#i haven't actually rewatched the show in years

[jihopesjoint]

get to know me

@eoieopda tagged me in their post twice but not to do the game bc i know there have been a million tags that i didn't do so the fact that i'm deciding to do this one is funny BUT i'm trying to be active again and i liked this one so here we are lmao

ps is it bad if i don't tag anyone bc i'm assuming everyone was already tagged and doesn't want to be tagged multiple times (still insecure) but please feel free to do this and say i tagged you if you haven't been bc that's exactly what i did

what's the origin of your blog title?

i went with my url bc my blog title is just kim namjoon saying some shit at an american press junket so lmfao this fucking clip it's not the original but finding her would be difficult

favorite fandoms?

i've only been really involved in any capacity with one fandom before bts, but bts has been the fandom i've been most involved in, and obviously that's not that much. i wouldn't really say it's my favorite either LMAO i love many things, but fan spaces on the internet are hard lmfao here for example: i'd never seen, read, or listened to wicked before the movie because i thought wicked fans were annoying. turns out people are annoying about it because it's REALLY fucking good. so i'm actually trying to keep fandom out of the equation when i enjoy something now bc i'm sick of missing out on things just because i myself personally find the fandom annoying lmao lmao lmao

otp(s)/shipname?

myself with jimin next question

favorite color?

that fucken millennial pink oops. or golden yellow

favorite game?

the sims, animal crossing, spiritfarer

song stuck in your head?

abracadabra amor-oo-na-na abracadabra morta-oo-ga-ga (mayhem is out march 7 stan lady gaga)

weirdest habit/trait?

well. i grew up believing my weirdest habit was pulling my hair out to baldness but it turns out shit like that is more common than i thought. but i still can't think of anything weirder so that's my answer 😀

hobbies?

reading, gaming, wishing i was a writer but not doing anything about it, astrology

if you work, what is your profession?

a sore subject! i'm unemployed.

if you could have any job you wish, what would it be?

initially i was going to say therapist bc that is the job i want and do not yet have, but that's not how i'm actually interpreting this question. the answer is ballerina.

something you're good at?

being supportive

something you're bad at?

following through, just as a general statement

something you love?

my cat

something you could talk about for hours off the cuff?

psychology, astrology, kpop. a certain book series, that i don't want to be judged on the internet for having shaped my late childhood and teenage years, and the discourse surrounding it (wow i wonder what it is)

something you hate?

my phone addiction

something you collect?

i was getting a lot of bts albums, etc. for a bit there but that's been halted for a couple of years now lmfao

something you forget?

that i'm not alone

what's your love language?

love languages are bullshit and sexist etc etc etc (words of affirmation and physical touch)

favorite movie/show?

movie: easy a show: bojack horseman until i rewatch crazy ex-girlfriend and remember just how much it is my favorite

favorite food?

snack: chips and queso meal: pho

favorite animal?

a boring answer but it is in fact cats

are you musical?

i play the flute and piano, and i did dance classes through elementary school and was in choir until high school. i majored in music education for my first three years of college before i finally realized i do not have the dedication required of the field. classical musicians, as well as band directors in my state (could be a dead giveaway if you know about band here), do not typically have multiple interests lmao

what were you like as a child?

how to be nice to my child self okay um i was (and am) pretty anxious and insecure and i had friends but felt lonely a lot anyway. on the other hand i also think i was as excitable then as i am now. i was timid and shy when i was small, but then i was a daycare kid so i think i learned how to be a loud enough kid to not to get swallowed up by the chaos that is that environment (slipped through the cracks in school though lmao lmao lmao)

favorite subject at school?

language arts/english but you'd be hard pressed to see evidence of it because past elementary school i was not a good student UNTIL i became a psych major

least favorite subject?

biology. well the sciences in general get me fucking good every time, but especially biology. i cannot wrap my head around science

what's your best character trait?

empathy (gag me), or more specifically being able to see situations from many perspectives

what's your worst character trait?

learned helplessness???? i do not inherently believe in myself and so i give up easily or don't try lmao

if you could change any detail of your day right now, what would it be?

that i got a full night of sleep last night and that i was asleep right now lmao

if you could travel in time, who would you like to meet?

carl jung, esteemed psychiatrist/psychotherapist/psychologist, was also an esteemed astrologer who never advertised himself as an astrologer bc he did not want to be taken less seriously as a scientist. modern psychology and (western) astrology would not be where they are today without him and wow look at that those are two of my favorite interests. also i wanna hear what shit he wants to talk about freud.

rec your fave fanfics (spread the love):

god finally a chance to put them in one spot. and a lot of these people have multiples that i would love to mention but then the list would be insane. so i suffered and picked one each. the following, in no particular order, with clear biases shown:

@eoieopda's darksided (myg) @sailoryooons's the iron ring (pjm) @daechwitatamic's my feet to follow, and my heart to hold (knj) @100vern's by the time i've figured out what it's worth (myg) @here2bbtstrash's the shape of your body (pjm) @magicshopaholic's idolverse (ot7) @wwilloww's sh. (ot7) @kkaetnipjeon's pork belly (pjm) @babystrcandy's matilda (myg) @yoongiofmine's all it takes (jhs) @kithtaehyung's first love, last love (myg) @moni-logues's kintsugi (myg), which i cannot link because she has been put through the FUCKING wringer by this god forsaken website, but i can't not mention it and finally, matchy's (who has deactivated rip diva) trip no further (myg), which is still available on ao3 (thank you for informing me @newmittens) BUT i think you do need to have an account to access it

ok thank you for reading and i apologize to all of these people i tagged who had to scroll to the very bottom of this post to see why they were tagged lmfao ily all <3

[mac-ann-cheese]

The funny thing is that I really like Egypt in Hetalia (and completely baffled that there is so little of him in manga....)

[wilmeet]

close up of a WIP im workin on, it was a scene redraw but im ngl i lost the refrence :((

[james-stark-the-writer]

was just rewatching Jack Saint and Patricia Taxxon's video on Mauler (it's called "Long Critique Is Not Deep Critique" and it's like actually so fucking good) and was so taken aback by hearing Twin Peaks music in there now that i've actually seen Twin Peaks lmao, that Laura Palmer theme is so fucking good, Angelo Badalamenti is just truly on another level, i already wanna rewatch the show now (S02 is good, y'all are just cowards).

[thatonesmartkidfromschool]

I always forget how much I love Steven until I rewatch SU MY BOYYYYYYY MY LITTLE SUNSHINE CHILD SOBS

Nah but yeagh I just finished rewatching the OG show. Man. I always forget about how messed up the finale is ouhhhgghhh my boy why would you do that to my boy...

[hotasfahrenheit]

started Miseinen, Jin's mom seemed real familiar in the first episode in the brief scene with her on the phone, get to the second episode when she's home and i'm like man i definitely know this actress and this voice, check her on MDL and it's MY QUEEN OKAMI-SANNNNNNNNN

does everything in my life relate back to Hana Yori Dango in some way? no, but plenty of things do if i do enough degrees of separation 🤣🤣🤣🤣

anyway Kato Takako is brilliant and a delight and i'm happy to have her on my screen again for something besides my millionth rewatch of Hana Yori Dango 💖💖

[bizzyboyfriends]

F/o assigning you... Cake from BFDI!

https://battlefordreamisland.fandom.com/wiki/Cake

- @boyfriendblogging

OMG!!! I FORGOT HOW SQUISHABLE HE LOOKS HEHEHE.

We'd TOTALLY be friends. I'd be his #1 supporter. Build up that self confidence. Wanna help that silly squishums. I forgot I actually had an objectsona too... Gotta draw them vibing some time.

[airenyah]

god ever since i watched simm (and msp), seeing these two in bad buddy just completely takes me out every single time

like!! what are you doing there sean (sound) and daonuea, go back to your own show(s)!!!!!!! did you get lost or something

[kuiinncedes]

ty for tagging me @justgleekout teehee 🥰🥰🥰🥰 it's been so long since i did smth like this lmao

Rules are post gifs from your 10 favorite shows without naming them, then tag 10 people.

also idk if i even have 10 shows i would like enough to put here but we'll see lol c:

that's 7 but i don't rly have others i would say are favorite tv shows atm so i'm just gonna repeat from these LMAO

beep beep boop boop i'm not gonna tag anyone bc i feel like i barely interact here anymore and i feel awkward abt tagging lol 😭😭😭 naur but if you see this and want to do it at all i tag you fr <33

[areyoudoingthis]

How good was the shadowhunters series? I read some of the books back in the day and enjoyed them!

well it depends on what you're focusing on. most of us were watching because of malec, which got a lot more attention and development in the show than it did in the books. overall it wasn't the best show ever made, and I didn't particularly like s3, but it's a fun show to watch if you want to pass the time

it holds a special place in my heart because it was my first experience being in a fandom where the cast and crew loved us instead of treating us like annoying freaks, and they actively listened to us and tried to improve the queer representation they were giving us when they realized the majority of their fans were queer. they treated us with so much care and respect, and when we fought to save it from cancelation and got a 2 hour special from netflix they focused it wholly on the malec wedding as a show of love to us. the vibes of that renewal campaign were pretty similar to what they are with saveofmd

gosh I think i need to rewatch shadowhunters now

[funforahermit]

yknow, i don't know if i'll EVER get tired of watching reaction videos of buffy, because there are just so many twists and turns and favourite moments and revelations and shocks along the way, and with every new person who starts on this journey i want to see them experience it all over again.

and when they talk about what they wish would happen or what they think might happen?! my eyebrows are just in a constant raised state like honey..... you have no idea how close you are.....

it's just. it's just so much fun.

[stop-breaking-my-heart-telltale]

have you watched the last of us? if not are you planning to?

I haven't, and honestly, I don't plan to. I wasn't ever a huge fan of The Last of Us to begin with just due to personal experience and I haven't played the second one. No real investment in it, but I've heard the show's pretty good, though.

[unexpectederawhilesubmitting]

WARNING: DOCTOR WHO SPOILERS EXPLAINING REGENERATION SHENANIGANS

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okay so I was kind of not on board with the concept of bi-regeneration, mainly because of how it seemed like all of the Sad and the Trauma that the Doctor had undergone got kind of handwaved away? i'm all for ncuti's Doctor being sort of a fresh start/jumping on point for new viewers, but i didn't get how that could work if like, literally 40 minutes ago he was David Tennant being a sad wet puppy dog of a man

however, after rewatching it, i've realized what i think happened there, and it goes all the way back to something introduced with the 4th doctor's regeneration that was never explained: the Watcher

^this spooky guy

so, for those that don't know (or haven't seen every episode of a show that is over half a century old), the Fourth Doctor regenerates at the end of a story called Logopolis (he falls off a satellite dish, but that's not important right now). all throughout the episode, this weird figure, The Watcher, stands off in the distance, and even intervenes slightly by saving the Fourth Doctor's companion. there's not much given in the way of an explanation until the Fourth Doctor regenerates, saying "it's the end. but the moment has been prepared for..."

the watcher walks up, and gets absorbed in a super rad 1980's digital effect (never change doctor who), while his companion just gives us the not-super-helpful-for-lore statement "He was the Doctor all the time!"

then, in a crossfade, the Doctor goes from Four to weird-powder-man to Five

canonically, the Watcher is explained as a future version of the doctor that comes about in sort of a weird overlapping thing with the doctor's timeline, it's very wibbly-wobbly timey-wimey.

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SO what does this have to do with biregeneration and satisfying character arcs/moving on from trauma?

Well, remember, Fifteen said this, about Time Lords doing rehab out of order:

so, here's the thing: Fifteen is the Doctor AFTER Fourteen (duh, I know?) But to be clear...Fourteen lives out an entire lifetime with Donna and family, gets to a ripe old age, and then, when his lifetime of healing is over, he gets yeeted back through his own timestream just to zoot himself out of David Tennant's chest.

Remember, his first words to Fourteen (after popping out of his chest) are "So good to see you! So good!", not the RTD classic "what?". He greets himself like he's almost expecting this, he then says "does anyone want to tell me what the hell is going on here?" which only makes sense if he's coming from a different point in his own timestream (remember, when two doctors interact, memory gets really weird, 10 and the War Doctor don't remember the events of Day of the Doctor until they live through them as 11).

SO TO BE CLEAR: Ncuti Gatwa is playing the Doctor AFTER he has spent years healing from his traumas. His Doctor is fine because Fourteen takes the time to rest and work on himself.

tl;dr: I didn't like biregeneration at first because I thought it looked like this:

In actuality, it looks more like this:

[teaboot]

TOP 10 PERSONAL FAVE MOVIES TO WATCH WHEN YOU FEEL LIKE ASS

I don't like movies that stress me out because life is already stressful but I DO love catharsis comedy found family friendship fantasy and violence so here are my top 10 movies and series to have a good time watching

Numbered for convenience but not in any particular order

John Wick 1 and 2: An ordinary man grieving the loss of his wife gets dragged back into his past as a shadowy, invisible world of international killers for hire is slowly revealed to be living among us. A love note to set design, lighting, and choreography. My favourite part is fixating on the symbolism. DO NOT WATCH 3. 4 is okay. DO NOT WATCH 3. There is a dog death in 1 that will make you cry so skip that part if you have to. DO NOT WATCH 3.

The lord of the Rings, all 3, extended edition best watched if you're on the couch with the flu and expect to fall asleep OR if it's your day off and it's raining outside OR if you have like 5 people lounging around in pajamas

Six Underground: Essentially an hour and a half long car commercial music video with found family and a fresher take on acommon plot. Ryan Reynolds essentially writes and directs a Michael Bay movie where 6 independant criminals gather together to overthrow a violent foreign dictatorship. You show up for a dumb heist and walk out ready to build a guillotine. TW for violence, car crashes, chemical warfare, and genocide. A very cathartic ending. Does unfortunately do the whole "vague, impoverished middle-eastern country" thing but the citizens are actually show as human beings which is a nice change of pace and oh wow that's depressing isn't it

The Princess Diaries 1 and 2: A sort-of-a-loser teenage girl, played by a 2001 Annie Hathaway, learns that her late father was a king of a foreign nation and must become a confident and responsible leader for his people. There is a scene in the rain where you will experience emotions. Best watched with snacks. 2 features an enemies-to-lovers type deal with Chris Pine.

Ella Enchanted: A shrek-style semi-musical fantasy romance in which a young woman is cursed at birth to do everything anyone tells her to do. Features several Queen songs and dance numbers sung by Annie Hathaway and that guy who plays the sad dog guy in Hannibal.

Stardust: A huge loser travels from 1800s England (?) to a magical world in order to fetch a fallen star for the insufferable love of his life before she marries a massive douchebag. The huge loser? Charlie Cox. The star? A living person. Also a whole bunch of princes are ALSO looking for them as a race for the throne while discreetly killing each other off. And also a bunch of witches want to eat her so they can be young and sexy. 11/10. I used to watch this 10 minutes at a time on a YouTube channel that posted it in chunks filmed on a digital camera in their living room

The Last Holiday: Queen Latifah, playing someone played by Queen Latifah, has been working an underappreciated minimum wage job for years, living a safe and conservative life trying to lose weight and save money. Then she finds out she has months to live, and decides to finally quit her job and blow it all on one massive luxury holiday vacation complete with five-star dining, making friends and finding love and confidence along the way. It's definitely corny but it makes me so happy thank you Queen Latifah

Zathura: It's the plot to the original Jumanji but in space instead of the rainforest. But listen to me: There's a twist reveal at the end that you need to pretend isn't there. It is vitally important when you get to that part- and you will know what part when it happens- that you pretend it didn't. Otherwise, a fresh and enjoyable adventure for any age!

Redacted cause I haven't seen it in a long time and it may be worse than I remember, gotta rewatch

Bullet Train. You go in expecting a ham-fisted find-the-mcguffin style action comedy and are blindsided by excellent narrative symmetry and genuinely likeable characters. Fresh takes on old themes and creative action sequences. My little brother said "It's good", and he's a man who once sincerely argued that Lord of the Rings could have been better. It's fun and punchy violence with just enough smart stuff to not let your brain get bored

[alymccart]

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Alright, uh. Screw it. Let's dust off this account. I was embarrassed about even drawing this, and especially about sharing it publicly, but I'm slapping it up here. Why not. Been extremely burnt out lately, doing art professionally has pretty much killed my desire to do art for the sake of enjoying it (sorry, fans of my dead comic). Mental health has been shoddy. Actual health is eh, as well. I've been too busy to really think and have been so guilty about there being so much stuff to do in my life still that I haven't really afforded myself time to relax or unwind. My enthusiasm for anything has been in the dumps for years. I don't think I've drawn more than a handful of fanart pieces in over a decade (what you see on here is pretty much it), and I've certainly never drawn something like... this. Obviously, I watched Hazbin finally (didn't even realize the show was an actual thing now, though I did love the pilot eons ago; I don't tend to traverse into fandom discussion and discourse so I've been out of the loop). I'm actually nearing double-digit rewatches... and the OST has been on repeat for weeks. Well animated, beautifully written adult cartoons? I'm here for it. Musicals? Oh yeeahhhhh! A well animated, beautifully written adult cartoon that is also a musical??? *teakettle noises*

I'm ace as hell, but wholesome, loving, devoted relationships like this in fiction seem to hit me right at my core. I also cry at heartwarming videos and movies, but that's beside the point... I just... hrrrnnnnggg... Charlie and Vaggie's relationship has SENT ME. It has an iron grip on my soul and I cannot stop it. I feel like i'm 14 years old again. I want to write fanfiction. Is it 2004?? Where am I????? What the fffffasdfasfagghfgfjhdd????????!!!! Aannnyyyyywayyyy.... This art gave me stomach butterflies the entire time I worked on it, as well as an immense amount of joy, and I really hope this can maybe do that for others. And I still have... so many ideas........ so many....

[shanastoryteller]

i've been rewatching psych (as i'm sure you could guess) and three things are really standing out to me on this rewatch

the amount of times gus and shawn have to literally go "no homo" in a situation that really can't be explained any other way is just like. at this point it'd be less gay for them to just have sex

obviously henry is sort of an asshole and a bad parent in a lot of ways, despite his best intentions, but in spite of that, even when their relationship is at it's worst in the show, it's crazy to me how much shawn and henry just like each other. yes we haven't spoken in over a year, now i'm in your house, taking your stuff, of course you're cooking me food, yes we're talking about cases but there's just a lot of - casual hanging out? i really do think despite everything that they had a good relationship until the divorce and falling back into that is easier than not. their relationship is actually the most insane, convoluted parent-child relationship on tv and i'm standing by that, but the undercurrent of like that it has is what i think makes it so interesting instead of just the classic love and hate

they did juliet so dirty by having her think that shawn was really psychic. that makes her the only one in the main cast that shawn fooled, which is just. uncomfortable. and doesn't even make any sense! she's better than that. the only one that should actually think shawn is psychic is buzz and only because he's thinks it's impolite to think that his friends are liars