#i have no fucking idea wht its about

[the-kneesbees]

I've had a really really bad day.

[vraska-theunseen]

i just can't even express my bafflement at ppl who make criticisms of media that they're "unrealistic" or the plot points are "coincidental" or like the main character surviving or being too powerful because of "plot armor" its just so. you don't like stories you dint like art or imagination or stories. a story is being told to you but youre a little baby actually sorry babies will watch the teletubbies and won't go "umm whts with these mysterious beings in this weird landscape that aspect is just completely ignored by the creators seems like if they wanted to make a good story they would've yknow given us some context and lore about the world" so fucking less media comprehension than a baby. argh i just hate this outlook so much it's so stupid the not understanding that you're being told a story that it's about emotion not suspending your disbelief for PEOPLE WILL TALK THIS WAY ABOUT AVENGERS OR STAR WARS YOU KNOW THESE THUNGS ARENT REAL RIGHT. this idea that everything has to be realistic these story details are too coincidental is so this whole post is inspired by seeing a clip of some idiot skeptic youtuber reviewing glass onion and saying "what a coincidence that cassandra brand had a twin sister and left detailed journals of her life so her sister could pose as her" and "why does everyone know who benoit blanc is amateur detectives are celebrities now?" IS IT YOUR FIRST DAY ON EARTH HAVE YOU HEARD OF A GENRE OR A MOVIE BEFORE WHATWOULD THE STORY BE TO YOU IDEALLY WITHOUT THESE THINGS DO YOU KNOW A STIRY IS MADE UP TO HAVE EMOTIONAL RESONANCE TO HAVE CHARACTERS WHO HAVE TRAITS AND TO TELL A STORY D i have to stop. typing but can you imagine being someone who lives in the world like this nitpicking the existence of plot points in stories i just. unfathonable

[highoncatfood]

SHIP BINGO TIME

Gonna ask for three cuz I can't pick... teehee

Kokogami, Makoyomi, and umm Dirkuu (my friend talks to me about dirkuu a lot it seems fun)

answering these finally hiiii i went to bed and then had work today so uh yeah

kokogami - now let me explain a few things here.. i checked both 'grew on me' and the big bad 'IDCCC' cuz truthfully i couldnt care less abt it esp in canon idgaf and the 1st few times i rewatched raincode they jst frustrated me sm as a pairing. like at first it was jst me being a shini hater but even after i started to like her more i jst canntttt get myself to like them in any romantic scenerio. but i do love how ppl in the fandom portray them a lot and all the fanart is very cute so i guess wht i mean when i say it grew on me is that ive come to like it more cuz of fanon :thumbsupemoji:

makoyomi - ok so like. when i first watched raincode and saw them interact for the 1st time i was like ok yeah. i see why this is one of the biggest ships in the fandom. and normally i would ship it right away but for some reason i consciously decided to do everything in my power to not let myself ship it. i dont rememeber whyyyy?? i did that?? i think i jst thought that would be rlly funny to like. me and no one else

but anyway with each rewatch i grew to like them more + fandom influenced me. but like i still wouldnt say i ship them.. i like their dynamic but i dont care for it as any kind of romantic/whtever ship neccessairly.. its mostly jst very funny to me. i rlly like yomi having a weird complicated hate crush on makoto and having no idea how to deal with it . like it doesnt even cross his mind to rlly consider it anything possibly romantic or sexual even tho it lowkey might be. who knows. hes jst mad abt it

and i like makoto acting oblivious as shit to it on purpose jst to mess with him even further, i like makoto teasing and bugging him and jst being so fucking annoying. they both r

this tweet is exactly how im tryna be abt them but like. on purpose. idk why its liek the funniest thing ever to me

dirkuu - havent thought abt them for a while but i mean. theyre hilarious i love caliborn and i love dirk . theyre jst stupid as fuck and i love all the fanart of them its like some of my fav pieces of hs fancontent probably.. yeah not much else to say abt it lol

[tigerdrop]

I love your writing, hottest shit I ever read tbh, any cool ideas you have? About anything honestly.

ive been really on that farcille grind lately and i was tossing around some ideas with my boy @bullrunpicnicker (who is the mvp actually turning them into a real thing that u can read. instead of agonized hornyposting.)

but like im down for falin having a dragon dick too . waking up one day with a fantastical new body that you have to get accustomed to is a really appealing idea. and shes kinda operating on animal instincts.......so. you know. the urge to fuck and reproduce is a lot less inhibited. and marcille gets that killer goth outfit and looks like a fuckin babe so why wouldnt that thing slip out of her sheath when she looks at her best friend . its only natural

so like. why not smell marcilles pussy on the air and feel a strange, base hunger. and lick her open with a tongue thats longer and more dextrous than it ever used to be. seeking out new tastes and wht have you

and why not stretch her open on her new dick too. While were at it . its tapered and fleshy but its also Fucking Big and needs some , uh. Prep time. lotta stretching. lotta waiting. testing falins patience........but shes still sweet on marcille somewhere deep down. she can wait until shes told. and then hump marcille like a dog

(in my beautiful imagination you have to play pretend with me and imagine falin slightly smaller than she actually is. the whole "slowly working her girlbestfriend open" thing is critical. i think)

i have to go now. Goobye

[lordoftablecloths]

vent post i guess i dont know i just wanted to write stuff down instead of just go ing to bed and crying over it you can just scroll past it

im fine im sane im noramal im so unbleiveably cringe ,, the only person i have irl- fuck, or even online for that matter- to show the dumbass things i write is my silly little dumbass younger brother who doesn;t understand what im trying to get at and i guess its not his fault, i seriously doubt he's spent unhealthy amounts of time making various short scenerios in his head about charcters he came up with and eventually trying to give them a story and write little things about them in google docs because where else am i supposed to put this and its just ,, he doesnt know wht im trying to do and i dont know how to explain it to him because the "history" i gess behind it is so fucking complicated by now that these characters arent even the same characters as they were when i originally created them, other than some physical attributes and their names and he just knows them as the random cringe shit i made up in middle school but so many years have passed by now that these stupid fuckers whose only purpose to serve is to make me stop remembering that i exist and ive gotten too attatched to them because who else was i supposed to get attatched to when i was going through an identity crisis at the time- and, quite frankly, still fucking am- and it was so much easier to pretend i dont exist and just project my flaws and insecurities and underlying subconcsious thoughts into these charactes that no one knows about except me and oh god im just created a long ass vent post on tumblr that no one's going to read and no one understands the story behind fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck whatever ill go ahead and post this unfinished thing because no one's going to get it either way ill probably delete it later if it doesnt get buried under reblogs

dont think too much about this i just got sad because my brother was giving me a bunch of criticism on an outline of a story i was working on- which is fair, i need to take criticism- but he only knows the characters in it as their semi-formed cringe versions so i chickened out half way and now i feel bad because i was really proud of this thing for the whopping span of like one day before i decided to show it to another human person instead of letting it rot away inside of me like i usually do and now i feel bad about my writing skills

im trying so hard to just take his words with a grain of salt because this kid does not have nearly as much experience with writing as i do, but i feel like im copying too many of my inspirations (DnD, generic fantasy story about defeating evil creature, silly tropes, etc,,) which sucks because that was just like the first two pages of the outline and theres nine fucking pages and like the second half of it was what i put the most effort into and i felt like the ideas were really origianl but i could make myself let him naturally get to that part of the outline because i was starting to feel really bad and wieerd and oh god he is looking at ideas i havent ever expressed to another human person even though i am very familaiar with because i came up with them and they havebeen in my head for at least a year or two by now and have been haunting me ever since so instead of skipping ahead to the parts that were really good in my opinion but would have made no sense without context i just told him to piss off i gues s

i dont know. i feel dumb. i feel stupid. ive put so much effort into this stuff and the concept that ive been wasting my time feels like too heavy of a weight to handle. god none of this porbobably nmakes any sense ,,,,,,,,, i guess this is why i feel miserable when the fanart and shitpost memes i post get a comically larger audience and attention than the art relating to my silly goofy ocs, because these stupid fucking characters are all thats keeping me going . call me cringe, but is it still cringe if the concept that maybe i too can be around people that love me and instead of having to like me in spite of my faults love me for them keeps me from fucking killing myself is it still cringe?

if a tree falls in a forest and no one's around, does its fall even make a sound? (shit piss fuck sorry i dont remember the original quote and all i can remember is tha t one line from that one musical i dont remember what it was)

if an autistic moron that cant even talk to a cashier without having a panic attack makes a universe full of fictional characters of his own cfreation then an alternate universe, then several alternate universes, then a spin off from that original universe and etc etc but its all just on google fucking docs and no where else except deleted excerpts from a dead wattpad account, did he ever even create anything at all?

its pointless. its all so fucking pointless. its a waste of time. why do i do this at all. its so fucking pointless. it makes no fucking sense. you cant just make a story with characters in it, then make a fucking fantasy au of that universe with the same characters but with different designs and wildly different personalities and then make a whole fucking complicated lore-filled story about the fantasy au version while the original universe's story is still left mostly unfinished like forget about a first draft of the text i havent even finished the first ddraft of the outline yet buckarooooooo

okay fuck you guys thats all i want to tell you im going to go pretend to myself to try to go to sleep and then cry now

[cosmobrain00]

you mentioned you like trigun and i have a question? i’m not into trigun but i see a lot of fan art shipping vash with wolfwood, but i’ve also heard people call it a proship (which is gross obviously) is it true? i heard something about wolfwood being mentally younger than he is physically but idk since i haven’t read/seen it sorry if this is a stupid ask it has nothing to do with you i just don’t know any trigun fans

hello anon! first off love tht u came to me w this I feel like an official in the fandom now, but I digress.

anyways, here's a quick lesson of wht I kno for u, as well as how the answer varies due to the diff adaptations:

(keep in mind there has never been an official age stated for any of these, u just gotta use clues. also I dont use the term "proship" arnd here, but I get ur overall point)

for trigun max n the '98 anime, n based off of wht ive found/ heard, its gonna be safe to guess he's arnd his early to late twenties here, not rlly a chance of him being a teen at all, so there's a pointless argument right there.

here's where it gets interesting: trigun stampede.

im assuming this is where the most "discourse" comes from (n also where ur question originates from) considering the newest anime takes a huge left turn w his backstory n ovrall character, which is tht wolfwood was taken from the orphanage itself as a kid n experimented on until his physical body shed its "younger skin" so to speak, n was pushed into growing into an adult's instead.

so. yeah. easy to see how his age is the most disputed here. I have sifted thru many diff posts n speculations, n have basically come to this conclusion: no one has any fucking idea. it ranges from "he could still be 12 in an adult's body" to "he could actually be arnd 20 now", but again. p hard to decipher tht when u kinda have to get into the mental vs physical state of him also, bc how exactly do u factor in having ur body forcibly aged up while the rest of ur mind was forced to be "left behind" in a sense? did tht also speed up his mental age due to evrything he had to witness? hm.

so unfortunately my answer isnt gonna be completely satisfying bc truthfully imo, it could go either way. a few posts tht ive seen arnd have stated tht u can simply age him up if its more comfortable like the original series instead of sifting thru the nitty gritty details. u feel me?

[hazujosh]

the way that hazuki is literally such a perfect match for joshua is sooo so sickening. they're peers? smth that joshua's been lacking for? forever? joshua who has not allowed himself to connect w the humanity he's always felt connected to inside of him paired with a guy who will absolutely just initiate conversation and whatever if he feels the need to is so. mwah chefs kiss. i dont care that they have exactly (1) interaction its everything. of course it makes sense for joshua to be bitter about the events that hazuki caused but it's also. does he hate hazuki? i dont think so. despite the bitterness he feels it's more complicated than that because after all joshua almost did basically the same thing it's just. he changed his perception before it happened. In what hanekoma didn't trust in (rightfully so), hazuki did. (granted we dont really know the exact reasoning for shinjuku's cleanse but...im setting that aside for now because this isnt about ntwewy's blanks in background info) .... Joshua's growth is what makes him bitter about it but it's also what makes him receptive towards seeing the changes that hazuki could make....the ways he could connect with humanity....... and then joshua asking hazuki about his conversation with rindou? in twewy's secret ending we see how he just turns away and disengages when hanekoma tries to engage with joshua after noticing he seems down, so it feels so interesting when he starts to open up about his own feelings after hazuki expresses his confusion to him. even though joshua doesn't. really need to know about that? he doesn't even need to tell hazuki about himself either... and also in the jp text rather than saying "you need to watch where you're going" after hazuki says he was just following after joshua he says smth like "really? im still inexperienced" (take the TL w a grain of salt bc my jp is not great but the text is 本当？まだまだ未熟だね). and it's like yea i mean joshua has lied and he's been kind of strange when he talks abt emotional stuff from wht we see in twewy (it's either testing neku in his feelings and beliefs or avoiding them entirely) but im inclined to think he's genuine there? because yes it would make sense that he would agree now that his idea to erase shibuya was a bad one? that he was inexperienced then and he might still feel inexperienced even after three years because he'd probably be dealing with navigating being more of a Person post-twewy with what he learned and then you know. having to trap your best friend who proved that you shouldn't give up on yourself and give up on humanity to protect him while also having to deal with whatever the fuck is going on in shibuya right after you decided to save that shit because you let yourself love it again. AND IT'S LITERALLY RIGHT AFTER JOSHUA SAYS (in the jp text, again loose tl) that hazuki has always been sloppy in regards to the lower plane....omg. like...its not like he has to extend kindness to hazuki but. he does. probably because he understands how hazuki came to do what he did. Again theyre just. exactly what they need for each other. joshua needs a push to get on with accepting the faucets of his emotions and humanity that he's repressed by being put into such a difficult position for (presumably) a teenager and hazuki needs someone who's willing to teach him about all of that.....we could even slot them under Male Yuri. theyve fascinated me in the like 2 minutes they have together. they fulfil the same needs of water and air and foo

[goodmorningbatterycity]

Violent Rays: Yeah of course your smashing MCR together with fcking Taylo Swift, thats what BLI does, you ruin everything, you take a punk rock band and contaminate them wtih bland souless dad rock mall shit, god im so pissed i canf ufckin think straight Tickled Pink: Y'know Rays, I'm thinking that maybe you're a little too stressed about this ( ͡ಠ ʖ̯ ͡ಠ) Toxic Sunshine: Yeah I agree baby, why don't you come out back, we'll make margaritas \^o^/ Violent Rays: No its too late for that, its' too late for anyhing, you know i didnt plan on doing this today but i have to get thsi off my chest, ic ant take it anymore, i was going to debut this song on Dr Ds station tongiht but fuck it......

*turns on boombox, trap beat starts playing, Violent Rays paces around the diner with his head down and a mic in his hand*

Yo... Can I get real with you guys... Fuck Taylor Swift, she's ruining the Zones All her music makes me want to go home Repushitation, Shit it off, Look what you made me shit It's all pure ear vomit, all of it I came out here because I knew what was true But Taylor's got different ideas along with her goons The Fabulous Four agrees, they'd sing it with me But they're probably out somewhere, blowing up trees Her favorite line is 'shake shake shake it off' But i'm over here starting to cough Yeah, I'm dying because her music sucks ass I'm going to lie facedown in the grass Taylor, if you're listening, just hang up the tunes I'd rather crush my nuts in a vise than listen to you croon

*Bomb Baby sings the chorus* We're all so alone, out here in the Zones But punk makes us feel not so alone Taylor's ruining lives, but MCR saves us From 100 Dracs arriving on a bus

*pause, Violent Rays paces aroud in silence for 30 seconds then starts rapping again*

Yo... I'm not a mean guy, and I'm not cruel either I usually let people listen to whatever Music suits them, but let's be real here Taylor's music makes blood come out of my ear Shit McGraw, Our shit, Love Shitory, Shitstains on my guitar, You belong with Shit, Who's Afraid of Little Old Shit, yeah you won't get very far Music would be dead if we didn't have MCR They're punk, they're metal and Taylor Swifts albums are.... Damn I can't say it, I'd be here all day Listing what I hate about the music she plays 'Na na na na na na,' now that's the good shit And not shit in a BAD way, its the shit you can't fuck with I choose MCR, and the rest of you should too That's wht I'm here on the radio, rapping to you If you ever hear Taylor Swift's voice in a ZOne Hitch up your ballsack and go hit the road

*Bomb Baby sings the chorus* We're all so alone, out here in the Zones But punk makes us feel not so alone Taylor's ruining lives, but MCR saves us From 100 Dracs arriving on a bus

*the music stops, Violent Rays drops the mic, everyone in the diner applauds, Toxic Sunshine hugs him, Tickled Pink wipes a tear from her eye, somewhere in the distance Taylor swift feels a massive shift in the universe*

Acting like MCR is Jesus Christ lol y’all need to listen actual punk rock

[anissapierce]

Bringing up the last sw movie diminishing finn is good yes lets do tht, yes lets critici,e the white feminism of rogue one ...but neither of those criticisms being even in the orbit when talking abt the last jedi.... Bc white ppl either werent aware there was valid criticism of it ....or they are n they ignored it. N fucking stitchmediamix was the only one in a traditional mainstream publishing outlet talking abt it and they harassment they received plus family troubles has lead to them going ghost online for quite a while.

Not makes me feel fucking crazy it makes me feel gaslit (i know im not lol but the feeling) like im blowing things out of proportion after all if it was an actual issue then all of these left leaning critics of film would bring it up. Bringing up how mark hamill (fuck his zionist ass) walked back wht he said about tlj but not even touching wht john boyega said ...its bad enough tht misogynistic tools dont care abt boyega but use him as a cudgel against supposed wokeness done wrong.

But like some of these dudes even though theyre coming at it wrong almost have hit an idea. The idea being tht people of color in the sequel series don't feel fleshed out and feel more like props to build up the white helm characters specifically rey n kylo .... Shit like this gets me heated

I think a six hour video about star wars n star fandoms racism wouldn't fix me but itd make me feel less alone

[arcadequeerz]

me, seeing anything I’ve written/created ever: 

HHHwhat the fuck r u talkingabout you Dumb Piece of sh i t-

[loverboybitch]

no sorry i just need to make a dumb littel post about covid

[pespillo]

Sorry people are being fucking weirdos in your asks honey bunch. Anyway because it's my favorite little unexplored topic so feel free to speculate here about how the pre belos era boiling isles interpreted theology regarding the titan(s) and if they knew about the collector and what legends they may have about them

theres awhole lot of mystery to the thing i think wht perplexes me most are the discs, because usually a "cursed" object s not supposed to be Many of it, but we also have no idea how were they broken , what is the implication of them being broken? would it be like breaking seals? or would it be essentially trapping them forever inside if they all got broken? how many times did Collector get trapped or was it just two times? (one with the trappers n one with the titan)

could Collector be able to communicate from the inbetween? i already had a theory that maybe Belos became aware of the Collector through off chance in the inbetween dimensions since its possible there to manifest gateways through verbal summoning, implying a sort of conscience since we also hear whispers and all, can this place also be reached through some sort of ritual meditation? or would one have to be ritually bonded to Collector to manifest in it? or maybe one has to just form a sort of psychic bond with a titan? or a titan body part? that COULD explain it, since blood manifests portals! so maybe pre-belos people could do rituals with titan body parts or gathering blood to commune in the inbetween. The question would be why did they stop or why Evelyn seemed to be the only one willing to go to to the human realm that frequently, unless other witches just preferred OTHER worlds instead n the human realm was highly unpopular !

[bylertruther]

One would think Mike would be ecstatic on his first day in cali. He finally gets to see his gf and spend time with her. But no, Will was quiet and kinda moody and this has ruined the whole day. Ahahaha. When he said that during their argument, it made me laugh. how do you think Mike will react when he finds out El didn’t ask Will to do the painting?

he really said woooooow.... so you're really not gonna be obsessed with me? not only do you bring another girl's painting (which was our thing btw) to OUR reunion and have the NERVE to be hot now, but you also want to not laugh at my jokes or take my olive branch? how abt i step into traffic rn. wht if i slipped n sprained my ankle, will. then would u pay attention to me. i know that my girlfriend has been lying to me this entire time straight to my face, just got harassed by everyone in the roller rink and had that moment immortalized on tape, and ran off to cry somewhere alone, but you not paying attention to me is worse than all of that actually and tbh it's kind of unforgivable. LIKE MICHAEL PLEASE..... I KNOW U CALLED HIM ALL THE TIME AND NEVER GOT ANYTHING IN RETURN BUT STILL...... NOW IS NOT THE TIME AND I DON'T THINK WILL NOT TALKING TO U SHOULD BE UR PRIORITY IF U SUPPOSEDLY LOVE UR GIRLFRIEND MORE AND "CARE ABT [HER] SO MUCH"?! 🧐 but i digress.

honestly, i think it's going to snap his world in two. the painting on its own was not inherently romantic, but will's lies are what make it so. had he just given mike the painting and lifted his spirits, it would've been super touching but easily played off as "you're my best friend, of course i feel that way about you!" just like all of their other heart to hearts, like the crazy together one for example. but the fact that he used eleven's name is what makes it suspicious and it'll break his heart, because will lied to him. the first thing we're shown is that will can't and doesn't ever lie to mike even when it's to his advantage and even if the other party members are telling him to.

according to the script, mike knew that eleven didn't need him anymore because he saw it in her eyes. he feels this way and then will goes and fucks it all up by unknowingly giving him all these false ideas that don't apply to el at all. he isn't going to understand why will lied, especially about something that important, and then he's going to feel even worse because he was right!! and yet he listened to will anyway over both his own understanding and eleven's actions and words just because he trusts him that much.

mike tried calling will all the time despite will never calling him back. he tried to crack lighthearted jokes with will at rink-o-mania. he felt like he'd lost will because he was the one doing all the work and that's why he told him "maybe you should've reached out more, but why am i the bad guy?" (paraphrased). and still!! he doesn't let will take the blame when they make up!!! because he loves will that much!! he's the one that patches things up between them and he's the one that's been honest with will even when it was hard!! so for will to not feel like he can give him a painting despite mike literally having his room and his basement covered in his drawings as well as a binder is going to feel like such a punch to the gut in a "wow. i trust you with everything and you can't even trust me with something that used to be our thing? i thought we were best friends, a team, and yet you're lying to me?" like. the tragedy is that will thought he was doing something good for mike and eleven, and he doesn't realize that he just fucked it all up straight to hell. bc then mike is going to be like lol wow so no one really DOES need me cool cool cool love that for me love that my girlfriend AND my best friend both lied to me and felt like they couldn't be open and honest love that 🫠👍

like. it's just such a fascinating plot that can unravel any which way. he's going to be confused for sure. hurt. possibly angry, because we know he lashes out when he's overwhelmed. but he's going to be so hurt and confused. will is his best friend. his home. will never lies. so why after everything.... after everything that they've done, after everything that they've said... after how he treated eleven when she was lying.... why is he lying?

tl;dr homeboy is going to be so hurt and confused in a way he probably hasn't ever been before and it will be Glorious

[scourge-sympathiser]

dont worry abt needing to add anything i just wanna share this idea b4 i forget it but also i dont rlly know any1 who likes warriors so,,,

okay i saw a little animation on utube about fallen leaves and while i was reading up on his wiki it hit me

in outcast, after jaypaw has been having dreams about fallen n his death, n after meeting him while looking 4 the missing kits in the tunnels, fallen asks him to stay but jay declines.

what if, unhappy w/ being forced to be a medcat, and wanting to live his *own* life he accepts? and a similar thing to what happened to holly happens where the cave entrance collapses (whether fallen and jay had smth to do with it or it was just convenient, idk), n everyone thinks that jay died saving these kits. but really hes living his best life in the caves. fallen teaches him how to hunt and fight well, bc the caves are dark, 's not like you can see very well even if you weren't blind.

and jay starts having the dreams where he's jay's wing, back in the ancients time, and its a little different where instead of having a crush on halfmoon he (jay's Wing) had a crush on fallen before fallen died in the caves. and thats why jay brings up the idea to leave to the mountains. and when he ends up back in the present he realizes that he once again has a crush on fallen.

and fallen remembers, or recognizes jay as jay's wing and is like "oh... Oh!" and realizes he also, once again, has a crush. and so jay choses that as his full name. Jaywing.

jay starts walking in dreams and having visions of The Battle, and at this point its been a couple of years at this point, the whole thing w/ ashfur happened and the gathering where holly tells after killing ash happens, and jay finds out through holly's dreams, bc shes projecting her own fears, anger, and insecurities hard while she sleeps. and that really makes jay upset but then he talks w/ fallen and comes to the conclusion that it doesnt matter who his real parents were, bramble and squirrel are still his parents to him.

eventually with the battle looming on the horizon, and rock urging him to go, he leaves the caves. and returns to thunderclan. n fallen can follow him due to his powers, and at first the clan think jay is a rogue or loner, but its dove who has Never seen him before who mentions that he's blind just from observing how carful he puts his paws down that everyone freezes before going "jay???"

and oh mouse dung, hes no longer a grumpy, scrawny medcat apprentice. he's still on the shorter side but he filled out, muscle no one thought he'd have ripples beneath his coat, he's as strong as a *warrior*. and has the skills as one, too. he can hunt and fight as well as the rest of them, its almost like he isn't blind when he's actually in the zone. but he still bumps into things n trips over roots or uneaven ground.

and yeah the Battle happens and he's out there, using his starsight to fight along side fallen leaves, until the battle is won and fallen reunites with his family, and is torn between staying with jay in the caves and actually going where hes supposed to. jay tells him to go, he'll be okay, and to wait for him.

but wait, if cats can be reincarnated and have powers... why can't the tribe of endless hunting and starclan let him properly live where he left off? so hes given another chance and put back into the tunnels with a physical form, and meets jay again and joins him in thunderclan.

idk thats what i have sorry abt rambling!!

ok actually i kinda lov this? im a suckr 4 ghost romance & jay being like ok actually fuck yall........... i would perhapz move the kit thing a little further down the timeline so tht jay is a bit older tho, maybe

like the idea tht part of why fallen asked for him to stay waz a hint of fimiliarity tht just growz & one day he just like... Seez it on jayz face whn he wakez up from a dream about the ancients- or like maybe jay callz him by a nickname from timez long since passed, tht kinda thing? on one hand im like yea on the other the trope of "i like u bcuz u remind me of a dead personi loved" isnt my fav but like a little sprinkle isnt bad

interesting 2 think of wht would happen 2 hollyleaf with her escape into the cavez long since blocked off by both rockz n the truma of loosing a sibling.... like, doez she stay in the clanz? might be fun if she ended up living in the field tht crow & leaf once tried 2 leave thru, but also he awkwardly still being in thunderclan..... lov tht

n well i just Cannot care about the battle i do LOV jaywing coming out of the tunnelz just likle hai guyz whtz up :3 as if he didnt fake his own death.... also the idea of jay using his dreamwalking ability 2 just check up on his family & see how thy r like. Doing

idk about fallen coming back with a body bcuz tht seemz like more thn starclan or endless hunting could do but also it would be VERY VERY weird 4 fallen 2 come back w/ the regular method of being reborn a kit.......... pursonaly i think it would be fun for him 2 stay a ghost but no longer be attached 2 the cave system- instead just exploring & hanging out with jay who can alwayz sense his presence- other catz somtimez catch glimpsez but hez not like. very tangible most timez.... many catz think jay probably just lost it a little in the tunnelz, not tht he rly goez around like hey evry1 herez my ghost make he just talkz 2 himself, laughz at seemingly nothing, tht kinda thing

..... honest 2 god didnt mean 2 add this much im holding myself back, evn,

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Back on my gender bullshit so here’s an idea for the cbau. Trans lando.

Lance and lando were best friends as kids in Canada but lando was always different. She hated anything feminine and was a typical tomboy girl. She was made fun of a lot at school and one day lance stood up to the bullies and they became bear met mates. Then lando moves and lance never hears from her again.

Years later, he joins the law firm and there’s an it guy who looks so similar to his old best friend and after asking lando if he is related to *dead name* lando comes out to lance.

Lance is completely supportive and the friendship picks up very quickly again. Although lance is very much ‘you could’ve talked to me about it I would’ve been there for you’ he understands when lando explains that he needed a fresh start - after dealing with so much bullying for being a tomboy he couldn’t face what may come for being trans.

Tldr: essentially cbau is the same except lando is ftm (female when he leaves Canada, male when they reunite) and instead of just growing apart lando made a decision to cut ties in Canada throughout his transition as he was scared.

I absolutely adore this idea

Lando meeting Lance when she is just a kid. Thr two of them getting along like a house on fire, even if Lance's mother complains that the Norris's should be dressing Lando better. Lando normally ignores people who tell her to stop playing in the mud and coming home with scrapped knees and wearing baggy clothes and baseball caps and hockey jerseys.

Lando hated wearing dresses and having her hair long and maybe always knew she was a he. So she ignored people who told her to be more feminine and when she dresses more boyish and people bully her, she stops Lance from standing up for her and stands up for herself and people leave her alone for a little while before it gets worse again and she hides it from Lance

But then Lando disappears. One day Lance is saying goodbye to her and thinking about asking her out, and the next he comes back from a weekend at hockey camp and she's gone. There's no trace of her anywhere

And then years later, in England he hears a laugh that reminds him of hers but its deeper and more masculine and when Lance asks, Lando just shyly says that that's his dead name and he didn't think Lance would remember him. And Lance just asks for a hug and says 'I could never forget you'

After a while, when they're friendly and talk more about it, Lance says the only thing he wishes is that 'I'd gotten to meet the real you but I understand why I couldn't and why you had to leave and I'm so fucking proud of you for doing whT was right for you'

And that's exactly what Lando needed to hear because he was so terrified that Lance would hate him for disappearing

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Ok so hear me out...

It's kinda long u dont have to read

Seb: the fun dad of the group, the one that Charles, Lance and Mick come to be literal kids. Like they can only be childish around Seb cause he's so amused.

Lewis: the one they go to if they have an issue or need advice (he shares this role with seb but its predominantly him) also he's like the loving but strict father. It kinda hurts him how the Mick - Charles - Lance trio are seemingly never themselves around him but are theirselves around Seb.

Lance: the bunny (cause idk y but his teeth remind me of a bunny, but its cute) and he's like the insecure one (so much angst potential) he doesn't think he's a favourite ALL HE WANTS TO BE IS A FAVOURITE - im projecting rn this can't be healthy.

Kimi: is like the uncle that pretends like he hates being invited to family gatherings but he cares for everyone so much. Is best friends with the other Finnish grid member (Valtteri Bottas). Is almost always with his son Antonio.

Antonio: Kimi's honorary son, the only one to elicit a smile from him and follows Kimi around like a puppy, but its cute.

Fernando: TO BE DECIDED

Esteban: he's so grateful for the things he has now because he used to live in a trailer park and he's so lonely because EVERYONE (excepy Lance the canadian bunny) hates him and he just wants SOMEONE to talk to him and understand - he cries himself to sleep - again projecting. Also sidenote - he's acc so underated.

Pierre Gasly: feels betrayed by Esteban for how he distanced himself from him and no matter how much he tries he cannot hate esteban but he doesn't know what to do to fix it - is hopeless.

Yuki: idk wht to write about him as well but ngl i wanna talk about him seeing Seb as a father figure because he misses his father cause hes the youngest member in the grid.

Carlos: TO BE DECIDED

Charles: is too scared to get close to anyone cause he lost jules and anthoine and he wants to do this for them but sometimes he feels like it isn't worth it because he wants to come home to his mother and siblings because they can't lose him and his father - is conflicted and doesn't want to confide in anyone because he doesn't want to be a burden.

Mick: misses his dad, sometimes sees Seb and it hits him that this is what he could have had with his father, feels guilty for taking Seb on as a father figure despite having a father - doesnt realise that he's allowed to be happy

Valtteri: the kindest one, best friends with Kimi, doesn't think anyone likes him because he doesn't ever know what to say and he wishes it was easier for him to join conversations - projecting again.

Max: jos is a shitty father to him, his father figures are seb and lewis, he doesn't know how fucked up he is - he thinks wht his father has done to him is normal and doesn't believe he should get therapy to fix it. Internal working model (psychology).

Sergio: TO BE DECIDED

George: TO BE DECIDED

Nick: TO BE DECIDED (something to do with nutella DUHH)

Daniel: doesnt know what to do with his life, like hes never gonna win and championship and thinks he's a failure

Lando: has really bad social anxiety so can't really talk to people and makes situations awkward - hates himself because he thinks people hate him

Would u guys like a bunch of oneshots as part of an AO3 collection featuring storylines and characters like these - i have time because college is over - but the only thing that motivates me is when people give me feedback because otherwise i think theres no point - ik its selfish, but its me. So like heart?? Or reblog if u like the idea.