#i just dk who to edit lmao

[kwanisms]

Kinkuary 07 Yeosang — degradation // panties

➥ dom!Yeosang × brat!Reader summary: Yeosang hates it when his girlfriend talks back so he decides to shut her up so he can use her without her running her mouth like the little brat she is. wc: 3.8k warnings: afab reader, adult dialogue, sexual content (minors dni!): dom!Yeosang, bratty!Reader, degradation (use of slut, whore, dirty/naughty girl, bitch, etc), Yeosang goes feral when the reader wears his favorite lingerie, use of panties as a gag, fingering, protected sex (reader is on birth control), a couple spanks, some hair pulling, Yeosang goes hard and rough but the aftercare is incredible and the post nut snuggles are 👌🏻 Permanent taglist: @yoonguurt @candidupped @dejavernon Kinkuary full taglist: @baldi-2 @wonderfulshinee @lacie220900 @sup-dallyboy @drunk-on-dk @violagoth @mixling-blog Ateez taglist: @2hodefender @babyhailey819 @foxylilbitch @rdiamond2727 @indigo35 @sanjoongie @moonlightsora MINORS WILL BE BLACKLISTED & BLOCKED. Join the taglist!

a/n: i didnt mess up this time and remembered to finish editing the whole thing! Lmao anyway I almost made this a dom!Reader but I suck at writing those because I've never dommed in my life lmao plus, the idea of being a brat to Yeosang and having him shove my panties in my mouth to shut me up is top tier in my honest opinion. But don't worry, there will be more dom!Reader content later this month! As always, this is a work of fiction and all characters are not reflective of their respective irl counterparts. for entertainment purposes only. banner made by me. I do not allow reposts or translations of my works. All my works are ©️ kwanisms.

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“Yeah? And what are you gonna do about it?”

Yeosang sighed, pinching the bridge of his nose and closing his eyes.

‘I love my girlfriend. I love my girlfriend,’ he told himself repeatedly in his head.

And it was true. He really did love you. You were one of the few people in the world that truly understood him.

It was rare for him to find someone who understood his humor, or could relate to him on a deeper level than whether or not they like pancakes or waffles more.

He’d never met someone he wanted to spend hours upon hours talking to about anything and everything until he met you.

He’d have to send Wooyoung another thank you card for bringing you to him.

Your existence was truly a blessing to Yeosang, but sometimes it was a curse.

Particularly when you were being a brat. Like right now.

God, when you acted like a brat, it drove Yeosang up the wall but he wasn’t above putting you in your place.

“Please, Y/N,” Yeosang tried again, attempting to be reasonable and not snap.

“Today is not the day to get on my bad side.”

He could see the way you tried to hide a smirk. ‘Goddamn it.’

“Oh really? And why is that?” you asked, sitting up on the bed in your shared bedroom.

Yeosang curled his fingers into his palms, balling his hands into fists.

You were really testing his patience today and he was over it.

“Y/N, honey, please. Just do this for me and don’t question me,” he asked, pleading with you to listen.

“Oh, breaking out the pet names now?” You asked, raising an eyebrow at him.

“You really think that’s gonna sway me?”

‘Oh, that’s it.’

Yeosang moved in an instant, pushing you back onto the bed, climbing on top of you and hovering over you.

“I asked you nicely three times. You know what happens when you don’t listen?”

You tried to push him off you but he grabbed your wrists, pinning them above your head and pushing your thighs apart with his knee.

“Let me go,” you hissed, trying to pull free but he wasn’t going to give in easily.

“I’m gonna teach you a lesson,” he growled, sitting back and shifting as he pulled you up, dragging you over his lap until your ass was in front of him.

“Yeos-AAH!” You cried out as his hand made contact with your ass, the sound ringing out.

“Count,” he ordered. You looked over your shoulder at him. “No,” you replied defiantly. Yeosang’s eyes narrowed and he landed another smack on your ass.

You cried out again, skin tingling from the pain. “Stop it!” You tried wriggling in his grasp but Yeosang held you still. “If you won’t hold still, I’ll tie you down!” He growled. “I’d like to see you try!” You hissed.

Yeosang threw you back onto the bed, getting up and moving to the dresser that stood against the wall. He pulled out something long and red and before you had a chance to get away, he had both your wrists bound together with the red satin rope and was using the tail to tie you to the footboard.

“Let me go, Yeosang!” You said, pulling on the rope and trying to yank it free but knowing your boyfriend, he tied the knot too well for it to just come loose.

You looked up at him, watching the way his chest rose and fell with each labored breath. His hair was tussled, strands falling into his face. He combed his fingers through his hair, pushing the stray strands away.

“Now you should calm down,” he said, kneeling on the bed.

“Like hell I will!” You growled at him. You felt another sharp smack to your bottom, making you moan this time. “I told you I’d teach you a lesson,” he said, moving to kneel behind you. “What are you doing?” You asked, trying to look over your shoulder at him. You felt his hands on your hips, smoothing over your shorts.

“Did you know you’re soaked through your shorts?” Yeosang asked, eyeing the wet patch where your crotch was. “No I didn’t,” you protested.

“Then did you piss yourself?” He demanded. “No!”

Yeosang returned his gaze to your clothed pussy.

“Then let’s have a look,” he said, grabbing the waistband of your shorts and yanking them down with your underwear, exposing your obviously wet pussy to him.

“Yeosang!” You said indignantly, cheeks burning with embarrassment.

“So you’re telling me you aren’t wet right now?” He asked, inspecting you, bringing a finger to your clit and swiping over it, collecting some of your arousal.

Your body jolted at the sensation and you dropped your head, letting out a whimper.

You heard Yeosang chuckle from behind you. Your head snapped back up. “What’s so funny?” You asked.

“You are,” he said, smoothing his hand over your ass, admiring the marks from spanking you just moments ago.

“How am I funny?” You demanded, still trying to glance back at Yeosang.

You felt him get off the bed and tried twisting to see where he went.

Suddenly you felt his hand close around one of your ankles and tug, forcing you to fall onto the mattress and a yelp to erupt past your lips. With you stretched out, he removed your shorts and panties fully.

“You could have asked for my help!” you whined, rolling onto your side to look at him. Your eyes widened when you realized he was holding your panties in his hand, staring at them intently. His head turned slowly to gaze at you, making you feel smaller and like prey caught in a trap and a predator happened upon you.

“So you thought you’d just wear these and I wouldn’t find out?” Yeosang asked, his voice low as he walked around to the footboard of the bed. You swallowed the lump in your throat, your words failing you.

In his hand was a pair of black mesh panties. They were part of a set that Yeosang had claimed was his favorite one and one you knew he loved to see you wear. The back was made up of a complex mess of straps while the front was the mesh material. The matching bra, which you were indeed wearing, was the same black mesh with straps made from a soft black elastic,

Yeosang grabbed your shirt by the hem and pulled it over your head, letting it fall onto your arms.

“You were prepared,” he said admiring the black mesh and the way it looked against your skin.

“You planned this, didn’t you?” He asked. You shook your head. “No. My comfy set is in the wash,” you answered. It was the truth. Your comfiest set of underwear was in the wash and this was the next most comfortable.

“Sounds like a lie,” he said, walking back around to the side of the bed and climbing on behind you.

“It’s the truth!” You whined as he grabbed your hips and pushed you onto your stomach before he pulled you up onto your knees, keeping your chest pressed against the mattress.

Yeosang scoffed, not buying your explanation. “Uh-huh. Sure it is, slut,” he said. You opened your mouth to talk back but gasped when you felt him pull your ass back against him, grinding his hard erection into you.

He leaned over, a smirk on his face. “What, no witty comeback?” He asked before pressing a kiss to your shoulder and leaning closer to your ear. “Color?”

That was something you loved about Yeosang. No matter what role he slipped into, he made sure to check with you that you were okay. You’d both decided to use the color system in addition to a safeword. When he wasn’t sure whether or not to continue, he’d ask you for a color. Green for good, yellow for change, and red for stop.

“Green,” you whispered, trying to hide your smile as he pulled himself upright.

“God,” he said, looking down where your wet heat had rubbed against his pants, leaving a noticeable wet patch.

“You’re so wet that you could soak my pants,” he said, giving your hips a firm squeeze.

“I bet you’re so wet you could take my cock right now without any prep,” he added, moving his hands to your ass and spreading you so he could see your cunt unobstructed. “Wanna test it?” He asked, a hint of amusement to his voice.

“You wouldn’t,” you said, voice shaking. His hands were so close to where you wanted them yet so far from giving you any sort of friction.

“I wouldn’t?” Yeosang asked, fingers digging into your skin, nails leaving crescent shapes behind.

“You don’t have it in you,” you said, your words hitting him unprepared. “You’re so whipped for this pussy.”

Without a word, Yeosang shoved two fingers into your dripping cunt, making you gasp.

“You mean this pussy?” He asked, curling his fingers slightly, making you whimper. “The one I’m going to fuck until I’ve pumped it full of my cum? The one that only I get to fuck? That pussy?”

You moaned, walls clenching around his fingers. “The-ng- the only way you’re getting it is by tying me down, Yeosang,” you replied, your hands balling into fists as Yeosang slowly pumped his fingers in and out of you.

“To teach you a lesson,” he retorted. “You’re being such a damn brat.”

You let a giggle slip out as you pushed back into his hand and just as quickly as he filled your cunt with his fingers, he left it empty, making you whine.

“Only good girls get to cum,” he said, leaning over your back as he brought his fingers to your mouth. “Open.”

You turned your head, refusing to obey him. “Don’t make me ask again, Y/N,” he growled, grabbing your chin with the other hand and bringing his fingers to your lips. “Open your fucking mouth, slut.”

He held your chin in place as you reluctantly parted your lips, allowing him to push his fingers into your mouth and onto your tongue, making you taste yourself. “Clean them,” he barked. Rather than make a fuss as his fingers were already in your mouth, you obeyed, tongue swirling around his fingers and sucking your arousal off them.

Yeosang released your chin, pleased with your compliance but he knew it wouldn’t last. It never did with you.

You, who liked to push his buttons. You, who liked to talk back and make things much more difficult than they needed to be. You were defiant in every way and tonight, Yeosang would finally put you in your place. If that was with a rough fucking, then so be it.

You opened your mouth, tilting your head back to show him that you could listen. He pulled his fingers from your mouth. “See?” You said, eyes shutting, quite pleased with yourself. “I can listen when I want to,” you added.

“So it would seem,” Yeosang said softly, his fingers keeping your mouth open as he looked inside it.

Without warning, he shoved something into your mouth, causing you to cry out in shock and your eyes to open.

“Don’t you dare push that out,” he growled, grabbing your chin and forcing you to look at him. The ferocity in his voice made your legs quiver, sending chills up your spine. He’d never been so rough before and you’d be lying if you said it didn’t excite you.

Yeosang waited for you to nod before his expression softened. “Green?” He asked softly. You nodded again and he let go of you.

“I’m gonna fuck that attitude out of you,” he said in that same tone from before.

You heard the sound of his belt and a zipper being pulled before a slight rustle of cloth. Assuming he pushed his pants down, you waited for him to enter you, bracing yourself as you felt the tip of his cock rub against you ever so slightly but made no move to push into you.

After a couple moments, you opened your mouth to ask what the hold up was but found yourself unable to speak as Yeosang suddenly rammed into you, a scream ripping from your throat.

“Oh that’s new,” Yeosang said with a chuckle. “I’ve never made you scream before.”

“Mmhhmm,” you moaned, the sound muffled by the panties stuffed in your mouth. Your walls clenched around him as you tried to adjust to the sudden intrusion.

“Have I rendered you speechless in one thrust?” He asked in a mockingly sweet tone. “Where’s that attitude now?”

He didn’t give you a chance to respond, even with the gag, before he started a punishing pace, his hips hitting your ass with each hard thrust. “I knew you’d take my cock easily,” he said, his breathing shaky as he continued to pound into you.

“Such a receptive little slut,” he purred, one hand tangling in your hair and pulling back, arching your back and making you moan again as his hips continued their assault. “Still green, baby?” He whispered near your ear, loosening his grip on your hair so you could nod quickly. “Good girl,” he said, a rare praise that made your heart swell and sent butterflies to your stomach.

His grip tightened and he pulled back again.

Moans left your mouth, muffled by your gag, with each hard thrust he gave you. His cock hit deeper than he’d ever hit before, making you see stars in your vision. You could feel something running down the inside of your thighs and assumed it was your own arousal. “F-fuuuck,” Yeosang groaned from behind you.

“You take my cock so well. Such a greedy little cunt you have,” he added, punctuating his sentence with a harsh thrust. He looked down where your bodies connected and was surprised to see how you’d gotten even wetter as he fucked you.

“Looks like you’re making a mess. You’re so fucking filthy,” he scoffed. “What a dumb, dirty little whore. You like being used like this?” He asked, leaning forward and pulling your head back to look up at him.

You were an absolute vision. Black panties shoved into your mouth, cheeks red and eyes glossed over. “Shit, look at you,” Yeosang said, a smirk forming on his face. “You love this, don’t you? Being tied up and letting me use this tight little hole, you just love it don’t you?”

You couldn’t respond, even if you didn’t have your panties in your mouth.

Yeosang's hips slowed to a stop, making you ask what he was doing, albeit in a very muffled voice.

When he didn’t answer, you pushed back against him, urging him to move. You felt his hand make contact with your ass cheek, your body reacting and a moan sounding from your throat.

“Are you that needy you have to fuck yourself on my cock? Can’t wait for me?”

You shook your head, knowing if he thought you didn’t need him to move, he’d make you do all the work.

Yeosang let out a growl, resuming the same unrelenting pace from before.

“You’re lucky I’m not in the mood to play,” he panted.

His hands held your hips, pulling you back to meet each thrust, making more muffled moans slip past your gag. You dug your fingers into the sheets, trying to ground yourself against his force.

“That’s it,” he groaned. “Just sit there and take what I give you, stupid slut,” he growled.

Your head dropped, forehead resting against your forearms, eyes shutting as you lost yourself in the feeling of his cock dragging against your walls with each thrust, the head hitting your most sensitive spots. You weren’t going to last if he kept going like this.

“You falling asleep?” He asked, the dominant tone in his voice gone. It was replaced by pure concern.

You lifted your head, shaking it and putting his worry at ease.

“Green?” He asked, confirming you were still good. You nodded again.

“Good, I’m close. Are you close?” He whispered. You nodded with a moan, your walls squeezing him as your orgasm drew closer and closer.

Yeosang reached around your stomach, darting between your thighs and finding your clit and drawing circles in time with his thrusts. You let out a cry, body tensing as your climax started to wash over you. “That’s it, come for me,” Yeosang whispered, his lips inches from your ear. “Good girl. You did so well.”

The soft tone of his voice as he coaxed you through your orgasm had your mind reeling, thighs squeezing together as the aftershocks of your high rolled over you.

The constant convulsing of your cunt around his cock pushed Yeosang over the edge and he came inside you, filling your heat with his load as he continued to thrust erratically, fucking his cum further into you as a small amount spilled out of your used hole, rolling down your thighs and dripping onto the bed below.

“Fuck!” Yeosang growled, his hips finally stilling and his cock buried deep inside your already full cunt.

He pulled his hand away from your swollen and sensitive clit, pulling your panties from your mouth and tossing them somewhere in the room. He’d worry about them later.

“Talk to me baby,” he murmured, pressing light kisses to your shoulder. “Are you okay?”

You nodded, body shaking as you tried to keep yourself up but your thighs were numb and shaking.

“I can’t feel my legs,” you muttered. Yeosang pulled out of you, wincing as more of his cum spilled out of you. He was gonna have to wash the sheets tonight.

“Hang on, baby,” he said, pulling his pants up and zipping them up. He moved around the bed to untie you from the footboard. He worked quickly, untying your wrists and pulling the rope from them, letting it fall to the floor. Another thing he’d worry about later.

He carefully laid you down on your side, hands moving to massage your thighs. “I’ll be right back,” he said softly, getting up from the bed and disappearing into the bathroom.

You heard the water running and a moment later, he reappeared, stripping himself of his clothes and pulling on clean ones.

He returned to your side, taking your wrists gently in his hands and rubbing the marks from the ropes.

“Was it too tight?” He asked, looking into your face. You shook your head. “No. Was perfect. Thank you,” you mumbled sleepily. Yeosang cupped your cheek, leaning over to press a kiss to your lips. “Stay awake, baby. You can’t go to sleep yet.”

“But ‘m so sleepy,” you whined. Yeosang chuckled, the hand on your cheek moving to comb through your hair. “I know sweetheart, but I can’t let you sleep until after I care for you. Can you walk?”

You shook your head again. “Legs don’t work.”

Yeosang stood up, scooting you towards the edge of the bed before lifting you carefully and carrying you into the bathroom. He set you on your feet, keeping you upright as the blood started to work its way back into your legs. He helped you lift your leg and lowered you into the hot bath water before turning it off.

“I’ll be right back,” he murmured, pressing a kiss to your hair and disappearing through the door.

You inspected your wrists, the red marks from the rope starting to dissipate. You stretched your legs, trying to get the blood flowing again.

Yeosang returned after a few minutes, during which you were able to get your legs working. “You okay?” He asked, kneeling by the side of the tub, setting a fresh towel and clean clothes on the closed lid of the toilet.

“‘M okay, Yeo,” you affirmed, smiling at your boyfriend. He leaned in, capturing your lips in a tender kiss.

“You want to stay in there a little longer or get out?” He asked, nodding at the tub. “I could stay a little longer,” you answered. Yeosang moved to sit on the side of the tub, grabbing your favorite bath sponge. “Then lean forward for me a little bit?” He asked, smiling when you obliged him without fuss.

He carefully scrubbed and massaged your back, fingers working over your shoulders as well. Watching your reaction, Yeosang dragged the mesh sponge down your chest, past your stomach and between your legs. Your lips parted in a sigh as he worked the sponge against your skin soothingly, scrubbing off any remnants of his and your cum. He left no spot untouched and kept going until the water started to cool down.

Once you were clean, he pulled the plug and helped you stand, grabbing the towel and wrapping it around you. It wasn’t the first time Yeosang had helped dry your body and it wouldn’t be the last.

After he was certain you were sufficiently dry, he helped you dress, allowing you to hold his shoulder to keep balance as he held your underwear for you to step into, pulling it up and doing the same for your shorts. Your shirt was the easy part,

He led you back into the bedroom and you saw he’d pulled the sheets and put fresh ones on. He sat you down and sat next to you, grabbing a bottle of water from the side table where a plate of fruit sat as well.

You looked at him as he twisted the cap off the bottle of water.

“You always take such good care of me,” you muttered as he handed you the water, grabbing the plate of fruit and snacking on a grape.

“Well,” he said, swallowing his bite. “I may call you mean things during sex,” he explained.

“But you’re still my baby girl,” he added in a much quieter voice. “I wouldn’t be a very good boyfriend if I didn’t pamper you after what I just put your body through.”

You smiled again, leaning forward and pressing a kiss to his lips. “Thank you, Yeo,” you whispered.

The two of you finished off the fruit and water before climbing into bed. Yeosang reached over to turn off the lamp beside the bed, throwing the room into darkness before wrapping his arms around you, pulling you close.

“Yay,” you said softly, making him chuckle. “What?” He asked.

“This is my favorite part,” you replied. “What is? Sleeping?” Yeosang asked with a laugh.

“No,” you answered. “The snuggles.” Yeosang smiled at you in the darkness, kissing your hair.

“Ahh, the snuggles,” he repeated, you nodding in response.

“Yeah, post nut snuggles are the best.”

[yappinggggg]

Wanted to share my thoughts on who everything did stuff wrong and why :>

(I havent finished the novel just yet so there might be some errors)

Also: Spoiler warning

The count and countness:

Their intentions were right but what they did wasn't really right. I mean- i understand completely that they didnt want harm Deon and all... but come on- Deon didnt even know about any of that. They could have sat him down- or written him a letter- and explain why they treated him differently than Cruel. Or maybe shown that they cared in a bit more obvious way? Of course no parent is perfect but i think they really messed it up while they could have still saved Deon somewhat

Duke Illuster:

This man is unfixable. What he did was so- idk how to put it into words. His greed alone was the reason Deon even got involved with the demon king, emperor and the war. Dude could have done something else but he seems to desperately want some powers fast. He should be tortured the same way Deon was - he should feel what its like to be in Deons position. (He wouldnt feel it exactly like Deon but somehow grasp it)

Next on to Nemeseus:

I really dislike him and ill explain why.

First of all: he simply blamed poor Deon for giving himself a split personality- like dude? He was a CHILD- what did u expect? He wanted to live and that was the only way he managed to survive!

Second: he only tried stepping in to check up on Deon when it was too late- u saw him the whole time. U witnessed what he saw and did on the battlefield- and u feel that u have the right to judge Deon?

Third: he called a broken child a monster(i mean Deon here)- what did this man expect Deon to do? He wanted to live- can u blame him for choosing this?

Emperor:

I think what showed the most how f***ed up this man is is that he killed all his siblings because of something he didnt even verify if that was true. He had the ability to do that- even if he was mad and blinded by emotions at the time- there was a better way.

Theres also the part where he actively manipulates Deon and gaslights him but i dont think i need to say much to this- we all saw what he did :>

The princess and prince:(yes,they get included)

The fact that they decided to just accept what their uncle did and forgive him is pretty messed up, if u ask me. Sure- family is family, but come on guys. He killed ur parents even when he didnt know if he was right fully killing them.

And they decided to just- help him with his plans? Support the things he did to Deon?

Not only support: they actively tried hard themselves to manipulate Deon

Of course: they are still young and so on but i think they could certainly have made a better decsion.

But i cant really blame them for choosing to stay and support their uncle- afterall they only had him and themselves. They also probably wouldnt have lasted long either if they hadnt accepted their uncles offer. Their chances of living a good life would literally drop down so much

Demon king (cant leave our toxic king out of this):

This man is a demon so he obviously is known to be cruel and so on.

Also since he had lived for for a thousand years so he is obviously bored to death- and he doesnt care about life anyway so why would he start caring for Deon? And why would he care about the fact that he ruined Deons life?(at least took part in it)

Edit: adding to the dk

So i found out that he actually cared for Deon....

Like what :D THATS NOT HOW U TREAT THE PERSON U LIKE but he was nice to Deon most of the time so he may get forgiven (lmao)

[Sorry,i dont know much about the demon king right now so i cant say much about him ):>]

[anti-radshits]

Intro post!!

hey! I'm an anti rq blog who just wants to bash prats for funsies lol aside from that, I also make userboxes.

I support: paras (pro recovery, anti contact), mogai, anti rqs or rqs who are trying to leave the community

I don't support: transid/transx, pro-c people or anything other than anti-c really (ew...), rqs, endogenics (unless provided with RELIABLE sources scientifically proving them, and not some carrd by a 14 year old) and whatever harmful shit prats got going on.

idrm ship discourse i find shipping somewhat stupid lmao

Just a reminder, this blog is purely for fun. I'm not going to seriously commit to this blog. I don't want arguments to happen in here, nor do i care about discourse unrelated to rqs or anything of the sorts. my stances are only there so people who disagree with it can dni SO arguments don't happen. I just wanna have fun here and don't want this to feel like a chore. that being said, don't bring your arguments here. this is not the place. anyone intentionally ignoring this and being annoying will be blocked.

My ids (/j):

Cis ids: cisincel, ciscantgetbitches, cisdoesnthaveanyfriends, cischronicallyonline, ciswantattentiontoomuch

Trans ids: transhappyperson, transnormalperson

DNI

ig radshits??? oh and don't bring discourse or arguments unrelated to rqs here i literally do NOT care this is not the place for that stuff.

Credits for stuff i'm using

dividers in this post: @/anitalenia & @/nicodefresas

and I found the pfp resources off pinterest dk who the artists are. pfp is also edited by me. header is by @/kiochisato on tumblr

The userboxes about throwing Nair, biting rqs and spite posting are by me. art isn't mine though. I don't know who drew it exactly but user @/alt.fashioninspo on pinterest uploaded it. the other userboxes are by @/anti-rq-boxes

Userboxes

[mightbeorphanedidk]

quick update i wont be here for long

as in i wont be on tumblr for long

okay so its 10.45pm i have an intense dare espresso and enough spite to rival satan in the garden of eden

im working on WORPMD but i felt as though i should give some more updates than just what im doing

We have an anticipated 12k words to write (maybe less, maybe more, we dont know yet), but there are some issues

Math assignments (FUCK YOU WHO HAS A M A T H ASSIGNMENT???)

My wrist really hurts??

I made some bad mental health decisions and my thighs ache

Also my low iron is kicking me in the ass ive just been so fuckin tired recently no matter what i did

yah

So uh theres that

I PROMISE IM WORKING ON IT ITS JUST TAKING A WHILE

As for the DBH one i mentioned before i am editing the next chapter, dk how long that'll take but who honestly gaf im way too tired for this shi

uhm what else

i dont think there's anything

i'll be a little slow replyign to comments on ao3 cus again, low iron, no FUCKING ENERGY to do shit, sooo sorry about that. I know it's like an unspoken policy of mine to reply to comments within the day but i do NOT have the energy i think i need to start taking those supplments again LMAO

i showed my friend some of my writing (only snippets rlly) and im scared she'll try see if i put it on the internet

uhm

so friend if you're reading this istg i can explain its just... I dont actually have an excuse im sorry please dont see me as a cretin

i hope you liked my writing ig

thats all from me okay bye

[withleeknow]

11?? publicly posting that?? oh I do feel like a gma + I have so many thoughts on this particular kpop gen. - it's the same niche of stans who restrict idols from living life bc they feel like they have ownership of them like?? there's having fun with the content out there (literally look at tumblr my asks ahem) and then there's living real life where this shit does not matter at all

(ryan is so darn cute but it's so hard to get my hands on line/kakao here in the UK - next time I travel to asia a plushie will be coming back with me 🫡)

o_o if you started writing 🐈‍⬛ I wld shortcircuit a little. even if it was super-unedited late-night brainrotting hcs to indulge in (absolutely not a request, just understand the impact this wld have on onigiri the microwave can only take so much ygm)

+ speaking of microwave, did you survive skz at gayo daejeon today? specifically tinyurl.com/3aadwd8p he. is. insane. like how?

+ this edit had me crying laughing vm.tiktok.com/ZGenaGYHx/ god I do have a type and it's paboracha-esque crackheads and if gyu's the prince then dk's the king

lastly this is completely non-kpop-related but had to send this to you speficially - it just popped up on my feed + I audibly laughed at the caption/content like “who's spying on me” tinyurl.com/rfrskxd2 literally 🍙 in the wild, ngl I wish I was here rn

back in our golden days (lol i sound like a certified grandma saying this) i used to keep up with most groups back then, but since i came back to kpop i’ve kept it to a limited few (it was only bts until late last year, then txt and skz and now mayhaps enhypen too) so i’m generally pretty clueless about everything else lol. but yeah i agree fans these days are so much more restrictive (they would not survive gen 2 when everyone was dating left and right and both male and female idols were publicly friends with each other). i do firmly believe it’s bc companies keep feeding fans’ delusions and market the idols as always available to cater to the fans’ every whim. jype really took it up a level with the skz lips cards - those are genuinely quite disturbing to me lol. but yeah, there are already so many weirdos out there we don’t need to breed more 🥴

i would def be v interested in (trying to) write for 🐈‍⬛ heheheh that kind of personality is my favorite to write for and i think that’s why i enjoy writing mimo and seungmin sm. dude with the cold exterior but deep down is actually the biggest softie <3 superior in this household lol

did anyone really survive gayo daejeon? he is disgusting he is an awful man who makes my life a living hell every day and i just have to deal with it 🫠 not to mention hyunjin. god, that was equally as awful. i also indulged myself in a little enhypen at gayo daejeon and i was properly looking at heeseung oop

LOL I SAW THIS EDIT TOO. he really is a god tier crackhead lmao. there’s a reason why he’s one of my favorite svt members 🤣

AN ONIGIRI SHRINE 🫨 bookmarking it as we speak bc i HAVE to see it when i go to japan 🤣 that’s amazing lol i can’t wait to get a little onigiri to carry with me wherever i go 🥹

[ccfever]

do you find some of the commentary around CC's first pro games to be kind of condescending? People keep saying she's making a lot of mistakes but she's gonna be "fine". I feel that within the context of her team, coach and attention she's recieving from defenders, she's performed exceptionally well. But I guess it's taboo to mention those things when asessing her performance?

i feel like those people either don’t watch the games or don’t see the same things we do, which is fine. i think the “she’s gonna be fine” crowd is mostly speaking up against the people who are calling her a straight-up bust. they mean well and i agree with them. the discourse has turned out like this mostly because of the people expecting cc to drop 30 ppg like she did in college in her rookie year. now people are looking for 30 ppg and not finding it, so the response for some is “she’ll be fine”, she’ll make mistakes, give her some time, etc.

i do agree that the focus of the conversation shouldn’t be what it has been for the past week. they’ve been talking about:

players should stop the hard fouls against caitlin

players shouldn’t be physical with caitlin

everyone should treat her differently because of a variety of reasons that has nothing to do with basketball

she should put on weight to match the physicality of the league

of course there’s the “WELCOME TO PROFESSIONAL BASKETBALL HAHAHA” crowd but i think they’re kinda silly and they’re feeling vindicated so i’ll just leave them be

to me the discourse should be:

a fucking rookie is getting double teamed at half court

cc has been playing some good defense lately 👀 compared to her college years

her numbers have gone back down to earth but show me a rookie that had 22 pts, 6 rebs, and 8 asts yesterday

yes she should put on weight but that comes with time + offseason. athletes can’t just change their body.. even during the offseason because that can mess with how they play the game... especially gaining weight/muscle, it changes the way you move plus a bunch of other stuff idk the specifics of bc i’m not a sports medicine person. so yeah she’s just gonna have to maintain what she has right now and so far it’s not like she’s getting absolutely bodied (yes the stewie clip exists why don’t you try running head first to a large stationary body like that, it was hilarious though)

she’s literally the fever’s best player right now so i don’t know what more you want from her

aliyah boston is in a bit of a slump, hopefully she figures things out. idk if it has anything to do with the weight/muscle she put in but she seems slow. can’t grab a rebound. her shot is still there though so i’m confident she’ll figure it out

all the other nonsense about treating cc differently is stupid and they dk what they’re talking about. sure defenders have been physical but if you watch, you’ll see caitlin has been physical right back. plus all those ticky tack fouls will diminish over time.

i don’t think people haven’t been mentioning the defensive coverage, coaching, and lackluster play from her teammates. at least from my fishbowl i’ve seen it mentioned tons of times. there is a crowd though, that hates caitlin no matter what she does and is just waiting for her to fail. i understand why, the discourse surrounding her has been nothing short of insane. but she did not fuel any of that herself. she’s been nothing but respectful. but i understand where they’re coming from.

scrutiny comes with greatness there’s nothing we can do about that.

to answer your question though (because did i just go on a long tangent about nothing??? idk but i just wanted to explain where i’m coming from lmao) i don’t think people are being condescending. but i think everyone’s being ridiculous for other reasons. everyone is just dumb i’m so sorry but this is why i mind my own business everyone just ends up pissing me off 😭

edit: also some of those TOs really are rookie mistakes she tries to pass through very small passing lanes that just won’t cut it in the pros. but only like. two. an overwhelming majority of her passes are already in her teammates’ hands and they can’t fucking hold on to the ball 😭

[chwedout]

well now i gotta ask: top three idols you couldn’t take in a fight purely bc you just wouldn’t fight them? 🤩

lmao okay this isnt like a top 3 thing anymore this is just gonna be a list of idols i'd refuse to fight

✨ ask me my top 3 anything (kpop edition)

dk

literally all 7 enha kids

all of txt (except beomgyu ill throw hands with him)

any idol who's 5 years younger than me

[appreciatingtokrev]

i suppose it is normal then and the duration must be a factor too regarding the sadness. have you seen the film called loving vincent then? it's an biography of his life and it's animated in paint to reflect his art style.

i think it's mainly ios users that play it on their phones? but again, still need load of memory. does your laptop heat up when you play for a long time? my phone did despite being an iphone. i know nothing about hi3rd, i really thought GI was their first game lol. as students, we all have those moments lol.

i hope you get your meds soon then because that will probably help a lot, which style of studying do you prefer? where i live only marine biology is rare and that's a huge con :( but the sea sick might change over time. medicine is 5 years here, how long will it be for you? i dk what forensic medicine entails lmao. i'm sure you will be able to figure it out then.

i know stray kids belong to JYP and that's about it and that's cool but her playlist is probably longer lol.

oh, they are silver, my bad there is too many characters in TR that wear earrings ;-; what do you think of silver as a colour? apart from fanfic/cosplay, have you ever tried making anime edits? i started making youtube anime shorts yesterday and i like it where i do upload them online.

the power of self belief is everything! good luck but i think the quality of the wig probably make a difference? so might need to research beforehand so you can pick a good base.

yes, six months left to the big reveal ^^ no worries and oversided hoodies are cool.

oh, loving vincent! i’ve heard of it, but haven’t watched it (yet?), no. it kinda sounds like something i’d enjoy though.

personally i only know three people who play genshin on their phone, but two of them are samsung users lol. my old laptop would heat up like crazy (i mean... it’s like 8 or 9 years old at this point) but with my current laptop i hardly have any issues regarding that. that said i’ve still got to play on low graphics settings because it just lags a ton otherwise, but i hardly mind that. (tho i haven’t been able to play genshin in weeks bc it keeps crashing for some reason :( i’m waiting it out & hoping an update of my laptop will fix it but who knows. i might get a ps5 for christmas though so i’ll at least be able to play it on there ig? and maybe sooner on a phone bc i definitely need a new one even sooner.)

ah, my meds. i’ve got a prescription now, but they’re out of sale until at the very least january :') i really like studying with classmates/friends bc i hardly have the motivation to study alone tbh but if there’s at least someone else i do. i’ve p much got a study bestie tho and for most subjects we study together :D

well where i live i’m pretty sure you can’t study marine biology since there is no ocean lmao. so i might just study biology & then move somewhere for the specifics? idk. but i’ve got lots of time to figure it out still lol yep, hopefully it’ll get better,, medicine is 5 years here too! forensic medicine is p much examining dead (human) bodies, either bc they died in the hospital/in an accident (so for science) or because they died an unnatural death (criminology). tho the forensic medicine field entails more than just forensic pathology (doing autopsies), e.g. you could be working at a lab doing dna testing.

ngl i hardly know anything abt the few kpop bands i listen to, i just enjoy their music lol. but yeah i’m sure she knows more.

no no i get it, there truly are a lot,, i like silver as a color, especially in jewlery! tbh i prefer it over gold in most contexts.

ohh edits,, no, i haven’t done anything apart from cosplay attempts, making merch, writing fic & doing art for fandom so far lol. i don’t use tiktok & hardly use youtube for fandom stuff though (i usually listen to asmr or hour long explanation vids on yt, not much more adhkgdfjf) but if i do come across edits somehow, i’m always excited :D imo they’re very fun, but i don’t have the right apps or space on my phone for them to make any.

very true! yep, i’ll definitely do some research to try and find a rather cheap but still rather good quality wig,, bc it very much does make a difference.

only four more months.. 👀

[raplinesmoon]

oh these are fun!

2, 8, 15, 23, 25 for bts and/or svt!! (did i make up the svt part >_> if that's not you then only bts lol)

Hi Jo! Thanks for sending these in <3

You did not make up the svt part looool, i have succumbed to the joy (torture?) of being a carat, and i'm more than happy to talk about it!

2. Ult bias?

Okay so for BTS it's always been Namjin, because Namjoon is who got me into BTS, but Jin has snuck up on me over the past 2-3 years. I'm scared to even admit this, but I've been leaning even heavier into my Jin delusions since he left us T_T. So I'll still say Namjin but with the emphasis on Jin lmao!

For SVT, I simply cannot pick! I can't even pick a single bias because it legit changes every week, but this week I've been very heavily biasing Minghao (The8)! His new blonde hair has me going through it! And I would say Coups, Woozi, Wonwoo, and DK have cycled through the bias rotation at some point (let's be real I bias all of them)!

8. Favorite choreography?

Oooof okay this is so hard but I'm gonna go with two for each group because if you can't tell, I have trouble picking just one! For BTS, it has to be either airplane pt 2. (such an underrated song imo!), or Black Swan. Black Swan's choreo is absolutely majestic in my opinion, like I gasped when I saw them perform it live!

For SVT, I pick Light a Flame (similar vibes to AP2, I just love the slowness of it all), and Good To Me! Good To Me is in fact my favorite SVT song and I will be forever salty that it does not have a music video because it deserves one!

15. Favorite k-pop meme:

Okay, these are mostly BTS (aka mostly Jin because I love that man's face):

23. Pick three idols for your road trip crew!

Okay so obviously I would take Jin (so we can sing at the top of our lungs and annoy everyone else), Yoongi (I need a comfort human, plus I feel like he'd know what to do if we were in trouble), and I'd bring along DK for fun (I feel like him and Jin together would be such a riot!)

25. Show us the last K-pop/idol photo you have saved to your camera roll!

I’ll do better and give you two lolol:

Studio Multi: K-Pop Stan Q's (first edition)

[elaichoi]

tw: bit of discussion on mental health [diagnoses]; talks of depression/major depressive disorder, [social] anxiety, panic disorder, mention of agoraphobia, god idek tbh im sorry

YES LOL THEY WERE ANNOYING TO DO BUT $5 GIFTCARDS N SHIT ^_^ nooo i almost never did the surveys cus i get random emails and thats annoying and they also take forever,, so i only did the ones where u have to download whatever app (usually a game) they tell u to, use it for x amt of seconds/minutes (i forget) and u go back to the app and it gives u points or whatever that u redeem for giftcards! that's how i got superimpose actually 😭 edit tutorial accs would promote their code for that app/site (i don't remember what its called im not gatekeeping i swear) bc using their code gives both u and them extra points,,, and i wanted superimpose so i gave it a try and well what do u know 🥰🥰

my mental health story is kind of long and redundant and not that exciting so i shall spare u,,, well actually i rewrote this 383299 times bc i ended up trauma dumping i think... so um basics i got depressed my freshman yr of highschool, time skip- got diagnosed w depression, generalized anxiety disorder & agoraphobia, which the agoraphobia turned to be a misdiagnosis and i went somewhere else and got rediagnosed w panic disorder. child of a generational trauma that my asian parents do not think exist🫶 i alr knew a lot (90%) of my anxiety was social anxiety but i did not receive that diagnosis until this year. i lost my panic disorder diagnosis yay! andddd also got a diagnosis for major depressive disorder which was kind of an 'ohhhh' moment for me bc a lot of times i felt like antidepressants made me a lot better i felt cured lmfao i was hardly ever depressed,, except i sometimes get depressive episodes and im still struggling w the symptoms of depression that is not depression itself...if that makes sense...those symptoms being memory issues!! quick act surprised!! focus issues, i procrastinate a lot now.... which is important bc before all of this i was a very.. is high-functioning the right term? i genuinely dk if that's a term im supposed to be using,, but basically i was like top of the class student, always on-time and organized, never procrastinated, always remembered everything, i guess kinda type A personality lmao,,,, and now i am not 😃

im probably forgetting some other key stuffs but its okie,,,,, probably irrelevant but ive always been a fairytale hopeless romantic except a dumb long-term relationship got thrown into the middle and peak of my mental health mess (who told me that was a good idea 👺) has made me v antiromantic if u will 💀💀 i girlbossed myself into thinking im wise emotionally but i honestly am v v naive and sensitive and i will be a crybaby if snri's allow me to at that moment 👍

i used to be v smart but im kinda v dumb now but im also kinda trying to get back up again bc i feel? like im slowly improving in general? idk tbh,,, idk what im doing 😁

erm im v sorry this was very mentally unseggsy of me 😗 can u tell i have no concept of oversharing im so sorry for clogging your feed, qiwis followers pls forgive 🙇‍♀️

wbu? same question u asked me on mental health n cognitive functions ^^ only if ur comfortable answering ofc!

i think u could do it if u rlly wanted to, again u talent/hobby vacuum 👺 /j maybe like for blog milestone or something would be an excuse for a one-time video edit then you wouldn't have to continue if u don't want to ? hmm

whenever i didn't have ideas i would like choose a specific edit i rlly liked and use the same audio and like ""recreate"" it (not to post, its just for me & practice purposes lol). like the editor wouldve already split the audio for transitions and stuff so you can split your audio according to the transitions in their edit and add ur own clips over top. u can try to imitate their transitions or do ur own or whatever. i like doing that to practice bc it gives me somewhere to start! idk that's what worked for me personally,, just an idea for if u ever feel up for it no pressure!!

i don't think i could get into the video editing scene again bc i would want to progress to be a good editor and be confident ab my edits but capcut makes me insecure lol bc if everybody can do it then why should i take the time to grow and progress 😗 (that makes me sound like a pick me but again.. its similar to like ai replacing real working humans yk..😭😭)

my relationship ramble thingy ^ means that i also i love angst and making myself cry 😍😍🫦🫰 crack anything is 1000% your brand ‼️

omg yea real life inspo for ur reincanation aus ☺️ ehehe BUT YAY I LOOK FORWARD TO UR REPLIES SM HAVE UR NOTIFS ON LOLL i love talking to u! <3 consentual kisses! ^_^

wait....did we get engaged and/or married here,,,,,,,, on ur nsfw acct FJDJSK😭💀

oh my god i never tried that but i think there were some apps fr that were like ah yes get this free version and then watch a few ads and get one or two watermark free edits per day. BROOO THSI BRINGS BACK SO SO SO MANY MEMORIES!! (i think i rarely did that bc i was one lazy mf also vindictive so i did what i could to work with free apps)

life really tossed you like a salad damn baby I'm sorry you had to go through all that LIKE YOU COULDN'T CATCH A BREAK oh my god bro it seems like you kinda burned out? if that makes sense? because im sure a lot of things were expected of you ( asian parents here too also BRO THEY DONT think trauma EXISTS!) im glad you're getting better bit by bit HERE'S TO GETTING EVEN BETTER IN THE UPCOMING DAYS!!! we will kick mental illness's ass together lmao!

tbh third world country so never really got diagnosed properly but like most of my time i was suffering from. depression i was gaslit into thinking I'm just being whiny and uts not depression and because of this i developed repressive emotions where NOW it's my own turn where i refuse to acknowledge any kind of shit that happened to me like theres a sense of embarrassment where i can't like outright say like yeah this, and this happened to me because I don't anyone's "pity" and some huge ass shit happened to my family which made me haha something i cant say on here but im like over that now ( lol i need to go therapist for this) but yeah OH and I get the depressive episodes because i get that too oh my god like for weeks but my best friend once gave me, like just feel the emotions and let it pass like sure it will feel like a tractor running u over but it will get over and then one day you will take that shower and brush ur hair and feel a lil better!!!!

ooh but LIKE TUMBLR video platform sucks ass but i really like the idea omg i will think it through!!!

BRO NO WAY CAUSE I DID THAT TOO BUT LIKE WITH edits lmao but you're so freaking TALENTED DO YOU KNOW THAT?! i will have to try it I think with all thr tiktok edit trends now it's become easier to do those things i actualky tried to do some of it for my friends bday and it's coming up again so ill have to try!!!

okay but even if capcut exists which I think in a way is kind of good for people who loved editing but couldn't edit bc they couldn't work with, or afford fancy softwares yk but you can't deny the polishness that alight motion or vs will give you. you can't outdo the doer 💅🏼💅🏼 so you really should give it a try!!

you're SO SWEET I LOOK FORWARD SM TO YOUR ANONS TOO LIKE I ONLY COME HERE TO CHECK FOR YOUR ANONS LMAO i love talking to you too 🤭🤭

we're already married,, yes on nsfw kinda on theme don't you think so??

[bluexiao]

i’ll be in a seventeen concert the day after tomorrow and i know i don’t really ramble about them here nor on my main but like,,, i’m just so so excited.

in their last concert, i was still not a college student and i was looking for a sign. yes, a sign—a lot of signs, actually. i was looking for signs that would tell me where to go and which path to take.

should i be a doctor and make my family proud? or an artist to make myself proud? watching seventeen perform live (especially DK who was a theater artist himself) made me realize to choose myself. and now that i’m in college, in a theater arts course, being a little miserable but living a life i would never would have done if it weren’t for the confidence they gave me, i feel very excited. i just know that watching and listening to them again would reconnect my heart to where i was around 2-3 years ago.

and tbh svt’s songs are the only songs that make me courageous,,, i for real dont know how it happens but whenever i’m feeling afraid or small or sad, their songs never fails to lift me up and their vids always make me forget all the negative things in life.

anyway lmao that’s kinda personal but i felt like sharing hahaha,, whoever read this until the end, i hope you’ll find/you’ve found someone/something that makes you feel like this too!🫶🏼🫶🏼 this kind of joy,, pls treasure it!

(edit: lmao my con day is on day 2 i forgot about that for a bit but yeah i’m gonna hang around day 1 too so if anyone wants to meet up im there too!)

[saintobio]

So I read the tw/ depression ask from an anon that got depressed after reading chapter 8 and I'm sorry Ai, I have to rant about this.

I honestly dk why anon think its appropriate to send this ask, its your own responsibility to take care of your own mental health so if you're not in a good head space to read HEAVY ANGST fic, then don't read it, plain and simple.

Telling the AUTHOR to tone down the angst is just ridiculous. 1) Its her work, she do what she wants. 2) The series is labelled as heavy angst for a reason. As much as I break to see Y/N suffer, I would never wish anything that happened in the past chapters to be different because that's what the series is meant to be.

I honestly don't know how you tolerate this Ai, the nerves of some of these anons to even ask this just blew my mind when you're already so kind enough to take your time off your busy schedule to answer all our asks.

hey love thank uuu for speaking up, i’m gonna be 100% honest i’ve received a shit ton of asks saying the last chapter triggered their anxiety/depression/panic attacks and as much as i’d like to apologise, i also feel like i’m being unfairly held accountable for what the series has made them feel (?) 😭 like, i made it very clear that this is heavy angst and i don’t bullshit my angst. it’s h e a v y. i didn’t label this series heavy angst for clickbait lmao. but i get that what they’re maybe trying to express is the fact that i was able to elicit those intense emotions through my writing which i guess is a compliment but at the same time i feel like being guilt tripped when ppl tell me they felt sick/depressed and that it’s affecting their mental health.

for their sake, if they cannot handle the themes, i honestly would be happy if they can stop reading the series unless they’re actually ready 😔

edited: no i don’t mean the ones who simply say “oh this chapter made me shake” i don’t mind those! there are just some asks that specifically ‘blame me’ that i triggered their anxiety bc of the last chapter.

[birb-tangleblog]

Rise of Flynn Rider - THOUGHTS

THE PROMISED LONGER POST ON THE RISE OF FLYNN RIDER- spoiler warning!

Ok so first off, a very brief summary: the book centers on Eugene and Arnie (Lance), childhood best friends. The orphanage they've grown up in is financially struggling, under threat by a crooked tax collector, and they're both aging out of the system; the only clue Eugene has to his parents is a letter from the woman who left him there, which is signed with a ~mysterious symbol~. When a traveling circus run by the Baron (yes, that Baron) passes through town and Eugene learns of a possible lead on his past, the two boys reinvent themselves, join up, and eventually end up entangled in a scheme to steal from the King and Queen of Corona. 

I won't lie, I enjoyed this one a lot- it was a fun read, very cozy to curl up with, and even with some contradictions, it felt like a novel that was derivative of the series and set in that world. There are a lot of cameos and references, enough that I think most TTS fans will find something they like to nibble on.

Like I said in my earlier post abt the prologue and first few chapters, I'm so happy that Lance got a role alongside Eugene- he's definitely a secondary character to Eugene’s main, and he does get sidelined somewhat, but it's charming to see his friendship with Eugene and his growing passion for cooking. 

'I didn't expect anything, so I'm more delighted and pleasantly surprised than genuinely unhappy with the execution' is a running theme with this book for me and basically the tl;dr of this write-up.

There are soo many cameos and little treats- I get the impression Calonita didn't have the most complete knowledge of the series, but her chats with Chris and interest in the series’ writing definitely show. King Edmund, the Stabbingtons, all of the pub thugs, Weasel, Stalyan, and the Baron all make appearances, and we get cameos from Cap, Maximus, Pascal's mother, and even Cass gets a name drop. Several series-exclusive locations are also mentioned by name- Vardaros, the Spire, and the Forest of No Return.

I'm not immune to the fannish hit of 'hey! I understand that reference!' and I really enjoyed hunting for easter eggs, so even if the presence of the pub thugs in the Baron's crew, or the boys stumbling on Rapunzel's tower in one scene and making nothing of it (yea that happened) is a lil questionable, it made me smile and I can't be mad.

I would just describe this book as 'comfy'.

(That said, I'm a little unsure who all those references are for- I feel like if you hadn't seen the series, you'd lack context and some details would be meaningless, but if you had, I think you might long for more depth and exploration...)

Structure & Progression

Here's the part where I start criticizing the book aimed at middle and elementary schoolers lmao

It's a v short book, but the plot progression still feels a little scattered- it didn’t feel quite like a heist OR a mystery. The subplot that takes up a lot of focus is actually interpersonal conflict between Lance and Eugene- and they reconcile, but not after spending much of the book in a standoff due to a misunderstanding/'liar revealed' trope.

One of Eugene's motivations for joining the circus is spotting a man with a mark on his arm that matches the one from his letter working there, and believing he'll be able to learn more abt his parents from him. He doesn't disclose this to Lance right away, and when it comes out later on, he's upset that Eugene didn't tell him- he feels tricked, and like Eugene's prioritizing his biological family over their bond. I had a hard time with this, b/c I honestly think Eugene could've literally said to Lance, 'hey, joining this circus is a great opportunity to travel, make money, send some back to the orphanage, AND I found something about my parents, will you come with me?' and Lance still would've jumped on it. Later on, there's also another similar miscommunication that deepens the rift. 

It feels like manufactured drama, and I would've loved a book of the two of them just being buds, bouncing off each other, and trying to unravel the mysteries of the DK symbol and the Baron's ulterior motives together. Lance's fears of being left behind by his friend absolutely could've surfaced without the misunderstandings, especially the closer they got to the truth. (And I don't think that'd have been dissimilar to the unused 'Trial' episode concept and flashback.)

The pacing itself... meanders. After the boys complete an initiation mission to get a hold of a special key for the Baron, time passes (two weeks in-story) and there's some slice of life as they learn the ropes, get inducted into a lifestyle of thieving (it’s revealed the circus is a front for a crime ring), and get to know the Baron's crew.

I liked these parts and would've kept them in a longer book! But maybe there could've been some fine-tuning here so big events (Eugene stealing for the first time, the heist, the meeting with the mysterious Man with the Mark) weren’t so one-and-done. There are several points where nothing's really happening because the characters can't quite connect with each other, or they're waiting around for an opportunity passively, and that makes for a frustrating exp for me as a reader.

There were also lot of elements I thought were getting set up to come into play later, but not a lot of follow through? The folk hero Lance Archer is mentioned several times and has wanted posters, but we never meet him in the flesh. The Man with the Mark is revealed to be a former member of the Brotherhood(!) named Vedis(!!), but he isn't seen again after Eugene speaks with him... once. (More on this later this post is getting so long omg) 

The Baron’s plan is revealed to be stealing a reward offered for the lost princess when it’s on display to the public during a festival. Eugene and Lance balk b/c stealing doesn’t sit well with them, especially when it’s from what are ultimately a family trying to find their lost child- they decide to do the right thing by foiling the scheme/stealing it back and returning it to the royals. It goes a bit pear-shaped and they’re caught, but are forgiven and face no consequences after explaining, other than being ousted from the circus/crime ring and making enemies of the Baron. Eugene hasn’t given up on finding the DK, but he realizes he already has a family in Lance, and that’s the most important thing; the two resolve to travel the world and have adventures together.

I want to make another post on it, but at the least it feels like a foregone conclusion given we know ‘Flynn Rider’ goes on to become a renown thief who steals the crown of the lost princess- that’s literally the plot of the movie, and being a dashing rogue is Flynn’s defining trait- so even aside from questionable ideas about wealth, class, and morality, the novel’s ending doesn’t fit what’s firmly established about his character, and I think big fans of Eugene might have an even harder time with that then me. 

(I’m very suspicious that there might’ve been some executive meddling in an attempt to soften young Eugene’s character, and send a more palatable/upstanding message to children- it feels like Disney editing the old SW films to show Han didn’t shoot first.)

It’s def one of those novels where you can take some elements you like and leave others, but overall I’d still rly rec it for series fans! I’ve been buzzing and what-iffing about it for a few days, and I got some tasty tidbits on the characters and nods to the series, which is exactly what I wanted out of it.

And maybe it’s a funky take, but honestly I want to think of this book as the beginning of an alternate timeline where Lance and Eugene got out of crime earlier, Eugene got a clue abt his heritage by chance, and it changed his course. I think embracing the retcons and contradictions to canon makes for an interesting angle, and you’ll enjoy it more if you don’t take it too seriously. 

[hyunsuks-beanie]

I just watched this movie with my sister called L DK (2014) and she was like omg the guy from Alice in Borderland and I’m just thinking yes that’s Kento the love of Mellows life 😆

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Ah love it's funny how you mentioned watching L.DK with your sister when today my sister and I are planning on watching it again too😂😂

But honestly, Shuusei really is the most gorgeous and lovely guy ever, istg. I mean, among Kento's Big 3 (Heroine Disqualified, L.DK and Wolf Girl and Black Prince), I think he's the only one about whom my sister and I are agreed that he's a lovely guy who just got caught up in unnecessary drama.

I mean, with Rita and Sata Kyoya (his roles in the other two movies), it's quite easy to see the guy is toxic and mean and just plain confused. And it's enough to anger anyone, but Shuusei, apart from serving looks, is also a decently nice guy💖💖

Here's an edit of him l saw on IG lmao (credits in the video)~~

Isn't he perfect??

Also, if you had called Kento the love of my life barely 2 days ago, I would have agreed wholeheartedly. But now, even though I know it's still true, I definitely am awkward saying it out loud😭

[iiasha-archived]

master info/data post about the seventeen color survey thing i did for context behind the palettes i just posted ❤️

[hyung line] | [maknae line]

EDIT: since it’s been brought up, feel free to use the information here/the color palettes as inspiration for your own creations!! all i ask is that you link back to any of these 3 posts :))) you don’t have to tag me specifically but i’d also love to see what creations stem from this!!

a while ago i did an informal survey asking what colors carats associated with their bias(es), and using the results, came up with color palettes associated with each member. that being said, i did end up taking quite a bit of creative liberty when generating them seeing as most members were fairly… colorful lmao.

overall i was able to gather 575 unique answers across all 13 members (not sure how many people, lots of folks gave answers for multiple members, and if someone put 2+ colors with the member i honestly used all bc i needed data lmao). i plugged this information into a quick python script to generate these colors wheels which is why they aren’t really the prettiest. 

these were mainly generated to get the general idea of color distributions, and i also took the way people described colors into consideration when picking colors for the palettes (not obvious in these images but the script also kept track of tags). frankly the name of some colors were also taken into consideration to generate the final colors i picked for the color palettes (e.x. mingyu’s brown is “cafe noir” and i was just like YES)

i used coolors.co (A+ site btw) to finalize the palettes and get finalized hex values/color names, but the overall graphics were just generated in gimp (solid B software btw). originally i was gonna do something more, maybe integrate gifs somehow, but figured simple palettes were better for this lmao and also bc i didn’t want to make something advanced for 13 people jkfldasjk

some other facts about this data:

the colors are obviously a rough estimate; while some people were pretty specific, a lot of answers could boil down to just “red” or “yellow” so yeah jdfkaljfkds

some members had fairly consistent answers (e.g. dk - yellows, hoshi - oranges/yellows, wonwoo - blue) while others were much more all over the place (jun, mingyu, woozi)

while the8 was also fairly rainbow (with emphasis on red and green), a majority also emphasized that whatever color they chose for him was dark

conversely, jeonghan, joshua, and seungkwan were our resident pastel bois, as a majority of answers emphasized lighter colors

dino had a lot of people say silver for him, making him the member with the highest proportion of grayscale values

for perhaps obvious reasons, a lot of people said rainbow/tie-dye for vernon, and he was the only member this was applied to

i had the most trouble coming up with color palettes for jun and mingyu, who are ironically my ults, due to their inconsistent color wheels. that might be why i ended up giving them the most unconventional color palettes as my own interests were fighting with the actual data LMAO

looking back at these now i’m reconsidering some of the color palettes i made, but i already made them so too bad jklfdajlsd. obviously my own aesthetic highly influences the palettes i made. if possible i’d love to somehow get more data since this is in all honesty a pretty small sample size, but my reach is pretty much limited to tumblr, so here it all is ig

thanks for everyone who contributed to this, this was suuuuper interesting to evaluate :D

[femaleidols]

I was wondering who each of the femaleidols members' favorite gif makers/content creators are? Or those they think are really good and make a lot of quality content? There's been a lot of negativity among content creators lately and I would love to see some appreciation for blogs who work hard to make content for their followers!!

see our replies under the cut!

yehshuhua: My faves are our members of course and blackpinks, celo-mar, tipannies, ireone, sowonis and lulerains! 💝

heonies: (hiatus)

katypery: i love our members’ content which is no surprise (big shout out to my friends sunjis, monoka, sooyulti, theseulgis, yehshuhua, loonarium and boratanical), but other content makers i really like are celo-mar, mapofbts, blackpinks, juween, syua, shiningqueens and ireone.

sunjis: my favorite content creators are our current and past members + celo-mar, sowonis and 7nsomnia 💖

sooyulti: some of my favorites are @katypery @sunjis @theseulgis @loonarium @redvelvetcult @blackpinks @yehshuhua @tzusyu @leaderirene @sowonis @withyeri @b-joohyun @irxne @hiliqht @ireone @hangeuk @twuce @leesvnkyu 💖✨ 

seuhgi: really love @/yummino @/dazzlingkai @/katypery @/sooyulti @/twuce @/ireone @/lulerains @/yejiis @/ryujinurs @/glowing-eu @/b-joohyun @/hangeuk @/bleackpink and obviously the whole femaleidols team full of amazing content creators who are so inspiring and who i admire ♥

prkchaeyoung:

monoka: I haven’t been on since forever and i only know old gfxmakers who probably quit tumblr so.. i’ll just say the members who make stuff on femaleidols are all good 🙏🏻 they work hard 💗

chaanmi: (hiatus)

yongs: blackpinks, yeosng, lulerains, loonarium, hiliqht, lovemase, yejitsu, sunjis, sooyulti and sowonis are some of my favorites!💖

loonarium: aw there’s so many! i’m always afraid of answering these asks because i don’t want to end up forgetting anyone~ my favorite of all time will always be @brandinator although he’s inactive nowadays lmao. i love @blackpinks, @hangeuk, @sowonis, @sunmiurl, @b-joohyun, @ireone, @huffnpwff, @mapofbts and among femaleidols creators my favorites are @yongs, @sooyulti, @katypery, @boratanical and @yujin. i’m sure i’m forgetting a lot of other people rip.

krystal: my favourite content creators are @nctmark and @nakamoto 💚

boratanical: some of my favs are @ireone @nctjaemin @chuuing @1hyungseo @yuqi-s @blackpinks @joohys @maerinah !

dazzlingkai: oh! this is a great idea :) I want to give a shoutout to these wonderful editors who create edits of female idols: @joohys, @redvelvetcult, @celo-mar, @ireone, @jisooq, @leaderirene, @tipannies , @7nsomnia, @dahyun, @lulerains, @intojennie, @theseulgis,  @leesvnkyu, @hotjoong, @mosachaes, @gingerfany, @itsyeowangshidae, @hiliqht, @mihyon, @red-shidae, @yuqi-s, @twiceq, @hangeuk and many more. I would also like to say a big thank you to each and every creator out there who are making edits and sharing them with everyone on this site. thank you for all of your hard work. they’re lovely, and I appreciate them so much🙏🌸💗💖✨

yujin:

nctmark: helloo my faves are @krystal for gifs and @sunnie-dk and @jaeshuns for gfx :D

seulgjoy: aaa i really like monoka!! even tho she isnt active here anymore she is def my big inspiration to do graphics :) also mihyon, haoseul, theseulgis, juhyun, wjsns, maerinah and and a lot more!

1team: for content creators, i really love: ericnams, 01degree, runawayera, aoife1108, laikuanlin!

wonhuis: hi! blackpinks, juhyun, haoseul, maerinah, monoka, theseulgis, redvelvetcult, lulerains and watchatalkabout are some of my faves ^^