#i have 27 projects aha............

[goldieclaws]

girlies help I have 7 yellow projects eg. projects I started but haven't finished yet 💀

[hideyseek]

2, 19, and 27 for the writing wrapped! ^^

thanks for the ask!! <3 sorry this is: so long aha

2. Did you have any writing goals? Did you meet them or not? ah, actually this year i did not have a year-long writing goal, but i did camp nano in april with the goal of a 20k draft of narrative!fic and i did nano in november with the goal of an 8k draft of the first arc of narrative!fic, and ... length-wise i reached both. but, content-wise i definitely did not actually produce a coherent 20k draft in april (i ended up with a 20k collection of: random fucking scenes that did not connect, which was also useful). in november i got a little closer to one coherent arc but discovered right about the end of the month that actually the first arc was not 8k (i would have had to go back and revise like 3k to keep all of the 8k within the "first arc" of story) and so cheated a little bit and skipped ahead to get to 8k of newly drafted material in the month.

19. Summarize your writing project in 5 key words. moving forward into your future (narrative!fic)

27. Which books, movies, etc, helped instruct your storytelling this year? HAHAHA THANK YOU FOR THIS QUESTION! actually this year there were several! some craft/theory books, some pieces of media that really made me go: oh, wow, okay, i want to do THAT. sorry this answer is so long lol i just... started and then kept thinking of things. the actual list under a cut:

george saunders' a swim in a pond in the rain which has fully changed the way i think about writing. this guy breaks "keeping your reader's attention" into several component parts and ... just makes writing all about keeping your reader engaged which happens to align closely with what my own goal is with any piece of writing (based on a quote from the west wing episode "the u.s. poet laureate"). HIGHLY recommend

anne lamot's bird by bird which is such a good book on how to wrangle your brain as a writer. there's not much "how to do the thing of writing" past the stage of "how to get writing on the page" so for me the primary value of this was brain!wrangling tips rather than "how to get words on the doc" but it does a great job of both. also highly recommended. she is simply so so funny and nice about it

bungo stray dogs, surprisingly enough. i think this was a big year for me of understanding / finally starting to think about structure. i am a writer who ... does not read a lot (and i think, truly, this is to my own detriment!). i don't currently consume a lot of media in a language i understand (english/mandarin) and so i've shifted my craft thinking focus to story structure rather than to capturing like, a cadence of written language (which i remember was way important to me in like 2020/2021 when i was first coming back to serious writing in college). and i'm sure a lot of other anime has also helped with this, but after bsd i was really thinking about the component parts of a larger story, and how a multi-series plot-heavy show will have to do careful work in having an arc per-episode or per several episodes, but also have cohesive series arcs as well as cohesive and consistent overall arcs. which i just hadn't ever really thought about before.

summer wars which is a movie i watched completely on a whim. i don't know that it consciously changed anything of what i DO as a writer in terms of process or anything like that. but this movie has stayed with me for months, just because it is so so SO tightly written, everything in there has it's place. and it is SUCH a good example of "BIG STORY that starts out as a really REALLY small and specific story that actually never stops being a small and specific story". that's what i want to do, so so bad!

tada-kun doesn't fall in love which frankly speaking i have not finished because i become too emotionally overwhelmed at how much i love it every time i watch an episode and then have to take a break for several weeks lol. but this was the show that made me go: OH. there is a clear difference in specifically the humor and pacing and the way that information is conveyed to the audience in in an anime-original series vs a manga-adaptation series, which got me into a larger realization about how one of my goals as a writer is to fully take advantage of the medium i'm working in, and to make the story i create one that would have to be changed (not necessarily for the worse, but different in some way) if it were to go to another medium.

thanks for the ask!! this was very fun <3

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hehe finally getting to my writing wrapped asks for 2022!

[envydean]

2, 3, 15, 20, 23, 27, 28, and 30 for the ao3 wrapped asks.

2: how many works did you publish this year?

13, and then a second and final chapter to an old thing :D

3: What work are you most proud of (regardless of kudos/hits)?

This will have to be the one I'm publishing atm, it was meant to be a short little kinktober (2021) fic, but it grew by a bit and has ended up being 11 chapters and probably around 45k words lol

15: What WIP are you taking into next year with you?

Two WIPs into next year - that one project I've been working on for literal years will come with me and it will be the year I post it whether it's perfected or not... and also A Sip of Wolfsbane, this fic has challenged me in ways I didn't expect, so it's taking up more mental energy that I wanted it to.

20: Which work of yours have you reread the most?

of all time? probably The Fae Child. This year it's Heat Induction 😅

23: Did you do any collaborative works this year?

I didn't this year, and haven't done many in the past. I think it would be fun to do though!

27: What do you listen to while writing?

My "Liked Songs" playlist on spotify usually... but when writing on the last day of NaNoWriMo, there was Glenn Miller Orchestra playing and I've never been so productive, so I think I'll have to try that every now and then!

28: Favorite work you wrote this year?

Either Do Unto Others or Seven Thousand Nights of Darkness I think, both are pretty dark aha 😳

30: Biggest surprise while writing this year?

I think realising just how much I can write if there's something I'm very into and excited about... on the flipside that some projects just don't go the way you expected. Ultimately, it has to be the word count for Do Unto Others lol... I was seriously intending it to be like 5k maximum 👀

Thanks for asking!! :D

AO3 WRAPPED [WRITERS EDITION]

[amugoffandoms]

Aha! I've caught you falling into the trap that most people are likely to fall for: falling for the facade!

You see, you've unintentionally misrepresented Yuno!

She's not from an anime! She's from the multimedia project MILGRAM, written by Yamanaka, known for the Caligula Effect games, and music created by DECO*27!

I wouldn't say random if she beat out Vriska?

You've misrepresented Yuno and thereby have proven the point we are trying to make.

The Finals for Misrepresented Morally Grey are here!

In One Corner, we have the Super School Subject: Math!

And in the Other Corner, we have the Supposed Morally Pure "Girlboss" from the Morally Grey Murderer Series, MILGRAM; Yuno Kashiki!

[johnnyortiz21]

Arguing with Digital History / The Valley of the Shadow Project & Other Case Studies

For this week, I will be discussing the articles/projects of the Digital History and Argument White Paper, Notes on the Future of Virginia: Visualizing a 40-Year Conversation on Race and Slavery in the Correspondence of Jefferson and Short and Researching Genres in Agricultural Communities: The Role of the Farm Record Book.  Before we go into these article/projects, I need to establish some guidelines according to Guidelines for the Professional Evaluation of Digital Scholarship by Historian. There are different roles/responsibilities for departments, scholars, and the American Historical Association (AHA). According to AHA, the role/responsibility for departments are to figure out what will count as scholarly contributions toward tenure and promotion, how to evaluate sophisticated digital tools, develop protocols for evaluating collaborative work. (AHA, 2015, 3) This shows that department have a big impact on the support, development, and evaluation of digital scholarship. The role/responsibility for scholar is be prepared to explain and document any development and/or progress and/or its contributions to digital scholarship, seek support and guidance to work toward promotion or tenure, and how processes and procedures digital scholarship and teaching will have on your plans. (AHA, 2015, 3) This shows the importance of scholars establishing, owning, and seeking support to work toward the contribution of digital scholarship and working toward promotion or tenure. The role/responsibility for AHA is to get experienced digital historians together as a working group to keep informed on developments in the field and establish a directory of qualified historians to assist department looking for expert outside reviewers for candidates at times of tenure and promotion. (AHA, 2015, 4) This shows that the AHA can be a support system for all departments to work together to development digital scholarship while supporting departments on assisting with tenure and promotion.

Now that I established the roles of departments, scholars, and the AHA on digital scholarship, I will discuss first the article of Digital History and Argument White Paper. This article was written by a collaborative group organized by Stephen Robertson. Stephen Robertson is a digital historian from George Mason that served as director of the Roy Rosenzweig Center for History and New Media. By simply having a project team, they are contributing to collaboration between digital scholars. In this article, they make arguments for digital history in digital collection, public history, methodological, computational history, and visualization. In the article, the DH working groups argues that it is important to equip historians to recognize these forms of argument to extend their engagement with digital history and uncovering the practices of argumentation in digital history to improve digital scholarship. (DH working group, 2017, 27) For example, visualization can be reliable means of communication that appear new and rooted in several centuries of practice and are key signs that visualizations are arguments and that they can argue with one another. (DH working group, 2017, 21-22) This shows that visualization can bridge the gap between the traditional analog historians and the digital historians. By having a collaborative group of digital historians working on visualization can have significant improvement in public history and bring it to a wider audience.

Next, I will be discussing the article/project of Notes on the Future of Virginia: Visualizing a 40-Year Conversation on Race and Slavery in the Correspondence of Jefferson and Short by Dr. Scot French. Dr. French is a digital historian at the University of Central Florida that specializes in the study of collective memory and application of new technologies in teaching, learning, and historical scholarship. In this article, he is not collaborating with other scholars which is not common for digital scholars but common in analog historians. In his article/project, he utilizes visualizations to analyze Thomas Jefferson and his “adoptive son” William Short interactions regarding the fate of blacks in Virginia’s post-emancipation future. French argued that the visualization provided a stereoscopic view of the two men, bound by ties of family and social class as they conversed on topics on social, political, and economic issues during their time alive. (French, 2018, 13) This shows that visualization is an important research/presentation digital tool that can be effective in examining historical figures conversation such as Jefferson and Short.

      Last, I will be discussing the article/project of Researching Genres in Agricultural Communities: The Role of the Farm Record Book by Mary L. Galbreath and Amy L Giroux. Galbreath is English professor and has experience with digital scholarship in which was a chair for a symposium for Digital Activism in Spring 2016. Giroux is an associate director for the humanities and digital research (CHDR) at the University of Central Florida assisting faculty and graduate students with digital humanities projects. In this article/project, they are collaborating to analyze genres in agricultural communities. Galbreath and Giroux argue in their article/project that progressive ideologies were transmitted through social action of genres and are not always easily visible, but their help understand agricultural practices. (Galbreath & Giroux, 2018) They utilized ChronAm to perform their analysis of the times and contexts which were from the actual record book. (Galbreath & Giroux, 2018, 19) Utilizing search tools such as ChronAm, Galbreath and Giroux were able to utilize digital tools to analyze agricultural practices while collaborating with others to come up with this analysis. The examples of French, Galbreath, and Giroux show that digital scholar have successfully used digital tools such as visualizations and advanced search tools to help contribute to digital scholarship. As a result, it is up to departments, scholars, and the AHA to continue advocating for more digital scholarship.

[alphareleasemedia]

Daily Drabble Project Feb 20-28

2/20/23 Ellie sat in the grass on the side of the hill hugging her stuffed unicorn to her chest. She watched Izzy and the other kids in the Junior Bridge Club having their post meeting meeting. Which mostly consisted of sharing gossip from school and talking about video games and YouTubers that played them. The sun had just set, leaving the sky lighter than the Earth. Deep shadows had spread across the park and the air was rapidly cooling, but it was not yet too cold. Ellie was content to sit and wait for her sister for however long she needed.

2/21/23 Chompy had a lot of chores to get through that day. First off was his morning walk and patrol of the neighborhood. Checking up on all the latest news from his neighbors. Then he needed to have a big breakfast. And then a big nap. That took quite a while. First he napped in his bed. Then he moved to the couch and napped there for a while before watching out the window. This was very important. Many cars and people passed by outside. As well as some dogs and a few birds. And even one squirrel. That was exciting.

2/22/23 Wimbly wandered aimlessly from room to room in his house tapping his fingers together and muttering to himself as he went. Whatever it was that Wimbly wanted, not even he was aware. So from room to room, he continued to wander as his thoughts spiraled away from any attempt to gather them into something cohesive. There was surely something he had meant to do, but whatever it was was just outside his grasp of remembering no matter what he did. Wimbly checked his phone. It had no charge. Aha! He needed the charging cable. Where had he left it again?

2/23/23 Lisa crouched in the snow with a rifle in her hands as she examined some frozen deer scat. Beside her Stormy had his nose to the ground and his tail in the air as he intently tracked something through the light dusting with exited snuffles. What he was tracking Lisa couldn't guess as she doubted anything had been through the area recently. She rose to her feet and slung her rifle over her shoulder. Whatever the dog was after he'd have to leave it; the sun was getting low. They'd go home empty handed today, but there was always tomorrow.

2/24/23 Chim Chim sauntered down the beach with a coconut in his hands. The sky was a rosy pink from the setting sun and a light breeze blew over the water bringing the smell of salt and fish. Chim Chim hummed merrily to himself as he picked his way over the cool sand. Tiny crabs were rushing about and Chim Chim had to step carefully. Chim Chim arrived at a pier made of stone and walked to the end--far from the beach where the currents were just right. He released his coconut into the water and watched it float away.

2/25/23 Blimbly sat on the ground and cried. He cried until he became quite dehydrated and needed to go and get a glass of water. By the time he had finished doing that, Blimbly forgot why he had been crying in the first place. Feeling much better, Blimbly decided to go outside and watch bugs. Blimbly loved to watch bugs. And there were so many crawling around his own backyard. Marvelous! But watching bugs was even more fun with a snack, so Blimbly went to the cookie jar. Alas! The cookie jar was empty. Blimbly sat on the ground and cried.

2/26/23 Didi held her head high as she skipped across the park. She knew they were all watching her. She just had to act like she didn't care. Didi casually approached a drinking fountain. She casually squirted herself in the face with the water. Then she casually glanced at them to see if they had seen her embarrassing moment before she just as casually quickly looked away so they wouldn't see her looking at them. Oh yeah, everything was going so well. Didi opted to just sit quietly on a bench and see what happened. It worked. The pigeons approached her.

2/27/23 It was raining cats and dogs outside. Luckily, I had brought my umbrella, but it wasn't helping much. I tried to move as quickly as I could down the street, but my destination was a ways away. The onslaught of rain only worsened as I walked as fast as I could between all the other people out and about. They were just as eager as I to get inside. As I moved the crowds began to thin as more people made their way off the streets and out of the rain. Finally, I arrived at my destination. The rain stopped.

2/28/23 The flowers danced merrily in the wind and birds sang in the trees. I sat in the grass and pouted. Legs folded beneath me and my arms crossed I glared out at the cheerful world around me. Down by the banks of the lake, my sister was trying to chase down the ducks with a bag full of birdseed. They waddled wearily away from her, but never too far to keep her from hoping. Nature was so lame. I didn't get how my sister could enjoy it so much. A duck waddled up beside me. I stuck out my tongue.

[wavyartisan77]

Individual Report #5 (3/27/23) Weeks 10-11

Whatʻs been happening for the past 2 weeks?

Back at my work place at McDonald’s a few of our co-workers/managers went on trips and I alongside my fellow co-workers have been placed with additional hours. Not too much, been mostly working and it has been good in building up savings and helping pay bills at my home. Yet, the fast food industry is draining especially on Fridays - Sundays. 

Yes more pay, but more time and work and cut-back time for my capstone project. 

Great news! I have finally drawn and colored all my props. Each image has section number indicator. This helps me to keep track how props I have for each stop motion animation video. 

Having a 3 part 2D Stop motion animation series will not and still is not an ease task. I utilized my shortlists and the photos that I have obtained on the internet as both an indicator and visual aid to help represent the researched material being conveyed through the narration. In other words, the narration holds the information from my research, but at the same time there needs to be a visual that accompanies that.

Whatʻs going on for the next 2 weeks?

Now I need to create my characters and color them. Once then, I need to cut all of the props and characters and glue them to card stock paper. Reason for this, so the characters and props are not flimsy. I want to make sure that they’re form and the pieces stay together. More so, onwards to the production phase. At least I am there. 

Hiccups/Hurdles/AHA moments

This is mostly a hurdle, but after work and feeling pooped, I would go eat, spend some time with family, take a nice bath and then boom, lights out for me. One of the things I help move forward, even if it may be considered slow, is reviewing my fellow classmates' progress on their projects. I just need to make sure that I continue to progress and not stay stagnated.

Any deliverable drafts? Please present if you do.

The scripts, shot list and props would be the best items as presentables as of now and what aim to do for the production phase.

Where you are on your timeline.

I am way over my timeline. And I need to move forward to the production phase ASAP! Oh yes, here is also the link to my YouTube Channel

[deitiesofduat]

Might be a dumb question or one you don’t have an answer for, but do you have birthdays for the main cast/made up birthdays (besides the quad). My friend and I wanted to know for Zodiac sign purposes lol. If not, which character did you not expect to have such a central role in the series but they ended up weaseling their way in?

Not dumb at all, I can answer them both -- or I'll try, anyway!

“[...] do you have birthdays for the main cast/made up birthdays (besides the quad). My friend and I wanted to know for Zodiac sign purposes lol"

I admit that I had once thought about this, but only briefly. I already have trouble choosing birthdays for my personal OCs (with or without zodiacs in mind), I have no idea what I would choose for the DEITIES Cast. 

I also realized that I kinda misread your first question and missed the “besides the quad” part haha -- so the rest of this may be moot, but I’ll leave it in anyway rather than remove it before moving on to the next one [...]

The only tidbit I had considered is that technically, the Royal Children of Nut and Geb may have had birthdays at the end of the year -- but only if we take the myth about their birth literally, which is being born one after each other on the last five days of the year. The Kane Chronicles series actually did this already, and my version of the royal children do not include Horus as a brother. But if we entertained this purely as a what-if...

Osiris -- December 27 (First born, 5th to last day)

Horus would be December 28 if he was a sibling. In lieu of that, I imagine this could be the day where Nut experienced more complications + difficult labor with delivering Set -- long enough to span past another day...

Set -- December 29 (Second born)

Isis -- December 30 (Third born)

Nephthys -- December 31 (Fouth born, last day of the year)

I really wouldn't take this as canon for DEITIES though -- it's not original, and it's probably not correct or widely accepted, but it's what makes technical sense when considering that one myth.

((If I'm not mistaken, there are some birthdays established for some of the gods in the kemetic community, but I can't recall if it's actually an exact date or more like a seasonal thing -- anyone can feel free to chime in about this if they'd like!))

For what it's worth, this would also make them all the exact same Zodiac sign, Capricorn. I don't know enough about the Zodiac to say if this sign fits any of them, let alone all 4-5 of them -- so that's kinda where it falls apart, and why I don't give their birth dates much thought. Anyone's welcome to try matching zodiacs to the cast for fun though, but I won't plan to give anyone birth dates for now.

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“[...] which character did you not expect to have such a central role in the series but they ended up weaseling their way in?"

Hmmmmmmm... I think I would have to say Sobek, for this one. For anyone who may not recall, Sobek was not part of the original cast when I started this project blog years ago, he was part of the secondary cast instead.

But as I was drafting the main story for DEITIES, I got stumped on a plot point midway where introducing Sobek actually fixed the problem, and gave me more room to work with its progression. So practically speaking, he earned his way into the cast by serving a functional role to the story.

It also helped that I genuinely liked developing Sobek's character; he was very fun to research, and I already had a soft spot for crocodilians (growing up with The Crocodile Hunter can do that to a person). It's why his character and design is very -- aha -- indulgent to my own tastes, and apparently my friends' as well 💦 All the more reason to bring Sobek into the main cast without much hesitation.

[complet-sur-ince]

Doing this all now cause I’m bored and hungry lol

1. GW 160lbs cause I gained hella weight

UGW 132

I was a 00 in Hollister at 145-155 lolz

2. 5’8” sometimes I wish I was short to be small and cute instead of a giant tower but nothing I can do about it 🤷‍♀️

3.

My fav thinspo- she looks like me and when I’m at my LW my chest bones show like this

4. Greatest fear about weight loss is I will gain it all back AGAIN

5. Fuck yeah I’m doing it for me I am so sick and tired of being a big fat fuck

6. No I do not binge. I guess I kind of had a mini binge yesterday but not really. I was just mindlessly eating watching tv but that was my choice. And it was all I had for the day so I was okay with it. Gerber Cheetos are bomb lol

7. No they don’t care. I don’t see them often.

8. I don’t really have much of a routine, just get in as many steps and crunches as possible. I like to clean to burn calories. Also I lift weights every couple of days to keep my metabolism up.

9. Literally my whole life. I was always bullied for being fat up until I lost like 110 lbs and then everyone was oh you’re too skinny and then I got fat again lolz 😭😭

10. I gave up purging. That was definitely the hardest.

11. Idk all of edtumblr lol

12. Coffee coffee coffee salad chickpeas cooked veggies I eat a lot of frozen kids snacks aha

13. I’m losing weight so 🤷‍♀️

14. 132 by next summer

15. I’m not vegan or vegetarian. I was for a while but it’s hard because I have a family to cook for. I do eat and make a lot of tofu and vegetarian/vegan meals.

16. When I was like 10 aha

17. Definitely have an eating disorder

18. Cheese

19. I haven’t had fast food in forever I have no idea

20. Favorite diet is the K pop sweet potato one but really I don’t follow anyone’s diets anymore

21. 8/10

22. I went from my HW 252 to LW 143 and then I was hospitalized, gained a shit ton- moved- lost a ton- quit smoking- gained a ton

23. I think the media plays a role in everyone’s desire to lose weight. That’s kind of their thing. Make fun of everyone at a healthy weight, criticize everyone who drops below. It’s a never ending battle of too fat/too thin.

24. Pro ana/pro Mia make me feel kids are romanticizing their own eds and projecting it onto others

25. I have. I was addicted for a long time. I actually started purging well before my ed. It started because I would take robitussin to trip. If you puke after it works better and you don’t feel sick. Disgusting.

26. I will fit in my old clothes omg YASSS

27. I hate it but I’m around it all the time

28. Fuck yes I want that gap. And I know I can get one because I’ve had it. It starts to show around 160/165 lbs. I can’t wait to have that back. Pants last longer/no chub rub/ crossing legs with ease/ looking gorgeous in any bottoms hell yeah

29. My definition of beauty? Skinny

30. Facts- I need to lose weight-

[deanncastiel]

8, 12, 24, and 27 for the gifmaker asks!! <3

oh hello!!! (thank you, bon, for not leaving me hanging <3)

8. Your favourite graphic and or gif created by yourself

ah shit. not to be super boring and continue to repeat myself but my Nov 5 edits - part I and part II. they were a months long endeavor and i ended up posting them late but seriously tho, i call them my magnum opus and they are the best things i've ever created aha

12. Font(s) you like using

O.M.G. i am literally the WORST at fonts. Seriously, I'm so boring. I pretty much use the same ones over and over again. some common ones are:

Baskerville Old Face

Signerica (if i want to be fancy)

Arial (for the captions)

There are a few more but I can't think of them right now and they're saved on my other comp (r.i.p)

24. What is something that you’re wanting to learn right now?

Oh! this is so relevant for my dean bday set actually. how to make backgrounds with a specific color (or colors) like in this post, this one, and this one. i have a few tutorials pulled up right now and we shall see how i do aha (if it turns out to be super simple i'm just going to shake my head) oh and this too, this would be cool to learn

27. Advice you’d give yourself when you were starting out?

Okay cheating bc this is advice i need to give myself from when i first started out and also right fucking now bc i never learn START YOUR PROJECTS EARLIER YOU ARE TERRIBLE AT ESTIMATING HOW LONG THEY WILL TAKE AND YOU ARE ALWAYS ALWAYS LATE oh also stop comparing yourself to other gif makers, everyone's style is different, and your shit is good bc YOU created it (notes are nice but they literally DON'T matter in the grand scheme of things)

Gifmaker Ask Game!

[mizumelona]

set me up | atsumu x reader

SYNOPSIS: You’re an ambitious career woman, who’s got everything…except a significant other. Your mom, sick of you showing up to family functions alone, sets you up on a series of (terrible) blind dates. You make these dates meet you at your favorite restaurant, Onigiri Miya, but for some reason the owner’s jerk of a twin brother always happens to be there exactly when things crash and burn.

NOTE: This chapter is dedicated to my lovely friend Sharon who encouraged me to start this blog and helps me with my writing. @Sharon I kept my promise hehe.

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You tossed Atsumu’s sweater into the washer with your other juice covered clothes and made your way to your bedroom. You picked up your phone to text your mom.

Lovely Daughter:

I think I need to take a break from these dates

You still wanted to find a boyfriend and flex on your cousin, but this blind dating thing wasn’t exactly working out. You cringed remembering that your favorite cream shorts might be ruined for good. Taking a step back seemed like a good choice for now. Maybe you’d spontaneously run into someone worth your time. Blonde hair and a cheeky smirk flashed in your mind.

Huh. What was that? You shook your head. That was definitely not happening.

As you finished sending the message you got another notification.

Boss:

Reminder that our team is working from home this week while they replace the carpets in the office. Can you send me the updated prototype of your project by Friday morning?

Ugh. Working from home was bad news for you. Despite being an overachiever, your home was a safe oasis that was completely separated from your work life. When it came to trying to work while your favorite blanket and TV were 2 feet away, you had no self-control. You tried to look on the bright side. Who knows? Maybe this is the week you learned a little self-control.

~

Onigiri Miya. Thursday 6:27 PM

It wasn’t.

You had plenty of inspiration on Monday but took a break to watch one episode of your favorite sports anime and ended up binging the next two seasons. Tuesday you’d pulled up the files you needed to work on but you saw a manga spoiler while browsing Instagram and decided to binge the manga too. Yesterday you were shook about the most recent cliffhanger and got carried away reading fan fiction. It wasn’t until 5 PM that you realized that the prototype was due in a day but by then you were already fucked.

Cut to you grinding like crazy for the past 24 hours. You’d pulled an all-nighter last night except for 20 minutes at 5 in the morning when you crashed and knocked out on your keyboard. When you woke up there was an imprint of the spacebar on your chin. Finally you had most of the prototype completed, so you were crawling out of your cave for some food.

Sweats, glasses, hair messily pulled away from your face. You haggardly stumbled toward the restaurant. You’d exhausted your instant noodle supplies and had been so focused on finishing the damn prototype that you didn’t stop to eat today. You were pretty sure you were going to pass out if you didn’t get some food in your body ASAP.

You pushed the door to the restaurant open.

“Welcom- woah [Y/N]…you doing okay?”, Osamu paused mid rice ball roll and looked you up and down.

“Holy shit ya look like a zombie!”, Atsumu exclaimed from his usual seat at the bar.

You ignored Atsumu’s comment. You had no energy left for making snarky comebacks. “Osamu. Three Minced tuna onigiri and an iced Calpico please and thank you.”

“Sure…”, Osamu gave you a concerned look before turning to get started on your order.

You dumped your things onto an open table and sunk into the seat. You flipped open the laptop that you’d brought with you and started tapping on the keys. There was a big fat error alert on the screen. Great. You tried to edit the file. Another error. Ugh you were so close it was frustrating. You typed a few more edits in. Success! Loading…

Finally. You leaned back into the chair, staring at the ceiling. You heard some familiar footsteps approaching you. Here he comes.

On cue, Atsumu slid into the seat across from you. “Yo what happened?”

“I’m an idiot. That’s what happened.” You closed your eyes and massaged your temples. Your head was aching from staring at the screen for so long.

He snorted. “I know a lotta idiots but you aren’t one of them” He peeked over at your screen. “What’s with the laptop? This isn’t a coffeeshop sweetheart”

“Work.” You bluntly replied. You scrunched up your face. Sure his voice was smooth as ever, but right now anything but complete silence was making your head pound.

“You’re in a good mood aintcha?” He smirked. You glowered in his direction, your dark circles making you look extra ominous.

“Stop irritating my customers ‘Tsumu” Osamu smoothly shut Atsumu down. He placed a tray of food on the table. “I got three minced tuna onigiri and an iced Calpico”

“Bring me a drink too ‘Samu”

“Get it yourself ’Tsumu”

An upbeat ringtone started playing from Osamu’s pocket. He pulled his phone out and took the call. “Hey babe…I’m just at the restaurant…no, it’s not that busy…wait…what!” Osamu raised his eyebrows.”…Okay yeah I’ll be right there.” He turned to Atsumu. “‘Tsumu close the restaurant. I need to go help Sharon”

“Huh? Ya can’t just-“, Atsumu tried to protest, but Osamu took his Onigiri Miya hat off and shoved it on Atsumu’s head. Osamu scrawled a note about closing early and taped it to the door on his way out. Atsumu stood there looking irritated as he watched his brother run off through the window.

He turned to you. “Well ya heard him. You’re gonna hafta take your rice balls and work home sweetheart”

Wait. You checked your screen. 15%. Rip. Starting the process while you ate dinner probably wasn’t the best idea, but you needed this to finish loading and couldn’t risk it getting messed up on the trip back up to your apartment. You turned to Atsumu, “I’m sorry about earlier. Please let me stay a little longer. I really need this thing to finish loading”

“No way”

“It’ll only take a second” You pleaded with him. He turned to walk away. “Please. Atsumu”

He paused. Wait, was that the first time you’d called him by his real name? He turned back to you with that devious smile he got whenever he had one of his “brilliant��� ideas.

“How ‘bout this? You help me clean, I’ll letcha stay here even though I really should be closing up”

“Deal”

~

Onigiri Miya. 45 Minutes Later.

“I’m pretty sure when we made our deal you said it would take ‘just a second’”. The bashful smile from earlier had long been wiped off his face replaced with the current impatient scowl. You’d finished eating your onigiri shortly after Osamu left, and you two had been sitting at the same table sipping Calpico and watching the loading bar for the last 45 minutes.

“It’s really almost done now.” You were running out of excuses to stall for time.

“Hurry it up. I got things to do sweetheart”, he said and took a noisy sip of his drink.

Okay [y/n] we need to think of a way to stall. You went through your options. Hm. Actually, complimenting people usually works pretty well, especially when that person has as big of an ego as this blondie. Okay you decided on your plan of attack.

“Hey” You smiled innocently at Atsumu. “Thanks again for waiting with me. You’re a lot nicer than I thought”

“How many times do I hafta tell ya that that creepy smile isn’t fooling me?” Atsumu set his drink back on the table. “And was that supposta be a compliment? When did I ever do anythin’ to piss you off?” He leaned back, crossing his arms.

“Says the guy who crashed not one but two of my dates”

“I didn’t do nothin’”

“You were the reason the strawberry juice was on the table to begin with”

“I’m also the reason why you’re still here even though I could’ve kicked you out an hour ago.”

You couldn’t argue with that.

“Touche” You leaned forward. “How about we call a truce then.” You held out your hand.

He looked at your hand skeptically. “Truce? That implies we were fightin’ in the first place”

“You gonna take it or not?”, You smiled slyly and waved your hand. “Let me tell you now. I’m not someone you want as an enemy”

“Jeez that’s pretty scary sweetheart.” He leaned forward with his trademark cheeky grin…and was he blushing a bit? “Fine. Truce.” He reached out to shake your hand.

“I know the perfect way to celebrate” He said, rising from his seat. He walked behind the counter and rustled around in the fridge. You heard him mutter, “Where did ‘Samu put it”, as he continued digging around. “Aha. Here it is!”, he declared, finding whatever he was looking for. Atsumu walked back and plopped down in his seat, setting two cups of pudding on the table.

“Haha. Nice.” You picked up one of the pudding cups but noticed a little note stuck to it. “Huh. What’s this?” You pulled off the note to read it. Osamu’s pudding: DO NOT EAT. “Wait a second we can’t-“

Atsumu took the container out of your hands, broke the seal on the cover, and handed it back.

“Atsumu!”, you exclaimed.

“You’re welcome.” He opened his pudding cup and shoveled a spoonful in his mouth. “Mmm”

Well it’s not like you could put it back now that it was opened. You scooped a spoonful into your mouth. Your face lit up. Osamu’s pudding preferences were on point.

“I have a question”, Atsumu asked. “Why were ya tryin’ so hard on those dates anyways? Those guys were obviously trash, and ya don’t really seem like the type that’s desperate for romance.”

What he said wasn’t wrong, and you two were kind of having a moment here. You figured it’d be fine to tell him about it.

“Ugh the thing is” You gulped down another spoon of pudding. “I’m trying to prove something to my family”

“Huh?”

“They don’t think I’m capable of romance, and my shitty cousin loves to rub it in my face. I’m trying to find a guy so I can flex on them”

He smirked. “Hah, that’s real petty”

You pointed your spoon at him. “I don’t wanna hear that from you.”

“Fair point”

Your computer chimed. You both turned to look at the screen. 100% Loaded.

“Yes!” You pumped your fists.

“Finally” Atsumu sighed, scraping the last of his pudding out of the cup. “So, ya gonna help me clean?”

“A deals a deal. Where should I start?”, you said combing your hair out of your face.

“I’ll take the tables. You’re on dish duty”

Atsumu went into the supply closet and came back with a rag. You caught yourself staring as he pushed his sleeves up. Okay the man had beautiful forearms, so what? You quickly looked away.

“You okay [y/n]?”, Atsumu interrupted your thoughts, cocking his head. Shit. You hoped he hadn’t noticed your little slip-up.

“Uh yeah! I got the dishes!”

~

You’d emailed the final prototype and you two were almost done tidying up. The only thing left to do was mopping the floor.

“[Y/N], How about we have a lil challenge”

You raised an eyebrow.

Atsumu brought two mops out of the supply closet, tossing one to you. “I’ll race ya. Last one to mop to the other side loses”

This was stupid there was no way you were about to have a dumb mopping ra-

“Unless you’re too scared”

You gripped your weapon. “Hah, You’re on”

You both stood at one end of the restaurant. Mops in hand.

“Ready” Atsumu clenched his mop. “Go!”

You realized that challenging a pro-athlete to a fair race was stupid. That’s why you didn’t intend to play fair. As soon as Atsumu motioned to take his first step you swiped your dripping mop in front of his foot. He lost his balance.

“Fuck!”

“Haha Loser!”, you turned to laugh at him. Thwack!

Atsumu collided with you knocking you backward. You hit the ground with a thud, securely pinned under him. Shit. He hauled himself onto his hands and knees, looking down at you.

“You cheated!”, he shouted.

“That doesn’t give you the right to tackle me!”, you shot back.

“I wasn’t tryin’ to tackle you!”

“So what!”, you grabbed his collar pulling him back so your foreheads were touching. You both paused. Shit. Did you just do something weird?

You were suddenly very aware of the nice smell wafting off his hair. You gulped. There was a pink blush creeping over Atsumu’s nose. He looked dumbstruck at first but soon a cheeky grin spread across his face.

“Wow [y/n], you’re pretty bold huh.”

“Shut up!”

The chimes jingled and the door opened. You both jumped and turned to the sound.

“Oolala”, the girl who came with Osamu was snickering.

“…is that my pudding?”

~

After that, you’d both apologized to Osamu, properly mopped the floor. You were getting ready to go home now. Luckily neither of you had been seriously injured in your little incident, but any time your eyes met Atsumu would shoot you an infuriating smirk.

As you were about to leave, Atsumu called out to you. “Hey [y/n] I’m gonna need my sweater back soon”

“Oh right! I forgot it at my apartment but I washed it so I’ll bring it by tomorrow”

“Sounds good. Good night [y/n].” As he turned to walk away, he looked back over his shoulder and smiled at you. It was a sincere smile like the one he gave you as he handed you his sweater the other day. You couldn’t help but smile back. This guy.

Your phone buzzed as you started walking back toward your apartment. You pulled it out.

Jerk Cousin:

Family brunch two Sundays from now. Don’t forget you’re in charge of fruit. My mom told me to remind you. She also said to tell you that you can bring a plus one, not that you’d need it lol

~

Onigiri Miya. Friday 11:15 AM

You’d slept like a baby that night, and woke up more refreshed than ever. It was like your 24 hours of hell never happened. You pulled open the door to the restaurant.

“Hey Osamu is Atsumu here? I have the sweater I kept forgetting in my apartment” You rustled through your bag pulling the sweater out. Looking up, you suddenly noticed that the restaurant was more packed than usual, and most of the occupants were looking at you.

“Oya?”

“Oya oya?”

[ladyonfire28]

My French music Masterpost

So since half of the population is in quarantine right now I thought I could make a list of some french/ french speaking artists and songs that I listen to and that you could also discover since we all have time to kill. 

Obviously I cannot put every single artist and song I  know and listen to so it’ll be a bit of mix of my favorite albums/ artists of the past few years but also what i’m listening at the moment ! 

Pop/ R&B

Angèle 

She’s a 23 year old Belgian singer. Her first album was a HUGE hit last year and she got 5 news songs out in November too. She’s also been dating a woman for a few months.

I would recommend to listen to her whole album Brol , it’s quite a bop. Also there are two songs about wlw relationship called « Ta Reine » and « Tu me regardes ». That last song was a kind of coming out song btw, we were all freaking out when we listened to it the first time lmao.

Favorite songs: Les matins, Flemme, Flou, Nombreux, Ta reine, Tu me regardes, J’entends

Clara Luciani

She’s a 27 year old French artist. 2019 was truly her year. She’s has an incredible voice and I just love her energy. She’s an amazing songwriter too. Her first album is called Sainte Victoire.

Favorite songs: La grenade, Les fleurs, On ne meurt pas d’amour, Drôle d’époque, Nue, Dors, Ma Soeur, Bovary.

Christine and the Queens

I think a lot of you know her already. She’s also a queer and pansexual artist. I have to say I really LOVED her first album Chaleur Humaine, one of the best albums of the past decade, but I didn’t love as much her second album (Chris) or her new EP (La vita nuova). I mean they’re good, but her first album was really something else. And it’s also just my opinion !

Favorite songs : iT (it’s in English though), Saint Claude, Science Fiction, Half Ladies, Paradis Perdus, Chaleur Humaine, Nuit 17 à 52, Intranquilité, Amazoniaque, Jonathan, La marcheuse, L’étranger

Therapie TAXI

This is a pretty fun band, their first album has been quite popular. They’re pretty unique and sometimes their songs and lyrics are let’s say... bold lmao. I haven’t listen to all their songs though, there’s like 25 songs in their first album and 15 in their second aha. But they also have so many bops. 

Favorite songs: Hit Sale, J’en ai marre, Salop(e), Avec ta zouz

Aya Nakamura

Aya is now a r&b/pop superstar here in France and even in other countries in Europe. She’s 25 and you can hear her songs in every night club and party here. Can’t say her lyrics are very elaborated but her songs are real bops and the best to dance to in your room lmao

Favorite songs: Djadja, La dot, Pompom, Copines, Pookie, Sucette, 40%, Comportement

Lous and the Yakuza

She’s a 23 year old belgian artist. She only has 3 songs out for now, but i’ve been pretty obsessed with them. Her lyrics are pretty great too (and she’s SO beautiful omg). 

Favorite songs : Dilemme, Tout est gore, Solo

Yseult

Yseult is a 24 year old french singer/songwriter. She’s has a beautiful voice and the beats are also great. I haven’t listened to all her songs though, I only heard her new EP Noir which is great.

Favorite songs: Corps, Nos souvenirs, Noir, 5H

Indie/electro rock/folk :

Pomme

Pomme is very famous in the LGBTQ community in France, but i haven’t listened much to her songs (yet). She’s a 24 year old french and lesbian singer songwriter. Her songs talk about love, anxiety, and even death. She has a such beautiful voice too.

Favorite songs: On brûlera, A peu près, Anxiété, Je sais pas danser

The Dø

The Dø are a finnish/french duo and also one of my favorite band (they sing in english though). They made of of my favorite albums of the last decade, Shake Shook Shaken, which came out in 2014. Their first albums sounded more folk/indie rock, but their third album is much more electro. And the album is about the break up of the lead singer, Olivia Merilahti, and the musician, Dan Levy. One of my favorite song of all time is in their second album Both Ways Open Jaws and is called Too Insistent.

Favorite songs: On my shoulders, Too Insistent, Sparks, Despair Hangover & Ecstasy, Opposite Ways, Anita No!, Nature Will Remain.

Izia

Izia is a singer but also an actress, you may know her from La Belle Saison, Samba, or Un peuple et son roi. I listened a lot to her third album La vague, that was released in 2015. it’s much more electro that what she used to do before. Her two first albums were much more rock albums. She’s got a new album out but i haven’t listen to it yet.

Favorite songs: Hey, La vague, You, Les ennuis, Bridges, Tomber

Mansfield.YTA

The band is composed of 2 women, Julia Lanoë et Carla Pallone. Julia is in other bands/ projects such as Sexy Sushi and Kompromat. Unlike those two last bands that are very electro, Mansfield is something more nuanced. It sounds more like indie folk and mixes different style. You can hear electric instruments but also violin, harmonium, piano etc. And it’s pretty melodramatic.  They sing in french and english.

Favorite songs: Et demain déja, Pour oublier je dors, Mon amoureuse, Gilbert De Clerc

Electro :

Stromae

You might have heard of that Belgian guy. His album Racine Carré (released in 2013) is too me the best of the decade and his song “Papaoutai” was a huge hit in Europe. He’s a pure genius. His lyrics are super deep and usually quite dark but he makes incredible beats that are very electro. If his second album is definitely his most popular album, his first one Cheese, was also so so great and his first single “Alors on Danse” was a huge hit (Kanye West did a remix of it). He also directed Billie Eilish’s “Hostage” music video. That dude is just incredible. But after his huge success his did a burn out and his mental health got very bad. He stopped making music since then. 

Favorite songs: Peace or Violence, Alors on danse, Dodo, Je Cours, House’llelujah, papaoutai, bâtard, ave cesaria, tous les mêmes, formidable humain à l’eau, sommeil

Rap :

I have to say i’ve been listening to a lot of french rap this past couple of years so i won’t list all the rappers i listen to, especially since i’m pretty sure most of you aren’t interested in rap. But I still have to list some of them that have been very popular recently. France has a huge and very diverse rap culture.

Fauve

Actually that collective is actually not a rap band at all. They do more like spoken word songs but didn’t where also to put them lol. The band broke up 5 years but I still listen to them a lot today. It’s one of my fav band too. Their lyrics are really well written and beautiful. It usually talks about the “youth malaise” and their frustrations, heartbreaks and anger etc. They made 1 EP et 2 LP. 

Favorite songs: Blizzard, Cock Music Smart Music, Nuits Fauves, Haut les Coeurs, Rub a Dub, Voyous, Infirmière, Vieux frères, Lettre à Zoé, Paraffine, Tallulah, T.R.W, Les Hautes Lumières 

Meryl

Meryl is a 24 year old french martinican rapper. Before making her own music she used to write and compose melodies for other famous french rappers. She’s very influenced by her roots and and she also sings some of her songs in creole. I love how different and diverse her music is. 

Favorite songs: Coucou, AH LALA, Béni, Désolé, La brume

Aloïse Sauvage 

Aloïse is a multi talented french singer/ actress/ dancer. She released her first EP in 2019 called Jimy and her very first album Dévorantes was released in February 2020. She’s definitely a queer artist (99% sure she’s lesbian but she’s never confirmed it so anyway + her little sister is 100% a lesbian aha) and she talks about lgbtq issues in some of her songs, but also about her own issues and all. Her lyrics are beautifully written. And she’s also a ray of sunshine so there’s nothing to dislike about her haha. 

Favorite songs: Dévorantes, Si on s’aime, A l’horizontale, Et cette tristesse, Jimy, Présentement, L’orage

Roméo Elvis

Roméo isn’t french but belgian. He’s the big brother of Angèle. I actually knew about her because of him. He’s less known than her now obviously but he’s still quite popular. His rap is pretty soft and chill. I preferred his collaborations with Le Motel (who was his producer) more than his “solo” album but he still got some good songs on his last album.

Favorite songs: Morale, Nappeux, Drôle de question, Bébé aime la drogue, J’ai vu (feat. Angèle), Lenita, Chocolat, Normal, Dis-moi 

Lomepal

Lomepal is a french rapper. He’s known for writing songs that are pretty elaborated with chill and melodic beats. I also call is rap “soft”. He usually talks about his loneliness and insecurities

Favorite songs: 70, Yeux disent, Club, Trop beaux, 1000°C, X-Men, Plus de larmes

PNL

PNL is the most popular cloud rap band of the past few of years. They’re two brothers NOS and Ademo and they’re famous for using vocoder when they rap. Like a lot of vocoder lol. But they’re also very known for working with some of the best beat makers in the industry. If the way they rap is sometimes pretty hard, their beats are very chill and cool. In their songs they talk a lot of their life as dealers in the french banlieue, their struggles, how tough their lives were but also how their lives today isn’t set and how they’re not necessarily happier today. Their third album “Dans la légende” was a huuuuge hit in France, and their latest album “Deux frères” just as much if not more. 

Favorite songs: Recherche du bonheur, DA, Dans la légende, Luz de Luna, Humain, Bené, Jusqu’au dernier gramme, Blanka, A l’ammoniaque, Shenmue, Menace, Déconnecté, La misère est si belle

Other songs that I listen to at the moment : 

“Le temps est bon” - Bon Entendeur (electro)

“De mon âme à ton âme” - Kompromat (electro)

“Reste” - Maitre Gims feat Sting (pop)

“Les méchants” - Heuss l’enfoiré (rap)

“C’est plus l’heure” - Franglish feat Dadju, Vegeta (r&b)

“De l’autre côté”-  Ninho feat Nekfeu (rap)

“Blanche” - Maes (rap)

“La complainte du soleil” - Laura Cahen (from I Lost My Body OST)

Some french speaking “classic” songs that  I listen to and that you probably don’t know (from the 50′s to 00′s) :

“Une valse à mille temps” - Jacques Brel

“La foule” - Edith Piaf 

“Chanson pour l’auvergnat” - Georges Brassens 

“Je t’aimais, je t’aime et je t’aimerai” - Francis Cabrel 

“Ma préférence” - Julien Clerc

“La nuit je mens” - Alain Bashung 

“Foule sentimentale” - Alain Souchon

“Mistral gagnant” - Renaud 

“Sensualité” - Axelle Red

“Manhattan Kaboul” - Renaud feat. Axelle Red

“Onde sensuelle” - M 

“Et dans 150 ans” - Raphaël 

“A la faveur de l’automne” - Tété

“L’aventurier” - Indochine 

French LGBTQ+ artists 

This past few years a few lgbtq artists have blown up here and like 4 lesbian artists have been nominated for best new artist this year at the french grammy award called Victoire de la musique (and one of them one the award, Pomme). Unfortunately i’m not very good at discovering new artists so i’m quite late and i haven’t been able to listen to a lot of them. But if you want to discover them yourself here are few lgbtq artists: 

Already mentioned: Angèle, Pomme, Julia Lanoë/ Rebekka Warrior (Sexy Sushi, Kompromat, Mansfield.YTA), Christine and the Queens, Aloïse Sauvage

More : Hoshi,  Suzane, Eddy de Pretto, Safia Nolin (she’s from Quebec)

[katsukis-sad-angel]

"get to know me uncomfortably well" 1-100 minus whatever questions you dont want to answer :D

ahem (original post)

1. What is your middle name? Therese Hildegard (yes i have two)

2. How old are you? 19

3. When is your birthday? May 22

4. What is your zodiac sign? The most introverted Gemini you can find

5. What is your favorite color? Purple

6. What’s your lucky number? 18

7. Do you have any pets? 2 beautiful rabbits named Asphodel and Genisys

8. Where are you from? NE Ohio

9. How tall are you? just about 5′5″

10. What shoe size are you? *sniffle* size 10, but my doc martins are size 11

11. How many pairs of shoes do you own? 4

12. What was your last dream about? all i remember is the guy i like holding out his arms to me for a hug, but before i could jump into his arms i woke up :(

13. What talents do you have? I’m a percussionist so I hit things to make pretty sounds and i guess i’m pretty good at writing 

14. Are you psychic in any way? no, why?

15. Favorite song? Fiending by Broken Transmitter and Just One Yesterday by Fall Out Boy at the moment

16. Favorite movie? ummmm gotta be big hero 6

17. Who would be your ideal partner? tall, dark, and handsome, a little muscular, not too much tho, at least a little taller than me who gives good hugs

18. Do you want children? yes

19. Do you want a church wedding? yes

20. Are you religious? yes

21. Have you ever been to the hospital? i had a seizure when i was 4. haven’t been there since

22. Have you ever got in trouble with the law? i mean i’ve broken laws but i’ve never been caught

23. Have you ever met any celebrities? CLIFFORD CHAPIN!!!!! MY LORD AND SAVIOR!!!

24. Baths or showers? both, first a bath to relax and then shower to actually get clean

25. What color socks are you wearing? none

26. Have you ever been famous? would you call 800+ followers famous?

27. Would you like to be a big celebrity?  absolutely not

28. What type of music do you like? rock, the occasional j-pop, songs with a lot of bass i guess

29. Have you ever been skinny dipping? HAH no

30. How many pillows do you sleep with? 2

31. What position do you usually sleep in? i fall asleep staring at the ceiling and wake up on my face

32. How big is your house? large enough for 6 kids, 2 parents, 2 rabbits, and the ghosts of 2 cats and 2 dogs 

33. What do you typically have for breakfast? something dad makes or a parfait from school

34. Have you ever fired a gun? nope

35. Have you ever tried archery? yep

36. Favorite clean word? rats

37. Favorite swear word? piss baby

38. What’s the longest you’ve ever gone without sleep? in all 19 years of my existence, i have never once pulled an all-nighter. my body will just shut off, it doesn’t matter how much caffeine i drink

39. Do you have any scars? me and my curling iron have a love-hate relationship if you will

40. Have you ever had a secret admirer? lmao

41. Are you a good liar? it depends, but usually yes

42. Are you a good judge of character? no. i’m way too trusting and give everyone the benefit of the doubt even when SEVERAL people tell me so and so is a bad person and i usually end up getting hurt because of it aha

43. Can you do any other accents other than your own? i can talk like gordon ramsay if requested

44. Do you have a strong accent? i live in ohio. no.

45. What is your favorite accent? gordon ramsay

46. What is your personality type? an introvert who will fight you if provoked

47. What is your most expensive piece of clothing? something stupidly overpriced from hot topic probably

48. Can you curl your tongue? yes

49. Are you an innie or an outie? innie

50. Left or right handed? right handed

51. Are you scared of spiders? no but if i see one i will smack it with a shoe

52. Favorite food? pork ribs

53. Favorite foreign food? chinese food

54. Are you a clean or messy person? clean

55. Most used phrase? “so... there’s this guy...”  

56. Most used word? “rats” as a derogatory term or otherwise

57. How long does it take for you to get ready? 30 minutes max

58. Do you have much of an ego? i try not to

59. Do you suck or bite lollipops? bite. i dont want something in my mouth for that long

60. Do you talk to yourself? all the time

61. Do you sing to yourself? yes

62. Are you a good singer? i mean, i’m not necessarily bad

63. Biggest Fear? people that are upset with me and i don’t know why, hospitals, blood and other bodily fluids, dead things

64. Are you a gossip? yes

65. Best dramatic movie you’ve seen? i watch anime, fool

66. Do you like long or short hair? on my men, as long as it’s not super long and nasty we’re good... women? i don’t care

67. Can you name all 50 states of America? yes. i have every animaniacs song memorized so, not to flex, but i can name all 50 states AND their capitals in SONG form

68. Favorite school subject? history

69. Extrovert or Introvert? introvert

70. Have you ever been scuba diving? no but it sounds fun

71. What makes you nervous? not knowing where i am, deadlines, a teacher saying “i’m letting you form your own groups for a project this time and no you can’t work by yourself” 

72. Are you scared of the dark?  yes

73. Do you correct people when they make mistakes? as nicely as possible

74. Are you ticklish? yes

75. Have you ever started a rumor? nothing major but yes

76. Have you ever been in a position of authority? no

77. Have you ever drank underage? my dad let me suck on his empty beer bottle when i was a baby and my grandpa gave me a little champagne on new years when i was 14 so maybe

78. Have you ever done drugs? no

79. Who was your first real crush? his name was mateo and he was perfect in every possible way...

80. How many piercings do you have? 4

81. Can you roll your Rs? yes

82. How fast can you type? pretty dang fast

83. How fast can you run? i can outrun all 3 of my brothers if that’s what you’re asking

84. What color is your hair? chestnut brown

85. What color are your eyes? dark brown

86. What are you allergic to? THOTS jk i’m not allergic to anything

87. Do you keep a journal? yes

88. What do your parents do? my mom is an independent web designer and my dad sells cars for ford

89. Do you like your age? i don’t have an issue with it

90. What makes you angry? stupid people, particularly stupid females, people in general, cuphead

91. Do you like your own name? no. ‘cass’ is just an alias... i wish it wasn’t

92. Have you already thought of baby names, and if so what are they? girls: Cassandra, Adrianne    boys: Mateo, Levi, Atilio

93. Do you want a boy a girl for a child? i don’t have a preference

94. What are your strengths? listening, organization, colorful insult creation, art maybe

95. What are your weaknesses? food

96. How did you get your name? annabella was an option but it was also the name of my dad’s bosses dog, sophia was an option too but mom didn’t like it over my actual name sooo 

97. Were your ancestors royalty? nah we were italian farmers that fucked around in syria for awhile

98. What nationalities are you? mostly italian but lets see i’m also irish, syrian, czechoslovakian, and a sprinkle of french

99. Color of your bedspread? cheetah print

100. Color of your room? gray

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A thing I’ve been thinking lately is how with Sonic, Tails and even Knuckles (despite him being the more inconsistent character in regards of what Sega / ST wants him to be) there are hardly any topics talking about what said characters “should be” like.

In general, most of the fandom accepts them the way they are as a whole and are aware that their good points still outweight any flawed execution they may had experienced in the past. In short, they don’t see any reason why these characters should be changed or modified from how they are.

However, this has never been the case with Amy.

It is kind of annoying how with Amy, there is simply no winning. Either she gets compared with other “better” females like Sally (blatant Mary Sue) or Blaze (an OK character... but IMO one that hardly does anything truly outstanding and unique to her gender like Amy or Rouge do)... or even against other versions of herself, like how people fawns that Boom Amy is a better, more mature and independent version or Classic Amy from Mania Adventures was never annoying and more endearing and kind while essentially spitting on the modern version of Amy.

To this very day and ever since Sonic Aventure 1 came out to establish and define Amy’s personality, I never understood what exactly is supposd to be wrong with this character.

If it’s not the people that fucking refuse to let go of SatAM and Archie comics (aka “AmY IS a sALLy cloNe!1″ and other maliscious bullcrap), it’s the people from the “progressive west” who want to make her a role model at the expense of having some actual character. People like that editor from Fleetway who wanted to use Amy to promote her “girl power” brand of positive discrimination that even one of the comic book’s writers referred to as insulting.

I too am a person born in the western hemisphere of the world. I live in Mexico, right on the very border with Texas. I get a LOT of both countries cultures... so how come I (and a lot of other people in the fandom) can understand this character, yet the ones who are supposed to be professionals, can’t?

IMO, the problem was never Amy, but rather it’s the people in the west. You have the ones that feel the need to give Amy preferential treatment because of her gender (something that I think is just as bad as Sega/ST ignoring her for not being a Genesis trilogy character like Tails and Knuckles), the fans that see everything through the lenses of sarcasm and cynicism (especially in the US), to the ones spreading lies, half-truths and gross exaggerations out of spite because they have deluded themselves into believing that (tin foil hat time!) this one character replaced their bloody chipmunk princess as some kind of scheme from the evil racists masterminds in Sega of Japan.

How does someone struggle so much to understand a character from a children’s franchise that is suppose to embody positive values like love, kindness and compassion? The fact they want to change or modify her character is nothing more than evidence of their terrible lack of understanding for something so simple.

To add to what is essentially an already frustrating situation, you also have to add Sega into the mix too. They’re the ones who continued with the “classic trio” thing that should had ended a long in favor of a quartet. But no, gotta pander fast to the S3&K nostalgia even if it means excluding Amy. They made bad decisions too like turning Cream into a watered-down Amy 2.0 (even IDW had some of this the very moment Cream got onboard), essentially stealing many of the things Amy adds to the cast, such as the emotional aspects. 

Someone once said here that being an Amy fan is like waking up in the morning everyday being ready to argue with ten people. Well, how about we also add the  official Sonic twitter account? Mocking Amy for being left out of the Sonic Mania game (aha! so much for ‘we support female characters”... just your typical, disingenuous corporate virtue signaling bull crap), as if further needing to rub it on the face of Amy’s fans who were hoping she might appear as playable.

I really wish that enjoying Amy were more like with Sonic, Tails (the whole “Forces cowering” thing is nothing compared) or even Knuckles, since neither of them are judged for being themselves, they always are the first in line when a new project is to be announced, nor do they have to drag for 27 years the ghost of that one non-canon character created by SoA and DIC Productions, and whose life was perpetuated thanks to the Archie comic staff of stubborns fanboys who threw every jab they could at Amy with total and complete impunity.

But that is also why Amy fans are stronger, because we endure what the fans of other characters can’t. I still have hope for this character to one day have her moment to shine again, and show all of her potential.

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Discourse of Saturday, 10 April 2021

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A Director Making His Mark in More Ways Than One

LONDON — The director Jamie Lloyd was giving me a tour of his tattoos. Not the Pegasus on his chest or the skeleton astronaut floating on his back, though he gamely described those, but the onyx-inked adornments that cover his arms and hands, that wreathe his neck, that wrap around his shaved head.

When I asked about the dragon at his throat, he told me it had been “one of the ones that hurt the least,” then pointed to the flame-licked skulls on either side of his neck: his “covert way,” he said, of representing drama’s traditional emblems for comedy and tragedy.

“I thought maybe it’d be a little bit tacky to have theater masks on my neck,” he added, a laugh bubbling up, and it’s true: His dragon would have eaten them for lunch.

It was early December, and we were in a lounge beneath the Playhouse Theater, where Lloyd’s West End production of “Cyrano de Bergerac,” starring James McAvoy in a skintight puffer jacket and his own regular-size nose, would soon open to packed houses and critical praise.

Running through Feb. 29, and arriving on cinema screens Feb. 20 in a National Theater Live broadcast, “Cyrano” — newly adapted by Martin Crimp, and positing its hero as a scrappy spoken-word wonder — capped a year that saw Lloyd celebrated on both sides of the Atlantic.

In London last summer, his outdoor hit “Evita” traded conventional glamour for sexy grit, while his radical reinterpretation of Harold Pinter’s “Betrayal,” starring Tom Hiddleston, was hailed first in the West End, then on Broadway. Ben Brantley, reviewing “Betrayal” in The New York Times, called it “one of those rare shows I seem destined to think about forever.”

When Time Out London ranked the best theater of 2019, it gave the top spot jointly to all three Lloyd productions, saying that he “has had a year that some of his peers might trade their entire careers for.”

Lloyd, who is 39, did not spring from the same mold as many of those peers. There was for him, he says, no youthful aha moment of watching Derek Jacobi onstage and divining that directing was his path. Epiphanies like that belonged to other kids, the ones who could afford the tickets.

If there is a standard background for a London theater director — and Lloyd would argue that certainly there used to be — that isn’t where he came from, growing up working class on the south coast of England, in Margaret Thatcher’s Britain.

The first time I laid eyes on him, chatting in the Playhouse lobby after a preview of “Cyrano,” he was the picture of working-class flair — the gold pirate hoops, the pink and black T-shirt, the belt cinching high-waisted pants.

He looks nothing like your typical West End director. Which of course is precisely the point.

What’s underneath

“It’s quite often said of him,” McAvoy observed by phone, once the reviews were in, “that he strips things away or he tries to take classical works and turn them on their head. I think he’s always just trying to tell the story in the clearest and most exhilarating way possible.”

The “X-Men” star, who put the number of times he’s worked with Lloyd in the past decade at a “gazillion,” calls theirs “probably one of the most defining relationships that I’ve had in my career.”

Yet Lloyd himself is on board with the notion that his assertively contemporary stagings pare back stifling layers of performance history to lay bare what’s underneath.

Like the tiger and dragons that he had emblazoned on his head just last May, though, the unembellished nature of his shows — as minimalist in their way as his tattoos are the opposite — is a relatively recent development.

Lloyd’s first “Cyrano de Bergerac,” starring Douglas Hodge in 2012, was also his Broadway debut. It was, he said, “absolutely the ‘Cyrano’ that you would expect,” with the fake nose, the hat, the plume, the sword-fighting.

There is, granted, sword-fighting in the new one — but the audience has to imagine the swords.

Lloyd’s productions, including a lauded revival of Stephen Sondheim and James Lapine’s “Passion” in 2010, long marked him as a hot young director on the rise. But he sees in some of his previous work a noisy tendency toward idea overload.

The pivot point came in 2018, with a season that the Jamie Lloyd Company — which he formed seven years ago with the commercial producing powerhouse Ambassador Theater Group — devoted to the short works of Harold Pinter. The playwright’s distillation of language forced Lloyd to match it with his staging.

That immersion led to what the director Michael Grandage — one of Lloyd’s early champions, who tapped him at 27 to be his associate director at the Donmar Warehouse — called Lloyd’s “absolute masterpiece.”

“I had quite a lot of ambition to do a production of ‘Betrayal’ in my life,” Grandage said. “And then when I saw Jamie’s, I thought, ‘Right, that’s it. I don’t ever, ever want to direct this play.’ Because that’s, for me, the perfect production.”

Playing dress-up

Charm is a ready currency in the theater, but Lloyd’s is disarming; he seems simply to be being himself, without veneer. Like when I fact-checked something I’d read by asking whether he was a vegan.

“Lapsed vegan,” he confessed immediately, with a tinge of guilt about eating eggs again.

Pay no attention to any tough-guy vibe in photos of him; do not be alarmed by the sharp-toothed cat on the back of his head. In conversation, Lloyd comes across as thoughtful and unassuming, with an animated humor that makes him fun company. If he speaks at the speed of someone with no time to waste, he balances that with focused attentiveness.

His father, Ray, was a truck driver. His mother, Joy (whose name is tattooed on his right forearm, near the elbow), cleaned houses, took in ironing and ran a costume-rental shop, where young Jamie would sneak in to dress up as the children’s cartoon character Rainbow Brite.

“It’s very embarrassing,” he said, squelching a laugh.

Seeing professional theater wasn’t an option then for Lloyd, whose grown-up passion for expanding audience access — one of the things he has made himself known for in the West End — grew out of that exclusion. His company has set aside 15,000 free and 15,000 £15 tickets for its current, characteristically starry three-show season, which will also include Emilia Clarke in “The Seagull” and Jessica Chastain in “A Doll’s House.” At the 786-seat Playhouse, that adds up to just over 38 full houses.

Lloyd, who was studying acting at the Liverpool Institute for Performing Arts when he decided he wanted to direct, found his way to theater as a child by acting in school shows and local amateur productions. Twice he was cast as a monkey; in “The Wizard of Oz,” thrillingly, he got to fly.

The details of his early days have always been colorful — like having a clown as his first stepfather, who performed at children’s parties under the stage name Uncle Funny. But Lloyd is quick to acknowledge the darkness lurking there.

“It sounds a little bit like some dodgy film, because he was actually a really violent man,” he said. “And there were times where he was very physically abusive to my mum. There was a sort of atmosphere of violence in that house that was really uneasy. And yet masked with this literal makeup, but also this sense of trying to entertain people whilst enacting terrible brutality behind the scenes.”

This is where he locates his own connection to Pinter’s work.

“A lot of that is that the violence is beneath the surface,” he said. “And on the top there is this sort of, what I call a kind of topspin, a layer of cover-up.”

Long relationships

Lloyd was still at drama school when he staged a production of Lapine and William Finn’s “Falsettoland” that won a prize: assistant directing a show at the Bush Theater in London. Based on that, Trevor Nunn hired him, at 22, to be his assistant director on “Anything Goes” in the West End — a job he did so well that Grandage got word of it and hired him to assist on “Guys and Dolls.” While Lloyd was doing that, he also began directing in his own right.

The costume and set designer Soutra Gilmour, who has been a constant with Lloyd since he cold-called her for his first professional production, Pinter’s “The Caretaker,” said theirs is an easy relationship, with a “symbiotic transference of ideas.” Even their creative aesthetics have evolved in sync.

“We’ve actually never fallen out in 13 years,” she said over mint tea on a trip to New York last month, just before “Betrayal” closed. “Never! I don’t even know how we would fall out.”

Of course, the one time she tried to decline a Lloyd project five years ago, because its tech rehearsals coincided with the due date for her son’s birth, he told her there was no one else he wanted to work with. So she did the show, warning that at some point she would have to leave. Now, she says, he understands that she won’t sit through endless evening previews, because she needs to go home to her child.

Lloyd and his wife, the actress Suzie Toase (whose name is tattooed on one of his arms), home-school their own three boys (whose names are tattooed on the other). Their eldest, 13-year-old Lewin, is an actor who recently played one of the principal characters, the heroine’s irresistible best friend, on the HBO and BBC One series “His Dark Materials,” whose cast boasts McAvoy as well.

Enter the child

Lloyd’s interpretation of “Betrayal,” a 1978 play that recounts a seven-year affair, imbued it with a distinctly non-’70s awareness of the fragility of family — the notion that children are the bystanders harmed when a marriage is tossed away.

Its gasp-inducing moment came with the entrance of a character Pinter wrote to be mentioned but not seen: the small daughter of the couple whose relationship is imperiled. In putting her onstage, Lloyd didn’t touch the text; it was a simple, wordless role. With it, he altered the resonance of the play.

To me, it seemed logical that Lloyd’s production would have been informed by his experience as a husband and father — and maybe also as a child in a splintering family. How old had he been, anyway, when his parents split up?

“Five,” Lloyd said. “The same age as the character would be.” He paused. “Oh God, yeah, fascinating. I’d not thought about that. Exactly the same age.”

If that fact was of more than intellectual interest to him, he didn’t let on. He volunteered a memory, though — of being a little one “amongst these kind of big giants, and I guess what we can now see as the mess of their lives.”

Blazer-free

Doing “Betrayal” in New York, Lloyd was struck by how eager Americans were to chat about his tattoos. Still, he told me after I texted him a follow-up question about them, he hadn’t expected his appearance to be such a talking point in this story.

It’s not just idle curiosity. It’s about what the tattoos signify in a field where, in Britain as in the United States, the top directors tend to have grown up very comfortably. It’s about who is welcome in a particular space, and who gets to be themselves there.

For a long time after Lloyd started working in the theater, he wore a blazer every day: a conscious attempt to conform in an industry where he felt a nagging sense of difference.

“Every other director at the time was from an Oxbridge background,” he said, “and looked and sounded a particular way. I spent a long time pretending to be like them.”

It was a performance of sorts, with a costume he donned for the role.

It was only about seven or eight years ago — around the time he left the Donmar and started putting together his own company — that he stopped worrying about what people might think if he looked the way he wanted.

“My dad had tattoos” was the first thing he said when I asked him about his own.

“I guess it’s partly getting older,” he mused, “but it’s just sort of going, ‘You can’t pretend to be someone. You’ve got to be who you really are, in every way.’”

The tattoos that have gradually transformed him are from a different aesthetic universe than his recent work onstage. Yet the impulse, somehow, is the same.

In shedding the blazer, in inking his skin, Lloyd has peeled back layers of imposed convention to show who’s underneath.

And should you spot him at the theater, where he is hard to miss, you’ll notice that he looks just like himself.