#i have to kill myself because he's not mine

[bubbarnes]

“... it really is about lying to yourself and what you have to keep doing to maintain the lie.”

[kanjichris]

"why don't you want him to know how much you love him?" "that's a little personal. he knows." "uh-huh."

[rocicrew]

THE EXPANSE 6.04 REDOUBT

[mabaris]

maybe i’m stupid but why would lucanis poison a guy, draw attention to himself and point out that the guy was poisoned, lure the guy away with the promise of an antidote, actually cure him, and THEN stab him

girl, you could have just poisoned his wine and slipped out the back door, and literally no one would know. i thought you were supposed to be The Best at this

[todayisafridaynight]

plane scene is so funny cause why is mine a sleeper agent that wakes up whenever daigo is mentioned

can’t wait to see it in dragon engine :3

mine has been the winner for Funniest Character Imaginable for 15 consecutive years and i have yet to see anyone come close i fear

[iwoulddieforienzo]

Something that makes reading TOA so devastating is how fucking much Apollo feels about Everything. There’s so MUCH. Like I don’t even know how to describe it to you if you haven’t read the books yourself. He has so many complicated thoughts and emotions about just about everything and he cares about everything so much and there is just SO MUCH going on in his head. And yet none of it ever reaches his mouth!!

He almost never says what he’s feeling. What little comes out of his mouth about his thoughts barely even scratches the surface of what he actually means. Like he’ll be having a long ass monologue about how incredible someone is, showing a deep understanding of them as a person and empathizing with them so hard you’d almost think it’s projection but it’s not he’s legitimately just mind melding with this random person he met like a week ago and he’s thinking the softest, kindest thoughts about them like he knows they’re fucking incredible - and what comes out of his mouth is just like, “you’re a wonderful friend :)” AND ITS LIKE. THERES SO MUCH MORE UNDER THE SURFACE. the sheer admiration and adoration he has for everyone around him……… UGHHH!!! But he never VOICES ANY OF IT!!!!!! He never tells anyone about what Zeus did to him……. He never tells anyone except the reader about his realization that Zeus is abusive…. He never even tells commodus about how much he adored him, not then and not now… he refuses to tell anyone when he’s in pain or tries to justify the things he does when he actually had Decent Reasons for why he did something… I’m. I’M. AUGH. AHHHHH

HE DOESN’T EVEN TELL US ALL OF HIS THOUGHTS IS THE THING. THERES EVEN MORE THAT HE IS NOT TELLING US!!!!! THE FUCKING OCEAN OF FEELINGS AND THOUGHTS HE HAS ABOUT EVERYTHING IS THE CLIFF NOTES VERSION. I AM IN DISTRESS.

And YET…. Even what slips out of his mouth is so fucking devastating it is SO devastating. He’s so fucking kind and gentle with Harley and Meg and and other younger Demis and his kids… he’ll act like an obstinate idiot and then turn around say something that drags the core of the person he’s talking to into the light like nail on the fucking HEAD like he reached into their soul and gave them the words to express something that they were struggling to say aloud or that they didn’t even realize about themself. Around the 2nd book he starts putting voice to some of his feelings and thoughts about others and even that tiny fucking sliver is overwhelming to the people he’s talking to bc he’s SO. AUGHHHH

[chaotic-tired-bastard]

what are your opinions on zeisan (Sozin’s sister from the avatar board game)

I don't know her very well, as I haven't played the game and nor do I plan to, but I feel like she had a lot of missed potential. The writers used her as a cop-out for everything bad Sozin does, like why he outlawed homosexuality and why he killed the Air Nomads, and if you don't believe that, here's an article doing that exact thing. "Uhh, it wasn't because it was a good strategical move, but it was because his sister was in love with a girl Air Nomad!!! And he just hated her so much that he committed genocide and banned gay people!!! Because that makes sense, right?" I can kind of see him banning homosexuality because of her, but there would have to be another reason boosting it.

Instead of making her her own character, they just made her "Good, Calm Sozin" and Sozin's biggest hater, and then switched her over to The Fire Nation's biggest hater. I feel like it would have worked better if they leaned into Zeisan and Sozin's rivalry and the hatred that would have stemmed from it, making Zeisan's goals seem like it's for the good of the world but, at heart, being about her and Sozin and this eternal competition they've ended up in. I'm always going to favour complex sibling relationships over whatever Zeisan ended up doing, and there's nothing you can do to stop me.

[wildsaltair]

this is what is known as an unreasonably attractive man

[billpottsismygf]

I reblogged a post an hour ago saying my cat is very good at hunting moths and spiders and such, and that he may come from a line of mousers. During that time I could hear him playing with something in the hallway, which I assumed was a clip or peg or whatever. Guess who just found a very dead mouse.

[gobbluthbutagirl]

my favorite thing anybody’s ever said about me is still when i was involuntarily committed for a failed You Know What attempt early in the pandemic and there was group therapy like 3 times a day that “wasn’t mandatory” but if you didn’t go they’d put it on your record that you “didn’t seem motivated” and you’d have to stay there longer and anyway each time they did it they’d go around the room and have you say a goal and mine was always some variation of “to get out of this place and go home” and one time when i said it some guy was like, “wow, she REALLY doesn’t want to be here!” like real as hell king i really don’t

[lovestruckpdf]

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[upperranktwo]

It's 6:30 and I haven't slept at all, from what I recall, I've almost been awake for 24 hours. I can't keep doing this (have been like this for years) I need to see a doctor about my unhealthy sleeping at some point lmao (will not see a doctor)

[lesbovalentine]

i have to be honest guys i can't be humble anymore i am good at what i do know and i know this. i'm not saying every drawing i make turns out incredible or even that i have a single drawing i wouldn't change SOMETHING in but i'm, like, good at it. i'm pretty good at analyzing media too tbh. pretty good at making amvs. i've got a good singing voice even if i'm not a technically good singer i like my voice itself and i like the act of singing. i like drawing and i am good at it. okay thats all

[strwbrymlkshake]

I don't think I've ever been in a relationship this healthy before I don't know what to do 💀

[todayisafridaynight]

No because Zhao speculating felt like such a

Looks into the camera

"I bet you're wondering why that happened. ;) heres maybe a reason ebina was deep..."

moment

no literally- like other antags' endgame Deep Moment scenes worked because there was SOME build up throughout the game to key us in on them from a deeper level but it just doesnt work with ebina

[postmortamore]

vent time. cw for abuse, bugs, self harm, blah blah blah blah