#i hope this clickbait title makes people do something idk

[pitxroxas]

Breaking News™️ stupid pink gay idol broke into my house and proposed to Mika Kagehira in front of me and he said “ngh” as a response, finalizing their marriage. In my own house.

[m1ckeyb3rry]

Finally back to my chronically online era for the time being hoping it stays that way for while LOL

LMAOOO nooo this unfortunately is the grind type of grass so not particularly enjoyable shskdhs and trust me no amount of good influence could make me stop being online HAHAHA also you’ve probably already noticed but idk why sometimes there’ll just be a random a at the top of my reply idk why maybe im accidentally hitting a key when I paste into the ask box but um yeah just ignore that LMAO

So true I rarely ever see people striking the sweet spot that balances the on field asshole off field sweetheart!! Atp everything in the miraverse will slowly become canon oaeu so true I love the chigiri and nagi bff dynamic even them first talking in the 4v4 dorm was so cute!!!

NO BECAUSE ME TOO??? Heavy on the otoya and also I see so many CLICKBAIT KARASU EDITS BUT ITS ACTUALLY RIN UGH like it’ll show karasus intro or him from the additional time and flip to Rin like no stay where you are and edit my man please…..wait if the Barou editors started editing Karasu….wait…..no because they’ve got TASTE the music choice is always on point they make him look so scrumptious

UAHAHSHDHS REAL if Mira goes down I do too I’m crying but yeah why did he kinda kinda good there…..the power of an edit….,

We’re fr just on the same page LMAOOA because same I thought he was just being goofy and saying something like his “bakyuun” (???) hearing it side by side with the air horn has me cackling

HAHAHAHA Aiku would SO make Niko do tiktok trends with him wait imagine he drags him along to do those stupid street interviews like either the ones asking about opinions or like the “call your bffs bf to see if he’s cheating” or the “I’ll buy you anything if you don’t speak”

Always serving and saving my fyp fr thank you for your service o7 idk why but my fyp fr never floods with bllk actually what’s funny is I actually get more haikyuu content than bllk but I don’t even interact with or watch haikyuu content so??? And FR T-10 hours until ep2 im so hyped especially because the ep title is “assassin and ninja” so we KNOW karasus gonna be all over the episode

LMAOOO perhaps the next few episodes will persuade you….perchance….im crying it’s like nagi and Karasu shared custody battle over your theme or something LOL

HAHAHSH classic Mira activities /j it’s ok extra time just means more time to marinate and cook!!! Very excited to read the final product though!!

- Karasu anon

AHAHA YAYY WELCOME BACK!! and yeah ikwym like sometimes the grind takes over and you have to just lock in for a bit but then once it’s over the feeling of being chronically online once more is so refreshing!! and dw hehe i usually mentally filter it out and figure it’s smth funky going on w tumblr like usual

LONG LIVE OAEU it’s basically canon to ME like everything in it actually happened…omg only tangentially related but i missed having you to make silly jokes with because i’ve been forced to post them raw to the world and some people take them WAY too seriously and start yapping about how i’m being dramatic or interpreting characters incorrectly or whatever 😭 like uhhhh well. yes i AM exaggerating that’s how jokes work obviously i don’t view the characters that way irl 😓 sometimes the analysis grind takes over and people forget that you can just be lighthearted and silly about characters sometimes too but anyways…very happy to have you back…

BRO OMG THERE’S SO MANY EDITS WHERE IT STARTS OFF W KARASU AND SWITCHES TO RIN UGH FLIP THE CAMERA BACK GIRL I WANT THE CROW BOY!!!! i feel like barou fans need to like karasu he’s basically barou but slightly skinnier and with shorter hair KSDJFHSLKD like come on guys he’s made for you all to like him…edit him…please edit him…i’m on my knees PLEASEEEE at least otoya is getting love though??? but i’m actually so shocked that otoya has more fans than karasu HELP

WE ARE INSEPARABLE if i ever convert i will literally bring you with me i can’t convert on my own…no because that edit lowkey did him too well i was like huh ig i see it now 😩 not enough to like actually change my opinions though because the itoshi bro fanbase is a little too annoying for my liking so i could never join willingly but i do see the vision yk

YES it’s like an established thing for him to just make random noises so i thought this was some weird ninja bs he was on but no he’s actually just chill like that ig 😭 ugh i need to work on pursuit more so i can finally write him and karasu in that verse they are truly my goats and pursuit otoya especially has exactly that kind of humor where he just references dumb stuff constantly LKSJDF

HELP OH MY GOD HE WOULD he makes niko film him stopping random girls on the street or like niko’s holding the camera and the ring light while aiku does his little thirst traps or smth…aikuniko duo forever famous i will always love them

wait that is weird that you don’t get as much bllk 🤨 i will do my best to provide and serve…anyways animation on this ep wasn’t STELLAR however karasu looked so good and his voiceeeee oh my god and that one scene of his hands LKSJDF I HOPE YOU KNOW THE ONE it literally redeemed everything for me idgaf that abt the animation or wtvr i’m just happy we got to seem him 😩 i think karasu does look more majestic in the manga art style (maybe because the smirk doesn’t translate quite as well to movement and talking??) but he still looked rlly good!! and that one scene of him in the bambi osaka kit hehehe he’s so muscular omg i was fr giggling and kicking my feet every time he came on the screen (also we got the iconic “he’s…a villain 😱” line i’m sorry that will never not crack me up)

PLSSS KARASU AND NAGI CUSTODY BATTLE i wish they had majestic panels together so i could do a joint nagi and karasu theme…they have a lot of silly ones from the shibuya chapters but idk if it’s theme worthy…lowkey what i could do is have my header be one of the silly panels and then do one nagi panel and one karasu panel in my theme so that it’s still both of them?? idk i’ll have to think on it

HELP DO YOU KNOW HOW LONG IT IS ATM??? 15K AND I’M NOT EVEN DONE i never want to hear someone saying i don’t write as much for my opps EVER again it literally just depends on the way the request is formatted SLKDJFD like as long as you give me something i can work with i WILL cook it’s literally just people giving me the most specific scenarios with little plot that gets me to write shorter…not that there’s anything wrong with that those are fun to!! but it’s proof that it’s not the character as much as it is the scenario which gets me to do more or less ☝🏻 but anyways i’m kind of in the final section of it so hopefully that means it’ll be out before i go to bed tonight

[annetteblog]

Intro & My take on KM

Hi!

I’m new around here so it’s supposed to be (not so short) introduction, since I don’t know how to start a blog heh. I hope to sprinkle my 0.5 cents into the KM conversation and maybe to bring a new perspective from someone, who is not a part of the typical English-speaking West.

Who /the hell/ Am I?  

(please, consider it to be said with NJ’s voice from Intro: Persona :D)

I was born in Siberia (it’s in the Asian part of Russia), currently live in the European part of the country while studying at a Uni (European in terms of geography, not in terms of everything else i’m definitely not shading rn lolllll). English is not my first language, I’ve just kind of learnt it to some extent. Due to this it takes me more time to write a post; and I may (and will) make some grammatical & other mistakes. Plus I’m lazy AND busy with Uni, so I won’t even promise to be consistent in posting smth lol. But I thought I need more practice in terms of writing in English, so here I am, actually scribbling something. This feels weird, because I’ve been around stan Tumblr since 2015, but never ever interacted, just read.

How I ended up around Jikook/Kookmin (and BTS) & My (long&messy) take on this matter

Although I had heard of BTS before, I became an Army only in October 2018. I had kinda avoided them, because you know... boybands.... sing songs about romantic love and how they love girls.......... (+I had been around Twitter when 1D been at their peak and I remember a quite toxic community of fans, whom always had scared me). Shortly, hello stereotypes. Obviously, after I got engaged I felt terribly sorry that I had been sleeping on them, but what is done cannot be undone. 

Someone I knew back then reposted one of their MVs and I, during my sad hours of procrastination, decided to watch it. Then I saw their live performance with the same song. And I thought “wow these guys can sing and dance and the music is kinda cool, i need to check this out maybe??” 

Then a funny thing happened. One of the next videos I watched (the same person had it added to their page) was a 2016 BangtanBomb where JM and JK practiced their Coming of Age dance. 

Do you know this moment with Gina from the 1st episode of Brooklyn 9-9:

Well, that was precisely me after I watched it. I don’t even know how to explain this, it was kind of a gut feeling? Whatever you call it, I started to get suspicious and couldn’t even explain to myself why. /actually now a do have questions to this vid and the main one - why does everyone cringe that much? if it’s a girly choreo than they had done some “girly” moves before. why is there such strong reaction??/

I started to get deeper and went to some ru-shipper communities. Shipping culture among Russian speaking fans is... well, weird to some extent, but I maybe address this topic some time later. You need to consider that (as far as you probably know) Russia is quite homophonic country and sadly is not the greatest place for LGBTQ+ community at the moment. The non-frienly influential attitudes hanging in the society + the general shippers’ weirdness = the result is not that nice honestly. 

I struggled for some time in order to find more mature people (not just in terms of age but in general sanity), failed, ended up with some EXTREMELY toxic ru-fans of TK, which was/is the most popular pairing here, spent among them like 15 minutes and ran away horrified. After that I didn’t even try to engage with shippers or believers or whatever of any pair and just decided to enjoy the music and the content (which is a great idea, highly recommend!)

After a couple of days I discovered that JK makes videos. I love video, films and visual art so I immediately found them on YT, saw the titles with names of different cities from all over the world and was like “Oh that must be so cool, he’s visited so many outstanding places I’ve never been to, so I really need to watch it! I shall enjoy some beautyyy”. Then I clicked on GCFt.

Well, what can I say. I did enjoy some beauty, but not the type I had initially anticipated. The biggest clickbait in my entire life. JK should be proud of himself.

                                       /as I said - the beauty/

I had already known Troy back then and I known the song’s lyrics so it would not be an underestimation to say - the video just blew my mind. I was like - hold on is this real? seriously?? no really really????? he manage to get away with something THAT obvious?????? dude how

As a person who edited videos AND is not a native English speaker, I don’t buy the explanation “oh he mustve didnt get the lyrics lmao”. You just don’t do that. You don’t. DON’T. You google and translate every shit you don’t understand, every word and idiom you’ve never encountered, because otherwise the possibility of an epic failure is very likely. You wouldn’t want to give your mum a video as a birthday present and then discover that you used a song with WAP-ish lyrics, right? (well maybe that would be okay in your family, I don’t judge, but that’s not the case for people I know). So don’t you dare to degrade JK’s intellectual capacities; such assumption is really offensive. He is a smart boii, he knows exactly what he’s doing in terms of his art.

So I was shocked, but decided to look for the context - maybe I missed some previous events regarding this Tokyo thing (another great idea - always check the context). Well, apparently I didn’t, because the whole narrative with the trip for two, lovely selfies etc. made my poor brain lowkey explode. (I still don’t buy the rings theory thing though)

But I didn’t give up lol! I’m a bit stubborn and it’s very hard to convince me in anything, so I decided to search for more context, more of their interactions, moreeee. Remember, the late October 2018, there were no swan lakes, RB, and even MMA18 hadn’t happened yet. 

This time I ended up watching content in more or less consistent way, and when I saw all of these scenes with affectionate JM and a cool badass i-don’t-care-about-anyone-i’m-a-manly-man-with-no-feelings-whatsoever JK, I just hysterically laughed. 

Homophobic Russia, remember? I recognized this. Growing up here being LGBT myself, taught me the same type behaviour during my high school days. When a girl I kinda liked but didn’t what to admit it to myself was nice to me or (oh god) flirted with me, I did something similar. It’s like a huge panic mode. Being an introvert doesn’t help either. The funniest thing is that you may not entirely realise what exactly is going on in terms of your own feelings, especially at that age (16-18ish). In my personal case, I thought I liked her but as a friend, only later to realise that well not as a friend oops :DDD The second thing (already not so funny) is that you actually consciously or unconsciously try to avoid the subject as much as possible, as long as possible and pretend that nothing is going on. We’re just bros. Stop doing this stupid gayish thing and don’t look at me like that, you’re annoying. If you ever do this again I (gently) kick you. I’m straighter than a straight line in my math textbook. IDK, but probably that’s your brain is somehow trying to protect you. Again, in my case&position I knew that the consequences for any non-straight person being outed would be bad (TW not to the point of being killed bad, but to the point of being excluded from a big part of society). So for me it was a mixture of the internalized homophobia + lack of self reflection + just being a bit emotionally slow + very! straight community around. Shit happens, I was a teenager and made my share of mistakes, but that experience helps me to recognize the same pattern of behaviour up to this day.   

So coming back to KM, because the post is already waaay too long and I just ramble. It’s been 2+ years for me being a part of this fandom, and what can I say... Things become more intense and eventful with every year passing by ;) Funny how I felt that vibe from the 2016 dance practice video. Seeing the Black Swan performance a week ago almost had me choked, no joking. They are amazing.

                                                    Pure Art

However, and I would like to emphasize that, I do not incline that KM are 100% romantically involved and/or gay or whatever. I tend to treat people with respect and not to make too much assumptions about their private life. That’s not my business. However, I’m also not a fan of heteronormativity, so I’m just sitting here and observe everything that’s going on putting some distance and not forgetting being generally polite and critical thinking. But if they are just straightest besties please give them an Oscar before Grammy

Anyways, I hope this blog won’t kick the bucket from the very start and I will post something every now and then. You can always ask me questions about some BTS/Jikook related stuff or something about Russia and a Russian view on mass culture topics, since I’m pretty sure some of you have very stereotypical view of what is going on here :) However, do note that I’ve never been to America or Europe, therefore I may not be aware of something verrrry obvious to you or just have a completely different experience. 

P.S.  And yeah, I’m used to say Jikook, since it’s the name which is used much more frequently in Russian.  i like it better and what will u do haha

[paranormalinstigator]

Hey I totally forgot but wasn’t Shane and Ryan making Watcher marking the end of Buzfeed Unsolved? I was really confused as to why they’re doing another season with Buzzfeed, and doubly confused when Buzzfeed used other workers to start putting random content on that channel

Also the artwork where one of them is caged is uh, well idk if it’s harmless artwork or something more sinister

Buzzfeed has a habit of making it where content creators cannot claim content/channels as theirs after they leave the ‘feed. So they’re pumping BUN full of clickbait and shorts and non-Ryan-and-Shane content so that Ryan and/or Shane can’t say, “Hey, we deserve royalties on this channel.” By filling it with random content, as you say, Buzzfeed now has the ability to say, “Well, your show was only a small part of this channel, actually.” Even  though BFU was and still is the most popular part of BUN, and for the most part BFU is Ryan’s baby more than it is Buzzfeed’s or anyone else’s because over the years he has put in way more work to keep the show alive than anyone else.

As for why they’re continuing to do the show with Buzzfeed...I think the initial plan was to do one more season of True Crime and one more season of Supernatural, but obviously with COVID that’s gotten a bit...messed up. I hope that they can do another season of Supernatural, because I think Supernatural is a much more fun series, or perhaps they’ll be able to do some kind of paranormal investigative series on Watcher eventually, after COVID is over. Regardless, they’re no longer employees of Buzzfeed. I think their title now is like freelancer? Or something? I forget the actual term they used. But they’re independent creators now who have signed on to produce content for Buzzfeed on a limited basis.

I didn’t notice a Watcher marking/symbol/anything like that at the end. I do know that they’ve been allowed to have youtube dot com slash watcher under their names and Twitter handles at the beginning of each episode. So like. They’re definitely not having to hide anything or sneak anything in to tell people to go look at their other channel lmao.

And I personally didn’t see anything sinister about the cover art. Usually it references or calls back to a case discussed in the current season, and in this instance, it looks as though it’s referencing Houdini. I didn’t see anything horrible about it, but that’s not to say I’m not missing something.

[purplesurveys]

1047

What’s the most historic thing that has happened in your lifetime? I can think of a few things. There’s 9/11 though I was barely conscious then, Osama Bin Laden’s death, the 2004 Indian Ocean tsunami, 2011 Japan earthquake, and the H1N1 and Covid pandemics. In my country, there were typhoons Ondoy and Yolanda, the Manila hostage crisis, and the Hello Garci election corruption scandal. Out of these, though, I’d say the heaviest ones to bear have been 9/11 and Covid.

What happens in your country regularly that people in most countries would find strange or bizarre?

We use a spoon and fork to eat and only really fancy shmancy restaurants give you a knife and a fork. Many eat with their hands as well, though this is way more common in provinces.

Everyone is late to everything and punctuality isn’t a thing, which is a big culture pet peeve of mine and I still like arriving early/on time anywhere.

This applies to Asia in general lmao, but shoes typically aren’t allowed or at least frowned upon if they go beyond the main entrance of houses.

We start Christmas as early as September, and we end it by the last week of January

When families get together, aunts/uncles will usually greet their nieces/nephews by asking if they already have a boy/girlfriend and/or telling them that they got fat. Horror relatives will greet you with both.

People generally like to keep to themselves, so striking a friendly conversation with strangers even if you have the pure, genuine intention to be simply friendly will just lead them to think you’re being a creep lol

What has been blown way out of proportion? The effects of video games and the question of it increasing violence among kids. Sure there’ve been gruesome accounts and no one’s invalidating those, but the overwhelmingly vast amount of people who play video games end up okay. I had so many killing binges on GTA but to this day I can’t even look at a real gun without shuddering, lol. When was a time you acted nonchalant but were going crazy inside? This is me every morning at work. 9 AM-11 AM is always the busiest period and it’s a lot of shit happening at the same time and a lot of morning deadlines to meet, but unlike college I can’t exactly call for a timeout whenever I want and have panic attacks anymore.

What’s about to get much better? I hope my fucking life is next in line. I’m tired of being tired of being tired.

What are some clever examples of misdirection you’ve seen? Probably all the times WWE would mislead viewers on a rumored return or debut of a big name by saying they’re in another city, implying that there’s no way they’d be appearing on a WWE show. This happened with Ronda Rousey and it was so fucking exciting when she finally showed up, haha.

What’s your funniest story involving a car? I don’t know, really...I don’t try to be funny when I’m on the wheel lol. Probably the time I let Angela use my car on campus, and when she needed to make a u-turn she ended up doing an awkward 90º turn and had an SUV nearly crash towards us. She had only driven a handful of times at that point so she was a little clumsy, but neither of us had any idea she’d fuck up a simple u-turn as badly as she ended up doing lmao.

What would be the click-bait titles of some popular movies? I can think of more clickbait posters than titles, but I can’t seem to remember what those films are called right now.

If you built a themed hotel, what would the theme be and what would the rooms look like? Themed hotels generally make me cringe. The most theme-y place we ever stayed at was the lodge in Sagada and it was really just more homey than anything. I’m not into themes when it comes to hotels as I find it a little cheap lol and I’ve always preferred a straightforward experience in the places I stay at for vacations.

What scientific discovery would change the course of humanity overnight if it was discovered? A way to live forever. < This is a good one. Also, maybe a huge asteroid or meteor bound to hit the planet that will make widespread extinction a certainty? I can’t even begin to imagine the panic that will rise from something like that.

Do you think that humans will ever be able to live together in harmony? I doubt it. It sounds difficult especially when you realize we’re 7 billion in total.

What would your perfect bar look like? As long as there aren’t any annoying younger college kids, who are almost always the loudest crowd and not in a good way, I’m okay with any kind of bar.

What’s the scariest non-horror movie? Some shots in 2001: A Space Odyssey are freaky as fuck. There were several scenes that included sudden HAL shots, and I did not enjoy those. How the fuck Kubrick managed to make a computer scary is beyond me. I’ve also always skipped the vortex scene with the creepy face shots after seeing it once.

What’s the most amazing true story you’ve heard? This is a really vague question... a few months ago I watched this video diary of parents who had a child born at like 25 weeks. Just way too early, basically. And they recorded the kid’s weekly progress, how she kept fighting, and her journey of being transported from one machine to another while she still needed them. It was beautiful to see her get bigger and plumper with each week that passed and it was just such a feel-good story to watch. I was so relieved when they showed footage of her as a normal, healthy toddler by the end of the clip.

What’s the grossest food that you just can’t get enough of? I know balut is pretty unpopular in the Western part of the world, but I’ll gladly eat a dozen of them in one sitting. In general Asian street food is usually considered gross - pig intestines, chicken intestines, chicken feet, pig ears, etc., but all are normal in the culture I was raised in.

What brand are you most loyal to? It’s annoying and I can’t help it, but Apple.

What’s the most awkward thing that happens to you on a regular basis? I try not to make it regular, but sometimes a mistake on my end will slip through in an email I’m sending and I have to send another email correcting myself and apologizing for the oversight. One of my least favorite parts about work.

If you had to disappear and start a whole new life, what would you want your new life to look like? I’m not wishing for much. I just wish it was easier to remove any trace of me on social media sites and have it be as if I never existed because I think that would make it easier for me to move on from...well, you know what. I still have trouble verbalizing it and I don’t feel like mentioning it tonight.

But idk, I like staying connected to my family and friends, so idk if I can ever achieve that. And that said, I think I’m bound to always keep seeing her around.

What movie or book do you know the most quotes from? I memorize a pathetic amount of dialogue from Love Actually, Twilight, Titanic, and The Proposal.  What was one of the most interesting concerts you’ve been to? I guess Coldplay? They gave assigned lightsticks for each section and the crowd looked amazing when the production crew activated the lights for certain songs. I still have some of the clips because I posted them on Snapchat, so I’m really glad I did that; otherwise I would’ve lost the videos forever.

Where are you not welcome anymore? I’ve felt pretty unwelcome around her. How she could do a 180 and just not be interested in having anything to do with me is really soul-crushing.

What do you think could be done to improve the media? Fact fucking check, please. Also keeping sources balanced, avoiding clickbait headlines, being more objective than neutral, and don’t fucking sensationalize. How timely that this landed on a journalism graduate, hahaha.

What’s the most recent show you’ve binge watched? Start Up but I haven’t continued in the last two weeks :/ I think it’s because I know I’m nearing the finale and I subconsciously just don’t want to run out of Start Up episodes to watch lol but yeah, I still have four episodes left and I have no clue when I’ll watch it again.

What’s a common experience for many people that you’ve never experienced? Being close with their mom and considering them as their rock.

What are some misconceptions about your hobby? I don’t know enough about embroidery to know misconceptions about it.

What did you Google last? 2001: A Space Odyssey because I needed to be sure of the scenes I planned on citing in the question above that made me mention the movie.

What’s the dumbest thing someone has argued with you about? Not being able to find a restaurant to eat at. The backstory is a little complicated but it’s the same fight that led my younger brother to slap me across the face, and what subsequently led me to stop speaking to him.

If money and practicality weren’t a problem, what would be the most interesting way to get around town? Probably a tank.

What’s the longest rabbit hole you’ve been down? It’s always the ones on Wikipedia lol. I find weird and interesting articles on there all the time; there’s always something new to read.

What odd smell do you really enjoy? The rain, though sometimes it can be too overpowering when the humidity has been high. I like it for the most part, though.

What fashion trend makes you cringe or laugh every time you see it? Streetwear is so fucking dull to me. I never saw the appeal.

What’s your best story of you or someone else trying to be sneaky and failing miserably? Hahahaha this happened just a few weeks ago actually. My parents and I were headed out to have some ramen, and I opened the car door to hop onto the backseat. They didn’t prepare beforehand and they left the Christmas gift I asked for - a corkboard - in the backseat, so I was able to see the whole thing, unwrapped and with price tag and all. Their mortified faces knowing that their secret’s been blown were hilarious. They had no choice but to just give it up, and the corkboard has been on my wall since.

If you had a HUD that showed three stats about any person you looked at, what three stats would you want it to show? I guess the stability of our relationship, their general mood for the day, and erm how badly they need a hug because I’m always willing to give some.

What’s the best way you or someone you know has gotten out of a ticket / trouble with the law? My mom fake-cries her way out and it’s always been hilarious to see a grown ass woman do it and pull it off every time.

Tear gas makes people cry and laughing gas makes people giggle, what other kinds of gases do you wish existed? I don’t really want to manipulate people’s action in this way, so pass.

[inkofamethyst]

October 25, 2020

Hello, I’m currently struggling to binge watch all of my orgo 2 lectures for this unit before my exam tomorrow (...yes, past me was really not thinking this whole thing through, I know (and present me ain’t doin’ so great either)), but I’d like to take some time to just journal about my dancer-friend’s birthday gathering.

For the sake of, idk, something, there were only seven of us (me, dancer-friend, dnd-friend, cello-friend, a semi-friend-acquaintance-person who intimidates me because she’s so intelligent and is in The Discord Chat, another semi-friend-acquaintance-person who also went to my high school (I think I’ll call her my bioE-friend), and my dancer-friend’s boyfriend who will soon need a name of his own (perhaps my journalism-friend?  Idk we still at that acquaintance level but I can’t keep reducing him to my dancer-friend’s boyfriend lol) (my puzzle-friend and photo-friend weren’t able to come)) and we were all spread out an wearing masks in my dancer-friend’s basement except when we were eating.  Three people had been cleared for covid and the others were (I assume) participating in best practices and such.

So I think I mentioned this once before, but I made my dancer-friend a cape for her birthday for a few reasons.  1. I’ve wanted to make the American Duchess cape since April.  2. Sewing is a great stress-reliever for me.  3. Sewing things for other people makes me feel all nice on the inside.  4. When I asked her if she was interested, she said yes!  So I got her measurements yesterday after having basted the majority of the cape’s pieces together and soon found out that I needed to redo a ton of it.  I used a tightly-woven satin for the lining and a cotton flannel for the shell, and after letting them hang for a few days, the shell warped a ton and the satin hardly at all.  By yesterday, however, so much had already been sewn that I was limited in my options when it came to fixing it up.  Instead of taking the cape in at the seams of the shell like any normal person would, I did something really weird that caused puckering mostly on the inside and at the little armpit-like areas where the wraps attach to the sleeves.  Lesson learned: think before you sew lol.  It turned out pretty well and I was technically able to complete it, but due to covid I couldn’t do a fitting or anything, so I’m sort of just hoping that it’ll fit in the back.  I should be able to fix it if it doesn’t, but ~due to covid~ it’ll take a bit of extra maneuvering.  Anyway, it looked like she liked it a lot!

The gathering was so great.  I really needed something like that to bring me back down to earth after my anxious freakout last week.  We reaffirm, once again, my friends do not hate me or necessarily think me any more awkward than they are, and if they do, it’s not a turn off.  I don’t know why this is so difficult for me to remember.  Since my dnd-friend isn’t going back on campus in the spring, I told them all the story of how ~I almost got swept into a cult~ (that was, of course, the clickbait title) my freshman year.  It’s funny actually.  My bioE-friend (who I really need to talk to more because she’s actually a great person with incredible drive but we just didn’t run in exactly the same circles in high school (though we were both in marching band, she was in the concert band above mine)) actually asked me today if I could explain to her what I was doing on the bottom floor of the student union one day when she and my dancer-friend happened upon me in one of the Bible study sessions.  Apparently it has been on her mind for nearly a year lol, and she thought I was meeting with an advisor or something, and she was curious.  A perfect segue into an abbreviated version of my story.  My journalism-friend immediately wanted to hop on and publish something about the group, but I had to let him know that 1. I know that they’ll continue hounding students even if I were to go public with something like this, 2. I personally don’t bear any ill-will toward them and would rather not defame the group, and 3. one church of the organization had taken a newspaper to court for defamation and won, so I’d really just rather not have to do that.  Frankly, having this semester away from campus has been decent for allowing me to re-center again, you know?  Anyway, I don’t think I can tell that story to too many more people lol.  I think this is about the extent of the friend group that can know about that particular experience.

And my story presented an opportunity for my dancer-friend (president of the swing dance club) to tell us about the weird vibes between the sing dance club and the ballroom dance club.  I’m not going to say much more about it here, but it’s a little bit... odd.  I do plan to check out the ballroom club because I think it might be easier for my feet to handle (with Lindy Hop... my feet just don’t do), but I’ll have to keep an eye and an ear out for weirdness haha.

Overall, it was really fun!  It’s honestly so weird how much expression we’re showing with our eyes now!  And so many of us were talking with our hands (which, to be fair, is something I’ve done for at least few years now because I’m just so darn animated)!  What a strange timeline to live in.

As for critiques of my social behavior (I want to just get them out now instead of letting them chase each other around my head as I fall asleep), I really only have one!  It’s the whole know-it-all thing, but I think I’m beginning to better balance it out by asking questions and not just, you know, spewing out knowledge so that all may know of my intelligence.  And also,, I just need to learn when to let opportunities for such a thing slide, you know?  Again, I need not display my bigbrain at all times.

Today I’m thankful that I was able to see people!!  I’m thankful that the AD cape turned out at least half-decent (will she notice the imperfections... who knows?)!!  I’m thankful that I can speed up my chemistry videos!!  And I’m thankful that past me was at least smart enough to attend the guided study session meetings on Tuesdays and Thursdays (with a fairly attractive GSS leader, I might add (though there are three ways to explain his attractiveness: 1. exclusively explained by the fact that I’m attracted to his intelligence, 2. he’s actually just legit attractive, or 3. both!!)), because that means I have at least an idea of what will be on tomorrow’s exam.

Wish me luck!

Next weekend I have another gathering to celebrate my cello-friend’s birthday, so I’m going to have to figure out something to sew for him.  It’s likely going to be far less complex.

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Hi! Thank you! I love your blog, it makes me happy. :) 💜 Can I ask you something? I'll try. lol I saw the titles and I've notice some parallels with Amy and Rory in the past but that was quite some time ago, not now. Mainly because Amy and Rory are always together and even when they are not it's for a short time or it's an ellipse (like the 2000 years 😊), so 'Together or not at all' really represented their will to stick together no matter what, whereas FS are never together... (part1)

(part2) they just fight to go back to each other, over and over again, it's just boring. At the end they are the opposite because their time together is short and the separation are dragged out and long. Their relationship is offscreen or told by other people... contrary to Rory/Amy. So for me the parallels ended for some time. What do you think ? do you think this title is another clickbait? also I agree with you, nothing support their FS sayings in the writing since a year it pisses me off. ❤️

Under the cut because it’s long and negative. 

Yeah I trust the writers not at all after they burned us so bad with season 4. I know a lot of people have tried to be more positive about how that season went in the months since it aired but idk man. Even after spaceboyfriend, I wasn’t as let down and upset as after season 4. It’s not even that they separated them for the entire season, even though I’m salty about that, it’s that they separated them for seemingly no reason. 

When they started the season off with the conversation between them about how their jobs are pulling them apart, I expected the theme of the season for them to be them choosing each other over their jobs. But that.... didn’t happen. But then the framework happened and I thought “here it is, this is the FS storyline that’s going to pay off this separation! We’re going to see Jemma save Fitz and it will be great!” and then.... they basically took that idea, ripped it up, lit it on fire, and then rubbed the ashes in my face. 

I won’t lie, that whole ending still pisses me off so much. It’s just that they built it up to end one way and then did a 180 at the last second, stole Jemma’s moment and gave it to Radcliffe, and then gave us a single 15 second hug and then separated them again at the start of this season. My more emotional rant about that can be found here.... and I still stand by a lot of those points. 

Going into this season, I didn’t expect anything (and still don’t) in terms of them actually writing FS well. I think they did so much damage to them last year by keeping them apart for the first half of the season, for legit no reason, followed by the literal hell of the framework and it broke any faith I had in them. 

I know a lot of people are expecting them to pay off last season this season but I’m not letting myself hope for that. Given that Fitz won’t be back until 5 at the earliest and the “Together or Not at All” episode is 7.... I’m not pinning my hopes on anything for FS. I mean, it would be stupid for them not to do something with them there but I also thought it would be stupid for Jemma not to wake up Fitz so ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ . 

I know that Chloe and the whole cast has been bigging up how “cute” FS are this season but the hard truth is, they did that last year and we got basically nothing. And don’t expect the writers to suddenly have a great insite into what the fandom wants because I highly highly highly doubt they look at fan comments all that much. Most TV writers write without looking at these things because they don’t want them to influence the storyline which I personally think is a terrible idea but it’s true. I think going into spaceboyfriend, they knew it wasn’t great but that wasn’t the case with the framework. I think they truly thought that the framework would be a fan favorite thing and everyone would love it and no one would have a problem with the ending but like ??? that’s not at all what happened. So yeah, I wouldn’t bet on them suddenly being self aware that’s not how they work from what I’ve seen. 

So yeah, I’m sorry this is pretty negative but I have to agree with a lot of what you say. It still baffles me that the first season where they were together was also the season with the least amount of shared screen time, kisses, and ended like that. I know people are fond of saying “but they are endgame don’t worry!” but I don’t find that statement comforting at all. Like, it’s all well and good but at the end of the day, if we don’t get to see any of their relationship, does it matter? Sure I like hearing from OTHER characters how great their relationship is and how much they love each other but I’d like to SEE that on screen. The point of TV is to show not tell and I really felt like season 4 was a lot of telling and no showing and it really strained me as a fan and as a shipper. 

Who knows, maybe season 5 will be great whenever Fitz actually comes back but I’m not holding my breath. I’m expecting most of his “healing” to take place either off screen or with Hunter (which don’t get me wrong, I’m excited to see that team up) and for them to not let Jemma actually say the things that she should and would be in character to say. But yeah, that’s kind of where I’m at. I’m not letting myself get excited, I’m just sticking around with the small hope that maybe, just maybe, this season won’t be as bad as season 4 was. 

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clickbait title: all 5 of local teen’s feelings were hurt and here’s why!

so tonight there was a party at the park for the end of the year of the yg that i help lead. so three of my friends are there. and i love them all so much and was rly rly looking forward to talking to them... but then two of them just paired off and i honestly just felt SO left out and rejected and just wanted to go sit in a corner and cry and listen to michael in the bathroom on repeat and then as the party was ending i had to wait for my mom’s friend to get something for my mom so i told the two friends that they could go play volleyball and id come over after like five minutes. and clearly i wanted them to wait with me, i mean why wouldnt i, but both of them were like oh okay and just left me there and :)))) thank u guys :)) id wait for u but ok then i was getting ready to leave so i went to say goodbye and we hugged and then i went to wait with my sisters and they saw i wasn’t leaving yet but??? didnt come over to wait with me???? they just went off by themselves and i was like fine i see how it is ill just sit here looking sad and petting the rock i picked up also. so i went to a dance a week ago and the guy i like asked me to dance a couple times so i mean even though its dumb and meaningless ive been so happy and i mentioned it completely in passing to one of the aforementioned friends (without asking for her opinion or any input!) and she was like “well he definitely doesn’t like you” and in the past week she’s said things along those lines a few times and it’s super off-putting like. i know she’s right. he definitely doesn’t and never will tbh. but the way she says it is super condescending and hurtful and honestly i want to live with my lies and stupid sliver of hope if it means im not self harming every day and living in constant knowledge that no one loves me and no one ever will “like that”. so i told her super firmly that i dont want to talk about my feelings unless i specifically ask to but??? i really do want to talk about them?? not to her bc she doesn’t understand what it’s like to not have anyone like you and have to clutch to tiny pieces of hope. and most of my other friends just dont like talking about guys and crushes and i totally get that. and the other aforementioned friend is the sister of the guy i like so. idk i need to talk about my feelings and my crush and have someone actually understand and be honest but not in a harsh or uncalled for way and ughh  anyway i need to stop being so demanding and overreacting to every tiny thing and expecting people to include me bc clearly its not happening. i need to recognize that i dont need to be a part of everything but still. i couldnt help but feel completely left out and rejected and unwanted. and now im gonna go cry all night and write ten pages in my journal and make a sad spotify playlist bc #selfcare