#i just needed to get this out into the void

[marsprincess889]

Astrology observations

Part 10

1. An interesting difference between Rohini and Mrigashira that I have not seen pointed out is in what they enjoy (in any way): regarding food, for example, Rohini might go for heavier food, meat, sticky sugary sweets, lots of fats, things that are rich with ingredients and are generally of that nature. Mrigashiras might prefer leaves and salads over meat. I think they like dairy but love moderation, and eat way more lightly than Rohinis.

Rohinis don't have much morality when it comes to enjoyment (generally), that might manifest as them not being ashamed to indulge in stuff that might be considered ulhealthy. Mrigashiras, being extremely alert and sensitive to things that Rohini just takes in, wants to analyze what they take in. That's why they might go for "the healthy" options. They also love feeling "light" in a sense of feeling free to move how they want to. That lightnes can sometimes make them feel anxious though, and then they start to crave stability.

2. Jyeshtas are very pure-hearted (let me explain).

As we know, it's a discharging and active placement, so it's free from the "extra" and the unnecessary. It's one if the nakshatras that can be considered "pure" due to its self-reliance and refusal to depend on others. There is a sharpness and a mobility to their essence that stems from deep within their souls, and everything that they touch has that "epic " feel to it.

I'm personally a big fan.

3. To return to a point from my previous observations, Jupiter and Ketu nakshatra people need to be wary of getting swept up be their own "grandiose", especially in serious subjects like guidance, morals and spirituality (in any sense of the word), especially because people tend to naturally listen to and trust them.

Jupiter nakshatra natives love everything "big" and meaningful. Even if they have the best of intentions, they should be mindful to not throw big statements around. They might love to attach meaning to everything, and I mean, anything. Jupiter is endless growth, which can be dangerous when not checked, contrained and/or directed. They are also the "supporters" of others, and their acceptance might lead them to support faulty things.

Ketu people might be prone to ignorance and similar to Jupiter people, they have people looking up to them. While Jupiter is endless growth, Ketu is an endless void. That unwillingness to see past their judgement gives them a self-posessed energy that can be interpreted as superior by the masses, they are often put on pedastels. As always, other influences in the chart play a huge role, as this tendency is significantly reduced when a Ketu person also has Venusian influence (Venus is the materialization of Ketu's spiritual essence, making it grounded and of value), while it can be increased with added Jupiterian influence (this is based on my observations of real-life people).

4. Tiger yonis should try to control their impulses and preserve their energy more. I don't know what the coorelation is, theoretically, between them and that behavior but I've seen it many times in real life. I'm not even saying this in an accusatory tone, because that harms tiger yonis themselves, first and foremost. They might be scattered and all over the place, not knowing what to do with their energy. They're not geared towards natural integration, energetic stability and unity like cow yonis, so they should use their drive to build to control their own impulses. If implemented, I think that they can achieve a lot (they have a drive to provoke, change, build or fix things).

5. Speaking of Cow yonis, they are more sensitive than it looks. They are naturally stoic and self-reliant so you won't notice it unless they casually reveal things that confirm that, because of their own natural tendency to be honest.

6. I've seen Ketu nakshatras really hyped up, whether in online spaces from astrology accounts or in real life. And people really like to talk about them and pay attention to them. I though, this can't be a coincidence, and here's my two cents as to why this might be: I think it all comes down the very nature of Ketu, which is absorbing, heated, passive, unresponsive and unaware. As I've said, I think that inspires admiration from the masses because they're percieved as superior, and when I say "superior", I mean that they get admiration because of anything and everything, not just because of one thing. And while many people might disagree with those who admire them and pour energy into Ketu individuals, it's not a question of whether they're actually deserving of it (they may or may not be, I've seen it go both ways), it's about what makes Ketu people get that kind of attention in the first place. Absolutely crediting Claire Nakti here, because she was right when she said that individuals who are not really integrated within themselves tend to rely on and worship Ketu people. Ketu, as a force, can be really dangerous, and I think people tend to ignore that very real danger. This is not to scare anyone, obviously, but I think if you attribute all kinds of positive or important things to one type of energy you might want to think if that's really true, and why you are percieving it like that.

7. Shravana people are interesting and I think that is not recignized enough!! I think their intellectual and intrapersonal or interpersonal abilities are ignored.

[nakylvr]

— FILL THE VOID

daniela avanzini x fem!reader x megan skiendiel

summary: you've been aware of megan's "little crush" on you over the past few years, honestly finding it endearing and cute. after talking with daniela about trying something, things take a turn.

warnings/tags: nsfw content, language, threesome, established relationship (dani & reader), g!p meizini, riding, effiel towering, cumming inside (multiple times), switch!reader, switch!megan, dom!daniela, recording during sex, mami kink

part of the substance series

wc: 2,6 k

minors dni

im so sorry for how long this took but uh i hope you guys like it 😓 i kept editing it so this is the final product 😖

sitting on the couch in between daniela and megan, the three of you were watching some dumb movie daniela wanted to watch. but none of you were really watching. you kept catching megan trying to take terrible sneaky glances at you, poorly acting like she wasn't doing anything when you look over at her.

you’d been aware of her “little” crush on you a bit after you started dating dani. megan was adorably obvious about it. trying to sneakily look at you when she thought you weren't paying attention, getting hard around you showing her visible print in her pants when you wore something a little too provocative, her eyes trailing your body only to turn bright red whenever you would even merely touch her arm. it was honestly endearing and cute.

you also knew she was way too shy to do anything about it. dani was her best friend, and you were dating dani. which meant you were off limits. she knew that. so why would she even try?

you look over at the ginger from the corner of your eye, seeing her gaze already on you. you then take a look at dani, who just nods her head giving you the okay.

“y’know, megs,” you start, causing her to look at you. “i really think you should go back to the dark hair.” your hand moves to push a strand of her hair out of her face.

“huh?” megan lets out, her face instantly turning red. “you think?”

“yeah.” you nod, your hand moving down to her shoulder. “i love the ginger, but i miss your natural look.”

“well–uh–thanks,” megan manages to get out, confused as to what's happening. within the second your leg is hooking over hers to straddle her and trap her, making her eyes go wide. “wh–what’re you doing?” she stammers.

“i know about your little crush on me, mei mei,” you say, your fingers fiddling with the material of her shirt on her shoulders.

“what?” she blurts out. “i mean–i don't–i would never–”

“it's okay,” you cut her off, grinding your hips against her slowly, feeling her start to get hard under you. “dani and i talked about it.” you lean in close to whisper in her ear. “you can have your way with me if you want.”

megan feels a shiver run down her spine, a pathetic whimper falling from her lips as you grind against her with more force. she looks between you and dani with a red face, trying to see if this was some kind of joke, and given by how dani hasn't freaked out yet, she assumes she's in the clear.

“really?” the ginger whispers.

“mhm,” you hum with a nod. “c’mon. you want me, don't you, mei mei?”

“yes,” she says softly.

“then do what you want for once.”

as soon as the words leave your mouth and you lean back to look at megan, she's surging closer to kiss you roughly. the action surprises you, a little noise leaving your throat as she grabs your hips tightly, dragging you against her hard cock straining against her shorts making you both moan. your arms wrap around her neck, pulling her impossibly closer to you. biting down on her bottom lip, a whimper escapes her mouth when you gently tug on it and pull it back with your teeth.

parting from the kiss, a string of saliva pulls between your lips, and when you look into megan’s eyes, you feel a shiver run down your spine. her pupils are blown wide, dark and hungry with need as she breathes heavily trying to recuperate. she doesn't say a word, instead shimmying out of her shorts and boxers, making her cock spring out and slap against her stomach.

your eyes widen at the sight of her. she's bigger than you expected. not that you're complaining, you never would. but you wouldn't be able to deny the way you throbbed thinking of her inside you.

“you're so big, mei mei,” you purr, your hand moving down to give her a few strokes, smearing the precum around her tip.

“fuck…” megan breathes out, her hips jerking up.

“you wanna be inside me, meiyokie? hm?” your hand speeds up slightly, making the ginger whimper loudly.

“yes. god, yes, please.” megan nods quickly. “please.”

a smile curls on your lips at her response. pushing your shorts and panties aside, you lift your hips and slowly sink down onto her. a sharp gasp leaves your mouth as you go lower down until she's fully sheathed inside of you, and you're letting out shallow breaths. you’ve never felt this full before, feeling the younger’s dick deep in you nearly pressing against your cervix without even moving.

“oh my god.” your eyes roll back when you slowly rock against her, a moan falling from your lips. “feel so full, fuck!” you throw your head back and lift your hips up before falling back down, a moan leaving both your lips.

megan’s eyes never leave your face as you start to ride her with desperation and need. watching the way your face changes at every thrust, how your lips part when those pretty noises leave your mouth. moans leave her mouth without any care, the feeling of your warm, wet walls almost too much for her. “you feel so good, yn. holy shit!” she hisses, her hands gripping your hips tightly as you move.

“yeah?” you smile, looking down at her. “you're so big inside me, i can feel you so deep.” you pull your shirt off over your head, watching her eyes go big when you unclasp your bra and let it slip off. “you can touch me, baby,” you tell her, resting your hands on her shoulders.

a whimper leaves megan’s mouth at the petname, her face flushing red as she moves one of her shaky hands to grab your breast and gently squeeze, making you whine and arch into her. hesitantly she moves forward to your other breast, glancing up at you before wrapping her lips around your nipple and carefully sucking on it, making her sigh against your chest.

your hips stutter when you feel her begin sucking on your nipple while still squeezing and fondling your other breast, a breathy moan escaping your lips as you look down at her. you just smile at her, grasping the back of her head and pushing her closer against you as you speed up, loud moans leaving your mouth. “fuck, you're gonna make me cum!” you whine.

hearing your words, megan finally starts thrusting up into you as you go faster, moaning into your chest as she continues to suck and lick around your nipple. her eyes peer up at you, all big and pleading with tears threatening to spill. she mumbles something against you, and you have a feeling you know what she's saying given by how she's twitching and throbbing inside you.

“you gonna cum, baby?” you ask her breathlessly, trying to keep your eyes open but they end up fluttering shut when you feel her tip poke at your g-spot making you gasp. “cum inside me—fuck, please, mei mei—wan’ feel you, please, please,” you start babbling while feeling your climax approaching. your head was spinning and hazy with pleasure, and all you could think about was how you should've talked to dani about this sooner.

“what?” megan lets out, finally pulling away from your chest. “i-i don't think i should,” she manages to get out past her moans. she wants to, though. you can see it. she wants to so bad, but she also doesn't want to fuck everything up.

“please,” you beg before looking over at daniela. “please, mami, please. just this once, please.”

megan turns her head to look at daniela when you do, the latina’s pants and boxers at her ankles with her hard cock in her hand. she's breathing heavily while stroking herself, and megan feels both embarrassment and an odd sense of arousal remembering she was watching the whole thing.

“go ahead,” is all daniela says in response.

a smile grows on your face and you look back down at megan, cupping her face with your hands and kissing her deeply. you both moan against each other's lips as megan uses all her strength to jackhammer up into you, feeling your walls clench around her tightly.

“‘m gonna cum,” she mutters against your lips, whimpers leaving her mouth as she gets closer to her orgasm.

“cum for me, fill me up, please,” your voice is shaky interrupted with moans and choked gasps.

with a few more thrusts, megan lets out a long whine, her hips stilling as you feel thick ropes of her cum shoot inside you making you cum over her cock with a loud moan.

you collapse against the ginger, both of you breathing heavily trying to recover. after the waves of your orgasm pass, you're able to hear the whimpering coming from the other side of the couch. lifting your head off megan’s chest, you glance over to see dani still jerking herself off, letting out quiet whimpers and gasps.

“you need some help, mami?” you ask the latina, crawling off megan’s lap and moving towards dani.

“please, baby,” she says breathlessly, a low groan leaving her mouth when you move her hand and replace it with your own. she glances over at megan who's now staring at you two with hooded eyes, her cock twitching and getting hard again just at the sight. she suddenly grabs your wrist to stop your movements. “you wanna try something, babygirl?”

looking into her eyes, you know by now what she means when she asks that. you know each other's limits, and you know she wouldn't do anything that could make you uncomfortable. and right now? you didn't give a shit what she was about to suggest. you end up giving a nod, and she just smiles, her dimple showing.

and somehow within the next five minutes you were in the bedroom on your hands and knees with megan behind you and dani in front of you with her hand running through your hair, her phone propped against the dresser recording the scene.

“you ready, babygirl?” daniela asks you, putting your hair in a makeshift ponytail. you nod in response, glancing at her phone before up to her again, to which she just smiles softly at you. “you tell me if you wanna stop, ‘kay?”

you nod again, feeling warmth creep up on your cheeks at how soft she says the words and the position you were in, let alone being recorded. “yes, mami,” you reply.

“good girl.” she pats your cheek gently before looking at megan. she just gives the ginger a curt nod telling her to start and megan nods, putting her hands on your hips and slowly pushing inside you.

“fuck,” megan hisses, stilling once she was all the way in.

your head drops, hanging low as you feel her slide in you, your jaw slack as a whimper leaves your mouth when she slowly pulls out and pushes back into you. “oh m-my god.” your hands claw at the bedding beneath you, your voice shaky already. daniela tugs your hair to have you look up at her, a little gasp escaping your mouth at the action as you stare into her dark eyes.

daniela has your hair in one hand, and her dick in the other, peering down at you with hungry eyes. “c’mon, cariño. you're gonna be good for me, right?” she says.

“mhm,” you hum with a nod.

“then be good.” her cock prods against your lips as she looks at you expectantly. nodding shortly, your lips part and the latina pushes into your mouth, letting out a little sigh as she feels the warmth of your mouth around her. “there we go…” she whispers. “you're so beautiful, mi vida.” she breathes out. “so good f’ me.”

daniela slowly starts to push further into your mouth, a groan leaving her lips when your throat contracts to swallow around her, feeling your tongue swirl around her length. “fuck…” she sighs, pulling out a bit and thrusting back in.

by now megan has started speeding up, letting out quiet whimpers behind you trying not to sound like a total loser, but the way your walls clench around her length has her moaning pathetically. her hands rest on your hips with a tight grip as she quickens her pace, the movements causing you to take daniela’s cock further down your throat causing you to gag slightly.

“fuck yeah, baby.” daniela just smiles down at you, keeping your hair in her hand to prevent it from falling in your face. “that's my good little slut. look at you, taking both of us so well.” her voice is sweet as she talks despite her words towards you, and you moan around her causing the latina to let out a groan. “shit—do that again, baby.”

in the three years you've known both of them, you never imagined that this would happen. yeah, you thought about it once or twice before you started dating dani, but god were you thanking yourself for talking to her about it.

tears were welling in your eyes, threatening to spill as you stare up at daniela who keeps muttering praises mixed with degrading words that you can hardly even process anymore. all you can focus on is how good it feels. you're moaning and gurgling around daniela’s cock with the force of megan’s desperate pace pushing her further down your throat, saliva dribbling from the corners of your mouth.

“you look so hot, baby—fuck,” daniela’s breathing was heavier now, her dick twitching and throbbing against your tongue. “shit—i’m close.” her grip on your hair tightens as she pulls on it slightly.

“me too,” megan is barely able to get out past her moans. “f-fuck, wh-where should i–” she can't even finish without a moan coming from her at the feeling of your walls fluttering around her and squeezing her dick.

daniela looks down at you. “you want her to cum inside you again, baby?” she says, stilling her hips for a moment. you nod quickly in response, and she smiles. “my dirty girl, wanting her girlfriends best friend to cum in her—fucking slut.” she starts thrusting her hips again, getting closer to her climax while watching you. breathy moans escaped her lips now, her hips moving out of pace and frantic. “you cum when you want, baby,” she tells you.

you can barely process the words being spoken to you, merely nodding along to everything daniela says while feeling the knot in your stomach tightening and threatening to snap. you know megan’s about to cum by how desperate her movements have become and her cock throbbing inside of you, and her tip hits that spot inside you has your eyes rolling back and you're cumming on her cock, your body shaking as you let out a whine.

within the seconds of you cumming megan is right behind you, a long moan coming from her as her hips still and you feel her fill you up again. and within the minute of that daniela groans, her jaw slacks as she cums down your throat, making you swallow it all.

the three of you are panting heavily as they pull out of you and you collapse onto the bed, head hitting the pillow with a soft thump.

“you okay, baby?” daniela asks.

“mhm,” you hum with a short nod before holding your arms outstretched.

without another word, daniela lays down next to you, letting you wrap your arm over her. your other arm is still extended, and megan just sits there not knowing what to do.

“c’mere,” you mumble to the younger girl.

immediately megan crawls onto the bed on the other side of you, curling into your side. you let out a quiet giggle at how fast she moved, looking between the two girls on either side of you.

“this isn't going to be a one time thing, is it?” you ask.

“no.”

“probably not.”

[lily-sofii]

Little dove

Shadow milk poll

TW(?): Yandere/obsessive behavior, mentions of kidnapping (you’re a captive in his castle),  non-con smut, PURE VANILLA COOKIE HAS EYEBROWS, his castle is referred to as “hell” and the surrounding forest is “inferno”, fem reader, reader hates Vanilla more than anything, blood licking, non-con is a form of punishment, depictions of vomiting, this is just a disgusting fanfic

!READER DISCRETION IS ADVISED!

Oh, how low Pure Vanilla has fallen. Such a different path from the path of truth he has chosen and held dear to him so long ago. But in his deranged mind he was doing the right thing… the right thing for him at least. For you? Not so much.

It was worse than hell for you. The pure cookie you had once met was no more. His eyes that once showed love for you, were now clouded with obsession and madness.

When they say ‘The eyes are the windows to the soul’ you thought it was a dumb saying made for overly emotional people to cry over, but it was starting to feel more and more like your situation.

Those void eyes felt as empty as his castle. How do you know that? Well, because you’re stuck here now… you have been stuck here for the past three months. Although in Pure Vanilla’s words you’re simply “In your new home!”.

The castle you are locked up in feels like anything but home. Lifeless and devoid of any cookie life, dust scattered around as if no one but you two lived here. But in the end, it might as well be true. Have you ever seen anyone in the castle except you and Pure Vanilla? Sure, you are aware that there are servants in here, but you have never seen them in the tower you are locked up in. Maybe that was Pure Vanilla’s doing… What if he purposefully made sure no one except him comes to the space you’re confined to? In his lovesick mind it probably made sense to him.

But no… You needed someone, anyone. No… What you needed is to get out. To ESCAPE.

But that has proven to be difficult time and time again, given the fact you have tried to escape more times than your broken mind can account for.

You truly felt like a caged bird, stuck singing a song of despair no one could hear. But every bird spreads its wings one day, right? Maybe today would be the day for you. Maybe today, your escape plan would work.

You see, everytime you attempted to escape Pure Vanilla’s grasp, you made the crucial mistake of being unaware where he was during your escape, but now, you made sure that wouldn’t be the case.

When he began to smother you more these past few days, his sweetness almost suffocating, you knew something was up. You knew direct confrontation was not a thing your captor liked, so you had to be sneaky enough that he wouldn’t notice… but just in case, it would be better to soften him up a bit.

“My light?”

Great, he loves that nickname!

“Is something the matter? You have been a bit more… attentive these past few days”

Pure Vanilla furrows his blonde brows, an annoyed scowl forming on his face before returning to its usual calm and soft-looking expression.

“My dear… I, with the utmost distress, have to inform you that I will need to leave the Vanilla kingdom for the next few days.”

Wait what..? That’s… GREAT!

That’s what you thought at least. Because as far as you knew, Pure Vanilla is gonna be away for god knows how long, leaving you with the perfect chance to escape.

Is that how you got yourself into this situation? Running through the thick forest that surrounds the castle you were bound to, feeling as if Pure Vanilla’s heterochromic eyes were observing your every move. Each breath you took as you ran, every step being followed by an enlarged feeling of dread.

The feeling of Pure Vanilla’s eyes on you.

But how could that be possible? He told you he was leaving. Maybe he sent one of the cookies that work in his castle to come after yo-

“My dove, are we still playing these… games? These pathetic attempts at getting my attention?”

His attention?! That was the last thing you sought after. 

Wait… was that truly his voice? Are you imagining it? No… there is no way, it was most definitely real. It was him. Your captor. But… wasn’t he meant to be away?

“Alright then, how about I give you… two more minutes to return to the castle before forcing you there myself? You know it’s too dangerous for you to be out here, my dove. I’ve told you an abundance of times, haven’t I?”

Two minutes… is that enough to find your way out of the green and dark inferno you’re in at the moment? A small part of you is saying ‘Yes’ and the bigger, more rational part? ‘NO! Pure Vanilla is right around the corner’. And who did you pick to trust?

You quickly turn on your heel, running the opposite direction. Both in a pathetic attempt to escape, and in a need to get away from his voice. The voice that has been haunting you during your captivity in the Vanilla castle.

His voice cuts through the quiet forest that is filled with the sounds of your feet thumping on the wet, moss-covered ground.

“Ah, my lovely dove… have you truly decided on playing a game today? Well, you only have 20 seconds left.”

That is just fine. Twenty seconds will be enough to get out of this inferno. And you’re right! That’s sunlight breaking through the tree line, isn’t it?! Just a few more steps and you’ll be-

“Bzzt! Your time is up.”

No, NO! Please, just five more seconds!

You gasp when you feel something slip between your ankles, causing you to tumble to the ground. You wince when you feel a dull pain in your face upon impact with the ground, smelling your blood.

Glancing down, your eyes meet with the eye of Pure Vanilla’s staff, feeling like it’s looking into your soul. Your very existence.

“My, my… You got quite far, my dove. I must invest into having more trees planted around the castle. We wouldn’t want your little games to end in your departure, would we now?”

Pure Vanilla and his stupid lovesick brain! Can’t he see this is wrong?! You want him to choke and die! To leave you alone, to escape!

You can practically hear the grin on his beautiful face as he speaks. How can someone as beautiful as him be so twisted? Or… how can someone as beautiful and pure turn into such a lovesick monster?

He comes out from behind a tree, a shit-eating smirk on his face. His beautiful face. Pure Vanilla crouches down beside you and grabs his staff, tossing it aside before his fingers reach to hold onto your jaw, forcing you to look up at him. He tuts as his eyes are met with yours, before lowering to look at the blood flowing from your nose.

He cups your jaw with both of his hands, his face inching towards yours. Sighing softly his tongue lulls out of his mouth, moving to lap up the blood that your injury is spilling.

You gag at Pure Vanilla’s actions, feeling like you’re about to vomit. He hums and squeezes your jaw in an attempt to force you to stay in one place and not move your head away from him.

“This is precisely what occurs when you play games… Come, I believe it is for the best that we return to the Vanilla castle.”

You hate him. The blood beneath your skin feels like lava with all the contained rage you are holding in your system at the moment. Why didn’t your plan work?! He was supposed to be away!

Pure Vanilla lets out an exhale of defeat, moving to stand up as he grabs his staff he tossed away just a bit ago.

“Are you really gonna be a burden and not stand up, my Dove? Fine, have it your way.”

That nickname he gave you… it felt different this time he said it. As if he wanted the word to burn. As if he wanted the word to come out in such a toxic manner. Come to think of it, isn’t the nickname ironic? ‘Dove’... as if he were trying to rub salt into a wound. The nickname was from times where Pure Vanilla wasn’t… this lovesick, this insane. But now it feels like the nickname has a different meaning - to poke fun at you. To show both how he has changed, and how trapped in your situation you are. Like a little dove trapped in its cage.

You get abruptly ripped out of your thoughts when you feel Pure Vanilla’s cold hands grab your waist, tossing you over his lean shoulder.

Have his hands always been this cold?

No. No I don’t believe so.

They became this cold when his odd and obsessive behavior began. Day by day he’d feel colder and more devoid of the cookie he once was. It felt shameful to even call the cookie who was before you now ‘Pure Vanilla’. The cookie who now stood before you was like an empty shell, barren of any resemblance of the one whose name he was bearing.

You hated it. You hated HIM. Pure Vanilla and what has become of him.

“My dove, are you even listening to me?”

Your thoughts get disturbed by his voice, making you awfully aware of the situation you’re in.

Wait, when did you arrive at the Vanilla castle?

The cookie holding you lets out a soft sigh before looking at you.

“We are back home, my dove. Will you walk now or do you want me to carry you all the way to your tower?”

You quickly jump off his shoulder, not wanting his touch to linger on your body longer than it needs to.

Pure Vanilla lets out a sound of approval, his hand moving back to your body, creeping its way around your waist.

God, you can’t stand his touch. You know where your tower is, can’t he just let you go there on your own? Can’t he at least move his hand off of your body?

Pure Vanilla hums softly as his movement leads you both into entering the main door of the castle, your existence feeling as if it was swallowed. Glancing around the main hall of the castle you see many cookies moving around, some taking part in conversations with one another, other cookies tending to their respective tasks, such as cleaning or dusting. It looked like a different castle. It seemed… alive. Your tower is devoid of anything like this, dust covering almost every corner, conversation being unheard of. The only noise ever occurring in the tower are your footsteps as you try to escape, and Pure Vanilla’s words of obsession that are targeted towards you.

You desperately look at the working cookies before you, hoping at least one of them notices the look in your eyes and stops Pure Vanilla. Just one cookie, please. But no one can hear or see your pleas. If anything, it feels like everyone is deliberately ignoring your presence next to Pure Vanilla.

The suffocating presence of Pure Vanilla becomes more overwhelming when the grip on your waist tightens. A silent threat for you to behave. A warning for his little dove to not sing.

You silently nod to show him that you understand the threat that is looming over your head, feeling like the stave of your notes has been cut by scissors  that are held by him.

Pure Vanilla leads you towards your tower, his eyes looking towards your direction every few seconds to make sure you don’t do anything dumb, or anything he’d regret making you do.

You fight back the tears that have by now began to form in your eyes, not knowing if it’s from anger or from regret. Just five more seconds would have done it. No, just two!

The door to the tower you are forced to reside in opens with a loud creak, a sound that sounds awfully similar to a screech of a demon. This tower is like hell for you after all.

Pure Vanilla forces you inside before coming in too, slamming the door shut behind you both. There it is, the lifeless tower that confines your very existence within it. The void that somehow feels even emptier even with you and Pure Vanilla in it.

“It is time for us to go to your room, don’t you think so, my dove?”

You freeze in your spot, your muscles feeling as if they weren’t your own. Unable to move you only move your gaze to meet his, fear more than visible all over you.

Won’t he… leave? Why would he go to your room?

Pure Vanilla usually leaves you alone after a failed escape attempt, calling it a form of punishment. He thinks if you’re without him it’s a punishment. What a joke.

Pure Vanilla taps his foot on the ground  from impatience, waiting for your answer.

You swallow up the anger this cookie has made you feel over the time of you, trying to force your voice to sound concerned and afraid.

“Y-You’re not gonna punish me? You usually leave me…”

Pure Vanilla smiles and grabs your hand, forcing you up the stairs that stand at the end of the hallway, dragging you behind him as he walks fast.

That smile… you can tell he’s putting on an act. The smile is meant to look friendly and nice, but it feels as toxic as Pure Vanilla’s actions.

“Well, those punishments didn’t seem to be working, given how much you’ve been running out lately without my permission, so I thought of a new way to punish you.”

You gasp from fear, trying to force yourself out of his grasp. You don’t know what he has in mind, but his expression doesn’t show a sign that he has anything good in mind.

Pure Vanilla lets out a quiet hiss, your attempt at moving away from him seeming to annoy him more than anything.

His grip on your hand tightens, threatening to not only bruise it, but to break the bones within it. Sensing the danger in his actions you stop your struggle, the tears that have been threatening to fall from your eyes finally spilling down your cheeks. Pure Vanilla’s smile softens and becomes even more toxic-looking than before, unable to stop his face from twisting due to pleasure. 

Wait, I thought he was lovesick about you. So why does he take pleasure from your pain and suffering?

Wait… maybe, just maybe this is the punishment he was talking about? Just mentally breaking you? That must be right!... Right? What else could he be possibly doing?

Upon getting practically dragged to the room that you picked to live in within this hell, Pure Vanilla lets go of your arm, pushing you roughly onto the bed. So roughly that the breath you were about to take is knocked out of you, leaving you unable to react as his hands move to grab onto your shorts, taking them off so aggressively that you’re surprised they didn’t rip.

Wait… he took off your shorts?

Pure Vanilla grins as he sits on the bed next to you, quickly taking off your shirt before moving to your bra. You sob as your tears fill your vision, your hands moving up to stop Pure Vanilla in his disgusting actions.

The not so pure cookie sighs and grabs both of your wrists, pinning them above your head in agitation. Why are you fighting back? You never fought back against a punishment before. Does this mean that this new punishment will finally work? That it will make you behave? That it will make you stay?

“My dove, please don’t forget that this is a punishment. I will not stop no matter what you do.”

God no. Please stop! You need to get him off of you right now! You hate him and hate this! Was he seriously gonna…

Pure Vanilla keeps your wrists pinned over your head with one of his hands, his other, now free hand, moving to take your bra off as originally intended.

A loud sob bubbles from your throat, feeling as if you’re getting tortured by his actions. Knowing you’ll forever be haunted by what he is doing.

“Ah, look at you… you’re more beautiful than I could have ever imagined.”

You can’t see through your tear filled vision, but you can feel. You can feel that the bra that was shielding your breasts from his touch was now off. His touch on your breasts felt like it was burning your skin and flesh off.

You wanted to die.

Pure Vanilla’s grip on your wrists tightens as he tosses the bra off the bed, his hand now going for your panties.

“Wait, please stop! Don’t do this, I beg of you!”

You begin struggling under him again, kicking your legs in an attempt to hurt him. To get him off. To stop his actions.

Pure Vanilla sighs and takes off his stole, moving to tie it around your thighs and ankles. Why won’t you stop struggling, don’t you see it hurts him too?

… That was such a terrible lie. Even Pure Vanilla couldn’t convince himself that it was true. He was enjoying this more than anything in the world.

You felt like passing out, no, you felt like passing away. This was worse than torture. Both mentally and physically. You truly hope at this moment that Pure Vanilla doesn’t just die and disappear, you hope he goes to hell and gets tortured for all eternity.

Pure Vanilla pokes your thigh with his finger, seemingly satisfied with how much less you seem to be fighting him now. Or, well, much much more unable you are to fight back against him.

Moving his hand to your underwear he runs his fingers along your opening through it, smiling when he feels heat coming from your core. Ah, that means you want this too, doesn't it? He can feel how wet you are, he can see the small wet spot on your cotton panties.

He lets out a quiet moan when he pulls your panties off, well, as much as he can due to the restraints on your legs.

Wait, how would he even punish you if your legs were forcibly closed? Ah, he didn't think this far into the future. How saddening. Maybe if he just…

Pure Vanilla picks up your legs before moving to sit where they laid before, putting them over one of his shoulders.

It isn't the most comfortable position, but it will have to do. For the punishment.

One of his hands keeps a firm grip on your wrists, the other moving down to your cunt. Surprisingly to you, you feel yourself dripping wet. But why? You hated this! You'd rather kill yourself than keep doing this with Pure Vanilla. This was a punishment worse than death.

Pure Vanilla moans and dips his fingers into your dripping cunt, ignoring your sobs and screams of protest. It felt as if he took pleasure in them if anything. He loved your struggle. It made him feel that this punishment was working.

Pure Vanilla lets out a slight whine when he pulls his fingers out, disappointed to no longer feel you. But also excited for what's about to come.

“You keep sobbing and screaming, yet you're this wet. Are you enjoying your punishment, my dove? Alright then… let us go a bit further, shall we?”

You feel like his words are a knife, ripping apart your soul. But then again, that would feel better than what he is doing now.

You begin to sob louder when Pure Vanilla’s hand moves under his heavy robes, moving down to tug his pants off.

Please, please just die.

Not taking his pants off fully he just lowers them down his crotch, letting his cock spring free.

Oh god, you want to just disappear. How is that even meant to go inside of you without pain?

Pure Vanilla sees the dread in your eyes and mistakes it for concern. Cooing he grabs his cock, aligning it to your dripping entrance.

“Don’t worry my dove, I’ll make sure you find pleasure in this punishment.”

You arch your back and let out a scream, your throat felling as if you swallowed a barbed wire with the intensity of it. Please, this dove cannot keep singing any longer!

Pure Vanilla watches your reactions in amusement, deciding to keep pushing his cock into you. He wouldn't stop even if you begged him to. Even if he hurt you.

It's a punishment after all.

He lets out a loud moan when he bottoms out, his hand moving away from the base of his cock to your stomach, pressing down. You gag and twitch, the pressure on your stomach making you feel how deep Pure Vanilla's cock was hitting.

You felt sick to your stomach, and him pressing on it did not help one bit. You retch, tossing your head to the side, feeling the burn and sourness of the vomit come all the way to your throat from your stomach. You swallow it back up and sob loudly, your mouth falling open, lips connected by saliva in a messy manner.

Pure Vanilla laughs breathlessly as you almost vomit, finding it amusing. Not paying mind to how sick you’re feeling he thrusts even faster, his breath and moans hitching.

Please, please tell me he’s close. I just want this to end.

As he continues fucking into you, you can feel yourself becoming more and more sick. At this point you didn’t even know if it was from his actions or if you were truly dying. But let’s be honest, you’d love for it to be the latter.

Your eyes widen as you belch, a warning you take close. You know what this means. Twisting your body to the side, you feel the acidic vomit building up, your throat constricting. You vomit on the bed sheets next to where your head was just moments ago, the brown-ish orange liquid making a loud splattering noise as it hits the bedsheets.

Exhaustedly you lay your head back down, too pathetic and tired to keep fighting back against Pure Vanilla. Your teeth feel as if they were actively rotting away in your mouth from the acid that just left your mouth, and is currently on the bed next to your head.

“My dove, do you truly hate it this much? Hate me this much?”

You don’t care anymore, you’re too tired to answer him. You can only sob. But you still can’t help but notice the cocky undertone his voice has. Was he enjoying this? But how could he? You were so disgusted by him and his actions that you threw up.

Pure Vanilla’s breath shutters, his hands letting go of your wrists, grabbing forcibly at your jaw, making you kiss him. You don’t fight back, nor do you return the kiss. You just want to disappear.

Delivering a few more rough thrusts, Pure Vanilla lets out a loud moan, slamming his cock into you as deep as he can before cumming inside of you. You can’t struggle, but if you could, you’d rip his cock right off.

“Imagine it… us having a child together. That way you’ll never leave. You’ll have to care for our child.”

Is this the punishment? A child? Your, now impure and broken body, becoming torn apar by a child you don’t want?

You’d rather tear out all your organs.

Pure Vanilla waits for a few more moments before pulling his cock out of you, pulling his pants back up. He unties your legs and puts the stole back on, standing up and going to the door of your room.

Is he finally gonna leave?

“I hope you have learned your lesson, my dove.”

And with that, the soft-spoken cookie leaves.

Please… please someone rescue me.

[drst]

Stock up time, Americans

OK this is not fear mongering, folks, this is for real. If you live in the US, you need to start stocking up on supplies right now, especially anything that is imported from China.

There is a major drop in freight shipping from China happening right now (late April 2025). Even if someone with two brain cells got into a room with Trump today and convinced him to back down on the tariffs against China, it's too late. There are going to be shortages and empty shelves. It's a question of how long they will last now.

It will take a few more weeks to be felt across the US, but as cargo ceases to arrive on the west coast, you have around 3-4 weeks for the effects to fully reach the east coast depending on the items. People are already reporting price hikes just on orders from China due to the tariffs, but this is going to be a void where things we normally expect to be able to buy will no longer be available.

There could also be major ripple effects from this as the trucking industry gets hit with either layoffs or firings. A lot of people could be thrown out of work, on top of the cuts to federal and government-adjacent jobs. This will push the instability in the economy even harder. And who knows what catastrophes could come up next.

So what can you do now, at the end of April 2025? All of this advice should be considered based on your financial situation. Don't put yourself in debt to do any of these things, but maybe look at your budget and your savings and see what you can afford to do right now.

Stock up on medications. As we know from 2020, a lot of components of our medicines are made in China. Buy extra supplies of anything over the counter you rely on. See if you can get bulk refills on prescriptions. I know it's tough with insurance companies but check with the pharmacy and see if you can fill early, or see what the out of pocket cost is for a refill and if you can afford it.

Personal care and hygiene products too - buy extra soap, shampoo, toothpaste, etc. Feminine care products (diapers if you've got little ones).

Electronics. Almost everything we use is made in China or relies on components made in China. If you've been thinking of getting a new phone or your laptop is failing, now is the time before the prices go even higher.

Same deal with cars, although that's a major expense to replace and interest rates on loans are high right now. We assemble cars here in the US but every car manufacturer makes parts overseas. Take your car to a mechanic ASAP, get it checked out, make sure it's in good working order. Replace anything that needs replacing.

Paper products like toilet paper are not imported from China. As I understand it, the shortages in 2020 were due to other factors, buuuuut, let's be real. People are going to see bare shelves and panic. They're going to start hoarding and since we all remember the TP shortages 5 years ago, it would be a good idea to stock up now so you're not fighting the panic buyers.

Tools - weirdly a large percentage of scissors sold in the US are imported from China. Make sure you have a basic set of household tools. This is a list of 15 basics for handling a house. There's also the ready.gov list of what you need for an emergency kit. Also a basic sewing kit is a very good idea to have available.

Food-wise, again, while direct imports from China may not make a huge impact, if people begin to panic, you want to be prepared to deal with other people hoarding. If you have space and your electric bill can handle it, this is a good time to pick up a chest freezer. You can get a small one for under $200. You can buy the value sized bags of frozen stuff you like to eat (particularly important if you have food issues or if you've got kids who love their chicken nuggets). Grab extras of shelf-stable things like cereal, pasta, rice, and canned goods. If this feels paranoid, you don't have to go crazy, but buy at least some extras.

Get cash from your bank just in case. This is good practice in any circumstances, but don't assume your cards or your Apple Pay are going to work in an emergency. Hit the ATM, squirrel at least $100 away at home. Try to get small bills if you can, it's easier to carry some with you and leave the rest at home.

Lastly think through things you use daily, check where they come from, resupply or replace anything coming from China ASAP. Some folks already did this at the end of last year (durable goods purchases were up over 10% above average in December because people were worried about the tariff shit back then), but if you can afford it, get replacements or new supplies right now.

I sincerely hope 6 months from now this looks like panic and overreaction, but a lot of people smarter than me are giving this advice. It feels very much like February of 2020 again, where people watching the news closely could see something really bad on the horizon, but the majority had no idea. Better to be prepared.

[starlingfawn]

kgatlw bearded vulture furry.... reference for artfight

[pukefactory]

Ok screw it i saw a thingy and might as well talk to someone about it I saw a love and deep space thingy about "The darker side of dating {Blank Character here} and that got me thinking "Wth would be the darker sides/down sides to dating BBQ Ena? - 💖🍫🦯

[I'm trying to get outta my comfort zone cuz I always worrying I'm bugging the people I ask stuff too lol cuz Overthinking and Void ik has been asking you stuff so it has made me kinda try to coke out of my own shell and do so. (they are a friend of mine that have asked you stuff in the past and in their own words "Honestly do it! I get scared talking to big bloggers too, but remember they're just people like us behind the screens :3 I'm sure they like getting interactions and asks" so might ask well to push myself a bit)]

Loving Dream BBQ ENA is a surreal commitment—part passion, part puzzle, and part performance art you never rehearsed for. She is not like anyone else; she is a girl stitched together with color blocks, emotional extremes, poetic contradictions, and unspoken griefs. To date her is to date the sky mid-weather-change—blissfully blue, then storming with no warning. One day, she’ll look at you like you’re her entire world, wax poetic about the shape of your eyelashes, kiss your forehead and call you her “quiet little earthquake.” The next, she’s dissociating in your arms, mumbling about paper boats and burnt calendars, unsure where she is or who she’s supposed to be.

She forgets things—not because she doesn’t care, but because her brain runs on a different kind of clock, one that ticks in skips and distortions. Sometimes she forgets dates, sometimes she forgets why she’s upset. Sometimes, she forgets how long you’ve been holding her hand. It hurts, not because she loves you any less, but because loving her means accepting that you will always be part of a dreamscape she’s half-drifting through. You are her anchor, her constant, and yet you will never fully exist in the same emotional plane she’s spiraling in. She needs you to remind her that she’s real.

There is also danger in her. Not malice, but entropy. She talks in riddles, shifts in mood like blinking lights, and sometimes you wonder if she’s unraveling faster than you can gather her threads. Her joy is chaotic and loud, all-consuming. Her sadness is an echo that swallows entire days. And when she’s overwhelmed—when the world presses too hard—she might lash out with words that feel more like sharp polygons than syllables. And then apologize with trembling sincerity and a handmade gift that makes no logical sense but still makes your heart ache.

Dating ENA means laughter so intense it gives you headaches, emotions so raw they strip you bare, and conversations that border on existential riddles. It means grounding her when she forgets where she ends and the world begins. It means offering your patience again and again, even when she spirals. It means living in technicolor chaos. It means watching someone try to be human even when every part of her code says not to be.

It means loving someone who is, at her core, a glitching miracle. And choosing to stay anyway.

(Don’t worry about interacting with me! I’m just an autistic woman who enjoys writing, much like many others—there’s nothing particularly intimidating about me, haha. I’m not a popular blogger, or at least I don’t think I am? Maybe I am, but I genuinely don’t pay attention to that, and neither should you! If you have a question, feel free to ask :3)

[washthatheartoutwithsoapy]

POST-RESCUE

NATALIE

HEADCANONS

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Warnings: Toxic/depressive themes, mentions of drinking, smoking, cocaine - addiction. NSFW under the cut.

A/n: Sorry for the absence, and ik I promised a fic last I was on here, and I have a request in my inbox, both I'm struggling to find the motivation and time for both of them. This just randomly got me with the new mugshot photo, lol. I'll try to get my shit together though and get those things done, I swear.

Masterlist

☆ Thought she couldn't smoke and drink any more than she did precrash? Wrong.

☆ Can't sleep without a cigarette or a joint, can't sleep anyways. On rough days it's coke- started about a year or two after being rescued.

☆ Hardly talks, only when she needs to, or to sass or insult someone- not you, usually.

☆ A terrible sleep schedule, probably works a night shift at a bar or gas station, falls asleep at like 3 or 4am- wakes up at noon, the earliest.

☆ Only washes her makeup off when she takes a shower, even then there's still smudged eyeliner residue. Touches it up when she wakes up, but only if it's worn off or is literally smudged across her face.

☆ A relationship that lacks a relationship. The two of you just can't bring yourselfs to break up, you're all each other has left.

☆ Bailing her out of jail, drink, smoke, sex, smoke, sleep, repeat.

☆ Been arrested for stealing, illegal drug use, assault - only once...

☆ It's a struggle to be vulnerable with each other despite all that you've gone through together, you don't talk much.

☆ When she has nightmares she doesn't want to talk, wants to go outside and smoke, walk, might take you with her sometimes, but its silent. Doesn't want refuses comfort.

☆ When you have nightmares she's not void of comfort, her face doesn't show it, but maybe she's just so used to it, she treats it like a routine. Rubs your back and asks if you want a smoke, "Not real, you know that." Might hold you if she's not high or drunk.

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NSFW

☆ She's the most vulnerable during sex. That's when the kisses, and touches, and sometimes tears, come out. When she gets the most emotional.

☆ She usually takes control, wanting to make you feel good before herself. Making you cum is usually enough for her.

☆ Fingering or fucking you with her strap with her other hand holding you hips still, lips either at your neck, or hovering over yours, every so often pressing against them, pushing her tongue into your mouth, or biting your lip.

☆ Goes down on you with absolute determination.

☆ But sometimes she let's you go down on her or fuck her, and that's when the tears come out.

☆ She typically gentle with you, but she wants it rough when she's receiving. A lot more vocal and aggressive than before the crash.

☆ "Fuck, fuck, fuck-" "Harder," "Yes, yes, yes," As she bruises your arms and pulls your hair all through tears and gritted teeth.

☆ A part of her is aways embarrassed after those sessions, you have to reassure her. Not directly, because she never told you, but you could tell. Kissing her neck and jaw softly, gentle stroke along her body. No talking.

[salty-autistic-writer]

Tommy talks to Maddie. (Spoilers for episode 15, grief)

Evan is asleep. Finally, after hours of shaking and crying, his breaths turned even. He's curled up on his side, the pillow wet from his tears.

After a last checking glance at Evan, Tommy carefully leaves the room and gently closes the door behind him. He can’t sleep yet. His body still caught in a state between agitated disbelief and the urge to do what he can to take care of Evan in his heartbreaking grief.

When Tommy steps into the living room, he sees Maddie sitting on the couch. She nods at him, her face pale and eyes red rimmed from her own tears. While Tommy is here for Evan, she’s here for Chimney.

“How’s Buck?” Maddie asks quietly.

Tommy leans against the table. “He’s sleeping now.”

Maddie nods, sighing softly. “Chimney too. Finally. How are you doing?”

Tommy shrugs. “Right now, I’m feeling pretty numb. I haven’t been able to cry so far, even though my head feels like it might burst any moment. Maybe I won’t be able to stop crying later. I don’t know. I have no idea what will happen. Until now, I only had experience with the death of people I stopped caring about.” He falters, blinking, realising he talked an awful lot instead of answering the question with a short okay or something. “Oh. I’m sorry. I think I just overshared.”

“It’s okay. Everybody grieves differently,” Maddie states quietly, reaching for a pillow and pressing it to her chest. “Thank you,” she adds, looking up at him. “For being here for Buck. And … For helping to save Chimney. I was so scared when … when I saw him. He looked so sick. So pale. So … Close to death. If he hadn’t gotten the antiviral in time …”

She stops, twisting her fingers into the pillow, her eyes staring into the void and filling with new tears.

Tommy knows what she wanted to say. 

If it wasn’t for the antiviral, Howie would have died too.

Tommy swallows. “Howie saved my life,” he says, remembering waking up in a hospital bed, surprised by Howie’s face hovering above him, smiling and holding a sandwich. “He’s my friend. I will always be there if he needs help.”

Or anyone from the 118 really.

“I wish I could have done something to save Bobby,” Tommy admits, his chest clenching. He felt so lost when he was watching it all happen on the monitors. So helpless.

Maddie nods. “I think we all wish that,” she says, wiping at her eyes. “But no one could have helped him. He knew that. It was his choice to die like this. It was his choice to make sure his team, his family, got out of that lab alive. We have to honour it.”

“Yeah. It’s just so hard to imagine a world without Bobby Nash,” Tommy says, remembering the moment when Bobby encouraged him to transfer. I’m sad to see you go, but happy you get to chase your dream , he had said with that honest smile. And then he welcomed Evan to the 118 table. The father I never had , Evan told Tommy once. And now … that piece was torn from the world, yet it’s still turning. It’s surreal.

Maddie gives him a sad smile. “Well, we all somehow have to live in that world now,” she says, getting up and hugging him, which surprises Tommy, but also fills him with a warm glow.

“We should try to get some sleep too,” Maddie tells him. “Tomorrow is going to be tough for everyone."

She slowly leaves the room, running a hand through her hair. Tommy watches after her, his head aching. He can feel pressure behind his eyes. Maybe tomorrow he will be able to finally cry.

(AO3 Link)

[stickyspeckledlight]

Dear Diary… [Yan!Anaxa x GN!Reader]

WC: 1.4k

Note: A lil OOC; I haven’t actually gotten to finish 3.1 yet but after hanging out with @harmonysanreads @naraven @teabutmakeitazure I needed to get this out into the world

Wrote this in one go so might be a few mistakes here and there (don’t smack me anaxa I promise I’m a decent student—)

The Grove quakes. A daunting force descends upon its ground with an earsplitting thud innumerable times, leaving behind cracks cut deeply into the city. In hindsight, the only reason the city didn’t crash into the earth, was because the Titians themselves mended these cracks after they formed—a gift met with jubilation by its residents. Such an annoyance was yet another jab at the Blasphemer’s conscious, but alas, idiots were never something in short supply, even at the Grove. It wasn’t like his steps were causing the Grove to shake, but idiots preferred to spin narratives from salience as opposed to fact.

A door swings open, nearly splintering, and with a few more earthsplitting thuds, everything returns to a peaceful, wise standstill.

The shaking Dromas’ eyes are bulging as it stares down at the disgruntled scholar, frozen mid-chew as it was enjoying its red soil. Though it towers and casts a shadow on him, the Dromas had never felt so small and afraid. Discontent and nigh on belligerence hung in the air like smog, all from a single, aggrieved man.

Anaxagoras’ features are drawn into a frown, puckered lips barely containing fire. Though, his brows, angled and pushed together, are the only indication that there is any fire at all.

His one good eye snaps to the poor Dromas’ face. A sound of fear escapes it, and the red soil drops to the ground with a comparatively delicate thud to the scholar’s thunderous steps.

There is not a single light to be found in that eye. But as a beast, the Dromas instinctively knows just how deceptive that emptiness is. It knows that what it fearfully gazes into is anything but an empty void, and how it wished it was instead. Like cracks in the earth, nothing is apparent at first glance. It stretches too deep into the earth to make anything out of it at all, other than a dark void promising nothing but the abyss. But, as any decent scholar could surmise, that crack signified not a void, but a dark unknown. Unknown was its depth, even, for even the heaviest rock thrown into it could fall and not produce a single sound. Unknown was its contents, the crack too narrow to slip into with ease; and there was little hope of making that crack gape, for if one were to try and widen that crack, then the very earth itself may splinter and split, plunging all life into a gaping maw.

But, known was the core: pure, hot magma, oozing into itself with dulled passion. But, passion, a frivolous thing, could just as easily be reignited and gush unto the surface with renewed vengeance. Even a pebble could be the thing to stoke the flames. Dulled passion was merely just emptied, hungry passion. And the core? Dulled it was, until a pebble dropped; and now, with passion reignited, it would be a severe understatement to call it voracious—in fact, it would be laughable to assume there existed any words at all to describe it. To describe just how much that passion would be willing to consume to fuel its vengeance.

The Dromas, anchored to its spot, had no interest in letting loose the straw that’d break the camel’s back. Lest it writhe as searing magma sunk into its skin, cooling to leave behind a permanent fixture of agony written in misshapened basalt.

The scholar sharply inhales, clenching his jaw into a vice. The towering beast cowers, taking a slow step to back away. Despite a lifetime of domesticity, this man had reminded the Dromas of the instincts its ancestors had honed generations ago. The laws of nature, the rules of survival. And the Dromas knows that now, backed into a corner, that the rules dictate complete submission. It’s the only way to guarantee its survival or a quick death.

However, the Dromas might prefer the latter, if only so that it does not have to live with this memory haunting it for a lifetime.

Anaxagoras bites his lip, and clenches his fist. His chest rises and falls at a rapid pace, like the waves of an approaching tsunami. His teeth grind against each other, like tectonic plates crashing into each other.

As he opens his mouth, the Dromas begins to wish it had never been born at all. Anything is better than having to bear the release of magma, even if it only causes the earth to rumble, because at least then, the Dromas would’ve never had to know the difference between ominous dread and looming doom.

The ground rumbles, as the scholar pushes his aggrieved, pained words from deep within his chest.

“Why don’t they like me?” The earth shudders, sending life into a frenzy, “After all I have done, they still continue to hate me?”

Oh, oh no, the Dromas thinks. Maybe it would’ve been better if Amphoreus itself had never come into being.

“Are they still such a fool that they cannot see how I would get to my knees at the snap of a finger?” The waves slosh against the shore in discontent, “How I’d point my weapon at anyone just to rid them of the incessant vermin who nip and swarm them for even a crumb of their attention?” Blood starts to leak from his lips, “More over, why does such an ignorant, derelict fool cause me such torment? If they are too incompetent to see the lengths I would go, then I should just turn my heel as I do with the rest of them!”

The hisses and growls arising from him are more befitting of creatures from the black tide than any one human; than any Dromas, at that.

“Should I just force them to the wall, and push my barrel to their head?” The earth shakes and starts to rip when a horrific sound comes into being: a laugh, “No, their heart. There can’t be anything to speak of in that vapid mind. It would be a shameful waste of ammunition.”

A bit of dust falls as the Dromas finally runs out of steps to take, its back firmly forced against quaking rock walls.

“Or maybe not,” the man cruelly muses, “It might succeed in getting everything through to that thick skull of theirs. Then they’d understand that it’s best to come along. They clearly need my guidance for all with such lacking mental faculties.”

A smile rests on his face, as a slight bit of magma oozes out of a crack.

“Hm, that is a fine hypothesis,” the Blasphemer chuckles. The earth only rumbles at that, as the core’s passions shift from vengeance to a singular revenge. “Or rather, thesis. There is nothing here to speculate about, only gathering the clear cut pieces so simply organized—as is expected from an idiot.” Somehow, that might’ve been the most terrifying thing the Dromas had ever heard, even if it doesn’t understand what exactly the words mean.

But its instincts are more than enough.

Anaxagoras laughs with the triumph of solution; the most gratuitous feeling of them all for a scholar such as he.

“Thank you for listening to my woes,” he grins, thanking the quivering Dromas as if he were merely a boy venting about his first crush. The soft fondness in his voice now is in sharp contrast to the splitting earth, but there is little respite to be found in it. There was nothing more terrifying than a beast who could hide its claws, after all. “I’ll get you some extra high quality feed; much better than what those stable hands see fit to feed you all…though, mark my words, there will be a day I ensure it will be all you eat one day.”

Madness must be truly etched into his soul, if he does not pay even the slightest mind to the fear coming from the Dromas in waves—in tsunamis, even.

“Have a good rest of your day,” Anaxagoras fondly says, “You and your friends. Unfortunately it may be a bit until I can pay you all a visit, but alas…all scholars must pay some price, one way or another, for their ambition. Farewell, my good sir.”

He easily turns his heel, and hums a simple tune. For most, it’s unimaginable for the scholar to do such a thing, but that is only because they are met with the Blasphemer, and not the true insanity lurking within him. He slips his gun, calmly ensuring its care before he departs and enacts his thesis. It would do no good for him to have faulty equipment.

The doors do not threaten to splinter with a thud this time, but the Dromas finds itself desperately wishing that they did.

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SPIRITUALITY (For beginners)

{ Part .1 }

This will be a REALLY long post with around 10 topics covered because of word limit.....🥲

A NOTE:

First and foremost, everything I have written in this post belongs to years of notes that I have taken down and research I have done till this day and am still doing, so not everything written belongs to me but are mostly writings and studies done by many people all over the world and the credit goes solely to them.

Okay, so...when it comes to spirituality the number of things you get to learn are never ending, like infinite. I made this post to help a user who asked me to help her out with her spiritual journey. She made me realise that there are so many people out there who want to begin their path to spirituality but do not know Where to or how to begin. This post will touch upon many topics under spirituality but this is just the tip of the iceberg. There are so so many things to learn in spirituality that even many lifetimes can't encompass the knowledge we get in the scope of spirituality. It is extremely vast but I want to help those who do not know where to begin, with this post.

I am already working on a PART 2 of this post so stay tuned!

1. SPIRITUAL AWAKENING

What is a spiritual awakening?

Spiritual awakening is often characterized as a shift in an individual's understanding of themselves and the world around them, involving a deeper connection to something beyond the self. A spiritual awakening is really coming back to yourself, and it's an awareness of a new reality, and who you truly are.

You'll feel called to uncover the true meaning and purpose of life, and once you start, there's no real going back. You start questioning reality, the government, consumerism, and people's intentions.

Firstly, If you have been awakened, it is because you've been chosen to awaken. Be grateful, not everyone will be chosen.

Secondly, now that you are becoming spiritually awakened, you are approaching a stage where you want to know your soul purpose. Your awareness is expanding and you are realising the bigger picture. You are beginning to see how every event is connected. Your spirit has started to bloom. A fire within you has started to burn. Your time has arrived.

2 Things to know:

One can have multiple spiritual awakenings in a lifetime. Not just one.

Spiritual awakenings are not easy and full of sunshine. It's like the weather is entirely filled with thunderstorm and you're in a lighthouse in the middle of the ocean that's raging with of heavy tidal waves. (Lol. Close ur eyes and imagine it though.. you'll understand it better.)

VISUAL DEPICTION OF AN ACTUAL SPIRITUAL AWAKENING:

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THE STAGES OF SPIRITUAL AWAKENING:

There are 6 stages in a spiritual awakening, being:

The waking up stage: Questioning daily life. You begin to question everything that happens around you. You begin to question your reason of existence on this Earth. You feel a great sense of dissatisfaction with your way of life and crave answers to all your questions.

Hitting rock bottom: Feeling isolated. You begin feeling alone even in crowds and family members. You begin craving meaningful connections and feel a deep void inside yourself. The second stage is where there's massive collapse of everything you thought was going to last. This stage is the 'Tower moment' stage where you are the most hopeless and lost in the chaos.

Hermit stage: This is the stage you think you've past all the darkness but no. You have not. You will feel a great sense of loneliness and need to find real answers and connections. It's exactly like 'The Hermit' card in Tarot. You will spend a lot of time introspecting on various things. You will look more withing yourself than outward. You will start feeling the need to isolate yourself for answers and will feel less needy to speak to others. It's definitely advised to do healing work and inner work at this time like shadow work. Usually the people in this stage will find shadow work on their own, like it's divine timing. Even I found out about Shadow work in my Hermit stage.

Increase in vibration: All things you are aware you need to let go of, fall away. This stage is difficult for the ego. During this stage The ego's need to feel safe will begin so you must talk to it amd assure that it is safe. You will begin to search for friends in your vibrational level. You can even find friends in your vibration during this stage. Your energy is sensitive to the environment at this time so pay attention to what drains you. You will fall out of friendships, no matter how long they go back, if the vibration of you both are in different levels.

Surrender stage: This is a very tough stage for anyone because now the ego has to surrender to the Universe or the Divine. It is hard as an average human who has been living based off on their ego, their entire life to just let go of it's control now. You will not graduate this stage until you learn to fully surrender to the Universe and let go. You will experience a lot of huge coincidences and Synchronicities during this stage, like repeatedly seeing angel numbers like 1111 and 555,222,7777,999,444, etc.

Presence and Service: Soul in action, Ego is asleep. During this stage you will have the strong urge to help others on their spiritual path. You will work actively to bring spiritual awareness among other people who are new to spirituality. You will share your knowledge and experiences with others who wish to get more into spirituality.

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2. LAWS OF THE UNIVERSE

THERE ARE 12 LAWS OF THE UNIVERSE BEING:

1.. The Law of DIVINE ONENESS -

The first law states that everything is connected to everything else. What we think, say, do, or believe will have a corresponding effect on others, as well as the Universe around us. Everything that exists- both, seen or unseen- is connected to everything. When we become aware of this law and believe that everything is one, the way we think and act with respect to everyone and everything around us changes.

2.. The Law of VIBRATION -

The Law of Vibration states that everything and every being is in a constant state of vibration, always emitting frequencies and energies that often aren’t seen on the surface. Everything is always in constant motion. Some are higher frequencies and some are lower. You are also emitting a vibrational frequency.

This frequency can and often does change, and once you understand that you possess your own vibrational frequency, you realize you have the power to tune your frequency to a higher vibration. The level of your vibration has a profound effect on your daily experience. When you operate at a higher frequency, you invite a greater sense of purpose and fulfillment into your world.

3.. The Law of CORRESPONDENCE -

The Law of Correspondence states that patterns continue to repeat in the universe on both grand and small scales.

Look at recurring patterns in your own life. Do you feel like you continually have bad luck with dating? Have you tried and tried to be successful in a specific area but have gotten less to no results? Do you ever feel like the universe is out to get you?

The patterns we experience are directly correlated to our inner worlds. This means that what you’re experiencing in your outer world is a mirror of your own inner world. You have the power to change your lived experiences in your outer world by changing your inner world.

If your life has felt particularly chaotic recently, consider the ways in which you may be experiencing chaos within. To release the external chaos and invite more peace into your life, seek to cultivate peace inside you first.

4.. The Law of ATTRACTION -

You may have already heard about the Law of Attraction as this is the most well-known of the universal laws. The Law of Attraction states that like attracts like; the vibrations, beliefs, and emotions we put out into the world are what we receive in our lived experiences. If you approach your daily life emitting feelings of joy, love, and positivity, you receive experiences in your life that mirror these emotions.

But if you maintain a negative attitude in which you always consider yourself the victim and claim that nothing ever works out for you, you’ll continue to receive experiences that reflect this belief.

You do not have to force yourself to suppress negative emotions and pretend you’re happy when you’re feeling sad or disappointed or angry. You can feel sad sometimes but still believe in your heart that everything is working out for your highest good. You can have a bad day while also knowing that it will pass. 

5.. The Law of INSPIRED ACTION -

The Law of Inspired Action is connected to the Law of Attraction and is often the overlooked step that cause many to claim that the Law of Attraction doesn’t work. The Law of Inspired Action states that you must take real, actionable, inspired steps in order to achieve your goals and invite your manifestations into your life.

An inspired step is action derived from your inner knowing. It’s when something deep within calls you to take action, even when it doesn’t make sense. Inspired action is based on surrendering to the guidance of the universe and listening to the call of your inner knowing.

It's like trusting your gut feeling when taking a certain decision. Suppose you really want to date that one person who seems very genuine, and you really do not want to be single anymore, but you have this bad feeling or undeniable feeling that's telling you not to date him/her.

6.. The Law of PERPETUAL TRANSMUTATION of ENERGY -

This name of this law is quite confusing.

PERPETUAL means constant, everlasting or without end.

TRANSMUTATION means the act of changing or being changed from one form into another.

The Law of Perpetual Transmutation states that energetically, everything in the universe is constantly fluctuating and changing from one form to another. Most of the time, you don’t see these changes because they’re happening at a cellular level. Your vibrational frequency has the power to affect another’s, and another’s vibrational frequency can affect yours. 

If someone approaches you and begins ranting about their own problems, then that negative energy will affect your energy as well. You don’t see your energy changing, but you can feel it; one moment, you were having a great day, and the next, you feel frustrated and unhappy.

Other than that, when you cheer up that person, you will affect their energy positively. Once you understand this power, you can use it to protect yourself from negative energy and uplift those around you.

7.. The Law of CAUSE and EFFECT -

The Law of Cause and Effect states that all actions have corresponding reactions, or consequences. (The word “consequences” tends to have a negative meaning, but consequences can be positive, too). That's why they say helping others can bring more happiness into our lives, because that positivity comes back into our lives in other ways.

For example, when you donate money to a person or organization in need with a sincere heart, this kindness will come back to you, even though you may not always see it right away. Similarly, if you lie, cheat, or steal, you will eventually feel these effects, even if not immediately. This law is directly tied to the Great Law, the first of the 12 Laws of Karma.

8.. The Law of COMPENSATION -

The Law of Compensation is often tied to the phrase, “You reap what you sow.” This can have both a positive and negative meanings, and the idea is pretty closely tied to the concepts in the Law of Attraction and the Law of Cause and Effect. (What you put out is what you receive.).

What is the difference in this law? Well, compensation can come in many forms, both good and bad. And often, what may appear good on the surface can really be a negative thing, and what can appear negative on the surface can be a positive thing.

For instance, say you’ve been trying to manifest a specific job. If you don’t get the job, you may feel like your manifestation has failed, but what if this job wasn’t as good as it seemed? The universe may be saving you from negative experiences and toxic energy tied to this job. Or maybe you get the job, but you lied and deceived in order to get it. Soon, you realize that the job that you believed would change your life is changing it, but it’s for the worse rather than for the better.

9.. The Law of RELATIVITY -

The Law of Relativity states that everything is neutral. When we label something as good or bad, rich or poor, or enough or not enough, it’s only because our perspective is influenced by our personal experiences and relationships. For example, for one person, an 1,800 square-foot house could be considered huge because they grew up in smaller houses, but for another, 1,800 square feet might be deemed small because they’ve always had twice the space.

The important thing here is to remain mindful of your biases and the labels you put on different experiences. When you’re slipping into a state of feeling like you don’t have enough, you can shift your perspective and view your situation from someone who has less than you. This can help you see that you do, in fact, have plenty, allowing you to feel more gratitude and appreciation in your daily life.

10.. The Law of POLARITY -

The Law of Polarity states that everything has an opposite, and the existence of these opposites is vital in helping us to gain a deeper perspective of our own lives. This law is all about embracing contrast in your life; the bad times help you to appreciate the good. A bad relationship may help you to appreciate a good one (and to know what you’re looking for moving forward). Rainy days help you appreciate the sunny ones, and too much sun can help you appreciate the rain. In order to love your life, you should appreciate the tough experiences that shaped you and led to your growth.

11.. The Law of RHYTHM -

The Law of Rhythm states that everything comes in cycles, and nothing stays in one state forever. This can most easily be seen in the changing of seasons. Summer eventually gives way to fall, which turns into winter, which turns into spring, and eventually, it’s summer again.

Are you experiencing hardships in your life? Those hardships won’t last forever. When you understand that this is just where you are in a cycle, and that this hardship isn’t a permanent state, you’re able to cultivate more calmness and peace within.

It’s also important to pay attention to your own inner rhythm, and to flow with this rhythm instead of against it. For instance, maybe you’re feeling tired and need a break from the stress of daily life. Instead of trying to ignore these feelings, you can choose to accept your own inner rhythm, possibly by taking a social media break and instead spending time in nature.

12. The Law of GENDER -

The Law of Gender states there are two types of energy: masculine and feminine. In order to live a fulfilling, joyful, purpose-driven life, we must achieve a balance between these two energies.

Masculine energy is tied to hustling, achieving, and doing. Feminine energy is tied to surrendering, allowing, and just being. Neither energy is better or worse than the other. When you find a balance between the two, you’re able to live your truest, most authentic life.

Here, it’s also important to listen to your inner rhythm. For instance, if you’ve been in hustle mode for too long, your inner being may tell you it’s time to step back for a while and allow yourself to just be.

3. THE ELEMENTS and their QUALITITES:

The pentagram has represented many diverse meanings over the centuries. Since at least the Renaissance, one of its associations is with the five elements.

Traditionally, there is a hierarchy among the elements ranging from the most spiritual and rarefied to the least spiritual and most material. This hierarchy determines the placement of elements around the pentagram.

Starting with spirit, the highest element, we descend to fire, then follow the lines of the pentagram over to air, across to water, and down to earth, the lowest and most material of the elements. The final line between earth and spirit completes the geometric shape.

Elemental Qualities

Warm or Cold

Each element is either warm or cold, and this corresponds with a male or female gender. This is a strongly dichotomous system, where male qualities are things like light, warmth, and activity, and female qualities are dark, cold, passive, and receptive.

The orientation of the triangle is determined by warmth or coldness, male or female. Male, warm elements point upward, ascending toward the spiritual realm. Female, cold elements point downward, descending into the earth.

Moist or Dry

The second pair of qualities is moistness or dryness. Unlike the warm and cold qualities, moist and dry qualities do not immediately correspond to other concepts.

Opposing Elements

Because each element shares one of its qualities with one other element, that leaves one element completely unrelated.

For example, air is moist like water and warm like fire, but it has nothing in common with earth. These opposing elements are on opposite sides of the diagram.

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The issue of a pentagram being point-up or point-down only gained relevance in the 19th century and has everything to do with the arrangement of elements. A point-up pentagram came to symbolize spirit ruling over the four physical elements, while a point-down pentagram symbolizes spirit being subsumed by matter or descending into matter.

Since then, some have simplified those associations to represent good and evil. This is generally not the position of those who commonly work with point-down pentagrams, and is often not the position of those associating themselves with point-up pentagrams either.

ELEMENTAL CORRESPONDENCES:

The Hermetic Order of the Golden Dawn codified some of these correspondences in the 19th century. Most notable here are the cardinal directions.

The Golden Dawn originated in England, and the directional and elemental correspondences reflect a European perspective. To the south are the warmer climates, and thus are associated with fire. The Atlantic Ocean lies to the west. The north is cold and formidable, a land of the earth but sometimes not a lot else.

Occultists practicing in America or elsewhere sometimes do not find these correspondences to work.

* Daily, Monthly, and Yearly Cycles:

Cycles are important facets of many occult systems. Looking at daily, monthly, and yearly natural cycles, we find periods of growth and dying, of fullness and barrenness.

Fire is the element of fullness and life, and it is closely associated with the sun. Therefore, it's unsurprising that noon and summer would be associated with fire. By that same logic, the full moon should also be in the same category.

Earth is in the opposite direction as fire and therefore corresponds with midnight, winter, and the new moon. While these things might represent barrenness, more often they are representative of potential and transformation; the point where the old gives way to the new; the empty fertility readies to feed new creations.

Air is the element of new beginnings, youth, increase, and creativity. As such, it is associated with spring, the waxing moon, and sunrise. Things are growing warmer and brighter, while plants and animals give birth to a new generation.

Water is the element of emotion and wisdom, particularly the wisdom of age. It represents a time past the peak of livelihood, moving toward the end of the cycle.

Fire

Fire is associated with strength, activity, blood, and life force. It is also seen as highly purifying and protective, consuming impurities and driving back the darkness.

Fire is traditionally seen as the most rarefied and spiritual of the physical elements because of its masculine properties (which were superior to female properties). It also lacks physical existence, produces light, and has a transformative power when it comes in contact with more physical material.

Qualities: Warm, Dry

Gender: Masculine (active)

Elemental: Salamander (Here referring to a mythological lizard creature which could burst into flames)

Golden Dawn Direction: South

Golden Dawn ​Color: Red

Magical Tool: Sword, athame, dagger, sometimes wand

Planets: Sol (Sun), Mars

Zodiac signs: Aries, Leo, Sagittarius

Season: Summer

Time of Day: Noon

Air

Air is the element of intelligence, creativity, and beginnings. Largely intangible and without permanent form, air is an active, masculine element, superior to the more material elements of water and earth.

Qualities: Warm, Moist

Gender: Masculine (active)

Elemental: Sylphs (Invisible beings)

Golden Dawn Direction: East

Golden Dawn Color: Yellow

Magical Tool: Wand, sometimes a sword, dagger, or athame

Planets: Jupiter

Zodiac Signs: Gemini, Libra, Aquarius

Season: Spring

Time of Day: Morning, Sunrise

Water

Water is the element of emotion and the unconscious, as opposed to the conscious intellectualism of air.

Water is one of two elements with a physical existence that can interact with all of the physical senses. Water is still considered less material (and thus superior) to Earth because it possesses more motion and activity than Earth.

Qualities: Cold, Moist

Gender: Feminine (passive)

Elemental: Undines (water-based nymphs)

Golden Dawn Direction: West

Golden Dawn Color: Blue

Magical Tool: Cup

Planets: Moon, Venus

Zodiac Signs: Cancer, Scorpio, Pisces

Season: Fall

Time of Day: Sunset

Earth

Earth is the element of stability, groundedness, fertility, materiality, potential, and stillness. Earth can also be an element of beginnings and endings, or death and rebirth, as life comes from the ground and then decomposes back into the earth after death.

Qualities: Cold, Dry

Gender: Feminine (passive)

Elemental: Gnomes

Golden Dawn Direction: North

Golden Dawn Color: Green

Magical Tool: Pentacle

Planets: Saturn

Zodiac Signs: Taurus, Virgo, Capricorn

Season: Winter

Time of Day: Midnight

Spirit

The element of spirit does not have the same arrangements of correspondences as the physical elements since spirit is not physical. Various systems may associate planets, tools, and so forth with spirit, but such correspondences are far less standardized than those of the other four elements.

The element of spirit goes by several names. The most common are spirit, ether or Aether, and quintessence, which is Latin for "fifth element."

There is also no standard symbol for spirit, although circles are common. Eight-spoked wheels and spirals are also sometimes used to represent spirit.

Spirit is a bridge between the physical and the spiritual. In cosmological models, the spirit is the transitory material between the physical and celestial realms. Within the microcosm, the spirit is the bridge between body and soul.

Golden Dawn Direction: Above, Below, Within

Golden Dawn Color: Violet, Orange, White

4. CHAKRAS IN THE HUMAN BODY

Chakras are the nerve centres seen in our body. The human body actually has 109 nerve centres, but among those, nine centres are important, and even in those nine, seven centres (Chakras) are of primary importance. And when energy (kundalini) or consciousness flows through these nerve centres, there are different emotions, feelings or sensations that one experiences.

There are seven chakras or energy centers in the human body through which our vital energy or prana shakti flows. Sometimes, these energy channels get blocked and this leads to illness and disturbances in the body’s natural processes. It is important to understand what each chakra represents and what we can do to keep this energy flowing freely. This is possible when the chakras are balanced.

Let’s explore the seven chakras in our body, how they affect the body, what imbalance does to our personality and organs, and how to set it right by balancing the chakras with yoga asanas or poses.

(FROM BOTTOM TO TOP) :

Muladhara Chakra (Root Chakra)

Swadishthana Chakra (Sacral Chakra)

Manipura Chakra (Solar Plexus Chakra)

Anahata Chakra (Heart Chakra)

Vishuddhi Chakra (Throat Chakra)

Ajna Chakra (Third-Eye Chakra)

Sahasrara Chakra (Crown Chakra)

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Significance each chakra, location & yoga asanas to Balance (From BOTTOM to TOP):

1. Muladhara Chakra OR Root Chakra

Element: Earth

Color: Red

Mantra: LAM

Location: Base of the spine between the anus and genitals 

How it affects the body: The Muladhara Chakra influences the health of the bones, teeth, nails, anus, prostate, adrenals, kidneys, lower digestive functions, excretory functions, and sexual activity.

Imbalance in the chakra leads to tiredness, poor sleep, lower back pain, sciatica, constipation, depression, immune-related disorders, obesity, and eating disorders.

Poses that balance Muladhara chakra: Grounding-into-feet poses like

o  Tadasana (The Mountain Pose)

o   Parsvakonasana (Extended Side Angle Pose)

o   Veerabhadrasana (Warrior Pose)

o   Hastapadasana (Standing Forward Bend)

o   Setu Bandhasana (Bridge Pose)

Please make sure to see if you can perform these Yoga Asana's beforehand because some Asana's should not be performed if you have certain physical issues like slipped disc, spinal issues, etc or have undergone recent operation so please research the Asana before performing to avoid serious injuries. Also, there are asana's you cannot perform if you have just eaten food, most Yoga Asana's are supposed to be performed on an empty stomach.

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2. Swadishthana Chakra OR Sacral Chakra

Element: Water

Color: Orange

Mantra: VAM

Location: Situated at the base of the pubis between the genitals and the sacral nerve plexus

How it affects the body: The Swadishthana Chakra deals with the individual’s emotional identity, creativity, desire, pleasure and self-gratification, procreation, and personal relationships.

It governs the sexual organs, stomach, upper intestines, liver, gallbladder, kidney, pancreas, adrenal glands, spleen, middle spine, and autoimmune system.

An unbalanced Swadishthana Chakra leads to lower back pain, sciatica, decreased libido, pelvic pain, urinary problems, poor digestion, low resistance to infection and viruses, tiredness, hormonal imbalances, and menstrual problems.

Poses that balance Swadishthana chakra: Hip opening poses like

o   Standing Wide Forward Bend

o   Sitting Wide Forward Bend

o   Bound Angle Pose

Please make sure to see if you can perform these Yoga Asana's beforehand because some Asana's should not be performed if you have certain physical issues like slipped disc, spinal issues, etc or have undergone recent operation so please research the Asana before performing to avoid serious injuries. Also, there are asana's you cannot perform if you have just eaten food, most Yoga Asana's are supposed to be performed on an empty stomach.

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3. Manipura Chakra OR Solar Plexus Chakra

Element: Fire

Color: Yellow

Mantra: RAM

Location: At the level of the umbilicus corresponding to the gastric or solar plexus 

How it affects the body: Manipura Chakra deals with a sense of belonging, mental understanding of emotions, and defines self-esteem in an individual.

It governs the effective functioning of the upper abdomen, gallbladder, liver, middle spine, kidney, adrenals, small intestines, and the stomach.

An unbalanced Manipura Chakra may lead to diabetes, pancreatitis, adrenal imbalances, arthritis, colon diseases, stomach ulcers, intestinal tumors, anorexia/bulimia, or low blood pressure.

Postures that balance Manipura chakra: Heat-building poses like

o   Sun Salutation Pose

o   Veerabhadrasana (Warrior Pose)

o   Backbends like Bow Pose

o  Twists like Sitting Half-spinal Twist

o   Abdominal-strengthening poses like Boat Pose

Please make sure to see if you can perform these Yoga Asana's beforehand because some Asana's should not be performed if you have certain physical issues like slipped disc, spinal issues, etc or have undergone recent operation so please research the Asana before performing to avoid serious injuries. Also, there are asana's you cannot perform if you have just eaten food, most Yoga Asana's are supposed to be performed on an empty stomach.

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4. Anahata Chakra OR Heart Chakra

Element: Air

Colors: Green or pink

Mantra: YAM

Location: On the cardiac plexus in the region of the heart

How it affects the body: Anahata Chakra affects a person’s social identity and influences traits like trust, forgiveness, unconditional love, wisdom, compassion, and issues of the soul.

It deals with the functioning of the heart, rib cage, blood, circulatory system, lungs and diaphragm, thymus gland, breasts, esophagus, shoulders, arms, hands.

An imbalance can cause issues related to the thoracic spine, upper back and shoulder problems, asthma, heart conditions, shallow breathing, and lung diseases.

Postures that balance Anahata chakra: Chest-openers like

o   Ustrasana (Camel Pose)

o   Bhujangasana (Cobra Pose)

o   Matsyasana (Fish pose)

o   Nadi Shodhan Pranayama (Alternate Nostril Breathing)

Please make sure to see if you can perform these Yoga Asana's beforehand because some Asana's should not be performed if you have certain physical issues like slipped disc, spinal issues, etc or have undergone recent operation so please research the Asana before performing to avoid serious injuries. Also, there are asana's you cannot perform if you have just eaten food, most Yoga Asana's are supposed to be performed on an empty stomach.

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5. Vishuddhi Chakra OR Throat Chakra

Element: Sound or Ether

Color: Blue

Mantra: HAM

Location: On the level of the throat, the nerve plexus of the pharynx region

How it affects the body: Vishuddhi Chakra deals with personality traits like communication, creativity, faith, truthfulness, self-awareness, and expression.

It governs the throat, the thyroid, and parathyroid gland, trachea, cervical vertebrae, vocal cords, neck and shoulders, arms, hands, esophagus, mouth, teeth, and gums.

An unbalanced Vishuddhi Chakra causes thyroid dysfunctions, sore throat, stiff neck, mouth ulcers, gum or tooth problems, laryngitis, and hearing problems.

Postures that balance Vishuddhi chakra:

o   Matsyasana (Fish pose)

o   Marjariasana (Cat Stretch)

o   Neck stretches like Balasana and Supported Shoulder Stand

o   Setu Bandhasana (Bridge Pose)

o   Halasana (Plow Pose)

Please make sure to see if you can perform these Yoga Asana's beforehand because some Asana's should not be performed if you have certain physical issues like slipped disc, spinal issues, etc or have undergone recent operation so please research the Asana before performing to avoid serious injuries. Also, there are asana's you cannot perform if you have just eaten food, most Yoga Asana's are supposed to be performed on an empty stomach.

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6. Ajna Chakra OR Thirds Eye Chakra

Element: Light

Colors: Indigo

Mantra: AUM or OM

Location: Between the eyebrows (third eye)

How it affects the body: Ajna Chakra deals with self-awareness, wisdom, intellect, clairvoyance, implementation of ideas, detachment, insight, understanding, and intuitive reasoning.

It governs the functions of the brain, eyes, ears, nose, pituitary gland, pineal glands, and the neurological system. Any imbalance could lead to headaches, nightmares, eyestrain, learning disabilities, panic, depression, blindness, deafness, seizures, or spinal dysfunctions.

Postures that balance Ajna chakra:

o   Shishuasana (Child Pose)

o   Meditation

o   Seated Yoga Mudra

o   Eye exercises like palming the eyes and rotational viewing

Please make sure to see if you can perform these Yoga Asana's beforehand because some Asana's should not be performed if you have certain physical issues like slipped disc, spinal issues, etc or have undergone recent operation so please research the Asana before performing to avoid serious injuries. Also, there are asana's you cannot perform if you have just eaten food, most Yoga Asana's are supposed to be performed on an empty stomach.

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7. Sahasrara Chakra OR Crown Chakra

Element: Conscience

Colors: Violet or White

Mantra: Silence

Location: Crown of the head

How it affects the body: Sahasrara Chakra influences intuitive knowledge, connection to spirituality, integration of mind-body-spirit, and conscious awareness.

It governs the center of the head and midline above the ears, brain, nervous system, and the pineal gland.

An imbalance in the Sahasrara Chakra causes chronic exhaustion and sensitivity to light and sound.

Postures that balance Sahasrara chakra:

o  Balancing poses like Tree Pose that bring awareness to the body

o  Yoga Mudra

Imbalance is a part of life, however, regular  practice of yoga asanas will help you balance your chakras, enabling you to live a fulfilled, contented, and happy life in the pink of health!

Please make sure to see if you can perform these Yoga Asana's beforehand because some Asana's should not be performed if you have certain physical issues like slipped disc, spinal issues, etc or have undergone recent operation so please research the Asana before performing to avoid serious injuries. Also, there are asana's you cannot perform if you have just eaten food, most Yoga Asana's are supposed to be performed on an empty stomach.

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5. MANIFESTATION AND IT'S METHODS

Manifestation is a process in which you use your thoughts and emotions to make something happen in your life.

The truth is what is happening around you, your relationship, your financial situation or your life situation all are the outcomes of your own manifestation.

FEW POWERFUL MANIFESTATION METHODS:

1. Manifestation Journal

A manifestation journal is a notebook where you write down your dreams, goals, and desires.

It is a method that uses the Law of Attraction to attract things into reality by focusing your desires, nurturing positive thoughts and inspiring you to take effective actions.

And, you can also incorporate different manifestation techniques to better help you to manifest anything you want in the way that suits you most. (I personally combine Affirmations and Gratitude Journaling with it.)

Here are the steps to start a manifestation journal.

Know what you really want.

Be clear on what you want to feel.

Writing it in present tense.

Visualize it happening when you write.

Express your Gratitude to the Universe.

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2. The 369 Method

The 369 method is an easy manifestation technique combining manifestation journaling and numerology.

You can simply write your goals, dreams or desires on a piece of paper or your journal 3, 6 and 9 times in the morning, afternoon and before bedtime respectively.

Here are the tips while you are using this method: 

Write down your goal 3 times in the morning right after you wake up.

Write down your goals 6 times in the afternoon in future tense.

Write down your goals 9 times before you go to bed in a way that you have already achieved. Plus, a ‘Thank You’ to the Universe.

The 369 method is especially powerful when trying to manifesting abundance as number 6 and 9 are highly related to it.

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3. Visualization

Visualization is a very well-known technique being used for manifestations and the Law of Attraction.

You can use it and practice it in your mind to imagine something you want to experience as if it is happening.

This technique has been widely used by top athletes, top-performers in sales, business owners, public speakers… and more!

In a nutshell, you visualize yourself to have what you want or to become the person you want to become.

In order to make the most out of your visualization process, here are the 5 steps I personally recommend to follow:

Be clear on exactly what you want

Write down your vision in detail

Feel the good feeling while you are visualizing

Take inspired actions

Withdraw yourself from reality

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4. Vision Board

A vision board is a visual collage of images and words that represent your goals and dreams.

It is very useful especially when you have multiple goals in every aspect of your life where you don’t have the resources or means to achieve them.

Generally a vision board involves collages of cut-out pictures from magazines, words, symbols, quotes, or affirmations that help inspire you to manifest your dreams and keep you on track on your life goals.

Goals & Dreams to Achieve or Things You Want to Acquire

Gather Your Pictures

Make a Collage

Use Affirmation or Inspirational Quotes to Strengthen the Feeling

Put Your Vision Board at Where You Can See Everyday

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5. Manifestation Affirmation

Manifestation Affirmations is a very effective manifestation method we can use to manifest what we want by saying them or writing them down in a journal regularly.

You can draft your own affirmations with what you desire, it can be a very simple yet powerful manifestation method. 

It also helps you to tune your frequency to what you want and raise your vibration at the same time which makes it a very fast manifestation technique.

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6. Manifestation Meditation

Manifestation Meditation is a combine of meditation and visualization to make your manifestation process more effective.

Meditation itself is a very powerful tool to remove negative thoughts, raise your vibration, and put you in a state of allowing.

When you visualize your goals and desires in that meditative state, you can focus and vibrate purely at the frequency of your goals and desires.

You can also utilize tools like hand mudras, manifestation crystals, and manifestation frequencies during your mediation to further empower your vibration.

Here are the steps of a manifestation meditation:

Find a place where you can quiet yourself without disturbance.

Focus on the present moment by breathing softly.

Relax your body.

Visualize yourself having what you want, like it has already happened.

Try to see, hear, smell, touch, and feel what it is like when you already have what you want.

Express your gratitude

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7. Manifestation Symbols

Manifestation symbols are tools that can help you focus your intentions and harness the energy of the universe to manifest your desires into reality.

They are powerful because they are able to bring positive results to multiple aspects of your life.

Love, Health, Financial success, you name it.

When you use these manifestation symbols, you can use them with affirmations, visualization, and other manifestation techniques to amplify their effectiveness:

Lotus Flower: For Abundance, Love, Spiritually

Tree of Life: For Growth, Strength, Interconnectedness

Om: To Connect with the Universe

Pentacle: For Protection & Balance

Hamsa Hand: For Good Fortune, Love & Prosperity

Mandala: For Harmony, Inspiration & Abundance

Yin Yang: For Balance, Harmony & Love

Eye of Horus: For Protection, Spiritual Awakening

Ankh: For Protection, Health & Wellness

Infinity symbol: For Prosperity & Love

Triquetra: For Protection, Balance & Enlightenment

Star of David: For Spiritual Growth & Prosperity

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8. Find a Better Feeling Thought

Sometimes when you have a very strong negative emotion about our goals and dreams, it feels like there is no way you can make it happen.

In this emotional state, almost no manifestation method can be useful. The only thing you can do is to soothe your feelings.

To do this, you can either take a nap or find a better feeling thought.

For most of the methods we mentioned, we put most of our focus on how to think and feel about the goals and dreams that we want.

Better feeling thought is a process to elevate your emotion from a lower level to raise your vibration.

The good thing about this process is that you can turn your negative emotions into positive in just a few minutes!

You can literally go from feeling really depressed to feeling appreciation in 15 minutes when you get the hang of it.

All you need to do is to focus on what you are thinking and how your thought makes you feel at the moment. Then reach to another thought that makes you feel slightly better.

Here’s how:

The first thing you need to know is the emotional guidance scale.

If you look at the emotional guidance scale, you can see that positive emotions have higher vibrational frequencies while negative emotions have lower frequencies.

In general, if you want to move ‘up’ your emotion from a lower level, it is easier to up a level at one time.

For example:

If you are feeling frustrated, it is easier for you to reach pessimism than to reach passion.

It is because it requires less energy from you to jump one level up than to perform a few levels of vibrational quantum jump.

If you are feeling “Frustrated” about your financial situation, and you might think “It’s frustrating that my income can barely pay my bills”

You next better feeling thought could be:

“I probably will have nothing left in my bank account this month.” – Pessimism.

“It doesn’t seem there’s much I can do to get rid of this situation.” – Boredom. 

“At least I can afford most of my expenses” – Contentment.

“I really hope I can make more money.” – Hopefulness.

“I hope I can save more money.” – Hopefulness.

“Maybe I can ask for a raise.” – Optimistic.

“Maybe I can start a side hustle.” – Optimistic.

“I know I can do something.” – Positive Expectation.

“I am going to figure it out.” – Eagerness.

“I love every time I decide to make something happen.” – Passion.

“It just feels so good to have a clear goal.” – Joy.

And you can keep playing this game all day long.

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9. The O Method

The O Method, with the ‘O’ denoting orgasm, is a manifestation technique that leverages sexual energy to draw your desires into your life.

It anchors on the premise that sexual energy is potent and can help you tap into the co-creative power of the Universe.

At the climax of sexual arousal, if you visualize your goals, you can align your desires with the high-frequency energy of the orgasm.

When you are at a higher vibrational frequency, you have lower resistance between you and your desires. And by leveraging this state of high energy, things that you want will manifest faster and easier.

Given the nature of the O Method, it serves as an effective means of manifesting love.

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10. The Whisper Method

The Whisper Method involves visualizing a specific person, setting an intention, and imagining yourself whispering that intention into the person’s ear.

The theory behind the Whisper Method is that this process creates a subconscious connection to a particular vibrational frequency which might potentially influence the person’s thoughts or actions to ‘co-create’ your desired outcome.

However, it is not a means for you to manipulate others or control their behavior. It is all about co-creation.

And thus, when you set your intention, it is best to have an intent to benefit the person who would be involved.

This method works especially well for those who had been struggling to make their dreams come true.

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11. The Pillow Method

The Pillow Method is a simple practice that involves positive affirmation, scripting, visualization and your SLEEP to manifest your desires.

Scientifically, the moment before we almost fall asleep, we generally fall into a state of Alpha brainwave.

When we are in this state, our subconscious mind can be very acceptive to whatever idea we try to input to ourselves.

This method simply takes advantage of this sweet spot so we can manifest what we want.

All you need to do is to write down your desires on a paper, visualize it and put it under your pillow before you drift off to sleep.

6. SPIRITUAL PRACTICES

FOR BEGINNERS (if you are not sure where to begin):

= Affirmations: practice positive self-talk because it makes a huge difference in how our lifestyles function.

= Wear Amulets: Wearing protection amulets like Evil Eyes and crystals to bring certain themes more into your life. EX: Rose Quartz can be worn to bring in more love into one's life.

= Gratitude Journal: Write down all that you are thankful for to the Universe and it will begin to bring you more blessings because Gratitude is greatly appreciated by the Universe.

= Meditation: Meditating can impact your spiritual journey greatly so I greatly recommend you begin practicing this as it will relax you more and you will be more connected to the Universe.

= Divination: You can indulge in divination practices such as Tarot, Palmistry, etc. (will get into that in detail in this post).

= Yoga: Yoga is a great spiritual method to relax one's mind and body and activate their chakras better, although one should take precautions since not all yoga asanas can be performed by everyone.

EX: if one is pregnant, injured, had a recent operation, has physical problems like slipped disc, high BP, low BP, etc, then there are certain yoga asanas that should not be done by them. Also please don't do asana's right after you've eaten, most asanas are to be done on an empty stomach or only after food has been digested.

= Gardening: Gardening is a beautiful way to connect with nature and thus makes you more higher vibrational. It is a great way to relax and increase one's vibration.

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7. WITCHCRAFT

Witchcraft is the use of alleged supernatural powers of magic. A witch is a practitioner of witchcraft. Traditionally, "witchcraft" means the use of magic or supernatural powers to inflict harm or misfortune on others, and this remains the most common and widespread meaning, even though many are unaware that there are two categories to Witchcraft practices: White magic and Black magic.

Belief in witchcraft as malevolent magic is attested from ancient Mesopotamia, and in Europe, belief in witches traces back to classical antiquity. In medieval and early modern Europe, accused witches were usually women who were believed to have secretly used black magic (maleficium) against their own community. 

Witchcraft, traditionally, is the exercise or invocation of supernatural powers to control people or events, practices typically involving sorcery or magic. 

THERE ARE MANY KINDS OF WITCHES...

BUT THERE ARE 5 COMMON TYPES OF WITCHES:

1. COSMIC WITCH

Cosmic Witches practices mainly include Astrology, Zodiac signs, Horoscopes and Celestial energy.

2. DIVINATION WITCH

Divination Witches practices mainly include Tarot reading, I Ching, Palmistry and Tasseography.

3. KITCHEN WITCH

Kitchen Witches practices mainly include Cooking spells, Home routine spells, Homemade offerings, Cleansing, and Protection spells.

4. GREEN WITCH

Green Witches practices mainly include Herbalism, Botany, Folk Magic, and Essential Oils.

5. SEA WITCH

Sea Witches practices mainly include Oceans, Lakes, Seas, Lunar Magic, and Weather magic.

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DIVINATION PRACTICES

Divination has been used by occultists, witches, and priests since the dawn of humanity. It’s not just about predicting the future; it’s also a tool for observing events, places and people from a different perspective and acting upon the received revelations.

Whether through tarot cards, runes, or the stars, we seek to connect with the deeper currents of fate and choice. Here is a comprehensive list of the top 100 divinatory methods:

Astrology: Interpreting celestial bodies’ movements for divination.

Augury: Predicting the future by observing birds.

Cleromancy: Casting lots or dice for divination.

Extispicy: Examining the entrails of sacrificed animals.

Haruspicy: Specifically focusing on the liver for divination.

Omens: Interpreting natural phenomena as signs.

Oracles: Consulting divine intermediaries for guidance.

Palmistry: Reading the lines on a person’s hand.

Runes: Using inscribed stones or pieces of wood.

Scrying: Using reflective surfaces for visionary insights.

I Ching (Yi Jing): Ancient Chinese coin or yarrow stick divination.

Tasseography: Interpreting patterns in tea leaves.

Bibliomancy: Using random book passages for divination.

Pyromancy: Divination by interpreting fire.

Alectryomancy: Using a rooster to select grains.

Omphalomancy: Predicting the number of children by the umbilical cord.

Rhapsodomancy: Divination through random poetic verses.

Belomancy: Divination through the use of arrows.

Ifá: Yoruba divination using objects to create patterns.

Geomancy: Interpreting marks on the ground or patterns in dust.

Hydromancy: Water divination techniques.

Necromancy: Communicating with the dead for divination.

Moleosophy: Interpreting the significance of body moles.

Myomancy: Divination by interpreting the behavior of rats or mice.

Oinomancy: Divination by observing patterns in wine.

Ornithomancy: Divination by the flight patterns of birds, similar to augury.

Phrenology: Analyzing skull shape to predict personality traits and future.

Plastromancy: Turtle shell divination, especially in ancient China.

Psychometry: Gaining insights by touching objects.

Rhabdomancy: Using rods or sticks for divination, including dowsing.

Spatilomancy: Divination by animal droppings.

Stichomancy: Divination by randomly selecting text, similar to bibliomancy.

Theriomancy: Divination through the behavior of wild animals.

Alchemy: Seeking divine truths or predicting the future through chemical experiments.

Astrological Geomancy: Combining astrology and geomancy.

Chiromancy: Detailed palm reading, focusing on line interpretations.

Dactylomancy: Using a ring suspended over a board for divination.

Demonology: Gaining knowledge from demons or spirits.

Dream Interpretation: Analyzing dreams for messages or predictions.

Kau Cim: Chinese fortune telling using bamboo sticks.

Lithomancy: Using stones or gems for divination.

Numerology: The significance of numbers in predicting future events.

Oneiromancy: A form of dream interpretation, prevalent in medieval times.

Tarot Reading: Using tarot cards for insight and predictions.

Urim and Thummim: Priestly divination in ancient Hebrew culture.

Xylomancy: Interpreting fallen wood patterns.

Anthropomancy: Reading human entrails, now obsolete and condemned.

Astragalomancy: Using knucklebones or dice for divination.

Axinomancy: Using an axe head for divination.

Catoptromancy: Mirror divination, a form of scrying.

Ceromancy: Wax divination, interpreting the melted wax in water.

Cromniomancy: Divination using onion sprouts.

Daphnomancy: Burning laurel leaves to listen for crackling as a sign.

Gastromancy: Ancient voice divination, often through trance states.

Ichthyomancy: Using fish entrails or behavior for predictions.

Lampadomancy: Divining by interpreting the sound or pattern of pebbles dropped into a water-filled basin.

Margaritomancy: Divination using pearls.

Metoposcopy: Analyzing the lines and wrinkles on the forehead.

Oculomancy: Divination based on the appearance of the eyes.

Onychomancy: Reflecting sunlight off the fingernails to observe prophetic symbols.

Oomancy: Divination by observing eggs, especially the whites dropped in water.

Papyromancy: Folding paper into shapes, then interpreting the forms and shadows created.

Pedomancy: Reading footsteps or tracking for signs and omens.

Pegomancy: Interpreting the bubbles and sounds made by a spring or fountain.

Phyllorhodomancy: Divination by the sound of rose petals clapped in the hand.

Aura Reading: Interpreting the colors and shapes of a person’s energy field.

Automatic Writing: Writing produced without conscious thought, believed to be spiritual or psychic in origin.

Channeling: Mediums communicate with spirits to convey messages or predict future events.

Crystal Gazing: A form of scrying using a crystal ball.

Energetic Healing: Divining information about a person’s physical or emotional state through their energy.

Feng Shui: Using the layout and design of spaces to affect the energy and fortune of those spaces.

Graphology: Analyzing handwriting to determine character or predict future outcomes.

Horary Astrology: Creating and interpreting a chart for the moment a question is asked.

Iridology: Examining the iris to predict health issues.

Numerology: The study of numbers to determine their mystical or divine significance.

Psychic Surgery: Claimed medical healing that involves the psychic removal of diseased body tissue.

Remote Viewing: Psychically perceiving a distant or unseen target.

Spirit Board: Using a board marked with letters, numbers, and other symbols to communicate with spirits.

Taromancy: A broader term for divination using cards, including tarot.

Technomancy: Using technology as a medium for divination.

Telepathy: Transferring thoughts or feelings between people without the traditional senses.

Thermography: Interpreting patterns in heat or energy as a form of psychic insight.

Astrocartography: Analyzing how planetary positions at the time of birth influence one’s life path across different geographic locations.

Biorythm: Tracking physiological cycles to predict personal effectiveness, compatibility, and the future.

Chakra Reading: Assessing the state of the chakras, or energy centers, for insights into physical and emotional wellbeing.

Digital Divination: Using algorithms and software to interpret random digital output for divinatory purposes.

Face Reading: Analyzing facial features to predict character and destiny.

Gyromancy: Walking in a circle until dizzy, then interpreting the resulting fall or patterns.

Heliomancy: Divination by interpreting the sun’s reflection, particularly its movements and the shapes of the reflected light.

Intuitive Counseling: Offering guidance based on intuitive feelings rather than traditional counseling methods.

Kinetography: Interpreting motion or activity for divinatory insights.

Lucid Dreaming: Controlling dreams to receive messages or solve problems.

Morphic Resonance: Using the concept of collective memory and patterns from the past to predict future patterns.

Numeroscopic Readings: Combining numerology with personal energy readings for a holistic divinatory approach.

Photoreading: Claimed process of absorbing information from written materials at a glance.

Quantum Healing: Using the concepts of quantum mechanics to diagnose and heal, often revealing life paths or destinies.

Radiesthesia: Using pendulums or dowsing rods for divination, including health diagnoses.

Synchronicity Exploration: Interpreting meaningful coincidences for guidance or prediction.

Voice Vibrational Analysis: Analyzing vocal tones and frequencies for psychic insights or to predict future events.

8. SHADOW WORK

Carl Jung, a Swiss psychiatrist and psychoanalyst, brought shadow work into a more public view within Western culture.

Shadow work is exploring the hidden parts of yourself that you may repress or judge. It can help you feel whole, heal trauma, and improve your relationships.

The shadow is the repressed parts of ourselves that we find unpleasant or cannot tolerate acknowledging.

It is in the nature of our shadows that we cannot see them clearly.

Shadow work is the unification of who we consciously are with the parts of ourselves that we repress.

To understand what shadow work is, we must first define the “shadow.” The shadow consists of the aspects of ourselves that contradict our characteristics that we do like and want to be recognized for.

When we recognize our shadow sides coming up, we try to avoid acknowledging those parts at all costs. When we see other people demonstrating our shadow traits, we may have strong negative reactions, because we:

do not want to be associated with those traits and

may resent that other people get to express those sides of themselves, while we don’t

HOW DO YOU DO SHADOW WORK?

First, you should keep in mind that Shadow Work takes time. It requires patience and determination. This is because beginners have to develop more awareness of emotions they might otherwise shrug off. You’re going to have to be intentional about noticing your own reactions since you will be dealing with your strong emotions.

While the specific tools and techniques used in shadow work can vary widely, there is a simple framework for describing the general steps in the process:

Recognizing shadow aspects: First, notice certain repeating behaviors in your life.

Labeling shadow aspects: Once you can recognize those patterns, try to backtrack and identify what's really happening, or what kinds of things bring out these parts of you.

Identifying with the shadow aspects: At this point in the process, try to figure out where/what the behaviors might be coming from.

Owning the shadow aspects: Finally, accept that these things are ongoing patterns in your life, something you are responsible for catching yourself doing and then changing.

For beginners, first, you can begin with listing five positive qualities you believe you possess. Then, you describe the opposite characteristic for each of those five positive qualities. Third, envision how a person who has those opposite characteristics would behave.

Then try to identify some positive aspects of how they might behave and what they might say to you if you met them. Finally, acknowledge the strengths that this person who is “opposite” to you does bring to the table.

Benefits of shadow work can include:

feeling whole or integrated as a person

improved interactions with others

healing generational trauma

learning healthy ways to meet your needs

SOME SHADOW WORK PROMPTS:

FOR BEGINNERS

What aspect of yourself do you often hide from others? Explore the reasons behind this concealment.

Identify a recurring negative thought about yourself. Where did this belief originate, and how does it impact your self-esteem?

Reflect on a recent mistake without judgment. What can you learn from it, and how can you use it as a tool for growth?

Consider a fear you’ve been avoiding. What small step can you take today to face and understand this fear?

Write about a time when you felt overwhelmed. What coping mechanisms did you employ, and how effective were they?

Explore a childhood memory that brings up discomfort. What emotions are attached to it, and how do they influence your present behavior?

Identify a habit that you find challenging to break. What underlying emotions or needs might be fueling this habit?

Reflect on a time when you felt rejected. How has this experience shaped your views on acceptance and belonging?

Write about a situation where you felt jealous or envious. What insecurities or unmet needs does this emotion reveal?

Consider a dream or daydream that stands out to you. What symbols or messages might your subconscious be conveying?

Reflect on a moment of anger. What boundaries were crossed, and how can you communicate your needs assertively in the future?

Identify a limiting belief about yourself that holds you back. Challenge this belief by exploring evidence to the contrary.

Write about a time when you felt misunderstood. How can you improve your communication to avoid similar situations?

Consider a decision you regret. What factors influenced your choice, and what alternative decisions could you make in the future?

Explore your relationship with vulnerability. In what situations do you struggle to be open, and what fears are associated with this?

Reflect on a time when you felt shame. How can you practice self-compassion and release any lingering feelings of shame?

Identify a habit that drains your energy. What healthier alternatives can you explore to replace this energy-draining behavior?

Write about a friendship that ended. What lessons can you learn about boundaries, communication, and personal growth?

Consider a goal you’ve been procrastinating on. What fears or doubts are holding you back, and how can you take a small step forward?

Reflect on a moment when you felt proud of yourself. What strengths and qualities did you exhibit, and how can you nurture them further?

FOR HEALING

What emotions arise when you think about expressing your true feelings to someone close to you?

How do you typically react when faced with criticism, and what underlying insecurities might be contributing to this reaction?

Can you recall a time when you felt betrayed by someone you trusted? How has this experience influenced your ability to trust others?

When do you find it challenging to set boundaries with others, and what fears or beliefs might be hindering your assertiveness?

What childhood memories come up when you reflect on your self-worth and value as an individual?

Explore a recent mistake or failure. What self-talk and internal narratives emerge, and how can you reframe them for growth?

Identify a fear that has been holding you back. What steps can you take to confront and overcome this fear?

How do you cope with feelings of loneliness or isolation? Are there patterns in your behavior that might contribute to these feelings?

Reflect on a time when you felt intense shame. What self-compassionate practices can you implement to release this shame?

Consider a situation where you felt a need to control everything. What underlying fears or insecurities might be driving this need for control?

What judgments or expectations do you hold about yourself that originate from societal or familial influences?

Explore a recurring dream or nightmare. What symbols or themes emerge, and how might they reflect aspects of your subconscious?

Reflect on a moment when you felt deep sadness. What unmet needs or unresolved emotions might be connected to this sadness?

Identify a habit or addiction. What void or emotion might it be masking, and how can you address it at its root?

Consider a past relationship that ended. What lessons can you learn about your own needs, communication, and personal growth?

Explore a decision you made based on external validation rather than your authentic self. How can you align your choices with your true values?

Write about a time when you felt overwhelmed by stress. What self-care practices can you implement to better manage stress in the future?

Reflect on a moment when you felt pride in your achievements. How can you acknowledge and celebrate your successes more often?

Identify a belief about yourself that limits your potential. How can you reframe this belief to empower and support your growth?

Consider a goal or dream you’ve been hesitant to pursue. What steps can you take to address the fears or doubts holding you back?

FOR YOUR INNER CHILD

What activities brought you joy and excitement as a child? How can you incorporate some of these activities into your adult life?

Reflect on a moment from your childhood when you felt neglected or overlooked. How does this influence your need for attention and validation today?

Write a letter to your inner child, expressing love and reassurance. What guidance and comfort would you offer to your younger self?

Explore a childhood memory where you felt a deep sense of belonging and safety. How can you recreate those feelings in your present life?

Identify a time when you felt your creativity was stifled or dismissed as a child. How can you nurture and express your creativity now?

Recall a moment when you faced criticism or judgment as a child. How does this impact your self-esteem and fear of judgment as an adult?

Consider a childhood friendship that left a lasting impact. What qualities from that friendship do you seek in your relationships today?

Reflect on the messages you received about emotions as a child. How do these messages affect your current ability to express and understand your feelings?

Identify a rule or expectation imposed on you during childhood that still influences your behavior. How can you challenge or reevaluate this rule?

Explore a memory where you felt shame or guilt as a child. How can you offer compassion and forgiveness to your younger self?

Consider a time when you had to grow up too quickly. In what ways did this early maturity shape your current approach to responsibilities?

Reflect on the role of play in your childhood. How can you reintegrate playfulness and spontaneity into your adult life?

Write a letter from your inner child expressing their needs, fears, and desires. How can you honor and meet these needs in your present life?

Identify a situation where you felt unconditionally loved as a child. How can you cultivate self-love and acceptance in your adult life?

Explore a memory when you felt abandoned or neglected. How does this impact your fear of abandonment in your current relationships?

Recall a time when you were scolded or punished unfairly. How can you provide comfort and reassurance to your inner child in these moments?

Identify a dream or aspiration you had as a child that was dismissed. How can you revisit and pursue this dream in your current life?

Reflect on the role of authority figures in your childhood. How do these early relationships shape your perceptions of authority today?

Consider a memory where you felt the need to hide your true self. How can you embrace and express your authentic self now?

Explore a moment when you felt unacknowledged or unappreciated as a child. How can you validate and celebrate your achievements as an adult?

FOR DEEP SHADOW WORK

What unconscious patterns or behaviors have you noticed repeating throughout different stages of your life, and what might be their root cause?

Reflect on a significant loss or abandonment in your life. How does this experience impact your ability to form deep connections and trust others?

Explore the concept of death and your feelings toward it. How does your understanding of mortality influence the way you live your life?

Consider the aspects of yourself that you suppress or deny. How can you bring these hidden aspects into the light and integrate them?

Reflect on a time when you faced a major life crisis. How did you cope, and what inner strengths or vulnerabilities were revealed during that period?

Identify a source of existential anxiety or dread in your life. How does it shape your decisions, and what strategies can you employ to address it?

Explore the darker aspects of your own desires and fantasies. What unmet needs or unexplored territories might be hidden in these aspects?

Reflect on your relationship with power. How do you wield power, and in what ways do you feel powerless?

Consider a belief or worldview that challenges your current perspectives. How can you engage with and learn from alternative viewpoints?

Explore the impact of collective traumas or historical events on your psyche. How might these influences shape your worldview and behaviors?

Reflect on a time when you betrayed someone or were betrayed. How has this affected your ability to trust and form deep connections?

Identify a deeply ingrained fear that you’ve never fully confronted. How can you approach this fear with compassion and understanding?

Explore your relationship with time and the concept of aging. How do these factors influence your priorities and decision-making?

Reflect on your dreams and nightmares. What recurring symbols or themes might offer insights into your unconscious mind?

Consider a moment when you felt a profound sense of shame. How can you release this shame and cultivate self-compassion?

Identify a destructive habit or addiction. How does it serve as a coping mechanism, and what underlying issues might it be masking?

Explore your relationship with silence and solitude. What fears or discomfort arise when you are alone with your thoughts?

Reflect on a past life event where you felt a deep sense of powerlessness. How can you reclaim your agency in similar situations?

Consider a cultural or societal expectation that conflicts with your authentic self. How can you navigate this conflict and stay true to your values?

Reflect on the concept of forgiveness, both for yourself and others. What resentments or grudges are you holding onto, and how can you release them for your own healing?

You can maintain a Shadow Work journal if you are new to this. By maintaining a Shadow Work journal, you can keep your work organized and it's best for your journey.

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9. REALITY SHIFTING

WHAT IS REALITY SHIFTING?

Shifting is a way to move your consciousness from your Current Reality (CR) to your Desired Reality (DR).

Your DR can be anything you can imagine, and you will experience it as real as your CR. Shifting is a quantum journey such that your body remains in the physical reality, but your consciousness leaves your physical plane to explore multiple realities of your choice.

SOME THINGS THAT ARE NOT TRUE ABOUT SHIFTING:

It doesn't take months or years to shift unless you subconsciously believe it. You can shift anytime.

You cannot get stuck in your DR, you don't die when you shift either.

They aren't clones. They are you, and a part of your consciousness staying here.

Scripting romantic relationships isn't wrong. All you do is specifying which reality you wanna go to.

Shifting isn't Lucid Dreaming. Yes, there is a method where you have to Lucid Dream but it's 100% REAL!

Shifting is the spontaneous mind using all 5 senses and placing yourself in there, it is not travelling into space!!

SCRIPT TEMPLATE FOR ANY DR:

FIRST NAME:

MIDDLE NAME (optional):

LAST NAME:

AGE:

HEIGHT:

EYE COLOUR:

SEXUAL ORIENTATION:

SAFE WORD:

ZODIAC SIGN:

PERSONALITY:

FRIENDS:

CRUSH OR S/O:

SIGNATURE SCENT:

FAMILY:

ETC:-

SCRIPTING TIPS FOR SHIFTING:

Before you actually start your script, you have to ask yourself some basic questions about your DR.

In your script, you can basically do it how you want. Some examples how you should start are:-

"I am __________" you can also write scenarios you want to happen in your DR.

You don't even have to write a script! I highly recommend it, especially if you are going to be using the Sunni or Raven method.

SOME SHIFTING SCRIPT QUESTIONS:

Where is my DR?

What is it like?

What time does it take place?

Is it based on anything?

Who are you gonna be?

What is your family like?

How many siblings do you have? (if you want any)

THINGS TO ADD TO YOUR SCRIPT THAT MAKE A BIG DIFFERENCE:

You don't get your period.

Your nails are always done and shaped.

You can't get pregnant.

You always smell good.

Debit card has infinite money.

A safe word in case you would like to leave.

You can't get acne or chapped lips.

You are very smart.

You have a fast metabolism.

A good kisser.

Always get good night's rest every night.

You can't get too badly injured or hurt.

If you have a phone or any electronics, it never dies and has unlimited data.

Your closet is endless and all clothes fir perfectly or as you want.

Instead of describing what you look like, just add a picture.

When you and your DR lover have your first kiss a flock of doves will fly over you in a heart formation.

You're always hydrated even if you don't drink.

You're never awkward and always know exactly what to say.

You have a cute addictive laugh that makes other people laugh.

You have naturally good posture.

Little kids look up to you and see you as an icon.

you can't get bored.

You always give great advice.

You have a nice handwriting or an iconic signature.

You are great at entertaining people.

You have really good instincts and can always tell if someone has bad intentions.

You have a brightening aura and your presence is comforting (to people you like).

I have more in my notebook, but it is too much so if you guys want more, let me know..i'll make a separate post for it.

SHIFTING 'DO'S AND DONT'S'

DO:

Meditate

Listen to safe Subliminals

Keep a calm mind

Think positive thoughts

Take breaks and stay rested

Affirm yourself

Visualize everything (especially small details)

Use 5 senses when visualizing (smell, sight, taste, touch, etc.)

Keep trying

DONT:

Think negative thoughts

Be around people with bad energy

Be upset someone shifting before you

Get discouraged

Listen to unsafe Subliminals

Say you "cant" do it

Treat people in your DR badly (they are actual people and have feelings!)

Let your mind run while trying to shift

Don't give up

Don't try to shift every single day and night (it will wear you out)

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DIFFERENT REALITY SHIFTING METHODS:

You can use methods that you are comfortable with or ones that call out to you:

1. The Julia Method

I love the Julia method because it is super easy, powerful, and believable (I might be a bit biased because it’s Julia’s name…).

To prepare to shift to your DR, start with a short meditation session. I recommend listening to binaural or theta beats in your earphones to sharpen your focus as you meditate.

Next, lie on a comfortable bed and spread your limbs like a starfish. Relax your body and close your eyes. You may continue listening to the focus music.

While in this position, start visualizing your DR while saying I am affirmations, for example, “I am living my best life in Bali,” “I am a successful writer traveling the world’’ “I am meeting my fans who love me.”

Continue with the affirmations, and you will find yourself in your desired reality when you open your eyes.

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2. The Estelle Method

If you love music and connect with the world through tones and rhythms, the Estelle method would be the best method to shift realities for beginners.

Choose music that makes you feel sensual and close to someone you know, e.g., a lover, partner, or anyone you really love that you’d like to get close to in your DR.

As you listen to the music on your earphones, imagine dancing with the person. Take in their skin’s scent, looks, and feel, and notice all the emotions.

Soon, a door will open, and you will be led ”home” where you fall into a void. Open your subconscious mind and experience the deep love you crave in your DR.

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3. The Raven Method

The Raven method is one of the easiest reality shifting sleep methods.

With this method, all you need to do is lie in a comfortable bed and relax your body. You can spread out your limbs like a starfish, but this is unnecessary.

With your eyes closed, start counting down from 100, focusing on your breathing and visualizing your DR the entire time.

After some time, you may start seeing red or white as you enter your DR. Stay in the same position and enjoy your new reality for as long as you want.

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4. The Pillow Method

Pillow method shifting entails visualizing your DR and reinforcing it with a written script.

Write everything you want to see, do, feel and experience in your DR. The more detailed the script, the easier it will be to shift.

Place this list under your pillow and sleep on it for 8 hours. I like drifting off to sleep, saying affirmations, and listening to theta tracks.

Your script is a conduit between your CR and DR, helping you shift into a new consciousness.

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5. The Blanket Method

The blanket method involves sleeping comfortably and then completely covering yourself with a blanket.

Close your eyes and listen to your favorite binaural beats. Cuddling underneath the blanket recreates a void into which you will fall after a few minutes.

Obviously, you should avoid this method if you are claustrophobic.

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6. The Lucid Dreaming Method

The lucid dream shifting method is a bit advanced because you must first learn how to lucid dream.

I strongly recommend this technique as it helps you stay in your DR for longer.

In a nutshell, lucid dreaming lets you control your subconscious mind and the visions you see in your dream.

In one of your lucid dreams, find a portal or a door and step into it. The portal will transport you to your desired reality.

In your desired reality, you can manifest anything you direct your subconscious mind to see, feel, and do.

Speaking of portals, understanding your occult angel number is also a powerful way to open portals to a new reality.

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7. The Coraline Method

This method is named after a character in Neil Gaiman’s book and film, Coraline.

Start by lying down and visualizing your CR room. Visualize a key close by and see yourself getting out of bed, picking up the key, and opening a door in the wall behind which is a portal.

Visualize yourself walking through the portal and opening another door to your DR. Walk into this new world and take in the sights.

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8. The Train Method

For the train method, you need to practice the power of positive thinking and accompany this with shifting meditation.

Sit in a comfortable meditative position. Close your eyes and slowly breath in and out to calm your body and mind.

Now, imagine sitting on a train heading to your DR. Say shifting affirmations such as “I am so close to arriving at my desired reality,” “Shifting is real” “I am grateful the universe is driving me to shift.”

Keep your thoughts positive and feel deep gratitude to ensure that you head in the right direction.

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9. The Falling Method

The falling reality shifting method requires a bit of imagination, but it works pretty well.

So, visualize yourself in an empty hall filled with a beautiful, heavenly aura. Locate a door and open it slowly.

Imagine hearing the Universe/God/Source gently calling your name. Fall through the door and trust your Higher Self to guide you.

As you free fall, feel all the feels. Allow the wind to blow through your hair and caress your skin. Feel the peace, joy, and calmness.

You can break your fall whenever you are ready. Then, you will locate a door leading you to your DR. Open it and enjoy everything you have manifested.

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10. The Mirror Method

The mirror method is an excellent reality shifting technique if you want to manifest your dream body. Of course, you should still eat healthily and exercise for your ideal body.

This method is also quite advanced and needs superior visualization skills.

Close your eyes. Imagine yourself in a dark room with a beam of light directed at you as you stare at a small mirror straight ahead.

Slowly walk toward the mirror, watching your reflection in the mirror. The reflection is of the body or person you want to be.

Place your hand on the mirror while your perfect self does the same on the other side. Feel the connection between the CR and perfect self; imagine being pulled through the mirror and into your DR.

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11. The Sunni Method

The Sunni method is one of my favorite sleeping methods for shifting realities because you can also use it to manifest in the physical world, for example, if you want to manifest money and wealth effortlessly.

This technique tricks your mind into believing you already have what you want. So, it starts with visualizing your desired reality, then shifting and reinforcing the process with shifting affirmations.

Let’s say you’ve always wanted to drive a certain car. Lie comfortably, close your eyes, and visualize yourself cruising the streets in your dream car.

Believe that the car, streets, and surrounding environment are real. Then, say shifting affirmations to transport yourself into your DR.

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12. The Alice in Wonderland Method

The Alice in Wonderland story can actually help you to shift to your DR!

Lie down, close your eyes and take deep breaths.

Now imagine yourself sitting with your back against a tree. Visualize someone running up to you, and you get up and start running after them. Following them, you enter a rabbit hole leading to your DR.

Open the rabbit hole doorway to enter your desired reality.

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13. The Hogwarts Method

You will probably resonate with the Hogwarts method if you are a Harry Porter fan.

If you’ve always imagined living at the wizarding school, you can do so through reality shifting methods such as the mirror, raven, or pillow techniques.

The only difference this time is that you would visualize yourself living in Hogwarts.

It helps to say shifting affirmations related to the wizarding school, for example, “I am shifting to Hogwarts,” ”I live in my DR in Hogwarts,” ”I know I shifted to Hogwarts.”

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14. The Intent Method

The intent method is an excellent shifting realities method for beginners.

All you need to do is tell your mind that you intend to shift to your desired reality. Of course, you must know what you want your desired reality to look like.

To supercharge your shift, try the intention method during the full moon. The full moon is the peak of the lunar cycle and marks the height of vibrational energy.

If you are new to the spiritual impact of the lunar cycle, start with moon reading. Understanding the cycle will also help you set more powerful intentions to transport you to your DR.

Try the shifting realities intention method right before you are about to sleep.

Say, “I intend to wake up in my desired reality,’’ then go to sleep. You will wake up in your DR.

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15. The ADHD Method

This method is known as ADHD, but anyone can do it, even if they do not have ADHD.

Find a quiet, comfortable place to lie down. Listen to an 8D track on your earphones to help you focus and relax.

Start counting upward to 100. You can insert shifting affirmations as you count. When you feel the signs and symptoms of shifting, open your eyes and experience your DR.

By the way, many DR signs are similar to the physical signs of spiritual awakening.

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16. The Eleven Method

The Eleven shifting method is based on the TV series Stranger Things.

For this technique, tie a cloth over your eyes and lie on a comfortable surface. Listen to focus music and visualize yourself walking up to your DR self.

Imagine yourself merging with your DR self. Feel the sensation and watch yourself drift to sleep. Then, open your eyes to find yourself in your desired reality.

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17. The Piano Method

The piano shifting method is powerful because it engages all your senses.

Imagine yourself in a room full of people. You walk toward a piano in the middle of the room with a bright light directed at you.

 Visualize the whispers and silences in the room. You stand up and walk toward a door when you are done playing. Open the door and enter a room filled with bright white light.

Then, open your eyes to enter your DR.

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18. The Eye Method

Use eye movement to shift to your desired reality.

Find a quiet room and lie down with your eyes closed. Count upward to 100 while imagining everything you want to see, do, and feel in your DR.

When you get to 100, roll your closed eyes back and forth. Continuing to say the shifting affirmations, slowly open your eyes to step into your desired reality.

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19. The Hug Method

Is there someone with whom you would love to connect? The hug shifting method can help transport you to your DR, where you will meet the person you long for.

Lie down and close your eyes. Imagine yourself in your DR bedroom, and just as you wake up, the person you adore enters the room, and you hug each other.

Visualize spending quality time together and then parting ways with a sweet goodbye. Imagine your DR self returning to bed and drifting to deep sleep.

To return to this DR, say shifting affirmations in your CR and fall asleep. You will wake up in your DR and be with the person you want.

Try stating your intentions when you are sleepy to enter your DR faster.

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20. The Valentino Method

The Valentino method is another great technique for meeting someone special in your desired reality.

Start by writing a note to the person you want to meet in your DR. Meditate on this note for 10-15 minutes, taking in the essence of what you have written.

Next, lie in a comfortable position, close your eyes and recite shifting affirmations. Visualize your DR room, where you will meet your special person.

When you wake up, you will find yourself in your desired reality.

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21. The Cinn Method

The Cinn is one of the best meditation methods for shifting realities through affirmations.

Sit or lie in a comfortable position listening to a subliminal audio track to help you relax and focus. Try to let go of all thoughts bothering you.

Start counting upward to 100, slowly breathing in and out. After every ten numbers, say shifting affirmations related to your DR.

Repeat your affirmations when you count to 100 until you feel the signs of shifting. Then, you can open your eyes to enter your DR.

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22. The Elevator Method

If your current reality is not ideal and things are going too well, you can use the Elevator Method to change your reality.

I also recommend doing a soul reading to understand how your past lives affect your current reality. You can use what resonates to guide you in your present life.

So, get into a comfortable position and close your eyes to get started with the elevator method. Visualize yourself entering an elevator.

As the elevator goes past each floor, envision various realities. Take time on each floor, taking in the sights and savoring the feelings.

Visualize your energy levels rising as you go past each floor.

Exit the elevator when you feel you’ve gone up far enough and you start to experience shifting symptoms. When you step out of the elevator, you will step into your DR.

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23. The 5 Senses Method

If you are new to visualizing, the 5 Senses Method is among the best method to shift realities for beginners.        

Lie or sit comfortably and pay attention to your CR. Engage all your five senses to focus on your surroundings.

Close your eyes and continue holding the image of your CR in your mind. Try again if it doesn’t work the first time.

Practicing to visualize your CR will help you manifest your DR easily.

Turn on a subliminal audio track, lie down and close your eyes. Start counting from 1 upward, saying affirmations in between counting.

Imagine your DR—feel, taste, see, smell, and hear everything you want to manifest, just as you did with your CR. You will be in your DR when you open your eyes.

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24. The In Your Arms Method

As you might have already guessed, this shifting method is quite similar to the hug method.

Lie on your stomach and hug a pillow under your body. The pillow represents the special person you want to meet in your DR.

Close your eyes and picture yourself hugging this special person, convincing yourself that you really are hugging them.

Say shifting affirmations and count down from 100 until you notice the shifting symptoms. When this happens, you will wake up in your DR.

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25. The Melt Method

With this reality shifting melt method, start by sitting or lying in a comfortable position in a quiet room. Close your eyes and picture yourself in your DR.

As you count from 100 downward, picture your body melting into your DR.

Open your eyes and wake up in your new reality.

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26. The Staircase Method

Climb up a staircase to get to your desired reality.

Lie down on your bed with your eyes closed. Picture yourself in a large room with a staircase.

Walk up the stairs thinking about your current reality. Keep walking until you reach the top of the stairs, where you will find a large door.

Open and walk through the door. Behind the door, you will find another staircase taking you down. Descend the stairs until you get to the bottom, where there is a door.

Visualize opening the door and stepping into your desired reality.

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27. Swirly Eye Method

This method involves altering your vision a bit to achieve your desired reality.

Start by lying down on your bed. Close your eyes and relax your muscles.

Now start counting down from 100 as you slowly rub each of your eyes alternately. After a while, you will see a line helping you create a portal.

Imagine going through the portal. You can also use visualization and recite shifting affirmations in between counting to get to your desired reality.

You may need to continue slowly rubbing your eyes until your energy brings you to the portal.

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28. The Rope Method

The rope method entails visualizing a rope that leads to your DR.

Lie in a flat, comfortable bed and close your eyes. Start visualizing your desired reality and then say shifting affirmations to help you move to your DR.

When you start feeling symptoms of shifting, picture yourself climbing up a rope. You will find a portal when you reach the top of the rope. Walk through the portal to get to your DR.

Imagine meeting your DR self and merging with them to become one. Now fall asleep, and you will find yourself in your desired reality when you open your eyes.

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29. The Heartbeat Method

Use a heartbeat sound to shift your reality. Find a heartbeat track on YouTube, then lie in bed while listening to the sound.

Imagine sleeping on the chest of someone special from your DR, listening to their heartbeat.

Recite shifting affirmations as you fall asleep. When you open your eyes, you will enter your desired reality.

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30. The Tea Party Method

The Tea Party Method is one of the best reality shifting methods for beginners. It involves imagining yourself having tea with your DR self.

Lie down and close your eyes. Then, visualize yourself in a room enjoying tea with your DR. When you are done, picture yourself telling you’re DR self that it is time to return home.

Imagine hugging them and saying goodbye. Then, visualize yourself transferring your consciousness to the DR self. When you open your eyes, you will wake up in your DR.

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31. Ballroom Method

Imagine your CR in a formal outfit walking into a ballroom full of people in your DR. Say shifting affirmations to help you transition to your DR.

Picture someone from your DR asking you to dance. After the dance is over at exactly midnight, they tell you ‘’See you soon.”

Leave the room and climb onto a carriage. Visualize the carriage transporting you to your desired reality. Fall asleep, and you will find yourself in your DR when you wake up.

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32. Cloud Method

Picture yourself on a soft, peaceful, soothing cloud in the sky. Imagine your DR self flying next to you, holding your hands, and telling you that you are now going home.

Close your eyes and fall asleep. When you wake up, your CR and DR self will have merged, and you will have arrived at your desired reality.

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33. TV Method

Visualize yourself watching TV to transport yourself to your DR.

Start by lying on a comfortable bed. Imagine sitting on a couch watching TV.

You flip through the channels until you arrive at your DR. Imagine yourself going through the TV to your desired reality.

When you go to sleep, you will wake up in your DR.

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QUESTIONS:

What happens when you shift reality?

When you shift realities, you use the power of imagination to guide your consciousness beyond physical reality. Time doesn’t exist on a linear scale as we know it in our physical reality. Rather, when you shift, your current and desired realities co-exist.

How long can you stay in a shifted reality?

However long you want to stay in your shifted or desired reality is up to you. You can move from your current to your desired reality and vice versa as often as you wish. If you want to stay in your desired reality for a specific period, you can specify this in your script or affirmations.

How does shifting feel like?

You will notice unique signs and symptoms when you are about to shift. Common signs include feeling fuzzy, experiencing a spinning sensation, feeling like you are falling, experiencing weightlessness, seeing flashes of light, and hearing voices from your DR.

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Your current reality is just one of the infinite realities out there. The good news is that you can experience any reality you desire! As you can see, there are many ways to access your DR. There is no one-size-fits-all method. Try different techniques to see which one works best for you.

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10. SUBLIMINALS

Subliminals refer to messages or stimuli that are presented below the threshold of conscious awareness. These stimuli can be visual or auditory and are often designed to influence a person’s behavior or thoughts without their conscious knowledge.

The use of subliminals dates back to the late 19th century, where they were first studied by psychologists. In the 1950s, subliminals gained popularity in advertising and were used to influence consumer behavior. Since then, subliminals have been used in various fields, including self-improvement and personal development.

Subliminals can be used to shape our beliefs and behaviors by targeting our subconscious mind. For example, subliminal messages can be used to promote positive self-talk, improve self-esteem, and reduce anxiety. They can also be used to promote healthy habits, such as quitting smoking or exercising regularly.

Studies have shown that subliminals can have a powerful effect on our behavior, but the effect is not necessarily immediate. Subliminals work by slowly changing our beliefs and attitudes over time, so it is important to use them consistently and over a period of time to see results.

Types of subliminals

There are several types of subliminals that are commonly used, including:

Audio subliminals: These are audio recordings that contain hidden messages that are played at a volume that is too low for the conscious mind to hear, but can be detected by the subconscious mind.

Visual subliminals: These are images or words that are flashed on a screen for a very brief period of time, so that they are not consciously perceived, but can still be detected by the subconscious mind.

Sensory subliminals: These are subliminal messages that are delivered through touch, taste, or smell. For example, a subliminal scent might be added to a room to influence the behavior of those who are present.

UNSAFE SUBLIMINALS:

Mii Audios, RoseSubliminals, Baddie Audio, Velmental Audio, Mad Happy, Mind Power Subliminals.

SAFE SUBLIMINALS:

Soko Subliminals, Miss Syneray, Baejin Cafe, AKVO, Vel, Kapelsu, Vetela, Raemi, Veruna, Cyan Subs, Eggtopia, Kalepsu, Rainy vibes, Solar Subs, Beauty Kryztalized, Luminalplay, Hynodaddy, Mark Reynolds Subliminals, Beau Subliminals, Sapien Medicine, Minds in Unison, KOTTIE, Vetala, Ms.Exilir, Synergy, SF Station, Halo, Moza Morph.

PART 2 coming soon! Have a wonderful day ahead!✨

[lost-in-thoughts03]

Falling for you // Hwang brothers

Previous part:

Summary: Every hazy situation needs to be resolved in order to see the truth and determine what will make you happier.

" I love you, but I don't really show you."

Warnings: Angst, confrontation, confusion, hesitation, heartbreak, self-doubt, anxiety, guilt, grammatical errors

Your feet carried you automatically to your spot—the park near your old school. The place where laughter once echoed between you and Jun-ho, where innocent dreams were shared under the fading sunlight.

But tonight, the air was heavier, charged with something neither of you could avoid anymore.

You spotted Jun-ho sitting on the grass, elbows resting on his knees, hands clasped together.

He looked deep in thought, his jaw clenched like he was wrestling with something inside him.

When he heard your footsteps, he lifted his head, eyes locking onto yours.

For a moment, neither of you spoke. The tension was suffocating.

" You came." He finally said, his voice low, unreadable.

" You asked me to." You replied, crossing your arms.

" What’s this about, Jun-ho?"

He exhaled sharply, shaking his head as if trying to find the right words. " I just...I need to understand something, Y/n."

You swallowed, your heart hammering. " Understand what?"

His gaze flickered, conflicted. " In-ho. You and him. Is it real?"

Your breath hitched. Of all the things you expected him to say, this wasn’t one of them. " Why does it matter?"

His jaw tightened. " Just answer me."

You hesitated. Was it real? In-ho had been nothing but honest about his feelings, but were yours the same? Or was he just filling the void Jun-ho left behind?

" I don’t know." You admitted quietly. " I don’t know what’s real anymore."

Jun-ho’s expression darkened. He ran a hand through his hair, frustration evident in every movement.

" Damn it, Y/n…Why him?"

You snapped. " Maybe because he actually wants me, Jun-ho! Maybe because he doesn’t look at me like I’m just some…some obligation!"

Jun-ho recoiled like you had slapped him.

" You think that’s what you are to me?" His voice was barely above a whisper, but the weight of it crushed you.

You bit your lip, forcing yourself to meet his gaze. " Isn’t it?"

A bitter chuckle escaped him, but there was no humor in it. " God…You really don’t see it, do you?"

" See what?"

" That I love you." He admitted, voice raw, desperate.

" I always have."

Your breath caught in your throat.

" But you pushed me away." You whispered.

" Every time."

" Because I didn’t think I deserved you!" Jun-ho's voice broke, his hands clenched into fists.

" Because every damn time I looked at you, I knew I was already losing you—to someone better. To someone who could give you everything I couldn’t."

You shook your head, tears pricking your eyes. " That’s not fair, Jun-ho. You never even gave me the chance to choose."

Silence stretched between you, thick and unbearable.

Then, he took a step closer. " And if I asked you to choose now?" His voice was softer now, hesitant.

" Would you still pick him?"

You inhaled sharply.

Would you?

Your breath hitched. The weight of Jun-ho’s words wrapped around your chest, squeezing so tight it hurt.

" If I asked you to choose now." He repeated, his voice softer this time, like he was afraid of your answer.

" Would you still pick him?"

You stared at him, your mind spiraling into chaos.

Was this real? Was this happening now, after everything?

Your lips parted, but no words came out.

Jun-ho let out a humorless chuckle, stepping back as he rubbed the back of his neck. " You can’t even answer, huh?"

" It’s not that simple!" You snapped, frustration bubbling to the surface.

" You don’t get to just—just say this now, after pushing me away for years!"

His eyes darkened. " And you don’t get to act like I never had feelings for you, Y/n."

A bitter laugh escaped your lips. " You had a funny way of showing it."

Jun-ho clenched his jaw, looking away like he was trying to keep himself together.

" I thought I was doing the right thing." He muttered, more to himself than to you.

" I thought I was protecting you from—"

" From what?!" You threw your hands in the air, exasperated.

" From yourself? From me? Jun-ho, all I ever wanted was you. Not some perfect version of you, not some hero who decides what’s best for me without even asking."

Silence.

Jun-ho’s lips pressed into a thin line. " And what about In-ho?"

Your stomach twisted.

In-ho. The man who had been there—bold, persistent, unwavering in his feelings for you.

He never ran, never hesitated.

He never made you doubt yourself.

And yet…

" You think he’s just a rebound." You whispered, realization hitting you.

Jun-ho didn’t deny it.

" You think I’m only with him because of you." You continued, voice trembling.

" Because I couldn’t have you."

His silence was deafening.

You shook your head, letting out a broken laugh. " God, Jun-ho. Do you even know how much that hurts? How selfish that makes you?"

His eyes snapped to yours, pained. " I’m not trying to be selfish—"

" But you are!" You clenched your fists, fighting back tears.

" Because now that you’re ready, you expect me to just forget everything and come running back? After everything In-ho has done for me? After he—"

You stopped, sucking in a shaky breath.

" After he actually chose me.” You finished, voice barely above a whisper.

Jun-ho flinched.

Another moment of silence stretched between you, filled with nothing but unspoken words and shattered years.

Then, his voice came, quiet and unsteady. " So…is it him?"

Your throat tightened.

Was it?

You opened your mouth—then shut it.

Was it In-ho?

You thought about his unwavering presence, his relentless pursuit of your heart.

The way he held you without hesitation, how he never let you doubt for even a second how much he wanted you.

Then…you thought about Jun-ho.

The boy who had been your best friend, your safe place.

The one who had unknowingly shaped your heart, only to leave cracks in it when he pushed you away.

The one who was standing in front of you now, asking if it was too late.

" I…"

Your voice failed you.

Jun-ho’s gaze bore into yours, searching, waiting. But your silence was its own answer, and he wasn’t stupid.

His shoulders tensed, his lips pressing together in something that looked like both frustration and heartbreak.

" You can’t say it, can you?" His voice was barely above a whisper.

You looked down.

" I…I just don’t want to make the wrong choice," you admitted, your hands clenching at your sides.

" I don’t want to hurt anyone."

Jun-ho exhaled sharply, running a hand through his hair. " Y/n, you’re already hurting someone by not choosing."

Your stomach twisted.

You knew. God, you knew.

" You think I don’t regret it?" He asked suddenly, voice rough with emotion.

" Pushing you away? Lying to myself? Do you think I don’t hate myself for that?"

You swallowed hard.

" You think I wanted to fall for you?" His laugh was hollow.

" You—who was always looking at me like I hung the damn moon, who made it impossible not to love you back?"

Your breath hitched.

Jun-ho shook his head. " But I was stupid—"

" Yeah, you were." You whispered, throat tightening.

He let out a quiet laugh, pained. " Yeah."

The air between you was suffocating. You felt like you were standing at the edge of something irreversible.

Jun-ho took a deep breath, then— softly, hesitantly—he stepped closer.

" If I ask you again..." He murmured,

" Will you be able to answer me?"

Your pulse pounded in your ears.

Would you?

You wanted to. God, you wanted to. But your heart felt like it was being torn in two.

Jun-ho—your best friend, your first love, the one you had spent years pining over.

The one who had pushed you away, only to realize too late what he had lost.

In-ho—the man who had never once hesitated, who had made his feelings known without fear.

The one who saw you, wanted you, and refused to let you question it.

" Y/n…" Jun-ho's voice was softer now, but no less desperate.

You swallowed hard, staring at the ground. " I don’t know." You admitted, your voice barely above a whisper.

Jun-ho inhaled sharply, and for a moment, there was nothing but silence between you.

Then, he let out a bitter chuckle. " You don’t know." He repeated, nodding slowly as if trying to accept it.

" Right."

You clenched your fists. " Jun-ho, I—"

" It’s fine." He cut you off, though his voice betrayed the truth. It wasn’t fine.

" I get it."

You looked up at him, your chest tightening at the way his jaw clenched, the way his hands curled into fists at his sides.

" You’re still confused." He continued, exhaling sharply.

" And I’m the idiot who showed up too late."

Your heart ached. " That’s not fair."

" Isn’t it?" He shot back, his eyes dark with frustration.

" I had my chance, and I ruined it. In-ho saw what I was too blind to see from the start. And now…I don’t even know if I should be fighting for you anymore."

You flinched at his words, but before you could respond, he stepped back.

" Just…let me know when you do know." He muttered.

" If you ever do."

And with that, he turned and walked away, leaving you standing there—breathless, shaken, and still just as lost as before.

Your chest felt tight, your mind a whirlwind of emotions. You wanted to call out to him, to stop him—to say something.

But what could you even say when you didn't have the answer yourself?

You inhaled shakily and ran a hand through your hair.

" Shit." You whispered under your breath.

The weight of the situation was suffocating. You had spent years yearning for Jun-ho, believing that if he ever turned around and saw you the way you saw him, it would be enough.

But now that it had finally happened, why did it feel like it wasn’t?

And then there was In-ho.

The man who had never made you second-guess his feelings.

The man who didn't hesitate, who didn't run, who chose you without question.

But did you want to be chosen? Or did you want to be the one doing the choosing?

Frustrated, you turned on your heel and walked back inside, your head pounding with the weight of everything.

You needed space.

Time.

A clear head.

And most of all, you needed to figure out what the hell your heart really wanted before you lost them both.

...

The moment you shut the door behind you, you felt the weight of your emotions threatening to suffocate you.

Your hands were trembling, your chest tightening with every breath.

You needed to get out—out of your own head, out of this house filled with memories of both Jun-ho and In-ho.

Without hesitation, you grabbed your phone and texted your best friend.

You: I need to see you. Now.

Seconds later, your phone buzzed.

Ji-hye: Damn, what happened?

You: I don’t know. I just—

You hesitated before finishing the text.

You: I just need to clear my head.

Ji-hye: Meet me at the usual place at 10.

You grabbed your coat and quietly slipped out of the house, careful not to wake anyone.

The night air was crisp, the cool breeze hitting your face as you walked with hurried steps toward the café where you and your friend always met when life became too much.

Your mind was a chaotic mess.

The past, the present, the uncertain future—it all collided in a storm of confusion.

You had loved Jun-ho for so long, but his hesitation, his doubts…they hurt.

In-ho, on the other hand, had never wavered.

He wanted you, and he made it clear.

But love wasn’t just about who wanted you more.

It was about who you wanted.

When you reached the café, Ji-hye was already waiting, leaning against the table with a knowing look.

" Alright." She said, crossing their arms.

" Spill."

You took a deep breath, feeling the words fight their way up your throat.

" I think…I’m stuck between the past and the future." You admitted, your voice barely above a whisper.

" And I don’t know which one to choose."

Your best friend studied you for a moment before sighing.

" Then maybe…" She said,

" You need to stop thinking about them for a second…and start thinking about you."

Their words hit you harder than you expected.

Because for so long, it had always been about Jun-ho. And now, In-ho.

But where did you fit into this?

Maybe it was time to find out.

You sat across from Ji-hye, gripping your cup of coffee like it was the only thing grounding you in reality.

The weight of your emotions pressed heavily against your chest, but you knew this conversation was necessary.

Ji-hye leaned forward, their expression serious. “ Alright, let’s cut the bullshit. You’re here because you’re torn between Jun-ho and In-ho, right?”

You sighed, nodding. “ Yeah.”

She scoffed, shaking her head. “ Girl, let me spell it out for you—Jun-ho has had years to make a move, and what did he do? He pushed you away. But In-ho? He didn’t hesitate for a damn second.”

You bit your lip, staring at the table. “ It’s not that simple…”

Ji-hye rolled their eyes. “ Actually, it is.” She leaned in closer, lowering her voice.

“ Tell me something…if In-ho was just some random guy, would you have let him touch you the way he did?”

Your breath hitched.

Images of In-ho flashed through your mind—the way his hands gripped your waist, the way his lips claimed yours with such hunger, the way your body responded to him without hesitation.

You swallowed hard, unable to answer.

Ji-hye smirked knowingly. “ Exactly. You let him in. You didn’t push him away, not once. You wanted him just as much as he wanted you.”

You shook your head, trying to resist the truth of her words. “ But that doesn’t mean I love him.”

Ji-hye huffed. “ Maybe not yet. But let me ask you something else—when was the last time Jun-ho made you feel the way In-ho does?”

Silence.

Your throat tightened, your heart aching at the realization. Jun-ho has always been your comfort, your safe place.

But In-ho?

He challenged you.

He made you feel alive in ways you never expected.

Ji-hye reached out, squeezing your hand. “ Listen, I get it. Jun-ho was your first love, and that kind of love is hard to let go of. But In-ho? He’s real.”

“ He’s not just some fantasy you’ve been holding onto. He’s here, and he’s fighting for you. And maybe…just maybe…it’s time you start fighting for him, too.”

Your chest tightened as a whirlwind of emotions crashed into you.

Could she be right?

Had you been so blinded by your past with Jun-ho that you never realized you were already stepping into a future with In-ho?

Ji-hye leaned back, crossing her arms. “ Look, I’m not telling you who to love. That’s your choice.”

“ But if you keep holding onto a man who’s never really chosen you, you might just lose the one who actually does.”

Her words hit you like a punch to the gut.

And for the first time, you wondered—maybe you’d been looking at love all wrong.

N/A: Y/n and Jun-ho met when they were 16. In-ho, on the other hand, began to like her when she reached her legal age—around the time Y/n was in her twenties. (I need to clarify this to avoid misunderstandings between the characters)

Y/n and Jun-ho's age right now: 23 (College students)

In-ho's age right now: 30 (I need to lower down his age to make it more accurate)

Tags: @nina357 @astronomicalastro-blog1 @frontwomann @maah-sama @colorwastaken

See you all in part 21! 🙌🏻

[vivalas-vega]

fine line / part seven

a moment we've been waiting for!! chapter eight is still in the works, hopefully I'll have that out in the next few days. please let me know what you think! comments & reblogs make my day, and I read every one (multiple times) giggling and kicking my feet.

fine line / mcu x reader / part six

part one / part two / part three / part four / part five / part six

summary: Three kids from Brooklyn. A war that asks too much. And a woman with secrets stitched into every seam.

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word count: 2.6k

warnings: (not specific to this part, but for the series as a whole. this fic is 18+, you are responsible for your own media consumption). language, angst, drinking, smut, violence, references (and descriptions) of bucky's abuse within hydra, canon-typical situations - this is the mcu y'all, shit will get a little crazy, and a little devastating

part seven: 2012

The Quinjet’s hum faded into nothing as black boots sank into fresh white snow. The mountain didn’t make a sound. The sun hung overhead like a watchful eye, but its light was diffused through pale fog, casting everything in a silver hush. Natasha stepped lightly, her breath curling like smoke as she moved through the trees toward the bunker embedded in the rockface ahead.

She scanned the slope as she descended. No fresh tracks. No guards. No chatter on the comms to intercept. Just an eerie silence that felt too loud.

“Romanoff, you getting anything?” Tony’s voice crackled in her ear.

“Not yet,” she murmured. “Either this place is empty or someone cleaned up real well.”

“Or you’re about to take a lovely hike through a glacier full of human rights violations.”

She didn’t respond, she didn’t need to. The door to the outpost was already visible, hanging slightly ajar, like someone had walked out and never come back. 

Inside, the air was colder. Still.  No machines humming. No overhead lights. Just the cold and the quiet. She moved slowly, methodically, her steps nearly soundless against concrete slick with meltwater.

She passed empty rooms, remnants of file cabinets pried open, computers smashed, terminals charred black. Something had gone wrong—badly—but there were no scorch marks, no bullet holes. No  sign of resistance. Nothing she could really pick up on at all… until the scent hit her. Blood. Not fresh, but not old either, metallic and sharp. She followed it to Sublevel 3, where the walls opened into what had once been a control room.

You were kneeling like a statue, motionless but not unconscious. There was a ribbon wrapped around your ponytail, tied into a neat little bow… it didn’t fit, but Natasha knew better. She knew what it did. Blood soaked through your uniform and your hair. It slicked the floor beneath your knees, but you didn’t even seem to notice. Your hands were folded behind your back and your eyes were open.

Watching.

Waiting.... but for what, Natasha couldn't see.

Natasha raised her weapon on instinct. “Marionette.”

You blinked.

“Do you know that name?”

A pause. You tilted your head slightly, as if trying to recall something you hadn’t used in years. “I… think so,” you said softly. “It was used. Once. Often.” Your voice was unsteady. Not shaken–simply unused.

Natasha stepped closer. Not enough to close the distance, but enough to read the vacancy behind your eyes. It wasn’t apathy, it wasn’t fear. It was a void.

“Who gave you your last order?”

Another pause. Longer. You were still processing.

“There has been… no instruction in an unknown number of days.”

“Then what are you doing here?”

“Waiting.” You glanced to the floor, to the wall, like answers might be hidden in the cracks. “Protocol requires standby until further directive.”

Nataha’s grip tightened around her gun. You weren’t lying, you weren’t even trying to sound human. It was mechanical, like no one had taught you how to improvise.

“You were Hydra.”

A slow blink. “Yes.”

“You did this?” she asked, motioning around you.

“They attempted shut down.” You didn’t look at the bodies, you didn’t seem to register them at all. “Their command phrases were incorrect. Protocol stated any hostile interference be terminated.”

There was a beat. Natasha said nothing, just studied you.

You didn’t seem to understand the silence.

“Handler designation?” you asked. “Do you require identification?”

Her chest ached. “No,” she said. “I’m not here for that.”

You tilted your head again, eyes catching hers like a mirror held at a strange angle. She saw something familiar in you, something that reminded her of her. The quiet between your sentences, the way you braced every time she moved… like you expected pain, and were ready for it.

“What do you want?” she asked.

You blinked slowly again, like each word she spoke was difficult for you to understand when not accompanied by force. “I… don’t know.” 

It wasn’t a deflection. It was honesty.

She lowered her gun. Not all the way, but enough. “There’s no more orders coming,” she said. “You’re done.”

You repeated the word. It sounded foreign in your mouth. Not wrong—just oddly distant. Like trying to speak in a language you used to know.

Natasha watched you carefully. You didn’t move, didn’t argue, but the tension in your shoulders said something was shifting, something small and uncertain, like ice cracking beneath weight.

“I’m not going to hurt you,” she said. “I’m taking you with me.”

“Where?”

“Somewhere safe.”

You stared.

Not at her eyes, not her face, but at her hand. It was outstretched now, open and steady, like a peace offering. Like trust.

You didn’t take it right away.

You stared at her hand like it might vanish. Like this was a trick. Minutes passed before your fingers moved, hesitant, joints stiff from disuse. Her warmth startled you, but you didn’t pull away.

She helped you to your feet and you followed without resistance.

She led you onto the Quinjet where you boarded like someone reporting for duty. The door sealed shut behind you, and Natasha strapped in across from you, watching the way you sat–back ramrod straight, hands clasped loosely in your lap, eyes vacant and unfocused.

“Romanoff,” Tony’s voice came through again. “Target neutralized?”

She looked at you. You hadn’t moved.

“Not exactly,” she said. “She’s coming with me.”

“She’s Hydra. She’s dangerous, a loaded gun with a heartbeat.”

“She doesn’t know who she is,” Natasha replied. “Not yet.”

Tony took a beat before replying, considering all the implications of what Natasha was doing. “You think this is smart?”

“No,” she sighed. “But it’s right.”

The hangar was still as the Quinjet settled, the hydraulic hiss of landing gear muffled by the vast emptiness of concrete and shadow. Steve was already waiting, arms folded tight against his chest like he was bracing for impact. Tony hadn’t told him anything. Just said: ask Nat. That was enough to plant him right at the edge of the ramp, pulse heavy in his throat.

The first one off the jet was Natasha–her gait sharp and purposeful as always–but something about the way she turned back stopped Steve cold. She extended a hand. Waited.

Then you stepped into view.

Steve’s breath caught in his throat. The face that haunted his dreams stepped out of the dark—and it was almost right. Almost. The mouth, the shape of your eyes. But the soul was missing. Hollowed out. He took a step back, instinctively, the air suddenly too thin around him.

You were wearing a hoodie far too big for you–Tony’s, he realized—and pants that must have belonged to Natasha. They hung off you like someone had tried to dress up a battered blade. Wrong. All wrong. But that wasn’t what mattered.

What mattered was you were alive.

He remembered combing through crumbling mission files when he came out of the ice, digging through redacted reports and dead ends. One flimsy folder. One name. Missing in action. Presumed dead. Some part of him hoped you'd moved on after the war. Moved on from him and Bucky. He hoped to find a marriage certificate, maybe even birth certificates of your children. He wanted to track you down, old and gray, sit with you and hear all about the life you'd led.

He carried the weight of knowing that wasn't the ending you got everyday, of knowing he lost you just like he had lost Bucky.

But now you were here.

Natasha approached, slow but certain, and Steve moved to meet her. “Mission didn’t go to plan,” Natasha said, voice even, measured. “Facility was mostly empty. I found her in a control room on Sublevel Three.”

Steve’s eyes didn’t leave her face, but something about her tone made his stomach tighten.

“I couldn’t do it,” she added.

He blinked. “Do what?”

“Neutralize her,” she said simply, as if she were reporting on the weather.

The world lurched sideways, words landing like a gut punch, and Steve took another step back without realizing it. His breath stalled.

He looked past Natasha, to the figure standing just behind her. To you.

You, who’d once made him a suit from scratch when he couldn’t find any that fit with steady fingers and a tired smile. You, who vanished into the war like smoke through cracks. Who lingered in footnotes, a ghost sealed into forgotten files. One of the faces that haunted him every night when he tried to find rest.

His jaw clenched. “You were going to…” His voice trailed off, thin and strained. He couldn’t stomach it, the idea that you’d been right there, so close to coming back to him… only to be eliminated by Natasha. 

Natasha turned toward him slightly, eyebrows drawing together at the look on his face. “SHIELD classified her as an unresponsive Hydra asset. She was kneeling in a puddle of blood, waiting for someone to give her orders.”

Steve’s heart twisted. “And you were going to put her down.”

“I had no reason not to,” she replied calmly. “Until I looked at her.”

He swallowed hard, throat dry. “And?”

“She flinched when I moved, but she didn’t raise a hand to defend herself. She looked at me like I might hurt her.”

Steve’s voice was barely a whisper, “she’s not just anyone.”

Natasha watched him, brow furrowing slightly. “Clearly.”

He nodded once, a shaky breath escaping, and with it your name. “We grew up together. She was–” he stopped himself. “She mattered.”

Something in Natasha’s posture softened, just a fraction. But her voice stayed level. “I didn’t know. You never mentioned her.”

“I couldn’t,” Steve said quietly. “If I said her name, it made it real. That she was gone.”

He didn’t realize he’d moved until he was already walking past her. He stepped forward like a man approaching a grave, not because he feared what he might find—but because some part of him already knew what had been buried even if he wasn’t ready to admit it.

“Are you my new handler?” you asked, the words so hollow they hit him like a blade between ribs.

Natasha hesitated. “This is Steve,” she said carefully. “He’s… a friend.”

“Friend.” You echoed the word like it didn’t belong to you. “I’m not sure I understand.”

Steve stepped closer, slowly, as though approaching a wounded animal. “Button,” he tried, soft and steady.

You flinched, subtly, and something behind your eyes shifted. 

“That name… do you remember it?”

You closed your eyes like you were rifling through a drawer in your mind that had already been emptied. “No,” you said, tone clipped. “Should I?”

Natasha gave him a look, a warning not to push, but he wasn’t sure he could help himself.

“You used to sew,” he said softly. “Fixed a button on Bucky’s coat once, while we listened to a game on the radio. He started calling you that. You hated it, said it made you sound small, but… we never meant it that way. You were the biggest part of both our lives.”

You were so still it was like the air had stopped moving around you.

“Button,” you repeated. “It feels… familiar.”

Steve swallowed hard. “You were a seamstress. A resistance courier. Smuggling intelligence through Europe when you were barely more than a kid, before you moved onto bigger fish...” His voice cracked. “You were brave, and reckless, and always five steps ahead of everyone else. And now…”

He didn’t finish the sentence.

You watched him closely, something flickering behind your eyes—but it wouldn’t catch. “Is this where I receive my next orders?” you asked.

It shattered him.

Natasha laid a gentle hand on his shoulder as his face crumpled, just slightly. “They broke her,” she murmured.

Steve shook his head slowly. He saw something, even if it was barely there. “No,” he said. “They bent her until she forgot who she was. But she’s still in there. Somewhere.”

You were where Natasha had left you–in a quiet conference room, tucked away in the tower–and Steve stood just outside the glass. Watching. Hoping. Dreading.

“I can’t order her around,” he said. “Not after everything.”

“I know,” Natasha said quietly. “But right now, structure is the only thing she understands. If it helps her feel safe, maybe it’s worth it.”

He nodded, but the grief was still there, raw and blooming beneath his skin. “She looked at me like I was no one.”

“She looked at you like you were someone she wanted to remember,” Natasha corrected. “That’s something.”

Steve turned back toward you. You sat rigid in the chair, hands folded in your lap, eyes fixed on the floor like you were waiting for a cue. No emotion. No hesitation.

Just waiting.

The silence was starting to suffocate when the elevator finally dinged.

Tony strolled in like he’d just come back from a press tour, not from tracking down an ex-Hydra kill site. “So,” he said, voice light but laced with curiosity. “Did we figure out if she’s a sleeper cell or just deeply committed to the bloodstained cryptid aesthetic?”

Steve didn’t flinch. Didn’t turn.

Tony followed his line of sight through the conference room glass. “That's her?” he asked, a little quieter now. “The ghost in my hoodie?”

“She hasn’t moved,” Natasha said. “Not since I sat her down. It’s like she’s afraid to do anything without permission.”

Tony took a step closer, peering in with narrowed eyes. “You sure she’s not a mannequin? Because I’ve seen more life in my showroom armor.”

Steve bristled at that, and Tony caught it. “Kidding,” he added quickly. “Sort of.”

He went quiet for a moment, uncharacteristically so, and when he finally spoke again, it was subdued. “So what’s the game plan? We keeping her in glass like a museum piece or…?”

“She’s not going anywhere,” Natasha said firmly.

“She thought I was her handler,” Steve added, his voice thick.

“She asked if I was going to kill her, on the Quinjet,” Natasha said. “Like it would have made sense. Like it would’ve been routine.”

Tony ran a hand through his hair. “Jesus.” He glanced back toward the room. “And we’re sure she’s not gonna snap in the middle of the night and redecorate the walls with our internal organs?”

“She won’t,” Steve said quietly, and Natasha nodded in agreement.

“She’s disoriented, not dangerous. She’s not a threat right now–she’s a survivor who doesn’t know what surviving looks like anymore.”

“She’s one of ours,” Steve breathed out like the words were barbed wire. “Always was... long before the war ever took her.”

Tony let out a long breath. “Alright, so… we take her in. We don’t rush, we give her structure until she learns choice. Orders until she learns freedom. We teach her how to be a person again.”

There was a pause. Then Steve said it aloud, for all of them.

“We help her find her way back.” The words weren’t just hope. They were the promise he’d been waiting almost seventy years to make.

Tony tapped a finger against the glass. You heard the noise but you didn’t react. “Hope you’re ready for the long haul, Rogers. That’s a lot of ice to melt.” And still, Steve watched the glass like it might crack first. Like something might reach back.

“I’m not going anywhere,” Steve said. “And neither is she.”

Natasha looked at you again–still seated, still silent, eyes unfocused and distant… but there was something there now, just beneath the surface. A flicker. A thread.

They just had to pull gently enough not to snap it.

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[thaltro]

Do you have any story drafted up for Nightwatch or anything? The designs look stellar and I’m really interested to see if you have any other lore on them

Way more then drafted I’ve been writing this stupid fucking project for like 2 years now. I’m trying to get it out in the next 4 months since I’m on break but. Yes,, I’m very serious about this stupid story.

I have so much lore, it’s a lot of world building for the omega timeline, magic, monster biology, monster religion, monster hierarchy’s and stratification, the doodlesphere and voids, EVERYTHING I EVEN ESTABLISHED A COURT SYSTEM AUGH!!

But that’s not even what the plot focuses on it just exists in that world. It’s a character focused story. The good thing about nightwatch is It assume someone doesn’t understand the lore of a character so I give the backstory for one even the popular characters like dust, killer, dreamtales, fells etc.

I tried to make a universe that makes sense with all the other aus,,, it’s my interpretation and doesn’t follow some of the cannons of characters but it’s pretentious.

Very pretentious. But I’ll do it!

Oh and it’s a comic/visual novel thing.

Drawings lots of,, drawings

it won’t really matter though because I really doubt it’ll blow up. I just need to get my autism slop into the world

[aiakosaclysm]

Wholesome Hellscape Tour and Applications Announcement

yall want a tour of WHS? Here's the golbmine, the most recent addition on the server. The communal storage area, super smelter, sugar cane farm, and community area shared by Theo, Ink, Elictra, and their friends within the confines of the Safe Zone. It was just recently completed and has more redstone in it than any other build i've made on this server

On the way out of the Safe Zone, I saw this. Rhys' watch-tower. If you look closely, you might be able to see their pack. Thought it looked cool from this angle and felt like including it

after you get out, one of the first places you'll find is Charleston. This was my first base on the server, and it still finds use today. It's also the home of the Lost Woods. With in this maze of trees you can find Theo's tree. Theo's...well, He's Theo.

You can also find the shrubs Old Man, Charles, of whom Charleston is named after. He's the first tree I built on the server, though he's existed in various forms for much longer.

You can also find the Cave, which holds various animals, and our storage area. I've gotten good at these over the years, so this is something I happen to be quite proud of.

You can also see C!Aflac and Cinder's first bedroom here. The two have since moved out of Charleston, however. Currently, the only things that live here are the ghosts in the lost woods and the various plants and animals they protect.

Might be a bit difficult to see in the fog here, but you should be able to get a glance at the aforementioned lost woods. Above it is the mountain Charleston is buried under, though that mountain isn't fully pictured here. You can also see the paper mache dragon that Theo made.

On the way to The Aether, I had to make a pit stop in Prosperity. This once prosperous town is now home only to the poison of the void.

Sometimes I wonder how things could have been, if anything could have been different. If any of this could have been avoided.

After that pit stop, I managed to land in the Aether. I went ahead and grabbed some leftover supplies from Theo's apothecary, but what I needed wasn't here.

I figured I'd check his guest house after. See if what I needed was there. Fun fact about this house, Theo picked it up and moved it from a different town.

Once I got the things I needed from there, i started making my way back, when I saw something in the rain. I wasn't sure what it was for a moment.

It was Elictra's monument! I always forget its so close to the Aether. Unfortunately, it's been a little bit...corrupted. After her brother, Elias, was killed, he was buried here. This seems to have drastically affected it.

Those spikes were all over the place here. I didn't want to stick around too long, though. The Void Sickness is not something I'm very inclined to mess with. Here's another photo of it from afar.

I figured I'd take another pit stop. One of the rarest and the most secret location on the server. Only 3 people know where it is. Welcome to the Melon Bar.

Seems leaving the portal unattended has had some...unexpected consequences. I'm not a fan of the nether, but I don't hate it though.

In case anyone's curious, the servers goodest boy is doing just fine. Barnaby is alive and well.

Finally made it back to the Safe area. Here's Elictra's house. She's the town winemaker now, and has almost every crop in croptopia.

Here's another angle of the house. I just think it looks really nice.

Elictra's kids are funny too. Oak, Aspen, Fern, Spruce, Asparagus, and Artichoke. Theo named em. Sniffy lil guys.

Home sweet home. Theo's Bunker.

Built with efficiency and survivability in mind, each room in his side is outfitted with a crafting table and ender chest

It's a bit cramped, but his workspace has all the essentials. Loom, Smithing table,

Some furnaces, storage, a crafting table and Furnaces. Steve and some sculk. All the essentials.

Theo's always made potions, why stop now? The bed here is Inks, as she doesn't currently have a room. She lives here with Theo's trusty assistant, Frog Named Eris. He's hiding behind the brewing stands because he's a little camera shy.

His study and work area. Nothing much of note here, other than his actual notes.

Theo's bedroom. Two ender chests, for extra utility. I don't have a problem, what are you talking about?

Anyways, that's that. I couldn't show off every build, or even every bit of the builds I showed. Some things gotta be left to discovery. If anyone's curious, the SMP is called Wholesome Hellscape. WHS has been running for 4 years, it was founded by the amazing @inkmeloffical and it's still up and kicking. All builds here were made by its wonderful members. It's a 1.20.1 modded origins server with lore. If anyone's looking for an SMP to join, here's a link to the fan server, Applications open soon! https://discord.gg/F9V4AYJb EDIT: I've been given permission to share the actual application link: https://docs.google.com/forms/d/e/1FAIpQLScwY5RxrYMp2pZlBJ6kA-_MibSkZBbjm_wSRGEDl99XrY2pLg/viewform?usp=sf_link Apps close on the 16th, and if we like your application, we'll start reaching out shortly after that in order to plan for interviews. I highly encourage you to join the fanserver above in order to get more consistent updates about this. Happy Applying and good luck! Builds created by me, ink, @polaris-solaria, @el-slime, @azelphyrr, @endtalesans, and others.

[toxicpositivitybuddie]

so i woke up with this idea in my head of chris as the reincarnation of daniel and kind of just…pulled a poem from brain (i’ve thought poems before but never written them down but this one was dying to get out i am not a poet it is not good but im going to throw it out into the world anyway rough edges and all don’t make fun of me okay?)

Reincarnation

you were born to save a boy.

you fail.

you grow up.

you meet Him.

(He trusts you with his son more than anyone —

You don’t want to let him down)

you’re drawn to them in a way you don’t understand

(maybe you do in some way you’ll never come.

close to realizing)

you help them

you save him from a tsunami

(he saves you from yourself with a simple sentence - you’re gonna be okay kid)

you save them

you watch as they become your family

you watch as he grows up becomes his own person

you watch as he needs you less and less

you were born to save a boy

and so you do

you don’t fail this time

you save him

you save him

you save him

[litnerdwrites]

Yes! Exactly. I love everything you said there.

To add, one of the many ways this fandom, and even SJM herself, discredits the Archeron sisters, and their character potential is by dumbing them down, so to speak.

Feyre is the good one, who we're meant to root for, and should rarely, if ever criticise or question, and if she does do something wrong, it's because she's young.

Elain is the soft, gentle, innocent lamb, who sometimes snaps, mostly at Nesta, but that's fine because she's had enough of her.

Nesta is the mean, horrible bitch. She's an abuser and should be punished by everyone for everything she's ever done, even if others benefited from/asked her to do it.

By assigning these simplistic motives and qualities, they take away from the characters. And again, I think SJM is guilty of this as well.

For Feyre, when she's called out for not considering the political ramifications of her actions, such as destroying the Spring Court, or stealing from Tarquin, either Tarquin and Tamlin (more so Tamlin) are put down, arguing that the Rhys&Co. Know better, and that they were better equipped to handle the situation, and just overall demeaning them and their authority as sovereigns of their own court in order to justify the crimes the Night Court commit.

This argument turns Feyre from a cunning, apathetic, borderline heartless, calculating, young woman dealing with a lot of trauma, who's now found herself in the middle of several very complicated political situations (between Tamlin and Rhys, Hybern and Prythian, and humanity and the Fae) with unprecedented magic, who should be considered a threat to and by her enemies, to an infuriating idiot. A liability who shouldn't be trusted because she's too naive to utilise critical thinking skills and is more likely to derail everything you plan because she didn't look before she leaped. A child at the adult table, trying to understand their conversations, but not having the knowledge, experience or context to do so, if you will.

For Nesta, any good deed she does is overlooked, no matter how painful or difficult it is. No matter how hurt she gets, or what she endures, it's always downplayed and taken for granted. Nesta is relegated to being this abusive, cruel, heartless monster, who shouldn't expect or deserve care for her pain, acknowledgment of her attempts to atone, and praise for her good deeds, whether they work out or not (exhibit a, see aftermath of almost being raped and eaten by a kelpie).

This undermines any actual healing or redemption Nesta may actually go through, as well as any relationship she forms with her sisters. None of it matters because it all feels superficial and forced. Any trauma responses, or moments of weakness and pain that make her a relatable character, or add context and nuance to her thoughts and actions, goes away.

For Elain, she's trapped in the box of being the demure, hyper feminine, doe eyed, child. The way she's talked about and overlooked, when she isn't needed to manipulate Nesta insults her intelligence and autonomy as a fully grown woman. As a result, Elain is left as merely a pawn, and any praise she and Feyre receive for their good relationship or her place in their court is null and void, because she isn't an equal to her sister.

She isn't someone who found happiness with the IC, she didn't have a choice but to try and be happy with them, because even if she did want to go somewhere else, she wouldn't be taken seriously or allowed to do so. The moments of her arguing with Nesta, that people use to praise her and put down Nesta, it's not her venting some arguably valid frustrations, but being unable to word it/ struggling to both acknowledge her own failures and communicate her genuine feelings with her sister as her parroting the words others told her too to manipulate Nesta instead. She isn't a family member, she's a pawn, and a prisoner, but is too naive to realise it. She can never have a genuine conversation with Nesta, because she's being forced to help indoctrinate her.

The way some in this fandom chose to regard and utilise their characters feels very detrimental to them, and a bit like a waste of character potential. As OP pointed out, many indications and examples of a complicated relationship, or character traits that don't fit the aforementioned narratives assigned to each sister, are largely overlooked or outright ignored. There was so much potential that feels like it was thrown out of the window.

All three sisters have so much potential, and I especially love the lovely @hrizantemy 's interpretations of them in her fics, A Place of Silver Silence and What Happened to You. I love the way she makes use of these characters, and dives into different aspects of their characters in each one. I'd also recommend Burn the Path, Thalassa_05, A Court of Exiles by Notquiteright, The Unfordged Hearts series, by limeandorange (on AO3) and The Fire Before the Storm by Sarafey on AO3 for some fun takes on the sisters. These are fics I love because of the way they try to dissect and portray the Archeron sisters as well as the IC.

I believe my mutuals @kataraavatara and @litnerdwrites made a post talking about Elain, and I want to add on.

I don’t like Elain. And I say that with an understanding that she reminds me a lot of myself when I was younger—the way she makes herself small, slips into softness, plays the role of the quiet, gentle one. But that’s not why I dislike her. I think she’s survived by making herself a victim, and that survival strategy gets dressed up as innocence far too often in this fandom.

People always say “Nesta is overprotective,” or “Nesta won’t let Elain make her own choices.” But Elain is a grown woman. She has been for a while. And I’d like to call back this scene in A Court of Silver Flames:

“Like calls to like,” Amren countered. “You were Made by the Cauldron. You may track other objects Made by it as well, as Briallyn can. And because you are Made by it, you are immune to the influence and power of the Trove. You might use them, yes, but they cannot be used upon you.”

A glance to Elain. “Either of you.”

Nesta swallowed. “I can’t.” But to let Elain involve herself, jeopardize her safety—

Amren said, “You tracked the Cauldron—”

“It nearly killed me. It trapped me like a bird in a cage.”

Elain said, “Then I will find it. I might require some time to … reacquaint myself with my powers, but I could start today.”

“Absolutely not,” Nesta spat, fingers curling at her sides. “Absolutely not.”

“Why?” Elain demanded. “Shall I tend to my little garden forever?”

When Nesta flinched, Elain said, “You can’t have it both ways. You cannot resent my decision to lead a small, quiet life while also refusing to let me do anything greater.”

“Then go off on adventures,” Nesta said. “Go drink and fuck strangers. But stay away from the Cauldron.”

Feyre said, “It is Elain’s choice, Nesta.”

Nesta whirled on her, ignoring the warning flicker of primal wrath in Rhys’s stare. “Keep out of this,” she hissed at her youngest sister. “I have no doubt you put these thoughts in her head, probably encouraging her to throw herself into harm’s way—”

Elain cut in sharply, “I am not a child to be fought over.”

Nesta’s pulse pounded throughout her body. “Do you not remember the war? What we encountered? Do you not remember the Cauldron kidnapping you, bringing you into the heart of Hybern’s camp?”

“I do,” Elain said coldly. “And I remember Feyre rescuing me.”

Roaring erupted in Nesta’s head. For a heartbeat, it appeared that Elain might say something to soften the words. But Nesta cut her off, seething at the pity about to be thrown her way.

“Look who decided to grow claws after all,” she crooned. “Maybe you’ll become interesting at last, Elain.”

Nesta saw the blow land, like a physical impact, in Elain’s face, her posture. No one spoke, though shadows gathered in the corners of the room, like snakes preparing to strike. Elain’s eyes brightened with pain.

Something imploded in Nesta’s chest at that expression. She opened her mouth, as if it could somehow be undone. But Elain said, “I went into the Cauldron, too, you know. And it captured me. And yet somehow all you think of is what my trauma did to you.”

Do I think Nesta is being overprotective in this scene? Absolutely. But she’s not telling Elain she has to stay pliable, docile, or under her wing. In fact, she’s telling her do whatever you want—have a life, make choices, be wild if you want—but don’t put yourself danger.

That line—“you only think of what my trauma did to you”—hits hard in the moment, but it’s not entirely fair. I don’t think Nesta is sitting around thinking about how Elain’s trauma affected her. No—Nesta is thinking about what she did that might have caused Elain’s trauma in the first place. Like when she agreed to scry for the Cauldron during the war, which directly led to Elain being kidnapped by Hybern. That guilt haunts her. It’s not selfishness—it’s responsibility, it’s shame, it’s regret. And that’s a huge difference from what Elain is accusing her of.

Is it healthy? No, absolutely not. But think about it like this—throughout her entire life, Nesta has consistently been shielding Elain from things. From their cruel, abusive grandmother. From the brutal reality of the cabin and the poverty they endured. From the harshness of the world, from faeries, from war. Nesta’s role has always been protector, even when she didn’t know how to do it in a way that was kind or constructive.

So when she tries to stop Elain from engaging with the Cauldron or the Trove, it’s not about control—it’s about falling back into that same instinct: protect Elain at all costs. It’s not healthy, no. But it’s deeply human, and it’s rooted in a lifetime of seeing herself as the only barrier between Elain and the ugliness of the world.

And Elain isn’t innocent in this dynamic—because she let Nesta take on that role. Time and time again, she allowed Nesta to be the shield, the angry one, the wall between her and the worst of the world. She leaned into that softness because she knew someone else would do the hard, ugly protecting for her.

That doesn’t make Elain evil, but it does mean she benefited.

In A Court of Frost and Starlight, we get this moment:

“Nesta is still a part of this family.”

“Is she?” Elain sawed deep into the next loaf. “She certainly doesn’t act like it.”

Elain doesn’t say that with concern. She doesn’t ask why Nesta’s withdrawn or what pain she might be in. She doesn’t express fear for her sister. She frames Nesta’s pain as rejection of them, and then immediately distances herself in return. That’s not support. That’s emotional retaliation.

And then in A Court of Silver Flames, we get this:

“She’s not getting any better. She’s not even trying.”

She wrapped her arms around herself and stared toward the distant sea.

Again, Elain doesn’t ask how she can help. She doesn’t express sorrow, or frustration rooted in love. She just makes a judgment. She assumes Nesta isn’t trying, when in reality Nesta is drowning. That’s not care—it’s condemnation, veiled in softness.

In both of these moments, Elain puts her own pain first. It’s “I feel hurt because she’s distant” rather than “she’s hurting, and that distance might be a symptom.” It’s “she’s not trying” instead of “she might not know how to try right now.”

And this is why Elain’s line in ACOSF—“you only think of what my trauma did to you”—rings hollow. Because Elain consistently thinks of what Nesta’s trauma is doing to her, and not what Nesta is actually going through.

So instead of “you only think of what my trauma did to you,” a more accurate statement would be:

“You carry guilt for the ways you think you failed me.”

Because that’s what it is. Nesta isn’t consumed by what Elain’s trauma did to her—she’s consumed by what she did, or didn’t do, that might’ve caused it. It’s guilt, not selfishness. And that distinction changes everything about how you read that scene.

And Feyre’s little line—“It is Elain’s choice, Nesta”—honestly doesn’t mean anything in the grand scheme of that scene. Because at the end of the day, Nesta still ends up doing it. Nesta is the one who gets pushed into tracking the Trove, not Elain. So Feyre’s attempt at standing up for Elain’s autonomy is performative at best.

If Feyre truly believed in respecting choices and protecting the people involved, she could’ve said something like, “You might not like this, Nesta, but Elain is going to do it—because you’re still recovering. You’re in a vulnerable place, and we’re not going to put you in danger.”

But that doesn’t happen. Because despite Feyre’s talk about choice, it’s Nesta who’s still expected to sacrifice, to endure, to suffer—even while in what is essentially rehab and battling untreated PTSD from war, death, and trauma.

And this line right here—“Elain doesn’t go near him,” Feyre said. “And you won’t let me near him?”—only cements my point.

Yes, on the surface it’s about who’s going to dance with Eris, but it reveals something deeper: Feyre will not put Elain in danger. She refuses to let Elain step into even a politically uncomfortable situation, let alone one involving risk.

That moment with Eris shows exactly what Feyre is willing to shield Elain from. It makes her earlier line—“It is Elain’s choice”—feel hollow. Because Feyre is quick to step in and say, not her.

Whether she agreed or not, Nesta was always going to be the one to look for the Trove.