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cosmicspark24 · 12 days ago

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⋆｡ﾟ☁︎ Pick a card time! ⋆｡ﾟ☁︎

Hey Lovelies! I have not forgotten you, I have just been creating Youtube videos with more collective and pick-a-card readings and uploading them so if you want more of that, check out my Youtube channel @cosmicspark24 of course!

Please comment, like and repost! Would love to know which pile you got

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Hello Pile 1:

Please remember that this is a collective reading so only take what feels intuitively to be your message. Thank you.

Pile 1, I fear that you may not yet have come to a full realisation of your power. You may have been surrounded by people more fortunate than you or whose soul journeys appeared to have less bumps on the road. You, my love, have fought and scrounged for every piece of happiness and elevation you have amassed as a soul. You are glorious. You are shining, your heart chakra is calling in greater blessings and greater ease to transport you into a new timeline. One in which you do look in the mirror and realise you are a badass bitch. You are divine, you are aligned with divinity and that is what causes you to shine. You draw energies to you, good and bad alike in search of the light that you emanate. I see that part of the reason you have not seen this as yet is because you are only nearing the completion of a cycle. Think of the number 9 versus the number 10. You are so close to the end, yet not quite at the finish line. What I will say for sure is your burdens, your self doubt and limiting self beliefs are already dismantling and you are calling forth to your soul, great blessings to achieve and be who your soul truly aches to be. Your higher self asks that you wait patiently for them as you come into alignment. I am feeling a lot of love from your higher self, I recommend that you do some mirror work to talk to yourself with kindness and love. Grow into your own biggest supporter with every passing day.

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Hello Pile 2:

Please remember that this is a collective reading so only take what feels intuitively to be your message. Thank you.

Pile 2, I fear that no one can hide anything from you because you are already so very intuitive and psychic. You have strong spiritual guides walking with you and they refuse for you to remain in the dark...for long. What is being hidden from you is there is a person of interest who is currently doing their best to distract themselves from the very thought of you. They are choosing to pretend that they do not hold a vast ocean of feelings for you. This person has decided to allow themselves to be bigoted by closing their mind to the possibility of you. The annoying thing is, you know they are doing this. They are slowly making their way to you, while pretending they have no intentions towards you. I feel that confrontation is the only answer and it is heading in your direction. One or both of you may be getting ideas to try and clearly understand who feels what for whom. There is a competitiveness there that you both do not want to be the one who bares their soul first or be left hanging. You may be receiving an unexpected pay out from an unrelated situation or even from this person as a form of an olive branch. I feel that if you are interested in a man, or are the man in question, then you are vibrant, young/younger and are yet to come in your full maturity. The advice Spirit is providing, is to remain distanced away from this person and allow yourself to receive as they will be approaching you with an offer one way or another. At which point, maybe a confrontation will need to be had...

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Hello Pile 3,

Please remember that this is a collective reading so only take what feels intuitively to be your message. Thank you.

Pile 3, you are immovable as a rock. You are solid and I fear you cannot be shaken by the whims of the young and restless around you. You are goal oriented, you know yourself and where you are going. You are wise and others may seek your counsel quite often in matters of the heart, in matters of emotion and due to your sensible nature. What is hidden from you is that there is someone in your life who wants to support you on a wider scale. You have someone who has been watching how you seemingly glide through life. This individual is a massive supporter of you and everything you stand for. This person is someone who could want to elevate you in business or could want to co-create with you...romantically. Expect to receive a text or phone call from this person. You may or may not have an idea who this is. I believe some of you will. While you are out here, enjoying the fruits of your labour, enjoying being in your body and being surrounded by loved ones. Out there is someone plotting about reaching out to you with this offer. It could be that they have come to a place where they feel plagued by the knowledge that they want proximity to you and their soul will not let them rest. They are spending many of their waking moments in between living, thinking of you. Playing out little scenarios and hoping to god their favourite one will come true. This person could be on a trip right now or, they may be daydreaming of taking you on an International trip to their favourite vacation spot. You are a passionate, creative, sensitive and empathetic soul. You deserve to have someone see you with the warm kind eyes that this person coming towards, has only for you.

#cosmicspark #tarot #oracle #pick a card #pac reading #spirituality

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inner-viper · 1 year ago

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Why is my FS attracted to me? (Short Ver)

Hello, this is Inner Viper and I decided to focus on channeled messages. My tarot divination skills have been improving. It’s been a year since I have been practicing tarot, it’s been my whole life since I have been practicing my intuition, like everyone else lol. I took a break from my Patreon and this blog because I have a full-time job but I am going back to school so hopefully I will have more time for consistent uploads. I do want to go on lives here, but I might create a youtube channel to upload pac readings. If I do go down that route then I’ll probably do live readings on there. I’ll let you guys know if I do decide that!

If you want a paid reading please check out my list here.

Remember to choose the image that is calling out to you. Take what resonates and leave what doesn’t because this is a general pac reading. Some messages are not meant for you, while other messages aren’t meant for you. Also, this is meant to give you insight, not concrete evidence.

I hope you enjoy the reading for today!

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Pile 1

I am getting the energy of them being attracted to your work ethic. Perhaps you are a very committed individual, you may have a lot of projects underway. You know how to build and develop things to flourish. You may be extremely creative and they notice these things about you, I also am sensing that they love the smaller things about you too. Perhaps you do a certain face when you get something you want or dislike. It’s a unique facial expression, they like how expressive you are. They love the way you daydream about the smaller things in life too. They want to know what is going on inside your head, they want a small peak into your world. The way you perceive things and the way you speak is intellectually stimulating towards them too. They could spend hours just speaking to you about multiple topics. They also think you are fine asf.

Pile 2

Are you emo? They like your dark aesthetic, like the gloomy look you have going on. Honestly, it’s like all you have in your wardrobe is all black and they love that. They love the way you dress and the way you smile. They think you are an enigma, you have a contrast to yourself. If you aren’t having a dark aesthetic then it could be vice versa too. Let’s say you have a cute theme going on but your personality is super serious, yet you like these small cute things. I am honestly picking up in this pile that a majority of you really like Kuromi or any Hello Kitty stuff. Which is cute! They love the contrast in you and they are always amazed at how you are so different than most people. I am getting some non-conformist energy too. The love you for who you are.

Pile 3

They love how you are a bad bitch. I feel like mainly women choose this pile but if you aren’t then I feel like you just have a badass energy to you. They love how you look tough and mean like you give off mean-girl vibes but you aren’t one. They find you to be so sexy and alluring because of the way you present yourself too. Perhaps you find yourself meeting people and them saying “Oh, I thought you were mean at first” because that’s the type of energy I am getting. They love the way you move when you dance or are freely doing your own thing. They love it when you are so expressive because they themselves feel free with you. One of the other things they love about you is your jokes, they find you to be so funny.

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crusherthedoctor · 7 months ago

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It's really sad how people keep going after your group just because you defend yourselves

Apparently, the statements "I'm generally content with the quality of my personal stories" and "I spot many issues with this comic" justify getting spammed with graphic death threats and ableist insults

Yet it's insisted that you're the ones who are too harsh? It's straight up unfair.

Who would have thought that a group of people might occasionally get upset after being crucified and ridiculed by countless strangers?

Funny how they NEVER have a justification beyond "well shut up no one wants to hear you"

Somehow, it's always YOUR fault that a part of the fandom goes rabid whenever someone doesn't conform to the current "right" opinion, and YOU'RE to blame for THEIR ungodly behavior. That doesn't make any sense, does it?

This fandom is vain and abhorrent to the nth degree and y'all deserve better. That's all I wanted to say.

Par for the course, innit. They'll lash out at us. They'll hand out death threats. They'll make disgusting ableist comments about my autism, and similarly terrible comments towards my friends. They'll threaten to bomb SEGA HQ and stick Iizuka's head on a pike, among other wild declarations of violence. But don't you dare make a goofy meme about Surge not living up to her hype. And whatever you do, don't even think about criticising the unprofessional antics of the IDW crew. What are you, a monster?

They dismiss us as insignificant one minute, then fearmonger so hard that they see fit to give us a boogeyman-esque moniker the next. I'd be surprised if they could walk in a straight line without contradicting themselves.

As for "You talk so much about your fics!" ...No shit. I'm a guy with a blog. This isn't a movie production with a budget, I don't have a team or advertisements backing me up. And unlike fanartists, I don't have my own art to catch people's attention. I kind of have to talk about my writing in order to get it out there and inform people of its existence, and while I try not to sound too much like an unskippable YouTube ad, what else am I supposed to do? Upload them silently and then never refer to them again? How is showing passion for my work any different from official creators showing passion for theirs? Just because fanfic tends to get less attention on here than fanart doesn't mean it's not worth sharing, do they want fandom to flourish or not?

When I compare my work to a certain comic, I do it to highlight the dissonance. If fanfic writers - plural, not just myself - can understand the importance of keeping the characters recognizable, and making the universe faithful despite any necessary differences, then what excuse do official writers who have been involved with the series for over a decade have? If someone who doesn't even love Sonic that much compared to other characters, finds him annoying and unfunny half the time (no, not just in the Pontaff games, in general), and even finds it a pain in the ass to write for him at times and has more fun writing other characters because of this, can still attempt to write what made him appeal to fans... why do writers who supposedly love him so much keep fumbling so hard with him?

I compare for the sake of highlighting why these off-kilter portrayals are so easy to spot. If Sonic Twitter only gets "He's just stroking his own dick" from all of that, then they haven't been paying attention.

The most ironic thing about it all is that they've only gotten more vitriolic as most of us have mostly moved on from the height of IDW discourse (cause the comic goes in circles at this point, and is very likely to be running on fumes due to IDW's financial troubles, so there's no point). Yeah, I'll still criticise it now and then, and make a meme on occasion, but I rarely make lengthy ted talks about it or participate in ongoing Lanolin Is A Bitch/Silver Is Uwu-ified/Whisper Is Trauma Bait/etc back and forths anymore, because it's just tiring now. And since most current Sonic stuff has been putting me off in general, combined with growing fatigue and frustration at not being able to criticise certain games without people waving the finger at me (especially SA2, since the Year of Shadow has made it the center of attention yet again...), I've took a step back from intense Sonic discussion to focus on Stellar, as well as other fandom projects, like my recent brainstorming for Paper Mario or: How I Learned To Insert Eggman and Love The Vivian™.

In no way can you say I've been up in their faces as of recent. Yet they continue to cry otherwise, because they want people like me gone completely.

#Crusher's Asks

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abimee · 1 year ago

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THREE YEARS OF TOCK TUTTI POSTING..... every year i can never describe how much this little lalafell means to me and the joy and wonder she's brought to my life as if i didnt make her purely because i wanted to be a miqote but didnt find any pretty and just slapped together a lalafell and gave her a goofy name.

Tock is so much more in my brain now because my ocs are like my children but also people who appear before me and have their own thoughts and feelings that I get to walk their path with and above all my ocs i think tock tutti has to be my favorite. she is my special girl. she is everything to me. ive been posting about ff14 for 3 years straight now and i dont see that slowing down for at least another 3 years. as long as tock wants to walk forward and see another day i'll walk with her and see her on her way. The world revolves around her in my mind.

I can get sappy here and i know its #justagame and you all heard me hee haw about how much i both absolutely despise ff14 and its fans yet also love it and its fans dearly. how i got to get closer to my best friend through it and be put through the ringer by complete strangers in it. Get mocked and laughed at in it and sat quietly and watched the stars in it with people. I dont like talking about the intricacies of my personal/irl life and even when i talk a lot about myself i dont really try to reveal information about how im living or how i see my future but no matter what goes on out there the fact that i have a little creation of my own i can come to and dress her up or send her on an adventure or go farm with has gotten me through a lot of really dark places and moments in my life that dont even compare to the utter horrors i experienced as a teenager. and I didnt have anything like tock tutti or this game in that time and so had to deal with a lot of that terror and pain by myself with nothing to distract me or help me through it, and its #justagame but its a very important one to me. endwalker especially. I have a deep and unending love for meteion and hermes and getting to meet them and I think even when im old and wrinkly theyre going to sit in my heart as something important to me even then. And tock will too, even when the day comes where I have to let her go and can no longer walk with her.

as that one comment on the youtube upload of dynamis puts it, this game is just really special to me. and I'm glad to have been put on it by my best friend. and I hope for all my bitching and complaining everyone can still see how much it has influenced my art and my creative endevears and can see the love I feel for the characters, the community, and so on. I don't really interact with the community due to a distaste for fandom from some really awful experiences back in the ye old undertale days, so i appreciate the people who follow me and my art and are very kind to me in this community even if i dont follow back/talk to you. I hope I can keep making art you enjoy and that you can see how happy i am here, and above all else to see that tock tutti is a special little oc of mine that I want to share with you all, and I hope you come to love her just as I do. My little sweet pea my melon head my singer of light

#shes my baby she means EVERYTHING TO MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE #tock tutti

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rgrectangle · 9 months ago

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BEHOLD, A PINNED POST!

hello, I'M rect∆ngle. idk How to do introductions so lEmme tRy anyway!

i'm 15 and i'm indonEsian 🇮🇩. 10th grader, still holding on.

i play rhythm games, maybe too much. that's mostly it :/

The games I play include:

- Arcaea

- Phigros

- Project Sekai (JP Server)

- TAKUMI³

- Lanota

- Rotaeno

- Maimai DX

- Dynamix

...And much, much more because I deleted a lot (for storage) and I forgot >_>

Other games I play include: (in no particular order)

- Roblox

- Blue Archive

I also like 東方Project a lot :3

Well, idk what to say anymore tbh...

My socials:

Youtube

Twitter (rarely posts)

Twitch (rarely streams)

Discord: louisowen

Have a lovely day :)

I'm gonna start posting updates here, if anyone sees this, thanks. But don't tell anyone else, especially her. Oh, and for @/cheezyharu and @/carro179 feel free to dm me via discord or tumblr, but absolutely not via the server, I have it muted. I will not be answering asks, either.

State that you came from my pinned post.

Oh and congrats if you came here from the haiku I posted. If not, welcome anyway.

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30 November, 2024

Whoever is reading this, I'm ok (like hell I am), but I'm not gonna be publicly active for a while, only here in this tiny space I've created for myself, other servers, and occasionally, youtube uploads. I do want to say, that was fucking stupid of me, I'm truly sorry, but I'm too much of a coward to say it to everyone's face. I ruin every friendship I'm in, irl and online. I should shut up sometimes.

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Hey, this is after writing that haiku and dropping all those hints and changes, god damn I want to talk to those two, but I'm just making it more difficult, aren't I? Fucking hell. Well, I'll just see if they could solve it.

Also, crazy thought, is this what it feels like to have a sibling? Or is this how some friendships go? Does a friendship have a phase where you don't talk to each other for extended periods of time?

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I wonder if there is a character limit to posts.

...I'm trying to distract myself. I miss them so much. I... I'm looking at the 2ECONDS TO STARLIVHT app on my phone, what could have been if I... shut up.

I want to cry

No, stop it, you're a boy. Boys don't cry.

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1 December, 2024

I'm tired. It's nighttime, I'm studying for tomorrow's finals, and I'm tired. Still kinda feel like shit tbh.

Just a nap...? No... there is no time...

Time... when...? When will I... fucking coward.

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2 December 2024

I'll try to come back next week, after finals. Might still be busy with one (hopefully it stays at one) remedial and a project I took on for the school's Chinese New Year's event.

What happens when I come back...? Does she hate me? Should I come back? What if I say the wrong things again...?

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Would this kill me?

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3 December 2024

I feel kind of lonely... but it does help with studying. Today (and right now) I actually got myself to start writing down notes, so far I'm three pages in, and it only took me like 30 minutes.

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4 December 2024

I... got 90 for PKn and 98 on Geography...

I don't know how to feel, to be honest.

To be so close to perfection, yet...

Only one mistake in the multiple choices for Geography.

Also discovered that I got a 45 on Math. I'm slow, I know. Only got a few questions done before the time ran out ._.

Hopefully that'll be my only remedial. Tomorrow I have Chemistry and English, along with Scouts for whatever reason. They just announced that suddenly smh

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5 December 2024

All of 10th grade worked together on scouts exam (clearly not allowed), pretty sure everyone failed anyway. Scouts is a bitch.

So uh, the PKN/Geography teacher decided to deduct like, 8 points from our grades ._.

Yeah I got roped into it as well... He did say that there might be other point additions/deductions. We'll see tomorrow.

Now, the only reason I'm talking about this is because I think we weren't completely in the wrong. You see, they suddenly announced the scouts exam, and not a single bit of materials were given out. We didn't know anything. They didn't teach us anything, either. It's like they were just setting all of 10th (and maybe 11th) grade up for failure.

Oh btw that point deduction made the passing rate (for PKN) drop from ~96% to only about 30%.

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6 December 2024

Last exam done. Update on PKN and Geography: The point deduction thing was a joke and we didn't actually do that well, the teacher put a random big number to troll everyone on the first two days (I still BARELY passed PKN with a 71, Geography score should be out soon).

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I got a 90 on Geography :3

Highest score in 10th grade (tied with someone smh).

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cbk1000 · 7 months ago

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omg i just saw that you have been reading the “brother cadfael” series. i grew up reading those and have an immense fondness for them. i love cadfael’s no-nonsense approach to everything, including religion, but all of the other monks and their various foibles and failings are so fun too. have you checked out the miniseries starring derek jacobi? any thoughts you’d like to share about the series? :D

I LOVE them!! And I haven't watched the miniseries, but I did just find out most (all?) of the episodes have been uploaded to YouTube, so I was thinking about giving it a go. I just haven't been watching much lately because, well, I spent the last three and a half months or so doing nothing but staring vacantly at my tablet, and now that I'm feeling better, I'm writing and reading and actually getting variety in my day.

I'm actually an atheist, and something I really love about the series is that Cadfael is more worldly than a lot of the monks, but that's never presented as him being automatically superior or cleverer than them, and though I don't agree with his beliefs as a non-believer myself, I think his faith is depicted in a really lovely, gentle way that brings even a heathen like myself some comfort. I actually read a couple of these books while the results for the 2020 election were still being tallied, because it was the most interminable week of my life and I was incredibly on edge and anxious, and I decided to sit down with one of these and see if I could focus enough to read, and it actually brought me out of that nasty headspace for a while. They're my comfort reads, and I've been stretching the series out for a few years now and finally am down to the very last one, which makes me sad, but I have re-reads to look forward to. I love that Cadfael is a little bit of a cheeky bitch but immensely compassionate. I love that these are set during an incredibly turbulent period of history and yet they're infused with such love and hope for humanity, without glossing over how ugly it can be.

I actually read 'The Heaven Tree' trilogy under her real name first, and that put me onto this series. I love the Middle Ages, I love historical mysteries, and I loved 'The Heaven Tree', so when I saw that the same author had written a historical mystery series set during the Anarchy, all the pleasure systems in my brain lit up like a casino machine hitting a jackpot. And I wasn't disappointed; I turn to these every time I want something a bit cosy, when I'm too exhausted by the world to tackle anything really meaty, but don't want to shut off my brain completely. It's full of some lovely prose, and people, and I've had a lot of fun with the series. It gives me a space not unlike Discworld does, where I can go when I'm feeling like biting the human race and know that I can find some reassurances that humans can be really stupid, and terrible, but it's not yet 'blow up the planet with everyone on it' time yet.

#transdimensional-void

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autumniswonderingaboutspring · 1 year ago

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Okayy soo Hey guys!! My first post on tumblr here~~ I'm gonna give an introduction about my self and tell about who I am so here we go!~

🌻• I'm a teenage girl from India, who loves doing, thinking, reading aesthetic, fun stuff.

🌻• I love all kinds of art and I am deeply interested in them, whether it be singing, dancing, whether it be painting, drawing, poetry. Just ANYTHING.

🌻•I'm a proud Hindu girl who deeply loves God and is proud of her culture🧡

🌻•I can speak, write and understand Hindi, English and Gujarati well. I can just read and write Korean alphabet yet, I'm learning the words and grammar.

🌻• I also have a Youtube channel! I'll drop the link in my description its called 'Purple💜💜'. Im not active on it now but I'll comeback soon, I usually upload kpop edits there.

🌻• Bestie: @pluxyrainbow

🌻• I've also been a fan of animation since childhood so I am a HUGE fan of My Little Pony and Miraculous Ladybug, and I'm getting into anime and have watched alot of Disney and Pixar's stuff.

I am halfway through Death Note and Gakeun Babysitters yet, and I have just started One Piece.

🌻• My hobbies are dancing, singing(although im not good at it yet-), drawing, reading and listening music, I enjoy playing games and sports too. I'm a just started begginer at keyboard too.

🌻• I want to become a music idol and performer when I grow so Im trying to improve my skills day by day.

🌻•Im getting into working out recently(without equipments).

🌻•MBTI: ISFJ

🌻• To describe myself as a person, I am a kind and one of a kind(pun intended lol) person, I am very loyal and have strong morals and opinion. I never judge or bitch about anyone unless they actually are a bad person.

Even though I would hate a person due to how they treated me or how they treat others, I would never go to a extreme of wishing smth really bad to a person, bc at the end of the day we're all God's kids c'mon

Lets say I'm a picky extrovert or a loud introvert because it takes me time to open up to people(due to trust issues and safety measures yk), but when I open up, I JUST DONT STOP TALKING😭😭.

🌻•I love Harry Potter and am a very big Potterhead⚡️💙.

🌻•I love listening various types of musics.

🌻•I stan some Kpop groups as well:

BTS

Twice

Enhypen

Dreamcatcher

Onewe

And almost listen to every other kpop group.

🌻•I'll upload my Harry Potter and other Kpop group's profile soon to let yall know more about it in those ascepts.

Soo that's it for today bye guys see ya!🩷

#new on tumblr #about myself #me time #bts #harry potter #anime #one piece

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jlf23tumble · 10 months ago

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Got around to rewatching all those voices and can't believe I didn't see anyone talk about this before. Maybe if larries weren't too busy bitching about Freddie they would have noticed louis pretty much confirm his and Harry's relationship. I watched this whole 1d bit with an open mind and i can see how every word is chosen very carefully. I'm not sure he's talking about Harry's relationship like it's in the past. He said "There was this instant bond and chemistry...we were unstoppable... the memories, the relationship (singular with a pause), the experiences" then he goes off into the band taking a break. Its actually brilliant how that whole part you can easily interchange the band with Harry and you don't really know what he's talking about. So is he talking about harry when talking about 1d ending and him being surprised and upset by it? I'm not sure. If anyone wants to watch it the whole thing it's uploaded to tiktok in 10 parts. The parts about his mom were as sad as I remembered... https://vm.tiktok.com/ZMMArxkGq/

THANK YOU FOR THIS CLIP!! I should have known it was posted here vs. youtube, etc., ratcha fratcha. Wow is this ask meeeeee, I saw it with my best friend, who's aware of fandom shit yet not in it, and we were both like, YOUCH, that first ten minutes really spells it out, dunnit? But also, yeah, you're right, how telling that a big chunk of larr nation just latched on to Freddie, cried we aren't gonna watch this, whinged we're "so tired of stunts" etc etc etc dumb take after dumbass take, and either left or doubled down on dumbass takes, and all of it just low-key bugs the shit out of me, tbh, why can't you just live your whole "pick someone supportive" truth and say a) yes, these two seem like they were together back in the day, but also b) yes, these two seem like they split up more than once, i.e., they got together again more than once, i.e., you can have it all but also it doesn't even matter because they're human beings you don't even know??! The gold-star ao3ification of larr nation is something to behold, yet also kinda sad, because it's not just obsessively focusing on gifsets from 14 years ago, it's about making people feel like they can't be friends unless they keep that gold-star status. Go ahead and enjoy fic, I know I do, but you don't have to be that anxious about it, jesus christ (eta: yeah you're so right the careful wording and imagery is fucking mastercraft louis tomlinson energy)

#it's so gross especially in 2024 #you can feel a certain way in 2014 but come on #this is a decade later #and none of us know ANYTHING about it #not me--but not you either

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m0n0lithical · 2 years ago

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Sims - get to know me

Tagged by @igotsnothing thanks so much I absolutely wanted to do this one! Also if ya’ll like occults you better go follow them.

1. What’s your favourite sims death? Either meteor because of HOW dramatic it is, or pufferfish since that’s like, the only way for your own sim to kill another sims (without mods, anyway).

2. Alpha CC or Maxis Match? Mostly Maxis, but I do have mix elements (like the hairs that aren’t TECHNICALLY alpha but are so detailed they almost look it), especially in my fandom saves because the outfits in those are always alpha.

3. Do you cheat when your sims gain weight? Nah, if I really want a sim to stay the same weight, I lock the weight/gain loss (I do this for my selfsim every time so she’ll STOP LOSING WEIGHT oh my god woman). But if I’m playing with it on, what happens happens.

4. Do you use move objects? I don’t even have to enter this cheat because it’s always ticked on my BBB.

5. Favorite mod? I mean the most practical favorites are MCCC and BBB, and really most of the ;must haves’ the majority of people have, so lemmie pick a lesser seen one – PreferencesPlus by Helaene is a huge game-changer for someone who really dislikes all the missing likes/dislikes in the game.

6. First expansion/game/stuff pack you got? ...I wanna say Outdoor Retreat? I know, horrible pick, I didn’t know how lacking it was.

7. Do you pronounce “live mode” like aLIVE or LIVing? Like LIVing

8. Who’s your favorite sim that you’ve made? This...is hard, but I’m gonna have to roll with Amie, because she’s evolved beyond being just a sim at this rate – she’s also my FFXIV character, as well as a VtM character. But she absolutely did START as a sim.

9. Have you made a simself? Yes – she’s set loose in EVERY save I have for sake of hilarity – I love passing by her in-game and she’s doing something utterly random. The last time I saw her she was shooting down a goth witch lady flirting with her – thrilled the sexuality update can make her proper asexual now, was so happy to see it without having to put dumb flags on her!

10. What sim traits do you give yourself? Lover, Unflirty, Lazy, Cat Lover, Creative, Foodie.

11. Which is your favorite EA hair color? I’m a pretty big fan of the middle red tone. Or the green, if we’re picking unnatural colors.

12. Favorite EA hair? The RoM updo short locs are SO good. Honorable mention to the EL undercut half-ponytail.

13. Favorite life stage? I’m gonna be boring and say YA, because the game is LITERALLY built around them so you have so, SO many more options.

14. Are you a builder or are you in it for the gameplay? I do a little bit of everything, but CAS is my specialty. I spend HOURS in there.

15. Are you a CC creator? If some hair/eye recolors and simple tattoos count, then yeah. I really can’t be fussed learning blender beyond pose-making.

16. Do you have any simblr friends/a sim squad? My social anxiety stops me from interacting a lot, even if I try my best to talk to people. Like, I know the chances of someone being an asshole to me are very, very slim and that most everyone is chill and laid back like I am – REASONABLY I know I’m being dumb, but also my brain is an asshole.

17. What’s your favorite game? In Sims, I’ve honestly only played 4 (a friend sent me 3 a while ago but I have yet to fire it up). Outside sims? Uh...Okami for single player, Guild Wars 2 for multiplayer.

18. Do you have any sims merch? God I wish.

19. Do you have a YouTube for sims? Hahahah like my internet would let me upload videos.

20. How has your “sim style” changed throughout your years of playing? Lord I have no idea...I’ve been fiddling with different types of sim face styles, but I keep falling back to the same one, really – at least for non-themed saves. And it doesn’t even stand out I’m pretty basic bitch.

21. What’s your Origin ID? Monophony! I mostly make sims, but there’s a few terrible builds there, too.

22. Who’s your favorite CC creator? That is a hard as hell question...but I wanna say @simandy,. For multiple reasons, but primarily because their hairs are just...to die for.

23. How long have you had a simblr? It’s been a year or two, but I took several hiatuses as I got distracted by my MMOs. I have a goldfish attention span.

24. How do you edit your pictures? I have several different reshade presets I’ll alternate between, and a good number of Photoshop actions and/or PSDs, and it’s always some combo of those. Each save has a different reshade/action (or PSD) combination to make them have their own looks (I have a word doc for ref so I know what save uses what combo).

25. What expansion/game/stuff pack is your favorite so far? Vampires will always be my favorite, but I was shocked by how much I also enjoyed Werewolves – I’m not a werewolf person, really. Non-occult...Growing Together really does add a ton through the whole game.

26. What expansion/game/stuff pack do you want next? I uh...well you see >-> I’M STUPID WITH MY MONEY I HAVE THEM ALL.

I’m only gonna tag a few peeps since I’ve seen most people having done this - @simarcana, @druidberries, @apricote, @lotus030, @salemssimblr if ya’ll wanna do this here’s your excuse! <3 Feel free to ignore if you don’t wanna!

#tag game

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middle-issacjenny1 · 1 year ago

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Journaling~

Yes, I found note-worthy things to upload

Dive in!

Them😭

Hello, hello!

So a couple things have been going on here

For instance, I have been seeing a LOT of angel numbers.

Like, a WAY LOT

Not a day has passed without me seeing an Angel number

The one appearing the most are 11 & 111

I googled them up & apparently 11 is to find your true calling in life while 111 appears to people who are going to have big achievements in their lives

THESE ARE SUCH BIG SIGNS

It's like the univers is saying 'bitch you can shift and I'm here givin ya signs'

And the universe is telling that to you too

Next, I feel like I got every symptom in the book when it came to shifting

Throughout the day & while practicing

Again, signs

THAT ANYONE CAN SHIFT

I CAN SHIFT YOU CAN SHIFT ANYONE CAN SHIFT

It's literally easy like breathing

Think if it like this:

It's like you're travelling, like you know your destination is your Dr, but you haven't yet been there, but you know it exists and you want to see it

And, you can just take a mode of transportation

A plane, a car, a cycle yeah whatever

I saw this mindset on TikTok btw it helped me a lot

And something else

Believe that you found shifting for a REASON

The fact you found out about shifting in and of itself is a MAJOR SIGN YOU CAN SHIFT

The universe introduced shifting because it knew you could do it

And there's a tip I got from Shimmey Shay on YouTube

"Every "Failed" shifting attempt made you shift to a desired reality where you're one step closer to actually shifting."

Isn't that just...

SO COOL?!?!?!

That you're just subconsciously doing it?!

Anyway, think over my points

And as always

Peace✌️

Happy Shifting!

#shifting diary ୨୧ #reality shifting #shifting #desired reality #shifting motivation

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papirouge · 2 years ago

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Papi, sorry but I do think the Karen meme has gone too far...

I was literally just reading about this case about a "Karen" who tried to steal a bike from a group of young black men. She even cried at some points while trying to hold onto the bike, saying she was scared for her fetus. Everyone in the comments on YouTube, Reddit, etc. were calling her an entitled Karen, said she was weaponizing her tears, calling her mysogynistic things and made fun of the fetus comment. They doxxed her, sent her death threats, got her fired from her job and left horrible reviews on her husbands business.

Turns out later when more info came out that it was in fact the black teens that were robing her bike, and when she refused to give it, they decided to film her to paint her on social media as a racist and a robber. She is also six months pregnant, and came from a 12 hours long shift, thus probably why she was so emotional when she confronted them.

But everyone was eager for another racist Karen being shamed and ridiculed. And this is the thing: many people literally use the Karen thing as a excuse for being mysogynistic. There were comments by men saying how women, no matter the race, weaponize their tears against men all the time, even in court, and how men never did it because nobody cares about men. There were talks about female privilege, and how too many women grew up entitled and never being told 'no'. There were others making fun of the fetus comment, how she cared too much about a 'clump of cells' or an unborn fetus. A man who stated he was overweight even said he was going to start telling people he was pregnant as a way to get out of bad situations like women do, with many upvotes.

Like, i'm not saying there shouldn't be a term for racist white women, but why a name?? There are many nice women named Karen, hell, i know a black one whos so kind and smart yet she feels embarrassed by it nowadays.

Anyways, it scares me a little how much some men hate women. Like, this made me find out about a story where an 11 year old little girl was punched in the face by a grown man after she pushed him. Everyone on Reddit was defending the man, saying how she deserved it because she pushed him first,making jokes about "pussy pass denied" and calling her a bitch. Turns out the man actually had harrassed her first, and only uploaded the video from the part she pushed him (out of self defence). But everyone was celebrating, because apparently a lot of Reddit men love videos were women (and girls) are beaten?

Anyways, one thing I find weird is how a lot of black women cape for black men. I saw some on the comments of the first case, a black lady talking about how the white woman was weaponizing her tears and all, framing innocent black boys, and then when confronted with the truth, she just defended herself saying she was scared for her little brother and thats why she jumped to conclusions. But ive never seen black men care much for black women, in fact, i see them criticizing black women a lot and blaming them for the failings of the black community.

I mean, when the Meghan Thee Stallion case was going on, I saw both black men AND women defend the guy that shot her, and how she shouldn't let a brother go to jail. But black men never have the same energy for black women.

I'm not gonna pretend like the men from my racial group aren't super sexist, they are, but at least they do defend 'their women'.

Well, sorry for the wall of text and for being all over the place, could be the fucking autismo.

What you really need to understand anon, is that there's a difference between the viral Karen meme, and crusty scrote who jumped on the last bandwagon and started using it left and right for the worst.

(White people did the exact same with "woke" btw).

My problem is Whitefem and their mule acting like they were one and the same and that the OG Karen meme at the same mean spirited/misogynist intent as the second wave.. i HATE how Whitefem want to control the narrative and pretend knowing better than the actual people who made Karen viral what it truly meant. By brushing the whole karen meme as misogynist/racist they conveniently swipe under the rug the VALID criticism of the (Black) community that made that meme viral in the first place. This maliciousness hidden behind fake empathy is what disgusts me the most. White women will NEVER accept accountability. Never. Look at them girl bossify literal serial killer, murderers and abusers just because they're White women (interestingly you never see them doing so for non White female criminals 🤔). And when they do evil shit, oh it's their bIoLogY or "reactive vIolEncE"..... BYE

Look at yourself, anon. You bring this story of that poor women unfairly treated....but could you reflect WHY you'd never have the energy to remind "anti Karen Whitefem" stories of Black people who got as much unfairly treated on their shitty "anti Karen" think piece?? How unfair it is to lump legitimately frustrated people of color to misogynist scrotes just bc they vented against a manipulative White woman? Why would White women facing injustice somehow override the plentiful of other people who's only crlme is giving a funny nickname to racist White women? Why would the collectivity of people who experienced the direct threat of racist White women appease the handful of cranky White women by policing their own slang? Think about that.

Tell the scrote to shut up about Karen as much as you want, but leave those who knew how to use it with actual purpose alone. Men will always find ways/words to mock and abuse women. Karen is just a tool for them. Acting like the medium was the problem is ridiculous.

Why not? Black women being named "Karen" are definitely a thing but interestingly, those aren't the one whining crying throwing up about how aKtcHualLy the Karen meme is misogynist and that "I'm the biggest victim" self-pity party

One should never side that hard against anyone over a viral video. But could we stop acting like White women weren't out there siding with their racist male counterpart everyday ? I lost count of all the white women simping haaaard for White men exposed for killing Black men. But since you see Black women closer to "masculinity", you point that out only for us 🙃

I'm not gonna pretend like the men from my racial group aren't super sexist, they are, but at least they do defend 'their women'.

That's totally true. Black men are fucked up. I will never try to find them excuses, but no other race had to bear with centuries of slavery and colonization where the only come up was elevating or being related to whiteness. It entirely reverted the male/female dynamics in the Black community, where men, instead of providing for women, started to seek to elevate themselves with the closest thing they had to whiteness = white women. Average Black men are fundamentally hypergamist and "female" in their behavior.

Black women naturally still cling to 'their' men but it's hardly reciprocated. Hence the frustration of many Black women of feeling rejected by their own. Their equivalent on the dating pool are Asian men. Issa Rae was right in saying they should date each other lmao but this statement made Black men freak out bc they still claim ownership over Black women (while still saying we're ugly undesirable etc). That's highkey fucked up, but so are most Black men, that's why smart Black women are open to interracial dating 💁🏾‍♀️

There's no one to defend Black women. BLM was a pro Black man movement, that's why I lowkey didn't give a shit about it. I'm pro black women and Black women can only count on themselves. Fake intersectional White feminist shown their butt big time with their tantrum about the Karen meme, and most Black men are dusties.

#answered #karen meme

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tequitoclown · 2 years ago

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youtube

I have listened to this video a few times. It's the credits theme to Akira (1988). I just now scrolled to the comments and read the fucking description. This is the best, most aggressive thing I've ever read.

(Long, angry description below the cut.)

I bought the DVD back in 2018 and got the idea to edit some of the OST in the film a short Music Video.

Copied the file and edited it on my FREE Da Vinci Resolve 16 Editing Software.

I really don't fucking care if I got demonetized, really, I'm not even here to make money,

This is my second channel anyway so go ahead claim my fucking video, Make money off of this or whatever the fuck you usually do to even ORIGINAL content creators, Just don't fucking remove this video from your half-asses copyright detector bullshit.

Like it's a 1988 Film it's just ridiculous,

Even the Romeo and Juliet copycats play that was initially made in the 1500s could get their own copyright.

How the fuck can't I get a Fair-Use excuse?

Anyway, personally, I don't believe this shit really gets brought up in the US Courts I mean come on, I'm halfway across the fucking continent.

What the fuck are you going to do if it were somehow proven to violate the copyright law? Delete my channel? I could get another one. Send US Marines across the ocean just to imprison a fucking boy who just uploaded a fucking video on youtube?

Get a grip on yourselves you fucking clowns.

I REALLY, don't need to provide my "Rationale" excuses for your bitch-ass conglomerate sissies, In fact, it should be you whom I should question your rationality.

Are you really going to remove this fucking video? Less than 5 minutes Music Video with no bloody fucking view made by yet another insignificant person in your whole fucking Scamming Empire? Think about it will you?

and uhh, while you're at it I must go to take care of some BUSINESS,

Because unlike YOU what so-called HUMAN who claimed to have a full-time JOB,

My profession actually provides a REAL impact on the society of which you live in,

Of which people that served you on the McDonald Drive Thru,

Of which people that sent your package you bought online,

And of which of those people that working their asses off during this Global-Fucking-Pandemic.

So here's my conclusion in case you have a short attention span, (Assuming you have one to begin with.[which is very fucking unlikely.])

FUCK YOU, Yeah? FUCK YOU. And your fucking Copyright System, Policies, your MONEY-MAKER PUPPETS those called themselves "CREATORS" With their Perfectly-Crafted-Informative-Totally-Not-A-Clickbait Videos that YOU COUSIN-FUCKERS put your AD on. (So you can make money off of that Hell-Hot Fucking GARBAGE, ain't you sneaky BASTARDS.) FUCK YOU. Your whole, FUCKING, Empire. Fuck. you.

#Tetsuo uploaded this video I stg #This guy is DONE.#Youtube #Youtube video #Video #Music #Akira #Akira 1988 #kaneda #kaneda's theme #anger #pure fucking anger #What do I tag this

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mortalitys-wife · 4 months ago

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So a YouTuber I used to like, I thought their review on fraggle rock and stuff were cool so last year I asked her if she could do a reaction video to BG and also I love the character Mortality a lot and she replied basically saying she'll do it, so a year goes by until tonight she uploads the video and....omg it's so fucking horrible and annoying like she talks throughout the whole movie and she doesn't even like sit still and pay attention to the scenes or characters she just makes fun of them and says something chronically online and like at the end she showed a screenshot of my comment and she made fun of me for loving Mortality by saying "oh btw the person who requested this really loves the character Mortality" *shows screenshot of my comment* "that deserves to be in a 'hear me out take video'" she says and my romantic love for Mortality is natural and Mortality is my safe space it's nothing at all like those dumbass meme "hear me out take videos", like I don't understand what was the whole point of bullying Morti and I and saying questionable stuff about the characters and stuff like wtf that's just being a creepy bully, and also for some reason she felt sorry for fucking Boozoo even tho the point of the movie is that truly bad people never change and you should be nice and she knows this but still feels bad for the idiot, and also at the end of the vid she claims to "like" BG and the characters even tho the whole fucking video was her making fun of it and making fun of Mortality and I's love, also I'm not kidding when I said she would not shut up and pay attention to it she talked through the whole thing instead of paying attention to it it's a fucking nightmare I already had a bad day today so I reported her vid for bullying and blocked her because Morti and I and other innocent ppl have done nothing and yet we get treated horribly for no reason when we are literally nice and kind and people are still assholes. Like this just made me really upset like Im a sensitive person with autism and I can't handle bullying and backstabbing I hate it, it's horrible, that bitch can go fuck herself, fucking hateful for no reason at all.

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sillysurrealwriter · 4 months ago

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Vivi teaches some jerk, a lesson!

I could not sleep.

I couldn’t sleep for a long while. The heat was rather excessive to say the least, even though the AC was going on full power. It was currently 1 AM and the night was clear. Stars were shining and were rather bright, watching over the small town.

Like the guardians they always were.

It....was rather depressing, though.

See, this town had its best days long behind itself. It was located in the lower part of the country and ever since the main economy collapsed, it affected most of the major regions. Including this small town.

We used to actually have a working industry here.Well, more than one actually. We had a mine deep in the woods, which we used to mine rare goods, you see. And tons of factories, manufacturing all kinds of sweets. Chocolate, gummy bears, licorice, you name it.

But thanks to a strong inflation, the economy suffered under it. It was so hard to buy even a slice of bread. Now, it’s 9 times more expensive and our currency is quite worthless too. What a shame.....

I was one of the many workers, who were let go because we couldn’t get paid. I just dropped out of school too, because I had some trouble with the law here and there. Even though I didn’t get, why people were upset with me selling drugs to kids. It’s a vital business strategy. Pure capitalism, baby.

Because my father was a local judge, I was let off the hook and was forced to work at the factory there, as a way to atone for my non-existent sins. The work was actually fun there, not gonna lie. Manufacturing candy was quite fun and the work atmosphere was relaxing too. I actually felt at ease there, unlike here.

Mother was in the hospital, still in a coma. Doctor said she may not make it. Not that I really care, to be honest. Unlike my dad, my mother was a loser. Seriously. All she did was clean, clean, clean and just clean the house. I had to make money, because that bitch didn’t have a good education. And no, a history degree doesn’t count. Who needs that shit nowadays?

Not me, I’ll tell you that much. Thanks to her being not a good wife, my dad divorced her and fucked a much prettier girl. Big boobs, fat ass...Just thinking about her, gives me a big fat boner.

My father was much better though. He was strong and rich. Because mom wasted all her time at home, I spent most of the time with him. And learned what it’s like, to be a real man.

To be strong. To be successful. And to dominate every bitch, you see.

I still have yet to find a bitch to fuck though. I am 22 and I am still a virgin. Guess those virgins are more into those woke femboy bitches. Eww.

I turned to the side and tried to close my eyes again.

No....damn it, it was so frickin hot.....There’s no way, I’d fall asleep like that...

I got up and checked my social media stuff.

0 followers and an account strike. Just because I pointed out how that one guy was a fat fuck and got no bitches. Is it bad to speak the truth?

I checked YouTube. My favourite pundits did not upload anything yet. I wanted to see them bully naive young college men/women. And only those. Especially those fucking pronoun freaks, who are all extremely fat, have tons of coloured hair and are gay too.

Did Jesus Christ die for this? Really?

Well.....Guess I’ll turn on the TV. Maybe they’ll air that one show, with the sexy woman that looked a bit like a man and had some facial hair. Eh.

I moved myself off my bed and the ground shook, as I placed my feet on it. Grinning, I grabbed another big chocolate bar and pushed it down my throat.

Yum. 10% less sugar too.

I stomped and eventually went downstairs, because the house was just so ridiculously small. Urgh.The upper floor just had two bedrooms. Mine and mom’s. And I am sure she used hers in the past, to fuck with woman while dating dad.

She really deserved all those beatings.

In any case, I sat down on the couch and turned on the TV. I changed through the channels, but most channels were shut down on maintenance. And my usual porn channels were having some strange issues, as static was shown there.

Weird.....

After finally scrolling through the program, I stopped bewildered.

Dreamy Eden.

The hell? I never saw that channel before.

And what I saw confused me even more.

A whimsical intro music played, showcasing a small town with all kinds of strange creatures. Furries of all shapes and sizes doing mundane activities like walking, talking, cooking....

Was that a kids show? At 1 AM? Geez, if they wanted to entertain kids they should do it throughout the day. Not at night.

I was about to switch to another channel, when I suddenly saw the title of this show appearing on the front. The animation was quite old and stiff in general, like the first season of the Simpsons.

Before that show got ruined later, for being dragged out too long. And for encouraging men to not be men and to kiss other men. Eww.

Just watching that, made my boner perk up in disgust. What else?

But the title.....

“Vivi’s Garden”

“What kind of shitty name is that?”, I asked, as I stared at the colourful title. It was awful, really. I could barely make out the letters of this show. They were too many colours, ranging from rainbow, to....

To......black?

Weird.....

The scenery changed and then I saw some girl on screen. And her appearance was....odd.

Her hair was all orange and long and wavy, reaching down her hips. She was wearing an oversized white coat, depicting smiley faces, flowers and other strange stuff. She was wearing yellow clown shoes and her hands were rather thick too.

But the creepiest part....

Were her eyes...

All of those furry characters had classical cartoon eyes. You know, white circles and black circles inside of them.

But...not with this character....The black circles were much, much larger. Not only that, but there were several white circles inside of them.

What was that thing supposed to represent?

The character waved.

“Howdy, lousy mousies!”, she exclaimed with a shrill and super excited voice, as if someone had taken too much heroine. “I am Vivi Vicky! And welcome to my garden! Isn’t it wonderful? I LOVE GARDENING!”

She jumped up and down at least 90 times a second (Don’t ask me how I counted) and the screen actually shook so much, which caused me some headaches. That...Vivi girl then suddenly ran towards her garden and indeed those flowers looked........colorful.

I’ll be blunt. I have no idea, what those things are. Those were little balls and shapes in all sorts of color. It reminded me more of candy you’d buy from the store and not....flowers.

Vivi did a backflip and giggled.

“ARENT MY FLOWERS BEAUTIFUL!?”, she asked happily. “But I couldn’t do this alone! No, no! My dear mommy made this garden to begin with! Mommies are the best!”

“Bs.”, I muttered annoyed. “Mothers are useless worker bees. Only properties and waste of space.”

“That’s not really nice mister!”

Surprised, I stared at the screen and Vivi was frowning at me, shaking her head.

“Mothers take care of you. Of all of us. Of the kids. They are wonderful.”

“Yeah, but they barely make money.”, I shot back annoyed. That little bitch-

Wait, why the hell was I arguing with my TV? This was stupid!

So I aimed my remote at the TV and switched the TV off....

...to the p*rn channel.

Much better. Staring at those girls making love was so hot. God...my fat pot belly was....

But suddenly, the channel changed back to the stupid kids channel. Vivi pouted annoyed.

“Mister, it’s not nice to leave. We were-”

“Shut up.”, I muttered and changed the channel again. I drooled, as I saw those lesbians have coitus...

And then, the channel switched again. Vivi glared at me even more.

“Hey! Why are you so mean?”

“Shut up, f*ggot.”, I mumbled and changed the channel again.

...I changed the channel again.

...I said, I changed the channel again.

...I changed the channel again.

!!!!!!!!!!!

But no matter what I did, it wouldn’t work. The TV wouldn’t turn off. Vivi shook her head angrily.

“No Mister, we’ll talk. Whether you like it or.......”

All of a sudden, she stretched her arms out towards the camera. I laughed at her, finding her too stupid to be terrifying.

And then suddenly, a large pair of hands emerged out of the screen and grabbed me. I tried to free myself, but the grip of those massive hands was too strong. Vivi laughed from the inside.

“Don’t worry, it won’t take long mister bister sister!”, she exclaimed and her laugh distorted, as my ears bled and the hands began to drag me into the TV. I gritted my teeth.

Hell...No!

I bit the giant hand, only to feel all my teeth breaking upon impact. Terrified and bleeding all over the mouth, I was dragged deeper and deeper into the TV...

And then the next moment I awoke. With a smile, I got up and smiled outside. I really needed to see my mother and to make sure that she is all well and good. Maybe she woke up yet?

And I also needed to talk about dad, as to how he treated women. They deserved better. And maybe I should ask that man out that I’ve been crushing on for weeks.

I had so much to do!

So, with a huge smile and all colorful clothes I stepped out into the world, aiming to improve the world.

I may not have any teeth any more...

But who cares, if I can help people and protect women?

Right?

RIGHT?

R I G H T?

RIGHTEOORIJOR§NROHN§O§NF”I=!!”===!=!=§!==!=!=!==!§==§!=!!=!=

#surreal #surrealism #short story #horror #horror stories #weirdcore #dreamcore #brainwashing #tw blood #cw blood #kafkaesque

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deyadee · 7 months ago

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Remnants

Before I get to bitching about not having my account anymore, I went to a pride street fair today. The same one I went to last year alone. I asked my one friend if she could and she couldn’t as she’d be taking a plane to another state today, so yet again I went alone. I feel a bit worse than last year because half of what I could focus on outside of sweating half to death was all the lesbian couples holding hands and walking through the event. Last year I at least saw one or two girls walking by themselves, but this time it felt like everyone was either walking with their partner or in a large group of friends. Sure that makes it easier to sneak around and get more free shit, but it just feels lonely when you see dozens of cute girls walk to literally every booth hand in hand smiling and laughing while you just bob around awkwardly like you’re literally just there to get free stuff. Not that I wasn’t partially just there to get free stuff, but it just feels weird when everyone else is laughing and talking and hanging out while you’re trying to keep out of the way of the booth operators so they don’t ask you to vote for whatever random crap they’re advocating for or to sign up for some newsletter. No offense, but I’m not here to talk about politics and know that everyone around me would probably think I’m some racist lunatic because I don’t agree 100% with them. I walked my ass off and there had to be twice the amount of booths this year, at least ones that I visited. Got some earrings and donuts like last year. Near the end it started raining like shit and I hid out in a donut shop, a nearby boutique, and wherever had bits of cover from the rain for parts of it. I mainly stayed in the boutique because I could watch the flag parade outside (still surprised they still did it in the rain) through the front window. This I guess lesbian couple (they looked like literally the straightest girls you’d ever see with the exception of lesbian flags on their shirts and flags, and rainbows on their shoes) came in and started looking around in the small store. I complimented their outfits but I didn’t wanna seem creepy since they were together. I stared out at the people walking around with umbrellas in the rain. I should’ve brought one. I know it’s stupid and it’d never happen in a billion years because there’s millions of better options than me but I kept thinking of those cute anime scenes where one person would have an umbrella and then a more extroverted person who didn’t have an umbrella would quickly rush under and ask to share their cover- leading to them talking and eventually falling in love. I know. I know. It never happens. Either it doesn’t happen or it only happens to people more interesting than me but I just zoned out staring out the window. Knowing I would die alone, only being a boring spectator to fill a crowd.

Anyway, now that my gay rant is over. Time for my attention craving rant.

I don’t know how long it’s been since my account got deleted, but I still feel like it was yesterday. I wake up everyday and have ideas for videos or things that I wanna talk about before remembering I’m back to just lurking online now. I go to check what comments were left and what people thought of my last video and I see nothing. I have my old accounts before the one that got big, but I’m sure the second I try uploading any content it’ll get banned too. Along with everything else I try.

I’ve been trying out YouTube Shorts and it’s pretty… fucking awful. Absolute goddamn shit. Wait wait, I forgot my video got 1 view! I’m basically an overnight sensation now, screw my previous content it’s got nothing on this!

Just as I thought, YouTube is an entirely different beast than TikTok. On YouTube you have to HOPE people to watch your video, on TikTok even if people aren’t sure they like your type of content they can at least try out one video. On YouTube you have to put an ungodly amount of effort and editing into literally everything you make, while on TikTok you can be any level of quality and people are still willing to watch if it seems interesting. I try reloading videos it does nothing. I try making new videos, nothing. No one fucking wants anything I make. I don’t make fucking cooking or science videos, the shit YouTube shorts seem to love, I make weird random videos about anime and toys.

I made three wishes in a fountain the other day. For my account back, a girlfriend, and a job. Guess I’m not meant to have those. That or I should’ve spent more than fucking pennies.

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