#i just need to balance out The Timeline. so that everything falls into place as it should. for BOTH of them

[moe-broey]

What's this?!?!

A SECOND SUMMONER WITH A STEEL CHAIR?!?!??!??

BEHOLD. Summoner VickyT, Legendary Accountant, Avid Collector of Manga (unfortunately sparse to non-existent in Askr), and older sister of Moe!!!

When my sister @vickyt-mv / @sotiredmostnights made her design, I was EAGER. EAGER. To figure out how I'd draw her! And parse out the dynamic between her and Moe!!

Something really fun was getting them to look like siblings, when they look quite different! It's all in the face, I think! And... adding a little something, a personal touch... VickyT's halo cowlick ties into Moe's horns!

I also. Attempted Heel Math. The dreaded heel math.

But to be so real I may just go off of vibes. Just know that there are supposedly canon heights, here. These doodles are also to compare their outfits! Esp in how they match... Because. Well.

Universal constant, so it seems.....

That's all for now!!!!! I do have..... Lore...... extensive Lore......... but don't you worry about that. Yet.

[ladykailitha]

Steve's Rewind

Just an idea I had stewing in my brain, buckle up this is going to get angsty as fuck. Thanks to my discord for helping me with some of the fiddlier details.

Here we go.

The Harrington family were once a clan a powerful magic users, though their bloodline is diluted now they barely have the smallest spark of it left in their blood. It allows them to use the device left to them by their ancestor. Althenea’s Life Spool, or the Spool most of the time.

It allows the user to go back and do over one event at the cost of one year of their life. In addition they remember the previous timeline. It is handed to the eldest child on their 16th birthday.

Usually only members of the Harrington clan remember previous timelines, but when Steve meets El, he finds out that the experiments done to her and the other children make it so she can see the previous timelines, too.

She commends him for the two times he’s used it so far.

The first time was on Nov. 12th, 1983. The night he went to Jonathan’s to apologize about the camera. The first time, he ran. Their screams ringing in his ears as he flees. Only now all the Byers family is dead, along with Nancy and the Mind Flayer breaks through to the surface world, screaming like a banshee.

He doesn’t know what will happen if he runs back into that house, but he knows at least he’ll have tried.

And while it doesn’t work out perfect, he’s pretty satisfied with the results.

On Oct. 31st, 1984 he thinks about using it again, but doesn’t. He doesn’t know what event started the relationship with Nancy to go south. So he leaves it be and silently deals with the broken heart.

On July 5th, 1985. Steve learns that El can see the previous timelines too and asks him to rewind so Hopper lives. Steve tells her about the cost and she turns pale. He asks her if she still wants that and she shakes her head. No. That would not be fair.

Then on Mar. 29th, 1986, she comes to him again. This time it’s all of Hawkins that swings in the balance and he agrees. He was just waiting for her to return so that they could plan out what needed to be changed.

So they hatch out a plan: Give everyone an extra twenty minutes to get into place. Towels in the vents of the trailer. Time for Hopper et al to kill the demogorgon, time for Jason and his cronies to find the Creel House, come up empty and leave, time for El to get into a better place to protect Max. Steve stocks up on flares and torches to bring as much heat as possible to the Vecna fight.

They win, Eddie and Max escape unharmed, Vecna and Upside Down falls. Everything is good for awhile.

Eddie and Steve start dating and they’re really happy. Until Steve arrives to their favorite gay bar a little late because of work and finds Eddie in a corner with another guy and just leaves.

When Eddie stumbles home that night Steve tears into him and threatens to break up with him.

Only Eddie starts crying.

Like full on sobs and the truth comes out, that guy had roofied Eddie and was assaulting him.

Now Steve is devastated and cleans Eddie up, putting him to bed. Then he calls El. Tells her he’s going to rewind the events of that night. And at first she argues against using the device for something so trivial especially one that didn’t end in someone’s death. If he wouldn’t do it for Hopper, what’s so different about this moment.

He reminds her that Hopper is alive, that his being in the Russian prison camp is part of the reason they were able to defeat Vecna and she concedes. Asks again why this is worth a year of his life and he explains that it’s not about his relationship with Eddie. They talked and Eddie already forgave him and said that he would have done the same thing. It might take a bit, but they’ll be fine.

No, the reason Steve wants to do this is because Eddie has suffered so much. Because none of the other Party members got introduced to this shit by watching a nice girl who had done nothing wrong, twisted and torn apart before their eyes.

That the witch hunt and getting off the murder charges had put a dent in Eddie’s confidence. This would destroy it entirely.

This is about a person who deserves a boyfriend who would give up everything for him to show him how loved he is, even at the cost of one year of his life.

El eventually agrees.

Steve goes to the back of the closet and pulls it out. But Eddie finds him, tells him he overheard him talking to El and he won’t let Steve do that. He’s not worth a year of his life.

Steve kisses him gently and explains what it is and what it’s done. Sometimes things work out for the better, sometimes they don’t. But always, always, always the change is worth it to the user. It’s why after nearly five hundred years the Spool has not been used up, because the string is finite, it will run out one day. But each person that has been gifted it knows the change is always worth it.

Once his father rewound cheating on his mother. The demogorgon that killed Barb, killed her instead and the world ended. He hated having to go back rewind that moment, but he knew the consequences of that moment needed an empty house that day.

Eddie sighs in relief. The moment can be rewound. So he puts his trust in Steve. That his boyfriend whose family has had this device for literal centuries knows the cost better than anyone, understands what hes’ doing.

Steve rewinds the moment and they are stronger together for it.

Steve will use it only use it one more time, when the birth of their daughter kills Robin who was their surrogate. They wait a year and everything turns out fine the second time.

Then on Julie Barbara Munson’s 16th birthday, her papa gives her his most precious item. A small spool of red thread.

[manytoonepoet13]

What is a rose truly for?

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This music video has left me quite... confused? Perhaps a bit frustrated? Because I can tell there is something in this mv, in this song, but I can't put my finger on it on what it is exactly. Particularly, I am torn over the symbolisms, why these specific visuals were used, why these specific transitions, and so on, how they would fit in with the general timeline and the overall story, it's confusing, at least, as of now where there's a lack of English translation. I'm certain everything will fall into place, but until then, I want to discuss my theories.

1.) "I'm Stitch Dot." I first approached the title quite literally, stitch as in stitches and it may relate to the tapestry and quilts Roma's kingdom is known for. Then I looked at the possible meanings it could have in literature, to which I have discovered that "stitch" may refer to a sudden pain, which is understandable since you get hurt when you get stitches, or, you get hurt which is why you need to get stitches but you end up hurting yourself more because of those stitches.

That last thought was close, it made me relate it to roses, and my thought looked a little bit like this: "A rose, it's beautiful, but it has thorns. Find yourself pricking yourself, you get hurt. And it's somewhat similar to a dot. But sometimes, that aside, sometimes when you get hurt, the pain is not similar to a mere dot. Sometimes, the pain is too much that you need to get stitches to fix yourself and keep yourself together." That thought is VERY close to what the title wanted to convey because, vague it may be, I tried to actually say the title out loud "I'm Stitch Dot" and, perhaps it's just me, but it sounded something similar to "I'm stitched up."

That thought made me compare it to the visuals, where different fabrics were stitched up to form one quilt, one tapestry. Those different fabrics were supposed to symbolize the different parts of Romarriche...

2.) Fabrics.

The fabric here is most likely representing the "old french" or "old american" aesthetic they wanted him to convey through his clothing, and perhaps a part of his personality. This is Roma on surface level.

There's a lot going on here, but let me break it down for you.

a.) The white fabric with pink flowers: Most probably relating to an "innocent" kind of love, one that symbolizes his kind heart, his caring and generous nature.

b.) The purple (or magenta?) fabric with pink flowers: Most probably relating to a slightly more intense love than the other fabric, probably representing his want and determination to protect others, which may relate to this line from his wiki used to describe him: "Determination Hidden Deep Within a Tolerant Nature."

c.) The blackened red fabric that looks like it has roses but also has this white thingy that looks like it was scribbled down randomly: An extension of the previous fabric, but here, it got intense to the point of disarray and this is where the SEEDS take place. Roma dislikes it when his friends are hurt, while this may not be an insecurity, it is a dislike, therefore a negative emotion, therefore the SEEDS would provoke him so they could feed on those negative emotions. The rose pattern is him, the white scribbles is him being plagued by paranoia of not being able to protect his friends or anyone if the situation calls it. This leads him spiralling down and overthinking and over-worrying which will lead the SEEDS right to where they are and the cycle will continue on until the unfortunate happens.

d.) The black fabric: Him getting corrupted. Easy as that.

This struggle to remain calm but at the same time to be on guard to protect whoever dear to him will be the main thing that will lead the SEEDS right to him if he doesn't balance it out.

The same thing applied here, only half of the screen is mixed with the red textile overlapping the black fabric. Most probably, if meant in a good way (to which I hope it is), means that he managed to balance it out. The fabric we talked about became more vibrant, and perhaps a bit more orderly now. While the fabric that consumes the second part of the screen, the black fabric with red textiles, most probably means how even with these negative emotions, he managed to find that point where he managed to find good in it, he managed to find the power he has, how instead of paranoia, he sees determination, and covered it with the intense emotions that he has now embraced.

And Merold? Why does he have the purple fabric? Well, his intense emotions has been "tamed" in a way during Your Melody and had now learned his lesson.

3.) Frames.

Most probably, the frames being used in this mv is to show how Roma used to confine himself, or his emotions rather to keep them from being too intense or scare people off, kind of like Merold in that broken mirror. But throughout, he has learn to open up, and be free.

Which is why he went from this:

To this:

But unfortunately, I don't think I could end this happily. Perhaps bittersweet.

4.) The distance between the lords and knights.

This is something very interesting I found in the comments section. (Thank you and credit to these people, by the way.)

They highlighted how even though the knights and their lords are close, there is still a distinct line, this distance that none of them dare to cross. And this speaks a lot considering Roma's relationship with his lord is probably the closest out of all the knights. Marroncream was the one who taught him how to make sweets and sewing, this solidified their bond and brought them closer together. They cherish each other, care for each other, yes, but still, there is this distance between them that never seems to close. Perhaps it is their titles? Their duties? The sense of professionalism? This is most probably why gray roses was shown - they symbolize formality and sophistication. Or perhaps he just struggles to convey it properly. The knights do have this "sickness" where they don't know how to express their feelings properly and do things they think is for the best for the people they love without thinking clearly (sometimes).

But what I really like about the second comment is this line "Although you don't your love isn't very beautiful, do you also think it's as important as the needlework of your beloved master?"

This love grew because of his bond with Marroncream, primarily because of them bonding over needlework. If ever he considers his love as something that is not very beautiful, the same love that grew from needleworking with his beloved master, and the love that came from seeing the finished art his master has made, would he consider the needlework of his master not very beautiful like his love? Would it be as important as his "not very beautiful" love? He would most probably answer no, but what he is implying is leading to the answer yes. Why?

Like I said, this love grew from needleworking with his master and the awe and admiration from seeing the finish product of his master's finished needlework. If he were to consider his love "not very beautiful" he would deem his master's needlework "not very beautiful" as well.

That would most probably leave him silent. Contemplating. Wondering about his answer. This is a common problem with the knights, one that I would relate to my earlier statement about the red fabric (c). Him feeling so much yet all of this thoughts are practically scribbles that he can't think clearly and wouldn't know how to express it properly... That is something he would have to learn. That is something he has learn thought the mv.

5.) Eyes Closed.

Perfect! I was wondering about this, and it's quite fitting as well. I've said this in passing before where eyes have been quite the prominent symbol in Fragaria. First shown in Ever Red, then Your Melody, so on so forth. But the most recent one is Bouquet of Wishes, and now, this.

And it's quite interesting to know this point because the story this comment has mentioned (Thank you and credits to this person), fits the overall world of Fragaria in a way that I've never thought about before. Cover your right eye, then you won't see your past — how the first timeline of the Fragaria world has fallen. Cover your left eyes, and you won't see your future — the uncertainty, the potential of having history repeat itself when they least expect it because they lost their memories. Right, applies to Roma, left, applies to both Merold and Puruth, But what does it mean to have both eyes closed then? I haven't read the story myself, but, if I were to connect this with the mv and the overall world of Fragaria, it could be described as momentary peace.

You close your eyes, free yourself from looking at the horrible things that has occured for too long, and let yourself relax... breathe... think... reflect... You close your eyes and see black. The void of color, or lack thereof, you usually associate with the SEEDS, but in this moment where it is just you, you would be able to breathe and free yourself of paranoia and anxiety, and reflect... You close your eyes and see your friends, your beloved master, your people, you see how they have supported you all throughout, you see how far you have come despite the consequences. You close your eyes and see everything. Everything you have done. Everything you haven't done. Everything that needs to be done.

You close your eyes, and suddenly, everything is falling into place... The only thing you need to do now is open them, but keep that sight in your heart, stitch it into your very being, your very should... And take it from there.

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“The knights ask nothing in return for their love.”

[akaridream]

fighting time (future trunks x reader)

tags: future trunks x reader, xenoverse 2 trunks, gender neutral reader, Time Patroller reader warnings: none; SFW

The hill overlooking Raditz’s pod crater was one of your favorite places to watch the sunset. The colors blended together like an expertly crafted painting, light brush strokes of clouds sweeping over the gradient of the sky. A rippling bubble of purple energy glowed behind you, waiting for you and your trusty partner Trunks to step through once more and return to Conton City. Work beckoned you, but the two of you lingered after another battle together, admiring the simple beauty of the sky in silence.

Working with Trunks had been nothing but a privilege. Your natural strength as a fighter earned you recognition from the Supreme Kai of Time and you rose through the ranks with ease despite your relative lack of experience. After seeing your fighting prowess first hand on a special mission, Trunks hand-selected you for more and more missions by his side. Flattered and crushing on the Time Patrol’s finest fighter, you obliged.

Trunks’ focused nature called for a light-hearted energy like yours to balance it. He admired your ability to turn on your serious face when the situation called for it while still maintaining an attitude of fun. It reminded him of times early in his life, long before his home timeline turned tragic. He and Gohan had played together like that, calling it training and pretending to be as strong as their fathers. But it wasn’t just your fun-loving demeanor that he liked. Your sparkling eyes, how they glowered in battle, how your hair always seemed to frame your features perfectly, how your skin seemed to glow in the sunlight… Trunks was smitten. And terribly conflicted. As he watched the sunset reflect off your stunning profile, his heart grew heavy.

Remember, Chronoa had told him. You cannot fall in love with your parter! It’ll only make things messy. Mortals and their emotions, sheesh!

But falling for you hadn’t been a choice. It had been a knockout punch.

He recalled the mission where you both had fought alongside Future Gohan, knowing he was about to meet his untimely demise at the hands of the androids. Desperate to stop his horrific fate, Trunks begged Gohan not to go. Hands shaking, you held Trunks back as he fought. You rested your cheek against his back, silent tears streaking down your face.

“Gohan!” he had cried out, sinking to his knees and watching his friend’s aura disappear into the distance. As he sobbed, your grip turned from restraint to comfort. You squeezed his arms, softly chanting, “I’m so sorry,” over and over. He turned to you and buried himself in your neck. More silent tears fell as you looked up to the sky, gently stroking his hair.

“Why?” he whimpered. “Why does it have to be like this?”

“I wish I knew, Trunks. It just does,” you whispered, knowing your words brought little comfort.

“It’s so unfair,” he said. “He shouldn’t have to suffer because I was so weak.”

With that, you pulled back so you could look him in the eyes, red and puffy with tears.

“Trunks, that is not it. You know better than anyone that time waits for no one. You can’t change that. And didn’t you hear how proud he was of you? That you grew up so strong?”

He sniffled and nodded as you held his face in your hands. “This is just how it has to be,” you continued. “I wish I could let you go after him and destroy those damned androids and make everything right, but you know we can’t do that. We have to keep going, Trunks. It’s for the entire universe.”

In your eyes, he saw strength, and in your voice, he heard truth. The pain he carried was heavy, but your comfort and friendship lightened the load. In his weakest moment, it was you who held him up, spoke the words he needed to hear and dragged him forward. After that, he knew he would never meet anymore more beautiful than you. You had his entire heart.

And so he stood, marveling at you, having fought alongside you once again. His hands began to tremble as he called your name. You turned to look at him, a soft smile painting your face with extraordinary beauty.

“You ready to head back?” you asked.

He swallowed hard. “Actually, there’s something I wanna talk to you about.”

You turned to him and took a step closer. “Sure, anything.”

His heart began to race like he’d run a mile. “It’s about… Well, I’ve been thinking a lot lately and…”

You chuckled. “Spit it out, silly. We need to get back soon.”

His eyes locked onto yours and he stuffed his shaking hands in his coat pockets. “I think… It’s time I find a new partner.”

Your eyes grew wide. “Wha- I mean, why?” you asked, pain in your voice.

He sighed and looked away, too ashamed to see your shattered expression.

“If you think there’s someone better, just say so,” you said.

Trunks shook his head. “No, it’s not that. Really, I just… It’s hard for me to… I don’t really know how-”

“Just tell me the truth, Trunks.”

He clenched his fists tightly. “Chronoa told me specifically not to, but I just-”

“She told you not to tell me the truth?”

“No, not that! It’s just a conflict of interest-”

“What is going on, Trunks?”

“I’m in love with you!” Trunks sputtered. “And the Supreme Kai of Time told me not to fall in love with my partner because it would just make things messy but I couldn’t not because you’re amazing and- And I’ve been crazy about you for such a long time now, but I don’t think I can keep working with someone I care about so much because-”

“Trunks, it’s okay! I-”

“Sometimes I get so distracted because I just can’t take my eyes off you, and obviously that’s not good in fights so-”

“Trunks, listen!”

“I can’t let myself get hurt because I can’t focus but I don’t want to not work with you anymore because you’re so great and-”

In his rambling, Trunks hadn’t noticed you stepping in closer and closer. You grabbed him by the collar of his coat and silenced him by crashing your lips against his. A startled noise left him before he melted into you, reciprocating by holding your jaw with both hands. He kissed you madly with months of pent up passion and admiration. You relaxed into the bliss with a sigh and a giggle.

“Thought that might shut you up,” you whispered into his lips, then kissed them again.

“You- You have feelings for me too then?” he asked, his cerulean eyes searching yours.

“Of course I do,” you said with a wide smile. “Since before we even started working together. Thought you were the hottest guy in Conton City.”

Trunks chuckled and blushed. “Geez, I don’t know about that.”

You laughed and raked your fingers through his hair, pushing it away from his handsome face. “It’s a pretty easy choice. I have a thing for purple hair and blue eyes, you know.”

He put his arms around your waist and gazed lovingly into your eyes. “You’re amazing.”

“You are too, Trunks.” You gave him a soft peck. “And we’ll go talk to the Supreme Kai about things, okay?”

He nodded and captured your perfect lips in another burning kiss. “You may just be the best partner of all time.”

“Of all time? Wow, that’s quite a statement, coming from you.”

“I’ve been all over the timeline, over and over again, but I’ve never met anyone as incredible as you.”

dbz masterlist

[trashlie]

it's good to see you around again, I missed reading your long ILY posts, hope you're doing better too :) if you ever share your thoughts on the latest couple of episodes (including fp) here, I'd be super excited to read them! I'm really curious how you think the timeline is gonna go from here - especially relating to Shin-Ae and Nolan since it feels like they are the last pieces that need to fall into place so everything is ready for the post-timeskip story to go down. like you, I was so sure Nol and Shin-Ae were going to have some kind of reconciliation before he goes to jail but WELP rip 3 day extension. Poor guy though, Yui showing up in his hospital room must have been extremely triggering, it made sense that he did everything to get outta there ASAP. It's worrying me that this series of negative interactions (Kousuke, Alyssa, Yui) could've undone everything positive Shin-Ae Dieter Soushi Nana did, and now therapy during jail time could either have a positive or negative effect, so Nol is a Schroedinger's cat for now.... At least some things got cleared up and Shin-Ae is now starting to understand the root of the problem (= Yui) (and it actually really makes sense that she had to figure it out herself instead of Nol telling her - the boy obviously isn't ready to talk) so we made some progress.... But istg with this upcoming separation arc 2.0 it feels so much like we're gonna be back at ground zero after the first time skip. Fingers crossed they reconcile in whatever way before the big time skip though. we need a somewhat positive conclusion to this arc before season 1 ends, because if not then what was all this build up for, and why now? What about the realizations? the "convince me"? What about "if you won't let me have you"? If their reconciliation is only going to happen after multiple years of "conflict" between them that would be so cruel....

AND SHIN-AE STILL HASN'T GOTTEN HER BANDANA BACK and now he's stealing her lines too SDGDADSF;SDF

Waaaahhhhh thank you, friend!!! As you can probably tell, I'm still trying to get myself back here fully and figure out how to balance everything, which has always been a struggle ;~; I really may resort to telling my friends to ignore me and yell at me until I get certain posts written up so I'll stop procrastinating because there are SO MANY THINGS I WANT TO WRITE ABOUT EPISODES I WANT TO RECAP AND TALK ABOUT!!!! BUT THE ORGANIZING MYSELF!!!! IS THE PART THAT'S SO DIFFICULT!!!!!!!!

One of the great things about the ILY discord server is that we have this very constant, active conversation going on at all times so it's SO easy to be very present and active, but I also find that it means it's more difficult for me to regulate myself, or I'll have that feeling that I JUST talked about something and so when I try to write about it over here, it feels like a hollow echo and I know that's just because I was just having the conversation so that's just something I need to work on dealing with lol

But I want to answer this before we move so far away from when you asked this!!!!! As expected, there are FP spoilers ahead for eps 246 through 249!!!!!

I!!!! DO NOT KNOW!!!!!!! LMAO Like. GOD. I feel like quimchee has thrown us curveball after curveball and when we sit down and think about how long this period of December 21 and the post December 21 arc has been, how much the story has weaved around?! There are so many things that have occurred that I NEVER expected and, like you, it's just everything I thought has clearly gone out the window. Part of it, I think, is the result of quimchee having to change the arrangement of her story, and god I would love to pick her brain about the things that changed, since Nol's injury was supposed to happen at the formal itself, we never would have had this extended period of hospital time, and it seems like everything about Nol and Shinae coming to realization with their feelings would have played out in a wholly different way than what we ended up getting, so on some level I think this is partly that quimchee, too, is sort of throwing herself cureveballs in that there are things she knows needs to happen and she isn't sure where or how to fit the other elements in? But that's just my guess.

On the one hand, I do feel very "WHAT WAS THE EXTENSION FOR IF NOT FOR RECONCILIATION?!" but beyond Stalkyoo, we have gotten a LOT of good stuff out of this period of time. We see Kousuke facing his cognitive dissonance for, perhaps, the first time, and the revelation that Yui has been drugging him (and likely for a long time, given the way Hansuke describe the dosage Kousuke had and that it merely knocked him out), and more than that, making those connections between Nol and Yui and tea, and wanting to face him. I'm STILL proud of him for wanting to go back and see Nol again, even after he couldn't face him, even after Hansuke found him on the floor of a public bathroom hugging a toilet from the remorse and guilt and perhaps shame of the realization of the ways he has hurt people - has hurt Nol! - who didn't deserve it. We have seen that Rand and Yujing are, in fact, working on something behind the scenes, that Rand is facing Yui as a real adversary now, not just someone who has been resigned to endure her for so many years now, but to actually fight against her. The entirety of Nol's birthday celebration could not have happened the way it did had he not been in the hospital, since he would have had to turn himself in, and while maybe the original plan was that they celebrated his birthday with Minhyuk's coming home party, I'm.... not sure if that would have been the case?

But at at any rate, I do acknowledge that despite the fact that it feels like Nol might be back at square one, that he and Shinae are back where they started in 151, such significant events HAVE taken place that I think will still affect the narrative future of ILY. I still feel strongly that part of Nol's trajectory is coming to terms with the fact that he does, indeed, belong here. That he isn't someone who wasn't meant to be, that he doesn't belong here. He belongs, and he deserves love. He is someone, not nothing. I still think one of his greater arcs will involve coming to embrace this, and while the negative events - Kousuke, Alyssa, Yui - feel like they could be setting him back, he is now equipped with knowledge and feelings he wasn't before. It can't hurt him the same. In fact, I think part of why his confrontation with Alyssa went the way it did was because he had had this experience with Shinae, Dieter, and Soushi, it illuminated everything that was so wrong with his relationship with Alyssa, how neither of them really know each other. It's that sense of foiling that allows him to put his foot down and say enough is enough. Even before it was revealed that Alyssa had come with Yui, it was clear that Nol was over the visit. Don't get me wrong - I understand why he couldn't see that Alyssa clearly was not well, that she was uncomfortable, that she had come to him with no one else to go to, much as he'd gone to Kousuke in the past when he lost his mom, and I also understand why he did the same thing Kousuke did and turned her away. But the point I'm getting at is, it feels like there was a shift. That birthday celebration illuminated something for Nol.

So it's kind of like, while it feels like this might have undone the progress Nol made, it can't undone the revelations he's had, and in that same way, it cannot cast shadow on his enlightenment. He is not the same Nol he was a week ago. Too much has changed, he's become aware of too much, and as such, he is going to respond differently to what comes his way, and while he may continue to try what he had originally intended, I think the difference is that he's now been made aware of things that impact the choices he makes.

But largely I don't really know what I expect just yet. I think it's very pointed that the lawyer reminded Shinae that she has his phone number; I don't think that would be called out if it wasn't going to be important in some way, but in terms of how are we going from here to there? Unsure lol. I think there HAS to be a resolution of some kind, whether it's a reconciliation or not, because Shinae is on this momentum swing that isn't going to stop until she crashes into something or she comes into a force of nature that stops her. Nothing, no one, has been able to reach her or get through to her, and I know it's just because of how much she's hurting, but she's lashing out at people and hurting THEM like a street cat swiping at people trying to help her. She's so terrified of losing Nol, especially now that he came back, especially now that she gave him the option to leave and he didn't and it rekindled that hope she gave him an opening to leave when it would have been easier and he didn't which just made it worse, because so much more was at stake. She can't stop fighting she can't stop trying because she cannot bear what it means to lose him for real this time, not when she finally had him back, not when that realization has come to her even if she won't admit it. She needs him, so what's going to make her give up?

Something has to transpire, whether it's a reconciliation or Nol pushing her away and really shattering her heart or something awful like that, to bring her to a halt, because I can't imagine how we would move into our mini time skip to spring/graduation with Shinae like this, right? So I think there must be some kind of resolution. My foolish, hopeless self wants so badly to hope for reconciliation but esp after 249 I am SO torn. I have two thoughts.

a. they reconcile. She can reach him, and convince him, and even though he is so afraid, he is also someone who folds in front of her, he struggles to resist her. He told her to convince him and boy she can convince him and even though he tells himself he isn't sure if these feelings are real because what if it's just because she's NICE to him I think hearing her confess her feelings would tell him how he feels and give him the answer.

b. But the alternative feels like a parallel to Nessa and Rand, because Nessa, too, was hurt over and over by someone who kept getting her hopes up and getting hurt by him. Shinae gave Nol the opportunity to leave and he didn't, he stayed and doing so sparked her hope, made her feel things, they shared these tender, intimate moments together and forced that realization to come to mind, but for him to push her away again, for her safety, to make choices on her behalf even though she's told him she hates that and she doesn't want him to. Imagine her pulling a Nessa and calling him scum lfkjajkfkjfjkfaj ;A;!!!!! Imagine her so angry and hurt and resentful and saying awful things she doesn't mean and GOD I feel like it can go only one of these ways because what ELSE is going to stop her in her tracks?!

And I really want a reconciliation because parting like this sets them up for SO. MUCH. STRIFE. Because we know one way or another Shinae is going to end up taking Yui's offer and if Nol leaves on these terms, he would end up thinking she's following in Alyssa's footsteps doing so, not understanding WHY she's doing, not understanding that this is Shinae's only way of protecting herself, learning to speak Yui's language and play her game.

and idk I know I'm a hopeful optimist reading a webtoon that proves to me over and over that I cannot be a hopeful optimist but LMAO GOD I WANT SHINAE TO CONVINCE THAT DUMBO

I've said it before that convincing him doesn't mean they have to get into a relationship. Just. Reconcile. She's so afraid of LOSING HIM, thinking that once he slips away he's out of her grasp, her sight, for good, that she will lose the best thing that happened to her and I WANT THAT RECONCILATION. I want her to convince him, for both their sakes. So that he knows he has someone he can go back to. So that she knows he's not just throwing her away. So that she doesn't have to fear losing something so precious and important.

Am I foolish and hopeful for hoping for that outcome? Maybe, but it won't stop me LMAO because as delicious and angsty as Shinae and Nol following in Ressa's footsteps with Nol hurting her again and leaving her so hurt and angry is, I want to see them on that same page. I want to see Shinae convince him - convince him why he is so important to her, and that his feelings are real. That's the thing, right, like.... you can tell yourself that your feelings aren't real, but if the person you like confesses to you, your heart will inevitably betray you and respond to the confession. Nol fears for Shinae's safety but important puzzle pieces are falling into place. She has figured what he fears the most - and if she thinks hard enough she'll realize how she can use that to her "advantage", in that Rand has told her Yui will never let her go, that it doesn't matter if Nol leaves or not. It goes back to my oft repeated sentiment of them needing to be on the same page, to be a team, because his absence will not protect her. And between what Rand told her, plus her anecdotes about Kousuke's birthday and how Yui treated her even before the formal, and what Yujing told Nol about Kousuke being drugged by Yui, maybe, just MAYBE that conclusion that wasn't only him all along will finally hit him. I know he can't change over night, that he has so many deeply ingrained fears that won't be easily assuaged, but I have to hope that a confession from Shinae can convince him that the alternative is worse. Convince him to fight along side her ;A;

I go back and forth on this thought but I think this is strongly what I feel right now. That reconciliation could still be around the corner, even if it's just an admission and a promise to not push her away. Shinae is tired of people acting on her behalf, tired of not getting a say, and especially in something that involves her heart, her feelings?

Go fight girl and maybe bite him if that's what it takes ;A;

STEALING HER BANDANA. HER LINES. HERT HEART. THIS MAN DESERVES TO BE LOCKED AWAY

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[doctorbrown]

MCFLY JULY ‘24 ⸺ 「 29 / 31 * 24 HOUR SCIENTIFIC SERVICES 」

March 1983, Twin Pines Timeline

“It’s hopeless, Doc. I’m never gonna figure out this chemistry stuff in time for the test tomorrow.” Marty sighs heavily, dropping his pencil down on the table. His head follows suit barely a second later, his forehead thunking against the workbench. “Can we run through it again?”

Emmett sets the circuit board and screwdriver he’d been tinkering with down on the table, pushing the remnants of their late dinner aside. Burger King again, at Marty’s insistence, when their study session had gone well into the late evening and Marty’s growling stomach had reminded them both that—again—they’d forgotten to eat, lost in their own world. “It’s getting late, Marty. It’s already past eleven; you should get going, get some rest before the morning.”

“One more time, Doc—let’s just run through it again.” Marty lifts his head up and trains his big, pleading eyes full-force on Emmett. “I’ve almost got this balancing equations thing down. Let’s just do one more.”

He shouldn’t—he should send Marty on his way for the night, clean up their small mess, and turn his attention back to his own plans, work out a solution to the conundrum he’s been putting off and putting off until the moment was right. But Marty looks at him as if the entirety of his fate hangs in the balance of his answer and if he really is still having difficulties with this, he can’t very well turn him away when there’s still time to drill the material into the boy’s head.

But something tells him there’s far more to it than that.

“Alright, we’ll go through it one more time. But first I want you to let your parents know you’ll be staying late so they don’t wonder where you are or think I’ve kidnapped you for use in one of my nefarious experiments.”

Marty appears to visibly shrink into himself, confirming Emmett’s suspicions. A hundred and one questions leap to his lips but he keeps his mouth shut, waiting for Marty to answer. Something has been up recently—it has been written all across his face, in his eyes, clear as day after all this time getting to know him. Marty wears his heart on his sleeve and it didn’t take him long to understand all the boy’s little quirks and mannerisms, to know when to push and when to give him the space and freedom to open up on his own time and fall into a comfortable synchronisation that he can hardly imagine his days without, now.

Lately, he has been reluctant to leave even after spending all of his free time after school here, helping about with various tasks, practising his music, or even just sitting on the couch, working through his homework with his headphones on and Einstein curled up against his side.

He hasn’t pried yet. This, whatever it is, he knows Marty will open up about when he’s ready, but it’s enough to keep him from wanting to return home.

“Yeah, alright Doc. Dad might still be up.” Marty walks to the phone as if he’s being marched to the gallows. After a few minutes of silence with the receiver held up to his ear, he looks over as if to say well, I tried, only for his brows to fly up when someone must have finally answered.

“Dad? Yeah, it’s me, it’s Marty—no, I’m—I’m gonna stay at Doc’s place for a while. No—no, Dad! We’re in the middle of something big and Doc needs my help. Yeah. I’ve got them. Okay. I’ll see you tomorrow.”

Emmett raises a brow as Marty turns triumphantly away from the phone. “’In the middle of something big?’”

Marty rubs the back of his neck. “I—didn’t want to tell him why I was really here. Sometimes I think Dad gets disappointed that he can’t do everything, you know? He knows a lot of things about sci-fi, but he’s not a scientist and he doesn’t know a thing about chemistry. So I didn’t want him to feel bad that you were helping me.”

“Ah.” It’s a rather thoughtful lie on Marty’s part, all things considered, and not one he feels he has the personal experience to contest. “Alright, let me grab my blackboard and you read me out one of the problems you’re having trouble with.”

Emmett slides a few miscellaneous boxes out of the way in order to roll the blackboard over to the living area and Marty sits himself down on the couch, paper and pencil in hand. “You were working on combustion reactions, right?”

“Uh—yeah, I think so.” Emmett writes the equation down on the board as Einstein decides he, too, wants to hear the lesson and takes a seat on the couch, ever the attentive student. It has been years since he gave a lecture like this, even one as unofficial and impromptu as this, but he finds he slides back into the role of instructor quite easily, old habits returning with each stroke against the board.

His explanations are careful, methodical, and Marty has always been more of a visual learner, he’s noticed, easily picking up on things that are shown to him rather than learning through mindless lectures being thrown at him, so he accompanies his explanations with drawings, breakdowns of each individual molecule.

Once he’s arrived at the answer with all the work to show for it on the board, he turns back to Marty, finding the kid flopped over on the couch using Einstein’s back as a pillow. Emmett lifts the study sheet off his lap, grabs the pencil off the ground, and looks over the problems he’d already solved.

They’re all correct.

[ay-miphae]

Watered-down analyses of 01011001 songs that are basically things for which I was like “Hey yeah I’d like to point that out. That’s cool”

Yeah so I started these awhile ago but. Haha

First of all, symmetry. In individual songs, throughout the entire album, everywhere. This chiastic structure is potent in all kinds of literary works, and Arjen knew what he was doing.

Age of Shadows/We Are Forever, The Fifth Extinction, and The Sixth Extinction, along with being the three 10+ minute tracks, are the beacons, the most significant plot points. Age of Shadows follows a very clean symmetry like I overanalyze here, The Fifth Extinction has a split nearly perfectly halfway through the song (between the Forevers deliberating and actually having put their plan into motion), and The Sixth Extinction. Oh yes The Sixth Extinction. More on that in a bit.

But yeah. Overall there’s a buildup from “oh no we lost our emotions we should Do something about it” to the act itself  (sending a comet with human/presumably Alphan DNA on it to Earth and living vicariously through humans) to humans similarly falling prey to the same overreliance on machines/Forevers intervening too much and ending exactly where they started. Almost.

Obligatory discourse on The Sixth Extinction but no seriously I'm obsessed with this song

That’s the brilliance of The Sixth Extinction, which has, again, a very clean symmetry for ten minutes (“for nobody heeds the echoes on the wind” -> “do you hear the sirens” -> “the meaning of life is to give life meaning” <- [flight to Mars instrumental that follows the same melodies as “do you hear the sirens] <- “and soon he’ll set free his spirit on the wind”). Like. Symmetry over you’d expect it to end right? But no! The music climaxes in a way that legitimately made me emotional the first time I actually listened to this -  “Make us whole, Migrator Soul, follow me home, complete the circle.” We see how it was supposed to end - the Mars colonist, the last in the chain (Futureman quote) was supposed to return to dust. But the narrative flips! Due to Universal Migrator level timeline wibbly stuff the Forevers have their lives restored and, ambiguously, don’t have to end with some massive tragedy? Honestly it’s a bit open-ended ESPECIALLY with the finality of the “dum-dum dum-dum dum-dum” soundbite at the end which uh. Kind of brings the arc back to where it started again. Like there’s hope and tragedy both, perhaps.

Also discussing the funky grand piano section in the middle, what would be the crux if the final chorus wasn’t. There’s a juxtaposition between Forever ⛧'s (Jonas Renske) doombound “It’s Over” realizations and the other Forevers being like “Hey wait we gained something from this after all!” most importantly “The meaning of life is to give life meaning ... Restore the balance between thinking and feeling.”

Okay yeah I need to unpack this some.

“The meaning of life is to give life meaning” sounds very profound if not a bit circular upon first glance. But here’s my take on it - in a cold and often aimless world, striving to do something to make the world a better place, to make living more meaningful for others, for yourself - that’s the most good someone can do. There’s probably more concise or better ways I could have stated that but hey. That’s just a personal interpretation and I’d love to hear others. Kind of a theme of altruism, even a cyclical nature of the universe and metaphysical meaning. Lots of completing-the-circles happening in Ayreon.

“Restore the balance between thinking and feeling” really underlines the thesis of Ayreon - retaining one’s humanity amid ... technology? I.e. technology in excess causes Bad Apocalyptic things (The Final Experiment, 01011001, The Source) but emotions can be Overpowering and Hard To Deal With (Electric Castle (in which the “most successful” characters learn to overcome and embrace), The Human Equation, even The Theory of Everything and Transitus to some extent). And it’s all in the balance.

Okay but what is the circle

Like, okay, we have the aforementioned cyclical nature of “the meaning of life” being “to give life meaning,” “follow me home complete the circle” (The Sixth Extinction), “our tale’s not over, the circle’s incomplete” (The Human Compulsion), the Mars Colonist reincarnating as the New Migrator - but what is the circle in question? Is it a matter of human nature? A mythos for the origin of life? A thesis on purpose?? Please any insight into this at all would be appreciated

Wow there sure are a lot of parallels between Connect the Dots and The Truth Is in Here

Sudden change of topic yeah but quick list: 

The introductory sound effect to indicate that this takes place on Earth (the car engine/the door slam)

A very similar introductory melody (no seriously)

The presence of Mr. L in a conflict with someone who seems well-intentioned but ignorant about the nature of existence (not to blame them!! I don’t want to spend all my waking and sleeping hours constantly aware of how humanity is screwing itself over I want to be happy too!!)

The presence of pills as a sedative or to curb the Thoughts

The way Connect the Dots is happy and upbeat and The Truth Is in Here takes a more serious turn as apocalypse draws nearer

Other random things??

River of Time is awesome and has some very cool lyrics, one of my favorites being “slow down time faster than light” which. Doesn’t make any literal sense really but sounds cool. Also “unite the forces” could be referring to the four fundamental forces?? Wow it’s almost like Forever 🕈 was a physicist in a past life or had some kind of physicist-adjacent profession oh wait. (Source reference and for the record I do think Forever 🕈 = the Astronomer and Forever Ω = the Biologist because wouldn’t that be cool)

Character-wise (God I’d love to analyze the characters but idk if I have the brainpower. Maybe in another post.) Forever Ω and the Biologist share the same emphasis on progress and Forever Ω refers to the DNA samples as “beloved sons” so that’s kind of biology coded I guess. Forever 🕈 doesn’t express many opinions (like the Astronomer) but probably experienced “don’t want to live in a world that’s dying / I’d rather die in a world that’s living” on a personal level (because you know. The Source.)

Brilliant The Final Experiment tie-ins throughout E=MC² (I mean. Time telepathy origin story) - “I have sent it but nothing changes / just a line in some ancient lore.” Okay cool but how did you know that?? Did you like meticulously pore through every tome in the library and and tediously cross-compare that to what was before to realize a grand total of one line had changed?? I don’t get it but I’m overthinking probably

Anticlimactic point to end this on I know but. Wow I love this album so much it’s brilliant on all levels and I am constantly having thoughts about it, but I think I’ve covered a lot of the thematic points that I’ve been dying to share. So yeah! Enjoy my self-indulgent ramble and Arjen’s musical brilliance and overthinking your mortality and human nature <3

Part 1 Part 2 Part 3 Part 4 Part 5

Hey @ay-miphae are you working on the source character designs

...Very slowly! Will probably be starting with the Astronomer, Captain, Opposition Leader, and TH-1 because they're my favorites and I'm biased because they're everyone else's favorites too <3

[mamamittens]

I spent the first half of my day at work daydreaming an official plot with Nikia. Still not sure where exactly to place her on the timeline in terms of age, but I'm ignoring it for the time being.

I also successfully napped but getting out of bed was hard lmao

OC rambling thoughts under cut

Specifically working up her character progression over her lifetime and a very sweet plot that (of course) derails the original plot a bit later. Marineford of course because I love very specific fanfic things.

Mainly the "this new character makes wider changes in very small and unexpected ways" and "the out of left field person does the thing multiple others have failed to do".

Look, if I'm shipping her me with Thatch, I'm not doing the OG ending. That's just depressing as fuck lmao, I'm already perpetually single irl, I'm not fantasizing eternal maidenhood into my daydreams. I'm not that fucking weird. I do actually like romance as a concept.

I also internally examined some things and the size shifting devil fruit fits harder than I originally thought though I'm still work shopping the details of how it works. Mainly how to do what I want it to do (change wing size and boob size because I can't imagine running and flying with H cups, I'm sorry, not even in anime. Shit hurts). I was thinking changing the size of individual parts would work fine within reason. Mainly handicapped by balance. Too much or too fast and you'd just be falling all over the damn place whether something grew bigger or smaller.

Also what kind of transition happens. Like, when she grows big or shrinks, if there's some sort of effect. I thought it would be cool if there's steam or smoke. Would make a really great scene if she gets pissed and stalks forward, growing in height with every step, only to stop while towering over someone and just exhales smoke in a hiss. Very good visual. Much love.

Workshopped what kind of haki she's naturally good at. Already knew it would be observation haki and armament later on while training to be a ranger for flying in blizzards. Hail hurts like a bitch lol. No conquerors but thought it'd be neat if she could 'slide under' by minimizing her presence. Big hitters could still flag her but the common ones would miss her completely. Observation specifically works as long range sensing/vision and minimal intent/emotion sensing. She's naturally very 'quiet' in her own haki which means she absolutely sneaks up on folks very easily even if they're good at sensing people.

I just spent 10 minutes writing the plot I came up with but deleted it so I can surprise y'all later and also it's late so I need to go back to sleep lmao

Ya know, before I completely spoil everything

[h-didanart]

Hey guys, remember that trio of Bloodmoons I made some time ago that were alternate versions of my three main guys that lost their twins? Yeah well I thought their timelines through a little

This post will be dedicated to Alternate Harvest Crescent Celestial (I have yet to come up with a nickname for them (or any of the three really))

The main physical differences with the canon one are the pins//daggers in her hat’s fluff, the scratched up skirt (which is the same style as Hunter’s was), the boots, the bandages along her right arm, and the scratched off paint under her left eye.

Unlike the other two (three if Original//Lone! Is counted), Harvest actually saw her twin die. She often wishes she hadn’t.

Due to Queso being the one around them the most, Harvest gets extremely attached to him, which leaves her a bit conflicted because Queso needs to apologize for how he treated both of the twins, being their creator and all, and Harvest is aware that he changed and all, but, well, trust is a hard thing to build for them. Still, even with a noticeable lack of trust, Harvest is extremely overprotective over their brother, and whole family really, she will threaten, stalk, cling onto, anything to make sure they are all safe. And no, she does not show this level of care towards themselves.

As for being in the vicinity of their canon selves…

They immediately cling onto Hunter, naturally. She’s aware this isn’t her sibling, but that is not going to stop her from being right next to them 24/7 to make sure they are safe.

Hunter doesn’t like that, he doesn’t like Alternate Harvest much really, in fact they kinda freak him out, but they just won’t leave him alone!

Canon Harvest is freaked out by them too, and straight up snatches her twin away from them. A bit of a confrontation ensues.

And in comes an aspect that for the moment only two of these Bloodmoons have, a parallel.

Having gone through what they did, Alt Harvest is overly cautious and paranoid over everything, a thing that’s really not good, at least in most situations. And while Harvest and Hunter are, understandably, not taking her seriously, there’ll come a moment in their future where they’ll face a similar situation. And only they can affect who gets out of that alive.

Incoming writing, tw for character death and injuries.

And this part should’ve gone up there in the ‘right after the twin’s death’ section however I wanted to be fair to anyone who’d just want angsty lore and not pure concentrated angst. So, I present to you, 27th of October 2023…

They both had been fighting. After months of being static, months of being apart, their first physical contact was fighting. And not a friendly fight, no. This was bloodshed.

Hunter was clearly not in control, that rabid glitch he had developed having taken over him for the most part. And Harvest was struggling, her balance and concentration had been affected by a glitch of her own, same one which dulled her emotions.

She could’ve pinned him down eventually, trapped him using the place’s rubble and cables, stalled long enough so KC and the others could break the door down. They weren’t able to.

The floor gave out.

Why did they have to choose to teleport him right over the sinkhole?

No matter, Harvest was able to hold onto the ledge and hold onto their brother as well. And he held on too, still attacking her, and biting, and scratching, but that was fine, she’d deal with that later.

Even when they felt their grip to the ledge shake, they didn’t once think they wouldn’t make it. Even as they felt their arm being torn bit by bit, they still wanted to think there was a way out of this. And really, if they did fall they’d fall together, so that was also fine. For Harvest.

Hunter had a different view. But with the glitch taking over them they couldn’t exactly voice it out, nor could Harvest get it. They knew they were going to fall, and they knew there was one thing they could do about it. If he could just take control for a second…

It had been bad luck really.

The glitch getting so bad, the floor crumbling, them being ripped apart from one another in the first place…

It wasn’t fair.

It wasn’t fair they had been separated. It wasn’t fair they had to fight. It wasn’t fair she saw the small smile as he let go.

It wasn’t fair.

He never was reunited with his true family, he never fixed the damaged bridges between them all.

And it’s not fair.

And as she stares at her living family sleep, claws clutched around a metal pipe, she knows it’s not fair that she was unable to do anything.

She couldn’t save him. And it wasn’t fair.

[kizzer55555]

Fullmetal Alchemist Time Travel Part 1

Part 1

Inspired by ‘Make a Deal to Fix your Mistakes’ by Lunatic_Shipper

Based on the fanfiction ‘the third toll’ by IStillPlayWithLegos, Ishvalan culture was based on Hebrew and Judaism culture. The names for Ed and Al (who are ishvalan in that fic) were called Ezequias (Ed) and Aziel (Al) which I could make them the names of Scar and his brother. The older one Ezequias being Scar, the younger one, Aziel (or was it the reverse with younger being Scar? I’ll look it up later). Maybe they could change their names since by following alchemy (and the mysterious alchemist who saved them) they had to give up their names or maybe they were banished.

Timeline

1908 end of Ishvalan war and a year before Ed and Al attempted human transmutation 

1916 year of the promised day and Ed is 17/18

In this story, Edward Elric goes back in time for some reason. Maybe they failed on the promised day and all the souls were consumed or maybe something else happened where maybe a fail safe from father activated or Truth needed Elric to go back in time. Maybe after Father consumed Truth, it destabilized the planet’s gate and suddenly, Typhoons, hurricanes, earthquakes and all kinds of natural disasters were happening. It was destroying the world and so many people were dying. Alchemists were working around the clock to fix things as it appeared as if parts of the world were just disintegrating as if in an alchemical array for no reason and they were desperately trying to pull the world back together. Meanwhile, the military was trying to help the people evacuate unsafe areas. Somehow, Ed gets trapped in some sort of array. Maybe another alchemist was doing it or he was caught in a part of the world that was disintegrating (as if small dark hands were reaching out and destroying everything), it grabbed him and he had flashbacks of his time back when father tried to sacrifice him and the others. Anyways, he is brought to truth’s realm (maybe he was saving someone else and got caught) and he yells at truth, asking why he is doing this and Truth explains that he’s not the one doing it. The planet’s gate had become unstable from Father’s plan. Because of this the world won’t last much longer. It is then that Truth decides to make a deal with Ed. He wants to stop father as well and restore balance so he asks Ed to go back in time to prevent the whole thing from happening in the first place.

What if Truth gave a gift to Ed to help him. It could be like saying this is the equivalent exchange for Ed traveling back in time. He gets his gate back but he also can access Truth’s dimension whenever he wants. Maybe his gate is always open because of this. The gift would be to keep his gate open. Because the gate is how he is connected to truth, because it is always open, he is able to go there any time he wants (maybe this is also to have Truth help him and for Ed to ask for advice although Truth is still cryptic) and because his gate is open, he has access to all the knowledge which might make his alchemy stronger. He’s not all knowing since he can’t physically go through the gate without the onslaught of knowledge. Or maybe it’s that his gate is only opened a crack. Enough for him to ‘peek’ and get more knowledge as well as access truth’s dimension but not open enough to go through without activating human transmutation. The only reason this is possible is because of the number of times Ed has been through the gate before and survived. His mind has adapted and Truth needed a champion that he could contact and this is the only way. Maybe that was why he chose Edward (besides the fact that he is one of the only humans left). 

I could also make it so that after the whole thing was over, after about a year, people in Amestris started falling sick. (I like the idea of the story starting with them telling the ending of full metal alchemist and the lives of its characters and how they were happy or at least, that was supposed to be the case. It all started with a cough and then it goes on to say how soon everyone started getting weaker and weaker until they could barely move and the only people unaffected were Ed, Alphonse, the colonel, and their teacher. (It could start at right about the time of the ending of full metal alchemist where Winry, Ed, and Al are at the train station right after Al got his body back) and it is revealed that although everyone’s souls did return to their bodies, their link to their bodies had become weakened as they had been separated for too long. Because of this, everyone in amestris who had their souls stolen by the philosophers stone was dying. Ed somehow finds himself in a human transmutation circle trying to stop it (but he still doesn’t have his alchemy). If Truth was given a reason to stop this then it would be that their souls are not returning to what was all. All was one and one was all, that was the most important rule in alchemy. Father’s plan disrupted that flow and now, as more and more people are dying, their souls are disappearing into nothing. At least when they were in a philosophers stone and their souls were used up, they would return to him. Here they are just gone and it is greatly disrupting the flow within the world. Even if he killed them all it wouldn’t work. (Maybe what happened is that Edward goes back to the place where father had opened the array to trap everyone’s soul in an attempt to find some kind of answer and something happens. Maybe truth activated the array or maybe someone else did. Maybe someone who was loyal to father set a trap for the Elric or something. Maybe it was the array that Mustang was forced through and was still active (maybe activated by blood) or maybe the whole area was just unstable as a result of the massive unbalance due to the souls being lost and that caused the portal to open and Ed fell through). Anyways, Truth wants this problem taken care of but there is no way to do it. The only way would be through going to the past. When Edward Elric comes into his domain (and makes some sort of comment about how he didn’t think he’d see him again or maybe Ed made the comment) he offers Ed a deal. He can’t do anything at the moment however he can go back in time to prevent Father’s plan from succeeding in the first place. The reason Ed was chosen if for a few factors. For one thing, Ed has spent the most time in Truth’s dimension so when Truth uses his powers on Ed, he will be the person most likely to remember the future while most people would lose their memories from the shock of it just like Alphonse did. Another reason is that Ed is one of the few people that could actually make a difference. And finally, Ed had given up his gate for his brother which meant he was one of those most trustworthy to complete the task and willing to give up anything to do so. He also holds the most understanding about equivalent exchange (I could also make the reason just being that he was at the right place at the right time). Anyways, Ed is asked to go back in time and truth even sweetens the deal by saying he will help him out sometimes, equivalent exchange. Ed helps Truth now Truth helps Ed. He also entices Ed saying that he could prevent many of his mistakes that he made and he would be saving a lot of people. Ed thinks about Winry on her bed sick as well as almost everyone else in all of Amestris besides him, his brother, his teacher, and Mustang. 

[bluboothalassophile]

from ao3, can you do Klaus, hayley, and Elijah, dealing with hope as a full Tribrid? it can be nh hope or just vampire hope in general.

Hello,

So... Probably not what you're after, set in the Heathens & Savages universe, this is when Hope was turned in that timeline. So I hope you enjoy.

You Belong With Us...

Hope stood there, trembling, covered in oil, grime, and blood, feeling her body as it snapped back into place, the tears were streaming down her face as she felt the burn of the fire off the wrecked Jeep and Semi. The barren roadside in West Texas… no one around for miles. It felt like all the magic had snapped in her, she screamed now as she fell to her knees, her head feeling like there was someone driving a stake through her skull and brain.

“She will be happy, Nik. I promise. What's her name?”

“Hope. Her name is Hope.”

“I know I have to give her back to Hayley when the time is right. She's made me realize how much I want that child of my own that I know I can't have her."

“Hope. Hope is all that matters."

“She looks like her mother. Maybe there is a God after all.”

“You know, I spent eight glorious months covered in spit-up, changing dirty diapers and reading bedtime stories to that sweet girl. Please give this to her. And tell her that her Auntie Beks loves her."

“My dearest Hope. My littlest wolf. My miracle child. What a gift to be able to leave you one last message. So please carry it with you in the years to come. I want you to know this. You will make mistakes in your life. That comes with being a Mikaelson. You will go through hard times. For no one with your power always knows how to use it properly. You will find love and you will lose it. For such is the burden of immortality. But the most important thing about your life is that you live it. Because you are my Peace. And I regret a lot of things, but I don't regret a single moment I spent with you. I love you so much. Always and forever.”

“You came to me that night because calls and letters weren't enough. I stopped them for your own good."

“"In my experience, fathers cause pain. Whether by their presence or their absence there is a certain type of ruin that only a father can... Can leave behind. And you... You were such a sweet little girl. Perhaps, I was always bound to leave you broken."

“I'll find your mother, and I swear I will return her to you. I love you."

“HOPE!”

“If I go back, am I ever gonna see you again?”

“Not for a very, very long time. So you better have good stories, okay? Make art. Use your voice. Have adventures. And have at least one totally epic love. And be every bit of yourself. Because the very best of me is in you.”

“You are everything they fear, you are a Mikaelson!”

“I’m sorry for all your heartaches, Little Witch.”

Everything shattered as she felt the soul deep, aching grief of her family’s deaths. The scream which tore from her had her sobbing as she felt all her power swirling; life, death, balance, imbalance, it all came crashing through her body, the agony of life and bliss of death, it tore through her as the last remnants of an illusion shattered. She screamed.

“HOPE!” a voice shouted. She was sobbing as she sat on the asphalt, her dad appeared in the wreckage and flames, looking dishevelled.

“Stay Back…” she sobbed desperately. She didn’t belong here, she didn’t… this wasn’t right. This wasn’t her timeline, her world, she remembered now, how Tatie D and Uncle Kol had conspired to tear her from her world, transplanting her here.

“Hope,” Klaus was there, catching her before she could fall back. She found herself jerked into his chest, arms wrapping tightly around her.

“No… no… this… this isn’t right…” she sobbed as her knees gave out.

“I don’t give a fuck,” he breathed. She felt this version of her father scenting her over and she sobbed as she felt everything break in her. She didn’t belong here.

“We… you need blood,” he said suddenly. “Come, we… there was a bar back there.

“What’s the point?” she sobbed.

“Hope?”

“I don’t belong here, this isn’t my timeline, you didn’t want me…”

“You Are My Daughter!” Klaus snarled. “I meant it before that bloody spell, and I mean it now, you are mine Hope. Let’s go.”

“Why?”

“Because fathers do not outlive their children,” he snapped. “Now come on, I am not having my eldest daughter perish because her status as a tribrid is incomplete without human blood.”

“I… I… I don’t belong here, just let me go!”

“No Hope!” Klaus roared. “You Are My Daughter! I Will Not Stand By For You To Perish Because You Believe You Are Not Mine. Regardless of what timeline you are from, regardless of what legacy you carry, you are a Mikaelson and you are my daughter. And your father, in your timeline would not want you to merely quit because life got difficult. Life is always difficult, but you carry on Hope. And you do not get to join the ranks of the Valkyries just yet, I will not permit it.”

“Why?”

“Because I love you, and because you are my daughter.”

She stared at him with tears burning her eyes as the snot dribbled down to her lips. She trembled violently; she should feel cold, but she didn’t rather her body was reacting to things out of habit.

“But I don’t belong here.”

“You belong where I say you belong, young lady, now let us get you blood and call your mother and sisters,” he decided. She stumbled after him as she walked with her father. She tensed as there were claps of thunder, her powers were still violently swirling in her.

“Uncle Kol’s spell…”

“It was never meant to last, I remember his warning.”

“I… I’m sorry,” she sobbed. Her dad pulled her into his battered side; smelling of burnt leather, blood, and oil, he just held her as he pressed his lips to the crown of her head.

“Do not be sorry, for you are love, no matter the timeline, you belong with us, Hope. Let us get you blood.”

[wonderland-but-unoriginal]

The words felt heavy on my mind as I stared at them incredulously. "What do you mean? Of course no one has died for me to kill you, just as I don't want to end your life. How could I?" I expect some snide comment about killing the person I used to be, or there being a trillion timelines where I kill them; basically your typical time controlling villain stuff.

What I don't expect is the laugh that I get back. Not a cackle, not a maniacal giggle, but a laugh. As if something was truly funny, as if my vow to never take a life was some sort of sick joke, as if I was the one who should be ridiculed. "No one has died for you to kill me? You don't want to kill me? Listen to yourself! Lying blatantly to my face, and worse yet you look like you believe it. But I guess no one other than government workers and you matters, do they?" They put two fingers up and two fingers down in that familiar pose, and soon enough I was hit with a sense of vertigo. The landscape shifted and changed, and a cityscape greets me, the smell of gasoline, probably from some car, and general smog hits me.

"When did you take me?" I tried to keep myself balanced as I watch the beginnings of a skyscraper fall. 'I recognize this place,' I thought. 'This is the Times attack. The square...' "Why did you take me back here?"

"You'll see." The hoarse voice rang out as Remordi disappeared from my sight. I was alone with the screams of the people as they ran.

I remembered this day vividly. It had been over a year, but the details came to mind easily. It was a Saturday in summer. Remordi had damaged one of the supporting beams of the building, knocking a worker out of the way and lighting a huge fire. The rest of the structure soon came crashing down. I rushed over, and it was on that day I became known as Ingen. A hero.

I watched the scene play out, having just been dropped off in the time when Remordi, in their midnight and beaten up clothes, knocked the worker out, so right now the flames were spreading. They were spreading fast. It was so hard to breathe, every breath felt like I was breathing through rubber coated in glitter. Scratchy and impossible. Still, I flew up and watched the past me fly down from somewhere, quickly trying to evacuate people and put out the fire. But the water never worked for some reason, the building completely collapses anyway, and a bunch of randos die for no reason. "I'm already aware of how this happens! Let me go already, Remordi."

"You still aren't seeing." I could hear their disapproval loud and clear, and I almost felt ashamed.

I stamped my foot, annoyed. "Seeing what? Because I see the death and destruction real clear. What do you want me to see?"

"The truth." Again I'm filled with a sense of vertigo as the scene goes back. 'Great, real helpful. Totally narrows everything down.'

So again, I watched the scene, gasoline bothering my nose once more. 'Someone really needs to get their damn car checked.' They took me a little earlier this time. I watched them fly down and push the worker, and the same chaos ensued. 'Pointless, this all is.'

"Did you see anything?" Remordi asked me, as if some how I would get an epiphany and see something amazing.

"No, but maybe I would if-"

I didn't get to finish because they had restarted it. Again. This time even earlier. Yet again, I just saw them fall- Fall? Dammit, the moment had passed and I didn't get to see it clearly. 'What was that though?' The scene plays as it always does.

Remordi begins again, their muffled voice again starting, "Did you see-"

"Shut up and restart me again." I demanded.

They did, even earlier this time. 'Good. I have a chance to actually see this time.'

This time I look at the sky, look at what exactly was happening.

Remordi was right near the end of a crane on a building... and got. Hit. They fell down, hitting the construction worker who promptly passed out and knocking a poor secured beam loose. I quickly flew closer, and lo and behold, his cigarette falls, causing the fire. 'But why is the smell of gasoline so strong here...?'

The scene plays out, and I'm prepared for when I hear Remordi's voice. "Did you see anything?"

"Yes." I nodded, hoping they could see me. "You were hit by a crane into the building causing the so-called attack. It was an accident. Is that what you wanted me to see?"

"You're so close." They almost sounded proud, and I hated how it kind of made me happy. "Watch again."

"Ugh." The dizziness hit me and faded again, and I flew up to see the details of what happened, earlier again. 'No... that can't be. Can it?'

Indeed it was. Before heroe-ing became my full time job, I was but a humble crane operator and construction worker. Turns out having super strength is handy for carrying materials. I sat in the very crane in front of me, just doing my job on the top of a building. 'I forgot I was at work that day... Oh gods, don't tell me...' I watched with wide eyes as my crane hits Remordi, who was seemingly trying to approach me.

The scene played out again, and I watched the cigarette fall with interest. 'What caught fire here, again?' I watched it splash in something before it became too dangerous to stay. I flew out, feeling there was something I was missing. 'I... caused the accident. I'm the one who knocked into them. I did this. Oh gods, I did this.'

"Did you-"

"One more time. Please." I hated how much it sounded like I was begging and how I was now asking to be sent back.

Still, I watch the scene maybe 5 minutes before the accident happens, but instead of going to the crane, I headed over to where the cigarette will eventually fall. I had put fingers down to the ground and they had come back up moist. It smelled horribly of gasoline.

Someone had spilled gasoline and no one noticed.

That's what had caused the fire. The fire that eneded up killing so many people, the chaos that took weeks to repair, all caused by me. Innocents, children, people just trying to live their lives, gone.

It was all pure accident, accident made worse by my actions and lack of awareness. If only I could've fixed this! But, wait, Remordi controls time, don't they..?

"Did you see something?" They sounded much grimmer this time, and the landscape fades, going back to the bright white it was originally, almost as if they knew I had realized the full story.

I spoke much more quietly this time. "It was an accident I caused. I hit you with the crane, which happened to cause the fire and building collapse. You were innocent."

I heard them snort, as if something was funny. I didn't think I'd ever understand them. "Far from innocent. Just less of a fool and more remorseful. Now, I have a parting gift." Remordi appeared once more, their mask gone, revealing a disfigured face. They looked sorrowful, as if they were about to do something tragic. Still, I trusted them when they put their hands on my shoulders. 'My shoulders... when did I get so covered in ash? People would think my clothes are black and torn up.' "Take this, and be gone."

My whole vision flashed white, and suddenly I was in the sky. I knew this was different than before, I felt different. So, caution gone to the wind, I flew forward. I was right there, I could reach myself in time, stop it from happening, everything would be okay, I'd be a hero.

Turns out, getting hit by a crane hurts like hell.

Also turns out I'm an impatient, destructive, and foolish idiot.

A year comes and passes, and news headline after news headline comes out about the attack. As it turns out, 768 people physically died in that attack. 768 lives lost due to my own idiocy. I know now what I have to do.

I have to kill the old me for them to see the truth.

Gods, Fate really loves Irony, doesn't she?

When everything is all set up, I wait patiently for Ingen to ask the question. I was so arrogant, wasn't I? So blind, so stupid, so willing to throw away lives. I need to fix that.

“How many people have died to achieve this world domination of yours?” “769.” “…What?” “769 people died to achieve my plans. I counted them, and had each of their names etched on my throne so I never forget what my victory cost the world. Now tell me, how many have you killed to see me dead?”

[rainywerewolfmoon]

Rule of Fairyland

Ao3 link here Rule of Fairyland - Chapter 7 - Princessmh9 - Multifandom [Archive of Our Own]

Chapter 7: The Outer Villagers

{A few suns later}

{As Ash enters the dining hall an excited Aurora bounced up to him holding her lose tooth out to show him.}

{Aurora} Look Uncle Ash. My tooth came out at last.

{Ash} Wow, Aurora! That's amazing! I heard that the tooth fairy visits when a tooth falls out. Are you excited to put your tooth under your pillow tonight?

{Aurora} Yes, Uncle Ash, I can't wait! Aunty Genevieve said that the tooth fairy will leave a special gem in its place.

{Ash} It's always such a special moment when your first tooth comes out. It's like a milestone on your journey to growing up. Just make sure to keep your tooth safe until bedtime so the tooth fairy can find it easily.

{Aurora} Don't worry, Uncle Ash, I've already put it in a little box, so it won't get lost. I'm going to write a note for the tooth fairy too!

{Ash} That's a great idea, Aurora! The tooth fairy will love the note, I'm sure. It's all part of the magic. And remember, even though your baby tooth is gone, a new one will grow in its place before you know it.

{Aurora} I can't wait to see what the new tooth will look like! Thanks for being here, Uncle Ash. It's fun to share these special moments with you.

{Ash} Of course, Aurora! I'm always here to celebrate with you and support you.

{Aurora turning to Willow} Come on brother lets write that note.

{She grabs his hand as they run out of the room giggling while Ash smiles at this. He then walks over to the table were Oberon and Titania were sitting.}

{Titania} Aurora was so excited to show you her first tooth. Hopefully it won't be long till Willow loses one.

{Oberon chuckles at this} Don't worry my Queen. It will happen when it happens.

{Ash} You're right, Queen Titania. Each child has their own timeline for these things. It's all part of the natural process of growing up. I'm just glad I could share in Aurora's excitement today. It's these little moments that make life so wonderful.

{Titania} Indeed, Ash. It's heartwarming to see how much joy a simple event like losing a tooth can bring. And Willow will have his turn too, when the time is right.

{Oberon} Patience has its rewards. Willow will have his own stories to tell, just as Aurora does now. It's a journey we all take, one step at a time. Speaking of the children where is Genevieve this morning?

{Ash} She is still asleep. I think she has pushed herself too hard lately. I am worried about what that could do to the baby.

{Oberon} It's important for Genevieve to take care of herself, especially during this time. Pregnancy can be demanding, and it's essential for both her and the baby's well-being that she gets the rest she needs. Perhaps you could talk to her about finding a balance between her activities and her duty's and taking breaks.

{Ash} You're right, King Oberon. I've been trying to encourage her to take it easy, but she's always been someone who wants to do everything herself. I'll have a conversation with her and make sure she understands the importance of self-care.

{Titania} It's not uncommon for expectant mothers to feel a sense of responsibility and want to continue with their usual activities. But reminding Genevieve that her health and the baby's health are top priorities might help her reevaluate her approach.

{Ash} I'll approach the conversation with care and understanding. I know she wants what's best for our growing family, and I want to support her in every way I can.

{Oberon} That's the spirit, Ash. Communication is key, and I'm sure Genevieve will appreciate your concern. Remember, we're all here to support each other, just as we've always done.

{Ash} Thank you, both of you. Your guidance means a lot. I'll make sure to have that conversation with Genevieve and ensure that she's taking the necessary steps to prioritize her health and the baby's well-being.

{The doors open and Genevieve walks in still rubbing her eyes as she tries to settle the petal top, she was wearing into place.}

{Ash with a playful smile} Got dressed in the dark did we, my love?

{Genevieve, chuckling} It seems so. Mornings have become quite the adventure lately. And good morning to you too, Ash.

{Ash} Good morning, Genevieve. I hope you got some rest last night. You seem a bit tired.

{Genevieve} Oh, you know, just the usual. Just been thinking about everything I have to do today. My duty's then my Queen lessons and then training and helping rebuild Fairyland.

{She reaches for the tea pot and pours herself a cup of violet tea while Ash watches concerned.}

{Ash} That sounds like quite the schedule, Genevieve. But remember, it's important to find a balance between your responsibilities and taking care of yourself, especially during this time. Your well-being and the baby's well-being are top priorities.

{Titania} Genevieve, dear, I understand the weight of your duties, but it's crucial to listen to your body and give yourself the rest you need. Pushing yourself too hard might not be beneficial for you or the baby.

{Oberon} Our kingdom can be rebuilt over time, and your training can continue once you're in a better state physically. Your health comes first.

{Genevieve glaring at him} Physically? I only just got up and you already telling me I need to have a brake? I can handle this. The baby is fine, and I have my duties as a Princess to tend to and my warrior duty's as well.

{Oberon, realizing his mistake} I'm sorry, Genevieve. I didn't mean to come across as dismissive of your capabilities. I know you're strong and capable of handling your responsibilities. It's just that I care about your well-being and wanted to make sure you're taking care of yourself too. I respect your determination and your dedication to your duties.

{Genevieve taking a sip of her tea} Besides I have it already planned out I have.

{Ash looking at her confused} You do?

{Genevieve} Yes Ash. I am going to carry on my duties until its 9 full moons then I will take a brake until the child is born then a week or so later after I have giving birth I will go back to my duty's.

{Ash gently} I don't think that's a good idea love.

{Genevieve, looking determined} Ash, I've thought this through. I know my own limits and what I can handle. I'm confident that I can continue with my duties as planned. It's important for me to maintain my responsibilities and not let anything hold me back.

{Ash concerned} I understand your determination, Genevieve. But pregnancy can be unpredictable, and your body might need more rest and care than you anticipate. It's not just about you anymore; it's about the baby too.

{Oberon and Titania look at each other worriedly}

{Genevieve determined} I am not like my sisters. Who when there is the first mention of a child to be born, they lay around lazy as anything. I am Merlin's Granddaughter. I am a Princess and a warrior. I will not simply lay around and be idol.

{Ash, gently} Genevieve, I understand your determination and your desire to uphold your responsibilities. Your strength and spirit are truly admirable. However, it's important to remember that each pregnancy is unique, and even the strongest individuals need to take precautions for the well-being of both them and the baby.

{Titania, softly} Genevieve, dear, we're not suggesting that you need to become idle. We simply want you to find a balance that ensures the health and safety of both you and the baby.

{Oberon} Your lineage and your roles are part of what make you who you are, but they don't exempt you from the realities of pregnancy. It's not a sign of weakness to prioritize your health during this time.

{Genevieve frustrated} I'm not weak! I'm capable of handling this. My Aunt Victoria was pregnant and so I know what to except.

{Ash getting frustrated} It's not just about resting. This baby will have two different lineages. It be half human and half elf, and I am worried how that is not only to effect it but you as well.

{Genevieve, defensively} I understand the concerns, but I've witnessed pregnancies in my family before. Aunt Victoria managed just fine, and I believe I can too. I'm not one to back down from a challenge.

{Titania, gently} Genevieve, dear, your determination is admirable, but every pregnancy is unique. Half-human, half-elf heritage might introduce certain factors that we can't fully predict. It's about being prepared for any possibilities.

{Oberon} We're not questioning your capabilities, Genevieve. We simply want you to be aware of the potential complexities that might arise and take the necessary precautions.

{Genevieve, stubbornly} I appreciate your concern, but I've made up my mind. I'm not going to let fear hold me back. I'll be vigilant and proactive, just like in battle.

{Ash, sighing} Genevieve, it's not about fear; it's about responsibility. Being proactive and vigilant means considering all aspects, including your health and the baby's well-being.

{Genevieve frustrated} I know you mean well, but I can't let my pregnancy dictate how I live my life. I have duties to uphold, and I won't let anything get in the way of that.

{Ash} But Genevieve...

{Genevieve crying} No Ash. All my life I was told how to act, how to talk how to do this or that. How to be a proper lady. But that's not me. Then I came here with Winter and then my life changed for the better. I found out who my grandfather was really. And I feel in love with someone who was not trying to court me. My best friend. A Prince. And he made me feel like I do anything I set my heart too. But now he is trying to hold me back. I feel in love with you for a reason and now you don't want to support me in my decision.

{Ash angry} Your decision! I gave up having a castle of our own so I could support you. Genevieve if you won't support me then why should I support you.

{Genevieve, tearful} Ash, I didn't mean for it to sound like I don't appreciate your support. I do. I love you, and I'm grateful for everything you've done for me. But this decision feels like a part of who I am, and I thought you would understand that.

{Ash frustrated} Genevieve, I do understand that. I know you've struggled against expectations your whole life, and I've admired your strength in being true to yourself. But this isn't about holding you back; it's about making sure we're both making responsible choices for our family.

{Genevieve, wiping her tears} I know you're right, Ash. And I don't want us to argue about this. I just want you to know that I value your opinion and your support means everything to me. I don't want us to lose sight of what we have because of this disagreement.

{Ash, calming down} I don't want to argue either, Genevieve. I love you deeply, and I respect your determination. I just worry about both you and our child. I want what's best for our family, even if it means making compromises.

{Genevieve, with a sad smile} I know you do, Ash. And I promise to take your concerns seriously. Maybe we can find a middle ground that ensures both our well-being and my desire to continue my responsibilities.

{Ash, softer} I'd appreciate that, Genevieve. I'm not trying to stifle your spirit; I just want us all to be safe and healthy.

{Genevieve, taking his hand} I understand, and I'm willing to work through this together. We've faced challenges before, and I believe we can find a solution that satisfies both of us. I am going to saddle Shadow up and check on the outer villagers of Enchanted Forest today.

{Ash} That sounds like a good plan, Genevieve. Checking on the villagers and ensuring their well-being is important. Just remember to take it easy while you're out there. If you need any assistance or if you start feeling tired, don't hesitate to ask for help.

{Genevieve determined} I will, Ash. I know my limits, and I'll make sure to prioritize my health and safety.

{Ash} And don't forget to drink water and have a snack while you're out. Keeping your energy up is crucial.

{Genevieve a bit annoyed} Ash I be ok. Trust me.

{Ash} I'm sorry if I came across as overbearing, Genevieve. I do trust you, and I know you're more than capable of taking care of yourself. I just care about your well-being, and I wanted to make sure you have everything you need to stay healthy while you're out.

{Genevieve, softening} I know you do, Ash, and I appreciate your concern. I can be a bit stubborn at times, but I also know that you're looking out for me. I promise I'll stay hydrated and have a snack if I start feeling tired.

{Ash, smiling} Thank you for understanding. I know you're strong and independent, and I respect that. Just remember, we're a team, and we support each other no matter what.

{Genevieve} You're right, as always. I won't hesitate to ask for help if I need it. And I'll make sure to take care of myself out there. And if it makes you feel better, I take Excalibur with me.

{Ash} That does make me feel better, Genevieve. Excalibur will always be by your side, and I know you'll use it wisely. Just remember, even with a powerful weapon, it's important to avoid unnecessary risks.

{Genevieve, nodding} I understand, Ash. Excalibur is both a symbol of strength and a responsibility. I'll make sure to stay cautious and prioritize safety.

{Ash} That's all I ask. And if you ever need backup or assistance, you know I'm just a call away.

{Genevieve} I appreciate that, Ash. And I'll keep that in mind. I'm heading out now, but I'll be back soon. And when I get back make sure you got the tea ready.

{Ash, laughing} Of course, I'll have it prepared and waiting. Now go and take care of your duties, my warrior princess.

{Genevieve, winking} I will, my prince. See you soon.

{As Genevieve leaves the room Oberon looks at Ash closely.}

{Oberon} Do you and Genevieve fight often?

{Ash sighs at this} We sometimes we have our disagreements, but we never started to fight until a couple of weeks ago. It was the night before the announcement that we had our first real fight. This is our second time we fought.

{Titania and Oberon look at each other at this news.}

{Oberon} That's a noticeable change in your relationship. What caused the sudden escalation in your conflicts?

{Ash} Well our first fight was about the third castle. I wanted to have a castle of my own for my family, but Genevieve wanted to stay here until its time for her and I take our places on the throne then move into my father's castle.

{Oberon} Ah, differences in long-term plans and aspirations can be quite a sensitive topic, especially when it involves both personal desires and responsibilities to the throne. It's clear that you both have your own visions for the future.

{Titania} It sounds like your fight was rooted in a clash of priorities and expectations. Did you both have a chance to fully express your viewpoints to each other?

{Ash} Not really. Our emotions got the best of us that night, and the argument turned into a heated exchange before we could have a proper discussion.

{Oberon} Miscommunications and misunderstandings can often escalate conflicts. It might be beneficial for you to sit down and calmly talk about your individual desires, concerns, and how you envision your future together. Finding a compromise that respects both of your needs is essential.

{Titania} Remember, a healthy relationship involves understanding, compromise, and supporting each other's dreams. Is there a way you can find common ground and work towards a solution that aligns with both of your wishes?

{Ash} I believe there's room for us to find a middle ground. Maybe we can discuss the possibility of having a castle in the future while also fulfilling our duties to the throne.

{Oberon} That sounds like a step in the right direction. Honest and open communication can go a long way in resolving conflicts and strengthening your relationship.

{Titania} It's heartening to see your willingness to find a solution. Relationships require effort, but they can also bring great joy and fulfillment when nurtured.

{Ash} Thankyou King Oberon and Queen Titania for your advice.

{Oberon} You're welcome, Ash. Remember, we've all faced challenges in our relationships, and it's a part of growing and learning together.

{Titania} Indeed, relationships require effort, but they can also bring immense joy and strength. We're here to support you in any way we can.

{Oberon} Take your time to talk with Genevieve and work things out. And if you ever need more advice or someone to talk to, don't hesitate to reach out.

{Titania} Best of luck, Ash. We wish you and Genevieve a future filled with understanding and happiness.

{Ash nods his head to them and then stands up and leaves the room.}

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As Genevieve and her steed, Shadow, navigate through the outer edges of the Enchanted Forest, she can't help but feel a sense of optimism and tranquility wash over her. The delicate buds of new life that she observes bring a soothing contrast to the previous turmoil that had affected both the land and her own personal life.

With each step Shadow takes, Genevieve's mind drifts back to the recent conflicts she had with Ash. The memory of their arguments weighs on her heart, but the sight of the forest's rejuvenation reminds her that growth is possible even after times of hardship. She realizes that just as the forest is finding its way back to vibrancy, she and Ash can also find a way to heal and rebuild their relationship.

Genevieve's smile deepens as she considers the potential for a fresh start. The forest's resilience becomes a source of inspiration, reminding her of the strength and endurance that exists within her as well. She knows that it won't be easy, but the journey towards understanding and reconciliation with Ash is a path worth taking.

As she comes to one of the outer villages she smiles as she brings herself out of her thoughts as she notices the first sign of new houses for the folk are up.

Genevieve's journey through the Enchanted Forest leads her to one of the outer villages, where a heartwarming scene unfolds before her. The sight of the new houses being erected signifies progress and a fresh beginning for the villagers who had also endured the recent challenges. The smile on Genevieve's face widens as she witnesses the tangible results of their collective efforts.

As Genevieve approached the construction site, she was greeted by a bustling scene of activity. The air was filled with a sense of purpose and camaraderie as various magical creatures worked together to bring the new houses to life. The Pixies were diligently planting toadstools around the bases of the houses, creating a charming and whimsical atmosphere. The pumpkins being carefully placed by hobbits, dwarfs, and gnomes added a touch of coziness and warmth to the surroundings.

Genevieve's admiration for the collective efforts grew as she observed the seamless collaboration between different magical beings, each contributing their unique skills to the project. It was a beautiful testament to the unity and resilience that could arise from adversity. The sight of the toadstools and pumpkins taking root symbolized not only the physical rebuilding of the village but also the renewal of hope and community spirit.

Moved by the scene before her, Genevieve approached the Pixies who were working on the toadstools. One of the Pixies spotted her and bowed to her.}

{Pixie} Your highness, what brings you to our humble village Honeysuckle?

{Genevieve smiled warmly at the Pixie who had noticed her and offered a respectful bow. The Pixie's courteous demeanor was both endearing and a testament to the sense of respect that existed within the enchanted community.}

{Genevieve} Your efforts here are truly inspiring. I wanted to see the progress for myself and express my gratitude to all of you for your hard work in rebuilding this village. Your dedication is a shining example of unity and determination.

{The Pixie blushed at Genevieve's words, clearly touched by her appreciation.}

{Pixie} We're honored by your visit, your highness. It's our duty to restore the beauty and harmony of our home, and we're grateful for the chance to contribute. The toadstools and pumpkins will not only add charm but also offer a sense of comfort to those who will reside here.

{Genevieve nodded in agreement, her admiration for the Pixies growing stronger.}

{Genevieve} Your attention to detail and the care you put into every aspect of this project is truly remarkable. I believe that the love and dedication you're pouring into these efforts will create a village that's not just rebuilt, but also imbued with a sense of hope and renewal.

{The Pixie's smile radiated gratitude and a sense of shared purpose.}

{Pixie} Thank you, your highness. Your support means a lot to all of us. We're working with the hope that this village will not only be a home but also a symbol of our resilience and ability to come together, no matter the challenges we face.

{Genevieve's heart swelled with appreciation for the Pixies' perspective and their commitment to creating a better future. As Genevieve moved from the Pixies' area to where the Gnomes, Dwarfs, and Hobbits were working, she was greeted by the industrious sounds of construction, laughter, and friendly chatter. The diverse group of magical beings was collaborating seamlessly, each contributing their skills and expertise to the project. The atmosphere was one of camaraderie and shared purpose, a true reflection of the strength that could arise from unity.

Genevieve approached a group of Gnomes who were skillfully crafting intricate details on the houses. Their meticulous work showcased their craftsmanship and dedication to the task at hand. She smiled and offered a respectful nod to them.}

{Genevieve} Your craftsmanship is exceptional, and it's evident that you're pouring your heart into these houses. The attention to detail is truly remarkable.

{One of the Gnomes looked up from his work, a pleased expression on his face.}

{Gnome} Thank you, your highness. We take pride in our work, and it's an honor to contribute to the rebuilding of our village. These houses will not just be shelters; they'll be homes, filled with the stories of those who reside in them.

{Genevieve's appreciation deepened as she recognized the sentiment behind the Gnome's words.}

{Genevieve} Your dedication is a testament to the spirit of this community. It's inspiring to see how everyone is coming together to create a place of beauty, comfort, and belonging.

{The Gnome nodded; a sense of camaraderie evident in his eyes.}

{Gnome} We've learned that even in the face of adversity, we have the power to shape our future. Working alongside our fellow magical beings, we're reminded of the strength that comes from unity and understanding.

{Genevieve's heart swelled with a sense of connection to the villagers. Their words resonated deeply with her, reminding her of the challenges she faced in her own relationships.}

{Genevieve} Your wisdom is invaluable, and I'm grateful to have witnessed your efforts today. You're building not just houses, but a foundation of hope and renewal.

{With a final exchange of nods and smiles, Genevieve bid the Gnomes farewell and continued her journey through the village. As she walked, her heart felt lighter, fueled by the lessons and inspiration she had gained from the villagers' unwavering determination.

As Genevieve made her way through the village, she was greeted by the sounds of hammering, laughter, and the clinking of tools. She approached a group of Dwarfs who were working on constructing the sturdy foundations of the new houses. Their expertise in stonework was evident, as they meticulously arranged the stones and bricks to create solid structures.}

{Genevieve} Your dedication to craftsmanship is truly impressive. The houses you're building will stand strong for generations to come.

{A Dwarf, wiping sweat from his brow, looked up with a proud grin.}

{Dwarf} Aye, your highness. We Dwarfs take pride in our ability to create enduring structures. These houses will be a testament to our commitment and resilience.

{Genevieve's heart swelled with respect for their work ethic and dedication to their craft.}

{Genevieve} It's clear that your passion extends beyond the physical construction. You're building a sense of community and unity through your efforts.

{The Dwarf nodded in agreement, a twinkle of determination in his eyes.}

{Dwarf} In times of challenge, we Dwarfs have learned the importance of pulling together and supporting one another. These houses will be a reflection of our shared strength.

{Genevieve's conversation with the Dwarfs left her feeling even more inspired and determined. Their sense of unity and purpose resonated deeply with her own desire to mend her relationship with Ash.

With a grateful smile, she moved on to the hobbits' area, where they were adding cozy touches to the houses, like hanging lanterns and adorning windows with curtains.}

{Genevieve} Your attention to creating a warm and inviting atmosphere is wonderful. These houses will be homes filled with comfort and love.

{A hobbit, carefully arranging lanterns, looked up and smiled warmly.}

{Hobbit} Thank you, your highness. We believe that a welcoming environment is essential for nurturing both friendships and family bonds.

{Genevieve's heart swelled with appreciation for their approach to creating spaces that fostered connection.}

{Genevieve} Your wisdom in creating spaces that promote unity and understanding is truly admirable. The village will thrive thanks to your thoughtfulness.

{Genevieve's journey through the village continued, and she was met with another heartwarming sight: the village marketplace springing back to life. The bustling activity and cheerful atmosphere brought a smile to her face, as she saw the villagers interacting, exchanging goods, and reconnecting with one another.

The once-quiet marketplace was now vibrant with color and energy. Stalls were set up with fresh produce, colorful fabrics, and handmade crafts. Villagers of various magical species were engaged in lively conversations, sharing stories and laughter.

As Genevieve walked through the marketplace, she was approached by a friendly group of villagers who recognized her.}

{Villager} Your highness, welcome to our humble marketplace! We're so glad to see you here.

{Genevieve} Thank you. It's wonderful to see the marketplace alive and thriving once again.

{The villagers beamed with pride, clearly excited to showcase their progress.}

{Villager} It's been a collaborative effort to revive this marketplace. We wanted to create a space where everyone could come together, share their talents, and support one another.

{Genevieve's heart warmed at their words, understanding the importance of communal spaces for fostering connections.}

{Genevieve} You've truly captured the essence of unity and community here. This marketplace is a testament to the spirit of resilience that runs through the village.

{The villagers nodded in agreement, their expressions reflecting the sense of accomplishment they felt.}

{Villager} We believe that through shared experiences and moments of joy, we can strengthen our bonds and overcome challenges together.

{As Genevieve spent time mingling with the villagers, she was struck by the genuine connections being forged. The marketplace was not just a place for trading goods; it was a space where friendships were rekindled, stories were shared, and support was given.

With a renewed sense of purpose, Genevieve continued her journey, her heart filled with hope and inspiration. The vibrant marketplace served as a reminder that even in the face of difficulties, communities could come together and thrive. Genevieve's interaction with the vibrant marketplace left her feeling invigorated and determined to bring positive change to not only the village she had visited but to all the other villages as well. As she walked back to Shadow, her steed and faithful companion, she expressed her thoughts out loud, reaffirming her commitment to the journey ahead.

Patting Shadow's neck gently, Genevieve shared her reflections.}

{Genevieve} Well, Shadow, that's one village down and nineteen more to go. It won't be an easy journey, but seeing the progress in Honeysuckle has reminded me that our efforts are worthwhile.

{Shadow responded with a soft whinny, a gesture that seemed to convey understanding and support for Genevieve's mission. With a renewed determination, Genevieve mounted Shadow once more. The bond between them was strong, a reflection of the trust and companionship they shared.}

{Genevieve} We have a lot of work ahead of us, my friend, but I believe that with each village we visit, we'll be making a positive impact on both the communities and our own journey.

{As Shadow began to move, their journey continued, carrying with them the hope and inspiration gained from Honeysuckle's revival. The path ahead might be challenging, but Genevieve knew that the lessons she had learned from the villagers' resilience and unity would guide her steps.}

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As the sun began its descent, casting a warm golden hue across the Enchanted Forest, Genevieve made her way back towards the castle with Shadow. The journey had been long and eventful, but the sense of accomplishment and hope that filled her heart made it all worthwhile.

As she rode, Genevieve's thoughts were a whirlwind of the scenes she had witnessed throughout the day—the bustling marketplaces, the skilled craftsmen, the flourishing nature, and most importantly, the unity and resilience of the villagers. It was clear that her mission to visit each village on the edge of the Enchanted Forest was already bearing fruit.

The twenty villages she had visited were all on a path of rebuilding, each one showing remarkable progress towards their former glory. The renewed sense of purpose and community spirit she had encountered in each village was a powerful reminder that even after adversity, there was the potential for growth and positive change.

Genevieve's peaceful reverie was abruptly shattered by a powerful and ominous sound—a roar that echoed through the air, causing Shadow to come to an abrupt halt. The urgency in the sound and Shadow's reaction immediately drew Genevieve's attention.

As she looked around, her instincts kicked in, and she felt a surge of concern. The words she spoke were a mixture of determination and worry.}

{Genevieve} That sounded like a dragon, Shadow, and it seemed distressed. We must find its source and see if we can help.

{Genevieve's heart raced as she scanned the horizon, trying to locate the source of the distressful roar. The Enchanted Forest, usually serene and peaceful, had taken on an air of tension and uncertainty. The eerie glow of twilight bathed the Enchanted Forest in an otherworldly light, intensifying the sense of urgency as the distressful roar echoed through the air once more. Genevieve's senses were on high alert, and her intuition led her to a conclusion.}

{Genevieve} It sounds like it's coming from the river. Shadow, we need to move quickly. There might be a dragon in need of help.

{Genevieve's words were a mixture of determination and empathy. Urging Shadow forward, she guided him towards the direction of the river. The rustling leaves and the distant calls of creatures seemed to heighten the tension in the air, creating an atmosphere of suspense. As she reached the riverbank she gasped in shock.

Genevieve's heart sank as the full extent of the dragon's predicament came into view. The majestic creature, once a symbol of power and grace, was now ensnared in a web of cold, pure steel iron chains and traps that seemed to be remnants of the Wild Hunt. The sight was both heartbreaking and infuriating, a stark reminder of the dangers that existed in the Enchanted Forest.

Dismounting from Shadow, Genevieve approached cautiously, her empathy for the dragon's plight deepening. The dragon's struggles were evident, but its immense strength seemed to be of little use against the powerful restraints.}

{Genevieve} We're here to help. We'll do everything we can to free you from these chains and traps.

{Genevieve's words were a mixture of reassurance and determination. As she assessed the situation, she considered the best approach to release the dragon from its entrapment.}

Genevieve carefully began to examine the chains and traps, searching for weak points or mechanisms that could be manipulated to free the dragon. The forest was silent, as if holding its breath in anticipation of her efforts.

With each movement, the bonds that held the dragon seemed to resist, the challenge of their task becoming more apparent. But the shared goal of freeing the creature fueled their determination. Genevieve's heart was set on righting this wrong, restoring the dragon to its rightful place of power and freedom.

She hurried over to Shadow and pulls out Excalibur and looks back at the dragon.

Genevieve's determination burned brightly as she retrieved Excalibur, the legendary sword that had proven its power against great adversaries. With the Heart of Lumina's magic coursing through the blade, it held the potential to break even the strongest restraints.

Holding Excalibur aloft, its blade gleaming with a radiant light, Genevieve turned her gaze towards the trapped dragon. The creature's distress was evident, and the challenge before her was clear—free the dragon from the steel iron chains and traps that ensnared it.}

{Genevieve} Excalibur, infused with the Heart of Lumina, has the strength to break these chains and traps. Just as it defeated Dala, it can bring freedom to this noble creature.

{With conviction in her heart, Genevieve approached the dragon, Excalibur leading the way. The dragon's eyes locked onto the sword, a mixture of hope and anticipation in its gaze.

As the blade of Excalibur made contact with the steel iron chains, a surge of magical energy emanated from the sword. The Heart of Lumina's power interwoven with Excalibur's own enchantment began to work its magic. The chains groaned under the pressure, and cracks appeared along their length.

One by one, the chains began to shatter, the steel iron links splintering and falling away. The traps that had ensnared the dragon's wings and legs also released their grip, clattering to the ground.

With a triumphant roar, the dragon's immense wings unfurled, and it stood tall, free from its restraints. Its eyes met Genevieve's, gratitude and strength evident in the depths of its gaze.}

{Genevieve} You're free now. Embrace your freedom and soar once more.

{As if in response to her words, the dragon stretched its wings and leaped into the air, taking flight with a powerful beat of its wings. The forest echoed with the sound of its roars of freedom, a testament to the strength that unity, courage, and legendary magic could achieve.

Lowering Excalibur, Genevieve watched with a sense of accomplishment and joy as the dragon circled overhead. The Heart of Lumina's power had once again proven its ability to bring about positive change and renewal. She walked over to Shadow with a hint of worry.

Genevieve's worry was understandable as she recognized the presence of traps and the potential danger that might still linger in the area. She approached Shadow, her concern evident in her expression. Shadow nuzzles her as she attaches Excalibur back to the saddle.}

{Genevieve} You're right, Shadow. If there are traps here, it's likely that there could be more hidden throughout the forest. We need to return to the castle and warn the others before anyone else gets hurt.

{With a sense of urgency, Genevieve mounted Shadow once more. The bond between them, forged through countless journeys, was a source of reassurance in times of uncertainty.}

{Genevieve} Let's go, Shadow. We need to ensure the safety of the forest and its inhabitants.

{Shadow responded with a determined snort, as if understanding the gravity of the situation. As they rode towards the castle, the urgency in Genevieve's heart was matched by the rhythm of Shadow's steady gallop.

The Enchanted Forest, once a place of tranquility and beauty, was now a realm with newfound challenges and hidden dangers. Genevieve's determination to protect her home and its inhabitants had only grown stronger, and she was ready to face whatever lay ahead.}

[cosmicangel888]

Clearing Karma - The Attraction Means Something ~ Tune in

How anyone feels about you - has nothing to do with what you want and what you need -

Never fall into another's story of energy or emotion just because they 'feel' something for you -

There is always a reason for your attraction's - there is a lessons and a story - so go within - it doesn't mean succumb to the devil urges on every whim or want - that is ego, lack of self, lack of sense of self -

Light, energy, all energies attract - and there are codes, and stories in our energy fields - there is akashic links, lineage links and other timelines and what one person thinks is an attraction - is simply spirit guiding you for a reason;

Any and all energy work should be only within - and when you are a trained healer and practitoner and moved through various global Tests with your teams and the masters - you will be trained for higher service of healing - universal laws and adhering to such non-interference is key -

obsession = monkey mind; 3D mind mental patterns of addiction feeding the no sense of self - so create it and entrain it - for he mind is healed by the spirit as all is - why the devil will keep you in monkey mind - the devil does not want you to awaken to spirit within all things; it wants only wants - never ending wanting & never full - for it is detached from spirit - which is only an illusion and where all illness begins

see the greatness and oneness in what you are attracted to - own it and accept it - it doesn't mean you are a soul mate or partner of anyone - it means there is a lesson

all is meant to be acceptance and allowance - do you fully accept you without giving your power and choice to anyone

maybe you need to make something right - your guides and God will not let up until balance and fairness and whatever karma needs to be repaid -

those with entity attachments; obsessive, compulsive, mirrored playmates & delusions of copying and taking on another's life that is not theirs - entity attachments will be shown and felt in every way - negative self talk, self doubt, taking and scheming to get and take and obsessive traits, scheming up plans to be with those that will feed the ego - clout chasing and so on

there is none that can force another be with you when you are not healing - superficialities - go heal - look these words up and go heal - what beliefs made you superficial

No direction but sucking the stories and energy and life out of others - rather than building and living within yourself -

If you cannot be there for yourself, sort out your shadow and live wholly within yourself - how can any other?

If you are not aligned spiritually - how can you expect anyone spiritually aligned to be with you - when spirit is not important? All is spirit - go within and heal - who are you

Obsession is lack of self, sense of self - so go within and create it and be it - practice it.

never do anything for anyone or to get anyone or anything - pure of heart and loving yourself is everything - 20 years of ascension teaching is the same message - you cannot skip over it - you cannot achieve anything without self love

None should ever go to intend a partnership if any of the above is constant - if you are not right within yourself - none will be of right with you -

You cannot attract what you are not the vibration of - if you have not done the work, you will not attract someone on the path, someone settled and someone that has done the work - period

Sort yourself out - never go towards anyone as your answer - it will always fail - you are your answer - grow up and mature

if you made the mess - sort it out and heal it -

Why would anyone drop and expect and entitle yourself to and with anyone when you are not in a good space and place - why bring that to anyone - that is karmic - and no one will take on another's karma - sort it out and empower yourself to be more and be of self love within - look within

Why would anyone look at anyone to be better; it is within - work on your own story - gold diggers, clout chasers,

when you 'owe' someone - for a good deed, for loyalty or for light or kindness information, wisdoms, and upliftment - you need to ask them what and how they want karma to be returned - obsessing and thinking you are a partner and dumping your life on them is not healing karma - that is dumping your issues on someone that simply doesn't want it nor deserves it -

Own and heal who you are -  ©

None should have to compromise or sacrifice for the lack and wounding of another - when they clearly choose the same toxic cycles of self gratification - all have a choice to go within and heal before ever thinking you are ready for a relationship or to ever think anyone would want to step into such - if you do not know who you are - how could anyone else - sort out you - heal you - do the inner work

Self love is everything - cannot get around it

Blessings

Joanna

#ascension

[selphplusplus]

Alternate dimensions

Event horizon, oh, how we play with darkness

Prelude

The first one was written for a different timeline

I figure it’s time to correct the record

Erect a verbal monument

Resurrect her

Play Sylvia Plath Lofi in the background

Instead of stepping back from the event horizon,

this time, in this timeline

I dived in.

I let the darkness swallow me

like she did

Bottled up the hurt and pain like I was a brrwery,

Cauldron bubble and fuck that witch shit

Have a glass from the tap of broken heart

Burned twice,

ash from ash,

passed from a past I never got passed.

Sprinkle in a dash of relapsed

Extended stay in the room of

anger, shame, and profound sadness

That's the point, the place in time were presently at.

But I jumped in.

And I followed it to its neverend

No hearts left to mend,

Instead, there’s hearts to rend,

Eviscerate the left open ends

Open scars and pick the scabs

watch the blood flow

So slowly into the black hole

Space time never felt so cold.

This time I can REALLY see everything

Last time I thought I could see it all

But I’d never binged so long on darkness

Answered the call.

Lucifer before and after the Fall

The Garden now just doG bones

On the Eve of its demise

The snake whispered to her

In just the right rhythm.

Or so the video shows

A cabaret show

So let us revisit the once hopeful ode

Return to reality,

repay the debt that you were owed.

Sorrow is more accurate a color

For on this canvas I release

But I find no peace.

But still I find no peace.

I found a piece though

there’s a karmic thrill in that

Returning the favor, her to me

Retiring the favor, me to you

As the story unfurls

Keep in mind that I fucked your girl,

While with pretty words and empty assurances

“I want you”

said she wanted to be mine,

Needed time, living on the already borrowed kind.

The light went out

My heavy machinery was scrapped

Everybody even you became the enemy

When the bell rang and visiting hours were over

For the first time, I flicked the switch to off

When I left the room.

“Wanted to be mine,” but really doesn’t,

said pretty words

Not so many actions

lots of false starts,

but evasive tactics.

Whistle blows,

Encroachment on the defense,

15 heart penalties,

Repeat going down

Welcome to the prelude

of the first act.

Oh, if you could see what I see now

Like the rocks, after millions of years of water flowing through them

Molecules being picked apart

At torturously slow speed

Brain being picked apart by the

GI Joe Kung fu grip of speed

Touchdown,

Mushroom tip clouds

Seeds planted

And kids on her back, play date.

And so we start,

Part by part,

Patchwork,

Let me show you how to mend artfully,

to stitch up a millennia of broken hearts.

(The rewrite of this comes next)

Act 1 : Manifest this; gfy and be a ghost

Heatwaves in the shadows…

///

Be the event horizon.

A paradox of sun

and black hole in duality.

Dialectical , ironically.

Emitting light

But destroying it instantly

Still it burns

Fusion of fusions

An internal god.

In perfect balance.

Leaving nothing but gold

But With no glitter

To any that dares

Step into its orbital pressure.

Re-rebirth

On the precipice, peering off balance over the edge.

Velocity of 9.8

stumbled into each other’s lives

Clumsy accident

Now falling, falling, falling

What seems like a forever trip down

But on the way to mutually assured destruction,

We touched that human part

That resides deeper than the soul.

The best of loves are found

Precisely when you’re not looking for it.

Illuminate my darkness with your ultraviolet 💜.

Heartbeats in technicolor.

I’ll warm you with an invisible infrared ❤️

Connected across polar spectrums

Into an irresistible blackhole pull.

Where the tiniest parts of us are smashed together.

One last spark swirling on the event horizon,

The Falling stopped.

The past and the future in 360° visible at the same time in the present.

Only brief instance, too small to measure

Then we became our own gravitational forces.

Only to be crushed into entropic Oneness.

Despite all our differences we’re still more the same than not.

So let us immolate ourselves in the stars of the universe we build after this next Big Bang.

We shall birth galaxies

Our children the stars and planets.

Our legacy a consciousness that arises out of our creation

Super nova heartbeats, and the life that comes after is merely our self-reflection.

Heat death or Absolute Zero,

Lukewarm isn’t an option when our souls pulse with the cores of nebulas.

///

Above three moments in space time are. Out of sync

They must be corrected.

So we have an accurate record

I’ll be in the writing room,

Four below

With words so cold

The ice in my veins, might freeze.

I only hope you go down one more time

Under the cold pacific floes

This place will become your tomb.

[crimsonblackrose]

Why are homes so expensive?

I know, I’m very lucky that my aunt and uncle have let me live with them for free since I came back from Korea but my aunt just told me that come January it’s going to change and it makes total sense and I get it. But at the same time I don’t feel financially secure enough yet to go anywhere else with my freelance job that fires people willy nily and is barely minimum wage. I feel like I was just starting to get back up on my feet after all the awfulness that has been this year and now I’m like extra stressed. My original plan was stay with my aunt and uncle until I get a full time job and then start looking for a place to move out to. Ideally I want a permanent home, something that is mine and staying with my aunt and uncle seemed like a great way to reach towards that goal. I mean my uncle’s hobby is to look at houses in other states to buy a second house so I assumed they were financially secure for me to continue sort of...leeching.

I never expected to just keep getting smacked in the face with emergency/awfulness as soon as I landed and that’s been it’s own stress. I never expected to stay this long either.

But according to the search I just did, depleting all of my savings would barely afford me anything and I wouldn’t be able to make monthly payments which is not helping with the sudden change in plans.

It’s wrench. And to be fair we never talked about it. About any of it. How long I’d stay, ect and I know I’m going to have to bring it up again and figure out exactly what I need to talk to them about because it’s stressing me out something awful. Like what all are we switching up? How much? I know they’re not going to overcharge me or anything, but it will be another thing I have to add to my financial plans and it’ll be another big chunk of my paycheck gone. And it changes the things I had planned. Really it changes everything. I feel like I’d just been like figuring out a decent balance and getting sleep and what not and now I’m back to being unable to fall asleep because I’m thinking about how my job really doesn’t pay that much and how much of it is going to go towards rent and how much because it’s freelance will go towards taxes and health insurance and ect ect ect and then if I want to move out where would I even go? Do I want to stay in this state? Do I want to move into the city? If so how much am I going to have to save in order to do that? And it means like tripling down on job hunting which I’d just told myself it was okay to not stress about because of the holidays and it’s like I’d just sort of organized myself and then was handing a piping hot plate out of the oven and I don’t know where to put it and a lot of the stuff I gently set aside to come back to in the new year are suddenly on the table. But at the same time, I get it. Like I don’t know 100%, but I’m pretty sure they charge my cousin rent or at least ask for part of his paycheck. (albeit he tends to blow through any money he has in the blink of an eye on booze...and I feel like they’re putting it into an account for him for later...but I don’t know) Yet at the same time he’s like always asking them for money so really idk. I mean do I need to start reaching out to friends in teh cities I was thinking about moving to and go testing the waters there to see if I like those areas? And if so will I be able to afford going to those places after January?

I just needed to vent. I think I’ll spend Thanksgiving talking to the family I’m visiting and ask their advice. Because I really don’t want to move out with pretty much nothing but books to pay rent downtown and would like to continue towards my goal of owning something. I just am now having to look at this on a much faster timeline then I’d expected and it’s thrown me into a little spiral of panic of where I already was teetering because I’m not where I want to be in life on like 12 levels and two of those just kind of sucker punched me at once.