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dni if you think charles mcgill was the 'true villain' of bcs or whatever or that he was solely in the wrong
#text#better call saul#bcs#charles mcgill#chuck mcgill#jimmy mcgill#saul goodman#now dgmw he has his problems#the biggest one is that he refuses to change#but it's so hard to change when it's hard to even accept that you have mental issues#and it's so hard to be a brother to someone like jimmy#like yeah chuck knocks him down a lot and doesn't believe in him#but jimmy makes selfish decision after selfish decision and after a while people have had enough#when he said 'we don't need to apologise to each other we don't need to understand each other'#i honestly got what he meant#jimmy doesn't need to be sorry. he's always sorry. he needs to do the work to change#and what breaks my heart is that chuck was almost there#he was almost changing#finally#but then everything changed#with the job and his interaction with jimmy#it just broke him#and jimmy changing those numbers on chuck's documents.... sorry but it's still one of the worst things he's done#bc chuck already has mental problems but now it'll be even harder for him to accept this bc everyone will see him as unstable and#untrustworthy
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This is not a new observation, but I think One Piece handles Doflamingo's backstory-- how it continues to affect his behavior and choices, as well as how it fits into the overall story-- exceptionally well. The villain who is evil due to a tragic past is a very well-established trope, but it is increasingly done quite poorly. Attempts to flesh out a villain and garner sympathy for them can become misguided justifications for their actions or goals, muddying the themes and tone of a story. My point isn't that morally complex characters can't be interesting when done competently and purpose; it's that when the villain with a tragic past is meant to be evil but his past becomes a justification, the writers' intended dynamics of the story are damaged.
Doflamingo's story never has that problem. His backstory makes it perfectly clear why he does the things he does, but it never implies that he is right to do them. It is a reason, not an excuse. The reader gets the sense that Doflamingo is very much the product of his childhood: first the golden excess of a Celestial Dragon, then the abrupt fall from grace into hatred and pain. It's the perfect storm to set a person down the worst paths possible.
But I think the reader might also feel (or at least I did) that this wasn't a fate set in stone. Doflamingo could have unlearned the ideology of a Noble and perhaps that the harm done to him doesn't justify further harm-- except that the only guidance he ever got was worship by Trebol and the other Executives, who were the nail in the coffin for any redemption Doflamingo might have had. Their appearance only validated and affirmed the beliefs Doflamingo already held regarding his place in the world.
Instead of ham-handed sympathy bait, Doflamingo's backstory is a beautifully executed extension of the worldbuilding and themes already present in the story. It is another tragedy in a world of tragedies, another story where children are put through hell. But without the external guidance and support the heroes get, Doflamingo takes the other path, becoming another perpetrator of tragedies, and a reminder that our heroes are the people they are as much (or more) because of the love and mentorship they had than due to innate goodness. It's the road less traveled, but they still might have traveled it.
#i dont think roci's story is actually a simple foil to doffy's honestly#as in. i dont think he's the bad path and roci is the good path?#i think roci story is dealing with a lot more complicated ideas actually-- par for the course with the marine characters#i could get really in the weeds with what i think OP is doing with roci's backstory in terms of the larger themes of the series tbh#i mean-- hes not on the good side. thats the thing#he got that love and guidance on an emotional level that doffy didnt have#but morally? not so much#OP makes it pretty clear that the marines are not the morally right characters#also: i dont count homing as a mentor for the brothers#because-- hes not.#we never see him helping doffy unlearn the celestial dragon values that are getting them in so much trouble#we also never see him comforting doffy or roci#and yes im aware this stuff could be happening off screen#but in a short backstory every piece of information is important#and what we dont see tells us as much about the story as what we do#oda makes a point of Not showing us homing behaving like a mentor in the same way that shanks or bellemere or even cora do#which to me says that we are not meant to read him as analogous to those characters#also i just dont like the guy. he's naive and worse-- ineffective
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Chapter 419 Analysis or "How to completely break Tenko Shimura" a manipulative guide from All For One (part 1)
This is mainly a character analysis of Shigaraki Tomura or Shimura Tenko, any other character present is there to help.
Chapter 419 was hard to comprehend even with just summaries right on April 4th. Some things need at least fan translation to fully make sense. Or just hurt more in that matter.
Warning of spoilers to the whole manga to the point of chapter 419! All of the warnings from the respective Tomura chapters are applicable.
So like... mentions of death, killing other people, manipulation, emotional abuse and many more!
This is Part 1 - See Part 2 for something less depressing
This is going to be long! So let's start, shall we?
First of all we'll need to take into understanding ALL the chapters that we'll need to remember/reread just make this chapter worse (skip if already familiar with them):
Chapter 222 - Tomura Shigaraki: Distortion
Chapter 234 - Destruction Sense
Chapter 235 - Tenko Shimura: Origins
Chapter 236 - Tenko Shimura Origins, Part 2
Chapter 237 - Tomura Shigaraki: Origins
This is your "Tenko and Tomura understanding" starter pack, basically. Without them it's harder to even start unpacking what just happened with Tomura's perspective in mind
Well then.
The chapter starts and we are immediately greeted by AFO semi-agreeing without wanting to, that Tomura was strong enough before Izuku started trying "saving" him in his own way and even succeeded making Tenko's will all the more fragile than it was when he returned using his hate to his advantage.
Even after Izuku holding Tenko's hands for the whole chapter he was still stubborn enough to continue even without that hate in his heart
And the thing that initial summaries missed was the fact that Tomura actually reacted to AFO reapperance.
Still not understanding why AFO was even saying that.
Tenko was literally taught by AFO to follow "what he wants" in ch 237 with Tenko making his first decision to kill someone himself. And never actually hiding that Tomura just needed to never forget that hatred and those bad emotions that Tomura never really understood. And it took Izuku seconds to decipher them.
With AFO reassuring Tomura that he has no need in following morals of society and just should follow whatever he wants - his want to destroy everything that hurts him. And only AFO would accept and help him. He was constantly reminded of that.
Even if Tenko was feeling sick from killing at first, even if hands that he wore were still making him sick 15 years later without him understanding anything. Decisions made while person is emotional are usually the ones that the person might regret the most and Tomura lived with those unstable emotions for years. Knowing that they hurt him and make him feel sick.
But Sensei said that it's okay to follow those emotions. That's it's actually great that he does it.
Everything was for his sake, everything was for Tomura Shigaraki and Tomura Shigaraki only. He was his Sensei's successor and no one should argue with it. He's the only one to be next ruler of the underground and the next king. And Tomura gladly accepted that as truth.
Since it was easier than facing his guilt.
Because AFO just needed Tomura to have enough willpower to get OFA when the plan is ready. To make Gigantomachia to follow him while Garaki was watching knowing full well how the plan is going. Both knowing full well that Tomura is still holding himself back.
In this chapter however we finally see how all of the things AFO told and taught Tenko were just to make him so sure that HE was in control and allowed to do whatever he wants to completely break his worldview in the end "after he gets OFA" which is an unreachable goal now since OFA is gone for good.
By just saying that Tenko never had any choice to begin with.
Tomura already knew that AFO manipulated him and he was just a pawn, needed only to get OFA and piss off All-Might he accepted and embraced it as something unimportant. It was his choice and he was free to do it and not feel bad about it. Since he's born to destroy.
Until suddenly it wasn't just his life after Decay that was manipulated.
But his whole life from birth. Just because AFO didn't get his hands on Hana sooner and she was happy while AFO needed someone hurt and broken. And Shimura's household wasn't as bad as he needed it to be at first with Kotaro loving his children, wife, in-laws and even his mother.
And AFO destroyed it by creating so much conflict and even going out of his way to make sure Tenko's father knew that he was playing heroes with some kids. And even saved them by putting his own quirkless life in danger.
In some sense narrator-Tomura's words at the end of ch 236 still might hold true. AFO didn't just create his hate out of nowhere, to make it feel like even if Tenko remembers everything it's still he's doing not a villain appearing, not just some accident that it actually was.
Although AFO doesn't say anything about people who didn't help Tenko even though he he knew that it happened so he most probably was watching it happen until Tenko lost all hope entirely to finaly make him dependent on his help.
And he succeeded for the most part.
Tomura was making an assumption after he remembered everything that he "must've been yearning for that" and from that point onwards explains everything that happened as "I wanted it - I did it" and was clinging to it like a lifeline to explain everything.
He accepted that if Re-Destro is talking about his Decay quirk affecting him he exists only to destroy.
And now it seems he found a false motivation for himself that AFO created by cruely manipulating everything from his quirk to his family. Making him believe he had a hand in it. Breaking one of "safe" truths that Tomura never doubted. They only made his decisions feel right.
Which makes that a hopeless loop of broken memories being staged just to let Tenko become Tomura who hates and destroys everything believing that it's his choice. Only choice at that.
And if destroying is him only choice because of his quirk... then what can a quirkless person do while having so many people dead from his own hands? Hands that were literally cursed to have destruction quirk in them not because he was born to do it. But because his own Sensei wanted that.
And he's "unwavering heart" is now nothing but an illusion that was destroyed by both Izuku and AFO together.
There's no "Can I be a Hero?", because can he even be a Villain if most of the choices that were from Decay and the hatred in his heart weren't actually his own?
#bnha#shigaraki tomura#tenko shimura#all for one#bnha analysis#character analysis#character study#bnha manga spoilers#bnha spoilers#my hero academia#phew that's a lot of normal tags!#honestly I think it's a mess of a post (the first draft)#and this part 1 is depressing as hell#that's what you get when LoV is not here#thankfully part 2 exists#bnha 419#rewrote most of the thing and it got even more depressing oh no#part 2 is still existing#somewhere#also I didn't add that but AFO is never talking about the people that didn't help Tenko again#like... they just rejected him and it's still true#he's still living with a 'did they reject me because I killed my family?'#the more I rewrite this the more depressing it becomes#I really like Tenko's arc so this chapter broke me for couple of days at least#and the more I was writing this more horrified I became with what exactly it all meant#we either need a whol OFA team again or at least Izuku returning into that hell that is AFOmura's mind#but once again I plan on a part 2 since even if Tomura's life is depressing LoV existed and some of them even are still alive#god this post is a nightmare of this blog
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Charlie Cox experience at Philly Fan Expo 2023
So LET”S TALK ABOUT ME MEETING CHARLIE. I’m actually going to make two posts - this one just about my experiences with Charlie, because they were incredibly meaningful and deserve their own post, and then another one about the rest of the con!
I’m going to talk about Charlie first, because of how amazing the experience was, one of the best I’ve had, especially at the autograph table. I’ve done photos, gotten autographs and such before from other celebs - from niche voice actors I loved to people like David Tennant - but this felt Really Really Big. Obviously, I was nervous as all hell because holy shit Charlie Cox, my favorite actor whose work altered the course of my life. I won’t lie - I’d been practicing what to say to him in case I freaked out, but I’m happy to say that everyone who reassured me it would go great, because he was so, so genuine and kind, were right.
The photo op happened first (and thank you to everyone on tumblr guiding me where to go, cause I was LOST about where that was happening), and that went fast. By that point in the con hall, I’d already ditched my Jessica Jones jacket and gloves cause holy shit it’s hot and I am a creature of snow and ice, and my hair was a mess, but honestly I didn’t care, cause there he is. You don’t get long, but he made the most of it and he was SO sweet. Ya’ll, he asked my name, said my name as he shook my hand, and called me ‘my dear’ in that beautiful voice.
I was literally on the moon, but it was time for the big question:
Will he hold the red thread from TRT?
So in a quiet, nervous, soft author voice, I asked, ‘would you be ok with holding this end of the thread?’
HE FUCKING DID.
HE HELD IT.
HE HELD. THE. RED. THREAD.
I’m fairly certain he doesn’t know about the fic at this point - he wasn’t sure where to hold it until I told him, but he loved that it lit up! AND THEN HE PUT HIS ARM AROUND ME AND I GOT TO PUT MY ARM AROUND HIM BACK.
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I’m fairly certain I’m dead in the photo. My soul had left my body. I had ascended. I saw Jesus and he looked like Charlie. I had achieved fic author heights never imagined. My brain filled with enough serotonin and dopamine to sink a ship. I didn’t care that I was hot and sweaty or that my hair was messy or that my cosplay didn’t work out like I’d planned. I had been blessed.
also look at that forearm holy shit
I floated outta that gd room ya’ll. I’m pretty sure @wonderlandmind4 did the same. WE FROLICKED OUT OF THAT HALL LIKE
But things got even better at the autograph table, and I had one of the most touching experiences ever.
not me tearing up thinking about it.
That line was long, but I kept getting glimpses of him and I could already tell he was enjoying interacting with people, and he was making sure everyone got their bit of time with him instead of letting anyone rush people through. He was so happy looking, laughing and grinning, high fives and fist bumps for kids, chatting with fans. Which made me feel a little more confident.
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I know some people wondered if I’d tell him about TRT, and I’d already decided I wasn’t going to. Instead, I really, really wanted just a second to tell him what his work as Daredevil had meant for me, as someone who became disabled around the same time Matt did as a kid, and who related to... a lot of what Matt went through in the show. I’d practiced it over and over again, and there was only a fifty percent chance I wouldn’t start crying while telling him, and I wasn’t even sure I’d have time to tell him depending on how much time we had.
He made time.
I got up to him with my art print holy shit he’s even more beautiful in person and his eyes are STUNNING. He said hi, and asked my name so he could personalize the autograph if I wanted (DUH, YES PLEASE), and he apologized about the line after we shook hands. I jokingly told him it was fine since I’d driven hours to get here. A little time in line wasn’t a bother. He even loved one of the buttons on my lanyard - the button of Matt wearing a heart crown specifically! And as he was writing, I knew this was my chance to tell him. He was still signing, so I just decided to go for it in case I ran out of time.
“I just wanted to tell you,” I said quietly, “as someone who became disabled as a kid around the same age as Matt did—”
And then he did something I didn’t expect, something I’d rarely seen anyone do, famous or not, and something I’d never had an actor or artist do for me.
He immediately set down the pen, leaned in close over the table, and made direct eye contact, while giving me the most genuine, gentle, encouraging smile I’d ever seen.
In that moment, I knew everything in him was listening, that he cared about what I was about to say and recognized that this was important to me, and that he’d closed the distance to make this conversation just... us. It felt personal in a way I’ve never experienced at a con or signing.
Just like that, I wasn’t afraid to tell him what I’d wanted to.
“And as someone who related to... a lot of what Matt went through, his struggles in the show, and especially the dark parts of season 3,” I said, more confidently now, “I wanted you to know that all the work you put in, the way you played it, the way you played Matt and treated it seriously, seeing that helped me process and heal from a lot of my own trauma and pain over what I’ve gone through with my illnesses. What you did was important and it really helped me. So I wanted you to know that, how much that meant to me, and to say thank you.”
The whole time I spoke to him, he kept direct eye contact, and didn’t look away once. He didn’t get antsy, or look like he wanted me to hurry up (which I’d have understood, cause damn, these are long days for him). He listened, fully engaged and leaning in, his eyes warm and soft and kind but incredibly serious. I’m not sure how often he’s been told something like this—a lot, I expect; his portrayal was just that good, and I know it was important to a lot of fans—but what I was trying to tell him clearly meant something to him. I felt heard, seen, and understood.
Charlie really does care about his fans. It isn’t an act. I’m sure of it now.
“Thank you, truly,” he said, just as quietly but with that honest smile, eye crinkles and all, and seeing it in person, that close up, I swear the room felt ten times brighter. “Thank you for coming to tell me that. It means a lot, the idea that something I did meant so much and that it could help you. I’m so grateful that you were able to come visit and tell me.”
We shook hands after that. He wished me a good day and I told him thank you again, and that was that. The interaction only lasted maybe a minute, but it meant the absolute world to me, as did what he’s done as Daredevil. And now he knows that.
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#Philly Fan Expo#Charlie Cox#Daredevil#he HELD THE THREAD ya'll#my fanfic author life is now complete#and honestly as a fan i don't know if any other experience will ever top those moments I got with Charlie#he is so so kind and warm and wonderful#the way he immediately stopped and gave me his full attention when i started to tell him what it meant#i just had to stop for a second and collect myself because just...#he was *listening* and despite all the noise and chaos i suddenly had his full attention#the way he leaned in so the conversation felt like it was just us and the way he cocked his head and focused on me like#i can't think of a single celeb or interaction like that where i've felt that much like what i was saying to him mattered#(that's not dissing the other actors and celebs i've met. they've all been wonderful! but charlie definitely has a special kindness i think)#and i can now say having been that close to him and having spoken with him over something fairly serious#he is literally one of the kindest celebs i've met and the most genuine#you can literally see the warmth in his eyes when he looks at you. he's *legitimately* happy you're there to talk to him or see him#maybe one day he'll find out about TRT. i'm honestly not sure#but even if he doesn't at least I got a chance to tell him how much what he's done has helped me heal#from a lot of really... really hard things in my life#and according to a friend (who I didn't even know was there but spotted me talking to Charlie from another line!)#Charlie did indeed stay until WAY late signing everyone's stuff so that no one missed an autograph#he said his estimation of Charlie just shot way up because even hours later he was still taking his time with each fan that came up#Charlie has absolutely solidified as my favorite actor and one of the nicest people I've had the pleasure of meeting
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normalest friend group
#wrong they all hate each other#except for elias only eden hates him rightfully so#he got his bestie dante exhiled anyways thats for when i design kat which might be never back to the line up#brooke looks so cute shes eliciting a omg puppy response from me. never slimming her face down again her cheeeks#the more adorable they look the eviller they are. in order brooke elias diamila eden#diamila will stab you in the back for fun and she probably has the highest vampire bodycount in the us BUT she doesnt kill humans#so that basically makes her a good person#elias and brooke would literally kill a kid the only difference is elias would only do it if he was pissed brooklyn would do it for fun😭#shes so cute#wip#ill draw a full body line up later shivers#elias and brooke are the only ones where same face syndrome kicked in but i dont mind that much there is literally no way theyd get mixed u#wait let me go back on what i didnt mention#eden is off the evil scale hes a relatively good guy.... by kindred standards tho hes still a hypocrite kind of nines style but worse#he did the most to become baron and rallies the anarchs into going to war w the camarilla basically but he cant stomach violence#back to how much they all hate each other diamila and eden used to be friends but she did her usual backstabbing when chose the vt m b#camarilla ending diamila hates brooke and brooke just dislikes her but has no reason to hate her and eden and brooke hate love each other#mostly hate by 2021 honestly#his bestie wasnt named dante i meant it dante exhiled. you know
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Stampede aka another episode of luffy turning haters into dick riders just with his kind and big heart
#i might understand all the robin law fanfare... its been 26 minutes of stampede......#frobin reigns supreme imo still.....#VICEADMIRAL MOMONGA TOCAME LA PORONGA??? HELLO#THE LOG POSE TO LAUGH TALE???? and hancock arrived ❤️❤️#usopp saving luffh omg.....#blonde buggy..... why are we doing this to out beautiful women...#fujitora is on his own frequency... here you go a meteorite.. whatever happens to all of you and our troops happens goodbye#mihawk intervened bc zoro couldn't do it omg.... nami keep watch he is going to end it all tonight jesus#also persona following mihaw for a second movie ajdjaks.... i love them together honestly#brosalino is the kuma guy's uncle????? nepotism......#calling this guy the heir of the demon.... taking blame off ace akdjsksn.... you know whats funny in movies garp is very like thoughtful and#comprehensive of others peoples issues and then you get to how he raised luffy and like.... wouldn't that have been good there....#and with ace too lmao.... i mean he didnt have abandonment issues but just wait and see to a 10yo asking if he is worthy of living idk...#i get the meaning of it and what he meant but we all know ace didnt get that at the time until luffy got there#usopp.... see how when oda writes the movies it feels different.... first steong world with namo and now stampede with usopp...#the relationship moments really hit.. i was gonna comment about zoro and the cursed sword but that was just focusing on him#well this one wasnt written by oda but supervised i will take it....#hina taking the kids aldjakskal...... smoker and hina best straight ship behind frobin imo..... baby 5 x sai number 3 spot#sabo....... actually thank you bc smoker thinks he can take anybody#hancock and buggy AJSJAKAKLQQ omg usopp dont cry....... luffy will KILL that guy for making usopp feel like that lmao YEAAAH!!!!!#law smoker sabo the luffy lover squad..... each in their own way lmao#hancock its been so long how are you <3 omg law what are you doing here <3 my brother sabo hello.#crocodile made the plan of course.... luffy lover member too#usopps bullets omg....#sanji and zoro against lucci omg..... YEAAAHHHH#wait a second straw hat crew costume by uniqlo design team??? THE DRIP!!!#luffy seeing ace beside luffy with the fire goodbye.... he is EVERYWHERE#talking tag#watching one piece#watching one piece movies
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Trying to remember where I first encountered humanity as a horror to see if this has a root the same way you can trace literally all of my thirst for fictional characters back to WITCH, but ngl I genuinely cannot remember anything like that.
#like you know. usually if something becomes human the narrative depicts it positively#like this is a good thing this is teh goal yay yippee#and that's great of course#love that#but everybody knows that i keep a collection of characters whose main conflict is humanity (horror) vs their nature#the example everyone likely knows is The Last Unicorn. and I saw the film adaptation when i was like 5 so maybe that's the root#but the thing is i... didn't realise the true horror of it until i read the book#so that shouldn't be it. but yes TLU is a classic example of humanity being the body horror AND the psychological horror#the unicorn was not meant to be a human. its nature isn't to be a human. it doesn't know human emotions. but it does now.#fully against its will and against the laws of nature it was changed into a she and now she is just like us and every day she looks#at her hands with horror and the hideous caricature in the mirror does not become less nausea inducing no matter how much#time passes. the repulsion gives only when the mind does. who are you really? what are you really?#and then she turns back but it ahs changed her. she will live knowing love and empathy and the fear of death.#she'll never belong anywhere and she'll have no kin. she's no longer human and no longer a unicorn.#sorry that got long because it's fucked up and depressing. but yeah that's like the prototype. the other wonderful classic#has got to be Viser I in Ani//morphs but honestly all Ye//erks are inherently this trope?#but a bit differently because they actually AREN'T that different from humans but their society shaped them into being#very different and the real horror is in realising that you have been very human all along. against your will.#the horror is just the same as if someone forced you to become a human because; well; what is the difference really?#perhaps it's even worse. i mean; the knowledge that you have always been like this; that has to be horrible; right?#and the other members of this beautiful collection aren't exactly classics but I love collecting them anyway. favourite niche fucked up#thing for real. for the uninitiated currently the other ones are Var//ney from Castle//vania (a mix of both of the above technically.#since he's something that is fully separate from humans YET his nature is actually human to the point that a character comments#on it and the kicker is he's fucking right! he's more human than many a vampire used to be. the humanity is inherent but he's very human#against his will and he'd deny being like humans at all. separating himself from humanity but hey! someone forgot that mirrors#are a thing! and they might not reflect vampires but they reflect what's within and boy your words are bullets shot in the dark corridors#of a funhouse and when they hit those funky panes of glass the one bleeding is you. you better check your mouth is dry#before you open it with a grin and stare in shock as blood pours out next time#another example is Gray from Dreamcatcher. yes i continue to ignore those few sentences at the end that completely ruin all the themes#and the last example is The Wi//nged Li//on. for obvious reasons. I'd say that's a mix of Gray and TLU
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Finally forcing myself to do an alternate run of DA2 with a lady warrior just so that I can spend time with Bethany for the first time and my feelings are all over the place.
Whattya mean I give her a portrait of Leandra from before she ran off with Malcolm and her reaction is to say "My whole life, Mother's been so sad and worried. All because of my cursed magic. It's nice to have a reminder of a time when she still knew how to smile."
Like... that's so loaded and heartbreaking, what am I even supposed to say to that??
#da2#dragon age 2#bethany hawke#i miss carver so much too bethany talks about him a lot and it's just a constant reminder that he's not here...#and i miss playing as ed but i've come around to my lady hawke aris#except i honestly don't know what to do with bethany because i know she'll hate being a warden but i cannot fathom leaving her behind#for her to be taken to the circle... i know she'll be all 'no it's fine i thought about joining anyway :)' it's not fine IT'S NOT FINE#but the third option is death and that's the worst one gaaahhhh I dunno#carver's so easy because he works so well as a warden... i guess that's the trade off though i got beth's friendship maxed out immediately#meanwhile with carver i have to pull up the little guide i wrote for myself to max out his friendship sksksksks i love him it's worth it#listen the hawke twins are my favorites and i would throw all of my companions into the ocean if it meant their happiness okay
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NO YOU’RE SO RIGHT ABOUT THE MAJIMA STUFF THOUGH. GOD. God forbid you speak poorly about the fandom silly guy etc etc. I rt’d one post about someone being annoyed abt majima getting an insane amount of merch (especially compared to other characters- even other PLAYABLE characters) and suddenly my TL is filled with ppl taking it as a personal attack….. like?? Settle down???
My one fear is that instead of Mine content we’re just gonna get Majima Saga 2 for yk3 and rgg will call it a day. WHAT ELSE IS THERE TO SAY ABOUT THE GUY !!! GENUINELY!!!
at this rate we’re going to have a complete record of Majima’s life from birth until modern day bc you knowww they’re never gonna let the cash cow die or retire. + god I lowkey need the 3jimas to break up Now so saejima and daigo can stand on their own again (w/out being overshadowed by Majima)…. Saejima especially… I miss the days when he felt like a character………
(I may have a lot to say on the topic) (he’s a fun character but at this rate I’m getting so sick of the fandom around him)
gen is kinda funny how when there's the Monthly Critique Of Majima post on twitter the rggtwt part of the tl is flooded with majima fans being upset. its like clockwork really LOL
as for saejima, i do miss him being solo... like he's funny with majima at times, but as wack as Y4 was i still really liked his coliseum scene, and his prison adventures in Y5 were a real treat too..
#snap chats#like you say one mild comment about majima in passing and then you have mates acting as if you burned their crops#like .. its never this serious .. also i think people have the right to be a littttttle miffed that other charas barely get anything#its starting to change with the plushies and saejima/akiyama figures so thats great but. still a way to go LOL#its just esp Lol inducing because kiryu and ichi are protagonists so it makes sense for them to get stuff#but majima is quite literally a side character that wasnt meant to have this much popularity#the concept of a chara becoming popular by accident isnt bad thats not the thing- its even cool when that happens#its just sometimes you just see people act really entitled to stuff for that character while every other chara is ignored#and then the same people acting surprised when others go 'actually ive had a bit enough of this guy'#honestly if they did another majima segment for a hypothetical yk3 id laugh. like id be a bit annoyed but id mostly laugh#cause truly what else is there. he's like a comic book character we just gotta keep making situations for him til hes 90#idk. just so funny majima's been given a sort of 'weird' protagonist status#and i say weird because he IS a protagonist but just compared to how he actually functions throughout y1-y6. lol. lmao even#like youre right in that majima's a fun character but he really is better in just small doses imo#or. at least i need people to relax on the idea of a 'majima gaiden' or making him any more prominent in the games than he is now#anyway i cant be bitter posting my dad is being funny as hell. he got us bracelets and he was like#'in our family you and i are the only ones who like these. makes us cool' and i was like 'yeah dad we're so cool'#and this old man is just 'we're so cool ☺️' LIKE PL E A S E THE EMOJI TOOK ME OUT. i love my dad. all bitterness is gone from my heart#anyways bye if rgg gives majima a saga in yk3 im gonna livestream playing that and only that#not even yk3 just the majima part 😭😭😭😭
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Dr Who: The Brigadier is a silly military man. He's stubborn, and unflappable, and extremely loyal to the Doctor and his men (soldiers). This man can deal with anything, like a champ. Water off his back, yknow?
Lethbridge-Stewart books: This dude is getting traumatised every single day and he doesn't get a moment's break. Anything that could happen to him, will. Will he cope with the trauma? not really. He's a resilient dude, but he'll just pretend most of it didn't happen, for his own sanity
#rambles#classic doctor who#brigadier lethbridge stewart#ok ok ok i cant say every book is like that because there's so. many. books... but the first two are#(i think 'forgotten son' is set only a couple months after 'web of fear'. 'schizoid earth' is set probably not even a month after#'forgotten son'.) at the end of 'schizoid earth' he tells his colleague/friend what he went through and how he doesnt know if he was#interrogated or in fact tortured (im in the camp of 'pumping him with drugs that force him the tell the truth and also make it so he can't#trust his senses and he's unable to tell whats real or not' is torture. it still hadnt worn off when he got back) and his colleague said he#couldnt take a week off. he legit doesn't get a break T-T#updating the tag - i've started the third book and the prologue is just about alistair's shit mental health and now he isnt really dealing#with it because honestly how IS he meant to deal with it?
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wip for my hanahaki au ; zosan / lawsan
Where 2 years had changed so much and Sanji wanted something more than just fooling around but Zoro wanted to cut it off and focus on his training and dreams.
After reuniting Sabaody, Sanji contracts hanahaki disease. The only person who knew and who helped him cure the disease was Law. The situation had helped them get to know each other.
Sadly for Zoro he only realized who Sanji was to him during the incident in Zou. Even then it was already too late...
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He's not petty. Definitely not. Petty is for small-minded insecure people. And Roronoa Zoro is not that kind of person. And even if he was that kind of person, he still wouldn't be petty for this kind of reason, because that would only mean he cares and it gets under his skin. Surely, it doesn't.
Sanji could feed whoever the hell he wants to. But still. Onigiri was his thing. Right?
Rice and a good sea king meat mixed together. Even one of his moves is called onigiri. So why...
Zoro just kept his mouth shut and looked away. Downing booze to drown his thoughts and whatever he was feeling away. It was helping. It really did. The light buzz of the alcohol had able him to relax and enjoy the banquet. Even making him tolerate Hiyori more than he thought he could.
Mantra of words, trying so hard to keep his mind focus. "It's nothing. It doesn't matter. Everything is just fine" He is a master of his own thoughts. Discipline and meditation was one of the things he's very good at. Nothing could distract him. Well,
That was until... Until...
He suddenly wish that the grim reaper had taken him after fighting King that day.
In front of everyone, He saw how Sanji cough to try and get everyone's attention as he slowly reached out for Law's hand caressing them lovingly as he made them intertwined. Law's face flushed. His free hand covering his mouth lazely, his face leaning on his left side looking away as if hiding his face, evidently embarrassed. Sanji brought their intertwined hands together to his face for a kiss.
Everyone looked over curiously.
While Zoro tried everything in his power to remain stoic. But does he really need to? When the moment he saw everything he felt his heart freeze. He couldn't do or say anything. He felt his throat constricting. He felt so insignificant before Sanji. Like how he and everyone didn't exist and it was only him and Law in this world.
Sanji chuckled for a bit as he looked embarrassed Law softly. And then looked over at everyone with a big grin on his face.
He said,
"Traffy and I started dating."
Loud happy sounds of cheering and clapping roared on the banquet room. Everyone was so happy. Happy for them. Happy for him.
Sanji smiled so brightly. Zoro had never seen that smile before... he had never seen him looked so happy before.
Zoro's stomach churned. It felt like something was stuck on him throat and he wanted to throw up.
But he didn't. He didn't want to ruin this for the cook. Especially after the fuck up shit his family did to him in Whole Cake Island.
So instead he brought his sake cup on his mouth gulping everything in one go. Hoping the cup would hide his face.
He feigned happiness. He wanted to be happy for him too but he'd be lying because he can't. He can't when it was because of another person who was making him this happy.
Thankfully, no one else thought he was acting indifferently. He never was big on showing emotions anyway.
He only held his cup up as a sign of salute. And smile a little. Even if it felt force.
Because it was. He wanted to go. Away from here.
#surprised surprised zoro got hanahaki too#honestly this will forever be just a wip because i don't see zosan ending in this one i fear...#all I can say lawsan have a very good relationship in this fic compared to the tumultuous type of relationship zosan is...#I can't hate Zoro in this fic. thriller bark & sabaody traumatized him. he really locked in during the timeskip..#its just bad timing i guess#i made lawsan here very healthy and open and slow#Zoro was never mean to Sanji here. he just got gis priorities straight. and sanji can overthink sometimes.#he thought in Zoro's mind he's a distraction.#also the operation happened pre-dressroda#so yeah it might have affected what he did in zou. and also yes#law is one of the reason why he chose to cure himself of hanahaki... even if it meant to never love zoro again...#as for the ending I don't know... I really really wanna make zosan endgame but I don't want to fuck lawsan over just because im biased#honestly this is just one of those moments when I think abou unrequitedau but in Sanji's side plus a 'what if it didn't work out' moments
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how do you write spamton's dialouge? i feel like so much of the original message is construed by his glitching and your ad interuptions are always so consistent and original. like what's your method for writing it out lol
ooo i've been hoping to get a question like this!! i love talking about spams dialogue :D
with some of it i use irl junk mail messages that wind up in my spam mail folder and incorporate those when i draw a blank on what to make him say. He's really wacky and like, referencing a lot of his dialogue in-game and sweepstakes, it can be either 1. relevant to what he means or 2. completely and utterly unrelated to what he means. sometimes i'll just throw in a reference that combines the two (like using a single word for what he means with other unrelated context) and just trust the reader to interpret it that way. i feel like writing his dialogue is risky at times cuz u don't wanna get too confusing which is why i'm like so happy when his point gets across to readers as intended!! Most of his little interruptions just kind of pop up in my head since i've been writing him for so long!
his speech is honestly a free plane with little rules, but like i tend to stray away from references that are too recognizable for us (like mentioning an irl name for example like home depot or starbucks), and instead go for vague advertising/memes i've seen/heard in infomercials/ads/on the internet that are just forever stuck in the crevices of my brain somewhere until they're unearthed from being buried by the passage of time. idk, for me, too obvious references in spamton-centered fic can really take me out of their universe and it's hard to mentally get back in. it's like a bad reality whiplash. if i REALLY want to reference something irl, i'll lean into a "if you get it you get it" mindset
(like i think in one chapter i made his tics reference the tumblr post of the 'down with cis bus youtube poop audio' and i literally couldn't hold myself back from that it was too funny to not include)
overall he's just too fun to write for once you get over the challenge of facing his daunting manner of speech. He can get as funny/scary/flirtatious/mean/crazy/etc without even meaning to be so. i've gone for the approach that he can't control the stuff he says, so my method is establishing the tone of the conversation/scene first before i get creative with what he actually says
#i've honestly noticed in my old writing how much more incomprehensible it was compared to writing him now#before i got the hang of how he talks#or maybe that's just me#i'm looking back like 'what??? what was i tryna make him say???'#but maybe that's the point#he just wants you to click on what he's selling! a lot of it is exaggerated to sell!#he's not meant to be understood#and it rlly drills in how powerless others feel when they don't understand him when they truly want to#asks
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The thing is Justified... I know a lot of peeps like it but its not really my jam, but holy hell does Walton steal every scene he's in! Timothy Olyphant is great too, but even if I didn't know how amazing Walton is already as an actor, he really does capture your attention from the off. So that's why I've started watching it anyways 😅
Its also so funny to me Boyd Crowder's supposed to be this big bad antagonist from the off, but so far (as I've watched) what he's done is appear very receptive to Raylan's presence and requests and bascially winds him up a lot! Every time Boyd's showed up in recent eps i've watched he's been like "Raylan, let me bring up your trauma for a second. Do you want to talk about your daddy issues?"
Whilst Raylan shuts him down quickly and Boyd is just like "hmm, do you think your repressing of your emotions is boiling up into a rage and that's why ur so trigger happy, babe? Maybe u should do something about that..." - it's great haha ^^
#boyd is like raylan my dearest love and enemy seek therapy lmao#like if he's the one saying go get help for your problems u know its gotta be bad#wow is raylan bad at emotions hes all over the place#he's got the spirit but he's also so trigger happy and dealing with slight toxic masculinity crap#boyd looks a lot healthier in comparison hahaha#justified fx#boyd crowder#raylan givens#kind of#boyd x raylan#i want to study them and put them under a glass#they're so scrunkly and fucked up and meant to be friends even tho they are the worst for each other#ya know what i mean?#boyd was really like I could make him worse but whatvrs going on with him now is interesting enough#and honestly good for him#jury's out on if i like ava tbh i'm not totally vibing with how she's been written but I reserve judgement for later
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SPONTANEOUS DS NIGHTMARE TORTURE WEEK, i love that honestly, people should definitely do it more lmaoo I was NOT expecting the rambling in the tags but i am all here for it haha, i love hearing ur thoughts on them, they are sooo unhealthy together it's insane, mostly due to Jet's part because, well, i mean look at him... DS Night definitely think this guy is weird and wonders why he keeps bothering him, and Jet is like, "i'm gonna keep you now :)" Dark is probably not happy with this lol
hehehe
The ‘spontaneous DS Nightmare Torture week’ comment was really just a silly way of saying ‘my brain has been having a fun time tormenting him the past few days’
but I mean. spontaneous character torture weeks could be made an event. If someone who knew how to organize such events decided to do one.
I don’t know how to organize events
Dark is probably fine with what’s up with Jet and Nightmare though. As much as he loves Jet he doesn’t see their relationship as romantic, and Nightmare’s mostly chill. It’s not like he can see that Jet’s being a manipulative bastard
Which is funny because Jet definitely thinks his and dark’s relationship is romantic and. Honestly his reasoning for that isn’t unreasonable. but he still made assumptions without talking to dark about it so Jet almost certainly told Nightmare that Dark is his partner. Which means that Nightmare, especially if he does decide he likes Jet enough to consider dating him, talks to and treats Dark like Jet’s boyfriend. Dark doesn’t process that at all and thinks Nightmare’s acting a little odd, but nightmare is a little odd (positive) so he brushes it off as nothing
For better or worse, should nightmare decide to stay, he’s definitely going to find out what Dark actually thinks his and Jet’s relationship is, discover that Jet made assumptions (and why he made those assumptions), and then push Jet over to Dark and make them talk about it. Because Jesus Christ, dude. Also if he’s getting involved in this mess he’s not gonna deal with them being Like This. They can talk about dating once those two figure their shit out
This means Jet and Dark’s relationship gets better on the surface (whichever way that conversation goes) because they’re both on the same team age, but on a deeper level it gets worse because now that they’re on the same page Dark has unwittingly been pulled into Jet’s bullshit a little further. which is kind of impressive at this point
Under normal circumstances Nightmare would see the red flags and maybe try to talk to Dark about it, but if he’s considering dating Jet then he is incapable of seeing said flags now. Or he just ignores them entirely.
Jet’s going to have to either try really, really hard to get Nightmare away from Cross and Error, or he’s going to have to manipulate them into thinking he’s a chill guy as well. The second option would be much easier, even though all three of them together look out for each other. If one of them doesn’t trust Jet, the other two listen to their concerns and keep their guard up. None of them are used to being able to trust people just Because, and while Jet being a corrupt means that they don’t have to worry about him giving them up to JR, he’s still a stranger. And they sure as hell see the red flags when he decides he wants to keep Nightmare.
The good news for Cross and Error is that Jet will only go far enough to convince them he’s trustworthy. He’s not interested.
actually wait I just remembered most people haven’t defaulted to cross and error being women
ok well they might be fucked if they’re dudes. They’re very cute.
but in my version of DS with Cross and Error being girls, he’s too gay to be interested. Unless Cross is butch enough that he doesn’t even realize she’s a girl at first, and even when he realizes he’s still. A little intrigued. Which is a non-zero possibility. Especially since I usually say Jet has a thing for big strong guys. Big strong butch women might do it for him too. Sometimes.
anyway. I think there was another thought but it’s gone now.
#amethystlight#The only thing better I think is for Jet to try this shit with Pluto#because getting him away from slash and byte is *not* a fucking option. the moment he so much as implies Pluto should leave them behind#Pluto’s mental and emotional walls go up and Jet will not be able to break through for a VERY long time#even if he can convince Pluto that that wasn’t what he meant/he was kidding/whatever#and by ‘better’ I mean ‘oohohohohoh what’s gonna happen hehehe 👀’#Jet would probably enjoy ’befriending’ a trio of unhinged murderers#and honestly it’s probably a good thing for him if he does#Dark’s definitely not happy with THIS though. Even if no one outright tells him he’s almost definitely going to find out what those three do#in their spare time regardless#it would be a little was to manipulate them in that they’re much more forgiving of some of the bullshit Jet might do#*a little easier#but much harder too because they trust even less than their original counterparts#Jet’s under threat of murder for ages though even if he befriends them because something is still off about him#but it’s an unspoken threat. And he forgets about it after a while#it’s not like he’s gonna do anything they’ll want to kill him for hahahaha#he probably also tells Dark that he’s trying to make friends with the horror squad for his own and for Dark’s safety#‘if we’re friends then they won’t kill either of us’#dark does not think this is a good reason but also thinks Jet just got scared and made an unusually thoughtless mistake#he doesn’t question it aside from ‘I can’t believe this.’
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rambling again
#okay so. post werewolf bensaro au. amaro KNOWS there are three werewolves in svu — olivia barba and rollins#olivia got to maul william lewis in this au btw because honestly. what did u expect when u fucked with a werewolf.#anyways carisi having the fattest crush on barba and rollins but knowing he can’t ask them out because theyre always seen on dates together#but when sonny accidentally opens up mail meant for amaro he gets doused with a A/B/O induced drug. and starts going into heat#and olivia offers to take care of sonny because she’s the. y’know. literal werewolf alpha of the squad. but barba and rollins are NOT havin#it because they’ve been head over heels for carisi for months! they should be the ones to help him through the weird ABO sex pollen!#carisi slamming the hospital door open because he can hear them bitching about who gets to fuck him — and he really shouldnt find this#so oddly endearing. asks barba and rollins if they consent to fucking him and they are more than eager to fill him to the brim with a knot.#valeress rambles#i need to start writing coherent shit. i need to write a damn fanfic
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nooo, but thinking back on the ending of the second bunny mask series (which would be 'the hollow inside') and how bunny literally just... DUSTS this spirit that's been causing people trouble as if it was nothing makes me? wonder more about the 'code' she made up as to when she can punish someone / kill someone consists of?? particularly whenever it comes to other supernatural creatures, like fellow spirits???
because it was showed multiple times throughout BOTH comic series that bunny mask will be pretty much merciless towards any humans who hurt other's (animals included) but. suddenly, this other spirit shows up and it seems to be a different story, even though they were causing trouble the instant they appeared. like i can't help but keep on thinking about that line she said regarding the hollow, which is the spirit that showed up + started to harm humans. and this is right after tyler asked her whether she was going to do anything about them...
and bunny mask said 'i could stop them, but the real question is, will i stop them?' which really makes me scratch my head because could it be that there is some sort of rule against killing other spirits when you ARE one unless certain circumstances take place? or was bunny mask saying this because she was willing to overlook all the trouble the hollow was causing, until they actually tried to mess with tyler?
because in the comics, bunny mask dusting them happens right after the hollow actually tries to kill tyler, coincidentally enough. orrr is it something else like i'm overthinking things? that could also be a possibility LOL but it's just weird to me, because everything bunny did in the comics seemed to have some sort of purpose to it. it almost makes me think that maybe she didn't have enough power to ''dust'' them, perhaps, and/or didn't want to get involved in killing them for one reason or another
#SOMETHING FEELS AMISS: musings.#ooc post.#honestly... i feel like it could be anything LMAO but that is one line in particular that has stuck in my mind like glue#just because of how uncharacteristic it seems for bunny mask to see evil and not want to immediately take 'care of it' so-to-speak#but there is also a point to be made i think that perhaps the true motive behind bunny mask not wanting to defeat the hollow outright-#is because she wanted to help tyler transform into the person he was always meant to be because the whole point of the hollow-#is that they target people who are 'empty' and bunny mask was just waiting for the moment where tyler eventually got targeted by them-#because he truly believed that he didn't have anything or anyone to depend on in the beginning / had no valuable relationships with#others and in creating one with someone else he was able to prevent the hollow from killing him + only at THAT moment did bunny mask#decide to kill the hollow by 'dusting' them. and idk i suppose that sounds like the most viable candidate as for what she was trying to do#because i don't believe that bunny mask would just let innocent people be killed so maybe it was a mixture of the power thing and that#IDK i'm spitballing now BUT i just think it's interesting haha#I AM HERE BECAUSE I AM BUNNY MASK: character study.
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