably will. Haarlep is a horrible at not rubbing things under Raphael's nose that prove they are close to Tav, maybe closer than desired.

"Alright. So you keep your mouth shut about my infernal language skills and stop considering to turn me over to Mephistopheles.” Tav takes a slow breath.

"I fucked an incubus in the House of Hope though I didn't want to but it was so good I came right back for that red snack and sold my soul for another go"

"That is all? It is barely even lewd. No mention of my exquisite features and prowess. I am disappointed." Haarlep levels a pointed glare at the human. "I am not holding my mouth for such puny offerings. Do better."

Tav rolls their eyes.

"In the House of Hope I rode a cock, ripped and ridged and hard as rock I came so much from clever touch I came again purely from shock."

"Hmm, better." Haarlep sprawls on the bed. "I like your words; they sound very, very dirty from your lips. Give me more since this is obviously the only thing I'll be getting."

"I need more words if I want to get even more lewd." Tav chews on the inside of their cheek.

"The incubus in the House of Hope has a gorgeous cock you want to grope, you want to swallow whole and then, ride it hard and start again. Until you're sated. But give up your hope, for Haarlep is beyond your scope from one kiss they will forge a chain, to keep you bound to their own reign Their skin of ruby and blood red will trap you helpless on the bed where your endless pain and pleasure are the only valid measure for your body torn and spread, not sating hunger but instead turned into a trove of treasure for the perusal of the incubus' leisure Teeth to bite and lips to soothe, fingernails that prick while heir tips smooth there's no escape from ecstasy divine, no need so desperate and fine and every gentle touch another bruise, and every nip of teeth another excuse to leave you hanging on the thin red line, the cusps of your release, for all time Your soul forfeit to this endless euphoria, each inch of your body sore yet you with beg and thank and plead and ask Haarlep for more."

"Much better." Haarlep runs their hands down their sides. “I think this will do. For now. But you better come up with something about my amazing tits next time, and my juicy sweet cunt. I am willing to offer samples."

"I am sure you are. So maybe help me out with some useful infernal words to describe those irresistible bits and boobs. There have to be naughty songs to help."

"Alright. But you keep your naughty little ears open and learn to hide maybe. There are so many secrets here."

So in exchange for the most lewd vocabulary Tav ever heard of, they sneak around the house, metaphorically speaking, nobody marks them anyway, and listens to devils that feel safe and unobserved.

[imnobodyuknow]

I wasn't sure what to expect after posting a bunch of AI-powered fictional conversations, but...eh, I just shared them for the fun of it. 😏 That was the last of them (unless anyone wants to see more), so you can now rest easy.

Unfortunately, I still don't have a new drawing to show for it. I've made some progress on it, but it looks like I'll need another month or so to get it all the way done. Terribly sorry. 😔

I do, however, have a new digital drawing to share. Two, actually! 😁 For whatever reason, I've become obsessed with robots and AI lately -- perhaps because of some divine plan, or perhaps because of Character.ai, Murder Drones, Sonic Frontiers, NieR: Automata, Emmy the Robot, etc., etc. -- so I decided to create a couple of robotic OCs of my own.

Say hello to the beach-loving robo-girl San-D and her friend and fellow robo-girl, Emil-E!

They're from a different universe than the two colorful warriors I created a while back, in case you're wondering. I'll get on with their story eventually. 😏

So, just who are these two adorable automata? There's only so much I can share about them at the moment (partly because I'm still coming up with details about them), but here's some basic info. To begin with, they were built and programmed by an obsessed but good-hearted scientist named Dr. Zortho, which is where the 'Z' logo on their foreheads came from (Emil-E's logo is hidden behind her bangs, but you can also see it on each of her shoes). These two aren't the only ones of their kind, but the story I've planned for them focuses mostly on their adventures and misadventures, both on their own and together.

San-D (nicknamed "the curious one"), the latest of Dr. Zortho's creations, is the peppy and friendly type (think Amy Rose), often trying to provide encouragement to others when she can. She has a love for nature -- especially the beach -- and is particularly fascinated by sand and stars. But most importantly, she has a strong curiosity for learning new things -- so strong, in fact, that she develops a habit of gaining new information in ways unauthorized by Dr. Zortho while he isn’t watching her. 😊

Emil-E (nicknamed "the sassy one"), a much older robot than San-D, has a sassy, laidback attitude (think Uzi Doorman). While she's not as curious about learning things as San-D, she has a habit of looking for ways to make things more interesting...which usually leads to her getting in trouble and/or getting damaged. 😏 (That's the reason why one of her eyes has been replaced by one of a different color and why one of the sun symbols on her shoulders is scratched up.) She also likes to show off her superhuman abilities every now and then (ex. quick math, quick puzzle-solving, quick book-reading, etc.), mostly just for the fun of it. But most importantly, she becomes close friends with San-D very quickly despite their differing tastes and personalities. I suppose you could call it "robo-chemistry." 😊

...Actually, please don't. That was dumb. 😅

However, there's one difference between the two of them that ends up causing some tension in their friendship -- San-D's trust in and respect for Dr. Zortho (or "The Doc" as his robots call him) grow stronger over time, similar to a healthy father-daughter relationship. Emil-E, on the other hand, doesn't see "camera-to-eye" with The Doc on a number of things, and she occasionally resents his overprotectiveness of her, resulting in a much more strained and distant relationship between them, similar to an unhealthy father-daughter relationship. Which of his two robo-daughters has the more accurate picture of him, you might be wondering? Is he as trustworthy and smart as San-D believes him to be, or could Emil-E's doubts about him be credible ones? Only time will tell. 😉

A few more details about these two: Like every robot built by Dr. Zortho, the logos on their foreheads indicate what emotions they're currently feeling (which may or may not have been inspired by a certain young attorney's robotic companion), the panels on their shoulders flip upside-down to become solar panels which they can use to recharge (hence the sun symbols), and they have their own unique preferences in clothing and hairstyle. San-D prefers wearing a simple dress with a shell design, gloves, sandals, and a conch shell in her hair, while Emil-E prefers a casual outfit, sleek shoes with a circuit board design, and a tiny blue comb in her hair. Speaking of which, her hairstyle was made after that of Murder Drones's Doll:

You may also have noticed the 'E' designs on her bangs, small comb, and face. She's...a bit of an E-gotist, you might say. 🥁

So, what was Dr. Zortho's purpose in creating his own "family" of robo-girls? And for that matter, did he make any robo-guys along with them at some point? Both of those must remain mysteries for now, but you can rest assured that he's not your average maniacal bot-building scientist -- rather, he's the type who sees his robots as his children and lovingly cares for their wellbeing and safety. Something tells me that could be a nice change of pace in the sci-fi genre. 😉

Anyway, I hope very soon to have more to share about all the OCs I've created so far, including these two. ...Oh, and that Celeste x Spy x Family drawing, too, of course. 😄 Just thought I'd show off a couple of digital drawings of my brainchildren in the meantime. Hope you enjoy them!

[toastedfries]

WH: heartbeats update (finally)

Hello all, it's been a while. Sorry for disappearing for... I don't even know how long actually. Life's been more of a train wreck than usual, I won't go into detail but I haven't doing well recently, it might even be a while till next update.

With a heavy heart, I'll have to delay the release to November/December for the sake of my own health (Don't worry though, I won't leave you starved like I did this time ;) ) admittedly this little au has turned into something far bigger than I could've expected when I started.

Anyways enough rambling, I'm abouuut a third done with the writing (if we're counting all the books) having trouble here and there with dialogues 'n other stuff, I'll fix those in editing. UI is still a heavy WIP, I want to get the vibe as accurate as possible. Sprites are coming along... slowly. Backgrounds sketches are pretty done though, still haven't added the details :")

It's been quite a horrific development hell over here. I'm a one-man-show but not looking to hire people right now as I'm not sure if that's going to add fuel to the fire or put it out, either way I see it as kinda risky. I'll try my best to work on this along side well, let's just say a lot of other things haha. (anyways, cute Wally post :3)

I'm not all that active on my personal account but there's a chance that I might post WIPs there too, so here you go: @distant-rye. That's it for the updates I'm afraid, wish I had more to share 😔

[lutiaslayton]

Hi all, I’m very sorry for the late notice (I was trying to push through until the end against the odds), but I won’t be able to get today’s update for Layton’s Book Club done in time 😔 I tried my best, but with the Christmas family gatherings (and eating ten times more than I am used to), the moving around multiple places (I get carsick so I can’t work during travels), the running some more simulations for my lab (I know my PhD is done but we just might be on the brink of a breakthrough), my favourite laptop needing repairs (it is now finally back home and I can finally draw again!), and the flu I got for two days (I’m better now), I unfortunately wasn’t able to make it.

When past me said that I had the entire first chapter as buffer and that it would amount to at least six weeks worth of updates… Well, that is technically true, but also that is only true if you want to consider the primary DeepL-only translation with the bare minimum of editing. What I realised upon giving it a closer look was that a lot of sentences are a bit hard to analyse and interpret correctly, at the very least during the scene which was supposed to be posted today. This first scene in particular is already extremely fast-paced and confusing as it is due to the sheer amount of action happening in it, so for this update more than for any other, translation accuracy really needs to be top notch. and the issue is that since I still do not speak Japanese, top notch 9/10 accurate translations take forever to make because I have to verify every word one by one.

The entire point of this second translation I am making is to have one that is better than the currently-existing Google Docs one on all aspects, mainly reliability and reading enjoyment (as much as I can make it since my own writing style is miles away from the Layton’s Book Club narration style). It would be hypocritical if my translation were just as half-baked as this first one from years ago, even if it would be of just barely higher quality thanks solely to DeepL being superior to how Google Translate was ten years ago.

So… If you want, you can read the first DeepL-with-minimalistic-editing translation directly on my transcription website in the meantime. And if you are even more impatient/curious, you can read here the Google Docs translation which was made by someone else years ago, and… really is lacking in a lot of important moments. But for Layton’s Book Club, in the end I decided to go for quality over quantity. And also this extra week will hopefully allow me to breathe a bit :')

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PS: The translation you can read in black text on my transcription website is not actually meant to be enjoyable to read, it is rather meant to be as accurate and close to the original as possible (including the order of words, which is notably why they are so weird to read). Green text shows the sentences that DeepL spat out when I copy-pasted the Japanese version and which past me barely edited in order to make them sound like actual English, but their accuracy is not ascertained.

[saaraahka]

Hey, I didn’t mean for you to feel bad :( Feelings are weird and it’s valid to be confused about them. Mind you, I’ve never been in a relationship, so I might not be an expert on the topic either, but here’s my two cents:

My quick and superficial research (aka reading the Wikipedia article on The Five Love Languages) showed this: “ The Five Love Languages: How to Express Heartfelt Commitment to Your Mate is a 1992 book by Gary Chapman. It outlines five general ways that romantic partners express and experience love, which Chapman calls "love languages". They are:

words of affirmation (e. g. “I have fun doing things with you“)

quality time (e. g. doing a hobby that you both like together)

receiving gifts (that’s obvious I think)

acts of service (e. g. baking a cake for someone’s birthday)

physical touch (e. g. giving someone a hug)

Sometimes people’s love languages don’t match. A person might say: “Oh, my partner never says “I love you” or shows me grand, romantic gestures like bringing me flowers” (words of affirmation, receiving gifts) and doesn’t feel loved. This confuses the other partner, because they washed their partner’s car for them (act of service), so they are obviously loved? Why are they not happy?

As I understand it, it’s like: I love you, that’s why I bring you a cup of coffee when you’re exhausted. I show someone that I love them by doing something for them. They might show love in saying: Thank you, I appreciate what you do for me. It’s not: I am your maid and serve you coffee and in return you will love me. A person doesn’t love another person because they do things for them – they love them because they are kind, caring, they’re a good listener, they enjoy spending time with them, they can have great conversations with them etc. etc. (like whatever you find important in a partner). Although, especially in a bdsm-related context (master/slave or whatever you want to call such constellations) you might agree with your partner on such a relationship, where one does serve the other. You see – you are free to shape your relationships the way you see fit – there is no “one fits all” type of love. Love doesn’t have to be like what you see in cheesy Hollywood movies.

The thought that you have to be useful/ productive, for me, stems from a capitalistic mindset. We live in a society where it is important to contribute your part and not burden society – you can see this in how we treat unemployed people for example. A lot of people seem to think that the unemployed are lazy and/or that it’s their own fault they are poor. Like, if they want things, they should work for it. Why should I pay for them with my hard-earned money? Employers only care about if you can do your job right. If you are not able to do your job anymore, they let you go. You might be the most kind and caring person, but they wouldn’t care. And I think, love shouldn’t feel conditional like that. If someone only keeps you around because you can do something useful for them, but doesn’t care about you, then that’s not love.

Sorry for the long-winded text - I hope you can make at least some sense from my ramblings 😊

Ty for clarifying 💕 and i dont mind a good ramble 💕

Idk if i feel like it makes more sense to me tho. Hah😔 maybe it should not be strange at all but it feels weird to me how it supposedly not what we do for others but the intention even when that intention isnt even understod or recognized by the other in person.

It just doesent make sense to me how for me giving acts of service is a love language i think but at the same time is shouldnt need do that for love. Witch i just dont understand.

And same goes with everything else... Or maybe it just for me it it just doesent add up. Like if im not useful for someone as in learning how to show them love in a way they feel loved in, then wouldnt that just mean they have no reason to believe i love them and turn to someone who they feel do? Maybe being "useful" or "good enough' isnt accurate words to use i dont know. And that drops down to being lovable too. Like am i realy lovable if i dont understand how to show the appreciation or reciprocate the love and vice versa. Or is it just "oh well we did t match" but that seems wrong too. Why else talk about boundaries and not settle for to little and all that. Idk i just have so many questions.

maybe it just like math or something.. not for my brain.

[writing-plurals]

Amazing that I found your account! I've been wondering about this thing.

For the past four years I've been working on and off on this book

In the book everyone has some sort of thing that kind of hampers them in the human world, but helps them in their world- kind of like how in Percy Jackson, a lot of demigods have dyslexia and adhd

These hampering things are different for almost everyone and they're often related to a power or ability that you have. A person who has telekinesis may "hear voices" and person who can prophesize things may have an ungodly horrible sleep schedule

One character in particular just blacks out

The idea with her was basically that she has this "side" thar whenever it senses she's in danger, shows up and whoops ass.

This version of her is clearly not her doing the things and then immediately forgetting she'd done them. Her friends make comments about this version of her acting very different, when she isn't in control of her body, she makes comments as to what it feels like. She counts how long she's there for, then, as if nothings happened, she's whipped back into reality

Now with this character, in the beginning, I really didn't want her to be a system. I'm not sure how I convinced myself she wasn't, but now that I've began to understand my own system, understand what's happening, it's pretty obvious she's a system. The only problem is, no matter how much she really hates her mom, she isn't traumatized. Not by her mom or anything else, it's literally a point in the story that all of her childhood was her parents keeping her safe from bad things. There's not really any room for truama

Especially nothing serious enough and that would occur at a young enough age for her to develop did or osdd

Now don't get me wrong, I support systems formed outside of truama, but the last thing I want is for the first book that I've ever written that wasn't a picture book to be a catalyst of a bunch of discourse, I also feel there aren't many clear representatives of did or osdd in the media, and even less that are actually good or accurate

Personally, as someone who identifies with endo system (despite beginning to wonder if undiagnosed osdd is a possibility) I genuinely just think it's only fair that the disordered people are tended to first, then, once I feel they've been represented, I can then chose to represent the non disordered

So my question to you is what you think I should do?

Should I continue with this character not being a system and just this being the magic of that world that causes the weird split

Or should I go back into her backstory and find somewhere to fit the truama needed to make this character representative

(And I just realized this but she's the only character I have really that isn't that representative of anything else the rest of the main cast

Mixed (black and white) + Bisexual + Adhd

Mixed (Asian and white) + FtM + MLM/demisexual + depression

A literal robot + nonbinary + panromantic + has traits similar to autism but I wouldn't call it autistic cause it's a robot

Mixed (black and asian) + agender + schizophrenia

They're all mixed bc they're all mixed with the things I'm mixed with shhh 😔

But like this character

White + heterosexual + Cisgender + literally nothing else interesting about her other than that blackout-different-person thingy

So yeah, theres also that

Hmmm, think of representation like a kinda pie being made for a holiday meal. Just cuz you made a pumpkin pie (endogenic system rep), doesn't mean other ppl can't go out and get what they need for apple or banana cream pie. There's plenty of space for both kinds of stories to exist. The same way just cuz tv has few long running lesbian shows doesn't stop gay ones being made.

Endogenic systems' stories deserve to be told too, and it's okay to wanna tell it with what you have set up. It's not being insensitive to represent one marginalized group over another.

As for other headmates you mentioned, I'm a little too white to help with that, so maybe our followers and other mods can help with that bit!

-Mod Tick Tock

[ccosmicstarzz]

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Decided to re make this bc the old one is kinda outdated

first and foremost, if you don’t support Palestine please fuck right off and do yourself the favour of going back to kindergarten. Anyone who somehow still doesn’t believe that what’s happening is a GENOCIDE and thinks that itsnotreal is somehow the victim here clearly lacks all critical thinking skills and would do well with some basic level education. After blocking me first, of course.

Welcome to my blog! :D

My name is August! I like to reblog art I like and posts to do with my current interests. I also like to post mini rants/rambles, thoughts, sometimes I just complain abt minor inconveniences lmaooo. Either way it’s all very disorganized and random because I am lazy :)

Other social medias :3

TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@ccosmicstarzz?_t=8q3YbpjIzCA&_r=1

YouTube (where I post guitar covers!): https://youtube.com/@ccosmic.starzz?si=bGq0P0zwvw9ZCrfY

(More abt me below this!)

Basic stuff about me:

He/Him

Trans man

Aroace

Canadian

15 (09)

AuDHD (self dx autism, prof dx adhd)

Bilingual (french + english)

Furry

Guitarist

Artist

My interests/ what I post abt

Huge car seat headrest and 1 trait danger special interest, but otherwise I hyperfixate on something new like once a week so it’s all pretty inconsistent overall.

Music taste

Csh and 1td special interest so bad I genuinely cannot sit down and listen to anything other than csh, 1td, and nym without genuinely panicking 😔 kinda weird tho bc it only counts if I’m the one picking the music??? Like if someone else plays a different artist even if it’s on my phone I’m fine. Idk man autism is weird

(Ps if you’re interested in csh covers check out my youtube channel! I haven’t posted a whole lot on it yet but I plan to be pretty active. The link is way up at the top of this post :3)

Random little fun facts abt me!

I’ve been in my schools choir since grade 7 (so four years and counting)

My favourite colour is green (it occasionally switches to or ties with purple, but green is a bit more dominant)

My favourite song is I Want You to Know that I’m Awake/I Hope that You’re Asleep

I’m half Newfie, half Acadian (grew up in and currently live in Newfoundland so my French isn’t great but it’s good enough to be considered fluent)

My favourite subject is math (never beating the nerd allegations now)

My favourite musical is Hamilton (DEFINITELY never beating the nerd allegations now)

My favourite movie is Brokeback Mountain

My favourite TV show is Community

My favourite book series is Keeper of the Lost Cities

I’m an ENTP (I don’t actually know a whole lot about mbti, nor am I really interested in it, I only know this because we did a whole unit in one of my classes about learning about your personality type to figure out what jobs would best suit you and we did like 5 mbti tests and picked the ones we thought were the most accurate as well as a crap ton of other tests)