#i have new friends from uni
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#thinking ab my ex best friend#nothing happened...we just grew apart#she moved abroad for uni so we just haven't really been talking for a long time#we never even got to say goodbye properly bc i started uni before her and i was busy with finals when she left#i feel so guilty for not saying goodbye to her properly#i have new friends from uni#they call me their best friend and all that#but im unable to give them the title of best friend bc#it's somehow still reserved for my ex bsf#even after all this time#i just can't give up that spot yet#anyways#3am thoughts 😄👍#personal
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as of ten minutes ago we are officially Jobless™️. my sign to retire early and devote the remainder of my existence to writing toxic old man yaoi
#pennforyourthoughts#personal#someone rb this with silly tags i feel it deserves some levity#warning: novel-length tags lmfao#THEY TOLD ME TODAY MY LAST DAY IS FRIDAY? that's only two whole workdays for me HELLO??#knew it was coming bc they let my friend go two weeks ago and he had more seniority than me but jfc#at least let me ride out the contract till november. WHY. i JUST went back to uni i need money goddamn it#full disclosure tho i haven't been able to stop laughing bc so much of the surrounding circumstances are insanely funny to me#1) i was LITERALLY at a job fair yesterday and I almost considered not going bc I was so damn tired#surprisingly made some really great connections so ty universe now i have people to poke in the coming months#2) i switched from part time to ft course load at the last second and have been regretting it ever since but if im to be unemployed then#MAYBE now I can actually handle the uni workload :D#3) when my boss called me she asked how ive been and i told her i was sooo sick last week and got into a car accident#that same day omw back from uni (universal karma for skipping class for my health ig)#THE WAY SHE PAUSED ON CALL IS SO FUNNY IN RETROSPECT. was prolly thinking fuck. now i have to add to this#she literally went “omg im so sorry...anyways i have bad news”#im not even lying when i say i was GIGGLING through that whole call she was so concerned#love her bc she genuinely tried to fight for me and is the reason i wasn't let go two weeks ago but man. the timing is impeccable#also don't think i get any unemployment benefits bc i was temp contract and my situation as a whole is a bit complicated so YAY :DDD#the way i ran to my bestie to spill the tea & we're over here like 🤝 fired buddies 🤝 time to speed run job interviews while juggling uni
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I was tagged by @carcarrot (thank youuuu) and this is a new one on me so sure why not what the hell etc
I apologise for some of these horrible terrible images but I didn't cheat and had them all on hand, and actually they probably provide a more genuine portrait of me than I'd like
I tag uhhhhhhhh idk anyone ig. @fred-the-dinosaur @baddingtonbitch @gaytobymeres @basiltheratatouille @explainslowly and anyone else (no pressure obvs)
#tag meme#tag game#idek what to say but these are all in my camera roll#salmond pic is from a group chat i have with a couple of friends where we try to break the news of celebrity deaths first (and usually with#puns if we can) because we're horrible people#cher postcard pic was sent to me by my bff after she found it (i sent her the postcard from Las Vegas when i was fresh out of uni)#skibidi daniel day lewis is an involved meme that came out of a long conversation about him coming out of retirement to appear in his son's#film (and a simultaneous convo about the prospect of a skibidi toilet film and ig some meeting of the twain)#cat statue is near my place of work and i love it#sincere apologies if i ruined anyone's opinion of me
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How it feels asking people I don't know very well to hangout
How it feels to text people I want to create a friendship with
#txt#gif#i find it so hard#i know people are shyer than me but ahh#tmi but i actually don't have any friends because people from hs stabbed me in the back#but i like uni because i can actually make new friends#but i feel so awkward asking to hang or texting to talk#it feels so pathetic ahhhh#anxiety go brrr#delete later
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not me curling my laptop charger wire the way you curl band equipment cords HAHAHA god i miss it
#i really said “okay big performance in the city square let's make this work” and i did but absolute fuckery of the manager just made me...#and she also used to complain about being an opening act-- like come on that's a nationally-renowned band and we're not there yet 😭#we used to fight a lot though so ack i really should have taken that as a red flag#but i was 14 and stupid 🤷♂️#being solo way better uM i shouldn't say this yet but i got a commission today audhauagah i don't even have a portfolio#fuck guys i'm so so so nervous from big changes in life because uM god i just came from actual hell with various things working to make me#kms#but uH we're uH not too keen on that anymore atm and uH it's probably going to all fuck up after i share that i have good news in life#but yk what#let's keep challenging god#i know he hates me#but we will not be defeated we will strangle him by the tie#AHHHH help me i want to get into music again pls pls pls pls pls#anyway back to my old band manager#she was known for being a shitwad in the scene anyw but i was young and stupid as i sais#and i defended her and rationalized her behavior because “we're friends right”#i'm starting to get why my mom is wary of people i get to know#i'm tbh a fucking idiot i would never admit that elsewhere (nah i do) uM my brain is bouncing off the walls#i took a bargain with 7pm coffee and look where it got me#i was also getting up there in my 5 days of uni absences agsgshags#DOES ANYONE ACTUALLY READ THESE I KINDA HOPE NOW NO ONE DOES#IM KINDA UHHH MY CHILD THERAPIST SAID UNCONVENTIONAL#I THINK SHE MEANT FUCKING CRAZY#sorry#oh yeah i walked tf out the band after that big performance set up just for us because i couldn't keep working with that kind of environment#other bands started flocking to recruit or proxy after i was let go by my famously fucked-up ex-manager LOL#but um i have issues so i'm not among them and i think they get the message tbh#appears and disappears#that is actually my brand
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I think some of y'all (people in uni) were never 15 and read, "we accept the love we think we deserve" and sobbed while reading perks of being a wallflower and it shows
#gift giving is not a competition to some of us bestie#love is not conditional#dont make me overwhelmed by making our mutual friends bday a fucking competition#thank god her best friend also agrees and we are both her best friends so we know#but just why are people so#like this insecurity with love is so insane#people who want to see your love will see your love at the end of the day and if they don't keep being the lighthouse around please#anyway in other good news spoke to the cool batchmate i always wanted to talk more with and she was also like bro i love having convos with#you lets hangout and so we ate dinner walked and talked about history partition cultural stories my ex friend's bisexuality crisis which was#so similar to hers also takked about my cultural crisis family stories her firefly house urdu poetry her boyfriend my career pospects#so yayy i guess but so tired presentation was good prof questioned a lot cause he literally knows my source text authors its his friend in#uni and this girl said he'll take us out for drinks on last day of course so yayyyyyyy#my roomie and her bf constantly talk eh that is but i am gonna shower play my playlist till i sleep#today has been something but atleast i will have dinner with a new person tomorrow as well so yayyyy#life is just being very overwhelmed lately and i just hope people i love know that i love them and i am missing them even though#they live a floor above from me or live miles away too actually#eni life stories
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tired girl hours i’m just ranting bcos i don’t have enough time to cry
#tw rant#studying med is no joke. ik it was gonna be a commitment n that it wasnt gonna be easy n i thought i was prepared but im not#its my passion. i love what im studying and ive dedicated myself to this path but i just. its so hard n i just want to cry. everyday feels#so tiring. morning to night classes. when i get home i have to read 4 chapters MINIMUM n the books are so thick + exams almost everyday#i feel worse knowing there’s this 1 girl in my friend group that cant decide whether she likes me or not. one moment shes complimenting me#n asking where i get my outfits or my nails done or my earrings or whatever then praising me that i probably study the least out of everyone#yet still reach high student rankings but its not that im lazy im just so exhausted n its hard to have motivation... lowkey envy how my#friends study minimum 4 hours a day. we’re all tired n sleep deprived. even taking 30mins to eat makes me feel guilty. cant even watch 1 ep#of an anime bcos ill be thinking about the amount of work to do. and i have sm plans. i wanna be more active and have a healthier lifestyle#but i cant find it in me to wake up every 5am to go to the gym when i just wanna get as much sleep when im lucky to finish my studies today#i also dont see my bestest friends everyday anymore. some of us move to diff unis or some in diff majors. i just miss them so bad it hurts#and i miss the girl i used to be when i still had time and energy to indulge in my hobbies. i miss playing genshin and writing fics#just when i got back to writing and enjoyed it LOVED IT i had to go back to uni. i feel terribly lonely even when im always with people#im afraid ill completely lose grasp of the little things that make me happy bcos the weight of my responsibilities are heavier#im afraid ill be too focused on success again like i was when i was 17 and forget that its okay to relax too but idk#and i wanna meet more people make more friends have new experiences. i wanna feel alive again. and theres sm i wanna talk to or get to know#but im so afraid of people hurting me or disappointing me or people getting to know me only for the friendships to fail or we’ll dislike eac#h other. i wanna date and fall in love again and experience the romance my peers have. i wanna have someone to call my own person but the fe#ar of having someone only to lose them someday scares the hell outta me. im not ready for another heartbreak so i isolate myself and watch#people from afar. uni gives me sm freedom to do everything else and form my own identity but i dont wanna be Perceived. I wanna be heard and#seen n connect with people. but w my curreny state idt i can handle being vulnerable with others. it feels so lonely that the things i want#are out of my rrach but idt i can manage my time to meet new people and make new memories. i console myself by shopping a lot and going to#spas to relax yet i still find it hard to sleep. im afraid im wasting my time. im not as brave as i used to be. im not as efficient as i was#i get older and more tired and while i never questioned if studying med was the path i want i do question what will happen next#“is this all im ever going to be?” im good at what i do but day by day i lose sight of tje girl who knew how to laugh n smile. ik what makes#me happy but i rarely smile genuinely anymore. im so tired and want to sleep for a long time but i dont wanna fail. i dont wanna be NOT good#but it makes me cry when i know i can do many great things but i dont feel loved. people compliment me but dont approach me bcos they say im#intimidating or that im too quiet in class. i wish i could tell them i wanna join their parties too or i wanna meet their friends n hangout#but what if it doesnt work out? what if i wasted my time getting to know someone id eventually regret? what if im the disappointing one?#the days are getting shorter but it always feels like a long day. im ashamed to admit i want someone to hold me yet refuse to have anyone
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In which a group of four old friends tries to kill two members of said grup ;)
#The Technical Difficulties#Citation Needed#(the word kill is used jokingly#they certainly weren't helpful)#Tom Scott#the almost-victim no. 1#sitting with his hoodie tucked in#Chris Joel#being the real helpful friend here although probably the cause of almost-murder no. 2#Matt Gray#almost-victim no. 2#being the audio engineer of the group#Gary Brannan#happily trying to kill two of his friends#normally holding a high (now directoral) position at Uni of York archives#honestly this is one of my fav bonus videos for Citation Needed#I'd love something new from them but with Tom seemingly being pretty happy about not having to film anything#(dude really needed that break#I wonder if he went for the eclipse)#and them having no new ideas and feeling no pressure to create anything#I guess we'll wait some more#Youtube
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as someone who doesn't have many friends, i lowkey get uncomfortable when people make "she doesn't have friends" jokes and comments (not directed at me)
i'm just like *awkward laughter*
#i recently met new people in uni#seniors from my course#and they asked me who my friends were LOL#i named the 2 people i consider friends#but then i kept going because i felt like i will definitely be judged if i said i only have two friends#so i started naming people i interact with occasionally#😬
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i don’t wanna go back to uni i don’t wanna go back to uni i don’t wanna go back to uni i don’t wanna go back to uni i don’t wanna go back to uni i don’t wanna go back to uni i don’t wanna go back to uni i don’t wanna go back to uni
#new semester‘s starting tomorrow#and i‘m happy to have a routine again#and see all my uni friends every day#but GOD i‘m gonna miss my family#(i’ll literally see them almost every weekend)#but i‘m a baby#leave me alone#who am i without endless yapping session‘s w my brother#what is my purpose if i’m not reading stories to my sisters#where do i get my serotonin from if i don’t gossip with my mom over coffee every day#i‘m being dramatic i actually love being on my own like i don’t get homesick or anything#but leaving after being here for two months is always hard#university#law school#law student#uni struggles#uni things#college#college struggles#college stuff#amy talks#personal#private stuff#life
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#i am slowly starting to hate weekends#one the one hand i want to rest and enjoy free time#on the other i don't have much to do and with too much time for thinking i just circle back to Sad Thoughts#i'd be minding my own business and then look out the window and realize i'll never be happy again#and the best i can do is distract myself from it#like yeah i hate working for 13 hours straight BUT at least then i don't have time to think too much#autumn used to be a pretty fun time of the year#going back to school or uni meeting my friends again starting to learn new things#and now its just#good luck not crying every day with no sunlight its seasonal depression timeee
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[chanting through gritted teeth and trembling hands] do it scared, do it scared, do it scared
#sami rambles#i cannot make new friends without doing new things and i want to get back into my acting#so i am Going to go to these uni auditions and i am Going to try my hardest to be social and i am Going to push myself#helps that i know the president of the club from last year but like. loosely.#and i might have accidentally turned him down for a date bc i didn't realise he was asking me until two hours later and id wanted to sleep
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they should make a life where you don't have appointments, work, school and scheduled events every single day for months on end
#i just wanna spend like 2 full days rotting in bed is that too much to ask#december i'm going on a vacation with family + gf and we're trying to schedule a lunch/dinner so that we can go over the itinerery#and other stuff like my gf is diabetic so she's going to tell everyone the procedures in case of an emergency etc#and the soonest i'm available for that is oct 20th like bruh#every week day i've got classes 7:30-11:50 work 13:00-17:00 and then gym therapy or futsal practice at night#oh and sometimes the professor that i'm the student assistant (? monitor in pt) for wants me to go to her night classes#and then on weekends i've got futsal practice sat morning usually a match either saturday or sunday legal advice clinic 4x a semester#and then birthdays friend group meetups (with ppl i haven't properly seen in a WHILE so i don't wanna bail) family stuff or gf's family stu#oh and i take care of the finances of our futsal team so there's that as well#and then when i'm free i spend my time with my love (who i mostly see on either day of the weekend and sometimes for dinner on weekdays)#those are my favorite “appointments” i love spending time with her so much but even though we have quite a few staying in dates we also#pretty frequently go out to cafes restaurants parks meet up with mutual friends etc#so like... no bed rotting ever adfdsal#honestly i am not THAT busy compared to some ppl that i know#like i work from home most days of the week commute only 20 min to college am not a part of any study group etc etc#but man... that vyvense sure is working cause i do not think i would be able to do what i do now when my adhd was unmedicated#also i'm thinking of maybe getting a new internship next year cause even though i love my current one it's in public law which atm#is the field i'm thinking of getting into after school but getting into private law in brazil with only public law uni experience is#incredibly difficult. so i wanna be 100% sure i actually want public law. which means experiencing private law.#which means a private law internship#so i'm wondering how the fuck imma be able to pull that off next year#at least it pays much more than my current one! like probably double!#but honestly even with all the shit that i do and wishing i had more time for myself i've actually been so happy lately#i'm learning more at uni than i used to be able to i do pretty well at my internship i've got wonderful friends both old and new#my family is well and we get along like always i switched positions in futsal and am doing suprisingly good as a goalkeeper#and i'm in my first ever relationship. it's been almost 8 months till we made it official and it blows me away how good it's been#like we haven't faught once. disagreed on a couple things sure. but not a single fight and tbh even disagreements are very rare#idk we communicate and give each other grace and i just feel so loved. she knows me so well. i love her so so so so much.#like man just this saturday we were having an early dinner at a bakery. she stopped what she was saying and just stared at me smiling#and like i couldn't hold eye contact. cause she's so so fucking beautiful and she was looking at me with so much love and i had to look awa
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I fear I am not living the university life.
#and not even in a “i don't go to parties and i don't have friends” way#all of that is true#but i am also never on campus#it'd be four hours of commuting a. day. if i did that#i get away from skipping lectures because i am really good at learning content by myself#i'll be visiting my new university (i transferred for second year since i moved to a different province) for the first time tomorrow#only to stay for my mandatory tutorial which is only an hour long#keep in mind uni started last week and i haven't even seen the campus yet#all i do is sleep and study at home#but i honestly can't complain since this isn't too painful#yet#university#uni#college#cynic.txt
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i wish i was comfortable enough as a sapphic in my friend’s group 😔 they know that i’m a sapphic (idk how they found out, guess i’m loud🌈) but all they talk about is men and sexually-oriented topics surrounding men so i’m just sitting silent. we are 5 female friends who 2 are bi, one is queer (demisexual i think?) and i’m a bi/sapphic/lord knows. and still all they talk about are men and d!ck. God, it’s so exhausting. i’m not even comfortable enough to talk about my feelings surrounding my sexual orientation and how i’m not feeling like dating men. i’m going abroad to uni this month and i know that if i’ll be seeing someone there it’s going to be a woman. they want to come visit me in a few months and guess we will see.
#they are not homophobic but are only talking about themselves#i wanted to share#wish i had more sapphic friends irl#having lesbian friends would heal me#in my jenny from the L word era#GOD I NEED LESBIAN FRIENDS IRL#maybe i’ll meet them at my new uni#watch me come out as a lesbian in a year#lgbtq#lgbtq community#queer#sapphic#bisexual#lesbian#comphet#personal#rant post#wlw
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I wish being weird and batshit insane was socially acceptable, conforming to societal norms is killing me.
#finding new friends is hard because they wanna talk about their life or say smth about the weather when i'm foaming at the mouth about#some gays either driving fast cars or fast bikes or in insane sitcoms the average person just doesn't know exists or like wont watch#why must we talk about the weather when i can explain to you in excruciating detail why annie from community is lesbian#“hi” and he said he cloned him with the dna of a homing pigeon so if he feels a compulsion to come back- hey where are you going man#but also talking in general is hard like no that's not the response i wanted but no now you're too enthusiastic so my mind tells me ur faki#not just this stuff but this shit id what i can say rn#anyway#my finals over time to deep clean my bedroom & find a relic from my toxic codependent homoerotic teenage friendship that blew up in my face#also languages suck i can't express myself in any languages i know i should learn german i've heard they have a lot of words#kevtalks#im very close to some sort of breakdown also the jury is still out for what kind tho and it's the fucking uni entrance's fault
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