#i hoped you guys understood this

[vaszametili]

Extras from previous sketch hoard fanart on Gone Hunting [ao3]

[purgaytorysupremacy]

oh nuts. a life experience has given me a new layer of perspective on Cas's homosexual declaration of love to Dean.

recently I had occasion to tell a person I had feelings for them knowing full well they didn't feel even a twinge of the same thing for me. while the whole thing was a decidedly unpleasant experience, I kept laughing at myself internally bc I didn't want to say "the happiness is just in saying it" like fucking Castiel over here. (we don't need to talk about it, it's fine.) (I am happier having said it and it's kind of bullshit, but I digress.)

because the thing is, the happiness isn't in just saying it, right? the happiness is in the having. I made a whole TikTok "proving" that the Empty didn't come for Cas when he confessed his love, but rather when he realized Dean loved him back. even for Cas, the happiness was in the having, not in the saying, however brief it was.

and I've always been one of those people who rolled their eyes at the whole concept. why would the happiness be in just being, in just saying it, if it's right there in front of you to have. and then it hit me like a tonne of bricks (as I was washing my kitchen counters).

Cas really didn't think he could have Dean.

at all. in any capacity. he really, truly, and honestly felt to the depths of himself that Dean did not have any twinge of similar feelings, that this really was a Hail Mary shot-in-the-dark. and I think me, personally, really didn't understand that about Cas. that his belief in his love being unrequited was that unshakable.

something else I've been pondering is how audiences have so much more empathy for fictional characters who share traits that IRL they find objectionable and unappealing. but the thing is about fictional characters is that we follow them around in their most private, vulnerable moments. we see Dean mourning Cas when he dies, literally killing himself because he can't live without him, but it's so easy to forget that we're the omniscient ones here.

Cas never knew.

Dean's whole thing was pushing him away, keeping him at arm's length, making it seem like whatever heroic thing he does for Cas he'd do for anyone. he downplays how important it is for Dean to share the Deancave with him, to show him his favourite movies, share his favourite songs. he acts like the things Cas does for him don't mean that much to hide how much they do mean. he uses "we" whenever he even gets in the vicinity of expressing a feeling. "We were worried." "We're glad you're back." "We needed a win." "You're our brother." The audience knew the difference. We saw how he'd clench his jaw or swallow hard or make a face that said "God, I'm being such an idiot". Because we saw him in those little moments. We got to see the cracks in the mask.

but Cas never knew.

the self-hating angel of Thursday was never going to think it was all a way for Dean to protect himself. obviously, that's the delicious tragedy of it all, but what I think I realized at the end of all that is Cas confessing his love to a Dean who didn't love him back wouldn't have worked. Because the happiness really is in the having. If happiness was just in saying it, then The Empty would have come before Cas even finished getting the words out of his mouth.

so Cas's plan wouldn't have worked if Dean didn't love him back.

this is just me yapping on about my own nonsense, but I do think it's really interesting. there's contentment in "just saying it". there's freedom and relief and an unburdening. I think one can argue that it makes being happy in the being easier. there is certainly some joy in telling a person you think that highly of them. but true happiness?

nah.

true happiness is always going to only be in the having. Cas didn't understand the difference until he experienced it, and by then, it was too late.

[unicornsaures]

i just finished rumble fish and the hate is unwarranted you guys are WRONG

[esteemed-excellency]

ok i'm almost done with the new firmament chapter, i have So Many thoughts 👀

[nana2009]

do u think dave would 👉👈 karkat bleed. or does he keep him very very safe

i dont rlly sea dave as a violent yandere??? at least not unless absolutely necessary or rlly rlly desperate. he would try to keep karkat as safe as possible while still maintaining some kind of control over him, ykno? because as much (subconsciously) controlling and manipulative dave is, he's still caring and near submissive otherwise. to drive him to wounding karkat at the point of drawing blood it would have to be reelly serious, somefin like probably hes drunk or out of himself and karkat tries somefin bold or drastic that doesn't give him enough time to think of a rational solution but attack! rarely would he ever use physical strength against karkat out of his own rational will.

so in conclusion id say it depends on the situation, but it would have to be the kind where dave can not control himself? :3

oh yeah, somehow this happens in the future. (///>u0///)

psst. a bonus for blood i didnt add in one image because i thought it would be too over-the-top and lowkey gross(maybe.)

its a lil detail i wanted in, but thought my initial intentions would have been a little too obvious....(and also got a firm no from my moirail BUT IM STILL SHOWING HEHEHE!!)

[coffeeshib]

Hi! I’ve recently visited your page again, after a longer tumblr break and saw your posts about people’s comments on your fics. It made me both sad and angry. Sad because they’ve managed to take away your joy for writing Supercorp and angry that people feel like they can type out any hurtful thought that goes through their head, for a thing that is absolutely free and made with so much passion and care. 😒🤬

For what it’s worth, I always loved the way you write both of them. AND the fact that you don’t ignore Kara’s trauma and struggles. “i’m spilling all my words (but you keep 'em to yourself)” will forever be one of my favorites. Thank you for the hours of joy and fun you have given us! I hope you know that for every entitled commenter there are ten times more people who love your works! 🫵🏻🤘🏻

ahh thank you so much, i appreciate this. i have to say, sc still has me by the neck, i do plan to finish that fic & maybe write some more but it won't be anytime soon. i had hoped that the fandom would calm down with the kara hate after the show ended but i was wrong, it still hasn't changed.

when you've been writing for sc for so long, the frustration builds up, & there have been many times where i felt like i needed to (& did) restrict myself when writing them. it stops being enjoyable when people are constantly calling kara 'stupid' & insult her in many different ways for not being the happy sunshine kara danvers who takes care of lena all the time.

personally i love reading & writing the reverse situation (lena who's being the patient loving one & also the shoulder for kara to lean on) because the show didn't give us enough of that. unfortunately, people don't respond well whenever kara is struggling with her issues & lena isn't the one who's being comforted.

i write what i like & that's what i'm always going to do, but this build up of frustration over the past years & always anticipating kara hate every fic/chapter killed the joy a lot.

i've seen some authors speak about this too & it's genuinely sad to see! people can like & dislike whatever but it's important to note that there are readers out there who don't realize that their personal feelings against kara also affect authors & their love for writing supercorp

[yume-fanfare]

current state of mitsukou is really interesting to me because kou is currently. really deeply in love, cares about mitsuba more than anything else and is traumatized enough that he's not going to get over this ever, while mitsuba is going through the normal stages of a crush. at the same time, kou is unaware of the nature and magnitude of his feelings because he's too stressed, while mitsuba does know that kou loves him

[gwydionae]

Rewatching through the old X-Men cartoon has reminded me that if Nightcrawler is onscreen for more than 30 seconds and hasn't yet jumped into a sermon, it must be an imposter.

[beaversatemygrandma]

Interview. Interview. Oh Another interview. Interview. Interview. Guess what's next? An interview that a manager is like "Today at 2pm sound good?" which I took bc yeah, it was good...

I'm tired.

Now will ANY OF THEM ACTUALLY Call Me Back???

[hacksawboy]

put my loadouts into one team called PNK and theyre pink because i am very normal about the color pink. also yes i did change my loadouts drastically again. whats it to ya huh. huh. (i am addicted to scrap tf someone take this fucking website away from me)

[scarlet-came-back-wrong]

Just found a conservative website with pretty detailed reviews of Dracula adaptations and the 1979 movie was described as "This movie is what happens when hippies take control of the production." I can't take literally anything about this adaptation seriously and this line still made me go "yes.jpg"

It turns out that my longtime suspicions were correct: James Hart was inspired to write his screenplay that eventually became Coppola's movie by Langella's performance, just not in the movie but the play it was based on. The 1979 movie itself was also inspired by the said performance, which makes Langella a much more important figure in the development of the Dracula myth that I initially thought. Which is quite ironic considering that his movie is quite obscure now in comparison with many other Dracula adaptations.

[nylwnder]

the fact that i am 9 people away from having 1k followers is absolutely insane. thank you so much to everyone who supports my mentally unstable behaviour. just know i know you all so much and you guys are such a lovely community for me. 💘💘💘

[mel-loly]

-Horror+ Romantic comedy= King Duo (surely!)

@manpleblog

[camellcat]

was rewatching some drawing a ____! by tennelleflowers to help myself get inspired, so here's some more kitty!companions doodles

tbh idk if these two would get along but I like to think, once they had their sarah jane vs rose moment, they'd be just fine

[frog-with-no-therapy]

You know, I'm not much of a fan for superman (haven't read a single issue of his) but I really really respect him

Like, his whole thing is that he is an alien who was raised by humans, and decided to become a hero later on

Many people find him lame and boring, or even naive to be this nice to humans, and hate on him because of that. but the thing is

The thing is that he isn't naive. He gets it, he has super hearing, he hears every cry and scream for help. He hear every break down, every sad moment, every violent one too, yet he still fight for humanity

Because he also hears every laugh, every shout of joy, every squeal of joy, every "I love you" said, every happy moment, every lovely moment, and every humane one too

He heard and saw all of those and decided we are worth fighting for, that these moments are worth fighting for

And he isn't lame and boring, he is a lonely guy trying to fit in very hard, eating and sleeping even when he doesn't need it, just so he can have a small imaginary picture of what it means to fit in

I don't know exactly how his story goes, or the kind of hardships he face (hopefully ones that challenge his perspective, ones that challenge his human side ) but just his concept alone is more than enough for him to be a very interesting character

He too have his own problems, mostly with fitting in and loneliness, and if you can't understand that then perhaps you're part of the problem he face, being seen as "too powerful" to have such mundane problems and all

[minglana]

never again telling a cishet person that i had a "boyfriend" in middle school that lasted two months. what the fuck do you mean you dont understand that society pushes women to seek relationships with men, leading lesbians to also try out relationships with them to see "if it feels right"