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I legit just write out a scenario and tell it to writ an article or make TikTok comments. I like showing off this shit, so imma put an example:
What I typed:
At just 17 years old [redacted] has become the worlds youngest self-made billionaire. After launching (pun intended) the [redacted] Space Exploration Fund at 14 years old, the Fund became largely successful and scientists getting grants from it asked for a place to continue the journey, as the only options to contribute to space exploration were NASA and Space X. So, 2 years after the launch of the Fund, Nexus Frontiers was established, a company which rivaled Space X in a matter of months. [redacted] launched the fund originally because when she was young she wanted to be an astronaut, a dream that was quickly crushed with Hypolipostatic Myopathy Syndrome, and she had an insane amount of money on hand from her acting, despite how much of it she donated, even with a portion of it in a Coogan Account.
Nexus Frontiers also makes school supplies to fund its projects, as well as opened free observatories nationwide, and while these observatories do not make it a point to ask for donations, only having some small text at the bottom of their website, they rake in quite a bit of money through donations.
There is a running joke that [redacted] doesn't want to be a billionaire because she has policies to allow employees full coverage on all healthcare, 4 day work weeks, long, paid family leave, vacation time, and sick days, and she also donates to charity in increasingly large amounts. Despite this, employees seem to be more productive and end up make the company more money. People are calling her the real life Bruce Wayne, because even as sentiments like 'Eat the Rich' are growing, people still seem to love her.
Write an article.
What I got:
[Redacted]: The World's Youngest Self-Made Billionaire Revolutionizing Space Exploration and Business
At just 17 years old, [redacted] has shattered yet another record: becoming the world’s youngest self-made billionaire. Already a household name for her award-winning performances on screen, [redacted]’s entrepreneurial pursuits have made her a force to be reckoned with in an entirely different arena: space exploration. With a remarkable blend of vision, determination, and an innate ability to inspire those around her, she has emerged as a leader who is changing the world both on Earth and beyond.
[redacted]’s journey to this milestone began at the age of 14, when she launched the [redacted] Space Exploration Fund. Fueled by her childhood dream of becoming an astronaut—a dream she reluctantly shelved due to her diagnosis of Hypolipostatic Myopathy Syndrome (HMS)—[redacted] sought to make a tangible impact on the field she once aspired to join. The Fund quickly gained traction, providing grants to scientists and researchers who lacked opportunities within traditional institutions like NASA and SpaceX. By enabling innovative projects and fostering groundbreaking research, the Fund soon became a vital resource for those on the cutting edge of space exploration.
Just two years after establishing the Fund, [redacted] responded to an urgent need voiced by grant recipients: a dedicated platform for innovation. Enter Nexus Frontiers, a space exploration company that skyrocketed to prominence within months of its launch, rivaling even SpaceX. Combining cutting-edge technology with a visionary approach, Nexus Frontiers has positioned itself as a leader in the burgeoning new space economy. By focusing on collaboration, sustainability, and accessibility, the company has become a beacon of hope for a new era in space exploration.
A Mission Beyond Profit
While Nexus Frontiers has made waves in the tech world, its success isn’t built on profit alone. In a refreshing departure from traditional corporate practices, the company funds its projects in part by selling school supplies and operating free observatories across the nation. These observatories, which offer accessible opportunities for stargazing and learning about the cosmos, have quietly become a major source of income through voluntary donations. Despite minimal solicitation—a mere line of text at the bottom of their website—the donations have poured in, underscoring the public’s enthusiasm for Kesselman’s vision.
One of the standout initiatives is Nexus’ commitment to educational outreach. Schools in underserved communities receive free telescopes and lesson plans, inspiring young minds to explore the universe. “When I was a kid, the stars were my escape,” [redacted] shared in a recent interview. “Now, I want to give every child the chance to dream big and look up at the night sky with wonder.”
Transforming Workplace Culture
Within Nexus Frontiers, [redacted] has implemented policies that are redefining workplace norms. Employees enjoy full healthcare coverage, four-day workweeks, generous paid family leave, vacation time, and sick days—benefits that many corporations have yet to adopt. These measures, often viewed as costly by traditional standards, have paradoxically increased productivity and profitability, proving that a happy workforce is an effective one.
“She doesn’t just treat us like employees; she treats us like people,” said one Nexus Frontiers engineer. “That’s rare in this industry.”
Another employee, a project manager, added, “I’ve worked at companies where burnout was the norm. Here, I feel valued, and that makes me want to give my best every day.”
“[redacted] has created an environment where creativity thrives,” said a software developer. “Knowing that I’ll have the support I need—whether it’s time off for my family or resources for a project—makes all the difference.”
A manufacturing specialist noted, “The four-day workweek has given me back time with my kids. I’m more present at home, and ironically, I’m more focused at work, too.”
Employees also speak highly of [redacted]’s hands-on leadership style. “She’s approachable and genuinely listens to us,” said a senior scientist. “She’s not afraid to roll up her sleeves and work alongside us when the stakes are high.”
The Billionaire Who Gives Back
Despite her newfound billionaire status, [redacted] has made it clear that wealth is not her goal. Through the Fund and Nexus Frontiers, she has consistently directed significant portions of her earnings to charitable causes. Her philanthropic endeavors range from funding STEM education initiatives to supporting rare disease research, with a particular focus on conditions like HMS.
This approach has earned [redacted] a unique place in public discourse. In an era of growing anti-billionaire sentiment, where phrases like “Eat the Rich” have gained traction, [redacted]’s reputation remains largely untarnished. Her fans have affectionately dubbed her the “real-life Bruce Wayne,” not only for her wealth and philanthropy but for her unwavering commitment to bettering the world.
“She’s proof that billionaires don’t have to be villains,” said a longtime supporter. “She’s building a legacy that benefits everyone, not just herself.”
A Star on Earth and Beyond
As [redacted] continues to balance her career as an actress with her role as a business leader, one thing is clear: she’s just getting started. With Nexus Frontiers paving the way for a new era of space exploration and her commitment to fostering equity and innovation, [redacted]’s legacy is set to extend far beyond the screen.
In her own words: “I may never go to space myself, but that doesn’t mean I can’t help humanity reach the stars.”
Future projects for Nexus Frontiers include the development of reusable spacecraft and partnerships with international space agencies to democratize access to space. Meanwhile, the [redacted] Space Exploration Fund is expanding its reach, providing grants to researchers in developing nations and investing in sustainable technologies for long-term space habitation.
“[redacted]’s work isn’t just about rockets and stars,” said a Nexus executive. “It’s about building a future where innovation, inclusion, and imagination drive humanity forward. She’s inspiring all of us to think bigger.”
Indeed, [redacted]’s story is one of resilience, innovation, and boundless ambition. As she continues to push the boundaries of what’s possible, her impact is sure to be felt for generations to come. For a more playful example:
What I typed:
Mason and [redacted] posted a 'fit check' on [redacted]'s TikTok, the only caption being tagging Mason's account. They had matching outfits of low rise, baggy jeans, with a Calvin Klein waistband peaking out. They had matching tops that were cropped to just barely expose the skin from their waistband to their belly button, both boasting defined abs, they said "I ❤️ My BF" and "I ❤️ My GF" respectively. [redacted] had on thin rectangle Prada sunglasses, while Mason had a more masculine version of them. [redacted]'s hair fell in her signature tight corkscrews down her back. There was no audio overlay on the video, as with most of [redacted]'s TikToks.
The video took place in what appeared to be the entrance to a near empty Hershey park. [redacted] appeared to set the camera on a ledge before walking backwards to join Mason were the video could see their full body, Mason pulled [redacted] to him by her waist once she was standing side by side with him, there appeared to be a small hickey on Mason's v-line, partially cut off my the Calvin Klein boxers, as well as a faint bite mark on his trap. Mason had a white monster in his hand, and [redacted] had a large jug of fruit punch on the floor nearby. At least 4 men appearing to be bodyguards were in the video, and there was no sounds of anyone else at the park.
Things to keep in mind: They have never officially confirmed that were dating, but their posts for the last year have fluctuated between calling the other their best friend and bf/gf, it's pretty obvious they are dating Their ship name is [redacted]
What comments would the fans make?
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"Not the Calvin Klein waistband peeking out 😭🔥 y’all just had to flex on us like that??"
"Mason pulling [redacted] by the waist like that 🫠 someone call an ambulance, I’m not okay."
"[redacted] supremacy 👑 they’re so obvious, just confirm it already!"
"The matching outfits, the abs, the vibes… this is TOO MUCH for my single soul."
"Mason with the Monster, [redacted] with the fruit punch, and me here drinking my tears."
"IS THAT A HICKEY AND A BITE MARK ON MASON?? 👀 [redacted], girl, care to explain?!"
"No sound? No problem. I can hear the ‘[redacted] Nation, rise’ energy loud and clear."
"[redacted]’s hair is serving as usual, and Mason looking like a whole snack… they’re too perfect."
"The fact they did this in an EMPTY HERSHEY PARK with bodyguards?? Goals. Literal goals."
"‘I ❤️ my BF’ and ‘I ❤️ my GF’—WE SEE YOU, [redacted], STOP PLAYING WITH US."
"Mason shielding [redacted] from paparazzi in Oscars pics to this? This man is boyfriend of the year."
"The matching Prada sunglasses just scream power couple. They’re not hiding, they’re flexing."
"Okay but the bodyguards in the background watching [redacted] run TikTok is so funny."
"Why is this giving ‘Hot Celebrity Couple in Their Prime’ vibes already?! Y’all are 17!"
"Imagine being a [redacted] anti in 2024, couldn’t be me."
"No audio overlay? Just vibes, abs, and a near-empty amusement park. ICONIC."
"[redacted] girl, drop the fruit punch brand 👀 I wanna be hydrated with THAT energy."
"Y’all are so unserious for the matching tees but also so hot for it I can’t even hate."
"Every day I wake up and pray to have what [redacted] has. ABSOLUTE PERFECTION."
"Bodyguards probably like ‘these kids again 🙄’ but we’re here for it, LET THEM SHINE."
Obviously not all of them are going to be great, but they are decent enough for visualization.
"You use ChatGPT so much! You must be cheating in your classes!" So close! I'm actually having it write excessive amounts of articles about myself in my Teen Fame DR.
#shifting blog#reality shifting#shiftblr#shifting#shifting realities#desired reality#manifesation#shifting script#fame dr
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I tried the desert but got my shitmud rocked so I am bad at this game type so just what is the skill floor for it, do I need a large list of e2 units (I suck at that cause my squad is if it works dont try new ops and its been working for a long time)
RA2 is not only very endgame, it also seeks to challenge you with lots of moving parts that make you immensely strong if you know how they work, but conversely the game mode is balanced around the fact that you have access to these incredibly powerful tools and are expected to use them. Not master them, for sure, or even be great with them, just use them; I have made a joke out of RA2 several times on my stream, my people over there can testify when I say RA2 is easy when you know what you're doing.
You do need a lot of units to get the most out of the game mode, not just to deploy them in different fights to counter specific bosses' weaknesses and counter their strengths -- one boss is extremely strong against blocking comps but weak against structures, another is the opposite and wrecks structures but is weak against AoE and a solid blocker, some have sky high RES and low DEF, some have sky high DEF and low RES, one boss fully heals if you don't kill its phase 2 in time and goes back to phase 1, another boss has huge Arts aoe, and so on -- but also to make the most out of powerful Logistic bonuses in which you stow away Operators for bonuses depending how high level they are and what class they are, and expeditions for extra resources every 6 days, or on a 3 day cycle since you can have two teams out like this.
There's food recipes that give you immense stat bonuses and other advantages like extra block, more SP recovery, status resistance, reduced DP and redeployment cost, ignore DEF or RES per attack, and so on. There's a multitude of tools like 12 seconds of Stun with Mr. Booms, applying Freeze with Ice Blaster IIs, extra SP charging with Support Stations, and lots more. There's incredibly powerful structures like Urban Barriers which redirect your enemy's intended path in Blue Box maps, net launchers that Bind for several seconds, smoke launchers that inflict 10 seconds of high Fragile, and most powerful of them all, your own freaking ranged tiles on demand.
You are expected to interact with all of these aspects to properly succeed in RA2. Not master them, not become great with them, just interact with them, in addition to having a varied team. Critical Contentions, which is completely optional, requires a deeper mastery of these tools, but RA2 baseline? Just using them at all will make you much stronger.
...Now, with respect and because this is not our first dance together, I'll immediately say this since I know it's coming: If you really don't like being forced to use other units besides the small team you like and want, then don't play the game mode but also don't complain that the game is badly designed because it doesn't let you clear everything with the same team. I very much dislike that complaint because the game could not possibly be more explicit in its intent that you use different teams, adjust your strategy and experiment. Out of all gacha games, Arknights is the sole game that actually accommodates this explicit drive for variance by outfitting you with several strong welfare units and a spread of 3*s that are actually very strong and completely viable without needing you to get lucky at the gacha. If you decide you like to play the game with just your chosen few, that's completely valid and I would even say borders on adding a challenge, go for it, but don't complain that the game fails in its design when it doesn't let you clear either by lack of skill or because you decided to go against the grain of its explicit intent for you to use varied teams. I do not respect that complaint in the slightest and I do not wish to engage with it.
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finally finished all of one character's entire quests/optional dialogue/questions/etc.... 100,000 words... .... aughhh
#Given some of it IS lines of code and stuff but like.. minus all that it's still probably at least 85 - 95k words hhhhhh#AND I have to do this for another 3 characters. Then a few partial quests for 3 others. THEN the other random misc stuff in the game#(like there are public areas in the city like a park and a forest that you can go and do a few things at. and chat with a few random#townsfolk that aren't actually full characters or anything. And there's a community board where you can#browse some of the random job advertisments or silly things that happen to be posted around#and also pick up a few odd jobs of your own to help earn coin to buy gifts for the npcs. etc. etc.)#Originally I was thinking like 'ah I'll make a short little game just to try it out! :3 It'll take maybe a few months!''#haha........................hee hee........................................hoho#Also evil that it would have been done already if I didn't totally drop itand stop working on it for like 5 years randomly#i could have made 5 years of steady slow progress gradually. instead of like 'one initial idea dump + about a month of art and writing'#...... 5 year break..... 'sudden mad dash to try to get probably 400.000 words written in a year or less' lol#I just really want to be done and have something out there already so it can lead to doing other things in my world..!!!!!! T o T#Like this can be an introduction and then maybe from that I can make other games. or short story anthologies. or other such things#But there needs to be some initially not very complex easy to interact with starting point first I guess... if that makes sense#That's part of why I stopped posting worldbuilding lore dump stuff as often because its' like.. massive walls of novella length#text are much more inacessible to engage with than like.. ooh a game! and there's characters! so its more approachable! and theres#visuals! oo! and the text is broken up in small bits line by line with other things in betwen! oo! etc. etc. lol#Not that THIS is even very accessible. I think dialogue heavy interactive fiction/visual novel type stuff is pretty niche and considered#boring or tedious compared to something with more ''gamplay'' like where you can actually move around in a world#and shoot things or whatever lol. But its an inbetween point. something SLIGHTLY#more accesible for now. Since i just dont have the budget or means or ability to make some skyrim type thing obviously LOL#Though maybe if theres any interest in the visual novel that could lead to making other things too. or at least I hope. I have a VERY cool#idea for a more ''gamey'' type of game that is a super fun concept and etc. but I would need to hire at least 2 people to make it.. ough..#I could do all the writing and probably half of the art. But I think I'd inevitably need a 3d artist and someone who can Code For Real hbjh#the system for ren'py (the thing I'm making a visual novel in) is not that complicated if you stick to just simple dialogue and stuff.#Making a whole moderately sized 3d game with minigames in it and a bunch of quest features and etc. would be out of my simplistic scope#''just learn it yourself!!' ... i barely manage to eat and sleep reliably every day lol... i do not function well enough to spend months#learning that many new skills. I already have a lot of of things I'm good at (not in a braggy way but just factually like.. i already have#a wide variety of different things under my belt).. at some point I have to just be happy with what i CAN already do and focus on that#and admit I need to get outside help sometimes ghjbh... NO more new skills/hobbies!!! ... ANYWAY
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giving up on going to bed proper tonight i am Not getting everything i need to do done in forty minutes [adjusted for time it took to write this post. 30 minutes]
#and it took me so long to fall asleep the last two nights i might as well have just stayed up [shrug]#this isnt even representative of what working is going to be like!!!! i didnt know i was going to be working this week!!! until monday!!!!!#the night before!!!!!!!!! i couldnt prepare anything or pre-do any chores!!!!!!!!!!!#<- the job is really genuinely great so far but my position has so little to do w literally anything else in the building that im#super falling thru the cracks about every single thing me and my single coworker arent a squeaky wheel about lol. im a little#irritated about it but whatever <- i didnt have access to anything i needed half my first day even tho they had the whole month#to get the ball rolling on that 😭😭 i still dont have access to some stuff#i may or may not have to work friday. wont know till tomorrow. idk what im doing next week. im taking verbal 'yeah probably'#permission to not come in this weekend bc i dont want to lol#AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH#anyways. [keyed up] [why its been taking me so long to fall asleep]
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Lanolin wasn't going to let the current situation get in the way of helping the people here at the infirmary. Especially with the short staff and, Getting some help would let Dawn take a break. She clearly needed it. She knew even she had limits and, even if she said she was fine she had a hunch that wasn't true.
" Then get in touch with them and see what can be worked out. I doubt altriss has time to stop caring for his patients to bother, but i'm sure Nurse Dawn can give you what ever you need. If we can get the civilians to safety then i'm willing to deal... there safety is more important then anything right now. "
Dawn gave Lanolin a nod as she eyed the old man, as she still didn't like him or his wife. but they did need help and the mouse had access to files, numbers, and anything else they might need. Plus she could keep an eye on the GUN soldiers and doctors that came in, just in case they were up to no good.
" I can give you what you need, Altriss is swamped right now... unlike me he can't just make copies of himself... he doesn't have time to stop but, i can cover it! guess i'll be earning that overtime pay... "
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Her carapace was cracked, it was the equivalent to a concussion for anyone else. But her shell acted as an extra layer of protection. It still hurt and made her feel dizzy and nauseated. Though she expected the worst from the Skunks, it seemed they just wanted to get out of this bad situation. Knowing Clutch he probably didn't give them any other choice. She just needed her world to stop spinning for half a second so she could move.
She opted to just relax but knew closing her eyes was probably a bad idea. She gingerly touched the crack and winced, but at least it wasn't to bad. With a bit of tape, and a bandage she was sure it would heal on its own. The real trouble here was just getting out of the rubble and somewhere safe.
" I had a feeling Clutch swindled you both... Vanilla told me she had a talk with you both. I didn't think it would be enough but ... she had faith in both of you "
She spoke in a softer tone, as she leaned against the one holding her to steady herself.
" I came to get you both out of that cell, before something bad happened. I guess i wasn't fast enough..."
She gave them both a glance and was coming to realize that they maybe weren't so bad. A Little rough around the edges, maybe they just needed a guiding hand and a chance to do the right thing. She'd see if that was true, if they meant what they said---and Vanilla seemed to think so.
" GUN has the place surrounded, isn't anywhere for you to run anymore. Isn't anywhere for any of us to run anymore... if we want to make it out of this Crisis... we need to work together. "
She sat herself up but had to lean against the skunk boy just to steady herself.
" So, How about you two just come work for me... until this is over, i'll consider you my personal body guards. I'm starting to think i could use a couple..."
Twist would keep his opinion on Lanolin's comment about G.U.N to himself as there were more important things. "My contact ain't that high up, though they should be high enough to convince letting us move out civilians. That said, they might ask your crew to help out with that so they may let some more in, though that's a guess." The lemur wasn't sure what policy's had changed since he was honorably discharged from his service due to his injury.
"Though they may want to talk to the head doctor to confirm the number of injured as well as being short of staff. As long as they don't mind being drawn away from their work for a minute or two." Twist knew it wasn't as simple as that as if someone was heavily injured then stopping for even a moment could be dangerous. Still, there is a possibility they'll want to talk to the head doctor.
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Tumble was a bit surprised when Jewel just, gave up and let herself fall. The skunk was quick to catch her and it was clear she wasn't looking so hot. "I think she has a point bro. She clearly isn't looking so hot." He was holding the beetle has gently as he could, not wanting to make things worse if he could help it.
"Then we just have to be careful and find a med kit somewhere! I'm doing the best I can!" Rough shouted as he finished busting the hole open and made it into the sewer line. "Sorry for shouting, though we're already back in trouble. I swear, we try to go straight like Ms. Vanilla said, though Clutch just kept asking more and more," the skunk said as she slipped into the hole.
"I guess that's true," Tumble said as he walked over to the hole and gentle lower Jewel in first for Rough to carefully grab before jumping down himself. The two skunk brothers starting to walk down. "Yeah, Ms. Vanilla was very strict about that, though we did try. Clutch just wouldn't stop asking us for stuff." They tried to stay on the straight and narrow, though so much for that.
"Stupid opossum getting us into more trouble. Just when we were about to talk to start talking Mamá again and work things out." Rough would beat up Clutch if he could, though a guy like that was too well connected and had way too much security so what choice did they have. "All we did was sign up to be the mascots, not all of this."
#Unit Commander#Lanolin#Grumpy old mechanic#twist#Restoration Medical Staff#Dawn#Director of Restoration#Jewel#Time for Trouble! Make it Double#Rough and Tumble
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#i've had many people ask me in the DMs what could be done to help me out given the orange menace is coming back into power#the best things for me right now (I can't speak to others) is this: 1. Keep supporting my creative endeavors#no matter how little I might post or interact. Please hype me up. I need community. I need spirit to survive.#2. Help me find resources that will help myself and others. Food banks. Community meets. Passports. Finances. Mental health etc.#these are important and I don't want others feeling like sitting ducks. Even though I'm scared I want to be a solution to the problem.#I am going to be a helper in this mess cause that's who I am and I need ammo in this capacity#3. Donate so I can up my ration storage. I've been collecting food water and nonperishables and I'm trying to stock up on medication#and other basic necessities. I'm collecting as if I'm preparing to be homeless again and if I am over capacity I'm giving rations to others#I've had to make peace with the fact I can't run away. I can't move to another country as I'm broke and poor like the rest of my loved ones#4. If you have friends who are disabled or a minority or lgbtq etc. do what you can to protect them and show them that you love them#and build community#5. Share my work and that of others. Who knows if we're gonna have sites like AO3 in the future or even access to tumblr.#this is all I can think of at the moment and again I can't speak for others this is what comes to mind for myself#And I admit I'm coming from a place of the worst case scenarios#because in my mind if I imagine I'm dead or homeless etc. and work my way backward to the next worst thing before that it unravels my fear#and it gives me back my power in the situation by sitting with those fears and giving them time to speak#because in my mind if I'm already dead if I'm already homeless or at war etc. etc. then its already happened and what else is there to fear#if I've been through everything already in mind?#I'm hoping that the worst case scenarios don't transpire but I can't ignore the fact many of them could and probably will happen#in some capacity but I can control the actions I take through prep and facing these fears one by one#and most importantly sticking to routine by making sure im healthy to help people#anyway this is why ive been quiet for a while besides for spending time with friends and loved ones recently to get over what happened#im going to keep going to my classes keep helping people through my jobs try to be creative when I have spoons and little by little#make sure I have enough of what I need to get through the storm and outlive the bastards in power#I'm not sure what sort of pink variant to assign this to but its along the magenta spectrum#love you guys#we'll get through this
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I crave validation so strongly. I wish I could help everyone in the world and yet I am unable to help myself.
#this website is constantly telling me that trying to help myself with mental health is some sort of bougie indulgance and insulting to gaza#and it's a quick jump from there to thinking the same about trying to access transition#and from there it's my life is meaningless and my suicide would be celebrated if i put the right post on twitter before#tw suicide#i feel like the obvious thing to do is quit tumblr and stop encountering these messages- but i have nowhere else i feel#i can talk about the ugliest parts of myself#and recently i put an artwork on instagram that i worked on for 15 months and it got 7 likes and i'm fucking destroyed by that#i genuinely can't tell you how upset#but i know that's not healthy- i should be able to like and feel proud of my work no matter how many people press a thing#or see it in the first place- we all know its algorithm that does it#i never want to become someone who moans about algorithms and guilts for likes and yet here we are#leaving instagram would seem the obvious solution but i need that validation so badly#i don't even want to make art my job ever! i'll be doing it no matter what i just want people to like it and like me#to think i am someone worthwhile#i don't understand why i'm like this i have no good reasons i have never lacked for love in my life#and yet i can't feel it#i hate myself
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genuinely so angry and scared im shaking. how many other times this week this month this year have i been exposed without knowing it. do people even tell each other anymore. it’s just so grim. it’s so fucking grim
#purrs#delete later#covid19#i am fighting for my fucking life every day to stay safe and to keep the people around me some of whom are disabled / chronically ill /#immunocompromised / medically vulnerable safe. i am fucking fighting for my life. it’s already hard that i am usually one of two people in#any given room still wearing a mask let alone an n95 mask. hard and bad enough that we get looks for wearing masks and people think im crazy#for my life still being on hold and for my family still basically never going anywhere. ITS FUCKING WORSE that we are still very much in the#throes of all of it and we are in constant physical and quite frankly EXISTENTIAL danger not only of getting sick / becoming (more)#disabled / literally fucking dying but also returning to the absolute hell of lockdown which while important was psychologically damaging in#ways that are difficult to even articulate. like not only have we as a society decided to not give a shit about unpacking all of that and#healing from the trauma and assuming everyone went through the same thing when we very much did not and to just send everybody back to#school and work because 🤑🤑🤑🤑🤑capitalism🤑🤑🤑🤑🤑 but we have ALSO decided to pretend like the freakish unceasing danger just doesn’t exist#anymore and to get rid of every tool we had available to keep us safe or at minimum make people have to pay exorbitant amounts of money to#access them because 🤑🤑🤑🤑🤑capitalism🤑🤑🤑🤑🤑 !!!!!!! im TIRED. im so fucking tired of it. i am so fucking exhausted and angry and scared. and i#HAVE the luxury and privilege of being able to afford n95 masks and covid tests and to be able to work a job that i can do remotely if i#need to and to not be disabled or immunocompromised. what makes me fucking furious is we decided to throw all the people who don’t have#that access or privilege under the fucking bus and forget about them lol. but what do you expect from a country rotten to its core the way#it is lol. im fucking despondent. why are we living in an incinerator.#* the lockdown(s) werent just important they were necessary. and arguably we should have another one even though if we do i genuinely fear#for my mental health both during and afterwards and quite frankly before. im tired. i am grateful for the life i live which has resulted in#part from the different things that have happened because of the pandemic but i also so desperately wish this never happened and every day I#think about what life would be like if it hadn’t happened. the grief of it all is unspeakably big.
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On today's agenda: Preparing for a long commute and class without a break tonight while my back is already causing me 7/10 pain.
#'preparing' looks like: making sure i have a painkiller that actually works. + anything else i need like a menthol patch.#- have to put that on before i leave. it will gradually lose its effectiveness.#making sure i have a meal before i leave because it'll be hours before i can eat again#and i don't want to be taking a painkiller on an empty stomach.#making sure i'm also packing another meal because my prof is screening a 1.5 hour movie today#so i won't be able to get up and walk around. also no money to buy food.#gotta bring enough water too. so all of this is an added weight that will hurt my back even more.#maybe not bringing my laptop? but then i'll only have my phone to give me access to the reading and some of my notes.#gotta make sure i get there early enough for my phone to connect to the internet. it always takes a long time.#aaaaand i should bring some caffeinated beverage so the painkiller + patch don't put me to sleep.#i do not want to leave my house today hahaha. too fucking much to do and my back hurts so bad.
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16 year olds are still growing, they wont fit into whatever they wore in 2020. You cant be sustainable that way when you grow out of your clothes regularly. Thats only something adults can do.
Cool you've been wearing your boots for 6 years, 6 years ago they were ten and probably multiple shoe sizes smaller. I remember a stage of needing to buy new shoes every few months during a growth spurt. You're really not being fair to teens here.
And just steal clothes? Not everyone can get away with that, not everyone can safely risk that. Dont tell kids to endanger themselves.
You have some good points. Build community, root out nazis, figure out who you are really not who youre expected to be. (Hint: try new things and pay attention to how you feel emotionally = how your body feels. Tension? Pain? Lightness? Excitement? Want to laugh or cry? Use that to guide you. Build community = talk to people, learn to compromise. Weed out nazis is difficult to explain standing on one foot)
"I dont like that you buy clothes or where from" just isnt helpful.
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This poll is an accident I cant work out how to get rid of now. Uh
Bring back posers as a term please I'm begging if ONE MORE GODDAMN 16 YEAR OLD ASKS WHERE I BOUGHT MY CLOTHES I'M GONNA LOSE. MY FUCKING. MIND.
I HAVEN'T PAID FOR SHIT SINCE 2020 BITCH THESE SPIKES ARE THE BROKEN OFF TINES OF A FORK THE THREAD IS DENTAL FLOSS FROM A PAIR OF JEANS I TOOK APART TO USE THE DENIM TO MAKE PATCHES YEAH NO SHIT I SMELL LIKE SILVER SPRAY PAINT. I'VE HAD THE SAME PAIR OF COMBAT BOOTS FOR SIX FUCKIN YEARS NOW. DO YOU KNOW HOW MANY LAYERS OF PAINT AND NAIL POLISH ARE ON THEM. MY WHEELCHAIR GLOVES ARE MORE THREAD THAN LEATHER ATP BUT WHO GIVES A FUCK. THEY'RE STILL FUNCTIONAL.
"but all I can afford is clothes from SheIn and Amazon and I wanna have the punk style"
BITCH STEAL THE CLOTHES. GO TO GOODWILL. YOU KNOW WHAT WE CALL HAVING THE "STYLE" IS BUT NOT THE MINDSET???
A FUCKING POSER
And no I'm not gatekeeping. Anyone anywhere can be punk. BUT BUYING A PRE-PATCHED DENIM JACKET ON AMAZON DOES NOT A PUNK MAKE. BURN YOUR OWN CD'S, PIRATE MOVIES, GO TO PROTESTS, MAKE POSITIVE CHANGE, FORM COMMUNITY IN SOLIDARITY AGAINST OPPRESSIVE SYSTEMS. KILL THE NAZIS INFECTING PUNK COMMUNITIES LIKE A ROTTING BRANCH GETS CUT FROM THE TREE
WHERE'S YOUR FUCKING RAGE??? WHERE'S YOUR FUCKING WEIRDNESS??? WHERE'S YOUR REFUSAL TO FIT INTO THE MAIN STREAM???? WHERE'S YOUR OBSESSION WITH A SKA PUNK BAND FROM THE EARLY 2000'S?!
I saw a TikTok of a person who said they were punk but then proceeded to go on a tirade about not liking the bus because gross homeless people ride the bus
HOW DOES THE BOOT TASTE MOTHERFUCKER
#all the clothes i can afford is from shein#i can't go thrifting for multiples reasons of disability#stealing assumes i can find my size in a brick and mortsr store thats also accessible AND that I can be subtle enough to not get caught#in my wheelchair#that attracts attention#i also repair whatever I can and also thats work and its time and its energy and its pain#yeah someone grossed out by homeless people needs to do some introspection#im just done with being told im an awful person for buying from shein you think its my first or even tenth choice??#putting aside the tonnes and tonnes of fast fashion dumped in landfill without even seeing a store#and how most of pollution and shit is mega wealthy people#and some of us arent a size 6 who can wear literally anything they find anywhere#and have it be fashionable bc youre skinny#its such a shallow thing to judge people on. you think anything is actually ethical? really truly? everyones being screwed over#ok thats enough from me rn#tags#fast fashion#shein#and i know op is venting but also i think my response is relevant and not a well actually#ok im calling this post done now
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hope my dr gets back to me abt the change to private service I messaged her last night saying it Should be okay and asking for info abt fees n any changes.. so painful communication is now gonna cost £360 per hour/£6 per min 😬🤕
#my roomie works at a law firm and is always talking abt the insane charges some of the solicitors have per hour#and this is like. even worse than that 😭#ahhh... but the thing is elvanse DOES work for me i dont wanna quit it i just need to figure out how to manage the crash#whether its like. a lifestyle change or a second med. and i dont necessarily need to take it every single day#maybe introducing med breaks a day or two a week when i dont NEED focus would work#being unmedicated was fine. but it would suck now ik meds can help to then lose access to that#ill take today off the booster then thurs and fri ill halve it bc i think the full dose is a little high n thats why it bleeds into sleep#dont have to write my next symptom report til sunday so i have some time to test it#i wish 10mg vyvanse was available in this country like taking that w lunch might be better than the dex#well maybe i could try halving one of the 20s i still have n do that saturday#figuring this shit out!!!!#meds arent perfect anyway theyre not a cure-all for my adhd. there are some things im gonna have to work thru on top of that#but its like. they resolve the lowest couple tiers on the hierarchy of adhd symptoms for me. which is a massive jump#n its just 4 more weeks of trialling it that i have to pay for. and so long as my gp accepts shared care ill have indefinite access#and for MUCH much cheaper. the only risk is shortages but lets not consider that rn 😭#okay not thinking abt this anymore i gotta clock in.... see u on the other side homosexuals in my phone#.diaries
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It's always interesting to hear about people's weird/unexpected "alternate life paths". Like, something that you could have done with your life, a job you almost took, a school you almost went to, etc - that was still actually realistic enough that it could have happened, but NOW it seems to not suit your current personality.
Like for example, I currently hate advertising (how manipulative it is, brands trying to be 'relatable', social media amplifying it to an obnoxious extreme, etc.) so much that even seeing a little ad before a youtube video is grating to even witness, but there was a point in time where I was genuinely seriously considering going into marketing/making commercials as a career lol. Or like, I have a relative who was very inclined to be a pastor when they were younger, even though today they're a super strong atheist, etc. etc.
#BECAUSE I knew I really liked filming and editing things and doing set design and costume design (from having done little bits of that#here and there in media classes and my own stuff - i used to be a lot more into making videos than I am now). BUT I was always thinking#that a movie is WAAY to big and long. even a short film. So I was trying to think of ways I could still like#have the fun of scouting locations to film and dressing up actors and etc. etc. without it having to be a Huge Million Dollar Production#on tv show or movie level. SO then I was thinking about like... just doing commercials. Or music videos. Like shorter things where I still#get the fun of the filming and everything but it's less of an intensive long term project.#So there is an alternate version of me (I suppose if i somehow did not end up having physical and mental health issues#as badly somehow.. or like.. randomly came into wealth and was able to pay my way through a nice college despite missing#days constantly being out because I'm sick or something lol) that works in some corporate advertising office coming up with commercials#and directing or filming them or doing the sets for them or something in that general vicinity.#I also was considering being a corporate psychologist. or whatever its called.. oh from google:#''Industrial and organizational (I/O) psychologists study and assess individual group and organization dynamics in the workplace''#I don't think I even knew what the job entailed. I was at the time just thinking like.. the type of person that comes into a business offic#and gives everyone personality assessments or does MBTI or big-5 testing crap for whatever reason that some businesses get that#done for people. Really i just wanted to be in a Corporate Big Office setting yet still do psychology. Because I used to be really fixated#on living in a big city. Like the ideas of everything being walkable. picking up a coffee in the morning. walking to my job in a Big#Skyscraper Building. people watching in a huge hotel lobby for lunch. flying frequently (I love airplanes and airports aesthetically).#living in an apartment with a giant window overlooking the city. etc. etc. BUT that was before i had really BEEN to a city. Then I actually#hung around a city a few times and went places and I was like... AUGh... The Sensory Overwhelm.. cars people lights loudness noise scary#everything happening all at once. etc. etc. (though even when I wanted to live in a city i NEVER strove for the Night Life. when i say I#enjoy city imagery I mean like... in the day time. Many people who like cities talk about The Night Life and post pictures of cities all#lit up at night and clubs and dancing and restaurants. none of that EVER appealed to me. perhaps a sign I am not a real city person. Like#I am NOT standing in a crowded bar full of loud people in the middle of the night lol.. get AWAY from me!!) but I do adore the#architecture of like bright white clean sterile modern spaces like huge airport lobbies or malls or etc. I think thats what reminded me of#city and what I liked about the idea of that life. Like I always LOVED the layout of schools and hospitals and trainstations and public#transport in general. Though even then I knew enough that I would not be a good architect/city planner. so I guess my adoration for those#spaces was merely to be channeled into LIVING there. but then I realized I didn't even really want to do that that much. I mean I still#definitely aim to live NEAR a city. like the little areas outside of it. I would never live in a rural place 4 hours from anything. I liter#ally just COULDNT since I need close access to hospitals sometimes lol. But I used to want to live in the CENTER of citites like high rise#condo. and now I'm like.... eh....... perhaps a smaller quieter walkable space nearby lol.. ANYWAY.. alternate me in my Business Suit eheh
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I need to buckle down and figure out what my personal understanding of Ceirt/Cert is.
it's fascinating how it seems to have these two diametrically opposing possible meanings (not unlike nGétal), one being tied to coir and right judgment and kingship, which actually fits apple extremely well folklorically, and one connected to madness, misfortune, sacrifice, and illness, which fit both potential etymologies of either Rag or Bush.
it seemed clear to me in the past that the secondary meaning had to be original, especially given my/the bias against the crannogham, but it's still very frustratingly simple that the current Modern Irish meaning is Rightness.
perhaps the meaning of the word shifted to match the evolving understanding of the fid, given the medieval love for the arboreal and more recentness of the Immrama? of course that's a reach but ...
#idk the esoteric implications work#but which is a primary meaning and which is occult#i need to just meditate with it more but it is so ellusive#some fid are right there - on the tip of my tongue and immediately come into focus#Ceirt and Muin and Ailm and Edad remain very difficult to access and understand#id like to understand them better as i pull all of those quite often#in my UPG i believe it *is* important what Irish christians have practiced for the last thousand years#i believe traditions become powerful with tine#its an ancestral link#and i think its digging a need path through the fabric of magic and ritual#i wouldnt ever prescribe anything#but i do think what the collective decides to maintain or evolve or even devolve IS important to ongoing practice#whether you choose to incorporate it or not#im just going to read my book on wells i got and do some more meditstion with Ceirt#bc i think ive exhausted the research#the ONE possible tenative thread ive only half figured out that ties the two concepts together#comes from Immram Bran and how he was offered the apple branch#it was both a symbol of kingship (cormac's cup) and sovereignty in some respects#but also a token of rite of passage to the Otherworld#i feel this connects to the rags being left as a symbol of both the self and the illness#but i havent bridged the gap completely
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I don't like wading into Ao3 debates, but I want to give my professional opinion on Ao3 with regard to archives vs. libraries.
I am a professional librarian (MSLS) and I have worked in both archives and public libraries and a lot of the confusion and concern I see surrounding Ao3 is a fundamental misunderstanding of How Archives Work.
An archive is a collection related to a subject. That subject is often a person but sometimes a field or concept or project. And the purpose of an archive is to keep everything. And I mean everything. I was going to say "short of biohazards" but since I know there's a sealed R. Crumb Devil Gal chocolate bar in the UNC Chapel Hill archives, we really do mean everything.
When a collection of materials--which are usually unique and original and can be photos, manuscripts, letters, recordings (audio and/or visual), notes and notebooks, objects, published books, whatever--on and/or from the subject arrive at the archive, they are examined, preserved for longevity, accessioned and cataloged (added to the archive's records), and added to the archive. You measure collections in linear feet. As in, once it's all preserved and boxed and secure, you note how many feet of shelf space it takes up. And some of y'all on Ao3 have a lot of linear feet to your name (and I'm proud of you).
This is an archive: it is designed to preserve the original materials related to a subject. That is its purpose. Archives are how we have the original scroll manuscript of On the Road, for example, or the Lomax recordings of American folksongs, or Tijuana Bibles, or James Joyce's loveletters to Nora.
Now you, a member of the public, can access some archives. Some are easier to access than others. The one I worked in was open to the public; good luck getting into the British Archives without a good reason.
So now apply this to Ao3--which is an archive both in name and in purpose. It is intended to preserve fan-created content long term. And this means everything, whether you personally like the materials or not. It is a repository for as much as possible.
And the "whether you personally like the materials or not" is important, hence why I mentioned Jim's loveletters and Tijuana Bibles in particular. (RIP Jim, you would have loved pegging.)
If it's made by fans and it exists, we should keep it to document the history and progression of fandom. That is the point. We have lost enough materials related to the subject of fans of media and we don't need to lose any more.
The fact of the matter is that Ao3 is only one facet of the OTW, which preserves other fan-related materials (convention booklets and zines, for example). Somehow Ao3, an archive on the subject of fanfiction, has been divorced from the rest of the project, mostly by way of "purity culture" and panic over "dangerous" fiction.
The fact that you can go through an archive and find interesting information is the other side of archives. No, they shouldn't be like the banker's box of old letters stuffed in my closet. Yes, they should be organized and as accessible as is appropriate for the state of the materials.
It's really, really cool to find stuff in an archive, I'm not even going to lie. I have done it before and I will do it again. And yet there are other items in an archive that I might not want or need or be interested in at all--but they're still there. That's the cataloging and accessioning: to keep up with what's there, to stay "on topic" with collecting, and to be able to find things in that archive. Bless the tag wranglers who are doing the cataloging at Ao3.
The pearl clutching seems to come from 1. the creation of "dangerous" fanworks and 2. public access to those "dangerous" fanworks. These are issues of "purity culture" and opinions on censorship and should not involve Ao3.
Ao3, under the umbrella of the OTW, is a documentation and preservation project first and foremost.
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The sadness and agony that emerges everytime I start a new oni save and am forced to remember what it's like to have a dupe without a hat only to put them in a hat because I think they'd look cute only to remember hats make half of them look bald but I spent this long maxing out a skill for them so Im too stubborn to back down and remove the hat
#rat rambles#oni posting#it wouldnt be nearly as much of a problem if dupes didnt all have the same like 3 faces that I suck ass at differenciating at a glance#the amount of times Ive mixed up my maes and nikolas makes me sad Im sorry mae no one should be mistaken with nikola#if I knew how to acess the animation files Id be tempted to make a mod to change it but I dont so Im not#but imagine how cute itd be if abe and nikola had their side spikes stiking out from the sides of their hats#couldnt save the super short haired ppl tho sorry ren ari travaldo turner ruby and probably others too#speaking of my ari I keep mistaking my hassan for ari even tho I dont have an ari yet sorry bestie#hes my main storage and cleaning guy which is the role ari is in my other save#anyways the new save is continuing to go well even if things have slowed down a lil#I managed to get my salt water guiser up and running even if its a very lazy approach of basically just cooling it in a tundra biome#but itll work for the time being until I can get plastic from either drekos or by tapping into my oil biome#Im going for drekos rn since I have a lot of them around but if I can get some atmo suits set up quick enough I might just dive for oil#mainly because I want natural gas for a gas range tbh especially since I started farming waterweed as well#along with duskcaps so I already have access to the ingredients for several high quality gas range foods if I can get one running#now that might be a bit hasty but also I havent actually set base on the teleporter planetoid yet and both the transporters are right there#and I managed to find the sender on my main planetoid so I could pretty easily send over high quality food as a nice start up#this mostly tempts me because theres also a distinct lack of particularly easy to farm plants in the immediate vicinity of the teleporter#which doesnt mean there Wont be food but it does mean that quite a bit of digging will likely need to be done#with is also made tricky by the lack of early settlement oxygen sources available#and while I could theoretically send oxygen from the main colony Id rly rather not until I can get a spom or two set up#which leaves oxyferns and rust as the main oxygen options there until reliable water is found#now one thing I could do is fully transition my main base to getting all its oxygen from a spom and then send the rest of my algae over#my main thing is just Im not rly sure where I wanna put my first spom#I just simply dont have as many options as Id like due to being surrounded by mostly swampy and jungle biomes#not that I couldnt build there or dig them out its just Id rly rather have atmo suits first#which since I am very early in my dreko farm will likely take a lil bit#which also brings up the problem of getting my metal refinery up and running so I dont have to keep using the rock crusher#Ill probably just slap one in one of my tundra biomes as a short term solution but long term Ill probably have to take a shot at a proper#industrial sauna once I get plastic
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Things that I feel like would happen when you’re in a relationship with Simon Riley.
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1. First off he hates the word ‘boyfriend’.
Maybe it’s because he’s in his mid thirties or something but he can’t stand being called your boyfriend. He’s more than that but also not at the same time. You live together, have access to each other’s bank accounts (which is only because he hates it when you try to fight him about him giving you money), and you’re each others emergency contact. He thinks of himself as your husband. The man wears a silicone ring when he’s home and a necklace with the ring that’s totally not a wedding band when he’s working. Price has seen the chain once or twice and smirks, shooting him a knowing look but never says a word.
Simon cannot stand it when people get nosy and want to know what your relationship status is. You’re together and that’s all that matters. No one needs to know that you’re the beneficiary of his will and life insurance policy or that he’s put you on all of his accounts. No one needs to know that he buys you anything you want but has only ever bought you two rings; a thin gold band with a flower engraved on it and its twin a matching emerald ring. No one needs to know that when he gifted them to you, there were tears and promises of safety, love, and happiness whispered against feverish skin. No one needs to know that he has your name woven into his chest tattoo.
No one needs to know any of that because your relationship is between him and you only.
2. You are not some submissive little house wife. You are a strong independent woman and he prefers it that way.
I know this one goes against what most people say but hear me out on this. Simon has been independent since birth practically. He’s only had himself to count on for years. Even in the military, he’s only been able to rely himself. Sure the others watch out for him but if it came down to it, he’s the only one who’s going to get himself out alive.
The thought of someone else relying on him in that way is terrifying. He can’t even fathom what it would be like to look at another person and fully trust them in that way. Half the time he feels like he can’t even be trusted to take care of himself let alone another human. In theory a sweet docile housewife is great with the meals and clean house but not for him. He needs to know that you can hold your own. He needs to know that you can be independent and carry on without him if something happened while he was working. He needs to know that you will be okay if he doesn’t come back.
You have to be okay without him no matter how much it pains him to think about it.
Like I said before, he’s made you the beneficiary of everything so he knows you’ll be set financially but that’s not enough. He’s made Price promise to keep an eye out for you. He’s made you promise to let Price do that and you agreed because it’s Simon who’s asking but you’d tell anyone else to fuck off.
In addition to all of that, he’s installed the best security system the government has to offer in your house. You have a very expensive and large safe in your shared closet that he’s instructed you to only open if you feel unsafe. While you might not like it, you agree to go shooting with him so he can sleep at night knowing that you could protect yourself if he’s not home. He’s gone as far as to make sure you have all of the licenses and certificates that are needed to legally own firearms in the UK.
He’s not leaving any opportunity for you to be vulnerable or have your ‘safety checks’, as he calls them, taken away.
3. Simon Riley is a godless man…until he meets you.
Now this is entirely my own headcannon with no evidence to support it so bear with me.
Simon had a shitty childhood where his mom would pray to a god who never listened and his dad would shout verses at him when he was drunk. God was a mythical figure that he was told stories off with nothing to show for it. He did believe at one point but then his dad never got better, his mom wore bruises of every shade, and his brother found comfort in drugs.
He found himself praying when he was being tortured by the Mexican cartel. Between the flashbacks of his abusive past, he prayed to a god who had failed him so many times before to help him. He prayed again as he dug himself out of that Texas grave with the major’s jaw bone. He wailed his prayers when he found his family executed after Sparks tried to kill him.
After that he deemed himself a Godless man. Years of praying had passed with nothing. This god had decided that Simon was not worthy of a miracle so why would he continue to worship him?
That was until he met you. He finds himself praying before every mission, every time he has to leave you, every time he’s on his way home, and just about any other time he thinks of you. He doesn’t know what exactly he’s praying for other than for you to be there when he gets back.
He whispers his prayers to an absent god against your skin as he worships your body, soul, and heart. He promises to be devoted to you until his last breath and vows to find you again in whatever afterlife awaits you. He pledges to find solace in you and only you when his haunting nightmares return. He makes an oath to your heart that it will never weather another storm alone again for his will take whatever beating that comes your way. He shows you that he will love you in the same manner as a Hozier song; putting you above all else because you have become his religion, his faith, his beliefs, his life.
You have become all that he is and he thanks the god he once believed in for you. He prays again but to you, his heart, his love, and his beacon through the enteral storm of life.
#simon riley x you#simon ghost x reader#simon riley x female reader#simon riley imagine#simon riley x reader#simon ghost riley#simon riley#ghost imagine#ghost call of duty#ghost x reader#ghost cod#ghost#ghost x female reader
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