#i havent been loud about this on main but the past few months have been hell

[rose-tinted-kalopsia]

people around you are so lucky to have you by their side. you seem so sweet and genuine

anonie is it soft hours?!!! 😭 ahhhh you don't know how much hearing something like this means to me 😭😭😭😭

but you're here with me too, nonnie <3 so i guess you're included in the lucky ones, too <3

[omegawolverine]

I know you posted it days ago but you said something about wanting to rant about either karl or his fanbase and its been itching at my brain. Ive no clue whats happening or what is happening at all cause no one seems to be making clear points?? Or explaining anything?

Obviously you do NOT have to talk about it im sure it might be a sore point to rant because people can get SO needlessly rude to others over it. But if you want to idk explain? Just rant? Im definetly curious what it was over or about.

The "you dont need to talk about this" is amplified by the fact i am DAYS late and you are probably over it by now.

okay hi yes im happy to talk about this but i think i should preface with two things:

1) even tho it may seem like im biased towards him or being very defensive of him im actually a super casual karl viewer and the only reason i am super defensive of him sometimes is bc we act a lot alike irl and that is mainly because of our neurodivegency. when i say a lot i mean we share traits like "annoying" stimming (jumping around, making loud noises, repeating the same phrases until everyone is sick of hearing them), the difficulty reading situations, the very obvious issues with volume control and not just bouncing from subject to subject to subject as we fucking please. basically anything you've seen karl do on stream that is Very Neurodivergent ive done the same in my own way which is why i get defensive when i see people calling him annoying or saying they dont like him, usually for these types of reasons. that being said, when i say im a very casual karl viewer, i fucking mean it. i usually only watch him when he's streaming with other ccs i like or when he's doing chill alt streams bc even with the annoying donos, he's pretty relaxing and comforting when he's just fucking around by himself and he isnt trying to get as hype as he would on a main channel stream. so yeah, it may seem like im biased and sure, i guess i am on some level, but it's not coming from a place of me hyperfixating on him or me even loving him as a cc, it's coming from me being a neurodivergent who likes him just enough to get upset when i see people basically being casually ableist towards him.

2) i dont have all the facts or even a great understanding on what the fuck has been happening recently with his "drama"...mostly bc he talked about it on his priv, which im not on, and people are gatekeeping the tweets, as they always do, and basically making you "dm to see them" (which is already a problem in and of itself bc apparently in these tweets he said he didnt want them being ss and shared, yet they are being shared thru dms over and over and over again like. at that point just stop withholding the information and post the fucking shit, you clearly dont care that he said "dont share"). additionally, most of the threads ive seen on this situation havent actually explained the initial issue, just talked about his apology (a lot of people have said "it's bad" but havent said why and with no screenshots ((i havent asked for someone to dm me them and i still havent seen them posted, which is mildly surprising, but incredibly frustrating at this point)), i only have a few basic details i can actually assess it on) or they talked about the initial issue in very vague details so um. excuse me trying to explain this now, but ill try and make it make sense with how little ive actually pieced together.

(oh, also, here's my first rant about the ableism in this fandom which is way more broad. this is a pretty different rant from that one, but they're both pretty big reasons why i hate this fandoms treatment of karl)

so basically the problems started with mr beast being apart of a charity stream that donated either to autism speaks or to a similar company, im unsure on that part. im also unsure on if the people participating in the stream actually knew of this or not bc, from what i remember, the money was being donated to a separate organization that was like. under the bad company or some shit like that, idk how stuff like that works and also i read about this shit months ago bc this originally happened months ago and just sorta came to a head recently.

anyways, i think karl was supposed to be apart of this stream but pulled out of it right before (that or these were two separate streams and karl was supposed to participate in the first but pulled out while mr beast did both?? idk. regardless karl did not actually participate, just mr beast). from there people started doing the guilt from association bullshit they always do, this was also doubled by the fact that the chris being racist stuff came out sometime around then and basically he got dragged all over twitter for "being ableist" and "supporting racists" and i cant remember if he actually apologized when this originally happened or not. i vaguely remember him apologizing about something back then but i genuinely dont know if it was this or something else.

basically that died down eventually, a good chunk of people unstanned him but him and honktwt didnt end up getting the lovely lil technotwt treatment and they still havent yet, surprisingly. good for them honestly ajsksk

but now we get to the past few weeks and apparently something happened with him "laughing at someone saying the r slur" (it was mizkif, i believe), specifically when it was directed at other people, which is a big yikes, obviously, but when karl was called out for this a lot of people kind of. made this into a situation that it wasnt bc um. basically karl didnt laugh at it, he gave a few nervous giggles, as people often do when in a situation like that (and karl specifically said he does this in the one part of his apology tweet which i did stumble upon, although it wasnt the important part of the apology thread bc why would it be) and people fucking crucified him for it. they quite literally dragged a neurodivergent man for supposedly "laughing at the r slur" when he can literally reclaim it and also he was just nervous laughing.

and this is where the situation just gets really bad because they. basically forced him to admit that he was autistic on his priv to apologize for this. i havent seen the screenshots of him saying this, but i saw people discussing it and i am frankly so fucking pissed about this because sure, it was a bad situation, and i understand people wanting an explanation, but an apology? for a neurodivergent man nervous laughing at a slur he can reclaim? and then forcing the man to admit something he literally said in that tweet he didnt want people to know which is why people were being so gatekeepy about it while also LOUDLY discussing the situation, as if that wouldnt drive MORE PEOPLE to look for screenshots and ways to get ahold of this information? and then people had the audacity to call it a "bad apology" when they had quite literally just violated his privacy by forcing him to admit something that he shouldnt have needed to share in the first place if he didnt want to, which he didnt.

and this is why im so pissed off. karl is already constantly picked at and made fun of and called annoying for his neurodivergent traits, things which he literally cant help, things which are generally harmless, and now he was forced into a situation where he can now be further picked at and made fun of and called annoying bc they forced him to admit something private instead of just understanding and accepting that he had been nervous laughing at someone using a slur he has definetly been called for his neurodivergency.

tldr of my thoughts: yes i think karl needed to address this situation, it definetly looked bad, but twitter stans have this sense of entitlement with their ccs and because of that, they consistently take it way too far and harm the people they claim to care about so dearly. we've seen it happen time and time again with dream, but this is the first time ive seen them basically force someone to out themselves to make their apology "valid" and most of them still seem to not want to accept it anyways, which just makes me feel bad for him bc now that info is out their and people are just disregarding it to continue "holding him accountable".

anyways, i think that's all i can really say on this topic rn tbh, if anyone else knows this situation better please feel free to lmk clarifications and ill add them in since, like i said, i know fuck all thanks to twitter being so goddamn hush hush about the important details while simultaneously being the loudest mfers about how much they hate karl now instead of just fucking unfollowing and moving on.

thanks for the ask and im sorry if this is confusing!! i just think this is one of those weird situations where like. i think karl deserved some criticism for what happened and how he handled it or at least he shouldve been asked to address it but that just. isnt what happened, at all. he was harrassed. karl got harrassed and because of that he handled this situation even more sloppily than he probably wouldve and exposed private info about himself that he didnt feel comfortable doing and it just. fucking sucks tbh.

[kerriescreativecorner]

playing house once  more

here is my Nobunaga Valentine's Day story it ’s inspired from the if we where married event a few months back I do hope you all enjoy. you can find all my other work here  Kerrie’s Story Corner I also like to give a shout out to @forallyourikemensengokuneeds     for  letting a certain someone off their leash in a certain discord chat last night. 

The black steed moved through the freshly fallen snow. The midnight color a stark contrast in a world all white and gray with winters kiss. the two riders on the noble beast’s back pressed tightly together so they could stay warm.

With arms wrapped firmly around his princess, Nobunaga guided his horse to the edge of the lake. The view that spread out before them was as breathtaking and stunning as a finely cut gem.

The shallows of the lake had frozen over. It looked as if the soft rippling waves had been frozen in time. The drifts of snow that formed on the dark frozen water looked like white capes on the frozen waves. The trees that lined the bank of the lake hung heavy ladened with all the newly fallen snow covering them.

There was an intake of breath from the princess and on instinct, Nobunaga reacted by holding her tighter.

“Your not cold are you my heart?” he asked his lips softly brushing agents the curve of her ear.

He felt the shiver as it ran through her with his words.

“No,” she said as that shiver shot through her. she pressed her back tightly to Nobunaga's chest “this is breathtaking”  she said awestruck.

“But isn’t this lake a bit out of the way from the village and the daimyo we are going to see,” she asks.

“ a slight detour,” Nobunaga said as he rested his chin on the princess should “I know how you much you like this lake,” he said by her ear his breath warm and inviting as it breezed past.

“Also I know your plans for today were laid to waste by me have to go see this daimyo” he added before softly nipping at her ear  “ I hope this makes up for it.”

There once more was another shiver that shot through the princess, before a soft moan only Nobunaga could hear passed her lips.

“Ngh.. not all my plans Nobu, I was still able to give you my Valentine's Day card this morning before we left, and I still get to spend the day with you,” came her sweet words followed up with a soft kiss to his cheek.

“But this view does help as well.”

A smug, all too pleased with himself smile played across Nobunaga’s lips at hearing her words. “I can't  promise that the views will be like this for the rest of the trip,”

he looked down to his heart and offered her a sly smile “but I can promise you I do have one more surprise for you before the day is out.”

The princes arched a brow suspiciously at him. She knew from the past his surprises were not always pleasant and most held a bit of danger. “You better not get me killed Nobu”

Nobunaga shook with amusement as he chuckled to himself at his hearts words and the look on her face.

“You need not worry my heart,” he said soothingly to her  “it’s not what you’re thinking.”  once more he pressed his lips to her ear.  “Or maybe you do have something to fret over.” This was said in a low husky growl with his lips ghosting past her ear as he spoke.

The princess went rigid before the shiver rolled down her back. The heat his last words gave her pooled and wormed in her core. Softly she moaned as thoughts of what her devil kings had implied with his words drifted throw her mind. She knew she would spend the rest of the trip thinking on this.

                             ***********

It was late afternoon when they arrived and the sun was starting to set. Just shortly after taking their detour to the lake it had started snowing. At first, it was soft fluffy flakes lightly falling but soon the snow started falling like rain as more and more fluffy fat flakes gather and fell in numbers.

This sudden snowstorm had set them back by at least four hours and so they arrived much later than planned. By the grace of the gods, the daimyo himself set out to find them. After a brief exchange of words, it was decided that he and  Nobunaga would meet the next day as the daimyo knew his lords also had plans for that evening.

From the time they met up with the daimyo and his exchange with Nobunaga, the princess was giving Nobunaga questing looks, which he just ignored. the small party containing Nobunaga’s small route as well as the local lords wounded their way to the outer farmhouses of the village before parting way.

“We are not staying with the daimyo in his manor?“  the princess asked.

Showing only a cold, distant face Nobunaga simply said “Did you forget what I told you at the lake my heart?”

“No.” she said with a touch of suspicion to her voice.

“Good” Nobunaga replied curtly as he guided his horse from the main road.

Nobunaga watched his heart’s face as the farmhouse came to fill in to view.

The smile that played over her lips and danced in her eyes was a delight to him, oh and her words even sweeter when she asked  “ Is … is that our house?” he chuckled softly at her question and the light blush that came to her cheeks.

“Yes it is.” he said as he watched her

At first, she looked excited and happy however the closer they got to the house the more that look faded. A almost sad look was filling the princess' eyes “oh it looks like there is someone living there now.”  came the all too disappointed sounding words.

Nobunaga kept his cold distant look even when he gave a loud sharp whistle once he stopped at the front of the house. As soon as that whistle ended the door to the home was throw open and figures came out of it.

“Hideyoshi Masamune what are you two doing here?” the princes asked sounding surprised and confused all at once.

“I thought both of you were tending to your fifes.”  her eyes filled with confusion turned from the two men to Nobunaga than back.

“Surprise my heart I asked them to go ahead of us and help prepare my surprise for you.” That all too smug smile of his play over his lips as he dismounted the horse before lifting his heart off from her seat and setting her to her feet.

“It’s freezing out here you both best get inside before you two catch a cold if you haven’t already.” Hideyoshi said in his normal mothering manner as he ushered them both through the door.

“Dinner has just been laid out and ready just like you asked.” Masamune added as they passed him before entering into the house.

The princess barely got a chance to say goodbye to Hideyoshi and Masamune as they left as soon as there and her arrived.

“Nobu what is this?” The princess asked him once the others left a suspicious knowing smile on her lips.

“Mm, I remember how much you liked this place and the time we spent here this summer,” Nobunaga said to her as he came from behind and wrapped his arms about her. “I thought we could once more playhouse as a married couple.” he said as he held her even closer. “ The house is ours my heart.” He said before placing a tender kiss to her cheek. “But soon I hope we will not have to play at being a married couple.”

The princess turned in his arms her head lifting to met his eyes and search his. She found what she was looking for in that look he had on his face. The wealth of emotion swirling in his eyes.

“Oh, Nobu!” she choked out before she stood on her tiptoes and gave him a sweet, tender kiss which she only broke to say  “I love it and yes yes.”

The princess didn’t even get the rest of what she was going to say out before Nobunaga took her lips into a deep, passionate kiss.

[fluteforthought]

tagged by @omg-unit

Rules: fill in the questions, tag other people!

LAST:

drink: white zinf

phone call: well technically my last 9 facetime calls have been to by bestie

text message: "I was trying to have a conversation with you but it’s hard so I resorted to just annoying you until you respond.”

last time you cried: uh.. earlier today.

HAVE YOU EVER:

dated someone twice: I guess not. No. I’m gonna go with no.

been cheated on: yes. 0/10 would not reccomend.

kissed someone and regretted it: AWWWWW HELL NO

lost someone special: yes

been depressed: oh u betchya

been drunk and thrown up: I have been drunk but I havent thrown up because of it.

IN THE PAST YEAR HAVE YOU:

made a new friend: awwwww heaven yeah

fallen out of love: yes.

met someone who changed you: mhmm

laughed until you cried: I cry until I am uncontrollably sobbing ( in class ) a couple times a month actually.

found out who your true friends are: yuppado

found out someone was talking about you: ye boi

GENERAL:

how many people on tumblr do you know in real life?: idk one? maybe two.

do you have any pets?: yeeeee I have two maine coons and a fish named rex.

do you want to change your name?: yeah kinda. Michelle is a bit boring and I dont think it suits me.

what time did you wake up this morning: My alarm was set for 630 but I woke up at 730 and was late for class whoops

what were you doing last night: being a weirdo on facetime with a bestie. also face masks and jamming out in the car with said bestie.

name something you cannot wait for: CONCERTS OF ALL KINDS

have you ever talked to a person named tom?: thats my uncles name! so ye

what’s getting on your nerves right now: siblings.

blood type: bad.

Nickname: none

relationship status: heavena single

zodiac sign: sag

pronouns: she/her but feel free to call me whatever you want bro

favorite show: the office/ whose line

College: community but I have an audition for Temple U this weekend.

hair color: really (shitty) ombre because I’m lazy and let my natural hair grow quite a few inches.

do you have a crush on someone: uh maybe? I’ve spent 20 years with my feelings and still can’t make heads or tails.

what do you like about yourself: my height!

FIRSTS:

first surgery: I broke my arm when I was in kindergarten but also I had to have oral surgery when I was 2 but I forget if that was a true surgery or not.

first piercing: ears

first sport you joined: soccer

first vacation: I think it was Duck, NC but it might have been the Grand Canyon or Las Vegas

first pair of sneakers: are you serious? idk man but they were probably so cool and lit up and might have been care bear themed.

RIGHT NOW:

eating: mini corn dogs

drinking: white zinf and water

im about to: accept the sweet embrace of death. I mean. watch true crime.

listening to: shoshty

get married: i dont know what this is supposed to be asking. I am not currectly married or I guess not currently not getting married lol but yeah id like to get married at some point.

want kids?: yeeeeeeeeeee

career: musician

WHICH IS BETTER:

lips or eyes: eyes

hugs or kisses: can i choose both?

shorter or taller: It’s p hard to find someone shorter than me but I think I would go with taller because I dont want to accidently fall off the kitchen counter trying to reach my coffee mugs.

troublemaker or hesitant: hesitant i guess but then sometimes I make the toublemaker decision. I’m not quite sure these two things are as related as you think.

older or younger: well physically I really dont care. As long as they act like an adult I’m all guch

romantic or spontaneous: romantic

sensitive or loud: sensitive but also loud

hookup or relationship: relationship

HAVE YOU EVER:

kissed a stranger: I think I have. Not like off the street but def not knowing the person.

drank hard liquor: nah bra

lost contacts/glasses: naw

sex on the first date: well idk if I would call it a date but maybe?

broken someone’s heart: I think so. and maybe that’s why karma is biting me in the ass right now.

been arrested: hell no

turned someone down: mhm

fallen for a friend: unfortunatley

DO YOU BELIEVE:

in yourself: yep

in miracles: yep

in love at first sight: Not full love but yes. I believe that I could see someone and realize that I could love this person.

I tag no one because I’m lonely and I was tagged by one of my only friends so I am sorry. Tag yoself tho bros and brottes

[corvidprompts]

Dissociation

 Dissociation. Okya. We got this.

This one came first because I thought it would be short. Help

Disclaimer: Not a psychologist. Never had the opportunity to see one, so I’ve never been diagnosed with a dissociative disorder of any kind (though it’s extremely likely I experience it) (thanks brain)

Dissociation is what happens when the brain decides that Reality Is No Good So ????

There’s a few types of dissociation, and this article is Really Good for a science explanation. I’ve used it a few times to figure stuff out/ 

thanks brain.

This is not a post on dissociative identity disorder- it’s a lot more general. Dissociative identity disorder is a very specific mental illness that i am probably not qualified to write too much about.

For those of you who torture your characters, or have had your characters suffer traumatic events, you may want to look into dissociation. I’ve always believed that Harry Potter should/ probably does experience some kind of dissociation, for example.

THERE ARE A FEW MAIN TYPES

Dissociation is the Scientific Term for any experience involving the disconnect between the self and reality. The specific kinds of dissociation are as follows

DEPERSONALIZATION

Depersonalization is when the disconnect from self/reality occurs between person and body. It’s essentially a feeling that you may be ‘floating’ or out of your body. This also includes experiences of plain old feeling ‘wrong’, as though you’re too big or too small in your skin, or looking in the mirror and not recognizing your face.  Some good descriptions I’ve seen are ‘existing, but a little to the left’, ‘i can’t see my feet, therefore they Do Not Exist’, and ‘im staring at the back of my head’.

From an outsider perspective, I doubt much would seem very wrong as it’s easy to cover that shit up yo, though the character may interact oddly with mirrors and photos of themself

I experience depersonalization (probably) and am available for questions

DEREALIZATION

Derealization is when the disconnect happens between person/reality. This means that between the ‘person’ the ‘body’ or the ‘reality’, only one feels real at that moment in time. This means the person may feel like they are moving through jello- everything seems slow and hard to understand, noises may be Too Loud, a person may be Suddenly Aware that there has been a shift in how they are perceiving things, but will not be able to tell if they’ve exited or entered a dissociative episode. Some good descriptions I’ve seen include “i am hearing everything that is happening but i am not processing any of it’ ‘everything has become 2-d” “i have Spider Senses and the brain of jellyfish help me” and “*toothbrush noises*”

People experiencing derealization would seem ‘out of it’ or unfocused from an outsiders perspective

I experience derealization (probably) and am available for questions

DISSOCIATIVE AMNESIA

This on is So Much Fun (kill me)

Basically, there’s 2 types. There’s Dissociative Fugue and low key fuckery which i dont think has a special name.

Dissociative fugue is probably something you write a whole story centered around, not just a bullet point in a character sheet. Basically, Dissociative fugue is when the brain goes ???? forgot everything. Made some shit up. A person loses all the memories of the past life, can sometimes travel great distances, and just set up shop with a new life in a new place with new memories. This new persona can last for months until the brain reboots and loads all the ‘previous life’ memories.

Low key fuckery, on the other hand, is when your brain goes ???? in general. Experiences include ‘you havent’ finished speaking your sentence, but i’ve forgotten what it is’ ‘is this a memory of a dream?’ and the extra fun experience of ‘i’m on public transit and remember Nothing of how i got here have i missed my stop yet when did i get on’

Characters who struggle with dissociative amnesia will robably frequently repeat information, ask if they’ve already said something, miss social cues like asking how someone is (because they think they have already and dont want to ask again), forget to eat, mess up on dates, ect ect.

I, of course, experience this (probably) an am available for questions

IDENTITY CONFUSION/ ALTERATION

I was gonna write a thing about this but honestly the paragraph from the article does a gr9 job so here

Identity confusion is a sense of confusion about who a person is. An example of identity confusion is when a person sometimes feels a thrill while engaged in an activity (e.g., reckless driving, drug use) which at other times would be repugnant. Identity alteration is the sense of being markedly different from another part of oneself. This can be unnerving to clinicians. A person may shift into an alternate personality, become confused, and demand of the clinician, “Who the dickens are you, and what am I doing here?” In addition to these observable changes, the person may experience distortions in time, place, and situation. For example, in the course of an initial discovery of the experience of identity alteration, a person might incorrectly believe they were five years old, in their childhood home and not the therapist’s office, and expecting a deceased person whom they fear to appear at any moment

I don’t think I actually experience this holla

Every character is gonna have different triggers directly related to their dissociation. They’re likely going to be related to emotions and stress, such as times where your character is having emotionally vulnerable conversations, or is performing heavy emotional labour. I have two big ones. One is those ‘awareness’ exercises, like trying to regulate your breathing, and the second is things like ‘Do you ever think about the fact that your older self is watching you through memories?”

Anyway, upon writing this I’ve come to the conclusion I probably need to see a psychologist lmao

[lizardswithoutlegs]

HOOOOOWOWOAH BOY

ART ASKS

when i walk into a building i get to eat everybodys pencils and they cant say no

do it 

( also thanks for asking ! ) 

itd bother me a lot less if everybody came to my apartment and took one of these beautiful eggs

YEAH UNFORTUNATELY IM STILL..... WORKING THROUGH THE SAME WAITLIST but im comparatively REAL CLOSE to being done with it and i should be opening up sometime later in...... the Year

Boy Have I

theres This messy thing from a while back and then also

THIS, from even FURTHER back, when i didnt realize how fucking RED all the outlines on my things were because of the monitor i was using, two for the price of one

why not both

i do Not but it you ever see me walking on the street please throw handfuls of teeth at me theyre the only things my wretched body can digest and im always hungry

OH MAN ok so, an art telephone game is based on, of course, the game telephone, where one person says a phrase and then whispers it to the next person, and so on and on until the person at the very end says whatever they heard and if its done right the final sentence is wildly different than what you started with

an ART telephone game is the same kind of concept, except one person draws out a scene or character, and then other artists draw THEIR interpretation of whats going on, and so forth until the last person can end up with something COMPLETELY different than what the first scene was

youd think thered be less room for error with drawings, but as each person ONLY sees what the person ahead of them has made, they can get PRETTY OUT THERE - im gonna be a part of pythosarts game, and theyve done a couple of em before - for example one round started with THESE as the first two drawings

and then fourteen interpretations later, ended up with these as the final two

its good its real good

I Cant Control Where Bigfoot Goes, I Can Only Take Note Of Where Hes Been

YEAH, sort of ! on the main, iguanamouth, i have a bunch of different tags for art depending on what they are but not really a catchall one, BUT i do have an art only blog where everything gets tossed over ! 

HONESTLY THE ADVICE i got is basically what all art advice is gonna boil down to eventually - you gotta just. do it. you gotta DO it

absolutely nobody you know who draws things well started out at the level theyre currently at, and putting down the things youre visualizing onto paper is a combination of getting the the technical aspects down as much as getting the idea in your head

and that goes with figuring out anatomy and how bodies are put together ! ive got to use references for a Million things,. especially the dragon hoards - theres absolutely nothing wrong with using references for your drawings ! and being able to create accurate representations of things without looking is something that comes more with drawing something over and over and memorizing the body shape more than just, feeling like you should KNOW how to do something

so dont beat yourself up for needing references. if youre trying to shy away from them a little bit but still cant make something look nice without em, try using several different reference photos to put together an entirely different pose ? 

theres ALSO the SHRIMP METHOD, which is great for practicing and getting good at one particular thing - this probably isnt SUPER HELPFUL but good luck ! 

god i tried. exactly ONCE maybe fourish years ago but it wasnt art, i was trying to stream the lion king movie and i had no idea what i was doing, i didnt realize i needed to wear headphones so the sound wouldnt snowball into a feedback loop of my own voice that never ended but i kept laughing and it kept distorting worse and worse, like the audio version of saving and resaving something as a jpeg

it was just me and my friend ronni in the stream and ONE other person who never left and never said anything and i kept addressing them out loud like WHO ARE YOU and that only compounded the noise problem and eventually i gave up

anyway i havent tried since

i uhhhhh dont think i COULD, really - fear especially is something thats kind of subjective and one persons Big Terror could be neutral or even cute to another person

like for me i used to have a lot of childhood fears about the ocean, and how deep and dark and vast it was, to the point where i couldnt play a lot of water levels in video games, even ( but i had almost drowned several times when i was Very young which probably had, a little somethin to do with that )

maybe sometime ill try to explore things IM afraid of, but its hard to encompass a psychological response in an image !! could be a fun experiment, though ! !

a few PLANT ANIMAL AZKZ, HUH, DONT HAVE A WORKING Z KEY

SHIT DUDE THESE ARE... SO GOOD thats the official name EVEN IF i didnt use. a daffodil as the flower base. it doesnt matter 

yes

i got A BUNCH of flower and plant themed suggestions and theyre all REALLY GOOD ( way more than these ) but straight up im taking a break from em for a while - if anybody is else is reading this though you should definitely tackle one of em

WASABI ASKS

Do Not Feed Animals The Paste

i keep going back to read this ask because you could replace wasabi with my name and its the exact same. its the same. i feel like i have to hide somewhere

this was real and this is the award they gave us

there were other awards but the judges refused to give them out. they burned them in front of the other dogs. we won

it depends on the age ! wasabis pretty much an adult, so her sheds are pretty infrequent ( usually once every 7-8 months ) BUT when she was still growing back like 6 years ago, she would do a full-body shed every other month !

wasabi accepts tokens of appreciation in the form of : fruit, green beans. No Exceptions

i would never seperate wasabi from her hands

absolutely..... not. not even a little bit h h hh a this isnt a disney animal companion, i dont even know what “kind of like a dog” means with , a lizard who cant make any vocalizations or get up on their hind legs or NOTHIN sometimes if i hold a piece of fruit on my hand and she reaches for it she gets confused on whats what and tries to bite my fingers instead

ONCE WHEN SHE was attacking her reflection in a mirror i put my hand in front of her face to break eye contact and she SUNK HER TEETH RIGHT IN THERE but immediately let go like “oh whoops”

lissten . . .  wasabi is so sharp, just absolutely everywhere, and these are the sharpest. the grabbers

heres a lil battle damage from earlier today actually

this is pretty tame BUT the long long lines are from claws, and the thinner, closer together ones are from holding her and her scales scraping against the skin. so not even just the Body is completely safe ! this is not an animal youre gonna wanna get your face real close to if theyre in a walkin mood

she doesnt even MEAN to scratch the shit outta me, its just kind of a byproduct of being a big tree lizard. her tail is absolutely the worst thing to get hit by though. the WORST. lucky me she doesnt attack anything that isnt a dog or a vacuum cleaner or her own reflection

ahhh i got her when i was 16 ! and i dont know her exact age but she was somewhere between 3-6 months when i get her - SHES probably closer to 9 years, but ive had her for about 8

LENGTH THOUGH...... the last time i measured her she was just barely under four and a half feet, but that was a few months ago and its possible shes. Just Slightly larger. shes currently sleeping as i type this so i guess we will never know

duel me

too late for coats..... its all tail action now

ROCK ASKS AND ALSO ASKS ABOUT PUTTING ROCKS IN YOUR MOUTH

oh MAN i feel you . . . . . . . . . . i dont think i could actually Bear To Eat any for real but some of em. just. they. i gotta. just. bite on em a LITTLE just a little bit, a tiny bit, a nibble

when i was real young i used to tap things against my teeth to tell what kind of substance they were made of based on the feeling/hardness/density WHATEVER and i still sometimes do it when im checking stuff out and. it uhhhhh sure is interesting finding out not a lot of people did that

a handful of these delicious raw agates, just for you

please stop spying on me

i DO NOT but you may eat this piece of bornite

meet me at the airport and ill cover your bus fair

theres a lotta different ways to figure out what kind of rocks you got but when you have absolutely no clue on where to start your best bet is to search for the biggest distinctive features of it, and try to narrow it down based on the results

like for something like these pieces of chalcedony, you could try “waxy green translucent mineral”, and from the search results find a few candidates that might be what you have on hand, and then look into each one to see if you can get a definite answer 

ive got a handful of rock and mineral guide books that i always pick through whenever i snag something im not sure of, and if youre REAL into it those are always something you could start keeping an eye out for 

now this is a REAL superficial way to telling what something is and wont be useful for a good chunk of minerals ( as a lot of samples can look really close to something else ) and THIS is a much more in depth way of telling something apart, but its also a lot more time consuming ! so good luck. and good eating.

Just Try And Fucking Stop Me

ANIMAL ASKS THAT ARENT............ ABOUT MY LIZARD

im married to this one actually

fuck. ok. heres. a secret. a In the ask Post secret. wasabi goes through a period that lasts a month every single year where she carries eggs in her gut, and spends that month not eating and digging around in everything, trying to find the right spot to lay these eggs. and. when it happens i never know what to do with them, and i dont want to just THROW THEM AWAY so i. eat them. i eat the eggs. i fuckin eat the eggs dude

Theyre All Goddesses

unless you plan on having your lizard roam around outside whenever they want, the outside environment doesnt really matter much for most reptiles as long as you set their habitat up right ! BUT i do know that australia has bans on certain reptiles ( iguanas are one of them ) and so youre gonna have to look up whats actually available in that area 

 bearded dragons are native and those are always a good option, but so are a lot of geckos - its really gonna depend on what youre into ( but i dont really recommend anoles if thats an option, because theyre fast as Hell and dont like being handled )

what the fuck is a bee

oh geez im sorry ! i remember going through this with spiders a lot when i was younger to the point where looking at photos of em used to be a fuckin, TRIAL 

you could try a really gradual exposure deal, where you start off with getting comfortable with just images, and slowly working your way to dealing with one in a controlled setting ( like a petstore, maybe ? not HANDLING em or anything, but just being near one in a way where its absolutely impossible for them to touch you )

the shitty thing about this kind of phobia is that even if you KNOW its irrational theres sometimes not a lot you can do about it, but if you can stand looking at photos of them you could try learning up about them, and finding out the types of species youre likely to encounter around your house, and seeing how many ( if any ) are ones you should avoid ?

i know some people that have major problems with snakes are because theyre unsure if the ones they find are poisonous or not, and it might go a long way to confirm that the reptiles you meet wont be able to harm you even if they TRIED ( which is gonna be the case with a lotta house geckos, they cant do SHIT youre a GIANT )

very VERY few lizards have venomous bites, and the worst most of em can do is give you a bloody finger if theyre large enough, and even then its usually not much worse than a cat scratch !

still though, if youre really serious about trying to get past this, dont force yourself too quick into what you think you SHOULD be, and take tiny steps outta your comfort level when you can

this probably isnt uhhh SUPER helpful hh hhah but good luck !  shit im going through this post and its like ALL reptile photos. im sorry

i feel about them, with my hands

MMM it shouldnt HURT them unless theres something Really wrong, considering its a natural procession of growth, BUT its definitely itchy as hell, to the point where reptiles trying to remove it will drag their bodies over stones or walls tryin to get it off

sometimes wasabi drags her whole hind foot over her head like a dog to get it off and it is. a Sight

ahhh honestly there arent a lotta reptiles thatre gonna do much more than TOLERATE the touch and not really, enjoy it, like a dog or cat or bird

but speaking from experience with wasabi, youll probably want to avoid most the head and stick with the top of the back near the sides - wasabi doesnt enjoy having her tail messed with much either, but shes ok with her dewlap and feet being touched

the most important thing to keep an eye out for when youre touching one is their body language, because  THATS gonna be a dead giveaway for whether you need to back off or not

closing their eyes is a sign of stress, not enjoyment ! same with tilting the head back, but if thats ALL theyre doing then youre probably not gonna face any retaliation

B U T if theyve got an extended dewlap with a raised body or tail off the ground, not a good idea to interact with em ! thats a defensive posture, and you risk getting hit with a tail or even bitten if your hand gets too close

youve got more to risk with males, who are way more territorial and generally larger, but if they seem pretty chill when you approach and dont stand up and stare at you, youre probably in the clear

COCK of the ROCK

I HAVE im so jealous of anybody whos got to see one in person - actually handling one is a level beyond that which i could even comprehend

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no but i was bit by a pigeon once

this is the only joke i know

i fuckin WISH !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ayy im into it - honestly i havent been following the band so much as just kinda, picking up whatever anybody else mentions and so my knowledge on Gorillaz Lore is pretty uhhhh h hh h scattered but im definitely interested in seeing where this goes

i remember watching the first and second season and it being pretty good - some of the episodes and jokes are hit and miss but you absolutely got me with the creature and alien design

havent seen any of the third season yet though !

i mean the fruit ones could be pretty up there 

how bout. an abstract concept. who cares about physical forms wheres the dragon of melancholy 

why come theres nothing to eat in my apartment but bread. im good otherwise but its all just bread

i havent watched either of em in YEARS and YEARS but i distinctly remember. these lil dancing mushrooms

oh wait FUCK 

FUCK !!!!!!!!!

no... NO.... she is not allowed to eat ANYTHING from the plan shelf, try as she MIGHT

im a little mad that this sill isnt bigger because the only other one that gets sun is in my room and wasabi WIll... absolutely eat those. no doubt. a convenient and expensive salad, for my awful gremlin 

god im looking at these and its all jade plants isnt it

little golden books taste the best but they can make you sick if you have too many at once. my favorite genre for snacking is sci fi fantasy but anything over 300 pages tends to get a little tough if you dont break it up with smaller chunks. non fictions always a gamble because the taste is wildly different each time but you can usually tell how ripe it is by the cover color

ayy im already a big fan of some of their stuff, ive got a couple songs from them in my music tag - im especially into i miss you and their shut up and bring it here remix

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this is barely related but once i filled up a bathtub with water and then dumped about ten bags worth of mint tea into it and then just. soaked around in the tea. listen it was really nice. id try the cheese

i dont have any ships but i was on one of those model pirate boats once for a school trip. our boat was named naruto and the other one was named sasuke and the captains shouted “make them kiss” and ran them into each other. everybody on board drowned

youre trying to trick me into googling yoshi without shoes and its not going to work

me reading this message from the safety of my apartment :

nice try, but wrong again ! : )

THIS IS GOOD info, thank you

oh SHIT the other side of paradise, take a slice, life itself, and season 2 episode 3 are all my Big Faves

the way you phrased this makes me think you already have a strong opinion on it

hey uh. coming from a person who was absolutely CONVINCED that theyd be dead in the future when they were 12, a not insignificant part of that was me feeling that there was something irreversibly wrong with me for not behaving or acting in certain ways based on what was going downstairs

and obviously im still HERE but it means i can understand how devastatingly terrible it can feel when youre that young and it seems like the way you behave and feel are flawed, or dirty, and anything that can lessen that feeling and make you comfortable in your own body is huge, can save your life

not that im saying its always a LIFE OR DEATH decision !

i guess if youre viewing it as adults forcing a child into making decisions that you dont think theyre capable of understanding its easy to be hesitant about getting behind it, but nobody is forcing a child to be trans. nobody has tricked them into feeling this way. you cant just walk in and get started on treatment on an immediate whim - some programs require 2 YEARS of concrete evidence before theyll even consider it

i feel like you should try speaking to the parents of trans children before you really put down a concrete opinion on whether this is a good or bad thing, and seeing the difference ( if any ) its made in their lives 

people whove detransitioned, or found they had ultimately a different identity than the one they were exploring could also be an avenue to look intto ! i have several acquaintances who, after a period of years, found they werent trans but wouldnt take back the time where they were figuring out if they were, and i know this doesnt invalidate the friends i have who ARE 

ultimately this is what it boils down to for me : Its Sure Gotta Beat Being Dead

i WILL give you that ive definitely seen a lot of overreactions to seemingly innocuous topics on this website

but youve also got to keep in mind that everybody who is saying these things MEANS them, and to them theres a completely reasonable explanation to why they feel that way

im not saying you should blindly accept any criticism you get, but to instead try to get a grasp on WHY theyre responding the way they are instead of immediately dismissing it

its because i cant drive and they wont let me sit in the front on account of the smell

NICE THINGS

AHHHH I GOT.. a bunch of other really sweet messages to the point where id feel weird about putting em ALL UP BUT... IF YOU SENT ME SOMETHING i can promise i absolutely saw it and it made my day better and just, holy shit, thank you for taking time out of your life to say anything to me at all

because you didnt have to, even a little bit

youre all beautiful and im kissing you on the mouths all at once. no take backs