#i have a whole play list for them and im sad ok

[shadamypositivity]

ok for whoever is interested i just had a wild run in my shadamy sims lore, please advise that i utilize wickedwhims but i'm not going into explicit details necessarily but just wanted to give that disclaimer

so i moved shadow amy and sonic into the same house bc they my favies but also wanted to see what would happen if they were all strangers under the same house. as expected, sonic was obsessed with the pool bc he's athletic, and shadow was chillin bc i forgot to give him a crystal table so he didnt have anything to do lol, and then i mainly played amy bc i like cooking and playing dress up with her. 

i was happy to know that shadow immediately wanted to befriend amy, she was most of his aspirations lol, and sonic was joining clubs and was a pro athlete, but i was still going to play the long slow burn with shadamy.

shadamy had different plans and as soon as they reached good friends, amy was like meet me in the bedroom and I sighed and said well who am i to deny fate, so they had sex.

amy immediately gets pregnant, to my surprise, and i debated whether or not to abort it bc this was moving a little fast for me, i didnt even get to do a date with them, but then i was like well it was leading to this anyway so sure, why not, i love moontoonsey's shadamy fankid so i can finally make her in the sims if i do this so lets go. 

amy is pregnant and tells shadow who is super happy and im emo bc thats so cute stop; she didnt tell sonic yet bc i was like, they would be kind of a lowkey relationship right so i'll do it later-- so christmas comes, i do the whole shebang bc i know amy loves parties and traditions and i try to meet all the criteria, and santa claus has just walked in when !!! amy gets a moodlet thaat says she's cramping and that something is wrong, she has to go to the hospital --

she has a miscarriage which has never in the history of my sims has happened, even for my party girl character i made where i was doing everything under the sun to get her to have miscarriages bc i couldnt afford her abortion rates T T, and the whole damn house sad, shadamy sad, sonic who didnt even know about the baby is sad, SANTA is sad!!!!! i was so upset bc like what?? i even go into amy's mods to make sure she's hyperfertile, and that her pregnancy chances are high.

needless to say i spent the last week trying for another baby bc now this is personal lol shadow has been crying in the bed everyday, i have to fix this! amy never gets pregnant again, has like 2 periods, but i constantly check her fertility tests and its always 0???? like hello?????? what is going on. 

i get on last night after an emotional weekend lol and decide i am playing God, Amy will have a baby today lol i need this. so i try to adjust her mod settings again and then just cheat into a pregnancy bc whatever atp. i move sonic out to live with rouge and knuckles in the city bc i love his homeless mooching ass, and fix up the room bc what could go wrong. 

i put amy to bed, i put shadow to bed when suddenly shadow's task list blows up and im like wtf is there a fire or something - NO ITS ANOTHER MISCARRIAGE ?!?!?!?!?!?!??!

i pressed pause and messaged my bestie bc WHATTTT is going on  lol and she replies back 'WAIT STAY PAUSED' and facetimes me to help me override the miscarriage and send her straight into labor. 

a stressful 5 minutes later, amy has not one, but TWO babies so i had to fix up the baby room again lol BUTTTT it was one boy and one girl haha so i decided to name the boy Silver since i still love the shadamy is silver's ancestor's headcanon, and ofc the baby girl maria and now i gotta make sure two babies are fed smh but genuinely never in my life had so much issues with pregnancies like this!! an emotional rollercoaster and for what

[dwindlinghaze]

Hello, how are you?

I would like to make a request where one day there is a list of the most uninteresting girls/girls that boys would never ask for a date and the reader's name is one of the first most voted just because she is shy and introverted. Remus has a crush on her and even the reader disguising it he can see that she is sad and pulling away from her friends (it's ok if you don't want to write my request, I understand <3)

hi angel, im doing good! tysm for requesting!! here is it, hope you enjoy 🤍🌸🫧💕

when raindrops fell

contents : angst, insecurity, lovely remus, we don't support people who tear women down for no reason!!

warnings : okay so just a heads up, the upper part of the fic is just me ranting about how much i hate the patriarchy and how harmful this kind of behaviour is especially towards young girls,,,, but i hope you like it!!! <333333

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murmurs about a list of girls that are unlovable has been spreading around. you couldn't help but worry deep down.

you hated that idea. whoever created that has a special place on hell rsvp-ed for them. it was crucial.

you are shy and introverted but that doesn't mean you have zero thoughts on this. your stomach twisted because this whole thing is coming from such a misogynistic place.

and the fact that it said 'girls that boys would never ask' grew some resentment you never knew was there. living in such a patriarchal world is hard for a woman, especially young girls. they would grow up thinking it's their fault that people dislike them, but in reality it's the injustice social system that is harmful for both men and women. (and in between!)

"y/n did you hear? your name is one of the top on the lists!" a guy snorted.

you waved him off, thinking that he is just playing with you. well- that was until you saw the list. you were there.

you couldn't help but feel insecure. you sort of knew that nobody really glanced over their shoulders just to see you but by creating this, you were sure of it now.

you were embarrassed. you wouldn't dare getting out of your room. even your friends noticed the change in you. you weren't your usual confident and self-loving self anymore. if anything, you think it actually took a toll on you.

remus saw the way your eyes don't lit up anymore, the way you look sadder every passing day. he's feeling so melancholic by the way your usual self that he has grown fond of is fading away.

it hurts him actually. how can someone be so evil? how can anyone voted for you? it is a privilege to get to know you. they're missing out.

how can anyone see you that way. you are the prettiest person in the world! it's unfair how terribly kind people are treated by society.

"y/n?" remus called out to the dark.

"what," you croaked, voice hoarse. you haven't been speaking for a while.

"just wanna check if you're okay," he smiled.

"i'm fine," you said, though your expression tells otherwise.

"you wanna talk about it?" he asked.

you shook your head.

"hey, listen. you're pretty. the prettiest actually. don't mind about that stupid list. whoever created that- they think they rule the school, but they don't. so don't let them get to you yeah? you're prefect just how you are. please don't change a thing. don't satisfy them. they're doing this because they have no job," he grinned. "look at you! minding your own business, that's why you're the best person in school- in the world!"

"but that's not enough," you sniffed.

"what's not enough? you're more than enough," he assured you. then he realised, the latter part. "say, do you want to go to hogsmeade with me? next weekend."

"don't pity me like that," you said, shaking your head at him.

it breaks his heart how you thought someone would ask you out for a date just because of pity. it's the opposite actually. it came from true feelings and generosity.

"i'm not pitying you, i do like you since- forever," he said. "i write poems about you, about your face, your personality, your heart, yourself. you're dreamy."

"guess.... i'll go on a date with you."

[drinkabletoxicdishsoap]

ok wait come here i have a hc that jasmine has pica (the eating disorder which makes you crave inedible objects) not for anything im just tossing you my own crumbs bcuz were the only 2 fans of her out there existing (and also because if i had to explain the winn family lore i made up it would be boring)

OMG WAIT I LOVE THAT HEADCANON AHHH TYSM FOR SHARING!! She was definitely the type of kid you would see just chew on toys, paper, and crayons in kindergarten. Same thing with doll accessories or doll toys.

I feel like I have to share my Jasmine headcanons so take 30ish Jasmine headcanons!! I was going to make this a separate post but might as well share it right now :3 If I do think of more, I’ll either reblog, edit, or reply!! I’m sorry if they’re out of character or it seems like I’m projecting 💔

but I would to hear your Winn family lore!! Only if you’re comfortable with it ofc! I’m going to make a Winn headcanon list and hopefully get it out by tomorrow after or before school

you know the style decora? I personally feel like she would wear it and totally make it her whole thing!! could just me though. I feel like she could also have a scene phase too

loves to design anything with stickers. she has like a million sticker books

she would listen to silly upbeat instrumental music

she either loves to get her face paint, or loves to do it to her friends!

whenever she has a sleepover with her friends, she always ask to do karaoke with them

goes to adoption centers and fawns over the animals there

musical theatre fan.. hamilton fan even.. she knows so many musicals!! ask her about even one and she’ll infodump

paints in her free time or does art classes

i don’t know if jasmine will do a sport but if she ever does one.. I’d feel like she’d do cheer, gymnastics, or lacrosse

hear me out.. but I feel she’d be a furry and would be a fursuiter but she’d make her own costume.. maybe I’m just crazy though. It’s up to you what animal or what hybrid she’d be!!

as much as I love idea of her getting all different kinds of ice cream flavors at either an ice cream place or the grocery store, I feel like she’s scared to try new flavors and usually just sticks to one.

might as well say it now but scared of trying new things

she has so many littlest pet shops/ LPS.. she plays with them and acts out silly little scenarios with them.. my little pony toys too

she’s one of the best chalk artists you’ve ever seen and LOVES to draw with chalk

hear me out but a wings of fire fan!!

she has so.. so many rainbow looms and makes so many bracelets out of them

coloring books.. so many!! girl loves her coloring books. She colors them whenever she feels scared

takes photos with her friends or just photos in general with a Polaroid camera

2010’s music fan.. 💀💀💀💀

Sanrio fan, but more specifically usahana’s #1 fan. She loves the more obscure and underrated Sanrio characters

she only has pattern and bright colored clothing!! also so many silly and colorful socks

little sad headcanon 😞 but she overworks herself when it comes to her singing to the best possible she can be

LOVES her silly furniture!!

ANIMAL CROSSING FAN TRUST!!!!

buys the notebooks and folders for school with the silly designs

as long as the media isn’t scary, she loves her underrated/underground and obscure media

She LOVESSS animals omg. The Amazon rainforest.. she loves all of the animals on the Amazon rainforest

she LOVEESSSS frogs

if she gets braces, she WILL ask for them to be rainbow colored and you WILL make it so that they are

she’s so brainrotted sorry not sorry

rhythm game player

sonic fan

strawberry shortcake (the character 😭) fan.. and care bear fan too

Christmas is her favorite holiday.. the music.. the movies.. the crappy hallmark movies

DRAMA CHANNEL WATCHER !! she will be caught up with all of the TikTok drama don’t try her. She will rant to winn and Jasmine who just slowly nod 😭😭

That’s it 🤯 sorry it’s super long :d thank you so much for coming to another yap session! I hope you have a great day/night to whoever is reading this. thank you for sharing your silly headcanon as well! If anyone has any more headcanons, feel free to share in my inbox, reblogs, or replies!!

[angelmichelangelo]

I read your answer about 07 Mikey and it also kinda gives the vibes of Bayverse Mikey, specifically the version of him from the second movie. His main thing is that he wants to be out in the world and meeting new people, and he actually cries when the police turn on them and call them monsters. Im genuinely so obsessed with that scene.

I'm kinda new to the fandom and as I understand the bayverse movies are so-so in most people's opinion. But those were my initial entry point into the franchise back in like 2015/2017, so they do hold a special place in my experience.

For the actual ask: thoughts on Bayverse Mikey?

OHH OHHHH BAYVERSE MIKEY!! i do actually very much like those movies. like yourself, a big part of it is just nostalgia because i got into tmnt like as they were coming out but. they aren’t like the WORST movies ever. they have their flaws and there’s definitely a lot of things i do not like about them but.. im one of the few that will hype this movie up so. thank you for enabling me.

off the bat i wanna say everything about bayverse mikey is special to me. completely ignoring and erasing the whole. awkward weird april crush he had going on. bayverse mikey is actually so enjoyable. he’s funny he’s just Typical little brother but oh my god is he so sad :( again he’s just the perfect culmination of that whole “sociable extrovert forced to be introvert” type that most of his iterations are but this one.. this version just hits different.

one of my favourite plot points ever is that when it’s revealed that there is a very real chance that they could become human and live normal lives, the first thing leo does upon discovering this is make it VERY clear that mikey is not to find out. of course, it takes all but 10 seconds for him to find out because raph has overhears and gets SUPER offended on his brothers behalf (again. something they do SO WELL is the mikey and raph duo in this movie vs leo and a begrudging donnie, something not often done!) and of course, mikey is just so conflicted the entire movie and it’s wonderful.

he’s so tortured in that sequel. he’s SO desperate for a normal life. he has the chance, right there and leo basically snatches it out of his grasp and he kinda just rolls with it because it’s his brothers or nothing at the end of the day, and that’s SO SAD!! but going back to the whole point of leo being up in donnie’s grill like “yeah ok whatever there’s a retromutgen keep that under wraps, mikey is to NOT find out about this” just proves that each of his brothers understand how much their brother is hurting for a life of normality. i think i made a list once regarding which turtles would be most likely to want to be human/live amongst the humans and mikey almost always came up on top.

he’s always the “cool party fun dude” which is often code for comic relief character but when you look into it. these are characters that are forced into a hard, cruel life away from society. characters that for a good 15ish years, only know each other and their father. imagine mikey spending all that time, desperate for normality and for friends… like yeah he has his bros but he knows there’s more out there in the world and he wants it so much more than the others do.. and that’s why leo gets hot on donnie about keeping the retromutagen a secret. he knows what mikey will be thinking. he’s watched him play it out a million times over as kids, and leo is just so afraid that in giving him a choice, he’ll lose his brother because of it…

and when mikey does get to experience the world for the first time, he’s called a monster and almost killed. leo warned him of it and yet he still had faith that he had a place in the world only to be proven wrong almost instantly.. that’s so devastating. i remember sobbing in the theatres during that scene and i still do shed a tear when i rewatch because damn!!! mikey being sad is so gutwrenching:(((

but yes. i don’t think we ever talk about bayverse mikey and all his trauma enough simply because those movies get a somewhat bad rep. again, im not claiming them to be perfect movies. sadly all of those points i just mentioned kinda fall flat when you remember the, ahem, shell tightening comment he made… but i digress. he’s a sad little turtle that deserves more love than he’s given. and i shall love him :P

[tincanwreckedpulp-agere]

Alright the BIG hc’s post is finally here (pulp related ofc)

- rose and samuel are both pet regressors & age regressors (they sometimes regress at the same time, or one of them is the cg of the other)

- rose and samuel made a constellation language when they were children, and sometimes whike regressed they write eachother in the language

- rose usually takes care of samuel when he regresses after work

- rose easily slips into regression when shes talking about her stories

- margaret is an age regressor & a puppy regressor (samuel or john are her cg’s) (also before them she was alone)

- definetly regresses to around 6-8

- when rose kitty regresses, she does the laser trick with her radiance

- when she is a cg however, she usually shows off her solar system & let the littles play with the model

- she also 100% hums lullaby’s to them

- puts on silly little lightshows for the littles

- anna hanover is 100% an age regressor (maybe a petre but idk what genre)

- definetly regressors slightly around john when they arent working (to around 10-13, its not fully noticeable even for her)

- sometimes get stressed with the amount of work she has to do in ts9 and regresses while working (john usually takes care of her when she does)

- easily regresses when around people she trusts (mostly john)

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- john is THE cg (he likes taking care of littles to be like his dad)

- usually is anna’s cg (also a cg to anyone he can be a cg for)

- loves taking littles on adventures (not too much so their feet dont get sore & they dont get tired)

- john calls anna ‘nova’ when shes regressed

- he generally has nicknames for the littles hes caring for (such as: little sprout, shooting star)

- ahlaam is such a bunny regressor

- dakkar is her cg usually

- i think the travelers are generally super accepting about agere & petre

Super big list like i promised :3

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SO WHAT IF I HUGGED YOU!!!! THESE ARE ALL EVERYTHING TO ME.

ok, so im going to cry over the stratfords. aw, such precious things. and the constellation language! they take care of each other <333

puppy regressor margaret my beloved.. adds a whole nother layer to her talking to the moon <33 poor thing. it makes sense that she would have been alone, but that's so sad. the laser trick thing 😭😭 i love them 😭😭 lullabies and solar systems and light shows <33

yeah anna!! those all make sense, especially the one about her not really noticing when she regresses.

john is a dad. 100%. adventures and nicknames let's go

ahlaam and dakkar <333 yeah <3333

thank you for these, they're incredible.

[lorillee]

what's your favorite and least favorite mini games from the whole series and why? it seems that mahjong is a cursed name

OK i was going to answer this message yesterday but i was running around and just did not have time. But i do have opinions and one day i WILL be making a tierlist. unfortunately this is not comprehensive because theres also a number of minigames i just havent really played enough to have a strong opinion on because as i progressed in the series i got too invested in the plot to run around and do all the side things. we WILL be going back though its just taking a while cuz ive got other stuff going on. anyways ONTO THE QUESTION

favorites: - karaoke: if youve been following my liveblogs youre probably aware that im a huge karaoke nut. i love karaoke its so important to me it makes me so happy that i can take gangsters to the karaoke bar and let them sing their hearts out its so silly its so important i love it so much - disco: genuinely i think one of the most diabolical things in the yakuza franchise is that the disco minigame never makes a comeback. which like i can appreciate given that its something that exists due to the era in which y0 is set But its also diabolical because everything about it makes me absurdly happy. friday night i think actually mightve been my first real exposure to yakuza as well - cabaret club (prior to gaiden): the cabaret club management is pretty fun but i really enjoy mostly just getting to talk to the girls theyre honestly all really funny. additionally its a really fun tool for fleshing out the pov characters as well and overall i like it quite a lot. - taxi driver: not sure how much of my liveblog you've retained so ill keep it vague but at some point there is a taxi driver minigame and like i actually adore it i think its ridiculously fun they like grade you on your driving and people skills and its a lot to keep track of but i love it. like i mentioned earlier that theres a number of minigames i havent had time to really sit down and do because i zeroed in on the plot, but i loved the taxi minigame so much i sat there and did it for hours i love that thing - photo booth: this one barely counts as a minigame bc theres not much interaction but its just really cute i love it. i love it so much. - comedy duo: this ones unlocked through a substory but basically the premise is that some guy's comedy partner walked out on him so the pov character offers to help out instead. the goal is to pick the funniest response and have the best comedic timing, so its mostly just how fast you can read + react, but its really silly and i love it so much - movie theater: the goal for this one is to make sure that ichiban doesnt fall asleep bc the movies are insanely boring so its basically just a pure reaction based minigame, but what i really love about it is that he can take his friends with him and theres certain movies that they'll really love and theyll get so excited and its soooooo cute. But make sure you pay attention to whats going on because they WILL be sad if you dont remember - miss match: ill have to be honest putting ichiban on an online dating app is quite possibly like the funniest premise for a minigame and its just. SO SILLYYYYYYYY its so silly and im beyond obsessed with it. i struggle because im still trying to learn the ps remote inputs but its so funny i cannot lie to you i love it - mahjong: Look man you already know i love mahjong. MAHJONG FOREVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! she got me into yakuza anyways so i could never hate her

least favorite: - batting: dude i hate the batting cages. honestly the least favorite list would be a lot longer if i tried 100% all of these games but since the only one im doing rn is y0... Well i have a lot of hatred in my heart for some of these games. anyways back to the point my reaction speed is not great and the gold rushes truly put me through something abominable. HATE BATTING CAGES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! - golf: Genuinely i feel like this game just hates me in every way even following the guides i literally cannot get the ball to go where i want it to go ever and its such a miserable wretched time and I HATE GOLF I HATE GOLF IIII HATEEEE GOLFFFFFFFF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! - koi koi: My koi koi trauma. dude i spent so long trying to get the koi koi completion point for y0 it was truly embarrassing. part of that was because i didnt realize you could double the bet or whatever in the settings but also the other part of it was that i think the game just kind of hates me. Once you figure out the yaku though its not as bad but still. - blackjack: this one really isnt even fair because its entirely my fault but i spent so long trying to get the y0 blackjack completion point and couldnt get anywhere because you can only win pittance... Or so i thought. Because there was a high stakes blackjack table the whole time like right across the room and i DIDNT REALIZE?????????? But i hate blackjack anyways because im scarred - telephone club: hoenstly its not that hard but its just annoying because im so bad at hitting the right responses and its a game that im so clearly not the target audience for so im like Ok this is stupid. Hate you. WHATEVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! - ufo catcher: im just really bad at this game in general but ill be honest with you the ufo catchers in y5 are genuinely evil and out to get you. Remember this. - cabaret club (gaiden and onwards):

[xxxg0ryygurlll13xxx]

political hopelessness

the current state of american politics is terrifying, we all know this. right now i am once again crying over it. i posted on my instagram story awhile ago a post about president trump taking over the kennedy center, americas art institution, to censor it and ban "woke" plays and musicals basically scrap the arts and my bubbe my jewish grandmother whos family escaped eastern europe during WWII swiped up and responded

"this is what the nazis did."

that was about a week or 2 ago but i havent stopped thinking about it. i never responded. i mean what do i say to that? i know thats what the nazis did, i know that trump and elon are basically hitler and himmler re incarnated but what can i do? nothing. nothing thats what. im a 17 year old girl with nothing to stand on. the people chose trump knowing what hed do. this isnt surprising to anyone. a bill recently passed in the house that would make almost all married woman unable to vote (it said u cant vote unless ur name matches ur birth certificate).

no one seems to care though. people have stopped talking about these things. 3 more republicans did hitler salutes and all my global issues teacher had to say about that was that soon we'll be heiling the american flag every morning. my family didnt flee europe for this. they didnt pack up everything including their little daughter and come to america the land of the free for this. for nazis to come back into power.

im scared above all else. ive seen this before, ive read Maus, ive red Night, ive seen Schindlers List, ive been told the stories of how it started by my bubbe and zeyde and aunties and uncles. those stories all end with "never forget, never again" i dont want this. we cant have this again, to anyone. no one should be taken away, "go missing".

its all happening so fast yet so slow at the same time. massive layoffs, replacing workers with yes-men, pushing propaganda, outright saluting, making people pledge their allegience to one man who calls himself King, and sleeps with mein kampf next to his bed. weve seen this before. it wont be long until were all done for.

and yet i have an english essay due tomorrow morning, prom shoes to buy, driving lessons this weekend, a chem test tomorrow, life goes on. my world seems to be ending or at least crashing and i still have things to do. i worry about my bubbe and zeyde being hate crimed in florida cause i know no one would help them.

weve become the very thing we fought against 80 years ago, Nazis. i long for a time when the socially acceptable answer to "what would u do if u had a time machine?" would be to kill baby hitler. nothing is ok. it just keeps getting worse. someday in the next 3 years and 11 months i will have my i told u so moment, when no one is allowed to read anything not government approved, we have another great depression, and the arts are dead. i know exactly how we got here and i have a feeling i know how it will end, i dont want it to go that way but theres nothing i can do.

i will never forget when i woke up the day after election day to the news alerts that he won. frantically trying to find a source saying he lost, to no avail. going into my mothers room to say goodbye like i do every morning before leaving for school and as soon as i saw her i started to cry like a baby. she hugged me as i cried cause i was scared she told me "i wont let anything happen to us, well be ok" but i saw that look in her eyes. she had a sad uncertain look, a scared look in her eyes one that told me she was scared too. scared and sad. i walked into school and saw girls with their heads down on the tables weeping. everyone was sad, there was such a gloomy air to everything.

it rained that day. it was the 7th day of rain in a row. one full week of rain and flash flood warnings. it was so rainy and cold. my chem teacher talked about female scientists the whole class, my very cynical global issues teacher told us to get our popcorn ready cause it was gonna be a hell of a ride, i called my best friend when i got home he seemed sad too, but not the same kind of sad. sad yes but not mourning. we talked, talked about the future how uncertain it was and still is.

i know how he got elected but i still have such a lingering unknowing. i was so confident she would win "how could people not elect her??? she stands for all things good!! She has morals, kindness, she cares about people!" i got so blinded by my confidence i forgot the american people would never elect a woman. i hope in my lifetime we get a woman president but i think ill be long dead by the time that happens.

if it ever does.

[dear-god-christ-in-hell]

i have no where else to just spill this out and i fucking cant anymore

im ashamed to be a human

im ashamed to be an american

im ashamed that as a whole humanity has falid over and over and over again

im ashamed that people in power can sleep at night knowing whats happening in the world

babies are fucking dying

BABIES ARE FUCKING DYING

men, women, children who fucking cares

HUMAN BEINGS ARE BEING SHOT AT, BOMBED, GASSED, STRIPED OF THEIR HUMANITY BY PEOPLE WHO ONLY CARE ABOUT THEMSELVES

IT IS THE 21ST FUCKING CENTURY AND WE AS A HUMAN POPULATION ARE STILL GETTING AWAY WITH THIS SHIT

im so fucking ashamed

i cant even keep the tears in anymore and i know that my tears being shed across the sea sitting on my couch unable to do fuck all but keep myself informed as every video, picture, statement, fact, and link i share is fuck all for help

all i can think about everyday is just how bad i feel knowing that my taxes, my country, my species is doing this to PEOPLE

those are people and i cant help but want to save them all but I FUCKING CANT

and the ones who CAN want to make this all fucking complecated or deny it all like some fucking conspiricy

i am ashamed knowing in 20 years people my age will be asking why the hell did we let something like this happen

and NO ONE will have a good enough answer

i cant cry enough for every life lost and i cant fight for every life lost but for gods sake i will try my fucking best because they deserve empathy, understanding, and fucking HELP

this is atrocious and i cant even say specifically because ITS HAPPENING EVERYWHERE

people in palestine, congo, sudan, college students, fucking anyone and everyone who isnt rich white and fucking privledged

i am udderly disgusted by our species

not even fucking bears would do this

no other fucking creature in the damn galexy would do things like this

did we not learn from all the fucking wars!??!?!??!

did we not learn that this is never ok

did we not learn fucking empathy?

i cant decide to be mad, sad, fucking anything all i know is im absolutly crushed thinking about mass graves, children cuffed with zipties, new anti protesting tools that should count as war weapons, hospitals schools homes everything being bombed, everything being on fire, families in their homes thinking theyre safe only for a bomb to eviserate anything they held near and dear WHILE THEYRE ASLEEP IN BED, governments boxing in survivers lying to them saying theyre safe only to drop little fucking papers from the sky to litter the only thing they have left with a fucking note saying "oh yeah we told you youd be safe, now your not", starving people forced to live out of tents as everything theyve ever known or loved is fucking burned

i want to help

i want to help so bad

i keep myself informed and i listen to the voices telling us to help and all i can think about is how so many fucking voices are screaming for someone fucking anyone to stop this massacre

and i cant fucking help

all i want is for those people to have their homes and their lives and their fucking families back but i know thats not fucking possible anymore and i cant even describe the amount of pain i feel in my chest everyday knowing that another 100 people are gonna die before i go to bed that night

the pain i feel when im sitting on my porch trying to enjoy the weather knowing that somewhere the weather isnt warm or sunny or even shitty and mucky. the rain is some places is not water to hydrate the earth or snow for forts and snowball fights. the rain in some places is fire, bombs, smoke, bullets and by god what does that fucking accomplish

and instead of being able to sing in the rain and play in the snow people are being forced to take cover and learn what a fucking bomb is

i cannot even list how many atrocities have happened, and i cannot even bare to list how many pictures and videos and evidence of the inhumanity happening exsist and are being called fucking fake

you cannot fake mass graves

or someone being buried alive

or someone being skinned

or someone having to amputate their own daughters leg

or any of the other 100s of things that people are being forced to endure

for gods sake we are watching bombs get dropped on people willing to take bandages of their own wounds to help a hurt dog

where did humanity go

if there is a god theyve fucking left us

if there is a god theyre fucking weeping

if their is a god for christs sake ive never wanted one to exsist more just so HOPEFULLY all the prayers work and all this fucking ends

i dont want to watch people dying anymore

i dont want to hear about students risking everything to make sure their voices are heard

i dont want to see police and governments let this happen and support it

i just want to see people be happy

please i just want all the violence and corruption to end

i dont want to see children screaming for help

i dont want to open every social media and see families begging for help

its disgusting that this is even possible after all of history says not to do this shit anymore

i so fucking sorry to all the people all the fucking humans who are suffering right now

im so fucking sorry

[hellonerf]

OHH same anon as lasg time!!! now rhat we have confirmation of relationships can we maybe get a list of em?

OK... i will try my best... keep in your mind i am ame guy i always think about ame its a torturous existence but i will use this opportune to explain my 2ptalia. i wont make a list cz thats hard so i'll just write as much as i can. long paragraphs here we go

2p fra and 2p eng live in the manor and he's the head of the household there (of like two people lol). 2p eng plays the role of a stay at home mother and 2p fra the father. years back meri and nada lived there as the kids. 2p eng likes playing house but he wants full control of the house so its suffocating for the others. meri especially had always needed particular kinds of help and rejected alot of 2p england's ways. but 2p eng was also very particular about things so they clashed really badly. 2p eng fed him shit like human meat idk how to fit this in but this old 2p thing is so funny to me i have to keep it anyways that was a thing meri was kind of the problem child there. 2p eng did not like meri lol but it was under layers of strange lying and false affections

nada was like... a lying kid he'd just go with what was told of him quietly and kind of halfassedly to get things done. but he also would try to cool down situations to keep himself and meri safe. he fed meri wild berries or whatever other foods that meri wouldn't get sick from and puke out so he didn't end up seriously malnourished... a good older brother. if not a little aloof. (and meri could be difficult sometimes because. you know. obviously. and nada didnt always know how to respond to him properly). he is all annoyed by meri Now bcz of how clingy and needy he is and how meri seems to want him to prioritize his needs over nada's own. meri doesn't intend this but nada to him is someone who'd never drop him anyways and meri wants to feel whatever counts as happy at the moment (does whatever he wants lol).

2p fra is useless husband lol ok but he is a sad sad guy and he doesnt gaf anymore and just stays in the manor and during the brothers childhood mostly turned the other way. he can garden tho theres that! also 2p eng can actually cook he just does shit but he can cook well. hes demanding of his husband and purposefully difficult sometimes... likes testing him.

nada and 2p eng's relationship is a lot better but nada holds his tongue a lot anyways. they get along pretty okay and meri is like im really chill about that (not really)(but well nada likes me more than him anyways... he'll always take my side no matter what he tells england...). meri thinks 2p fra hates him too but 2p fra doesnt he just doesnt gaf about those damn kids. after meri and nada ran away 2p fra was like well i guess this family doesnt really have kids anymore. and 2p eng waslike no they just left for college. (2p fra: college doesnt exis.t.. okay). now meri and nada adventures the small deserted world they live in on a shitty motorcycle doing errands and jobs for people.

now for other guys. 2p ita is an asshole to like everyone but he gets things done. he keeps things in line in most of the area though some people dont listen to him even if he threatens them. he's pretty aware of whats his strengths and what isnt so hes calculating about who and how he exerts control... hes the one who figured out the very faraway portal door to 1p world. he lives in a long asymmetric tower that looks like a radio tower... 2p ger works here for him and basically lives there too. 2p ger is a kind of mechanic thats weirdly clumsy but also really good at his work. (2p ger gives us gratuitous fanservice from tripping over lines that werent there previously and 2p ita pops three whole blood vessels at once!) 2p jp is the bodyguard ish. but he kind of hates being under people so he doesnt always listen to his bosses. (2p ita knows how to get him to listen tho even if its a hassle). 2p ita hires meri and nada to do shit sometimes (mostly nada cz meri is worse at listening than him. but meri shows up there anyways so they get to know each other's working styles). they dont like each other but due to a job now 2p ger, meri, and nada all know about the door so he has to figure out to keep them in check about it

2p pru is 2p ger's older brother that was a major deal but lost his whole arm!!! and is now weak and sad. so 2p ger mostly takes care of him and his mechanical arm. 2p ger has little loyalty to people, but he takes care of his brother anyways. he'd probably sell him out lol but then take care of him after anyways.

2p roma is on the radio Oh i forgot to mention everyone has a little walkie talkie or radio that connects to the radio tower and this is like their only source of entertainment (unless germy lets them borrow his shitty laptop) and well communication of sorts. anyways hes on the radio always and has to keep coming up with material and sometimes has to pretend like hes 2p ita when giving announcements... 2p ita thinks hes annoying and thinks whatever "entertainment" he gives on the radio sucks ass but they got each others backs anyways.

2p japan as i said is a kind of bodyguard but he's very protective of his work and also not friendly like at all. 2p chi is not rly his mentor but they keep running into each other anyways. 2p chi is kind of true idgaf guy he lives in one of the houses closer to the radio tower because its convenient and he couldnt care less about the other people around. he keeps a lot of old things in his house like old jewelry old trinkets just old old things of their world. he might've been the one who found the laptop and just gave to it to 2p ger just cz he asked. 2p ger gets his mechanical materials from him because nobody else keeps shit they find cause they suck and are lazy. so germys always like man that guys the best! and 2p japan grits his teeth and stars come out from him gritting his teeth cz of how hard he grit his teeth. 2p chi does not gaf abt 2p japan of course its like a weird beef... he keeps the old trinkets because its useful and he might find a thing or two that makes his life more convenient... if not he'll sell or give them away. he listens to the radio and thinks it sucks but not much else to do.

2p spain is a little further away from the radio tower but he's there. he lives in someplace that looks like a church but if you walk in its basic house interior. he is a shit guy but knows and keeps and sells information around here. 2p ita has beef with him for that(but its fine... he's a patient guy... kgh...) and instead of talking directly for managing stuff he just sends 2p roma to do it.(romas like i dont rly wanna... but fine.. cz im just rly charitable...) 2p spain likes throwing glass at people thats just a thing he does. meri and nada doesnt like doing jobs for him but he pays a lot so they do it anyways. 2p ger wouldnt mind working for him but 2p spain doesnt trust his weird mechanics and technology... he does things manually. of course he doesnt know but many things of his house runs on the same mechanics...

2p russia is closer to the radio tower than 2p spain is but relatively not close. he likes keeping the plants and ecosystem in this world alive because nobody else is managing it. (2p fra would but he's in that fuckass manor all the time... this pisses 2p rus alot cz instead of being useful to the environment hes just There). meri has no idea but the only reason there was wild berries all around and various non-meat food is cz of 2p rus. 2p rus barely knows of him tho he just hears abt them like oh those two who would do anything for a little piece of money. 2p russia always has the radio on because information is valuable even if right now its just a shitty improvised soap opera on the radio... he doesnt like other people and only interacts if he must.

aaand i forgot to mention but 2p eng's manor has one singular radio connected to the radio tower but its like always turned off and hidden. 2p eng doesnt like 2p ita and doesnt agree with how he runs things at all and is the one who is most uncooperative with him. thats why 2p eng is really secluded living in the manor... he's the furthest away from the radio tower. 2p ita thinks hes a freak but hes mostly not causing trouble for him so he lets him do whatever that shit is.

[sharpth1ng]

Sorry if this is a weird ask but I’ve recently lost my billy person and im wondering how to move on. We were almost exactly how you write them except for the obvious so i was hoping for some insight. As of now i dont feel like a person with him not in my life anymore.

Hey so I'm probably not the ideal relationship/ breakup advice giver but I'm gonna do my best.

First of all I want to say that from what I've written so far Stu deserves better than what Billy is giving him. He deserves communication, reciprocity and expressions of care that Billy isn't emotionally mature enough to give at this point in the story, and you deserve that too.

Second, my breakup recovery formula has two steps:

Feel whatever you're feeling

Sadness, anger, loss, literally whatever you're feeling you need to let yourself have that. If you're like me it's really tempting to just stuff that shit down and bury it but doing that just makes it explode out of you later. So you need to vent, write it out, draw angsty stuff, go for long walks listening to your most emo song selection. Whatever feels right for you to let that shit out, just try not to take it out on yourself. You don't deserve that.

It also helps to treat yourself. Have special snacks, take a hot bath if you like those. Let yourself play video games for a whole day if that's something you do. Basically just indulge yourself in a positive way.

2. Figure out who you are on your own and who you want to be

Honestly that's the best advice I can give to anyone, whether or not you're going through a breakup or the loss of a friendship. It's a lot easier to build a healthy connection when you know and feel (at least mostly) secure in yourself. It can be hard to get there and it's alright to be a work in progress, but there's nothing scarier than being in state where you need someone else to define you. That makes you vulnerable to manipulation and in my experience it also just makes me weird and paranoid in the relationships I do have.

Figuring out who you are can mean a lot of stuff because there's a lot of things you can be, but basically you just start trying things. Make a list of stuff you've always wanted to try. Pick up a new hobby, learn a new skill, join a group or community. Sometimes it can be good to join an activist group or take part in some kind of collective action- helps you feel connected and like you're making a positive change outside of yourself.

You can also try out a new clothing style, try listening to some new music, just give yourself a dose of stuff that's somewhat new to you. You don't have to stick to any of it and you don't have to like it all, but trying shit gives you opportunities to get to know yourself more, what you like and don't like for its own sake as opposed to what anyone else thinks of it.

This shit takes time and it's not easy, but nothing lasts forever, including sadness. You'll get through it, you'll figure yourself out better, and eventually you'll move on, whether that's on your own or with someone else.

Regardless, I hope you're doing alright right now. Just take it one step at a time, you'll be ok <3

[nbmudkip]

does it have to be comissions?

- EmpError

- blessing

- infinitely gray

- sekai-chan and kafu-chan's errand

- spinal fluid explosion girl

- children record

- the entire concept of sbibo

- kimiagure mercy

- haikei doppelganger

oh my god the LIST. ok here goes

1. emperror

i did ex, for any songs with no difficulty mentioned i’ll probably default to mas unless the mas is 33+ in which case i’ll just pick whichever i feel like atm. this ex chart is rly solid imo i have fun with it. its my fave ex chart of the three tho dftm is close. the faster bits in this one keep me on my toes and i almost fucked a solid few of them up hence the greats. 6/10 fond memories

2. blessing

why did you do this. why did you make me play this. you know how i feel about this song and this chart already. i messed up because i was thinking too hard about how angry i was at you for making me play this fucking song. hitting you with sticks. 0/10 it sucked

3. infinitely grey

wow another stinker. listen i have a bit of positive bias towards this one since it was one of my first lv30 aps but yeah it’s not great. so repetitive and of such an annoying note pattern too. she gets a 3/10 for nostalgia for the good ol days and nothing else

4. sekai-chan and kafu-chan’s errand

u rly had to pick one of my weakest lv32s…..the chart is a blast tho i wont lie. am i good at it? no. but holy shit is it fun. tappytappytappy brain good. i love the fast flicks in every chorus altho the end of the final chorus is the bane of my existence. 7.5/10 delicious adrenaline rush

5. spinal fluid explosion girl

another of my much weaker 32s. please disregard the greats i shifted to resting my ipad on a blanket bc sitting cross legged was hurting my legs rly bad and i think its fucking up my mental offset. anyway the chart is a blast altho it can be a liiiiiittle irritating at certain parts. still the flicks are so fun esp the ones in the middle with the squiggle holds, and while the runs can be a bit annoying they’re also very rewarding to get right. 7/10 fun but a touch enraging

6. children record

i have been fc-1 on this song for literally two and a half years and that did not change tonight. SAD! fortunately the chart fucks hard and its hard to gamer rage when i’m having that much fun. 8.5/10 wheeee weeeee whweeeeeee ahahhaahah weee

7. the entire concept of sbibo

??? not a chart that is a whole little dude. um if she was a chart i have to assume itd be pretty banger and high energy. not sure what you wanted me to do here so i added some outfits instead. sbib/10

8. kimagure mercy

???? New mas ap hello????!? ERM. well im very pleased. anyway this chart FUCKS. this chart literally fucks so hard its not even funny. its insane. its so fun. makes you feel like GOD when you play it well which i am experiencing right now as we speak. im very happy rn if you cant tell ive been stuck on ap-1 on this chart for months. anyway chart good brain slush overall 9/10 i love you weird flick patterns

9. haikei doppelganger

THIS CHARTTTTTTT. GUHHHHHHHH u already know how much i love this chart it is SO!!!! FUN!!!!!!!! they space out the mid-speed runs and the superfast runs and the rhythmic pauses with each other so well and it’s just a breath of fresh air to play. one of the best charts in the game objectively and one of my favorites as well. fcing this for the first time can cheer one up from anything nd believe me i have firsthand experience with that. 10/10 this chart FUCKS!!!!!!!!!!

and thus concludes your 8 mile long ask meme response hope you enjoyed

[mayzie-grobe]

✨i've been playing the sims 4 since it came out, nine years ago !! and i wanted to show off as many of my legacy founders (and heirs) as i found the time to makeover. list of their challenges below !!✨

ellie cahill + rhiannon irving ⭐ classic legacy gen6 heirs

i've never completed a full 10 generation legacy, but the closest i ever came to was my mahi'ai family legacy--link to plumtree in case anyone's curious--that i made probably about four or five years ago. both of these girls are cousins and were my next gen heirs, sharing the title, but i never played passed their teenagehood because my cc became outdated and then my laptop died 😔

gunnaifer glock ⭐ vampire legacy founder

okay gunnaifer is..she's special to me, ok. my first semester at college, as a joke i had two of my friends make vampires in the sims and then i made gunnaifer so we would each have a vampire. because vampires (technically) don't die, the legacy didn't get very far...but maybe someday i will share her heir, and apprentice, kovo'lettre.

sienna kibo ⭐"i'm surrounded by idiots" challenge gen2 heir

i don't remember much from this challenge other than it being a lot of fun, and showing me the extent of the parenting skill (lol). maybe i'll pick it back up with sienna, but it has stayed unplayed for years so...who's to say.

cyra ⭐ black widow challenge founder

okay !! so cyra was created with a friend of mine a couple years ago, i think i played the challenge for about a week before outdated cc made me drop it (exactly like the classic legacy). cyra got to husband number 5 and she had 2 kids, and i don't remember her last name and i didn't write it down anywhere and i think that's both funny and sad. curse the game for automatically updating it when you get married !!! 😡

anika dreamer ⭐ nightmare legacy challenge gen2 heir

i don't remember much from my nightmare legacy, so when i opened it for the first time in a long time i was surprised to find all the sims i did remember had DIED. which. given the challenge made sense, but anyways so i revived anika to make her over. she had already completed her challenge and passed it on to one of her three sons, but she was a globally-renowned comedian and a stylish old lady. i love and miss her.

himiko kibo-tan ⭐ not-so-berry legacy gen3 heir

the one and only time i tried to do the nsb challenge, i got to himiko and i lost a lot of the motivation to play. i've thought about starting over, if not the whole thing than just generation three, but haven't gotten around to it. again, maybe someday !

rosalie ember ⭐ spellcaster legacy gen2 heir

THE LEGEND. im not even lying when i say that i spent multiple hours in the middle of the night, crazy out of my mind, trying to find this save. i must have deleted it for some reason ??? anyways, after accessing my old hard drive i finally found an older version of the save that had my baby rosalie in it. her makeover is probably my favorite. and yes, one of her parent's is morgyn ember. 🧙‍♂️

if you actually read ANY of that,, thank you,,, !! i don't think any of them will pop up on my blog again but..i don't know. anything is possible lmao 🤔

[olivieraa]

Ive never seen Parks and Rec (I plan to), but Ive seen many scenes, like most people have

I esp remember this scene

I'm also seeing a lot of straight women in comment sections saying "unfortunately I am attracted to men" and also basically full on admitting they mostly get off to lesbian porn

What sucks tho, and idec care if its biphobic, I say as a bi myself, but bi women (or pan if they wanna argue they're somehow different), will end up with men.......... almost all the time

It's sad

Like the straight women dont even have that option

Now I never really wanna be one of those people who is passionate about an opinion and goes against it a year later. Bc I too could end up with a guy. But Im not exactly into relationships and dont feel attraction, so Im not holding my breath for a guy or a girl tbh. Im letting destiny decide that for me. If I end up with a guy, you best believe its likely that he's the literal man of my dreams. Not just "some guy" that I settled for bc I was lonely or didn't like the idea of being single

In the end I think my standards are low af, yet if I was to list them I'd probably be told my standards are too high

Taking out that I want a man with feminist type views (doesnt have to agree with me on everything, thats impossible, but has to 100% agree with me on specifics (cause I know it could lead to future arguments so you gotta break the idea of that ever happening before it actually happens). But outside of these like, social justicy views. My standards are:

Not a gamer. And there's a difference between a gamer and someone who plays video games. Like I said, when Keanu Reeves says he only plays, idk it was either Pacman or Tetris or something, I found that hot

Not addicted to their phone. Phone is a last resort. When bored, doesn't scroll, when waiting on popcorn in microwave, doesn't scroll, when at dinner table, doesn't scroll. Chooses literally any other option. Like isn't some meme obsessed weirdo, or those bro-type podcasts

Doesn't watch porn. Saying the name Mia Khalifa doesn't illicit a reaction from him

Has a talent. Ok no this is actually optional but like... I'd be happy if one existed. I've never seen anything turn me on more than when someone shows off how talented they are at a thing. I literally melt. Anyone I have felt an attraction to over the years was top class at something. Basketball, writing, heck, commanding the room gets me like--

Looks wise I dont particularly care, and I'm 100% not saying I'm some conventionally attractive beauty cause I'm not by any means, but from what Ive observed irl and online, men are usually with women way out of their league, and women always seem to change their preferences to somehow be for the guy they end up getting with. An ex friend of mine liked babyface pretty boys like Tom Holland or Shawn Mendes. Ended up getting with scrawny hairy dude with a long beard and chest hair (he 'saved' her from her abusive family), and suddenly her preferences were gone and she found his hairiness, not just attractive, but her new preference. And she was a conventionally attractive model type so its not like he could change any of his preferences. She was pretty, confirmed to beauty standards, and shaved everything. Basically what I'm saying is, tho I dont feel attraction, and I never truly get the hype about who the hottest guys in hollywood are, I also somewhat know that I have to feel something for how they look. Has to be a spark or something.

Makes me nervous that he'd cheat. A dude I 'dated' a good few years ago, I didn't trust him at all. We 'dated' for 3 weeks bc if I'm thinking all these bad things, I'm gonna end it, not carry on being a nervous wreck the whole time we're together. So yes, trust. A very big one.

Lastly........ in a stereotypical sense. Yeah. I like a guy who is taller. But not tall, just taller. If you're the same height as me, who has literally heard every variation of 'shorty' you can think of, then you're just a tad too minature for me. I mean, 5 7 I think is considered a short guy, but I'd take it.

And that's it really. But yeah, impossible.

Also if I found that perfect guy, he a) might not be attracted to me. b) can't put up with my OCD

Ive way less standards for women lol most of the above dont apply

I've had sort of a thing with a couple of women over the past 15 or so years. They ultimately choose a dude. It is what it is

[armydreamerr]

ranking mario odyssey kingdoms

17. dark side. BOOOOO tomato tomato. i don’t like the broodals fights and i certainly don’t like playing them again in moon gravity. also i don’t like the hint art moons. you have to go to OTHER KINGDOMS to get them! pain in my ass

16. cloud kingdom. i mean its allright. the main thing i like here is that the moons are easy to get. the design is boring though.

15. mushroom kingdom. i like the boss battle rematches and how easy it is to get the purple coins. and super mario 64 references. i don’t like playing as yoshi. his controls SUCK

14. ruined kingdom. again it has like 4 moons all of which are easy to get. i actually do really like the design of this one though. should’ve been a full size kingdom

13. cap kingdom. i mean it’s allright. very easy to get every collectible which i like. the scenery is ok.

12 lost kingdom. it’s ok. it’s fine. the moons are fun to get and stuff. the scenery sucks though. i hate the colour palette. why bro why. purple and brown has gotta be the worst colour combo ever

11. bowser’s kingdom. i don’t even enjoy this kingdom bro i don’t like the main capture i don’t like the layout i don’t like anything. i also don’t like how when you’re at this stage in the game they won’t let you leave the kingdom and come back later. that used to make me cry in frustration as a kid

10. darker side. not that much fun as a kingdom… but i have a toxic homoerotic rivalry with it and despite beating odyssey like 3 times, i have actually never beaten the darker side. i also like how the moon is called “long journey’s end.” i will cry

9. moon kingdom. i spent SO much time playing this one in my current play through. i literally don’t even think i completed it yet i think i still need a few purple coins. it’s kind of flipping boring? it’s so fun in the story though. like the whole wedding arc is great

8. snow kingdom. i LOVE shiveria and j love the challenges you have to complete before racing. i hate the stupid race. and the fact that there are like FIVE MOONS centred around that stupid race?? fuck off fuck off fuck off

7. cascade kingdom. breathtaking scenery lowkey. honestly i don’t know why but this kingdom defines odyssey to me like this is what i think of when i think of mario odyssey. the waterfall with the triceratops fossil is just. chefs kiss. wish this kingdom was bigger. also i don’t think the moons are very fun to get.

6. sand kingdom. so big but SUCH a nothing burger. so much open space. it’s not that fun to just roll mario around the desert. it’s this high in the list because a ton of moons are really fun to get and i looove the story arc with the binding band.

5. lake kingdom. SO GORGEOUS!!!! seriously this shit is great. i also actually like that it’s small because it’s like a little palette cleanser between sand and wooded. i always choose lake first when i play. also. the lochladies are totally a lesbian society right like right

4. metro kingdom. i actually find this one kinda underwhelming considering its size and the amount of moons available but its high up on the list because the story arc is SO FUCKING GOOD. let mario go to another festival. and bring back mayor pauline awooooga

3. luncheon kingdom. i love the pink magma the fork guys the lava bubble the fuckass pot of soup the slab of meat i love everything in this kingdom. it’s all so stupid but sooo wonderful. actually every moon in this kingdom is fun to get

2. seaside kingdom. there is so much to explore it feels never ending. i will genuinely be sad when i get all the moons and purple coins in this kingdom. i’ve beaten odyssey multiple times and i still find stuff i had no idea existed in this kingdom. i also fucking love water levels

1. wooded kingdom. what can i really say. first of all the sheer size of this kingdom makes me feel like im constantly discovering new stuff. also i love the steampunk environment the blending of machinery with vegetation and freshwater aughhf i wanna live here

[suebin]

YUN forgive me for taking so long to read this but i’m ready now … comfy in bed in the cold and prepared to bawl my eyes out in tears and wow my phone is lagging as i type this 😭😭 i hope it doesn’t suddenly crash while i annotate all my favorite parts

The clock is always ticking.

— banger start btw and i just love the relationships being shown straight off the bat .. her sister chaewon i love her im marrying her before soobin can and i love seeing the glimpse of how SHE reacted to the news because personally if i received that news bye bawling

She wants to spend time with you.

— i’m already sad and the bucket list ??????? stop i see my own relationship with my sister and it’s making me SAD

“If you and Soobin kiss in front of me, I’m leaving.”

— so real of U becos me too i’m out ✌️ oh btw i feel the need to also say i love soobin

The quietness is interrupted by a dog bark.

— THE START OF SOMETHING BEAUTIFUL

“Out of all people, it shouldn’t have been you.”

:(((((((( i also love wonyoung btw oh and the draped jacket from jungwon??????????? WOOOOF WOOF

omg i just remembered the time capsule u hate me like yun u actually hate me for this like it genuinely made me so sad to imagine her reading that and being so hopeful for the future

Jungwon calls you pretty that night.

— happy again (and the of course i do after she asked if he thought she was oretty …. bye bye bye bye)

THE CHERRY BLOSSOMS MENTION I’m devastated ok wait i need to stop annotating the parts i’ve already given you my silly little notes for on discord because my phone is heating up

SHE FAINTS ????????? IN FRONT OF JUNGWON???

“Then spend every cherry blossom season you can with him.”

— this is my honest reaction: 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

Now he gets to love you out loud.

— i’m afraid my phone just has to meep heating up becos there r just too many BANGER lines not to mention

jungwon desperate for kisses… why would u plant this image in my head??? and his impatience to make them official like he’s just so !!!! I NEED THEM HAPPY FOREVER

Jungwon finds himself looking at you, as Chaewon and Soobin walk down the aisle together.

— you enjoy hurting my feelings and the AUNTS ???? dont play with me please let them shut up now

“I want to live.”

— this is just so beautiful for jungwon to have made love so painfully wonderful that yn wants to live

CAN WE STOP WITH CHAEWON AND RECEIVING BAD NEWS PLEASE LIKE THIS IS HURTING ME TOO MUCH when she says she still has so much she wants to do with yn like dont do this to me rnnn 😭😭😭😭😭😭

THE FUCKING WIG SCENE the whole chapter or well section .. section 13 i’m !!!!!!!!!!! why why why why also btw i can never get over him calling her pretty like stop why aam i giggling

“We can have as many as you like.”

— end me

“I thought I was ready. I’m nowhere near ready. I don’t want to go. Please, Chae.”

— me rn 💀💀🪦🪦🪦🪦🪦🪦🪦🪦🪦🪦 WAIT SORRY i just realized how silly this might be implying at what yn is saying when she’s afraid to die BUT IM DYING AT THIS DIALOGUE .. so simple yet so fragile (anti ti ti ti ti)

I KNOW WHERE THIS ENGAGEMENT RING SCENE IS HEADED UVE TOLD ME ABOUT THIS .. his ring choice btw with the pink diamonds like in cherry blossoms bye

Yang Jungwon is your first love, and he will also be your last.

— i hate myself sorry itzy

NO IM AT THE SCENE I KNEW WAS COMING AND CALLING THEIR 4 YEARS THEIR LITTLE FOREVER ….. “it’s short, but we can call it forever, can we not?” oh ure crazy ure crazy and u hate ME

TICKING OFF THE FALLING IN LOVE BOX

i’m kissing soobin btw for his mega massive giga BLUE BRAIN MEGAMIND

i hate when i see friendship reactions to death because i see myself in them like i would be so devastated if i was wonyoung

“She’s alive. She’s alive, Soobin!”

— real tears forming rn

MAEUMI RUNNING OFF AND REUNITING THEM FULL CIRCLE MOMENT

So when he pops the question again, this time, you know you won’t hesitate to say yes.

— oh this was definitely a ride but yun aaaa ur brain is so massive and so brilliant this was so lovely and so SAD and so !!!! like u could feel every emotion i feel everything inside of me wheen i read ur works and often find myseld repeating oaragraphs iver and over again because of how beautifully they flow and how i dont want any of ur works ti end like i enjoy reading them so much this was so good i cant stop saying it

haru yo, koi — yang jungwon.

synopsis. Life is fragile. You’ve known this ever since you got diagnosed with a rare disease that gives you only 10 years to live. You tell yourself to not fall in love, but then you meet Yang Jungwon in the middle of a park surrounded by cherry blossom trees. But just like the fleetingness of the cherry blossoms, your romance with Jungwon is short lived. You can only hope that the universe will be kind enough to offer you a second chance.

genre. angst, fluff, friends to lovers to ?, inspired by the movie the last 10 years.

pairing. non-idol! jungwon x fem! reader

warnings. reader and jungwon are 22, mentions of death, hospital, disease, illness, one scene where drinking is involved, probably some medical inaccuracies

word count. 34.9k

author’s note. hello! haru yo koi is finally here and i am so excited for u all to read it !! i hope there aren’t any glitches or anything esp since i had to use the legacy editor 😭😭 so praying there’s no issues w this 😭 this is the longest fic ive ever written and i rlly rlly hope u all enjoy it <3 pls give ur thoughts / feedback in an ask or comment ! they mean a lot to me <33 enjoyyy <3

ONE.

The clock is always ticking. 

You remind yourself of this daily. Most people your age don’t exactly think about death coming to knock on their door — but you think you’re quite prepared. You have been for quite a while. 

You peer outside your window for a split second, taking a break from writing. You see people on the street with bright smiles plastered across their lips. You wish you could be as carefree as they are, and not constantly worried about whether your life will slip away in just the next second.

You were diagnosed with a rare incurable disease when you were 17. You’ve got 10 years, they say. But even though they had said 10 years, you could still pass suddenly – so in some way, you might have less than 10. Slowly but surely, you’ve come to accept that this is your fate. 

“It’s spring, (Name).” You suddenly hear the voice of Chaewon, your older sister. “Do you want to go see the cherry blossoms?” 

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[only-lonely-lovers]

09.03.2022

notes: bath times again!

Bird is あ / Avvy is つ

あ：suppose the boys died in 1969… so their house would've had something predating this. but its just interesting to have markers i also assume having a bougie house just means it would be less likely to be a convenient modern solution?

つ：its true, i wonder… i HOPE they have a sexy wooden bathroom with the cedar tub mmmm really baste together smell so good

あ：That is what i hope it feels like it'd be so appropriate…

つ：something this sexy……

あ：I want to think the western aesthetics just arent that available yet beyond more easy-to-acquire furniture like tables

つ：hot…. envision

あ：we're getting lamps to look like an english house and couches but not like renovating whole rooms God i want it 5 yo boys enjoying they tub time

つ：if a bath tub was would i would want to chew on its edge i already like to put my mouth on the edges

あ：Leaving indentations with your fangus

つ：when i am gone. then you will

あ：😭

つ：touch my little indentations. you shoudl not have yelled at me for doing it

あ：Why did i. ruin our precious few shared bath times Sadly puts my mouth over it

つ：your teeth sink into the indents perfectly as we are twins

あ：Starts crying

つ：and…. scene

あ：Start a new scene. bring my brother back. please

つ：ok. ok. I will come back

あ：Get in the tub with me N Now

つ：RUNS

あ：This translates to amane being like. insistent and tugging on tsukasa's shirt we just had dinner i want a nice warm bath!!!

つ：okay. I'm home and you're fretting about how its probably been a while… since i had a nice cleam. mom is also fretful about it all godknows where i've been siome have called it hell…

あ：Me thinking you were like lost in the woods living under a stump Trapped in a cave somewhere

つ：in a stranger's house at BEST 4 towns over somehow

あ：… I really do like imagining like, having a competition with mom over fretting, like, no, IM… help… nyuhh… I've got this

つ：and maybe mom lets you. because you are best friends and she knows you missed him and had no comprehension or brain to cope with any of it

you are filling the big deep tub… mom is nearby but letting you do what you want. admiring how responsible and sweet you are… I too am admiring this… you think a thought and go to run to get toys. but then you flinch-- turning back to me a foot away -- and grab my hand and take me with you to the toyroom to grab a few things for us to have. i must have missed toys while i was gone… OUR toys

I didn't, because I had all manner of toys, but you don't know this, and, I watch you gather them rather than the toys i look at your hand in mine, how you didn't leave the bathroom without me

あ：The thought really descends onto me. Toys, toys of course… I haven't really been touching them myself… Well, it's inconsistent, really, sometimes I need to remember what we played together, I need to think about how we'll get to again… but most days, it was too hard to even look at them. Too painful, too listless on my own, can't think of games for only myself. It felt so impossible to think about. Heart is beating with anxious excitement now, at all the things we can do again together, runs through the mind like a neverending list. So many things…

All that moping… it's behind me… US… We have so much to do…! Squeeze your hand.

つ：its interesting… to think about toys with someone else. I won't have to talk for them

seeing you move them in your hands is startling. wow. its like magic. to see anything move that I'm not touching myself

you'll drag me back to the bathroom. when i run with armfuls of toys, i drop them the whole way until only half are left in my arms by the time i get to the bathroom you don't drop any

あ：[playfully wiggles one in your face]

つ：yytruuuuuu aaaoo looks like youre performing a magic trick i think how easily agog i am makes you both feel successful, and also, sad

あ：It's so easy isn't it, it always is… You're too quickly bright-eyed and hypnotized seeming. I have to worry about you. Ah, your nature… [pets.]

つ：did i have so little going on while lost, that a toy in my face is amazing? makes you cringe

あ：Determined to make up for every second… The hot water will help!!

つ：we'll help each other rinse off int he shower first… you dump the toys into the tub, but move to the nozzle… maybe, make me sit down on the lil stool

あ：Must be responsible It's better for me to be the one to fiddle with this stuff though, i'd rather you just sit ahmm… maybe a moment where i'm surprised to be emotional seeing your hair wet… it's just the feeling of seeing something familiar again, after so long stare…

つ：waterlogged. it feels weird-- I haven't thought about, any of this, stuff. wasn't necessary. it feels weird. watching water droplets sink down my skin, feel them. warm… hot! .a…. giggle

あ：[stare.]

つ：IT'S SO HOT…!! ATSUI

holds paws in front of mouth to laugh. collects water in my palms then throws it up over us both, getting you wet a lil its amazing to watch it pool in my hands!!!

あ：A bit dumbfounded, lagging. My turn, I guess, to feel easily hypnotized…. tilts head

つ：TILTS HEAD BACK OPENS MOUTH FILLS MOUTH WITH WATER

あ：Ouh

つ：GURGLES

あ：ME TOO i do it too

つ：spews it out like fountain

we get into a loop of filling our moufs and spitting it out because you are doing it too i do not want to stop

あ：it's nice to have some mindless fun, easy fun… i'm eager to think less. would rather be physical shakes head all around like a doggie

つ：gawksssssss

あ：For the most part… I can't be-!! so embarrassed, about seeming silly….

つ：I'm like. bath now? and you are like. Y--- NO wait we didnt wash you at ALL….. there was no soap we got distracted. i forgot that components of washing are

あ：Scrubby scrubby now… serious [stern] [plants a hand on you]

つ：get into that hair. get that back. be so scrubby. it tickles and im wiggle a lot and make it hard

あ：mutter mutter…. but hold my tongue. no, I can be good big brother… I won't complain. [just really keeping a hand at your back/shoulder]