#i havent drawn anything in months im so sorry

[zerrart]

kit catsuragi

[sofiaruelle]

Trying to escape bedrotting with some salad milk.

[chevs-and-spiders]

[lilowoof]

I'm so fucking excited to get all this outstanding work done, and for tax season to fuck off. I cannot wait to have more time to play games with pals, go out with friends whom I haven't seen in a few months....go to some random meetups to meet new ppl and create new connections (and perhaps snag me a new person wink wonk LMAO).

And just...have more time to live. To stop feeling as lonely as I am feeling rn. CAUSE HOO BOY, it's been hitting me hard. And I can't do too much about it CAUSE of the deadlines I need to meet!

[todayisafridaynight]

Snap you are the king of sexy funny back when you did Yamtien just goes to show you have a talent for humor and cheesecake.

there's something about the title 'king of sexy funny' that's really tickling me thank you so much anon ill take that crown with honor

[gwensy]

i fear ive forgotten how to draw

[gongedtornado]

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[noomycatz]

hello I am ✨the government✨, and you are legally required to loredump about your fallout ocs now /j /silly /pos

(I love reading loredumps lol)

YOU WONT CATCH ME THIS TIME GOVERNMENT!!!!

.

Ok my lawyer said i have to. :(

You already know Argo but i dont have much for him yet. He likes rubber ducks i bet

I have one tangentially related to fallout, but not really. His name is Vep!

Yea uh. Dont ask. Also insultron ^^ he is veps securitron!! Vep repaired him to the best of abilities (HE DOESNT HAVE A BONER ARM PEOPLE KEPT TELLING ME HE DID DTOP STOP STOP) since Vep is a pacifist, he retired him to like, make fun of people instead of exploding them. I have a lot of troller ocs ngl.. (like 2. that’s not a lot noomy, shut the fuck u) please dont ask me why hes a deer/leopard just go with it

This is my courier 6, aka courier pickle. They’re really fucked up in the head!! And also really gay for robots. I, i mean they, they have a problem. Yeah. Not me

They dont have anything up OR down there!

After getting shot in the head by Bitchass Benny, they ran straight to the strip, tortured him and then dragged him over to the legion to get him crucified where they promptly joined. They had fun times!

Until they found yes man >:P

They betrayed caesar (oh no how could you! Die.) while preparing for the soon to be battle, they stumbled upon the think tanks satellite !

Everything went downhill for our so called hero there :3

(I havent played honest hearts or lonesome road yet and i really dont care for the,.m…. So they are not ap art of the lore. I said so. Joshua graham can lick my metaphysical balls)

whered it go pickle! whered it go! haha! the think tank took it and replaced it with a bunch of mentat tins so now youre addicted sorry. and now they’re going to poke you and prod you and make you run tasks. they have your brain still. Mobius never had it, and you killed him anyway. How could you? How could you? Why did you do it? Why did you do it?

They think radroaches are neat. Cute little buggers!

When they came back to the strip not one recognized them at first, and I wouldn’t blame them. They didn’t even act like themselves!

While yes man continued to bug them about the battle they just kept drowning themselves in chems and alcohol (robotic) prostitutes until they were sore and numb to this cruel world. The wasteland will eat you alive. From the outside and inside. Dust in your lungs sands engrained in the palms of your hands. Nobody is there for you. Nobody.

And then the battle came. They surrendered, wanting to make peace, wanting to exchange their life for whatever they still considered “friends.”

Lanius lied. Lanius took them prisoner and yet, still called for no mercy.

They took the dam. The securitron army was destroyed, the NCR drove out, Yes Man killed, and the Courier was due to be crucified.

But they ran. They ran and ran and ran

(and they ran… I ran so far away…)

They temporarily stayed at Big MT, for one making an attempt to revive yes man using the mark 5 securitrons, but it failed horribly!! And also they ate all the Mentats to the think tank kicked them out.

after a month of paranoid traveling they managed to reach boston! !! !

there they met the sole survivor ( @bl4z33467 ‘s oc!!!) and thyey settled down for no more trouble from the legion ever! definitely. ok i hope you enjoy reading. im not too good at writing stuff like this, give me an argumentative essay and a few weeks any day

^^ video also by Blaze (although the last part was drawn by yours trulyyyy(

[luescris]

tws: mentions of major depression and suicide

i dont normally do these kinds of posts. i like to keep to myself, hide things away and pretend that im happy half the time.

but the truth is. im not.

so im making this post just in case something unexpected happens to me.

i could never cause myself physical self harm ever. period. the thought alone sickens me. but these last few months have been. so very hard for me. i am the lowest i have ever been in my life. and i just thought that maybe i should make this post. just in case someone cared if i disappeared or something.

im feeling so alone. lost. and completely out of creative influence. i havent drawn or written anything real recently and i want to so very badly but. it also feels like what i do isnt good enough. it doesnt reach the numbers that i want it to and i just. im trying to improve, i really am, but its going way too slow. and I dont know what to do that i havent already tried.

im attempting to get mental help right now, but the help i am getting is different. not exactly official. its too complicated to explain, and its limited. i dont have enough money to get myself a real therapist. nor do i have the time

to those of you that read all this: thank you, but im sorry. for ruining your mood, putting this on your dash, making you worried. if no one reads this or if it doesnt get any kind of interaction though, ill just. delete it.

this isn't me trying to find help or something like that. im not. trying to vent online or something like that, or admit some terrible dark secret (though it sure feels like that). just, again, a life update. i guess.

yeah. see yall around

[webginz]

omg who's this sayyna oc tell me all about her

well i actually just realized her name should be spelled sayiina (Сайыын��) so yeah newest update 🤦‍♀️ i feel so silly not double checking my spelling..

shes a russian(yakut)/american girl who developed weird powers when she was a teenager. she can manipulate time/space, erase things from existence, manipulate peoples dreams, functionally teleport... shes extremely op and is the most powerful person in her universe. she grew up with a russian orthodox father and because of this she thought her powers were holy and as she got older and more delusional, fully believed she was god.

she meets a girl called jude, who also has powers, and instantly falls in love. she fucks with judes reality a lot, (sayiinas very much a villain if you couldnt tell by this point 😭) mixing her dreams with real life and even erasing a girl she was close to out of existence so that way she would be the only one jude loves. she finds out her powers dont actually work 100% on other people with powers, so she fails lol.

she wears a green jacket and black tanktop and ironically wears a cross sometimes. she dyes her hair blonde and you can usually see her roots cause shes lazy. shes kinda short.

i love her a lot esp her eyes.

i associate her with houses bc she lives in one of those suburbs where every house looks the same and its all freaky. she fucks with jude at one point by making it seem like it never ends (like when 2 mirrors face eachother)

its something i always wanted to draw but man drawing houses is hard and im lazyyyy. my drawings of her are all head and shoulders (and old cause i havent drawn anything in like at least 6 months)

omg this turned out really long sorry

[cozymochi]

Same anon from the comms ask (https://www.tumblr.com/cozymochi/726220454036193280/your-art-is-wonderful-and-i-would-love-my-ocs-done), but AHHHHHH thank you!! I'm honestly always nervous to ask for free art and genuinely never mind paying if it means I can support an artist in some way! (The world is WILD and EXPENSIVE these days, so it's the least I can do xD)

I remember sending in an ask for my TWST OC to be drawn during your event, and immediately got nervous and wish I could've rescinded it (again due to being so nervous to ask in the first place xD)! ^^; If nothing else, I hoped I remembered to say thank you in there b/c you truly deserve it!! Thank you again for being a wonderful inspiration (and for even answering my asks), and take care!! ❤️❤️

i still have an open kofi if that counts for anything 😭 It’s always there (ALSO GUYS THANK FOR FOR ALL THE SUPPORT A MONTH AGO IT GENUINELY SAVED ME😭)

I honestly don’t know when normal commissions will re-open. If they do the prices will have to be hiked up a lot. Which sucks, cuz idk how fair that is for everyone else, but I really don’t have a choice anymore. I don’t make enough in my day job despite doing double shifts near every day (I have the most hours out of everyone there, even outdoing managers). I have to make up for whats withheld from my pay cuz taxes and deductions suck.

Though with every rent fear, bill and car problem that arises that moment gets closer and closer (whether im ready for it or not— and on god I’m not)

SORRY TO INFODUMP I JUST FELT SOME BACKGROUND CONTEXT WAS NEEDED regarding what to possibly expect should I open commissions again 💀, still. Thank u for the support 💕💕 and ur welcome if i ever drew the mc or sorry that i havent gotten there if i havent 😭

[asktotallyhuman]

//mun here

Sorry again. I got a job now. And i havent drawn anything at all in weeks.

I dont know why this happens. Everytime i revamp the blog, within a month it's dead again. I lose the motivation to draw so fast it's like it was never something i wanted to do in the first place and i dont get it. I WANT to update, i WANT to tell my story, and i want to be able to share my awesome characters with y'all.

But getting myself to draw anything is akin to a chore. I can barely even make silly shitty doodles.

Idk when I'll bounce back. But i swear to god im not giving up on this blog.

I thank everyone who's stuck around while mun figures his shit out.

I think ill call off the potion panic, i think everyone else has already moved on from it already. I would appreciate if i could get some asks if anyone has anything theyd like to ask Sarah (Or Nyzak. Hell even Markus or Boomer.) Maybe someone will come up with something that'll give me some damn inspiration.

Future answers however might end up in black and white to prevent future burnout.

[ghost-of-the-machine]

hi guys im all better now i got it out my system 🥳🥳 im rediscovering my own personal joy apparently that only takes like 10 minutes. will this come back and haunt me again? probably but whatever. i was going thru my toyhouse gallery looking at some art ive done of other characters and. ITS SO MUCH VENT ART... but like. why does all my vent art go so hard LIKE MAYBE IM BIASED... czu yknow....... it was my suffering that i visualized but. THIS SHIT IS FIRE like sorry im dumping some of my faves here, FOR DISCLAIMER im really not upset anymore? like whatever these were about, i dont feel it anymore 🥳 if i did id just make new art with the same purpose but i havent yet so thats good

THESE ONES i honestly like. was i miserable drawing them? yes but even after i was like. 😼 OKAYY..

anything with red herring is like guaranteed to be fire sorry i dont make the rules

this one is one of my favorite ones EVER LIKE I ATE I SERVED I SLAYED.... its about dysphoria but. LIKE I DID NOT HAVE TO GO THAT HARD...

heres some more ill just dump em, LIKE I SAID im pretty okay right now i just. i havent drawn nearly ANYTHING in the past 2 months im YEARNING FOR CREATION... so im looking back to remember what i can do if i try

this one was secretly vent art but we cant let them no shhhhh. dont ask me about what cuz i genuinely dont remember. all of cicero island trauma is just subtle venting its how i COPE LEAVE ME ALONE!!! i drew this for his isolation au, so that should tell you all you need to know

honestly this is the best my vent art has ever looked which. I KNOW HOW THAT MIGHT SOUND... but trust me, i think its a very good thing. being able to properly like. EXPRESS my emotions is helpful for me, it helps me understand myself better and maybe hopefully figure a way to deal with them

[mildcicada]

HI HI ITS BEEN A WHILE BUT I SAW U WERE ASKING FOR DRAWING REQS?? perhaPs an undyne??? :0

I feel like i forgot how to draw

[sylkana]

I do kinda understand when you’re right there for someone and then they’re not there in the same way. While it doesn’t make them a bad person, it... Does Not Feel Good. Like you’re putting in more effort and care than they are.

no my friend absolutely isn't a bad person but..... they tend to make me feel like i'm not even wanted?? but then they'll send stuff like "omg miss you" if i haven't spoken to them in awhile and sometimes even make me feel guilty for not responding but when i actually TRY to have a nice conversation with them i get brushed aside so idk what i'm doing wrong lmfao maybe i'm just overreacting i just feel different lately and idk if it's good

but in response to your other ask (bc i'm lazy i'm sorry forgive me): you are so kind and i thank you for all the nice things you send me 🤧❤️ i know i'm not as active as i probably should be but when i get sweet messages it always makes me feel better

[rains-pace]

My friends and I got super into Starbound for a solid month so I decided to draw our crew! Please click for better quality because tumblr has been making images super blurry recently ;;

(From left to right: @the-undying-cookie , my friend Drew, @aceblast75 , my friend Nathan, @annoyingqualitydeer , and my character)