#i have no idea what he would wesr

[celorangeine]

these are my headcanons for what these 3 would wear outside of their uniforms 🤗

[idv-news-boi]

-> Laurence's Journal Entries {Part 3}

Journal #21 {Who's this sassy, lost child ...?} @/vthekidfromtheforest

James... It seems the kids in this manor really like Akihiko- Like... way too much..

We recently just met some kid called "V" (shows a profile pic of V from the manor's files) turns out that's Jane's child,,, I thought Jane was too young for adoption papers- but as long as they're happy, sure! Not my business anyway-

Though that's not the real issue,,,,- Is just- this kid doesn't stop clinging on poor Akihiko who's kindly telling that he has to leave-

JDDJBDDJDJN Sorry,,, his situation amuses me a bit,,,- 🤣

I was trying to ask the kid kindly,,,! but she ended up threatening me...- rude lil one...

I ended up tricking her and hoisted Akihiko onto my shoulder before running away- She ended up crying as Akihiko waved rjfbfb- I felt a bit bad for the champ... A bit.

Journal #22 {Promoting the Showman's Profile~} @/idv-ask-the-showman

James,,, i thought I was dreaming at first- but i just met a circus veteran! Bonus point,,, he's a handsome, innovative ringmaster~

Oops- that slipped~!

Though, It's unfortunate how he had to face a tragic fate- all i can hope, James, is that he gets to be satisfied someday... And that his lil brother gets to live at the fullest.

Speaking about his brother, the young man sounded pretty familiar from Mr. Flynn's description... But i couldn't lay a finger on it.

Journal #23 {Interesting...} @/idv-avatar

Never thought I was going to meet someone who just got out of the game- and who asked a question related to an alternative identity crisis to think of- it's dark, but very interesting theory to consider...

Mmm... I might just check my insides in how an anatomy of a survivor is like- Who knows it may not be like my body structure from before! Akihiko won't agree with that idea, but I'm sure Eiji will for medical study purposes~

Journal #24 {I flirted with a senior- And it felt great~!}

Yes, you heard me- I committed the Kabedon and tried to flirt on Mr. Lucky Guy- Even asking for his real name... Never knew i would have such level of audacity but here i am~!

He looked so vulnerable and flustered... I couldn't resist- well, i can.... I just simply wanted to see that cute, freckled face upclose~

Journal #25 {Rosie...?}

Whenever i go to the same matches as her, Rosalyn seems to look more nervous when I'm around her,,,-

I really wonder why... And what's she hiding from within her ceramic, doll-like mask... Bet she'll look super adorable with both her face and her adorable lolita dress combined~

But i have the presentiment that there's something she's hiding... That i shouldn't know for some reason.

Journal #26 {I slandered the Vice Clan Leader~}

I simply slandered him by placing a crown in front of his sacred portrait- Akihiko didn't seem pleased at my actions hahaha!

The strange part after is that Angel has been glaring at me the entire lunch break once i got out of the room on my way to the dining room-

Journal #27 {So many papers...}

It seems today is a busy day,,, a lot of people coming, records to keep, news reports to track down,,, Even more paperwork and the dialogue papers i have to practice for my essence-more burden for the Witchita Scholar package essence if added.

Journal #28 {Wow...}

Rosie got chosen to match costume with Mr. Quinn- they look cute together~!

Though, i don't know why I'm feeling a bit jealous... Probably because I ate something bad.

Journal #29 {Angel is being extra again-}

The Spanish boi is really going extra in men like me- I don't even celebrate the holiday much! Though, I'm really enjoying Rosalyn's singing... Sounding beautifully familiar- but Angel kept insisting me to wesr for the occasion if I'm going to attend her concert- ahh,,,

Journal #30 {Holy Wow...}

JIIMMM- I NEVER THOUGHT FEBRUARY WOULD MAKE PEOPLE SO SWEET AND THOUGHTFUL FBRBFBBF,,,!!!!

Some Anon just have me a big pile of gears for my communicator! I'm still halfway searching through the items,,, nothing so far, but it's still a lot to look! At least some of the gears will come in handy for certain tools for Akihiko to fix~!

[quandaryqueen]

since i’m not done bombarding you with request because i love how you portray riddler and scarecrow. and of course, if it is okay with you? would you mind doing a part 2 to ‘Will they or won't they?’ perhaps later down the line when edward has become the riddler? but of course it’s all up to your creative discretion. thank you so much ♥️ and congratulations on graduating, queenie 👏🏻🎉

Will they or won't they? II

Arkhamverse Edward Nygma X Reader

In fear for yourself, you made the wrong choice.

Part I

Hiiii omg thank you for the compliments and congratulatories 🥹

You invited Edward to come with you on a holiday dinner with your family on Christmas break, seeing as the man doesn't really have a plan aside from sulking in the corner of his room, so it came to you as a shock when instead of taking a break from work for once, he chose to work during the holidays... You really can't force the guy to come along with you and so you left Gotham for the merry little celebration. Well, you couldn't leave the guy alone and so to at least give him a lick of some sort of affection during Christmas, you left a gift on his desk back in the office before you departed.

It was hard not to think about Edward even whilst you were enjoying the event with friends and families whom you haven't seen for so long. Only been gone for a few hours and you were already missing that six feet tall of a dickhead. If he were here with you, he'd be there joining your family to poke fun at you and your lack of a boyfriend or girlfriend at this age. Edward would then add in the fact at how you'd be a touch dense when it comes to your other coworkers' advances, something your family would then confirm with a story of theirs about your time in high school and being unable to tell romantic pursuits and friendly gestures apart, that you've brushed everyone aside thinking it was purely platonic.

You wondered if he had ready opened the gift you left on his desk. It was so damn difficult to chose a gift for him, gosh, he can be a touch hurtful with words. You can only hope that he doesn't hate it that much, to be honest you have no idea what to give him. You were at a desperate need to play Eeny, Meeny, Miny, Moo in the middle of browsing through some items and picked whatever you landed on and never turned back again... Well, you really did try, even down to the presentation, handpainting some green vines and icons and inside jokes on the box. Then, you wrote a letter and put it atop the box before you wrapped that thing in a pretty purple bow.

It's all you've thought about the whole time you were out of town. You were almost relieved when you return back home after six days. Funny that you were saying that, you were pretty sure you wanted nothing more than to leave this city that was too lost from saving. But anyways, you return to your station in the office, making a beeline to the Cybercrime department, in Edward's office... Where he was nowhere to be found. Your gift on his desk remain unmoved.

"You haven't heard?" You flinched from hearing a voice behind you. Turning your head to your coworker, you see she wesrs a certain foreboding shade of morose on her face. She continues on. "Nashton released confidential information to the public. He's in Arkham now."

... you were gone for six days and Edward had managed to fuck over seventy percent of the Gotham Police department with inside information about how some officers worked, that along the Mayor and the almost-appointed police commissioner. And they put him in a cell for doing the right thing. To think that Edward had only recently became the head of the cybercrime department, back then it was impressive to you how at a young age he has already became head... Looking back, he must've pulled strings. His predecessor was kicked out of the police force when he was outed as a dangerous man who uses his resources in the force to stalk women, as discovered by Edward... It really does make you think if Edward had something to do with it, aside from him just happening to stumble upon the former head's computer files.

All those times you talked about fellow officers, it was odd to you at how much he was deeply invested about baseless rumours about the others and you offered him as much as you could, thinking that this was some simple conversation to pass time during the dull hours in the office. You have been working in the police force longer than Edward and you really thought that it was just him being curious about the others. After studying the information he's released to the public, you recognised what to you back then we're simply rumours spreading around. Edward must've dug deeper and found the rumour true.

With his termination from the cybercrime department as head, you were next in line to replace your best friend... Were you even friends at all? Or did he just pretended you were to get what he wanted?

How were even supposed to feel? All the bad people in the police department has been removed and replaced by promising younglings wanting to make a difference, the Mayor resigned in disgrace and had yet made it clear whether he's running for re-elections or such. This was Edward's intention... Right? It has to be. But you knew Edward was more complicated than that. Regardless of his intentions, he has made a profound, positive impact against Gotham. You have no idea how long this will last but by god, GCPD felt like it's polished its slate clean.

And yet you couldn't pinpoint how you feel about Edward. This was supposed to be joyful and yet you weren't. Your inability to articulate your complicated thoughts had you by the neck, all day and night long. Thoughts about visiting him in Arkham has been entertained, but that's how they remain. Buried under a pile of work you've buried yourself into after becoming the head of the unit, never once have you stopped to cater to yourself these days in fear that you'd be thinking about Edward again.

The only time you had to primarily think about him was a year or two after his incident, wherein he apparently escaped Arkham. He started calling himself the Riddler and it was your mission to track him down. You claimed to be hardened by long hours of working, you attempt to reassure yourself that this was your job and you were going to locate him... But he located you first.

It wasn't hard at all, really, you still live in your old apartment and he still knows you tape your key under a window ledge in your floor. He was quite delighted to catch you arriving home after hearing from news report about the new commissioner reassuring the public that the cybercrime department is working double time to track him down.

My, he'd say it would be such an honour to be tracked down by the underdog that is Y/N L/N, head of the Cybercrime Department, his replacement, his only friend. But that wouldn't be friendly of you, now would you? And besides, he knows he's still better than you in every aspects. It's funny to him how he does value you as a friend still, and yet he wouldn't hesitate to wring the life out of you... Well, that's what he thinks. It was hell all over without you and he denies it.

Imagine the delight in his countenance when he saw you jump upon turning the light on to reveal him seated in your living room sofa. You looked so terrified, he wishes he had taken a picture.

"You..." After collecting your wits, you stare up at Edward with wide eyes. "How did you--?"

"Not even greeting your dearest friend?" He chuckles. "Key taped under the ledge. Honestly, I thought you would learned by now that you, of all people, should learn more about securities. Especially when you're now collecting a big following. You never know who'd drop by during ungodly hours."

It was admirable how you've made an enemy out of every rogue he knows of and your list can only grow the longer you were seated in front of a computer in the police station, by this you were also making your way up the hitlist as well. Some say it's Batman but oh, as much as they aren't as good as the Dark Knight, there's Y/N L/N.

"What are you doing here?" You sharply probe. The police in you screamed to call for back-up, attract Batman's attention, anything-- but the friend of Edward Nashton in you wanted nothing more than to have what you had back then.

"Just paying a friend of mine a visit. We are friends after all." He takes on with a light-hearted tone in contrast of his previous statement filled with implications. And so he admits, you are his dearest friend, he wouldn't drop by without so much of a thought of getting caught, now would he? He trusts you wouldn't tell them about your friend.

And if you did well... Hmm. I guess you'd no longer be his friend. And as if you'd catch him, you know he's a slippery one.

You continue to eye him suspiciously. Was he here to kill you?

"Come, sit with me. You know I don't bite that hard." He teases you like how he used to when he worked with you in the police force and yet it no longer sounds the same to you. It had only amplified the suspicion and fear that he might have something under his sleeves that won't end well for you. He continues to urge to by eagerly patting a spot beside him.

And so you did so reluctant. He seemed to have find delight to see your tensed frame take a seat next to him, seeing how you tremble under his eyes and refuse to meet his gaze.

"I have heard a lot about you. You've made yourself quite the notorious little thing. Not as good as Batman, but you were certainly up there." He was unnervingly cheerful when he said it. And without you even prompting it, he began talking about what he had been. "Oh what have I been up to? Ohoho... Did you really think I was behind bars all these times?"

... you were told he was. Your furrowed brows only eggs him to elaborate further.

"Well someone recognised my genius and took me under their wing where I worked with the government. A special group of sorts, the Suicide Squad, a set of convicts with extraordinary abilities used for... Special means, such as silencing local or international organizations or individuals... Heh, they thought I'd submit so easily to them and now I possess an item they deem strictly prohibited from the public's eye."

"Why are you telling me this?" He had told you information about himself and what he had been up to, though you weren't aware whether he kept things from you or if this were there at all, these were still a substantial amount of intel. It is not your forte, but you can always hand over scraps of hearsay.

"Oh you know, just catching up. Isn't that what friends do?" Is he still not going to drop that 'friend' act? "Anyways, now that I'm out of their leashes they report that I've escaped, when it was them who released me in the first place. I also heard you were in charged of finding me~" he lightly flicks your nose, causing you to back away at his sudden movement.

"It seems that... You found me." You find yourself commenting even if you were hesitant to speak.

You were almost expecting him to pull a knife from his person and plunge it deep in your throat after his tale. Could it be that he's telling you these, all these, knowing you wouldn't tell? Well, dead men tell no tales as they say. Fearing for your life, you discreetly activate your phone to call the commissioner.

"Hmm, and I will always find you."

Whatever does he mean by that?

Before you can utter another word, he stood from his seat.

"I believe it's late and you still have work to do tomorrow. As much as I want to stay, I mustn't overstay my welcome." He tugs his collar. "It's good to see you again, Y/N. I hope to meet with you again,"

"Hello?" The muffled voice of the commissioner sounds from under your coat. Edward didn't hear it at all and all you had to do was to remain neutral to as to not reveal anything to him.

"I genuinely believe you and I can be in this together. You'd only be wasting your potential in that rotten police force. We can work together and bring them down along with Batman." He takes your hands within his and he gazes within yours.

"Edward..." Is he thinking about doing the same thing he did back then? Reveal whoever Batman is to the public and ruin his image?

"You don't have to answer right now. I'll let you think about it." And he knows you'd make the right call anyways, where's the need to rush?

He couldn't help but to feel the warmth of your palms within his, even tempted enough to run his thumb over your knuckles before he had sadly let you go to leave. Turning from the threshold of your door, he lifts his hood up to give you one last smile and a wave, before leaving.

... he didn't kill you. He told you all that and he didn't kill you. You knew too much and keeping you alive would guarantee that he goes back to captivity and to captivity for good. Friend... Does he really sees you as such? Or was this just a ruse?

You wait for a beat of thirty until you were certain he had left, before you take your phone from your coat, where the Commissioner had remained on the line.

"Hello Commissioner?"

"I'm on my way to send Batman in. Head down to the station, let's talk about what you discovered."

Before you can retort, he hangs up, leaving you in silence. Sighing for the umpteenth time, you allow your body to meld with the sofa for a small while. Why can't it just swallow you whole and spit you out in the morning?

Not even being allowed to step out of your clothes from work, you were then forced to go back to the station. Only then did you realise you've made yourself an enemy out of the person who considered you trustworthy enough as his friend.

What have I done?

[reineyday]

geraskier zoom conference hc's based on that 'and they were video conferencing' post

(this has turned into a fic in point-form oops; also it's more pre-slash 'cuz this quarantine is ongoing and i don't have any specific ideas about how a relationship discussion would go or be handled over zoom haha)

it starts as a group conference call between yennefer and triss and jaskier and geralt probably because yen and triss and geralt run some sort of small business and they need jaskier for something artistic probably (he's a freelancer)

let's say they have some sort of start-up to do with children's education somehow, inspired by ciri, and they want to start a small educational web series and they want music in each episode and so hire jaskier as a composer

geralt is in charge of episode content because this web series is gonna be about mythology and he has a masters in it and has done a fair amount of traveling for it (and lowkey has been learning about different kinds of myrhs and legends and heroes and monsters all his life alongside swordfighting thanks vesemir)

ANYWAYS at first they just talk about work: geralt knows which myths he wants to talk about and how, but can't quite come up with a good narrative because he has a bad tendency to ramble on about very precise specific details that get boring, and he also doesnt know how to set the tone for children despite having one himself

jaskier suggests they make the show centre around a hero that is a witcher who goes off on adventures meeting all these creatures, and jaskier already has some fun ideas for songs

jaskier thinks geralt isnt very forthcoming but he's clearly interested in the project and there's excitement in his eyes when he says ciri will like something they write together

geralt also gets kind of moody about inaccuracies (like a nerd 'cuz he is one lol), and jaskier thinks it's funny and likes to pull his leg by saying they should just change this detail or that detail and that he's allowed bc he's the composer and he's taking creative liberties

about three zoom meetings in, they decide the witcher should have a horse and jaskier says they should give it a name and geralt says "roach" and jaskier laughs and asks about cockroaches and geralt looks... petulant??? and says there are fish called roach too and he meant the fish, and jaskier feels fond and relents and says yes fine the horse's name is "roach"

the next video call they have, they start talking again about work and jaskier's trying not to focus too much on the fact that geralt has shown up with his hair braided but goodness it makes him look softer with the way it pulls back and some strands of hair escape to frame his face

geralt eventually notices and hmms his questioning hmm (and when did jaskier start distinguishing the difference?) and when jask asks about the braid, geralt's face goes EVEN SOFTER and says ciri can't practice braiding on her friends' hair at school anymore so she practices with him and jaskier's like "well fuck that's it this is it ive never even seen him in person but here we are this is a crush oh shit"

the first time geralt laughs is because in one of their meetings, jaskier decided he was gonna be chill and wear a work shirt but just his boxers with stupid cartoon pizzas on them, amd he feels so comfortsble he forgets he's just wesring his underwrar 'till he gets up to grab his acoustic guitar and geralt sounds like he was startled into laughter and yeah, that's right, he's wearing stupid boxers and he flushes but geralt looks pretty amused and jaskier did that so he's not too embarrassed

halfway through the session after that, where jaskier has given up on slightly professional looking clothes but has committed to wearing something over his boxers at all times, he hears some barking and he sees a german shepherd's nose enter the bottom of the frame by geralt's arm

jaskier is obviously like YOU HAVE A DOG and geralt explains ciri usually plays with him during their meetings but they decided to go earlier that day and when jaskier asks what the dog's name is, geralt pauses and looks a cross between irritated and embarassed and then says "roach"

jaskier laughs and laughs and geralt just looks on stoically and it's not on his mouth but jaskier can see the pout in his eyes, but after he's done laughing, all he says is, "like the fish" and geralt smiles a tiny smile and shakes his head and jaskier's a goner, truly

one day, jaskier is caught on trying to find the perfect wording and chord progression for one of the episodes, and focuses on his guitar and keyboard for a while as he toys with this key and that rhyme, and when he looks up, geralt is in a kitchen putting on tea and mixing something in a pot and it's an hour past when they usually hang up

"you could have stopped me, you know?" jaskier asks, but geralt looks at him and hmms and jaskier feels all warm goddammit

he tells jaskier to go take a break and jaskier obliges and brings his laptop to his kitchen and they kind of just have tea together for twenty minutes before something dings and geralt has to go 'cuz it's dinner time for him and ciri

the next meeting, geralt shows up and his daughter's there in the background and she has hair like geralt's and a sunshine personality the complete opposite of geralt (though they both give off disintguished kinds of vibes)

jaskier is charmed; she's a great cheerleader and a wonderful person to run ideas by especially considering she's the target age group for their show, and when she makes a comment about how she wishes she could play the ukulele she got as a gift two years ago, jaskier brightens up and says he can teach her

now jaskier zoom calls a little earlier so ciri can have a short ukulele lesson before his work meeting with geralt, and it's so nice whenever he hears ciri practicing off to the side or roach barking from out of the frame and jaskier wonders what it would be like to truly be in the house with them

the next meeting after, they go a bit too long again bc they were arguing (well, jaslier was actually pulling geralt's leg some more, to be honest, but he can't help it if that's how he flirts), and ciri shows up and says it's time for food and when jaskier says he'll leave them to it, ciri suggests he just stay on amd they can eat together

geralt doesn't immediately say no and actually seems to be waiting for jaskier's answer so jaskier says yeah okay, and he grabs some food and they all have dinner together and they get to talking and jakier and ciri bond over disney movies and ciri says she wants to watch them together the three of them and yennefer and triss

the watch party happens and over zoom yennefer seems deeply amused the entire time and triss keeps giggling and geralt seems extra annoyed for some reason but jaskier enjoys himself and sings along to the movie and he tries not to imagine sitting right next to geralt on his couch on the side not occupied by his daughter

jaskier wakes up with a headache very close to their meeting time one day, and kind of just opens his laptop while he's lying in bed and opens the window to wait for geralt to start the meeting while he reaches over to get his ukulele 'cuz it's the closest instrument to his bed and the easiest on his brain when it's pounding like this

when he settles back against his headbkard and pillows once more, geralt is looking at him with a frown and asks if he's feeling okay, to which jaskier replies he's fine it's not covid he just gets headaches every now and then and it sucks but he can still compose (and he shakes his lil uke at the camera)

geralt says no he should sleep and when jaskier pouts he says he's going to sit here and wait for jaskier to put down the damn ukulele and drink some water and eat a granola bar and then tuck himself back into bed and he looks all fierce about it while he says it and how can jaskier not lug his laptop around while he does these things and fall a little more in love

eventually it becomes totally normal for jaskier to just hang out for long stretches of time, whether or not they talk about their witcher web series, and they cook together and hang out in their pajamas and jaskier and ciri have their music lessons and their disney nights and geralt even starts getting him to work out during some of their work breaks by doing 8 minuts abs

(jaskier was pretty adamant about not exercising but said he's do it just the one time but after 8 minutes of pain, geralt was flushed and kind of sweaty and said he needed to chamge his shirt anf then just took it off right there on the camera before he walked out frame to grab a new one and jaskier had to rush to pick his jaw off the floor before going to change out of his own sweaty clothes and yeah so he does 8 minute abs with geralt sometimes now)

once, geralt sends him a zoom link for a meeting at 2am on a night when jaskier can't fall asleep (his sleeping schedule's been so fucked since quarantine started) and when jaskier joins him, he looks like hell and he apologizes but when jaskier says he probably won't sleep for another three hours anyways, geralt looks the tiniest bit grateful and asks if they can work so they do, and if jaskier writes a song that's a little more like a lullabye dyring their meeting, and feels like his heart is about to burst when geralt, who'd moved from his desk to his couch, nods off while jaskier softly sings to him, well... jaskier doesn't know what to do with himself after he makes sure geralt is properly sleeping and then leaves the zoom meeting

they work and work and really get to know each other and then, all of a sudden, there are no more songs to be written for their witcher series and jaskier says "that's the last song, i think" and geralt hmms but neither of them hangs up

jaskier bites his lip and says, "i'll see you at the team meeting we'll have with yennefer and triss to wrap up my contract, i guess?"

and geralt says, "you should add me on facebook; we should keep in touch for future projects"

jaskier tries not to feel too bummed out because this is still a connection point and also yay more creative projects with the hot man he is probably definitely in love with and also potentially more money! but he's still a little bummed and then he decides if he's going to feel bummed he should at least do something about it and he says, "i will! you know facebook has video chat too"

and geralt hmms again but there's definitely a smile, and it's even an actual smile! "im aware," he says, and then before he hangs up the zoom call he looks stern and adds, "dont forget about ciri's ukulele lessons" and honestly jaskier wasn't expecting to continue with them but he's relieved they can still keep doing those

he shoots geralt that friend request and sates the need to scroll down his wall by going through geralt's past previous profile photos instead (they're usually of him and ciri and they're adorable)

and then, delight of delights, the next day around when they usually have their meeting, there's a video chat request from one geralt of rivia coming through facebook, and even more delightful: geralt's clearly on his phone and he only waits on the screen long enough to make sure jaskier's there and to give him a quirked eyebrow and a trademark hmm before he turns the camera around and jaskier is treated to an outside view and a walk with geralt and roach via mobile

and thus geralt becomes a fixture of his every day life

[learntolive-again]

Lupus rants, #2

I've been on the Plaquenil and the Prednisone for about two weeks now, and Ive noticed a few things; my pain levels have seemed to be decreasing, including my hands though I'm still experiencing a lot of arthritic symptoms. Thats a common theme; the pain that I am still experiencing is mostly in my joints, including my knuckles and my knees. But the general aches and pains seem to be improving. I think the rashes and skin irritations I always have are also going down. I'm noticing that a lot of my symptoms are stress based, like how I mentioned before that I thought my malar rash got worse after a horrible work day. (Coincidentally, the same thing happened today, just less severe.)

None of this is to say that Im not sick; I'm still always in pain and the fatigue has gotten so bad that I have felt like I physically couldn't move my body because it was too heavy and I was too tired and weak. The medication is still making me feel terrible, though the side effects do seen to be gradually lessening.

I think for me, one of the hardest things psychologically has been the photosensitivity; I was already not allowed in the sun, at all, without sunscreen due to a melanoma scare we had when I was 15. Now I'm not allowed outside without it, and I'm not allowed time in direct sunlight in general. My partner was talking the other day about how much he'd love to take me to this event in the town next to wesr he lives, and it hit me just how hard it would be for mebto do that. And of course he was awesome, suggested we would get an umbrella, etc but it was still... disheartening.

It also brought up a great deal of anxiety surrounding the idea of people seeing me with an umbrella, the same feelings that came up about potentially have to wear a mask when I started the immunosuppressants. And I know what it is; I dont want to "broadcast" or "advertise" the fact that I'm sick. I don't know why; there's no real reason. It's for the same reason it took me forever to use my cane around my campus, even though I was in pain; because I live in an ableist society and I was afraid of looks, questions, and comments.

I feel like I had just started getting over that internalized ableism with my fibro. Now, all those feelings are back and I have to fight them all over again. And I hate that they're there.

Anyway, I'm trying to learn to celebrate small victories. Like the fact that I ran to catch a door the other day and my legs didn't give out afterwards. I haven't been able to do that in months.

Stay safe, and take care of yourselves.

-Tarynn