#i havent painted in a long ass time

[abysswatchers420]

i said i'd do it and i did. @whalepunk got me all the paints, brushes, and paper 🥹

[doomedclockworkdotmp3]

heeyyy gaaanggg

the pose and the background of the album version (left) are based on oingo boingos only a lad album art. not cause i think he has anything to do with it but just cause ive been wantin to draw that pose for like. weeks and i didnt know who to put there. so why not my latest bug man.

[ganondoodle]

realized i painted half the environments on the first pages of chapter two in the wrong color and it kinda deflated the determination i had to push myself to get the first comic update out asap :/

[just-call-mefr1es]

how did i do this with ibis paint x and a knockoff apple pencil my friend gave me

[coridallasmultipass]

Got my Dirk shirt all remade now, over a decade later, lol. The first one (from either 2011 or 2012, I don't remember) was on a thrifted shirt (bad idea, because it was already thinning, and costs the same, and it's RARE to find plain white shirts in a thrift store, so you don't get to choose the size - I had to alter the old one). I also accidentally bought shimmer paint because I thought "Pearl" meant the paint was matte. (Pearls are matte, they're not shimmer glittery!!) And I only had one size of good quality paint brush to use.

Now, I have new materials (still the wrong paint, because the store only had the 3D/textured paint in orange, but I made it work), and more brush sizes I can use. I still traced the shape and placement from the old shirt, both to save time, and also because it's like, using something from the old one to make the new one, like handing down the torch, or whatever sentimental reason. (The old one was traced off my old laptop screen, I think.)

I already made a mistake when I tried scraping off a microscopic paint fleck off the sleeve and accidentally held the black brush in my other hand and painted all over the shoulder and it wouldn't wash out, but I've decided that, that will be a grease spot from patching up Squarewave, so if you see the splotch in my future cosplay, 'it was intentional.' \></

So yeah. Here's to many more years of Homestuck cosplay, lmao.

[bmpmp3]

oog

[tomlivingspace]

wips hee hee

[bonbonly]

bon's thoughts (18+) a/n: just realized i havent written for maxie in a while!

sugardaddy!max verstappen sits next to you, across from the professor of your class . your parents are out in another country so they cannot make it. you had been caught cheating (again) and your professor had let it slide the first time because max insisted on giving him some money to excuse your stupidity. but the second time, it seemed that nothing could budge your professor. max glances over to you, seeing the way your arms are crossed and you're dazing off to the distance without a care in the world.

the professor is willing to excuse you again as long as max doubles the amount of money he paid last time, and max's jaw drops. he clenches his fists before nodding his head, "fine... fine, i'll pay again." and he hates the way you're smiling.

when you get back to his house, he carries you to the bedroom and flips you onto his lap, smacking your ass as you cry out, "what'd i do?"

"what did you do? you waste my money like this! all i ask of you is to just get a decent grade, but you're just so lazy you won't put any work!" he continues to lay blows on your ass, watching the way it reddens with each smack. when he's deemed it's enough, he tosses you onto the bed and yanks your clothes off of you. he laughs in your face, "fuck? already wet? such a slut for me aren't you?"

he spits on your cunt, letting his cock run along your folds before pushing into you in one thrust. he grips your waist and begins to set a brutal pace, loving the way you're already arching your back and screaming as he continues, "i should just never let you go to college. not like you're doing anything useful there anyway. you should be my personal cum dump, that's all you're good for, fuck!" he groans out loud, rubbing your clit as your pussy clenches at his words. "getting wetter at my words? why am i not surprised, schat? you're such a whore, i don't expect anything less from you."

you whine out loud when he pulls out of you to paint your tits with his cum, "you pass a test without cheating and then i'll let you cum. for fuck's sake, acting like i'm going to reward you after the shit you do." he rolls his eyes, grabbing his clothes and walking out of the room.

he's more than happy to have his girl ride his cock once you get a good grade on the next test, and he doesn't stop letting you cum. again, and again and again. "you asked for this," he laughs, watching you squirm, trying to get off of him but he slams your hips right back down onto his cock, "come on schatje, i thought you wanted this? i need to reward my girl, she actually decided to do good on her test for once!"

the entire night is filled with your screams and his cum stuffing you full.

[kk43mi]

HII LOVE UR WORK😘😘

Imagine having sex with kazuha and you're taking sooo long to cum so to make the poor guy happy with himself u fake an orgasm but the dude notices it and makes u squirt 😁 and a little bit of aftercare pls🙏

did you cum yet?

dom!kazuhaxsub!reader context: full nelson, cussing, aftercare and sex.

sex with kazuha was always so loving. he was always so gentle and slow with it, never wanted to do anything rough to hurt you and your petite body.

coming back from his adventure, he has so much to tell you. but most importantly he misses you. your body. that aching cunt that was begging for him.

so there whines and whimpers emit from the shared room where you and your boyfriend made love. where he thrusted into you, watching as his dick disappeared in your wet cunt. loving the way your ass felt when he connected with your body.

"love...you feel so..mgh..good." he put his weight on your back which glistened under the moonlight. pearls of sweat dripping down his forehead as he leaned to your ear. "i can feel how wet that honeypot of yours is."

he grinded into you and you moaned at the pleasure you were receiving. though, this was going on for about 10 minutes. its not as if you werent enjoying. your body just reacts differently. you take a long time to climax.

you hate lying to your poor baby, but you dont want him to feel like he isnt satisfying you. :(

counting the other times, this would be your third time if you were going to lie again. your trail of thoughts were lost when kazuha propped himself up, grabbing the flesh of your ass. it was his favorite thing to do.

"'m close...fuck.." he always sounded so hot when he cussed. he did one last thrust before he came inside. hot white lava painting your walls. pants were head from kazuha as he tried to catch up with his breath. stilling himself inside as he loved the feeling of your walls clamping down on him.

pulling out, he watches as his cum flows out of your cunt. loving the sight before he weighted himself on you again.

"did you cum?" he asks with a peck on the cheek. you groan, trying to seem believable.

"mhm...havent felt this in a while." you pecked his lips. trying to catch up with your breathing too.

kazuha can only chuckle and caress your hair. as his hands glides up and down on your sides. "say love... isnt this the third time youve lied hm?" he pinched your cheeks, a cried falls from your lips.

what he just said left you speechless. he..knew? "what-lied about what...?" you rubbed the part where it hurt. again, kazuha chuckled as he propped himself up with his arms, you felt something prod at the entrance of your cunt.

"wait kazu-ha!" you screamed out the last part as he shoved his cock in. this is time, he pistoled inside of you as he watches you become dumb. "s-shit kazu..!" you clawed the pillows and hugged them tightly.

this new pleasure unlocked was heavenly. he was hitting the gummy spots and it made your eyes roll back. you melted under him and he knew it. "if you wanted me to be rough, you could of said so darlin'"

moments before he brought you up to his lap as he held the back of your knees. there he jackhammered into your sopping cunt. "i can feel you in so..deep!" you moaned out.

his hand that was holding you trails down to your clit, stimulating it with circular motions, and it had you in bliss. nothing came out of your lips except for moans and incoherent babbles.

"dumb under my cock already love?" he continued to thrust. feeling himself close to climax as he feels your walls squeeze him.

"dont hold back. i can feel that youre close." his thrusts become sloppy but still was harsh. the sound of skin slapping skin never left the room as he continued pounding.

"gonna..cum!" you said before squirting out your juices on his cock. spraying on the sheets and pillows. possibly the best orgasm you had. shortly after-kazuha came inside, shooting his seed in you.

"now was that a good one hm?" he spoke out. but you could hardly breathe. falling onto kazus chest, you tried to catch up. but this new experience was just so much.

"seems i overdid it. ill grab some water and start the bath alright love?" the only response he got were huffs and he chuckled lightly before heading out the door. <3

hi im back. lol. been busy. but hope you enjoy this. was trying out a new theme. so hope it looks alright. ill try to get all of my asks soon, but feel free to request

[enakane]

Hi, I figured you'd have an interesting take on this, as the #1 The Emporer fucker (affectionate) on my dash. I've always seen Ansur's attempted murder of the Emp being less "you're a horrifying monster who I must kill before you turn on us, even if it kills me to do so" and more "the man I knew would never want to live as a mindflayer, the man I knew would be horrified at what he's become, the man I knew would rather die" but he didnt consider that the man he knew was dead the moment he turned into a mindflayer, as it's (I think) canon that mindflayers feel and think differently than other races, so the 'man he knew' had been fundamentally changed in such a way as to become unrecognizable in his thought process, and thus, would no longer agree with his past-self. So while I don't think what Ansur did was right, I don't think he's the out-and-out villian some people paint him as, just someone so blinded by grief and fear and sadness, that he doesnt realize how changed Emp was. And then when you show up, the Emp at your back and an elder brain on the rise, I think Ansur is blinded by rage, and grief, and betrayal. He thinks all his worst fears about Emp have come true, and that you're, at best, a pawn in Emp's game, and at worst, a thrall, so that's why he attacks. Havent played that section in a while, so I might be talking out of my ass, but that's my take based on what I remember. Thoughts? (Sorry this is so long, I am a Verbose Bitch.)

(brb gonna get "#1 Emperor fucker" tattooed somewhere on me, truly an honor)

I totally agree that Ansur's intentions were first and foremost to enact what he thought would be Balduran's wishes! As far as he knew, he was dealing with an illithid puppeteering Balduran's body, and after failing to bring him back to the way he was (if I remember well, Ansur tried for some time to restore Balduran to his former self but failed), killing him was equivalent to putting down a zombie.

Mind flayers indeed canonically think differently from other races, plus (depending on the source), the host's mind either mostly or completely disappears once ceremorphosis is complete. There was a high chance he was dealing with a master manipulator that only pretended to remember who it used to be to be set free. Ansur was hardly evil for wanting to end Balduran's cursed existence/kill the thing pretending to be him, and Emp was hardly evil for choosing to live.

(If I start talking about how the Emperor wanting to live despite everything ties in perfectly with the game's theme of choosing to live in spite of irreversible changes + the I Want to Live song, I may never shut up, HE'S JUST LIKE US FR-)

Ansur remains as a ghost due to his unfinished business, so when he feels Emp near and speaks to you and him... The situation hasn't really changed for Ansur. Either Balduran is still an illithid or there's still an illithid pretending to be Balduran, and like you said, the chances that you're either a thrall or being manipulated are very high, so why wouldn't he try to finish the job and consider you an unfortunate collateral damage? There's no more evidence that Balduran is actually in control than there was the first time. Plus, I'd never considered that Ansur might feel the Elder Brain nearby and assume Emp is responsible; that would indeed make him feel betrayed and more willing to attack.

I definitely understand why people aren't too keen on the idea of trusting the Emperor bc mind flayers have a Reputation(tm), but how people came to hate Ansur is kind of weird imo? He's not a villain at all, his decision to kill Emp was a desperate last resort, a way to free Balduran from his torment and save the many people who were gonna get their brains eaten if he got out. I know some people dislike that he possesses Tav, but I played that scene before reading about it and it never bothered me, I mean... he's a ghost. If I'd played through bg3 without getting possessed at least once I'd be lowkey disappointed.

Thanks for giving me an excuse to ramble about my bg3 fave, I hope I'm coherent lol

[dilucsfav]

saw ur masturbation headcanons and was sad as hell that there wasnt itto included :c pls write for itto too!

OH NO OH NO IM SORRY ITTO MY LOVE

ofc i'll do itto!! i havent done general hcs w itto, so that'll be what this kinda is!! except the nsfw will be your request bc we can forget about our grand arataki itto <3

Itto hcs and scenarios!!

warning(s): nsfw!!

favorite places to kiss you are your wrists, ears, thighs, and omg your back idk he would absolutely kiss your shoulders down your spine and AHDJKkjasjfkaw

^^ after youve had a long day or just need to relax in general, he'd totally totally give you a massage and trace his kisses all over your back in doing so

^^^^ ORRR OR when you two are taking a bubble bath together, youre laying in between his legs and leaning against him, his fingers tracing your back and running the bubble suds down your body... god god and he just will occasionally kiss spots on your back and UGDGSHd

he is so perfect. protect baby at all costs <3

HE'D PAINT UR NAILS AND YOU'D PAINT HIS

this ones random but but when he cooks for you he would totally wear the dumbass "kiss the cook" apron EXCEPT it would say "kiss the oni" and he'd make you kiss him LDAMSKDK

when you hang out with him and his arataki gang, yall would just all do dumb shit together and god it would be so so much fun i wanna hang out with the arataki gang too

^^^ FUCKKCSDSJ HE'D BE SO MEAN AND FUNNY AND TOUGH WITH YOU AND HE'D DO WRESTLING MATCHES WITH YOU AND THE GANG WOULD CHEER YOU ON he'd feel so betrayed by his friends cuz they want him to lose sobs

i can imagine him constantly taking you to inazuma in late nights to take you on ramen dates. ahh itto baby❤️❤️

HE SNORES SO DAMN LOUD LMAO he could wake up a whole damn castle with his loud ass snoring

this is so random but he'd totally play dress-up and run around with the kids in inazuma for their and your entertainment (thats canon bc i said so)

with aratki duties comes not-so fun times,,, when he gets hurt, youre usually the one to tend to his wounds

^^ CAN U IMAGINE THIS MEAL OF A MAN GAZING AT YOU LOVINGLY AS YOU STICH UP HIS WOUNDS?? A SIDE SMIRK CUZ HE THINKS YOURE BEAUTIFUL AND APPRECIATES YOUR GENTLENESS WITH HIM, WHILST YOURE CHIDING HIM AND TELLING HIM TO BE MORE CAREFUL

"You're dazzling, (Y/N). Did you know that, lovely?"

this is kinda gross,, but you'd always find nasty shit in his hair (bugs, dirt, etc) 😭

^^ then you proceed to yell at him for being gross and helping clean him up constantly

he adores you so much oh my god

i feel like itto would yell at you a lot, but like playfully yk? he knows when and when not to raise his voice jokingly depending on the situation

he'd constantly bring you brownies ?? LMAO LIKE ODDLY SPECIFIC DESSERT, I COULD JUST SEE HIM BRINGING YOU EITHER BROWNIES (fudge brownies only, they are superior) OR RAW COOKIE DOUGH😭

nsfw:

i always see people saying like "oh kazuha could break the bed" or "oh childe would totally break the bed" and i kindly disagree,,,, CUZ ITTO?? TOTALLY WOULD???

one of the fucking bed legs on the frame would just snap and homeboy would just stop and laugh about it with you (and then do absolutely nothing about it and continue)

as i said in the ceo itto hcs, there's a good balance of rough sex, gentle, etc etc

its never fucking vanilla sex though...

^^kinky, hot, sweaty...... good god im going straight to hell for writing this

he'd throw your legs on his shoulders and would just go absolutely mad on your-

sorry. god hes so hes so so so

SUCH A WHINER WTF

when he masturbates and thinks of you stop stop he’d be so rough on himself and would just wish you were there to help him

HES SO DAMN LOUD- gorou could probably hear him masturbating from a fucking mile away😭 AND HES PROBABLY YELLING UR NAME TOO SO GOROU WOULD JUST FREAK OUT AND GET SUPER UNCOMFORTABLE LMFAO

hes ABSOLUTELY into face sitting. he loves it so much, he could let you sit on his face for hours if you wanted tbh (me next pls)

this is random, but i think in a way he'd kinda be into roleplaying?? but like within that when he's more dominant he'd wanna see you with a blindfold on.

^^ i think he just finds pleasure in your expression, knowing that youre not sure what hes gonna do next? and you'd find thrill in the unknown cuz itto is so random so you wouldnt know what to prepare yourself for? you know what i mean? hes so baby girl

"Oh? You like it when I run my fingers right there, hm? Tell me."

oh my god when you two are in the moment he'd have one hand gripping your hip, and the other would be in your hair jerking it everytime he goes in,,, FJIAHFJKASBFUKASHFIK

sorry.

hes so kinky help- i couldnt say like his FAVORITE thing but i think ONE of his favorite things to do to you would be choking

yall yall hes such a heavy breather and grunter its so hot

i think afterwards hes such a big baby. loves sleeping with his face nuzzled in your chest, ear against your chest to feel your heartbeats bc it relaxes him so much

ITTO<333333

[whoahoney]

this doesnt even necessarily have to be a gvf request but i need to get this off my chest bc i cant stop thinking about it 😭😭😭 i saw a tiktok of a jake edit and in the caption it said "i just know he watches his fingers" and i havent been able to stop thinking about jake, his middle and marriage fingers knuckle deep and hitting all the perfect spots and hes just enamored with watching his fingers making you fall apart, and he definitely talks you through it the whole time, just being so soft and all "yeah? right there?" and "just like that?" and "doin' so good for me, sweetheart" and i-

Oh—oh my god 🥲😩 bless you for this. This isn’t proofed but the thought… 🫠 anon plz come back I want more!!! I want that edit!!!!

Minors DNI obvi

Warnings: smut!! AFAB!reader, fingering, dry humping/grinding, p in v, breast play, dirty talk, pet names, praise, aftercare

─── ･ ｡ﾟ☆: *.☽ .* :☆ﾟ. ───

He has you sat in front of a mirror, leaned against his chest and losing yourself with every thrust of his fingers. Every time your eyes close he nudges you and you feel his nose grazing against your cheek, “C’mon, pretty girl, look in the mirror for me.” “Watch me.” “Look at me.” “I swear I’ll stop if you don’t keep those pretty little eyes on me, baby.”

The calluses on his finger tips run against your clit, making you whine and cower against him, the sound bringing a smug smile to his face as you writhe and clench the fabric of his sweats in your fists while your ass grinds into his hardened cock behind you. “That’s my girl, my good, perfect girl.” He cooed as you began to chase your high, rutting against him and trying so hard to keep your eyes on his or his fingers plunging into your hot, slick center in the reflection in front of you.

He tucks his chin over your shoulder to watch, “This is exactly how I wanted you,” he whispered, “Just a fucking mess for me in my lap.”

You whimper in response as his fingers quicken again, his thumb busy with your clit—around and around and dipping his fingers back inside to drag more of your slick over your shining pearl.

His other hand snakes up to the hem of your shirt, pulling it up to reveal your bare breasts. “I need to see them—Oh, look at you—yeah, keep going, keep fucking yourself on my fingers, Angel.” He rasps next to you as you grind against him, both in front and behind you.

You worked your hips in a steady rhythm, the friction as euphoric on his cock as it was for you. His head begins to fall back in agonizing pleasure, his eyes closing and mouth gaping. You grab his falling hand and place it back on your chest with a firm squeeze. The sensation jolted Jake from his haze as you begin pulsing around his fingers, “Keep your eyes on me, Jakey—or-or else I’m gonna stop.” You warn, just as a sinister smile grows on Jake’s face and he withdraws his fingers to stand you up and bend you over, “Your cute little threats don’t do anything besides make me harder, sweetheart.” He says in your ear before taking out his cock and plunging into you with a mighty groan that rendered you thoughtless.

There was only him.

And you watched him fuck you in that mirror until he was wrapping his arm around your front and playing with his beloved button of pleasure until you released on his cock and cried out for him to keep going until he was done.

And he did.

He keeps going and going, thrusting in and out roughly just the way he knows you like it, keeping his eyes locked on your shining lips and gaping mouth, your breasts bouncing at his will, and the gorgeous expanse that is your back arched just for him.

“Cum for me.” You almost whine with a gasp, “Cum, baby, do it! Do it, Jakey, cum all over me—wherever you want—god, I wanna feel you.” You almost cry as the pleasure burned within you.

Jake sees your shining eyes set on hims so desperately, and that’s what does it—that longing look in your eye like nothing could sate you like his cum could. With two more thrusts he pulled out and painted your ass and back with his cum, smiling when you push your ass into him, welcoming the hot spurts that covered you and watching Jake’s chest heave under the shining film that clung to him.

He releases his cock and allows his hands to graze over both globes of your painted ass, his thumb brushing away a stray runner before winking at you and grabbing a towel to clean you up. “Was that… too much?” He asked tentatively as he cleaned you up.

You chuckle and turn when he’s done, “Oh, honey. My sweet, sweet boy.” You push a strand of his hair out of his face. “Next time, I’ll be the one playing with you. And you’ll be the one whining for me.”

You tap his cheek twice and walk to the shower, leaving him—quite literally—with his dick in his hand and his jaw dropped.

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[sh444rkbytes]

I HAVENT POSTED IN SO LONG SORRY

hi senior year has been kicking my ass im so tired all the time and SICK but here's some obamitsu because they make me happy and heal all my wounds and illnesses i love them

im starting to get kinda tired of using ibis paint tbh ive been using it since like elementary school i want an upgrade..💔

[elkkiel]

“shy” anon, yeah i am losing my shyness a little heh. Guess youre just easy to talk to.

design school? like graphic design (guessing from the post you made about the calendars)? ive tried getting into knitting before, but i have arthritis in my hands and it’s hurts like a son of a bitch, and i cant do it. i also draw and paint, and write. i am also into baking, and my top two recipes are brownies and apple cider blondies. maybe we could trade notes on those…i also really enjoy regular cooking, and id say im a pretty good cook too.

im also a bit of a gamer, but i havent been able to play much recently due to life. when i could it was GTA V, RDR 2, and sims 4. im also a reader though, i have adhd so focusing long enough isn’t too easy.

as for how i know you, we’re mutuals. ive been following you for a couple of months.

I find it's easy to make good conversation when you're in good company, iykwim :3

Yes, design school for graphic design! I'm currently a ✨professional�� graphic designer, just putting my degree on hold for now. It'll get finished eventually, but I've gotta say that actually being in the industry is a whole lot cooler than sitting in a 4 hour lecture+lab

That's too bad for the knitting :( why must everything that is cool and fun cause wrist and/or hand pain?? 😔💔 It's cool that you still keep up with other creative hobbies though!! What subject(s) do you usually draw/write/paint about? Or are you more of a creative free spirit?

and APPLE CIDER BLONDIES OMG that sounds so good 😭😭 it feels like it would be a "cuddling up in a warm blanket with good coffee and dessert" kind of recipe (if you have any tricks in your recipes I'd love to hear them!! always down for making a mean ass baked good lol)

I feel you with the gaming; it would be so fun to pick it up again but. yeah. life and busy schedules and all that :/ I've whined to Roby about wanting to play Fallout 3 again, but man is it hard to make time for "non-productive" fun things. Adhd is such a double edged sword with that too. Like, there's infinite focus for fun things, just not the fun thing you actually want to try and focus on ;w;

also, are you in the st fandom? if so, that's good, because I'm working on a project for mutuals right now and I'll be able to include you! (and only you'll really know, huh? idk about you, but I find hiding little secrets out in the open to be a little... thrilling(/lh)? I hope you're having some fun with this, darling anon >w< heheh)

[a-deaddoll]

HOME SWEET HOME

Chapter 1 :A New Start ?

The sound of keys.

The sound of a key unlocking a door.

A door opens.

A door of an empty appartement opens.

Slowly opening.

The door is creaking.

A wooden floor.

The sound of steps.

The creaking sound of thé floor.

Someone is entering.

"Well. Looks like I'm finally here.

Oh god the boxes are heavy. And I havent moved the furnitures yet. "

"Why is moving out such a pain in the ass."

Silence.

The rooms are empty.

Empty.

Like an empty shell of what it used to be.

White walls, everything is a bright simple plain and dull white.

Haru, a of 19 year old young adult with long dark ashy brown hair with deep green eyes, circled by eye bags covered by Kohl crayon and eye shadow with some mascara

As well as a black teardrop drawn on her cheek

Her lips where painted with a dark ophtalo green lipstick

She had a dark blue raccoon tail hair extension in her hair, she was dressed in a oversized baggye blue shirt with short sleves, on the shirt there was a green smiley face, with a little bow pin with an eyeball.

She had éléphant pants with holes.

She is into the 2000, emo fashion.

She's happy with how she looks.

Even if she get's anxious when others are looking, scrutanizing her with their stares

All eyes locked on her.

Watching her every move and breath

Mouths talking whispering or laughing

She's happy.

And it's all that matters

She has a friend, Nozomi who dresses the same way as her.

Nozomi dosen't care, or at least she shows that she dosen't care

It's just, harder for Haru, but with her friend, she tries to care less about these type of things.

But right now. She just moved from her home.

She coudn't handle the storm clouds anymore.

She coudn't handle

And her mother agreed to help her move out...

Well it was complicated at first the mother wanted to move out with her but she insisted in being alone and it was difficult to make herself heard, she persisted.

As for her father, well...He isn't happy with the decision at all.

It was already very difficult at home with him.

But, she's free now ?

"Wow. Empty. Great...."

She sight

Then looks at her phone 3 messages received.

One from her friend

One from her mother

Three from her father.

She opened the one from her friend first.

"Hi sweetie ! Congrats on the new appartement HOORAY ! It's awesome that you finally left your house it must not have been easy to assert yourself and take your distance with your parents grrrr I'm so angry at your dad, he better stop causing you pain or i'mma beat his ass 😠 War is comming for real he better be prepared I'm here for you if you need me ❤️"

She smiled

"Why is she so worried for me"

She thought.

Then she checked her mother message

"Hi, is everything good ? If you need something just call me."

Then she looks at her father message.

"Why did you leave me alone ? Why are you angry at me"

"Answer me"

"I'm just trash for you and your mom"

She wrote back

"I'm unpacking, I cant talk right now sorry"

But then, she felt a strange feeling

She was cold, and hot at the same time

She had difficulty breathing.

But had no sensations...just...

Hot and cold at the same time.

And a feeling of choking.

"Maybe I should stop looking at messages for now..."

She focused on the unpackaging to not focus on the messages.

Then After unpacking for a while, she sits on a couch.

Even with furnitures, this place feels so desolate and empty.

As if nothing could fill the void of this place.

As if nothing could fill a void in her.

It's weird, she's used to being alone.

But this time...

It's weird.

"Maybe I should take a break on unpacking"

"I have other things to do after all"

"My last psychologist told me I should journal...so I did. Maybe I should start again"

"I don't know if it's gonna be useful or if it's going to change my life.

"Today I just moved out and now I have my on appartement, I have to learn how to live alone I will have to learn how to do things by myself. I can't do shit. I can't do anything. But I don't regret. I just unpacked some boxes, don't know what to do. Ha I'm gonna die alone here...like I never existed haha I'm gonna die alone."

"I'm so fucking stupid."

"Oh Nozomi answered. Good"

"Now that you're installed what are you gonna do ?"

Haru is typing

"I don't know stay in my bed 24/7 and die in my sleep ?"

Nozomi is typing

"You think it's gonna be your tomb ?"

Haru is typing

"Ew no, dying in sweat and broken bed slats ? Buy me some good qualité coffin, I'm at least worth that ?"

"No no actually nevermind burying me or incinerating me is too expensive you should eat my dead flesh instead just eat my goddamn rotten dead body someone like me isn't worth celebrating"

Then she realized what she just typed.

"Fuck no...shit... she's going to think I'm a weirdo...That I'm a creep... a fucking freak"

Nozomi is typing

"Aha Eww that's morbid maybe one day humans will really do that"

Haru is typing

"I'm sorry I shoudnlt have said something like this"

Nozomi is typing

"Nah, don't apologies, it dosen't bother me I thought it was funny ! That's what I like about you you should stop worrying so much""

It's true.

I don't know why, Nozomi never thought I was weird...

We becamed friends because we liked a séries, I always have the impression that I bother her,

I've always been told that I was annoying, that I'm too much, that people don't sée me as a friend it wasn't réciprocated.

I'm just the girl you have too handle because she's too stupide to know when she's a burden.

With Nozomi it's différent

She talk to me

She thinks I'm interresting

She's there when I need her

We laugh

We like the same things

She never make me feel liké a burden

But I still feel liké I don't deserve this.

I don't deserve such kindness.

Ah.

That feeling.

It's comming back...

I'm not trapped I'm free.

Nozomi father wrote a New message

"You know what ? I got drunk today because you and your mom don't want to talk to me"

It's a New Start.

I'm free ?

Right ?