#i have like 15+ things in drafts rn

[mcytegg]

i feel like i clickbaited people ngl i posted so many yaps and analysis posts and now all i post is scs of roshambogames and call it a day @_@

[arolesbianism]

What's up gamers I'm bored

[seventh-district]

oh my god i can’t decide what to do with my time today

[exopelagic]

ohhhh my supervisor is so sick of me

[orpheusluvr]

No Space (Norton x Female Reader)

NSFW WARNING

AHHHHH I’M SO SORRY FOR NOT POSTING IN ALMOST A MONTH - writer’s block sure is awful, as I currently have 15 unfinished idv fics just sitting there untouched in my drafts and I have no idea if I’ll ever get to continue/finish them and publish them 😔 but luckily I managed to come up with something quick and fresh rn and finish it in one sitting so WOOOOOO

This is hella rushed btw, I just needed to post something ASAP 💔

Anyways this fic is basically you and your other teammates decoding the last cipher but only 3 can decode on this one and Norton basically attempts to decode too (I think you get the idea of what happens next 🙂‍↕️) also it’s summer skin norton btw cuz it’s my fav skin and I love writing about him with it yuhhhh

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Another cipher had been decoded, which meant that there was just one more left. You found a nearby cipher and started decoding on it, while pinging your teammates to let them know your location so that they can come and help you.

The hunter was nowhere to be seen, strangely enough. Perhaps Alva was still chasing Norton, you assumed.

Naib began sprinting in your direction, while Eli also ran beside him. They both began helping you decode.

“Have any of you seen Norton?” You ask.

Naib shook his head.

“Must be busy playing with his magnets.” He scoffed.

“I’ll send Brooke to find him.” Eli said.

Just as he was about to send out his owl to search for Norton, he finally came running from the corner. His blonde hair swayed with his movements, while his open shirt flew behind him.

He stopped as he observed the cipher.

“Hm…no space for me, it seems.” He said.

“Yeah, no shit. Maybe make yourself useful and go to the exit gate while we finish this.” Naib said.

Norton gave a laugh and shook his head. He glanced at you.

“Nah, I’m gonna pass.” He said, walking towards you.

You were too busy decoding to even notice that he was right behind you. That was until you felt him. Your heart stopped for a moment as you felt his skin brush against yours as his arms moved towards the cipher.

Naib coughed.

“What the hell are you doing, Nort?” He said.

You gulped as you felt something poke against you. You knew exactly what it was, but you didn’t dare bring it up.

“I’m being useful.” He gave a crooked grin.

“Dumbass, you’re making Y/N uncomfortable. Just look at her.” Naib said, looking at you.

No, you weren’t feeling uncomfortable. In fact, you were enjoying this sensation. So much that the pool in your panties was enough evidence to back that up.

You always had a thing for Norton. Both of you would sometimes flirt here and there. But you had never imagined being in a situation like this, considering that he never decided to move things further.

Maybe the extremely short skirt you were wearing had awoken something inside him.

“Oh, my bad. Sorry Y/N, am I making you uncomfortable?” Norton whispered in your ear.

You continuously shook your head, your face reddening while struggling to speak.

“See? She’s fine.” Norton looked at Naib, who glared at him.

“Pfft, whatever. The poor girl’s probably too scared to even talk.” Naib said.

Norton moved upwards, and you immediately let out a whimper, covering your mouth in embarrassment. Naib eyed you suspiciously.

“Sorry…I failed a calibration…” you said, quietly.

Was this really happening, you ask? In front of Naib and Eli, too? Why did Norton decide to do something like this, something that you longed for so desperately, during the worst moment?

But what you didn’t know was that Norton loved taking risks.

After the cipher had finally been decoded, you let out a relieving sigh. Naib and Eli began running off to the exit gate, but Norton however had refused to move off from you.

But you were glad. Because now the both of you were finally alone. Unless Alva decided to find you.

“Norton…why are you doing this?” You ask him.

“You just look so tempting, with that skirt and everything.” He said, slowly grinding against you.

You bit your lip as you felt his clothed length graze against your clothed entrance.

“Just…be quick.” You pleaded.

Norton gave a smirk, not saying a word as he slid his hands up your thigh and pulled your panties down, then removed the belt to his shorts and freed his throbbing cock.

You arched your back, giving him easier access to his goal.

“Fuck…I never knew I’d ever be able to see you in this position.” He laughed to himself.

He pushed himself all the way in, his tip kissing your sweet spot in an instant. You threw your head back and let out a loud moan, feeling blissful at this sensation.

“The other 2 must be waiting for us so we gotta…finish…quick…” you panted.

“Don’t worry, I don’t go slow.” Norton whispered in your ear. And he was right. He immediately thrusted at such a quick pace that it was hard to keep up with his movements as your body was violently being rocked back and forth against the cipher machine. He slid a hand up your shirt, caressing one of your breasts and playing with the nipple while his other hand grabbed tightly against the side of your waist.

“Ngh…you feel so good…so damn good…” Norton groaned, feeling satisfied at the way your walls hugged his cock so tightly.

You felt like you were about to reach your climax, when all of a sudden your heartbeat increased. And it wasn’t because of Norton.

“N-Nort…” you whimpered.

“Hm? Gotta cum?” He said, completely unaware of what was going on.

“H-Hunter…nearby…” you managed to say.

Norton then realised that his heart was also beating fast.

“Shit…” he said, slowly pulling out.

You both lowered yourselves, trying your best to hide. Norton protectively held you close, your head resting against his bare chest while your legs quivered, still awaiting your climax which was slowly fading away due to the fear that had taken over your pleasure.

Alva was still nowhere to be seen, and eventually your heartbeats returned to normal.

Norton gently lifted you up in his arms.

“We should continue this at the manor where it’s safer.” He said.

You nodded, but then let out a sigh. You weren’t able to hit your climax, and the feeling was making you uneasy, but at least this time you wouldn’t have any interruptions. Hopefully.

[tortoisebore]

ff author interview !! 🧚

wahhhh thank u for tag @fruityindividual 🧚✨🧚✨

How many works do you have on ao3

2 (#3 is in the drafts & i’m mustering the courage to post on anon 🧚)

What’s ur total ao3 word count

212,244

Top 5 stories by kudos

#1 is hey, sharpshooter (she’s still going insane w waves of new readers like im shocked)

#2 is the anon smut i posted forever ago lmfao

Do u reply to comments

i love responding to comments but i am so behind rn im so sorry 😭

What’s the fic you’ve written with the angstiest ending

technically it’s a wip & i dont think it’ll ever be finished or published but it was a sad little remus pov thing (typical) where he was just miserably in love w his childhood best friend for like 15 years & sirius was having a very bad time forever and ever & not able to make room for anything but surviving even tho they loved each other etc etc (i think i listened to house song like 100 times in one day & said wow. wow how can i make this even gayer and sadder)

What’s the fic you’ve written with the happiest ending

hey sharpshooter !! also the ending of the sequel is already written & it’s perhaps even happier !!

Do you write crossovers

noooo crossovers always feel very that’s-so-suite-life-of-hannah-montana to me lmfaoo i haven’t ever been able to get into one

Have you ever received hate on a fic

idk ab hate but i have received passive aggressive comments/asks ab how often i update & i have been subtweeted bc some teenagers didn’t like that i made remus a jock </3333

Do you write smut

atp almost exclusively, it’s just all being posted on anon lmfao

Have you ever had a fic stolen

no 🧚

Have you ever had a fic translated

yeth, some very nice ppl are translating hey sharpshooter into russian over on ficbook

Have you ever co-written a fic before

no </3 im so sporadic in my writing motivation that i fear i’d be a terrible co-writer & everyone else would be Frustrated With Me & then i would have to pull out all my hair & run into the forest & throw myself off a bridge etc etc

What’s your all-time favorite ship

atp i feel like it has to be wolfstar bc i’ve been solely interacting w it for like 5 years. they r so special to me

Whats a fic that you want to finish but dont think you ever will

that angsty little remus pov </3 it’s too sad to finish lmao

What are your writing strengths

i am being so very genuine when i say i have no idea. probably like conveying violently self-destructive amounts of yearning lmfaoooo

What are your writing weaknesses

my motivation isn’t consistent & when im not in a very specific headspace i cant get even a single bare-bones sentence out of my brain. also i sort of write in circles & over explain things lmfao it’s all basically just me rambling in a character’s pov

What are your thoughts on writing dialogue in other languages in a fic

i am guilty of this 😈 very very grateful for the french speaker who left a comment on hey sharpshooter like a month or two ago & said “uh hey. this doesn’t make sense <3” & saved my life lmfao

Whats a fandom/ship you haven’t written for yet but want to?

idkkkkk im so stuck on wolfstar i haven’t even thought of writing anything else. this is the only “fandom” im even a little bit into anymore & i barely interact w it outside of tumblr/ao3 jhfgfkjg

What’s your favorite fic you’ve written

has to be hey sharpshooter simply bc i cant believe i actually finished it lmfaooooo

tagging @moonheavens (sorry if u’ve already been tagged/posted 💕) & anyone else that wants to play 🧚🧚🧚🧚🧚🧚

[just-a-floofy-catt]

I crocheted a lil sweater for my nephews plush! :)

There is a whole story to this guy and i did write it all out BUT TUMBLR DIDNT SAVE MY FUCKING DRAFT

So here we go again:

Last week i was on holiday and we were in an arcade.

Now, for context, recently me and my bestie have been rewatching a bunch of childhood films and stuff together, and one of the ones we really got reinvested in was httyd. Rn were actually watching rtte together! :3

So when i saw a httyd claw machine with Toothless, the light fury and a few nightlights in it, of course my immediate natural response was

I n e e d T o o t h l e s s

I know, i know theyre rigged.

I am very aware,

... but my stupid ass still proceeded to spend £10 trying to win him

After i had sacrificed my money to the addictive shame hole that is the coin slot, my little 6 year old nephew came over and was like "i wanna try!", so i stepped aside and, frustrated, made a comment to my mom about how "I swear if he wins one now its rigged"

And guess what?

HE FUCKIN WON ONE

The universe decided to spite me and mustve found it absolutely hilarious, as this child who was barely tall enough to reach the controls walked away happily with his new dragon friend.

Safe to say, i went to bed that night very salty XD

I came back to the arcade the next night with an absolute VENGEANCE

I marched straight over to that machine and continued to throw money into the abyss

I very well couldve just bought a plush from somewhere (which was likely the much smarter thing to do) but now it was a matter of goddamn principle, and i was ready to fistfight lady luck at any second

After i wasted another solid £15, my nephew once again bounces his way over to me and asks to have a go

My exasperated, frustrated ass just tells him to go right ahead and steps aside, quite frankly on the verge of just punching through the glass and reaching in to grab the plush myself.

He puts in his coin

Moves the joystick

The claw drops

It grabs the plush

AND HE FUCKIN WINS IT

LITERALLY WHAT ARE THE ODDS 😭😭😭😭

He very excitedly got it out of the machine and then gave it to me, since he already had one, it was the one i wanted, and i spent alot of money trying to get it

And so in return for Toothless, i let him pick out some yarn and made him a sweater for his dragon XD

Heres some bonus pics of Toothless in the sweater from when i was checking the fit of it :)

[iwannascreameurekaa]

A giant list of fics in the making

Being written to POST

Junior Year

Chapter 15 and on. I'm trying to figure out to get to the end of the school year in that fic.

To Storm or Fire, They both Will Fall

Valgrace in Tartarus fic. First chapter is almost fully written. It's going to have about 40 chapters total and I want to write the whole thing out before I post anything about it so it might take a while sorry!

Where Art Thou, Emilio?

Romeo and Juliet but it's valgrace! Almost want to fully write this before I post anything so it might take even longer because I cannot for the life of me find an easily accessible and readable translation of the play :(

A fic about valgrace first kiss (not titled yet) based off a tumblr post I have been unable to find :(

Basically about valgrace trying to have their first kiss but Leo keeps burning Jason's lips 

Sequel fic to Realization, is it You? 

Qinter fic but this one is a time skip to the end of the tenth book and it's winter perspective 

Back To Life

My valgrace angst series that has two works so far and I'm working on more!

Being written but unable to post 

Use your body

I have the 4th chapter done. I am in agony that I can't post on the fic. 5th chapter is halfway done and there's supposed to be about 11/12 chapters in total and most of them are half written already. Can't promise that anything will be posted on this fic any time soon I'm trying to work it out! Again I'm very sorry.

Two solangelo one shots that go together (smut) ofc

First one is called "an apple a day keeps the doctor bent over and moaning for me" and the second one has no title but it contains one of my fav tropes which it the aphrodisiacs so yippie!! Same at use your body, I don't know when these will be posted and the first one isn't even done and the second is barely worked on anyways so...

Random stuff that might be posted if I ever get them done

Fun-Dip!

A cheesy valgrace kiss fic about Leo having a fundip flavored chapstick. Silly and unserious. It's been in my drafts since may and is barely halfway done. I have no motivation to finish or worn on it right now but I might be possessed who knows.

Will Solace on the Argo II rewrite

No title for this yet. First chapter is less than a thousands words written right now. And that's the only thing I have written too 😭😭 rough outline for it and idk if I'll ever finish it tbh. 

Fics that I need to update and am trying to update but idk what to write

I Don't Know Who You Are but I Love You 

YALL I PROMISE IM TRYING TO WRITE ANOTHER STUPID CHAPTER. I'm dying. Last time I update it was APRIL... my bad guys... um and it has reached 14,000 hits since then and I wanted to post a celebration chapter but I had no motivation. Ughhhhrhhwsiyfiwdh

Girl Alone (titled I Am Something a while ago)

I'm thinking about writing another chapter but I'm not allowed to post anything with sh in it rn and that's kinda the whole plot of girl alone so... yeah... I just don't wanna write something that I'm gonna barely enjoy writing and not even be able to enjoy posting it either it just makes no sense to me sorry 

Olympus

You bitches have been asking for another chapter of this for over a YEAR it's insane and I am grateful for it. I am currently rewriting the first three chapters cause I freaking HATE how I used to write and also like it sucked?? How do y'all enjoy this shitty writing dude I was so bad at writing smut 😭 anyways idk when they'll be updated and idk when a 4th chapter will come out but I'm always thinking about it 

The Soul I Hold

Eeehhhh I lost motivation for this. I always get little scenes in my head about what I want in this fic but I never know how to connect them so I gave up. I will probably pick this fic up again and finish it one day but these days I have ahead of me are not those days. 

When I Die, I'll Let Go

I lost motivation for this one too. I have so so many ideas for this but I have no idea how to get them into words that make sense so I'm just going to keep making playlists for it until I get the spark back 

[megastrum]

Sooo with this ProhibitedWish animatic I'm working on, rn i have most of it roughly sketched out and set up the draft frames to the music so all i gatta do is plug in the actual finished drawings as i complete them.

I'm excited cuz it'll be my first time doing an entire song (I've only ever done like, 15-20 second clips before, and even then I've only done it like, two or three times lol)

I kinda wanna show the rough draft here 🤔 buuut i also kinda wanna keep it a surprise? Idk 👀 i'm torn lol

Also, idk yet how im gunna color it. It *probably* wont be fully colored?

In the past i've done a few different methods:

1st Option: dark background with the bodies colored with various greys

2nd option: each character is filled in with 1 color specific to them

3rd option: filled in with white, grey/dark background

4th option: same as 3rd, but with specific colored "aura" for each character

5th option: I just leave it as a sketch

The only thing I know 100% is that the lines are gunna stay sketches like in the above examples lol. I am NOT doing lineart 😂 the only time I ever decide to do lineart for an animatic I ended up never finishing it despite having the entire thing sketched out lol

(Lol i just realized that the only examples i have are Monkie Kid related)

[cowboy]

journal #2

Good eve. :)

I've been in a strange way these past few days. I don't even know where to start seeing as this is seen by strangers who know nothing about my life, not even the mundane or simple things. but I'll just go into it.

This feeling I've been having of feeling like a tiger pacing in a cage has existed for years now and it flares up every once in a while. what does it feel like to let that pressure buildup go? is it possible to let it go? what would cause that pressure to burst and be freed? is this feeling eternally subconscious-to-conscious-to-subconscious-again? as in, i feel like it comes and goes but always exists. does it ever truly, truly leave? what does it mean to feel free, or cageless, anyway?

do y'all even know that feeling i'm talking about? lmao.

i have been going crazy over this crush for way too long and that's definitely adding to my feeling. i feel absolutely tied to a crush when i have one; i become addicted to the sensation of being near them and i forego so many of my desires and needs for them.

i came back home the other day to a messy room for five days in a row and only today could i clean it. i'm actually also realizing i haven't had my meds for a month now and i think that's really adding to this feeling and these actions (or... lack thereof).

anyway, i made a hinge profile this morning and i quickly realized how much i enjoy being found cute! it usually makes me feel really nervous but the separation of an app/ability to just swipe left or whatever made me feel more in control. to be clear, i hate that i enjoy it so much. i feel very vain in that sense -- i suppose it's human, but i'd like to think i don't need/want to be found attractive. oh well. i do i guess. not sure if that's something i should like... fix.

hinge both helped and did not help at all with my crush. i've been able to realize there's attractive funny interesting people out there that my crush tunnel vision was distracting me from, so i feel a lot less tethered to my crush. on the flipside, i realized so quickly that the type of person i am really truly fully attracted to at the moment doesn't exist, because it's just my crush. i just want someone exactly like him because i just like him so much. Lmaoooooooooo.

i'm also feeling stuck on this one art piece i'm making for my now-ex-but-still-bestie -- here's a pic of all the drafts i made of it:

that pic is missing one; four drafts total exist.

here's a close up of the most completed one:

plus my stupid looking goose ass. (my eye is red and irritated rn.)

it says "isn't it funny that we're here and not there?" i liked this concept for a while but now i am sick of it after drawing it three times and i feel like the message is boring to me now. i wanna draw something new, but i haven't properly set aside the time to develop any novel concept that would be appropriate as a gift for my friend.

anyway, i'll try to figure that out. what i'm more interested is -- do you feel like you get anything from this image, emotionally or intellectually? does it interest you at all whatsoever? what do you think the meaning is behind this piece, if any is notable at all? (i like it when people form opinions or theories behind the meanings of my pieces, so anything is valid 100%.)

also, would anyone be interested in purchasing one of these original drafts from me for like $10 or $15? again, i'm seeing if i might dip my toes into selling my art online so any feedback is helpful. hehe.

i'll end here. i have some more to post -- i'll be posting a little sketch comic draft of "notes on having a crush" and maybe people can find those relatable or what have you.

i hope everyone's having an excellent day. i am having a good one myself, despite that strange feeling of being pent-up and unresolved. :)

[teriwrites]

The Fatal Choice: Part 3

My Live Reactions to Reading Through My 2013 Novel

Delroy is not, in fact, gone

‘The longer it took them to realize he was gone, the less of a chance there would be of him being caught.’ literally everyone knows you’re leaving, bud

He’s saying alcohol has been forbidden… earlier he explained that alcohol was their primary beverage bc the water was unclean??

This scene of Delroy hiding in the griffin’s stable is one of only two scenes I actually had a vague memory of in this draft

The dickwad arranged to marry Raelyn (looks like that’s off btw) is actually defending her to his dad

Delroy started riding with one hand on the reins, and the griffin looked back mid-flight to level a dry look at him lmaooo

Bro the Isolates are literally set up like two days away from the capital by griffin(/horse)… that’s not really that isolated lol

Apparently this nation works on a barter system, fun!

Awwwwwwwww he pricked his finger to test the sharpness of his arrowhead (as a diabetic, I love a fingerprick moment)

(That said, I was not a diabetic when writing this and had no intentions other than testing the arrowhead lol)

‘Delroy grabbed a handkerchief and put pressure on the cut. Then he wrapped it around his finger to keep the small cut from getting infected. That was the last thing anybody needed.’ okay then maybe don’t test its sharpness on your own finger???

Raelyn, I know you’re sad your crush left and is probably going to die, but please get a grip

I say that 90% as a joke but fr this woman needs some Direction, some Reason to have her own POV

Like?? ‘There was nothing outside worth getting out of bed for. Delroy was gone already.’ Girl Please

Her father truly made zero attempts to wheedle the truth of Delroy’s whereabouts from her, she just had to say ‘I’m not his maid, dad!!!!’ and Hayden just immediately stfu

Anyways they for sure know he left now

‘Admittedly, he probably wasn’t much to look at. His face hadn’t been washed, his teeth not brushed, and he had laid in the dirt a couple times on the past day.’ okay genuinely I’m so proud of 2013 Teri’s consistency in characterization (it’s not just Delroy’s tidiness, but this is the easiest trait to demonstrate for that rn), like it’s a little heavy handed at times but that’s what it needs to be when starting out!!

Bro this guy waltzes up to the gates of the capital and only on being asked what his business is realizes he doesn’t have a cover story

“I am here to visit family,” Delroy explained, though he wasn’t at all. He was there to try and break out some prisoners, but something told him that they wouldn’t be so receptive if they knew that.’ still goofin’

I’m gonna level with you, I don��t think 15-year-old Teri really knew what bergamot smells like

You can tell I was doing research into aromatherapy (the ‘why’ will come later)

Once again, characterization: Delroy’s first act in the inn room he’s renting is to hang up all of his clothes

Ending Thoughts:

Okay!! I feel like these little wrap-ups are shorter than previous projects’, and I think that’s for a couple reasons. Firstly, I only have access to 42.5K of this WIP, so the sections are shorter. But also, we’re reaching the start of what I’m gonna call the ‘mediocre midsection’ (yes we’re not near the midsection, just bear with me). Starting with a WIP from when I was 13, there’s a lot of heavy extremes in the writing - the wildest, most entertaining nonsense, and the worst, most backwards BS. Lots of ups and downs, not much in the middle. As we push into the space where there’s less of those extremes, we find a much more present degree of simple, inoffensive mediocrity. Not too many standout highlights, lowlights are a little less heinous. Just a lot of plain spoken sentences filled with unnecessary detail for every action made in a scene. That’s not a bad thing, to be clear! I’m so proud of how much maturation I can see between 2012 and 2013. I took a huge step forwards as a writer in that year. The mediocre midsection is essential on the road towards what will hopefully be a little nicer later on. It just doesn’t make for as many entertaining over-the-top reactions.

[127tyong]

hi can you pls write a jungwoo one shot ??

enemies to fwb to lovers at a university ??

happy ending ajdhx

let it be there SMUT, fluff and angst 🤭

Lipstick

A/N: bb im in the hospital rn lol so if this feels unfinished its bc it very much so is but this thing has been in my drafts since u requested it, it was supposed to be like 10k words but im TIRED of this, so fuck it, here you go, have some smut.

Pairing: Jungwoo X Reader

Genre: Smut, Angst... fluff? for 2 seconds at the end

Warnings: non-con, jungwoo is mean, reader is meaner, loss of virginity, public(ish) sex

Word Count: 3.8k

Freshman Year of High School -15 years old

“...And, um, I just really like you! I promise I’ll be a good boyfriend!” Jungwoo shoved a bouquet of flowers at you. “Will you go out with me?” Jungwoo’s cheeks were a bright red, his friends behind him, cheering him on. 

You? Jungwoo? Not a chance. First of all, that fucking bowlcut is absolutely atrocious. Secondly, Jungwoo’s a nerd. The average engineering student. Truly, the whole nine yards. And lastly, who the hell asks someone on a date by buying her flowers? What the hell is he trying to prove? He’s got to be overcompensating for… something else.

You glanced at your friends behind you, trying to hold back your laugh, before flipping your head to Jungwoo. “You’re into me?” You laughed in Jungwoo’s face. “Sorry, but I don’t really go for guys who are packing a clit instead of a dick.” You pinched your fingers together, gesturing how small Jungwoo’s dick is. “I like dicks that are bigger than a tube of lipstick.”

You walked away with your friends, giggling at the thought of even dating Jungwoo.

And that’s how you met Jungwoo, and how he’d become the death of you.

~ Sophomore Year of High School -16 years old

“I promise I’ll be a good boyfriend!” Your friend presented you with imaginary flowers, like how Jungwoo did the year prior.

“Of course I’ll date you! I’ll love you and all 2 millimeters you have!” You gushed into her arms, laughing.

It turned out that the year after Jungwoo confessed, you and him ended up in the same homeroom. Everyone knew he confessed to you, like really, who buys a girl flowers to ask them out anymore? A few people thought you went too far, but most other people only talked about you for gossip.

Jungwoo was only focusing on his homework, trying to ignore you all with his earbuds in. 

“Hey!” Your friend ripped Jungwoo’s earbud out. “Have you ever even kissed a girl?”

“Of course he hasn’t!” You laughed at him.

“That’s not funny!” One of his friends tried to stick up for him. “It’s not like he can help it!”

You bursted out laughing. “He can’t help it! Isn’t that just admitting defeat?”

Your teacher slammed the door open and pointed at you. “My office, miss.” You, of course, got detention, but you still didn’t stop teasing Jungwoo.

Junior Year of High School -17 years old

“How the hell did he get a girlfriend before me?” You hissed, applying lipstick in the mirror in the school bathroom.

“Maybe because everyone’s scared to ask you out.” Your friend was brushing her hair next to you.

You smacked your lips together and put your lipstick away. “How? Aren’t I hot?” She smacked the hairbrush onto the sink counter. “You realize you humiliated Jungwoo when he tried to ask you out, right?”

“Yeah? So? He’s ugly anyways.” You rolled your eyes.

“Oh, come on, it really was just the haircut that was bad. Besides, it’s how you’re known now. You and him still don’t get along, and let’s be real, he did manage to pull, when you haven’t in 3 years! Everyone thinks you’re a bully!”

“Ugh!” You zipped your backpack and went to class.

That little blonde girl was sitting in your seat, next to Jungwoo, practically drooling over each other. You really didn’t see what Jungwoo saw in her. Her lipstick was not her color, and that cakey makeup did not help her pores at all. Pore-filling primer exists!

“Get out of my seat.” You stood over her, slamming your backpack on her desk.

She shrieked as if she saw a spider, jumping up in the seat. “You scared me!” She screamed.

“What the fuck is your problem!” Jungwoo stood up, holding onto her arm and hugging her.

“Class is starting.” You rolled your eyes, pulling the chair out behind Jungwoo’s girlfriend, forcing her to stand.

Jungwoo sat back down, but not without his girlfriend climbing onto his lap, hugging him, whiningly crying. 

“Jesus Christ!” You groaned, sitting down. “I slammed my backpack down! I didn’t fucking punch you!”

“Shut the fuck up!” Jungwoo yelled back at you. “Oh, so you can defend your girlfriend but can’t fight back when it’s about you?” You scoffed, folding your arms over your chest. “How pathetic.”

“Yes, because unlike you, I care about people other than myself!”

You stood up and grabbed his girlfriend by her arm, pulling her off Jungwoo’s lap. “How about you go back to your seat?” You let go of her, pushing her back. You stood over Jungwoo. “Get a fucking grip, I’m only acting nice because I actually want to get into college.”

Jungwoo’s girlfriend transferred out of your high school that week, and as much as he tried to blame you, the other students vouched for you, saying she was overreacting.

~ Senior Year of High School -18 years old

“Fucking whore.” One of Jungwoo’s friends snickered at you as you walked past him in the halls.

You grabbed him by his backpack. “You wanna repeat that?” You glared at him.

“Let him go!” Jungwoo yelled at you. 

You pushed him away from you. “Yeah? What are you gonna do about it, lipstick dick?”

“And how would you know, you fucking whore?” Jungwoo snapped back at you.

“Yeah? At least I’m getting some, unlike you! Can’t even pleasure a girl if you tried! Maybe you should learn how to find the clit instead of playing League!” At this point, your friends were pulling on your arm, trying to get you to leave.

“You, and you.” A teacher pointed at you and Jungwoo, fuming. “My office, now.”

~ After being scolded for being loud and disruptive, you and Jungwoo were left to “reconcile” alone in the office.

“This is your fault.” You scoffed. “I haven’t even teased you since sophomore year.” “And you’re only doing that so you can get into college.” He rolled his eyes at you. “And do you really think I can’t find the clit? Please, you know I fucked my girlfriend from junior year, right?” “No.” You sighed. “Do you know I’m still a virgin, right?”

Jungwoo sharply exhaled. “Yeah.”

“Come up with an insult more creative than “whore” then.” You crossed your arms in front of your chest.

Jungwoo stood up and unzipped his pants.

“What the fuck is wrong with you?” You hissed, trying to not scream.

“Well, while we’re getting it all out there…” He began to pump his cock in his hand, hardening it, precum already dripping.

He was fucking huge. It wasn’t even 2 inches, more like 12. Breathy gasps left Jungwoo’s throat, getting himself off in front of you.

“Come here.” You hissed at him. He did as you told him. “Wipe your fucking hand.” You grabbed a tissue off the desk in front of you, handing it to him. You began to lick the precum off his cock, then slipped his cock in your mouth. You moved quickly, trying to not get caught. Jungwoo’s moans let you know you were doing well, and you just kept bobbing your head on his dick, not caring about the tears running down your cheeks and the saliva dribbling down your mouth and onto your throat.

Finally, Jungwoo came down your throat, prompting you to swallow.

“You owe me.” You snarled at him as he zipped his pants up and you wiped your face. “Give me your phone number.”

“I guess I can really call you a whore now.” He sat back down next to you, laughing.

~

“You’re smart, right? I need your help applying to colleges.” You asked Jungwoo, calling him a few days later on the weekend. He hummed. “Come to my house, my parents aren’t home. I’ll text you my address.” And just like that, you were sitting on Jungwoo’s bed, on your phone, having him apply to all the same colleges he was.

“You know, usually “help” means I assist you, not I do everything for you.” Jungwoo snarled at you.

You clicked the power button on your phone, angrily tossing it to the side. “And what?” “I mean that you should be helping me, at least!” Jungwoo spun around his desk chair to look at you. “I don’t even know your address! How am I supposed to write a personal essay when I can’t be very personal!”

“Just write whatever you want!” You groaned. “It’s not that big of a deal!” “What are you even majoring in?” Jungwoo punched his desk, scaring you.

You sat on Jungwoo’s lap, trying to calm him down. “I don’t know, I’m not interested in anything!” “We go to a technical high school! You’ve been studying mechanical engineering for 4 fucking years! I’m saying you’re majoring in mechanical engineering, fucking dumb slut…”

“Fucking dumb slut?” You slid under Jungwoo’s desk, unzipping his pants. 

“You know that’s not what I meant!” Jungwoo hissed.

You rolled your eyes, Jungwoo’s dick hardening in your hands either way. “Shut up and stop pretending you invited me over when you’re home alone just to work.” You dove in, nose pressed against Jungwoo’s stomach. 

“Wait, I’m not… Fuck.” Jungwoo’s last effort to lie to himself ended. He knew he wanted you. 

Your throat sloppily sucked off Jungwoo, his hands in your hair.

“Stop.” He pulled your head off of him. “Get on my bed, at least.”

“Wait…” You crawled out from under Jungwoo’s desk. “I told you I’m a virgin, I mean…”

Jungwoo pushed you onto his bed, making you lay on your back. “You’re right, I didn’t invite you over just to help you, so don’t act surprised now. You knew I was going to fuck you, right?” Jungwoo reached under your skirt, pulling your thong to the side. “Only a whore or a girl planning on getting fucked would wear a thong under her skirt… You want me to believe you’re not a whore, so that only leaves one other option…”

A finger slid inside you, forcing a moan out of you.

“Aw, look how wet you are! Admit it, you want to fuck me!” He slipped his middle finger out of your cunt and into your mouth, making you taste yourself.

“Fine! I want you to fuck me! Is that what you wanted to hear?” You gently bit down on his finger.

“Even while begging me to fuck you, you’re still a fucking bitch.” Jungwoo’s plump lips kissed your cheek, then trailed down to your neck. His fingers went back inside you, thumb rubbing your clit whilst his fingers pumped inside you.

“Ugh, hurry up and do it.” You whined, wrapping your arms around his neck.

“You really think you can take it without even a bit of foreplay?” Jungwoo scoffed, licking his fingers. “Fine, I’ll do what you want this time, I guess I should have a sense of responsibility since I’m taking your virginity.” You felt the head of Jungwoo’s cock on your pussy lips. “I’ll put it in all at once, okay?” He quickly kissed your forehead, hands on your cheeks.

“Okay…” You closed your eyes, trying to stop yourself from getting worked up. At first, all you could feel was pain, then the feeling of being filled with Jungwoo’s warmth. 

Jungwoo looked at your tear-filled eyes, trying to gauge your pain level. “Does it hurt?” 

“You fucking asshole.” You gritted your teeth, tears falling down. “How dare you cum inside me right now!” You smacked his chest. “So mean, always so fucking mean to me…”

“Sorry, I swear I didn’t mean to, I seriously…” Jungwoo kissed your nose, letting you warm up to him.

“I hate you so much, so, so much…” Your hands pushed against his waist, digging your nails into his sides.

Jungwoo laughed into your neck, his lips trailing down your neck and landing on your shoulder. “I think I hate you more.”

You scoffed. “You say that but you’ve already came inside me… Whatever, you can move now, by the way…”

 “As you wish.” He was slow at first, but his speed rapidly quickened…

You didn’t know if he was that mad at you, years of hate and resentment building up into this moment, or if he just needed to fuck someone so badly that he was willing to do it to you, but either way, you would be lying if you said it didn’t feel good… 

His lips licking and sucking on your neck, one of his hands kneading one of your breasts, the other gripping the sheets above your head.

“Jungwoo…” You moaned out, wrapping your legs around his waist. “Slow down a little…” You felt like you were panting, tongue sticking out.

“Too cute. You know how much I hate you and you still are about to cum on my dick?” 

You wrapped your arms around his neck. “Please please please…” You looked up at him with tear filled eyes, not even having to say anything for him to know what you wanted.

“Good girl.” He bottomed out, his whole cock deep inside you, cumming again.

You pulled Jungwoo’s chest towards yours as you reached your own high, kissing his lips.

“So good…” Jungwoo pulled away. “Felt so good around my cock.”

You pushed him away, sitting up. “You need to buy me plan B.” You kissed Jungwoo’s cheek.

~

“Hi!” Jungwoo waved at you at school the next day.

“Dude, what the fuck?” One of Jungwoo’s friends slapped Jungwoo’s arm. “Since when do you talk to her?”

“Literally!” Your own friend looked at you. “What’s going on?”

You pinched your nose bridge. “Jungwoo, come here!” You grabbed Jungwoo’s arm and yanked him into the janitor’s closet.

“What’s wrong with you?” Jungwoo hissed. “Now everyone probably thinks we’re dating!”

“They started thinking that way when you waved at me! Like we’re some stupid enemies to lovers trope!” You smacked Jungwoo’s arm, pushed up against him to avoid getting your uniform dirty from the chemicals in the closet. “Listen, you can’t just talk to me during school! Pretend you still hate me or something!”

“No.” Jungwoo’s body was completely against yours now, his boner pressing against your womb. “That pill is supposed to last a day, right? So it’s okay if I cum inside you?”

The late bell rang. “Jungwoo, I have to go to class…”

“We’re already late… let’s just ditch.” Jungwoo pushed you against the door. “Good. This door locks from the inside.” Jungwoo twisted the lock. “You have to be quiet still, but at least other students won’t come in…”

Jungwoo hiked your skirt up. “You’re wearing a thong again?”

“I… I have to do my laundry…” You bit your lip, silently cursing yourself.

“You’re pathetic, you know that?” Jungwoo moved your thong over to the side.

You pushed him away from you, pressing your back against the door. “Can’t we at least wait till we get home?” “Do you not find me attractive anymore?” Jungwoo’s head fell onto your shoulder. 

“When did I ever say that? All I’m saying is that you should do this kind of stuff with a girl you actually love…” You hugged Jungwoo, your arms around his neck. 

“But I-”

Suddenly, the door unlocked. “You two?!” A teacher opened the door.

~

“So… Jungwoo started crying and you were comforting him?” You were sitting in the same office you had sucked Jungwoo off in just a few days ago. “Last week you were at each other’s throats, and this week you’re ditching class- which I might add you have nearly perfect attendance- to comfort him?”

“I guess we… suddenly grew up.” You bit your lip, hoping it would cover for you two.

The teacher sighed. “I hear you both applied for the same colleges.”

Jungwoo nodded. “Yeah.”

“And you’re both going into mechanical engineering?” You felt like the teacher was interrogating you, rather than punishing you.

“Yeah.” You replied. “Can we leave?”

“You two are lucky that it was me who caught you and not your principal!” The sentence made you roll your eyes. 

Jungwoo stood up. “I don’t care anymore, I’m leaving.” He held out his hand. “Come on.”

“Oh… sure.” You grabbed your bag and followed him out of the school.

“So, you said my place?”

And that was the start of Jungwoo’s obsession with filling up your womb…

~

Midsummer

You got a text from Jungwoo. “Come over to my place now.”

You knew that could only mean one thing… He wants to fuck you. But you would still be there in less than 30 minutes.

“Jungwoo?” You unlocked the front door with the key that he gave you when summer started. 

No response, so you slipped your shoes off and walked into Jungwoo’s bedroom.

His aura let you know how mad he was. “Get on the bed.”

You scoffed, putting your phone on his nightstand. “Come on, Jungwoo, you know that’s not how we do this… At least tell me what’s wrong-”

“Get on the bed where you belong, you fucking slut.” Jungwoo’s hand wrapped around your neck, slamming you into the wall behind you, his lips on your ear, his heavy breath the only thing you could hear.

You furiously nodded. “O-okay.”

“Good girl.” He let go of your neck.

You started undressing, taking off your skirt.

“Fucking-” Jungwoo shoved you onto the bed then took something out of his nightstand. 

The shiny metal let you know it could only be one thing… “Handcuffs?”

He handcuffed your hands together, pinning them above your head. “You look prettier like this. You’d look prettier if I could cover your mouth with duct tape.”

“Please, just talk to me…” You whispered. “Tell me why you’re mad.”

“Last night, I went on a date, and you know what I thought about?” Jungwoo glared into your eyes, quickly pulling out his cock from the band of his sweatpants and lining it up to your cunt.

“What?” You croaked out.

He thrust his whole length inside you, just like how he did the night he took your virginity. 

“You.” 

“But… why?” You felt yourself adjusting to his length, cunt getting used to the constant abuse Jungwoo led you to believe was normal.

“I fucking hate you so much, you made my life hell, and I don’t even like looking you in the eyes… but you feel so good around my dick that I can’t help but to forgive you.” Jungwoo began thrusting inside you, wet noises coming from in between your legs.

“Jungwoo, get off me.” You cried out, not really knowing how to feel about the situation.

“You’re gonna be the fucking death of me, I fucking hate you.”

“If you hate me so much, just push me away… We don’t have to do this…” Tears fell down your cheeks, not even able to wipe them with your hands restrained.

With a deep sigh, Jungwoo brushed your tears away, pulling out. “Do you want me to stop?”

“No… I still want you to cum inside me.” You sighed, letting yourself give into Jungwoo’s wishes.

He thrusted his length back inside you with a sigh. “There’s the little whore I know you as.”

“Cum inside me…” You whined, letting Jungwoo use you however he wanted.

“I fucking hate you, this is all you’re good for…” Jungwoo pulled your shirt up, exposing your breasts, biting onto your nipple.

“Cumming!” Your back arched, feeling Jungwoo’s load fill you up.

“You’re so perfect.” Jungwoo whined onto your chest. “So good. So perfect…”

~

1st day of classes -19 years old

“Jungwoo?” You saw Jungwoo walk into your first class.

“Ugh. I thought I was going to survive the school year without having to see your ugly ass everyday.” Jungwoo sat next to you, rolling his eyes.

“Do I need to remind you that I sucked your dick last night?” You scoffed at him.

“Good morning everyone! Welcome to NCIT!” The teacher’s aid spoke loudly, his voice echoing in the room.

“Fuck, I don’t wanna be here.” Jungwoo sunk onto your shoulder, his arm around your waist.

“I’ll be sending you all an assignment online for today! We’ll just be doing icebreakers for now, so get into pairs or groups of 3!”

“Me and you?” You asked Jungwoo.

“Sure.”

You logged into your laptop and looked at the assignment. “Kim Jungwoo.” You typed in his name. “Okay, when’s your birthday?”

“February 19th. Did you not know that?” Jungwoo looked at you, silently judging.

“Do you know my birthday?” You retorted, crossing your arms over your chest and looking away.

“It’s in… spring? Or fall?” Jungwoo’s smile dropped when he saw how sad you looked.

You slapped Jungwoo’s arm off you. “Wow, I’m hurt.”

“I’m joking, Jesus Christ! Your friends always made a big deal about your birthday on social media, how could I not know!”

“Good.” You intertwined your fingers with Jungwoo’s, unsure about why the statement made you so happy.

You let Jungwoo wrap his arm back around your waist, his rings digging into your skin, his silence making you feel uneasy.

“So, got any plans tonight?” You broke the silence.

“Yeah.” Jungwoo raised his head to look you in the eyes. “You.” ~ Usually, when Jungwoo says he wants to “do you”, he means he wants to fuck you. So, it was weird to be stuck sitting in Jungwoo’s dorm room at night with a sock on the door just… eating dinner with him.

“I hope you like kimchi stew. It’s the only thing I know how to make besides kimbap.” Jungwoo handed you the bowl of soup.

“...Yeah.” You felt silly sitting there with your panties soaked, sticking against your cunt as you sipped the broth. “I think this is the first time we’ve actually eaten with each other.”

Jungwoo sighed, eating. “It’s not like we’re friends. Or dating.”

“Isn’t that weird to you?” You looked up at him, slamming your spoon back into the bowl. “You took my virginity!”

“You gave it to me.” Jungwoo dropped his spoon. “I never asked you for anything. I told you I like you so many times! You’re the one who pushes me away!”

“I… fuck.” You stood up. 

“Where are you going?” Jungwoo followed you to the door. 

You ran your hands over your face. “I just… Need air. Or…”

Jungwoo wrapped his arms around your waist, forcing you into a hug. “Stay. Please.” “Why? Don’t you hate me?” You dropped your arms and rested your head on Jungwoo’s chest.

“I never, for even one second, could let myself hate you. I always liked you, and I still do…” Jungwoo’s grip around your waist tightened. 

“Do you love me?” You looked up at Jungwoo, your chin on his chest.

Jungwoo leaned down, his lips kissing yours, his hands in your hair. “Of course I do.”

“I love you too.” 

Jungwoo laughed, spinning you around to bring you into a back hug. “Can I buy you flowers?”

[koishua]

koishua's miscellaneous wip list!

say boo and pressure me into finishing these numbers <3

listed: 24/80 proper wips. had to sift through 250 drafts and veto most of them bc honestly we all know they weren't going to see the light of day!! have a suzu icon representing me rn <3 gonna be giving the other wips to the mooties who sent in for the ask game i created ages ago

№1 ) love till the sun sets | heeseung est. 15k

№2 ) from under the magnolia tree | beomgyu est. 10k — on february fourteenth, exactly five years ago, he’d gifted you a small magnolia tree he’d named after you. he’d said that he would love you for as long as the sapling you’d planted together would live. he’d even said that he would watch as it grew bigger and older with both of you taking care of it. he'd said that it would be the most beautiful thing in town. you'd believed him.

№3 ) we were beautiful | sunghoon est. 5k — you were fifteen when you’d first fallen in love with your childhood friend, seventeen when you’d called him your boyfriend, and eighteen when you lost him to life. broken apart by circumstances and necessity, everything you’d built up with him had fallen apart overnight. by the time the dawn of your nineteenth birthday had arrived, you’d no longer have the name park sunghoon present in your everyday life, only contained dearly in your memories and a journal, his name scribbled mindlessly on each and every corner of the aged pages.

№4 ) dear cupid | jake est. 15k — desperate to have his feelings of two years reciprocated, he finds a leather-bound book falling by his feet in the old campus library containing a guide on how to summon the very real and very quirky god of love and desire, cupid. in his next life, jake would come to write a book on why you should read holy contracts thoroughly before signing your name off in blood.

№5 ) man up | heeseung short fic

№6 ) ikigai | niki est 10k — lonely and trying to cope with the deeply settled rage at the world, reader stumbles upon a peculiar boy in the middle of a bridge and falls into a conversation with him where she utters eight damning words. the world consequently stops spinning and the univers halts as it is. time comes to a stand still and the only two ppl able to move happen to be her and the boy beside her. cue the next seven days of adventures in the dark streets, lit only by the streetlamps in the outskirts of tokyo.

№7 ) pocket locket | m. jaehyun short fic

№8 ) foreign exchange student!beomgyu drabble

№9 ) death is for those who stay | heeseung short fic

№10 ) the world and all her pearls | ??

№11 ) do yourself a flavour | ?? — ice cream parlour, r2l

№12 ) i blinked and suddenly i had a valentine | ??

№13 ) enha dates gone awry (in the best ways!)

№14 ) take you out | sunghoon assassin au short fic

№15 ) a conversation between the lost and unloved | yeonjun est 3k

№16 ) mothers and fathers | yeonjun est 5k — a conversation about hungry mothers and forgetful fathers with yeonjun, an unlikely friend from a country you've never been to.

№17 ) signs that enha are dating

№18 ) "why did you give me wings and want me to fall?" | ?? — hunger games-esque!au

№19 ) notes unread | sunghoon — letters you'd written for each other, unsent and unread.

№20 ) enha and your cute little secrets

№21 ) everything sucks, just kidding! | yeonjun short fic

№22 ) do not touch | jay est 5k — bnha!au, living with a quirk damning you to eternal loneliness, not being able to touch or be touched in fear of the other's demise, jay loves you from afar. he loves you without a single touch.

№23 ) i could drown myself in someone like you | gaon short fic

№24 ) dude, go to therapy | beomgyu text fic — your number neighbor just so happens to be choi beomgyu, your old nemesis from high school. it's too late when you find out about it, though, because you'd already dumped all of your emotional baggage on him. worst of all, he seemed to be concerned and not at all like the beomgyu of the past.

[straynoahide]

there's an ugly hypocritical side to haters of christianity that flares up in holidays even without them realizing that's what it is.

i'm speaking esp of progressives - it's cos they feel shielded by a sense of lack of consequence, even of reward, from the false perception of "punching up" against a majority/hegemonic thing.

i'm a very chill person and not in the mood for polemics, i'll keep a few draft prompts but rn with the holidays, whatever.but... just bc a christian is chill doesn't mean they don't notice.

we do notice what people tolerate about the mentalities/rhetoric of those who still despise, spit on us and kill us when we are not protected by democracy and freedom of religion.

christians, see, exist in every nation on earth. as a spiritual and religious holiday, Christmas to me means more today because it can be celebrated in Syria and Bethlehem. and in the Ekklesia, there are no countries. We are all brothers, and not just of the Christians alive today, but of all its souls.

the message i do want to put out today, and i think is entirely in the spirit of Christmas, is that ppl who can't even govern themselves to not be mean-spirited against what they are not, should not pretend they can improve the world until they get why they have to. this isn't meant to shame anyone. it's meant as motivation.

be better than just minding you, bc it's a world that includes you and others, so what would someone like you be doing with that political agency? you're gonna find that out after the mob you find comfort in takes power, you say? if they decide to make you individually a political agent? mhm

remember to look inwards and clean house first always. and be careful of who's around you. using you and loving you are different things.

Mark 15:11 What goes into someone’s mouth does not defile them, but what comes out of their mouth, that is what defiles them.

[siarven]

QUESTIONS FOR 15 FRIENDS

It's been ages since I got tagged in sth like this?? Thank you very much @zbdragons :DD (Also I want to see your dragon arts??) (also sorry I forgot this in my drafts for a hot second dklldk)

ARE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE?

I don't think so? My parents chose my birth name bc they liked the sound. My chosen name chose me lmao. I want to keep the masc version of my birth name around as second name, but I think it's less bc it's related to my old name and more bc I like the sound of it, and it makes Mama happy :>

WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED?

Not sure! It was probably at a fictional story? ive managed to fix my mental health enough to no longer have regular crises :') <3

DO YOU HAVE KIDS?

nope, don't ever want any either

WHAT SPORTS DO YOU PLAY/HAVE YOU PLAYED?

started out with gymnastics when i was ~6 (probably bc baby me started climbing street lights bc our trees were too smol xD), then switched to tennis due to external circumstances and stuck with it until I moved for uni. Here the distances are all much bigger so going everywhere by bike was enough daily sports (30-40km/day), but then the pandemic happened. Now i have dumbbells and a yoga mat in my room and do stretches and (body)weight things most days bc all my 'things why i need to leave the house' are 25+km away. i am ok with going 20km one way but not more than that xD

DO YOU USE SARCASM?

sometimes! depends on the people. i did it sooo much around my brother when i still lived at home, but these days i think it's gotten pretty rare

WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT PEOPLE?

vibes, i think? Are You Potentially Friend Shaped? :333

WHAT’S YOUR EYE COLOUR?

hazel/somewhere between green and brown depending on the light

SCARY MOVIES OR HAPPY ENDINGS?

happy endings... i like scary things, but i dislike most horror films. they have the wrong horror vibes xD

ANY TALENTS?

i am good at learning music by ear + play flute and piccolo very well (this is prob bc Mama taught me how to learn music at a young age). It's so nice to have One Thing I am not self conscious about, esp bc it isn't tied to money or anything. These days it comes fairly effortless and I love playing and learning new pieces, and bc my orchestra appreciates me I get to play piccolo + solo parts too. I also used to be very good at singing but i am on hrt now and idk how that's gonna develop xD

I also write stuff and draw things and I do the drawing thing professionally/plan on doing so, at least (rn it's just small things on the side and wouldn't pay the bills). But neither feels like a talent bc everyone I started out with was better at it than me when we were kids. They just stopped doing it. Idk. Success through persistence and spite... both my art and writing feel extremely average (derogatory) most of the time, but I guess we will see if i manage to succeed anyway dklldkd

WHERE WERE YOU BORN?

Hannover (Germany); moved away for uni

WHAT ARE YOUR HOBBIES?

flute/piccolo in my orchestra; going for walks with my camera; wildlife photography; hiking; learning about nature and the names of animals and plants + trivia; writing/reading fantasy books; watercolour painting; reading and watching good stories of any genre tbh; reading/watching nonfiction things on nature/history/paleontology/humanity. Wanna learn ALL

DO YOU HAVE ANY PETS?

no :( but my flatmate has a snake! his name is momo and i love him!

HOW TALL ARE YOU?

173cm

FAVOURITE SUBJECT IN SCHOOL?

history (bc of the teacher); english (the years my teacher was good); art (surpriseee /j)

DREAM JOB?

concept artist for stories with heavy (fantasy) worldbuilding; illustrator (I do that already as a freelancer but it would not pay the bills). Also I would love love love to be a published author but in my head the art and writing side of things are kinda deeply related, so both pls

tagging @ettawritesnstudies @corishadowfang @lady-redshield-writes @raiswanson @kittensartswriting @monika-in-wonderland @tundra-tiger @unfocused-overwriter @big-urchin-energy @antignocchiphase @mando-ah-damn if any of you want to (no pressure), and also anyone else who wants to, I don't remember anymore who is doing tag games xD

[bunnygirl678]

okay friends i'm drunk again (so this christmas ale i'm drinking is delicious buttttt also 9.8% alc so you know)

anyway, spotify wrapped came out which also means AO3 wrapped time

My 2024 word count was 350,356 (year is not over! I have a few more things getting published before then but as of dec 4 at 7:15 pm EST)

Top five by hits (of things published this year, including ongoing started last year)

Blood bank (no surprise)

Eevee save Green (surprised, I felt like it was a weaker story of mine)

The Graduate Assistant (i'm so sorry i felt like the ending was shit)

Corrupt (my beloved)

Pour a Little Salt, We Were Never Here (I really enjoyed this one)

I think the big statistical elephant in the room is that my reguri stories do better, which makes sense since it's a bigger fandom, but honestly my PMS/HS fics are better written.

I've had a total of 21,331 hits in 2024 (probably 20k of those are me rereading my own stuff lmao)

Blood bank is my longest fic (duh) coming in at 91k words unfinished

next is corrupt which was 69k words all written and published in 2024 (gonna be honest corrupt is my favorite fic that i've written!)

But if I were to publish the top 5 of the shit i've written this year it would go in this order (ish, idk if it's accurate i like some equally lol)

5th most loved fic: moonshine and bonfires, based on some of my own experiences bein' a sloot and also country music cause again i'm a hick

4th: scrapbooks, short sweet to the point, it was an experiment in style that I ended up loving! and it ended with Gold having lots of kids which always is a winner in my book

3rd: The Soulmate Next Door, a prequel to an ode to my soulmate but huntershipping instead of reguri, tons of fun to write, made me miss my university days, also not nearly enough soulmate fics, don't worry i have drafts but lets be honest i'm slower than mollases runnin uphill in the winter (i misspell things cause phonics + accents don't really work)

2nd: Blood money, i love this fic, no one else seems to, which is okay (not counting you here love if you decided to get on tumblr today and saw this) i'm still writing it but i abandoned it for ao3 as of rn.

1st!: corrupt, easy answer, it's such a fun fic, explores lots of tropes and ideas, plus gold gets to be a TR executive lol and you get my shitty sex scenes every few chapters lol

Honorable mentions Mama, Can You Die From A Broken Heart? texting fic a la that one meg cabot book that I got exorscied while reading at 13ish. and Serving where I showed my age and lack of understanding of currrent slang, and of course Good Boy which is a kinky fic but has plot and a dive into Gold's shitty immune system... that's not the right phrase... ummm fuck... uh not immune system uhh the thingy where you feel like your worthless but you aren't??? like during his breakdown during GSC??? the word is not immune but for the life of me i can't remember what it is, probably doesnt matter since i doubt anyone but me is reading this---- i know i lost a lot of readers when i switched from reguri to pms/hs but i'm happier writing gold and sivler than i ever was with red/green. sorry friends

it doesn't matter i like hearing myself talk or write or whatever

an interesting piece of information is that i wrote a total of 114,532 (as of today) more this year than last year butttttt i didn't start posting until July of 2023, so halfway through the year. which means i probably would have been about 471k+ had I had the same trajectory as last year. There are a few reasons for that, 1. i got a promotion at work (baby girl is D level!!) which means unfortunately you know more work 2. I am really only publishing finished work with the exception of blood bank/corrupt 3. this only counts published work, my word count in my in progress fics is huge, i've written way more this year than last just not published 4. last year i spent 14 days in the hospital with pneumonia where all i did was write and be high on cough syrup (fun fact, blood bank was created during this time i wrote the first 4 chapters while hoping i didn't die lmao), I also had significantly more hits last year, again I'm blaming that on my switch away from reguri.

I did manage to meet some amazing people this year due to my writing so i'll count it a win (hi bb ily marry me plsssss)

Lots of stuff coming in 2025, Im hoping to hit 500k in published words, hoping to finish a good portion of the drafts I have sitting waiting on editing/scenes, I'm going to explore some themes from the manga, going to publish some more cringe (hanahaki/soulmate/omega yall know i eat that shit up), going to improve my porn skills, and hopefully publish a lot for corrupt and blood bank

I have a singular (besides blood bank lol) fic for reguri, it's jazz and coffee but idk when i'll finish hoping in 2025, Gold/Silver really is one of the rare pairings where I feel idk they're on the same level as 616 stony to me, which i deleted my blog from 2012-2015 but it's special lol, I''ll be publishing some yuri (wristshipping???? i put ??? but lesbianhonest it's that or crys/sapphire in my heart) in 2025 including smuttttttt cuase licking pussy is my favorite passtime (to think i managed to stay with a guy for 7 years, honestly shows that i will ignore my own desires for years lmao

A note about blood money...

I love that fic so much, it holds a special place in my heart, more so than blood bank tbh, for now I'm leaving it as abandoned, mostly because I really haven't had any comments/interactions on it, as of right now i'm sharing the ch with my one friend who i know likes it but idk for the future. I feel weird about just killing it but i think it's too obscure for most people idk....

this is a lot of words, i'm pretty drunk but also i'm writing a PMS spotify wrapped fic??? gold is a hick who listens to country western don't @ me. Anywhosers...

I love you, thank you for reading, go eat some brussels sprouts!