#i hate sounding like i'm talking myself up tho LMAO

[satoruxx]

🌼 + 🦋 for your ask game :3

hi nonnie !! i hope your day is going well hehe :33

🌼: what's the last thing you said out loud?

i quite literally just yelled at my brother for leaving the bathroom light on...

🦋: describe yourself in three words.

oh shit bro i'm so bad at these. uhhhh creative, dependable, conscious? all of my hobbies are literally creative outlets. my friends say i'm very dependable bc i'm a good listener and give solid advice. and yes i'm introverted and very conscious about myself and things around me, which usually makes me feel pretty worried about what other people think lmao

ask game

[heirloommtomatoes]

me when i was a cis lesbian saying that people who are bisexual and nonbinary are probably the pinnacle of human existence 🤝 me now being bisexual and nonbinary

[walpu]

when ur done with the main story i'd love to hear your thoughts on it! (I'm only half way done rn tho ....)

Hi!!

So. I've just finished the quest. Hoyo got me good ngl. Sorry if it's bit messy I'm still in shambles

Spoilers for v.21 bellow!!!

So happy Aven is alive like literally so relieved. I was so anxious about it I started worrying I won't be able to work tomorrow if something happens to him lmao.

I was very happy that the way I characterize Aven in my head played out in the game but at the same time I was low-key devastated.

It was nice to see that he can be playful and a bit silly, like when he and Ratio were solving puzzles and getting on each other's nerves. It was also nice to see that his masks slips easier and more often than I thought. Honestly everything about him is just so peak fiction like he's cunning and low-key manipulative but he's also very sentimental, he says the end justifies the meaning and says that betrayal is a tool he can use but he actually refuses to sacrifice others and says that he considers it to be a dirty game. Like he's soooooooooo

Also "future" Aventurine. Evil shadow self lmao. He was fascinating because on one hand he low-key represents Aventurine's mask. However he also represents the pent up negative emotions and thoughts he has towards himself. Which is cool because I mean who knows what hides underneath the mask better than the mask itself.

I'm happy he started his journey to self acceptance thought. Like to be honest I'm very satisfied with the way his arc was written. Hated to see him in pain but it's cool they gave him the space to be broken and vulnerable in front of the player, addressed his past and how it affects him.

Topaz was surprisingly nice when talking about him I thought she can't stand his ass. She did sound sad when talking about him "dying" so I presume she DOES care. And so does Ratio!!!!! I hope hoyo will explore Aven's relationships with them and his arc will lead to him realizing that there are people who care about him regardless of his status.

Outside of Aven's arc. I like the way Sunday was written. We didn't spend much time with him but I feel like they did the most out of it like you can see what kind of person he is. Obviously there's more to learn but still. That being said, I can't stand his ass 😭 He gave me the ick during his scene with Sparkle and after 2.1 I don't think I'll find it in myself to ever like him but we'll see, after all I was sure I won't like Aven since he works for the IPC but here we are.

And about the final twist. Yeah. Didn't see tgat coming and thanks god I didn't spoil it for myself. That being said, I don't think Gallagher would actually kill someone, so I think the angelic siblings will be fine.

Also. Aven's boss form is sexy af I was staring at him and his little slutty waist when Luocha decided to intervene with his "what is it we're waiting for? 🙄🙄🙄" Like??? Boy be quite??????

[dougiejack]

get to know me

Tagged by @butchmarner ♥️♥️

Do you make your bed?

lmao no. never have, probably never will. Not with any kind of regularity.

Favourite number?

When I was like 15 I decided I needed to assign myself a favorite number and also that it could NOT be anyone else's favorite number and the one I landed on is 13,306.

What's your job?

I'm a chef. I used to be a restaurant chef, now I am a corporate chef (which means I get to work normal person hours and have a life)

If you could go back to school, would you?

yes and no, I would like to get a "real" degree so I could theoretically get a desk job at some point in the future when my body quits on me, but the idea of actually doing school again sounds terrible.

Can you parallel park?

I can but I rarely do, I am a "back into the spot" ass bitch tho.

Do you think aliens are real?

I think they exist in the sense that there must be another planet with life somewhere in the universe, I don't believe they are here

Can you drive a manual car?

No but one time I had a dream that I could that was so realistic that my friend was willing to let me try it in her car just to see if I could.

Guilty pleasure?

I actively try not to experience guilt over that which brings me pleasure.

Tattoos?

I have a few, they don't go together or look good lmao. I like it that way.

Favourite colour?

Purple

Favourite type of music?

Late 90s alt-rock and early 2000s emo

Do you like puzzles?

I love puzzles

Any phobias?

spiders, vomit, large dogs

Favourite childhood sport?

I hated sports as a kid. hated playing them, hated watching them.

Do you talk to yourself?

All the damn time

Tea or coffee?

Coffee, but I have to put so much nonsense in it to make it not taste like coffee that I might as well just drink soda lmao.

First thing you wanted to be when growing up?

I think I wanted to be a singer/actor? Not to psychoanalyze tiny Eliot but basically the only time I would get a positive reaction from people was by making them laugh or entertaining them in some way, so it was always my dream to entertain professionally.

What movies do you adore?

Titanic, Star Trek 2, 3, 4, 9, and 11 (I think the pine-verse is 9 through 11 but I might be misremembering), idk I can't think of movies which is insane because they used to be my whole life (ask me about working at blockbuster it was the best time of my life)

Thanks so much for tagging me! I'm gonna tag @devilssacrament @hischiersjohnston @hischierlovebot @mikathemad @dartducks @imperatorrrrr @hockey-stressed

[stabbyfoxandrew]

It's all good! I never expected to get a quick answer, as I sent so many questions and kind of knew you'd probably have to think about some of them. I was going to comment directly on the post, but character limit caught me, ugh.

I don't know why but I can imagine most angels kind of being a bit bitchy, so I totally understand Neil! I'd probably do the same lol I hope Andrew at some point just starts buying clothes for Neil, like Andrew one day just shows up with one bag in hand and just gives it to him, no justification whatsoever. But… if it's the clothes Neil died in, do they have blood? Or did they get magically cleaned? How physical is he when he's walking around invisible? Does he have to constantly dodge people when walking around? (That sounds so fucking annoying, I constantly have to do that myself) If somebody spilled sauce in whatever place he's supposed to be currently occupying, would he end up full of sauce? Do his clothes ever get dirty? I'm just envisioning him walking to a laundromat to put them to wash, and just hanging out invisible and shirtless while he's waiting for it to be done.

I'm dying to know what Incident you're talking about! I'm like "feeed me moreeee".

Aaahh, was the part "Unless there are any other semi-invisible people in it." in the last wip post a reference to Kevin's guardian angel?? Is it someone we know? Also also, is there somebody extra in the team (since they couldn't recruit Neil)?

I'm glad to help! I'm glad I can contribute a bit to the story, it makes me happy. I definitely get the blurry weeks too, even months tbh. I haven't been much better, but I'm alright. The best I can possibly be atm. Unfortunately I'm not familiar with Webkinz, I didn't play that many games as a child. I had a Nintendo DS, tho. I miss my Super Mario Bros :') Anyway, just try to take one day at a time, you know? <3

Aw. I hate character limits so much. D: Like, come on man. Let me yap! But anywho. I'll be yapping under the cut! :) <3

You’re absolutely right about the other angels. Like, “Uh… this kid looks insane and also he’s talking to his charge? That’s… not allowed. We are not messing with him. No thank you.” 

Also omg that would be really cute. Andrew just throwing a plastic bag in Neil's lap and sitting down beside him. Neil just: What’s this? | Andrew: I'm tired of looking at that hoodie so I got you one that's not ripped all to hell.

Neil’s clothes aren’t bloody, thankfully. (Oh my god. Can you imagine the night Andrew met Neil if he’d been covered with dried blood? That would’ve gone so differently. And badly. :’)) But no. His clothes had been miracled clean. Like, when he ‘woke up’ to the bright light, he was clean.

Neil doesn’t generally get out of the way. If a human walks through him, that’s their business. (They will experience a sudden chill, but Neil doesn’t know that he has that effect. And he doesn’t care. Lol.) 

Ooh. That’s interesting. So let’s see… If, for example, Neil were sitting in the dining hall with Andrew and the monsters— invisibly of course— and someone spilled something on him… I think I’ve gotta say it would just… get all over him.

And Neil would accidentally pop into Andrew-mode because the shock of suddenly being doused with soda or soup or whatever would have him ‘letting go of the button’. Andrew would likely get choked, Neil might have to do this invisible heimlich maneuver… It would be… Not good. Hilarious, but not good. 

So that’s why Neil typically chills on the roof whenever Andrew isn’t Traveling. Less of a chance to majorly fuck up if he’s not around all the humans. :)

Yes, Neil’s clothes sometimes feel dirty to him. He’s since learned to magic them clean. :) A lot of trial and error on his part. Luckily he doesn’t have to strip naked and wash his clothes in the dorm’s laundry room. Lmao. Naked angel vibing in the corner. Gkldjglk 

Ahhh, I can’t tell you yet. TWT I’m sorry…

Also! Not really. Andrew was mainly just being a smart ass! :) He likes to do that. (We do know Kevy's angel.)

As for the team. No. Janie is still there, but otherwise they haven’t got any other new players. See, Kevin had picked out this striker for them to go see. Out in some tiny town in Arizona. But before they could fly out to see him play, his coach called Wymack to say he’d up and transferred suddenly with only a month left before graduation. Didn’t say where he was moving to or why he was leaving. Kevin was devastated that they’d lost this kid because he could tell he had potential. :((

<33333 I hope things get better soon for all of us. Also, Webkinz is a virtual pet game and I love it dearly. :) I have a couple of pets named Andreil and Kandrew on it right now. Haha. 

Thanks for always being so lovely! <333 I love you dude!! <3

[beloved-brynn]

*pokes you*

Brynryn, hi hello, how are youuu?

Anyway, since you asked me abt who i ship my mutuals with, i wanna ask you something as well! >:D

What (two or more) characteristics do you personally like about yourself and your mutuals? You can either just say it, explain it, or anything really lol

About myself: I have a love-hate relationship with my grit. Mostly because I know I was born talentless in all aspects (no exaggeration), so every creative endeavor I have is 99% hardwork. And no, my parents don't have writing or drawing skills. I don't need to explain how my mom only knows how to draw "v" birds or how my dad isn't great at English. Absolute shame on them. (jk I love my family, I wish I could just pass my lifespan to hem HAHAHA). So when all hardwork fails, I feel like absolute shit. Second thing probably is my faith. I think I wouldn't be here if I didn't have some level of trust with the universe overall. The rest of me is garbage tho lmao. If I'm an otome game character, I'm 100% the beloved and beloathed trash husbando /srs.

About @leftdestiny-posts: I'm not sure I'd ever encounter an internet mutual like them ever again, and I think their appreciation for life and bluntness/straightforwardness is something to be admired. They're traits I don't have. Shiro and I are very very different people, and I'm not sure why there was a miracle that made us meet lol.

About @a-dose-of-phitre and @estellxli: longest friends I have. I really admire their creativity and skill, and if you want me to be honest, I know full well I'm left behind in those departments. If you know me irl, I'm not exactly the most affectionate person so I'd rather keep this part brief haha. Though, a small addition, I admire estella's communication skills and assertiveness a ton and I wish I had a bit more of Phitre's endearing charm and mannerisms (and height-). I'm super stiff lol.

About @navxry: Probably communication skills as well? When we met, they talked continuously. As much as I know I'm an extrovert and thrive off social energy, I think something in me is holding me back to being as vocal as they are. They also seem to have an abundance of energy. Ahh. Youth. /j

About @mixed-kester: i wish i am surviving engineering as much as she has i wanna quit can i quit also how does she pick colors sht is unfair i always have to open up google chrome to— //hjjjj

About @jessamine-rose: she already knows about my fashion sense or lack thereof, so let's talk about something else. I greatly enjoy her writing style because I know it's not something I'd pull off. Her sentence structures doesn't become verbose, they're incredibly succinct— enough to lead you along. Other than that, probably the way she bounces ideas spontaneously. I wish she sleeps right tho HAHAHA /silly

About @vennnnn-diagram: I probably pestered them too much about how normal people work honestly. I lack social skills so learning about stuff from them makes me feel a bit more knowledgeable without any visible judgement from them. So yeah, add that as one out of two. The second one? Their music skills. I hate learning instruments. I don't know why. I tried plenty. I suck plenty. Everyone in my family are great at playing except me. They're the Bruno Mars to my gambling addiction. WAIT WHY DOES SOUND LIKE THE WORST PICKUP LINE KN EXISTENCE HAHAHAHAHA

About @stardust-for-your-soul: i wish i can write fluff i wish i can write romantic things why can't i think of romantic genshin men headcanons why'd it always have to end in murder— oh and also, I love her prose. Chryseis can turn the mundane to something that oozes with beauty, and I think that romanticism is wonderful.

About @lucienbarkbark: i absolutely do not agree with your love for dazai /silly but I do admire estorea's unapologetic nature. Hell yeah bestie fricking read thag 300000+ chaptered story 😭😭😭 /gen. I find it a challenge to sit down and read nowadays huhu. Also, I like how warm she is to talk to, we haven't DMed much but it feels so hospitable (?) whenever she send fic links. Wish I was more like that. Also, thank you for the oda fics, soldier.

About @meimeimeirin: when mei put the kamisato siblings in a kin tier once (unless memory fails me), i remember silently agreeing so much. She has that "I got most my life together" vibe and I do wish I have that. She's also very open to talking about what she loves, she doesn't hide her affections and it's something I very much look up to if you've seen the things I've written so far lol. I love how vocal she is with appreciating what she has, including some new drinks she tasted, her parents' loving relationship, it's just sweet. The teashop aesthetic definitely suites her vibe. She just seems so... Elegant? Can't be me, I need to cause a mess /silly

About y o u: well first off if I get to have your hands for a day, you'd find weird ass drawings of blonde men on your drawing software. Second, I like your vibes a ton. It hits different. It fluctuates from absolutely chill to saying lowkey out of pocket things and I might be getting gaslit to thinking you're not at all the latter /j

[archiiive]

How To Get My Husband On My Side

I usually love strong female characters and I love reading them. Not a big fan of weak or damsel in distress characters. But RUBY. Idk how to explain my thoughts and feelings about her. Ik it doesn't make any sense but I feel like this is what I'd feel about my own daughter if I had one (I just turned 20 last month lolol). Ruby is by far my most favourite manhwa fmc and the most beautiful girl in my eyes I'm not even exaggerating. Yall won't believe how many times I scroll back to see the panels Ruby is in. I don't think I've even replayed shirtless Izek that many times lmao. I just stare at her in awe. I can't help but smile. I just re read this manhwa for the 4th time today, I just keep coming back here. This manhwa is so beautiful, cute, sad, painful and heartbreaking all at the same time. I cry, smile, laugh, giggle, get angry, so many emotions all at once.

I feel so sad whenever I look at Ruby's eyes. I just wanna give her a hug. Ruby is by far one of the strongest characters I've ever read. Being strong doesn't necessarily mean being physically strong yk. Everything she's gone through, those are unimaginable. The fact that she's still sane is probably the biggest proof of how strong she is. Cause imagine being abused like she was for that many years (even in her previous life, or should I say lives), she's only suffering. I can't imagine how deep the trauma runs.

Every kind of Abuse destroy people. She has gone thorough so many kind of abuses. But man SA has got to be the most horrendous things to ever happen to someone, that too by her own brother, at her own house, for so many years, where the so called brother even spread rumour about their questionable relationship outside just so her marriages could be broken off. I can't imagine going through all of that everyday and still having to smile sweetly 24/7, not having anyone to share these with, no one to rely on and pretending to be completely fine. I'd never be able to last so long, I'd be long gone.

As much as I love Izek now, it's an undeniable fact that he was a jerk to her when she first came here. Okay he had his reasons cause her family couldn't be trusted yada yada but RUBY didn't deserve any of it. Good thing she escaped from the hell, her own house but then came here to be treated like a nuisance by her own husband. Okay he's changed now and he loves her and everything is good so I'll kinda forgive him too cause at least he's giving Ruby the love, warmth, support, reassurance, comfort now. She needed them so bad. She really needed someone to confide in.

Whenever I see her holding things in and not being able to talk about her past traumas and abuse with anyone and silently putting up everything that fu*king Cesare bitch a**hole ugly looking piece of sh*t son of a wh*re does in fear that things will get worse, I just want to go get myself off by a truck and isekai into the story and stab that filthy guy until my hands fall of. I don't think I ever hated or will hate anything as much as I hate Cesare. This manhwa keeps breaking me but I still keep coming back for Ruby and maybe a little bit for Izek too, love to see them together.

I'm so mad she had to endure all of that. Idc what Ruby does or ever did. I'd support her even if she were to take initiative to end the world. I'd gladly let her destroy everything, kill everyone including me if that's what she wanted, I'd give her everything she could've ever asked for and even more cause RUBY my love deserves everything. Okay but why do I sound like a mom tho lolol. I guess Izek has a stronger competition now cause at least I'd never treat that angel like precious munchkin the way he did in the past hmph.

So in conclusion what I wanted to say is, I LOVE RUBY. My loveliest most adorable bestest sweetheart. My heart swells with love everytime she smiles. She shines so bright I fear. Ruby is the most amazing, Ruby is the most beautiful, Ruby is the strongest, i wanna bawl my eyes out everytime I look at her eyes. And if anyone tries to hurt my Ruby and talk shit about her, I'm personally coming for you, you better sleep at night with an eye open. Cause Ruby might be the sweetest but I'm certainly NOT.

[autisticempathydaemon]

THIS IS FOR THE MATCH-UPS AND ALSO /NF TO DO, IF YOU DONT WANNA, ITS OKAY! :D

What song are you fixated on at the moment? What lyric or verse, and why? — OOOH definitely Dance with me by Topline Addicts, as for lyrics: You say "come and dance with me", but I'm a bit too shy so I just smile politely (its giving me so much Lasko vibes this part and I love it)

What is your Enneagram type? — 9w1 the peacemaker (k think thats what its called)

Do you love gargantuan Youtube video essays, and if so, which is your favorite and why? — I never heard of them (if they are a person bcs I tried to look them up but no luck, unless if you mean subnautica–?) I'm sorry ;-; /lh

Tell me about your childhood imaginary friend. — Not really an imaginary friend, but I guess I could count my daydreams of myself as a fairy princess when I was a kid? So charming and pretty and powerful as hell, getting the hearts of those fictional character I loved at that time

What is your go-to way to fall asleep? — Always lying on the side, my back facing the wall. I try to sleep on my back but it's not working so far, other than these, I need complete darkness and quiet, bcs I get stiff when I hear a noise

If you had to change your name, what would it be, and why? (In tandem, if you have changed your name, why did you pick that one?) — If there was this name in my country, I would go for Jax or Jaxen, gender neutral and short and has a nice punch to it!

What is your favorite of Redacted’s audios, and why? — Lasko fucking Moore. This guy almost took down the channel, was number one before the purge, keeps breaking stuff even in his apartment, he is just like me fr /hj (Lasko kinnie here) and even lately, I love his development so much, like he will always be my number one (I love other characters too tho!)

What Redacted boy holds no appeal to you, and why? Like, not the one you hate but the one who you don’t get the hype for. (I won’t judge, I promise.) — It's I guess because of how much he is popular? I love Sam, but I sometimes forget how much favorite he is and it always surprised me /lh

Tell me about that one book/movie/tv show you know all the words to. — The Smoke Thieves by Sally Green, I love the dialogues between two characters, which one is kinda always flirty (not in Gavin way, he is like "youre so pretty and your pretty eyes omg") and so chill and happy with the other, who is awkward and doesn't know how to accept compliments and theyre so gay omg

Which Redacted boy are you platonically attracted to? Like- forget dating, which dude do you want to be your best friend? — I dont wanna answer this because that means I have to choose /j./lh (... Huxley... I will smooch his cheeks. As a friend.)

Do you have a go-to thing you ramble about when you’re tired, and if so, what is it? (For example, my boyfriend knows I’m ready to sleep when I start talking about space.) — It depends on the mood while I'm tired, but most of the time, it's my Redacted OCs currently, especially when I'm so tires I can't even type right LMAO

Tell me your go-to gas station and drink combo. — Some chocolate snack bar and milkshake in a bottle

Tell me about your favorite playlist at the moment. — I made it yesterday, but it's all kinds of happy sounding songs and OST without any lyrics and it feels so nice to bop into it

What’s your guilty pleasure media, and why? — Wattpad books,, i wanna get back into reading some, its been years

And whatever else you think tells me about who you are! — I'm libra sign, INFP, I like the nights and sunrises, have many redacted OCs (around 20 of them, i like to play with the kinds of powers and try to mix them and experiment) and I like to text RP! I also currently work on my gaslamp fantasy WIP book(?), I'm undiagnosed neurodivergent (possibly audhd), dyslexic and I also listen to Mr Laveau's Nexus AUDIO RP series (recommending if you like video games sfx and original art) and started listening to DND group The Adventure Zone!

I HOPE YOU HAVE A NICE DAY/NIGHT/ALL THE TIME! :D

Okay, so you know who I’ve always thought should really be into fantasy and DnD? Asher, and since canon hasn’t yet confirmed he loves these things, you can be his introduction!

The combination of your personality types and your being a writer gives me the image of an emotional and emotionally intelligent person, which I think is a good match for Asher who is also pretty emotionally intelligent! I think your vibes would really match, and together you two could be, like, the heart of the Shaw Pack as the Beta and his mate. Also, Asher is some sort of flavor of neurodivergent, and I love making ND4ND pairs, ya know?

Your life together would be so FUN, I’m actually jealous. I think getting Asher into DnD and games would be such a treat, listening to TAZ together, helping him learn rules and the different systems, maybe putting together a campaign with Angel and Davey because Angel would be a fuckin bomb DM, I feel it in my heart. He’d also be such a lovely partner for a writer. I can very clearly imagine Asher laying his head on your lap, having you read what you’ve written that day aloud to him which functions as both a cute bonding activity but also a way for you to spot-check and edit how it reads.

Song:

What would you do if I stole you tonight? (Ahh ahh)/ Why waste time? (Ahh ahh)/ 'Cause the world goes on without us/ It doesn't matter what we do/ All silhouettes with no regrets/ When I'm melting into you/ 'Cause I belong in your arms

One, you said you like happy-sounding songs, and I think this is a great one. I love it’s kind of dreamy, high vibe, you know? Two, this came out around 2012, when Asher would have been a teenager, so I like how nostalgic and romantic this song would be for him.

Runner-ups:

For a writer who loves fantasy, OC’s, and roleplay games, Guy is a sure shoe-in for a runner-up! I think he and Asher have a lot of similarities, but I went with Asher because he struck me as a better match for an introvert. For a Lasko kinnie, I had to choose Aaron as another contender because they’re my favorite Redacted rarepair, and I’ve been meaning to write something for that shop for a while.

note: thank you for your entry, I hope you like it!

Read this post and send me an ask if you’d like a match-up of your own! 💌

[causenessus]

omg i hate that guy <- not really anymore,, he's a good teacher my grades shot up SO fast (D->A within three months of him teaching) BUT LIKEEEE HES BEEN TEACHING ME SINCE 8TH GRADE AND SAYS LIKE 1 GOOD THING EVERY 6 MONTHS

HE ARRIVED AS SOON AS I READ UR ANSWER

he said i did well today 😎 and if i study properly ill do the same in all my next exams !!1! i have to start a bunch of different coachings eww

ANYWAYS i woke up at like 5 today (us moment) !! idk why because i had online classes that started from 9

sleep early tho!!!!!!! i hate waking up and i hate sleeping i hate everything actually

i conked out at 11:30pm last night (omfg i did not know i could do that)

im doing so good (still high off the grades) but like lowkey panicking bc of the next exams !! my goal is to beat my sister's records <//3 basically she's pike crazy good and got 7 A* and 1 B </3 i alr got an A* in the subject she got a B in, and then i have like 7 more subjects to give exams of :[

but like she is ACTUALLY so good at studies n shit she got the highest grades in her batch in biology in this years board exams (wtf!) and when she gave her 10th grade boards she got like the highest marks in economics in 34 years/basically the whole school history i will cry .

the english teacher i have rn is fucking insane she told us callous and careless are the same thing i almost cried

she also spelled ajar as ajure

NOW YOU MIGHT SAY but lina thats hecking stupid !! its not her first language:( SHE HAS A DEGREE?? AND IS THE HEAD OF THE ENGLISH DEPARTMENT ??? and she took up four classes (4hrs) just talking about the SYLLABUS not even what we're learning

im aiming for like,, country highest at least in english so having her is a terrifying thought

ALSO A GIRL FROM THE BATCH ABOVE ME GOT WORLD HIGHEST IN HER MATH BOARD EXAM (100%!?!?)

okay anyways ill go erm sorry for yapping.. IM STARTING MY HEALTHY STUDY GIRL ERA AND STUDY NOW!!! honestly im quite proud of myself because like a year and a bit ago my grades were like,, 1 U, 3 Ds, 5 Cs and 1 B like wtf .. anyways the subject i got a U in back then,, i got 90% in boards this year ! and my lowest grade recently was 80% like chat we r eating ts up

IVE TALKED ENOUGH THANKS FOR LISTENING OR WHATEVER NOW I FEEL EMBARRASSED

STAY SAFE AND HYDRATED NESS ILY ILY ILY BYEBYE :)

DON'T FEEL EMBARASSED!!!!! I LOVE TO HEAR YOU TALK <3333 (sorry i got distracted and immediately read the bottom paragraph LET ME READ FROM THE START) LMAO I'M GLAD YOUR TUTOR IS GOOD AT TEACHING!! EVEN IF HE'S NOT NICE 😔😔😔 KNOW THAT YOU'RE DOING SO WELL LINA!!! I'LL COMPLIMENT U AND CHEER U ON IF HE WON'T <3

LINA SIDE TAGENT THAT I LOVE YOU SO MUCH i love how energetic your writing is!!! like it's rubbing off on me <33 i was feeling a little sleepy but now that i'm reading your ask i feel more like !!! awake!!!! this is all /pos I JUST WANTED TO SAY I LOVE THE WAY YOU TALK </33 BUT PLEASE 5 AM???? AND YOUR FIRST ONLINE CLASS IS AT 9??? PLEASE BRO WHY IS THAT THE USUAL?? 😭 WHEN MY FIRST CLASSES WERE ONLINE IN HIGH SCHOOL I FR WOKE UP AT LIKE 8 EVERYDAY (bc idk how they were for you but like google meets were once a week and optional bc they'd just record it anyway so i'd watch the recordings at like 2x speed while doomscrolling tumblr or something)

YOU SLEEP EARLY PLEASE!! or like sleep more idk 😭😭 i could never wake up at 5 am willingly you're amazing for that 😭 the "i hate everything actually" is SO real it made me laugh so hard PLEASE 😭

YOUR SISTER SOUNDS CRAZY??? LIKE GOOD LUCK BEATING HER RECORDS IG </3 BUT PLEASE DON'T STRESS YOURSELF OUT OR MAKE IT A BIG DEAL !! YOU DID AMAZING THIS TIME AROUND WITH YOUR EXAMS AND IK YOU'LL DO GREAT AGAIN BUT DEFINITELY DON'T STRESS YOURSELF OUT TOO MUCH PLEASE!! i cannot believe the thing about your sister having the highest grades in ECONOMICS in like 34 years because economics is NOT fun that class made like 0 sense to me like bro if the global market is crashing and economists don't understand it HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO UNDERSTAND IT ?????????

CALLOUS AND CARELESS ARE THE SAME THING????????? HELLO????????????? HOW IS SHE A TEACHER I'M SO SORRY BUT LIKE EVEN IF IT'S NOT HER FIRST LANGUAGE THAT MEANS NOTHING LIKE BEING AN ENGLISH TEACHER IS NOT THE ONLY JOB OUT THERE IF SHE CAN'T TEACH ENGLISH THEN LIKE MAYBE SHE CAN TEACH SOMETHING ELSE??? BC I CAN'T BELIEVE THEY'RE LETTING HER TEACH IF SHE'S DOING THINGS LIKE THAT 😭 AND SHE'S THE HEAD OF THE DEPARTMENT AND EVERYTHING??? EVEN CRAZIER???? good luck with your goals though!! i believe in u <3

WHY IS YOUR GRADE BREAKING LIKE ALL THESE RECORDS?????? LIKE I KEEP READING MORE PARAGRAPHS AND WITH EVERY WORD MY CONFIDENCE IN MY OWN SCHOLARLY ACCOMPLISHMENTS IS DEPLETING LMAO 😭😭 I DID NOT BREAK ANY RECORDS BUT GOOD FOR U GUYS!!!

amazing job with the better grades!! and i love your healthy study girl era!! please make sure to take care of yourself and keep your mind and body nourished <333 i hope you're doing alright!! i just saw something on your blog recently that made me want to make sure you're doing alright!!! please know that my dms are always open to you!! <33 take it easy and you're an amazing person <3 you're so sweet and talented please let me know if you need anything!!

[worldwright]

Good evening !

Man, I love writing those asks and all, but it takes me away from my fics and then I'm hit full force by my emotions

Anyway, I found a new pair of glasses, the closest I could get to my usual glasses and I hate them, they're not rectangular like mines are it's ugly I hate them I won't wear them I don't care I don't fucking care

I had to talk to the lady and my mom had the great idea to talk about me and now that lady knows my entire medical life. Fuck you. Yeah I'm trans, yes I have facial hair, no I don't take hrt, shut the fuck up shut the fuck up. yeah go ahead and judge me for not doing any kind of sport. yeah go and laugh when i say my body is all broken and doesn't work normally because no one cared when i said i suffer badly

Ngl, sometimes I hate being funny. I can say a lot of things and still laugh because I can't do anything else, because I'm forbidden to just acknowledge me being unwell

I wanted soooo bad to say to the lady that I tried to kill myself. Because she went "oh that's nice to take care of your mental health ! you acknowledge that you needed help !" Oh that would have been hilarious to say "so i tried to kill myself lol" and "my parents are neglecting me so bad that it's killing me lmao" x)

So yeah, fics it is ! And my mom made bread this morning so munching on it :3

Have a wonderful morning my friend !

people always expect that if someone's really suffering, they couldn't possibly smile and laugh. it kills me. like you never know what's going on with someone. you're not allowed to assume. you're not allowed to judge. and I wish to hell that parents would stop treating their kids like some weird dog they have and can joke about in front of them :/ some people just don't live in the real world, I swear

idkkkk if this picture is actually working I tried to rotate it but it just looks cropped weird 😭😭 anyway I went to a different coffee shop today :3 (idk if most of our coffee shops around here count as cafés, they usually only have a few pre-made sandwiches and pastries for food. I think "coffee shop" is probably more accurate)

I know I said I "somehow ended up" going to a club last night, which makes it sound like I got lost on the way home or something lmao, but my coworkers invited me out and I just went sure, fuck it. first time I've been to a place like that, it was pretty cool :3 very overwhelming tho, probably won't be doing it often. also I missed the bus and had to walk all the way home at 1am :///////

planning on just wandering today, I'm gonna head to the arboretum after I finish eating :)))))

hope you find a tasty snack tonight!!!

[rinhaler]

No way omg I read some of your works and I was like this author is sooo good the writing looks a biiit familiar tho

Just found out you’re fuwushiguro lmao!! You used to be (and still are) one of my fav fanfic writers.

Why’d you move blogs btw?

AAAAAA that's so funny what gave it away?? 😩 welcome back though I'm happy to have u :3

also okay I never used to talk about my follow count or anything on my old blog but it was just a bit much mentally for me. I used to beat myself up over not performing well despite my follow count. I actually had over 10k followers on fuwushiguro but like I said, I used to keep that to myself. I just didn't want to be perceived in a certain way because of the amount of followers I have, but it doesn't matter now since I don't live there anymore.

Coming here was just a fresh start for me. I couldn't wrap my head around why so many people were following but I felt so... alone? Like I didn't feel supported at all over there. I worked so hard on my writing and I just hated how poorly everything I posted performed. And I know you're not meant to care about notes or whatever but I did, massively, and my mental health suffered terribly for it because I just blamed myself and my writing for not performing well. It might sound silly, but I can't really put into words how sad it feels to have so many people following you and then ultimately feeling so alone and uncared for.

I know a lot of people deal with this though and it wasn't just me. Everyone here works hard and it is just super upsetting when you work hard and then feel like no one actually cares. I really fell out of love with writing so I just thought, fuck it, I'm going to make a new blog and just keep to myself.

I've recently gone through a friendship breakup which massively knocked my confidence in writing too because the ex-friend, albeit unintentionally, made a choice that just left me hating myself and my writing even more. I've been suffering mentally through that and feeling alone because she was everything to me and my entire days revolved around her pretty much so losing that constant in my life was actually agonising, and unfortunately I do still miss her a lot!

But I've been filling my time with writing again and to be honest it's been lovely. I hate how she handled things and I don't think I will ever get over that. It's been nice to know I don't need to suffer forever though and do have that escape with writing when I need it!

Becoming a smaller blog again has absolutely taken the pressure off everything I write and post, too. It's just really freeing to not have any expectations placed on me (whether that's by myself or other people).

I've made some lovely new friends and am making new memories with people over here and I have a nice little community and safe space here for myself and my followers and I just know it was the best decision I could have made even if it didn't start off in the best way.

SORRY FOR RAMBLING THIS GOT SO DEEP ADSGFHDGJF

Thank you for finding me again though it's really nice to have a mix of old and new followers so I can carry on making this nice little space here :3 thank you for supporting me and my writing, pls take care of yourself my love!

[slut4thebroken]

Hey so I love all your content and I swear I'm not a hater but im ngl your venting abt ur adhd kinda rubbed me the wrong way. Not you having adhd but I guess how you talk about people and how you dont think you're rude. I know you were saying you hate adhd but it sounds like you resent people as well for something they will never understand. You say you hate constantly being called out for sounding rude but reading your whole speech kinda shows that you are a rude person. I understand its frustrating to have something that not a lot of people can relate to or understand but you shouldn't expect people who know you to just upright tolerate you being rude. If a lot of people are telling you you're being rude it most likely factual and you should take steps to not be rude but just bc you have adhd doesnt mean people have to put up with the rude behavior.

Again, im not a hater and I still really enjoy your content and you as a person (from whatever I see here of course) but I think you should have more patience on yourself and try to be a better person. I think all of this is still within your control so ill be cheering you on. (I know in your tags you said you can't control it and I know you can't control the fact that you have adhd but you can control your actions and responses) But also please be kinder to those around you and maybe communicate these struggles that you do have so that they can try to understand you better. I am sorry you're having a tough time tho i hope things look up for you.

Not sure how that whole “speech” showed that I’m a rude person when all I was doing was talking about how much I hate myself lmao. I don’t blame or resent other people especially neurotypicals for not understanding it. My issue is when I’ll say something that is not an actual rude sentence and the only reason people think it sounds rude is because of my tone. I also most of the time will add on immediately after: “sorry, that was not supposed to sound like that. I was being genuine.” but some people in my class will still make it a whole big thing and start mocking the way I said it rather than just being like “thanks for clarifying.” (And trust me bestie, if I could control it, I wouldn’t have grown up my whole life getting in trouble for having an attitude when I was just trying to talk normally with my parents because I would’ve stopped talking like that.) But you’re right. Masking 24/7 and constantly focusing on making sure I’m speaking in the right tone and thinking about it every single time I talk is definitely great advice that I haven’t tried before😍 (that last part was supposed to sound rude💀 /hj..)

[system-of-a-feather]

in response to your question about gatekeepers (i'm gonna hide out on anon bc i am a coward and don't want to reply lmao-):

We have one gatekeeper (who I'll just call N)-- he's more of an internal manager than a standard gatekeeper of sorts? He kind of manages memories and stuff rather than who is or isn't fronting (he... isn't that good at that). He sort of makes sure that we're all functioning as we should, keeping up with tasks, not remembering the Bad Things(tm), things like that. The other notable thing he does is sort of. Snatching emotions. sort of. it's hard to explain. the most notable example of that i can think of is recently my grandfather died, but a bunch of other stuff was also going on, so he made sure i as the host was not a Mess (it's a bit weird tho since... i don't have many memories of him due to the standard fun amnesia stuff. yay). so he's been pretty much holed up in his room doing work for now. i'd say he's pretty communicative except for one who he is on mutual hatred terms with.

as for fronting, he actually didn't front a lot at the start. he did it very rarely, and didn't really like the feeling of it. however, he is a chatterbox and that won out

-

Aforementioned gatekeeper here. They did get it mostly right, my job (I do think of it as a job) mostly focuses on memory rather than fronting. As for how much I personally front, I do keep it to a minimum, mainly because I do have a different accent than the others. I do enjoy talking when I can, however. Despite this, I'm always somewhat near the front, unless current circumstances require otherwise.

As for how aware of the inner/outer world I am, I'd say quite (as per the earlier comment about being near front at most times). Normally I do need to pay attention to both to make things function as planned.

Apologies for the long ask, but I wanted to elaborate on it as much as I could. I do hope this helps.

-N

except for one who he is on mutual hatred terms with.

God why are systems always having those paired alters that just mutually hate each other. (rhetorical) We've had one that is only recently starting to wain.

I do keep it to a minimum, mainly because I do have a different accent than the others.

*looks at Lucille* Yeah that would do it. Lucille's pretty decent at hiding his accent, but more than his actual accent issue - he has Chronic Proper Pretentious Prick speech impediment that he can't hide no matter how hard he tries which is arguably the main one.

But thanks for answering. Honestly it sounds like a pretty relatable general dynamic to what I do save for me doing a lot of "team management". We don't actually really have much in terms of helping parts switch in our system either - we do have parts that manage how far some parts are from the front and what not, but usually if a part is front or needs to front, it's up to the part that is out and the part that needs to front to figure it out - or the brain to force it one way or the other. The closest we get is that some of the gatekeepers - myself and the other primary mainly - can do what I'd call "imposition" which we just take the front so that whoever was out before isn't - but that doesn't always work depending on the situation, part, trigger, etc.

[nananarc]

Alright so I know I'm a month late to this Art Summary thing, but I'm Vietnamese, and we don't consider the year to end until Lunar New Year (which in here we call Tết holiday). And today, is in fact, the true last day of 2022.

The pic in January feels like years ago actually. I felt like I'm a completely different person compared to back then, both in art and in life. As in, a more skilled and mature person (i hope?), but also beaten up and without all the high hopes and energy that I used to have. I guess it's a funny coincidence that I ended the year with that artwork depicting that particular scene in Truyện Kiều (The Tales of Kieu). She's beautiful, singing songs and citing poems, but in a whorehouse, trapped and melancholic. Well, I can't compare my life to hers. But I'm at that stage of life where it might seem like everything is doing ok but the ground under my feet is rumbling and cracking but no one else can see it.

I feel like "I have been getting it wrong, Father", quote Fleabag, and that probably reflected in my art a bit. At this point I'm just living for that momentary trance / manic / whatever you wanna call it that art is capable of sometimes putting you in.

I might sound all sad and shit and, well yes I am crying and basically a pink fur ball of anxiety as I write this, but I will be relatively fine. So, in order to remind myself of all the good shits that happened despite it all, I'll put a list of them under the cut. Mindful and all that shit, yeah?

No expectation or wish for the next year for me.

But Happy Lunar New Year, everyone! :)

Go by exclusively they/them now and even though I'm still navigating through this identity, I felt gender euphoria when, in eng speaking space, people start to refer to me with the right pronoun.

I still don't make much money, with only 1-2 commissions/month, and most months without any order. But all of my clients were such good people (well except for one, bitch turns out to be crazy as shit but not to me lmao, she was still fulfilling her end of the bargain), they are also good friends, and I love them dearly. They all gave me so much support and care through everything.

I tried edibles, ate a bit too much, was tripping balls so hard I had a disco dance game in my head but with 90s graphics and the characters are all of my worst anxieties. Also had that glitchy, time skipping, reality bending experience. It was all very fucking awesome. Not gonna do that again tho lmao.

Visited the MOCA in Bangkok and reignites the love I have for art.

Realized I am asexual and it was extremely freeing. I thought lewd thoughts more than I have ever been because of that ahahaha XD

Start to embrace the fact that I'm probably neurodivergent.

Got really good at making mods of the Cyberpunk 2077 game and I'm really proud of my works.

Finally got to treat one of the health problems that have been plaguing me for years.

Had some really fun hangout with my dear friend over a drink at small, low-key pubs. She used to refuse to even touch a drop of alcohol because all her experiences with it left too at an impression. Now she drinks for me if I can't finish my cocktail.

I bought 2 traditional dresses and I love them dearly.

Busted a bitch's fake ass for stealing art. That was fun because no one even realized the extend to how shameless that shithead was. But even then, I still have no hate ask, that is kinda a bummer tho lol.

I talked more to my classmates and even though I still don't really vibe with them that much, I appreciate them more now.

Starred in an indie movie. Wasn't a particularly fun thing the whole time, but it was an experience nevertheless.

Got more daring about my makeups.

[brandoncarlo]

So my assistant manager is leaving at the end of next month. And I would really like to be considered for the position and my dad said to reach out to my manager asap about it. But idk how to go about it. My manager and I have an extremely casual way we talk to one another. This is not an office situation with like, professionalism. So the advice my dad gave which would sound nice in like a corporate email probably would not work.

My biggest concern tho is that the other two options don't have the full scale knowledge that I and my managers do. Not even saying that to be like full of myself. But my work is split between working with the dogs directly and working at reception. My manager, assistant manager, and I are the only ones who do both. But the other people up for it are both only reception people. I also am the only one who Corrales all the drama in the back lmao because we employ 20 year olds who are all friends and hate each other simultaneously so literally I have to decide the break order every day so there's no excess drama.

Anyway I feel like I would be a good choice. But I also feel like they'd never choose me but idk knowing I'm so anxious about everything I also can't believe either of those beliefs I have lmao.

I also don't know if I am even an option. When my assistant manager who I'm close with told me she only mentioned the two in reception as options. So I feel like throwing my hat in the ring might be laughable. That being said I am a "lead". BUT if I were to be made assistant manager I think that would really upset one of the women who's been there longer than me and thinks she deserves it but by all accounts could not handle it. Another side to this is the other option has explicitly said she wouldn't want the position. So you have two options 1. Who wants it but everyone agrees could not handle it but my manager may cave because she doesn't want the drama of passing over her or 2. Who doesn't want it but might take it for the pay raise or might take it once she calms down about the transition but does not deal with half of the business at all.

Idk I'm on the fence because someday it's like I'm the only person my manager trusts and other days she doesn't trust me at all. And my dad has never been in a situation where the communication between an employee and their boss is so relaxed so he can't give me an idea of what to say because even just saying "I'd like to be considered" would come across as weird if I were to say/send that to her.

At this point I might wait till Tuesday to say anything. She's really upset my assistant manager is leaving so I don't wanna seem like I'm jumping in while she's grieving lmao. And I want to see if she'll say anything to me on Monday about it. But this whole thing has been plaguing my every thought. This is the first job I've ever loved doing/having and I've been wanting to be manager here for a while now.

[stepswowdsen]

【KagePro】 KuroEne + Kuroha's Minimum Requirement Kill Count - Rambles

KuroEne Rambles

Me when the targets of my KagePro obsession is my wife and motherfucking Snake of Clearing Eyes Kuroha Ily bizz natch!!!

I so get why kid me was SO into KuroEne tho, it's like… My wife who plays into her cute cheeky energetic exterior but hides the loneliness and melancholy she feels x Evil insane homosexual dude.

I love my genderfluid Kuroha/Saeru HC. Especially since he's able to change his body into whatever he wants by using Konoha's Awakening Eyes

10 YEARS... THAT KIND OF LOVE JUST DOES NOT GO AWAY... AND IT ONLY CAME BACK STRONGER

Takane/Ene is very important and personal to me because in a lot of aspects, seeing her was like seeing a mirror to myself. Cuz a lot of the emotional issues and struggles that she has are things I relate to

Wasn't sure what to post today so I think I'll just post these old ramble posts in my Notion Docs. I forgot to post them here. .

"Ship that sounds so wild at first but it makes sense/is compelling"

Me with KuroEne LMAO. Like the concept of the ship sounds so random when you hear it for the first time, but I think I've built an incredibly good case for my rare pair ship

Yeah cuz everytime I talk about the ship, I think that once I get to the "KuroEne has a unique context because it uses the HaruTaka and KonoEne ships as a basis," and "Ene has a 'special' relationship with the person that Saeru uses as his vessel," parts of my explanation, things just make sm more sense.

In simple funny terms, KuroEne is like the equivalent of the evil sleep paralysis demon (in this case, sadistic parasitic evil snake) possessing your bf or past love (Haruka), or the person that you're conflicted about, but still have a certain kind of tenderness for (Konoha)

Sadistic parasitic evil snake bf and computer virus gf

ENE BELOVED......

Ene already gets flustered around Konoha who is dense af. So then with Kuroha/Saeru, it's just... no mercy. This guy would just be merciless at teasing cuz he wouldn't hold back. Especially since he would know how to get reactions out of her by provoking/teasing her

...

As far as canon-verse KuroEne goes, I love KuroEne cuz I think the juxtaposition of fluff and angst and tragedy in the ship is interesting and compelling to me, especially considering Takane/Ene's special relationship with Haruka and Konoha.

It isn't KagePro without tragedy, after all.

If you were to sum up my canon-verse KuroEne AU in a funny way, it would be "KuroEne Love/Hate sex"

Turns out I'm not immune when my meow meow mf gets handsy with my wife!

I'm fascinated by how complicated and messy their relationship is. I like exploring all sides of them - their fluff, angst, and tragedy.

It's my fave KagePro ship.

Kuroha/Saeru has such a unique context due to his role and set-up as the series' big bad antagonist. And he just so happens to possess the body of the person that Takane/Ene loves (or has a tenderness for, despite her conflicted feelings for)

Konoha is the Snake of Awakening Eyes in Haruka's remade body, and Saeru possesses Konoha. I think exploring that connection is fun.

I also like working with them in fanon-verse settings outside of canon cuz I think they deserve to be cute together too. Fanon-verse KuroEne, where the setting is much more lighthearted and tame, would be much softer and fluffier.

Cuz fanon-verse Kuroha is more reminiscient of Judar's role. Grumpy cat. Basically a neutralized threat who runs around like a gremlin.

Cuz I've seen fanon-verse KuroEne interpretations where Kuroha just sits around the MekaDan's hideout as a lazy bum grumpy cat. Aloof cat

HaruTaka and KonoEne are both my no. 2 KagePro ships

...

Me: KuroEne is a rare pair since the ship is held up entirely by the fanon interpretations of 9/6 fans who are also Kuroha (and villain) enjoyers in general. Perfectly fine with that tho

I deal with both canon-verse and fanon-verse AUs for KuroEne

A: I'm fine with crackships, if you can build a good case with it. Or if it’s like harmless LOL

Me: Same, I agree. Crack ships can be cool when they're depicted in good faith, and not random hetero nonsense.

M: FRRR

Kuroha’s Minimum Requirement Kill Count

Source: (X)

Ok so by basic deduction, Kuroha/Saeru needs to kill at least 5 people in order for Mary to be able to use the power of the Queen Snake, Combining Eyes, to rewind the world.

Because needing more than 5, means at least 6.

Because if Mary needs more than 5 snakes to rewind the world, then that means she needs at least 6 snakes.

And those 5 people have to be Eye Ability Users too.

Mary is the host of the Snake of Combining Eyes, so that's 1 snake. So she needs to absorb at least 5 more. So he'd need to kill at least 5 people at the end of a Route.

Which isn't hard for him. He has Konoha's body's supernatural strength, and a gun.

So that's roughly more than half of the Mekakushi Dan.

Kagerou Daze Manga: Ch. 17 ~ 18 - Kuroha and Kano

(Kagerou Daze Manga: Ch. 17)

(Kagerou Daze Manga: Ch. 18)

I'll also put the context for non-KagePro mutuals just in case. So I'm putting the pages here so that it can easily be referenced

Kuroha: You'll be getting another one of those wounds you hate so much, huh?

This line is chilling. Absolutely haunting. And it's one of my favourite Kuroha lines for that reason LMAO

Kuroha as a character just gives me pure catharsis cuz he's so fun to watch as a villain. Entertaining as hell

The Mekakushi Dan hasn't met Konoha yet in Manga Route 1. Ene recognizes Konoha's appearance, despite the darkened form, because she remembers that Haruka designed Konoha to be his game avatar. That's why she recognizes Konoha when she sees him.

We also don't know if Kuroha killed Hibiya and Hiyori in Manga Route 1 prior to this fateful meeting with the Mekakushi Dan

(It’d be easy for him to do, but he also wouldn't need to, since Mary needs at least 6 snakes to rewind the world, so he needs to kill a minimum of 5 people)

But realistically, I can't imagine what it'd feel like to be in that situation. This random guy is somehow able to see everyone and start walking towards everyone (the Mekakushi Dan is supposed to be invisible to other people right now due to Kido's Eye Ability) and then he just takes out a gun and points it to Kano's head.

Kano, as a kid, lived with a physically abusive mother and would hide his injuries from others (neighbours) because he loved his mother despite her treatment of him. A tragedy happened where burglars entered their home and killed them. That's how Kano entered the Kagerou Daze and came out with an Eye Ability.

I think he might've realized it was Saeru (Snake of Clearing Eyes) when he said, "You're the Deceiver from that time, aren't you?"

Kuroha tells Kano, "Those wounds you hate so much are going to increase again..."

Can't imagine the fear that runs through in that split second before the shot is fired, like this guy somehow knows your deepest secrets you've never told anyone - the context of your past and death.

Kuroha mocks him specifically for that. Like he's definitely referring to the abuse he endured as a kid, and possibly, the "wounds" that he (Kano) will receive before being killed by him (Kuroha), as well.

Cuz the Original Trio (Kido, Seto, Kano) were taken into Ayano's family as her foster siblings, and Saeru possessed Kenjirou (Ayano's father)

2 years ago, on the night of Ayano's death, Saeru told Kano to use Deceiving Eyes to imitate Ayano's corpse (his older foster sister) and lie at the site where it happened, in order to not draw suspicion from the school and public.

The reason for this is because the Kagerou Daze swallows up bodies, so Saeru didn't want anyone getting suspicious of why there wasn't a body, so that Ayano's death can get further cemented and covered up as a "suicide"

I know Douman (Limbo) (FGO) is the one that is called "Evil incarnate" but honestly, it fits Kuroha so well too, because unlike Douman, canon-verse Kuroha/Saeru doesn't know love, and lacks genuine love (in its purest form) and tenderness.

...

Wait I just had a realization once I woke up.

In the Kagerou Daze Manga, at the end of Manga Route 1, the Mekakushi Dan meet on August 15th, and have a fun time hanging out at the Amusement Park.

The group is on their way out when they spot Kuroha looking in their direction. Kuroha begins making his way towards them, intercepting the group, and immediately starts killing them.

(I... Well... At least he waited until after they were done having fun. Though I'm sure he knows that if he did it in the Amusement Park, it would draw attention to him and cause an unnecessary commotion. So he waits for them to leave first.)

I paid more attention to THIS set of lines from Kuroha/Saeru:

Kuroha: You're the Deceiver from back then, aren't you? Kuroha: Gotten a lot better at using it, haven't you? Kuroha: You'll be getting another one of those wounds you hate so much, huh?

Everyone in the Mekakushi Dan immediately feels un-nerved and wary at how this guy can somehow see them when Kido's Eye Ability is supposed to make them invisible.

I noticed that Kano has a wary neutral expression and pauses before he approaches him (Kuroha). I think that Kano recognizes right away that something is /terribly wrong/ here.

Kido's Eye Ability is Concealing Eyes. Kido's Concealing Eyes can conceal peoples' presence and make them invisible as long as they're in a close radius to her, but the power gets undone with direct contact by another person outside of who it's being used on.

When they were leaving the amusement park, Kido used Concealing Eyes on the whole group (so they'd be invisible to everyone else).

A normal person should not be able to see through that. Kuroha/Saeru can see through Kido's Concealing Eyes. It doesn't work on him.

Kano approaches Kuroha to try and de-escalate the situation, hoping it's a misunderstanding, or trying to lighten the mood, perhaps. Maybe it’s another Eye Ability user?

Kano was compatible with the Snake of Deceiving Eyes because he wished for ways to hide his wounds (from physical abuse) from other people. Kano would use his power to “lie” to others and hide his feelings to not make people worry about him.

After Kano tries to clarify the situation with a lighthearted smile, Kuroha pauses with (……) and makes an observation. He concludes that Kano is “the Deceiver from back then.”

When Ayano died 2 years ago, Saeru forced Kano to use Deceiving Eyes to imitate Ayano’s corpse and threatened to kill his entire family (Kido, Seto) if he didn’t. Kuroha’s comments imply that Kano was using Deceiving Eyes to try and appear more calm than he actually was (in order to not worry the group and make everyone panic even more).

Kuroha then comments that overtime, Kano “has gotten very good at using it,” (has gotten better at being able to lie to other people with his Eye Ability), compared to back then.

Judging by his comments to Kano, this also implies that he is able to see through other Eye Abilities. He can see through Deceiving Eyes, too.

Kuroha then points the gun to his head and mocks him with a comment that alludes to his past - Kano wished to hide his wounds from other people, and now he’ll be getting more of them right now. Then he fires the shot and kills him, then starts killing everyone else too.

Kano's Eye Ability, Deceiving Eyes, allows him to “change what people perceive him as. He can change how he appears, sounds, and even feels, to others, and thus, can impersonate other people and animals.”

So it's basically almost a mild form of Illusion power

And Kano, as Ayano's younger foster brother, had been working together with Ayano before her death, so he's the only MekaDan member who knows about Saeru (Snake of Clearing Eyes)'s existence prior to the present day plot (August 15th, Kagerou/Heat Haze Day)

Ene daydreamed about her past as Takane and her days with Haruka nearing the end of the Amusement Park trip, and wishes for her happy days with everyone to keep going on for longer. And then this mf shows up and immediately spites her words.

You always take away everyone's happy ending, don't you.

Honestly heartbreaking. Ene and Shintaro knew and cherished Haruka since he was their friend and classmate. Ene recognizes Konoha's appearance, Haruka's game avatar, when she sees Kuroha.

They (Ene and Shintaro) both recognize the appearance of Haruka before he (Kuroha) kills them.

Personal thoughts

Mahiro Satou's art for the KagePro manga is so boring looking to me personally. The art is weak and undynamic, and the style doesn't fit KagePro imo. But I love my faves enough to want to buy all volumes of the KagePro manga, despite that.

Tho I'm also saying this cuz the FGO: Shimousa Manga got a godsend experienced professional artist with a gorgeous inking style.

Imagine how much hotter Kuroha/Saeru would've been if we got a more experienced artist with a more fitting art style

Though Ig nothing is as ugly as SHAFT’s art style for MCA

Sidu's Kuroha/Saeru illusts are so perfect

Sayuki draws him really well too. I looove how Sayuki draws Kuroha/Saeru (both forms) in the Children Record Reboot MV

Kuroha/Saeru by Sidu (Kagerou Daze Manga: Vol. 11 - Guest Artist Illustration)

Kuroha/Saeru - Manga Route 2 Design (Alt Form) by Sayuki (Children Record Re:boot MV)

Wish we got to see Sidu's concept art sketches for Kuroha/Saeru's Manga Route 2 (MR2) design because she was the one who designed it

I do appreciate what we got from the KagePro manga, like seeing HaruTaka and the MekaDan's interactions are cute. It also gave us Kuroha/Saeru’s backstory and his MR2 design