#i hopeeee this makes sense

[pathologising]

out of curiosity, and you dont need to answer if you dont want to. for you, what does it mean to recover from bdsm? what aspects did you have to step away from, and what does the recovery look like? im asking because ive got a friend whos concerningly into cnc seemingly out of nowhere with a history of abuse, and while i understand the self-destructive need to it I am also worried about lasting repercussions in the long run

anyway, the mean anons can get bent. It's stupid to argue to INTENTIONALLY do the retraumatizing thing, with intention, as in, knowingly, as in, on perpose, as in, that is self harm you don't advocate cutters continue cutting because logically you know thats damaging but when its sex related suddenly its dont kink shame me

I was thinking abt how to answer this bc it is a ewally good question. For context I was in an extreme bdsm relationship prior to my current bf and also after that relationship I was in this kinda downward spiral of hooking up with people and participating in extreme bdsm with them as either sex work or casual sex. I was also dealing with my drug addiction at the time and to me sex was always violent or was always transactional due to my history of abuse.

For a good while I was in denial that anything was wrong and that what I was doing was fine and not retraumatising. When in reality the things I put myself through to feel some sort of affection was really only further warping my views on sex and relationships. Like I genuinely believed that sex was supposed to be violent because if I consented then it was fine and not detrimental to myself.

I think what really helped me realise that participating in extreme bdsm stuff was really unhealthy for me was a) my therapist and b) my current partner. I'm very lucky to have met my current partner because he refuses to do anything that might hurt me or warp how I view myself. Being with him has shown me how sex doesn't need to be violent or degrading and my therapist has helped me work through why I felt the need for sex to be destructive and violent.

Through them, I had to have moments where I was very introspective: "Why do I want this to happen to me? Why do I feel the need to be degraded and hurt during sex?" These are a few questions I had to ask myself among many others that helped me step away from the extreme bdsm lifestyle.

Also realizing that sex can be fun and exciting without being violent or retraumatising. Learning to find satisfaction in "mundane" sex with my partner has been a process but i honestly feel that it has helped how I see myself and changed my self worth.

It's a really hard thing to step away from especially if you are so used to sex being violent or whatnot. It really does take a lot of self introspection to see how re traumatizing that shit can be and how easy it is to live in self denial doesn't help.

I hope this makes sense to u lol I feel like im rambling but basically my therapist and my partner have helped me in stopping self destructive sex stuff. Also learning and remembering sex doesn't have to be violent to be fun. Also treating sex as a completely natural and neutral act of bonding has really helped. It's just a long process but it's definitely one that has helped me feel a lot better about myself and my body and sex in general.

[seth-ballz]

sort of like a follow up to my last post- this is basically a timeline of said love triangle ^_^

@seeveekat 🙈🙈

okay so urahara would occasionally visit mayuri in the maggots nest. he knew mayuri had been in the little group with senjumaru, but that was about it, so urahara was interested in mayuri. mayuri wasnt- he felt safe in his cell, but yeah, he got out

urahara would hit on mayuri, and mayuri quickly realized being on good terms with urahara would probably lead to him getting more of the protection that he craves. so he returned the gestures in small amounts, not anticipating the fact that he’d actually develop feelings for urahara

so what mayuri thought was a rather serious relationship, urahara saw as casual flings. he hadnt had anyone to talk with science stuff about, so thats the main reason he liked mayuri… and because having someone love on him made him feel good

so when urahara was banished, mayuri was very obviously betrayed and he decided no more love for him. there was a lot lot of feelings on mayuris side about this, which urahara may or may not have faced

then came kenpachi. an overwhelming brute who actually made mayuri feel so safe, and was too stupid to offer any false love like urahara had -if that makes sense-. so now mayuri found himself lingering around kenpachi. the man could protect him, mayuri could easily talk to him, he was just a nice match to mayuri. though he’d never admit that

kenpachi didnt really realize it as it was happening, but he developed feelings for mayuri too. he just kinda woke up one day and was like “damn i like that scientist” and asked him to date (very bluntly).

mayuri was shocked, but he ended up agreeing!

[lu-zijing]

L i t e r a l l y S c r e a m e d -this parallel-

And the fact that both have actually very likely canonly happened...! Chuuya did say something along the lines of "Lend me your shoulder" to Akutagawa before the video cut off in Dead Apple -which is literally happening in this picture- so the fact we actually got a picture off it..!!!!

And the first one between Dazai and Atsushi is 100% possible to have happened as well if you ask me.

CHUUYA MAY NOT PLAY A BIG PART IN THE NEW DOUBLE BLACK Yet we hopeeee-!!! BUT ALL FOUR SURE IS DEPICTED OFTEN TOGETHER IN OFFICIAL ART.

And often, with either the pairs: Akutagawa and Atsushi - Chuuya and Dazai or Akutagawa and Chuuya - Atsushi and Dazai

#LetChuuyabeAMentorishFigureforAkutagawaLikeDazaiIsForAtsushi

THESE PARALLELS WHERE CHUUYA AND AKUTAGAWA ARE TOGETHER AND DAZAI AND ATSUSHI ARE TOGETHER I SWEAR I LOVE THEM—

#LetChuuyabeAMentorishFigureforAkutagawaLikeDazaiIsForAtsushi

These three alone are together quite a lot as well -! Love that second one specifically...!✨ 

Which makes sense! It is more or less only Dazai from the old Double Black who has been a part of the new one so far. No point denying that.

So of course there's art with only the three of them. But there is ALSO art with all four, so perhaps at a later time...?

What I mean is that I'm personally hoping Chuuya will be a part of it somehow too in the future ...! Because it hasn't yet. As far as we know- But it could.

Maybe the Production team at BONES would like to see Chuuya in on it as well in the future considering there's a lot of official art from them with all four..

At the very least they must like the parallels between them.. orrr they simply know the fans like them.

Yeahhhh, maybe it's just to feed the fans. But hey, at least they serve us really well. ✨ ✨ ✨ ✨ 

Or mayyyybe if we are super, SUPER lucky it's hinting at it-?? am I delusional? I am- aren't I- They aren't the author after all- Do Asagiri or Harukawa approve of all official art now we are at the topic? Or maybe comment on it? hmmmm...

Okay, I just reaaalllyyyy wanna see more Akutagawa and Chuuya interaction...!!!! I love that possible parallel between Atsushi and Dazai having a mentor-student relationship and Akutagawa and Chuuya getting something similar as well.

Like Chuuya giving him advice and stuff. Show concern for him?

I also wanna see Atsushi and Chuuya interact........at lot.......

Is it unrealistic?

Yes it is ALL official art. ✨ 

Annnd this was the second post of a list of posts with official art I would make, heheh, if anyone remembers that, it's a long time ago I posted the first one, but here you go! Thanks for reading-！

[ox-priincess]

“ i’ve got your back, okay? ” goku to chichi

“An’ I have your’s.” They were out in the woods and surrounded by a group of wolves, angry wolves. While Goku was used to living out in the wilderness and knew more about handling wild animals then she did, she could handle herself as well. Especially after training and sparring with Goku for the past few weeks.