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Listening to someone be happy without you with someone that you've been kinda told is awful and terrible is really confusing. I've tried to hold my own doubt for just like being a decent person's sake but. Am I worse? I know I'm not enough but did I just imagine that I was worth it? Am I useless? You always act like you hate her. You always act like she's terrible. Are you happier with her than me? I know you love her more than me that's just common sense. Why does that still hurt?
#ranpo look away#ranpo dont look#i reaaaally hope those tags dont accidentlaly get the reccomebded somewhere now that i think about it#theres a decent chance im insane and imagining things or its the same exact thing that happened with me where i was masking and that was why#but also. im still worried. and it wasnt ambiguous.#i hate this i should be happy i should be happy i should be happy#and yet im feeling jealous and upset and nervous#i fucking hate myself. i bet its my bpd's fault but i dont even know.#at least doggos are adorable. jackly is more fine with me if i ignore her and am slow#im so hungry but id rather throw up than ear#i hope i throw up
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[Ah...I've had enough]
#mizuki akiyama#pjsk#prsk fa#project sekai#pjsk fanart#screaming crying throwing up#my art#i truly hope the caption is centered or this is gonna be really embarrassing#anyways. truly the event to ever.
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doodled some laytons bc I AM SO EXCITED FOR NWOS!!!
#professor layton#professor layton new world of steam#nwos#pl#my art#i hope we get to see AND HEAR more osts/dialogue/characters n stuff on the 28th iM THROWING UP
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I know we're not on the Hearts chapter but, I have a feeling the SSR will be Cater? But also him having the tear animation, since I have a feeling his dream will be a bit like Ruggie's q-q
I'm leaning towards either Cater or Ace, personally! Trey and Deuce have kinda already had their character arcs -- though someone else did mention to me that they thought it might be Trey, because so far all the vices have gotten one. though that might just be coincidence. we'll find out I guess!
my red-string-on-corkboard theory is that Ace is gonna get his arc + UM during whatever goes down with Grim, so while I could be completely wrong, I think it'd be nice if it were Cater's time to shine! ...also I am VERY curious as to what his dream is gonna be. đ like, I don't think he's gonna be all angsty or anything, he's a pretty cheery guy even though he pretends to be more vapid than he is, but...what would he be like if he were less. y'know.
(also I kind of want him to get the focus just because I think it'd be a shame if all he got was a super-quick 'oh his dream is to have a billion followers or whatever, now let's go on to the next person'. c'mon Twst. give him some love.)
#art#twisted wonderland#twisted wonderland spoilers#twisted wonderland episode 7 spoilers#twisted wonderland book 7 spoilers#this is only speculation but i'm gonna put the chapter tags in anyway just in case#twisted wonderland episode 7 part 12 spoilers#twisted wonderland book 7 part 12 spoilers#i have seen people bring up the possibility of pre-canon deuce and i do think he would be visually different enough#but i think that would have to be like...a rook situation where it's a byproduct of whatever his actual wish was#because i don't think his dream would be to go back to that#buuuuuuut i dunno! they've been throwing some unexpected stuff at us so i'm trying not to form really solid expectations or anything#i do think the hearts dreams are gonna have to be a little rushed just cause there's four of 'em to get through :(#and while it would've been really nice to get in-depth dreams for everyone#episode 7 is already ridiculously long as it is#here's hoping the every-two-months holds though and we don't have to wait too long to find out :')
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Burning Rotten Bridges
[First] Prev <â-> Next
#poorly drawn mdzs#mdzs#mianmian#nie mingjue#jin guangyao#JGY is nothing but outwardly calm and carrying on his duties as the chair for the meeting#but in that small pause after Nie Mingjue commemorates Mianmian for leaving...you can feel the tension.#Because Nie Mingjue comes from a place of privilege. He's always been in a position where his legitimacy and political standing-#-were never challenged. He didn't have to fight for respect. He was born into this world respected.#For people like Mianmian and JGY who clawed their way up from the bottom...this is a huge deal.#Truth be told I have a lot of things to say about what it means and feels to be in a position where leaving is messy.#There are times where the situation is bad but to leave means that those years of your life will have been for nothing.#That all the other suffering incurred will be fruitless. So you just *keep going*. Because it *has* to be worth it.#Because going back to what you were before is even more terrifying than the hell you are boiling in.#My concrete example for this is post-grad academia.#Because that cohort will have spent over a decade pursuing a goal and leaving means...well...it means throwing away those years.#It means losing (likely nearly all) your connections. It means going into debt you'll never pay off.#It means putting up with some pretty heinous abuse from your supervisor because what are you suppose to do? Leave?#Leaving is for those with the privilege to have options.#And even if you do have options...#Ultimately we would rather love the pain we know than risk the unknown. Hoping it's worth it one day.#With that mindset established; never say JGY should have just left like Mianmian. He couldn't. This was what he dedicated his life to.#He never had the option. Even if it seemed like he did - no he did not. He never conceived this ending ever happening for himself.
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finally finished This Wip from Ever ago and so now i ask you ever look into another dudes eyes and suddenly want to do whatever he wants
#xmen#xmen comics#cherik#professor x#magneto#charles xavier#erik lehnsherr#erik magnus lehnsherr#the kids are here too but i aint taggin them vaeLKEVJKLJ#snap sketches#posting this now and not obsessing over the details i need to SLEEP#please click/tap and zoom to read anything im sorry theres so much dialogue#i thought i was gonna finish this sooner but i went grocery shopping with my bro today and that took longer than expected !!!!#ALSO CHAT. if youre up to date on My Lore via my tags ... my prof's lettin me submit my assignment ... life's so good...#speaking of life being good i was giggling like stupid while drawing this . i named it 'this is stupid' and i stand by that#this is so unserious im gonna make myself throw up ITS SO CORNY i make myself sick with what i draw <- will continue to do this#only god knows if this is even how that power of his works i just saw an opportunity and ran with it#the trick here is he doesnt even have to use any 'power' he can just do that to charles by default#however im making them be obnoxious about it. i am making them obnoxious over dramatic grandpas because i can#my only crime is loving the utter cheese and corniness of the 60s comics like God. anyways bye !!!!!!!#maybe one day ill finish that other comic i sketched for this weekend but i fear i wont have time to so next weekend me thinks ....#for now i hope you all enjoy this. goofy as hell nonsense jLAKJVEKLVJ
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the dialogue choices in this game should be more diabolical
#i love akechi but i sometimes i wish you could bully him like no matter which dialogue u pick it sounds like ur flirting back w him#âi'm going to be completely honest with you. i've always hated youâ why can't u say smt unserious back#like âsorry i have a snatched waist and correct opinions on everything.â or like âur loss lmaoâ#hate playing darts with this bitch bc i play on a steamdeck and i don't have a fucking gyroscope so like#it's trying to replicate how the joycons or pro controller would throw AND ITS SUCKS SO BAD#like i just see akechi get a hat trick every single fucking time with three bulls in a row and meanwhile im struggling to line the thing up#and then after u finish he's like âhmm i see. that's an interesting way to play itâ WHAT THE FUCK THERES LITERALLY NO STRATEGY HERE SMARTAS#I JUST MISSED. IM NOT STRATEGIZING. THERES NOTHING âINTERESTINGâ ABOUT IT.#i hate going to penguin snipers so much i hope i can get this stupid game on switch so i can actually rank up akechi's baton pass#and not waste like 1000 yen every night bc i refuse to not let a party member be on rank 3#akechi fuck yourself why can't we play 501 like we do with everyone else. why do u have to make everything abt this stupid rivalry#im gonna kms i hate akeci and i hate darts#persona 5#persona 5 royal#p5#p5r#goro akechi#ren amamiya#akira kurusu#shuake#akeshu#lotus draws
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my resident evil MLP AU!
the winters!!!
re7 & 8 antagonists
#ethan winters#mia winters#rosemary winters#rose winters#resident evil#resident evil fanart#rebhfun#resident evil village#resident evil 8#re8#mlp#mlp au#mlp fim#shadows of rose#my little resident#funfact rosemary (like the plant) symbolizes love and rememberance i hope that ruins ur day like it ruined mine#had a great time coming up with their cutiemarks#u cant see but rosemary inherits ethans chest heart marking#mia makes me sad#throws up and cries#i hate that capcom put her in a cage for re7 and 8#its so tragic how all the things she did trying to keep her family together ended up snowballing into a even bigger problem#and now shes left all alone#it makes me so sad oh my gosh#i love u mia đđđđ
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Haven't drawn her in forever ah.
#fmab#fma#Fullmetal Alchemist#fullmetal alchemist brotherhood#lust the lascivious#my art#sorry i rarely post anymore *sobbing* *choking* *throwing up*#hope you all like it's been awhile as usual#i haven't posted anything since December want to scream#I'd been working tho so that took a lot outta me but even when I wasn't I was always so tired and didn't have the energy for art#I also made transparents for these and put them on my pixiv in a mini log
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Hi ! So I'm in the process of once again applying for disability and could really use help paying my rent once again this month.
I originally thought I would be receiving help that I will no longer be recieving, and now im scrambling to make $750 rent on the 1st in 2 days.
My original plan was to be making videos and fulfilling requests right now, but I am currently so ill and unable to do much of anything ! Any help would be appreciated.
Yes I keep asking for help, that is because I have been continuously struggling financially for the last couple of years. I've been applying for disability since 2022, and now finally have found a lawyer and people who can help me do it! But that still leaves the mean time.
I am seriously struggling with my health and freaking out about losing my apartment in 2 days while I am super sick and also have a super sick cat is not helping I think!
Anyway, I know these posts are making people very upset, so if you see them and don't like them no offense taken if you block me, but probably messaging me and sending asks that I'm a terrible person won't do much.
I appreciate any sharing and any donations, and would love to give out subscriptions and content in return.
My links
$0/750
#everything sucks actually so much right now#and my physical amd mental health are absolutely destoryed currently#and i literally just cannot stop throwing up and my stomach HURTS#at this point i dont know if something is seriously wrong or if my anxiety is just taking me out#or if i have the bug my roomamte had#anyway thanks for reading my post of misery#i hope you're having a good day#and im sorry you have to bare witness to me not
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guys the kiss was so important especially from a narrative and storytelling perspective because it was literally Crowley taking everything that's happened between them, every unsaid intention and every unspoken promise, and making it physical.
He's taking their arrangement and every other bullshit excuse they've ever used to hide how they feel about each other and throwing them out the window to put their feelings into an undeniable physical action that holds a lot of meaning to humans in order to be absolutely sure that Aziraphale knows exactly what he means when he says "we could have been Us." He wants to be absolutely sure that there are no misunderstandings between them and know that Azirphale will be committing to this decision with absolute reassurance that he's been understood and rejected anyway.
he's taking a human action with so much meaning and so much importance, and he's using it as a way to desperately make Aziraphale completely and undeniably aware of what he's stating. No more charades and no more lies or cover-ups. There's no denying this thing between them now, and Crowley did it the human way. Because he and Aziraphale love humanity and it's everything to them in their own ways.
There's a reason we saw a kiss between Crowley and Aziraphale, and not Gabriel and Beelzebub, despite them both being undeniable foils.
and really if you just think about that isn't it so god damned beautiful?
#im crying and throwing up#like please tell me u guys get what im saying#and im not just spouting bullshit#like literally i swear this is something i hope i articulated it well enough#like its so SYMBOLIC#it makes my fucking little brain do jumping jacks of joy#bi.f.shit#good omens#good omens 2#good omens 2 spoilers#gos2 spoilers#crowley#aziraphale#ineffable divorcées#ineffable husbands#gos2ep6 spoilers#good omens analysis
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Silly idea I talked about ages ago with @azure7539arts, inspired by a similar event my workplace hosts every year. Would minors be allowed to participate in such an event? Probably not! But then again, it was the 80s, who can say for sure. Anyway, it's my birthday and I'll post nonsense if I want to <3
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âI need you to buy me.â
Eddie looks up from his notebook, effectively jarred from his campaign-plotting fugue state by Steveâs declaration.
Steve is standing at the other end of the dining table, staring at him expectantly.
âYâknow, this is the part where someone usually follows up their completely bonkers demand with an explanation,â Eddie says slowly.
âAt the charity auction,â Steve clarifies. âI need you to bid on me, and I need you to win.â
Ah, yes, that weird Rent-an-Athlete charity auction the school runs every year; anyone on any Hawkins High sports team could volunteer to be âauctionedâ off in order to raise money for said sports team, to spend a day at the beck and call of the highest bidder (within reason, supposedly). Itâs generally restricted to students, but occasionally, prominent alumni are invited to participate â and Steve certainly fits the bill, especially after the story the government spun about his heroism in the face of âserial killerâ Henry Creel last spring.
âAnd what, deny all those pretty girls a chance to get at you?â Eddie asks drily (heâd never turned up at previous auctions himself, but you could hardly avoid gossip in a school their size; it had usually been some cheerleader bidding with daddyâs money who won a dateâ that is, a day with Steve Harrington).
âIt wasnât always a girl who won,â Steve says, crossing his arms over his chest. âOne time it was Mrs. Dalton â you know, the lady on the school board who lives on my block? I just spent the day doing yard work for her. She gave me lemonade. That was pretty cool.â
âRight,â Eddie drawls. âAnd Iâm sure she definitely didnât sit outside and stare at your ass while you were working.â
âShe did notâ sheâ I mean she was on the porch, but, likeâ she wouldnât haveâ sheâs, like, seventy, Eddie,â Steve splutters, and itâs all Eddie can do not to laugh.
âOlder gals have needs, too, Steve,â Eddie says, giving in to a smirk. âSo she was checking you out from the porch, huh?â
Steve goes red. âShut up, that isnât the point. Iâm trying to ask for your help.â
âRight, right, your absolutely reasonable request for me to buy you at market. Why, again?â Eddie asks.
âThe kids are planning to bid on me,â Steve says gravely.
Eddie blinks at him. âOkay?â he says, when no further explanation is forthcoming. âYou basically do most of what they ask, anyway, soâŠ?â
âOkay, believe it or not, I actually say no to at least half of what they ask me to do. I would literally never get anything done if I gave in to all their demands.â Steve jabs a finger at Eddie, who holds up his hands in mock surrender. âAnyway, this is all Hendersonâs fault.â
âIt usually is,â Eddie agrees, nodding sagely.
âHe decided that he was going to bid on me and then use that day to finally make me play your nerd game with youââ Eddie snorts, and Steve shoots him a look, âbut Wheeler doesnât want me to play, so he said he was going to bid against Dustin and make me do anything but sit in on a session with you guys.â
âSo let Wheeler win.â Eddie shrugs.
âNo! I canât let fuckinâ Mike win, heâll probably make me do something even more ridiculous!â Steve exclaims. "Heâll make me play chauffeur for him and El on a date, or something, and heâll probably include the stupid hat.â
âWait, I thought El broke up with him,â Eddie breaks in.
âNo, theyâre on again,â Steve says absently, shaking his head. âWhich is why Max has been in a bad mood lately.â
Eddie bites back the reflexive need to ask âHow can you tell?â, going instead with, âI thought she and Sinclair were on again.â
âNo, they are. Thatâs why no oneâs been actively murdered,â Steve says.
âHow do you keep track of all of this?â Eddie asks, squinting at Steve.
âItâs a natural skill. And weâre getting off track,â Steve says quickly. âNormally, I wouldnât be that worried, because Dustin regularly blows his savings on weird science gadgets or whatever, but then Lucas and Will started taking sides.â
âThis is getting very involved,â Eddie says.
âSo you see why Iâm stressed!â Steve insists, smacking a hand to his forehead (personally, Eddie thinks Steve is stressed for many other reasons, but he figures pointing that out just now wonât be appreciated). âLucas is on Dustinâs side, and that kid does odd jobs like nobodyâs goddamn business; he actually has shit saved up. And usually Iâd have faith in him being more, like, sensible than to spend it all on this, but the little shit is really fucking competitive.â
âWonder who he got that from?â Eddie mutters.
âOkay, we do remember that Iâm not actually biologically related to any of these idiots, right?â Steve snaps.
âWell now weâre just getting into nature versus nurtureââ
âEddie.â
âRight, sorry, continue.â
âWell, Will took Mikeâs sideââ
âShocking.â
âRight? But anyway, I donât know if the kid has much saved up, but between him and Wheeler, they might be able to win.â Steve sighs, looking far more world-weary than Eddie feels the situation really warrants.
âYou know you donât actually have to do what they ask you to, right?â Eddie points out.
Steve rolls his eyes. âIf an auction winner complains to the school that the person they bid on didnât fulfill their end of the bargain, they can get their money back. Itâs a wholeâŠâ he waves his hand vaguely, âthing. Happened once when I was a sophomore; Deacon McNab. Lost a good chunk of change for the football team, and they vandalized the shit out of his car.â
âAh, right. Forgot we went to school with literal psychopaths,â Eddie hums.
âSo, I just need you to bid on me and win, so Iâm not stuck wasting a Saturday on whatever the hell the kids are going to try to make me do. Or not do. Orâ whatever,â Steve says.
âOkay, not that I donât understand your predicament here, but I think youâre forgetting something kind of important, Steve,â Eddie drawls.
Steveâs brows draw together in question. âWhat?â
âIâm fucking poor.â
âOh.â Steve shakes his head. âI didnât meanâ no, I will give you the money, you donât have to spend a dime, man, I just need you to get me out of this.â
âWhy not have Buckley do it?â Eddie asks.
âThat was Plan A, but she actually has a date that night, and itâs kind of a big deal, so I donât want her to cancel,â Steve says. âBut I assumed you wouldnât be busy.â
âWow, rude,â Eddie scoffs, and Steve sighs.
âFine, sorry, I just really hoped you wouldnât be busy.â Steve gives him the most lethal set of puppy dog eyes Eddie has ever seen, as if there had been any chance from the beginning that heâd be able to say no. âPlease?â
Just for show, Eddie lets out a long sigh, falling against his chair and letting his head flop over the backrest like heâs deflating.
âFine.â
âThank you,â Steve groans, sounding so genuinely relieved that Eddie almost feels bad about how quickly his thoughts dip into the realms of the inappropriate. âOh my god, I owe you.â
Eddie glances back up at Steve, tongue darting out to wet his lips almost unconsciously. âYou know Iâm not as easy to appease as a couple of fifteen-year-olds, right?â
Steveâs eyes drop for just a secondâmaybe down to Eddieâs lips, maybe not; who can say?âbefore he looks back up, cocking an eyebrow at Eddie. âI think I can handle it.â
Slowly, Eddie grins. âWeâll see.â
#steddie#steve harrington#eddie munson#steve & the party#stranger things#solar wrote#this is very silly but I had fun writing it so I hope it's a fun short read#obviously Eddie does win the auction (surprisingly stiff competition; he may or may not end up throwing in a little of his own money#even though none of the kids are the top bidders at that point)#and then you can choose your own ending:#either Eddie chickens out and just asks Steve to play roadie for the band on their next gig night#but it works out in his favor anyway because he gets to spend the night watching Steve lifting and carrying and being supportive#while Steve gets to watch the band perform and is lowkey starstruck by Eddie and they smooch about it at the end of the night#OR; Eddie demands the same treatment Steve gave those cheerleaders who won a date with him back in the day#he's sort of joking but Steve takes him very seriously and takes him on a date so sweet and fun that Eddie is almost mad about#being swept off his feet by it#and at the end of the night Steve walks Eddie to his door and Eddie asks if the treatment ends here#or if Steve did anything... else for those girls#Steve; eyebrows raised: Are you asking if I slept with those girls for money?#Eddie; blanching: WAIT SHIT NO-#Steve: Nah I'm kidding. Come inside and fuck me#and Eddie does
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@devinsisland apocalypse AUs, but it's just chill gardening between two raids outside to scavenge seeds
#star wars#apocalypse AU#tbb#tcw#is it okay to jump into someone AU like this?#hope it's okay#Hewwwo I'm trying colors again#What is a clean coloring process#I just put colors on one layer and never clean ever#Oh my actually now I look at it I feel really bad posting this#looks like I did throw up on my screen#listen just look at it from afar if you're not happy#Sorry 99 I tried my best#sorry Tech skin tone I tried my best too#I need to sleep#I just wanted to draw a small color test#anyway bye
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happy pride month fo3 folks
@valen-dreth ,,,,
#ahzrukhal fo3#charon fo3#fallout#fallout 3#idoindeeddraw#if this gains traction like my other version of this meme did my notes will be unuseable... so wish me luck o7#also fawkes hope u like my ahz rendition... ive never drawn him before.... and this was in ms paint to be loyal to the og#also fuck this website it posted this to my hI blog originally for some reason even tho the last post i made on my laptop was to my mainblo#thank god i caught it before it got notes or i was gonna throw up
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I've had this pose ref saved for a while and the Superman set photos just gave off the same energy đđ»đđ»
The reference is this photo of Katharine Hepburn as Antiope and Colin Keith-Johnston as Theseus in the 1932 play 'The Warrior's Husband' (and I'd love for people to turn into a draw your otp meme pls pls pls this pose is so good)
And also, of course, the Superman (2025) set photos
#superfamilyweek#superman#dcu#clois#lois lane#clark kent#i was actually gonna post this a few days ago but then i found out about the superfamily week#it wasn't made for it but i hope you can accept this humble offering even if it doesn't really fit the prompts#art#digital#fanart#live-action#dc#regular#final#colour#this actually from june when the set photos came out and i just got completely obsessed and went into a clois haze#it all looks so good though!! the whole thing!!!! i'm vibrating with excitement just thinking about it!!!!!!!#if this film isn't good i'm gonna be sooo disappointed you guys have no idea how much i'm looking forward to it#but anyway. ART RAMBLES: as i mentioned on the tags of my last drawing this piece gave me SUCH a headache#i think it's probably cos it was just supposed to be a quick sketch so i used a more stable pencil brush#but then i really liked it so i decided to properly colour it instead of just doing the watercolour thing i usually do for sketches#but with finished pieces i like the lineart to be kinda messy and the sketch to even show through bit#and since i used the more stable brush for the sketch it ended up looking WAY too clean. not like my stuff at all.#so i just started throwing stuff at the wall to see what could make it more interesting. full background! actual lineart! texture layers!#and this here is what i was the happiest with. i don't... love it though. it should be looking way more interesting given the pose#and then i also did the purge girl halfway through this and it looked SO good right out of the bat (pun intended)#so i went a bit into a spiral. did some realistic stuff i'll post soon. and now am trying out a thick black lineart style.#(i'll definitely still use the coloured lines for the sketchy watercolour stuff though. it just looks way too cute)
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Standing 2 inches from each other as a form of intimacy
#im gonan frow up i cant draw shockwaves huge frame from this angle. am i good with ANYTHING. throwing everything with my mind#humanformers#tfp shockwave#tfp soundwave#soundwave#shockwave#wavewave#sorry for clogging the tags with this bullshit#my art#i hope shockwaves :) but with a single eye is understood
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