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When World's Collide - Part 3
Jannik Sinner x Williams Race Strategist!Reader It's been over a year since you both met and, now in a long-term relationship, the worlds the two of you met through are starting to cause cracks in your connection. Cue angst and fighting, but also lot's of love. Catch up on Part 1 and Part 2
Jannik and you had built something rare—a relationship grounded in mutual respect, deep understanding, and an ability to make each other laugh even on the hardest days. Over the past year, your bond had grown stronger, weaving itself into the fabric of your lives despite the demands of your respective careers. When you were together, everything felt lighter. Whether it was cooking simple dinners in one of your Monaco apartments, walking the coastal trails hand-in-hand, or decompressing after intense weekends with quiet conversations on the couch, you brought each other a happiness neither of you had quite known before.
Jannik loved how you could turn any room into a stage, how your quick wit and sharp humor left people in stitches. You loved the way his quiet strength grounded you, the way his calm presence could soothe your most frazzled moments. Together, you balanced each other in ways that felt almost effortless—until it wasn’t.
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You'd had a fair few points of tensions throughout your year together, but what couple didn't fight? All of them were insignificant in the grand scheme of your relationship. In fact, what grew to become your biggest, and only, point of contention didn't even start as an argument.
An understanding of privacy was always important between you and Jannik, it came with the nature of your jobs. In the beginning stages, it was mutual, a given. Of course the last thing either of you wanted was for the media to disrupt what was growing between you. Even as your relationship grew to be more serious and defined, you both agreed to keep it out of the public eye. Any hesitation you had about it felt minor, barely worth mentioning at the time. But, in retrospect, maybe you didn't start on the same page in the way you liked to think, because as the months rolled on the secrecy became harder for you to navigate.
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One evening, you’d been scrolling through social media when you came across yet another post speculating about your friendships with various F1 figures. This time, it was a video of you and driver Lando Norris laughing over coffee in the paddock. You remembered it as a spontaneous, passerby conversation after you both had entered the canteen for drinks at the same time. The video, however, made the moment feel much larger—more established and intentional.
You generally stayed away from interacting with content that involved you; for a video about you to even come up on your own feed, it had to have had a lot of traction. You saw the many comments ranged from innocent fun to outright assumptions about some secret romance.
“They’re really running with this Lando thing, huh?” you’d said to Jannik, showing him the post.
He only glanced at it briefly, his expression indifferent. “You know how people are. They’ll always find something to talk about.”
“True,” you’d said, brushing it off. But deep down, you wished he’d said something more reassuring or had more of a reaction, or even just stayed on the topic just a little longer. Anything that acknowledged the absurdity of it all.
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The next time wasn’t so easy for you to move past. You’d been joking with Alex Albon on the Williams team radio during a practice session, and the clip had gone viral. Fans loved your lively banter on track, but the scrutiny of others was unrelenting.
“People are saying I should be more serious,” you told Jannik later over the phone that evening. “That I’m too friendly with the drivers and too chatty on the radio.”
“You’re good at your job,” he said. “That’s all that matters.”
“Well yeah, but is it?” you’d asked, searching his face on the screen for something more. “Don't you ever worry about what people think?”
“All the time,” he admitted. “You know that. But that doesn’t mean I let them in.”
His words felt like a wall—one you couldn’t quite scale, and you felt like maybe you were crazy to care so much.
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The tension finally came to a head at a tournament in Italy. You’d come to support Jannik but weren’t to be seated in his box, per his request. It had become standard practice ever since you started dating. Initially, when you were still friends, there wasn't such weight on any suspicion that could be drawn from some new guest watching alongside his friends and family. But now that there was truth to the speculation, you sat a substantial distance away. You would still have a good view, but you'd be somewhere where the camera could catch you on the big screen and only assume you were an avid fan of tennis, not the partner of a top player.
And, as unconditional the support between you was, the distance was getting to you. His celebrations, his shouts, and even his few curses were never said in your direction. He'd finish each point with his body and fist oriented towards his box. He probably couldn't find you in the crowd even if he wanted to. Going to his matches in person, and feeling alienated during, was starting to feel like the ultimate example of the strain the secrecy was putting on your dynamic. On you.
So when he told you he'd be leaving your hotel room to meet and warm up with his team before the match, you’d made some passive-aggressive comment after your usual wishes of good luck.
“I’ll just be somewhere out of the way, like always,” you’d muttered under you breath, crossing your arms.
“Come on,” he said backtracking from the door at your tone, trying to placate you even in his rush. “It keeps things simple, that's all.”
“Right,” you’d replied coldly, brushing him off.
You don't even know why you started anything then. You never wished to disturb the flow of his matches in any way, and it was unlike you to make a scene right before his departure, but that unvoiced worry in your chest was beginning to weigh on you more than you could bear. And maybe that's why Jannik re-entered the room despite the full day of obligations waiting for him floors below.
He came closer to you and placed a hand to your shoulder. When you still didn't look up at him, he ducked his head to be in your eye-line and tried to meet your gaze. You kept your eyes glued to the ground. At first it was a show of stubbornness, but now a few, plump tears sat on your water line. Your vision had begun to blur and you worried if you made any sudden movements, it would all flood out. That you'd cry or lash out, and that wasn't like you. Especially not on his match day.
He nudged your chin up with two of his fingers, and clicked his tongue when he saw your tears.
He called your name softly then, and gently said "Heyy, what is this?"
And you couldn't just say nothing, because you were beginning to feel it in everything. And keeping it in was only making it hurt more.
"This is me being sick of hiding away," you burst out, "If even my support has to be suppressed, then what am I even here for."
"Where is this coming from? You know why it is this way," his accent coming in stronger as his volume increased to match the heat in your voice, "We've discussed it many times before."
"Okay, yes," you snapped back, voice sharp, "but now I'm telling you that I'm tired of it. Why should we go out of our way to lie for the sake of what other people think?
"It's not a lie, it's protection."
"Well, it doesn't feel like it. I should be able to express my love for you—or at least be able to mention you without feeling like I've overstepped or overshared."
He softened then, and took a breath before speaking again, "I just think it's safer we keep things close and private. If we open up it becomes... Our relationship isn't something for others to discuss"
You shook your head, unsatisfied with the response, "I think our relationship isn't something for us to omit. And I guess that's the difference."
You stood firm, though still tear-stricken, and he looked a little dejected. With no resolution in sight, he sighed and moved to hold you. When you dodged his touch, he shook his head a little and spoke quietly, "We'll talk again about this, I promise. But I should go now."
You nodded, and looked past him, "...Yeah. Good luck."
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Despite feeling guilty for letting him leave on that note during a tournament, you didn't go find him in between the warm-up and the match start. You wouldn't have been able to go up to him anyways, but you usually slipped into the players lounge to sneak a wave and sometimes you'd even get to pull him off to some un-trafficked hallway.
Instead you made a beeline to your seat in the stands alongside other high-profile guests. You had a great view of the court but, as usual, you were a ways away from his box. Jannik could compartmentalize well, especially when it came to tennis, and you trusted that he'd still play at his best. And maybe if it had been a race day, you could've have tucked the fight away as well. But as you sat removed from his team and other guests, you had to will yourself to focus on the game without replaying the argument in your head.
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After the match, you passed through the cool-down room with other guests in your row. You congratulated Jannik and his team with a polite smile, mindful of the cameras streaming the room live. You felt his eyes on you, a heavier stare than usual during your practiced, impersonal nod to each other.
Then you worked your way around, offering kind words to other players as well. It was an innocuous interaction, but one that set off an unintended chain reaction.
As the guests filtered out, Jannik overheard a conversation among the players. Matteo Berrettini was explaining your significance to Ben Shelton, who was unfamiliar with F1.
“She’s a genius strategist,” Berrettini said. “Williams has been killing it since she joined. And she’s… let’s just say, a big fan favorite.”
“Wicked smart and cute,” Shelton added, grinning. “Should’ve asked her out.”
“Oh, but she’s with Lando Norris I believe,” Berrettini said casually. “That’s the talk of the paddock.”
Jannik’s chest tightened at the words. He stayed silent, but as realization settled in, the blows kept coming. Not even his friends and peers knew about the relationship he valued so deeply, and today you'd had to conceal your hurt just as much as you always had to conceal your relationship. And, if the fight was anything to go by, you'd been masking your distress for some time now and he'd had no idea. Not to mention, on top of it all, he had to listen to someone else being linked to you. It was a bitter pill to swallow.
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He returned to the hotel room that night after finishing up with all the press, already intending to apologize, but when he walked in, his heart broke at the sight of you.
Sitting at the edge of the bed crossed legged with your laptop, it appeared as though you were just catching up on some work. But when you'd looked over at the sound of him entering, Jannik could see your eyes were puffy and red the way they only got after hours of crying.
“Mio cuore” he said softly, mostly to himself, making his way over to you. “I'm so sorry.”
He sat beside you and tucked a stray hair behind your ear before wrapping his arms around you. You let him hold you but your voice trembled as you spoke, his tenderness reigniting your tears from earlier. “It's so hard” you started, words still a mix of hurt and frustration, “To feel like… I don't know... ”
He stayed quiet and let you finish your thoughts. "... Like I'm something to be covered up," you said, your voice trailing off at the end. And whatever was left of Jannik's heart shattered.
“I love you.” he said quickly and earnestly, hugging you tighter into his chest and resting his chin on your head. “I could never be ashamed of you, you're the best part of my life.”
“I know. And I love you, I love being with you more than anything,” you asked, your voice breaking. “and I get wanting to keep things private, but this… it feels like something else. And it has for a while now.”
He exhaled shakily. “I thought I was protecting us,” he said. “But I didn’t see what it was doing to you, to us.”
You wiped at your tears. “I don't blame you, Jan. We both knew what our lives were like before we got together, being in the public eye. I just… didn't anticipate that all the secrecy would affect me like this.”
“You matter more than anything,” he said firmly, taking your hands in his. “and I should have noticed how you were feeling sooner. Or asked... Hearing you earlier and seeing you now—"
He sucked in a sharp breath before continuing, "I'm sorry. It only hit me today, and that’s my fault. I don’t want to hide anymore, and I don't want you to hurt anymore. Our relationship is our own, whether or not people know about it.”
You squeezed him back, and leaned up to look at him. “You mean that?”
“I do,” he said, his voice steady. “And I think we don't even need to hide to still be private... or mostly private.”
A small, teary laugh escaped you. “That sounds… doable.”
“We’ll figure it out,” he said, placing a kiss on your brow. “Together.”
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You both settled on moving about the world as you always did, except now there were no spaces exempted. There was never any social media launch, or press panel announcement, but you now attended each other's events unguarded and open. Speculation arose pretty soon after the shift, and people spoke of the two of you being spotted out together or documented small appearances seen in broadcast, but both of you still mostly kept overt details to yourself.
And for a while speculation was all it was, until the accidental reveal that made the news undeniable. A photo snapped at the right (or wrong) moment when you and Jannik were leaving a celebration dinner you'd attended together after a Williams podium. Whilst waiting for a car outside the restaurant, his hand was resting on the small of your back to guide you down the steps. You leaned up to whisper something in his ear, he'd laughed in response before catching the back of your neck in his hand and leading your face back to his for a kiss.
The series of pictures that captured your clear closeness and laughter would've already been enough to fuel the fire, but the kiss just sealed the deal. The photos went viral within the hour, sparking a frenzy of dialogue and excitement.
The headlines were everywhere:
“Tennis Star Jannik Sinner and F1’s Power Strategist Confirm Relationship!” “The Crossover Couple We Didn’t Know We Needed” “F1 and Tennis Collide: Fans Are Obsessed with This Power Couple”
Social media exploded with reactions. Fans from both worlds—F1 and tennis—were abuzz, delighted by the unexpected pairing; people scrambled to learn more about your relationship.
“They’re like the ultimate power couple,” one tweet read. “My two favorite pastimes coming together. What more could you want?”
“Jannik is so reserved, and she’s so outspoken. It’s perfect. They must balance each other out,” another fan commented on Instagram.
The media painted your relationship as a modern-day fairy tale—two rising stars in completely different worlds finding common ground and supporting each other in all their success. Analysts went back and noted how Jannik’s game had improved noticeably over the past year, linking it to the steady role you’d likely played behind the scenes. Meanwhile, your ability to remain composed under scrutiny was celebrated as a testament to the strength of your bond.
Your public appearances together became a point of fascination. Tourists captured candid moments of you laughing at dinner or holding hands while walking through Monaco. And as much as you both steered clear of the noise, what you did receive felt pleasant and manageable—most of the coverage celebratory rather than intrusive, as if the world had collectively decided to root for you.
When asked about the relationship during interviews, Jannik kept it simple and succinct as always, but his words were inevitably heartfelt. “She’s incredible,” he said in one post-match interview, a rare, genuine smile lighting up his face. “It's very, very special, and I feel lucky.”
For your part, you handled the attention with humor and grace. “I think the real challenge is convincing him to let me strategize his matches,” you joked during an F1 press panel, earning laughter from the crowd.
Together, you became the model of a supportive, successful relationship—one that thrived not just despite of your demanding careers, but because of them. And the two of you? You knew your deep respect and unconditional support would always get the both of you through any obstacle, in your relationship or otherwise.
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Yayy! I love this pairing, I hope you do too xx
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thinking about love in danger days
this is part of my conspiracy theory that that album is aroallo, but i've always gotten the sense that romance and romantic attatchment is much less important to danger days than any other mcr record. with bullets&revenge it's quite obvious as the demolition lovers take up like, everything, and the black parade has a heavy focus on a romantic relationship as well.
while i do think there are lines in it that are romantically coded, there is a definitive lack of emphasis on it- like it's nowhere in the plot at all.
i do think danger days represents a very familial type of love though. while other albums visit a sense of "i want you, i need you, i miss you, i hate you,", this is more like…"i love you, i want to protect you, i'm sorry"
i find this especially strongly in s/c/a/r/e/c/r/o/w:
"Nevermind about the shape i'm in, I'll keep you safe tonight"
"love, love, love won't stop this bomb"
"run, run, bunny, run"
and other songs:
"i'll find you when the sun goes black"
"just save yourself and i'll hold them back tonight"
"how long until we find our way in the dark and out of harm"
relevant things i can't cover with just quotes are planetary go, oft-theorized to be about party poison and kobra kid, as brothers, leaving battery city together; sing, about the killjoys' last message to the girl while saving her; goodnite dr. death, phrased as him saying goodnight to children; and summertime, which i can't discern the meaning of but seems more like a family type of love.
i think it makes sense that danger days is like this, seeing as it features main characters that take care of a child main character as opposed to main characters that love other main characters of the same age/ability.
another thing i noticed while re-listening to the more sentimental songs for this essay is that there's just a distinctly different vibe to it. So much of it is focused around wanting to protect people, keep them safe and out of danger (<- ha that's the name of the album) and loved. i think this also makes sense, because the killjoys live a very, well, dangerous life without much security, and they'd want to provide what they lack the most. another semi-related thing i noticed is just how much of an emphasis there is on childhood in this album. i feel like there's a vibe of youth or teen-hood throughout the earlier ones, but this is just VERY strongly about kids. again this makes sense cause not only are the killjoys teenagers (a type of kid!) they also have a proper little kid to watch.
also, i wonder how much of this stuff was due to gerard becoming a parent. just something to think about
#mcr#my chemical romance#danger days#ddttlotfk#danger days: the true lives of the fabulous killjoys#barely on topic but i hate how everyone always brings up the different greek words for love whenever they talk about different kinds of lov#I DONT CARE ABOUT EROS AND PHILIOS OR WHATEVER!! its actually okay to use adjectives to describe nouns. its okay. you dont need to use more#at any rate im not USING the damn greek love paradigm i see no reason to be chained to its definitions#ppl will be like errhmmm (nerd emoji) (pointing emoji) did you know that the greeks actually had different words for brotherly godly and ro#erhm yes i did know that.#sometimes i feel like danger days feels more energetic and youthful. less serious than the more emo other albums even though i acknowledge#but in some ways i also think it's a lot more mature#like the black parade is a serious mature story but it feels very young adult/teenager vibes. danger days is so strange because it feels si#i guess that makes sense cause the killjoys are teenagers (apparently) but also sort of parents of the girl#i think they have similar conclusions of acceptance and letting go#they just feel so distinctly different#i feel like this is kinda incoherent but i dont care about the thesis enough to edit it#okay since i wrote that tag i have since edited this the autism won#i have to resist the urge to say “stick that in your skillet and let it simmer” (the thing that stoner otter says in acnh) every time i say#i was writing in my notebook earlier and dropped a metaphorical bomb about the black parade and then i feel like i didnt have anything to s#it was so hard not to write that there😭😭
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angry at the oscars barbie nominations but in an annoyinger way (i think nominating ryan reynolds makes sense but the best picture and best supporting actress noms are ridiculous)
#sorry but the more i think about it the more i really dislike the movie#ken was funny! he was silly and campy! i really did not care for the rest of the movie!#i just think the more you examine its take on feminism the more it falls apart!#it's inherently about a product! it's inherently personifying a product and making you feel sympathy for and relate to a product!#they are generating hype and engendering sympathy for something they are trying to sell you!#regurgitating second wave feminism without nuance doesn't make it groundbreaking it makes it like. fine i guess?#verilybitchie has a great video that put a lot of my feelings about it into words#idk it did not resonate with me at all and also made me kind of annoyed with how it contributed to the ongoing trend#of gendering things that aren't gendered and focusing on a segregation of gendered perspectives#tired of i'm just a girl! tired of girl dinner! tired of men are always thinking about the roman empire!#sure there are experiences more common to and relevant to women but i get so uncomfy with those kinds of generalizations#even when they're just jokes because after they get repeated enough they stop sounding like ones#just like. when you try to examine it in terms of any kind of intersectionality it falls apart#and i know it's not that serious but like come on. they literally do not once touch on any kind of intersectionality.#you can't be like 'it's a groundbreaking feminist movie!' because they said 'women struggle with misogyny' in 2023#like i know it's barbie but i don't understand why there's this impulse to say that that's something that's never been said before#just because the president is black doesn't mean you've acknowledged like. racism at all.#just because you have two fat barbies with like four lines doesn't mean you've said anything meaningful about body image#and when you take an openly lesbian actress and give her short hair and make her strange and then have all the other characters#essentially socially exile her and still think she's weird after the resolution!!!#i would say that's like!! implicitly a pretty weird way to write gay people!#i don't want to rain on anyone's parade! it's silly! it's not that serious! i just also think it's not that good!#it's fine! it's fun! but i DO think ken is the best part of the barbie movie and for that i apologize
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people are 100% allowed to do whatever they want forever, i'm a big advocate, but also sometimes it strikes me as weird when all the fan content for something seems a little more like coping with the media, or milling on the parts they hate rather than touching on it at a base level and really exploring what the story is saying
#re; 100% everyone is allowed to do that forever!!!#i get there's a great catharsis to be had for projecting frustration on frustrating characters and aspects#i also acknowledge i think i just Enjoy Things Differently from the people i'm seeing fjsjf#which is completely okay. i'm kind of a hippie and an emo at the same time about enjoying things fjskd#skelly speaks#i think also i have a lot of unfortunate feelings about drastically changing a victim's personality in an abuse situation whoops#i knoooow i know i know it's all fun and games i knoooowww it's not that serious#but these are the discussions on good horror content when it hits personally! you know how it is#literally No Ill Will understand me djsjd#studying the wider internet like a bug
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one day we will unpack race in the swerve vs hangman feud. not right now! but one day
#aew's uneasy relationship with black wrestlers generally but this has been on my mind with swerve's ascent#and also as i'm becoming closer with like. very Normie wrestling fans. and it is very...illuminating#swerve seems to be getting over with Normal wrestling fans who otherwise do not seem to care about black wrestlers#even the exceptional ones beyond an obligatory nod and acknowledgement in passing#and its been on my mind. his portrayal and how it is changing and how his previous actions live on in hangman's anger#like. the genuine fear of having someone break into your home and threaten your family#but also hangman's position (especially as he is Losing His Mind) as Classic (White) American Cowboy#and swerve's position as monstrous (Black) intruder into idealized (white) family life#and of course hangman's position being described as 'main character of aew'. its like. MAN there's a lot of moving pieces#i will be watching how it goes but it is something that i cannot avoid thinking about as we proceed#perhaps it is Not That Serious (not a position i take or believe in but i allow the possibility) but like#ultimately i do feel like perhaps if aew was in a position where it invested in more black wrestlers this would not stand out#oh so blatantly because well. who else is there to compare swerve to?#and of course all of this is taken with a grain of salt ideally because as you know i am a Hater and have not kept up with aew#on my own accord and my knowledge of it is spotty. alas!
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meanwhile my experience with being asexual is just like. constant self hatred and apologizing about it
#it's just. idk it's ace week and no one is talking about it#and i go in the tags and it's just. ace culture is basically all memes#and it's fine but like. i enjoy having serious conversations about it#i never get to talk about it because it's such a non thing#ace culture is like it's filling the hole that comes from not having a sexuality with jokes about bread and cake and dragons for some reason#but like. i want to talk about how sad and lonely it is a lot of the time. but it's a thing where it feels so self imposed#like of course no one wants to be romantic with me in any sense when i am so awkward from past trauma#combined with the fact that i will never be able to give them what they actually are aiming for#like. high school was fucking miserable.#i mean i'm already crying so why not make it worse here#it's just. i feel like i am missing out on so much and i hate that i am made to feel like this#and no one fucking takes me seriously when i try to talk about it#it's a big part of who i am and it's always a shadow because it just doesn't matter#i just... i want people to see the beauty not in filling that void with other memey shit and just. acknowledge the void#internally and externally and in every way possible being asexual is so crushingly lonely and no one ever talks about it#we're not in ba sing se we can talk about it please#and now i will apologize#and i will lay down because i have a headache and i need to calm down
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i’m not like other girls, my “Rest” stats are a heart rate of 110bpm and a HRV of 14 fucking milliseconds. :)
#Seven’s Public Diary#vent#vent post#cw vent#cw vent post#cw health#cw heart#i’m so stressed :) i am soooo fucking stressed and my body is Suffering because of it#i want to just lay here and stare at the ceiling but. maybe a little venting will help#sighhhh wish [N]MbD Sun were here to obsessively fret over me#he can be mean about it idc. at least i’d have someone acknowledging how bad things are for me#sometimes i wonder when the last time was that my body Wasn’t in fight or flight to some degree#have i Ever actually relaxed#hhhhhhh c-ptsd is a bitch#anyways there’s so much to vent about but i’m. doing my best to be vague. i need to be more vague about things#a lot of stuff i can’t vent about anyways. it’s too personal#so instead i’m gonna complain abt how i haven’t been able to play Genshin or Star Rail for nearly a month now#and about how slowly my back is recovering. it’s like every time i re-injure/have a flare up. it heals.. worse. slower and lesser#i dunno how it’s ever gonna get better. truly better. maybe i’ll live with this forever#if being fat is the problem which is definitely partly is. then yeah i’m fucked#all of my problems just make each other worse and i don’t know where the way out of it all is#every time i think i’ve found it i’m wrong and i just make it all worse#anyways as soon as i figure out how to strengthen my core without breaking my back. it’s over for u bitches#‘u bitches’ being uh. all of the shit that needs doing that i cannot physically fucking do right now#i miss being able to sit down. and i’m Regretting de-converting my standing desk back to sitting bc now. i cannot use my PC#which means i can’t fucking do a some of my work or play my silly little gacha games and i’m mad abt it#i’m mad abt a lot more serious things too but again. can’t talk abt it so i’m gonna focus on trivial shit instead#anyways. sorry as always to everyone i haven’t spoken with lately. and in general. i’m so drained from the Everything that i just. can’t.#it shouldn’t be this hard for me to stay in touch w ppl but. it is. guess i’ll add that onto my list of things to be stressed about#i’m so tired of everything man. and i hate being so negative and mean when im stressed & in pain. makes me feel like im becoming my father
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one of the many reasons Aabria is such a good GM is because of the very keen eye she keeps on the social dynamics and interactions that happens at the table and i absolutely Love her for it
#N posts stuff#ppl have been talking about it a lot for the interaction between Thorn and his followers -> the mostly joke the Player was making#about giving Ava advantage on an intimidate check turning into a Serious confrontation about the dynamic Thorn has w/ those followers#which is an Excellent example but i'm watching a court of fae ep and she does it really well here as well; in and After the convo rue & hob#have about the Goblin Court Marriage -> there's an overt Disparity in how Rue views courts and how Hob does that colors a kind of#miscommunication between them; Rue and Hob know each other as kindred spirits in feeling Alienated from their courts#but Rue tends to see themself as wholly Separate from their court (barely part of it at all) whereas Hob still clearly Does take a staunch#Identity as a Member of the Goblin Court -> so when Rue talks about the marriage and Hob's role in it they see it as something Hob is being#manipulated or Commanded into caring about whereas Hob pretty clearly seems to take it as a Personal wound - Rue doesn't care#about the dynamics or standing of their court bc they're Separate but Hob DOES care about those things bc he's still Part Of it#even if he still feels alienated from it at the same time; they take a different approach in how they feel in that alienation#which is why Rue's sentiment of 'take care of yourself' seems to leave Hob on the verge of tears; bc he doesn't Share that approach#and Aabria seemingly takes serious notice of this because the Immediate next convo is between Rue and an NPC who calls Rue out#for that disparity -> saying they're a Fool if they think that Everyone around them doesn't feel the Weight of their court behind them#ie; even though Rue sees themself as Separate they're still reaping a social Privilege in Being a member of their court anyway#a 'you can't have it both ways' kind of call out that is So choice and i love it a lot; rue having to Immediately confront#their own perceptions like that even tho they still wont quite Acknowledge it; tasty i love it <3#btw i've decided to start being SO annoying about my thoughts on subjects; this is bc i take So so many notes on them & i like to share :3#but my Fic Writing words have been screwed to hell lately so. one billion analysis posts upon ye instead
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I don't know, those gifs of Andrew Garfield saying how to him the most terrifying thing is certainty... they resonate with me
The way people go around so damn sure that they're right about things, frankly I think there's very few things more dangerous than not even allowing for the possibility that you're wrong
Like you've just decided that you 100% know best, and from now on any evidence to the contrary is just something to be pushed aside because it's clearly wrong. The harm you'll do isn't real because obviously you wouldn't be doing it if there was harm. You're just right. That's the end of it
No, I agree with Andrew Garfield, I'd much rather stop and reassess over and over, as many times as I need to, to make sure that I'm still doing the right thing
I'll never be anything cause it just doesn't interest me, but if I was going to join a religion I know I'd become Jewish
Thought that since I was little with all the Jewish friends I had at school, and what's more it just seems to fit me best, all the elements of questioning. Hell... it even sounds like if I said "you know, I don't really believe in god", that there's a chance the rabbi might say "funny thing, me neither" (I've heard some don't), but if not that at least "eh, that's fine, why don't you come discuss why with us"
It's just funny the number of times I've related to something someone's saying, and then you find out their Jewish and this ties into that sense of questioning things, and that interview is an example
I agree with him, nothing scarier than being 100% sure you're correct... you can do a lot of bad things once you know for a fact you're right to be doing them
#I frankly worry quite a lot seeing some people who I like very much and the things they've been saying lately#worry a lot about extremism... and you might say left or right extremism? and my answer would be... both#you just gotta pick which of the people I worry about for me to tell you which is all; you know?#good people; kind people; you have to understand that the stuff that's worrying me is them coming from a place of caring#seeing harm and cruelty in the world and wanting to do something about it#and I worry... I worry; and I don't think my words mean anything even when I try and offer a nudge with a reason behind it#but then again.. I don't know if they've ever really listened to me about anything ever to be honest... I don't know why they keep me aroun#like I believe them when they say they like me cause I trust them#but... most of the time they don't even acknowledge what I say; so...#not sure if it's a communication miss match; or not being able to think how to respond; or... what...#but... when that's the case; I mean... why would they listen to me about serious stuff if they don't about the little stuff?#very smart; very caring; just an all around wonderful person#but... some of this stuff... like sometimes I worry they'll wind up full on accelertationist#and... I feel like their understanding of geopolitics ends up being too fed by... well... other people on tumblr#like I'm sorry but... I don't think you really grasp quite who those people actually are#and maybe some rando on here... they might just perhaps be... dismissing and ignoring inconvenient and bad stuff#like oy vey; I don't want to say specifics but like... how in the world can someone as smart as you wind up with such heavy blinders on?#...I just see it too much these days; too many people; too sure they're right#some folks it's religion; they have a little too much faith and... are willing to permit a lot of pain#some folks it's social justice; where they're kinda getting a list of acceptable targets#mhh... there's just this stuff building up in bad ways and... I don't know#one of em; I'll be blunt; I like them to much to ever stop following them... not following in the the tumblr sense#following after them like a dog; they're someone I could never quit.. doesn't mean I'd agree or support it.. but I'd never break off contac#right or wrong that's just the truth of it#guess what I'm saying here is don't go some place I can't follow#...it all comes from a place of caring; but man... it's a real bad direction#...it frankly eats at me... if you look through the stuff I say you might pick up a trend of this eating at me#fuck I wish they respected anything I said#or maybe they do and it just doesn't feel like it and they never seem to acknowledge a word I say unless it's a topic they like#but I wish they'd listen to me and just... just course correct such a tiny tiny tiny amount
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Since you've mentioned Scarlet Lady in one of your posts, what's your opinion on it?
I've mentioned before that I'm a big Scarlet Lady fan, which is the only reason that I'm comfortable answering asks like this one. I don't publicly criticize the content of hobby creators. That's wildly inappropriate! Punch up, not down.
The linked post was a general discussion of the adaptation process and how @zoe-oneesama did a fantastic job, so for this one, I'm just going to do some general gushing because I do actually like praising and enjoying things!
Scarlet Lady's chosen format (comic) allows it to have this wonderful conversation with canon where it can rely on the framework of canon to tell it's own story while also using canon for jokes and meta commentary. This means that Scarlet Lady is about as close as fan content can get to a direct reboot because it's able to have moments like this one from the comic's first post:
[Image description: Adrien standing in his room after transforming into Chat Noir for the first time. He is beaming and his eyes are shining with excitement as he exclaims, "This is gonna be awesome!"]
A single picture that communicates everything we need to know about Adrien getting his miraculous. When I've done this same thing in fanfic, I had to write out the full scene because that's how novels work. You have to give the full picture. With a comic, you can just quickly acknowledge this thing that we all already know and then move on to the new stuff. A picture really is worth a thousand words! (Or, in my case, more like two thousand...)
This allows Zoe to keep the same akumas that we get in canon without her story feeling like a boring rehash because she can focus on what's different in her version. A novelization of the same content would have to show both the stuff that stays the same and the stuff that changes for it to be coherent. That's a lot less fun to read and write. It's why I basically never revisit canon akumas in my own stuff. It's just too derivative for the written word.
This is one of the big reasons that I loved Scarlet Lady. Because it was able to have that more directly conversation with canon, it was able to take canon and say, "hey, why don't we embrace the tone that you established in season one and retell the story with that vibe?" That's something that I desperately wanted to see, but that is totally unsuited to my chosen artistic form. It couldn't be a novel. It had to be a comic.
If you want to know what a true formula show version of Miraculous would look like, Scarlet Lady is it. It does everything that Miraculous should have done:
Sticks to a lighthearted tone where nothing is ever super serious
Keeps Gabriel entirely unsympathetic
Has slow character development and background hints at a bigger plot as the only serial elements, allowing the individual episodes to be their own story while never feeling incomplete or rushed
Allows characters other than Marinette to shine while keeping Marinette as the clear main character
Makes Adrien narratively important
MAKES THE LOVE SQUARE CUTE SO I CAN ACTUALLY SHIP IT
Understands that Lila and Chloe can't coexist as antagonists
Reverses the love square, which is the best way to tell their story. Yes, I will die on my "love diamond" hill. It's a good hill. Come join me. I'll bring cookies.
I could keep going, but you hopefully get my point. While Scarlet Lady is certainly not the only way to do a formula version of canon, it's proof that a formula version does work! You don't have to go the serious route for Miraculous to be successful.
I want to take some time to gush about the ending, but I don't want to spoil it, so I'll put that gushing under a "read more" in case anyone hasn't seen it. I'll finish out this less spoilerish section with this:
I feel like some people are surprised when they learn that I love Scarlet Lady because - as some of you have probably picked up - it is quite different from my ideal version of canon. I'm not sure why that would stop me from enjoying a thing, though. It's important to remember that our personal ideals are not the only way to tell a good story. There are lots of ways to take what canon gave us and make something wonderful! It's part of the reason that I enjoy being in a fandom.
If I only wanted to see my ideal take on canon, then I'd stick to writing/imagining my own stories. But I don't want that! I like seeing alternate takes, too. Scarlet Lady is one of my personal favorites. It's completely different from anything that I'd ever think to write and that's why I'm so glad that it exists! I like being entertained just as much as I like creating my own entertainment and I don't want to only read stories that look like something I'd write. That's boring!
Spoilers below:
I've mentioned before that there are many, many ways to properly handle Chloe's character and Zoe did such a good job with her take on that! Chloe isn't absolved of all the things she did wrong, but she's also treated as a young woman with the ability to change.
While the comic bares the name of Chloe's alter ego, she was the never the main character. She never went on a journey. The story kept her to her shallow season-one self: a petty brat who just wanted attention. It did this because that's who Chloe was in canon and who Chloe needed to be for the comic to work.
The first time we see any complexity from Chloe is in the comic's final few episodes, which was absolutely the right call for Zoe to make! In a recent post, I talked about how the end of a formula show is the only time when you can break the formula in catastrophic ways and that's what Zoe did. She kept Chloe static until it was time to end the story and that's when the formula breaks. That's when Chloe gets depth because, once she has depth, the formula doesn't work.
That depth is not used to redeem Chloe, but to show us that there's hope for Chloe. That this petty brat who we've been dealing with has some serious issues and needs help. Help that she's going to get far away from the people that she's hurt because her issues aren't an excuse for what she's done. They don't erase the harm that she caused. At the same time, understanding her issues makes us hope that she can be better now and Scarlet Lady took a moment to give us that hope. To show us the START of Chloe's true story.
That is the kind of ending that I have wanted to see in so many properties!!! It was so wonderful to finally get one that did this right. A story that understood that full redemption to the team and damnation to death/suffering are extremes on a scale of possibilities. You don't have to go to extremes! You can fall in the middle and the middle is a perfect, natural place for Chloe to land in this kind of story. Fully redeeming or even fully damning Chloe simply doesn't work in lighthearted formula content. It's too big a lift as canon has already demonstrated.
I also loved Zoe's take on Emilie. I've mentioned that I don't like evil Emilie in part because it makes her revival feel like the start of a new story. She's back and she'd bad, so we have to take her down now! But I don't want that. I want the story to end when Gabriel is stopped. Zoe does this by giving us an Emilie that is another perfect middle ground. She matches canon's uncomfortable implications without feeling like a true villain who is a threat to society.
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Sure it's toxic, do it anyway! Why would I be trying so hard not to be toxic towards someone I'm cutting off? As long as I'm not threatening them with it or going to go back and forth jerking them around, there's really no downside for me and I could give a shit less how they feel, obviously. When you're done, you're done. You can be an adult and maturely have a conversation, but you can also just not, ya know? If it sucks, hit the bricks, etc.
Thanks, Anon!
-submit your poll!
#I initially read this as like a familial relationship or friendship but romantic ones too I guess#Like I said it is still toxic#But the way I see it:#You either do not care about this person at all and it'd probably be better for you both if you just left#You are not safe or you feel uncomfortable leaving in which case run and don't look back#You don't need to hide from any action that can be percieved negatively#Even ''toxic'' actions should be a tool in your arsenal sometimes#Will it hurt the person you're leaving? Oh yeah probably#Are you really going to stick around in a relationship with a person you'd be willing to never speak to again if you could though?#Is that really worth it just so you can say at least you weren't toxic?#If talking it out feels out of reach for any reason then you're not really left with a lot of options#Maybe you're immature or don't know how to get out of this relationship idk and honestly idc#I advocate two things: either talk it out or leave them#Even if you come out the toxic bad guy you know what? you can still move on and you aren't stuck in this relationship anymore#They don't even have to have done anything wrong I'm dead serious#Is it shitty? Yes already acknowledged it really really is#If you feel it's what you've gotta do though do it#I'm not about to judge#Would it suck if someone did it to me? Absolutely I'd probably be devestated#I still believe you should do it#Don't stick around for shit you aren't here for
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The Lion and The Fox
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POV: Sunday has always had high expectations of you, his dear secretary, and his lovesick obsession for you has only made his trust on you increase uncontrollably. But now, he felt like his world was crumbling right in front of him when he learned that you were pregnant, and the father was the man he most despised, that he wish he could deport from Penacony, Aventurine.
⚠️ WARNINGS:
— This is a Yandere and Suggestive SFW Oneshot
— Reader is FEMALE and uses SHE/HER pronouns
— Contains: A lot of dirty-talking and racially-motivated talking, accidental pregnancy, bloody fighting, attempted murder, violent language and obsessive/possessive behavior.
— Yandere!Boss!Sunday x Pregnant!Reader x Yandere!Aventurine
— AU is: In-Game
“Ah, Y/N. You’re here.” Sunday turned his gaze away from the windowed wall of his office with a little grin growing in the edges of his lips to look at you, who was entering the room with embarrassment already taking you over.
“Hi… Mr. Oak.” You didn’t even dare ignoring his greet as you pushed the door back to its place from behind, especially considering how much he personally respected you.
But you immediately sighed in defeat as you realized how obviously awkward your tone accidentally came out of your throat, which you knew would alarm his attentive ears in a blink.
“Is everything okay?” And his speed to figure someone’s head out, or at least yours in particular, made you even less confident to keeping making eye contact at those mesmerizing amber eyes of his. “You seem very disturbed, dear.”
“Mr. Oak, I—” At the same you desperately wanted to vomit those words out of your chest, your logical thinking warned you that the conversation you were about to have with him right now would not be easy work, perhaps even heartbreaking.
Sunday begun silently walking away from his spot and going towards you, as if he was trying to avoid any explosive reaction out of you or comfort you. But unfortunately, his elegant apparent d and tall figure completely triggered the opposite out of you.
“I need to take a break.” You threw your head to the left as you confessed your intentions to him without any further context, paralyzing the Halovian. “Like… a few days or a whole week…”
“A whole week?” Sunday’s tone did not change, though, and after a few seconds waiting for a response, he finally figured you were too uncomfortable to speak any more without his leadership. “May I ask why?” He continued walking, a little more faster this time, cornering you against the wall even if his hands remained behind his back as usual.
“I’m not feeling quite well, Mr. Oak—”
“Please, address me as Sunday, dear.” You suddenly felt something wooly reach your left cheek and begin to caress it gently, figuring it was Sunday’s fingers after successfully cornering you against the door. “My apologies… I won’t interrupt you again.”
“I’m just feeling sick. That’s all…” You awkwardly finished yourself while trying to ignore his intimate demonstration of care.
“And you need a whole week to recover from it?” His tone shifted to a more serious one while that hand of his spread itself around your whole jaw and slightly pulled it upwards, forcing you to look at him again, and your silence made it obvious to him that you were either lying or hiding something from him. “Let’s sit down, dear.” His hypnotizing grin almost made you vomit the truth right there out of guilt.
Sunday released you and begun stepping towards where his office desk and fancy chair were, without acknowledging how quickly he had convinced you to speak the truth to him. That distressing nod in your throat was already unbearable on its own, but that you were being forced to tell such disappointing news to such a sweet and caring boss like Sunday, that truly admires you and trusts you deeply, just couldn’t be postponed anymore.
“I’m pregnant!” As soon as the distance between you and him was comfortable to you, when Sunday’s hand was about to reach his chair’s arm support, you let the beast out of its cage. “I am feeling sick indeed, but it’s because I’m pregnant and I have no idea what to do about it yet!” Your voice cracked a few times as you bowed your head down, tears barely glistening your eyes, but you did your best to hold them back and not stress Sunday, who had fully paralyzed in his spot.
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“I beg your pardon?” Sunday slowly turned his head to you, the rest of his body immobile in its place.
“You heard me, Mr. O—… Sunday… I’m pregnant.” You crossed your arms and legs, leaning against the wall vulnerably.
And once again, Sunday didn’t say anything again some awkward seconds, causing your heart to beat even faster than it already was.
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“P-Pregnant..?” This was one of the first times you’ve ever heard Sunday’s voice crack and stutter.
“Yes, sir.” You quickly nodded.
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“Like… pregnant pregnant?” Sunday repeated himself again, a little more desperate.
“Yes, sir.” And you nodded to him again, a little more desperate too.
“When did you…” He didn’t know what to ask you due to the unprocessed shock. “For how long have you known this?” Sunday sounded a little madder as you expected, but at the same time you could feel some worry and anxiety coming from him as you saw him move a hand to his collar and start fidgeting his own tie.
“I took the test a few days ago, Mr. Oak.” Although you noticed how you referred to him in the wrong manner, Sunday didn’t seem to notice it, or at least preferred to not scold you again.
“How many people know about it yet?” Sunday finally turned his full body to you. After all, that question mattered a lot.
“None of my friends know about it yet, only the father and you, sir.” At this moment, it felt like all of your friendship with Sunday never existed in the first place, considering how incredibly negative his reaction was.
“Ah, yes… the father.” Sunday spat the word like a curse, scoffing at it right afterwards before pausing for a moment. “Who is the lucky man, Y/N?” Sunday decided to speak in a warmer tone, hoping it would help appeasing the suspense between you two, but it wasn’t quite useful to you.
“Sunday, I… I don’t think I should—”
“I have to know who the father is, Y/N.” He immediately shut you off with a shaky, anxious voice before you could fully reject him. “I don’t think it would be beneficial for us if the people of Penacony were to learn that the secretary of the Head of the Family… my secretary… is pregnant of someone of bad influence, especially if I was not aware of it or consenting to it. Don’t you agree?” Sunday’s voice cracked a few more times with his growing anger as his fingers became more aggressive with his tie.
You weakly nodded, feeling more tears rise up to your eyes. You were expecting Sunday to have a negative reaction indeed, but you did not expect him to be this bold. It even made you question your non-professional friendship with him. Was he not as attached to you like you thought? Was his kindness to you just a souvenir for your hard work? Have you two ever developed a friendship in the first place? If not, were you really just a secretary to him? If yes, how intimate are you two?
“This seriously endangers your job, Y/N, so if you don’t wish me to take extreme measures with you, tell me, dear, who is the father..?!” Despite his self-control, you noticed a pattern of how he was simply unable to hold all his anger when he mentioned the ‘father’.
You breathed in and out, preparing yourself for the bomb you were about to drop on him. After all, losing your job to this did not seem to be the smartest choice to be done, although the answer itself could still make you lose your job anyway.
“I believe the father is Aventurine, sir.” You closed your eyes as you told your version of the story, trying to make it more broad by stating as a theory rather than a fact, but you were certain that the baby was Aventurine’s.
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Sunday scoffed.
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“Aventurine?” Sunday’s tone deepened, almost falling into pure madness. “The Sigonian from the IPC?”
“…Yes, sir.” You weakly nodded again, finally finding some courage to open your eyes and look up to him.
“You’ve been going out with him?” Sunday’s tie wasn’t tucked under his white tuxedo anymore, and he was barely blinking his widened eyes.
“I believe you’re crossing a line of privacy, sir. I won’t be answering that.” You felt blood rush to your cheeks as you remembered your last date with the gambler, specifically when the baby was being made, speaking a little bit more annoyed.
“Why? He didn’t assault you or anything of the sort, did he, dear?” Sunday’s hands crossed around each other.
“No, sir.” Your tone went back to its previous shy one.
Sunday’s eyes finally dropped and stopped violently staring at you, looking around in confusion as he breathed in and out harshly. It did help you and your body to calm down, though.
“You know you can always trust me if there’s any danger going on in your life, right?” Sunday looked at you again with curiosity, which made your body stiffen again.
“Absolutely, sir.” You nodded more confidently. That statement reassured you about your previous thoughts about Sunday.
He really isn’t that bold. He never was. Today was just a minimal and reasonable exception.
“Good.” Sunday’s eyes got distracted again as he thought about all the facts that have been told, and you decided to contribute with your own silence.
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“You know what? I must apologize to you, dear. What kind of man treats a pregnant lady like this? Only some uneducated punk… It was very childish of me, Y/N, I’m truly sorry.” Sunday suddenly relaxed in a blink, his hands going behind his back as usual while a cute grin took over his lips again as if he hadn’t almost gone mad in front of you.
After all, self-control is a really important aspect in this sort of job.
“No, it’s ok… I understand. I would be very worried too if I found out my secretary suddenly got pregnant.” Sunday hummed a giggle at your comment as you shrugged your shoulders.
“Go home, dear.” Sunday walked to you again, his hands landing on both your shoulders. “Go take a good rest. I’ve made you work enough this week.” His thumbs gently brushed your skin like wet porcelain, even raising them a few times to push some strands of your hair behind your ear.
“You’re… you’re not mad?” Deep down, you found his sudden change of behavior weird, and you weren’t exactly comfortable with it.
“Mad? Why would I be mad at you, dear? I trust you to make a smart choice about this.” And now that you were closely staring at his fine face, that smile, no matter how warm it was, it seemed to be betraying whatever was going through his mind. “Make sure to keep your commitment with the Family in mind, ok?” Sunday suddenly leaned his face to the right side of your face, his mouth hanging inches away from your ear as his voice suddenly turned serious.
“Of course, boss.” You nodded to Sunday, who patted your head in appreciation for a few seconds before finally letting you go.
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SLAM!
All the human bodies in the casino were attracted by the loud bang of the double doors being against the walls as they were brutally pushed open, whispers beginning to accumulate onto each other as they realized it was Sunday Oak who walked in.
“Is that Sunday Oak?”
“I thought he condemned gambling…”
“What is he doing here?”
“Sunday Oak?”
“Should I ask for an autograph?”
“Isn’t he Robin’s older brother?”
Sunday couldn’t care less about any of those comments or the glances landing on him as he walked inside the flashy halls of the casino. He was entirely interested and focused on his hunt, and his hunt only.
After all, it didn’t take him more than 5 seconds to identify what he was searching for.
Aventurine.
The slim, blonde man sitting down lazily on a chair with spread legs and a pack of cards in his hands, accompanied by two other men playing with him, sitting in the opposite corners of the table, all of them shaping the form of a triangle where Aventurine was directly facing Sunday. The table was full of cards and chips thrown around it, even a few real credits too, showing that they weren’t just playing casually, and three cups of alcohol being the only objects standing still.
“Ah, the Head of the Family himself, Sunday Oak! What an honor it is to have you in my casino! What brings you here tonight?” The gambler put his cards facing down in the table to open his arms to Sunday in a warm greeting.
His purple eyes still managed to shine through the dark pair of sunglasses he was wearing and the whole dark ambient around them.
But Sunday’s murderous face didn’t appease a bit with his warm greeting.
“Leave.” He glanced down at the two other gamblers, who simply shared confused looks with each other and Aventurine when they heard his order. “NOW!” Both men immediately flinched upwards hearing his scream, fleeing from their seats as if they were fleeing for their lives.
After all, who would be insane enough to challenge the Head of the Family?
As soon as the steps of the coward men started to become faint murmurs in the ambient, Aventurine finally started taking advantage of their privacy to speak again.
“See… when I say that you’re always welcome in here, Mr. Oak, that doesn’t necessarily mean you have the right to interrupt any of the games—”
“You got Y/N pregnant..?!” Aventurine’s smirk grew as he realized what was Sunday’s objective in his casino and how angry he was due to it, even if he had been interrupted.
“Ah… so you’ve heard the news…” Aventurine proceeded to grab the glass of liquor sitting closest to him and took a sip of it. “It is also an honor to have being the first person to congratulate me…”
“Congratulate you..?” Sunday’s eyes widened in audacity at his words. “Congratulate you?! For what? For making such an absurdly irresponsible decision?!” Sunday finally dragged one of the empty chairs closer to him and sat himself down at on it, both his hands slamming the table while Aventurine simply mired down at the liquor in the glass. “You’re a gambler, and you’re completely addicted to it! What is wrong with you?! What kind of man sustains his family by gambling?!” Aventurine couldn’t help but scoff at his words as his eyes finally looked up to meet his again, starting a war of eye contact.
“Oh, please, we both know that you’re not mad at the fact that I’m a gambler about to become a father.” The gambler finally placed the glass back to the table, his arms crossing as he leaned against the chair.
Sunday refused to answer him although both men had a lot of privacy to discuss such an intimate topic.
“You’re mad that it’s not going to be a beautiful and cute Halovian baby growing inside her with cute little wings on his head and a shiny golden halo that will grow to be the Family’s next prodigy..! And instead, it’s going to be a little Sigonian trash with cursed fortune.” Aventurine used his hands to point at Sunday’s features and his owns, but it didn’t trigger Sunday to answer him, despite his boiling annoyance. “Not that? No? Then it might be that… you’re mad at the fact that it wasn’t you who made the path inside her womb first?” Aventurine uncrossed him arms and set them on table while leaning his body a little closer to his to challenge him, finally causing Sunday to slightly snap.
After all, an obsessed man like him could not handle the imagination of his perfect pure darling being bred by the man who directly competes with him for her, all twirled around his figure and showing him your nudity.
“You little shit…” Sunday fisted his own hands as his eyebrows to frown in the table’s cloth as he tried avoiding those sinful thoughts.
“Me?” Aventurine’s eyes widened with Sunday’s hypocrisy. “Imagine you’re constantly trying to hang out with this marvelous, jaw-dropping and inspiring woman, but she’s always rejecting you because she was either working in a Saturday night, or too exhausted from it on Sunday, hum? You feeling me now?” Aventurine tried waiting for an answer, but Sunday refused to let himself downgrade to the gambler’s level and backed down again. “I think I should actually thank you for making her exhausted and home-alone during her precious weekends. You’ve surely left that woman touch-starved, and I certainly took advantage of that whenever I insisted in visiting her in her home… She’s actually extra tight when she’s stressed.” Aventurine winked at him, intentionally ignoring Sunday’s unblinking, widening eyes. “Just to think about my cock suffocating inside that tiiight pussy of hers while she begs for me to keep ravishing it nonstop makes me so hard…” Aventurine was rubbing his legs together under the table to avoid his slight erection to grow any further under his pants while his cheeks slightly reddened.
“You hell-sent maniac…” That was all Sunday could mumble without exploding. “Do you even listen to yourself? Is this the poor vocabulary that poor kid would learn from their father? You have absolutely no conditions of being a father. I know it, you know it, Y/N knows it. Do you have any idea how worried she was when she was talking to me about this mess? Do you think she’d be that worried about it if I was the father of her child, hum? Do you think she’s happy to be pregnant of you?” Sunday finally decided to take some dominance in the conversation and leaned closer to Aventurine.
“Do you think she’d be any happier to pregnant of you, Mr. Oak? Her manipulative boss that takes advantage of her every free second to keep her revolving around you, yet, refuses to take a single step forward with your relationship with her and keeps edging her pleasure in you?” Aventurine sounded a little angrier as he described Y/N’s work ambient.
“You know nothing about me and Y/N…” Sunday hissed at him. Deep down he knew he had a fair point and that he had to change his relationship with her if he wanted to conquer her heart.
“Well, I certainly know all of this would’ve probably been avoided if you weren’t the coward that you are, and asked her out before I did. Now, even if you did manage to make her fall in love with you and make her your wife, you’d never be able to get rid of the shape of her insides, forever prepared to receive me inside her instead of you because she knows who introduced her the magic of paradisiacal pleasure.” Aventurine twirled his fingers together and set his chin on top of them, his face proudly hanging on it.
“You do realize Y/N is most likely going to abort that cursed baby, right?” Sunday finally found an opportunity to counter Aventurine, smirking in victory after all those sexual comments of you Aventurine has been doing to frustrate him.
“Good for her.” Aventurine shrugged his shoulders, dumbfounding Sunday, who allowed his smirk to die for a moment.
Sunday didn’t understand. Wasn’t he cheerful about her pregnancy? Wasn’t he happy about claiming her womb first and making her a mother before him? Wasn’t he initially arguing with Sunday about being a father?
“You’re just bluffing. I know you’re disappointed.” Sunday brought his grin back before Aventurine could take dominance again, trying to convince him to let that guilt out of his mind.
“I don’t think you’ve understood it yet, Mr. Oak… I don’t intend to be a father. Never intended to be.” Aventurine spoke with a straight face, very relaxed as he confessed his feelings, unlike Sunday.
“I beg your pardon?” Finally, Sunday felt challenged again, so his smirk died again and never rose again.
“Sure, it would be disappointing if she did decide to abort the baby. After all, the idea of repopulating my clan back to this world sounds good to me… but I got her pregnant simply because I want to get her away from you, and that pregnancy is going to force her to take a break from you, and maybe eternally. I already heard you did let her go home today, so it’s already working! Thank you, Mr. Oak!” Sunday was entirely speechless at Aventurine’s confession, not a single full phrase managing to form in his head as the gambler paused again to take another sip of his liquor.
And Sunday knew he had more to add onto that confession, seeing how he swallowed the liquor quickly.
“It surprised me how all it takes to impregnate a woman is a single little puncture in a condom… Make sure to double-check your condoms before sex, Sunday! Protection isn’t a joke!” Sunday couldn’t believe all he had to add to his confession was a joke.
“You..! You did it on purpose?!” Sunday hissed as if he wanted to squeeze the gambler’s head until it crushed into a gory mess.
“Congratulations, Mr. Oak! We can finally have a man-to-man conversation!” Aventurine threw his hands in the air cheerfully as if he was celebrating his birthday.
“Do you have shit in your head instead of a functional brain?! Do you realize you’re putting the life of a child on stake and even her trust on you?! You’re a monster! You had no right to fool Y/N like that!” Sunday was finally finding out how little power of you he had on his hands, his anger finally spilling from its chamber.
“Oh? But you have the right to keep overworking her with the stupidest tasks ever? Making her bring you breakfast and lunch from the cafe with the stupidest exigences ever?! Like ‘No veggies, only keep the onions’, ‘Diet raspberry juice’ and ‘Strawberry cupcakes for desert with no sprinkles or extra frosting’? To make her rearrange your whole calendar for the month because you suddenly have a doctor’s appointment in the middle of month? Knowing she’s not intelligent or bossy enough to tell you’re just taking advantage of her position and her trust on you? That you’re a very busy man and genuinely can’t deal with fucking calendars on your own?” Aventurine also dropped his smirk, speaking in a more angered one as well.
“It’s her job, and I’m her boss. And don’t you worry about it because Y/N gets some good money for all her hard work and she loves me for it.” Sunday defended himself a little proudly. It was a good reason to keep her busy with him.
“And I’m just a great fucking friend! See? We’re both playing dirty here…” Aventurine giggled at his own pun, which made Sunday’s wings to twitch.
“Don’t imagine it… Don’t picture it…” Sunday thought to himself, and Aventurine took advantage of his silence.
“And, think about it, what is the worth in all the money you apparently give her if she can’t find herself some time to spend it because her boss can’t let her enjoy her weekends, hum?” Aventurine crossed his arms, settling them on the table to keep himself still leaning close to Sunday’s face.
“As soon as I get you out of my way, I’ll make sure she’ll have a lot of time to enjoy her life with me as her company.” Sunday threatened him with a mean smirk in his face, finding joy in Aventurine’s struggle.
“I don’t think you’ve realized it yet, Sunday. Y/N is already mine. All, all mine. She’s been mine for a long time now and will always be mine. Your little tricks to imprison her with you are clever, but you know how gambling with me works. I’ll always find my way out of risk and become the winner. And if Y/N is clever enough to remember this little fact, you might face a serious danger of her deciding to keep the baby.” Aventurine’s irises were trembling with excitement and hatred for Sunday as he talked about his possession over you.
“We both know she won’t.” Sunday hissed, still keeping his smirk, although he was doing a great effort to not punch the gambler’s face.
“How do you know, hum? Y/N is the kindest soul in this planet! I don’t think she’d opt to interrupt that growing life inside her so easily like you think. Maybe she’ll start sympathizing with it and decide to accept the duty of raising it with me as the father and provider. And if that happens, what are you going to do, huh? Shove your hand inside her womb and abort the baby yourself? You can’t do anything!” Aventurine cackled at the thought of Sunday trying to get rid of the baby inside you or convincing you to do it and pathetically being defeated.
“Maybe I’ll fire her. I can’t afford to have a secretary who’s going to birth a disgusting Avgin nor can she afford her life without the salary I give her… It’s a fair trade!” Sunday threatened enthusiastically, although in his mind he knew he’d never do that to you.
“Oh, really? And make her hate you forever? What a stupid way to give me the opportunity to finally imprison her with me, Sunday! Maybe she’ll learn how great it is to have me as her sugar daddy…” Aventurine threw himself in the chair and I’m his arms in the arm as if he was receiving a gift from Sunday.
“Or maybe I’ll take the matter to my own hands and marry her with me before you. And trust me, gambler, I’ll make sure you have the lowest share of custody, or maybe even none. I’m the head of the Family Oak. I own this whole planet in the palm of my hand.” Sunday also rose his hands in the air and inflated his chest, trying to demonstrate the size of the power he owns.
“Yet, you can’t stop the woman you love from fucking with other men.” Aventurine hummed some giggles while Sunday had to stop himself again to impede his brain from picturing that scenario. “I would rather die than let a baby of my blood to be raised by you. To be raised like a mere annoyance in the house… forever incapable of making his daddy proud of him because he’s not his real son… destined to be overshadowed by his future siblings… Both Y/N and the baby would be happier to have me taking care of them instead of you.” Aventurine’s tone deepened again, his arms lowering sown to his knees and gripping them to control himself.
“I will not lose Y/N to you, gambler. I don’t care if that baby would not be the happiest one in the world. I refuse to let you have her for another single minute of your life with those dirty hands of yours.” Sunday spat his prejudice for the gambler with no remorse.
“Oh-ho? Are you afraid I’m a better womanizer than you, Mr. Head of the Family? That my ‘dirty hands’ are capable to make Y/N moan my name in a volume you’ll never be able to get out of her?” Aventurine stared at the deepest corners of Sunday’s eyes.
“Quiet.” Sunday hissed barely above a whisper.
“That my fingers will penetrate that wet pussy of hers while I devour her throbbing clit with my dirty Avgin mouth? Oh, yeah, I’ve already done that!” Aventurine brought a hand closer to Sunday, only to thrust the air with his ring-finger and middle-finger a few times, pretending it was your pussy.
“Shut. Your. Mouth.” Sunday made sure to pronounce every syllable of his order slowly, exciting Aventurine to keep teasing him even further.
Sunday’s cheeks were reddening with arousal as he couldn’t hold back the few pictures his brain illustrated for him of Y/N’s naked body being touched by Aventurine, meanwhile the gambler moved his hands to his body and started brushing his own body in a suggestive way.
“Ohh~… Aventurine..! You feel sooo good around me~… Oh, right there..! Fuck me right there, Aven..!” Sunday’s fingers gripped on the table’s cloth as if that was the only thing keeping him from having a boner on his own, trying to force himself to focus on the gambler’s threat rather than his pathetic teasing. “Ah, yes~! Touch me, Aventurine! Touch me!” Aventurine put his own palms on his own breasts and gently fondled them, which made Sunday feel so disgusted he slightly backed away from the pervert in front of him.
“Do you seriously think acting like this is going to annoy me?” Sunday bluffed, betraying his own mindset. “I must thank you for the spoilers, though.” He shrugged his shoulders, pretending there wasn’t a noticeable tent growing in his pants.
“See? Even you recognize you’ll never be her first in anything because I’ve been there first!” Aventurine dropped his act, jumping back to the table, leaning over to challenge Sunday with a creepy expression and a proud smile. “Every Saturday night, when you decided to send her a ‘Goodnight’ message and ask how she was doing, I was already pining her down on her own bed and taming her pussy.” Sunday’s mind was unfortunately too attracted to that scenario, forcing himself to think about it.
Thinking about your insides being stretched by the gambler, your breasts fondled by the gambler, your pretty moans being listened by the gambler, your mouth kissing the gambler, your clothes being taken off by the gambler…
All by that stupid gambler, and not him.
“Focus, Sunday. Focus. Focus on the gambler.” Sunday thought to himself.
“Sometimes I even answered you for her, y’know? Sending you a ‘Goodnight’ with cute a heart sticker, pretending to be your dear woman while the real one was gagging on my cock.” Sunday’s eyes widened as he heard that disgusting confession.
Every time you talked to him at nighttime, Sunday would think about what were you possibly doing while texting him. Maybe you were changing yourself into your pijamas, specifically a beautiful nightgown of his favorite kind. Maybe you were kicking your feet and your cheeks were red because you were talking so intimately with your sweet and handsome boss.
How did you even save his contact as? Most likely ‘Mr. Oak’ or maybe ‘Mr. Sunday’ because of your professional relationship with him, but maybe it is something more friendly like ‘Sunday’ or ‘Sunday ❤️’.
But now all those fantasies that made fall in love with you even harder, were crushed by the gambler’s words, and he was really hoping the man was just bluffing to annoy him.
“You disgusting piece of crap..! You had no right to do that!” He hissed as his mind pictured more and more dirty illustrations.
“Seeing you smirk at me every time I passed her to you, thinking you were in charge of her and that I was losing precious time with her, made me want to laugh. Poor you..! You had absolutely no idea! You could’ve died without knowing!” Aventurine started cackling as he saw Sunday’s destroyed ego.
Sunday couldn’t believe it either. The gambler was right, and he did not plan on ever admitting it. To think that he has been interpreting you so wrongly all along and that that Aventurine was taking advantage of his foolishness was making him ache in need for revenge.
It was embarrassing to see a man of his level of money, power and intelligence to commit such a rookie mistake, of letting your weekends free of his obsessiveness and stalking, and find himself in the edge of losing to someone so weaker than him.
But Aventurine didn’t notice Sunday’s breathing becoming louder and louder.
“That’s why I had to show you the truth. To show you who is truly in the lead.” Aventurine unexpectedly leaned closer to Sunday until he was a few centimeters away from his right ear, invading his personal space. “That’s why I made a little hole in my condom before going to her home and ejaculated a lot of sperm inside that pussy when we were having sex. Thousands of my little spermatozoids… finding a way out of that rubber barrier and swimming their way inside her womb, claiming ‘your’ territory…” Sunday shit his eyes, trying to control his painfully quick heartbeats while Aventurine kept enjoying the mental torture. “And trust me, Sunday, despite her not knowing what I had planned for her, she was the one that kept begging for me to keep fucking her and to cum inside her again. Not a single cell of her body wants you—” Sunday unexpectedly unchained himself from the chair, violently grabbing Aventurine’s collar by his green uniform and fisting his knuckles across his cheek.
Sunday just couldn’t deal with his own imaginations anymore.
It hurt him to imagine you not desiring for him to touch you that way. The same way you’ve allowing the gambler to do. It couldn’t be true. He knew he could make you feel as good as the gambler did. All that he was missing was courage to ask you out. To think of Aventurine having the privilege to watch you during sex, giggling about Sunday’s obnoxiousness. To think of the gambler fucking you right in front of him, conquering your heart, and you enjoying it rather than asking him to stop and to saves by Sunday.
Even if it was just a dark fantasy. A horror one. One that would never come to be true, if it depended on you at least, he smacked Aventurine’s face as if he wanted to avoid that possibility as much as he could. He did not want that scum making someone like you fall in love with it anymore.
Although the punch itself wasn’t hard enough to make Aventurine drop his smirk, it was surely made him roll down from the table and vulnerably land on the floor along with a few cards, chips and one of the wine glasses, that broke as soon as it touched the ground, and Sunday throwing himself on top of him.
“YOU FOUL DISGRACE!” Sunday kept attempting to spank Aventurine, who allowed himself to receive every single punch like a masochist while laughing at how Sunday snapped. “YOU HAD NO RIGHTS TO DO THAT TO Y/N!” Everyone in the casino already had their bodies turned to both men, some had even stood up to have a better view of the scene going on, all the whispers accumulating onto each other again.
“What’s going on?!”
“Are they fighting?!”
“Why are they fighting?!”
“Did Sunday Oak lose a bet?!”
“Who is Y/N?”
“They know each other?!”
“Punching me… won’t undo what has been done, Sunday! She’s pregnant! 100% pregnant!” Finally, Aventurine got bored of Sunday’s amateur boxing and rose his hands from the floor, clutched them around Sunday’s cranial wings, squeezing them hard to almost break its bones, and launched his forehead against Sunday’s.
“Who is pregnant?”
“This Y/N person is pregnant?”
“For God’s sake, who’s Y/N?!”
Sunday moaned loud in pain, accidentally weakening his weight on top of Aventurine, who quickly pushed him away from the top and reverted the positions.
“She’s mine… all mine!” Despite the few blood drops running down his nostrils and red marks in his cheeks, Aventurine kept smirking as if he was having the biggest thrill of his life. “And I’ll make sure to keep impregnating her every time I need to remember you who is in the lead! Over and over again!” Aventurine made sure to whisper his words about you and guarantee that nobody would gossip about their conflict, or at least gossip it with all the context behind it.
Aventurine’s punches were way more painful compared to Sunday’s, which was causing him to become so pained and desperate that he couldn’t even react to it, nor hold the gambler back. He doesn’t really tell people that he’s quite stronger than he looks. Although his slim body and smaller height sell the contrary image, all the years he spent being a slave strengthened his muscles forever, unlike Sunday, who has never quite invested in giving himself a buffer body. And the many rings hanging in his fingers, made of multiple gems, were making it only worse.
Sunday started to panic. So many people were witnessing the worst side of him, the Head of the Family, the representative of their planet, being in a casino and initiating a fight on it, one that he was also pathetically losing. After he’s given so many speeches about the importance of peace and the abolishment of violence, he was the first one to opt for violence when the stakes of a fight got too high? Even if he found a way to avoid the situation to escape everyone’s mouth, it still wouldn’t hide the multiple bruises in his face, and that would immediately denounce that he got involved in a fight, whether being who started it or not. Injuries like hematomas and cuts can take weeks to fully heal depending on their depth. How would he hide that from his public? His dear little sister? Gopher? Or… you?
“Oh, fuck.” Sunday thought.
Had he just made a bad decision? Had he embraced his instincts rather than his critical thinking?
He couldn’t let himself lose his reputation or influence so easily. He’d be willing to beg for Aventurine’s mercy as long as his face remained intact. So, that’s why he did his best to turn his face to the side while his arms and cranial wings crossed on top of it to create a barrier between him and Aventurine.
“What is it, birdie? Are you scared?! Come on, punch me again, I dare you!” Aventurine teased as he started digging his hands under his protection and undo it.
But Sunday was way more focused on the miracle laying in the floor by his side. The cup that had previously fallen in the floor and was ignored by them had broken into many big shards of glass, all beautifully laying down by his side and going unnoticed by the gambler.
How fun would it be to stab the foul gambler?
One of Sunday’s arms slowly reached out to the glass, but it wasn’t long enough to grab it, his fingers slightly touching the pointy tip of the glass. And unfortunately, a single arm on its own wasn’t enough to impede Aventurine from breaking through his barrier and curl his both hands around his neck.
“Bye-bye, Mr. Oak…” Aventurine’s eyes only widened in pure joy the more he suffocated Sunday’s throat.
Sunday grunted and gasped, trying to salvage the remaining oxygen in his body while his single hand kept helplessly trying to fight him back and pull at least one of Aventurine’s arms away of his neck.
Aventurine was so invested in his own sadism, watching Sunday’s face contort and crumble, that he still didn’t realize what was his other arm doing, slowly pulling the glass closer to his palm bit by bit.
And when Sunday’s fingers were finally able to pull that piece of glass close enough to him, with a swift movement, Sunday was finally able to—
“ENOUGH!” Aventurine was suddenly pushed away from Sunday by a security guard, immediately making Sunday’s lungs fill themselves with the oxygen he had lost while the glass stabbed nothing but the air.
And with the assistance of incoming men, Aventurine was quickly struck on the floor with his belly turned down and his hand locked together behind his back.
“Smart move, birdie! But, don’t you see..? You don’t stand a chance against my luck!” Aventurine cackled while he was momentarily being cuffed while Sunday was still recovering from the murder attempt.
“I’M GONNA KILL YOU!” Sunday couldn’t stand seeing that smirky face of his anymore and quickly stood up again, getting up on his feet again just to launch himself on the gambler again, the shard of glass already prepared to stab him.
But Sunday was immediately held back by even more guards that arrived in the scene, every muscle of his arms being held back while his legs desperately kicked the air.
“N-No!” He grunted in agony while one of the guards that cuffed Aventurine begun moving to Sunday and undoing his grip on the shard, pulling it away from him after a few seconds.
Aventurine kept cackling at the scene he watching, loving to see Sunday losing all his power and dignity in front of so many people.
“I PROMISE YOU I’M GONNA KILL YOU WITH MY OWN HANDS ONE DAY, YOU MANIAC!” Sunday spat his violent threat while still trying to launch himself towards Aventurine.
“Lets settle the bet, then! Whoever kills each other first gets to keep Y/N forever! Fair trade, ain’t it?” The gambler rose his head to talk to Sunday more confidently.
“AND I’LL MAKE SURE YOUR DIRTY CLAN WILL BE ERASED FROM HISTORY!” Slowly, both men were dragged afar away from each other, Aventurine being set in a sofa while Sunday was kicked out of the casino, rolling down a few staircases before finally finding himself wormed on the floor.
“Oh, wanna raise the stakes?! If I’m the one who kills you, then… your little sister will be punished too~…” Sunday fumed in anger as he thought of the murder of his little sister.
“DON’T YOU FUCKING DARE PUT ROBIN INTO THIS, YOU LITTLE SHIT!” Aventurine rolled his eyes in boredom with Sunday denying to raise the stakes of their bet.
“Get him out of my sight.” Aventurine looked at the guards and spoke more seriously, a smirk still displayed in his lips.
Sunday gasped when he begun being pulled away from his prey.
“YOU’RE DEAD, GAMBLER! DEAD!” Sunday made sure to state his final words before he was thrown in the streets.
Sunday rolled a few stairs down, ruining the perfect white color of his suit, but unfortunately he couldn’t stop to relax, ease the pain and fix himself because of the people that could be around him. So, he quickly got up from the floor and fled to a narrow corner between two tall buildings, surrounded by dark and trash and isolated him from anyone’s sight.
Meanwhile he fixed his suit, hair and face, while calling a cab to pick him up, Sunday kept insulting the gambler and even himself.
Sunday knew he should’ve asked you out long before all this situation, but he didn’t believe he had to do it since he didn’t think Aventurine’s competition was that dangerous. So, he preferred to wait until he believed you and him had developed a better friendship, and possibly sparked you to like him more than as a friend, a colleague or a boss.
But now, the race for your hand in marriage has started and Sunday is ready to cheat to win.
It doesn’t matter if he suffocates you with work.
It doesn’t matter if he has to kill Aventurine or the baby.
It doesn’t matter if he’ll not raise the baby without a lot of love and care.
It doesn’t even mattter if you don’t want to marry him in the first place.
He’ll win this bet.
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i have not gotten all the way through the hbomberguy video yet or anything im just a little more than halfway through but since i dont know how to talk about anything else ill say this is only a microdetail brought to mind by his mentioning of some of somertons plagiarism and using being gay(as a marginalized group) as a selling point and defense
but that it is so fucking twisted to claim to be a queer rights activist and supporter and then steal a trans asians article, written from and about the pov of a trans asian person, to remove so much of the personal trans experience and input so often "lgbtq"
like not to tinfoil hat on you but i think theres this thing thats been going on for years thats had its ups! and its had its downs. but that is ultimately, that "lgbtq" has been pushed into being marketable but in this really fucked up way wherein its like... if its gay, great! if its lgbtq, fantastic! but you get into LITERALLY!!!! any other labels that are considered "othering" (see: less marketable) it gets dicey.
like. look me in the eyes. i know, and you know, that he did that in part because he was trying to hide, well, plagiarism. but he isnt the only one that sees unique queer identities and their experiences and knows if he just packages it up pretty... if he makes himself sound smart, and if he blankets it over to "lgbtq" its more marketable.
listen. im not saying you should not ever love lgbtq or queer as blanket terms. but by referring to every singularly, uniquely queer experience as lgbtq, as queer, when it defines itself as something more specific, it ends up having a smear effect of erasure.
i think unfortunately the nature of marketability is competition, and it just sucks that that makes stupid football teams out of everything. if theres a market for it theyre gonna start a fight about it. dems vs reps, queers vs straights, gays vs trans. its very easy to want to turn everything into a fight, into support this and ditch this, instead of actually taking the time to create like... learning opportunities. a big point in all of this shouldnt be like oh well fuck these people in particular, it should be to be careful about the information youre consuming and to do some research yourself too.
theres also a good point that im seeing so many people that are surprised and shocked about people they respected and trusted turning out to be this way and never realizing so many messed up things about the sort of messages those people have been putting out. i mean like, okay, weve all seen the you are not immune to propaganda garfield, but seriously. the transphobic rhetoric was right there. the misogyny was right there. the BLATANT misinformation about gay history and its relationship with corporate was RIGHT THERE, in a nicely packaged form with clear and agreeable speaking, nice video and audio editing, and (obviously) quotable, sharable information.
👏 be! 👏 fucking! 👏 careful! 👏 about letting someones grab on marketability trick you into making an already bleak situation worse. it is so fucking easy to get caught up in us-and-them rhetoric when that is so much the worst thing to do im begging you. do not discover your mistakes and respond to them by doubling down when you recognize that it is a mistake.
#skelly speaks#i might delete this later but fjdj#queer and community i mean#theres soooo much to talk about here about this video#but all i know is be queer and eat hot chip. thats all that gets my brain cells to rub together okay#i have a lot of feelings about how serious it is to acknowledge that a community is a sum of individual and unique parts#we are one group of many people! we are together and share something but simultaneously experiencing it uniquely.#and i dont know that im very smart or speak very well#but i can see how culture and capitalism DO have profound effects on one another#and in my short time here on earth so far its been a spectacularly profound experience watching gay rights evolve...#and how suddenly being gay makes money and changes the game on both ends of things. its crazy#like a LOT of feelings fjdjf im so sorry#this is the most political i get but i care much
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THE UNNOTICEABLE HAJIME IWAIZUMI
🏐 : ̗̀➛ hajime iwaizumi doesn't expect much when it comes to girls, but he thinks he might've finally found one thats out of his best friends reach.
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CONTENTS // fluff / light angst / jealous iwa / i switch between iwa, hajime, and iwaizumi a lot so i hope that doesn't bother anybody / some cursing?? idk this is mostly fluff // 1.3k
PAIRINGS // hajime iwaizumi x fem!reader
A/N // I watched the haikyuu movie yesterday and it was so good icl... I wanna write for kuroo now he's so sexy. i tried out a different header theme for this one and I honestly like it more than the other one idrk. anyways enjoy this little drabble 🩷.
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HAJIME IWAIZUMI has always been the less noticeable friend.
It's not like he doesn't get attention. He gets plenty of that. But when it comes to girls, or anything in the dating category at all, most of them flock to Tooru.
He doesn't resent his best friend for his popularity, Hajime just wishes girls didn't come up to him to get closer to his friend.
Him and Tooru are grabbing fast food after practice and a girl approaches him as he sits at the table he chose for him and his teammate. Tooru is in line, probably flirting with the girl across the counter as he orders for him and his best friend.
Iwaizumi feels a little pathetic for hoping that she's going to ask about him. That maybe, just maybe, he might be getting a chance for once. He gets his hopes up, only to be completely shut down when she asks for Tooru's number. He thinks she might notice the light in his face dim, but she doesn't acknowledge it.
"You'll have to ask him. Not sure if he wants me giving out his number to randoms." He says as he turns his attention away from her, a lousy attempt to hide his annoyance.
She nods understandingly, "W-well, thanks anyway." She stammers a bit, her voice small and nervous.
He stops assuming so much when girls approach him after that, always prepared to slide his friends socials and move on with his day.
So, when you approach him, obviously a bit hesitant as you clutch your sides and stare at him nervously, he doesn't even let you speak before he starts spouting his friends socials.
"Huh?" You ask a bit cluelessly, and Iwaizumi looks over at you.
"You're here to ask about Oikawa, right?" He says, staring down at you. He's obviously confused, a thick brow raised as he eyes you.
"N-no..? I wanted to talk to you." You reluctantly say, and he tenses up. You don't even spare a glance at Oikawa, who's entertaining a few girls a few meters away.
"Me..?" He asks, surprised.
"You." You respond, dead serious.
The puny sparks of your attempt at conversation light a wildfire in Hajime's weak heart. The small talk you try to make forms into real, genuine talking.
Although, even when you ask for his number, he can't help but think you might be trying to get close to him just to get with Tooru as he types in his number.
He doesn't tell you that he thinks you're playing him. And even if you were, you would've already had him beat because it's barely been two weeks of talking and he's already wrapped around your finger.
Hajimes lack of need for attention wasn't something you acknowledged at first. You thought it was natural because not only was this his first time talking to a girl, but it's your first time being the one approaching. You don't know what guys like unless they tell you, so you just do what you think is right.
And then you came to the subtle realization that maybe he's not desperate because he doesn't expect much from you. Is he toying with you? Was the first question you asked yourself.
On the other hand, Hajime doesn't expect much because he thinks he knows how this goes (he doesn't).
Hajime respects Tooru. And usually, he wouldn't add a but to that, but... he is willing to go to any lengths possible to keep you as far away from him as he physically can.
He knows how his friend gets with crushes. He'll either do everything in his power to completely embarrass Hajime, or he'll flirt with the girl and make her realize that maybe she doesn't like him as much as she thought.
That's his version of a loyalty test. Take the girl he likes around his best friend and observe her reactions to everything he does. So, that's exactly what he does with you.
Hajime had no idea that you've already met Tooru many times before. You light up when you see him, and Iwa can already feel his heart shattering into a thousand pieces. And then, to put the cherry on top, you go in for a hug. You're even on first name basis, no honorifics or anything. He might aswell lay in his coffin early, because watching you hug Oikawa is the closest to dying he's ever been.
You look over at Iwaizumi to see him glaring daggers at the two of you, a green eyed monster taking over his body as he scowls. Your smile drops, and you wonder what he looks so mad for.
"Are you alright, Iwa?" You ask obliviously, tilting your head and taking a step towards him. His eyes land on you, and they soften ever so slightly.
"I'm fine, don't worry about me." He responds, blinking softly.
And for the rest of the day, all you do is worry about him. The pain on his face and the damp look in his eyes whenever he looks at you interacting with Tooru.
When the two of you go back to his place that afternoon, he asks to talk.
Iwa starts, "Is there something wrong with me?" He asks. You're taken aback, but you can tell he's serious by the look in his eyes. He looks hurt.
"Why would there be something wrong with you?" You ask, reaching over to grab the hand at his side.
"I just-" His voice cracks, and you want to fall to your knees right then and there. Hajime is about to cry and you don't know what to do.
The lump in his throat grows bigger the longer he stares at you. "Why didn't you tell me you already knew Oikawa?" He asks, blinking back the tears that threaten to spill like water from a faucet. He didn't exactly mean to ask that, but he thinks it's much better than 'I thought that maybe for once someone might like me, but as always they go to Tooru.'
"What do you mean? I thought you knew?" You ask, oblivious to the thoughts running rampant through his mind. Your grip on his hand tightens when a tear breaks past the defenses he's put up. You want to ask what you did wrong. You want to ask why he's crying. But the lump in your throat from watching his sadness grow and grow is unbearable, keeping you from asking for some much needed clarification.
"Knew what?" He asks, unable to think of anything rational or any kind of explanation for this other than you're interested in Oikawa.
"Me and Tooru grew up together- He's my cousin." You say, eyeing him confusedly and sadly.
Iwaizumi pauses. A wave of embarrassment washes over him. He was getting jealous over your cousin this entire time?
The night you met Hajime, Tooru invited you, his cousin, to get drinks. He must've forgotten to clear this information with Hajime because now he's standing in front of you, his deep eyes wide and filled with tears of anger.
"What? Did I do something? Are you okay?" You begin asking questions profusely, and Hajime just stares at you.
And then he begins laughing.
You're confused at his sudden change in emotion, the humorous chuckles leaving his mouth catching you completely off guard. "Hajime, what's going on?" You ask as he brings you into a relieved hug.
"For a second there I really thought you and Oikawa had something going on." He responds as he places his head on top of yours comfortably.
You audibly gag. "Are you serious?! This entire time I thought you knew I was his cousin!" You say into his chest. He tightens the hug, a deep laugh leaving his lips.
"Man, this is so fuckin' embarrassing." He laughs, and you can't help but join in.
"Like I'd ever choose his annoying ass over you anyways."
And suddenly, the unnoticeable Hajime Iwaizumi feels seen for the first time in forever.
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How They Act When They're Jealous
Including: Frontman/Player 001/Hwang In-ho | Player 333/Lee Myung-gi | Player 388/Kang Dae-ho | Player 230/Thanos/Choi Su-bong | Player 124/ Nam-gyu | The Recruiter
Squid Games x gn! Reader
Frontman/Player 001/Oh Young-il/Hwang In-ho
~ In-ho would not be very obvious about it
~The only real difference in his demeanor is his lingering gaze on you and whoever was chatting with you
~ He wouldn’t step in between the two of you. Not even as you noticeably got more bored or awkward
~ He would simply wait...
~ And let you come to him instead
~ He would, of course, welcome you with open arms and feigned unawareness
~ He’d wrap an arm around your waist with a small smile
~ And ask you where you went
~ “There you are, darling. I’ve been wondering where you are”
~ If you answered honestly or not, he wouldn’t press you for an explanation
~ But he’d feel much more at ease as you stuck close to him for the rest of the night
~ Occasionally glancing over to the person you left behind, making sure they kept their distance
~ And if he ever caught them looking in your direction he would give you quick, chaste kiss
~ Or brush a strand of hair from your face
~ Subtly showing them, and everyone else, who you are with
Player 333/Lee Myung-gi
~ At first you may not realize when Myung-gi was jealous
~ But over time you started to recognize the signs
~ Usually it was just him inserting himself in to whatever conversation you were having with the person who was the cause of his jealousy
~ He’d walk right over and plop himself down next to you
~ But he wouldn’t participate in the conversation
~ Just sit sullenly
~ Glaring down the person across from you
~ And if he was feeling especially jealous he might take your hand in his
~ Making sure the other person saw that move
~ He’d simply sit back and let his awkwardness kill the conversation
~ As soon as they left the two of you alone he’d immediately tell you how much he did not like them
~ You can try to tell him to stop
~ But he would insist he wasn’t trying to be rude, that person was simply very off putting
~ He would need a lot of assurances from you for the next couple days
~ Despite him consistently insisting he wasn’t jealous at all, he just really didn’t like that person
~ “Don’t laugh, I’m serious. There was something sketchy about them.”
Player 388/Kang Dae-ho
~ Dae-ho wouldn’t come over to you
~ Instead he would try to get you to come over to him
~ Immediately calling for you from across the room
~ Acting as if he has something interesting to show you
~ And fully not acknowledging the person you were having a conversation with
~ If you brushed him off he’d only insist harder
~ “Give me a second”
~ “Baby, c’mon, it’ll only take a second! I swear!”
~ And as soon as you inevitably fold and head over he’d be all smiles.
~ Wrapping you in a tight hug as he buried his head in the crook of your neck
~ If you asked him what he wanted to show you he’d admit he just missed you
~ And would be 100% clingier than usual for the rest of the time
~ But he absolutely wouldn’t admit to being jealous
~ Though as he leaned over to rest his head on your shoulder or reach out to intertwine your fingers with his own you knew the truth
Player 230/Thanos/Choi Su-bong
~ “Hey, pretty. Who’s this?”
~ Su-bong would be immediately by your side
~ And looking the other person up and down with a snide expression
~ He would “feign” interest as you introduced the two of them
~ His thinly veiled sarcastic attentiveness would be obvious to all three of you
~ He’d throw an arm around your shoulders, pulling you close
~ And just barely acknowledge the other person with a “huh” or “very interesting”
~ He’d almost exclusively be looking to you
~ But whenever he did glance over to the other person it would be with an expression of barely hidden disgust
~ It is when he openly rolls his eyes you finally give in and excuse the two of you
~ It doesn’t matter how much you chastise him, he is grinning widely
~ He’d let you get all your complaints out, not stopping you or denying anything
~ Although it is questionable if he is listening
~ It also doesn’t help that he keeps pulling you in for a kiss or wrapping an arm around you as you tell him off
~ As long as he gets you away from the other person, and back to being the two of you, he is on cloud nine
Player 124/ Nam-gyu
~ Nam-gyu would watch you from afar
~ But his staring would be very obvious
~ Even the first time you didn’t know he was jealous, but you definitely felt his eyes on you
~ As soon as you come back to him he would lean in towards you, whispering in your ear
~ “Are you trying to make me jealous?”
~ It doesn’t matter how much you assure him you were not
~ He would be pouty for the rest of the night
~ Despite his upset disposition he’d still keep you close
~ Your hands would constantly be intertwined for the rest of the night
~ And somehow, even though you were right by his side, he’d manage to not look at you the entire time
~ The physical contact would be the only acknowledgment he’d give you
~ But as you let him carry out his antics his ego would slowly bolster
~ By the time you two are going home he would no longer be upset with you
~ And would be taking advantage of the fact you two were finally alone
The Recruiter
~ There is no politeness or following of societal expectations
~ The second he feels a tinge of jealousy he is dragging you away
~ “We were just talking”
~ “You were just talking. They were…”
~ He would be too angry to finish the thought
~ He trusts you, sure, but he doesn’t trust anyone else
~ He is low-key obsessed in love with you
~ And he is convinced anyone else who encounters you would feel the exact same way
~ He wouldn’t make any kind of move or say anything that would suggest he needs reassuring or comforting
~ But if you gave it to him anyways he would immediately melt for you
~ Letting you fawn over him and tell him how you only have eyes for him
~ If you didn’t say anything it would just make him more jealous
~ He would even be looking warily at the poor guy bagging your groceries at the store
~ But you’d have to be the one to come to him
~ Because he’d never admit to being jealous
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PICK A CARD - Uncomfortable Truths
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P I L E O N E
Quit putting your trust in things you know don't work. I heard showmanship. The way youve been approaching this connection or situation is egotistical at times. You can be someone that tends to put up a front because you're scared of being seen as weak or vulnerable. You're very tactful & can also be highly skilled in deception. I heard something about reality weaving, you weave your reality very powerfully. Be more mindful of your words when you get angry. When it comes to YOU they aren't just words, you influence the essence of the occurrence of life in every word you speak and every tear you cry. Could be Latino or indigenous in heritage, I also heard Slavic! Give up on what doesn't serve you I heard. Your ancestors are very impatient because you keep avoiding this lesson. If you don't relent soon you're going to look back at this eventually and just be like 😬. While you may think you're operating from a higher perspective right now, there are times you don't & there are times you don't actually hear or understand others the way in which you believe you do.
P I L E T W O
You're actually very lovable. Needing help isn't a reflection of your weakness, it's a reflection of the fact you're wise enough to grasp that sometimes you don't have all the answers. You're veryyyy intelligent & deeply intuitive but you tend to silence yourself for the sake of others. It's like the prospect of standing out really makes you anxious at times. You think about your desire to be seen and acknowledged and then remember what that means for you socially and get the ick 🤣 This pile is giving Taurus energy 🤣 you need to relax more often, youre so serious that sometimes you miss out on the joys of humanity. Even though some things aren't always forever doesn't mean you can't enjoy them for what they are. Learn to indulge without emotional consequences. Also some of y'all would benefit from changing from some kind of diet? Or also from doing some sort of yoga or somatic practice that focuses on clearing anxiety from the stomach.
P I L E T H R E E
You have an envy & projection issue. I feel like a lot of this group Lowkey compares themselves to others frequently or grew up in a way as a child that never made you feel justified in standing up for yourself. So now, you at tiiiimes perpetuate this pattern in your day to day life on a subconscious level. It's a program in your mind, and it's why you feel upset a lot of the time. You may feel like you hold such grudges because you forget how valuable your own perspective and self validation is. You're very self critical and can get frustrated when others succeed. Like you almost fear being outshone by others. A lot of neglect wounds here too, where some of you expect others to go above and beyond for you but you treat yourself horribly. You are very cruel with yourself pile 3, be more kind and be more loving. You deserve to treat yourself with respect.
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