#i hate thid so much
Explore tagged Tumblr posts
Visit Tumblr Blog
Explore Tumblr blogs with no restrictions, modern design and the best experience.
Last Seen Tumblr Blogs
Fun Fact
Tumblr has 4 main sources of revenue.
Text
Hiiiii 😍😍😍
Theyre my boos btw. Cannot get them out of my head
#fight club#tyler durden#the narrator#soapshipping#fight club 1999#sighhhhh ugly bathroom lighting#talking about lighting i hate it in thid i have so much to learn#BUT I DONT WANT TOOO RNAJDHWHCIHWDBVIJWFB OJWFV
46 notes
·
View notes
Note
Noelle Holiday? (Yes this is a bingo request that I guess is a semi-sequel to the previous one for Susie)
thgey call her noelle holiday the way she. brightens up. your day
#deltarune#rambles#ask game#OK CONTINUED!!! APOLOGIES I WAS AT SCHOOL FOR MOST OF THE DAY#(note: i am in high school i am a teenager nightmare nightmare nightmare)#explanations for some of these: i bingoed the “some ppl are weird abt them” one#primarily because i am referring to the spamton sweepstakes thing: when ppl were hating noelle#for that one “holidaygirl1225” post where she watched susie bully kris#i think the entire exchange is incredibly interesting. cuz from noelles perspective the girl she likes is bullying her childhood friend#& i think people need to remember that like. noelle is a child#i wish i could properly articulate thid#augh. it just bothers me ? aaahhh??? im struggling my words are failing#i really like noelle regardles like hooly fart shes so interesting. i love her i lauv her#silly girl. noelle having q blog is so funny. i love that she types like that#in all fairness i Live On Tumblr so im not entirely sure how much of the dr fandom is weird abt her but i remember seeing it when#spamton sweepstakes first came out#i am sorry i cant properly explain why i feel that way i hope u understand somewhat at least *snigfle*
9 notes
·
View notes
Text
Apparently I have been more than a little sleepy lately as I just slept for 14 hours...
Good afternoon everyone?
#luka posting#i guess? but honestly yeah mod just slept that much#ive been so tired lately idk#i want a break from school to do stuff i want and then on the weekend i just sleep the day away i hate thid#this#uhm
7 notes
·
View notes
Text
LET ME LOOK AT THE LYRICS PLEASE
2 notes
·
View notes
Text
Being alive is hell and I wish to everyone that's happy out there to explode, I hate all those happy people on my timeline or in my daily life
#i hate this#i hate#i can't I hqtr thid so much#hellheelheel#heel hell#hellllllllll#fuck fuck fuck#HELL
9 notes
·
View notes
Text
So my life is feeling like its on an upward swing since this is my final semester for my associates, I'm starting a new job real soon and also possibly have a really nice remote job if I hear back from a few places I recently applied to.
And it always terrifies me when good stuff starts happening.
Change is really hard for me especially when it feels like its all at once. With better pay comes the opportunity to leave my parent's house finally and move in with a girl who has lovingly stolen my heart. With my school behind me I can find better jobs even!
But at the same time, its just. So scary for me. What if I can't keep up my part of rent. What if my chronic pain or ADHD or other disabilities put a strain on someone I love to my core, and I end up making things worse because I get extremely emotional and will scream (at myself mostly) and panic during these high stress times (especially if money is involved)
I've had a 'safety net' of family members who barely tolerate the fake me I present myself as, and I know my mental health is going to be so much better when I'm not around them, but at the same time I need so much help sometimes. Family just happens to help in terms of shelter and food. It also doesn't help that the one other time I moved out it ended so so poorly that I'm still working through that trauma.
Hurting the love of my life in any way fucking terrifies me. I want nothing but the best for her always always always. I just know I can't always be at my best, its impossible to be. I will break at some point and probably scream and cry about how things aren't going nearly to plan and I'm so weak so often I don't know if I can pull myself together fast enough to not hurt myself or her with my untrue words.
#I used to have (What I'm pretty sure now were autism) meltdowns so bad when I was younger.#I was always told I was selfish and that I can't expect to have x thing or y thing fixed#And I would scream and slam my hands against my legs and the ground#Its never been pretty#I just learned to cry before it gets to that point now and I just sob so fucking much#But if it feels like my life is over? I just. I just can't. I'll still scream and cry and pulp my legs bruised and hands bleeding#And showing my wife all of me includes all of these things I hate. This could happen if I move in with her#I haven't had a meltdown in a while from what I remember#It was probably right after I moved back in with my parents. And was pretty much coerced into an environment I felt extremely unsafe in.#tw self harm#jic cause I have mentioned beating myself#I haven't been close to a meltdown around my love at all tbh so maybe I'm scared for no reason. I mostly just cry because#Thats what happens when any emotion runs high#<- Girl who is currently crying typing all thid#also I hope no one reads hurting her as physically. I've never thrown a punch in my life. Well. I guess except at myself#Huh thats the first time I've thought of it that way. That sucks#I just know that 1. Being loud in general would not be nice to either of us. and 2. I can be a bitch! I can say some rancid shit!#And that would! Be fucking bad and hurt! And I so desperately don't want that#And I know accidentally hurting someone is something you need to expect when you're in a close relationship with someone#It still fucking sucks though#AUGH I just needed to type this all out I'n feeling better already. I'm just a scared girl so often.#I want to live more and more each day so I know I'll make it. Even if I do it scared. I guess I hope you see this honey#Since this is stuff I should be talking about with you#Getting my thoughts sorted though before talking is good though. The reason I type this on fucking tumblr is because it helps me think#Also being vulnerable and letting friends and mutuals and the like see all this is a chance for me to better myself I suppose#This has been a runa rant#runa diary#I have a habit of overthinking. Methinks#Honestly my current safety net of family has been pretty fucking bad#The one time I earned a little bit more money than I needed for bills I was basically stripped of a lot of it paying my folks rent
3 notes
·
View notes
Text
Chat why are there so many January b-days in my family ;-;
(I’ve been busy non stop and It’s ib ia season im dying 😭😭😭)
0 notes
Text
i am okay tho i just have momeys sometimrs . please do not ever worry abt me guys
#i rly rly rly appreciate any asks u guys send me truly i usually hold onto then bc i dont know how to respond and rheyre good to see#sometimes#but im not in any danger i rly am. safe. i have a lot of things keeping me from doing That so. i am safe. dw.#i just get sad a lot. and its my fault i need 2 judt stop it and suck it uo and Work on it all but its so. insurmountable. and it judt#doesnt get easier yk. it never does. whatsver.#but. anyways i am safe i am okif it got to the point i was like. fearful for my life thatd either be The delusion (which is actually good#for me i cant explain it but its good for me) or i coulf talk to my family abt it and theyd help#i just cant talk to them abt This. stuff. the like. the being broken stuff and just not being right#i cant talk to any of them abt that. but if i said hey im genuinely faarful i miggjt do something they would um. help. so its okay#idk. i hope the posts dont seem like i make them for pity i rly dont this blog is just my stream of consciousness#ik i just shouldnt post them and i should judtkeeo a diary but i dont um. how to explain thid#even if nobody sees it it feels better to make a tumblr post bc then it feels like. a performance i guess. its not its real but its like#if i put it somewhere other ppl can see it then that means i exist. thats not quite right but i dont know how to articulate like#i dont nexessarily want ppl to see them i find it embarassing i guess. but it feels dishonest to not post them#since i post everything else. bc i like being open online it makes me think im real. does that make sense#and there are timestamps so i know when things happen. thsts modtly how i remember things#is looking at my blog and checking dates and timestamps. and for older stuff i have to check my dms with ykw. which. is not good for.me at#all. but ihave no other way to remember dayes#i dont know. im rly sry i hate podting vents but i dont like deleting posts eithrr so j dont know oike. idk.#just idk know they arent like. They are serious they are how i feel and i usually make them ehen im in distress#but its not dangerous distress i judt get hopeless. yk? i dont wanr anybody to worry abt me ever im not supposed to be a burden#i dont knoe. i havent articulated anything well. basicallt i dont do rhem for attention i dont do them for like. guilttripping or pity#i dont rly do them for any reason other than irs pure word vomit. i suppose. and tumblr is my wordvomit website. i judt get on here and yap#and it makes me feel so much worse but i get better eventually so its fine.
0 notes
Text
Tummy hurts OUGH
#fitz's cursed thoughts#I think my food didn't digest last night#now I have Bad disease™️#I hate thid so much </3
0 notes
Text
Fuck JK Rowling so much I want to talk about William Afton and Voldemort in the ways their fear of death drives them to horrendous immortality
#i hate her so much for ruining the media of it all#sorry im like drunk#might delete thids#yhid#this#fuck
0 notes
Text
.
#ignore like usual thank you#i am so tired i am so tired#i am fer from okay#like multiple reasons why i hate asking people to hang out its not even hate im scared to ask people to hang for many reasons#of being boring or being ditched like i get it just tell me youre not having fun i just leave or switch the game if i dont mind#or im scared of showing a show or movie i talk about it so much hopes it interest the person in wanting to see it so they ask if they dont#than thats fine same with video games#and like “what about people close to you” shocker its fhe same#i wait till my best friend to ask me that they want to watch me play the game im playing or to.hanh and play mc#im just tired of feeling unwanted and im tired of feeling unwanted even though ik im wanted its aggrevating its confusinh#i just wish i wasnt me or i wssnt boring idk#csnt wait for next year to get help i just hope i make it#i also hate when im dtresming s game and people lesve to go watch s show it hurts A lot#if you want to go do something else why did you even ask me felt bad???#why ask me hang on my birthday when all i eanted was the day to feel special since lsst two months been fucking awful#and i was too scared to ask those that are close to hang out but i gave yall a chance snd yall fucking ditched me in call no goodbye#or anything i didnt even hear the notif#it hurts so much#and why you have to kill youself ehy ehy thid sucks this sucks so much i hate these feelings#my heart hurts so much
0 notes
Text
..oh! .... good mika mornyy..
#the dream i had...??????? is embarrassin 2 even talk ab#was at school but the teacher was our prof? i was like much younger but then it suddenly changed n i was at uni but the prof was...#i cant say who but. man. & i had da biggest crush on dat person suddenly. thid id so. buries my face in habds#i hate wjen these happen its lik a confirmation of. watever im afraid of#likr nooooo pleas stawp gettin crushes on ppl the moment they show ya da tiniest bit of affection. bye.#anyway it also had unsettlin gore again but then it changed scenes n everythin was ok again. strange#but yea.#mika caws
0 notes
Text
I might have to quit this job soon as well :( RIP any chances of me having any savings by the time I get another job.
#my post#vent#they have been really mean to me like constantly#the managers#no ones been training me up well#i take time to get the hang of things but they refuse yo ecen let me stay at one station#the one thing i know i can do well if im trained on it is boards#but since im perceived as a girl they keep putting me front of house#i hate thid job so much#a three hour shift feels like a herculean task#it is also very sisyphean or would be if i had a nice glade to live in as an alternative#but nooooo#anyway im gonna need to get another job soon#fun times /sarcasm#also they rostered me outside my regular availability today as well so thats fun#i get to lose sleep because of work as well
0 notes
Text
so the bluetooth projector we have.... no longer connects to my devices. why? Who fucking knows. they worked fine when we bought it.
so, since it has an HDMI port on it, i figured GREAT. GOOD OLD FASHIONED PORTS, I'LL JUST USE THAT. and my phone? works fine. i bought an HDMI to USB-C adapter, which is ANNOYING that i cant just comment it to the USB port and have it work, but whatever. HDMI works on my phone.
plug in my tablet? doesn't fucking work. all the streaming settings are on, USB debugging is on, it just wont fucking stream the screen. so. with all our devices:
my wife's laptop? ✅️
MY laptop? ❌️
my phone? ✅️
my wife's phone? ❌️
my tablet? ❌️
we both have samsung galaxy phones that otherwise HDMI mirror other devices perfectly. we both have fairly new laptops that otherwise HDMI mirror perfectly. my tablet is 2 years old and even has the fucking smart-view feature that the projector connects to, by name, for bluetooth connections. yet neither that NOR regular fucking HDMI work on the tablet.
technology is a fucking nightmare. im going back to my goddamn RCA mp3 player and walkman headphones
#BLOGGING LOUDLY#i hate this i hate this i ahte thid we biy so much SHIT AND IT DOESNR EVEN FUCKING WORK
1 note
·
View note
Text
leave tumblr rn/j
can gumball waterson beat them all?
i did this back in 2021 and i hate it
26 notes
·
View notes
Text
TFA megasound erasure hurts me so much. WHAT DO YOU MEAN HIS HUSBAND IS NOW HIS KID?! Wtf make the cousins at thid point if you don't like gay marriage so much. (Not hating on tfa Soundwave he's sweet and not as ooc as i expected). Anyway here's a small comic that was stuck in my head after the reveal
Starscream would not get away with his shit if Soundwave was around. Autobots also probably wouldn't survive but thats other thing
+bonus mendatory Breakdown
#transformers#megasound#transformers breakdown#tfa#tfa megatron#transformers megatron#how did decepticons survive?#like realistically#Strika must be a real bad bitch to control all that shit#btw i started season 2 and Jazz looks so fucking cool! Dudes majestic#my megasound heart#the lore and the size diffrence that could have been#i noticed that tfa Megashock is basically less accomodated Megasound based on fics#trought im not sure how to feel about that
59 notes
·
View notes