#i hope you like some dancing jinnie

[jinnie-ret]

heatstroke

stray kids x ninth member!reader

genre: fluff, angst

content warnings: heat stroke, vomiting

word count: 1.9k

summary: y/n suffers from heat stroke on the day of their performance at lollapalooza

As voted by you!

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MAIN MASTERLIST

They had made it to Paris. Y/N couldn't believe how big the crowd would be for their performance at the festival 'Lollapalooza'. The sun was shining, and all she wanted to do was fully appreciate the nice weather. Although, where there was a Changbin, there was always chaos.

"Hwang Hyunjin!" Changbin called from opposite Y/N in his deck chair.

"Why do you keep calling me? Wae? Wae. Wae?" Hyunjin loomed over Changbin in a hoodie and sunglasses, wondering why the older member wanted his attention.

"Jinnie how are you wearing a hoodie right now? The sun's out, it's boiling," Y/N raised an eyebrow at him.

"It's not that hot," he shook his head at her, probably side eyeing her from behind his shades.

Each to their own, Y/N thought.

Somehow they came onto the topic of noodles but Y/N wasn't really fussed, she had ramen all the time back home.

She was more trying to relax, and she couldn't help but fall asleep from the comforting warmth of the French sunshine.

"Y/Nnie, wake up, you look like a tomato," Jeongin shook her awake, and as she became fully aware she realised her arms and neck was feeling quite hot.

Shit, she forgot her sun cream.

"You good? Your arms are so red," Chan peered at her, concerned.

"Mmm, my neck feels hot too," Y/N sits up in the deck chair, brushing her hair back so the boys could see.

"Aish that sunburn looks bad, you should have put on some suncream," Felix lightly brushes his finger over her red arm, making her wince.

"Gosh, I'm going to look like a tomato when we perform," Y/N laughs as she looks down at her arms.

"At this rate you won't just look like a tomato, you'll look like the whole garden," Lee Know smirks, proud of his joke.

"Ha, ha, very funny Lee Know," Y/N pats his cheek in a jokingly patronising way, smiling back at him.

"You need to take better care of yourself, Y/N," Chan looked over her, shaking his head.

"I'm sorry Channie, I just wanted to enjoy the nice weather," Y/N pouted.

"You do realise you can get skin cancer if you burn too much?" Seungmin pointed out, taking a sip of water from his bottle.

"Yah, Seungmin don't say things like that I'll get paranoid," Y/N whacks his arm lightly.

"Hey I'm just saying, your skin will age faster too," Seungmin shrugged.

"I'll look like an old woman next to you guys and I'm the youngest!" Y/N laughed, Han appearing with aloe vera out of nowhere and gently rubbing it into her skin, letting out quiet apologies when she winced.

"That's why I'm helping you, don't want you to look like a 60 year old next to us whilst we still look the same," Han laughed loudly.

"Haha, that would look kinda funny though," Y/N laughed at the thought. Perhaps she'd look like grandma I.N with the rest of the group alongside her.

"You know what else would be funny?" Changbin wiggled his eyebrows at her.

"What?" Y/N asked curiously, shifting her body to stand and face him.

"To see you dancing on stage like a tomato, everyone going crazy because of how big and red you are," Changbin maniacally giggled.

The boys burst out laughing at the statement and Y/N's face.

"Huh? Big?!" Y/N gasped laughing.

"I was talking about your cheeks, they're really big and red right now," Changbin laughed, waving his hands in defense of how what he said had sounded.

"Haha, I'll introduce myself like, hi! This isn't Y/Nnie, I'm tomato today!" Y/N put on her stage voice, pretending to introduce herself to her fans.

The members all laugh at her, Jeongin walking up to her and tickling her sides.

"Hey! Are you the new mascot for ketchup?" he cheekily grinned, eyes disappearing through his smile.

"Yah! Jeongin!" Y/N guffawed from his remark.

"Ah, our tomato is blushing so much," Lee Know pats her head smirking.

"Stop, stop," Y/N waves them away.

"Haha, seriously though, come inside the tent for a bit, you should stay out of the sun," Chan guided her into their tent where they were setup before their performance.

"Yeah it's not like we're performing until a few hours anyways," Lee Know nodded, as they all sat around inside.

"Aish, I'm tired," Y/N laid her head down in Han's lap, his hand brushing through her hair out of habit.

"You were literally just napping," Hyunjin raised a brow at her.

"Yeah but..." Y/N closed her eyes feeling relaxed at the familiar feeling.

"Drink some water first," Hyunjin put a bottle of water with a straw in it to her face.

Still with her eyes shut she took a sip and then relaxed. It wasn't until a couple of hours later that she was woken up and ushered to the stylists and makeup artists to get ready.

The crowd was insane. And really, they were the only thing keeping her going as she could feel her energy depleting. She didn't notice the glances from the boys throughout the performance, occasionally spotting her swaying yet she still managed to keep her vocals stable as they performed Superbowl for the first time ever, and Item for the second time ever.

The euphoria running through her veins began to leave her once they reached backstage. With a smile she listened to Felix end their set to hype the crowd with Seven Nation Army. But she couldn't help her slumped figure as she sat down after her desperate search for a chair.

"You good, Y/Nnie?" Chan patted her shoulder, trying to get her attention.

"Hot," Y/N panted, tugging at the collar of her leather jacket that she had been fitted with for the stage performance.

"Take it off then," Changbin helped her shake it off, now feeling concerned at her heavily sweating state.

"What's going on with Y/N?" some of the other members asked as they walked over.

"Ugh, my head," she groaned, now leant forward as she gripped onto her knees for some stability.

"Have some water, silly," Seungmin encouraged her to take his own, yet her shaky hand wasn't very reassuring to the others.

"Y/Nnie, you can't even hold onto it, are you dizzy? What's the matter?" Felix poured out questions, worried about the state she was in.

"Mmm," Y/N nods, as Jeongin helps her sip from the water bottle.

"Ah that's not good," Hyunjin shakes his head, frowning.

"Here, come on, let's get you relaxed somewhere else," Changbin helps her stand, yet as her body becomes upright she stumbles, Lee Know helping to support her balance.

Y/N suddenly tears up, feeling scared about how she was feeling. It was all too overwhelming, and everything felt too hot.

"C-can't feel my arms," Y/N whimpered as tears fell down her cheeks, the boys murmuring amongst themselves worriedly.

"You can't feel your arms?" Felix asked, a scared look on his face, and that made Y/N feel worse, she didn't want the boys to be stressed out for her sake.

"I'm sorry, I..." Y/N trailed off, still panting as she was guided back to her chair, the boys deciding it was for the better for her to rest for now where she was, instead of moving her somewhere else.

"You're okay. Everything is going to be ok, sweetheart, we've got you, yeah?" Chan hushed her soothingly, Han rubbing her back in small circles.

"Should we call a medic?" Jeongin asked, eyes wide with uneasiness.

"Yes, good idea, Innie," Lee Know nodded at him, as they both went to look for some help.

"Y/N, you're ok, you're going to be ok," Hyunjin quietly comforted her, a light grip on her hand as he knelt down beside her.

Y/N groaned again from her headache getting worse.

"Where are those medics?" Changbin asked, looking around frustratedly with his hands on his hips, wondering what was taking so long.

"Don't... worry... don't waste... on me..." Y/N could barely get her words out, especially as a wave of nausea overcome her.

"Yah, it's not a waste, you're clearly not well right now Y/N," Han looked sullen, now fanning her face with a piece of paper he had found.

"S-sorry... ugh, feel... sick," she mumbled dizzily, slumped in the chair.

"You feel sick?" Hyunjin worried.

"I'm gonna... ugh," Y/N, with all her willpower, lifted herself out of the chair, yet it wasn't enough to keep her standing as she collapsed to her knees on the ground and threw up whatever was in her system. The boys were unable to catch her and yelled out as she fell.

"Y/N! Shit!" Changbin held her against him.

"Where are the medics?!" Chan yelled angrily, stress consuming him as their maknae was on the ground.

"Ah, ugh, I'm, ah I'm sorry," Y/N whimpered, tears running down her face from her own panic and the feeling of throwing up.

"You don't have to be sorry, it's ok, just take a deep breath," Han held her hair back, looking around at the boys with his eyes shining with his own tears as he feared she wouldn't be ok.

Y/N threw up again, gasping for breath.

"Is that all of it?" Hyunjin whispered from beside them, Y/N tearily nodding as she slumped back in Changbin's arms, feeling dazed.

Lee Know and Jeongin suddenly rushed over with the medics, both of them seeming angry.

"Finally! Where were they?!" Chan asked them, sighing disappointedly.

"Packing up, they were ready to go even though we only just finished performing," Lee Know gritted his teeth as the medics lifted Y/N onto a stretcher and took her through to a medical room, much cooler with air conditioning blasting through the room.

They held a wet cloth against her forehead and against her burns to try and lower her body temperature. The boys couldn't do anything but wait anxiously as they saw their youngest laying down and getting treated.

"Her temperature is dropping, that's a good sign," the medic said out loud to the boys.

Half an hour had passed and Y/N was now more aware of her surroundings, the medics clearing that she could head back to the hotel with the boys, telling them that if her condition worsens again that they need to call an ambulance immediately.

"I'm sorry," Y/N sleepily muttered as they helped her into the company cars.

"Don't apologise, we were more concerned about you," Seungmin informed her, an arm wrapped around her waist as he and Hyunjin guided her into the back of the car.

"That's why I feel bad," Y/N bit her lip.

"It's ok, you can rest now, don't worry about it ok? I know it's easier said than done but we'll make sure you're ok, and we're doing that because we care about you, yeah?" Chan said from the front seat.

"Ok, ok," she yawned, head leaning against Hyunjin's shoulder.

Once they arrived back at the hotel they didn't let her stay in her own room, as she instead was looked after by Lee Know and Jeongin in another, the two of them making sure she was relaxed and not too hot as they kept the air conditioning on. It may have felt a bit cold for them at one point but they didn't mind, they'd do anything for her. All of the boys would.

tagged: @skz-streamer @oo-li

[doitforbangchan]

honeyy, as you can see... i'm missing my people so much 😭 can we get jinnie - getting rid of the boys - and sneaking into omega's room to spend the night with her when channie's away, please? 🥹❤️

heheheh i love this idea it is very cute 😍thanx bb i hope you like it

ABANB Drabble 02

"This is a long grocery list, Hyune. Are you sure you need all of it?" Felix asked, looking at the texted list that Hyunjin had sent him.

*cough* " Yeah, m' sure. I need everything on that list to feel better." Hyunjin faked another cough, thankful that he was only speaking on the phone or else Felix would have seen the sly grin on the other betas face.

Everyone was out of the house right now. Felix, Jisung and Minho were out shopping, Changbin and Jeongin were at the gym,  Seungmin had gone to visit his family for the weekend and Chan had left this morning for a client meeting. That only left Hyunjin alone… With you. A rare moment he would not pass up on. Hyunjin had not had any time with his omega in what felt like centuries ( about 4 days) and he was beginning to go crazy. 

You were just getting over a cold, having spent too much time dancing in the rain with Jisung a few days prior. Jisung hadn’t gotten sick somehow but you weren’t so lucky. You were feeling much better now but still not one hundred percent so you (more like Minho) thought it better to rest a little more. Your cold gave Hyunjin the perfect cover- ‘somehow’ you had given him your illness so he just had to stay home today while everyone else ran errands. 

He added for good measure, “Plus, Baby would benefit from a lot of that stuff too.” 

That seemed to do it as he heard Felix hum in agreement. “I suppose so. Alright then we will grab it while we’re out, but we may be gone a little longer than usual. Are you gonna be ok taking care of yourself for a while?” 

*cough* “I think so.” He hid his snicker behind the cough. 

The phone was snatched out of Felix’s hand, a loud ‘HEY’ being heard then Minho’s voice rang through the phone. “Do not go bothering Baby while we’re out. She needs to recover and get her rest, and she can’t do that if you’re up her ass the whole time.” 

‘Oh if only you knew just how up her ass I can be, Minho’ Hyunjin thought snarkily. “I won’t. I Promise.” 

Minho scoffed and Hyunjin could imagine how the elder beta was rolling his eyes, “ Yeah right. Get some rest, Hyune.” 

Min had ended the call before he could respond, the line cutting with a quiet beep. Hyunjin pocketed his phone and stood from his place on the couch. The beta listened for any sign of life but heard nothing except the muffled voices coming from the tv in your nesting room where you were resting. He was giddy as he ascended the steps to the second floor, a fluttering in his stomach that he never grows old of was making him jittery and he couldn't fight the smile that lingered on his lips. 

Hyunjin approached your door and gave a tentative knock on the wood. He heard the tv pause and a light shuffle, then a quiet “Come in.” Your voice was still slightly scratchy. 

The beta slowly cracked the door open and peeping his head inside, his long hair swaying with the movement brought a little crackly giggle out of you. “Hi beautiful, how are you feelin’? He asked, taking in how cute you looked snuggled up in your nest.  

“Hi Jinnie. M’ feeling ok, still a little under but definitely better.” You replied, “What about you? Did I get you sick too?” 

He shrugged, “Ah a little, no big deal.” He faked another cough, turning away for a second. Hyunjin needed a way in and playing with your nurturing instincts was the way to go. You seldom let the boys enter your nest, only when you deemed it necessary. 

“Oh Jinnie I’m sorry! How about you come cuddle with me, maybe the body heat will help with your fever!” Bingo. 

*cough cough* “I can’t just invade your nest like that Baby. I’ll be ok.” *Sniffle* 

“Nonsense. You get your skinny little butt in here Hyunjin.” You waved him in with a stern look on your face. 

“Well, if you insist.” He wasted no time before shuffling over to you and flinging himself into your nest next to you. He cuddled up close when you wrapped your arms around him. 

You placed your lips softly upon his forehead, feeling a light fever in the warmness of his skin. “Hm you are warm. Lay down. I have some tea on the bedside- you should drink some, it will help your throat.” He wanted to swoon, even when you yourself were feeling bad you still took care of him in his ‘time of need’. You weren’t lying when you said you felt a fever on his skin though. 

“You’re the best, Baby. What are we watchin?” 

“Greys anatomy.” You picked up the remote and resumed the program. 

“Again? Haven’t you seen every episode like.. Four times?” 

“Shhhhhh” You hushed him, “This is a good part, their plane is about to crash.” 

You both settled in together, cuddled up watching the drama series with drooping eyes. That is where the other members of the pack found you later; both asleep wrapped around each other. Minho grumbled about Hyunjin being a liar and Felix giggled and took pictures to print out later. 

Hyunjin woke up a few hours later with a scratchy throat and a very real congestion in his nose.

Worth it.

©doitforbangchan

@jehhskz

[desi2go]

Sick days

pairing: sick!Hyunjin x reader

Warnings: fluf

Summary: You imagined your day off differently. But taking care of your sick boyfriend was even better.

Being with Hyunjin was like a soft breeze that played with your hair and kept the busy thoughts away from you. It was like a sunset at the beach. The bright colours were exciting but calming. Every day was a new adventure, a new story.

As a nurse, you dealt with a busy and hectic schedule and Hyunjin was always there after a long 12 hours shift to bring you comfort. Like a breeze his fingers brushed through your hair as you hid your face in his neck, trying to get the annoying smell of disinfection out of your nose.

He was your safe space. Whenever you felt down or self-conscious, he grounded you and build you up. As an idol, he always worked ambitiously to perform the best for his beloved STAY. Even though he was exhausted, he makes sure that you are okay and looked after you at the end of the day.

He texted you, that today's practice would run late and you shouldn't wait for him. You just came home from your long shift and it was already 11 pm. You hoped that he wouldn't overwork himself and come home quickly. You quickly changed out of your work clothes and jumped under the shower. Then, you cleaned the dishes from the morning due to the missing time because nearly overslept. Luckily, you had managed to get to work in time but without a breakfast.

You figured that your boyfriend would be starving when he will get home, so you ordered takeout.

You yawned and cuddled further into the couch with a blanket draped over your lap as you watched your favourite TV show again. Well, you loved to watch it with him.

Hyunjin came home in the middle of the night. The clock in the hallway said that it was long after midnight and he felt terrible. Today's practice was a pain. It seemed like everything he did was slow and forced. There wasn't the usual easy flow, the balance and the melody didn't took over his body. It didn't guide him and that was frustrating, especially since the comeback season starts soon. He must give everything and more for his friends and STAY.

After he slipped out of his shoes, he walked into the living room just to see you on the couch. Your hair that was once in a neat ponytail was now all over your face and your head leaned against his pillow that you must have stolen from the bed. He chuckled quietly and quickly showered. Then, he kneeled in front of you and brushed some hair strands out of the way. Your nose scrunched and you stirred awake.

"Hello my love. Were you waiting for me" he whispered as your sleep driven eyes blinked at him and a small smile danced over your pretty lips.

"Yeah, I ordered takeout for you" you answered and rose from your snuggly place to stretch out your sore muscles. As much as you loved that couch, that you two bought together after moving in, the bed was way more comfortable. He pecked your forehead and went to heat up the food.

You followed him and cuddled into his side as he ate his food. You were sleepy and just enjoyed the warmth of your personal human heater. From time to time he cleared his throat.

"You ok?" You asked as he did it again. "Yeah, just drank less water while practicing"

You grapped him a bottle of water and a glass. You can imagine that sport made your throat pretty dry especially when you dance for hours.

...

The next morning you woke up in an empty bed. Jinnie was already up and probably at the company. It was your day off and on those days even though you were an early riser, you sometimes enjoyed sleeping long. As a nurse, a good sleep was rare.

With a good mood you danced through the apartment and cleaned it. You checked Jinnies schedule that he had sent you in the past so that you always know where he is and can easily visit him.

Maybe you can watch him practice with his group later in the afternoon since it was a rare occasion due to work. He always loved when you support him. It only makes him more ambitious and hyped he had told you. And the other boys adored you. Especially Felix, Hyunjin's best friend or soulmate like they often state, was fascinated by you. Maybe that's because you lived until you were ten in Australia and then moved with your family to Korea.

He was also the first member Jinnie introduced you to. As his best friend, he knew from your relationship from the beginning and when he finally met you, he was even more convinced that you were the perfect match for Hyunjin.

But also Seungmin was like a brother to you. From the first moment you met the younger boy, you liked him with his cheeky attitude and the sweet toothy smile.

You figured that you should buy the whole group something to drink when you went to the studio. On the way, you stopped at a café and ordered drinks. You just sat in your car once again with the drinks on the passenger seat, when Felix called you.

"What's up, Lix?" You asked and started the car. "Are you coming to today's practice?"

"Yeah, on my way right now. Why?"

"I think Hyunjin is sick. He is totally pale and already vomited"

"I'm coming. I'll be there in 10" you answered concerned. You knew Jinnie. Whenever he is sick, he wants to keep going. He just works him to death because he won't admit that he was ill and needs to rest.

Balancing the nine cups in both hands, you managed to go through the security that already knew you and bid you politely hello and and took the elevator to the floor where the studio was. You already knew the way there after walking it hundreds of times.

In the hallway, you could already hear the music and the squeaking of the shoes. With a foot, you pushed the door open and yelled a greeting over the loud music.

Seeing the drinks in your hands, they quickly scrambled to you in no time and helped you. You spread them and you all sat down. Happily, they drank like they lived in a desert with no water at all.

They all were already sweaty and chatted.

Jinnie kneeled beside you with his americano in one hand as he layed his head against your shoulder.

"Hey baby. Is everything ... was that a shudder?"

You asked him. His clothes were wet with sweat but occasionally he shuddered like he was cold.

Concerned, you placed your drink beside you and touched his forehead to feel how warm he was. And he was warm, it felt like his skin was burning under your touch. A shudder jolted through him again.

"Are you feeling bad? Can it be that your sick Jinnie?" You asked and brushed a stray hair strand back out of his face. Your eyes danced over his pretty face. He was indeed pale.

He just shook his head and murmured that he will go to the bathroom quick. The first steps were staggering but then he felt suddenly nauseous and covered his mouth and paced through the room to get to a washroom. You had observed that and jumped up to follow him.

You found him in the bathroom, kneeling in front of the toilet, vomiting. He gagged and emptied the contents of his belly. You sat next to him and rubbed his back while his body tensed up with each gag. You brushed soothingly through his wet hair.

Drained out, he leaned against the bowl, taking shaky breaths.

"It's okay, baby." You cooed.

You helped him up after some time and he got rid of the disgusting taste in his mouth through rinsing it out. Some tears ran down his cheeks as he breathed heavily.

"Everything alright?" Chan asked as you two walked back into the room.

"You look like shit" Seungmin stated and continued sipping on his drink. "I'm okay" he answered with a hoarse voice. You scoffed and rolled your eyes.

"Definitely, you didn't just puked your guts out" you said ironically.

"I told you he was ill!" Felix shouted and rubbed your boyfriends shoulder.

"You should rest. You can't dance when you're ill" Chan told him.

"Come, let's go home and rest" You exclaimed and circled his waist with one arm.

Only after the whole group literally forced him to go home, he followed you quietly to your car. You opened the door for him and went to the driver seat to take your poor boyfriend home.

The whole drive was completely quiet as Jinnie rested his head against the window and tried not to get nauseous. He felt bad for leaving practice. With the new comeback, he didn't want to disappoint his fans, his friends and you. Especially not you. You were the most important person to him and you should be proud of him so when someone asks you about him, you should be proud to say that he was your love. That was all he wants.

As you parked the car, you turned to your boyfriend. He was still pale but the nausea seemed to fade. His eyes were closed and even though he looked exhausted, he was like an angel. So beautiful. Though with his newly red dyed hair he looked more like a devil. Just the sweet horns and the tail were missing.

You rounded the car and opened his door. His eyes fluttered open and you smiled. Like a puppy, he followed you to your apartment while you carried his bag.

Unlocking the door, you let him in and took your shoes off. You leaned his bag against the wall.

"Wanna take a shower first?" You questioned because he was still sweaty due to practise and he shouldn't catch an even worse cold. He nodded and went through the hallway to the bedroom to get some comfy new clothes. Meanwhile, you let some water in the bathtub and searched for the bath oil that helps with colds. Immediately, the bath was filled with the smell of eucalyptus and sage.

You gave your boyfriend a kiss on the cheek.

"I'll cook you something light. If anything happens just say something and I'll come" Patting his hair, you leaved the room and started looking through your refrigerator and the kitchen cabinets to see if you had all the ingredients.

Fortunately, you got everything for a chicken soup. You brew a chicken broth with the meat and in the meantime you chopped leek, carrots and celery. Then, you added them to the pan and brought the noodles to boil.

The soup was nearly finished as Hyunjin returned. He circled your waist with his arms and layed his head on his shoulder.

"What's up, baby? Feeling better?" You asked and stirred the soup another time. "Yeah, a bit. Smells great, honey"

"Thank you" He let you go as you turned around to face him. Gently, you touched his forehead to check if he got a fever. And he was indeed burning up. From a cabinet, you took a thermometer and measured his temperature.

"You have a fever, baby" you stated and send him to bed so that he could rest.

Soon, you filled a bowl with soup for him and brought it him along with some medicine against the cold.

He sat up and slowly ate the food. You hoped that he could keep it in his stomach and he didn't need to vomit from it. And he definitely shouldn't take the medication without some food in his belly.

When he was finished, he took the medicine.

"Thanks, honey" he said and gave you a tired smile.

"Wanna watch our series?" You asked and quickly brought the empty dish in the kitchen. You will clean them later, now you wanted to spend time with your love.

He agreed and you took your laptop with you. You jumped beside him under the warm comforter and placed the laptop next to you. You started your current kdrama and cuddled further into the cushion.

Some time passed and Jinnie still held some distance to you. Usually, he would be all over you by now. Slightly, you turned your head and observed your boyfriend. His entire body was under the comforter with only his head out and concentrated on the screen.

"Everything alright?" You asked and he turned his attention to you.

"Yeah, just a bit cold"

You lifted your arm and signalled him to come to you so that you could function as his personal heater.

He shook his head and murmured. "Don't wanna infect you"

You heart swelled at how he still looked out for you. A loving smile danced over your lips.

"Come honey, can't let you freeze. I'll heat you up" Finally, he came closer and layed his head on your chest while his hands caressed your hips.

You touched his forehead to check if his fever was still high. But the medicine seemed to finally kick in. Then, you let your hands travel to his red dyed hair and combed through the silky strands.

He sighed and closed his eyes, enjoying the physical contact.

"I'm sorry" he mentioned after some time. "What?"

"I'm sorry for ruining your day off. You already have enough patients to care for"

"No! You didn't ruin anything!" You held his head in your hands and caressed his cheeks.

"I love to take care of you. In fact, I love to pamper you"

"I love you" he answered and let his hands run up your sides.

"I love you too" you told him and placed a loving peck on his forehead.

[skzstoryvault]

All Out of NyQuil

F!Reader x Hyunjin

Hyunjin is in love, obsessively so. He's also gone a week without seeing his gf, who is down with a cold.

This is in no way meant as a commentary on the real person Hyunjin. The persona he projects for us to enjoy is just so enticing and invites naughty fantasies.

Story includes smut, couple communication, Hyunjin being very doting and caring.

This story is a stand-alone.

The "you" used here is not generic, I'm using it to allow myself some immersion on later re-reads. I know that's selfish but isn't all the writing advice telling us to write what we want to read? If you still find something in here to like, all the better - I hope you enjoy it and have a good time.

Please be kind.

Please do not report this post. If it's not your thing, just scroll away.

If you're underage, please scroll on, there is nothing for you here.

“Where is my tiny, sick baby?” Hyunjin’s voice resonates through the hallway at the entrance of your apartment as he steps out of his shoes and leaves them there. “When Channie-hyung told me you sounded like Vader on the phone, I figured why you’ve been gone the last week! It’s not nice to ghost your own boyfriend, you know?”

You want to answer and call to him, but you’re really sick and down, and the only thing coming out of your mouth is a sad croak. 

You’ve isolated yourself because you feel gross and are in pain, which makes you cranky and unpleasant to be around. Also, you knew that Hyunjin would have a very busy couple of weeks and you chose to get out of the way and not be an additional concern to him. 

“Please, baby? Don’t hide from me, I’ve missed you so much.” Hyunjin whines, coming straight to your bedroom and opening the door, letting a lot of light in.

He looks scrumptious, as usual, if a bit tired, which is normal considering he is coming from a ten-hour workday of dance practice. 

Although you’re still miserable, it’s always nice to see him, especially when he smiles at you with so much love.

“Jinnie, I’m gross! And full of germs. Don’t come any closer.”

“These germs know me already and didn’t want to hop on me. I remember us making out all evening the day before you decided to vanish on me.” He says. “You have no choice but to let me take care of you.”

“You don’t have to… and I don’t want to have you on my conscience, if you do catch this. You can’t miss any of your public appearances right now.” 

“I’ll be fine, and besides, I can absolutely call in sick if I need to. I’m not a slave.” Hyunjin says. “Now let me air? I brought you my mother’s hot healing soup and once I get some of that in you, we’re taking a shower so I can destinkify myself and then we can snuggle in bed. I wanted to bring you some NyQuil but they were all out at every pharmacy I checked so you’ll have to use my tried and tested remedy for a healing night’s sleep.” 

You sit up in bed, feeling all the more terrible in your long t-shirt that you sweated in, especially since Hyunjin is wearing a really flashy outfit, a Versace coat that looks like a boxer’s robe, complete with a hood and embroidered sleeves, a black tank top and high end jeans.

He’s also wearing makeup, lots of it, and of course he looks otherworldly beautiful and alluring like only Hyunjin can be. You feel like a goblin, especially when he comes and sits right next to you, wrapping his arms around you and kissing you, first your forehead, then your lips.

“You still have a fever, I can tell.” He says after his lips have touched your burning skin. “The soup will help.”

***

Eating something warm and nutritious did help, and so did showering and freshening up with him. You couldn’t help but cop a few feels while helping him wash allegedly hard to reach places.

When you return to the bedroom, you see he’s aired, tidied up and changed the sheets, and it brings tears to your eyes. Hyunjin is a brat and the ultimate pillow princess in all things. He was not born to do manual labour or chores. He is not domestic, yet he does all these things for you like he even takes pleasure in them - doing your laundry, cooking for you, even ironing some clothes when he notices you need the help with those tasks and others. This is how you know he loves you and he’s genuine - no one does shit they despise the deepest amount for someone they don’t care about. Sometimes you wonder what you did right in another life to deserve Hyunjin’s softest side and his whole heart in this one. 

He soon joins you, wearing one of your old, distressed t-shirts that does a very poor job at covering him. Normally, men in long shirts that don’t cover their dicks are the biggest turn-off, looks-wise, but of course he rocks the look. And you know he likes having his dick out when it’s comfortable and safe to do so, which makes you happy that he feels so at home with you at your place.

His strong dancer thighs look droolworthy, even covered in the many bruises he gets while practising. The thin white fabric of the shirt and the many holes in it somehow make him look even more naked than if he were actually not wearing it.

“Are you all set, baby?” he asks. “Need to pee?”

You shake your head. You’re too dehydrated to pee again any time soon, and you just wish you could get some much needed healing rest first, and then maybe try and replenish the water you’ve lost. 

“Then I’ll help you fall asleep and we can take care of rehydrating you after.” He says, yanking his one piece of clothing off and joining you under the covers.

It’s not the first time you see him naked, but the sight still has you gasping and heating up instantly. Most of the time, you can’t process how you got yourself Hwang Hyunjin as your loving, loyal boyfriend. Everyone warned you he was trouble and bad news, but… here he is, having been nothing but the gentlest and most loving housecat of a man, unlike anyone else you’ve dated before. 

You have no time to further ponder your extreme fortune in all things relationship because he pulls you close and slings a leg over yours, starting to kiss your neck and run the tip of his nose up the skin at the side of it, until his lips can wrap around the tip of your ear and nibble. He moves to your jaw and cheek, peppering kisses there until he reaches your lips. 

“Hyune… are you sure you can afford to get sick?” 

“Fuck all that… I missed you, let me kiss my girl.”

You can never deny him, and you’ve missed him too, he got you so used to his touches and to the way he fills every nook and cranny of you, and of your soul too, making you feel protected and shielded to the world. 

You can only make a sound of crushed resolve replaced with surrender, your hands going to his arms and chest, tracing his biceps and pecs with splayed out fingers, feeling his warm, butter soft skin. 

“Fuck me, I’ve missed you so bad.” You confess. “A week never felt this long.” 

“It was like a lifetime in hell! I missed you, I missed your laughter and your jokes and you calling me princess and baby in front of everyone. I missed cuddling you and pulling you close and dancing only with you in the club.” Hyunjin says. “I thought I fucked up and you were mad, but then I figured you would tell me directly if that was it. And then I tried hard to think if you might think I was upset with you! But nothing came to mind…”

“I’m sorry for running away and hiding, I just felt ashamed and gross.” 

He kisses you long and deep, erasing your mind and stealing your breath for a long moment. His lips on yours feel so soft, so plush, so pillowy, the sensation of them moving against yours taking you directly to your private heaven. 

“I am a boy and I love gross things. And just because you’re sniffly is not enough to keep me away from you. I want to take care of you. Shower and bathe you, cook you yummy food, clean the house for when you feel better, freshen up the sheets, feed you fresh fruit from the market… Please don’t hide from me, I want as much of you as there is, please don’t keep me out. I want to know you. All of you.” 

His little speech brought tears to your eyes and you sob loudly. 

“Jinnie… I’m sorry. I love you too, I was just scared. You’re always so put together and flawless and high end, I figured you don’t want to snuggle up to a coughing, sneezing, snotting girlfriend who hasn’t even had the strength to brush her hair.”

“I’m not always put together, I wake up with creases on my face from the pillow too, and with my hair sticking out. And I get smelly and gross too, but you never seem to mind it. I am the worst drama queen ever when I have even a mild cold. And you still love me. Why won’t you give yourself the same grace?” Hyunjin pouts, resuming his quest of covering every square centimetre of your skin he can get to.

“I’ll do better, Jinnie… Now I know…” You say, feeling yourself soften and become malleable to his every intention. After all, this is what you wanted this entire past week, what you were missing and thought was off limits. His touch and his attention, all on you.

“I need you. Can I? Please? It’s what got me through this week.” He begs, his lips sucking persistently at a spot on your throat that he knows wipes your mind clear instantly. 

You let out a pitiful mewl, too ashamed to admit how much you’ve needed him too. He’ll discover soon enough. 

“Yes… Please. It’s all I thought of too.” You say and sigh. “If you’re not turned off by me now and you don’t mind catching what I have.” 

“I’ll go gently. Not shake you up too much so you can fall asleep right after.” He purrs, shifting so he’s making room for himself between your legs. “You’re so soft, and your skin burns so much…”

You only now realise, as he moves to rearrange your lower bodies so they slot together the way they need to, just how hard he’s been for a good while. Precome smears on your inner thigh as he positions himself to rub against your soft folds, parting them so he can nestle himself properly. 

“So hot and wet, my baby… You missed me for real.” He hums, closing his eyes to enjoy the feeling for a bit, before opening them and focusing on you again. 

“Jinnie, please?” You beg again. All you need, the only thing that will feel good and right now is him finally filling you. 

“Alright, alright baby. I have you.” He says, raising one of your legs up so he can hook the knee over his arm and minimally guiding himself in with the other hand.

Your sigh of relief at finally having him enter you swiftly turns to a moan. He feels so huge and hot, stretching you out to fit around him and it feels so overwhelmingly good, you dissolve into the feeling, letting your here and now become just this, Hyunjin moving inside you with long, deep strokes, igniting pleasure in every corner of your body.

The way he angles himself every time his hips meet yours sends sparks up your spine and makes your toes curl. He’s grasping at you, grabbing with insatiable hands before trailing his fingers down in considerate caresses. At some point he brings his hands up, lacing his fingers with yours, letting the only moving parts of you two be your lower halves.

He’s sweating, as he usually does when he exerts himself, and the heat of it envelops you, his scent permeates all your senses and adds a further, stronger layer of arousal to your joining. His kisses turn hungry and devouring, he steals the breath right from your chest and bites it from your lips, angling himself around like an eel to reach places he needs right now. He coaxes the first orgasm from you with no extra effort, licking over your nipples and sucking on one, then the other as you arch your back into the maddening pleasure from his lips, pushing your head back into the pillow.

“Fuck, that’s my good girl.” He whispers, enthralled with the sight of you falling apart beneath him. “Another.” He proclaims, pulling out and earning himself a displeased sound from you.

You instantly feel bereft and cold without him, but he turns you onto your belly and spreads your legs, kneeling up briefly to watch. Because, of course, it’s him, and he loves seeing what his good work looks like from the outside. Like the mirror in the dance practice room always being there to show mistakes and victories, Hyunjin needs to experience fucking you from two perspectives, once while it’s happening, then a second time, through the results.

He runs gentle fingers over your pussy, squeaking in delight at how hot and sticky you are, right before sinking two long fingers inside you and coating them, taking them out and bringing them to his lips, sucking your essence off of them and closing his eyes.

You stay on your belly, knowing what follows and feeling yourself throb at the thought of more. For now, you look over your shoulder at him.

He’s so immersed in experiencing your closeness with all his senses, it’s still surreal to you. Hyunjin often re-asserts how much he cannot stand most people and how icky he finds closeness. He carries disinfecting gel to use after he shakes hands with strangers or after unwanted touches, but he cannot get enough of you in any way he can get you. 

He holds your buttcheeks open with his big hands, fingers digging into the muscles, as he slides right back into you with a pleased groan. His weight on your back pushes you into the mattress and being crushed like this, while his cock presses on every nerve ending reachable via your walls, is another layer to the pleasure he knows to give you. It brings you close to the next orgasm so quickly and he knows it, varying the force and the depth of his motions. The sensation shifts from that of sensory whipping to lazy waves lapping at a sleepy shore, but even then, you can’t relax too much into it, because he cants your hips forward, kneeling up between your legs and slipping a hand under you. He finds your clit and starts to swipe his thumb over it in that persistent, heavy way that reminds you of trying to spread colour on paper while fingerpainting. How he knew to try this with you, and how quickly he learned to get it just right are further mysteries adding to Hyunjin’s aura. Despite not being that experienced before meeting you, he’s been all ears and taking notes apparently, learning all he could about you, what gets you off and in what ways. 

It’s not long before he has you where he wanted you all along and your entire core clenches, pushing him out as a reflex right before the shuddering release takes over you and you feel yourself squirt all over his front, his dick, the backs of your thighs, the bed.

The stray thought that now you're as dehydrated as you can be crosses your mind, leaving as quickly as it appeared. Hyunjin doesn't seem to take issue with it, watching as your body wrings itself dry.

You look behind you, unable to stop by sheer intention, and see him look at your pussy, cross-eyed and biting his lower lip mercilessly. You also feel his hot release on your ass and pussy, joining your own stickiness.

He allows himself only a few seconds of recovery, lying down near you and panting hard.

“You’re so beautiful, baby. And all mine.” He murmurs, sounding dreamy and completely enamoured. 

He also guides you to lie on your back next to him, away from the wet patch, before reaching for the towel he brought earlier with the intent to use as a sex rag. By the time he starts drying your front, you’re all conked out.  

In the morning, you notice you’re feeling a lot better, the room is flooded with sunlight, it smells fresh and cozy, Hyunjin’s arms are around you and one of his hands is cupping one of your boobs even in his sleep. You did not sweat a river in your sleep like in the previous nights, although both you and your boyfriend are naked under the blankets and he is running warm as usually.

The sheets are crisp and clean, too.

[mykoreanlove]

Hi gorgeous 💞

I have been binge reading your stories, loved it so much 💖

I hope it's not too much to ask but my birthday is on 14th March so I was wondering if you could write hyunjin (my bias) x f reader (me) x Bang chan (my bias wrecker) smut ff? Both of them dom and they give the reader a birthday gift (surprise me with your writing).

I would really appreciate it 🥺

Bye 👋

Hi cutie - thank you so much for reading and supporting <3 I always get the most hate when I write about Hyunjin, so it's nice to see that you're enjoying my stories.

I wish you a happy birthday, hopefully you get celebrated the way you deserve to be! :)

I'm currently sick in bed but wanted to write something spicy for you, let me know if you liked it.

All the best <3

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A birthday to remember

Hyunjin had frowned three years in a row as he had watched you unravel your birthday presents in an unimpressed manner.

No matter how hard he tried, he could never get it right. Sure, you were grateful about all the things he got you, but he knew you well enough to understand that you were smiling out of politeness, rather than pure and utter joy. 

Your boyfriend knew you like the back of his hands; he was more than acquainted with the way you threw your head back and tried to hide the little creases that formed next to your eyes when you were laughing wholeheartedly. He was familiar with how your eyes shined brightly or how your whole body vibrated with energy when you were deeply happy.

Unfortunately, his birthday presents had never gotten that reaction out of you.

This time however, he vowed to find the right gift for you. The perfect present that would sweep you off your feet.

That was his plan at least.

It was a late night at the company office and Hyunjin was dancing with his band mates, practicing for the upcoming tour. He messed up a lot of steps as his mind was too occupied with you. In his bag was a very expensive piece of jewelry, one that he had handcrafted himself, but he was still bothered by the thought of you not liking it. 

He took a glance at the clock on the wall - it was nearly midnight which meant it was your birthday in a couple of minutes. 

„Guys, let’s stop for tonight.“

Chan shut off the music and replied to some mails on his laptop while the others got up and left.

„Oh hey, y/n.“, Felix greeted cheerily on his way out.

Hyunjin shot up panicked, looking at you frantically.

„Babe, what are you doing here?“ 

You entered the practice room and shut the door behind you, laughing shyly. 

„Always happy to see you, too, my lovely boyfriend.“ 

You stuck out your tongue and walked towards him, hugging him tightly.

„Babe, I’m all sweaty. And besides, didn’t we agree to spend your birthday starting tomorrow morning? I had it all planned out…“, he whined.

You chuckled as you kissed his adorable pout, reassuring him.

„I couldn’t stand away from you, Jinnie. Are you mad?“

„Of course not, baby.“, he mumbled while kissing you. 

Your make-out session got interrupted by Chan who was clearing his throat.

„Y/N, hi. Always great to see you. Listen, Hyunjin promised to help me out with my workout since Changbin had already left. Can I borrow him for a second?“

You shrugged your shoulders and took a seat on the couch.

„Be my guest, Chan.“ 

Chan got on his back and started working on his abs while Hyunjin was monitoring his movements.

You were so entranced by watching them, Chan in particular. You always had a soft spot for him - sometimes even fantasizing about being fucked by him. You were in love with Hyunjin, oh you absolutely were, but sometimes you couldn’t help but lust after Chan’s broad shoulders and fantasize about licking his abs.

Sweat was building on his temples as he was working hard. 

Suddenly, you felt hot, licking your lips, and imagining what it would be like to be trapped underneath him with his sweat dropping on to you. Your gaze switched to your boyfriend who was holding him in place firmly and suddenly you imagined being trapped between both of them, held in place by one while the other was fucking you into oblivion.

You squeezed your legs, totally unaware of the fact that Hyunjin was watching you through the mirror.

He on the other hand smirked smugly, suddenly realizing what would make the perfect birthday present for you.

„Hyung, can you do the rest by yourself? There’s something I have to do.“, Hyunjin whispered. 

„Eh? Oh sure, go ahead.“ 

Hyunjin got up and walked over to you, grabbing you by your wrist and ushering you out of the room. 

„Where are we going?“

„Shut up and follow me.“, he hissed at you.

The heat in your body started to rise, spreading through every cell of your being.

Hyunjin was the most romantic and caring man you had ever dated unless it came to sex - he was an absolute asshole when it came to sex.

And you loved it. 

He was degrading, he was mean, he was everything that would make you cry under normal circumstances but being treated like that while he had his dick shoved into you?

Priceless.

He pushed you into the shower room, closing the door behind him. You stood still and waited for his command, automatically falling into the role of the submissive one.

He walked over to the other side of the room and leaned against the cold sink while watching you. 

„Take it all off.“, he said sternly. 

You started undressing, silently slipping out of the flower dress you were wearing. You stood before him in nothing but red lingerie. 

„I said take it all off.“, he hissed annoyed. 

Your fingers went behind your back and unclasped your bra, throwing it in the next corner while looking at him obediently. 

Hyunjin watched you with eyes that were filled with darkness and desire, while you were slipping your fingers into your lacy panties, sliding them off. 

He uncrossed his arms and propped himself on the sink, taking you all in. Even though it was your birthday he felt like the luckiest guy on the planet. 

„Come here.“, he commanded. 

You made your way over to him, excited about what was to come. 

„Get on your knees.“

You did as he said and kneeled before him, suddenly painfully aware of the cold surroundings. Instinctively, you fumbled with his pants, but he slapped away your hand.

„Did I say you could?“

You shook your head in shame. Hyunjin grabbed your chin forcefully and tilted your head, looking into your eyes strongly.

„Listen, brat. Did I say you could?“ 

„No...No…“, you stuttered.

„No what?“

„No, Mr. Hwang.“, you replied hastily. 

Hyunjin let go of you, slightly content as he watched you cowering in front of him.

„Now, tell me what you want.“

„I want you.“, you whispered silently.

Hyunjin walked behind you and tied your silky hair into a ponytail while repeating his question.

„Couldn’t hear you.“, he whispered into your ear.

„I want you.“, you said proudly.

He yanked your hair back, pulling at your ponytail.

„I want you what?“

„I want you, Mr. Hwang. I want you, Mr. Hwang, sir.“, you explained hastily. 

He let go of you as he cooed into your ear.

„Good girl.“

He had not even started yet, and you felt yourself leaking already. 

Hyunjin went back to the sink and positioned himself in front of you. He pulled down his pants, giving away his enormous erection. 

You gasped at the sight - he still had the same effect on you. 

„Tell me what you want to do to me. Now.“, he commanded sternly. 

You gulped, trying to hold yourself back.

„Touch you. Kiss your cock. Lick it. Suck on it. Make you cum. On me. In me. Swallow it all. I really want to, Mr. Hwang.“

You looked up at him shyly, waiting for his sign to proceed. However, you didn’t notice his green light as you were admiring his ethereal beauty. God, he was beyond beautiful. Your hands wandered to his shaft greedily, tracing along the veins of his cock. Silver pre-cum was glistening on his tip, getting all your attention. You felt his hand slap your cheek as you were about to suck him off. 

You shot back, touching the reddened, tingling area. 

„Did I say you could?“

You shook your head hastily. 

„No. No, you didn’t. I am sorry, Mr. Hwang.“

He smirked devilishly.

„Oh, you will be, baby. You will be.“

You approached him again, placing your hands flat on his thighs.

„May I suck you off, Mr. Hwang?“

You could have sworn his dick got harder hearing you talk like that. His eyes were piercing through you by now.

„You really want to, huh?“

„Yes, Mr. Hwang. Please let me be good for you.“, you begged silently.

„Fine. Be a good girl then.“

Your eyes sparkled at his approval while your lips got to work immediately.

You moaned the sweetest moans while you swallowed him all, he was as tasty as he was gorgeous. Hyunjin knew that he could use you as he pleased, so he did just that.

„Let me fuck your throat, baby.“

He pushed himself into you, harder and faster, which made you whimper and nearly choke on his dick. You were looking at him with tears in your eyes, loving every second of it.

He was breathing heavily while fucking your mouth, the vein on his forehead already popping out. 

„That’s right, baby. Take me like the dirty slut you are. Take all of me.“

It didn’t take long for you to feel the warmth in your throat, tasting his savory cum on your tongue. 

You closed your eyes in enjoyment. You felt your best when he used you like that; when you were of service like that.

Hyunjin patted your head, loving you with all his heart exactly for all that you were.

Naughty and nice.

However, he wasn’t done just yet.

Chan was about to enter the shower room any minute, his workout had to be done by now. And once he entered? He would be greeted with the most perfect ass kneeling on the floor, sucking on his friend’s dick. Who could resist that?

Hyunjin smiled to himself, being utterly proud of his genius plan which would make him boyfriend of the century.

You opened your eyes again as you noticed the door behind you open. Panic flooded your system; you were kneeling butt-naked on the floor with Hyunjin’s dick in your mouth. Would you get in trouble?

“Didn’t expect to see that”, you heard Chan proclaim as he entered the shower room.

You looked up at Hyunjin with panic in your eyes, but he remained calm about it. Smug even. You tried to make sense of the situation, but he reassured you that everything was okay.

“Just enjoy it, baby”, he winked at you.

“Get up”, you heard Chan command.

You glanced one last time at Hyunjin who nodded his head, transferring control over to his hyung.

Shakily, you got on your feet and waited.

“Now turn around.”

Chan’s breath got stuck in his throat as he saw you in your rawest form. He had always thought that you were absolutely beautiful, breath-taking even but every time a thought like that entered his mind, he shut it out. He would never cross boundaries like that but on rare occasions he jerked off to the sound of you being fucked by his friend in the next room.

Chan knew that you thought about him in that way, too, as he had often caught you glaring at him while he was changing clothes or working out. He would have never assumed though that Hyunjin would share you; at least not like that.

“I heard it’s your birthday, y/n?”

You shook your head eagerly.

Chan approached you and whispered into your ear seductively.

“Tell me, baby girl, what do you want then?”

Your head was about to explode – was this really happening? His long fingers traced the soft skin on your collarbones, making his way down to your breasts. Chan circled around your nipples softly but squeezed them forcefully after as you had not replied quickly enough.

“I said what do you want, baby girl?”

“Fuck me.”, you whispered silently.

“Hmm? A bit louder, baby girl.”

“Fuck me!, you boldly proclaimed.

A warm chuckle escaped his lips, making his chest tremble in amusement. He was circling around you, eyeing you like prey.

“I see. Well, how do you want me to pleasure you then?”

He stopped right in front of you and lowered himself to get a good look at your face. Chan was observing every reaction as he asked his next questions.

“Do you want me to eat you out? Do you want me to hit it from the back? Do you want to sit on my face? Do you want to be fucked against the wall? Should I turn on the shower and make you really wet? How do you want it, baby girl?”

Hyunjin was watching with his back to the wall, holding his breath due to the immense suspense. Would you really do this?

You tilted your head up and looked into his eyes daringly.

“I want you to fuck me while I’m bent against the sink…”, you paused for a second. “While Hyunjin is watching us.”

A small gasp escaped his lips; you really wanted this.

Chan smirked and turned to Hyunjin. “Is he okay with this, though?”

You turned around slowly and looked at him beggingly.

“Is this alright, Mr. Hwang?”

God, he would let you do anything if you called him that. Hyunjin nodded, not saying a word.

Chan clapped his hands eagerly. “Let’s go then.”

He walked you over to the sink and stood behind you, admiring your backside once more.

“Mr. Hwang is a very lucky man, baby girl.”

Chan started kissing your neck and went down further, leaving wet kisses all over your body. He started out softly but got more aggressive as he continued, leaving all of you in dark marks.

Neck, shoulders, lower back, ass cheeks, thighs and even shins were marked as his.

You whimpered as his lips touched you – the slow anticipation was killing you.

“What’s that whimper, baby girl? Are you that needy?”

You nodded your head and prepped yourself on the sink; you needed him now.

With a swift motion he glided into you, making you gasp for air. Chan was big, stretching you out in ways you had never been stretched out before.

He thrusted himself into you forcefully and you couldn’t help but moan. Sounds of his hips hitting against your ass filled the room as well. The mirror above the sink was fogged, just as your mind was.

It was all too much.

The hotness in your core. The coldness of the sink. Hyunjin’s curious eyes that were watching. All your fantasies were coming true, and you had no idea how to process this.

Chan didn’t go easy on you.

The first orgasm hit you like a truck; it left you a whimpering mess.

The second orgasm shook you to your core; by now every person in the building must have heard you being deliciously fucked.

The third orgasm however took you out for good; your legs gave in, shaking uncontrollably now.

Chan held you strongly in his embrace, praising you for taking him so well.

His slender fingers collected his cum that was dripping out of you, running down your thighs. He looked at his fingers greedily and turned to Hyunjin, staring at him daringly as he was sucking his fingers. Your boyfriend was too shocked to speak though, simply watching his friend eliminating the evidence of his girl being fucked by another.

Chan turned around and kissed your neck, praising you all the way.

“What a good girl you are, y/n. I’m proud of you, baby girl. You’ll be thinking of this birthday forever, huh?”

You were too exhausted to think, less even speak and drifted off to sleep.

When you awoke you found yourself on the floor of the shower room, lovingly embraced in your boyfriend’s arms. He was gazing at you affectionately, wiping away the sweat on your forehead.

“Hi, baby”, he whispered as you finally woke up.

It took you a moment to realize that the memories of the past hour were indeed real and not some fantasies that you had made up.

“Jinnie, what was that?”, you smiled warmly.

He chuckled amused.

“Your birthday present, baby. Did you finally like it?”

[miel-ji]

Don’t Let Me Go

Genre: fluff, slight angst, sickfic, established relationship

Pairing: Idol!Hyunjin x Fem!Reader

Word count: 2k

Warning: sickness, symptoms of food poisoning, mention of death (joke)

Summary: You were finally able to see Hyunjin when you joined him on his tour, but he suddenly gets food poisoning to which you want nothing more than for him to feel better.

A/N: Based on this request by anon! Absolutely love when someone sends something in my asks <333 also I’ve never had food poisoning so I hope I represented this accurately enough lol

It had been almost two months since you had last seen Hyunjin in person, and every day he was gone, you felt his absence more and more. You texted and called each other whenever you could, and he would always make sure to FaceTime you at night to end his day with you like usual. Even if he was so tired, he would accidentally fall asleep the second his head hit the pillow. You didn’t mind though, knowing that your boyfriend was working so hard to show stays the best performances, and you couldn’t be more proud of him as you watched him quietly snore into his pillow through your small phone screen.

On a particularly hard day when everything just seemed to remind you of Hyunjin and you had barely been able to speak to each other, the stars finally aligned in your favor. After a few arrangements and a few days spent agonizingly waiting, you were on a flight to Japan to join Hyunjin on his final leg of his tour. Excited thoughts about what a whole week of adventures in a country you’ve never visited before with your boyfriend would entail danced in your mind. When you first agreed to follow Hyunjin to Tokyo, he promised to show you all of his favorite spots and sights.

First thing was first though, which was catching up with your boyfriend, so you both skipped out on your first day in Japan, and you got very familiar with the inside of your hotel room. However, Hyunjin was more than ecstatic to take you out into the city the next day, in fact he would barely even let you leave his side at all. You had one wonderful day with your boyfriend visiting themed cafes, taking pictures in the park, walking through art exhibits, and ending at a rooftop restaurant with a spectacular view of the city skyline. When you were curled up in each other’s arms that night, you were the happiest you had been in a while and easily fell asleep with a smile on your face.

When you woke up that morning, all you felt was confused as you rolled over expecting to see your boyfriend’s messy black locks falling over his face as he slept peacefully only to be greeted by a cold empty space, telling you that he’s been up for a while. You stretched the stiffness from your body that sleep had left you with and flopped your hands back down in your lap, looking around wondering where Hyunjin could have gone. The mystery wasn’t left unsolved for long when you heard muffled noises coming from the bathroom. “Jinnie?” you called out as you padded over to the bathroom door of the hotel room that was left slightly ajar.

“Y/n,” you were slightly taken aback by how weak he sounded, and worry caused your stomach to churn.

You softly knocked on the door even if it wasn’t completely closed, still wanting to give him some privacy before asking, “are you alright?”

“I’m okay. You can go back to bed, love.” His voice was scratchy and strained, and the sound of dry heaves wracking his body punctuated his sentence. The contents of his stomach had long since been expelled leaving nothing but the motions of vomiting to tear through his body.

“Hyunjin,” You pushed the door open to find him draped over the toilet looking completely exhausted regardless of the fact that the day had barely even started. He sunk back against the wall with his head thrown back trying to catch his breath. You quickly crossed the bathroom and lowered yourself on the floor next to him. You ran your hands through his hair that was damp with sweat before placing the back of your hand against his forehead, “Jinnie, you’re burning up.”

He squeezed his eyes shut in pain and clutched his stomach with one arm, “you shouldn’t have to see me like this…”

“Baby, you know I love you in sickness and in health. I’m not going anywhere,” you gently tucked his hair behind his ears as your heart sank watching his face contort in pain.

“If you start saying vows, I’m going to have to start calling you my wife,” he weakly laughed before keening over clutching his stomach harder.

You rubbed soothing circles on his back as you watched him through furrowed brows. “I’m going to get the staff medic.”

You stood up to do just that when a shaky hand reached up to grab your wrist, and Hyunjin was looking up at you with panicked and pleading eyes, “love, I’m just grabbing my phone, okay?” You gently coaxed his hand away and kissed the back of it before going to fetch your phone.

You quickly returned back to Hyunjin’s side; he was in the same position you had left him. You called the staff medic to come and help Hyunjin while he rested his head on your shoulder. There were still beads of sweat running down his forehead, but he was slightly shivering as if he were cold. After pocketing your phone, you helped Hyunjin off the floor on shaky legs, and you let him support his weight on your shoulders as you led him back to bed.

Not shortly after, the staff medic arrived to inform you that Hyunjin had a case of food poisoning. He advised Hyunjin to stay hydrated as well as get plenty of rest in order to recover, and he told him which over the counter drug would help his upset stomach. You were making a mental list in your head of all the things that you would need to get Hyunjin when you went to the store as the medic was telling him. Once they finally left, Hyunjin tucked himself into your side while groaning about how bad he felt.

“I think I’m dying,” he whined with his head buried in the crook of your neck.

You lightly laughed at his dramatics, and you could feel the pout that formed on his lips against your skin, “I’m going to miss you when you’re gone.”

“You’re already giving up on me,” he pulled away from your neck to look up at you with an overexaggerated frown and wide sad eyes.

“Love, you’re the one who said it.”

“Yeah, but that was where you were supposed to reassure me and tell me everything was going to be okay.”

“Ohhh okay, my bad. Say it again.” you wiped the smile from your face and pretended to get into character by exhaling.

His eyes briefly shone with amusement and a small giggle escaped his lips before he whined again, “I can’t believe my tombstone is going to read death by a food I can’t even remember eating.”

This time you pulled him closer into you to which he responded by readily wrapping his arms around your body, and you combed your fingers through his tangled hair, gently massaging his scalp, “I won’t let anything happen to you, my better half, partner in crime, love of my life.” He released a huff not quite satisfied with your mocking tone. “What?” Your lips quirked up in a smile as you feigned innocence. You leaned down to kiss his forehead, “Seriously, I promise to always take care of you.” You said with your lips lingering on his skin.

“There you go with the wedding vows again,” Hyunjin joked, but at your words, he completely relaxed against you with a warm smile on his face.

You shrugged as you said, “Well, you were going to hear them sooner or later.”

You could see a blush bloom across his cheeks and creep up his ears from where he rested his head against your chest with his eyes closed. “Yeah, you’re right…” he softly said which caused a matching pink tint to appear on your face.

A silent promise passed between the two of you, and you stroked soothing circles on his back. Hyunjin’s breathing became shallow as he slipped asleep, and you watched his eyebrows tighten and untighten, still struggling through his sickness. You pulled the sheets over him since the comforter was too hot, but he would shiver without anything at all covering him. You kept him close against you wishing that you could take away all of his pain, willing to take it as your own.

Since that wasn’t possible, you knew the first step was getting the remedies that the medic had said, but you didn’t exactly want to leave your sick sleeping boyfriend. You decided to send a text to Chan to see if he would do this favor for you, and of course, no more than a second later, Chan informed you he was already on it. You spent the little time it took Chan to go to the store watching over Hyunjin, softly pressing your lips to his forehead to check his temperature every now and then, and holding him wrapped up in your arms. Finally, there was a knock on the hotel room door.

You quietly untangled yourself from Hyunjin and tried to slip out of his grasp when his eyes softly fluttered open, and he pulled you back into him. “Nooo,” he sounded weak again as he whined which just made your chest pang with distress. “Don’t let me go, please.”

“Love, I’m just answering the door,” you reassured him as you gently removed yourself from his arms which he immediately moved to clutch his stomach. You fought the urge to crawl back into bed to hold him as you went to answer Chan at the door.

“How is he?” Chan asked quietly as soon as you pulled the door open.

“He’s going through it right now. I really want him to feel better soon.”

Chan’s eyes reflected your own sad expression, and he gave you a sympathetic smile. “Yeah, all the guys are worried about him, but we feel better knowing you’re here to take care of him.”

You felt a little less helpless at the encouragement from Chan and the rest of the guys. “I’ll do everything I can to help him.”

“Thank you, y/n. Let us know if you need anything else, seriously.” With that, you took both the bags that were in Chan’s hands and said goodbye to him before returning to your boyfriend’s side. You sat back on the bed, and Hyunjin slowly pulled himself up against the headboard as if it took him a lot of effort to do so.

“What’s in the bags?” He tried to clear his throat to speak louder, but it was to no avail.

You peeked into the bags, “ooo, there’s water… electrolyte drinks… and medicine.” You tried to sound cheerful to make it more exciting.

“Ugh, medicine. Ew, pass.” Hyunjin tried to reach out and grab a bag, but you handed him one of the electrolyte drinks, watching him drink with a trembling hand.

“Hyunjin, you’re taking the medicine.”

He tried his best to appeal to you with his round dark eyes, but once he saw you weren’t backing down, he begrudgingly took the medicine. After he had finished his drink, you could tell he felt just a bit better from the way his shoulders perked up a bit more which in turn made you feel better too. He eagerly climbed back into your arms and snuggled against you releasing a content sigh despite his body still dully aching. You softly rubbed his tummy as he got ready to go back to his restorative rest.

“Y/n?”

“Mhm?”

“I’m so sorry I ruined this trip for you…”

You could see the guilt that laced his features as you halted your movements. You moved up your hand to gently caress his cheek, “Hyunjin, I just want to be wherever you are.” He let his eyes close, listening to your voice as he leaned into your touch as if that was what he needed to heal him. “You just focus on getting better.”

“You make everything better.” He answered softly before turning his head and kissing your palm.

[xkaidaxxxx]

Fake Love.

Hawks x reader

Mentions: relationships, Hardship, New feelings, boundaries, fluff.

some cute moments!

1.5k words

“ Alright kids. Hold onto the rope. Road crossing to the pick up area is important. Always pay attention.” Shoto said, watching the little ones obeying. Miu was at the end. She somehow fell on her knees and hands. She cried, feeling so much pain. The teacher took over. “  It’s okay kid.” He carried her across then checked her hands and knees. Scratches and small cuts. “ Is your mommy here yet?” he asked, frosting her hands a bit to ease the pain. She looked around for you and then pointed. “She’s young.” he spoke then walked over. “She fell. I frosted her hand a bit to numb the pain. I’m volunteering to help a teacher for a week.” Shoto said with a smile. “ That's very nice of you, Hero Shoto. I hope she didn’t cause much trouble. Her wings are growing.” you replied. “ I helped her with her wings throughout the day. Right, Miu. Remember to practice.” he said, ruffling her hair. She giggled and nodded. “ Yes sir. Promise!” she replied, forgetting she was wounded.“ Get going, your daddy must be waiting at home to see his  smart and strong little one.” he said, pinching her cheek softly. She frowned, hiding her face into her mama’s neck. She feels sad she doesn’t have a dad and even more recently. Daddy daughter dance is in 3 weeks. You frowned. Shoto then realized. “ Oh um..I apologize.” he said. “ You didn’t know. Miu say bye bye to Hero Shoto.” you said. She waved goodbye. 

Everyday you spoke to Shoto during drop off and pick up, and everyday he brought a small snack for Miu and a coffee for you. “ Good Morning. Ms.L/n. Did you rest well last night?” He said handing you your daily coffee cup. “ Go on, baby mommy will pick you up and today we’re having your favorite for dinner.” you said and gave her a peck on her cheek. Miu’s eyes lit up. “Okay mama bye bye.” she ran inside. “ I rested well last night. How about you?” you asked, taking a sip of your drink. “ I actually did. Hey umm.” Shoto said taking out a piece of paper with his number on it, he handed it to you with a blush. He’s gathering up the courage to ask you on a date. He knows he’s 20 and you’re 23 with a child but that won’t stop him. You took the paper and saw his number. “ We can chat outside of school grounds. Maybe go out on a date?” he asked. He was sweating a bit. “ Oh..I’d love to but..I won’t have anyone to take care of Miu. I’m sorry.” you responded sadly. “ Miu can come as well. I’m sure she wouldn’t mind.” Shoto said, trying to make it happen. You nodded. “Alright. Okay yes.” you said smiling. “ How about after school? Something small. Dinner. Is there any place you prefer? Along with Miu?” he asked, being considerate. “ I’m making her favorite dinner for her. Would you like to come over?” you said, adding his number on your contact list. “Yes!” he replied. He thought - This is meant to be.Her food must be so delicious. Can she cook cold soba?- He gave you a hug. Some of the female teachers were jealous. You were so eager for work to end so you can pick up Miu and have Shoto over for dinner. 

“Someone is very eager to go home.” your coworker Jinni said. “ Yes I am. I want things to go well tonight. Miu and I invited someone over.” you replied and continued typing and fixing things on the online forms. “ Ooo you have a secret boyfriend.” Jini said teasingly. You shook your head and brushed it off. 

As you picked up Miu, Hawks noticed her red wings and her cute blonde hair in pigtails. He witnessed you carrying her and the little girl calling you mommy.  Keigo walked over. “Y/n hey.” Keigo said. You set Miu down. “Mingle with your friends for a bit sweetie.” you said. Miu took her teacher's hand and walked over to her friends. “How have you been..?” he asked. You pulled him aside. “ Are you kidding me? How have I been?” you said with tears in your eyes. “Is she..mine?” he asked. “ Red wigs with blond hair. What do you think?” you asked, crossing your arms. “ Why didn’t you tell me?” he asked, getting upset. You sighed ready for the pain. “ Ever since we dated…It was obvious you never loved me Keigo. You never made time for us. You’d come home drunk. Your friends had to drop you off. You forgot about me many times when important things came up. You were so fucking obsessed with Macy. When you suddenly change, i knew after a while what you did to make me happy was like a fucking check list.” you replied, tears slipping. “ I’m sorry I made you suffer…If you allow it, I’d like to be back in your life. Be a family with our daughter.” he said, rubbing your arm and taking a hold of your hand. “ Keigo..I was naive and very young ... .I left because things were hell for me. I knew if I stayed then things would only get worse. I won’t and say I was fine without you but I was a mess.” You replied crying silently. He felt awful hearing you say those words. He affected your life immensely. “ I’m here now. You don’t have to worry about anything.” he replied. “ I’m sorry Keigo. You might be a new man now but..Miu is my daughter..I already hurt her enough with her not having a father…I wont hurt her again if you show up and then pay no attention to her.” You replied holding in your sobs. Keigo kept pleading and you were getting overly emotional. “I’m trying to make things right y/n. Meet me tomorrow at my agency, 1pm.If you don’t have anyone to look after her, you can bring her. She can have a tour of the place while we talk.” he said. You nodded and walked over to Miu. The dinner date went as planned. Very nice, calming and fun.

Saturday has come. You walked into the agency holding Miu. She was in awe with the heroes there. Luckily you didn’t have to ask for Hawks. He came up to you as soon as you walked in. As he walked over he looked at his sidekicks signaling them to the kid. “ Let us show this little cutie around!” a girl said, tickling her. With that they were on their way. “ She looks just like you…People are already spreading rumors.” you said following him to his office. “They’re not rumors. She is my daughter.” he replied, opening the door for you. You walked inside and sat down. He locked the door. 

“ Let me tell you everything. The truth.” he said. You braced yourself. “ When we first met I was very interested. You were smart, passionate and kind, still are. Everything about you lured me in. Then as we talked more I had the courage to ask you to be my girlfriend. The first 2 years were amazing. I then stumbled with work. It had me going back and forth. I started treating you badly because of it. Taking it out on you. Eventually things got back to normal. We did our best for each other and I always appreciate what you’ve done for me. I caught up with work and met Macy. I’m not going to lie and say she was always only a friend… She and I clicked. We hit it off. One of the reasons I would show up late home was because I was with her. The nights I wouldn’t show up… we were fucking. I don’t know why I did it. Those nights the guys would drop me off drunk…was me coping and feeling guilt for what I was doing. You gave me everything you had to offer. All your love and support. I had a wonder woman at home. I’d wake up, and you had my breakfast ready, packed lunch with an encouraging note attached to it, and had dinner ready at the time I used to always come home. You washed our clothes, had it neatly folded and hung. You made sure everything was clean. You’d wait for me everyday after my working hours. When it was time for me to come back to you. You even took the time to help me wash my wings. Every Time we’d have sex…the moment aftercare finished and you were fast asleep. I’d drink and hated myself for using you. You stayed even though I made it hell for you. You were wrong when you said I didn’t love you…It was my cruelness that made you believe that. I’ll always love you. Before I left for America I cut it off with Macy. I wanted to show you I can be a better man for you. When I came back the house was untouched. I looked around. Your clothes were gone, you left your phone behind, and there was no letter. These past years were a mess. I did my hero work. Stayed at 2. But I was miserable the entire time. All I could think about was you. Endeavour helped me get back on my feet.

I’ve changed Y/n. I changed to have a healthy life and be a better person. You were always in my mind. My heart has always been and always will be yours. When I saw Miu being carried by and calling you mommy, my heart skipped a beat. She looks exactly like me. I knew in an instant that she’s my daughter. I’m a shit of a father. I was such a crap of a boyfriend to not even notice the signs you had of pregnancy. You were 19 and alone. Having to carry a life on your own. I wasn’t there to help you as much as I could. I wasn’t there to see our daughter be born. I wasn’t there to hear her 1st word nor to see her 1st steps. Never heard her babble. I’ve missed out on so many things. I want to make things right Y/n. Please let me show you I’ve changed. Allow me to be with you and our baby girl. I love you both.” he said trying to hold back his tears the entire time. You cried as well. He then got on his knees in front of you, took a hold of your hands. “ Allow me to show you all my love,” he said. You nodded, “Y-Yes, one chance is all you get. I swear.” he stood up and held you close, wrapping his wings around you. You relaxed and hugged back. There was a loud knock on the door. He unlocked it, opened it, and Miu was crying with bandages wrapped on her knees. “ M-Mommy. It hurts!” she said. You rushed over to her. “ She tried showing us she can fly and then fell down.” a hero said. “ Sweetie, what did I say about flying?” you said, setting her on the couch. “ O-Only on safe ground.” she replied. Hawks ordered his sidekicks out. Miu stopped crying as you played with her hair. “ I’d like you to meet someone amazingly important. This is Keigo Takami. Hawks.” you said. You never allowed her to see anything about him on the internet but she has at school. You knew this due to her drawings. “ Yeah my dada!” she replied. Eyes lighting up. You sighed. You’re not surprised. Kids are smart. She had red wings with blonde hair. Even her eyebrows are starting to shape a bit like his. It made you upset. You wanted her to look even a tiny bit like you. “That’s me Miu. I’m your dada. I’m sorry for not being around… I was mean to mommy. I apologize,”he replied. He got smacked, Miu always had a nasty hit. “ Meanie.” she said. You smiled. “ From now on I’ll be with you both. We need to start you with flying lessons. It’s important.” he said, playing with her wings. She was so confused on why. “ very strong and perfect size for your age. They’re growing nicely,”he said. “ Dada can I be as fast as you one day?” she asked, raising up her arms at him. He carried her. “ You can be even faster than me, little bird.” he replied. 

As time went on, during interviews hawks kept getting questions on romantic relationships. If he has a type, if he’s interested in dating for marriage, or if he already has a special person by his side. He would laugh and instead of answering he would switch it up and ask the interviewers about their love life. This time he decided to reveal your relationship and your daughter, you talked to him and gave consent. 

Interview ( public interview)

Here you have it everyone this is Hawks the #2 hero. Hawks it is very good to have you this afternoon. 

It's good to be here. Thank you for having me

How are you doing today?

Good actually. I got a power boost with my lunch.

That's great! 

(the lady took it as a perfect opportunity.)

Did you cook it yourself or do you have a special someone at home? 

Maybe I do Maybe I don’t 

Come on #2 let us in. I’m sure all your fans will be happy if you do. 

 The crowd of people cheered

Alright Alright I’ll tell you guys. I do have a special someone at home. Two special people at home actually. 

Some of the fans were upset and others were happy. 

Oh my! It’s a trouple!? Who are they? Are they heroes too?

No it’s not a trouple. I have a beautiful, smart and strong woman at home and a lovely child. They’re my family.

The crowd went silent. Hawk’s a father!?

Hawks officially announced he’s married and he’s a dad!

The crowd then went wild. 

Can you give us any details on them?

No I’m sorry guys. I don’t want my family to be in the media. I’ll be on my way now. Love you my fans! Have a good rest of your day! 

He then flew away with full speed. 

[acenolee]

BTS Reaction To Hearing You Singing

Not a request but I've been thinking about writing something like this because I haven't been able to stop vibing to BTS's songs lately and someone walked in on me - 🤦🏽‍♀️

Seokjin

“Do you want to listen to music?” Seokjin asked as he passed you the cutting board, a knife, and some salt. “I have a playlist on my phone.”

The two of you had decided to go all out on cooking dinner tonight - for no particular reason - and Seokjin was starting to feel exhausted from the sheer amount of topics you could bring up in just under thirty minutes or so.

So now he was suggesting music in a hopes that it would get you to focus more on cooking rather than striking up a thousand different conversations.

You shook your head. “Not really.” But then you paused and glanced at your boyfriend, whose face was inscrutable. “Well if you really want to it’s fine.”

He shrugged indifferently. "Let's just focus on dinner."

Nodding, you brandished the carrots and set them on the cutting board, beginning to slice them up into 2-3 pieces. A relaxing silence fell over the both of you as you concentrated. However Seokjin's mind had wandered to his career as he watched you cut up the carrots, and he found himself subconsciously humming along to a few of his songs before he finally couldn't bear the silence any longer.

"How about I sing?" Jin eventually suggested.

You nearly dropped the knife in shock, jerking your head towards Seokjin whose eyes had taken a somewhat distant - almost wistful - look to them. You'd asked him to sing for you many times before, but he usually rejected it in fear of overusing his voice. But now that he was the one suggesting it, you couldn't hide your excitement.

"Really?"

"Really."

Seokjin smiled when you nodded eagerly and started to sing Life Goes On. "오늘도 비가 내릴 것 같아, 흠뻑 젖어버렸네, 아직도 멈추질 않아~"

Jin's enchanting voice floated through the kitchen and you closed your eyes briefly, taking a few minutes to appreciate his lovely vocals. And then you also joined in, singing along quietly. You'd never sung in front of him before - you were far to shy to do that - but when Seokjin sung it was like there was some irresistible instinct to join in as well.

"끝이 보이지 않아, 출구가 있긴 할까?" You hummed quietly, and Seokjin paused upon hearing you sing a few more verses with him, surprised at just how gorgeous your singing voice sounded. "발이 떼지질 않아, 않아, oh."

You looked at him in surprise upon realizing that he stopped singing and was watching you. "Why'd you stop?"

A huge grin spread across his face. "You didn't tell me that you could sing jagi. You sounded so beautiful."

Blushing, you turned your head away. "It was nothing."

"It was certainly something." Seokjin insisted, putting his elbow on the counter and tipping his head towards you. "You sounded like an angel~"

"Jinnie~" You whined. "Stop it, you know compliments make me shy."

"But it's true!" He said, coming over to kiss your head and brush the hair from your eyes. "A princess like you only deserves to hear the truth."

Giggling shyly, you shook your head and mumbled thank you. Seokjin was beaming - either because he enjoyed seeing you so flustered or because he was still gushing over your voice, you couldn't tell.

After a while, when you two had returned to cooking, Seokjin asked, "Why haven't you sung for me before?"

"I was too nervous." You answered.

"Aww you're just the cutest thing aren't you!" He poked your cheeks with the most affection smile ever, causing you to redden.

"You have to sing for me more often." He declared. "I need to hear your voice more often - it's like a serotonin boost."

"I don't know..."

He grabbed your hands and tugged you closer, pouting a bit. "Please jagi?"

You hesitated before nodding. "Alright."

Seokjin broke into the cutest smile ever and did a little celebratory dance. "We can sing DNA together - how does that sound?"

"Good." You said, but then he added with a playful - but mischievous smirk,

"You're doing the majority of the verses," Before you could protest, he brought his finger to your lips. "And I'm getting a video of you."

"Hey-"

Seokjin was already reaching for his phone. "C'mon you said you'd do it. How am I going to pass up on such an opportunity to hear you, beautiful?"

Yoongi

"Trust me jagi, you're going to do just fine." Yoongi reassured you, noticing just how nervous you'd become.

He'd finally convinced you too rap some of his lines in Daechwita. Yes, they were difficult but he knew that you were more than capable of rapping to his level - he'd come home on several occasions to overhearing you rap to either his songs or another artist's.

He didn't let it show but he was very excited that you'd agreed - he could hardly sit still in his chair. He'd wanted to ask you to rap for him much sooner but knowing just how shy you could be, he'd waited until you were more comfortable around him.

"Are you sure?" You asked nervously, biting your nails. Yoongi quickly grabbed your hand and pulled it away from your face so you would stop biting and nodded. "I'm sure princess, you can do it. Here, I'll even turn around if it helps. And I'll give you all the time you need."

"Okay."

Doing as he'd promised, Yoongi turned around and waited for you to begin rapping. Glancing up from the sheet he'd given you, you studied the back of his chair for a couple of seconds to make sure he wasn't peeking.

"대취타 대취타 자 울려라 대취타, 대취타 대취타 자 울려라 대취타, 대취타 대취타 자 울려라 대취타." You rapped the first couple of verses. Although Yoongi felt like he was going to explode with excitement upon hearing your voice, he remained silent. "대취타 대취타 자 울려라 대취타, 빛이 나 빛이 나 내 왕관이 빛이 나, 잊지 마 잊지 마 지난 날을 잊지 마."

He hummed along quietly and pulled out his phone to record you. Of course he wouldn't tell you but he was definitely going to send this to Bangtan. He would keep it on repeat when you weren't in the house with him and would listen to it on tour whenever he was missing you or felt anxious.

As you continued rapping, you began to feel more and more confident, and as you entered the last few verses, you could practically feel Yoongi's pride floating around the studio. "I'm a king, I'm a boss, 다 알잖아 내 이름, 입만 산 새끼들, 당장 놈의 목을 쳐."

"대취타 대취타 자 울려라 대취타." You finished with a small pant and looked up as you heard some shuffling. Yoongi stopped recording and spun around, his eyes glowing with pride. “Was it okay?”

“It was wonderful jagi.” Yoongi said, his adorable gummy smile on full display. “You’ve gotten do this for me more often.”

You nodded sheepishly. “Okay.”

Yoongi brightened and beckoned you over. When you complied, he pulled you into his lap and smiled at you, ruffling your hair a bit and chuckling. The two of you didn’t need words to communicate - it was already clear what was being said.

“Will you do a duet with me?” He suddenly asked, surprising you.

“W-with you?” You stammered, and Yoongi nodded in confirmation. “I-I don’t know…”

Yoongi pouted. “Pleaseee?” He drawled out.

Yoongi wasn’t really one to beg, but he so wanted to do a rap duet with you that he was willing to do just about anything.

“Okay fine.” You eventually agreed, much to your boyfriend’s excitement.

The next few hours were spent with Yoongi getting you more comfortable singing and rapping around him. And when you finally didn’t feel shy anymore and you’d practiced with him, he was all up in your face getting lots of videos of you rapping, much to your horror.

“Don’t hide from the camera jagi~”

“You never told me you were going to record me!”

Yoongi sighed and shook his head.“Tsk, you really should’ve anticipated this baby.”

Hoseok

“아 지금 바로 딱 갈게요, 제발 집엔 보내지 마세요~”

Hoseok practically leaped out of bed upon hearing your voice float in from the living room. He was both shocked and delighted as he scrambled to a halt in the hallway that led to the living room, slapping a hand over his mouth with a wide smile sprewding across his face as your voice rang clearly throughout the apartment.

You were busy doing some spring cleaning, subconsciously singing Run BTS as you worked. As you turned around to reach for another rag, you trailed off in surprise upon seeing Hobi standing in the hallway watching you with the biggest smile you’d ever seen.

He looked so cute like that; and you fought the urge to run over and start to tease him about it.

“Hi Hobi.” You said, letting the rag drop to the ground. “What’s up?”

Hobi stared for a couple more seconds before he finally looked down, seeming suddenly very shy.

“I’ve never heard you sing before.” Hobi replied quietly, looking up to meet your gaze with sparkling eyes. “You should’ve told me what a pretty voice you have. And you were signing one of our songs-you sounded amazing jagi.”

You smiled and walked over, wrapping him in a hug as he opened his arms and buried your face into the crook of his neck. Partly to hide your own embarrassment but also because he just looked so damn adorable - it was hard not to want to hug him and smother him in kisses.

“Thanks baby~”

The two of you stood in the living room for a while, wrapped up in each others arms and just taking a moment to appreciate each other. Hobi closed his eyes, and ran his fingers through your hair, thinking about taking a video of you singing to send to Bangtan so he could brag to them about his baby being able to sing.

“Will you continue?” Hobi eventually asked, desperate to hear more of your angelic voice. When you said maybe later because you wanted to finish up cleaning, he practically got on the floor and pleaded with you, promising to sing with you. “Please please Y/N? Your voice is so beautiful I want to hear more of it!”

You giggled as he pressed a kiss to your forehead and proceeded to start offering up a list of more things he’d do in order to get you to sing for him. “Okay okay! Calm down love, you don’t need to do anything but just let me sing and finish cleaning, hmm?”

And Hobi’s entire face lit up and he eagerly nodded. “Yes yes, whatever you want.”

Laughing, you then picked up the rag you dropped and asked Hobi for a beat, and then began to sing. The entire time Hobi’s was a ball of joy, squealing with joy whenever you covered his lines and clapping frantically and showering you with compliments at the end of each song. And you better believe he got the video of you and sent it straight to Bangtan, taking every opportunity to prove to the members how amazing your vocal skills were.

Namjoon

“Jooniee.” You whined, wrapping your arms around the stubborn Namjoon who wouldn’t budge from his chair and tried to physically hoist him him out of the seat to no avail. “C’mon take a break - you’re going to overwork yourself.”

Namjoon let out an exasperated breath and pushed you away lightly, trying to concentrate on what he’d been working on. Although he wouldn’t admit it, he found your whining to be very adorable and incredibly infuriating - it tore at his heart to ignore your precious pleading.

“I’ll take a break in ten minutes.” He promised, taking his gaze off the computer screen for just a moment to look into your eyes.

“That’s what you’ve been saying for the past twenty.” You pouted, crossing your arms over your chest.

He sighed softly. “I know jagi but I have to work on this. It’s important. I’ll be in the living in just a few - alright? And then we can cuddle and do whatever you want.”

Dissatisfied, you turned and left his office without saying anything, the disappointment evident on your face. Namjoon felt incredibly guilty as he turned to work on the track, trying to push your pouty face from his mind.

But so god help him - it was nearly impossible.

“Aish, Y/N’s going to be the death of me.” Namjoon muttered to himself.

As the moments ticked by and Namjoon began more and more engrossed in his project, his stress rose and so did your longing for him. You paced the kitchen and made yourself a small breakfast sandwich that tasted bland.

And then an idea came to your mind as soon as you curled up in your bed to try and take a nap.

“Namjoon?” You called, darting into his studio with a brilliant smile on your face.

Namjoon turned and tried to hide his irritation. The stews was getting to him and he really didn’t need any distractions right now.

“What?”

You walked over and laced your fingers with his, much to his confusion, and pulled him out of the seat. He tried to pry your fingers loose but you were using so much strength that it was incredibly difficult.

“C’mon dance with me.” You giggled, spinning him round.

“Y/N-”

“손가락질 해!” You sang whilst doing a funny little dance. Namjoon’s eyes widened as he recognized his own song - Idol - and a smile broke out on his face. “I know you wanna sing too.” You teased, continuing to do your funny dance. Namjoon shook his head and smiled, content to just watch you. “나는 전혀 신경 쓰지 않네.”

And then you did the strangest - perhaps the most startling - dance he’d ever seen and sang in such a high pitch that your voice cracked.

”Wait stop!” He said, breaking into a huge belly laugh as you continued to do your dance around him and singing the lyrics to idol. “I-I can’t breathe Y/N!”

Chuckling, you replied, “Don’t wanna Joon~”

“지화자 좋다~”

Namjoon completely fell over and laughed until his face was red and his laughter almost fell silent. You were the funniest thing, really, and you always knew just how to get him to laugh. He was a complete mess, sprawled on the floor with tears clinging to his eyelashes and begging you to stop singing. It was utterly hilarious to him, what you were doing to get him to stop working.

As you entered the final chorus, he broke down into another fit of laughter, actually thinking that he was going to pass out from laughing so loud. When you stopped, he was too out of breath to say anything, and you were also feeling quite exhausted.

“You know.” You hummed, leaning down and placing your hands on his shoulders. “I could sing DNA or Blood Sweat & Tears.” His eyes widened and he shook his head, still trying to catch his breath. “If you won’t take a break then I will start singing again, cutie. It made you laugh so much and you seem so much happier so you must enjoy it~”

Namjoon flushed and he grabbed your hands, tears of mirth trickling down his face. “P-please don’t baby, I’ll take a break - I swear.”

You smirked and let him pull you into his arms, helping him calm down. “Good.” And then you pressed a kiss to his forehead. “You worked hard today, I’m so proud.”

He relaxed against you and let out a small exhale, nestling into your chest. “Thanks baby. For the compliment and for cheering me up.”

“Of course Joonie.”

After a while, Namjoon looked up at you and said, “I really need to hear you singing in a normal pitch though.”

You smiled. “We’ll see.”

Jimin

Jimin opened the door to the apartment he shared with you and sighed, exhausted after a day of intense dance practice to perfect some of the choreography he struggled with for Like Crazy. All he wanted to do was lie down, go to sleep, and cuddle with you.

After setting his bags down and taking off his shoes, Jimin was ready to go change into some comfy pajamas when suddenly the sound of your voice came in from the bathroom, making him pause to listen. It sounded like you were singing - to Like Crazy.

“Y/N?”

“Hi Jimin!” You called when you heard him. “I’ll be right out in second and we can talk about your day if your not to tired.”

“Okay.”

He didn’t mention overhearing you singing, hoping that you would start again, but much to his disappointment you remained silently, probably already flustered at having been caught singing.

Jimin, however, was determined to hear your voice again.

He quickly changed into plaid pajamas and made it sound like he’d left the room, but really he was hanging by the door in case you started to sing again. And sure enough, after a while you began to sing again.

“아침도 취해서 오지 않게. 시끄러운 음악 속에 희미해진 나.”

He was more than surprised to hear you singing, and be it that it’s his song, nonetheless. But accompanied by the surprise he felt pride and excitement.

When you came out of the bathroom after a few more minutes, you were surprised to see Jimin waiting for you, and paused in the doorway.

“Jiminie?”

“Hi jagi.” Jimin said, rushing over and wrapping you up in an embrace. He pressed a kiss to your head, surprising you.

“Hi Jimin.” You said, letting him pepper you with kisses before asking, “Everything okay?”

“Yep.” He reassured you, burying his head in your hair. “I just missed you.”

“You saw me just this morning baby.”

“I know but it’s felt like so long jagi.” Jimin pulled away and physically lifted you off the ground, carrying you to the bed. “Let’s go cuddle.”

“Aren’t you hungry though?” You asked as he set you down and put his head in your lap.

“Nope.”

“How was your day?”

You were still trying to figure out why Jimin was acting so clingy all the sudden. He was usually very shy when it came to cuddles or anything of the sort. You so rarely saw him like this unless he was sad, but he didn’t particularly seem to be the case here.

“Better now that I get to hang out with you~”

“Hmm.” You mused, pulling him closer. You waited awhile before beginning saying, “If anything-”

“Shh.” He hushed, pulling a finger to your lips and looking up at you with the cutest face ever. “Just let me cuddle with you, okay?”

You frowned but didn’t push any further. “If you say so.”

Jimin let his eyes close as you ran your fingers through his hair, letting the sensation lull him into a relaxed state. You massaged his legs, arms, and shoulders, feeling a bit better as he released the tension in his muscles.

Half asleep, he mumbled, “Were you singing earlier?”

Surprised, you glanced down at him to make sure he wasn’t sleep talking - you’d thought he’d already fallen asleep - and said, “Yeah. I was singing Like Crazy.”

Jimin made a little humming sound and smiled. “I heard you. You sounded so good jagi~”

“Aw thank you.” You said with a giggle, kissing his forehead.

Jimin yawned and snuggled against you. “Show me more about it in the morning?”

“Alright.”

“Night jagi, love you~”

“Love you too~”

Taehyung

“I just can’t get it jagi.” Taehyung said, letting out an exasperated sigh and slouching back in his chair. “I’m trying - I really am. I just can’t do it.”

And then he broke into tears.

Immediately you leapt out of your chair - dropping both your phone and the sheet music - and wrapped your arms around Taehyung, heart shattering upon seeing his tears.

“It’s okay sweetie.” You comforted him, rubbing circles into his back. “You’re trying, that’s all that matters. Do you want some water? Or a blanket?”

Taehyung shook his head, tugging you closer and falling into your embrace as he sobbed. “I-I just w-want you to s-stay here.”

“Of course Tae.” You said, running your fingers through his hair to soothe you. “I’m not going anyway.”

He never wanted you to see him like this, and he felt more than embarrassed upon breaking down in front of you.

After his sobbing continued for a while without pause, you began to worry. Knowing that Taehyung would be under a lot of stress due to the upcoming comeback, you’d made it your mission to try and keep everything in the house running smoothly and offer to do whatever he needed. Whether it be cuddles, some cheer up time, showering him in compliments, or running to the grocery store, you always tried your best to do whatever was asked of you.

But now you started to wonder if you hadn’t done nearly enough.

“Taehyung baby please talk to me.” You begged, tipping his head up so he would look at you. “I’m here for you. Whatever you’re feeling right now you’d don’t have go through alone.”

Taehyung turned his head away, sniffling. “I-It’s nothing jagi. I’m just tired.”

“Baby I can see it’s more than that. You can tell me anything.”

“I can’t hit this one note,” Taehyung explained tearfully, accepting the tissue you offered and blowing his nose. “I normally would be able to. It’s in my range so I don’t know why.”

“But Tae that’s not a reason to beat yourself up.” You told him, frowning. Taehyung didn’t seem convinced so you leaned forward and brushed the hair from his eyes, planting a kiss on his forehead. “Maybe your voice needs a rest.”

He shook his head. “We’re supposed to be shooting the scenes for the music video next week - and we can’t do that without a recording. Y/N I don’t want to be the reason why we fall behind schedule.” Taehyung’s lip began to tremble. “N-Namjoon hyung tried to help me but none of his tips were useful. You should’ve seen his face Y/N, he looked so disappointed. I’m going to drag everyone behind and slow down production.”

Tears streamed down his cheeks and he began crying again.

“Tae your health should be prioritized above all else.” You stated firmly, rubbing circles into his back and patting his knee. “If you need time to work on your vocals to make sure you can hit this note, then you should be given the time to be able to do that. You’re not dragging behind anyone, trust me, and if anyone gives you a hard time about it then they’ll have to go through me. Believe me when I say I can become Bang PD’s worst nightmare if he so much as asks why. And the same message is extended to Bangtan if they give you trouble about it.”

Taehyung looked up with a wobbly smile, wiping away some of his tears. “Thank you jagi, you always know what to say to make me feel better.”

“Of course.” You said, nuzzling into his chest. “I’d do anything for you.”

Taehyung rested his head on your shoulder and asked a little sheepishly. “Will you sing for me? It’ll make me feel ten times better.”

You looked in surprise. “Sing? This came out of nowhere.”

“I know but I’ve been meaning to ask you. I think I heard you singing along to Bixby one time and it made me so happy. Do it for me now?”

Taehyung peppered you in kisses and kept asking even after when you declined, stating that your singing voice wasn’t the best. He just wanted to hear it regardless.

You sighed and relented. “Alright alright. If it’ll make you feel better.” Taehyung beamed and nodded eagerly. “It will.”

With a small grunt, you began singing the chorus of Anpanman. “계속 돌려 돌려 나의 Anpan. Keep ballin', ballin', still 방탄.” You covered two more verses before stopping and looking down at Taehyung. “How was that?”

Taehyung immediately started to applaud, a smile stretching across his face and looking much happier. “You were great jagi! Why don’t we sing together?”

You raised your eyebrow. “Shouldn’t you rest your voice though…?”

Taehyung pouted. “Please jagi? I’ll be careful.”

“Fine.”

Taehyung beamed and asked, “Ready?” To which you replied, “Ready as I’ll ever be.”

And the two of you began from the beginning of Anpanman. You had to admit that it was much more fun than you’d anticipated. Even when your voice cracked and Taehyung giggled a bit, it was still worth it to see him smiling brightly at you.

“You were amazing jagi.” Taehyung said, wrapping his arms around your shoulders and burying his face in your neck. “Thanks for cheering me up.”

“Anytime, tiger.”

Jungkook

“Kookie!” You called as he pushed his way into the bedroom, running over and wrapping your arms and legs around him like a koala. Jungkook nearly fell over, caught off guard. He was used to your high energy levels but none of this sort. Wrapping his arms around your lower body so you wouldn’t fall, Jungkook asked, “What’s up?”

“Can you help me with something?”

Chuckling while ruffling your hair, Jungkook said, “Sure baby what is it?”

Excited, you hurried to explain, “I’m trying to learn the choreography for Fire and I’m struggling with a particular part, can you teach me?”

Jungkook raised his eyebrow, slightly impressed that you were trying to learn the choreography but not surprised, and nodded. With a squeal of excitement you untangled yourself from him and went to show him what you were struggling with.

“Ah,” Jungkook said once you showed him. “That’s a hard one. Here, let me show you.”

Soon your boyfriend was demonstrating the choreography, offering tips on how to execute it better once you tried to copy him.

It was no secret that Jungkook absolutely loved when you asked him for help trying to learn choreography - it was one of his favorite actives to do with you and served as a huge destresser knowing that he didn’t have to be 100% perfect in front of you.

“You’re doing great jagi~” Jungkook complimented when you danced to the pre-chorus, giggling when you beamed at him.

“Thanks.” You said, almost out of breath. “C’mon join me Kookie!”

Jungkook extended his hands and you took them, pulling you up from the bed and starting to dance with you.

“Jagi you’re like an overexcited child.” Jungkook chuckled.

You’d become distracted midway through the song and had started to dance around in a hilarious way, punching your fists into the air and hopping up and down.

You laughed with him. “Can’t help it Kookie!” And then you proceeded to yell out some gibberish, making Jungkook laugh even harder.

After getting you to focus on the Fire choreography again, you and Jungkook finished and practically fell into each others arms.

“Good job jagi.” Jungkook gave you his bunny smile and you giggled in response, leaning into him as he steadied you.

“Thanks bun.” You murmured.

Noticing how tired you were, Jungkook picked you up and set you down on the bed, and you crawled over to him, wrapping your arms around his shoulders and burying your head in his chest.

Jungkook was going to snuggle for longer, ready to just relax and let you pamper him, but then something occurred to him.

“Wait jagi, are you going to put on one of your funny shows tonight?”

“Oh yeah.” You piped up, suddenly becoming reenergized. “I’ve been preparing for the acappella version! And they’re not funny - they’re the most serious thing ever!”

Jungkook laughed. “You’re the most unserious person I’ve ever met, jagi.”

“Heyyy.” You whined, playfully swatting at his hands and initiating a mock play fight with him. “That’s not true!”

“It is too!” Jungkook insisted, letting you pin him to the bed before wrapping his arms around your torso and gently tickling you until you let go. “And what’s all this about acappella I hear, hmm?”

“I’m going to sing for you!”

“Is that right?”

“Mhm!”

“Well now you’ve really got my attention.”

Jungkook was more than curious to hear your singing voice. You always had some trick up your sleeve - some cheeky prank or a hidden talent, typically the latter. And he had not a doubt in his mind that you would be a wonderful singer.

“Baby, baby.” He said, excited, lifting you into his lap and placing his hands on your torso.

“Hm?”

“Will you give me a preview? I want to hear you sing.”

“How could I say no?” You were literally beaming at the simple request, and Jungkook’s heart fluttered at just how cute you were. “Ready? One, two, three. 다 만신창이로 취했어, 취했어. 막 욕해 길에서, 길에서.”

Jungkook almost shoved you off his lap upon hearing your voice and immediately joined in, bunny smile on full display. “나 맛이 갔지, 미친놈 같지. 다 엉망진창 livin' like 삐이.”

The two of you continued to sing together for almost the entire night. Jungkook even convinced you to record of video of you two singing. By the time you two were finished, it was almost past night and the both of you were properly worn out.

“You should’ve told me you could sing.” Jungkook eventually said, lifting your chin so you would look at him. “You sounded so beautiful. I would’ve joined your little performances in a heartbeat.”

“I was just waiting for the right time,” You murmured sleepily into his ear. “And I was a little nervous as well.”

“Aww jagi,” Jungkook cooed, engulfing you in an embrace and pressing a couple of kisses to your head. “You don’t ever have to be shy about anything around me, okay?”

You nodded sheepishly. “Okay Kookie.”

“Good.” Kook pressed another kiss to your forehead and pulled you close. You closed your eyes and soon fell asleep in his arms. “Good night princess~”

[mirisss]

Chapter 8

Wordcount ≈ 3.1k

Warnings: anxiety, exercising (dancing + warming up), self-doubt, self-hate, angst, reader being a bit mean to herself (thoughts), almost fainting, mentions of the possibility someone will hit reader, food, eating, mentions of past abuse against (Y/n), 

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(Y/n)’s POV

After we had finished eating, Seungmin and I regrouped with the others before, once again, splitting up as the members had some different schedules up until lunch. “Have you decided who you wanna go with for now, (Y/n)?” Changbin asked while we all began walking to the elevators. “Yeah, I decided to go with Danceracha up until lunch and after that, we’ll see,” “Yes! We got (Y/n)!” Felix exclaimed happily making some of the employees around us look at him with weird looks before they returned to what they did previously. “Alright, Changbin and I’s meeting should be over around 2 pm, maybe a little later. Do you think the rest of you will be ready for lunch by then or sooner or later?” “I can’t really say for us, it depends on how many changes we wanna do to the choreo and how long it takes us to learn it,” Minho answered Bang Chan, it sounded a bit complicated but I think seeing them dance will be a lot of fun. “Our vocal training with the coach is scheduled between 9.00 am to 1.30 pm, so we should be done by 2 unless we run over too but I don’t think we will as the coach is on a very strict schedule,” Seungmin said, he was apparently the one who had booked the training session so of course he was the one who knew all the details. “Mm, okay. Well, when the three of you are done with your vocal training, why don’t you stop by the dance studio and see how it’s going for Danceracha, if they seem to be running late, bring (Y/n) with you and meet up with us for lunch. Minho, Hyunjin, and Felix will just have to eat later unless the other choreographers want to eat too so you can take a break,” “Yeah, that sounds good to us, how about for you (Y/n)?” “Oh, yeah, that’s fine, Jinnie,” “Great, we’ll see you later. We have to go now or we’re gonna be late,” And with that, the group split up. 

Minho took my hand and led me into an elevator with Hyunjin and Felix following us. They guided me to a big room with an entire wall made up of mirrors, in one corner there was a small-ish black couch, and beside the couch, there was something that seemed like a computer - probably where they controlled what song played in the speakers. I looked around the room with awe, it had a somewhat cozy feeling as I turned back to the mirrors and saw how the three dancers were looking at me with love-filled eyes and sweet smiles. “Want to warm up with us, (Y/n)?” Hyunjin asked as Minho walked over to the computer and began typing away. “I don’t know how,” “That’s fine! We usually follow one another, today it’s Hyunjin’s turn to lead the warm-up so all you need to do is face the mirror and imitate Hyunjin’s movements, and if you struggle with anything you can ask any of us for help, but really all you need to do is try your best,” Felix said as he came over and put his hands gently on my shoulders before shaking me lightly to make me smile. “Okay, I’ll try!” “Great, let’s start then. In 30 minutes the choreographer is coming so we need to be ready by then. Jinnie the floor is yours,” Minho said, using a tone I was unfamiliar with, it was stern, leaving no room for arguments. 

Hyunjin faced the mirrors just like the rest of us, though he was standing a few steps in front of us, I stood beside Felix, watching Hyunjin’s reflection in the mirror carefully. “Have fun, (Y/n)!” “Hm!” I nodded my head before focusing on Hyunjin once again. Minho took out his phone and hit play and a second later music filled the room and Hyunjin began moving, with the rest of us following his lead. Minho and Felix had no problem keeping up but I struggled a bit, the other two probably knew what movements would follow one another, I, however, did not. But as I remembered what Felix said before we started I began calming down and stopped focusing on all the mistakes I made and rather focused on just having fun as I tried to keep up with Danceracha. After warming up for 15 minutes I was sweating like crazy and I was very tired, my vision was becoming a bit blurry, and my movements were slower. “Hey stop! (Y/n)’s about to faint,” Felix shouted alerting everyone, even myself, of my swaying body and my weak legs. Felix quickly stepped closer to me before he gently hooked his arm around my waist and helped me walk over to the couch in the corner of the room. Minho and Hyunjin went to get some water and towels. With just over 10 minutes left before they had to meet with the choreographer, and I was taking up their time. This is why no one likes you. This is why no one wants you. An angry, dark voice resonated inside my head. The voice made me shrink back into my shy and shut-off self, I couldn’t look at Felix, I knew he would be angry, I should have been able to do this, hybrids are supposed to be good at exercises, but I’m not. “Hey, (Y/n). Are you okay? Does anything hurt? Can you see me? Are your eyes okay?” His voice was silky smooth, deep, and warm, it was filled with worry and love. He doesn’t actually care. If you look at him you know he’ll hit you. “(Y/n), please, look up at me?” Run away, he doesn’t want you. They don’t want you. They hate you. You’re a waste of space. Felix gently put one of his hands on my chin and then lightly tilted it upward so my eyes would meet his, I froze as soon as my eyes met his. His eyes were full of worry, adoration, love, fright, and anxiety, no matter how hard I searched for any feeling of hatred, I could find nothing alike it. It’s all fake. “Are you okay?” “I, -” My voice cracked as I just noticed how dry my throat was both from the exhaustion but also from the anxiety the evil voice brought with it. I broke out in a small coughing fit as I tried to catch my breath. “It’s okay, look at me, you’re fine, (Y/n), I’m here. Minho-hyung will be back in a few seconds with some water for you,” As soon as Felix had said it, Minho came jogging back into the room with four water bottles in his hands, closely followed by Hyunjin who had some towels in his arms. “Here,” Minho said as he handed a water bottle to Felix who opened it before giving it to me. I gladly took it and gulped down half the bottle, soothing my sore throat. “Feeling better now?” Felix asked as he took the water bottle from me, closing it before taking a towel from Hyunjin’s arms. He unfolded it and carefully patted it against my forehead, wiping away my sweat. “ I’m sorry,” “Why are you sorry? (Y/n), you don’t have to apologize,”

“I ruin everything,” “(Y/n), I’m sorry but I’m going to raise my voice a bit right now. You don’t ruin everything. Anyone can faint when exercising, you don’t mean any less to us because of this, we are the ones to blame because we should have thought about the possibility of this happening. This is not your fault. It could just as likely have been me or any of the others who fainted. We all love you, so so so much, nothing would change that. Okay? Listen to me, WE LOVE YOU” I was startled as Felix raised his voice at me, he wasn’t screaming but he was speaking significantly louder than he ever had before around me. Usually, something like this would have me shivering and crying, yet with Felix my eyes were locked with his, I was frozen as I listened to his warm voice as I saw the tears escaping from his eyes. There was nothing but sincerity in his voice. Minho and Hyunjin had walked out of the room shortly before this to stop the choreographer from stepping inside before Felix and I had calmed down. I could hear their voices as they conversed outside the door, joined by an unfamiliar voice that I assumed belonged to the choreographer. “Please, (Y/n). Don’t put yourself down, we love you, I love you, so please, please love yourself, if not for your sake for ours,” I slowly moved my hand up to his face and wiped away the tears that had streaked his cheeks. “I’ll try, for you,” Felix enveloped me in a warm hug before he took a deep breath and calmed down from his crying.We sat there, our arms encircled around each other, as we were shaking from crying, sniffling, and trying to calm down from what just happened. “Please (Y/n), please believe me when I say that we love you,” I couldn’t answer him verbally so I opted to just give him a tighter squeeze before I let go of him and moved back a tiny bit. I shakily put my hand on his cheek and wiped away some of his tears with my thumb. Felix took a deep breath before wiping away my tears too. “I have to get ready now, we can’t keep the choreographer waiting any longer,” “I’ll just stay here so that you guys can focus,” “(Y/n), you wouldn’t be in the way,” “I know, but I still feel shaky, I don’t think I can stand up just yet,” “Are you sure you want to stay here then? You don’t want to go to some of the others?” “I’m sure, I want to see you and Minho and Hyunjin dance,” “Okay, bunny. Just let us know if you need anything,” “I promise,” “Good,” Felix gave me a kiss on my forehead before he stood up and walked over to the door to let Minho and Hyunjin back inside. 

15 minutes later and I finally stopped feeling nauseous and shaky. My eyes were locked solidly onto the way that Danceracha was moving. The smoothness, the precision, the look in their eyes, it was mesmerizing. “With this move, I would prefer if we could do it like this,” Minho said as he showed what he meant, the choreographer watched closely before discussing it further with Minho going back and forth until they reached a move they were both happy with. All three of them glanced back at me every now and then, when they saw that I was watching them they just smiled and looked away again. Soon a few hours had passed and it was time for lunch, to me though, it felt like only a few minutes had passed from the moment I shared with Felix, as we both cried, holding each other. “Come on, let’s meet up with the others,” Hyunjin said as he waved me over with a tired but happy smile on his lips. Danceracha looked exhausted, quite frankly they reeked of sweat but they had been dancing none stop for a few hours. “Weren’t Han, Seungmin, and Jeongin supposed to stop by when their training was over?” “Yeah, they should be coming any second, it’s only 1.35 pm. The vocal room they had booked is five floors above this one so it takes a few minutes to walk between them,” Felix answered as he tenderly took one of my hands into his before leading me to the door. After we had stepped outside my nose picked up the familiar scent of the youngest Stray Kid.

“Hyungs! (Y/n)! Hi!” “Ya, Innie, you’re not supposed to scream right after training,” Jeongin just turned and gave Seungmin a playful glare in return before he continued smiling and jogging in my direction. “Hi” I waved to the three of them. Seeing them run and smile, being so carefree and happy, it made me feel like maybe there is hope for me too, that one day I can be freed from all of my worries, from my past. As long as I stay with them, as long as I’m with my family I’ll be fine. No more being alone. No more darkness. “How was it? Watching dance practice?” Jisung asked once he too caught up with us. I looked at Danceracha, pondering over whether or not I should tell the others about my accident. “It was fun, I wish I could dance like them,” Minho looked at me, understanding my decision of not telling them yet, or I think he did because he began talking about something else as he began walking toward the elevators with the rest of us following. Seungmin walked beside Felix and me, he tenderly took my free hand into his as we were walking. It wasn’t until he did that that I realized just how cold my hands were, when Felix took my hand into his I didn’t think about the heat difference as Felix had just been dancing for a long time but Seungmin had not and his hand almost felt like it was on fire compared to mine. “Wow, did you take a trip to the North Pole? Your hands are so cold!” Seungmin proclaimed as he laughed. “Oh, I didn’t even think about it, holy, (Y/n), we need to get you some tea or some hot chocolate to warm you up,” As the two began fussing over me Minho looked back, surely after he heard them speak of my icy hands. His eyes spoke so loudly, as he stared into mine, he knew I was cold after the panic attack, even if I had calmed down and wasn’t crying anymore, my unconscious mind hadn’t let it go just yet, it had pretty much shut down.  “I’m sure she’ll be fine after she gets some food, we all need it so come on, let’s move it, Chan-hyung and Changbin are waiting for us by the cafeteria, their meeting ended a little earlier than they thought it would,” Chan had apparently texted Minho that info just now, I didn’t even notice him checking his phone. 

After arriving at the cafeteria we quickly found Chan and Changbin, they had taken a large table so we could all sit together this time. We ordered our food and then Minho told Chan, and the others, about what happened in the dance studio. Everyone looked worried but they were happy nothing worse happened. “Maybe it would be best for you (Y/n) if you went home to rest for the rest of the day. You’ve experienced a lot today and maybe we shouldn’t hurry this exposure too much or things like this will happen. We need to gradually expose you to our hectic schedules. If you want I can come home with you,” “What about the meetings?” “Changbin can handle them, the hardest one is finished already, the last one is just for the name of the album and we’ve never had a problem with those meetings before, besides Changbin has handled meetings like this alone other times too,” “I’m actually feeling quite worn out so maybe going home would be best,” “Uh, hyung, actually, I don’t think I can take this next meeting on my own,” “Huh? Why not?” “They changed the schedule, the album name meeting is tomorrow, and after lunch, we have the meeting regarding the music videos,” Bang Chan let out a loud sigh, he looked really annoyed, but I wasn’t scared of him, because I knew he wasn’t upset with me, and he isn’t like my previous owners, he wouldn’t hit me. “Ugh, why do they change the schedule every time? We always put it like this, then they change it only to switch back to OUR original schedule… ugh. Well, (Y/n), sorry that means I can’t take you home,” Chan looked at me, he looked disappointed. “It’s okay. I think I can just rest on the couch in the dance studio, don’t worry,” “I could take her home, we don’t have that much left to go over for the dances so the part I miss Minho-hyung and Lixie can teach me tomorrow,” “As long as it’s okay with Minho and Felix, it’s okay with me, you know I rarely but in regarding the dances, that’s Minho’s responsibility,” Chan said the last part as he chuckled because Minho gave him a fake annoyed glare. “Mm, take the bunny home, make sure she gets some rest,” “I will,” Hyunjin gave me a smile before we all continued eating our lunches. 

After we all had finished eating Hyunjin called their driver to come and pick the two of us up and drive us to the dorm. “Take care and rest well, (Y/n). We’ll see you tonight,” Jisung said as he gave me a warm and tight hug. “Change into the new pajamas we got for you, you know the one that was so warm and fluffy!” Jeongin said as he then reminded Hyunjin where it was. Everyone either hugged me before saying goodbye or just waved and smiled. Soon it was just Hyunjin and I, as we waited in the lobby for the driver to come. “He’s here, come on, (Y/n), we can go home and watch a movie and maybe draw some more,” “That -” YAWN “- sounds nice” “Haha, tired I see,” And so we got in the car, I barely sat down before my eyes were closing. The last thing I remember is hearing a low humming from Hyunjin as I rested my head against his shoulder before I fell into a deep sleep. 

~ To Be Continued ~

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[dearweirdme]

Isn't it interesting that TK who frequently hang out in their free time outside work - bowling, snowboarding, recording/sharing music, Paradise hotel, movie premiere ( quoting instances where we have proof ) aren't prime choice for any type of subunit since years. Be it music or documentary or travel vlog or any damn official content!!! BAFFLING

Do you think it's because Tae probably does not have that great of a relationship with his label? We did see him pitching friendcation with wooga but barely see him in any fun content with other members. Compare that to jm who does innumerable dance challenges, jkk travel show, that album exchange with moni, Suga concert etc to cite a few. Don't you see a stark absence of Tae?

Curious to know everyone's thoughts. Does Tae say no to subunit content or is it not even pitched to him. His solo ventures have mostly been his own thing or wooga or the 95z dance group. Gives an impression that he might not be as in touch with other members comparatively. Only exception being jk because he mentions him a lot on lives and the hang outs but even then no TK fun official content 🤔

Hi anon!

Oddly, I’m not sure in which tone to read your ask. I’m gonna treat it as sincere, but I have to say I strongly dislike the narrative that leans to Tae not being close to BTS members.. let’s call it my trigger.

I think this ask needs to be balanced out a bit, because it’s not as if Tae hasn’t had any subunits.. he obviously has. He hasn’t had one with Jk and yes that is odd to me.. because fandom has been screaming for it. Their voices work together, it will be a huge success.. so yeah.. I blame the lack of it sofar on the Taekook of it all. I am hopeful that we’ll be getting one in the future though.. I think after enlistment perhaps more things will be possible.

As for fun content with Tae.. I mean.. there has been?! Tae went to Inkigayo with Jk which was in official content. Jm went with him at his fanmeet and Jm came to visit him during his performance. He went to visit Hobi at an mv shoot earlier on. Him and Jk were obviously going to Yoongi’s show together which was in the official content. Aside from that, it is clear that he meets the others outside of official content.. so I absolutely have no doubt that he’s a full, close, equal member of their group. We should never ignore that it’s very possible that members themselves choose what to do as well. Tae not having a collab with a member in his album imo is very much because he wanted to do his songs by himself. Some members might choose to work with a bandmember, but others might enjoy the chance to do something different for a change.

You can’t expect every member to have the same kind of content. Tae’s show with Wooga was perfect for him, but no other member would have been able to do it. I think Jin would also have been great at Jinny’s Kitchen, but it was also perfect for Tae. Tae chose to incorporate army in his promo.. which is also something I loved from him.. but which other members didn’t do. They can only do so much, especially last year.. with members being on a tight timetable.

Also.. I’m still holding out hope for a Tae appearance in the travel show!

I agree that Tkk content has been slim.. obviously.. and for me the reason is that Tae and Jk are likely in a relationship and have therefore not been allowed to do much together. I don’t think the company didn’t allow him to do stuff with other members and I don’t think Tae isn’t as close with the other members as well.

[dwaekkistar]

Chapter III

       I woke up to the feeling of someone softly running their finger through my hair. I groggily lifted my head to see Hyunjin quietly admiring me as he played with my hair. He gently smiled when he realized I was awake.

       "You're so adorable when you sleep," he said softly, not wanting to irritate me with the volume of his voice as I just woke up. He then carefully caressed my cheeks, softly pecking my lips.    

        "How'd you sleep ?" he said gently, still softly caressing my face. It was honestly fascinating to see this side of Hyunjin, considering that before my addition to their group, he was the very goofy jokester type.

        " I slept well," I replied carefully stretching in bed, " what time is it?"

        " I figured you'd ask that sooner or later." he said with a soft chuckle, " it's 1 pm."

Upon hearing his response I instantly shot up, sitting up in the bed, upset that I stayed asleep for so long on my day off. I enjoyed being with Hyunjin, but I wanted to be a little more productive today since I had the time.

         "Hyunjin, why didn't you wake me sooner!?" I said pouting at him.

         "You looked so adorable sleeping," he said, grabbing my hands, "How could I do such a thing? It's not like you had anything to do."

         "You don't know that.." I softly whined. "Maybe I did have something to do!?"

         "Like what Jade?" he said raising an eyebrow. He seemed genuinely confused by my current behavior.

         " I don't know," I playfully replied, " maybe I wanted to read a book, go for a walk, practice my dance skills, or something?"

         " I mean I have some books in my room if you'd like to read them," he said enthusiastically when he finally started to catch on to what I meant. I was going to take the offer but before I could respond, Leeknow busted into my room opening the door a bit too swiftly and smoothly.

          "Jinnie stop arguing with Jade before I pinch you." Leeknow playfully threatened the younger, just wanting to idly tease him because he could.

          "STOP DON'T PINCH ME!" he yelled at the other in terror, " I wasn't even arguing with her!"

        But it was too late as Leeknow began to pinch Hyunjin, evoking loud yells and laughter from the latter as he tried to squirm away from the older grip. All I could I was giggle in response not wanting Hyunjin to snap at me for leeknow snipping at his dignity.

           "STOP!" Hyunjin screamed as he ran out of my room from leeknow laughing. The latter ran after him, hoping to tease him some more. I took that as a chance to finally shower and change out of my pajamas, as I had been wearing mine for too long. It didn't help that I had Hyunjin's natural body scent all over them.          As I searched for clothes, I concluded that I would wear my hair straight just for today, keeping a mental note to take out my flat iron. After searching, I made my up on a brown crop tank, pink cargo pants, crystal bracelets, and a black choker with a pendant. I then went into my closet and pulled out my flat iron, not turning it on but setting it on my bed as I didn't have a desk. I would probably have to ask Chan how I would go about buying stuff for the room. I picked up my phone and Bluetooth speaker along with the clothes I picked out and a pair of pink undies to match my pants.            I made my way to the bathroom, happy to see that it was unoccupied. I quickly went in, locking the door behind me before setting my phone and speaker in a shower nook where it wouldn't get wet. I set my clothing on the sink counter and turned the shower on so I could let it warm up to my desired temperature while I undressed.           As I began to slip out of my pajamas I could hear the rest of Stray Kids out in the hallway, laughing and playing around as they teased each other, one of them even accidentally bumping into the bathroom door. I laughed to myself about it, 'The way they were playing they would one day break that door' I thought to myself. Finally ridding my body of any clothing item, I stepped into the warm shower, my body completely relaxing in response as I quietly turned on some music. I grabbed my washcloth and body wash and began to lather the substance all over my body, making sure to get into every nook and crevice. I even washed my hair, and upon getting out quickly dried it to the roots. I slipped into my outfit and put my dirty laundry in the basket dedicated to our clothing. I put everything back where it was initially before heading back off to my room to straighten my hair.           It wasn't until I finally got to my room and plugged the flat iron in after putting away my speaker that I saw a notification on my phone. It was a group chat with the rest of the members.

StRaY kIdS

gnabnahc: What was that noise in the hallway?

i.2.n.8: Hyunjin hyung was running away from Minho, and pushed me into the bathroom door.

Crystal.jade: Oh, so that's what that was while I was in the bathroom? I thought you guys were going to break the door down honestly.

Jisungamericano: YOU SHOWERED WITHOUT ME????

gnabnahc:YAHWHAT IS WITH YOU AND HYUNJIN! STOP BEING PERVERTS.

hynjinnnn: This is coming from the guy who slept with her last night.

gnabnahc: So did you Hyunjin—

yong.Lixx: And nobody thought to invite me— YOU GUYS KNOW HOW MUCH I LIKE CUDDLES.

jutdwae: 👀

Youknowiknowleeknow: Jade look at the hellfire you've caused-

Crystal.jade: All I did was exist—

miniverse.__: well damn, maybe don't exist then? ...OH FUCK I JUST REALIZED HOW BAD THAT SOUNDS. NOONA DONT KILL ME!

i.2.n.8: HYUNG LANGUAGE!

gnabnahc: I genuinely shouldn't have said anything I think.

Youknowiknowleeknow: You think hyung?

Crystal.jade: Mingo, why tf is your user so long?

Youknowiknowleeknow: Mingo? Tf is that?

Crystal.jade: Minho, you know what I meant- I give up I'm going to flat iron my hair.

gnabnahc: COMING JADE <3

jutdwae: hyung she didn't even call you tho? seen by everyone @ 2:02 p.m

Without fail, as I began to apply the flat iron to the first section of my hair, Chan came through the door, eagerly sitting right next to me. I curiously looked over at him wondering why he decided to come into my room.

"Let me help you with that," he said gently, extending his arm out to me, waiting for me to place the flat iron in his hand. I hesitated a bit at first but then handed it to him, sitting still enough for him to straighten my hair. He became super focused on my hair for the next 30 minutes, ensuring every last Strand of curls was straightened before setting the flat iron down. He then picked up something he had on the bed, a mirror, before placing it in front of me to show the results. I was honestly quite surprised by how good my hair looked as I didn't know that Chan had the skills to do such things. I usually just figured that it was the stylist's doing.

     "Do you like it?" he said softly as he leaned over my shoulder. I couldn't help but smile at his action. He looked so cute at the moment that I could almost kiss him, but after the events way earlier this morning I figured doing so would be overkill.

      " Yes I do," I said smiling even more, I'm pretty sure I was cheering super hard at this point. I got up off the floor, carefully stretching my legs while Chan got up and sat up on my bed, seemingly watching me. His gaze then fell on my lower body, presumably at my ass and legs as I continued to stretch until I felt a small crack.

     "Chan, my eyes are up here," I said jokingly, wanting to tease the latter. Upon hearing my words he was snapped out of whatever thoughts occupied his brain and blushed a deep red, as he didn't think he would be caught red-handed.

     "Shit. Sorry about that. I'm gonna go now." he said quietly while quickly shuffling out of my room, the shade of red never leaving his face. 'What was that about ?' I silently thought to myself as I walked over to my flat iron plugged it out and put it back up. At that same moment, my stomach softly growled so I decided to go to the kitchen and get something light to eat. I walked over to the kitchen, only to see that Jisung, Felix, and Seungmin were in there. As I got closer to the kitchen island I could smell the strong aroma of chocolate as if someone was baking brownies.

      "Are those brownies I smell?" I said gently furrowing my eyebrows waiting for confirmation. I was hoping there was still a lot more as the kitchen smelt good and it was making me want brownies more than ever.

   In an instant Felix shot his head up from the oven, shock plastered all over his face. "That's the first time a member has been able to sense I was baking brownies before," he said holding his hands on his chest, almost as if he thought the hand would hide his shock.

      "Really?!" I said as it was now my turn to be just as shocked as he was. "Do the others just not know what brownies smell like?"

      "No, I think they do, they just don't frequently eat it enough to recognize the smell off the bat," he said as he leaned over the island to converse with me as he set a timer up.

       " Interesting," I said as I placed my arm on the counter resting my head on my hands, "Are there still more brownies?"

      "I just started making them There should be enough for everyone," he said softly chuckling before he finally looked up at me from his phone. He briefly paused for a bit before tilting his head taking in my appearance. " Did you do... something? You look different and I can't place it."

      "Felix, I straightened my hair!" I said moving my head in a way that emphasized my hair texture.

      "OH! THAT'S WHAT IT WAS!" he said as his eyes widened with the sudden realization. "I'm so stupid."

      "No you're not Felix, don't say that about yourself." I sternly replied.

       "Okay, I suppose you're right," he said with a soft smile,  "You know you don't always have to call us by our name right? It feels wayyy too formal, to be frank."

        "Okay I'll keep that in mind, Felix," I said teasingly, which earned a chuckle and eye roll from the lavender-haired boy.

        "Are you guys done speaking English noona?" Seungmin softly interjected, pouting, "You guys speak like we're not even here." The pout from the younger softly pulled at my heartstrings, It was odd as I realized that I probably couldn't bear to see any of the members sad and mentally made a promise that I would do whatever to make them happy.

        "Aww, I'm sorry Seungie," I replied softly, earning a small grin from the younger before he walked around the island giving me a soft hug. Seemed like he just wanted me to acknowledge him more than anything. "What about you Ji?" I said carefully turning to Jisung as Seungmin continued to hug me. He was eating a bowl of what looked like tteokbokki and seemed to be surprised that someone even acknowledged his presence as he turned towards me with his mouth full and eyes wider than ever. I couldn't help but giggle a bit as he resembled a squirrel. He then quickly swallowed what he had in his mouth before pointing at himself.

       "Has anyone ever told you that you resemble a squirrel in that state," I said softly still giggling.

       "Not you toooo noona," he whined hiding his face in his hands. " When are you guys gonna quit with the squirrel joke?"

      "But you're my squirrel," I said still teasing him a bit. "AND SINCE WHEN COULD YOU SPEAK ENGLISH!.

       "YOU MEAN THAT!?" he said surprised knocking over his bowl of cereal as he hopped out of his chair, which in turn made everyone scream and flinch to try and catch the bowl. But it was too late as cereal and milk were everywhere, including my hair, which I just straightened. 

        "Sorrry noona," he said with a nervous laugh, not sure how to fix the situation.

      Since the commotion traveled quickly around the small apartment that housed all of us, the rest of the members came rushing to the kitchen just to be met with me covered in milk, my hair and top completely drenched.

         "What the hell happened here?!" Chan said pretty angry, which made me slightly flinch. I don't know why but hearing Chan genuinely mad... scared me. I began to fiddle with my fingers as my anxiety started to kick in. 'Were things this chaotic before I joined ?' I thought to myself. I just couldn't help but feel like becoming part of the group was bringing unnecessary issues for the others.

       "I accidentally knocked over my bowl of cereal," Jisung scoffed, I guess to deflect Chan's anger, "There's no need to be angry."

       "NO NEED !?" Chan yelled angrily in confusion as I continued to stare at the ground, "JADE IS COVERED IN MILK!" All the members quietly watched in shock not sure what to do as jisung and Chan kept going back and forth between each other.

       "Chan I know you're worried but you should probably calm down.." Changbin said calmly, wrapping an arm around the elder, "I think you're scaring Jade."

          In response Chan switched his gaze from jisung to me, meeting my eyes that had genuine fear in them. All the anger in his face immediately softened upon seeing the state it had me in. He tried to walk closer to me, but I only flinched, recoiling away from him. His face then held sadness and it felt like my entire being was breaking. The promise I just made had already been broken as I seemed to be making everyone sad instead of happy. Maybe all those fans were right, maybe I didn't belong... not when I was such a crybaby.  Not being able to handle the emotions of everyone and needing to shower but more so just not being able to handle anything,  I ran to my room closing the door behind me. I rested my body against the door softly sliding down it as tears began to fall on my face. I spent the next thirty minutes crying like that when I heard a soft knock on my door.

        "Go away," I said softly, my voice slightly cracking at the end.

        "Darling c'mon don't be like that," I could hear the familiar deep voice say from the other side of the door, "I just want to help, I have a bath running and brownies waiting for you."

         I silently hesitated a bit, unsure if I wanted to even face Felix or any of the members at all. I decided I would just get over my little situation and open the door. I swiftly open the door, only for Felix to softly grab my hand without saying a word and lead me to the bathroom. Once we reached the bathroom he gently ushered me in and stood by the doorway.

       "I don't want to invade your privacy," he said softly, "But I need our cutie to take a bath as you are still covered in milk." he gently patted my head unsure if the milk dried by now.

        "Okay...," I said with a soft faint smile, "but only because I feel gross and you asked." Upon my response, Felix let out a soft chuckle and smile.

        "Alrighty then, I'll go get you some cozy clothes to change into and then you can enjoy brownies when you come out." And with that Felix left to go to room. I then carefully closed the door, removed all of my clothes, and put it into the basket. I slipped into the bath that he created for me, relaxing into it as it was perfectly warm. I decided to also pull out my shampoo and conditioner and do a quick wash. So much for straightening my hair. It probably only lasted for half an hour. I quickly rinsed out my hair and began to wash my body when Felix showed back up walking through the bathroom door to drop off my change of clothes. He shot me a quick smile and wink before heading back out, probably to the kitchen to keep an eye on the brownies. I quickly finished up and changed into the clothes, it was another one of my black crop tops and a pair of black sweats. He also brought a navy pair of panties, which instinctually made me blush deeply knowing he went through that drawer.

          After finishing up in the bathroom and letting the tub drain, I headed to the living room quietly. I was still afraid to see everyone, especially after what happened an hour ago, but my stomach was grumbling and I was really in the mood for brownies. Upon reaching the living room there was an empty spot on one of the couches between Minho and Felix. Felix turned around hearing my footsteps and softly patted the spot ushering me to hurry up and sit next to him. Still looking down I made my way over to the spot and dropped into it. In response, Minho slightly flinched not expecting such a sudden and powerful action, while Felix just softly chuckled to himself as he rested his head on my shoulder. I still didn't dare to look up at everyone, anxiously fidgeting with my hands as the others seemed to interact with each other.

       "Jade," someone near me, said their voice dripping with concern, "are you okay ?"

       I softly nodded, nervously looking up to see that it was Hyunjin speaking to me. He smiled softly once he met my eyes as if trying to comfort me somehow. I then took this as a chance to look around the room. Changbin and Jisung were carefully looking at a laptop together, I.N. and Seungmin were watching something on their phone, Minho watching the TV, Hyunjin staring at me intently to make sure I was okay, Felix getting ready to pull out a brownie from the container he was using to keep it warm, while Chan just quietly watched me with the most blank expression. I don't know why but something about the way he looked at me made me slightly shiver. Felix finally pulled out the brownie, opting to feed it to me himself. I carefully opened my mouth not wanting to disappoint him as he gently pressed the brownie against my lip, as if cueing me to bite into it. I carefully bit into the brownie and smiled, the taste immediately changing my mood, but I could see Chan's lips slowly lifting into a smile from my peripheral view as he continued to quietly watch me.

       "Why are you two watching me like a hawk?" I said anxiously, not sure how to take the attention I was getting from the other two besides Felix. My words instantly made Chan's small smile falter and Hyunjin furrowed his eyebrows in sadness, making me immediately regret speaking. "Sorry... I'm just not used to having so much attention on me, I didn't talk to a lot of people."

        "I call a bluff," Chan spat out quickly, "There's no way someone as pretty as you spent all those years lonely."

       "Well, it's possible when you're half black Chan," I replied just as quickly. "You can make a lot of friends and have a lot of guys crushing on you when you look like a native South Korean, which I don't. I'm more tan than most and I have hair more curlier than yours."

        "Wait, people didn't want to be friends with you because you're half black?" Seungmin said finally taking his attention off his phone as he rested it down at his side.

        "People didn't want to be friends with me because..." I said trailing off a bit annoyed with myself and my memories. "Everything about me goes against the Korean beauty standard. I'm surprised I even got accepted into Jyp with these looks in the first place." I then quietly looked down at my hand, a little embarrassed that this conversation was getting to me.

        "But you're so pretty and talented," Jeongin interjected, "Why wouldn't you have gotten accepted?" he sounded so confused and unsure.

         "I mean, South Korean beauty standards don't like someone tan," I began stating, "We all remember what happened to Taehyung Sunbae-nim when he got too tan and they made him apologize." The boys all agreed in unison. "They don't celebrate women who are as short as me... Schools force me to straighten my hair or tame my curls assuming it's perm when it isn't. There's a decent amount of racist Koreans who think I'm below them or don't belong here because I look too 'ethnic' for the beauty standards." at this point, I couldn't stop the tears from beginning to fall as I thought about all the crappy things I experienced at the hands of racism and xenophobia.

         And that's when Chan took that as a chance to walk across the room pick me up and hug me. He gently wrapped his arm around me placing his right hand on my back and his left arm just a little lower as he used the right hand to softly Pat it.

       "Well then we'll try to stop that from happening from now on," he said softly before pulling away from the hug and softly cupping my face as he wiped my tears away. " I promise. Nobody disrespects our Jade and gets away with it."

        Within seconds the entire group was now wrapping me into a group hug, covering me in compliments. They eventually all pulled away sitting back down, before Minho turned to me wrapping an arm around my shoulders. "What would you like to watch? I'm Kinda getting bored of what's currently on."

        "Why don't we just play a game then?" I said with a smile. "Wouldn't that way better than just idly sitting here waiting for something interesting to happen?"

          "Oooh, why don't we play just dance." Felix busted out in excitement. "I'll go get it." he busted out of the chair and went to His room I'm assuming to get the game itself. At the same time, he did that we all took this as w chance to get more brownies. Me being happy I could feed myself this time. We left back at least 2 brownies for Felix just in case because we didn't want to hear his wrath. Chan made sure to stand next to me as we waited, and Hyunjin inched closer to me and Minho as the three began to talk to each other while I zoned into another world. I finally snapped back to reality when Felix wrapped back around the couch with the game in hand, only to realize all the boys had shuffled around changing spots in the living room. Jisung was now next to Minho, Hyunjin between Chan and me, the maknaes next to Changbin, and Felix taking his original spot between me and minho once he popped the game into the console and placed all the controllers except one on the coffee table in front of us. He then started the game and started shuffling through the songs.

       "Which songs do you guys want to do?" he said raising an eyebrow in concentration. Everyone then started calling out the songs they wanted, some saying the same song. Felix then chose the most requested song and nudged me with a smile to pick up my controller. I carefully picked up the controller and sat waiting for Felix to do the next step. He then clicked start on the song and the screen instructed everyone to choose a dancer. Everyone quickly chose their dancer before the game switched screens to start the song. Chan moved the coffee table out of the way and everyone pushed me up forward, wanting the sensors to be able to pick me up. Some of the shorter members also moved up front with me when the song began to play, most of us instantly taking the initiative to start following the choreography. We then got to a part of the dance where it was a bit more on the sensual and sexual side, everyone laughing and giggling as we got super into the dance. I danced successfully but failed to realize that all the boys' eyes were focused on me as I did that part of the choreography. We did a few more songs energetically hanging with each other. We finished the choreography waiting for the game to add up our score on the final song, when Jeongin quietly walked up behind me gently placing his hands on my shoulder.

        "Maybe it was a good thing Chan hyung chose you to be added to our group?" he said with a wide smile. Some of the boys stared at me, some smiling to themselves others with blank expressions, while the maknaes excitedly cheered having seen that they had top scores just right under me. I softly yawned, having exhausted myself from the game. I glanced over at Changbin who carefully pulled his phone out, checking the time.

         "It's getting quite late, it's already 8:30 pm," he said his voice dripping with concern as he looked over to Chan. "We should probably start our night routine seeing as we have a video shoot tomorrow right?"

       "Yeah that would be a good idea," Chan replied gently rubbing at the name of his neck as he seemed to be thinking about something, "Let's go guys. Those who haven't showered yet should probably do so soon. We wanna get to the shoot location early or on time at least." and everyone seemed to follow his words. I walked back to my bedroom quietly stopping in front of my door. I don't know why but I was kinda curious about which room belonged to who.           As I quietly watched I noticed it seemed that Han and Jeongin walked into one room to the right of the bathroom, closer to my bedroom, and Felix Chan and Changbin bunked one to the left of the bathroom. In contrast, Minho Hyunjin and Seungmin bunked in the room at the opposite end of the hallway. It made me realize that I was truly the only member who had a room to myself seeing as I was the only girl. It made me softly smile and blush knowing they wanted me to have the privacy they felt I needed I also couldn't stop thinking about how they seemed to be paired based on how similar their personalities seemed to be. I quickly slid into my room to change into my pajamas for the night. Pulling out a cropped cami with a green dragon embroidered on the front, a black pair of shorts with green dragons printed all over it, and some white ankle socks. I took off my pendant choker and opted to leave my bracelets on, slipping my black slippers back on as I wanted to get a drink of water before heading to bed.

          I quickly headed to the kitchen, letting out a breath I didn't know I was holding in when I realized it was empty before opening a cabinet. I pulled out a glass cup quickly getting myself a cup of water and chugging it down. I then hurriedly walked back to my room hoping I wouldn't get caught but I was too late, as Felix saw me as he was exiting the bathroom. He was wearing a pair of loose grey sweatpants and a baggy white tee his hair slightly disheveled as he probably just finished showering. He softly ruffled his hair taking a quick look at what I was wearing before speaking.

          "Jeez Jade, you seem to always wear the sexiest pajama sets," he said in a low almost lusty tone, his deep voice sending shivers down my body as he walked closer to me. His hands faintly fidgeted at his side as he continued to gaze at me with half-lidded eyes, causing me to deeply blush as I coward against my bedroom door. "Do you mind if we cuddle before bed?"

       I nodded frantically while furrowing my eyebrows in confusion. The words coming out of his mouth somewhat shocked me as it was a complete 180 of the physical vibe he was giving off and I'm not even sure why I said yes. He continued to walk towards me until he finally stopped, his hand resting on my door as he opened it with a soft smirk. He tilted his head a bit gesturing for me to head in my room while he opened the door more for me to get in. I slid into my bedroom, almost running and landing in the bed as I hid under my blanket. Felix quietly followed me in locking the door before hopping next to me on the bed.

        "Jade I hope I didn't creep you out," he said softly as he placed his hand on my back and gently rubbed it, "I saw the look on your face and I didn't want you thinking I had those types of intentions." His words brought me a bit more comfort as my body softened up. I quietly inched out of the covers before sitting next to him.

         "Do you want to watch something," I said sheepishly waiting for a response.

         "Ah, no I'm much too tired to watch anything," he said with a low yawn as his voice became deeper than before, "I just really want to cuddle. Be a big spoon for once as I don't get the opportunity much with Changbin or Chan. "

         "Oh well...okay then," I said looking down as I tried to hide the soft blush on my face. I then looked over at my clock, seeing that it was at least 9:20 a little over half an hour passing by. I carefully pulled my blanket up and covered both of us with it, seeing as he didn't bring his own and I didn't want to be rude and let him get cold as he was already starting to drift to sleep. I carefully got comfortable in bed but wasn't able to fall asleep so I just laid there in the bed zoning off into my thoughts. Felix softly grunted as he moved closer and wrapped his arms around my waist. He kept moving a bit, most likely trying to get comfy so my body instinctively moved to face away from him so he could be a proper big spoon. It seemed like that was the answer to his movement as he stopped and let out a low groan as he rested his head near the crook of my neck while gently holding me drifting off to sleep. I quietly listened to breathing, as I thought to myself wondering if this was how my friendship with the boys was going to be, but was quickly snapped out of my thoughts when Felix moved even closer, resting his leg on top of mine, letting out one more low grunt. I mentally laughed to myself, thinking I would have to ask Chan and Changbin if Felix was this close and affectionate in his sleep. At some point during my thinking, I slowly drifted off to sleep without realizing it.

Time skip to the middle of the night

     Jade had woken up panting and breathing hard from a nightmare, something she experienced frequently from all the bullying she experienced during her time in school. All the insults, violation of her body, and physical assaults played over and over in her subconscious every time she fell asleep. The memories of her peers kicking into her stomach and pulling her hair and hitting her as they told her she would never be pretty enough to be an idol, that she would never debut because she didn't fit the beauty standards. She softly sniffled, tears rolling down her face as she felt so helpless, but she didn't want to make too much noise as she remembered that Felix was sound asleep next to her. It seemed like he was able to detect that something wasn't quite right as he gently woke, caressing her side as he tried to bring comfort to her.

        "Are you okay darling?" He said in his sleepy voice, his voice much deeper in the current state he was in.

         Jade turned to him, her eyes slightly puffy and face red as she tried to stop herself from crying to answer the latter. He sighed softly, as it hurt him to see Jade like this for the second time since meeting her and he was worried it was his and the boys' fault.

         "I had a nightmare," she said feebly almost too low for him to hear, " Everyone just kept telling me I wasn't going to be a successful idol. That I wasn't pretty or talented enough and would be better off working some low-end job. They just kept beating me up..."

        "Aw Jade," he said carefully wiping my tears away, "I'm here don't you worry nobody will hurt you I promise." He then softly kissed her on her forehead while pulling her close. "Nobody will hurt you, I'll make sure of it. I promise we will prove all those people wrong."

       She hugged Felix closer as she listened, her crying and sniffling dying down. " Thanks, Felix, that makes me feel a little better." She eventually ended her crying as she quickly dried her tear-stained face. 

       "Let's get you back to sleep, " Felix said softly as he gently rubbed her back and hummed. Jade then quietly and swiftly drifted to sleep as they both proceeded to cuddle back to sleep.

[nora-and-sebastian]

Writeblr Introduction

They told me I had to do Social Media but I said no, no, no Until I checked out Tumblr and realized I could like it here. I could just noodle around and be myself.

About me:

Hello, my name is Megan and I am writing under the pen name of Megan Penney

Ancient & New - Especially new here on tumblr so if you tag me for a game I might have to ask you to explain the rules to me

Recently moved back to the mainland after living on the Big Island of Hawaii for 5 years. (I had to move back because we could no longer afford to live there but I look forward to moving back some day.)

Writing: Supernatural Urban Fantasy, Fantasy Adventure, Southern Gothic Ghost Story

Mostly read Fantasy, especially Fantasy Adventure & Non-fiction

Currently reading The Golem and the Jinni by Helene Wecker

WIPs:

Whispers and Shadows - The first book in a supernatural urban fantasy book series. Nora is an obscure Seattle novelist, and Sebastian is her snarky sentient crow BFF. They discover a shadow man occupying an abandoned speakeasy in the basement of an old mansion.  Currently working on final revisions and hope to self-publish soon.

The Stones of Kiriath-Kitron - A Fantasy Adventure about a recluse with a traumatic past who is forced against her will by a geas to accompany a man on a doomed quest. I’m about ⅓ of the way through with this one.

Dancing With The Dark - A Southern Gothic Ghost Story about a malignant narcissistic woman who is in love with her own mental illness. The protagonist is her twelve year old daughter. Only a couple chapters into this one.

Untitled - Just for fun, I’ve started a litRPG adventure written in second person (you/your) present tense. The protagonist’s has awakened from a coma and his best friend is telling him (and readers) the protagonist’s story.

Poetry:

Poetry is my first love to the point that I have often said that Poetry is my Religion. It is, what I call, Intimacy at a distance. Here is one of my poems:

Between Worlds

Except by this distance How can one know Those fragile spaces Closeness hides from view The nearness only felt Far-off between worlds A greatening abeyance Stirred in sleep Brushes warm and hush Against the skin A lost continent Outstretched In its lostness Become vast Enough to hold in thought All suggestion

[marcillfll]

Soooo~

Hello to you if you come to read, dear~

At first i want to warn, that all i write here is only my thoughts and i could be wrong, so feel free to suggest yours too, if you want~ One more warning: my native language isn't English, so i apologize for any mistakes, hope that won't be too bad 🥲

I will divide it to two parts, this is the first c:

Let's start with something simple. And i want to start with new trailer .D

At first i wanna talk about references in it. I think a lot of you have already seen that screenshots with the similar scenes in previous mvs... and of course there are a lot of frames that looks alike.

But i think each member represents not only one or even several mvs, but much more they represents their previous albums😬

So the first one we see is I.N 🍞

I saw an opinion, that this scene reminds Chill mv from Maxident. It is, bc it is also museum. But for me it more looks like museum from Back door. The colors, in my view, are more similar to that mv. In new trailer there are more white, but if we remember, in back door were a lot of people in white clothes (District 9 residents). And now, when skz are more popular and have more Stays, the white color has enlarged.

Here screenshots of Chill and Back door. You can see, that Chill is more blue, but Back door has more red and yellow colors~

And now i can assume that I.N represents album IN生 (In Life) 👨‍🍳

Second one is Changbin 🐷🐰

With his identity all is much simplier. Though there are some references to Maxident with this dance with umbrella, his character looks like he is from Noeasy era. Really, he has similar bat, and also about romantic bgm... (my dear you finally got it!!!!♡) Do you remember how he was outraged of Hyunjin's bgm in Noeasy trailer and also the same scene in Christmas EveL~~

Thats why i think that Changbin represents Noeasy ⚡️

Third one is Hyunjin 🦦

Here almost all agree that this scene is looks similar to Maxident's Give me yor TMI. And i think so too. There are much more to say about this numbers 644 and the jacket. But we will speak about it next time~

So here one mo reference to Maxident is his brushstroke. He did the same back then (you don't even imagine how hard I've tried to make this only screenshot 😆)

Now let's assume Jinnie stands for Maxident 💌

Fourth one is Han 🐿

I wanna scream, why all that I see about his scene is remotely dissimilar scene from B Me, where guys have been watching the movie about themselves. Really, it was a big screen, but here is just a stand. My first thoughts were about All In and after some consideration i still think so. Also it's important, that this was Japanese album (i will tell about it also the next time).

Whats more about precisely All In. For me Han is a center of this mv. He opens and closes this video. He's a center at the beginning and also center in last dance break.

Thats the reasons why I think Han represents All In 💰

Second part

[purpleyoonn]

Hi ! I'm a new anon who find the courage to send you a (pretty long maybe ?) message..... idk why I'm so talkative when irl I'm a quiet person LMAO.

First, I hope you're doing fine and your day went well !

Second, just wanted to say that I'm in love with your writings ! You're one of my favorite writer on Tumblr and AO3 !! I'm totally addicted to soulmates + poly!bangtan x reader more than I was before thanks to you  😭 /pos

My favs ones are The Line between Love and War, Dance of Time, Baby you complete us, Doughnuts and Shell Casings and of course the My universe One shots (Yoonie as a dragon... so soft omg he has all my heart and soul omg I'm OBSESSED... Jinnie as a vampire ? YES PLEASE. And Joonie as Hades ? On my knees. )

I don't finish reading all of your stories tbh, but it's in my plans, hehe. I started Ethereal today ! I already love it, I can't wait to binge read it !!

AND if I send you this, it's because I have some questions... because I'm a writer too, and I want to try and write a poly bangtan x reader soulmate AU too 🥺 

Do you plan your writings ? Like taking notes in a notebook about your ideas, characters, story, any world building when you write something fantastic ? Do you plan your chapters and everything in advance, or do you just write what pass in your pretty head ? Do you have any tips for a baby writer like me ?  🥺 

Again thank you so much for sharing with us all these stories, really, I read your stories in the bus, at uni waiting for my classes or during my breaks because I don't have any friends, and I'm a very anxious person who suffer from adhd and bpd, plus I'm autistic so reading your writings helped me to cut myself to the noisy world a little, and it helps me so much so thank you...! (you'll probably find all of this weird, I'm sorry  😖)

Ah! Sorry I talk too much... it's always like that when it's about my specific interests like bangtan, writing, and fantasy world....

Also, sorry in advance for any grammar mistakes, English is not my first language (I'm Belgian, so I speak french hehe), I hope you'll understand what I'm saying   😣 

Have a nice day/afternoon/night, wish you all the good things in your life, you deserve it !! ♥ -  🐋 

omg hello new anony! Im gonna call you whalien❤️

My day has gone really well so far! My little sister had a field trip and used her spending/gift shop money to buy me an octopus plushie (she knows I love octopuses and that they are my favorite animal) so im super duper today!

thank you so much! im glad you love my works! (I have no clue what /pos means though)

omg so you favorite almost all of my works so far then! watch out for ethereal though, there is a loooott in there and pls pls take the warnings seriously for each chapter!

but yeah, I love dragon yoonie and pretty much any and all dragon bts aus. like there is something about possessive bangtan that treats mc like their greatest treasure!

So as for writing, I do actually plan everything in my notebook! I write out like hopes for the story as well as like, a summary and plot line weird box structure thingie. I also write out anything for my characters like backgrounds and likes/dislikes. I try to plan everything in advance but I don't plan the small details. I plan ahead for the big like, plot changing things but other than that, I write what comes to my head! Its fun when you don't necessarily know where things go but have an idea of the plot! as least to me😊

My biggest tip for any writers out there is actually pretty simple.

write.

like everything.

any little or big idea that comes to your head. write it down. you are never going to get any practice or improve your skills if you don't write. for me, the little fox was the first like actual fic ive ever written (besides a twilight fic on quotev that I will happily take to my grave) and I want to go back and rewrite it so bad but I won't because I like knowing how ive improved my writing over the years.

im the same way with fics ive falling in love with. ive like perfected my straight face in public, ive got the best poker face. ill even read directly in front of my grandpa and he'd never know I was reading the dirtiest smut ever. Im happy though that I can help you escape your world and all the noise for even the slightest second. as a fellow autistic individual, I know how overwhelming and overstimulating the world can be so im glad you can find comfort in my works!

Please never think that sharing your thoughts on something you love is weird or strange. I could go on for hours about the history of fan fiction or octopuses for hours. ask me about my favorite book and you might as well plop down on the couch with a nice pillow and a snack because we will be there for hours while I bring out my white board with theories and characters connections.

also pls don't ever worry about any English grammar/comprehension mistakes when talking to me! I am goof about asking questions and my comprehension levels are usually through the roof so pls don't ever worry! I wish I could speak French! I only remember some words! my family is from one of the states that was a French colony so its pretty common to still hear some French being spoken. but unfortunately my family didn't like it, (mainly my grandma sooooo) .

I hope you have an amazing morning/day/night!!!!

[bangguks]

Choreographer Seokjin for @supertunajin 🐟💜 xoxo from your Snow Flower

[jinhyun]

—[6:19pm] art studio.

pairing: hwang hyunjin x reader

genre: pining, college au, dance major hyunjin, art major reader, a little bit of fluff i think?

word count: 1.7k

summary: hyunjin finds out you're stressing over a big deadline the next day and decides to do a small act of service for you, in hopes of getting to see you for a little bit.

a/n: so one (1) of you guys wanted to know how the whole "jinnie bringing y/n coffee and a bagel and seungmin snitching on them to cherry" incident had gone and that was all i needed to write a drabble apparently. this is mostly from hyunjin's pov, since we already saw how y/n felt about the whole thing. anywayyy, i hope you guys enjoy this little bonus part<3

Hyunjin didn't really think this through.

One moment he was overhearing Chaeryeong and Minho talk about how stressed out you had been over tomorrow's deadline for one of your many art pieces, and the next one he was entering the visual arts building holding a carton cup holder that helped him carry two iced coffees and a paper bag with your favourite bagel inside.

Just like that, he had now found himself trying his best to ignore the nosy looks he was getting from the art majors that walked past him as he looked for the studio you spent most of your time in. Some of them recognizing him and not really minding him being there, and some others perceiving him as some kind of intruder.

He couldn't help but feel a bit awkward, not to say out of place.

It was not like he had never served as a coffee delivery before. He had brought both you and Seungmin coffee to the studio many times — hence why some art majors had recognized him right off the bat, apart from his manifest popularity. But what made all those other times different from this one was that he had been asked to before, unlike now.

He knew he was welcome back then, but you weren't on the best of terms now, and therefore, he didn't know if you would accept his unannounced, small act of service this time around.

The closer he got to the studio, the more nervous he grew.

Until he was standing on the door, and caught a glimpse of you from afar. 

Regardless of feeling himself go out of breath every single time he was met with your newly dyed blonde hair, Hyunjin had yet to get used to it — even more now that he hardly ever got to see you.

Being so used to your previous hair colour, it would've taken him an extra couple of seconds to find you if it weren't for the fact that you were on the desk you had claimed as your designated workplace a while ago — the very same desk you had been working late on that one night when he first kissed you and everything changed between the two of you.

He wished things were still like that. He wished he could carelessly go over to you and kiss you hello. He wished he could kiss you goodbye once he left later on. God, he wished it was late at night again and it was just the two of you, so he could place you on top of your desk and kiss you until your lips were swollen and oxygen was no longer in your lungs.

Instead, all he could do was stand there and stare. Stare at the way yellow strands of hair fell over your face, almost hiding it away from him, as you remained ever so focused on the oil paints you were mixing. Stare at the way your eyebrows furrowed in concentration, struggling to get the colour you had in mind. And he could not help the smile that was already curving up the corners of his lips.

He only snapped out of it and realised he was blocking the way when one of your classmates asked him to move, so she could go in. That alone let him know he could no longer just stand there. So, taking a deep breath and then nervously biting his lip, he entered the studio and made his way over to you for once and for all.

You didn't seem to notice him in front of you for the first couple of seconds, too caught up looking for the right addition to the light shade of purple you had just gotten out of your mixture. At least that's what Hyunjin wanted to believe. Regardless of your situation, you wouldn't go to the extent of ignoring him when he was right in front of you, would you?

It took everything in him to speak up and catch your attention, wanting to hide the moment the ever so soft sound of his own voice reached his ears, "Hey…"

Although barely audible, it had been enough for you to hear. Head turning to him before you could process who his voice belonged to, you couldn't hide the surprise that had just reflected in your eyes.

"Hyunjin-ie…" you mumbled, stunned over his unexpected presence, and unconsciously fixing your hair by running your hand through it. "Hey".

He smiled, both at the sight of you up-close and at the fond way you had called him. 

Silently, your eyes scanned his face to later travel down to the coffees he was holding.

"Uh, Seungmin-ie's over there" you motioned behind you.

Only then his eyes moved somewhere else in the room, as they had remained stuck to you ever since he arrived. And he was met first thing with the disappointed but not surprised look his friend was already giving him — mixed with a bit of 'I will never let you live this down', of course.

"Oh, no" he corrected, placing the cup holder on your desk, careful enough not to disturb the placement of your art supplies. "These are for you".

Your eyes lit up, unknowingly to you and —very— comfortingly to him. "The two of them?"

He nodded, hearing an immediate scoff from two tables behind yours. 

"Fuck you, Hwang".

You couldn't hold your laugh, turning around to look at Seungmin while Hyunjin rolled his eyes. "You have a girlfriend to bring you coffee".

"Does that make you Y/N's girlfriend now?" Min taunted with a smirk.

You bit your bottom lip, looking down and turning back around with a small smile — missing the squint of eyes Hyunjin had just thrown his friend's way as he flipped him off.

To be honest, he didn't even know Seungmin would be there. Granted, he should've known, considering you and him were classmates and therefore shared pretty much the same schedule. But he had only thought about you. His mind had been clouded by you, as delusional as it sounded, and he could only think of bringing you something to get by the many hours of work he knew you had ahead.

And maybe he could've played it off and said one was for you and the other one was for Min-ie, but they were for you. He had brought your order. For you. And, for some reason, he would've rather go all the way back to the café to get Seungmin another coffee than to give him one of yours.

Min's smirk from his workplace let him know he understood, though. He would tell every single person he could —starting with his girlfriend, who would get a very detailed paragraph on their chat a couple of minutes later— and would bring it up for a solid week whenever Hyunjin breathed in his direction, but he understood.

"I also brought you a bagel," his eyes went back down to you, that singular sentence making you lock eyes with him. "In case you get too caught up in your work and forget to have dinner".

You pouted, cutely to him — not out of sadness, but out of fondness. 

If he could only lean down and kiss your pout away, like he would've done any other time.

"Thank you" you cooed, oblivious to the way his heart had sped up at the sight of you smiling at him.

That alone had made it all worth it.

"You sure you want me to have both coffees?" you wondered. "You can take one on your way back to your dorm".

Hyunjin shook his head no. "They're for you. I know you're probably staying here until late, so…"

"Yeah…" you softly agreed, looking at the unfinished painting on the canvas behind you. "I still have another good while here".

"Make sure not to stay here too late, though" his words sounded more like a plea. "At least not until you're the last one in the building, all alone…"

A breathy laugh escaped your mouth, well aware that he was referencing that one night he had come all the way here to walk you home at two in the morning.

He would offer to do it again, but he knew you wouldn't let him this time.

"I'll try to leave with someone else this time" you nodded.

"You'll try?" Hyunjin tilted his head. That was not enough.

You giggled, shaking your head in amusement at his stubborness. "Would it make you feel better if I texted you once I got home?"

"It would, actually" he confirmed.

"Okay then" you smiled.

He mirrored the way your lips had slightly curved up. "Okay…"

Holding your stare for a couple of seconds, as he did not find it in him to look away and apparently neither did you, Hyunjin took a step back. He knew he should leave now. As much as he didn't want to, he had already done what he had came here for. So, running a hand through his hair, he opened his mouth to say goodbye.

Or that was the idea, until his nervous eyes went to Seungmin —who had been way too immersed watching your interaction the whole time— a few meters behind you. One motion of his friend's head towards one of the empty seats next to your desk, along with the prominent frown on his face, was enough for him to get the encouragement he so badly needed.

"Um, Y/N?" he called your name ever so softly, already preparing himself for rejection. "You think I can keep you company for a while?"

You hesitated for a moment, not having expected him to want to stay any longer — not having expected for you to want him to stay with you for longer. In the end, however, your soft spot for him was the one to answer for you before you could even stop yourself. 

"Sure," you nodded, voice just as tender as his. "I need to keep working on this, though…"

"It's fine,"

It was more than fine. You letting him spend time with you —actual one-on-one time with you—, even if your eyes weren't always on him and your mind remained mostly focused on something else, was more than he could've asked for. It was perfect.

He wasted no time to grab the empty seat Seungmin had pointed to and make himself comfortable in front of you, failing ever so miserably to hide the smile that had been threatening to part his lips since the very second you agreed to let him stay.

"Just wanna be with you for a bit".

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