#i have been keeping a journal for 41 years

[ub-sessed]

Bujo for spoonies?

Punk bujo?

I'm an effort to put my life back together and recover from a major illness and massive emotional losses etc., I've started using some of the techniques I have seen in bullet journalling.

The problem with all the bujo ideas I see on Pinterest etc. is that they seem to put way too much emphasis on the aesthetic aspect of it. Like I get if people find the artistic side of bullet journalling rewarding, but I have limited manual dexterity and a tremor, so my pages are never going to be pretty. And I have limited energy and time, so I just can't put that much time and energy into creating something pretty. Also, all those flourishes and stuff take up a lot of space that I could be using for practical content! My tremor keeps me from being able to write small or neatly, so I need a lot of room. Like, I want my pages to be pleasing to the eye, but that's for usability reasons.

I also am really turned off my the obsession with productivity that I see in a lot of online bujo. It all seems to be about achieving more! Pushing yourself harder! Meeting goals! All these trackers and stuff seem to be designed to set up expectations for you to live up to. This is the exact opposite of what I'm striving for. I'm trying to learn to accept my limitations, stop pushing myself so hard, value myself even if I don't fill in all the little boxes

So I'm wondering, is there a spoonie bujo community? Like, bujo that recognizes that we don't all have the capacity to make our journals look like Live Laugh Love decals? That we don't all have the time/energy/motivation to fill in a load of trackers every day? Bujo that is badass instead of beautiful? Punk bujo?

[curryfury13]

KHOC Week Day 6 - Journal

This has been a prompt for @khoc-week that I've been so excited about. Hinata keeps journals of her adventures as a way to keep track of her memories. She's forgotten large chunks of her past before and wants to make sure that can never happen again.

Her journals, however, are a bit different from a normal diary. She writes them like a story and also draws pictures in them to show where she is. She's not an incredibly gifted artist, but learned a few things from her time with Namine.

This is an excerpt of her journal entry during a short stay on Montressor. In Chapter 41 of "The Forgotten Traveler", Hinata and her team find themselves back on Montressor in search of information on Sam's dad. It leads them back to the Benbow, where Sam's mom holds the missing piece.

The actual chapter was written from Sam's point of view, but this journal entry is Hinata's take on it all. I'll post the entire entry below:

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The Benbo Inn was filled with warmth and life. Sarah Hawkins always did have a way of making people feel welcome. She kept our booth open. I remember sitting there after my shift, or whenever Sam and James would come during my work day and convince me to take a break. Tonight though, it lacked the usual excitement it used to.

While the rest of the inn bustled and chatted, we were there for something different. Sam needed to talk with her mom. It wasn't going to be easy and it made me queasy to think about. Jenna was someone I couldn't figure out. Her eyes showed a vast emptiness, yet I could sense something deeper. It made me sad for her. Though I could understand the anger Sam held towards her. Two years of isolation… What could that do to someone? I went crazy during my month alone on Treasure Planet. Well, mostly alone.

As Ben and I took our seats, Sam went to her mom. Her words were short and terse, telling her they needed to talk after closing time, then she came back to the booth with us. I wish I could have said something to help. Part of me wished I could have taken care of the entire thing for her. But that wouldn't help anything. It was something she needed to face on her own.

Knowing that, I asked if she wanted us there during the discussion, which she said yes to. All that remained was for us to eat dinner and wait. But even with the great food from Sarah, I didn't have much of an appetite. Sam didn't seem to either. While Ben kept the conversation going, mostly with himself. I'm glad he was there.

It was agonizing to wait. I kept drumming my fingers against the table and I'm pretty sure my leg wouldn't stop shaking. Then closing time finally came. I helped Jenna and Sarah clean up. It was just like I was working there again. But then it was time to talk.

Jenna brought over a chair and carefully folded her apron over the back of it before she sat down. She sat on the edge, her back straight. It was like she was trying to seem stronger than she felt. Sam brought out a locket. It looked similar to mine but was made from a bluish metal. I didn't recognize the engraving on top, not that it entirely matters. Jenna seemed to though. I noticed her shifting in her seat at the sight of it. Did she know what was inside it?

Sam asked if she'd seen the vision and Jenna just nodded. Not a word came out of her. Sam continued to pry and Jenna's entire demeanor shifted. Her posture slumped and that distant glaze came back over her eyes. There was more to this. Even with the possibility of getting Jarith back, she didn't react. It only made her retreat further back into herself. What was really going on?

There was something deeper. Something even Sam didn't seem to understand and realize. The raw pain between them was palpable. It didn't take long for Sam to lose her temper. She slammed her hands against the table, demanding answers. Jenna begged her not to look into this and got up from her seat to leave.

I couldn't sit by anymore and got out of my seat, while Lupe took care of calming Sam down. Jenna could hardly stand. She leaned against the tables for support as she walked away. I moved to stand in front of her and all I saw was a broken woman. Everything she did… she abandoned her children when they needed her most, ignored them when they pleaded for help and even for something as simple as love, and locked herself away for nearly two years. Why didn't I share Sam's resentment towards her? There had to be more to it. More that we didn't understand about Jenna.

All I had to say to Jenna was acknowledge she was trying to protect Sam. She broke down. Sam was all she had left.

Sam cried that if that was the case, why did she never care?

It was a valid question. One Jenna didn't have an answer to. Whatever is going on with her, maybe Jarith will have the answer. We have to find him.

Lupe and I calmed Jenna down enough to let Sam back in for another chance to talk. We promised her that we'd get him back… Maybe that was a foolish thing to promise, but it seemed like the only choice at the time. I know I'll do everything in my power to do it. We all will.

Sam tried again. She knelt in front of Jenna and offered the locket once more. She pleaded softly, begging for any information about her dad. And Jenna did… she told us the name Glee Anselm. That's where we'll find Sam's dad.

We have quite the journey ahead of us.

[donttalkaboutmemes]

Atlantis: The Lost Empire (2001) Sentence Meme

Under the cut you will find 180+ sentences from Atlantis: The Lost Empire to use for your enjoyment!    

1.      “You fool! You’ve destroyed us all!”

2.      “The wave is gaining! We have to warn Atlantis!”

3.      “Good afternoon, gentlemen. First off, I’d like to thank this board for taking the time to hear my proposal.”

4.      “We’ve all heard of the legend of Atlantis, a continent somewhere in the mid-Atlantic that was home to an advance civilization possessing technology far beyond our own.”

5.      “Some of you may ask, why Atlantis? It’s just a myth, isn’t it? Pure fantasy?” Well, that is where you’d be wrong.”

6.      “Numerous ancient cultures all over the globe agree that Atlantis possessed a power source of some kind, more powerful than steam. Than coal.”

7.      “I propose that we find Atlantis, find that power source, and bring it back to the surface.”

8.      “This is a page from an illuminated text that describes a book called the Shepher’s Journal, said to have been a first-hand account of Atlantis and its exact whereabouts.”

9.      “Uh, would you gentlemen please excuse me for a moment?”

10.   “Showtime. Well, this is it. I am finally getting out of this dungeons.”

11.   “If I ever heard the word Atlantis again, I’ll step in front of a bus!”

12.   “This museum funds scientific expeditions based on facts, not legends and folklore.”

13.   “I really hoped it wouldn’t come to this, but this is a letter of resignation! If you reject my proposal, I’ll quit.”

14.   “You have a lot of potential. Don’t throw it all away chasing fairy tales.”

15.   “I can prove Atlantis exists!”

16.   “You want to go on an expedition? Here. Take a trolley to the Potomac and jump in! Maybe the cold water will clear your head.”

17.   “Who are you? How did you get in here?”

18.   “I’m acting on behalf of my employer, who has a most intriguing proposition for you. Are you interested?”

19.   “You will stand unless asked to be seated. Keep your sentences short and to the point. Are we clear?”

20.   “Relax. He doesn’t bite. Often.”

21.   “He brought that package to me years ago. He said if anything were to happen to him, I should give it to you when you were ready. Whatever that means.”

22.   “This journal is the key to finding the lost continent of Atlantis!”

23.   “Atlantis? Ha! I wasn’t born yesterday.”

24.   “I’ve spent my whole life studying dead languages. It’s not gibberish to me.”

25.   “My grandfather would have known if this were a fake. I would know. I will stake everything I own, everything that I believe in, that this is genuine.”

26.   “I’ll show them! I will make them believe!”

27.   “Forget the rowboat, son. We’ll travel in style.”

28.   “For years your granddad bent my ear with stories about that old book. I didn’t buy it for a minute.”

29.   “Your grandpa was a great man. You probably don’t realize how great.”

30.   “He died a broken man. If I could bring back just one shred of proof, that’d be enough for me.”

31.   “You know, in order to do what you’re proposing, you’re gonna need a crew.”

32.   “All we need now is an expert in gibberish.”

33.   “You can build on the foundation your grandfather left you, or you can go back to your boiler room.”

34.   “Our lives are remembered by the gifts we leave our children.”

35.   “Carrots. Why is there always carrots? I didn’t even eat carrots.”

36.   “Excuse me? I need to…uh…report in?”

37.   “Blondie, I got a bone to pick with you.”

38.   “You done stuffed my wagon full to bustin’ with nonessentials. Look at all this! Cinnamon, oregano, cilantro. What in the cockadoodle is cilantro?”

39.   “I got your four basic food groups! Beans, bacon, whiskey, and lard!”

40.   “All right, cowboy. Pack it up and move it out.”

41.   “Hey, junior. If you’re looking for the pony rides, they’re back there.”

42.   “Boy, when you settle a bet, you settle a bet.”

43.   “Your granddad always believed you couldn’t put a price on the pursuit of knowledge.”

44.   “Make us proud, boy!”

45.   “You ask too many questions. Who are you? Who sent you? Speak up!”

46.   “Do not be such a crybaby. Hold still.”

47.   “This is an outrage! You must leave at once!”

48.   “Now what have I told you about playing nice with the other kids?”

49.   “Get back! I got soap and I’m not afraid to use it!”

50.   “Back, foul creature! Back to the pit from which you came!”

51.   “Nice, isn’t it? The catalogue says that this little beauty can saw through a femur in 28 seconds. I’m bettin’ I can cut that time in half.”

52.   “How about some slides? The first slide is a depiction of a creature. A creature so frightening that sailors were said to be driven mad by the mere sight of it.”

53.   “Geez, I used to take lunch money from guys like this.”

54.   “This is an illustration of the Leviathan, the creature guarding the entrance to Atlantis.”

55.   “With something like that, I would have white wine.”

56.   “It’s a mythical sea serpent. He’s described in the book of Job. The Bible says out of his mouth go burning lights, sparks of fire shoot out.”

57.   “Do you want to do my job? Be my guest.”

58.   “We took a big hit down here, and we’re taking on water fast! I don’t wanna be around when it hits the boilers!”

59.   “You heard the lady! Let’s move!”

60.   “He took his suitcase? Honey, I don’t think he’s coming back.”

61.   “Seven hours ago we started this expedition with two hundred of the finest men and women I’ve ever known. We’re all that’s left.”

62.   “I won’t sugar-coat it, gentlemen. We have a crisis on our hands.”

63.   “We’ve been up this particular creek before and we’ve always come through, paddle or no paddle. I see no reason to change that policy now.”

64.   “Looks like all our chances for survival rest with you. You and that little book.”

65.   “Will you look at the size of this? It’s gotta be half a mile high, at least. It must have taken hundred, no, thousands of years to carve this thing.”

66.   “Two for flinching.”

67.   “That thing is going to keep me up all night. I know it.”

68.   “There you go. Put some meat on them bones.”

69.   “You’re so skinny if you turned sideways and stuck out your tongue, you’d look like a zipper.”

70.   “You know, we’ve been pretty tough on the kid. What do you say we cut him some slack?”

71.   “Don’t you ever close that book?”

72.   “In this passage here, the shepherd seems to be leading up to something. He calls it the Heart of Atlantis. It could be the power source legends refer to.”

73.   “Sometimes I get a little carried away, but hey you know, that’s what this is all about. I mean, discovery, teamwork, adventure. Unless, maybe you’re just in it for the money.”

74.   “I guess I’m still a little rusty at this. I haven’t gone camping since…well…the last time my grandpa took me.”

75.   “I never got to meet your grandfather. What was he like?”

76.   “No offense, but how does a teenager become the chief mechanic of a multi-million dollar expedition?”

77.   “I took this job when my dad retired, but the funny thing was he always wanted sons, right? One to run his machine shop and the other to be middleweight boxing champion. He got my sister and me instead.”

78.   “It was like a sign from God. I found myself in that boom.”

79.   “Trust me on this, you don’t wanna know. Don’t tell him. You shouldn’t have told me, but you did, and now I’m telling you, you don’t wanna know.”

80.   “All right, who’s not dead? Sound off.”

81.   “Who are you strangers and where did you come from?”

82.   “Your manner of speech is strange to me.”

83.   “Bout time someone hit him. I’m just sorry it wasn’t me.”

84.   “How do they know all these languages?”

85.   “Maybe English is in there somewhere.”

86.   “We are explorers from the surface world. We come in peace.”

87.   “Welcome to the city of Atlantis.”

88.   “There were not supposed to be people down here. This changes everything.”

89.   “You know the law. No outsiders may see the city and live.”

90.   “Your majesty? On behalf of my crew, may I say it is an honor to be welcomed to your city.”

91.   “You presume much to think you are welcome here.”

92.   “I know what you seek and you will not find it here. Your journey has been in vain.”

93.   “Some obstacles cannot be removed with a mere show of force.”

94.   “Return to your people. You must leave Atlantis at once.”

95.   “May I respectfully request that we stay one night, sir? That would give us time to rest, resupply, and be ready to travel by morning.”

96.   “Your heart has softened. 1,000 years ago you would have slain them on sight.”

97.   “1,000 years ago the streets were lit and our people did not have to scavenge for food at the edge of a crumbling city!”

98.   “We were once a great people. Now we live in ruins. The kings of our past would week if they could see how far we have fallen.”

99.   “If these outsiders can unlock the secrets of our past, perhaps we can save our future.”

100. “What they have to teach us we have already learned.”

101.   “Our way of life is dying.”

102.   “Our way of life is preserved. When you take the throne, you will understand.”

103.    “The king and his daughter don’t exactly see eye to eye. She seems to like us okay, but the king…I don’t know. I think he’s hiding something.”

104.     “If he’s hiding something, I want to know what it is.”

105.     “Someone needs to talk to that girl.”

106.     “I have some questions for you and I’m not leaving this city until they’re answered.”

107.      “I have some questions for you and you are not leaving this city until they are answered.”

108.      “There is so much to ask about your world.”

109.      “You are a scholar, are you not? Judging from your diminished physique and large forehead, you are clearly suited for nothing else.”

110.       “How did you get here? Well, I mean, not you personally but your culture. How did all of this end up down here?”

111.        “It is said that the gods became jealous of Atlantis. They sent a great cataclysm and banished up here.”

112.        “All I can remember is the sky going dark and people shouting and running. Then a bright light, like a star, floating about the city. My father said it called my mother to it.”

113.        “Are you telling me that you remember because you were there. No that’s…that’s impossible.”

114.        “How is it you found your way to this place?”

115.        “If it weren’t for this book, we never would have made it.”

116.       “Legend has it that your people possessed a power source of some kind that enable them.”

117.      “You mean you can understand this? This right here, you can read this?”

118.       “Such knowledge has been lost to us since the time of the flood.”

119.       “Follow the narrow passage for another league. There you will find the fifth marker.”

120.     “It looks like some sort of vehicle, but no matter what I try, it will not respond.”

121.     “That’s an easy thing to miss. You know, you deserve credit for even getting this far.”

122.      “This is great! With this thing I could see the whole city in no time at all!”

123.      “My grandpa used to tell me stories about this place as far back as I can remember. I just wish he could be standing here with me.”

124.    “Don’t forget to eat the head. That’s where all the nutrients are.”

125.    “The most we ever hoped to find was some crumbling buildings, maybe some broken pottery. Instead we find a living, thriving society.”

126.    “We are not thriving. True, our people live, but our culture is dying.”

127.     “We are like a stone the ocean beats against. With each passing year, a little more of us is worn away.”

128.      “I have brought you to this place to ask you for your help. There is a mural here with writing all around the pictures.”

129.      “You do swim, do you not?”

130.      “This is amazing! A complete history of Atlantis!”

131.      “It’s the heart of Atlantis!”

132.     “Don’t you get it? The power source I’ve been looking for, the bright light you remember. They’re the same thing!”

133.      “What’s going on? What’s with all the guns?”

134.      “I am such an idiot. This is just another treasure hunt for you.”

135.      “I would’ve told you sooner, but it was strictly on a need-to-know basis. And, well, now you know.”

136.      “I had to be sure you were one of us. Welcome to the club, son.”

137.      “I’m no mercenary.”

138.      “I prefer the term adventure capitalist.”

139.       “You’re the one who got us here. You led us right to the treasure chest.”

140.       “What’s to know? It’s big. It’s shiny. It’s going to make us all rich.”

141.        “You think it’s some kind of a diamond. I thought it was some kind of battery. But we’re both wrong.”

142.        “That crystal is the only thing keeping these people alive. You take that away and they’ll die.”

143.       “Academics. You never want to get your hands dirty.”

144.      “Think about it. If you gave back every stolen artifact from a museum, you’d be left with an empty building. We’re just providing a necessary service to the archeological community.”

145.     “Do yourself a favor. Don’t be like him. For once, do the smart thing.”

146.      “You will destroy yourselves.”

147.      “I suggest you put a bandage on that bleeding heart of yours. It doesn’t suit a mercenary.”

148.     “The heart of Atlantis lies in the eyes of her king.”

149.     “You don’t have the slightest idea what this power is capable of.”

150.     “I can think of a few countries who’d pay anything to find out.”

151.     “All it says here is that the crystal is alive somehow.”

152.     “Why don’t you translate and I’ll wave the gun around.”

153.     “Hold your horses, lover boy.”

154.     “So this is how it ends, huh? Fine. You win. You’re wiping out an entire civilization but, hey, you’ll be rich.”

155.      “That’s what it’s all about, right? Money.”

156.      “Get off your soapbox. You’ve read Darwin. It’s called natural selection. We’re just helping it along.”

157.     “Look at it this way, son. You were the man who discovered Atlantis, and now you’re part of the exhibit.”

158.     “Be serious. This is wrong and you know it.”

159.    “We’re this close to our biggest payday ever and you pick now of all times to grow a conscience.”

160.    “We’ve done a lot of things we’re not proud of. Robbing graves, plundering tombs, double parking. But nobody got hurt. Well, maybe somebody we got hurt, but nobody we knew.”

161.     “She has been chosen. Like her mother before her.”

162.     “In times of danger the crystal will choose a host. One of royal blood to protect itself and its people. It will accept no other.”

163.     “The crystal thrives on the collective emotions of all who came before us. In return, it provides power, longevity, protection.”

164.     “In my arrogance I sought to use it as a weapon of war, but it’s power proved too great to control. It overwhelmed us and led to our destruction.”

165.     “That’s why you hid it beneath the city, to keep history from repeating itself.”

166.     “If she remains bonded to the crystal, she could be lost to it forever.”

167.    “The love of my daughter is all I have left.”

168.    “My burden would have become hers when the time was right, but now it falls to you.”

169.    “Return the crystal. Save Atlantis. Save my daughter.”

170.    “I followed you in and I’ll follow you out. It’s your decision.”

171.    “I think we’ve seen how effective my decisions have been.”

172.    “Let’s recap. I lead a band of plundering vandals to the greatest archeological find in recorded history thus enabling the kidnap and or murder of the royal family, not to mention personally delivering the most powerful force known to man into the hands of a mercenary nutcase who’s probably going to sell it to the Kaiser! Have I left anything out?”

173.  “It’s been my experience when you hit bottom, the only place left to go is up.”

174.  “I didn’t say it was the smart thing, but it is the right thing.”

175.  “We better make sure he doesn’t hurt himself.”

176.  “This is it! We’re going to rescue the princess! We’re going to save Atlantis! Or we’re going to die trying!”

177.   “I love it when I win.”

178.  “We were in this together! You promised me a percentage!”

179.  “I have to hand it to you. You’re a bigger pain in the neck than I would have ever thought possible.”

180. “I consider myself an even-tempered man. It takes a lot to get under my skin, but congratulations! You just won the solid-gold kewpie doll!”

181.  “That’s a darn shame, because I’m just getting warmed up!”

182.   “Atlantis will honor your names forever. I only wish there was more we could do for you.”

183.  “You sure you want to stay? There’s a heroes welcome waiting for the man who discovered Atlantis.”

184.  “I don’t think the world needs another hero.”

185.   “Let’s go over it again, just so we got it straight. You didn’t find anything?”

186.  “I hope this piece of proof is enough for you.”

[coquelicoq]

For the 30 years old ask meme, could I ask: 8, 13, 15, 18, 36, 41, and 62 please? (I promise I restrained myself 🙈 I'm just very curious) -☆

thanks friend~

8. What cleaning product do you swear by? i am not a person who has strong feelings about cleaning products, except i prefer not to use antibacterial handsoap on a regular basis in the home environment…seems like tempting fate. if i had to pick something i guess i'd say detergent for washing dishes by hand, because i use it more than anything else probably.

13. Which filter are you most likely to go "eh, it's probably fine" when you find out you need to change it? the air conditioner. i clean it once a year…most years.

15. Do you go down each aisle when you grocery shop, or only the ones you know you need stuff from? only the ones i know i need stuff from! yesterday i went to a grocery store i don't usually go to because i'm not in my neighborhood at the moment, and it was such a frustrating experience because i had to go down every aisle multiple times, not knowing where anything was. hate that. i am in and out at my regular grocery store. i am here to get the stuff on my premade list and then get the fuck outta dodge.

18. Pro or anti tchotchkes? they don't really do anything for me from a visual perspective, because everything in my line of sight becomes invisible to me after a short period of time. (i have seen this called "visual exhaustion", but when i look up that term i just get results for eye strain, so maybe that's not an official term lol.) so having a bunch of small items in my vicinity ultimately just means there are more things to get dusty and for me to not even notice getting dusty until we are at critical levels.

36. Do you keep a daily journal or agenda? i keep a weekly agenda, which is structured as a table where the columns are the days of the week Mon-Sun and the rows are things like "french", "book", "puzzles", "social", "shower", "chores", etc. and then for every day i write down the initials of the french-language book i'm currently reading in the french row, the initials of whatever other book i'm currently reading in the book row, whatever task i need to do for my newspaper puzzles, and so forth. there isn't always something in every cell - for example if i have more than four days with something in the "social" row (which includes phone calls), i am in trouble because i don't have the bandwidth for that lol. then on the far side of the page i keep a running list of things i need to do at some point but don't plan to work on in the current week, so i don't lose track of them. i used to keep a daily journal but it petered off several months ago when i realized 1) i was running out of space for all my old journals, 2) there were so many it was prohibitively difficult to actually refer back to them for any reason, since just finding the relevant entry could take hours unless i already happened to know what date to look for, and 3) it was taking up time and also depressing me. lol. problems 1 and 2 would be solved by keeping a digital journal rather than a handwritten one, but that's never appealed to me. so now the only thing i write down is how much i slept, how heavy my menstruation was, and (only if they were notably unusual) how my mood and appetite were.

41. What's the oldest thing you own? the last time i thought this over i concluded it was a copy of a connecticut yankee in king arthur's court, and i haven't come up with anything else. i don't remember exactly how old it is. from the early 1900s maybe?

62. Where are you on the minimalism-maximalism kinsey scale? hm idk really. as stated before, i got the ol' "this sign can't stop me because i cease to even notice it if it's been on the wall for more than one hour" disease. so you could go all out and cover a room in all sorts of shit and i would enjoy the aesthetic and think it looks neat right up until i would never see it again, which would be very soon. so it kinda comes out to a wasted effort for me. however, on the other hand i can't say i'm a minimalist person either, because if you put me in a bare bones room with two sticks of furniture, within half an hour i'll have covered every space with bags and books and assorted papers and devices that i am planning to use throughout the course of the next few days and not even notice how cluttered i have made it due to the aforementioned visual exhaustion thing. so yeah. i have no idea. i do enjoy looking at pictures of maximalist decor though, and last year i visited a friend of a friend whose house was THE most intensely decorated place i had ever seen and i thought it was amazing. but if we're talking my own living space or anywhere i will be spending any amount of time, it does not and cannot matter.

[disco-elysium-via-polls]

2. "I walked the land telling whores and liars of the End to come. There are 9,855 days remaining."

KIM KITSURAGI - "Cool. I'm glad you joined us. Not a lot of money in doomcrying... Let's move on, shall we?"

This next row -- the one that wraps all the way around -- is your number of closed cases. *Closed* is good. It means finished. You've got, let's see…"

"Wow, more than 200!"

"Is that a lot?"

"I would have thought there'd be more."

KIM KITSURAGI - "It's *quite* a lot, even for someone who's been on the force for nearly two decades. Usually clearing more than 10 cases a year puts you in the 90th percentile of *all* RCM officers..."

"See, Kim? I *told* you I was a superstar cop!"

"I used to be good. That's some solace I guess. What's the last number?"

"I don't think I can ever *re-become* this person... What's the last number?"

KIM KITSURAGI - "Call it what you want. You were a valuable member of your precinct. Now, let's look at the last row..."

"Right. Those are your confirmed kills. You've got precisely *three* perforations there."

"So I'm a killer..."

"I was expecting a higher number, honestly."

"That's not... too many."

KIM KITSURAGI - "For an RCM officer -- especially Precinct 41, which is in the Jamrock Quarter -- it's rather... tame. I mean that in a good way."

ESPRIT DE CORPS [Challenging: Success] - "What's it feel like to kill a man, Mr. McCoy?" a young woman asks the man across the desk from her...

Honestly, babe," says John McCoy, crossing his ankles over said desk, "I don't feel anything anymore. It's just like brushing my teeth -- I do it once or twice a week and don't really think about it." There's no trace of guilt in his voice.

KIM KITSURAGI - "There are certain officers who treat their kills like some kind of ghoulish game. If they do happen to *solve* a case it's usually by accident." It's obvious the lieutenant doesn't think very highly of these officers...

"But it seems as though you are, or at least *were*, one of the good ones. So we have that to be thankful for."

"Have you ever killed anyone, Kim?"

"How do you handle the strain?"

"Thanks for this." (Conclude.)

KIM KITSURAGI - "Yes," he says, declining to elaborate.

EMPATHY [Medium: Success] - It's not a problem for him to state it, however.

2. "How do you handle the strain?"

KIM KITSURAGI - "Everyone has their own method of coping, some more effective, or self-destructive, than others..." He gives you a meaningful look.

"Personally, I find it helps to keep up a few hobbies."

"Like what?"

"Maybe I should find a hobby?"

"Hobbies are lame."

KIM KITSURAGI - "Oh, this and that. Let's not get into it now."

"Maybe I should find a hobby?"

KIM KITSURAGI - Why not gardening? You've already got the gloves..." He points to your yellow gardening gloves.

Oh yeah, we're still wearing those.

ESPRIT DE CORPS [Medium: Success] - It's meant in earnest. Please don't mistake it for a jab.

3. "Thanks for this." (Conclude.)

KIM KITSURAGI - The lieutenant nods.

3. "Okay, let's go." [Put the ledger away.]

KIM KITSURAGI - "Right. I'll go turn off the lights..." He presses a remote control on the key.

Task complete: Read the watermarks

+10 XP

TUTORIAL AGENT - You can now see your statistics on your JOURNAL page -- to the right of the task description.

Here are our statistics:

Superstar Cop - 4 Apocalypse Cop - 1 Sorry Cop - 6 Boring Cop - 0

Communism - 13 Fascist - 2 Ultraliberal - 0 Moralist - 1

Good cop/Bad cop - 6 Honour - 1

People killed - 3 Cases solved - 216 Years in Service - 18

[soapfcrce-a]

Excerpts from the journal of John MacTavish. If found, return to 22nd SAS regiment, Credenhill, UK. (Part 1. Part 2. Part 3)

Page 1.

I should be dead.

There’s no cutting around the edge on this one. I should be fucking dead and I’m fucking well aware of it.

The doctors aren’t being kind about it either. “Medical miracle”, they keep saying. “Impressed that I didn’t code for longer”, they keep saying. As if constantly hearing about how I was clinically dead for a period of time is motivating…

I try to hide it whenever Ghost or Gaz drop by, but it’s not easy. The only thing motivating me right now is anger.

Page 2 – 12.

[ A varying collection of a number of sketches ranging from stupid sexy nurses, idle sketches of hospital food, Tic-Tac-Toe games, and a hang-man game. ]

Page 20.

[ A clipping from a news article about the “thwarted terrorist attempt in London” with a shaky scrawl next to it that says “I don’t feel much like a hero.” ]

Page 35.

Constant rehab and surgery doesn’t leave for much time to update this stupid thing. Dunno if that’s good or bad, but guess I’ll find out soon enough.

They finally assigned me a therapist, so guess I’ll be made to talk about this soon enough. I can’t say I’m excited about it… I was fine trying to pretend it all away…

Guess not.

Page 38-40.

[ Three of the same sketches, but different at the same time. The first one is largely from memory, of what he could remember of when Makarov held the gun at his face. The second appears to be the same, except this time one holding the gun is wearing a baseball cap. The third, a mask with a skull. The lines on it are hard, a sign of the frustration and anger held behind its meaning. ]

Page 41.

Finding out real quick that the downside to keeping a journal is that it makes for an easy target for therapy. Dr. Jane wanted to press today on how the drawings mean I blame Kyle and Simon, wanted to talk about how the dreams shifting mean I’m not letting it go.

Can’t really let it go, even when I think I can. But it wasn’t fair of me to yell at her… guess I was just embarrassed to find out I’m still a bit angry with them.

I should apologize next session.

Page 42 – 46.

[ A number of various other doodles, though they appear to be increasingly stranger and darker. Some idle scrawling here and there, detailing increasingly unhinged plans with the words “STAY SAFE” written in large letters on the last page. ]

Page 50.

I apologized to Dr. Jane this time. For a shrink, she’s surprisingly understanding, but I guess she’s dealt with worse patients than me. Can see why Laswell married her.

Today was a thought exercise on what could’ve been different. It felt a bit like Simon lecturing me back in Al Mazrah on choices, but I get what she was getting at… or at least I think I do, anyways. If I did kill him, would we have even had enough time to disarm the bombs?

Would the police force we went with lived?

Would things have been different if I shot him four years ago?

She’s definitely given me a lot to think about…

[dumb-honey-bunny]

100 AgeRe Questions

1🐝 What Age(s) Do You Regress To ~ 2-6

2🍯 Do You Pet Regress As Well / What Animal ~ i dont think so

3🥮 How Long Have You Been Regressing ~ for about 5ish years

4🐌 Is Your Regression Voluntary, Involuntary, Or A Mixture ~ involuntary mostly

5🐻 What’s Your Personality Like When Regressed ~ either playful or sometimes just sleepy

6🐴 How Often Do You Regress ~ not as often as i want

7☕ What Helps You Get Into Headspace ~ kid shows or playong with toys

8📜 Are You A Baby, Toddler, Or Big Kid Regressor ~ toddler or a kid

9🦇 Do Your Likes Change When Regressed ~ not really

10⏳ Do You Have A Baby Voice In Headspace ~ sometimes

11🍪 What Makes You Instantly Small ~ stuffies

12🧋Why Do You Regress ~ trauma

13🌙 Pink Or Blue ~ both

14⭐ Dragons, Unicorns Or Fairies ~ dragons or fairies

15☁️ Dinos, Princesses, Space Or Safari Theme ~ dinos or space

16💫 Neon, Pastel, Neutral Or Dark Pallets ~ a mix off all but mostly darker colors

17🐮 Favorite Regression Clothes ~ my oogie boogie onesie

18🌸 Favorite Color ~ silver

19🐭 Do You Collect Stickers ~ yes

20🧁 Coloring Book Or Paint By Numbers ~ coloring book

21🍧 Playdoh, Legos Or Slime ~ legos or playdoh

22🦄 Finger Paint Or Brushes ~ brushes

23🧼 Crayons, Colored Pencils Or Markers ~ crayons

24☀️ Do You Have A CG / Name For CG ~ i do mamma

25🌻 Do You Have A Baby Sitter ~ yes

26✨ Do You Have Any Sibbies ~ yes

27🧺 Do Your Parents Know About Your Regression ~ i dont know

28🧋 Favorite Nicknames / Pet Names ~ anything that isnt talking about royalty

29🍕 Ideal Playdate ~ park playdate

30🐱 Sleep In Crib Or With CG ~ with cg

31🍼 Favorite Snack ~pb&j

32🧸 Favorite Juice ~ mix berry

33🍪 Favorite Icecream Flavor ~ i prefer sherbet

34🩹 Favorite Type Of Milk ~ honey milk

35🐶 Sweet, Sour, Spicy, Bitter Or Savory ~ sweet or sour

36🍰 Favorite Dessert ~ gummies

37🍦 Favorite Type Of Chocolate ~ milk

38⏳ Mac & Cheese Or Nuggets ~ both

39🎒 Favorite Movie ~ Coraline

40🍬 Favorite Cartoon ~ invader zim

41🚀 Favorite Game ~ depending on the day

42🎀 Favorite Disney Princess ~ mulan or tiana

43⚾ If You Could Have Any 1 Superpower What Would It Be ~ shapeshift

44🍄 Anime Or Cartoons ~ cartoons

45🍓 Favorite Carebear ~ grumpy or sleepy bear

46✏️ Shows Or Movies ~ movies

47🐛 Do You Believe In Fairies ~ yes

48🐸 Do You Have A Comfort Character ~ yes

49🌱 Do You Like Rain At Night ~ yes but no thunder

50🦕 Are You Easily Scared ~ ehhh

51🧃 Are You Also A Carer ~ no

52🌵 Are You Independent Or Dependent ~ depends on the day

53🍃 What Pulls You Out Of Headspace ~ alot of thing

54🍏 Are You Scared Of Bugs ~ no

55🦝 Favorite Toy Series ~ monster high

56🚛 Do You Use Pacis ~ yes

57🦴 Do You Use Diaps ~ no

58🦈 Gear Wishlist ~ more pacis and more onesie

59🍵 Favorite Regression Item ~ my stuffies and paci

60🐾 Sippy Cup Or Bottle ~ sippy cup

61🦊 Oldest Stuffie ~ a dog that ive had forever

62🎃 Do You Sleep With A Stuffie ~ yes cant sleep with out one

63🔥 How Many Stuffies Do You Have ~ alot

64🍂 Newest Favorite Stuffie ~ a cow, and my favorite is my dog or bunny

65🏵️ Build A Bear, Amusement Park, Or Disney Store ~ amusement park

66🥧 Stuffed Animals Or Dolls ~ stuffed animals

67👽 Do You Have A Bedtime ~ no

68🍭 Do You Keep An AgeRe Journal ~ yes

69⚡️ Do You Have Rules ~ not really

70🍥 Blankie Or Paci ~ paci

71🌈 Night Light Or Glow-In-The-Dark Stars ~ both

72🌿 Bedtime Stories Or Lullabies ~ bedtime stories

73🎩 Favorite Thing To Do Outside While Small ~ stargazing

74🐵 Favorite Thing To Do Inside While Small ~ color

75🦋 Blanket Fort Or Bouncy House ~ blanket fort

76🐯 Stroller Or Walk ~ walk

77🔮 Dress Up Or Tea Party ~ tea party

78🦜 Do You Like The Playground ~ yes

79💖 Early Bird Or Night Owl ~ night owl

80📝 Indoors Or Outdoors ~ indoors

81💕 Warm Or Cold Weather ~ cold weather

82🦢 Dogs Or Cats ~ both

83☎️ Do You Have Any Pets ~ yes

84💌 Favorite Animal ~ bunnies, cats, dogs, cows, goats, and bats

85🍒 Favorite Holiday ~ Halloween

86🐇 Favorite Season ~ winter

87❤️ What’s Your Big Age ~19

88🌼 What’s A Nostalgic Place For You ~ none

89🐳 Playdoh, Legos Or Slime ~ legos or playdoh

90🐙 Do You Collect Anything ~ yes

91🐠 Bubble Baths Or Bath Toys ~ both

92🍑 Are Your Agere Interests More Fem Or Masc ~both

93☔️ Do You Stim More While Regressed ~ yes

94🎨 Favorite Place To Regress ~ my room

95🧵 Favorite Regression Youtuber ~ jacksepticeye

96🌈 Favorite Site/App For Regression Community ~ tumblr

97💐 What Do You Wanna Be When You Grow Up ~ nice

98📒 What’s The Most Nostalgic Electronic For You ~ the fist xbox

99📀 A Toy You Always Wanted But Never Got As A Kid ~ i dont remember

100🪐 What Is Your Favorite Thing To Learn About In Headspace ~ stuff about deities

[beardedmrbean]

LOCH NESS, Scotland — The legend of the Loch Ness Monster has fascinated generations of curious minds. This weekend, 90 years after its first modern supposed sighting, enthusiasts descended again on this picturesque lake in a quiet corner of the Scottish Highlands in the hopes of turning myth into reality.

Organizers billed the past weekend as the largest organized “Nessie” hunt for 50 years.

And the hunters came armed with high-tech help: sonars for mapping the lake bed, thermal-imaging drones for scanning the surface and hydrophones to hear strange sounds from the depths.

The events were even opened to the global public — hundreds were invited to a live stream of the water’s surface to add more eyes to the search.

But even with all the machines and added manpower, the gathering at Loch Ness was as much about reviving old lore as settling hard science. Organizers said they planned the weekend to excite interest in the legend among a new generation of Nessie hunters.

“It’s about inspiration,” said Alan McKenna, the head of Loch Ness Exploration, an independent research group based on the lake’s shores that planned the event as a kind of call for volunteers. “For very selfish reasons I don’t want the Loch Ness mystery or interest in Loch Ness itself to diminish in any way whatsoever at all.”

Those “selfish” reasons don’t include a commercial motive, said McKenna, who added that he is also an unpaid volunteer. Though the legend could bring in as much 41 million pounds (about $52 million) each year to Scotland’s economy, according to one 2018 study reported by Scotland's Press and Journal newspaper, enthusiasts like McKenna say the search is really just about having fun, keeping faith and exploring the natural world.

Like the surface of a lake, the Loch Ness legend seems to reflect the hopes of those who gaze into it.

“I think she has babies and she’s looking after them right now,” said Alba Sydow, 8, as she surveyed the loch with her parents from the Deepscan, one of the organizers’ search boats. “So that’s why she’s hiding from us.”

Alba’s father Malcolm Begg, 47, a pharmaceutical company employee, had his own remarkably specific ideas about the monster.

“I think it’s like a diplodocus with fins,” he said, referring to a Jurassic-era dinosaur while lamenting that most images of the monster have been too grainy to discern a definitive shape.

The focus of the two-day event was at the Loch Ness Centre, which organized the proceedings in partnership with Loch Ness Exploration, a voluntary research team. The recently renovated center is housed in a former hotel where Aldie Mackay, a hotel employee, sighted a “beast” or “whale-like fish” in 1933, the first modern “sighting” of the monster that set off the global phenomenon.

But the legend dates back to writings from the seventh century in which an Irish monk reported having encountered a “water beast” that had mauled a swimmer.

Nessie has been so popular for so long, her myth can sometimes feed herself (if, like Alba, you imagine the monster as female).

Alistair Matheson, the skipper of the Loch Ness Centre’s Deepscan search boat that trolled the lake with volunteer searchers like Alba, showed how the boat’s sonar technology had recently spotted a perfect outline of a huge Nessie-shaped monster.

But the shape on Matheson’s radar screen turned out to be a sunken Nessie model that had been made for a movie about the monster and then abandoned at the bottom of the lake.

Even the Loch Ness Centre’s logo — the instantly recognizable picture of a sort of humped eel cruising through waves on the lake’s surface — comes from a fuzzy 1934 black-and-white photo that was later proven to be fake.

Still, Matheson describes himself as a “believer,” though he imagines the monster as “something from this earth or something a bit more realistic” than some kind of ancient, alien or supernatural being. Scientists have speculated that the sightings could be huge catfish or giant eels.

But short of emptying the entire lake, Matheson said nothing will ever truly disprove a legend that has become a matter of faith for so many.

“People come here, they’re desperate, they’re looking, they’re searching,” he said. “And they really, really want to be able to hope that there is something that us humans, you know, we think we can know everything, to an extent.”

The weekend in the Scottish Highlands attracted some for whom Nessie is more of a vocation than a hobby.

Ken Gerhard, an American cryptozoologist who researches and writes about “animals” like bigfoot, Chupacabra and Mothman that live on the fringes of our known reality, traveled to Scotland from the states just for the event.

“I’m 90% convinced she exists,” said Gerhard, who also seemed to believe in the monster’s femininity. “I’ve never had a sighting or an observation, but if you immerse yourself in the evidence, you have over a thousand good sightings that are very consistent.”

Beyond the shaky photographic “proof,” believers’ primary argument in favor of Nessie’s existence is that the lake’s immense size and dark, peaty waters make it impossible to rule out the existence of even a large creature. 

Several volunteers mentioned that Loch Ness contains more water than all of the lakes of England and Wales combined.

Indeed, McKenna said they had heard some “fantastic bizarre” sounds on Friday, but unfortunately the recording equipment hadn’t been plugged in. 

“It may well be gas escaping from the bottom of the loch,” he said. “It could be an animal.”

“Of course it could be the elusive Loch Ness Monster,” he added. 

So if any of the attendees were expecting this weekend to yield a revelation, they went home disappointed. 

Nobody found the monster — but maybe that was never the point.

For many, this was a pilgrimage of faith — a kind of rejoinder to the high-tech dictates of hard facts that have left us so little room for magic and mystery.

“I think there’s always going to be a small part of me that wants to believe,” said Craig Whitefield, 29, a medical administrator from Scotland who spent the weekend scanning the lake’s surface with binoculars.

Like other volunteers, Whitefield said that only emptying one of the largest lakes in the world and checking every nook and cranny of the lake bed would satisfy his curiosity.

“It’s the same with every legend out there,” he said. “It just takes one person to believe and it just continues.”

[blackdogsilver]

50 things I probably won't get done before 50

Let's face it, I've been working on varying versions of this list for 12 years. I've never come close to hitting my goal. BUT I have done a whole bunch of things I've always wanted to do, that I probably never would have done other wise, so whether or not I reach the goal, I think this is a good thing to keep going.

I went right back to the original list, and am combining it with all the iterations from over the years. I'm also adding in my travel goals. I always kept them separate because I didn't have the money to travel, and wanted to keep my list achievable, but I'm not as concerned about hitting every goal any more, and also, if I don't travel by 50, then when?

I've made a separate list for the things I've done too, to remind myself of what I have accomplished. The items I removed from the list because I really don't think it's possible, or care if I achieve it, I'm putting back in as bonus goals... they don't need to count, but maybe the opportunity will come up, who knows? And it's good to see where I've come from.

THINGS I'VE DONE

1. hide 43 treasures 

2. milk a cow

3. Tie a cherry stem in a knot with my tongue

4. Get a tattoo

5. finish crocheting my tetris blanket

6. Send in a postsecret

7. try sushi

8. Have glamour photos taken of me

9. crochet a hat

10. Go to a strip club

11. dye my hair purple

12. go on a pub crawl

13. have brunch with friends

14. Give blood (well, I tried, but they wouldn't take it!)

15. take part in gishwes

16. try a foreign cuisine I’ve never had before

17. take a chocolate factory tour

18. fly first class

19. do the Colour Run

20. do a nude photoshoot

21. find a signature scent/perfume

22. get a helix piercing

23. go to a RHPS Audience Participation screening

24. go to Midsumma/Pride March/Mardi Gras parade

25. grab a handful of cake and just eat it

26. invent a silly holiday and get other people to join in

THINGS I'VE YET TO DO

1. Send a message in a bottle

2. Record/produce a song

3. visit a planetarium

4. Swim with dolphins (attempted, but failed and still want to try)

5. Throw a dart into a map and travel to where it lands

6. take a moonlit walk on a beach

7. learn the thriller dance

8. see a total solar eclipse in person

9. go on a road trip with friends

10. bake a Croquembouche

11. Take a pole dancing class

12. get a professional massage

13. spend a day taking photos of my city

14. visit all the Australian states and territories - 5/7

15. eat at a teppanyaki style restaurant

16. visit the Great Barrier Reef

17. finish a ‘Wreck This Journal’

18. get a matching tattoo with someone

19. complete the c25k program

20. do a proper cosplay photo shoot

21. take part in a drum circle

22. write an Android app

23. Design my own Tarot deck

24. go strawberry picking

25. take a silversmithing course

26. eat fondue

27. learn to contact juggle

28. ride in a limo

29. join the mile high club

30. see the Southern/Northern Lights

31. wear a bikini to the beach (without a cover up)

32. Be able to do a pull up unassisted

33. host a fancy dinner party in a strange place (ie, traffic island)

34. learn to read lips

35. eat alone in a (fancy) restaurant

36. build a Rube Goldberg machine

37. watch a meteor shower

38. recreate a childhood photo

39. cook pasta from scratch

40. take a salsa dance class

41. learn ASL

42. see the Thai floating lantern festival

43. go to the City Museum in St Louis

44. visit New York

45. tour the Dresden Files sites in Chicago

46. visit Petra, Jordan

47. visit Japan

48. visit the Eternal Lightning Fields, Venezuela

49. visit Wat Samphran (Dragon Temple), Thailand

50. visit Chichen Itza, Mexico

BONUS GOALS

1. bungee jump

2. watch all of classic Doctor Who

3. visit Katoomba at Winter Solstice for the Winter Magic Festival

4. get my driver’s license

5. do a beer centurion (100 shots in 100 minutes)

6. crowd surf

7. fire a gun at a shooting range

8. learn to juggle

9. write and film a (short) movie

[novelmonger]

4, 5, 7, 11, 17, 36, 41, 49, and 69 for the 30s asks, please?

4. Favorite chore?

Hmm...maybe laundry? It's fast, it's easy, and it makes the clothes smell really nice. And then I can listen to something while folding and putting away. Hanging up and taking down laundry was always one of my primary chores growing up (we didn't have a dryer), and I always liked it then as well.

5. Least favorite chore?

Dish-washing, easily. No matter how high or low the sink is, my back just screams at me in five minutes flat when I wash the dishes. I always end up splashing around quite a bit because I try to rush through them as fast as possible so I can stop bending over and go recover for an hour x.x

7. Any groceries you've been getting into lately?

Related to my answer for number 4, I recently tried out a new kind of Gain pods for my laundry. The pretty lavender lid on the container caught my eye, so since they didn't have the Midnight Breeze scent I'd been using, I decided I'd try Dewdrop Dream. And I don't think I'm ever going to buy anything else, because this smells fantastic!

11. What's something you saved up for and then regretted buying?

Back when I was having really really bad stiff necks and headaches, I bought I shiatsu neck massager, which you could drape behind your neck and turn on, and it would heat up and move these ball-like things in circular motions like a massage. It cost a pretty penny, but it didn't help anything, and it was really painful besides. It was sitting on my shelf for years, gathering dust, until we were getting rid of stuff in preparation for our recent move. So off to the thrift store it went. Hopefully someone else out there will get some use out of it.

17. What's a movie you saw recently that you liked?

Inside Out 2! I finally managed to see it last week, and it was everything I could have hoped it to be! :') I love the first Inside Out inordinately, and always cry like a baby at the end. There's no way the sequel could live up to that, but it came really really close! I still cried, I still laughed at all the clever puns and was engaged the whole time. And I loved Embarrassment so much <3 Pixar really knows how to make good sequels!

36. Do you keep a daily journal or agenda?

No, that makes everyday life feel too much like school. I get enough nightmares about that kind of thing as it is! Since I'm such an excessive homebody who rarely has anywhere to go, I can usually keep it all in my head, or just rely on sticky notes at my desk. Though recently we've taken to putting a whiteboard on the fridge with all of our schedules for the week so we can keep track of it all.

41. What's the oldest thing you own?

Hmm...maybe my dresser? I think my mom said it was the one she had growing up, but I might be thinking of my sister's dresser and mine is my aunt's.

49. Do you bring a bag with you everywhere you go?

Other than my purse, no. I am not the mom friend, sorry ^^'

69. What are you looking forward to next week?

MY NEW MATTRESS!!!!! 8D It's supposed to get delivered on Tuesday, I think, and I'm so excited I could cry. My lower back has been killing me every night for the past six months, rarely letting me get more than five hours of uninterrupted sleep at a time, and I just hope it's the fault of my thirteen-year-old mattress and not something more serious T_T

30-somethings asks

[g1bs0ng1rl]

Learning Activity 3.5, Task 4: What do I believe in?

                     Schools are designated to educate students on necessary knowledge and skills that will later benefit them in life, but besides those purposes, they are also obligated to create a safe learning environment. Since students are within campus, their safety and health should be a top priority, it is an obligation to protect them from any acts of discrimination. I believe that it is mandatory for schools to have discrimination policy, or set of regulations that protects students from being bullied or harassed. No one should ever feel uncomfortable in an inclusive learning environment, where it is meant to provide what students had paid for: Good education. Moreover, it is a human right to be treated with equal respect and have access to basic necessities such as learning in school. 

 Students of ethnic minorities background, disabilities, LGBTQ+  are most likely to be targeted in school violence, these policies are built to penalise perpetrators. Discrimination policies should serve not only as protection for students, but also a system of counselling and guidance.  In the 2020 - 2021 education year, there has been a report of 1,198 cases of racially motivated bullying in Scottish schools (Sapouna, n.d), 44% of LGBTQ+ fifteen to seventeen age group in the European Union felt like their rights were rarely or never supported in school (UNESCO, 2023). And additionally, 41% of students who had been bullied indicated that they think bullying would happen again (National Center of Educational Studies, 2019). In my opinion, any forms of discrimination stemmed from personal prejudice and ignorance. I believe that schools should take responsibility for more coverage on racial history, sexualities, and build inclusive education for students with disabilities. Moreover, staff members should be aware and keep an eye for bullying or harassment throughout campus. Discrimination policies include not hindering any students the chance to access education, providing counselling for those who need it, and maintaining strict punishments for those who violate the policies. Punishment can range from detention to suspension depending on severity of the issues, staff members are also obligated to report any cases of discrimination if they witness it on campus. Moreover, in my opinion it includes penalising bystanders who knew of the bullying and did not report it to an adult. 

In conclusion, I think one of the most important regulations that all schools should make mandatory is the discrimination policies. To be harassed or prevented from accessing benefits like school, workforces, restaurants, is a violation to human rights. I believe that education institutions should aim to tackle social issues and by influencing students towards the right part, we can build a more progressive society in the future. I, myself, have witnessed bullying in my school and most of the times, victims are too scared to report the situation so it remains unsolved. Incidents like this can cause stress and traumatic effect on student’s psyche, discrimination policies should assure students that any forms of harassment will not go unpunished. Victims of past bullying should feel safe knowing that it won't happen again, therefore why I think it is so important to implement these policies. 

Works Cited

Brunsma, D. L., & Rockquemore, K. A. (1998). Effects of Student Uniforms on Attendance, Behavior Problems, Substance Use, and Academic Achievement. The Journal of Educational Research, 92(1), 53–62. http://www.jstor.org/stable/27542189

Knipp, H., & Stevenson, R. (2022). “A Powerful Visual Statement”: Race, Class, and Gender in Uniform and Dress Code Policies in New Orleans Public Charter Schools. Affilia, 37(1), 79-96. https://doi.org/10.1177/08861099211010026

Meier, K. J. (1984). Teachers, Students, and Discrimination: The Policy Impact of Black Representation. The Journal of Politics, 46(1), 252–263. https://doi.org/10.2307/2130443

Office of the United Nations High Commissioner for Human Rights [100] UNESCO. (2023). “LGBTQ+ youth: bullying and violence in school”. UNESDOC,  1— 5. https://unesdoc.unesco.org/ark:/48223/pf0000387193

National Center for Educational Statistics. (2019). Student reports of bullying: Results from the 2017 School Crime Supplement to the National Victimization Survey. US Department of Education. Retrieved from http://nces.ed.gov/pubsearch/pubsinfo.asp?pubid=2015056.

[jeramewrites2]

3-19-24

And the world continues to spin. That is very hyperbolic for a person that has no real problems. As of right now. My current life consist of going to work 5 days a week and taking care of patients. They are not sick they are just injured. So that much is nice. I am attempting to learn to breath before I panic. This morning when I woke up I looked and was paid for my job and the first 1/2 of the paycheck had been deposited but the bulk had not. So this had happened before and my actual payday isn't until the 20th anyway. I decided not to panic and start reacting but instead see where everything settled. I did and the rest of the funds materialized like normal.

I am attempting to be less reactionary. I am trying to be more centered in who I am and what I do. There is a time and a place for action but that is once you actually know what is going on in a situation and not assuming what is going on. I feel like I do need to keep an ear out for new work. I may reach out to old co-workers and just see how things are going. I'm not sure just yet but it is good to have options open.

I have ideas swirling in my head for things to do in my zombie story but I have not had the time or inclination to implement them. I have an exam due today and I still need to study some more on that. I think I will do fine. I am understanding the material I believe but it is not sticking as well as I would like. Then there is still part of me that would like to learn how to code. I think I will try that during the summer break. Although I should just take some classes at Brookhaven to get them though with as well. I could do the history and language classes there. I think it would be cheaper and easier. I want to get into my creative writing classes but as a sophomore I have a few more credits to get out of the way.

I have not been great on my diet. I have been snacking and I didn't bring anything to eat with me today. So there is some pizza in the fridge so I might just go for that later today. We have a toaster oven here anyway so maybe it won't be so bad. Is 5 day old pizza still good? I am sure it's fine.

As with all of my journaling I will inevitably fall to the video games I happen to be playing at the time. I will be honest as a 41 year old nerd I don't have a lot going on in my life. So I am now working through yakuza 3. I have gotten to the point where I think I am almost to the final confrontation. I am going back and getting all of the revelations that I had missed before I realize now I think I could have gotten them the whole time but this is where we are. Yakuza 0,1,2, and 6 are all on special with xbox right now. I think I am going to go spend 20 bucks on them and play though all of them. I kinda wish there was a little more RPG going on but it's still fun stuff. I have not gotten into the mini games that much but Haruka did just beat my ass in bowling. I will report back later.

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Michaela lost 50 pounds

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Michaela lost 50 pounds

Transformation of the Day: Michaela lost 50 pounds. She was on a mission to regain her confidence after two pregnancies back-to-back. Prayer, food journaling, and intermittent fasting are all part of her success plan.

Social Media: Instagram: @michaela0811 Tiktok: Michaela081181

Age: 41 years old Location: Chicago, IL Weight then: 182 pounds  Weight now: 132 pounds Height: 5’1″

What was your motivation? My motivation to lose weight was to rebuild my confidence after having two kids back-to-back. 

What inspired you to keep going, even when you wanted to give up? During the times when I thought about giving up, I thought about other women in the world who were out there working towards the same goal but who was much larger than I was. 

How did you change your eating habits? When I began my journey on Jan. 1, 2022, I started by praying and asking God to help me eat foods that nourished my body. I stopped drinking and started journaling what I ate every day. After a few months, I incorporated intermittent fasting (16:8), which I still stick to today to maintain the weight loss.

Tell us about your workout routine. I committed to 2 hours of cardio per week and praised myself for how much I accomplished daily. 

How long did your transformation take? It took nine months to lose 50 lbs after trying this journey for the 3rd time. 

Is weight loss surgery part of your story? Weight-loss surgery was not a part of my journey.

What is the biggest lesson you’ve learned so far? The biggest lesson I have learned so far is consistency drives results. 

What advice would you like to share with women who want to lose weight? My advice is never to look back. Keep moving forward and forgive yourself through the process. Every day you try is a successful day!!

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1🐝 What Age(s) Do You Regress To ~ I really don’t know

2🍯 Do You Pet Regress As Well / What Animal ~ No

3🥮 How Long Have You Been Regressing ~ Maybe 9 years

4🐌 Is Your Regression Voluntary, Involuntary, Or A Mixture ~ Mixture

5🐻 What’s Your Personality Like When Regressed ~ Needy, sometimes all happy and bubbly, sometimes just want to cuddle and sleep

6🐴 How Often Do You Regress ~ At least once a week

7☕ What Helps You Get Into Headspace ~ Teddies, cuddles, cartoons

8📜 Are You A Baby, Toddler, Or Big Kid Regressor ~ Toddler?

9🦇 Do Your Likes Change When Regressed ~ Not really

10⏳ Do You Have A Baby Voice In Headspace ~ Yes

11🍪 What Makes You Instantly Small ~ When daddy does the voice

12🧋Why Do You Regress ~ Safety and comfort

13🌙 Pink Or Blue ~ Pink!!!

14⭐ Dragons, Unicorns Or Fairies ~ All three

15☁️ Dinos, Princesses, Space Or Safari Theme ~Princesses

16💫 Neon, Pastel, Neutral Or Dark Pallets ~ All!

17🐮 Favorite Regression Clothes ~ Rompers

18🌸 Favorite Color ~ Pink

19🐭 Do You Collect Stickers ~ No :(

20🧁 Coloring Book Or Paint By Numbers ~ Both! But only simple ones

21🍧 Playdoh, Legos Or Slime ~ Lego or playdoh

22🦄 Finger Paint Or Brushes ~ Finger paint!!

23🧼 Crayons, Colored Pencils Or Markers ~ Crayons

24☀️ Do You Have A CG / Name For CG ~ Daddy!!!!!

25🌻 Do You Have A Baby Sitter ~ No

26✨ Do You Have Any Sibbies ~ No

27🧺 Do Your Parents Know About Your Regression ~ No

28🧋 Favorite Nicknames / Pet Names ~ Princess, babygirl, Angel

29🍕 Ideal Playdate ~ Park!!! And Disney sing along

30🐱 Sleep In Crib Or With CG ~ With daddy

31🍼 Favorite Snack ~ Chocolate buttons

32🧸 Favorite Juice ~ Orange

33🍪 Favorite Icecream Flavor ~ Caramel

34🩹 Favorite Type Of Milk ~ Strawberry

35🐶 Sweet, Sour, Spicy, Bitter Or Savory ~ All!

36🍰 Favorite Dessert ~ Icecream, sticky toffee

37🍦 Favorite Type Of Chocolate ~ Marvellous Creations or mint aero

38⏳ Mac & Cheese Or Nuggets ~ Mac

39🎒 Favorite Movie ~ Hotel Transylvania

40🍬 Favorite Cartoon ~ SpongeBob

41🚀 Favorite Game ~ Idkkk

42🎀 Favorite Disney Princess ~ Rapunzel

43⚾ If You Could Have Any 1 Superpower What Would It Be ~ Invisibility

44🍄 Anime Or Cartoons ~ Cartoons

45🍓 Favorite Carebear ~ Idk

46✏️ Shows Or Movies ~ Shows

47🐛 Do You Believe In Fairies ~ No

48🐸 Do You Have A Comfort Character ~ Mavis Dracula

49🌱 Do You Like Rain At Night ~ Only rain not storms

50🦕 Are You Easily Scared ~ Yes

51🧃 Are You Also A Carer ~ No

52🌵 Are You Independent Or Dependent ~ Dependant

53🍃 What Pulls You Out Of Headspace ~ Life

54🍏 Are You Scared Of Bugs ~ Yes

55🦝 Favorite Toy Series ~ Squishmallows

56🚛 Do You Use Pacis ~ Yes

57🦴 Do You Use Diaps ~ No

58🦈 Gear Wishlist ~ Gag paci

59🍵 Favorite Regression Item ~ Paci

60🐾 Sippy Cup Or Bottle ~ Sippy cup

61🦊 Oldest Stuffie ~ Rani

62🎃 Do You Sleep With A Stuffie ~ Yes

63🔥 How Many Stuffies Do You Have ~ Lots!!

64🍂 Newest Favorite Stuffie ~ Rollo

65🏵️ Build A Bear, Amusement Park, Or Disney Store ~ Disney!

66🥧 Stuffed Animals Or Dolls ~ Stuffies

67👽 Do You Have A Bedtime ~ No :(

68🍭 Do You Keep An AgeRe Journal ~ Sometimes

69⚡️ Do You Have Rules ~ Meant to but we don’t follow them

70🍥 Blankie Or Paci ~ Paci

71🌈 Night Light Or Glow-In-The-Dark Stars ~ Stars

72🌿 Bedtime Stories Or Lullabies ~ Stories

73🎩 Favorite Thing To Do Outside While Small ~ Swings

74🐵 Favorite Thing To Do Inside While Small ~ Cartoons and crafts

75🦋 Blanket Fort Or Bouncy House ~ Bouncy

76🐯 Stroller Or Walk ~ Walk

77🔮 Dress Up Or Tea Party ~ Tea party

78🦜 Do You Like The Playground ~ Yes!!

79💖 Early Bird Or Night Owl ~ Neither

80📝 Indoors Or Outdoors ~ Indoor

81💕 Warm Or Cold Weather ~ Warm

82🦢 Dogs Or Cats ~ Cats

83☎️ Do You Have Any Pets ~ Two cats

84💌 Favorite Animal ~ Rhino

85🍒 Favorite Holiday ~ Christmas

86🐇 Favorite Season ~ Summer

87❤️ What’s Your Big Age ~ 22

88🌼 What’s A Nostalgic Place For You ~ Beach

89🐳 Playdoh, Legos Or Slime ~ Legos or playdoh

90🐙 Do You Collect Anything ~ No

91🐠 Bubble Baths Or Bath Toys ~ Bubbles

92🍑 Are Your Agere Interests More Fem Or Masc ~ Fem

93☔️ Do You Stim More While Regressed ~ Yes

94🎨 Favorite Place To Regress ~ Home

95🧵 Favorite Regression Youtuber ~ Idk

96🌈 Favorite Site/App For Regression Community ~ Tumblr

97💐 What Do You Wanna Be When You Grow Up ~ Idk anymore

98📒 What’s The Most Nostalgic Electronic For You ~ Wii

99📀 A Toy You Always Wanted But Never Got As A Kid ~ Idk

100🪐 What Is Your Favorite Thing To Learn About In Headspace ~ History (Horrible Histories)

100 AgeRe Questions

Credit: pickledratinajar

1🐝 What Age(s) Do You Regress To ~

2🍯 Do You Pet Regress As Well / What Animal ~

3🥮 How Long Have You Been Regressing ~

4🐌 Is Your Regression Voluntary, Involuntary, Or A Mixture ~

5🐻 What's Your Personality Like When Regressed ~

6🐴 How Often Do You Regress ~

7☕ What Helps You Get Into Headspace ~

8📜 Are You A Baby, Toddler, Or Big Kid Regressor ~

9🦇 Do Your Likes Change When Regressed ~

10⏳ Do You Have A Baby Voice In Headspace ~

11🍪 What Makes You Instantly Small ~

12🧋Why Do You Regress ~

13🌙 Pink Or Blue ~

14⭐ Dragons, Unicorns Or Fairies ~

15☁️ Dinos, Princesses, Space Or Safari Theme ~

16💫 Neon, Pastel, Neutral Or Dark Pallets ~

17🐮 Favorite Regression Clothes ~

18🌸 Favorite Color ~

19🐭 Do You Collect Stickers ~

20🧁 Coloring Book Or Paint By Numbers ~

21🍧 Playdoh, Legos Or Slime ~

22🦄 Finger Paint Or Brushes ~

23🧼 Crayons, Colored Pencils Or Markers ~

24☀️ Do You Have A CG / Name For CG ~

25🌻 Do You Have A Baby Sitter ~

26✨ Do You Have Any Sibbies ~

27🧺 Do Your Parents Know About Your Regression ~

28🧋 Favorite Nicknames / Pet Names ~

29🍕 Ideal Playdate ~

30🐱 Sleep In Crib Or With CG ~

31🍼 Favorite Snack ~

32🧸 Favorite Juice ~

33🍪 Favorite Icecream Flavor ~

34🩹 Favorite Type Of Milk ~

35🐶 Sweet, Sour, Spicy, Bitter Or Savory ~

36🍰 Favorite Dessert ~

37🍦 Favorite Type Of Chocolate ~

38⏳ Mac & Cheese Or Nuggets ~

39🎒 Favorite Movie ~

40🍬 Favorite Cartoon ~

41🚀 Favorite Game ~

42🎀 Favorite Disney Princess ~

43⚾ If You Could Have Any 1 Superpower What Would It Be ~

44🍄 Anime Or Cartoons ~

45🍓 Favorite Carebear ~

46✏️ Shows Or Movies ~

47🐛 Do You Believe In Fairies ~

48🐸 Do You Have A Comfort Character ~

49🌱 Do You Like Rain At Night ~

50🦕 Are You Easily Scared ~

51🧃 Are You Also A Carer ~

52🌵 Are You Independent Or Dependent ~

53🍃 What Pulls You Out Of Headspace ~

54🍏 Are You Scared Of Bugs ~

55🦝 Favorite Toy Series ~

56🚛 Do You Use Pacis ~

57🦴 Do You Use Diaps ~

58🦈 Gear Wishlist ~

59🍵 Favorite Regression Item ~

60🐾 Sippy Cup Or Bottle ~

61🦊 Oldest Stuffie ~

62🎃 Do You Sleep With A Stuffie ~

63🔥 How Many Stuffies Do You Have ~

64🍂 Newest Favorite Stuffie ~

65🏵️ Build A Bear, Amusement Park, Or Disney Store ~

66🥧 Stuffed Animals Or Dolls ~

67👽 Do You Have A Bedtime ~ 

68🍭 Do You Keep An AgeRe Journal ~

69⚡️ Do You Have Rules ~

70🍥 Blankie Or Paci ~

71🌈 Night Light Or Glow-In-The-Dark Stars ~

72🌿 Bedtime Stories Or Lullabies ~

73🎩 Favorite Thing To Do Outside While Small ~

74🐵 Favorite Thing To Do Inside While Small ~

75🦋 Blanket Fort Or Bouncy House ~

76🐯 Stroller Or Walk ~

77🔮 Dress Up Or Tea Party ~

78🦜 Do You Like The Playground ~

79💖 Early Bird Or Night Owl ~

80📝 Indoors Or Outdoors ~

81💕 Warm Or Cold Weather ~

82🦢 Dogs Or Cats ~

83☎️ Do You Have Any Pets ~

84💌 Favorite Animal ~

85🍒 Favorite Holiday ~

86🐇 Favorite Season ~

87❤️ What’s Your Big Age ~

88🌼 What’s A Nostalgic Place For You ~

89🐳 Playdoh, Legos Or Slime ~

90🐙 Do You Collect Anything ~

91🐠 Bubble Baths Or Bath Toys ~

92🍑 Are Your Agere Interests More Fem Or Masc ~

93☔️ Do You Stim More While Regressed ~

94🎨 Favorite Place To Regress ~

95🧵 Favorite Regression Youtuber ~

96🌈 Favorite Site/App For Regression Community ~

97💐 What Do You Wanna Be When You Grow Up ~

98📒 What’s The Most Nostalgic Electronic For You ~

99📀 A Toy You Always Wanted But Never Got As A Kid ~

100🪐 What Is Your Favorite Thing To Learn About In Headspace ~

ASK ME! :D <3

[alsjeblieft-zeg]

277 of 2023

100 questions about you, plus one.

Created by cinymin

How long have you been online today?

Not that long, I was at work.

First name?

Joeri.

Middle name?

Stijn.

Age?

Almost 33.

Male or Female?

Male, from what I know.

What part of the world are you from?

Belgium, if you even know where it is.

How tall are you?

180 cm.

How's your hair?

Short and brown.

What's your favorite color?

Black and green.

What color(s) are you wearing right now?

All black.

What's your shoe size?

Depending on the brand, anything between 41 and 43 in European.

Who owns the computer you are on?

Myself.

What is the first thing you see when you look in the mirror?

Blurry stains of colour lol/. I don’t really see without glasses.

What was the last dream you remember about?

Train station, and the certain person I mentioned once in another survey.

Do you have any birthmarks?

Yes, quite a few.

Do you have any tattoos?

Yes, two.

Do you have any peircings?

Yeah, eight.

How many siblings do you have?

One younger sister.

What's your favorite type of music?

Metal (djent, sludge), hip hop and industrial (EBM, futurepop). But I will listen to almost everything.

What's the worst song ever?

That Dance Monkey shit omg.

What's your favorite movie?

I don’t watch movies.

How long ago did you watch it for the first time?

N/A.

What's the worst movie ever?

All of them, so fucking boring.

When was the last time you went to the theatres?

I don’t go to such places.

What's your favorite show?

All the old British sitcoms.

What's the worst show on television?

All these reality crap shows like Married at First Sight.

What's in your pocket right now?

My work badge and a MOBIB card (De Lijn transport).

What is your first childhood memory?

I don’t remember, I hate this question.

Are your parents still together?

Yeah, 34 years and counting.

Are you adopted?

No, I’m not.

Are you strait, gay/lesbian, bi, or unsure?

Gay, but asexual.

Are you in a relationship?

I’m married.

For how long?

For a year, but we’ve been together for five years.

Ever been in love?

Yes, but was it romantic? I’m not sure.

Are you in love now?

Sure I am.

Do you have kids?

No, I don’t. Not on my own.

Do you want kids?

Not at all.

Do you drink? How often?

No, I don’t.

Do you smoke? How often?

No.

Do you do drugs? What? How often?

Nope.

Look left: What do you see?

My husband.

Look right: What do you see?

Floor lamp.

Are you right or left handed?

Ambidexrtrous, left-dominant, but my left hand got paralysed once and didn’t come back to full mobility.

Can you say the alphabet backwards?

With troubles.

How long are your fingernails?

I always keep them short, I hate long nails.

Is your bedroom a mess?

There’s a bit much in there, but okay.

What's under your bed?

Suitcases.

Do you keep a journal or diary?

Yes, but more like daily planner.

Do you have a house phone, cell phone, or both?

Cellphone only, we don’t have a landline anymore.

Can you keep a secret?

Yes, I can. I’m known for it.

What color are your curtains?

We don’t have any curtains at home.

Do you remember faces or names more easily?

Names, definitely. And I’m even better at remembering voices.

What did you eat for supper last night?

Supper is not a thing in my country.

Who made it?

N/A.

What is your favorite school subject?

Physics.

Are you in school? What grade?

No, I’m not. My uni is still on hiatus.

How long have you been out?/When do you graduate?

I graduated school in 2010 and I did a university degree in 2014.

Can you do a handstand?

No, one of my hands is disabled.

What's your favorite game to play?

Life.

What's your favorite sport?

Basketball.

Would you rather watch sports on TV or go to the game?

I’d better play.

Ever broken a bone?

NO. I’ve never broken a bone in my life.

Ever had surgery?

I had twop, one of them was major, to save my life after brain bleeding.

Ever embarrassed yourself in public?

Probably more times than I can count.

What happened?

The most recent thing was getting aroused in front of the guy I liked. I still hope he didn’t notice it.

Ever had a long distance relationship?

Yes, it didn’t work.

Ever had an online relationship?

No, you can never be sure who is on the other side for real.

Would you ever do it/do it again?

No. It’s simple.

What do you hear right now?

TV and my husband watching videos.

What are you afriad of?

Death, failure, losing.

Do you like scary movies?

I don’t like any movies.

Ever gotten a prank phone call?

I don’t remember.

Are you thirsty?

Not that much.

What was the last thing you had to drink?

Cherry Coke.

How well can you hoola hoop?

I couldn’t care less about these.

Who is the most annoying person you know?

That Romanian dude at work no one likes. He’s a fkn transphobe and homophobe and sexist and all.

What is your dream job right now?

The job I’ve had for the last 9 years.

What was your dream job in kindergarten?

Never thought about it at that time. Probably vet or so.

Do you have a job now? What?

Rail electrician, last 9 years and counting.

What would you do with $1,000,000?

Buy a house and travel the world.

Do you have any pets?

Two cats.

Do you have any hidden talents?

Probably, but they’re not hidden.

Are you double jointed?

Yes, I am.

Can you dance?

Boring question, I don’t give a shit about dancing.

What color are your eyes?

Grey.

Do you need glasses/contacts?

Yes, I’m very nearsighted.

When is your birthday?

This month.

What would be the best present?

A day off somewhere nice with my husband.

What is the worst present you ever received?

Sex toys lol.

What is your pet peeve?

Fries are not French okay?

What did you do last Saturday?

Went for groceries.

Did you shower today?

Like every day.

If you were one of Snow White's seven dwarfs, which one would you be?

I don’t care. I don’t even know their names.

What will you do after you finish this survey?

Maybe another one.

How much sleep did you get last night?

Seven hours something.

What kind of chair are you sitting in?

I’m not sitting on any chair.

Ever been to jail? For what?

No, I haven’t.

When you go swimming do you like oceans, lakes, or pools?

I czan’t swim.

What is the temperature outside?

10°C.

What do you want the temperature to be?

20°C so I can wear my band tees.

Congratulations and here's the last question:

Okay?

What did you think of it, be honest:

Could be better.

[foxfootyinternship]

Finding your feet in the internship: induction, and completing initial tasks

As soon as I arrived to Fox Footy, I immediately felt welcomed and Lynne ensured that I was introduced to all sections of the office and staff. I was introduced to the systems that Fox Footy use to source their vision for promotions, regular shows (AFL360) and overlay. IPD contains more recent games and cut up vision and Flex contains vision from up to 10 years ago. I can already see that the internship is going to be very diverse and that I will be able to get a taste of the different facets and roles that bring a broadcast to life.

Very early on in the piece, I was able to be on the floor for the taping of AFL360. Rob the floor manager was able to walk me through how the show appears flawless on TV, but how there are so many different moving parts to ensure that the overlay comes on at the right time or the camera is prepared for a certain angle for the shot. I am really excited to keep peeling the onion to see how how the producers select certain topics for the show and how the agenda is set. Scully Russ & Torraco (2019), have both found that diversity in the workplace is becoming a key factor in staff happiness and permanency in work.

I have already been able to see how a broadcast of a live game is shot from the ground. The critical role of the producer and director has been showcased and I have seen how important timing is to the overall broadcast.

The one part of the experience so far that was daunting, was the amount of hours and nights that I was working. Acclimatising to this new way of working is something that will take time to get used to. The pace that work needs to be completed & how quickly things move is also a challenge for me so far. Learning the common phrases and language will also take some time. At this point in the internship, I am predominately shadowing and listening to those that have plenty of experience in their roles. I have been given the chance to sit in on an AFLW talent meeting, giving me a taste of what is expected of those in front of the camera and how those behind it can have the production running as smooth as possible.

In the discussion I have had with Lynne have indicated that I will be exposed to more live matches and I will get to experience how games are broadcast on Fox when they are channel 7 exclusive matches. There are also some events coming up which I will be able to shadow crew for, which will take me out of my comfort zone.

Scully-Russ, E, Torraco, R, 2019, The Changing Nature and Organisation of Work: An Integrative Review of the Literature, SAGE Journals, vol. 19, iss.1, p.p 41-47, https://journals.sagepub.com/doi/10.1177/1534484319886394

Above: The Studio Floor for AFL360. Rob the floor manager is the unsung hero of the show!