#i have trouble

[mania-sama]

I need an au now where kevin snatches neil from andrews grasp. cuz he realises he could better for him. not sure how that would go down though

interesting au! made me think of death of a bachelor by panic! at the disco.

I don't think Kevin would ever do this in canon. However, for the sake of an AU, anything may be possible...

KEVIN DAY, who saw Neil's potential first, enamored by the way he ran across the field like his own purpose to breathe was to score the next point.

KEVIN DAY, who worked under the midnight lights to bring the stars to Neil's grasp, to put him in the way of fame's petrifying headlights for a future greater than his present.

KEVIN DAY, who started to admire the unrelenting confidence and audacity that oozed from every pore of Neil's being. Slowly, bits and pieces of Neil began to infect his own person, as if venom were dripping into his veins.

KEVIN DAY, who fought against what he wanted. But when he started to give in and flirt with the #10 player of the Palmetto State University Exy lineup, he watched Neil fall in love with someone else.

KEVIN DAY, who couldn't resist himself after changing his identity to no longer be number two, but instead be the deadliest piece in every game of chess. He knew what he was capable of, and he knew his place should be at Neil's side. The Queen and his Knight.

KEVIN DAY, who waits as long as he can. He waits until they are on the national team, representing the United States every four years in the Olympics. He and Neil are in a unique situation with the mafia; he uses this to his advantage.

KEVIN DAY, who knows that Neil would never cheat on Andrew. But he's spent so long at their sides that he knows what buttons to press to sew discord. Neil starts to falter in his games, causing panic. If he cannot play correctly, what is preventing Moriyama from taking his head?

KEVIN DAY, who steps in where Andrew cannot. He provides shelter, comfort, and lessons to regain Neil's footing. He suggests that Neil distances himself from Andrew, and Neil agrees. They get closer than they were before, closer than Neil would have allowed himself if he were still with Andrew.

KEVIN DAY, who does not resist when Neil closes the gap between them. He winds his hands around the small of Neil's back and smiles into the other man's lips.

[lazylittledragon]

can't believe we're all adults being forced into the club penguin level of censorship in 2024

[crowkip]

yeehaw, baby!

[uncanny-tranny]

I think so many people are so deeply alienated from themselves that they have no clue how to exercise their free will and autonomy. For some, this alienation runs so deep that they are afraid of their own autonomy and humanity. It is completely understandable why one would have those feelings, but it can be worrisome.

I want to help others who feel this way, so here are small things I have done to exercise my free will:

Add "guilty pleasure" songs to playlists and actually listen to them (I have a ton of late 1990s-early 2000s music I listen to now proudly that I never listened to in the past out of shame)

Getting the décor item, bath set, bed spread, ect. in the patterns you like, even if it's "childish" (I got a dinosaur-themed wastebasket from the kids' décor section and I adore it)

Taking a new route to get to a place you go to often

Eat dessert first

Celebrate well, and often

Collect things that are "odd" or don't seem like an "acceptable" thing to collect (somebody on my "for you" page collects dandelion crayola crayons and it was so cool!!!!!!)

Incorporate one new piece in an outfit you wear frequently (e.g., a new chain, a necklace, ribbons, bracelets, ect.). Challenge yourself to add onto the outfits if you feel up for it.

Sing along to songs without worrying that you sound "good" or your intonation is completely accurate

Read a book from a genre you weren't allowed to read as a kid (comics, thrillers, mysteries, anything!)

Walk without having a specific destination or goal

Pick up a new craft without expecting yourself to master it or to ever be "good" enough. Get your hands messy.

I don't want to shame anybody for not feeling as though they have free will or that they are exempt from exercising it. However, I wanted to give ideas so that you might read this list and find your own ways to express your intrinsic autonomy and will. You deserve to be a person, to feel alive, not just living. That is what our lives are for.

[inkskinned]

because sometimes there are invisible tests and invisible rules and you're just supposed to ... know the rule. someone you thought of as a friend asks you for book recommendations, so you give her a list of like 30 books, each with a brief blurb and why you like it. later, you find out she screenshotted the list and send it out to a group chat with the note: what an absolute freak can you believe this. you saw the responses: emojis where people are rolling over laughing. too much and obsessive and actually kind of creepy in the comments. you thought you'd been doing the right thing. she'd asked, right? an invisible rule: this is what happens when you get too excited.

you aren't supposed to laugh at your own jokes, so you don't, but then you're too serious. you're not supposed to be too loud, but then people say you're too quiet. you aren't supposed to get passionate about things, but then you're shy, boring. you aren't supposed to talk too much, but then people are mad when you're not good at replying.

you fold yourself into a prettier paper crane. since you never know what is "selfish" and what is "charity," you give yourself over, fully. you'd rather be empty and over-generous - you'd rather eat your own boundaries than have even one person believe that you're mean. since you don't know what the thing is that will make them hate you, you simply scrub yourself clean of any form of roughness. if you are perfect and smiling and funny, they can love you. if you are always there for them and never admit what's happening and never mention your past and never make them uncomfortable - you can make up for it. you can earn it.

don't fuck up. they're all testing you, always. they're tolerating you. whatever secret club happened, over a summer somewhere - during some activity you didn't get to attend - everyone else just... figured it out. like they got some kind of award or examination that allowed them to know how-to-be-normal. how to fit. and for the rest of your life, you've been playing catch-up. you've been trying to prove that - haha! you get it! that the joke they're telling, the people they are, the manual they got- yeah, you've totally read it.

if you can just divide yourself in two - the lovable one, and the one that is you - you can do this. you can walk the line. they can laugh and accept you. if you are always-balanced, never burdensome, a delight to have in class, champagne and glittering and never gawky or florescent or god-forbid cringe: you can get away with it.

you stare at your therapist, whom you can make jokes with, and who laughs at your jokes, because you are so fucking good at people-pleasing. you smile at her, and she asks you how you're doing, and you automatically say i'm good, thanks, how are you? while the answer swims somewhere in your little lizard brain:

how long have you been doing this now? mastering the art of your body and mind like you're piloting a puppet. has it worked? what do you mean that all you feel is... just exhausted. pick yourself up, the tightrope has no net. after all, you're cheating, somehow, but nobody seems to know you actually flunked the test. it's working!

aren't you happy yet?

[noodles-and-tea]

It’s always either or

[oviraptoridae]

here's what ur gonna do. ur gonna get a plain tshirt from anywhere. from ur closet or ur dad or the thrift store or whatever. then ur gonna go to the dollar store or whatever equivalent u have in ur country. ur gonna get fabric paint and a sponge. ur gonna go home and take a cereal box or a cover of a magazine or something similar. ur gonna draw a design on it [or words. or print out a picture and trace it onto the cardstock) and cut out a stencil. then ur gonna use the sponge to dab the paint onto the shirt using the stencil. ur gonna do that thinly in 2-3 coats until it's opaque but not too stiff. then ur gonna let it dry for 24 hours. ur gonna cover that shirt with a thin towel and press an iron against the design for 30 seconds. then ur gonna wash it & wear it. got it?

[originalartblog]

Someone's last crush didn't live up to the hype 😬

[3rdsday]

Tommy basically said "the DSMP was good because it was, and still is, loved" and that basically sums up my feelings on the matter too.

[dirtgrubber]

radioapple but it’s that one seinfeld meme

[theresstilltime]

a request i got for older dick grayson in his og robin suit

[gieoki]

sadie hawkman’s dance when?!

[beautysnake]

What he doesn't know wont hurt him.........

[kiwibrain]

part 2 of the silly isat dunmeshi crossover, with angst and a recipe i made up in 2 minutes :)

Part 1 ✨

[pythosblathers]

This isn’t cute. Lesbians only draw their favs as medieval knights when they’re catastrophically smitten

[noodles-and-tea]

OH MY GOD I NEED TO EAT YOUR ARTSTYLE, CHEW AND COMSUME IT,

Your Jayvik art means MILLIONS to me, there's something so cozy and happy about how you draw the boys that makes me want to consume more of your art MY GOD 💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜

All the loves to you and your art 💜💜

Thank you so much!! Please enjoy the snack!