#i havent drawn them in days wow

[m00nbuggies]

im back!! (it's cliva again)

[toytulini]

if you draw enough monster ocs, when you go back to drawing a human character, it feels like "sameface syndrome" everytime, by virtue of their face being. human.

[ironmanstan]

The 4 day school week absolutely ruining me i need to be freed from Stimulation city

[malkaviian]

its honestly so funny that my homophobic grandmother says that i should "make use of my talent" when it comes to art and that "if i had that spark glow, it was for something" girl............ i started to draw because i wanted to make gijinkas of the male fn4f animatronics kiss each other

[blackfairy312]

🔥/ soooo oc x canon stuff ... we (system) are making a fnac 3 au based on our (and my boyfriend's) interpretations of the characters in the rat and cat theater while adding our OC into it because of course we are.

(one of the drawings used a reference image by mellon_soup on patreon/pintrest!)

soo some info abt this ship and au:

- the Puppeteer, Rat, and Cat actors have names (Vincent, Antonio, and Richard respectively)

- my OC, Komi, is a pianist who, you guessed it, plays piano during the shows. i can lore dump about her role in the fnafverse another day yaaawwwnnn....

- havent drawn any full refs yet but Antonio is based off of Jesse Pinkman and Richard is based off of Steve Harrington, while Vincent i based off of one of my headmate's memories.

- havent drawn Mary yet but should soon...

- William Afton and Henry Emily stole the design of Vinnie in this AU to make the Security Puppet/Marionette. they both used to go to the R&C Theater

- redesigned Vinnie btw bc Oh My God why does he look like that. no wonder those shows were unpopular 😭

- i havent drawn the other animatronics yet bc i have trouble drawing them tbh 😭 i have drawn Blank a few times

- Vincent and Komi are like a ... Oh wow they both suck! He doesn't deserve her but She deserves him if that makes sense at all Youknow?

idk what else to put here but i'll try posting more on here soon!! tiktok and instagram are blackfairy.312 and youtube is oliverddp.

[way2gosuperrstarr]

I'm glad my ask made ur day! I’ve literally talked to friends and even coworkers about the AU lmao. It’s such a good idea and a so many hilarious (and angsty) scenarios could happen. I keep wondering most about Moon and how he handles his new role. I imagine its quite difficult for the DCA after having spent most of their functioning lives as stage performers. The first time Moon successfully and confidently completes a naptime must be so comforting for him.

hello again!! gosh thank you once more, again its just so crazy to think this thing like . Exists outside of just my little Bubble of Thought and Space, wow 😭

regretfully i havent drawn or shared much of moon in this au yet (i will remedy this in the future! sun just seems to come by default </3) but he is handling it .... about as well as sun is (very clumsily!). funny enough, considering he's literally from the theatre, moon has a sort of "stage fright" in his new environment. he's very awkward, kind of offputting, and stumbles over a good chunk of the more "interactive" parts of his new job, like talking to the children or to mc/yn. he's not really used to talking to others except for sun, and he doesnt exactly have the same instant charm and charisma factor that sun has and flaunts. he wasnt like this in the theatre; this is new to him. feeling awkward and shy is a sort of new feeling to him; at least feeling this much of it is.

he still has a lot of his "theatre villain" antics (both of them still have a lot of their 'theatre days' in them). sun and moon's childcare protocol was sloppily slapped over their preexisting programming, so it's still there. just sorta .... mixed into the untested childcare programs. he feels a little worry about scaring the children with his posture and mannerisms.

yes, i do imagine his first successful naptime on his own would be quite uplifting :} yn is only supposed to be an assist in the daycare; the one legally required human to be around the children, and there to make sure sun and moon's programming is running smoothly and fill in spots anywhere they're lacking. they aren't supposed to be running anything. that's the dca's job. and moon is..... sort of hiding from that responsibility at first, i suppose? and he does feel a little terrible about it. even when he's down and helping, yn's still doing a lot of the heavy lifting during naps at first. his first truly successful and on-his-own run would surely feel quite rewarding and nice. :}

moon hides away for the first naptime or two. in fact, yn doesnt even know he exists at first— sun never really gets the chance to tell them. their first meeting is quite the shock, to say the least. or, a shock for yn, a little bit mortifying for moon.

[alinktoana]

30 day no fanart challenge

this is the meat of the challenge: no fanart for 30 days (oh wow lol) 1. drawing categories/prompts instead of IP: it can be *anything*, it can be food, hobbies/professions, folklore/mythology. eg: actual taiko drums instead of taiko no tatsujin characters, cute dinosaurs instead of yoshi, cool hedgehogs instead sonic (lol) 2. IF i happen to wanna draw fanart, it's gotta be at least 100 years old (anything before 1924) eg: drawing fanart of John Tenniel's Alice (1865) and not disney Alice (1951), Albert Lynch's Joan of Arc (1903) and not Clone High Joan (2002). ps: im not sure about famous people yet, but i think ill go with the same idea that theyd have to have been dead before 1924.

here's some stuff ive drawn with that in mind, even though i hadnt stablished the challenge yet lol

why a no fanart challenge? well well well, if this isnt another post artist alley eulogy lol

here's some background feelings: after having helped promote 2 japanese food festivals and tabled on both its artist alley's, and knowing myself, and having grown up in the age of comic/book to film adaptations and the rebootprequelsequelmagaddon, it's really hard for me not to fanart, even though i trashtalk hollywood all the time for not taking risks and doing original stuff, lo and behold, i do the same. who am i to judge _anything_ when i watched all three star wars sequels in theaters and crushed on kylux for years, i was kneedeep into hannigram, i gave money to the barbenheimer industrial complex. how can i blame RGG for not letting kiryu go when i _cried legit tears of joy_ when pirate majima was announced? (granted, it's not as bad as the kiryu situation lol but this is about ma$cots, not me lol)

i love a lot of characters, a lot of stories, im always jumping from show to show, game to game, and coming back to them. but i wanna go beyond my love for other people's art and be in love with my own, now that im at a better skill and mental state. it might not resonate as much, specially at the japanese festivals im a part of, but i wanna try. and im gonna start slow, i *am* going to draw japanese food, japanese animals, and create my tiny little scenes and see what comes up. i love stickers with every fiber of my being lol so ill always have in mind that ill draw stuff that i would wanna stick on my own sketchbooks and journals. but i need to do this, at least for 30 days. who knows what will happen later, you know? a friend of mine once said that colored pencils are like sugar, and graphite pencils are like veggies. and i feel like fanart and not-fanart is the same. we love fanart, but it's not healthy to only draw fanart... also i love people who delve into IP OCs and stuff, it always seems a lot of fun. i could try that, but i think ill cut my fanart ties cold turkey and then i can figure something out, i dont know lol i could go back to d&d character sheets lol another side note: i went to film school bc i loved watching movies. i wanted to tell stories, but i had no idea how, and i didnt think i had the talent for drawing. i started studying japanese and bullet journaling, bc i had the urge to draw, and those were the mediums that were close enough to drawing i felt i could try. and then hannibal happened, i had a roommate who was learning to watercolor, and i was like, screw it, let me draw hannigram bc i love them lol ive had the opportunity to make some movies, but logistically and creatively, they never felt as good as having the spark of inspiration, sketching, linearting, painting, printing and selling these tiny ass stickers. there is some control freakness in that, sure lol but there's also a need to build confidence in my own abilities, which sadly i didnt have a space for in movie sets... anyway, ill always mourn not having spent my teens drawing, but im making my kid self proud now <3 also i might post my new stickers at some point, i still havent made a pinned post lol but someday, you know so yeah, if anyone's reading this, ty lol TLDR: if you draw, write, sculpt, whatever, anything, and you tend to do fanart, ask yourself if you're fanarting a bit too much, if there's a way of turning your love for these characters/worlds into something different and more you.

[cambriancutie]

2, 5, and 26? For any of your characters you feel like answering this for…. I like leander and guava and humphrey a lot though if you want specific ones ^_^

ok.. i will do those three... because youre awesome!

2. i have not thought about this. i havent thought about this at all! a shame really. i think leander is a fake metal fan were has a bunch of metal tshirts but actually only listens to like. cavetown or something (only kind of gay music i can think of right now). guava would be into jrock and shoegaze cause thats the music i like. i think he downloads everything onto an mp3, also he collects cds and has a really old cd player. humphrey would tell you that they HATE listening to music but they have every single off the hook and squid sisters album.

5.oh this one will be fun… i always default to tshirt and sweatpants for all my ocs..but i prommy they actually dress themselves properly. guavas fashion is very splatoon (2015) for the wii u. i dont know how else to explain it. like all the promo material from back in the day is outfits HE would wear. and he still dresses like that, almost 10 years later…wow!

when leander isnt wearing tank tops and sweats i think hes a turtleneck fan.even though ive never drawn him with one. i think he dresses very nicely but still eccentrically (ie, nice dress shirts but they have ugly patterns). peak nice otufit for him his a black turtleneck with a button up on top..but i never draw him as such. he wears a lot of loose clothes at home cause he can move around better in them.

humphrey tries to keep their clothes monotone, i think they miss growing up in the domes… they are ALWAYS wearing the neo octoling boots (splat 2) when they can. both because it reminds them of their childhood and i imagine they make a nice clacking sound. other than that i think their fashion at home is pretty random cause their always taking other peoples clothes (mainly guavas or lychees). also when they dont want to be a good teammate theyll dress up as a newbie player. just so they can get away with being a bad player. teehee

26.i also havent thought about this, i dont imagine my characters moving that much. leander walks slowly and shuffles his feet, hes also a sloucher. guavas walk isnt notable at all. i think humphrey tries staying upright at all times but naturally slouches, also they move their arms a lot.

[crispn-n]

April 🎁🧸

a monthly post where i post a recap of comms/freebies/whatever i got where people draw or write for my ocs!!!

in sum, April was quite a PABear month

[ artist : kowori ]

Last month I discovered this artist opened a new surprise me YCH with a cooking game theme. I immediately, excitedly, tried to send a request for Jake and Rose!!! Oh look at how cute they are.. I've watched this gif for days...!! T__T

I love it so much! I love how they incorporated the lil details, decorations and color palette to match their worldview and visual design 🥹🥹 Please notice that Rose's cooking skill is LEVEL MAX!! Well-deserved...

ALSO ALSO, I wrote whether If it's possible to include the 4 kids cameo. 👉👈 My proposed idea was... what if the kids shows up as judges who rate the dishes that jkrs made? (to replace the stars rating)

And I was surprised to see the final result!! I appreciate that they willing to do it!! Aaaaaaa this GIF is absolutely adorable and the best thing I received that month ;.; i'm so in love..

(?????? yuki disapproving avocado toast is coincidentally very in character … 🥑)

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I'm a big fan of their pixel artwork! It's sooo cute. i commissioned a pixel clutter for furerenmika and been using it for their toyhouse icons! I thought it'd be nice to have my other OCs getting one too. Their ych is always adorable as well... (Sketched out a rough draft for Eli's pixel clutter long time ago... havent got chance to comm her to complete the set..)

Though i'm unsure if i can send a request again without bothering them with my comm request.. :.) let's see... <- too anxious of being a repeat client

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ANYWAYS!!! I'm very glad that i've been slowly trying to comm people drawing PABear on skeb... (最近はPABearファミリーもskebで絵をもらえるようになって嬉しいです！) So here are some compilation from 2023~April 2024!

[Artist credits from left to right : melome, shima, takoya, karu, toriba, inonino]

Most of the artists drew my OCs plenty times already and I'M SO HAPPY to get chance seeing PAB family to get drawn by them!!! They are adorable... <3 ;o; thank you so much!!!!

PS : (skipping march because didn't comm a lot back then. wow very amazing self control just for a month) but i did get some stuff that month that probably will be written on next opportunity

[amethyst-marshmallow]

All of my Objectober art!!

(OP) Happy Halloween!! I figured I'd recap all my objectober art here so you could see it all in one place or if u missed a day xd

Day 1: Breakfast

I love cracked egg sm i am very happy with his design

Day 2: Finalist

I LOVE ROTTEN APPLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Day 3: Cider

He's cute but my friends said he looked liek a beer-

Day 4: Pets

(this wasnt all of them but these r the best ones) soo sillyyyyy

Day 5: Song

I DREAM A DREAM WHERE NO ONE CALLS ME NEEDY‼️🔥🗣️💯

Day 6: Carnival

i changed cotton candy's design a little since then but this still looks pretty good

Day 7: Production

wow.! thats....pretty bad!!!!!!

Day 8: Rivalry

me when the colors load incorrectly💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔

Day 9: Trust

bruh not coiny AGAINN🙄🙄anyway i like the shading in this one better

Day 10: Internet

They wanna beef on the INTERNET wanna get INTO IT (this drawing has nothing to do with that song)

Day 11: Sports

Would You Play Yoyle Ball?

Day 12: Season

She thought she cooked (she probably did)

Day 13: Headcanon

T4T TENGOLF 4 LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!1

Day 14: Beach

Soo eepy shhh let him finish napping

Day 15: Flowers

Oh yeah that makes sense

Day 16: Warm

mmmm...ligth....

Day 17: Card

WOw so cool uhh i actually am really proud of her design

Day 18: Maze

Fan does she LOOK ok?????????????????

Day 19: Armless

Goofy ahh box what are they doing

Day 20: Dream

woah art style change uhh anyway i think this came out pretyt good

Day 21: Silly

IMSILLYIMSILLYIMSILLYIMSILLYIMSILLYIMSILLYIMSILLYIMSI

Day 22: Farm

this isnt really that farm related

Day 23: Haunted

I made this into a gif but since it has flashing lights i didnt include it here, you can go to the original post to see it tho :3

Day 24: Neon

Augh these two i still havent drawn them but uhh for names im thinking Neon Sign/Neon (but people very close to them call them Soul) and Paint Can maybe (idk i already know like 3 object characters named spraypaint so i didnt wanna do that)

Day 25: au

wow so cool ALSO I JUST REALISED THAT IN THE ORIGINAL POST I ACCIDENTALLY PUT IT AS DAY 24 OOP i fixed it now tho

Day 26: Costume

Omg me again im sooooooooo silly

Day 27: Recovery

not me doing day 27 AFTER day 28...........

ONLY 30 IMAGES PER POST WILL BE CONTINUED IN A REBLOG

[dumbbitchfrommars]

12am and i cant sleep.

its been so hard adjusting to all the change. it was unexpected, and i got used to something and didnt realise how that momentum would just disappear and how uncomfortable i would be about that.

i think i got used to the chaos of being a student. now i feel stuck, and im doubting myself. im really, really questioning.

but somehow i was blessed with a really wonderful man amidst it all?

doubt/fear/self criticism. its confusing me... i havent properly cried in so long. ive just gotten a bit too comfortable with the subtle, constant voice in my head putting me down for every little mistake and unmet expectation.

i am a good writer. i missed writing, really writing. i got so lazy. i feel so lazy, all the time. like im never quite putting in 100%, but if i did, i know id be able to achieve so much. id be so successful - probably at anything i put my mind into.

instead im so afraid of failing or being disappointed that i barely try at all.

my confidence is thin... i wonder if people can see through my facade?

im so ashamed and angry at myself for losing my temper today. it completely derailed the rest of my day. i feel terrible. i deserved to get in trouble today. it was my karma for being impatient, and mean, and angry. life is not that serious. nothing is worth that kind of anger. no stranger deserves that kind of anger...

im so tired but the coffee that i knew would throw me off is keeping me up. i was shaking for half the day today! i genuinely helped so many people but i also feel judged, criticised and under appreciated. i am not rostered again for this entire week.

work is not worth this frustration and anger and hurt. ive exhausted myself analysing the situation and its done. but, what is left if not that? what do i worry about instead? how others might judge me for dating this guy? or how my car is stuck in a carpark tonight and might be towed away by the morning? or, that i have $40 to my name right now with multiple trips interstate planned in the next few months? money doesnt matter. it never really mattered and is the least of my problems, and yet it floats back to me constantly like a persistent fly. i got bit on the fucking face by a mosquito!

but being hugged like that healed something in me. it was the most comforting hug ive had in so, so long. i could cry just thinking about feeling that way all the time. so warm and safe and protected and loved.

its nice to feel like i can be a shy girl again. like i dont have to pretend to be confident all the time, cause someone else is already, and hes ready to take the lead for me. so i can let my guards down and just be my self and not worry about scaring him off or making him insecure. and i like the way he tells me things. like he really shows me, and gets me to visualise what hes trying to explain. and i like how he rubbed my knee when i said i wasnt listening to him for one second. and i like how he kinda just decided for me that were hanging out again tomorrow. and i like how he asked "are you okay" when i got all anxious and made me laugh at myself instead of being awkward. how did he do that? he helped me not overthink by making a sweet joke and i could laugh. and my critical side is non existent when im with him, cause hes so confident in himself. hes so man. and i actually like him. i like talking to him, i like his personality, im drawn to him, i think hes attractive. i mean, he has odd style but it suits him. and he has some opinions that i disagree with but they arent dealbreakers. and hes such a boyyyy like hes so masculine man like wow they really do exist. all i had to do was look in a different place to my own. I KNEW IT TOO. i knew i liked them a little rough around the edges. ugh. okay. i think thats enough fawning over him now.

i wonder when we'll finally kiss. i dont think im ready yet... im scared of rushing and getting hurt again. i think he can tell and thats why hes been so slow and gentle with me. is crazy, isnt it? i seem so confident and attractive and cool from the outside. i feel like everyone profiles me as having so much handed to me. but its honestly so scary and hard to try do relationships and friendships. ive been hurt so much and im so so sensitive. but maybe i seem strong and like my walls are up or something, so people think im indestructible. but secretly im so soft and fragile and i need time. and i feel like hes giving me that time? like i dont think ive ever gone this long talking to a guy. i havent hung out with a guy 3 times without kissing once. thats a lie... but its also true, cause the taurus i always just expected it to not be romantic. i dont think i ever really saw us being in a relationship. but i can see myself with the scorpio. so its even a shock just for me, to see how seriously im taking this by not rushing. i want everything to be special and the right timing. i even want to meet his family and friends. and my sister really likes him. thats how i know hes good for me. because shes never wrong about people. could this be why i had such a trainwreck day today? did i receive some kind of evil eye the other night? but...who...? everyone seemed so sweet and happy and lovely. maybe its just a bad day and i shouldnt overthink it.

ugh.

its fucking freezing cold and now its past 1am. ugh.

i would love another one of those hugs, please. it was so lovely and nice and ugh. holy shit. i really like him!

[frogischeese]

we need more demi representation. i have heard way too many people dismiss our sexuality and experiences because they misunderstand what it is and think that it is just "normal" and what everyone has. NO ONE IS NORMAL!!! if you feel the same as me, great! but dont dismiss my sexuality or say it isnt real because it isnt as big as being aro or ace, or any other sexual orientation. all of us deserve to be valid, not just the ones which are spoken about more. so, as some form of education i want to talk about what my experiences are like as a demiromantic and demisexual person. everyones experiences are different and i understand that, but i just want to do some form of story time to rant as this is really getting on my nerves

being demiromantic seems a lot like what the "norm" is and sounds a lot more allo than being demisexual does. as a demiromantic, as you would expect, i cannot gain crushes. one time i thought i had one but after watching jaiden animations video of her experiences as being aroace, i sat down with myself and asked myself whether i would want to kiss my "crush", or hold hands with her. and i was disgusted with the idea. in reality i was just very hyper about this person, but all i wanted to do was talk with her as i thought she was a very cool person. i never felt actual romantic feelings for her, i just got very excited and fixated. my demiromanticism also effects how i see people. jaidens video also made me think "wait, people actually just go "oh wow that person is so pretty i would love to take them out someday" ??". as that seemed so, strange to me and such a foreign concept? for me, i know this sounds cliche, but in reality it is true. i see peoples personality before looks. and in my eyes, they directly influence each other. someone that i think is a cool person looks a lot more attractive to me than if i didnt know them, or if i disliked them. i know this as many people have commented on pretty people with me but they look really unattractive to me as i know what kind of person they are. it isnt like, a logical thing where in my brain i go "oh i dont like them, so i wont say they look good". it isnt a concsious thing, it literally just happens for me. i noticed this of course mostly platonically. someone that i dislike that looks conventionally attractive will naturally look much worse than they would if i didnt know them. i am in general a very judgemental person but that doesnt take away from the fact that this happens. the moment that really made me feel completely confident in the fact that i was demiromantic was when i met my partner for the first time. they looked fine to me, i didnt even, think about their appearence at all. it was only a while into speaking to them they looked incredibly attractive to me. i know that a lot of people talk about valuing personality over looks, but what people misunderstand about demiromanticism is it isnt a choice for us. it is just a thing that happens. and due to this, i dont understand dating culture. for allos i have seen some people want to be romantically involved with someone they havent even met before just because they look pretty. i do understand being naturally drawn to aesthetically gorgeous individuals, but there isnt a romantic drive or insentive for me. i do also feel naturally drawn to attractive people! i just dont have the urge to ask them out, just to get to know them.

when i was reading up on asexuality and the different umbrella catorgaries, i stumbled upon this one. since it is quite similar to what allos feel i didnt think i had anything. finding the actual term for it made me face what i really was and it helped me feel a lot more confident in who i am!

as a side note, i came across this tik tok which was this demi person talking about not understanding cheating, either sexual or romantic. and i completely agreed with them, i didnt understand it either, and just listening to someone else who was demi talk about what they were feeling helped me feel better about what i was feeling. as well as him, i also dont have a "type" and didnt understand why people wanted specific traits in their future partners. all i thought was, "well, fluffy hair because its nice sensory", but i knew i didnt really care either way? (the video is below and it describes demiromanticism in a lot better way than i can x3)

(and this one is him responding and talking about being demisexual)

(and i forgor to add jaidens video so, throws at you) (it is a very good video for aros and aces, and just people in general !)

now in terms of being demisexual, it is more simple! there is more i would want to say but i will be brief as this is quite personal.

as a demisexual, i cannot feel turned on by anyone that i am not romantically attracted to. i dont understand hook up culture, and frankly, i dont really understand the need for porn. i relate somewhat to aces experiences because it feels quite similar, but at the same time i feel bad as they are a lot more marginalised and discriminated against than we are.

at the end of jaidens video she says that aroaces feel ostrisised for being so different from the other orientaions, and this is no slander against her i love her!! but it just shows how under represented umbrella catogaries of aro and ace are. most people dont know that they exist and i recommend looking into it if youre questioning even a bit as it can help so much. learning about what we were feeling and finding a label that fit us made us so much more confident in the way we feel. you dont need to find a label or define who you are, but there are so many subcatogaries of aro and ace that are barely spoken about, and just learning about them may help you feel better about everything.

education and representation of more nuanced orientations is just the way forward in my opinion!

[acnhretreat]

wow this post sure got long.

i’ve been wanting to make some more animal crossing art

i’m getting used to drawing again after almost 10 years of stopping (with like one drawing here and there every couple years) so i’ve been warming up letting myself draw poorly and it’s been extremely freeing, since the reason i quit drawing to begin with was because i started feeling like i wasn’t good enough. at that time i quit drawing and got into abstract painting because “you don’t have to be good at it” but newsflash to past insecure me you don’t have to be good at any art to make it. and while logically i know this, and i actually believe it deeply with my whole soul that you do not have to be “””good””” at art to create art and in fact it’s very human to create art and whether art is “””good””” or not is subjective anyway and i’m genuinely, and always have been, a huge fan of “””bad””” art because so much “””bad””” art is sooo good. and i feel this way about like all mediums. catch me consuming and appreciating all kinds of art all over the place. but, sorry gonna overshare for a sec, i’ve got an eensy bit of a personality disorder that makes me an eensy bit insecure and filled with an almost unshakable sense of shame and humiliation. well, it’s my fucking life goal to break free from that shame. and thank god, the older i’m getting the stronger my sense of self and self worth are becoming. and finally, i’m allowing myself to explore drawing again, which i used to do and enjoy for hours upon hours every day of my childhood. drawing was my main form of escape and artist expression aside from writing. i create all different types of art but drawing used to feel like mine. it came so natural to me i never thought twice about it. i let a small comment that someone made get to me. and i am determined to concur this. i was 16 at the time, or maybe had just turned 17. when i stopped drawing. and i’m 27 now and it feels soo freeing to let myself draw and not be “great” at it.

since i was about 20 i’ve been trying to get myself back into drawing, dipping my toes in drawing just one little thing every couple years. i felt so stressed because i had a lot of artist’s acquaintances. i grew up in a pretty artsy town in northern california. and i remember when i started trying to draw again, i felt so frustrated that my peers had never stopped drawing, they continued to practice and got better. whereas i stopped and got worse. and i compared myself and felt so angry. i felt like i would be just as skilled as them had i never given it up! and it made it so hard for me to start back up again. my drawing abilities had regressed to the skill level i was at when i was in like 4th/5th grade. i wasn’t even at the level that i was when i had stopped drawing at age 16/17. and it took me a long time to get over the fact that i’m going to have to practice a whole lot more to get back to the place i left off.

this year i decided i don’t care anymore. i keep a sketchbook in my bed under the pillow on the side i don’t sleep on. pencils and markers within reach. and i’ve been allowing myself to draw whatever, whenever i feel like it. silly art, vent art. sometimes i want to draw but all i can do is write on the page and that’s alright too. i’ve spent the last 10 years mostly just writing and painting abstract to express myself, so that’s just what flows easier sometimes. but i’ve been creating. drawing stuff. the other day i thought to myself “i havent really drawn a picture of spongebob since i was a kid” so i took out my markers and i drew a really crude drawing of spongebob. and then i drew patrick and squidward and sandy and a jellyfish. and it did look like a kid drew it lol. and it was so fun to make. A couple months ago i took out a crayon and drew along with Steve on some episodes on Blue’s Clue’s like i used to do when i was 5. Steve actually taught me how to draw a lot of basic stuff. and that felt so nice to imitate what he draws on screen and get my hands comfortable creating shapes intentionally again.

the other day i drew a whole bunch of pictures of Stitches and some of them turned out looking real freaky and i actually was pretty happy with the end result, having a bunch of blobby drawings of my favorite animal crossing villager all on one page lol.

i feel so inspired by the animal crossing art i see online it makes me excited to get to draw more. sometimes i don’t have a ton of creative energy to draw a big elaborate drawing like i used to when i was a teen but i’m gonna baby-steps my way up to drawing more and more elaborate and interesting animal crossing artwork. not even to share with others people or anything, although i might someday. but just for me. for the love of my favorite game and for the love of drawing

[duthea]

the oddity bunch

[roseworth]

Hello, im new to dc and i was reading some Robin backstory but there's something i want to ask if you don't mind. I don't understand why Jason and Damian are hated as Robin? From what i read people can't accept Jason as Robin due to him being different than Dick but what's wrong with Damian? I see Tim being accepted despite fans anger over Jason before and he's the second most popular Robin next to Dick. I thought they'll do the same with Damian but it seems not? I understand that it's probably due to racism but is there other reason for that?

ok so. theres honestly not a simple answer to this but here we go

the thing about comics is that in the 90s there was a whole push for people wanting comics to be a little more mature and not just for kids so that adults could still read and enjoy them. and so all these kids/teenagers in the 90s were able to continue reading their favs as they grew up which is nice BUT it meant that they got very attached to tim as robin since he was robin for like. their whole childhood

so tim had a solo with 100+ issues and people loved it. and he was in things like young justice and teen titans that people also liked. and ofc he showed up in a lot of the iconic batman stories in the 90s. so then once damian comes along and is robin instead people in 2006 get upset because tim was their robin for years and they loved tim and now from their perspective tim is "forced" out of a robin role to make way for damian, leading them to hate damian (which is kind of the same thing that happened to jason, since dick had been the only robin so people loved dick for 50+ years then jason comes along and people are mad that hes not dick)

and damian was written like a moody 10 year old, and people hate when kids show emotions, so it led to people not liking damian since he was more emotional than tim and isnt a cut and clean robin

anyways damian also had some of the issues that people had to a lesser degree with jason, because damian way murderous when he first appeared. and jason (thanks to starlin) was okay with people dying. so basically they were a lil too okay with murder, again making them not a cut and clean robin and led to people not liking them

and THEN of course. we get into the racism. everyone always talks about how tim is the "relatable robin" because hes an upper-middle class white man which. um. sure. idc i wont get into that. but damian despite being drawn very white was not. not to mention the mischaracterization of talia leading to people being like "ooo damian is evil and terrible!" and people wanting their straight (lol) white boy robin back.

but thats a lot of what happened in the mid 2000s to make people not like him SO why dont people like him today!! (spoiler: the reasons are terrible)

basically a lot of people that havent actually read the comics today will love tim a lot and see that damian was mean to tim (tried to kill him. lol!) and say "grrr damian tried to hurt my sweet little tim 😡" without actually knowing or caring about damian.

then theres also the shit that still happens in the comics with damian in canon constantly being pit against batman and still wanting to kill ? like in teen titans 2016 he ran a private prison or something. idk i havent even read it because the idea sounds so stupid and i cant stand it. then in robin 2021 he was still willing to kill and all and was like "omg i dont have to hold back anymore 😍" because dc uses the same character arcs over and over and over and will never let damian get past wanting to kill 15 years ago

and of course. still the racism of people wanting damian to be a stereotype then getting mad at the stereotype that THEY shoved him into. and the same stuff from before

also a writer made damian say some homophobic stuff in like 2009 so to this day people are still like "wow.... hes homophobic.... hes going to kill jon for being bi...." despite damian not even being a little homophobic recently (except for what devin grayson did but shes going to hell for that anyways)

in summary. people all have their little beefs with damian for various reasons. its all petty shit and some racist shit and him not being the Golden Robin so people dont like him

[spearxwind]

Saw your tags on a post and I've gotta know what your top books are because I want to read and I can't get into anything atm x...x

that's a hard thing to answer because.. it has been so long since i read things properly but i can say ive got two things that immediately spring to mind

1. the ruins by scott smith - survival horror, drawn out suffering, etc. I honestly read this in like, a week-ish, maybe a little less and at first i didnt think it impacted me a whole lot. i closed the book saying 'huh, that was neat' and then the book didnt leave my mind for two years straight. i am not joking. i am not exaggerating. every single fucking day for two years i would think 'wow the ruins fucking slapped holy shit'

so yes, if you like that kind of stuff then i totally recommend.

fun fact: this book rooted (hah) itself in my brain and i used it as a springboard to develop adri's personality. if you read it youll understand.

and 2. GONE (the whole saga) by michael grant. its uh. well. its kids with superpowers. except instead of playing hero they act like actual kids and there is a LOT of violence. and i mean a LOT. there are so many disasters and casualties the whole saga its insane and if you read it youll probably think 'wow yeah this totally changed windy's brain chemistry jesus christ'

DO NOT READ IF YOU ARE SENSITIVE TO VIOLENCE. its not incredibly graphic but its very very harsh, even by YA standards

my favorite one was the fourth one, PLAGUE.

fun fact: there are SO many editions have diff covers and some even have fucking pictures of real people as the faces of the kids and i am so SICK of them they should go back to the covers i have which are JET BLACK save for the outline of the title, and the name of the author printed in transparent shiny film so u can only see it if you lean the book towards light

theyre honestly so cool. why did they change them

seriously, what the fuck is this. these do NOT do the books justice this looks like a romance drama not books where teenagers are beating each other to death

(sidenote AGAIN i have only read these six. apparently after light michael grant has been writing several other books in this same universe (w the same characters???) but the situation they were in is not there anymore so????????) but yeah i havent read them. idk if theyre good or not. frankly idk if i want to read them at all

and last but certainly not least

3. phantoms, by dean kooontz. its uh, its wack. first time i read this i plowed through it in 3 days cause i was so hooked

its ALSO a fucked up book, and it ALSO changed my brain chemistry a less than normal amount.

spoiler: its not about phantoms (its worse)