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y'all pls hype me up to quit my job today I'm shaking and nauseous from how anxious I am
#context: i only have pity shifts ajd theyre all on days where im in that employment program#(for those who have followed me sinxe last year its the same one but rebooted)#and i wanna focus on doing my stupid insurance course cause if i go to insurance ill still feel meh about my job but ill be making money#so i wanna quit my current job cause it makes me miserable because of My Own Fault#but like. already know my boss is shit talking me to everyone else (and everyone else to me tbh so nothign new)#and i dont wanna like. have a conflict abt how its not 2 weeks notice cause like#i dont have real shifts i cant work alone none of my shifts are even important#so it should be no problem to quit after today. and yet !!!!!!!!#i am literally gonna throw hp over this. hence why i wanna quit instead of keeping the extra bit of income#the $150 every 2 weeks isnt worth the intense physical anxiety that comes with it
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i do acknowledge i need to watch what i say wrt gender women men cis ppl etc just augh.
#its like. im a trans man 100% i want nothing to do w being seen as a women i acknowledge that. i also acknowledge that I am putting#literally zero effort in my irl life to present as a guy at all. partially lack of resources and embarrassment etc stuff like that partiall#the autism i literally look in a mirror and see a guy#and i go to class go to work and until soemone explicitally refers to me as a woman i think of myself as a guy. so like its this weird#disconnect of what i actually do vs what i percieve as expieriencing in my daily life where i am objectively living#as a cis woman who just dresses and acts a bit masc. lol.#and like that doesnt bother me atm until i get to a setting where i am gendered frequently. then i feel nauseas etc but whatever ill deal#so i always hesitate whenever i talk abt women feminism men makeup beauty expectations etc (also i am mixed thai and white which#def plays into everyhting ofc ofc) as i dont know rly what is like. not fine idc if i say smthn uncouth just i dont want to at all#seem like im doing what these other trans guys do and latch onto my femininity and 'girlhood growing up' etc or like#its all dumb to me ofc im a feminist i consider anything i speak abt feminism free the nipple being against gender essiantialism etc etc#as in feminism (not that women arent/cant be femnists just in terms of im not trying to sound like a woman) and#ofc growing up as and my current life experiences have obvi had a large impact on myself how i veiw the world my political beliefs and all.#but like. im always scared it sounds like im idr the phrase someone else used but a i dont want to seem like im latching onto girlhood as#a failsafe or whatever. its just mm ykwim its a weird feeling. cause like im a 21 year old man and read my posts as such el oh el.#idk its all weird and idk if its a specific to me thing or whattttt it just like. i feel silly sometimes and i dont want my points to be#misconstrued :) anyways me posting this after rewatching and posting abt pearl has nothign to do genuinly lmfao just timing its been#on my mind after that dumbass trans guy posting abt the lonelyness he feels abt abandoning womanhood#after watching barbie. lol and then i saw someone in the comments of some ig quote it w like 30 replies all positive like get a lifeee#i understand it can feel isolating being trans and everyones relationship back to womanhood is diff and complecated but by god. shut up#anywayyyyyssss mmm okay im done whateverr#maybe all a fear in my head and literally none of this has every crossed anyones mind however it bothers me :(
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the worst part of writing for a Big Project is all the fun lore i must keep to myself. just wrote out some very cool Ollie backstory info. idk if i can share it yet tho. sad.
#i had a thought like 'man i coulda added stuff this to her file' meanwhile i absolutely wouldve just redacted it all. net zero.#uhhh i named all her old 'friends'. all 20 of em. plus the project they were created under. yay names#part of me wants to share some of the names just to see if anyone'd deduce Ollie's full name lol#fighting the part of me that loves to keep secrets her best friend's name was Poppy you will get NOTHIGN else#my oc talk#lab ollie#i wanna use this info for a animation but hoo boy do i NOT have the time to be animating personal things this semester :/
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his dandrift is off the CHARTS!
#sculpting with my mind. thoughts and ideas...#memory posts#and you cna see it too because its just dandrift! and nothign else#i need to learn how to script. and storyboard. and ect ect BUT im having fun with my mind games#like saw. he would do that
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tryna figure out what makes us intrinsically human since it isn't love, fear, empathy, intelligence, capacity for learning etc, and have come to the conclusion that actually maybe there is nothing special about us and that is ok. and really it is that or 9/11 jokes so .
#i have a lot of thoughts about 9/11 jokes#and also the human condition#because for all the things ppl tote as what makes us unique it is just. not true#'love' WRONG animals can love + also aroace people. next#'empathy!!!!' there are people with various disorders that means they do not experience empathy. i trust i do not need to explain why sayin#that they're not human is AWFUL#fear? guess what. have you listened to the magnus archives. most things that exist feel fear.#but you can bet your fucking ASS that NOTHIGN else in the known universe makes 9/11 jokes#anyway 9/11 is very interesting to me as a non-american because it means i have learnt about it quite objectively#like not even getting into the conspiracy stuff. because that feels like a slippery slope and i am not well educated enough on the american#politcal state at the time and bush etc etc#HOWEVER 9/11 screams propaganda to me as someone on the outside#and yes. undeniably it was a tragedy. however it was also used to justify huge amounts of violence against brown and muslim people#see . the war in iraq and also the horrific islamophobia that still exists in the states and world wide#and also. so many much worse things have happened in usamerica since then#but for some reason this is still held up as The Tragedy To End All Tragedies#idk it's interesting
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so guess what they released more interviews and i think given what a writing shitshow totk was and what they have been saying in all these interviews is actually painting a really bad picture; i dont have the time, nor the energy to go over every detail
but they were commenting on people wanting the more linear format back and aonuma himself basically said that he thinks people who feel like that do so only bc of nostalgia and "Why do you want to go back to a type of game where you're more limited or more restricted in the types of things or ways you can play?"
what .. the fuck, more freedom DOESNT automatically mean better??? like ... restriction can be a GOOD thing just as tooo much freedom can be BAD?? like in totk??? are you fukcing shitting me- what the hell are games even for then, has he had an awakening to the fact that he actually just loves sandbox games without realizing it???? im not playing fucking zelda for a sandbox, especially not when its advertised as a somethign else
its pretty clear that they want to keep this format going with everything they say there, ... maybe it really is over huh
also i hate how they kept talking around answering anything about story/lore; they go asked how ganondorf even connects to ganon since theres nothign about it in game, and all they got out was welllll we dont wanna say anything bc its up to the player; about every question you got the answer of "make somethign up yourself" which is just ... its really clear they dont actually care but dont want to say everything is meaningless actually, so they try to be vague about it and with doing that really just confirm they didnt think about it and they dont care- so no lore actually matters, nothing thats been said or established has any meaning bc they will get rid of it the second it crosses paths with their new -more freedom equals better- philosophy, they say its bc they want you to be "free" to think up anything but apparently dont realize that when there are no rules, no consistent lore or anything that it ROBS it, it stops having meaning, its fun to connect dots only when there are rules you need to work with and dots to connect in the first place, when you have an established world with its restrictions it drives you to think more creatively about things- but when there are no rules?? its fucking boring!! thats what it is!!
when you discard all rules i wont care to get invested into anything bc i know it will not be considered again, be done away with without any reason and wont have influence on coming or previous games ... bc there are no rules, anything is possible and everything can be changed any second, so nothing matters
(they also talked about the many viral videos of those very few dedicated people that make godzilla mechs in totk and how happy they are about that- i get that to some extent, but the way they kept talkign about it really just felt like it confirmed my suspicion that that whole mechanic was mainly implemented to let people do that since that gets shared around en masse making it seem like that is why people enjoy it while neither the game nor the narrative are build around it in any way ..)
it just makes all the time i spend thinking, feeling and theorizing about zelda like a true waste of time, bc nothing matters and there are no rules-
i am someone who greatly enjoys working with and around established lore/rules, its fun to me to recontextulize things by being smart or creative with it all without breaking anything or as little as possible of the established things!
if i wanted to do just do anything i want I COULD HAVE ALREADY DONE THAT bc theres nothing actually stopping anyone to just make up what they want! i DONT need canon to lose all rules for that??!!
maybe ill have to make myself believe the franchise ended with botw on a good note ... ono
#ganondoodles talks#zelda#totk#ganondoodles rants#sorry for sounding so agressive about this#but its making me so mad#also someone said to me that they literally admitted to not have an actual writer for totk???#(or someone that has no connection to anything zelda before this??)#which i couldnt find myself but#it would make so much sense if true#like ... yeah if there werent any people dedicated for the narrative and it was jsut cool looking moment tacked on cool looking moment#or someone that has no idea of anything of the past ... including botw ... yeah .. yeah it does feel like that#it makes me so sad#and also like i have to come to terms with this franchise being practically dead to me now#just when i was about to start working on chapter 2#can they please stop doing interviews when all they do is fuck it up more#(*  ̄︿ ̄)
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I judt found this draft/idea thing in my drafts from over two years ago (written before Little Sister Hugs) and i genuinely cracked up so much rereading it bc it would be really funny.
would anyone be interested in this?
Jay and hailey are busy with a case involving drug trafficking with military dudes or smth
you and will go out for dinner bc you get like n A+ in science or some shit and Will is all proud older brother
you get a call from Jay that the case is ramping up so he wont be home tonight and then ur like lit ill stay at wills i just gotta grab some stuff
you and will walk in and the house is like a mess and your like uh wtf
and will is like ok let me call jay or the cops or whatever
before he can he gets like smacked from behind like all those stupid movies
ur like o shit what the actual fuck
these big old dudes are in all black and holding like riffles bc intimidating and ur like :o
and ur standing in the kitchen so you do that really funny grab for the closest weapon and its like a pan that was waiting to dry or something entirely useless
theyre like yeah ok sure put it down u dimwit
u like stand over will being like feck off my brothers a cop
theyre like ha lol yeah we know we tryna find him where he at
ur like ha what i dont know? wouldn't have a clue
and theyre like ok then u come with us and ur like uh no sir
omg what if they chloroformed them that would be the funniest trope ever
jay is like workin the case being all undercover n shit and then he gets a call and its wills phone and hes like oh what did y/n do
will is like silent
jay is like yo whats up u alg
OR WHAT IF ITS LIKE WHAT THEY DID TO SAY WHERE THEY JUST SEND LIKE A SUPER FUCKING ANGSTY SHIT QUALITY VIDEO OF THEM LIKE BEATING WILL WHICH IS SUPER FUCKING NOT FUNNY BUT IS FUNNY TO IMAGINE THE UNO REVERSE FOR JAY
Jay immediately looses his mind and tries calling u like wheres will tf
obvi u dont answer and hes like this aint right
the team go to jays house and its all like torn apart but nothign like bad?
they call in the lab and the labs were like oh hey there's blood but they cleaned it? or smth
jay is spiralling and then they get anoter video of u? idk something else angsty
theyre like release our dude and give us back all the idk like guns and shit and voight is like ok well no way they let us do that
jay almost going cowboy cop
everyones like well this is great
you are like locked up by zipties bc criminals are stupid and you manage to like breakfree like a real mvp
u like find a gun or smth bc thats fun and free will
your all like well theres enough warehouses n creepy buildings in chicago for u to be anywhere so tf where we at
wills all leave me bc thats a funny trope and ur like shut the fuck up u dumbass
some military dude comes round the corner with his gun and sees u tryna walk with dead weight will and hes like? what are-
you shoot him bc badass bitch
he like fall down is all bloody and ur like o shit i just killed a man
will is like ya we gotta go ok like this shit serious fam
you walk around a corner and they all be sitting around in the big room and u and will are like oh hi guys
they all like point guns and ur like ah man we dead
but then!! intellegence is all out ur guns on the ground now! police things!
one of them like aims his gun but someone shoots his gUN bc i think thats the badassest thing ever and then he like has a bleeding hand and grabs u and knife to the throat thing bc trope central over here
no one has a clean shot so they all like omg dude let her go
do u get like seriously hurt? lowkey imagine like them dying and jay and will being like a mess ok thats way too dark but i like?
you either
die
get seriously maimed like idk loose a limb or smth idk
or ur unharmed and are like omg how am i not even bruised tf is this
depends on the level of angst idk
if anyone wants to ready this lmk i might actually write it
#jay halstead x reader#jay halstead#will halstead#chicago pd x reader#chicago med#one chicago imagine
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let's talk about KEPLER i have a theory that he got the eccentric half of his personality from jacobi. because he acts totally different depending on who he's talking to. first of all:
the way cutter says this implies that kepler never jokes around with them. he's like "YOU'VE got to be kidding cause that's nothing like kepler at all" even though we've all heard kepler tell that fuckign pig joke and also just about everything else he says in s3
and we know he's scared of cutter (this is when the sol manifests out of nothign)
and that he's ALWAYS been scared of cutter. throwback to kansas
so it makes sense he wouldn't be all silly goofy around Scary Man Number One (he also doesn't seem to be very unafraid of pryce. not even rachel is unafraid of pryce but that's a different topic). so he's only silly when he's COMFORTABLE...... and that said i'll circle back around to this later
first thing with jacobi i wanna point out is that he was the one who taught kepler questions only. which seems to be the best thing that has ever happened to kepler why is he so enthused about this game
and then at the end of no complaints
this really makes it sound like jacobi pranks kepler all the time but it's totally unthinkable that Kepler would ever prank him back. Jacobi is so astonished by this (and idk what the Duck Thing was but. whatever it is it apparently wasn't a prank)
anyway it would make sense that jacobi plays around at work a lot because. his profile literally says he does
and kepler seems to highly value this trait of jacobi's. first by enjoying his sarcasm and then when he tells eiffel that jacobi is a smart man for telling eiffel to lighten up
and all the way up to dirty work, kepler is his usual silly and irritating self. even when he's taken captive and down a hand, he keeps joking around. and playing twenty questions with people. and overall being a smug little jackass
until... dirty work happens. and something shifts in kepler. something MAJOR because once jacobi turns on him, his whole demeanor and brain chemistry changes in under 24 hours
he's completely serious after this. he has a few bantery lines but otherwise, he's all business, and he's SCARED, and he's not interested in joking around with anyone anymore. he's stuck pretending to be on cutter's side and that means he has to act NORMAL--apparently his "normal" doesn't include being a silly little man
and like,, he honest to god didn't think jacobi was upset with him. which is a whole other thing i could talk about but for the purposes of this argument, it really is the Exact Moment that he realizes he lost jacobi's support that his personality makes the shift. when he still THOUGHT jacobi was on his side, even after getting his ass kicked by everyone on the station and bob, after being completely humiliated he STILL acts smug and unserious. like i cannot overstate the shift that happens in this man during dirty work i really can't
so going back to kansas. which is the only scene we have of him before he met jacobi. he was very rigid, nervous, and angry. and that's ALL he was. also
he's just a man who wants to be taken seriously. apparently
which,, the life he built came at a pretty ridiculously steep cost. so yeah, i guess he WOULD want to be taken seriously. it's not like he has anything else
he's an empty shell. he's a manipulator, too--he knows how imitate people around him to make them comfortable. He emulates Cutter to the point of making his job his whole personality. It's not out of the question that he would pick up some personality traits from jacobi, the man who's been glued to his side for six years. especially when he's around jacobi and he's having fun. jacobi likes having fun!! so kepler can do that too!! he can imitate people and be just like a real boy!!
going back to no complaints once more, kepler is all business that whole time. other than when he gets really excited about questions only. and of course when it was revealed it was all a prank--even then he didn't do any kind of big reveal, he just?? "Yes I Pranked You" RIGID. happy though :) and that was only one year into knowing each other. he likes the games jacobi taught him and he liked playing that prank and he liked planning a,, frankly EXCESSIVE first anniversary party with his subordinate but i digress, he's still kinda flat in no complaints but it seems like he's having a bit of a shift?? he's having fun with jacobi. he doesn't have fun with anyone else--not really, not when jacobi isn't somewhere in the same building and on his side
and since jacobi has a whole philosophy about "work shouldn't be separate from play," it's implied that he plays pranks on kepler, and implied that he's always getting into trouble--idk, to me it really feels like kepler absorbed some of jacobi's personality over the years. for funsies <3
thanks for coming to my kepler talk he's all i ever think about
#warren kepler#kepcobi#daniel jacobi#wolf 359#birdmonster speaks#i have like one thousand and one kepler theories but i really wanted to write something up about this one#cause i've literally had all these script snippets cut out and pasted on a conspiracy board in my brain for this#all i ever want to do is talk about kepler..#i also transcribed all of no complaints for this. just to make my own screenshots. and it took so much longer than i thought it was going t#anyway kepler is everythign to me i love him. i love this pathetic awful man
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hello . sorry if this is a strange question but we actually really love how you draw furies and were wonderinf if you have any tips on their mouths??? their weird little mouths. sincerely, an alter who Just realised theyre nightfury and knows nothign else about themself /silly - ❓ // ???
ohhh myyy godddddddd HI NIGHTFURY!!!!!!!!!! HELLO!!!! fellow nigihtfury oohohhoooh SORRY thats excitienG NIGHT FUURRYYYYYYY
anyway uh. THANK YOU????????? i feel like im still learning alot with how i draw furies and its soooo hard why do they have to be soooo hard to draw. SO it means a lot to me that you guys love how i draw them!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! anyway. the mouths are one of the hardest parts to me especially as a guy who draws pretty stylized mouths.. AAAAUGH
i cant find any good pictures so this gif i posted earlier will have to do
you can clearly see im still getting the hang of drawing them 😭 but theres kind of like a dip???? i try my hardest to put that in my drawings of them but Oh lord its hard. so ignore every time i havent done that okay..... the mouth also goes further past their eyes and teh eyes r very close to the end of the head which is what threw me off for so long. WHY are their heads so weird omg
um. htats probably terrible of a description bc thats very easy to just see with your own eyes.. i just kind of guess everytime i draw the mouths ????!??
i just kind of stylize it a bit i guess??..i just makei t longer than usual. because it goes across their entire face of course. can you tell i dont knwo what im talking aobut LOL i just look at a lot of references and then try my best to replicate it ? if you wanted tips on how to draw their OPEN mouths you can just kill me becaues that im still figuring out LOLLL
i literally break so many nf design rules wen i draw them so. be free i guess. if you want me to elaborate on anything i totally will i hope this helped im some way though??????????
also you literally just sent me this ask while i was drawing myself and struggling on the mouth too i forgot to mention LMAO
#apologies to everyone who has asked me for art advice and i kind of just scaredly pooped everywhere and ran away#im terrible at this stuff#night fury gives night fury art advice to another night fury the world is BEAUTIFUL!!#thunder roars#quastion for the beast
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Hello!! I wanted to ask some advice 😞 I have a fic idea but I've never posted any writing before and its like a very very specific band au and I'm scared no one will care to read it because of how much music context it requires 😭 I really admire your writing so like...what do you suggest...
(Also super excited for next kickoff ! I've never been this invested in a fic)
hii my love!! omg a band au sounds like so much funnn are you kiddinggg i would eat that UPPP. my advice would be to just go ahead n write it!!! it's super nervewracking to share work, especially if you've never shared before, so for the time being you can just write w the idea that no one else will read it except for yourself! that'll help you establish a healthy relationship w your writing & your hobby in general even before you post should you choose to post
as for the specificity n music context, i personally think thats SO FUCKIN RAD!!! i love a story where i can enjoy a romance but also have aspects outside of it that i can learn something new from or take something away from. i have read some pretty incredible fics & books, but the ones that have always had a lasting impact on me are the ones i went into knowing nothign ab a specific something, but then i leave it feeling like i've learned something i wouldn't have ever known before!!
it's a totally valid feeling though, esp in fanfiction where you might think readers want to read ab only their fave characters or specifically romance. i felt this way a lot with including the film major & photography aspect to kickoff, i feared readers would find it boring and would just want to read ab gojo x reader. i think in ch9, gojo only had like 40% of the chapter screentime and didn't even make his first appearance until like 5k words into the chapter, but i'm still really happy w the chapter and the response i got was great too. i see some of my writer mutuals break the norms n experiments w their stories all the time too, and honestly, i think that makes for some of the BEST and most MEMORABLE stories :)
as for fears that people may not see your story, i totally get that. keep in mind, i think the jjk fandom specifically doesn't really have too many long fics, at least compared to what i've seen in other fandoms, n tends to steer towards oneshot content (i could be wrong ab this but it's just what i've noticed! at least on tumblr. long fics always get lots of love on ao3 tho) so don't worry too much if you're not getting as many notes or reblogs etc as some other authors, bc if you choose to post series content, then you'll technically be in a niche category for this specific fandom. BUT i have noticed that the quality of interactions w longer stories is very amazing and totally worth being a part of this writing community for that reason!!
when i first started posting, i really didn't know what to expect since the last time i had a fanfic blog was for like two months when i was 12 on deviantart LOL. and now i'm just extremely blown away n humbled by the support. but that's the thing- you'll never ever know unless you try! again, just write and picture it that you're the only one that's going to read it, so put all that juicy music context in there n really write w that passion in mind!! (i'm assuming you're into music or bands n that's your inspiration? don't be afraid to let that interest show!!) and that's really the only thing you need to get started, after that it's just simply copy pasting n then posting :)
if you do get around to posting or sharing it then feel free to tag me bb!! i'd love to read it n support you. good luck to u n much love!! <33 i hope this helps in anyway
and thank you for looking forward to kickoff :)
ps. in case you want any specific writing advice i have some on my page here (sorry bb i just realized i wasn't sure if you were asking for actual concrete writing advice haha my bad if i misinterpreted)
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plsplspls tell me about your thai shadow gear brain worms some more i wuv dem
UWAA... i will try my bestest .hehe. im so glad you like my thai sg brain worms...
Songkran-isms bc it makes sense
droy uses full buckets of water and it's fucking terrifying because he can absolutely lift all that and knock a bitch (jet) out if he so pleases
also has water backpack he carries around
jet dual wields water guns and likes chasing the tuk-tuks and busses and spray water in them
jet breakdances on the wet road and it really fucking hurts but also its so fun
jet loses his flip flops every year
levy doesn't really care what she uses but one year she did use an empty weed sprayer and still has phantom arm soreness
she pranks the boys by catching them with their guard down and dropping water in their pants
they do love driving around and do a splash drive buy, but they like walking the most
levy also does the most talcum powder applying tbh tbh
they get juvia in it <3 because obv
consider water rave festival au
lily.... stays at home.. jk he has perfect vantage point from above
gajeel thought he could be intimidating but there is no mercy...
Everything Else:
droy can do mean thai yell (you usually hear it during celebrations and the such, i can't explain it because I don't know the actual word for it but in this song the very first cry is what im talking about)
i don't even know if i can do a favorite dish they all like becuase i think they would like all of it lol... spice tolerance from most to least is droy, levy, jet
jet is a SLUT for thai ice cream sandwiches .. they're not like the american ice cream sandwiches btw, it's like ice cream in an actual bun with white bread or something
levy loves loves fish sauce and fruit. that boy loves tart shit ok guys. she gets like the underripe fruits and just eats that with salt, sugar, and pepper like it's nothign (she got gajeel hooked on it)
droy likes agar jellies and coconut rice .. heart..
jet has hella beef with this one thai auntie neighbor but no one can tell if it's genuine or like a secretly agreed on beef
khon masked dancer jet.
nang mai/rukkhadeva (ghost inhabiting a large tree) droy heh.. heh...
ive definitely said this but droy is a great luk thung (thai country) singer,
Songs Because I Can't Help It I LOVE MUSIC
droy and levy vibes tbh (tis also one of the iconic thai new years songs teehee)
jet new years song
jet and levy campy gay hostility
this isn't even major sg to me imi just in awe with how much i hate this song but also keep listneing to (if it sounds like a song talking about twerking, it is. and it's so . .. . /confused)
majorrrrr silly jet vibes (the song is about a scam caller getting pranked or something)
this song is like how i think jet and droy would "flirt" with levy in the way that it is a BIT and they are teasing gajeel, and its just silly (the song is silly and is basically hey girl have you eaten yet!!!!!)
#fairy tail#levy mcgarden#jet#droy#jet fairy tail#droy fairy tail#gajeel redfox#pantherlily#juvia locksar#she’s mentioned once …#headcanons#hc#hcs#onx rambles
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CHHW - 02
intro post/m.list | wc: 1.5k | next
a/n: i think im just gonna throw this up here when i have time/nothign else to post and then as i post when it catches up to ao3. ofc if you're impatient here's the ao3 link lol
get added to the taglist
Trailing your finger along the spines of the books in front of you, you methodically search for the one you’re looking for. So lost in your perusing, you don’t notice that someone else has entered the library until they cough, frightfully close behind you. Gasping, you whirl around, hand instinctively darting to the small dagger tucked into your skirt pockets. The inclusion of pockets had been suggested long ago by one of your stableboys and many times you’ve sent him thoughts of thanks because of it.
“I apologize,” Lord Satan says, holding out a placating hand. “I did not intend to startle you.”
“Don’t trouble yourself over it,” you reply, giving him a smile. “I was lost in thought. Was there something you needed?”
Lord Satan’s compelling green eyes flick from you to the books behind you. “I noticed that you’ve been looking for a book for some time. I’m more than willing to provide assistance if you need any.”
“Oh, would you?” you ask excitedly. “I’m still getting used to the organizational system here. And if anyone knows where it’s located, it’s probably you.”
“You flatter me.” Lord Satan tilts his head slightly. “Now, what title are you looking for?”
“It’s titled Grimorium Verium. Are you familiar with it?”
“I am,” Lord Satan replies, lips pursing slightly. “My question is, what do you need with it? A grimoire on Black Magic isn’t exactly light reading.”
Raising your eyebrows, you click your tongue at the lord. “Passing judgment on others’ reading habits? Interesting choice, Lord Satan. Why, just the other day I saw you with a copy of Heptameron.”
Lord Satan stiffens slightly, perhaps uncomfortable with the fact that you had seen him. He hadn’t exactly been in a well-traveled place at the time and you wondered if Lord Simeon knew he was studying up on angel magic, and if he didn’t, what he would think if he did know.
“And when, pray tell, did you see me with that?”
You wink, pressing a finger to your lips. “Ah ah, some secrets are still mine. Anyway, I want it because it was recommended to me back in the human realm but since it’s so heavily restricted there I haven’t been able to get my hands on it. I had been hoping the Devildom has less of a ban on books, but perhaps I was mistaken?”
“No,” Lord Satan says after a moment. “You weren’t. I’m just unused to humans searching for dark matter. If you follow me I can show you where it is.”
“That would be delightful,” you say, accepting the arm he offers you. “And while we’re here, if you’d be so kind as to share any recommendations with me I would be immensely grateful.”
“Topic preferences?” Lord Satan asks as he walks you through the towering shelves and displays.
“None,” you reply. “I’m sure I’ll enjoy whatever you found worth reading.”
*
You leave the library with a copy of Grimorium Verum, along with a few other books handpicked for you by the Avatar of Wrath. They were thick, with small text, and Lord Satan had warned you some weren’t translated to English, but you had accepted them anyway. The RAD library is a veritable treasure trove of information and you planned to wring everything you could out of it in the year that you had. It would be foolish not to.
On your way to the House of Lamentation, you see two familiar figures on the street, weaving in between the carriages and carts.
“Hello,” you call, waving them down. Lord Simeon and Sir Solomon were becoming more and more familiar to you, and you’ve found yourself enjoying their presence as you get to know them better. “Lovely afternoon, is it not?”
“Hello, Lady F/N,” Sir Solomon greets warmly. “It is. Were you running errands?”
“Oh, no,” you say with a laugh, lifting the pile of books in your arms. “I was merely at the library. Lord Satan suggested some books for me so I’m excited to read them.”
Lord Simeon examines the books in your grasp, a small furrow appearing between his brows. “Did you say Lord Satan suggested them?”
“Yes,” you reply. “He was kind enough to recommend them to me when I asked. Is something the matter?”
Lord Simeon starts, looking up at you hastily. “No, it’s just…”
“Just?” you prompt after a moment, wondering if he too was going to criticize your choice in literature. Lord Simeon turns to Sir Solomon for a brief moment, who, you note, looks entirely too amused by a situation that you’re confused by.
“It’s just that when Lord Satan and I last spoke, he mentioned one of the titles you hold. Specifically how dense and, er, boring he found it.”
“Oh,” you say after a moment.
“I did not mean to upset you, my lady,” Lord Simeon says, and you laugh.
“My lord, you have not. Thank you for the concern, and the truth.” You sigh. “It appears that Lord Satan is either testing me or playing a cruel prank. That is unfortunate, considering I had truly hoped to gain some insight from his favorite reading materials. It is of no matter, though,” you continue, squaring your shoulders, “for I shall finish them all and force him into a long-winded and in-depth discussion about their contents.”
Sir Solomon barks a laugh, eying you appreciatively. “That’s a response I hadn’t expected. My lady, you are truly full of surprises.”
“Well, I wish you luck in the matter,” Lord Simeon says. “I am sorry that Lord Satan found it appropriate to do such a thing.”
“Oh, no need to apologize,” you say airily. “You are not the one at fault. And in my opinion, any book written is worth reading, even if it is only to confirm how useless it is. Anyway, I must be on my way, but it was a pleasure running into you both, as always.”
“You as well,” Sir Solomon says with a small bow. “Please, let me know how it goes with Lord Satan. And I am fairly well-versed in many subjects so if you want someone to actually give you recommendations, I’d be more than willing.”
“I’m sure I’ll take you up on that offer,” you say, and soon enough you’re alone once more, striding down the cobblestone path.
*
A few days later finds you sitting in the garden, sipping a cup of fragrant tea as you skim through one of the books Lord Satan had given you. He was correct; they are all frightfully dense and boring, but you’re powering through. Though your hands itch to flip open Grumorium Verum, you know if you do, you’ll fail to come back to the other titles.
“Oh, Lady F/N,” Lord Asmodeus trills, entering your line of vision. His waistcoat and pants are a crisp white, and his cravat is a beautiful shade of blue, a nice pop of color. As with every time you’ve seen him, he looks impeccably put together, wearing the garments like a second skin. “I hadn’t expected to run into you out here. What have you been up to?”
You delicately mark your place in the book, closing it. “Only a bit of reading. And you?”
Lord Asmodeus sighs, slumping down. “Oh, nothing in particular. I just saw how nice it was today and decided a walk in the gardens would do me much good.”
“It is quite lovely,” you remark. “Would you care for some tea and cookies?”
“As much as I’d love to spend some time with you, my lady,” Lord Asmodeus sighs, “I do have some business to attend to shortly. Good luck on your reading!”
“Thank you, my lord.” You watch him stroll off, a small smile on your face. Your interactions with the fifth-born always leave you in a pleasant mood. After a moment, you devote yourself back to your reading.
“Asmo said I might find you out here,” a calm voice calls a few minutes later, and you look up to be met with Lord Satan. “Doing a bit of reading?”
Lord Simeon’s words echo in your head and you give Lord Satan an inviting smile. “I am! I’ve been making my way through your recommendations.”
“Have you?”
“Oh, yes,” you say, gesturing for Lord Satan to sit. “They’re not what I imagined your style to be, but if you liked them there must be some merit to them, of course. What did you think of the assertions made in Ars Memoriae? I found some of it to be fitting, based on my own personal experiences. Of course…” you continue to ramble, effectively trapping Lord Satan into a conversation he (quite clearly, in your opinion) doesn’t want to have.
Revenge is sweet, especially paired with the delicious tea. You must ask for the blend next time you run into the duke.
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i remmeber omce seeing someone saying that the "ive met god, he had nothign nice to say about you" line didnt make sense bc frank was literally selling the dolls and that thanks to that tehrw should be nice things for wighly tot talk about.
did you perhapssaw wiggly giving a shit absout howard at least, dodyou think he actually carees. frank is one of many wigglsys sellers bc i rmemind you that the whole crayz didnt only happeen in hatchetfield but also everywhere fuckin else even thought the whole cult thing was only in hatxhfetfield. wiggly woudldnt care aboutbwhat frnak cna do bc all thata was needed was to have at least one doll to make the portala n thats all
basiclaly the line makes total sense.wiggly woudl not fuckingn care
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I do think that she can change as a person. F!Alear sockpuppet person I mean. But having people push that they think she cannot change won't help the situation. She probably has trouble changing cause of the pushback she is getting from people. Those non anonymous comments on her fics being examples of people pushing against her and insisting she can't change.
I still want to try and help her since it seems like no one else wants to
Anon, you got the situation completely wrong and it shows
No one is saying she can't change
what we are saying is that SHE DOES NOT WANT to
That's the problem. We all know she can change, anyone can, the issue is that she doesn't want to
Also no, I don't think that's because people "push she cannot change" that she isn't trying, the reason is because she has proven many times again and again she isnt interested in changing because to her, she is in the right, the people criticizing her are in the wrong
Not once did she seemed to actually have reflected on her behavior, heck even when she did her mea culpa admitting that she did steal fanfics, she still tried to justify herself in a "yeha but I still came up first with any way soooo"
We all know she can change, but her attitude and actions make it clear she isn't interested in changing
No one is gonna force her, if she doesn't want to change, then we will just avoid her because that's the only thing we can do, we can't force her to change or to stay the same, it has to be her who decide to make the first step which would actually require her to admit her mistakes and make an apology
Yes some people would probably think it's past the point, but the reason why people are still angry is because she didn't even do this simple act and instead went trippling down
Which again, she already did stuff like that and worse in other fandom she was in, she clearly doesn't want to change
"Those non anonymous comments on her fics being examples of people pushing against her and insisting she can't change."
I checked and... they aren't non anonymous, one of the person commenting is actually trying to reason with them and debunking their whole sob sob woe is me giantically long author note longer than the fic itself, in fact MOST IF NOT ALL of the non anonymous person commenting are providing further context as to what they mean by "I dislike Alearcryst and Lapicryst because people shipped them in a sexist way"
The meaner comments and even those defending her are ...from guest accounts... GUEST
And you know what it reminds me of ? That type I saw her being constantly receiving mean anon, getting worried, chekcing on her to see if everything was alright and if she needed help, only for her to delete her account, pretend to be another person, steal fanfiction and discover that she used to send to herself mean comments to pretend she was being harrassed... so naturally, my brain is wondering i those are actually real people or if she didn't just created those account herself to send herself mean messages
Why ? Because she already did it now trust is broken, I can no longer believe those, especially when most of the non anonymous and no guest account weren't being hateful and only providing further context
(also reading this note especially the Bernadetta and Alcryst part made me genuinely feel sick)
"I still want to try and help her since it seems like no one else wants to"
That's very charitable of you Anon, go ahead, do it and we'll see how that works, if she will not just ignore you like what she did when I tried the first time and then continue to steal fanfics and all that
What you have to understand is that as long as she view herself as the vicitm in this situation she will not change, it doesn't matter how many hands raise to help her, she wont take any as long as she doesn't understand that she needs to change
But she won't because in her eyes she did nothign wrong, she is the victim and all that
You can't help someone who doesn't want to be helped because they don't view themselves as the problem but as a victim
The best you can do is just leave her alone and I think everyone should just do that now but given how she also mispread informations about people which could actually ruin their reputation, the best you can do is just to avoid her but try to deliver your side of the story whenever she talks about it
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9 people you would like to get to know better
making a new thread since the one i was tagged in was super long hehe
thank you for the tag @neonbeasts ! :]
1. 3 ships; nerevoryn, sns (as in sasuke/naruto), uhh.. do my own ocs count bc im blanking so hard
2. first ever ship; LMAO probably destiel or janto
3. last song; currently listening to First Light by Hozier, the last song that was on was PUSH UR T3MPRR by femtanyl
4. last movie; The Mummy Returns, despite never having seen the first one SKJDFLKDSJ
5. currently reading; nothing unless you count fanfics and my textbooks
6. currently watching; not rlly watching any shows at the moment, alas
7. currently consuming; like eating??? nothing
8. currently craving; nothign food wise ehehe
9 people to tag; oh man uhh @dylantics, @multi-lefaiye, @anexor, @skitzo-kero, @oblivions-dawn, @wheezeher, @soupcans, @leo-probably, @quierd-kitten, and anyone else who wants to?? :3
and to everyone i tagged, NO PRESSURE WHATSOEVER <33 just tagged most of my mutuals hggrjhdfs <333
#IM SO SHY. nobody has to do this if they dont wanna but im being brave and doing a tumblr game and tagging my mutuals bc im sooooo brave#GRAAAHHH <- me harnessing the power to press post#yews stuff#tag game#thingie i guess
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haz i know absolutely nothign about zeno rpg but ur zeno au has intrigued me and im curious about it,,, i saw smth abt like. meomory loss and being handcuffed together and ik they eat ppl but thats it 😭 explain the au if u want ig bc im interested and i think thye look so silly. also bc u put vanny n will in my brain and they wont leave im shooing them with a boom and they are not moving
OK LET ME GET THE INFODUMP<3
So ummm Zeno au<3 I’m really normal. Allow me to give a brief explanation of what Zeno is first You see, Zeno is a fictional disease sort of thing that makes people cannibals. Specifically an oneset is caused by traumatic events/extreme cases of unrequited love(specifically mostly familial) and the only cure is eating the flesh of someone else with Zeno.(not widely known.) It’s also transmittable through biting like zombies. there’s one specific facility with scientists dedicated to getting to the bottom of how to cure zeno, also housing ‘patients’ (or, people with zeno being used as lab rats). Now onto character lore.
So william and henry were good friends right. Yeah. Considering that they even have a small diner together. Well one day will got zeno (oh no!) and started slowly picking off kids going to the diner. He even accidentally attacked Charlie, who escaped in one piece luckily. Charlie went to the afton household to see if he was doing okay (because will’s like an uncle to her and all! And also what if everyone else got hurt?) only to find will ate them all oops. And yeah same happened to her, but since he transmitted zeno to Charlie he was cured! How convenient! The people in charge of the labs ended up roping him and henry into being scientists for them through shady shady means and well the two aren’t on good terms and avoid each other like the plague. Henry’s still sore over the ‘you ate my fucking daughter’ thing. Luckily he has his assistant/the archivist (tape girl) to keep him company. So Vanessa right! Crazzy I know. Nessa as we know comes from a broken family. In this specific au I’m mixing her backstory with the character who’s place she’s taking (hi kuro) so basically her parents. Neglect her. In favor of her younger sibling because she was born from her mom’s affair and blablabla… she grows up basically taking care of herself. Eventually she develops zeno and starts you know. Killing and eating random girls as you do. When one night she comes home and is confronted by her parents about this!! And well you can guess. What happens to them lol. She gets captured and taken to the zeno facility where she’s specifically studied/talked to by William! They’re funny bc nessa hasn’t had anyone willingly spend so much time around her and be so nice to her. Will … well she’s a specimen to him lol. Since being cured himself zeno has been a subject of interest to him, he’s thrown himself completely into his work (under the guise of feeling soooo guilty for his actions which henry can see right through) and well. He’s realized the consumption of human flesh has something to do with it, since eating Charlie cured him. So he’s been …. Robbing the morgue/killing people when needed to feed vanessa every time they meet. Which, she’s more docile when she’s not hungry so it kind of works but she’s not like cured you know. It has the side affect of her being hungry when it’s time for someone to chat with her though which was funny the one time henry had to go in will’s stead cause he offered her a granola bar and she was like 😐 ew.?? Anyways will has gotten her total trust because he also plays board games with her yay!! He’s the only one not enforcing the whole straightjacket-dog muzzle combo also so she’s like woah !! He sees me as another human unlike these other guys :DD (needless to say zeno patients are not treated very humanely.lol) there was also one time tape girl had to be a substitute for william but nothing of note happened they just kinda chilled and ness threatened her in a backhanded and mildly gay sort of way.as you do.
Anyway yeah so basically Henry’s been experimenting with treatment through amnesia and totally surely unrelated note at the actual start of the story, Will and Nessa wake up in a strange room with no clue who they are or how they got here, and have to navigate the now bloody and corpse-strewn facility while handcuffed together with nothing to guide them except each other and the only clue to their pasts is tampered resumes which effectively switch their backstories!! Nessa is under the impression that she’s the scientist (the whole cannibalism part was left out) and she thinks William is the serial murderer/cannibal. Which was funny cause she read her own resume like wow… I’m kind of a big deal huh :) and then read Will’s like ERM.OKAY… Will didn’t read either of the resumes. Also tape girl gave everyone code names and said code names were swapped on the resumes also! So ���bonnie’(nessa) and ‘vanny’(will) are just kind of cluelessly walking around like damn this place is really… corpsey:) until henry starts showing up and trying to kill them (he contracted zeno big surprise) and also tape girl (assumed dead) shows up sometimes just to see how things are going. Lots of shenanigans and also murder ensue.
The game also has multiple endings so. sometimes nessa ends up killing william lol. Intestine jumprope…. … ……… Also side note.will found out it’s specifically zeno infected humans that need to be fed to patients to cure them but kinda. Didn’t cure nessa on purpose<3 because she’s sort of entirely dependent on him in this way and she’s kind of his only friend.the same way he’s her only friend……wacky wild!
Tape girl is having a fucking.day. Because henry mentioned he was going to do something but likeee. She didn’t expect to be caught in the crossfires of a HUGE MASS MURDER CANNIBAL EVENT.AS LIKE ONE OF THE 4 PEOPLE STILL ALIVE IN HERE,.. once he chilled out henry explained himself and she agreed to help out (she also decided to distribute some of her recorded notes.just for fun…after the two get separated for the first time ‘vanny’ listens to them and is like woah… i was a patient here⁉️ And bon was my unethical doctor⁉️⁉️ which is funny) but like. She is the only one NOT infected in here and would like to keep it that way so she’s having quite the time. Seeing vanessa walking around unrestrained keeps jumpscaring her LOL. Once ness’s zeno symptoms start returning well ofc will as the only one she’d encountered here who she cares about is the first target but tape girl nearly gets chomped too lol.
Zeno has an interesting affect on the subjects mood which is funny. Basically when an oneset happens and the person with zeno is running around eating people they’re in a crazed manic state which. Is really fun.will and nessa are wandering around handcufffed and he’s like uhh bonnie you okay cause her facial expressions.well they went from the example on the left to the one on the right.
It’s funny bc. The memory erasure actually technically did work… her symptoms only started returning bc she got bit LOL
Pre-the amnesia incident the other three’s interactions with vanessa were pretty.limited. Considering she’s theeee most dangerous patient. Will talks to her for like an hour daily but Henry only really knows her as ‘william’s mutt’ (he was especially not a fan when he found out will had been FEEDING HER HUMAN FLESH.) and tape girl is afraid of her but also. Kind of endeared from their two in person interactions. The second one in which vanessa tried to convince her to let her cannibalize her but hey she was very polite about it..!! Henry and tape girl are both shocked and stunned that she’s actually pretty chill when she’s not insane and eating people.
TL;DR
^these fuckheads are almost all cannibals and beating each other up forever
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