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when will tumblr finally give us all polls i have such important (stupid) ones to make
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RARARRARSRSGARAGAEAGSAARARGHATRGA WHERE IS MY BEAD BOOK
#I HAVE IDEAS BUT NOWHERE TO PUT THEM#my room is such a mess i cant find SHIT#i wanna design a new hatband for my new cowboy hat but i cant do that without my bead book#wails
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Do you think the reason Solar’s Moon never warmed up to him and continued to hate him was because Solar was the embodiment of the code he tried to leave behind to be better for Sun and then ended up being a good person despite being spawned from the killcode, forming a bond with Sun and caring for Sun, which proved that it was never the code itself that was the problem and it was just that Moon refused to change? Do you?
#meblog#tsams#sams#sun and moon show#the sun and moon show#I’m so fucking insane about this episode you have no idea#it played like an actual episode rather than a continuous take#and i dont always mind the continuous takes bc I get they do an ep every day and cant put max effort into every single onr#and sometimes I like to see them improv#but like this one#this episode punched me in the fucking face and stole my wallet#im fucjing drstitute on the street now#i have nowhere to go this episode forclosed my fucking housr#god. GOD.
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im actually sobbing how do i make ocs when i dont know how to art or write good😭
#i have so many ideas and nowhere to put them#someone help#redacted audio#redacted asmr#redactedverse#meridians hyperfixations✨#redacted listener#oc
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...am I just losing my mind or did yer icon become evil? I don't remember that BeAst behind Boe
yuuuump always been behind me
#ask#anon#pazuzu's just been there since the beginning#mainly because my avatar use to be of 2D in front of the d-sides album cover. or atleast one of the covers#and i had a lot of transparent edits of 2D over that cover#but when i had Boe made. i put him over it instead and i just kinda kept it like that cause i thought the colours together were really nice#as for the blurry swirls. i just like doing simple effects in paintdotnet#i don't really imagine them as much besides the blurriness of the minds eye. like this is how you'd see the inside of my brain maybe.#or not really my brain. boes minds eye maybe.#i don't know if i have a ''lore explanation'' for pazuzu in Boe's life in limbo/hell#or specifically in relation to Boe i mean#i'd still like to actually visualize what limbo looks like. or specifically the area in limbo in which Boe lives#which is just an old manor in the middle of nowhere. with old computer crts and keyboards in the mud of his back yard#dark purplish skies with maybe blueish roaming fields with no horizon#i do have a map file of me trying to create what i imagine to be Boes house but i've only blocked out his porch#i've got a loose idea of what the layout of his house's interior is like but nothing solid honestly#the reason he lives in an old manor is due to mystery case files: ravenhearst. inspiration-wise#use to play that growing up from bigfishgames. fucking love the look of that manor and the intense mess that resides within#i think i also think about the Gorillaz' o green world phase where they had kong studio's absolutely trashed with junk and shit#did actually buy MCF Ravenhearst the other day actually. specifically for higher res ref images of rooms#played a little of it the other day but i was so tired for most of that day so i didnt play for long#anyway. thank you for the ask anon :) yeah he's always been there. pazuzu kinda just blends into the background i think
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ill just be minding my business and then remember how fucked the experience i had with cps was and just how fucked cps is in general and actively harms the children its supposed to be there to help and get so mad i dig a hole into my skin with my nails so deep it starts drawing blood
#again. if you want the lore on why i fucking hate social workers so much. there ya go.#it makes me wanna fucking throw up everytime i see people felate social workers like theyre any better than cops.#not to be a broken record or anything but truly. the only fucking thing i had a lot of the time when i was like 14 was my stupid littl#e dc hardcore mix cd and i think digging that up and revisiting it has really brought up a lot of hard emotions and memories for me#ptsd fucking sucks so bad and it sucks so bad that ive made no progress since then either#i dont know. i dont know yall.#''you have to process your trauma'' ok well thats too hard and id rather die so. guess im too weak then and im not cut out for it#this is fucking stupid anyways.#too many feelings with nowhere to put them and no idea where to even start#thats not even considering what i currently haveto deal with in the present#um i give up and i was a fucking moron for ever believing life could be better#i dont have any profound conclusion. i was just fucking stupid for ever thinking i could be happy. lol.
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Genuinely so in love with plus sized and hairy regressers rn because hi hello that is me and it's so valid. So ✨Beetlejuice✨
#i cannot stop thinking of#little! BeetleJuice#i genuinely have so many ideas and nowhere to put them bc its so late#ghostly ramblings#ahhh#Beetlejuice agere#agere Beetlejuice#beetlejuice the musical#beetlejuice the musical agere#ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh#screenstots#cw: swearing#-💀#this one is ghost bc i dont like the ghost emoji#he gives me the heebie jeebies#👻 look at him
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Was doing some thinking today and realized that one of the reasons I'm really drawn to Kieran is because he's a rare example of a character that's shy (and usually good-hearted) but still has some rougher edges to him.
I feel like all too often shy characters are shoved into being portrayed as either "smol bean who would never hurt anyone and just wants friends uwu" or "brooding loner who snaps at people to cover up the fact they don't actually know how to socialize" with not a lot of wiggle room in between. While I can and do enjoy characters that (arguably) fall into those respective categories, they're a bit reductive in the sense that things are very rarely that black and white in reality. Even the kindest people have a limit to what they can tolerate. They have bad days or respond poorly to events around them that cause them stress. And the same can be said in reverse as well—point being, people are multifaceted and don't always behave as predictably as we'd like to think.
And I think Kieran reflects that dichotomy perfectly. When we first meet him, he's meek, timid, and relies heavily on his more brash and forceful older sister to help him navigate social situations where he would otherwise lose out on something valuable because he's too afraid to come forward and ask for what he wants (like how she has to ask the player to battle him on his behalf). He's often quick to cower whenever she starts to get heated, but he's also not afraid to point out when he thinks she's wrong and sometimes even gets sassy with her himself. He's undeniably sweet and gentle and shows eagerness to make friends with the player, but he becomes much more curt when he notices we're lying to him about Ogerpon. The rest of the Teal Mask storyline shows him fluctuating even further—yelling at Carmine and the player for keeping secrets from him, punching things in fits of anger...then backpedaling and apologizing for the trouble he caused a few scenes later. Spreading the truth about Ogerpon to everyone in the village to help make her happy...then selfishly demanding a battle to see who's worthy of being her Trainer when she has already clearly chosen the player.
After being lied to and suffering repeated losses at our hands (including the Pokemon he's idolized all his life choosing us over him), he leans even more heavily into his bitter side during the Indigo Disk—being cold and ruthless to pretty much everyone around him, but at the end of the day it's primarily overcompensation for what he perceives as his own personal weakness (because he's still just a kid trying to be taken seriously). He's shown to drop the act on multiple occasions—most notably when he's caught off guard by our appearance at Blueberry Academy and at a few points during the Area Zero expedition. He antagonizes the player up until the moment of his defeat and tries to catch and use Terapagos in a last-ditch moment of desperation that ends up going horribly wrong, but after everything resolves he's quick to admit his mistakes and asks the player for forgiveness and if they can still be friends. After the epilogue he's mostly back to his old self, but still seems to get worked up when provoked (e.g. when he yells at Drayton for refusing to stop calling him "ex-Champ" in one of their League Club Room interactions).
And I think this varied and sometimes contradictory behavior is precisely why Kieran is such a cohesive and believable character—because it shows how even kind, well-meaning people may have a hidden darker side that can show itself under the right circumstances. How they might let their insecurities get the better of them. How a shy, timid kid might not have the experience to know how to deal with sudden feelings of frustration and/or jealousy that are far too strong to keep to himself, so he lashes out as a result. How despite all this he remains kind, sensitive and loving at his core and shows willingness to learn from his mistakes. And that is what makes him so compelling to me.
#mel's musings#kieran#pokemon#all this to say i now have brainrot and you all are going to suffer for it#me: *sees any pokemon boy with attitude problems* son? son boy? he my son boy? ;_;#kieran is also. oddly relatable to me in a way#in the sense that i was a neurodivergent kid whose overstimulation issues among other things weren't taken seriously#and it made me really bitter and angry at both the people who caused them & the people that didn't know how to deal with me#i lashed out a lot back then. i yelled and hit and said things i didn't mean and lied so i could stay in control#and while i still think i deserved better than the shit the adults who were responsible for me put me through#i do regret a lot of what i did. and i try to make up for it by being as patient as i can with others#ALSO. oc tangent time. kieran and denise are very similar in this regard#dena felt a lack of control w/ her dad leaving but couldn't blame him bc then she'd have nowhere to vent her anger#but she's also too young and too hurt to blame herself. so she lashes out at her mom instead (granted. jen made some poor choices too)#but after her treasure hunt and her first trip into area zero she sees things in a different light and is able to reconcile with her#and that's the exact reason she's able to forgive kieran so quickly. bc she had been through a similar thing with jen#i am filled with a whole WHIRLWIND of ideas for my au denise and this cast are a match made in HEAVEN#forest for the tree#mel plays scarvi
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note for the unaware: 100 gold coins = $1 and i have 625 so whatever i get will detract $6.25 from the total price
#lakimusings#ballot time#picky men#hehe mario#pokey man#pikmin#pokemon#poll#ghost trick#ok other information: ive played the demos for pikmin 4 and ghost trick and love both#i already have pikmin 3 but on wii u#and technically i dont have to buy violet bc i can just borrow it from my local library#thats what i did this summer and was able to keep it from june-august and nearly completed everything#so i feel like getting violet isnt the best idea when i did most of the 3 storylines anyway#i have never owned 3d world ever#ive only played it at other peoples houses#and i borrowed tok somewhere else but basically got through the opening thing and thats it#mostly torn between ghost trick and pikmin tho but remembered i dont own any of the other games so put them up for voting#i have no interest in getting totk im nowhere near close to finishing botw#whatever i do end up getting it’ll be like an early birthday gift to myself ig
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Cold take incoming
absolute zero, liquid helium, Dry-ice, Frostburn take here, but im so disappointed that Prowlers weren't in Monster Hunter Rise. like, how could you bring back the Palico Ranch, the entire framework for giving Palicos specific moves that require training, NEW MOVES AND the ability to have two in your party AND the Palamutes. but absolutely refuse to bring back Prowlers it would have been so silly and cool.
i fail to understand why to tease me with many funny little cats in the game but REFUSE to let me play as them. i am stuck as the Non funny absolutely Negative silly human character. Can the Human character pull out pom-poms and start dancing on command? Can they get in a little funny tank? NO, NO TO BOTH!
Don't get me wrong, I like Rise, hell I love rise outside of the Stampede missions, it takes the stuff people like from World and gave me MORE of it. but COME ON! It would have been cool it would have been SO COOL. And i highly doubt that they'll ever even come back in later games since that RIGHT THERE was like. THE chance to bring them back casually.
At minimum Palicos still exist so I cant be too mad, At least I can live vicariously through watching the cats do the funny silly little moves with their boomerangs. The Gadgets in 'World' are genuinely just.. good. yeah its not playable Palicos on the same level as your average hunter. but again, its something better than nothing. TLDR: There's basically no chance that Prowlers are ever going to be in a new game if they refused to add the mode while adding the supporting framework. And i am pissy because of it.
#monster hunter#Monster Hunter Rise#mhrise#Prowler Mode#Palico#Im aware that I could just play Generations Ultimate and shut my mouth. but still it feels like such a missed opportunity.#I already have it both on my switch and DoubleCross 3DS#i just feel that the idea is good enough to be put in the main games instead of just being completely left to ONE game and nowhere else.#(also they got nerfed to hell and back in Gen Ultimate so that fucking sucks)#Obviously they'd need a huge rework with various balancing to keep them relevant and not just..there.
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#talking time! i have had Such a week#i dont wanna get too deep into it rn but man the shit has just not stopped happening.#been oscillating wildly between almost literally paralyzing panic/dread and totally normal feeling fine???#i didn't actually know that if im anxious enough i start having to do everything at about 25% speed but now i do and its kinda wild#but im fine. but also out of nowhere i need to sit down and put my feet up and be left alone. but im very functional actually#id like it to stop now please i think im gonna get dizzy#but now i have to think of something to do about the situation. and the solutions are. well#1. i feel like it would be easier for them n i owe them that but god i dont want to and for some reason they dont seem to want me to either#2. untenable i dont think it would be a good idea might actually be harmful but its whatll happen if i do nothing#or 3. possibly a good solution but so scary and so so so fuckupable and also involves asking a favor which i absolutely hate doing :/#im just so. im so? world upside down and i think i might be having actual ptsd about it. crazy times. now i have to go eat i haven't yet#complaining (tm)#delete later#maybe
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Absolutely wild to me that some human guy was just messing around with experimental medicine and invented what is essentially a vampiric blood disease & that’s how we have Muzan! 👀
#don’t flay me for this; but I’m not sure what I was expecting for the demon backstory but it certainly wasn’t that??#a guy just messing around with medicine because some dude had a life threatening disease#and then somehow that turned into occult abilities out of nowhere#it almost feels anti-climactic??? but I still like it!#don’t ask what I would change because I have no idea it just really caught me off guard that it was something like that#that demons are basically a vampiric blood mutation of a guy giving you his condition#still not sure why Muzan is petty about doctors not having a cure??? like bro they’re trying their best and the technology isn’t that good#yet that long ago like bro please that’s not a reason to hate all of humanity and put that on them#demon slayer spoilers#kimetsu no yaiba#demon slayer anime#demon slayer#muzan demon slayer#demon slayer muzan#mine#OP
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What if I just started journaling but instead of journaling, it’s fanfiction again
I feel like that counts
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can someone tell me what Tolkien had against the letter j
#I don’t think it’s ever used in his languages? Haven’t come across a quenyan or sindarin word that uses j#In other news completely sympathise with his affinity for iambic tetrametric rhyming couplets they are also my go to#(Discovered an old file of mine that descended from prose to the aforementioned; no idea what it was about but still)#Anyway I genuinely don’t think the letter j is that bad?#Maybe he really didn’t like his prenomen#Anyway I am clearly thinking of important things#Tolkien#jrr tolkien#hatred of the letter j#Is there a phobia for that#Jotaphobia#Such a hated letter it doesn’t have a Greek root because there is no Greek equivalent#This whole consonant that Greeks deleted and replaced with another ‘i’#God get back to the tags Alexis really abusing this function right now#Genuinely I hope you appreciate my tags I put a lot of effort into them /j#Wouldn’t be able to tag that without the letter j#Guys help I’m going nowhere good
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also last night as i was sobbing on and off about my relationship with my mother and the general idea of me being doomed i thought that i could print out flyers asking people to form a skramz band. and they would go like hi i dont know how to sing but i can scream and i have a lot to say can we do this? like i genuinely thought it could work
#we have so many skramz bands in italy but none of them are female lead i think we could make it work. only i live in bumfuck nowhere and#i wouldnt know where to put them up but its an idea. cause its either that or the misery so!!#t
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Ok yeah I’m a little obsessed with them
#keese draws#oxygen not included#jackie stern#olivia broussard#I’m experiencing joy and whimsy allow me to be cringe for a time#anyways ferret jackie snuggling with her tail is my favorite image now#and olivia eating pecha berry is my second favorite look at her#if I’m the only one making fanart of these two I must train myself to go insane over my own art it’s for my own survival#even if I don’t have the motivation to make a full drawing rn#plus it’s good practice for me to get better at sketching sketching is usually big biggest roadblock to making the pieces I wanna make#anyways I was nowhere near consistent with sizes here but I like to imagine that olivia is significantly smaller than jackie#jackie is very large by furret standards and olivia is very small by bibarel standards#again didn’t draw that well here since I was being lazy with jackie but just imagine I did draw it well#honestly it’s going to be a miracle if I ever get around to designing anyone else in this au I have favorites#plus some of the ideas I have are going to be. annoying to excecute to put it mildly#it’s my own fault no one is forcing me to make ada an aegislash but I’m going to complain abt it anyways#although tbh liam as a panpour is probably going to be harder for me since at least I have a silhouette in my head for ada#and then there’s yanma ari and kabuto hassan who are deceptively easy sounding#as in my gut says oh yeah that’s easy but my brain says oh this is going to be hell#otto as flaaffy is another one that Should be easy but I know it’ll be hell since I have no ideas for their shapes#and I’m never drawing mi-ma since for some ungodly reason my brain decided to cling to making her metagross#and then my only other idea as of now is galvantula ellie but I’m not set in stone on that one#honestly if anyone has suggestions for the other scientists feel free to shoot them at me#or just wants to share what they’d make any of them even if it’s the guys I’ve already decided on I’m still not set on some of them and#it’s fun hearing other ppls ideas#real sad thing for me is that this is probably going to be pmd au number 2000 without any good zorua candidates 😔#nails comes close but the shapes man the shapes don’t call to me#also color pallet would be hell I’m sorry bestie but your hair is such an ugly color#ohhhh wait what if I made them a trubbish…. that could work honestly#I’ll also totally need to make someone a vanilite as the worlds number one vanilite defender
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