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im not kidding mouthwashing is maybe one of the most on the nose explains itself As It Plays Out horror game possible and the fact its breached containment and is now outside the sphere of people who like horror and the MAIN MAJORITY of people posting about it are people who cannot understand the IN YOUR FACE BY THE OWN GAME base level ppppplot points of characters not being good people or mentally well or Experienced In Their Fields and are nonstop posting shit like "guys why didnt they just not hire jimmy are they stupid?" come back to the tag when you can even begin to fathom that jimmy is not the only antagonist of the game because youre fucking 1/3 right now and the game is NOT SUBTLE.
#its like actively killing me getting mouthwashing on my for you page you are all so fucking stupid im actually losing my mind#and somehow people think hashtag yaoiheads are the blight of the fanbase and its like well ive seen maybe less than 10 yaoi people#and over 200 jackasses who earnestly think curly is a hashtag women respecter who hates jimmy#well the plot of the game is you Wish. you WISH curly hated jimmy.#mouthwashing#im putting this in the tags because i am begging people to block me to make my mouthwashing fan experience even a fraction less miserable
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okay i meant to make this post forever ago but my personal opinion on why so many people were so dissatisfied with lightfalll (disclaimer: i am not one of these people, i love lightfall SO much), is that lightfall was kind of subjected to a really aggressive marketing campaign.
like, stick with me here, i feel like almost all the lightfall release content (the trailers especially) were so focused on battling the witness, how this battle has been centuries in the making and this is the Second Collapse Finally Finding Us, only for there to be,,, no real resolution. the end was left on such a severe cliffhanger, but not only that, there was NO battle with the witness. the witness didn't even seem to be having a hard time at all with what we WERE throwing at it.
and for narrative reasons *i* am obsessed with this ending; in terms of storytelling i adore practically every creative decision that was made in lightfall, but i think the reason that so many people were so upset about it is because lightfall had such intense marketing and was rooted in the implication that this was the End of Days, only for us to get almost no closure, and instead so many more questions.
(there's also something to be said, i think, about the fact that the people who ARE most upset about this are like, the youtube gamer dudebros who's content is very very often rooted in the aggressive, violence-and-warfare, pvp-centric, no-interest-in-lore approach to destiny, and that the people i've seen primarily ENJOYING the narrative decisions (or at least being understanding about it) are the artists and writers and loremasters of the fandom, but i'm not quite sure,,, how to expand on that point.)
#like. something something yt dudebros who are like 'uhhh destiny is about violence and war and the lore is only for people who suck at pvp#and destiny is a shitty evil game i hate it sooooo much hashtag 26871435 hours recorded gameplay' asshats#being the ones complaining MOST about the narrative in. a narrative driven game. and refusing to engage with ANY lore in a LORE HEAVY GAME#vs. the community on here thats full of artists and writers and people who actually like to analyze the story and characters#and engage with the lore and have any emotional attachment at all to the characters and world and themes#being the ones who are like. appreciative of the narrative decisions made and looking forward to where the story will take us and#looking at the game with LOVE instead of hatred and malice#and even if you didn't like lightfall!!! people in the latter category are still the people who i keep seeing be like#'yeah even if i didn't personally like it i can understand the significance of this narrative decision.'#'i acknowledge that bungie put so much time and effort and passion into making this even if it wasnt satisfying to me personally.'#'i have the critical thinking skills to understand that bungie is not a sentient malicious entity trying to ruin my life; me; specifically'#like. do you get what im saying. gamer dudebros who think the world revolves around them vs the fandom members who actually understand art#bc. thats what destiny is. its art. the whole thing is a massive art project made by a group of people that are very passionate about it.#do you hear what im saying at ALL its like two separate fandoms for the same piece of media the difference is so stark#mine#destiny 2#lightfall#destiny 2 lightfall#eos destiny essays
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ngl i think a lot of the people who hate* on australian taskmaster just arent acclimatised to australian comedy and comedians like. the vast majority of contestants are well established comedians here with their own ‘characters’ that are being played into by tom gleeson himself . like idk. his making fun of wil in s2 probably came off as needlessly harsh to people unfamiliar with wil anderson’s popularity and continued presence hosting shows in the australian comedy sphere since like the early 2000s, but to the average australian viewer AKA the target audience of the show, its obviously intended as a joke and its funny because we have the context! idk what im even saying i just think people are especially harsh on the non-british tm adaptations because they arent as immersed in other countries’ comedy spheres as the UK’s and its unfair that people seem to expect foreign taskmasters to be equally enjoyable to a fan of the OG taskmaster who hasnt bothered to get the background on the cultural context . and also i wish people would stop expecting every taskmaster and assistant to perfectly replicate greg and alex’s dynamic… its simply not going to happen!!! there’s no reason for it to happen. the foreign variants are made for the audience in the country! meaning they are not made with the intention of being a copy of the original to please fans of the original. argh
*hate is not the right word really, its a bit too intense compared to what im talking about . i just cant think of a better word rn
#sorry i saw too many people hating on tom gleeson as taskmaster and it did something to me. i dont even like tom gleeson i just dont#like it when people say stupid thingsssss. and also im selfish hashtag only im allowed to make fun of tom gleeson (thats a joke)#(make fun of him all you want) (but for the love of god acknowledge you cant judge foreign tm adaptations by the same metric as the OG)#(and stop expecting to get the same enjoyment out of them if you havent bothered familiarising yourself with any of the comedians#like you have with the UK version. pleas….)#okay rant over i need to do dishes now#do i put this in the taskmaster tag…#taskmaster#taskmaster australia#BY THE WAY! if you dont like tm australia thats fine i dont care i respect that 🫡 im just protective of it because im aussie lol
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Feeling petty and just blocked someone for steve trevor hate the sun is shining and the hills are alive w the sound of music etc.
#not even a hate post like why do you have to make a point i agree w yet put down dianas lil guy doing it. rude#would never be mean to stevey t personally thats a skill issue i love diana and that includes her no 1 favorite guy over there#ive said this 38493838 times before like i get why ppl dont care or dont like him but i can get pet peevish abt it#esp when its from the “ww should get a girlfriend” crowd like come into the light w me...#she already does and her names steve trevor#no lmao but yeah#and by “ww gf crowd” you know the attitude i mean. square rectangle relationship i mean ppl who only care abt hashtag representation over#like chemistry and development of any kind. basically in swishyland usa we prefer concepts w literally any meat at all over#cardboard cutouts for twitter hype and screenrant headlines#and the anti cardboard cutout includes like status quo mush steve obviously. im not robert kanigher lmao#but anyways yeah what was i saying. oh i <3 wondertrev#steve trevor his mother's daughter#wait what who said that
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i am forced to give my guitar to my cousin ONCE & he 1. loses my fav plectrum (it's in the guitar hole 🤬🤬🤬) 2. jams my plectrum holder and 3. snaps a cord located inside the guitar hole ???? it's just dangling outside idk im gonna bash his face in the next time he comes over
#he was literally begging me all day to let him play my guitar and he can't even play it right !!!! like just stick to the melodica my dude#and he lied to me about losing my pick he was like “oh I put it in the pick holder i SWEAR” but when I called his dad (my uncle) he texted#me like “no wait i think it could have sLiPpEd oUt 🥺🥺🥺” like YOU KNOW WHAT ELSE IS GONNA SLIP OUT.#MY CHAPPAL.#and then he sort of confesses that it MIGHT'VE fallen into the guitar hole. like. I'M NEVER GONNA GET IT BACK BROTHER#and then !!!!! my plectrum holder just. stopped working. like it jammed. i can't take any of my picks outta there#i just KNOW he fiddled w/ it but he's lying every step of the way so im too pissed @ him to have a civil convo w/ him abt it#and now !!!!! once my mom came home she reached into the guitar hole & stared at smth for 5 mins & went.#“what's this” & when i looked up it was !!! a goddamn snapped wire/cord !!!!!#WHAT WAS HE DOING W/ MY BELOVED GUITAR !!!!! THE LOVE OF MY LIFE !!!!!!!!!!#i hate him i hate him so much !!!!!!!! he took advantage of me leaving for my tuition to fucking demolish my guitar#the next time he comes over in june i swear if im not on the news for fratricide .#i should rly start a tag called hashtag mrinalphobic 2025 because guess what this year's already been like 😃#মৃণাল#mrinalphobic 2025
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It took me a lot of consideration whether or not to post this, but I think it would be good for me to! This is an art piece I made for my 21st birthday this year. A month or so beforehand, I wanted to create a big art piece for my system. Each day, I ended up drawing one (or more) frequent fronters!
We are very fictive heavy which is why I'm sure anyone can recognize half the fellas here. I will still list them out from left to right though! You guys are so awesome and have helped me out so much this past couple years. There's Mob🌼, The Collector🎭, Skip/Anne🍂, Skit/Marcy🎲, Scratch/Sasha⚔️, Aubrey🐰, Kenny💧, Basil🌻, Sunny💤, Tangy🍊, Hanako🗡️, Stranger🖤, Mari🎵, Hero✨, Mercury🌙, Shade💜, Tsukasa😈, Nene🐚, Allister👻, Ragatha📍, Jax🟣, Pomni🔴, Scott🎸, Nagisa🐍, Luz🪄, Omori🔪, & CATNAP😺💤 !!
Woah, that's a lot, huh? Well, all of us are dumbasses just trying to get through life. if you are fascinated and want to study us like a bug, always feel free to follow our other accounts, @magicshowstrixs, @ghostsghoulsngraves, @dailylifeofmagic & more if you can find them 🤫
We will make a better intro post eventually, but yeah! thank you for reading this far if you did (bow)
#art#artist on tumblr#artwork#critters art#osdd system#system#fictive#fictives#actually plural#introject#plural#plural system#im not going to tag every fucker here#okay i might#SIGHHHH ino this is your fault#mob#the collector#skip#skit#scratch#aubrey#basil#sunny#tangy#kenny#hanako#tsukasa#ITS NOT LETTING ME PUT ALL THE HASHTAGS#I HATE THIS WORLDDD
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I think we gotta start recognizing that "things accepted online/in leftist spaces" and "things accepted by the general public in the real world" are two very different things. like no actually gnc men are Not suddenly seen as okay because there are drag queens on tiktok. men are still beaten and harassed and ostracized and Killed for being feminine. in the us. in my very liberal city full of ppl with blue hair and pronouns I am made to feel uncomfortable and unwelcome for being a gnc guy. the tiktok comments on videos of men wearing make up are not indicative of the beliefs of most people
#idk its just very weird to see ppl imply that gnc men are accepted actually#like what world are you living in that thats true#strangers make weird comments to me all the time and I see a noticable difference between how I am treated and how gc ppl are treated#I am misgendered on purpose All The Time by randos#like absolutely point out that gnc women are treated worse/have not been accepted in spaces where gnc men have/etc#but you cannot be saying that being a feminine man is now seen as okay that is so wildly untrue in like the real actual world#this goes for a lot of other things as well#like when a woman is a creep and ppl are like 'well if the roles were reversed yall would say its bad'#and its like yeah maybe online or in your liberal friend group#ppl who call men out for things don't call out women for the same stuff#and that should be discussed#but for most of the public no one is calling out men for creepy behavior#like notoriously#also even online ppl are very hateful??? like all the time#the top 5 comments on a video of a man wearing a dress may be telling him that he hashtag slays#put I promise you for every compliment there are dozens of people calling him slurs#anyway please please please touch some grass engage in social issues outside of instagram I'm begging#ghost posts#text
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going back to my roots but if i have to read another post talking about how robin and eddie wouldnt be friends/it would be hard for them to be friends im going to scream those two fucking terrorize steve harrington and are gay married. he knows her. from BAND.
#everyday. twitter recommends me tweets.#sickens me#eddie: rob we GOTTA get you to put some trumpet on at one of our gigs#robin: only if you beg for it#eddie: 🫣🥺🥺 pwea--#steve: Enough.#see how easy i came up with that. see how compatible they are#gay fucking neurodivergent ass damn shit hell fuckin STUPID damn#damn ass gay ass rock <- robin and eddie#'robin would hate eddi-- DURING PRIDE MONTH ?!?!!!????#idiots. all of you#the same people who say robin would hate eddie are the ones that say he has her personality but looks like nancy#'thats why she would hate him' robin Loves Herself shut up#the only dynamic they have is the FIRST PIECE OF FANART I EVER POSTED... of them in the car with steve#and i have the notes to prove it 😘😘#that was gross god anyways#the he knows her from band btw is just me quoting dustin its not. its not like me trying to pull from canon to prove my point#bc i know hashtag haters will be like ERM... what does BAND have to do with anything? 😐#nothing. absolutely nothing it was a joke IT WAS A JO#robin buckley#eddie munson#steve harrington#they need a trio name#im not tagging st/ddie bc people Need To See This
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I'd love to interact with the ethel cain fandom on here a little more but im lowkey kind of worried about my reception from certain groups of people bc im like. a guy.
#not the fandom in general. i do think most people in here are weird little freaks also#but there's a specific subset of people that tag everything like: Hashtag girlblogging Hashtag this is what makes us girls Hashtag femcel#kind of gives man-hating vibes. which is a bit scary. as a boy.#not even a cis boy like. they'd have the knowledge to say things about my body and my life and stuff that would be very bad for me to hear#i know most of the fandom is probably not like this but its lowkey scary bc i know some people are#and that they're common enough that i notice them#[insert cool original post tag]#also people who aren't able to interact with media about religion and also have a critical view of it#just bc cool music girl talks about religion does not mean it cant be damaging and bad and extremely traumatic for some people#also idk if you noticed but ethel the character did not have a fun time with it like. i feel like her connection with faith over time is#- like very important to the preacher's daughter story#im yapping. whatever!!!! im going to stay in this corner for now i think#boy shut up#<- im putting this at the end of all my rants. feel free to block it#obviously its not transphobia that I'm worried about in this particular fandom. i dont think I'll have to deal with that bc how are you here#if ur transphobic. girl!!! this is transgender territory!!!!!#its more the general Men Are Evil vibes coming from particular groups thats eek#okay im done now goodbye
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All right here is the hc sexualities of the girls because I'm very bored ( and also if I get something wrong please do remind me of it plz I'll be very much obliged to change something )
Makoto ( strong AF )
She lesbian and she's dating haru btw
Ann also lesbian and she's platonically dating shiho
Futaba ( autism haver )
Agender lesbian ( don't worry she prefers any pronouns she doesn't mind she/her pronouns tho ) she is dating sumire
Sumire
Bisexual
she is dating futaba and they're in a platonic relationship
Haru ( she also very strong )
Sapphic lesbian
She is dating makoto
#if you don't like you know the sexuality head cannons it's alright everyone has their opinions and that's okay#as long as you don't harass me for this then that's all right#I'm actually kind of scared to put the character hashtags because I think people would hate me sexuality hc for these goobers#futaba sakura#makoto niijima#makoto nijima#ann takamaki#sumire yoshizawa#kasumi yoshizawa#haru okumura#persona 5#persona 5 royal
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Me getting ready to romance Wyll in this run and then Astarion goes and gets a nat 20 getting Gale out of that portal like he’s trying to impress him or something 🙄
#hashtag rambles#no hate lol it’s not really the ship for me but I just thought this was funny#I immediately put him in camp tho bc I gotta go get Lae’zel and then find Wyll so I can enact my ‘seduce the monster hunter so he kills#Cazador for me — oh no he wants to help people shit well if people includes me I suppose it might be worth it but I will complain the whole#damn time’ plan :D#aka the only way I can justify Astarion being nice so that I can romance Wyll: it’s all a lie (until it isn’t)
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i just had subway and two things, one. i fucking love tuna and 2. that churro is a crime against humanity and they should be sued for selling something that bad
#chatterye#it was so gross jesus#but my tuna sandwich was banger i love tuna#actually here's my favorite way to make tuna salad#korean tuna <- aka tuna that's in oil and not water. does it matter? maybe maybe not but that;s what i prefer#pickles <- i actually despise pickles BUT it's good when it's in tuna salad and i really don't put in a lot because i still hate thme but i#is a nice contrast with the tuna. i also want to say that celery does not cut it. not the right flavor. also i hate celery in anything othe#than chicken salad#mayo <- obvious but yeah a lot of mayo; i use and prefer american mayo to kewpie but preferences#soy sauce!!!!!! <- secret (not really) ingredient to making a really good tuna salad. it's really good. you don't need to add a lot but it#makes it like 1309r829309 times better it's a necessity NOT optional#corn <- i add corn for texture and because i like corn! you do not need to add it to make this yummy but it is yummy!#the end! it's good w crackers or it is fantastic in triangle kimbap/onigiri!#i would eat tuna every day if i could but unfortunately they're apex predators and biomagnification is not a joke#this is such a random tangent to have in my tags#actually i saw an instagram comment that was like why the fuck do they use hashtags like that on tumblr#just add it to the fucking post that's not how hashtags work#and like first of all. we call 'em tags 'round here#second of all. it is tumblr culture#like subtweeting or whatever#my tags are always like one degree away from relating to the post ykwim#also i was born to yap leave me be#anyways subway's churros are so fucking gross
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:D may I also ask the same? what does ur agenda look like today?
i just worked a little short of 12 hours ive been dead tired bc i was stressed over something time sensitive & havent slept well & after a month and a half the mental problems are kicking in full force bc of it BUT some of my coworkers are lovely people & make it so much better. i just got one to listen to sena wataru's sensitive ghost & also got to explain oumen mokushiroku to him yesterday & hes like "im never looking at that song the same again im so sad she shouldntve been a sacrifice and for no reason" so my propaganda is working. my other coworker is like. impervious to bad moods. i think ive seen her in a bad mood maybe once in almost 2 years. she has this amazing ability to just shake things off and make them fun & i love when i get to work near her bc of it. & then of course i get really chatty (among. many other things...) when im super tired & qc popped in to give an update & was like. thoroughly amused the rest of the day like "u never talk its so different to hear u talk" little does she know the next chara im drawing in my notebook is tenshi & she always comments on my doodles when she sees them & usually im just like aw thanks but u know me i have no self restraint when it comes to that angel im going to break & qc's going to hear all about her.
anyway my actual agenda is jsut to. sleep for as much as possible now bc im so fucking tired of cycling between "i need to get hurt" and thoughts about that angel i will not be saying publicly & im just desperately hoping sleep can solve my problems. i would LOVE to draw tenshi & finish coloring rime & also play with cevio but oh. my god theres no way theres just no way
also here. notebook doodles of my favoritest girls. qc says touhikou is her favorite ive done so far im like 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺



#asks#kuki#sorry for whatever this is. as i said im past dead tired & thats The time i actually talk#that or if im nervous i also talk more but in this case im just out of my mind#6 day work week SUCKS why are all the days so LONG. HASHTAG FUCK#were it not for plans later in the year i would probably be like fuck it treat time & get myself another synth i dont need#even tho im still waiting on kafu sv& seeu#rime talk still haunts me. i dont need her. im stronger than her [slowly giving in]#i think at this point i should print out the do it for her rime image and put it in my locker at work#really the mood here.#i would do for tenshi but theres one image of tenshi and while i AM that insane about her i dont need everyone to KNOW#if i print out that tho i also need to print out the leg furby 'they either hate u for being sexy or they hate u for other things'#& put that in my locker & see how long it takes someone to see. i love that image.#wow i do not remmeber i single thing ive typed 👍 i need bed
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Day 2966
no :(
#1/1/16 - 2/13/24#hashtag girl explosion#''i'll put this on a cueue tmrw i promise'' i broke the promise.#tumblr cueue function makes me wanna explode.#if u saw like 5 posts that were all day 2966 no you didnt.#i will genuinely figure it out tmrw. why is this thang so complicated it hates me.
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if barton tried hard enough, he thought, imagining himself being literally anywhere else but the warehouse right then was easy. this place was never meant to be lived in for an extended period of time after all; despite the fact that it had appliances that you might see in an every day home like a fridge.
it put him on edge instead of at ease, and it certainly didn't better barton's mood when he stayed in it either, after all. but so long as he was allowed to dream within it to some degree... it was tolerable. plus, he had company here, courtesy of nico, jack, and barton also supposed jervis counted. nico had complicated feelings towards the doctor, though, and spending time around jack whilst in it thus far gave barton an unfortunate impression; which was that his own son was made nervous by him.
and the irony of it all was, barton only gathered that because he could feel cognitive empathy towards him. something that didn't include feeling but reasoning. therefore, the hopes of him somehow patching that up with jack someday were drastically decreased. barton vaguely listened to jervis respond to what he'd said about him being in the warehouse solely because of them; all of the words but one not quite having any actual impact on him, this being 'nightmares.'
the smell of the yuja tea that jack prepared for jervis, as fragrant in the air that it was, seemed to be the one thing keeping him from being sucked down a unpleasant train of thought. for someone who didn't feel human half the time, barton sure as hell experienced his own fair share of seeing 'ghosts' from the past and mourning the way some things had gone in his life. and regret, as well as sorrow, were practically intertwined in every single 'normal' person's life that he'd known.
speaking of regret, once he'd closed the curtains, something from the small cabinet hanging on the wall next to them fell to the floor. barton picked it up and was immediately reminded of why he kept this photo here instead of at his home. hiding it away helped alleviate the pain of not only loving someone and losing them, but also knowing that at the time it was taken, everything seemed fine.
'my 19th birthday party - spent right, with my handsome fiancé!' was written on the back in marcy's handwriting. barton felt like screaming and smashing something simultaneously. the photo was instead placed in his pant pocket, whilst he dragged his hands down his face and thanked his lucky stars that jervis wasn't exactly expecting any big conversations from him. barton's hand flexed by his side before he was changing his shirt, wondering just what the hell he was supposed to do after seeing that again.
grief was a thing he'd never been able to pend down how to deal with 'appropriately,' unfortunately. from marcy, to the momentary blink of an eye that felt like his bittersweet friendship with yves, to his son julien's death - barton thought he'd be destroyed by all of those losses for the longest time. but he supposed he was still here, god willing, or laughing at him more like if such a being did exist. barton noticed the fabric that was splitting on the blanket and how jervis very much appeared to be in his own world.
it was at that moment that he reached for something in that same cabinet he'd opened to change his shirt, finding that sewing thread and needle he'd stored in there long ago. barton kept it there because the shirt he was wearing had actually torn at some point and he'd fixed it. though, he had no use for it now, so he decided to put it on the edge of edge of the cabinet if jervis wanted it. but he didn't really know what he wanted. that night seemed to be a series of gut punches now as the other touched upon how jack was a good person and barton should be proud of him.
he blinked several times as he felt this sensation like something ugly was swirling within him. jack had always kind of gotten the short-end of the stick, and for what? ❝ ahh. well, sometimes i've found myself practicing behaviors towards him that my father used to use on me... but i try to stop myself when that happens. jack has come a long way, as the first time i met him, he was a scared two year old who was on his own with his brother. but now jack's a young man and very brave, despite maybe still being scared sometimes. ❞ barton cleared his throat then, ❝ that's normal though. so yeah, i am proud of him. ❞
barton turned his attention back to jervis and tilted his head at the other's sluggishness. being vulnerable like that surprisingly didn't feel too nerve-wracking, as he added just a bit more to the equation. barton gave the iv bag jervis was hooked up to a good squeeze, ❝ hmm. are you still in pain, jervis? or are you just tired? ❞ he observed the other silently and looked down at the cards before the both of them. that is, before barton heard jervis approve of him reading his fortune.
he drifted a hand along the cards then. choosing one that felt 'right' came without much difficulty to barton, and when he did, the reversed 'wheel of fortune' card for jervis's past. the next card he chose was the reversed 'six of swords' for jervis's present. barton flipped the last one for his future and was greeted by 'the sun,' which made him let out a soft 'huh' and smile a bit. ❝ well... i hate to start off with the past when you got this card, but i guess we have to. ❞ he was about to start interpreting jervis's fortune when jack came back into the room with the breakfast he promised the other. well, talk about convenient timing.
Jervis merely rolled his eyes at Barton’s remark, fingers biting into the fabric of the blanket as he pulled it around his shoulders like an old shawl. The plush material was a little threadbare at the corner; a tear disrupting the otherwise seamless fabric.
Sea-green and white plaid. Utilitarian, impersonal.
It sufficed perfectly; his thin frame was almost terminally intolerant to the cold. 27 years in Gotham had failed to inoculate him against the frigid rains and bone-chilling air sweeping off the harbor.
“Trust me, I’m well aware where I would be, if it weren’t for you both. I see enough of the place in my nightmares… so I don’t require any reminders.” He flexed his fingers around the teacup, feeling the warmth seep into his hands as he cautiously tipped the liquid into his mouth. It had a strange, but not unpleasant consistency, like warm, thin honey that slid smoothly over his tongue in a tangy blend of sweet and sour. Tiny bits of softened citrus peel floated in the syrupy mixture.
Barton’s IV pole scraped slightly along the concrete floor, a sharp metallic sound that mingled with the sudden rasp of the curtains being jerked shut. The room was clean and sparse, a sterile space designed to be free of clutter, yet a faint, telltale mustiness clung to the air—a lingering scent of damp fabric and stale dust that disinfectant alone couldn’t quite mask. Beyond the makeshift partition, the rest of the warehouse stretched out in vast, dark emptiness. The floor was cold, unpolished concrete, marred with cracks that split like spider webs. Dim, flickering fluorescent lights cast a harsh, uneven glow, barely cutting through the haze of dust that swirled in the air.
But, of course, beggars couldn’t be choosers when it came to hideaways—especially when you’ve learned to take shelter wherever you can find it. Or when you were part of the criminal element.
How far he’d come and how little had truly changed.
Jervis glanced across the room at where his coat, shirt, and gloves rested neatly on the desk, carefully folded with almost surgical precision. He flexed his hands again around the teacup, feeling the phantom prickle of sensation where the wool-lined leather should be—an exposed vulnerability that gnawed at him, made his skin itch with invisible grime.
He sank his teeth into a particularly broad piece of yuja peel, the bitter tang releasing as he bit down; meanwhile, Barton’s voice drifted in one ear, out the other like the static hum on a faulty wireless. He chewed slowly, savoring the rind as he turned his attention back to the small tear in the blanket. Nodded intermittently.
Jervis’ callused, scarred fingers found the frayed edge; the fabric was worn thin and splitting, and he traced it absentmindedly, feeling the uneven fibers beneath his touch. For a moment, his thoughts shifted to the sewing kit buried somewhere in his bag, imagining the small spool of thread and the thin, glinting needles; each one ready to pierce the fabric and pull it back together.
As if stitching this small wound would make any real difference, he thought bitterly; like it could somehow soothe the cold reality pressing in on them from all sides… It was a small, pointless task, a flicker of control in a situation that felt like it was slipping away, unraveling faster than he could sew it back together. He knew it wouldn’t ameliorate anything—wouldn’t solve the problems looming larger than this tiny, frayed corner. And yet, his fingers lingered there, desperate for something tangible to fix; something he could make whole again, if only for a moment.
Jervis gave no reply as Barton moved to change his shirt; blinking hard as he gazed down at the floor, but the darkness behind his eyelids refused to stay empty. Flecks of indigo light bloomed in the black, shifting like dust motes that twisted with each beat of his heart. The room swam as he opened his eyes again, the ceiling blurred and murky like the styrofoam cup Alice stored her wet paintbrushes in. He scratched absently at the IV in his arm, feeling the tug of the thin plastic embedded in his skin but barely registering the discomfort. The bright pinpricks danced at the edges of his vision, trailing like little comets whenever he turned his head.
“You ought to be proud of him, I imagine. Your son… he seems like a good lad.” Jervis’ voice was a wisp of silk, smooth and thin, like it might unravel into nothing if he spoke too loudly. He tilted his head slightly, almost resembling a marionette on a slack string, the hint of a smile touching his lips but never quite reaching his eyes. He ran a finger along the rim of his teacup, the motion delicate and deliberate as he pondered Barton’s final query.
“Hmm… can you?” Gray eyes blinked slowly, the lids heavy and sluggish, further dragged down by fatigue. The question lingered in the air, softly innocuous. He glanced over at the tarot cards Jack left behind on the desk—arranged in a rough, careless spread, but somehow feeling deliberate, as though the cards had fallen exactly where they were meant to. The edges were worn, curling slightly; the images esoteric, half-familiar symbols. Stars, sun, moon, cups and swords, animals and human figures rendered in faded colors.
He paused, gaze narrowing, subtly curious despite the exhaustion that weighed down his expression. For a moment, his hand tightened around his teacup; twitched like he might reach out and touch them, as if by brushing the surface he could glean some hidden answer buried beneath the painted ink.
‘Why, they're only a pack of cards, after all.’
His grip on the blanket slipped momentarily, fumbling at the worn edge before he reached for his collar instead. He dug beneath the charcoal fabric of his T-shirt, searching with a practiced motion until his fingers found the tarnished silver chain again. He drew it out slowly, the weight of it comforting against his skin as he absently ran his thumb over his and Sylvie’s rings, threaded side by side on the links.
The metal was dull, no longer shining with the luster it once had, but it carried a certain softness now, smoothed by years of worry. His eyes dropped for a second before he let the chain slip back beneath his shirt. “By all means, if it tickles your fancy…” Jervis gave a short, rough half-shrug, the motion stunted as though his shoulder couldn’t quite decide whether to follow through.
#divingdownthehole#tw: grief.#tw: mentions of death.#tw: mentions of child death.#tw: negative thoughts.#OOH you used a quote from alice in wonderland in here? that is epic NGL though i don't think i know which one you used ahahhh#and AWW well gosh... you're going to make me blush now <33 but thank you so SO much for saying so + i just want you to know#that i enjoy writing with you a lot myself! but yeahhh i feel as if barton is a lot more quote unquote 'subdued' here than usual#but it kind of makes sense because this man hates being in the warehouse probably just as much as jervis honestly (': and with#everything that went on regarding the picture he found. all i can say to that is GAHHH but you're good!! don't even worry about it#i totally understand as i know i took a bit to reply to this one though that's just 'cause i want to give you the best quality reply#possible + sometimes i don't have much time to sit down and write but i did today tehe!!! but really? oh my gosh thank you VERY much-#for all of your kind words! it really means a lot to me that you not just like the little things i've put into his character but love them#;; like i don't even know what to say besides that makes me feel so happy!! but geezzz you're making me turn bright red like a tomato over#here now and simultaneously going to make me hashtag cry in the club. just the fact that he's fascinating to you is like... everything a#writer like me could dream of y'know? and i return the same feelings ten-fold because jervis is just SO interesting that i feel#like i can't get enough of roleplaying with your version of him (': but JSJSJ well alrighttt i'll try not to worry about the muse versus mu#thing then since you're being so sweet. and i thank you once more for that BUT 😭 THIS IS ME RN because you're also my bestie and-#being called a ray of sunshine is? possibly one of the nicest things anyone has ever said to me?? so i'm giving you a big hug right now-#and letting you know i think you are an incredible human being. but yeahhh there's a UHHH whole terrible story behind that-#unfortunately but i'm just going to boil it down to: yves died and barton sought to essentially make him be a 'part' of him because#he actually has no idea how to healthily move on from... most relationships 🫠 so he decided to do something TOTALLY normal-#and replace one of his arms with yves's (sarcasm) but TBH i have to say i wouldn't even blame you if you weren't joking about that-#because this man is seriously WILDING for that. like barton is absolutely 100 percent not okay no matter what he tries to tell other#muses 💀
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