#i honestly probably forgot some things

[goodmorrowing]

Bestie what happened 😭

ALRIGHT i'm going to give the most brief timeline of events this year that i can 😭 this comes with light trigger warnings for abuse, sa, poor mental health + associated behaviors. i think that's it.

JANUARY: celebrated my one year anniversaryyy with the love of my lifeeee and honestly everything was fine. i was having fights with my mom but generally things were good. i was gearing up for my last semester of college and going around and it was good!

FEBRUARY: again it was FINE i was starting to panic about my life changing but that's normal. early in the month i started getting harrassed by my ex-boyfriend and it became a whole situation. but i was still okay. i was working my dream job as a paid internship and planning to move but not stressing too much because i had everything in order!

MARCH: march actually came and went really fucking fast. a lot happened and my gf was playing lacrosse so it was a blur of finishing up coursework and watching so!! much!!!! lacrosse!!! + a whole field of other spring sports. again there was more with my mother siding with my ex but that came and went.

APRIL: april was my birthday month! had a birthday, and then the panic really started to set in. i was searching for apartments in washington dc but my heart really wasn't there because my mother was in the area. everything got a little slower when my gf suffered an injury from lacrosse and was ordered rest. also the harrassment from my ex increased tenfold but the first part kind of culminated here. overall, it was okay.

MAY: i graduated!! it was not as joyous as i thought it would be because i wasn't rich in family or friends, but it was okay. at a grad party, i was taken advantage of and humiliated. it was more impactful than it should have been. i was ashamed and trying to forget it happened. i wasn't coping too well. at the time everything going on just turned into a puddle of mental wreck. it got to a point that i was having daily anxiety attacks and in a bad place. i adopted a cat though!

JUNE: so i thought the ex situation was over but! it wasn't! this guy found my address through his friends and showed up at my place regularly, would non-stop call and text me from different phone numbers, would threaten me and my girlfriend, etc. he even found out about my sa from the month prior and attempted to use it to humiliate me, on top of so much other bullshit. my mother was fully on his side at this point and the whole situation made my mental health plummet. i felt so fucking scared all the time. another thing to note is that he got married in april (which was a leading cause of the fight we had then) and was still married at this point. it felt awful to know that we had both "moved on" and i was still stuck in cycles of his abuse.

JULY: i was supposed to move in june, but complications prevented me from doing so until july. so in july i moved from new jersey to washington dc! it was honestly huge for me. i lived in the dmv area during my teen years, so it was refreshing. my girlfriend had gone for the first time the prior year when she was helping me after i went low contact with my mother. my girlfriend and i moved into our first place together and we loved it. i was working my dream job for real and kate was taking up work as an artist and it was one of the best months of my life. all of the stress i had slowly started to fade out.

AUGUST: there were some complications here. we found out that my gf's injury wasn't healing right and would require surgery. which was fine. we were tight financially, as an artist and a writer often are, so i started waitressing again, which was my student employment job of choice during college. my girlfriend got surgery and started physical therapy, so she was recovering well. everything was still okay.

SEPTEMBER: in september my mental health began to tank again without much rhyme or reason. after seeing my mother for the first time in months, i decided to go no-contact with her because it went terribly. the whole thing filled me with so. much. guilt. my father passed away when i was a kid, so cutting my mother out felt worse than it should have. i was barred from seeing my younger sister until she turned eighteen (but she is thankfully so understanding) and everything just felt like a wreck. at this time i also had to take a break from my dream job because it wasn't making ends meet. my girlfriend and i were experiencing some personal conflicts but it was nothing huge. it was mostly just added pressure on top of everything that had already happened.

OCTOBER: october was a wreck of a month. my girlfriend and i quickly recovered from our spats but my mental health wasn't getting any better. i couldn't afford therapy and things were getting bad faster than i could handle them. it was a vertical battle. essentially i abandoned everything that wasn't absolutely necessary and began living in a perpetual routine of working shifts that could go on upwards of twelve hours, several times a week... cooking dinner from nothing... cleaning... making minimal conversation... and downing energy drinks so i could do it all again. any semblance of life that i had just simply felt like it was gone. all of the things i was looking forward to? gone. at the end of the month, there was an emergency in my girlfriend's family and we had to make an emergent trip to boston.

NOVEMBER: cont'd. so we went to boston and stayed for about a week (this was actually the time when my phone broke lmao). i had to go back because we'd left our cat in the care of friends and had to sort some things. kate stayed in boston. i came back to learn that i'd lost my waitress job and would lose my apartment without proof of income. so i made the spur of a moment decision to pack some of our things, deal with the rest, grab the cat, and come up to boston indefinitely.

flash forward to december, things are getting better. it's still difficult. it's getting better. and hopefully next month things will be great. hopefully next year everything will be okay again. but all is well, besties ✨ and god that was long! oopsies.

[buwheal]

BEACH OUTFIT 💥💥💥💥

He used to surf the web back in 98'.

[vio1315]

I feel the need to remind people,

There is nobody Jesus is unable to save

I feel it comes up far too often that I am researching a mental illness or behavior or types of people that people will comment how such people will never be saved, never come to Christ

And I honestly think this is an evil thing to say, let alone publicly, let alone where a record of it is kept for all to see for however long the website is running

Do you have any idea where people who are struggling with all manner of things and looking for help are going to end up? On those exact pages. Do you know where they might look for more information when the article/video/etc waxes on about how rare it is for these people to change or find help? Right in the comments.

How dare the people who post this stuff. To take away the only real hope for the lost. To say ‘this is where everyone can find peace for their soul except for you.’ ‘only those good enough can be Saved’

I have seen people mention being in absolute despair because there’s no help for them even though they want to change. There’s no need to make this even harder. 

No sin, no mental illness, no habit, no personality type, no mistake, no past is going to prevent people who put their faith in Jesus’s death and resurrection from being Saved, so stop trying to turn them away and discourage them.

[leviiackrman]

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[jamietwat]

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[fadebolt]

Discord user Jessiefox's Frostbite, and his Lizard pile, for the event within the RW server.

This was admittedly a lot trickier than I expected. But it was still an incredibly fun thing to attempt, and I really enjoy the idea of 3 vastly different species of Lizards being raised together.

Something about that is just really sweet ^-^

[leafy-m]

So I hit my 700th edit for the WHA wiki today, because I am a totally normal person

[bmpmp3]

i was watching a music video for a japanese song and it had built in youtube english captions so i went to turn those on but then i saw that there was like an option for "English" and then a second option for "English (Canada)" and i realized in a few seconds it was just a workaround to having two sets of english captions, one with colour changes in the lettering and one without for accessibility (the canada one was the non-fancy lettering) but for a moment i was living in a world where they were making dedicated canadian english translations for things..... measuring temperature in celsius and height in feet...... paying with loonies and toonies... going to the WASHROOM

[snowyfrostshadows]

It's all fun and games until it isn't

[unnamed-atlas]

Having brain worms. What if uhhhhhh SOS Mianite au

[roobylavender]

Trying to get into green lanterns lore other than the new ones (jo and tai) what would you recommend 👀

hal is the only one i feel well versed in and normally i'm a stickler for reading up on characters in chronological order but he's been so omnipresent and retconned to filth that it's quite hard to pin down a reading rec for him esp since so many people will tell you to start with the johns era (vomit) and go from there. me personally i would go about it like this:

green lantern/green arrow: this was my intro to hal as a character! he's well into his solo run by this point but it's a good litmus test for readers to gauge whether they'll actually be interested in him

showcase #22-24: his pre-solo origins **

green lantern vol. 2 #1-74: i haven't read his solo in ages so in terms of narrative importance i would simply say read the issues where carol and/or sinestro heavily feature otherwise feel free to skim or skip. the early 60s issues are really a hit or miss depending on the person but for me at least the halcarol interactions were the highlight as was seeing sinestro in his obsessive idiot loser phase

green lantern vol. 2 #76-124: the hard traveling heroes saga between hal and ollie, occasionally featuring barry, dinah, and carol. the first few issues make up green lantern/green arrow, but if you keep reading this arc you also get more introduction and exposure to john and guy

green lantern vol. 2 #125-200: post-hard traveling heroes era. this is more halcarol focused and starts to really delve into the issues that being a green lantern creates in hal's life but personally if you're overwhelmed by the number of issues i would once again focus on the issues featuring carol and skim or skip the other stuff. her predator era is crazy and one of the most fabulous arcs for a dc female love interest out there imho

green lanterns corps #201-224: i don't think you have to read this personally but if you want to get more conglomerate green lantern corps interactions you can (there is also tales of the green lanterns corps for that but it can be a hit or miss sometimes as well and is responsible for the hal and arisia relationship.. which.. well.. we don't talk about it)

green lantern vol. 3 #1-50: basically more buildup to hal's life steadily falling apart which obv leads him into his parallax era. there is also a brief carol predator era relapse that ends in some really great reflections of what makes the halcarol relationship so unique and tragic and ultimately defiant of hetero norms. and we get introduced to kyle! ***

zero hour #4-0: hal versus ollie aka the sound of my heart shattering into a million bajillion pieces

green lantern vol. 3 #0, 60-64, 100-106: hal still in his cuckoo bazonkers era as parallax aka teen wolf nogitsune voice YOU CAN'T KILL ME. he throws down with baby lantern kyle again (bless his heart). the last few issues are a mini arc where kyle has to tell hal from the past that his life is about to get really fucked up

parallax: emerald night, final night #4: hal's redemption and death

green lantern vol. 3 #81: hal's funeral

day of judgment: hal gets the chance to come back to "life" as the spectre aka one of the only good narrative decisions geobard jawnes has ever made. sick that he knew from the moment he wrote this that he was going to end it. i hate his guts

green lantern vol. 3 #119: hal frees carol of the star sapphire for good

the spectre vol. 4: hal's spectre era aka his sexiest era. a gazillion out of 10 stars for peak uncle interactions with helen and beautiful tender tragedy with halcarol (although i will complain it annoys me personally carol was so minimally included here when she had been such a big part of green lantern lore previously. i think this is what pushed johns to bring her back as a star sapphire bc he nor dimatteis could conceive of how she would be impt as a civilian character even though she had shown all capacity to be for like. decades prior lol). there are also big trans hal vibes and if you are into funky catholic guilt and rage this is your book

** hal's origins are messy in that they are basically rewritten twice. they're rewritten first in emerald dawn and emerald dawn ii, which is probably the origin i would go with overall bc it is most consistent to green lantern vol. 3 and the state hal and his relationships are in by that point (particularly with sinestro and carol). they're rewritten second in green lantern: rebirth (2004) by geoff johns, which is imho bland and terrible. personally i love hal's initial origins from the 1960s. i don't think you'll ever get a better depiction of hal as an intrinsically heroic yet externally awkward person filled to the brim with dreams and longing. i also prefer how his dynamics with carol and sinestro used to be written here before they got bogged down in a lot of the misery you see showcased by the time we make it to parallax era. the drama of that era is great obv and i love it but i also miss how cartoonish and silly and entertaining early green lantern was

*** this first chunk of green lantern vol. 3 is unfortunately written by gerard jones (aka the guy who is currently in jail for possession of child pornography. yeah) so something to keep in mind. i don't think it impacts much of what he wrote for this book specifically but it is still obv disappointing and uncomfortable so i wanted to note that. he also worked on the emerald dawn books

for the other lanterns my mutual has a carrd with essential recs for each of them here. in pre-geobard jawnes era john is mostly relegated to green lantern vol. 2 and 3 whereas guy shows up in both and then a handful of other justice league books as well as his own solo series guy gardner: warrior. kyle is probably the easiest to read about once green lantern vol. 3 segues into his introduction in the parallax era bc it obv becomes his solo book. simon and jessica have mildly interesting content in their new 52 introductions but green lanterns is probably one of the worst books i have ever read not in its content per se (although i personally do have complete apathy for new green lantern lore) but simply bc its writing is juvenile to the point of agony. which is obv standard fare for modern dc books. and then there is obv alan as well omg ty to anon for reminding me of him! i am least familiar with him but jsa 1999 is apparently a good place to start and i think he shows up sometimes in green lantern vol. 3 as well bc he mentors kyle on occasion!

[flockrest]

i hope i’ve indicated this well enough in my writing as well as my pages since starting this blog, but it doesn’t hurt to confirm — Peaks Among the Ripples is what totori lake’s rito traditionally know their home as! it’s more or less a direct translation of their actual name for it ( that i’m using solely for ease of reference. nobody would actually say “Peaks Among the Ripples” verbatim, it’d be the actual name in rito — though it might occasionally be cut down to “[their/our] peaks” in thought processes ); Rito Village is the placeholder name they give out in hylian for non-rito reference once official ties/alliances with hyrule are made. i refuse to believe they’d actually go through with such a lacklustre name when they first established their nest, come on

[newt-and-salamander]

Thinking about that boy I knew from university who started flirting with me at some point. He kept telling me my hair looked great. (I had rather shortish hair at that point, about chin-lenght.)

After a few weeks he asked me out and I declined. It wasn't that awkward and we stayed casual friends (he was part of my friend group as well). But some time later he started to tell me that I should let my hair grow because it would look better.

I honestly can't remember my reaction (I don't think it was very quick-witted). But every once in a while I think of him and honestly don't know whether I want to laugh or shout because The Audacity.

I cut my hair even shorter two weeks ago and ever since then I notice men who really aren't entitled to any opinion (like my boss or a friend's father) comment on my hair style in "neutral" ways like "Oh, your hair is short" or "it certainly looks practical" or "now that's a change" and it just baffles me because ... its ... MY????? hair. And it isn't that much of a change, it was rather short before (and it's not that short now!). I'm just a person who fills in Excel sheets for you or goes for a walk with your daughter, why do you think you need to "politely" express your discontent with my looks??

[vampirebiter]

sometimes i think i don't remember a ton of specific details in post golden age berserk since ive definitely reread the golden age the most but then i sit down and think about things for half a second and remember fuckin. everything.

[seilon]

one of my number one pieces of advice for transmascs starting t or who want to start t is WASH YOUR FACE. when you wake up and when you go to bed. get a decent acne-preventing facial cleanser and an oil-free moisturizer or whatever works for you and have a routine– preferably before going on t so you’re already used to it. my doctor was really surprised that I hadnt gotten much acne since starting t (almost 2 years now) and though it’s also partly genetics, I know for a Fact based on how quickly my face gets oily now that it’d be infinitely worse if not for getting used to washing my face more often/thoroughly. remember. yes this is like Puberty 2 BUT you have the fuckin heads up this time and can plan accordingly and that makes a BIG difference