#i hate vocaloid ( Explore tagged Tumblr posts

[blueskittlesart]

post about how many vocaloid voicebanks i have is circulating so i guess i have to start actually using them again. this one uses gumi kaito and technically miku but just as a clone of the gumi track for more dimension bc gumi sounds flat as fuck on her own lmao

[sundewhasaudhd]

Hi Tumblr :D 👋

My name is Sundew, I’m a MINOR (high school age) I’m acespec, pan, trigender, xenogender, ambiamorous, and use all pronouns

I’m an artist, actor, script writer, theatre kid, and AuDHD haver

Current hyperfixations: DSMP, Hatchetverse, The Skinjacker Trilogy reincarnation AU, my OC's

Special Interests: DSMP, musical theatre, casinos, Tumblr history, and some others that I can’t think of off the top of my head

Current fandoms: DSMP, musical theatre (especially Hatchetverse), Trolls, Frankenstein or the Modern Prometheus, Amphibia, TOH, DDLC, The Skinjacker Trilogy, ROTTMNT, Ramshackle (kind of), QSMP (kind of), Gravity Falls, Steven Universe Nimona, Mitchel’s vs the Machines Chikn Nugget (that counts as a fandom right?), Bluey, SheRa, Ducktales, Adventure Time, Vocaloid, Tangled the Series, DHMIS, Descendants, Moral Orel, and probably more tbh

I'm currently working on 5 different DSMP AU's/ animated fanfics, and one day I would like to make 'DSMP the Animated Series' and my high fantasy OC's cartoon, both of which would be indie animated and available on YouTube (but we'll cross those bridges when we get there)

This blog does not support cc!Wilbur or his actions, cc!Wilbur supporters DNI

Speaking of DNI, here’s my DNI list: queerphobes in ANY way (and that includes hating on xenogender people and people who use neopronouns), racists, sexist/misogynists, zionists, antisemitic/neo-nazis, islamophobes, anti therian and anti furry people, cc!Wilbur Soot/William Gold supporters, cc!Dream Team supporters, Robert Manion supporters

I post very sporadically because of school (and by post I mean post creative works, like fanart and scripts), but when I do post, it’ll mainly be DSMP stuff (especially my own AU’s), but I will also post stuff for other fandoms, especially Hatchetverse

I’m absolutely obsessed with c!TNT duo and with take pretty much any opportunity I can get to draw/talk about them. Same with Wilbur Cross and the Lords in Black (and Webby)

Like I said earlier, I don’t not support cc!Wilbur in any way shape or form. That being said I really really super like c!Wilbur (o!Wilbur and q!Wilbur are neat too) and most of my AU’s have him as a big role

Feel free to ask me about my DSMP headcanons (or headcanons for any other fandom listed above), just know I might not always answer immediately because of school and shit like that

Also, I have a few side blogs:

@csundewsaysfuckitwebawl my DSMP OC role play blog

@yousummonusonceyousummonustwice my Lords in Black and Queen in White ask blog

@just-a-lil-theatre-guy my Hatchetverse OC

Double also, say hello to my Tumblr siblings:

@rxccoonboo @homosexual-tommyinnit-deactivat (rip his Tumblr account 😔😔😔)/ @cotableats (which is his friends account that they sometimes let him use) @a-sociopath-do-your-research @rae-unbeloved @loneycorner

Triple also, finally updated my pronouns

Anyway, I hope you all have a nice day and enjoy my Tumblr :D

[accidentallyatekneecaps]

SAIKI KURIKO BEING THE YOUNGEST SAIKI AU (Aka real life kuriko au)

She uses she/they pronouns

They're a asexual lesbian

She doesn't have any powers like kusuo or smarts like kusuke

But She is the only saiki sibling to be emotionally aware

She is a first year student

She actually was doing an online program for awhile because she couldn't be assed to actually show up in person until her mom forced her to socialize more

She has eds and uses a cane from time to time

They are severely chronically online

They spent hours on Tumblr as a child and no one knew besides kusou since the rest of the family was so distracted by the son's

She used to be really upset that kusuke and kusuo got all the attention as a kid but as she got older she just used it to her advantage to do whatever she wanted

Kusou is really protective of her but doesn't let it show even tho everyone around him knows he is

Kuriko is seen as really shy to others around her but shes a massive cunt like the rest of the siblings

They speak English fluently due to being online at a young age and in cringe fandoms

Kuriko goes by k since she doesn't like the way it sounds but no one besides their online friends call them that

Kusou actually raised her more than her parents since they never really had to raise kusou or kusuke

Kurikos owns so many miku memorabilia

They have like a shelf full of vocaloid figures

They have a bunch of face piercings that their parents didn't notice they got (kusou shape shifted into their father so they could get it done)

Kuriko is massively emo, like the whole ordeal or being obsessed with mcr and other bands like that

Their autistic (wow shocker)

They once said to kusou that his psychic powers are just autism with a few extra steps

Surprising they are very social when they are around people they like and talk really loudly without realizing

When their alone they are basically mute, they won't say a word to anyone

They were forced to wear those clear piercings once her mom forced her to go to school at pk

They don't really enjoy school nor try in it

They usually just draw in their sketchbook all day

They hate kusuke and their father

They resent their mother a bit for willingly letting some of the things that happened in the family happen, tho they still love her a lot

Most people in the family are confused why the youngest daughter isn't at all like her brothers but the real thing is that she didn't get attention but she's aware of things so much that she doesn't hold it over the siblings but over the parents who should of been there

(au design)

Guy's maybe I was a little to silly

[misadoringly]

𓊆ྀི blog warning: gore, obsessive content 𓊇ྀི

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[reiayanamiisbestgirl]

I gotta vent

vent after cut

Ok so basically on Pinterest i started chatting with someone, I’ll call them Day, who I was a little concerned about since she has very black and white views on Fayrouz (a fictional villain) that I didn’t agree with, but I thought I could shove that to the side. Her views were either absolute hate for fayrouz, or simping. She doesn’t think Fayrouz is a well written, morally grey villain like I do.

Fayrouz’s story summarized, for context, is that she is a roboticist who got married to a co worker she loved but her need for control gave her the power in the relationship and her husband divorced her. She was so ashamed for what she did to her husband to the point she thought she could clear her conscious by building therapy robots. She ends up lying to them and abusing them by trying to control them in hopes they wouldn’t leave, but her robots left. By the end of the story so far she comes to terms with the fact she’s repeatedly messed everything up for herself. The story isn’t done, so I don’t know what she’s going to do next. I missed out on a lot of little details in this summary of her so you guys can read everything about the story here: https://team6x111.carrd.co/#qualia-automata .

Day also made chat ais of GHOST’s characters, privated them when I suggested to her that she should delete them, and then unprivated them later. GHOST, for context, is an online artist and vocaloid song producer who has publicly said he doesn’t want chat ais made of his characters due to the fact most of them are personifications of his trauma or have no stories behind them.

Day also made a villain oc that seemed like a typical villain except the oc was shipped with literal Hitler and Hitler was made to be a hero in the oc story, and I felt like she didn’t listen to my advice when I told her to change it to an oc instead of Hitler. She also told me she had an obsession with Hitler in the past. She also seemed unaware of the horrors of Nazism and how it affects people today. She also made an oc that was supposed to be the “god of all Jewish people“, but like Judaism and Christianity and Islam all share the same god so i felt like making a “god” for people who already have a god was disrespectful. Oh and this “god” character was somehow connected to Hitler and that oc so…

anyways so i blocked both her accounts bc I just couldn’t handle it anymore and then her friend messaged me asking why so I told her friend but I haven’t gotten a response back and I’m so scared cuz the kids in the GHOST fandom can be really weird, and Day isn’t the first kid I had to block.

[heatwa-ves]

Osmosis Test thingy !!

Fandom: Project Sekai :> !!

/nf !

ok ok so it's another gay idol rhythm game except this time there's miku!!! I think. and potentially other vocaloids. one of my friends hates how the bar is horizontal instead of curved... There are a couple main units and they kinda have silly names imo like girl what is more more jump.... anyway there's also wonderlands showtime and Leo/need and nightcord at 25:00 which is the best name by far like ok that slaps... I think mafuyu is in that unit and she's purple and has major mommy issues and she's my fav blorbo in law. I think mizuki is in that unit too and they're cool as hell some of my mutuals like them a lot. and there's the white haired girl who's super gay shoutout to her idk her name tho... there's also an and kohane and they're in gay love. and there's rui who everyone is obsessed with and he's got the ugly hair but in a kinda cute way. also he has the tboy swag. there's also tsukasa and I think he has a sister called saki?? tragic siblings methinks. anddd there's a guy with two color hair idk his name but he's there too I think. and so they just do typical idol game shenanigans except they are able to go Yeah I know miku personally. you wish you were me. the enstarries could never (except switch and 2wink) OH also there's a girl called ena and I think she's really cute that's all I have to say tho 🙏🙏🙏🙏 shoutout to prosekai shoutout to mafuyu shoutout to miku.

[heartbinn]

Ty for the tag bbg🫶🫶

: What are your favourite k-pop groups?

I dont stan a lot, right now my ults are Skz and gidle

:Which member sparked your interest?

Specifically remember watching the maniac mv and commenting abt how i dont like anything and then 'maybe that red haired guy' guess who is the red haired guy

-for idle i dont remember stop

:Who was your first bias?

Min and yuqiii

:Who is your current bias?

These two omg.

:What makes them your current bias?

-for hannie the entire thing was reversed, i hated him sm in the maniac mv w his goofy ahh hat but like. Somehow. He's here.

-and for minnie, i felt like whoever was my bias from idle i couldnt rlly connect with them, until she was chosen

:Who is your bias wrecker?

Who elseeee

:Who is the member you are currently obsessing over that isn't your bias or wrecker?

They are both so sugshdhdhdjsj visuals

:When did you first discover the group?

-ahhh gidle was first when queencard was trending on tiktok, i was like yh i gotta learn that so i did and i was into vocaloid then, and kpop songs started popping up on my jpop playlist leading me to discover nxde and tomboy mainly

-same scenario maniac kept appearing on my playlist so i was like alr let me listen bc it wont leave me alone until i do (unfortunately this was after rockstar)

:Have you ever been to their concerts?

-nuh uh but i bought an album which has three dvds of the maniac tour:3

:What are some of your favourite songs?

- Super bowl : Super board : Super lady : Wife : Fate : Comflex : LALALALA : YAYAYA : MIROH : Muddy Water : The tortoise and the hare : Freak : Doodle : Alien : Volcano ;

thank you for the tag @feelbokkie ! <3

♡ : who is your favourite kpop group?

skz, but xdinary heroes are basically tied and would probably beat them if the skz brainrot wasn't so strong lol

♡ : which member sparked your interest?

felix in maniac, but hyunjin also kept catching my eye

♡ : who was your first bias?

this man right here ‼️‼️ my boy hyunjin

♡ : who is your current bias?

i swear it's chan yall please believe me

♡ : what makes them your current bias?

oh how do i word this. i think it started by watching clips of his lives because they really helped me when i was in a rough mental spot haha. chan is like a warm hug i want to melt into and never let go, like his energy is so comforting. not to mention how incredibly talented he is and the way he looks out for the kids. there's so much i wanna say but idk how to phrase it all 😭

♡ : who is your bias wrecker?

lee know, but fr everyone else is constantly bias wrecking me too

♡ : which member(s) are you currently obsessing over that aren't your bias/bias wrecker?

han + i.n probably

♡ : when did you first discover the group?

pre-debut, but i was already falling out of kpop at the time and only knew them through my sister (not that i listened to more than exo and like 2 bts songs lol). i properly got into them cause of maniac, so 2022 ig?

♡ : have you been to one of their concerts?

NO, I WISH 😭😭😭 one day though, i hope

♡ : what are some of your favourite songs by them?

ouuu there's too many

- chronosaurus

- any

- the tortoise and the hare

- side effects

- fnf

- yayaya

- ta

- alien

- item

- heyday

- maze of memories

no pressure tags !! @siewoon @capitainesyallin @evermourning @chaeryred @phtogravi @collisvng

[poxei]

I'm already obsessed with your oc!! what's the story about? :0

YOU'RE GONNA MAKE ME CRY I'm so happy people took an interest in Avery! T_T

I made some like concept art pages for him and his world for fun so here you go. This is all subject to change though. As for the story itself, I imagine it would be told through a series of animated music videos (like many vocaloid and jpop music videos)

Avery

A tired guy in his late 20’s. Avery grew up in a small town in the middle of nowhere, and he has always hated it. He dreamed of attending college in a big city to get away from the boonies, but he didn’t have the financial means to leave. Now he’s stuck in a dead-end job, and he wishes that he were doing more with his life.

Avery is lanky and tall. He always wears a white dress shirt, a red bowtie, and a red apron with a nametag as part of his work uniform. He has prominent dark circles under his eyes due to his exhaustion from being underpaid and overworked. His brown hair is usually rather unkempt, but he sees no reason to brush it well. After all, the people who show up to the Diner at 3:00 a.m. don’t care, so why should he? Avery hardly smiles, but when he does, it’s a treat.

Eleventh Hour Diner

Avery works at a ‘50s-style diner called the Eleventh Hour Diner. The Diner is open 24/7, and Avery works the graveyard shift from 11:00 p.m. to 8:00 a.m. During this timeframe, he is the only employee working the front of the house. His boss, the owner and manager of the Diner, is around from time to time, but Avery rarely sees him in person. The cook in the back is also an enigma.

Even though Avery doesn’t have much of a chance to talk to his coworkers, there are usually a few customers around, even in the dead of night, probably due to the Diner being the only place open in town at this hour. Avery likes to imagine the lives and backstories of the people who frequent the diner; it keeps him sane. On nights when nobody’s there, Avery finds it hard to work.

Lastly, I don't know if I want to include supernatural elements or not, but overall the atmosphere is eerie and always set at night. also I was thinking about giving him a boyfriend, but he's not ready for that yet lmfao that's a little too much happiness for him. rn he is sad.

[chisatowo]

Hiii new pinned post time babeyyyy

Welcome! My name is Keese and I sure do post things sometimes. I generally try to mostly post fandom stuff, but I fail at that a LOT so be prepared to deal with a lot of oc posting if you follow me fndfbshfb. I generally just like to ramble abt stuff and analyze media and make aus and such, and I also draw sometimes. I generally try to tag basic triggers as cw [thing] and I am willing to tag other things if asked. That being said I am not comfortable tagging healed scars of any variety, so if that's an issue for you I'd advise you don't follow and block me if you need to. (Dni and extra stuff under the cut)

(Also, I have commissions open)

Dni (I'll probably add more later but this is what I could think of at the top of my head):

Transphobes, ace/aro exlusionists, transmeds, and y'know all that other typical dni stuff 

Maps, proship, and whatever the fuck else all you pedos and pedo sympathisers like to call yourselves 

Fans of dmsp, aot, hetalia, south park, and also probably other medias I'm forgetting but you get the idea

If you are against mspec bandori hcs. I promise you citing a rly gross quote from a guy who's barely involved if at all with the writing process for bandori isn't the slam dunk take you think it is my dude.

If you're one of those people who like to call some bandori characters abusers, I'm so so tired man. 

Interests (bolded is what I most frequently talk abt):

Bandori

My ocs

Ace Attorney

Warrior cats 

Vocaloids 

Deltarune

Project sekai (I haven't read the stories yet though)  

Some of my basic tags:

#rat rambles (basic talking tag)

#keese draws (art tag)

#rat rants (I try to tag my longer rants with this)

#rat vents (my vent tag. I try not to vent on here too much though) 

#band posting (bandori talk tag)

#oc posting (oc talk tag)

#eternal gales (the tag for my main original story)

#warriors posting (warrior cats tag)

#lawyer posting (ace attorney tag)

#genshin posting (genshin impact tag)

#sekai posting (project sekai tag)

#vocaloid posting (vocaloid tag)

#delta posting (deltarune tag)

#dangan posting (danganropa tag, I don't post abt dr much anymore but just in case)

#cookie posting (cookie run tag, again another thing I don't rly post abt anymore but occasionally I relapse on that previous 2 year hyperfixation of mine that I now hate lol) 

Some of my comfort characters :] :

Moca Aoba

Chisato Shirasagi 

Rimi Ushigome 

Lisa Imai

Yukina Minato

Ran Mitake

Rei Wakana 

Hagumi Kitazawa 

Like every other bandori character lol it's my biggest comfort media

Dodie (oc)

Sier (oc)

Aris (oc)

Tali (oc)

Looser (oc)

Busy (oc)

Dancer (oc)

Softie (oc)

Alpha (oc)

Melody (oc)

Ramp (oc)

Kay Faraday

Trucy Wright

Pearl Fey

Mia Fey

ONE (vocaloid)

Kaito (vocaloid)

Flower (vocaloid)

Fukase (vocaloid)

Gumi (vocaloid)

Rui Kamishiro

Mizuki Akiyama 

An Shiraishi 

Sayu (genshin impact)

Barbara (genshin impact)

Sucrose (genshin impact)

Jean (genshin impact)

Kris dreemur

Sparkpelt

Dovewing

Some bonus info abt me!:

I'm an acearo lesbian!!! I rant abt aro stuff sometimes 

I love having fun gender hcs for characters, so I use a lot of non canon pronouns for characters. I also hand out aspec hcs to people like free candy fnfndurn

I am autistic and have adhd!!!

I generally prefer masculine terms, but am ok with gender neutral ones :] (Im agender btw)

I love talking abt my hcs and aus and stuff, so feel free to ask me abt them if you want!!

Some of my favorite bandori ships are chisahagu, yukiran, mayaeve, parechu, and polypa :)

There's some character relationships in bandori that I am deeply obsessed with but don't ship as a romantic thing, so know that's not usually me disliking the ship just me not personally hcing them as dating! 

I generally do appreciate tone tags, but try not to overuse them since I'm not that bad at reading tone through text, I just overthink more vague statements a lot. If you do overuse them a bit I won't be mad so don't worry too much abt if you're using them too much, but just try to keep it in mind 

I casually kin characters, with my biggest kins rn being Rimi, Moca and Lisa (Rimi is the big one though)

My endori player id is 7654777

My jpdori player id is 124144091

My jp proseka player id is 136166219262914560

Anyways. Pointy pog

Also pls like if you've read! Ik people probably still won't but I appreciate knowing if people are actually reading this rnfmdjdmf

[forbidding-souda]

About Mod Souda

You guys should talk to me in the ask box more smh you guys are fun

Like just tell me about your day but I won’t guarantee that like 1000% I’ll respond but I’ll read them all.... efkjlwdbsc or or ask me questions or something idk I like talking

1500 followers face reveal when (shocked emoji) /srs

Anyways here’s some things about me because I never really introduced myself (since this is my account and why would I do an introduction)

THIS IS LITERALLY MY LIFE STORY GOODBYE BAHSBAH

-Mod Souda 

Hi I am Mod Souda and I go by he/him ofc ofc I am a gay man.

Uhh I am an a native amercan mixed kid AND an Aquarius ugh I’m so unique right. I was raised by a raver and a metalhead skater in Vegas. I’ve been in the pit since I was 4 years old (specifically at a Primus concert LMAO).

The first fandom I was in was Creepypasta, and I was about 8 years old. It’s funny because the first musician I ever actively liked was Madame Macabre. 

As a child (like 7-11) I mainly listened to Vocaloid, Madame Macabre, and Nicki Minaj.

When Avengers came out I was still in elementary school. And .. Loki... wrjhfbwejdhb bro!! gay awakening!! holy shit. I was in love with him but I didn’t want to admit it smh shhh.

The first anime I ever watched was Black Butler. I was IN LOVE with Joker from Book of Circus ehbwdjqshdfb. The last episode of that season ended the day I moved to California. I remember crying bc of the last scene inside of the moving truck.

I also got into Fairy Tail a lot. Also tragic. I had the hugest crush on Gajeel Redfox mmmmmemdwkgsnekfdjsglkvcx

I live in the Bay Area, and grew up in the same house, compared to living in Vegas where I moved every two years. There are ... so many poc here ... and in vegas I was in a class with all white people. Being around so many poc was so like ?? fun ?? idk how to describe it but it feels like how life should feel like; not stressful at all.

I started listening to goth music when I was 12 because I was in the Mr. Creepypasta amino and somebody was like “you guys should join the goth amino” and I was like oh that sounds so fun !!! Boom... goth Mod Souda arrived.

I was all about Sopor Aeternus and Switchblade Symphony. 

I discovered my lifelong favorite artist in like 2016. It was because I was making playlist for my Fairy Tail oc (tragic) and I added this song I got off of a “Creepypasta Theme Songs” and it was Bernadette by IAMX (which was assigned to Laughing Jack). And I listened to the song and was like meh this is cool. Then one day I played the playlist and it just.... hit different. LMAO I was like waiitittttititit. The next day, on the way to the airport, I downloaded all 7 (at the time) of his albums and listened to them the whole way. I’ve seen him live too like mm chris corner I love you.

I got into DR in 2015 because of an edit of (anime) Syo and Junko to Pound the Alarm LOL. I was like “this looks cool” so I watched it on my phone while sitting on the couch all in one go. Spoilers but I cried the most when mondo and sakura died, fun fact. Life went down from there smh!! 

I really believed that I was dating Gundham Tanaka. Like everything in my life was Gundham Tanaka related like I was ... obsessed with him. And I coudln’t see art of him and sonia because it would make me have a breakdown bc I thought he was cheating on me PLZ BHDSABHJBAHAAHHA it’s funny because I kin sonia now and I’m in love with her.

This was the same year where I ???? got bruises on my eardrums somehow (I asked my dad recently how I got them and he went uhh idk) ???? and I couldn’t hear anything for like three years plz. My hearing has gotten better but idk if my ear percentage is 100%/100% or if I’m just grateful it isn’t what it is before LMAO so that’s when I started learning ASL.

This is also the same year where I got hospitalized for being a neurodevelopmental schizophrenic lol OOPS !

A funny story of me growing up with danganronpa is uhh when future arc was still airing ,,, Spoilers,, and the episode with Juzo passing aired,, I literally printed the frame of him talking to himself confessing his love and BROUGHT IT TO SCHOOL. I LIT A CANDLE FOR HIM TOO LIKE BYE

Freshman year of highschool I started dating an emo kid who brought his electric guitar to school. TRAGIC. We dated for like two years please what.

Sophomore year I started getting into metal and punk. This is mainly because I went to a Slayer concert. I was trying to branch out of my goth bubble and !!! metal really stuck with me. My favorite subgenre is goregrind. It’s mmm so good. Punk... was a miss. I absolutely hate punks. If anyone in the alternative community is reading this right now I’ll tell you this: the punks that I interacted with to learn more about the community were from OC .... goodbye

I still listen to Glass Street tho ^ they are hc/crossover and I really like their music omg I have their merch now plz HBSAJKH and I still like the patch pants / crusties I made so that’s cool. A lot of kids look up / glamorize me just because of my fashion but at least they give me clout ig ...

The year after that I downloaded Spotify for the first time. I was an apple music/youtube person (tragic). Uhh what else omg. I finally figured out that I was neurodevelopmental and that it affected my way of thinking and that ,, it wasn’t JUST because I am sch so that was an awakening.

Anyways now trying to get a minor in asl interpreting mmmm and trying to get a job SMH !! why is it so hard. I’m into DND now oo that’s new and I’m collecting the dice.

I started this blog in July 2020 when I was staying with my friend in a tent in New York for a couple of months. I forced her to watch despair arc (LOL) and now she’s a junko cosplayer so B^)

Metalhead anon and everyone else who’s been here for a long ass time make me SOOO happy like woah.. it’s been so long omg. I used to post fics three times a day like wtf the EFFORT (that was before school started lol oops my bad)

Since then I’ve got a boyfriend and a whole wave of danganronpa cosplayers who are my friends now. It’s really cool to talk to so many young people (sometimes) who are hella into like,, open conversations about gender and politics and whatnot. I’m used to talking to 20 year old goth people you know? 

Whenever I do something “cringey” (like if I want to do dr character impersonations or if I want to rant about how much I love this anime character or if I want to try out neopronouns) I’m like hmmmm I can go to the danganronpa cosplayers and I know they won’t judge me for this.

Anyways that’s it. It’s 22:50 where I am right now aaaanndd I go on this blog way more than I should LOL

[frigidairifique]

A meme about how M is trashy

BASICS: Name: Unknown Nicknames: M age: 14 Mental age: 12 Gender: Female Sex: Female Sexuality/romantic: Bisexual, Panromantic ONLINE: Username: wednesins Password: 4n4rch1@ most visited websites: Youtube, Reddit, uǝʌɐǝɥıɐʇuǝɥ Gets distracted by?: Everyone and everything Internet Senpai: Leliane Popularity: Unpopular as fuuuuuuck # of online friends: 5 Best online friends: Elijah (aka eliyunem) Forum Signature: “That’s all mother fuckers!” Cringiest thing posted: “Guys how do I remove a spider web I already ate?” Always makes them cringe?: When she breathes like a TH0T Tweets per day: She probably is one of the most inactive person on Twitter Strangest file names: “HOW TO BREATHN’T” Biggest folder: “random anime pics” spams people with: Memes Favourite YT video: https://youtu.be/GIhgJWmxdFc Browsing History: GoThIc LoLiTa dReSsEs Started a flame war?: Tried once. Never did it again. Do they know about 4chan?: Yep! SOCIAL: # of irl friends: 3 or something Type of friend: Emma, the bubbly one. Elijah, the shy one. Amberu, the crazy one. Evelyn, the dumb one. Vayda, the cute one. # of crushes: She loves to randomly try to seduce her friends even though she doesn’t really care about getting a gf/bf so, 0 crushes. Awkward level: IT’S OVER 9000 Walk into the club like: Doesn’t walk in. Most embarrassing moment: Her everyday life is embarassing Funniest joke: “How do we call a baker with a cold? A couchy cake. Yes, that’s a reference.” Worst joke: “How do we c-call a,, eehhh, n-nevermind hehe” Members of the squad: Emma, Elijah, Amberu, Evelyn and Vayda?? I already mentionned it?? ;u; Have they ever dated?: Nope Have they ever stalked?: E V E R Y D A Y Low-key better than friends: 2D anime girls Humans or Animals?: Both i guess? Most savage burn: “I’ll break your Nico nico knees, that’s not a threat : that’s a promise.” Desperation level: ULTRA VERY A LOT DESEPERATE Trust level for friends: Pretty high but stills stays a bit paranoied about it Most likely to trip over: She trips all the time. Clumsy stalker. Can talk about mushy stuff with: Elijah, Emma and Bonnie Always cheers them up: Everyone :3 Meanest moment: I guess that her meanest moments are when she overuses sarcasm to mock someone  Kindest moment: Showing off her love and affection when she gets cheesy uwu Always makes them cry: Sad songs Always makes them laugh: Jokes of all kind! Who do they look up to? Emma or Mayune Who looks up to them? Nobody :’) Sense of humour: Perverted and pretty dark Most regrettable friend: None. She is the regrettable one. Squad hangout spot: Under a tree Have they bullied?: Nope but they do get really mean and salty when in a bad mood Have they been bullied?: A bit FANDOMS: Main fandoms: A lot of anime fandoms and mainly vocaloids. How active?: Not a lot :/ Favourite Mediums?: Songs Amount of Fanart drawn: About 4 or 5 Amount of Fanart saved: A SHIT TON Favourite characters?: V4flower Most relatable character?:  # of characters they can name: otps: Miku x Gumi notps: Len x Gumi ( brotps: Rana and Otomachi Una ot3s: Yaoi or Yuri?: Both. Bara?: She isn’t against it but just doesn’t simp for it Do they RP?: Nah Do they read fanfiction?: Sometimes Anime or Cartoons?: ANIME What has made them cry most?: EeEhHh a lot of songs including a tragic storyline What always gives them a nosebleed?: lmao idkkk everything??? obsessed or casual?: Obsessed Cringiest past-fandom?: Isn’t that  Wishes was real: “Miku didn’t had to go to college then why sould I. Doen’t tell me that she doesn’t fucking exist you liar” Do they have fandom OCs?: Nah Pirate or buy?: Pirate sometimes;;; Do they call themselves trash?: Yes, a lot Have they shipped incest?: nonononononono Do people call them weeaboo?: Yep! And she is Longest marathon? Whaaa- were talking about fandoms right? SIN: What always turns them on?: Anime girls lololol What always turns them off? : nothing # of rare pepes: Shitpost level: She breathes like she shitposts Can never unsee: Those creepy ass creature in the dark. Yes they exists Secret kink nobody knows: Being superior (but in a kind way ya know? how am i supposed to explain) Secret kink everybody knows: Being inferior Heaven or Hell? Heeeeellll yeah Secret they'll take to the grave? Hey! I’m not going to leak a secret she’ll take to the grave on Tumblr :v Leaked nudes?: Nah Got any Blackmail? Once. The one blackmailing her got annoyed Parents caught them: Haha, parents? What are those?? Smoke? Drink? Drugs?: Underaged drinking once Says they hate but secretly loves: Says they love but secretly hates: Would go gay for: Already gAy Have they ever shit themselves?: lmao no Top or Bottom?: Bottom. But I personally use the term “Seme or Uke?” Most illegal thing they've done: Nothing. Too scared to even try  Amount of porn on computer: The homework folder is oddly full,, Name of porn folder: “Homework” 

C’mon you sinner I know you want to do this meme, huh, @ezelia-huhh :)))))

[meanderfall]

thank you my love!! ^v^

(lmao i finally did it @solienna... it’s been like months but i finally completed this. also if you’re wondering, when i first tried to answer the original ask, it wouldn’t save any of what i’d written as a draft, so i just started a new post lol)

1. three songs that come up when you put your phone on shuffle

Flaws (acoustic) by Bastille

Wait For It from Hamilton

Here Comes the Rain Again by Eurythmics

3. three songs you were recently obsessed with

World in my Pocket by The Unlikely Candidates

The Darker the Weather, the Better the Man by MISSIO

Walk Me Home by P!NK

8. three songs that remind you most of summer and vacation

this is probably a weird choice but The Kids Aren’t Alright. I honestly don’t know why, it just gives me summer vibes.

Taste by Sleeping at Last (probably bc i listened to this A LOT while playing stardew valley and stardew gives me summer vibes)

Young Volcanoes by Fall Out Boy

(this section was so hard.... there are like 0 songs that i actually associate with summer and vacation. literally the only way i do is if i discover said song and listen to a lot around the time summer starts)

11. three favourite songs from movie or TV series soundtrack

What’s Up Danger By Blackway & Black Caviar

I’m Still Standing by Taron Egerton

The Cyborg Fights (Genos’ theme from One-Punch Man. It’s an instrumental piece, and it goes off).

12. three favourite songs from video games

i fucking hate you adri, so much, i never listen to video game soundtracks, you fool, i have nothing to offer you

Klavier’s theme from Ace Attorney! Called Guilty Love lmao

I played Night in the Woods recently, and I think my two favourite pieces were Astral Alley (it plays during a dream sequence and i literally fucked around doing nothing for a bit just to listen to this. It’s so peaceful, but there’s something also... wistful or sad about it, that i just love.) 

and Dusk Stars! (That one plays while stargazing with a professor as a sidequest and tbh it was one of my favourite parts of the game. Surprisingly wholesome, and the last bit really struck a cord with me.)

13. three songs you want at your funeral

Saturn by Sleeping at Last

I Lived by One Republic

Pieces by Harbor and Home (low-key this song is practically a narrative for my life and for once it’s just comforting)

14. three songs you want at your wedding

Bright by Echosmith

Lovesong by Adele

Meaning of Life by Kelly Clarkson

(i don’t.... listen to happy love songs.... i was just going through my library of romantic songs and i was like “this is too pop, this is too angsty, this is pre-relationship, etc. etc”.)

15. three songs you want to dance with your love to

Fly Me to the Moon

Turn Time Off

Anna Sun by Walk the Moon (tbh this song gives me a very specific image of like moving into a new home with my lover and this song is playing while we’re unpacking, or even just any high energy song, and we end up pausing unpacking long enough to dance silly together and sing the song and it ends with us like hugging with a peck for good measure and life seems so good and perfect)

18. three songs that remind you of your best friend

Budapest (legit bc she showed me this song and was like “i think you would like this!” and you bet your ass i would love that song even if it was trash)

Another Night on Mars

Trouble is a Friend by Lenka (why? i legitimately don’t know. Especially since she’s the sweetest and most peaceful person ever. Then again she is a junkrat main.... never mind it makes sense)

19. three songs that are your guilty pleasure

Waters of Megalovania

Jessie’s Girl (this is like. the quintessential chad complaining about being friend-zoned, but i jam out to it every time, and im sucker for jealousy and unrequited love)

I Don’t Even Care About You by MISSIO for the days when im angry or having a bad day or more annoyed than usual at people trying to interact with me, and I just want to indulge in my old cynicism and hatred of the world in general

20. three songs that remind you of the person who sends this one

False Confidence by Noah Kahan

Hate That You Know Me by the Bleachers

Happy by Marina and the Diamonds

21. three songs of your childhood

oh boy adri, i was an angsty kid. I also tried to keep this specifically to songs I listened to before the age of ten just bc in my head my childhood was pretty much from the ages 3 to ~9, and honestly corresponds to a very specific period in my life

Because of You by Kelly Clarkson

Pieces by Sum 41

Unwritten by Natasha Bedingfield

22. three songs you listen to when you’re sad

All We Do by Oh Wonder

All the King’s Horses by Karmina

SoLow by Keegan Calmes

(this selection was actually hard bc there are... a surprising amount tbh and that probably isnt a good thing lol)

23. three songs that never fail to get you pumped up

How Far We’ve Come by Matchbox Twenty

High on Humans by Oh Wonder

Shut Up and Dance by Walk the Moon (to the surprise of exactly no one. This song came out five years ago and it’s STILL my feel good song, even when i feel terrible)

(this was also a hard choice because i got so many feel good, pump me up songs as well, which i guess??? balances out the amount of sad songs i know and love??)

24. three favourite old songs

lmao how old are we talking here? early 2000s? before that? 1950s? i’ll just go with some goodies

Addicted to Love by Robert Palmer (OKAY SO. this is low-key an all-time favourite of mine and that i relate(d) to a LOT as the person he’s singing about.)

Africa by Toto (damn fucking right im putting it adri!!!)

For What It’s Worth by Buffalo Springfield

26. three favourite non-English songs

Alles Neu by Peter Fox (for once not a lyrics video, bc the official video is part of the Experience for this song)

The Narrow Street by Shin-Yong Woo (aka Jumin’s voice actor. This is simultaneously a huge mood, and gives me feels for my husband)

Little Traveler by clear (the only vocaloid song i know! im truly a sucker for The Little Prince though, the novel that inspired this song)

(be proud of me adri, this section could’ve been nothing but japanese songs, a good portion just from anime.)

29. three songs that influenced you most (some songs change or save lives)

im not gonna lie, a lot of these songs were kind of taken by the childhood ones but lemme see if i can scrounge up any others

In a Big Country by Big Country

Stand by Rascal Flatts

Better Get to Livin’ by Dolly Parton

(As you know, I listen to the first one A LOT, pretty much every time I get into sad mood and want some comfort, but the other two, i sort of forget about, even though i remember these songs being super important to me when i was younger. And re-listening to these now is... kind of crazy tbh, and bringing up all sorts of memories. I will say, perhaps i should give younger me more credit for how hard she was trying to heal and be a better person, just based on these songs lol)

30. three songs you really want your followers to know (for reasons other than all those above)

Lemme see, im gonna give you guys some songs that I internally categorize as late night songs. The songs that make you feel like you’re listening to it at 2 am on a Saturday night, and reality feels just a little bit shifted, and everything feels deeper, more meaningful

Sloppy Seconds by Watsky

Shrike by Hozier

Hurricane by Reuben and the Dark

Sunflower by Post Malone, Swae Lee

+Bonus. Three songs I can listen to, no matter what my mood

Muscle Memory (Acoustic) by Lights. No joke, even on days where i feel like any song is going to irritate the fuck out of me and im sick of listening to music and the emotions they evoke, i can listen to this and immediately feel better

It’s Alright by Mother Mother (legit whenever it shows up in my recommended i smash that mf play button no matter what. it’s like one of, if not the only, song that matches the screaming in my head.)

You’re Somebody Else by flora cash (same as the two above tbh)

[waltzing-marionettes]

Ten songs I’m obsessed with

tagged by dearest @yourfavouritedoll !! Thank you!

Here goes, in no particular order:

1. Candy Addict Full Course - Machigerita

Originally a vocaloid song, but i’m in love with this version, with a real human guy singing. This is my to-go theme song for my cannibal oc Nico!! It’s about cannibalism and obsessive love with some mild sexual undertones, so it’s obviously not everyone’s cup of tea, but personally i just love everything about it.

2. Death Wheel - Adrian von Ziegler

I LOVE this one. The mood here is simply gorgeous; refinement and darkness intertwined. i’ve used it as inspiration for a special part of the Augusta backstory, if you can guess which one??

3. Watashi to Hitotsu no Shinzou wo (Me and a single heart) - MASA

Like the first song, Masa is not for everyone, his music deals with extremely dark, potentially triggering subjects like prostitution and cannibalism, so be aware, and i don’t say this lightly. However, the music is catchy and often inspired by Japanese mythology and traditional instruments. This is one of his less explicit songs, about ghosts and possession and two sisters who may or may not love each other a little too much.

4. Extrait de Inanna - Armand Amar

One of my favourite instumental songs, wistful and haunting and with some real Godchild vibes to it. How i’d imagine sitting alone by a window a rainy night in Victorian London might feel like.

5. Skeletons on Parade - Ludo

This one is full of Delilah vibes, with the theme of defying god and bringing the dead back to life!! A catchy song with the style slowly changing trough-out and another one of my favs and i can see the delilah members dancing to this at their wild parties

6. Tsukihana - Nana Kitade

Opening song from an anime i used to watch in high school! I just love all the anger and heartbreak in her voice, it feels raw and real and goes perfectly together about not being able to let go of the lover who betrayed you. Main theme song for my ghost oc Yukiko.

7. Danse Macabre - Camille Saint-Saëns

A classical piece with some major victorian gothic vibes to it. i’d absolutely love to dance to it at a grand ball at least once in my life.

8. Schatzwalzer - Johann Strauss II

Even if i know i’d hated the realities of being a (bisexual, biracial, mentally ill) woman in the victorian era, this one makes me wanna time-travel back to the 19th century and sneak into a grand ball just for the experience of waltzing and falling in love!

9. Summer (Kikujiro) - Joe Hisaishi

Honestly i’d say anything from the soundtrack to the movie Kikujiro no Natsu, the music is so tender and heartwarming and it just gets me teary-eyed every single time. It sounds like one of your softest, fondest memories, and is actually made by the same man who made the music to several studio ghibli films. And just because i can, i’m gonna recommend another song by him from the same movie: ”The Rain.”

10. My Tamako, My Sookhee - Handmaiden OST.

This one gets to me every single time!!! i always get so emotional about that scene when Sookhee destroys the porn library of Hideko’s abuser to free her of him, before they finally run away together. This song is from just that moment. Gorgeous song from a gorgeous movie.

I tag: @sweetlittlevampire @vamp-prince-mikhael @gilasaurus @hong-ara @toni-qt @lithui @crowcrownprince and uhm just anyone who feels like doing this!! and as always, if i tagged you and you don’t want to for any reason, no pressure and feel free to skip this if you want!

[twotwinks]

HOW IS YOUR URL RELATED TO WARRIORS CATS PLEASE EXPLAIN

I KNEW YOU WERE GONNA ASK ME ABOUT THIS I DIDN’T KNOW YOU WERE GONNA SHAME ME FOR IT PUBLICLY

Okay… so… I loved Warrior Cats as a smol child. My best friend and I were so hooked, it was all we talked about, all we ever read, all we ever played pretend at. I had computer privileges at home and she didn’t, so when we found out there was a website I was sent to learn all about it and whatnot. I wasted an ungodly amount of hours playing the games and doing the activities and everything. My most important task, however, was determining our Warrior names from the name generator they had.

My Warrior name is Tanglepath.

Then I got into Vocaloid (yes, my url is also slightly related to Vocaloid, apparently I really am still stuck in middle school) and the whole fandom with that. That’s also about the time I started making online accounts, so I needed a go-to username. Tanglepath was usually my go-to nickname for stuff, but it was taken on most platforms, so what did I do? Tack a “mistress” on the front of it, because in Vocaloid fandom at the time, being Master or Mistress of ‘loids was a Big Deal.

My url up until very recently was actually mistresstanglepath. I’d long since gotten uncomfortable using “mistress” (too feminine, it gave my neutrois half the creepy crawlies, plus some creepy random guys messaged me on Skype a few times because of the word’s ~sexual connotations~) and had shortened it to “miss” on most sites. And I’d long since grown out of my Warrior Cats obsession, so referring to myself as Tanglepath no longer seemed right (and also a little cringey). And, really, the whole thing was just so long, I hated typing it out. So I cut it to just Tangle, and it still sounded right for me. Squish ‘em together, and you’ve got MissTangle (my username on most sites now, but it was taken on a few, so I used MissTanglepath because it was less objectionable). And then I decided that even MissTangle was too long (and I was also paranoid that one day someone would come at me for not being female but still using “miss”) so I asked to go by MT. Now I could never dream of going by anything else. I have nothing against my given name, by any means, but MT feels so much more comfortable and real to me and who I want to be that I’ve even caught myself referring to myself in the third person with it (like I do in my tags, but in my head and occasionally out loud).

But yeah, that’s how Warrior Cats helped produce my url! :3 mew

[neni-has-ascended]

My Adventures and Misadventures with “Nanase Futatabi” (Neni’s Advent Calendar - Day 1)

If you watch Anime, there’s a good chance you’ve watched or at least heard of a film called “The Girl Who Leapt Through Time”. There’s also a semi-decent chance that you’re at least somewhat aware that said movie was an indirect sequel to a 1967 Sci-Fi novel of the same name, written by one Yasutaka Tsutsui. However, what’s less likely (but still possible) is that you’ve actually read one of Tsutsui’s actual books before. And what’s highly unlikely is that you’ve read this specific book:

Virtually unknown in the west, in Japan Tsutsui’s most popular work isn’t actually the well-known “The Girl Who Leapt Through Time” (時をかける少女). Rather, it’s a short series of novels collectively called the “Nanase Triology”: 

Part 1: “ 家族八景-Kazoku Hakkei ” (”The beautiful sight of family”; officially translated as “What the Nurse Saw”) Part 2: “七瀬ふたたび - Nanase Futatabi” (”Nanase, One More Time”),   Part 3: “ エディプスの恋人 - Oedipus no Koibito” (”Oedipus Lovers”)

I have read none of them. The books are hard to get ahold of outside Japan, and I didn’t think to get them when I was actually in Japan (I’m kind of a moron like that.) Additionally, only “What the Nurse Saw” was ever officially translated, and though “Nanase Futatabi” has a Manga adaptation that can be found in English, that adaptation focuses on exactly the aspects of the story I am not interested in, but I’ll get to that. 

However, talking adaptations, the second book in the series has been adapted. A LOT. There is a 1979 NHK Television Drama aimed at younger audiences, a 1998 TV Drama for adults, yet ANOTHER TV Drama adaptation from 2008 and, finally, a feature film adaptation from 2010. 

Can you blame me for mixing them up!?

Long-time readers of the blog may be familiar with the fact that I’m a huge fan of Japanese vocalist and guitarist Yumi Uchimura and her now split-up band “school food punishment”One of their songs, “flashback trip syndrome”, was listed online as having been written for something called “Nanase Futatabi - The Psychic Wanderers”, which was enough to pique my interest. So I googled the name and read a summary. Apparently the thing was a story about people with psychic powers, featuring a telepathic woman as the lead.

Interest: Sustained. Problem: The thing doesn’t appear to be streamed anywhere, legally or otherwise, which makes it really hard for my self from 2010 to get her hands on it. Problem 2: it’s also Japanese life action, an artform I was thoroughly disinterested in back then, disillusioned by a couple of bad J-Dramas I had seen.

For the time being I put Nanase Futatabi aside, not thinking much of it.

Then, the year is 2017. I am working a repetitive office job that allows me to watch videos by the side, as long as I keep working swiftly as I do (which I do; in fact, I’m the fastest of those working on our current project, by a large margin). This has given me the chance to watch some things I’ve had lined up for a while but never had the chance to check out. After finishing a one-month marathon through the entirety of “House M.D.”, I finally decide “Oh right, there was that Nanase Futatabi thing. Let’s give that a try.”

And off I went.

Telepaths, and Clairvoyants, and Timetravelers, oh my!

I  watched the 2008 J-Drama, purely because it was the first thing that came on when I searched for the title. Later I’d learn that the SFP song that got me to watch the show in the first place was actually from the 2010 movie. Oops. Except not oops, because I don’t regret a thing. I was hooked. The show was incredible, far beyond what I’d expected from a J-Drama. Even despite the obviously low budget, it sold me on everything on screen. It was well-written, well-acted, with interesting, lovable characters and an intriguing plot that just kept thickening and thickening until the eventual climax in Episode 10. And then I cried. A lot. I had to take a coffee break there as to not arouse the suspicion of my co-workers. Then I went back to work and felt empty, because there was no more Nanase Futatabi to watch. 

I needed more of this. Like burning. 

So I went back and checked out the 2010 movie. 

It was... interesting...? ...Not what I... expected? ....Disappointing? ...It actually made me feel sad that this was the movie that SFP’s music went to. I constantly found myself thinking that ‘flashback trip syndrome’ would have been much better suited as an opening theme for the 2008 TV version (which, incidentally, doesn’t have an intro sequence at all, safe for a quick flash of the title in each episode). In fact, the 2010 film kind of murdered that awesome song for me, but I’ll get to that. 

Let’s finally get to explain what Nanase Futatabi is even about, shall we? I’ll quickly sum up everything that all versions I’ve researched have in common. Please keep in mind that I only know the original novel from synopses I found on the blogs of Japanese people who read it, so my information is second hand and may be inaccurate. 

The Plot

Nanase Hita is a young woman working at an old people’s home, who secretly has the ability to hear people’s thoughts in her head. This power often overwhelms her, since it makes her privy to the most disgusting thoughts of the people she works with. Eventually Nanase quits her job and goes traveling. On the train, she meets a young boy, Norio, who has the same power as her, and has a telepathic conversation with her. When Nanase reads the mind of another young man on the train, Tsuneo Iwabuchi, she realizes that Tsuneo is seeing visions of the train they are in being crashed by rocks after the next station. She realizes he is a clairvoyant and Nanase escapes the train together with Norio and Tsuneo, unable to convince any of the other passengers to leave. Nanase, Norio and Tsuneo decide to travel together. Eventually, they meet Henry, a bartender, who turns out to have the power of telekinesis, and Fujiko Sunadori, a woman with the power to jump back through time (as you can see, author Tsutsui has his favorite plot devies...) The group eventually ends up on the run from an organization trying to catch them because of their powers. There is also a young woman Nanase befriends called Ruri Mayumi (If you have trouble pronouncing her name, just call her “Lapis” - her name literally means “Lapis Lazuli”) who cheers Nanase up in her stressed life, but also ends up in grave danger because of her association to Nanase. 

This... is where things get fuzzy. Where the story goes from here is VASTLY different in all the three versions of the story I know anything about. As far as I can tell, the 2010 movie is closer to the book than the the 2008 TV Drama, but also not completely accurate. I also don’t know how the book ends, but I sure hope it isn’t the same as the 2010 movie’s ending, because that one was terrible. It made me sad, but not in a good way like the 2008 movie did. More in a “You really wasted one of my favorite SFP songs and some perfectly good concepts and characters for THIS?” way.

The better “Nanase”

To explain why I loved the 2008 version so much, while hating the 2010 version with the fire of one hundred burning suns, let’s start at the essentials, namely the protagonist:

2008 Nanase is a complex, interesting, sweet young woman, who truly wishes for the best of those around her, but can also be driven to acts of violence in bad situations. She always fears that she might end up abusing her powers, just as her enemies claim she will, but she maintains a strong will and stays true to her ideals.

2010 Nanase is a manipulative douche with the emotional range of a Version 1.0 Vocaloid, whose concern for Ruri’s well-being comes completely out of nowhere, who psychically stalks and invades the privacy of a guy who clearly isn’t interested in her, who orders her friends to murder people in cold blood left and right and has an unhealthy obsession with a 7 years old boy. Also, we’re clearly supposed to think she’s “sexy” just because she’s being played by Sei Ashina. Personality, what’s that? I can dramatically glance over my shoulder, woooo!

I don’t know which of these two Nanases is closer to the book, but I can’t at all imagine the 2010 one is accurate. You don’t get a bestselling Sci-Fi novel by writing an emotionless robot who orders a black guy to make people’s heads explode. Then again, maybe I underestimate people’s love for gore.

In the 2008 version, Nanase is a lot more relateable, a lot of which is thanks to the fact that (unlike in the book) this Nanase has forgotten about and been blocking out her powers ever since she was a little girl and lived a perfectly normal life, until the trauma of the death of her mother stirs her powers back awake. They also added a subplot about her father, which definitely wasn’t in the book, but I don’t care, because it’s handled so well, especially in relaying Nanase’s need to reconnect to that part of her past. A lot of the show is about Nanase learning to deal with and control her powers, so she isn’t constantly bombarded with people’s negative emotions left and right, and you really do feel her struggle. Norio - who, in this version is called “Akira” for some reason - actually ends up acting as a mentor figure for her in that regard, a role he definitely doesn’t have in the book, but it suits him and adds a dimension to his character. It allows you to understand just how much that little boy has already been through at his age, just because of his powers.

Generally, Akira/Norio is a far more interesting character in the 2008 version. He’s cheeky, clever, has a bit of an attitude and clearly has a way of knowing just what to say to people to get what he wants. The movie version, on the other hand is... a pretty bland male Ingenue. The whole movie, he never raises his voice above a timid whisper, doesn’t do anything that can be described with any adjective other than “d’awwww” and ultimately only serves the plot by being kidnapped. I felt second-hand embarrassment when I thought about what 2008 Akira would say about that version of Norio. 

Then there’s Tsuneo, who somehow can’t seem to keep his name in any two adaptations. Poor guy. In the 2008 version, his name is “Kousuke”, while in the 2010 version, he’s called “Ryoo”. 2008 Kousuke is a young man who has been struggling with the consequences of his ability to see disasters in the near future but being unable to prevent them all his life, and it’s effectively destroyed his self-esteem. He’s essentially a modern day Cassandra: Cursed to see all misfortune before it occurs, while being unable to avert it, no matter how he tries. This actually gets him mistaken for a serial killer for a while during the show. Nanase and Kousuke share a lot of screen time and, though the focus is never on it, a bit of a romance does eventually develop between them, but it’s not distracting.

2010 Ryo, on the other hand, is a satellite love interest for Nanase, who doesn’t do much other than getting stalked by her and shot by faceless stormtroopers. We’re told that Nanase and him have some sort of chemistry, but we never actually see any of that on screen. Thanks. Next.

And then there’s Henry. OOOOOHHH, Henry. In the 2008 version, he’s my favorite character, hands down. the moment he stepped on screen, I was charmed by his energy, optimism, slight clumsiness...Awww, look at him, he’s so adorabru I just wanna hug him, with his big, hopeful eyes and his puppy-crush on Nanase and how proud he’s of his powers, d’awww!!  If you took Goofy’s characterization from Kingdom Hearts and put it in a good-looking Japanese young man, that’s Henry from the 2008 version--- Except... ehhh. there’s, umm... a bit of an... ahhhhhhhh... Gah, I can’t avoid it, okay, okay! I’ll say it. There’s a problem here. And it hurts, because this is my favorite character, but it’s kind of a big one. 

Henry is supposed to be black. That’s why his name is Henry. He’s American. It’s kind of a big part of his character in the book, from what I can tell; his boundless optimism regarding his powers is supposed to come from the fact, that he’s been an outcast right from his birth in America anyway, so having powers now actually makes him happy, because it gives him the chance to do something, help someone, be more than just an outcast victim of racism! In fact, two of the book’s adaptations even got this right, casting actual black actors in the role of Henry, but this is not one of them, which, okay, I guess happens when you’re on a budget in Japan and can’t fly in any black actors from America or something, but then, why keep his name as ‘Henry’? It stands out like a sore thumb, especially because almost everyone else’s names were changed! Was the character so iconic that you just couldn’t bring yourself to change his name? Then why’d you make him Japanese!? I mean, the actor portraying him is great, one of the best on the show, and I wanna hug him, but... The character... is supposed to be............Uhhhh, my head...

But, hey! Guess what?

The 2010 version managed to cast a black actor as Henry! Maybe this is gonna be the one to finally elevate this version about the quality of the 2008!! I mean, who could possibly portray the boundless optimism and loyalty of Henry better than...

... The guy who did gimmicky commercials in intentionally badly accented Japanese for Diet Coke and a phone-service provider SoftBank back in 2006, and basically nothing else. 

I’m out.

No, seriously, this was the best they could get? No offense to the actor, I’m sure he’s a nice guy and all, but he was clearly not right for this role! He barely ever actually emotes (the photo above is more of a smile than he ever cracks in the entire movie, even in scenes when he’s laughing), his speech sounds far more robotic than is reasonable even for a non-native speaker (especially one who’s been living in Japan for years by that point), and he also clearly either received no direction or couldn’t work well with the direction he got, because I don’t buy a single thing he says or does in the movie. He’s less actor and more mannequin pretending to be human being. Come on, guy! There have to be some black people who can act well in Japanese in your range and price-class! At least try to cast someone who isn’t going to turn one of the emotional pillars of your movie into a constant source of awkward laughter from the audience!

At this point, we’re left with Fujiko, who keeps her name in both adaptations and is actually one of the the most fascinating characters in both, the 2008 series and the 2010 film (though, for the later, that’s not saying much.) In the 2008 version, Fujiko is a scientist who used to work with Nanase’s father and develops the ability to time jump by accident. Her driving motivation is her curiosity and need to explore the others and her own powers and figure out their limits, their nature, their origins and so much more. Whenever she’s on screen, she’s asking questions, trying to learn and trying to reconcile her need to know with ethical questions all around her. She’s quite likable.

2010 Fujiko’s occupation is never disclosed, but she’s clearly not a scientist. Her worries revolve mostly of her being unsure if her power is truely time-jumping or actually just dimension-jumping. Basically, she’s afraid that every time she uses her powers she’s basically just pulling a Rick and Morty on the world and leaving the timeline she came from to terribly descend into misery, while she herself escapes to a better one with the passengers of her jump. This causes her to have serious reservations against using her powers, a limitation that is direly needed, since Fujiko’s power to undo anything ever is an obvious game-breaker. This, too, was handled better in the 2008 version: 2008 Fujiko can only travel back a maximum of 20 minutes into the past and overusing her powers will physically exhaust her similarly to Max from “Life is Strange”. This keeps Fujiko’s powers from breaking the plot of the series, while in the 2010 movie, a lack of a limitation of that sort is what ends up causing an ending so groan-worthy, it made me roll my eyes so hard, I swear they almost got stuck there.

Finally, there’s Ruri and Ruri is perfect.

That’s all you need to know. 

Ruri’s backstory is changed a lot in the 2008 version: Unlike the book (and the 2010 movie), where she’s a gambler Nanase befriends in a casino, 2008 Ruri has been Nanase’s best friend since childhood, who works in a beauty salon and acts as her room mate for a large part of the story. Aside from that, the character’s personality remains unchanged: She’s energetic, confident, in-touch with her sexuality, loves to chat and joke and knows how to defend herself and others if necessary.  Saddly, 2010 Ruri doesn’t get much screen time, but the actress playing her nailed the character just as well as 2008 Ruri did, so that’s something (from as far as I can tell; again, didn’t read the book.) Also, while I absolutely adore 2008 Ruri, she saddly gets points deducted for holding the idiot ball pretty tightly late into the series, for no other reason than the plot needing to drive Nanase off the despair horizon and Ruri being too much of a positive influence in her life. Oh well. I still adore her for all the 8 episodes she didn’t act like a moron. If only they’d redeemed her again after her screw up in Episode 9, but the show never really gets around to that... *sigh*

Ruri may seem like a side-character, but her presence is crucial to Nanase’s character. She’s like an anchor maintaining Nanase’s footing in reality and without her, Nanase is quite lost. In the 2008 version especially. Again, in 2010 they tried to go for a similar vibe, but since Ruri effectively leaves the movie after 20 minutes or so, the effect is dampened, which may be part of the reason 2010 Nanase is so much less relatable. Then again, Ruri was too good for her anyway. 

Finally, the greatest sin the 2010 movie commits: The murder of good music.

Remember the song I mentioned? ‘flashback trip syndrome’? Well, the movie uses it. Constantly. I swear, it’s like, the ONLY melody the flick has. It plays all the time, arranged in, like 20 different ways, over every single scene, always... I love the song, and I swear, by the end of the flick, I was SICK of this melody. That’s a crime. A crime I tell you. Especially when you consider that the 2008 version had such a fascinatingly catchy, diverse and haunting OST. I take that any day over two dozen remixes of the same (admittedly great) song. 

Generally, the 2010 movie simply doesn’t have the time to tell any sort of great, interesting story. It’s people appear, get in mishaps, action scenes, end. In the 2008 show, there’s an arc, a mystery. The constant question about what’s “natural” and what “isn’t”, questions about ethics and human curiosity, and whether people who have the ability to manipulate what is most important to other people are allowed to freely use those abilities or have a responsibility to suppress them. Meanwhile, 2010 gives us... Time Travel shenanigans. Yaaaaaay....

As you can tell, I have feeling about this story. Many feelings. And all that after just watching two adaptations and without knowing the source material. Which brings me to my big point.

I wanna read the book.

I just want to know if Tsutsui’s Nanase is as great as the 2008 adaptation leads me to believe or as dull as the 2010 movie would suggest, or somewhere in-between. It’s so frustrating, comparing two versions to each other that are both derived from something else. I WANT to read the original, but as long as I can’t get it delivered straight from Japan without exorbitant shipping fees, my hands are tied.

My venture into Nanase Futatabi is an experience for me. I’ve always been firmly lodged within the games and anime space when it came to Japanese media, and my ventures into literature and live action TV were always quite occasional and rarely lasting. Nanase Futatabi gave me a taste for more. I wanna read Yasutaka Tsutsui Sci-Fi, and I wanna watch more live action Japanese media. I just wanna expand my horizon a bit more. And maybe, one day I’ll even find a way to show 2008 Nanase Futatabi to my siblings with functioning subs, because the ones I found were terrible and I had to quickly switch to Raws.

 Hey. I can dream.

[lavender-buck]

I got tagged by @sweet-armin to post 10 facts about me! Yaaaayyy~

1. I have an SNK and a Vocaloid poster in my room, the SNK one has the chibi Shiganshina trio staring over my bed.

2. My first anime obsessions were Hetalia and Vocaloid, if you don’t count Pokemon or the PokeSpe mangas.

3. I’m very much an aquarium hobbyist and I only own a betta at the moment (His name is Leviathan, Levi for short), but I’ve had everything from crayfish to catfish, and neocaridina shrimp are my favorite aquatic animals to have. 

4. I can’t sleep at night without my dog, I get intense nonsensical or horror dreams and wake up physically ill. He has to be in the room with me, and I genuinely don’t know why.

5. I have a stuffed rabbit who was named Velvetina, but as I realized I was trans she somehow stopped feeling like a girl too and it seemed... Uncomfortable, which is something that’s never happened. His name is now Velvetine (Vel-vet-tine, not vel-vet-teen). So technically I have a transgender stuffed animal. I’ve had him since I was super little, I don’t remember even getting him! 

6. I have 3 older brothers, 2 of which I’ve never met, and 1 who I used to be super close with until he moved out.

7. I used to be super super into Warriors, and it was what got me onto the internet and making OCs. Yes, the cats in clans, that Warriors.

8. I saw Armin Arlert first when the anime came out and watched SNK merely because I thought he was cute. He’s been one of my special interests since, and at one point he was my only special interest (Autism-wise special interest, to be clear). I’ve never related to a character or loved a character more in my entire life. I’ve never felt the emotions of a fictional person so deeply as part of myself, nor have they ever been so relevant to me.

9. I love Care Bears and my favorites are Wish Bear and Tenderheart Bear and Nobleheart Horse! 

10. My favorite Pokemon by far is Hypno and it makes me sad how much he’s hated and seen as ugly... (HIS NOSE IS BIG BECAUSE HE’S A TAPIR YOU FOOLS, NOT A CREEPY OLD MAN. MORE SPECIFICALLY HE’S BASED OFF OF A TAPIR SPIRIT CALLED A BAKU SO BE QUIET HE’S A BIG YELLOW FRIEND)

I taaaaaggggg @stardust-moth, @stupid-things-and-armin-arlert, @shylittlenerd aaaand @raychus? Only if you guys want to, nobody has to so don’t feel bad if you don’t wanna. <3 If anybody else wants to do this they can and just say I tagged you!