#i havent had the motivation to post for a while so im sorry if this mb sucks 😭

[clerichs-xi]

finished this before traveling but never posted it, so here i am posting it after my travels! yves, finally with his own big illustration and outfit design after 2 years... im so sorry babygirl

yves (he/him) is my oc! please do not tag as otherwise <3

[loien]

　　　⌅⁺ 　　　　 ❀ 　　　　 i　cant　move　on　babydoll

[daily-lightbulbii]

(//i don't normally do text but cw in the tags erm. i went a little off track)

[ask-scag]

HIIII HEYYY !!!!!!!! HI EVERYPONY im so sorry about not posting for a while </3 i just havent had much motivation for answering asks here lately i guess !!!!!! ill try to answer some stuff tomorrow maybe !!!! BUT FEAR NOT i am still here #trust

[oscpaistry]

Misunderstood.

You and Kylian have been in a relationship for 4 years now. But you feel unheard and misunderstood by him. The media is causing you two stress and argument. At one moment Kylian had enough and he thought it would be the best if you two broke up. But all you wanted from him is to be heard and understood. You went out off the house and told the whole media that your taking a long break and why. About your mental health and much more.

Kylian and you were finally back home from the red carpet. Kylian was scrolling through his phone while you were changing out off your dress.

"Are you actually fucking serious?" You hear Kylian telling himself.

"Whats wrong Kylian?" You ask him while coming into the room he was in.

"Tell me the truth Y/n. Im sick and tired of the lies." He says with a stern voice.

"What do you mean Kylian? What have i done this time?" You say with a sigh in your breath.

"I saw on Instagram that your mental health is at risk again!" He says with a sarcastic tone in his voice.

You sigh. "It is Kylian. Im so stressed and mentally drained. I dont have any motivation to do anything at this point. And i-" you tried to say but he spoke through your sentence.

"Pff Y/n. Don't be so dramatic. You have it simple. You only have to sit at home, do the groceries, model, get clothes, get your nails done and much more." He says while laughing at you.

You look down and feel something in your throat. It feels like you can't swallow.

"Mhm" you say and go back to the bathroom.

"Okay if you wanna act like that and act as if you have so many problems go ahead. Be my guest. But not in my house Y/n. Go somewhere else and cry about it. I dont have time for it. And besides. I dont see your stress and see that your sad or some shit." He says while throwing and bag at you.

Your eyes started to swell up and you pick up the bag. You pack some stuff and went downstairs. You took a glas of water and drank it before you left. You two didnt speak in those 30 minutes of packing. You grabbed your car keys and went outside to go in your car.

You went to a hotel somewhere in Paris. You asked for a room for one. The front desk lady gave you the room card 267. You went up with the lift and went onto your phone. You left the lift and went to your room.

At the end of the hall you see room 267. You entered and as soon you saw the bed you just feel into it and cried.

Your eyes were already swollen and red from crying.

Your phone was going off none stop. You check it and see texts from Neymar, Achraf, Messi and Ramos. They were asking why you were acting like this and were shaming you. You sighed at the messages. Those people were the ones you trusted with your heart. And then in one snap they turn their back at you. It broke you into million pieces. You decided to post on Instagram that you were taking a break bcs off your mental health. This is what it said in your post.

"Hey guys, there is something i want to clear up and say. So the media is spreading rumors around of me. Those are completely not true and are lies. Kylian saw those posts. And because of those posts Kylian and i are having alot of arguments. Im not at Kylian's right now. That doesnt really matter right now. But those posts have me giving stress. But ive been already suffering with bipolar disorder. Ive been so mentally drained fir he past few months it isnt really okay anymore. I havent got any motivation to do anything anymore. Im physically so exhausted. Ill be taking a break from social media for now. I dont know for how long. I hope you guys understand. I love you guys. Im sorry."

You read it again and again. You took a deep breath and posted it. You put your phone in the drawer and went to unpack and to take a shower.

After the shower you went to change. You heard the vibrations from your phone. You went to grab your phone and saw texts off Kylian, Neymar and Messi.

"Sorry Y/n. I didnt know you were struggling with all that."

That is what Neymar, Kylian and Messi texted you. You sigh and leave them on read...

[basil-appreciation-comic]

IMPORTANT UPDATE!!

the comic is cancelled. you probably already assumed that since i havent posted anything about it in a while but yeah the things dead now lol. mainly because i dont care much about omori anymore, the comic sucked, and it was too much effort. i feel kinda bad about leaving you guys in the dark for this long tho, so i thought id go ahead and include all the scrapped stuff for the comic that never got finished

while i was writing the comic i started a google doc that laid out ideas i had for future pages. heres that if you wanna know how the story ends

it was written over several months and (most) things are in order of where they go on the timeline not when i wrote them so it might be a little hard to follow

also some art i never posted

(at least i dont think ive posted the last one)

i quoted not liking this comic as one of the reasons i stopped so let me explain that with a list of things id change about this if i were to remake it (which i wont)

remove the swearing that was so stupid

make omori mute (and probably use sign language)

omori does not express fear or stress in-game, thats sunnys job. quit it

he also does not cry and generally shows emotions (even the big ones) in more subtle ways (which i think i was trying to shift towards later in the doc) idk why he was so emotional all the time

literally everything about how i portrayed omori actually that was all just awful

the panic attack scene is fucking embarrassing i have no clue what i was thinking. im so sorry for writing it like that i did 0 research beforehand

make it shorter why did i think that would work out

id probably just make it a fic, comics take way too much outta me compared to just writing things

it does not need a big epic ending and probably shouldve ended not long after they escaped black space

the romance is horrible but thats the foundation of the comic so idek what id do about that

stop making everyone talk like therapists 24/7

and yeah it has a lot of problems but i still do care about this due to the ammount of effort and love ive put into it, i just cant and dont want to continue it

so yeah thats where this story ends ig. i had a lot of fun along the way, and thank you so much for all the support. bigger thanks to that one sunflower discord server (if you came from there you know which one) for being my main motivation and support throughout this journey. sucks this comic never got to see its full potential but im relieved to finally lay it to rest. the blog will stay up for archival purposes but i will not continue the comic any further obviously. the ask box will remain open if you wanna say anything or if you have a question about the story or whatever. thanks for reading.

[kimkimwritesstuff]

I’m not too sure if I’ve posted these on here before but I will now😭 (IM SO SORRY FOR BEING DEAD- I HAVENT WRITTEN ANY FICS CUZ IVE HAD NO MOTIVATION- IF I HAVENT GOTTEN TO YOUR REQUEST I AM SO SORRY-)

here are two poems that I’ve written!

The Little Things You Do

The little things you do, they bring me comfort, they bring me joy.

The way you laugh and giggle, stuff of that sort.

It’s clear you love music, it's what you’re passionate about.

As much as you play beautifully, it’s almost as great as when you don't make a sound.

Your foot, it taps to the tempo, your head moves along.

Your head seems to be bopping to that exact song. 

Though your playing tops the silence, It's still the same.

It’s beautiful, It’s mellow, It’s free.

Oh how I wish you would reciprocate,

wish you’d feel the same for me.

The little things you do, maybe just a simple smile.

It makes me all giddy,

filled with so much energy I could run a whole mile.

While your actions are sweet and silly,

they create comfort much more.

 For all the little things you do, 

make my heart ache for yours.

When it comes to her.

When it comes to her,

my heart is full, it starts to race.

My cheeks go red, then my whole face.

I start to remember a certain memory. Our first meeting, embedded in my brain, that of a melody.

For her smile is too beautiful to bear

Her sense of humor, something we share.

Her laugh, too sweet to resist without laughing along

Her voice, I could listen to it as if it were a song.

When it comes to her, 

my mind goes blank.

I can’t speak a word, my mind starts playing pranks.

For how I wish to hold her, hold her hand.

Oh how I would serenade her, acquire a whole band.

For everything about her, it makes me still.

When it comes to her, I wish to disappear.

I feel unworthy of her sweet gaze, she’s too wonderful, she sets my heart ablaze.

For I long to tell her how exactly I feel….

I’m afraid.

Her words.

They’ll stab.

They’ll hurt.

So I shall continue to long, to wish.

Because when it comes to her, all I can do is wish.

[capitalisticveins]

Im so sorry for bringing this up but i would genuinely have a look at why you hate alexis so much more than blake, im not saying this to be mean or malicious but i did when that talk in the fandom happened a little bit ago and yeah no it was just an internalized dislike of women and like not allowing women (even just in media) to be complicated and messy and grey while praising men in media for the same very things, and liking them for doing even worse, as well as we havent even met alexis and are only seeing her through someone she fucked over, its making our opinions on her so concrete and stale before we know anything about her and why she did what she did and how she feels about it now, men are adored and praised when they murder people and hurt so many, but women fuck over one guy and shes evil and irredeemable. you def dont have to like alexis (i still dont) but just like yeah, Im not accusing you of anything either btw its just good to have a look at yourself sometimes, i hope this comes across chill like i meant it cause again i had a bit of a look at myself and there is just so much hatred of women in media.

(I understand you didnt mean to be rude at all, but I think I can come off as annoyed in this post bc I just woke up and its 4am so sorry abt that)

I really dont wanna be known as the person who argues for Alexis so after this any ask about Alexis is being deleted

We dont know Alexis. In canon, we’ve never seen her, never heard her, never spoken to her. We only know of her through the eyes of Vincent and Sam, and absolutely NOTHING about her is positive.

- She’s such a hellion William vowed to never make another progeny

-She calls Vincent a mistake because of jealousy

- She turned Sam without consent

- Instead of trying to make him understand why she did it, she stop trying to talk to him when she learned she couldnt invoke him

She has NO redeeming qualities, there’s nothing spoken of her to make her likeable.

Blake is different

We KNOW both sides of the story, we’ve seen his manipulation and softer side, and we know he has depth to him.

Do we know why Blake has Sunshine trapped in the basement? Yes. Do we like it? Of course not! Are we supporting it? Hell no.

But then we see how he is with Dreamer and we change, because we see how soft he behaves, how his demeanor changes around them, how his “motives” seem more “justifiable” (for lack of a better term)

Alexis has no sort of depth to her, and until she does, why should we like her? We physically have no reason other than “She MIGHT’VE changed”

[finnlers]

hi guys

heyyy, im back!! sorry i havent posted in a while, the end of school was stressing me out so bad and i had absolutely no motivation whatsoever. but now that it is summer break, im hoping to gain that energy back! i have grown out of my hazbin obsession, currently not too into any fandoms atm. however, i will be trying to post more of my thoughts and just general life updates :-) feel free to send asks and stuff if youre bored! ill be answering questions and stuff

[t0rturedangel]

Ummmm im sorry to bother but can we get some frank knight x reader fluff please

𝐁𝐀𝐁𝐘 𝐒𝐈𝐓𝐓𝐄𝐑 𝐃𝐔𝐓𝐘 - ♡

Frank Knight x Reader - fluff

A/N :: Sorry i havent been posting guys ! I havent had much motivation but now i'll post more i promise ! Also i have more new fandoms i'll write for <33 ALSO THIS WAS REQUESTED TWICE SO I HOPE THE SECOND PERSON WHO REQUESTED THIS IS HAPPY WITH THIS !!

" Y/n, my office now please " You heard the familiar voice of your chief, sighing you got up ignoring all the cheeky whispers from your colleges as you walked to her office, they snickered, eyes following you making you uncomfortable.

Entering the office you noted how your chief was clearly annoyed, sitting down she began to talk. " Thank you for coming Y/n " she sighed and in return you gave her a nervous smile " My pleasure Chief, so- uhm what did i do wrong now? " you asked thinking you messed up again as you did have a reputation of being a trouble maker, the only reason why she kept you with the team is because you're a relative of hers and she has a soft spot for you.

" You didn't do anything n/n, its Frank " your eyes widened for a second and one of your brows raised, confusion evident of your features " What about him? What did he do? " Leaning forward you held the end of her desk for support of your upper body " He's gotten really drunk again and i want you to find him and look after him- also please try to sober him up he has a new case " " So i have to baby sit him? " you deadpanned, disappointed you'd much rather be in trouble rather than look after Frank, you didnt hate the guy its just that sometimes he was too much.

" In a way yes, i do hope this isnt an issue, is it? " Her gaze darkened and you knew that you had no say in the matter so you didnt even bother to try and argue with her " Nope, it isnt an issue auntie, i'll go and babysit him " you groaned standing up and quickly leaving her office not letting her lecture you about calling her auntie at work

It didnt take you long to find Frank, he was by a pub laughing and singing his drunk heart out and bursting your eardrums out while he does. No, seriously, he sucks at singing. Getting out of your car you went over to the older man " Frank! Buddy hey, what cha doing ? " You grinned even though you knew what he was doing and wanted to create a conversation with him to distract him while leading him back to the car.

Frank 'huh-ed' in a slurred voice before turning to you a wobblily grin on his face as he registered who you were " Y/N !!!! " He yelled out swinging an arm around your shoulders pulling you into a hug to which you gaged " Ew- fuck Frank you reek of booze and vomit ! " you glared at him slightly pushing him as a way of getting away from him and his stench but he held on firmly " I dont fucking stink you little cheeky twat " he pulled you closer making you gag " Fucks sake Frank ! " you hissed " We need you to get sobered up ! You have a new case to work on ! " " Oh my fucking god " Frank groaned his grip loosened letting you easily get away from him.

" I dont wanna work on shit- " " You think i dont know that? You alway complain about it but you cant do anything about it so why dont you shut up and lets go get you some water yeah? " You grabbed the back of his shirt and led him to the car despite his and his friends' rebottle against you doing so.

Quickly you both sat down in the car, you being in the divers seat and Frank in the passengers, pulling out a cold water bottle you turned to him " This might not help- like at all- but still drink this, you need something different than beer " and as you chucked the bottle over he barely caught it, groaning as he gulped down massive amounts of the flavorless liquid. After he was done he looked over at you a small smile on his face as his eyes glossed over slightly. Was he about to cry? What for?

" Ya know kid, i like you " "Frank you have a wife " " NOT LIKE THAT !- I mean- you remind me of my girls ya know? you just remind me so much of them with your personality and all that other shit " You sighed and shook your head slightly " Thank for that Frank, now i think you should go to sleep might help speed up the sober-ing up process " that comment made you receive a scoff from Frank before he leaned back and immediately passed out.

Starting up the car you looked over to the sleeping man a small smile on your face " Thanks for that Frank, you know you remind me of a dad . . . " gripping the steering wheel you drove off not noticing the grin on Franks face

[kar1nsworldx]

SPIDERBOYS - J.G x J.A

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a love story between two boys 🫶

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info; (once again :D) its an social media au fic between the city boys 🫶 in this fic the main ship is julián and jack (also just ingeneral info in my fics my ships change soo yeah)

requested; nope - but send me requests! i write for anyone and everyone 📝

note; hope you all enjoy 🫶🧸 also for the sake of the story Julián is really good at English and Jack is a bit younger, lets say 25 - just so you all know :) also sorry for not posting, i havent had alot of motivation 😭😭 also it isnt proof read so sorry for the mistakes xxx

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jackgrealish

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jackgrealish; stunning 🫶

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philfoden: how do you always get pretty pictures and I dont 😒 ^jackgrealish: idk but that sounds like a you problem ^rubendias: 🤣🤣🤣 ^philfoden: oh piss off

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jackgrealish

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jackgrealish; im actually asking someone to help rn 😭😭😭 gonna go kms 🔜

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johnstonesofficial: HAHAHAHA HOW DID YOU MANAGE THAT ^jackgrealish: IDK COME HELP ME ^johnstonesofficial: no ❤️‍🩹 ^jackgrealish: oh fuck yourself

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juliaanalvarez: jack are you okay? I can come help if you want too ^jackgrealish: JULI YES PLEASE ILL DO WHATEVER JUST PLEASE COME ^juliaanalvarez: coming! ^jackgrealish: my lord and saviour 😭❤️‍🩹

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rubendias: HAHAHAHAH

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philfoden: you see this never happened to me, this seems like a YOU problem ^jackgrealish: o fuck off phil

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kevindebruyne: how? thats all i need to know, how? ^jackgrealish: i got no idea 😭

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A light knocking sound could be heard at Jacks front door. Quickly getting up, Jack sprinted to open it. "Julián!" Jack exclaimed, lighting up once seeing the Argentinian. "Hola Jack." the younger replied with a smile. "What did you do?" he asked the English man with an amused smile. "I got no idea mate. The thing just exploded all of a sudden." the older explained, while leading Julián to his mess of a kitchen. "Ay dios mío!" the younger excliamed.

A big part of Jacks kitchen was covored in coffee. The Argentinian could see napkins and towels everywhere as well. There was one thing that startled him. Why is there a bloody towel next to the sink..?

"Jack.. why is there a bloody towel next to the sink?" the younger asked Jack with worry. "Uh.." Jack stuttered. "When the thing exploded I tried to clean it up. I didn't notice one of the mixers blades flew out as well so I cut my leg by accident." he explained quietly, embarrassd. While explaining, his cheeks flushed and he got quiet as well.

Looking down, Julián saw a porly wrapped towel around Jacks leg that was turning even more red by the minute. How did he not notice that? "¡Dios mío, Jack! ¡¿Estás bien?!" the younger exclaimed in Spanish. "¡Siéntate ahora!" Julián instructed him, pulling him down to sit oh a dinning room chair. "Oh mi Jack.. Dose it hurt?" he asked the older.

"No no, its fine dont worry! Please lets just clean this up so I dont have to waiste your time even more." Jack said ashamed, trying to get up. Julián immedietely pushed him back down, looking at him with concern. Whats up with him..? "Jack, hey, its okay.." the Argentinian whispered to him. "You're not wasting my time, okay? Let's clean you up first, and make sure this dosen't get infected. La cocina puede esperar." Julián told him. "Do we got a deal?" he asked Jack. "Yeah.."

"Excelente." the younger said, clasping his hands togethet. "Wheres your First Aid Kit? If you have one." he asked Jack. "Its in the bathroom under the sink. You just go down this hallway, and the second door to the left is the bathroom." Jack explained to him, pointing to the bathroom. Julián nodded before leaving the older for a few moments. Taking the First Aid Kit, he quickly came back. Opening it, he found all the supplies he needed. Taking a clean towel he put in under some water before cleaning the blood around Jacks wound. "Sorry, but It'll sting." Julián informed him. Jack just nodded not responding. He was clutching the chairs sides, waiting for this hell to be over. During the whole process, the only thing that could be heard was Juliáns soft whispers and a few hisses here and there from Jack.

"All done." Julián whispered, tapping Jacks leg before getting up. He quickly put the First Aid Kit back into the bathroom, before coming into the dinning room once more. "Let's get you to the couch. You'll be more comfortable."

"No no it's fine. Besides, I gotta clean up my mess." Jack said, shaking his head. Julián sighed, before looking at Jack dead in the eyes with the most serious look he could muster. "Escucha aquí tu" he said, pooking at Jacks chest "you will get your ass on that couch with my help, and I'll clean that up" he said mentioning to the kitchen "in the mean time, you'll be good and stay on the couch. And no you will not help me. Okay?"

Before Jack got the chance to protest, a finger was on his mouth, shushing him. "Shh.."

"C'mon, up on your good leg." Julián said, tapping his right leg. The older just sighed, before letting Julián pull him up. The two wobled to the couch and Julián carefully put Jack on his couch. After the Argentinian made sure that Jack was okay and comfortable he quickly cleaned up the mess. The whole cleaning didnt take to long, 10ish or 15ish minutes in whole. Coming back to the living room the younger saw the Englishman with half-opened eyes, watching TV. "Hey.." he whispered to him. Looking up, Jack saw the Argentinian looking at him with a soft smile. "Hey.." he responded sitting up. He mentioned to Julián to sit next to him, which the younger did.

"Thanks for uh..h-helping me." Jack thanked the youger with a shaky voice, not daring to make eye contact with Julián. Julián smiled at him softly, tapping Jacks good leg in responce. "Not a problem Jack. If you ever need help, just call, I'd probally be free and you woudnt be burdening me." he informed the older. The two continued to sit in silence before Jack huffed oud and sunk even deeper into the couch. "You want takeout? And to stay over? Its late and Im hungry as a wolf." Jack asked Julián. "Sí. What do you want to eat?"

"Uuf.." Jack huffed out once more. "Chinese?" he asked him with a puppy dog look. Julián smiled at him, finding Jacks face absolutely adorable. "Sí claro sol, I'll order it." the Argentinian agreed, sliping in the nickname into the sentance with a blush. Jack just smiled brightly at him, before giving Julián the money to pay, not letting the younger protest.

After their food arived the two City players continued to talk and watch crappy TV shows until late at night, and if they ended up cuddeling and falling asleep in eachothers arms well, it was no ones buisness but theirs.

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mancity

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mancity; The boys! 👊

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ussreu: CITEEH

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useruxu: jack and juli ❤️‍🩹

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jackgrealish

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jackgrealish; tonight was special

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philfoden: awee is jacky in love? ^jackgrealish: oh phil piss of mate

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kevindebruyne: did you atleast pay for the poor man? 😂😅 ^jackgrealish: yes kevin as a matter of fact I did, and I even asked him out ^kevindebruyne: I tought you well, now be with him ^uxsxexr: ITS A GUY 👀👀👀👀

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useruo: IS THAT A GUY JACK???

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johnstonesofficial: 😏😏😏 ^jackgrealish: oh ffs john stop 😭

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kylewalker2: was it any good? ^jackgrealish: sí sí, fue perfecto ^kylewalker2: jack i cant understand ur boys language, speak english will ya ^jackgrealish: no no hoy 😌 ^kylewalker: julián has changed you i swear 😭

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juliaanalvarez; te amo mi amor

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"Gracias por esta noche.." Julián mummbled as he pulled Jack closer to him. The two were in Jacks bed, cuddeling. "Your welcome." Jack replied as he put his head into the crock of Juliáns neck. The Argentinian kissed his hair before sighing, consent. "Te amo.." he whispered to the English man. At that, Jack froze which made the younger nervous.

"You love me?" he asked Julián, looking at him with wide eyes. "Sí." Julián replied nervously. What if I said it to early, what if.. His train of toughts ended soon as Jack kissed him passionately on the lips. Julián smiled into the kiss, before kissing him back.

The two made out for a few minutes before they both pulled away, out of breath. "I love you too.." Jack whispered back nervously, with a shy smile. Julián kissed him on the nose which made Jack blush RED and Julián laugh out loud. "Oy dont laugh.." the older laughed, hiding once more in the crock of the youngers neck. "Sorry, sorry." Julián apoligized with a smile, calming down. He hugged Jack close, and the two fell asleep like that, happy and together.

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jackgrealish; te amo ❤️‍🩹 last night was fun

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juliaanalvarez; anoche fue genial

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[upsidedowngrass]

reading your and jaspers posts about bryce with silent admiration because im too scared to contribute but i really love bryce so much hes my girlfriend and my husband and i like hearing u guys talk about him because youre Right. especially as someone who struggled from grief and trauma and being abused i think bryce's case interests me more than any of the other characters (even though liam is my favorite, and it says a lot because i find all of them interesting) because there is so much to him. i doubt he has processed a single thing about what happened. i think stellas death was recent too honestly, within the last few years at least, and he copes by... not coping. burying himself in work and drinking in the hopes to forget about it. not even to mention the fact that in episode 7 it showed him driving home drunk personally i feel he was past the point of caring to the point of engaging in risky/dangerous behaviors (this speaks for itself, i dont think i need to say why). i think that the plane impacted him so much that within those 7 months after leaving he got his shit together. i cant speak for if hes totally sober or not but at the very least he doesn't drink as much as he used to and i doubt he's putting himself in danger anymore. to be honest i think bryce is one of the characters who has changed the most because of the plane, which makes him being rejoined all the more interesting to me. im probably just making shit up but i like to read into it a little more than "bryce and liam were getting along but now theyre separated and liam has to fix it oh no". sorry this ask is kind of word vomit im not in the headspace to tidy it up but i hope you get what i mean

i think if one had continued for longer than it did it would have been interesting to explore bryce finally accepting and coming to terms with his past (him not seeing his childhood home in the wr anymore kind of representing this). i love bryce and he deserves to heal

TY!!!!!!! im glad my thoughts warrant admiration to you :D!!!!!!!!!!! (i will say tho that every time uve ever posted YOURE thoughts i am like ohhhhh.... ur SO RIGHT. i think u have some of the BEST interpretations of the one characters ive seen!!!!!)

(talked SOOO so much .so there is a readmore :) )

brcye really IS such an interesting character???? ik ive said it before but i AM biased towards protagonists so i usually focus on liam but like ...... bryce really IS probably one of the more. indepth ? characters in one in terms of like. background and how he Acts. i think ALL of teh characters are written really incredibly but i think, given how much of his bg is clarified (esp in contrast with how little is shown of the other characters lives pre-one) his motives, personality, emotions all end up being SUPER super elaborate and i REALLY love how he was written ??

(that said i think the reason he IS elaborated on sm is bc like. one doesnt elaborate on character backgrounds like MOST of the time. even charlotte is mostly left up to interpretation, bc one is more about the HOW people respond rather than WHAT made them respond that way. but charlotte and bryce are both outliers, and bryce ESPECIALLY so. because both obviously have Things they havent worked through properly, but bryce is directly just. Living in it. its the fact that he WONT acknowledge the actual Things that hapepned enough to heal that warrants the elaboration. while the other characters stop acknowledging ANYTHING about their lives , save for charlotte, who gradually works out her issues themselves, because THATS whats effecting her, bryce is CONSTANTLY just. he Needs to go back, but his problems ARE about what happened, and the fact that his life outside of the plane was what MATTERED to him, but that even then, he just Wouldnt acknowledge that life when he Needed to. idk if that makes sense but ohhh i think about the decision to elaborate on some characters and to not on others bc it feels Important)

hes so. he mirrors all of the contestants in some ways, but he mirrors amelia a LOT in that both of them respond to trauma by Setting It Aside. like That Trauma Cant Affect Me If I Dont Look At It. like. ur right bryce has NOT processed ANY of his trauma. which like it makes SENSE bc. it prob feels so much easier to him to not think about it by drinking instead, because its a Lot to think about. its a Lot to come to terms with. but bc he WONT acknowledge it but its still AFFECTING him he just gets More and More miserable (the detail about him driving home drunk and not even caring is so. :( )

what IS one of the most. compelling? aspects of his character to me is the way he responded to Everything after getting eliminated. bc it just feels So Real. because he IS healing, not completely, and not in the best way, but he clearly like. started putting SO much work into improving his life??? (the detail of him finally getting an end table for his bed instead of just... using a cardboard box ALWAYS gets to me. and that + the fact that the photo of stella is put up makes it seem like. THATS what was in that box. he LITERALLY started Unpacking thigns. its like poetry to me.) because it IS hard, and i think hes still putting things to the side, shoving the trauma from the plane to the side now instead of all his other grief and trauma. and the removal of the cans from his room yknow?? that hes getting up for work on time now?? its like. yeah i agree idk if hes necessarily SOBER yet but he really does seem like hes working really hard

its not perfect, but its BETTER and it feels. correct?? (and tbh? trying to brush off the plane as a dream isnt even teh worst thing he couldve done with that, i think, bc reasonably what WAS he supposed to do w that experience?? i dont think there WAS a good answer) bc the plane was a whole new kind of trauma. and i think surface level, one would THINK hed get WORSE after further trauma but like. i think he DID in some ways but in the ways that actually affected how he acknowledged and responded to his pre-existing trauma DID get better bc, as he puts it, hed Thrown his life away before, and didnt want to do it again. bc this time, he very well couldve died. and while he was on the plane, being home, on earth was SO much better than the plane, and it recontextualized Everything. hell, maybe after that, the earth finally felt Less daunting, like somewhere he Wanted to be, because for once, he WANTED to be back, and rationalizing That and the fact that he got Lucky, that something Worse couldve just full on Killed Him Forever really DID mean he didnt WANT the worse to come, at least not as much as before. but that meant he HAD to start actually Working on improving things, and i think he may not have Intended to acknowledge Worse things, but simply because the things he had to do to improve his life, like drinking less, making his house more Livable, they all Forced him to think about things More. hes still certainly not thinking about them as much as he Should, hes still not Processing things, but hes Heading in the right direction . he really was SO changed by ONE

and then liam showing up forces him, once again, to think about something he tried to push to the side. aaaaaaaandd then he rejoins and its so. it feels thematically fitting and IS so so SO interessting. because for once in his life hes REALLY facing his trauma head on. but then is brought straight back into it. and i need to think about that aspect more bc those thoughts are a bit less Focused than my other thoughts but given how complex his writing is after he gets OUT, its. SO interesting to think about how being BACK affects him

esp bc like. him starting ep 18 Pissed Off- which historically his responses to trauma are to either just Be Shocked, as depicted a LOT in ep 14, or to get Very Vocally pissed, as shown through the first half of s1, esp ep 6, and ep 11, and ep 13, and ep 18. ive seen it written as 'he doesnt have anywhere to direct the sheer amnt of STRESS and fear so he just. ends up yelling at people bc what else CAN he do' and i think thats?? probably fairly accurate. i dont think hes as Constantly Irritable and Irrationally Angry as fanon presents him , bc it tends to be. excessive. but he DOES get reasonably angry in response to stress !!! i always think abt how his body language in the 'credits' scene of ep 6 look like hes yelling at airy. and im. lays on the ground. i dont even know if thats ever as much 'just anger' as it is Fear and it FUCKS ME UP

but the way i see it, that ties to ep 18 a LOT. because he was really Getting better. hell, what he thought was the WORST that could happen HAPPENED (dying) but he. came out OKAY? its like he was being forced to think about and work through his trauma and he survived and was ok. but being sent back is like. 'oh god i did that all for nothing.' but i think it also sort of?? serves as the Last Push for him to really, REALLY acknowledge the plane (which is why it makes sense so thematically for him to be the rejoiner. he WAS the only contestant whod Chosen to ignore it all. but that has nothing to do with the plane, he cant choose if the plane ignores Him.) past talking about its affects, how its affected people. because after everything hed worked toward, hes Back. hes back, and everyone else is STILL HERE. liam had said they were all still There but seeing them there is a whole other thing. hed SEEN the effects of making it out after 7 months. but he never saw what it was like to still BE there after all that time. and bryce CARES about them (fanon sometimes treats him as if he is a bit. coldhearted? but i think people misattribute him being unhappy with liam as him not caring. i think the problem is that he maybe cares too much, and was affected a LOT, but didnt and doesnt know how to handle that. so he WANTS to ignore it, because it was all he could do, and haaving to backtrack on his haphazard healing from the plane is. highly daunting and uncommfortable and terrifying. thats not being cold though, thats VERY different) and now he HAS to acknowledge Everything, has to be a part of it Again. and i think its a combination of 'liam was here for 7 months after we all thought itd only be a few weeks. Anything could happen. who knows how long ill be here for?' and 'liam didnt have anything when he came back. will I have anything when i come back?? will i have worked so, so hard to heal and fix my life for Nothing?' and 'i dont WANT to be here again.' and 'oh my god all of them Really Really Are Here. Theyve been here the whole time.' and i think all that culminates in an appropriate amount of horror, and that prompts him to do what hes STARTED doing, which was All He Can. and hes pissed off cus hes terrified, so he spurs everyone into pulling out the plug. and then. it doesnt work. it doesnt work and thats the LAST of what he had, and i think iirc hes the LAST one to close his eyes afterwards. because hed BEEN off the plane, hes the one of them who had any hope to give them anymore. and it didnt work

(i also think a lot about how it mustve felt seeing the contestants all so. resigned. because bryce was like that before all this, but ever since one began he was stubborn, and didnt WANT to give up. and i think finding out that these people youd seen try so, so hard just to Handle Any Of This be SO resigned would be. so fucked up. he knew amelia when she was so determined to leave, and while charlotte seems a bit saddened by her resignation, bryce was there BEFORE that happened. he wasnt there like liam or charlotte was to see it gradually develop, and to develop that despair alongside them. all hes seen is that amelia was so determined. and that he may not have known her THAT well before, he knows shes different. he knows she Gave Up and like. GOD. and also i think abt how he mustve Felt seeing the plug for the first time because ehs the only one of them who hadnt seen it before (given its likely all the other characters had, since they casually refer to it). and given the short time frame between him getting there, and the contestants trying to pull the plug? it almost seems that that was like. the last straw. and ive never posted it but i once drew stuff abt it bc. the damage to it is noticable. and i think hes already aware liam was fucked up, but this is like. a tangible, permanent record of that on the plane. and he cares about liam, and has been grappling with all the things liams told him, but thats. thats something he can See. And i think it all of it culminates in him deciding that what hes been avoiding is doing Soemthing about all this, because before he couldnt, and then it was. an awful idea to, and then he didnt have many choices BUT to help. but now theres hardly anything to do, but he has to try. he doesnt want to give up. and it makes me soooooooooooooooooo. head in hands.)

anyway that was a LONG tangent the point is. YEAH. i think rejoining would be. very very significant for his character i dont think youre making shit up its DEFINENTLY a topic w a lot of things to discuss about it

but god. yeah it wouldve been SO nice to see him come to terms with everything hed been through before one. i think the show purposefully included what it did and ended when it did because it makes more sense thematically for it to go unresolved, because the point was that NOTHING was able to be resolved nicely because unfortunately, many things are Out Of Their Control. things COULDVE resolved almost perfect but enough things went wrong at just the right (or more fitting, wrong) time for all of that to not work. i think him no longer seeing the suburbs may have signalled more that maybe, just maybe, he could Do something to help the other contestants even if HE was Dead, that now he finally HAS a goal, if that makes sense (though i think even in the timeline of the series it still wouldve taken way longer for him to process everything Fully, they WERE only in the waiting room for probably about a day) but the idea of finally seeing the waiting room as it is bc hed finally worked through everything .... man.............. man

ik ive already said it though but i DO think it is sooooo so possible for him to heal post canon. im a firm believer that no matter what, at LEAST bryce and ameliaa get home (liam and charlotte have more room for error but i DO generally interpret the ending as them both getting home too, theres just less room for things to go wrong w amelia and bryce). and i think after everything? hed be able to heal. it would SUCK but i think hes, shockingly, in a better place Logistically for things to improve, because he has a support system, he has what hed already worked on in those 7 months, he has so much to aim for. it would be rough and take long but i think ultimately? hed be able to heal :) and its what he deserves

[wulvert]

this made me think of like. there being a vampire out there in the paperteeth universe who just pours protein powder into their blood snacks. THE GRIND NEVER STOPS EVEN WHEN U DIE,,,

nyways. my first thought 2 the pills getting stuck was "Straw Cleaner" nd that made me think back of when scarlet said fangs have straw technology. this is gonna be so hard 2 describe hold on. does this mean the blood is sucked in,,,THROUGH the fangs or does it mean like. it still goes down the throat but the fangs make it easier to?? suck it up?????

abt 2 ask so many questions about vampire biology im so sorry. feel free 2 apply the "they r vampires vampires dotn make sense" rule 2 any of these

what happens 2 the rest of the vampire's digestive system they dont use once all their veins reattach n stuff,,,do they just kinda have organs chillin in there now doin' nothing

if a vampire threw up would it just. straight up all be blood. if theyre running on empty is it just,,,Nothing? expanding on this do vampires who run on empty 90% of the time like avery have like,,,absolutely ZERO blood in them or do their bodies still retain at least a little even if they havent eaten in like. 1000 years or smthn. can vampires run OUT of blood entirely somehow nd just. straight up die instantly? thats pretty lethal to humans but i have no idea anout vampires

ok so good question bc while i want it to be the straws go into the mouth and thats it, u have to consider, a vampires mouth is attatched to someones neck while theyre drinking it, and like. it has to be difficult to drink blood through a straw in ur teeth and also keep ur teeth in the neck, unless the teeth r connected to the blood stream- but then like the vampires motive is the bloodthurst and if u cant taste the blood i feel like the motive has 2 be a little lower but like it probably has to be the latter bc how. like say u bite into a capri sun, u will manage tio get some down ur gullet but like its gonna mostly be allover ur face right so like the straws, for ease should probably go into the veins. and the the veins gotta have taste functionality.

heres my detailed diagram i have to go sketch page 50something bc i havent actually started it yet i just got back from college anwyay yes

they either throw up the organs or they just r static dettatched unsused.

so yea if a vampire throws up its whatevers in their veins- avery doesnt run entirely on empty shes just stays very low on blood, if she, post bloodlust setting in had 0 blood in her she'd go on an even murderousyer rampage like. rip kelly kinda thing. but avery yeah generally if u stabbed her she would bleed, except right now she wouldnt because she has no blood at all. if a vampire has 0 blood they dont die they just get rly murdery- its pretty easy to get to 0 blood, i forget to mention but vampire blood doesnt clot- but theyll usually not just bleed out completely bc they heal fast oh my god this is so incoherent- I'll come back and clean up this ask later but i dont want ppl to yell at me so imgonna go draw avery being pathetic on the floor

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Even my WIPs list is a WIP... send help

I’m only now just realising how many WIPs/half-baked ideas I have floating around in my fics folder on my laptop and I really really want to get to them... you know what? I’m going to give you all a list and talk a little about them in the hopes that it’ll a) get me excited about some of them and I’ll finish it faster, or b) you guys are interested about them and I’ll probably feel more confident in my writing and write some more... and hopefully I’ll stop adding ideas to it because I’m focusing on the existing ones lol. Also I’ve been tagged a short while back for a WIPs ask game but I think I did it the last time it circulated before this one so I’ll just do it like this instead lol. 

Levi x Reader WIPs (one-shots and mostly SFW unless specified otherwise) 

The Harbinger’s Premonition - a canonverse multichap fic where Reader is the grim reaper who collects the souls of dead Eldians and guides them to Paths, and Levi is the only person who’s ever been able to see them. Currently working on chapter 4 (very verryyyy slowlyyyyy) 

Role reversal AU (captain Reader and civilian teashop owner Levi) (this one is well underway!) 

Flatmates AU (in which Levi and Reader are in the same flat for uni accommodation - I’ve got a fair bit done for that one too) 

Florist!Levi - I’ve got several hundred words written from a while ago, and I kinda miss writing lil grumpy florist/plant dad so I kinda want to pick this one up again. 

Masseuse!Reader - the Scout veterans minus Levi have a weekly tradition to go to a massage parlour because they’re all stressed out as heck and Hange somehow convinces Levi to go to one. And you’re the pretty masseuse that got assigned to him for his appointment 👀 (this is more of a concept than an actual plot but I do want to write this!!) 

Airport and author AU - okay so I’ve written like 500 words for this one and the document hasn’t been touched in months idk if I want to pick this one back up? The idea is cute but I just have bad writers block when it comes to that one for some reason 

I also had ideas for six pieces that I was going to write for this year’s Kinktober, which obviously did not happen as I was moving back to uni and things were a little full on then. I definitely plan on writing these out but the question is when lol 

... old requests from like months ago that i haven’t gotten around to/havent been inspired to write im sorry to those who requested those I will get around to those one day I swear 😂

Other WIPs

I’ve mentioned a few times on this blog that I want to get around to writing a Levi x OC fic set in canonverse, as sort of a canon rewrite. Tentative name ‘The Creed of the Godless’. It’s still very much in the early planning stages and has been for months because I’m a perfectionist and don’t want to start writing until I have every little detail planned and plotted lol. I have talked about it in this post and there’s a little more info you can find in my masterlist somewhere. 

Not a WIP but I’ve been thinking about writing Furlan x Reader (listen I know the point of the No Regrets manga was not to drool at lines on paper but... I am very much drooling at lines on paper. Furlan is so goddamn fine in the manga and I need to write for him.) 

(I also have a multi-chapter fic that I kinda want to drop though because I’ve run out of steam for it and nobody’s reading it anyway :/ it’s not Character x Character/Reader/OC or anything like that though, so I knew the reception would be lower but to be honest motivation to write it has not really been there so idk. Might orphan it. Feel kind of guilty because I know there were a few select people that were interested but I just... don’t really want to continue with it any more.) 

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so im also a minor and i love ur fics but i have to ask how do u have the modivation to update. im writing smth rn and its so hard to have modivation to update so do u have any tips?

hi! tysm im glad u like my fics!!

and regarding motivation honestly a lot of the time i simply don't have the motivation to write, but I've found some ways to fix that (kind of) that personally work for me.

when i first started writing fic a couple years ago i had way more free time so a lot more writing time, and i was motivated by all the fresh ideas i had and my excitement to write. however i do tend to get bored by longer stories the more i write them which is why i mostly stick to oneshots or shorter works because an idea that used to excite me starts getting boring after a few chapters.

with my current busy ass schedule ive been slowly but steadily working on this chatfic, because it's easy, stress free, and short. i can write one chapter in 30 minutes to an hour and post it right after, so it makes for an easy way to keep writing fic even while im busy. i just find chatfics overall very low effort so that helps me w motivation

my biggest tip for motivation would be: if something you used to actually want to sit down and write starts feeling like a chore because you feel like you have to update regularly or soon, stop writing it. fic is supposed to fun and an escape from stress, not a cause of it. so if writing something isn't really fun anymore, stop writing it. your readers may be disappointed but they'll understand because we all have our own important lives and feelings. and if someone doesn't understand then they don't deserve to read ur fics anyway

when you do enjoy writing but you just have a hard time finding the motivation to update, something did with my longfics was always have a backlog of chapters. for my long 70ishK fic i used to be about two chapters ahead, so i would post chapter 10 right after finishing chapter 12. doing that makes it easier to update knowing that you have a safety cushion if life gets busy or you get tired.

sometimes when i havent updated in a while i just have to kinda sit myself down and force myself to do it honestly. not in a bad way though, just in more of a i want to do this but i keep Not Doing It but i have some free time now and im going to use it to write. and i just clear up that free time and make it writing time and just do it. motivation is really hard sometimes so idk how helpful my tips will be at all because i certainly haven't mastered motivation so

anyway i hope this was at least like a little bit helpful, pls lmk if it was and sorry if it wasn't lol. anyway thanks again for reading my fics :)

[mxpotter]

Overwatch Headcanons Request Update

Hii guys I was originally writing a request for someone of when their s/o's get injured and loses control of there powers and it ends of getting distructive- i messed it up only did the first part and not the last part i might have only done it for Reaper but im not sure since i wrote it a while ago and stopped cause im going through a break up and some depression currently so havent had much motivation until right now and i messed it up im unsure if you guys still want it but im still probably gonna post it in a few or later today or tomorrow. but i think its nice what i wrote but yea im sorry i didnt write the request correctly my apologies to the requester. but ill post it if you guys want.